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anervousmirrorball · 7 days

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im so so disappointed in myself :( i just want to run away from myself. im so pathetic

#i will never ever be enough.#i want to be able to have a stronger comeback than settling for something minor that I can't even handle something small and i hate it #I hate myself what the actual fucking am I doing.....why the fuck am I stupid and pathetic #why can't I just do something.#for once why the fuck do i not know what the fuck to do like am I fucking blind ????#just pick something for fucks sake oh my fucking god. i will never be enough. It is given.#Since I didn't get into med school I will never ever be fucking enough. No matter if I join a hospital as an administrator or researchers o #a genetic counselor #I will never be fucking enough. I will never be enough. This is it. I will never be enough. Not worth something. Not worth existing.#My existence is pointless. And I am not good at art and I will never be good at the one thing I like because I am so so so stupid.#I am pathetic. I am so horrible. Just never good enough. I will never be enough. No career is right for me. Because the problem is not the #Career the problem is me. i am stupid . I am not talented enough for any career. Not smart enough to pass interviews. Not good enough.#I will never be perfect i don't want to settle for less but I cannot for the life of me just go take a loan and go in debt for a course #To make up for the skipped classes in my bachelor's. I skipped classes like a stupid coward. Such a shame. I cannot decide. I am so stupid.#And so fucking pathetic and a disappointment and im just wasting my life #Im so so so stupid. I hate me. I hate myself so much. I need to turn off emotions and just fucking choose something and work like a robot #Even if it kills me. Work work work. There is not time to feel sad or bad about life. No time to regret. There is no better. I will never #Be better I will always be not good enough for anything. and i just have to fake it. Fake it all. Actually like nothing matters and jus #Push myself to the breaking point.

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blueskittlesart · 7 months

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i hope everyone in nintendo’s management department dies and goes to hell no matter what and i’m not kidding

#WERE LOSING YUZU AND CITRA. I DONT KNOW IF YOU ALL UNDERSTAND HOW INSANE THIS IS #game emulation enables piracy yes but it’s also an INCREDIBLY powerful archival tool.#there are plenty of games out there that only exist in their original formats due to emulation.#this lawsuit has HORRIBLE implications for video game history. it makes it incredibly easy for companies to scorched earth their products #if they’re not profitable enough. ART IS GOING TO BE LOST BECAUSE OF THIS. GAMES PEOPLE WORKED INCREDIBLY HARD ON #it won’t just happen to bad games. it won’t just happen to old games. they will use this to keep their remake/virtual console model going #forever and you will never be able to play your favorite games in their true original forms ever again.#i am fucking INSANELY mad rn. capitalism is the death of art fr #personal

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magnusbae · 1 year

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To illustrate this post by @mayahawkse I would like to visualize to you the difference:

A post in 2023:

A post in 2014:

A zoom out of the same post:

This is what a community looks like.

See how in 2023 almost all of the reblogs come from the OP, from their few hours/days in the tag search. Meanwhile in 2014 the % of reblogs from OP is insignificant, because most of the reblogs come from the reblogs within the fandom, within the micro-communities formed there. You didn't need to rely on tags, or search, or being featured. Because the community took care of you, made sure to pass the work between themselves and onto their blog and exposed their followers to it. It kept works alive for years.

It's not JUST the reblog/like ratio that causing this issue, it's the type of interaction people have. They're content with scrolling and liking the search engine, instead of actually having a reblogging relationship with other blogs in their community.

Anyways, if you want to see more content you like, the only true way to make it happen is to reblog it. Likes do not forward content in no way but making OP feel nice. Reblogs on the other hand make content eternal. They make it relevant, they make it exist outside of a fickle tumblr search that hardly works on the best of days.

If you want more of something, reblog it.

#i said i wont ever rant about this bc it's unseemly but HONESTLY.#you simply cannot complain about not having enough of A or B or C and then never reblog / interact with the content you love.#If you LOVE something you cannot just leave a like and silently wait for more to happen #I know countless of content creators that simply stopped doing art/writing fic/making edits #You need to understand that fandom content is made FOR the fandom FOR the engagement FOR the entertainment and fun it makes.#If a content creator does not have fun IN the fandom-- why would they spend the scares free time they have on making this content?#And we're not talking about things that you don't like-- no one expects you to reblog things you don't like.#However I think it's safe to say that when a post has more than 5k it's not some random shitpost with no value.#tumblr issues #tumblr #content creators #buns.txt #something something please don't starve your local clowns

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sandflakedraws · 11 days

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re : how each brother reacts learning that they can't go back

you'll have to pry the "all the Brozone Bros knew what happened at the tree" headcanon outta my cold, dead dead dead hands.

