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liyawritesss · 6 months ago

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-> synopsis: gekko's first holiday from being a Valorant Agent has come!upon debriefing with the others, it's accidentally revealed that his favorite hairdresser may be something more...

-> a/n: it is unhealthy how rampant this boy has been on my mind. like, genuinely, he's such a beautiful person and so so sweet, someone help me find where I can buy one !! also i know this isn't really in demand or wtv, but mateo is still my husband and I'll write for him until I physically can't anymore.

-> pairing: mateo armendariz de la fuente // gekko + black!gn!reader

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-> contains: pure fluff, like one or two curse words, 2nd person ('you', 'your', 'yours')

-> tags: @badass-dora-milaje @uranometrias @lees-chaotic-brain @jacuzziwaters

• Whenever a holiday is granted in the Protocol, not one person dares to pass it up. It's very rare that they team gets the opportunity to return home and enjoy themselves as human beings. Phoenix heads back to his flat in London for the time being, Raze takes Killjoy to her home in Brazil, Jett and Yoru take a trip to Japan for some well deserved restaurant hopping. While Gekko may not be buddying up with anyone on his holiday home, the agents all know that he's got a particular someone he's going home to.

• Gekko often mentions the hairdresser that does his hair whenever he's back home. He started mentioning them so often, and with so much vigor, admiration and excitement, it didn't take long for some agents catch on that this wasnt just a simple hairdresser (namely Yoru, who could read people like a book, and Sage, who was the first to verbally note the way his eyes lit up when looking on his phone for a text with the person in question, which was often brushed off by the you get as a simple exchange of inspo ideas for his next hairdye job).

• So, safe to say that second he gets the OK, Gekko is speedballing his way back to Cali to see you and catch up on the months apart. He does tell you about his newfound occupation, although he keeps it vague for privacy and protection reasons - despite him not supposed to tell anyone about it in general. He just can't lie to you. You've been with him from the start of this journey after all, and it wouldn't feel right to him to not share this double life he now has with you.

• He lets you know when he touches down, but prepares a bit of a surprise for you for when he pops up on you. Alongside a bag of the necessary gair dying products he's also got a basket of snacks and other little knick knacks he knows you like. It acts as an apology for both being away for so long and that he hasn't kept up with his hair maintenance. He just likes it better when you do it!

• Definitely falls asleep the second your hands get in his head. You could just be raking through the buzzcut or washing him or blow drying him, he knocks out like a light from your touch. You definitely have to wake him up a couple of times throughout the session, because he can and will sleep until the end of it when he doesn't feel your hands anymore.

• Gekko usually let's you do anything you want to do in his head unless he has a specific color request he's been dying to try out. Which leads to a lot of fun designs - including red hearts, varying colored flowers, stars, a variety of prints, and more. He's always amazed at the creativity you have when it comes to trying new things in his hair and he's always down for whatever. He wears them proudly and takes so many pictures of his new dye any chance it seems photogenic.

• Speaking of pictures, Gekko is the type to like those "private but not secret" pictures - he thinks the aesthetic of it is cute and often wants to take them with you. His favorite pose is with a close up on the back of his head with your hands combing through his short hair. Not only does it feel good, but it assures that possessive itch in his brain that whispers "this is mine, but you'll never know c;". Wingman or Dizzy may photobomb a couple of them in good fun - all of Gekko's lil' homies love to see you two happy together!

• Departing back to base is always hard on the both of you. Though you know that ultimately he's safe and with people who will protect him, the miles between you two makes the longing more difficult and seeing him off never gets any easier. He tries to reassure you despite he himself hating having to leave you, giving you promises of a longer visit next time and more stories about his wildest adventures.

• It's usual for the agents - especially the younger ones - to debrief about their holidays when they all return to base. Wild stories and loud laughter echoes throught the common hall as everyone recounts the good times they had. When it's Gekko's turn, he's all too eager to show the pictures of the different styles he's gotten in his time away. Neon's got heart-eyes at all the crazy and intricate designs and Phoenix is trying to bribe the poor boy to give him the number to his stylist, and in the midst of it all, Gekko accidentally swipes too far and what the rest of the agents see makes them go absolutely ballistic.

• Gekko, the cool, suave young agent who can sling a gun with more swagger than an action movie actor, always hyping up his friends and encouraging team work all while being so effortlessly carefree and a total vibe, has a partner! And of course, it shouldn't be that shocking - he's the whole package and the freebies that come with! - but to have it confirmed by the man himself, even if it was on accident, has the other agents on another plane of excitement and intrigue.

• He's bombarded with questions - who are you? Are you the mysterious hairdresser they've heard so much about? How'd you meet? How long have you been together? The list goes on and on and he's just standing there like "shit, how do I get out of this?" He's so flustered at the prospect of talking about you to his friends he can't even get a word out. The commotion brings in the older agents because they're like 'why is it so loud and of course the person to speak loud as hell is Phoenix as he says "My man Gekko's got a secrer little girlfriend back home!" (It's definitely not a secret anymore Phoenix-)

• So safe to say that when he calls you that night, he's got a lot to tell you about how his fellow agents found out about his life outside of the Protocol, and how a bunch of them now want to meet the pretty lady that does the fancy designs on his hair <3

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v1x3n · 1 year ago

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𐭩ྀི₊ ⊹ - DRUNKEN NIGHT OUT

kyle 'gaz' garrick ⸝⸝ navigation ୨୧ tags : suggestive

୨୧ 𝘴𝘺𝘯𝘰𝘱𝘴𝘪𝘴 : you and the 141 go out for drinks, the night escalates and you get dared to tell your crush you like them.

