#i will never shut up about this LOL

[bookalicent]

yeah so this was insane

[inkskinned]

my father told me he read it, but he hasn't read it. that's okay. my friends keep picking the words out of my throat.

someone once told me that the more trigger warnings that go on a book, the better it is. i didn't mean to write something with so many conditional phrases - i was writing about what i felt while being a human. sometimes you are a person and sometimes you are a statistic. sometimes it is falling upwards and sometimes it's sliding back down again.

my father tells me that it will be difficult to get people to read it. i didn't like the idea of a singular genre. i'm not going to lie to you - it is actually a difficult book to get through. i change the rules in it. it's not poetry or prose explicitly. it's neither false nor reality. i give you the tools to "solve" the book, but i let you do the thinking. my father says people don't care to think. i don't know about that - i think we just, like, enjoy reading.

the thing is - i was tired of stories about survival where someone with depression goes to therapy and wakes up okay. i didn't live like that. i was tired of books about violence, where the gore of what i experience was splashed in glitter to lick off the page. like, i was a person, you know? i had a life and a job and a family. and in books, i watched my story get ripped up so people could explore the viscera of my body. so they could feel good. my brother once called it inspiration pornography. we had walked out of a suicide-prevention seminar, both of us disgusted while the increasingly-elated presenter kept listing methods-of. i remember the look on my brother's face. like i would tear that man apart given the right time and place.

my father says that kids these days. he warns me against writing about things that are too-serious. he says that they don't want it. i don't listen. he does make me take out a scene from the book where i go to church after having sex with a woman. it used to be the 7th scene in the book. i don't think he's read further than that, it rocked him too hard to continue.

it's a book about being queer. it's a book about being raised catholic. it doesn't have monsterfucking, i'm sorry. it's just about, like.

at some point you have to choose to stay here. and then you do have to stay here, which takes practice. this is about forming the habit. this is about what happens after you've already started doing the work. because, like. you keep going. you have to. and it's like. very imperfect.

i should make a post on instagram. i should make this announcement less bittersweet. but like -- i'm giving it you, specifically, because i think you know why i had to write it. you and me. this little community.

body's a bad monster. here's the link if you're interested in ordering.

[kuldren]

I’ve read my fair share of fics that involve Stone cutting Robotnik’s hair over the years and I’m dying because each one of them portrays Stone as being delicate and  precise. He takes his time he makes sure he gets the job done well because he cares about Robotnik. And then the sonic trailer comes out and he’s actually the exact opposite he’s a little freak cutting his hair

[wormzandgutz]

there has got to be a beach episode, right?

[searchforahero]

suggestion: if you hear someone say "hey this successful openly bisexual woman is actually a sexual deviant and a rape fetishist" maybe you shouldn't believe them whole-heartedly without checking their sources and doing your own research.

[hyuckieblr]

ISTJ Jacket Behind the Scene — Haechan

[biblically-accurate-dca]

if you met an alternate reality version of yourself that was better than you in every single way would that be fucked up or what lol

[wishchip106]

thinking about Erik during the early days of genosha

i wonder how long he was alone before others started arriving

i’m just imagining him sitting on a beach watching the sunrise as he thinks about Magda, Nina and Charles

one lonesome tent on a big empty island

the only thing pushing him on is hope

i guess Charles really did have an impact on him afterall

what you looking so sad for? thats a good thing 🤨

he’s probably just a tad bit lonely even with all the mutants 💔😔

he got better though 😻

the first house he built was made with Charles in mind

that damn gay man 💔😭

[kevingorg]

the convenience of the nhl's conservatism can't be removed from this whole thing either. one of the things north american conservatism strives to do is equate action with identity, thus creating easily categorized groups that can be sorted into tiers of goodness or importance. for this to work, individual actions MUST equal holistic qualities of a person's identity, and in a similar vein, someone's identity must be reflected in every single one of their actions. if bennett's hit on stolarz is taken in the first vein, and the hit is acknowledged to be a Bad Action, this means that bennett is a Bad Person. but if you flip it, like bennett does in his 'apology' from this morning, bennett argues that he is a Good Person, so the results of his actions are less important than the fact that his action was done with Good Intentions. this obviously creates a really easy scapegoat for all sorts of bad actions taken by the nhl and people employed by it. bennett didn't MEAN for that to happen, so his action wasn't Bad, so he's not a Bad Person. and obviously the category of Good Person is informed by a whole fuckton of other categories, like how differently the league would've reacted to this hit if it were thrown by a player of color or even a russian player. you qualify to be a Good Person based on other inherent qualities which are useful to american conservatism, and being a Good Person means that you don't face the consequences of your actions, because it is impossible for a Good Person to do Bad Things. nuance such as 'bennett isn't necessarily a bad person because the system he exists under encourages this behavior by rewarding dangerous hits and he is simply abiding by preexisting norms created by the nhl itself, but also, those norms are evil and he should, as a person, know that' is dangerous and destabilizing to the pedestal of blamelessness the nhl has managed to build for itself.

