#i went from having 2 close (albeit now long distance) friends whom i loved (and continue to) cherish

[evermorecountsastherapy]

I love having friends. I love people. I was alone for so long. and now. I have friends. I love them all. they love me too. eeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee heart so full eeeeeeee

[hiiraism4]

Gavin’s prompt : Wedding Night [Fluff]

MLQC

Pairing : GavinxMC, gavinxyou

Fluff, i assure you it’s fluff

On your wedding night with Gavin, he told you “You being you is enough for me. Thank you for always trying your best. Thank you for being here.”

Stepping in from the opened door and white carpet decorated by blue daffodil in front of you, you walked slowly as your white wedding gown swept the floor. Holding your uncle’s hand beside you, you walked down the aisle, seeing people you know were standing from their seat, watching you in awe as you stepped forward.

But none of their awe stare compared to one particular man who were waiting for you at the end of the aisle. The man whom loved you for years, your ups and downs. The man who patiently waited for you and never forced any of his feelings to you. The one you could always count on despite his cold demeanor at first. One who would protect you from danger, comforted you when you needed one.

Once you reached the altar, you let go of your uncle’s hand. He patted your back, giving his proud smile at you. You smiled back at him and watched him went away, leaving both you and your groom. The man who you will take his last name stared at you, smile never faltered from his face.

The officiant, holding the paper in his hand, looking at both of you. The middle aged man smiled. The man who in a minute to be your husband nodded to the officiant. The smile disappeared from his face, changed to a serious one, nervous even.

“I, Gavin Bai, take you (Y/N), to be my lawfully wedded wife. I take you with all your faults and all my strengths as i offer you with all my faults and all my strengths. I promise to honor and care for you, to cherish and encourage your own fulfillment as an individual through all the changes in our lifes. I choose you as the person whom i will spend my entire life.” Gavin said.

He exhaled, relieved that he managed to say the sentence in one go. Gavin was never a really man of words, you know that too well. You smiled at him, saying your own vow.

“I, (Y/N), take you Gavin Bai, to be my lawfully wedded husband. I take you with all your faults and all my strengths as i offer you with all my faults and all my strengths. I promise to honor and care for you, to cherish and encourage your own fulfillment as an individual through all the changes in our lifes. I choose you as the person whom i will spend my entire life.”

Gavin held both of your hand in his. Both of you were smiling.

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You stared in front of your vanity mirror. You were staring there blankly with your robe and wet hair, didn’t mind to dry it properly. Gavin was just finished with his shower and walking out of the shower already wearing his shirt and boxer, drying his hair with towel. Gavin snaked his arms on your waist from behind, trapping you to his chest.

“What’s wrong?” Gavin asked.

You stared at Gavin’s eye from the vanity mirror, you shook your head lightly, smiling at the man who just became your husband several hours ago. “No, it’s nothing.” you said.

Gavin hummed, taking your hand in his and lead you to bed. Both of you sat on the bed and Gavin caressed your head lightly as you could feel air blowing around your hair, drying your still wet hair with his evol.

“You’ll get sick if you don’t dry your hair properly.” Gavin said. You giggled as the wind blowed your hair, sometimes the air blowing your cheek softly, tickling you.

After drying your hair, both of you snuggled on the bed, covered in blanket. Today was a long day for both of you. The wedding plan took a bit longer than you thought it would. The fact that your an orphan whom only have your relative to walked you down on the aisle and Gavin who didn’t even want to invite his family to come made the preparation took longer than it should, especially from your family. You understood Gavin’s reasons, but it was a hard time to convince your side of family.

You were also still busy with work since Victor still wanted some reports to be done before your marriage. You know Victor was being kind--in his own way. He let you have honeymoon vacation for 2 weeks, but the condition was you needed to finish some projects and reports. And you, being someone who wouldn’t say no to such rare opportunity, decided to took the challenge. Leaving Anna to take care of the planning for your wedding. And surprisingly, Anna did good job on helping and handling all the preparations, also with Victor’s tips and reccomendations. The CEO of LFG did come to your wedding ceremony for a short while, even if he received Gavin’s glare all the time. He did leave early cause he still had work to but managed to congratulate both of you (still Gavin only wear his strained smile at him).