You and the 141 find yourselves in a dimly lit bar, seeking solace in the company of alcohol. The air is heavy with the scent of whiskey and the low hum of conversation. As you settle onto the barstools, you all order your drinks, eager to drown your sorrows for the night. After a harsh and brutal mission, all you needed was a good chat with some really pissed friends. The night takes unexpected twists and turns, fueled by liquid courage and the desire for spontaneity. Dancing on tables, singing along to the jukebox, and then truth or dare. Funsies. These pricks would ask the most straight up embarrassing shit ever.

"Siren!! Truth or dare" soap shouts out - drunk as fuck as his words wobble from his lips, sluring his speech while everyone looks at you for your reply. Siren was your callsign. Everyone had found this fitting since a few weeks from when you joined. Price had come up with it after you had gotten your way and got the info you needed from a hostage by flirting with them. Siren wouldnt be a more fitting name- well other than massive fucking slag, but that wasnt a very appropriate nickname.

Answering with truth, they groan. He was clearly drunk, and his words revealed his true inner mischievousness. He giggles and sits there sipping his drink for a bit.With each sip, he becomes more animated, his eyes shining with mischief. " how many people have you kissed?" ofc it was gonna be questions like this.Soap's question hung in the air, the mischievousness in his voice evident. As he took a sip of his drink, his laughter filled the room, setting up a playful atmosphere. With each passing moment, his excitement grew, his eyes gleaming with curiosity. "50? i don't count" you laugh awkwardly, soap giggles with a cocky smile plastered onto him - not sure if it was because of how drunk he was or because he was just an overweening cunt. It's your turn now, sipping onto your drink, looking around at the group, trying to see who you should ask, gaz takes your eyes. him knowing you had picked him, he leans back and groans softly, ready for all the shitty questions you would ask him. No way he would pick you, especially if you're the one asking. As much as the others are pricks and dickheads, you would probably ask the worst questions. It was almost like you would get off to the embarrassment of men. It was a drug: addictive and fun overall. "Truth or dare gaz."

"Truth" guessing he would pick that, you already had the truth bottled up. "How old were you when you lost your virginity?" you fired the question so quick and unexpected, he choked a little on his drink. The group started laughing at your unforeseen question - Gaz went quite red from the drinks. His cheeks go a crimson red colour as he stretches his neck, still leaning back. nudging himself and sitting up straight he finally answers, "18." the crowd urges into 'oohs' and giggles.

More and more rounds fill with even more embarrassing questions stuff like: who's your most recent hookup, would you fuck anyone here,Have you ever had sexual fantasies about someone in this room,What's your biggest sexual fantasy. And so on. Hardly anyone had picked a dare so you had decided you would- yk just to get the game more interesting.

Soon it's just you, ghost and soap. Price and Gaz had left to go outside for a bit.

Taking your hundredth shot, shaking yourself with the thrill after you answer ghosts question, "dare!!" soap looks in your direction and chuckles to himself. Soap's chuckle was a combination of amusement and pain out of drunkenness. "I dare you to call your crush and tell em you like em." Ghost comes out with, slightly slurring his words. Ghost doesn't seem as drunk as the rest of the group - he was definitely one of the more restrained people in the 141. calling your crush? Just great, you and him hadn't talked much and what was even worse? He was here now. Glaring a shot at soap - who is creasing - while picking up your phone. You take a deep breath, preparing yourself for what might come next. The room is filled with anticipation as you dial your crush's number. The sound of the ringing echoes in your ears, and you can feel the eyes of your friends burning into yours. As the call goes through, you can't help but wonder if you're making a huge mistake.

"Y/N?"

"Uhm" Fuck you couldn't find the words to go through with the dare. You shot a look over at the other two - They are fucking killing themselves with laughter.getting over the fear and finally coming out with it "I like you." trembling through your words and picking the nearest shot. Throwing the juice into your mouth, flinching and cringing at the strong liquid. Your eyes awaken as you hear Gaz's voice swell through his side of the phone to your speakers, a soft sigh breathing through the mic - the long-lasting stillness in the ear lingers for far too long. As soon as he speaks you hang up as if it was a reflex - looking at the group, mainly at ghost. Giving him a look as if to say 'thanks'. Soap nudges you and giggles ,"He textin' ya, Bonnie?" you grab and check your phone: one text. 'Is this apart of the game?'