[quirinah]

the new animate cafe collab promo art. never kill yourself

[katsmtmsdoodles]

D...Day 3 of drawing Matt's teen facts TvT this got out of hand

S2E3: Link's favorite class was P.E. aka Personal Entertainment which he did whenever Grant had to do taxes, run errands...or whatever else it was that dads did!

[javierduffy]

but when they're out on that river bank alone, what javier should be loyal to doesn't feel as confusing anymore

[twosidedcherrytrees]

Small Collection of TDLOSK doodles ive accumulated over the course of my rewatch (mainly saiki)

Pt.1 one maybe if I decide to post more

[1960z]

how people go about interpreting dr bashir I presume? really frustrates me sometimes ngl especially the “jules bashir died” scene.

like that whole scene is about julian revealing the depth of how deeply his augmentations fractured his sense of identity and who he is - which feeds into the themes of the whole episode surrounding how disability and then by extension disabled people are often viewed as a problem to be solved and because of that are often denied the ability to have fulfilling lives because the able bodied people around them don’t believe that they can.

but… idk, when the fandom talks about it there’s always seems to be a push to read a trans allegory into it that I don’t think is really there? I keep mulling over this post in my mind and when I initially reblogged it I didn’t really want to talk about this because the post is about how stories about racism can be hijacked by white people to be made about their own transness and it felt like as a white person, using that post to complain about ableism would be missing the point. but it really helped me articulate in my mind why the trans reading of this episode feels off to me because the same general principle seems to apply and that is taking a story trying to discuss a specific type of marginalisation and putting a trans reading above it because you can relate more to it personally.

“jules bashir died in that hospital because you couldn't live with the shame of having a son who didn't measure up!” this scene is the culmination of julian expressing his pain about what was done to him as a disabled child by his parents due to how they viewed his disability. but often when I see it being discussed, people aren’t really interested in talking about that. instead supplanting it with a trans reading instead which, in my opinion is an allegory that doesn’t even really work when you think about what’s going on in the broader context of the scene.

julian didn’t stop going by jules because he came to the conclusion on his own that the identity didn’t suit him similar to the way a trans person questions or rejects the gender they were assigned at birth, he stopped going by jules because he felt like the identity attached to that name was taken from him because of what his parents did. it’s not julian affirming who he wants to be it’s grieving over who he can’t be and to me at least, it’s honestly kind of harrowing.

and as an aside: when people read transness into a story about parents who change their child’s body and mind at a very young age without consent, which is literally a narrative projected onto trans people by transphobes to justify the curtailing of trans rights, that also doesn’t sit well with me. I think people latch onto this reading because of the idea of “killing a name” but again in the context of the whole episode the trans reading really doesn’t feel appropriate.

I think it’s okay for people to have trans headcanons about julian of course or literally any character they want to really, but I think saying that specific episode codes him as trans isn’t all that great honestly.

[parttimetimetravellermaybe]

I saw some people saying that the red flags in Conrad were obvious because of him taking a picture of her and posting it in the Internet to find her. Which like yeah it is a red flag but also that's the type of thing that is usually romantized in media. That just sounds like something that would happen in a silly romcom. Something that will be excused by a "they were meant to be, meant to find each other, how romantic" type of bullshit. This is why a lot of people watching ignored this red flag or dismissed it under the false premise that it was romance. Even in-world I think this type of romantization in the media of actually kinda creepy behaviour is also why Ruby - and her family - don't perceive it as a red flag, for a lot of people this type of thing has been normalised under the myth of "they were destined to meet" or the "it was love at first sight" myth and it's made out to be cute.

[silverbriseis]

Why am I seeing top/bottom discourse on tomarrymort in the good old year of 2025, yall have to stop engaging in this and go write/draw about the respective characters being stuffed which is more productive!!!!