Kiro also came, in disguise. You and Gavin caught him in the corner, smiling while waving his hand. He gave his blessings and congratulate both of you and left in a hurry before someone noticed he was there. Gavin wasn’t really pleased but he didn’t say anything, he nodded his head and gave Kiro his gratitude, which the latter accepted with a grin on his face.

You were lost in your own thoughts as you think about how you should live your life from now on. You weren’t exactly a confident person in the first place. Knowing Gavin, the man whom you secretly had crush after meeting him again after years since high school had the same feeling for you even when you were still school made your heart swell. You were also worried about his job. How dangerous his missions, how demanding it was, how long he could be away from you once he was in missions.

“You’re lost in thoughts again.” Gavin said.

You turned to see Gavin beside you. He wasn’t exactly annoyed but he bopped the tip of your nose with his forefinger. You smiled at his gesture and scooted closer to his chest. Gavin held you close as you listened to his heartbeat.

Having Gavin as your husband was like a dream. The man might look like unapproachable, but he really was handsome. He had several girl collagues fawning over him, despite him being professional around them and didn’t care much. Gavin might be a lone wolf, but he had charms and no one could deny that.

“Are you okay?” Gavin asked. “You’ve been quiet.”

You shook your head, again. Gavin pulled you even closer to him, his hand held your hand close to his chest. Being in Gavin’s hug always calms you down, it was warm. But at the same time, suffocating. You were happy, happy beyond words being with him. But at the same time scared. Scared that you weren’t good enough for him.

“You know, you’re good enough as you are.” Gavin began. “You’re not sure of yourself, aren’t you?” he asked.

You gulped, feeling the tears pooled on your eyes.

“You might never know how lucky i was when i met you again. How happy i was when you let me become your friend cause you were scared of me back in high school. I was like...flying to heaven when you said yes to my confession back then.” Gavin rubbed your back.

“I know, our relationship is still opposed by most of your big family due to my upbringing. I know you tried so hard to convinced them, until some of them accepted me. I know you also worked hard so you could get holiday and leave less stuff to handle for your team and Minor. I know you’re always worried when i’m on mission.” Gavin used his evol to blow soft wind around you trying to calm you down as he felt you stiffen in his hug.

“You being you is enough for me. Thank you for choosing me. Thank you for still keep on doing things you believed in, keep on being strong, the cheerful girl i always remember from high school.” Gavin cupped your face, turning your head upward to meet his eyes. You tried so hard to blink the tears away, but you were so powerless in his hand. Gavin’s soft expression, the side he let only for you to see, the way his lips curled into a soft smile.

“You’ve been doing good. You’ve been fighting hard on your own, handling your father’s company. You also tried so hard for our relationship. You’re so good to me, i couldn’t ask for more. You’re the best thing that ever come to my life. You’re the best and i won’t ask anything out of you except for you to be safe, healthy and happy, hoping that me being with you makes you feel all of that.” Gavin said, caressing your cheek.

You couldn’t hold your tears as Gavin poured all of his heart to you. On your first night as a husband and wife. As your tears rolled down from your eyes, Gavin kissed the tears.

“Thank you for being alive. Thank you for still holding on.” Gavin kissed your eyes.

“I love you, with all of me, i love you.” Gavin whispered softly.

Your last defense broke. Tears keep on coming out of your eyes, turned into sobs. Gavin held you close in his arms, caressing your hair softly. You held his back, clutching your fingers at his shirt, clinging to him as if he would vanish if you let go.

“You’re not alone. I’m here with you. I won’t leave you alone. We’ll do this together, okay?” Gavin said. You nodded on his chest.

Gavin kissed the top of your head.

“It’s okay to cry, let it all out. I’m not going anywhere. Life has been so hard on you, hasn’t it?” he soothed you. You nodded again.