"Fuck, what should I say?" you grumble as you stare at your phone screen, contemplating your next move. The weight of the moment hangs heavily in the air, and you can't help but feel a mixture of excitement and anxiety coursing through your veins. Taking a deep breath, you gather your thoughts and decide to craft a thoughtful response. "just tell him you loovveee himm" soap teases twirling his hair in an attempt to mock you - ghost chuckles lowly as a piercing glare is delivered at soap's person. You roll your eyes and shoot him a disapproving look before turning back to your phone. Taking a deep breath, you type out your reply: 'kind of.' And hit send. Waiting anxiously for his response, wondering what his reaction will be. Grabbing another shot and chugging it down- feeling the burn through your veins while cringing. The other two just chat while your misery and embarrassment increase - its all ghosts fault. ' I hate him ' you think while firing hacky looks at him.

Putting your phone back into your bag - trying to forget that anything had happened - you decide to back away from soap and ghost. Stumbling along to the bar, sitting on one of the stools and stuffing your short, tight dress down your thighs.

Although it was true you liked gaz , much more than friends, you thought you'd try to get it on with someone tonight. Looking around at the diverse crowds - trying to pick out a fit lad. Literally no one. Ugh, why's everyone kinda clapped tho? Ordering another drink, you thought you'd have some kind of tequila, passing money along to the bartender as they stir up your drink. When abruptly a familiar voice peeks next to you. "that stuffs shite." a man with a familiar mask, voice, aura and dislikes pops up as you turn your head - ghost. "way i like it." your accent throwing up through your slurs, he laughs softly: kinda muffled through the balaclava. Sitting in comfortable silence as you slowly taste your beverage, you could tell he was itching to say something as he occasionally looks at you, almost through you. "did you tell 'im then?"

"Who?" you tilt your head and look over at him.

A sigh is slightly heard from his mouth - " Gaz," he takes a pause while looking at you up and down, as you look at him with slight irritation. "Or did you tell him it was just a dare?" You scoff and roll your eyes. "I didn't tell him shite after- I hardly replied." Shaking his head in disbelief and taking a large inhale then a larger exhale. Ghost leans back in his chair, the weight of the situation hanging heavily in the air. "He said out like?" a long silence fills the air as you look over at his quietness while sipping your tequila. Mumbling a no through his false face. Thinking as you take his words in you give him a small head nod - giving him a soft groan as you pick your drink up and slurp onto it.your gaze searched for gaz, seeing him across the bar talking to soap. "why'd you leave that idiot with kyle" you groan- dropping your hands into your head.

you knew what soap was like - everyone did. He was probably saying some cringe shit that wasn't even half true. shite like how much you loved gaz and stuff. god why'd ghost leave them for, and where even is price? right whered he fuck off too.

With a final swig, you drain the last of your drink, the bitter taste lingering on your tongue. The room spins slightly as you push yourself off the bar stool, the alcohol in your system making your movements less coordinated than usual."i’m goin’" you grumble , your words slurring together in your inebriated state. "I'll see ya in a bit, yeh?" ghost nods, a knowing smirk on his face.The crowd parts for you, a sea of faces blurring together as you navigate through the bar. The music is a distant hum in your ears, the rhythm syncing with the pounding in your head.As you approach Kyle, you steady yourself, trying to appear more sober than you feel.

Sitting down right next to gaz and smiling softly at him as soap looks over to yous with a big smirk plastered onto his lips. “Oh hey y/n.''Gaz was the exclusive person you had given the privilege to use your genuine name - the only person you shared such a deep connection with, the only one deemed fitting to refer to you by it. You felt a warmth fill your chest as he addressed you by your name. You couldn't help but smile in return, feeling a rush of emotion. Shooting a look over at soap as if to tell him to fuck off then he says as you ask - soap waddles off towards some random lass. Now it was just you and him alone.

“Found someone then?”

You let out a small ‘hm?’ While he chuckles at your oblivious confusion, he leans in and lets out a silly,drunken smirk, "soap had said you were looking for a hookup" while face flushes and you look away, your heart pounding as he sips onto his whiskey. “Y-yeah noone.” you slur through your heavy breath. Fuck soap man whyd he have to say that.

Trying to quickly change the subject you speak, “whered price go?” your question hangs in the air, a stark contrast to the casual atmosphere. He takes a sip of his drink, the ice clinking against the glass in the room. The liquid swirls in his mouth, the complex flavours unfolding and mingling on his tongue.Leaning back in his chair, he looks over at you, his gaze steady and expectant. His posture is relaxed while the room is filled with anticipation, waiting for him to answer your question.”new recruits” he states as he places the drink onto the table, “caused some trouble or something so he needed to go back. Idk weren't listenin’” waiting for a response, as he leans back in his chair with his hand positioned on the part beside you. His gaze is expectant and he is waiting for your answer.

Seeing how close your hand is to his makes you blush, a hot red spreading and creating an apocalypse around your cheeks - your body sweating a little while you feel a warm embrace on your hand. You see what the mysterious body of warmth is: his hand? Rotating your glistening eyes back up as you dart up to meet him, at the heat of the moment he leans in. panic. Out of apprehension, as he comes closer to feel your head flinching back - probably the one time you could be physical like that with him you back out? Are you silly? Stupid even? You dream about this and want this so why aren't you letting him?