#sandflakedrew #trolls clay #trolls john dory #trolls floyd #trolls bruce #on today's docket : brozone angst #added in order of who i think found out first to last #listen #listen listen listen #they Knew!!!#JD for obvious reasons #Clay from Viva #Bruce isn't taken aback hearing Viva's story either. He's heard before #the combo of Floyd's 'never thought i'd see any of my brothers ever again' & 'is it really you?' hits a similar note for me #They! Knew!#clears throat. anyways #me to me : okay but wouldn't it be a little bit /more/ fucked up if JD didn't /let/ himself be fully gray? wouldn't that be worse?#the idea of someone forcefully sucking that shit back in?#terrible.#awful.#perfect for JD #perfect perfect perfect one might even say #same kinda deal with bruce.#what if you heard the news and felt compelled to try and live for more people than yourself. in order for your current peace to be fair #what then #i have more thoughts but this is enough tags as is

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lotus-pear · 8 months

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these losers again

#sorry for literally drawing never ever. apology skk for u guys #ALSO WAIT WAIT nobody talks abt this but #we need to enforce the fact that dazai has these large soft gorgeous brown doe eyes and chuuya has the vulpine sharp sullen dark cat eyes #skk both have brown eyes guys. not enough ppl know this💔#anyway enough abt that before i go on an entire tangent abt how bones fucking RUINED everyones character designs #bungou stray dogs #bungo stray dogs #bsd #chuuya nakahara #nakahara chuuya #dazai osamu #osamu dazai #skk #soukoku #lotus draws

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chiquilines · 2 months

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In honour of mha ending, have some old (and i mean OLD) miryumi scribbles i never got around to posting. They were the main characters in my heart

#these are like a year and a half old #ive been in the rarepair game for longer than some kids have been alive #it aint much but its honest work #i genuinely would be unable to explain the chokehold miryumi has on me after all this time #have they ever canonically interacted? no #(that i know of lol i havent caught up on the manga in over a year)#do they have anything directly in common? no #is there any reason i would ever have shipped them if i hadnt seen a habkart valentines post they never came back to? also no #did they proceed to occupy a permanent place in my frontal lobe forever? but of course #they really are THEE ship to me #peak comfort ship #i love that horikoshi developed them just enough for me to have solid base material for their personalities #but also gave them the woman in shonen treatment just enough that i can say anything i want about them and canon doesnt contradict it #anyways!! them again #fuyumi todoroki #rumi usagiyama #mirko #mha #bnha #my hero academia #boku no hero academia #wlw #chiquilines draws

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splankie · 5 months

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is blowing up a volcano after ur first kiss couple goals

#AAAAA I AM SO PROUD OF THIS #for reference i NEVER draw backgrounds #i just whipped this straight outta my ass #and it was SUPER FUN #also i colour theoried the hell out of this one #and i did it all fast and loose so it was not stressful i just had a great time #thats just the power of percabeth i think #anyway ive been thinking abt them a lot #especially annabeth....#to this day i really cant think of any other characters that are booksmart with 2 canon learning disabilities #that really meant the world to me when i was first reading this series!!!#also shes just the bestest ever #one of my main gripes with the show was just that i felt annabeth lost a lot of that dimensionality #leah sava jeffries girl u ate that up but im sorry they didnt give u enough to eat #idk maybe thats just me bc i have such an attachment to annabeth #shes really cool guys #percy jackson #annabeth chase #percabeth #pjo #pjo fanart #percabeth fanart #art by cricket

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thedreadvampy · 2 years

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Losing my shit about this article in which a transphobic Tory was so busy panicking about existing in the vicinity of a Trans that she almost certainly misheard "jeans" as "penis" and decided that not only was this a problem with the other woman, but also that the world must be informed of this pressing danger.

"a trans woman! I had to stand directly behind her....I thought, 'this is going well', I'm handling The Situation fine'..."

translated: I saw a tall woman with broad shoulders. How would I get out of this alive? I thought. she has a PENIS. PENIS PENIS PENIS. through some force of PENIS I mean will I managed to PENIS behave normally towards her. My hands were PENIS PENIS PENIS shaking as I tried to dry them. summoning up all my PENIS courage I said 'dryer's crap innit'. she turned to me and said " yeah I'm just goiPENIS PENIS PENIS"

It's been a week and I'm still shaking. This proves trans women are the problem and I'm not weird. I'm fine. It's fine. If you think about it I'm the hero hePENIS!!!!!

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