“You too, Gavin.” you said between your sobs. Gavin went silent, he let you finish. “You’re not alone. Share the burden to me too. All of your happiness, your sadness, everything. I want to know more side of you, want to share the smile and tears with you.” you said, albeit taking it long cause you were still crying.

“I love you too, with all of me.” you said, raising your head to meet his eyes. He looked sad, but smiling nonetheless. Gavin caressed your cheek and pulled your face closer. He closed the distance, sealing your lips on his. You angled your head, deepening the kiss while your eyes still letting out stream of tears.

The kiss was soft.

He pulled away from you, placing his forehead on yours. He stayed there for a while, closing his eyes and he pulled you to his hug and rubbed your back in circles trying to soothe you. It didn’t take long before you began to feel sleepy and fell asleep while still crying to his chest.

You felt lucky to have him.

He felt lucky to have you.

[capricornus-rex]

Refuge in Sorgan

Cal Kestis x Reader

Him loving to hear you talk. He could listen to your voice for hours. [source]

Summary: Still on the run after bumping into some of Greez’s old friends, you charted a course to a remote planet in order to seek refuge and replenish some supplies.

Notes: This kinda ended up looking like a trilogy but I think it still checks out. It still feels all so surreal when you comment on my stuff UwU

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Unfortunately, the crew now doesn’t have the luxury of staying long in Mid Rim worlds or planets in the Core Worlds, otherwise your presence along may have alerted the bounty hunters or anyone who could just tie you down and bring you to Mux Odra or Sorc Tormo. What the Mantis needs is someplace to hide until it blows over. But everyone knows a bounty isn’t over until it’s delivered.

Greez rambled on about finding a planet that miraculously has everything: little to no civilization and technology, and a spot to replenish supplies—both for the ship and for food. Luckily, you know just the place. You went to the holotable, speedily typed the coordinates on the control pad until a projection of a planet appeared. Everyone heard you fiddling with the holotable, Cal joined you and saw the projection.

“What’s this?”

“Sorgan,”

“I’ve never heard of it,”

“That’s because not many have,”

Cere overheard this and commented, “Then it’s perfect.”

You transferred the coordinates to the cockpit, Greez saw it on the dashboard screen and examined the Sorgan’s specifications.

“Sorgan? I think I’ve heard of this place, nothing special—it’s just a forest planet—never been there though.”

“Well then, it’s gonna be your first time,” you blurted.

Cal and the captain started prepping the Mantis for the jump to hyperspace to close the 4-system gap between your current location and your destination. Greez easily pushed the buttons with his two right arms and then cranked the lever on top to start the hyperjump. You sat down on the seat opposite Cere and watched the ship be encased in a blue tunnel of light.

“How did you come to know of this planet, [y/n]?” Cere asked, striking a conversation.

“It was during a detour we had back in the Clone Wars, our ship needed repairs and it was the nearest planet we could land in. That was six years ago,”

“Good thing you still remember its coordinates,” Cal added.

“I’m surprised I did!” you beamed.

The conversation about Sorgan continued, Merrin joined in and her curiosity about the planet spurred the chat forward and passed the time. You describe it as a combination of Bogano and Endor—for its wide open plains and the lush forests respectively. You remembered that your late master even became fast friends with the village leader there.

“So there is a civilization there?” the inquisitive Merrin asked.

“Yes, a village and a marketplace—both are small compared to the ones we’ve been to so far,”

You added that Greez shouldn’t expect to find a high-class supplies shop like in Tatooine or Coruscant. The locals there lived a rustic yet peaceful life. You’re more confident in finding supplies for rations and food more than supplies for the Mantis.

“We’ve finished most of our repairs back in Takodana—much thanks to Maz! Jeez, my owing to that lady doesn’t seem to stop. The list just keeps getting longer and longer,” Greez grumbled.

“How many times have you been to Sorgan, [y/n]?” Cal asked.

You quickly answered, “If you count this one—two.”