With a playful command, “Follow me,” you beckon, your voice laced with a tantalizing tease that's impossible to resist. "Where too?"He acquiesces eagerly, his hand finding a secure, warm grip in yours. You lead the way, weaving through the crowd, the pulsating rhythm of the music growing louder with each step. The bassline of the music throbs through your body as you move together, lost in the rhythm.the pulsating rhythm of the music grows louder with each step. The lights of the bar flicker and dance, a sea of bodies moving in sync with the beat, and you pull him into the heart of it.

Feeling your body flow against his, as your ass smoothes onto his cock. Dancing while circulating onto his person - hearing his small groans growing in your ear. His sounds increase as you grind more, the electrifying energy pulsing through your spine when he trails his fingers down. Your lips slightly separate, a silent signal of your longing. He knows exactly what you want and you both know it.With a knowing smirk, he leans closer, his breath warm against your ear.He whispers, "y/n..." His warm breath cascades down your neck, each inhalation and exhalation sending a shiver of He whispers, "y/n..." His warm breath cascades down your neck, each inhalation and exhalation sending a shiver of anticipation through you. "I know how you think."

"How you think about me, how you feel about me," he continues, his voice a low murmur that blends with the pulsating rhythm of the music around you.His words linger, a soft echo in the pulsating rhythm of the music. You feel a rush of emotions, a whirlwind of feelings that you've been trying to articulate for so long. His understanding, his acceptance, it's all too much and yet, it's exactly what you've been yearning for.

pulling back slightly, his gaze searching yours, looking for any signs of hesitation or doubt.

Within that you kiss him, smashing your lips together with lips whilst creating an energy source between the two. Whimpers throw out from your lips as he thrusts his tongue into your mouth. Tongues dancing as he holds your wait, circling it as if in a comforting way. You wanted him right there and with your drunken state you were going to have him. You knew romance, sex were prohibited in your job, that wasn't going to stop either of yous. He wanted you as much as you needed him, he probably wanted you much more than he lets on. Wrapping your hands around his shoulders, in an attempt to bring him as close as he could be he stops and stumbles back.

“Fuck..” he groans under his rough breathe. You could taste the lingering tang from all of his beverages tonight, the alcohol mixing with your spit and saliva,

“Wanna… uhm..” trembling through your speech , trying to find the correct words to blast out of your mouth.

“Go to..mine?”

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outcaststars · 8 months ago

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I've been streaming on twitch for over 4 years. I've made a great community and a wonderful group of friends but I've also had to deal with a lot of aweful people. Recently I've been feeling particularly upset about it all so I'm going to air all my grievances here. TW this mentions bullying, grooming, self harm and abuse. If anyone mentioned in this post trys to comment im just gonna delete it, i also dont care if your fav streamers is here, this is my authentic experience. Also dont go attacking anyone i mention here, the whole point of this is to be better then them.

Rat_emoji

The first streamer I ever had an issue with was Rat_emoji. It all started when I tuned into one of their DbD streams only to find him streaming another, younger, streamers live content.

He had just died to this kid playing Myers, he had TTV in his name and Rat was so mad about what had happened he streamed this kids twitch live to his viewers, all the while making fun of his appearance and stream quality.

A day later I would go back and screen record this whole interaction so I can share that if you want to see it. It felt so disgusting to watch this happen live, he has 100 viewers in chat and they were all being nasty. The only person who told him to stop was drag streamer Suttonfister (i think, 90% sure) who was in the same game and discord call at he time. the whole scene was aweful to witness, it felt like such an abuse of power. Rat didnt directly say anything mean but they made a lot of mean girl comments and didnt moderate anything cruel their chat said, it was obviously intentional.

After this I blocked Rat, it would have been easy to avoid him if he didn't found the stream team "Aussie pride", he got a lot of attention for that and a lot of praise and all of it made me sick. Funnily enough I heard that Aussie Pride was an aweful team to be in. The creators didn't care about the smaller members, planned no events and then disbanded the team with the release of Hogwarts legacy because they didn't want to take a stance on JK Rowling. Honestly it seems like the whole thing was a vanity project. That's why I don't like Rat_emoji.

Dcypherpup

DCpup was the first streamer I tried to network with. He hired me to make some art for him. He wanted me to work on merch for his channel, I declined, saying that I wasnt comfortable with the idea of someone else selling my art. I counter offered to just make him a profile icon, this way we could see how my style suited him and i could work out how to tackle the idea of eventually doing merch.

When the icon was done I sent him the high res file, he asked for my signature (my artist tag, a very small "outcaststars" in the corner) to be removed. When I asked why, he told me he needed it gone in order to upload it as merch.

Naturally I was upset. I explained that we had already made a deal not to do merch yet and I also explained that I was uncomfortable with the idea of removing my tag. I went on to explain why visibility was so important for artists. At the time I was a much smaller content creator and DCpup platform was much bigger.

He apologized and said he would give me a cut of the sales. I said don't bother and reluctantly let him do what he wanted. At the time I was too scared to make enemies so I fell into people pleasing.

I took more work from DCpup because I needed the money and I hoped it would be good for my channel growth. He would upload my work to his store and wouldn't credit me. I was frustrated.

The tipping point was after the final comm I took from him. An animated ending screen. During this process DCpup would message me everyday asking for updates which was annoying. When I delivered the final product he once again asked for my tiny, half transparent signature to be removed. I was so upset and defeated, I told myself I'd fight it but I didn't. I removed my sign from every layer, reanimated the whole thing and vowed not to take work from him.

After the piece was done he wanted to commission me again. I left him on read, then I found out what he was saying about me to other people. A good friend of mine showed me a message he had sent in his stream, telling him not to bother commission me, because I would be too busy doing work for him. I was furious.

Another week later I got raided by someone and told the new viewers to check out my work, it broke my heart when someone who looked at my insta, told me he had no idea I made all of DCpups stuff. Why would he? Dcypherpup went to ridiculous lengths to hide my credit. He was telling people not to contact me and not tagging any comm work with my name. One day he came into my live stream and I was so mad I banned him on the spot .

I wish I had done more to be assertive, live and learn. Funnily enough I found out he posted a big rant, telling people off for supporting JK Rowling when Hogwarts legacy released. Only to be called out for buying it and playing it on his steam, which he had forgotten to make private. He deleted the tweet. What a cunt.

Undertheredmoon and Greenypika

Redmoon is furry streamer that I use to really like. They were funny, had great energy and I would even go as far to say that they were a friend.

All this came to a grinding hault the day he invited furry artist and accused child groomer Daveoverlord to join us on Monster hunter rise live on stream.

Dave wasn't in voice chat and I wasn't reading Redmoons twitch chat at the time, so although I was aware of who Dave was, I didn't realize it was them. When someone messaged me about it a few days later I was mortified, I assumed Redmoon didn't know and I messaged them immediately.

I asked Red if he knew who Dave was and what he had done and the kind of artists he was friends with (cub artists). Redmoon ghosted me, left me on read for a week. I messaged again asking why he wasn't talking to me. He said he was too stressed to deal with this "drama" and didn't care to get involved. He mentioned that if Dave was guilty cops probably would have gotten involved and said he just wanted to focus on his own work.

When I asked Redmoon where he stood on cub porn, he stopped replying. We haven't spoken since.

The same person who told me about Dave joining stream also pointed out that Greenypika was inviting Dave onto his stream. They dm'd greeny and asked them if they knew and greeny said he had no idea and that he'd look into it. Greeny hadn't responded for a few months so I dm'd him with the same message and got the same copy paste reply. TLDR greeny knew and was just lying about it so I blocked him too.

Daveoverlord

Dudes a fucking groomer and now he streams. Blocked.

Cidermarten

Cider and I got into an argument once, the topic of which is no one's business.

His bf weyland got mad at me for it and vague tweeted about it so I decided to start a group chat with them to sort it out. And we did.

I apologised for what I did and cider took some time away from interacting with me. Everyone in this situation wanted what was best. And weyland is now one of my best friends.

Cider and I aren't as close as we could be but that's my fault. They're honestly a wonderful person and I appreciate their friendship. There inclusion in this list is to prove a point later but they're also the only person here who I think deserves success.

Stripeydragon and Break trail.

This one is complicated because it involves someone who ment a lot to me.

Back when the exclusive stream team Break Trail formed, my good friend Marsh joined the team. Being an artist he did a lot of the teams promo art of all it's members. Marsh had a lot of anxieties about the team because he was one of its smallest members and often told me he felt underappreciated or out of place. This feeling for worse when artist/streamer and fellow team member Stripeydragon decided he was going to do a redraw of all of marsh's promo work.

I didn't see Marsh much at the time but when this began he spent the better part of a week in my mod chat expressing how upset he was about it. It didn't help he was already anxious but he felt stripydragon was replacing him and even mentioned a time when he tried to give feedback on stripys work only for him to disregard it. Marsh was really fucking upset.

After stripeydragon posted the work my moderator, Ibn, who had been listening and consoling marsh for a week, decided to comment on the art publically. He said he didn't think stripyes version of the art was better and criticized him of slimming down the fater characters.

I wanna pause this to say I don't condone what Ibn did. He ment well but it wasn't his fight and he shouldn't have commented a critique on something no one asked him to judge. Don't do this. Anyway...

Stripeydragon fucking hated this. Not only did he respond to every tweet, he went into the break trail discord and rallied everyone to defend him and attack Ibn, a lot of break trail members also rushed to the comments to defend stripey and attack ibn. He also posted ibns comment in his own discord to encourage others to dog pile on. This shit got out of hand super fucking fast. Ibn was crying and marsh was pissed. It was betray of trust on Ibns part, but the way stripey responded was downright scary.

Shit was at its peak by the time I woke up (Australian timezone) and I immediately went into damage control. I gave Ibn a huge lecture, I was mad af and told him to apologize. I dm'd breaktrails stream team manager Mari, and tried my best to defuse the situation so that both parties could stop. Everyone deleted their tweets. Ibn apologised a dozen times and Marsh told everyone that ibn was just an asshole.

So the story everyone believes now is that marsh actually loves stripydragons work and Ibn is just a weird jerk. There where no consequences for stripydragons weaponizing a stream team and their fan base against someone on twitter. They're still a member of break trail but the team has been dead for a long time. I understand that Ibn was in the wrong and marsh should have just talked about his issues with his team. But this is another case of someone with a big platform and bigger ego not hesitating to use that to attack others.