You then confessed that you secretly recorded it in a compact datapad that you have kept all these years. It was a habit of yours to record the coordinates of planets that you think you will have to go to in the future—and you just used one of them. Cal became intrigued with this newly-heard habit of yours, you tell him it was something you kept to yourself all this time.

“At one point, I stayed up all night in the Archives finding planets until Madame Jocasta told me to go to bed for the seventh time!” You reminisce, hearing Madame Jocasta’s voice in the back of your head.

“Now I think you were the reason why I heard rumors about the Archives getting a curfew!” Cal joked back.

The both of you shared a laugh, rooted from the innocent memories you have formed in the Jedi Temple—the memories that were the last of what you have about your life in the Jedi Temple until you could finally rebuild the Order.

“Okay, buckle up, we’re about to land,” Greez announced.

The ship has begun to enter the atmosphere, Cere was quite surprised that she could not pick up a single interference on the communications—whether Imperial or not. You pointed to a swamp with enough coverage from the trees for the ship to land. The Mantis sets its landing gears gently on the soil and the entry ramp hissed open. You were greeted by the woods, something about it made you feel safe.

“So, where’s the town?”

“Not much of a town, really, but I know the way to the village,”

At first, Greez was skeptical in leaving the ship behind, peppering his reluctance with the fact that he had a massive loan just to purchase the ship. There were two ways to go with this: the first being having everyone walk to the village, the second option would be leaving someone behind with the ship while the others go with. Apparently, the options were being compromised with Greez’s intense skepticism with the place—albeit having no present danger.

Cere and Merrin volunteered to stay with the ship and Greez.

“I’ll just get to you both when something comes up,” Merrin added. “Which I think is unlikely to happen.”

In the end, it’s only the three of you: yourself, Cal, and BD-1. It’s no problem for the three of you, navigating through the forest is next to nothing after your adventure in Kashyyyk. Cal followed your lead, the rough estimate would be a mile and a half that would take at least an hour or so by foot. Luckily, BD-1 was there to help with the navigation, making it easier and cut travel time.

“What would we do without you, little bud?” You praised.

“Boo-woop!” BD-1 happily trilled.

Along the way, you found a pair of men in an idling canoe at the end of the stream. One man looked like he was nearly Cere’s age, the other one was young—a teenage boy probably of fourteen years. Emerging from the woods, their alertness spiked—especially the younger one. Nothing in the serenity of the forest masked his soft but rapid, anxious breathing; he reached for his rifle but you had your hands raised up to your chest whilst you slowly approached them.

“We’re not going to hurt you,” you calmly said. “Are you from the village?”

“How’d you know about the village?!” the boy shakily asked, you sensed and understood his anxiety.

“I know your leader: Rodik. Is he still there?”

“Are you spies? Are you here to raid us?!” he snarled. Tensing up with his handling of his rifle.

Another answer leads to another question. You explained that you’re a Jedi, that you’ve traveled here years ago, at the mention of the leader’s name as well as your late master’s, the second man lowered his companion’s rifle. Now you answer to the older man.

“You can come with us,” his deep voice was firm and intimidating yet friendly. “Hop on.”

The boy’s facial expression showed his protest. Silently implying to his older companion that you and Cal are not to be trusted because you were strangers. Your knowledge of their village and their leader’s name was enough proof for the man that you meant no harm. You figured these two might be related in some way.

You and Cal sat on the starboard side of the boat, while the man steered the rotor with a lever at the back. The canoe floated slowly about the narrow stream. You looked up and saw that the canopy was dense enough to deny the sunlight to pass through, although your surroundings were good cover—thanks to the dimness between the woods and the chittering animals in the distance. Without even looking, you could feel the boy staring at you. You glanced at Cal, your eyes met and spoke to each other—both of you were thinking about that cynic of a boy.

Cal simply sighed, his eyelids drooped and gave your hand a calm squeeze. Neither of you could sense any danger from the adult man—whom you assumed to be the boy’s father—so for now, you are safe.