Starkymorph

this one is fucked up.

Starky mods for a bunch of break trail members, so he had an inside look into the whole stripeydragon thing. Keep that in mind.

About a year after the stripey incident, I woke up to a message from starky. I had recently finished a commission for starky but apart from that we didn't know each other well.

He claimed that ibn had harassed him on stream by bringing up controversial topics and that because he was my mod he wasn't going to support me any more. I was pretty angry, Ibn was causing trouble again. I dm'd ibn and told him I didn't want to hear what he had to say and instead I just wanted the timestamp on Starkeys VOD so I could see what he did myself.

I watched the VOD and what I saw didn't line up with anything starky had said. He made the whole thing up.

What really happened was, starky decided to bring up "cancel culture" and went on a rant about how it was inherently bad and that anyone who participates in it only does it for "self-aggrandizing reasons". A lot of the shit he said was very thinly veiled right wing bullshit dog whistles.

Ibn asked him to elaborate and said something to the likes of "what about people who cancel pedos and rapists" and starky banned ibn and ended the convo.

Ibn didn't start the controversial topic and he didn't harass anyone. But starky was mad and wanted to attack him, he knew Ibn had a history of starting shit so he came to me with a bullshit story thinking I'd believe him and Ibn would lose his friends. And it almost worked.

I tried to talk some sense into starky, I pointed out that his original message was dishonest. Starky doubled down and made up more lies. He continued to claim that things happened during the stream that aren't in the VOD. He even bought up weylandshere and claimed he was harassing him too, out of nowhere! which if you watch the VOD is also completely made up. He said some ablist shit about "high functioning autism" aswell, its all really incoherent. Non of this is true and I downloaded the VOD so he couldn't hide the evidence.

Starky tried to use my argument with cider and Ibns argument with stripy as evidence that we were bad people. I found this really sinister, because my initial reaction to Starkys story, was that i believed him, pretty much everyone reacted this way. It upsets me that i was almost convinced to distance myself from my best friend because of a lie.

A ton of people didn't watch the VOD and took Starkeys word. Starky blocked me and started asking all his followers and mutuals to do the same. A whole bunch of people sub tweeted about ibn being an abuser and me being an enabler. It was fucking aweful. It went on for days.

This only stopped when Kyziethewolf stepped in and defended me. Even tho starky was one of his best friends, he had watched the VOD and told everyone he was lying. Starky doesn't talk to kyzie now and it really broke his heart.

A lot of people still believe starky and I lost a bunch of mutual streamers support because of this. It's one of the worst attacks I've suffered on twitter/twitch to date.

I found out a few months later he's added "outcast is racist" to the narrative he tells people and there's nothing I can do about that

This also basically ended my friendship with Marsh. I've known marsh for 7 years and hes a friend of Starkeys too. During this whole ordeal he never spoke up, it was only kyzie. I was really upset about this because i feel that Marsh could have made a significant change to how this played out if he had of just stepped in.

When he dm'd me a few weeks after asking if I'm make some free art for his project I told him no. I told him I was hurt. He said he just didn't want to get involved in drama. i think its really harmful to reduce harassment to just "drama". We've stopped talking.

Jayedskier

I met jayed though my friend weyland. I needed a 3D artists and he needed work.

Jayed had recently lost a lot of friends because during COVID he tweeted that people not social distancing at a furcon where putting disabled, high risk, people's lives in danger. Totally righteous imo.

He however also tweeted that anyone who doesn't where a mask should kill themselves and deservingly got a lot of hate and backlash. Lost a lot of friends. Since then he was pretty unwilling to comment on any political shit. Publically that is.

The first fight I got into with jayed was when Ibn reposted a Tumblr thread about the YouTuber keffals, and some of the problematic things she'd done. Jayed loves keffals so he dm'd Ibn about it and started a huge fight defending his favourite YouTuber. I stepped in to try and resolve the fight but no one was really happy.

This argument made jayed realise that he didn't have the same values as the friend group he was in. He liked keffals, he thought it was ok to say the R slur and he felt people should be allowed to support JK Rowling.

He left my discord and I contacted him trying to smooth things over. We talked for a long time and I settled on agree to dissagree the hopes to change his mind on some of these issues.

That didn't happen. Jayed kept starting fights about woke shit, even though he's a self proclaimed "leftist" and it slowly drove a wedge between us. He stopped talking to everyone in our friend group, unfollowed us all on socials.

Artists/streamer and friend Ixu had drawn a big group shot of all of us together. Weyland (who is in this friend group) was pretty angry about the whole ordeal so he asked Ixu for a version without jayed edited out. When he posted this jayed got super pissed about it.

Jayed tweeted about how unwelcoming my community was. Screen caped some DM's and changed the context. I was so angry, I had spent months continuing to offer my friend ship and trying to change his mind. One of the last fights we got into he said he was mad that "people" expected him to show support for Palestine and thats kind of the end of it.

This one hurt because it felt like a betrayal. Jayed you can get fucked dude.

Socksthewolf

This one is super recent and is basically why I decided to write this.

I can't remember how I met socks. They work in the games industry and they have a LOT of money/connections. He gives away a lot of stuff, Donates to people a lot. He very affectionate and Everyone loves him. I even accepted a bunch of charity/gifts from him and in return drew a bunch of gift art.

Socks success made a few mutuals of mine uncomfortable. He had a lot of money to put into stream so his channel grew insanely fast. I'm also told he made comments to some mutuals, comparing channel growth that made them feel bad. He ran multiple giveaways and got partner almost a year after starting stream.

There was some drama between socks and one of his mods. I tried my hardest not to get involved. Socks employs a lot of parasocial strategies in order to retain an audience so he flirts a lot and also has a persona of "I'm you dad" on stream. Idk if this counts as love bombing, but it feels similar.

I heard that one of his mods developed a crush on him and when rejected, he drank himself into the hospital. He almost died.

I spoke with this ex mod about it. He doesn't blame socks for what happened even tho he feels the rejection was harsh. I still feel that socks takes advantage of people with his gifts and parasocial friendship. This is a result of that going unchecked.

One of our mutuals found out about this and was really upset. They tweeted about it and tried to hold socks accountable. Nothing came of it.

I grew distant from socks when he started hanging out with Redmoon a lot. Because I felt close to them at the time I messaged him a about Redmoon and what happened between us. He never replied.

This story takes a dark turn when jayedskier, friend of socks, decided to make that tweet mentioned in his section. Socks also went in on someone jayed had mentioned.

This is about my good friend Weyland. Weyland had had someone very close to them pass away recently. Socks complied some tweets and chat screen caps, and made up a story of weyland threatening to kill themselves.

Some of the messages were about weylands dead friend. Socks knowingly changed the context and lied to make weyland look bad.

I honestly think this is the worst thing on this post. To use the death of someone and the personal anguish of someone and ammo for you bullshit story about them is fucking horrifying.

I replied to socks tweet about weyland, I told him what he was doing was wrong. He told me that he feels bad I'm surrounded by toxic people and that he hopes they get better.

After seeing the way socks treats his audience and the way he lied about another streamer, I genuinely believe hes some kind of abuser. Idk the vibe is REALLY off with this one. This feels worse then bullying, there's an ego about it. I've blocked socks on everything. Frankly they scare me.

Final notes

Anyway that's been my aweful experience with aweful twitch streamers. The whole thing has left me bitter and sad and I no longer want to interact with anyone. idk where to go from here.

Twitch TOS doesn't care what people say or do on other platforms. And with other streamers/mutuals so unwilling to get involved or show support I just feel alone.

I do feel compelled to speak up when I see or experience something I think isn't right. I think a lot of neurodivegant people, like myself, feel that way. But I think it's been terrible for my career. I hate the feeling that I'd be so much more successful if I'd shut my mouth and looked away. Maybe even be partner by now. I know a lot of this comes across as just "furry drama" but i think its reductive to label it as that. Content creators who engage in these kind of harmful behaviors need to be held accountable if we want to see any positive change. And im not saying that means "CANCEL" them. some (not all) of these content creators can still learn and grow and be better. Negative attitudes and dismissive statements of "its just drama" create a space for bullies to thrive

Finally, please PLEASE do NOT under any circumstances harass anyone involved in this post. This is not an attempt to rally the masses to lynch some people, im just telling my story so that next time you see someone come forward with claims about a content creator you like you'll see the situation differently.

If you made it this far, wow. Thank you. Dunno if I'll post the vids/screencap evidence. I don't know if I care enough.

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wtf-is-sleep-even · 4 months ago

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MODERN/DND AU

(short thing i wanted to write cause you guys seem to like AU's more than i thought. Human AU, they play DND* *quick note i dont really know exactly how DND or TTRPG's work but i know theres a storyline mechanic and im using that to my advantage)

It really was an accident, truly. Jedediah didnt even know what DND was up until half a year ago, one of his best friends teenaged kid, Nicky, had picked up a kick for table top rpg's, Jed thought it was stupid at first but tagged along just to be sure there was enough players, he did care for the kid, he was like his nephew, he just didnt expect how much fun it would be. An hour and a half in and he was bored out of his mind, another hour in he was coughing up his lungs he was laughing so much! it was nice to spend time with his friends like this, and it made the kid happy, so he kept going.

it's just make-believe, a game of pretend, but the feelings he felt were real, anxious at the next battle, frustrated at the confusing (but clever) puzzles, the surprise and humor at a funny encounter, the second hand embarrassment for when one of his friend's characters made a fool of themself, and, the love. Jed knew that he felt something different for Octavius, at first he thought he hated the guy, but day after day it was made known that he actually loved him.

and of course, he had to be in the same DND group as him, classic, whats even funnier is that in-game, their characters are married, something about appeasing a court in the faewild, it didnt matter much because just a few weeks after that, Octavius asked him out on a date. They've been a couple ever since. But the group doesnt know that, they've made jokes here and there but it never crossed any lines, Jedediah didnt tell anyone out of fear first, Octavius didnt tell anyone because nobody asked much, he told people casually and it wasnt much of a problem after, so they never told the group.

Jed wasnt afraid anymore, so why not take a chance?

it was one of the calmer sessions in the games, still walking carefully in case of any curses that reside in the lands. "Its an awfully inviting clearing, the trees shift and stir, the birds chirp and sing, a foggy mist settles over the sides dimming the lights to reveal fireflies dancing in the air, but hiding any way of escape, what do you do?" Nicky narrates, hes gotten so much better at it, instead of the stumbly, stuttering sections of small text and strained, hidden voices of characters he was trying to play, he was bold and steady, the picture flowing seamlessly into the next "can i look to see if there are any traps or illusions?" Ahkmenrah asks, one of Jed and Larry's best friends from highschool, both of them were happy to see him again

"roll a perception check, add a disadvantage because of the fog" Ahk rolls his D-20 "uh, 17" Nicky nods, looking over to gloss over the page of his notebook "you spot a beartrap at the side of a fallen tree, its clapped around one of its branches, reaching out to touch the outside of the clearing, it seems that its real, but it doesnt feel like wood, it feels like a stone pillar, the area isnt an illusion, but not everything is right" they nod, one of them in the group, a guy named Lance that Ahk dragged along (who Jed totally didnt wanna punch because Octavius remarked on his eyes, no way) advanced forward and saw a shallow grave in the dirt, they all came to see it

"is there anything at the bottom?" Oct asked, Nicky smiled, bad sign "there is! a small wooden chest, there isnt any locks on it, it seems you can just open it like you would with any other box" Octavius hummed, Jed tried to ignore how the sound gave him butterflies "i take the box!" lance announced, Nicky describes how he takes it, opening it up to reveal a bottle with a note in it and a sharp dagger, obsidian blade with a willow wood handle, Octavius opted to inspect the dagger for any inscriptions or engravings

"you take the dagger in your hands, it feels heavier than any steel or even obsidian that you've ever held, in the handle it reads "with love, My dagger" everyone was confused, another puzzle, woo boy. Ahk tried to figure it out but just got nowhere, Octavius asked if there was anywhere you could put a dagger, "the stone alter shines slightly, there seemed to be a slot in it, but the air around it seemed that whoever did this, would pay a price" Octavius debated for a second before saying to insert the dagger, his character was met with a faewild curse

"you fall over, completely unconscious before you even hit the ground, a faewild curse passes over you, you shall be alseep for until you find a kiss of true and pure love, y'know like that one disney princess, sleeping beauty or snow white, i cant remember, but yeah" the group chuckles while Octavius states that this couldnt have ended worse, suddenly Lance pipes up "arent Gaius and Smith married? would Smith be able to wake him up or no?" Nicky passes Jed a D-20 "roll"

Jedediah rolled "12" Nicky laughed "alright yeah, Smith kneels down to check whats wrong, feeling the compelling urge to kiss Gaius, he gives him a kiss on the lips and suddenly Gaius's eyes flicker open, hes awake but has a disadvantage on all persuasion and strength rolls" the two others laugh, not thinking that would actually work when Jed smirked, the fun of DND was mostly that they got to act out what the characters do, right? he shrugged "alright"

Jedediah grabbed Octavius's face, pulling him in for a kiss, Octavius was shocked by the sudden affection but melted into it quickly, closing his eyes and pulling the other by the collar of his shirt. The table went into absolute chaos, they didnt expect THIS, Octavius pulled away with a smile, Jed chased his lips, connecting them again for another kiss "ALRIGHT BREAK IT UP BREAK IT UP!!" Ahkmenrah and Nicky yelled.

yeah, Jedediah likes DND nights

#night at the museum #natm octavius #jedtavius #natm jedediah #au's #dnd #natm ahkmenrah #natm lancelot #natm larry #natm nicky #DM Nicky #based on a youtube channel #legends of avantris #one shot #drabble #they share one braincell #they're gay your honor

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slowdripsunrise · 5 months ago

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jfc okay so i have forgotten/been too lazy to write up reveiws here i apparently havent updated since. lone women which is well. so ive read a shit ton since then so i'm going try my best to write up as much as i can in this post bc i don't want to just. stop and skip over stuff. so well. here we go. spoilers for various books under the cut, i'll tag them all !

first book i finished after i last updated was silver nitrate by silvia moreno-garcia. been a while but damn do i remember the fucking vibes. absolutely killer vibes and atmosphere, and the plot was fun and interesting; i do remember being a bit confused in one of the final scenes fighting the guy but it wasnt enough to take me out of the story. the characters felt real and i could feel their love of movies and maybe each other off the page, definitely recommend if you're looking for an atmospheric, creepy little book.

next (and i'll just group these together) i read the poppy war trilogy by r. f. kuang ! absolutely wonderful storytelling and the characters were interesting and loveable. i think that this story succeeds in being one of the few good "war stories" as in it doesn't glorify or make light of any aspects of the war. there are good moments and bright spots throughout, but in the end pretty much every single character we know and love ends up dead, and before they're dead, they've been shaped so thoroughly by the war around them that there is no way anyone could have come out of this series thinking that it in any way romanticized the events. i loved everything about it and more. but while i did love the series. tbh i don't agree with everyone saying that its the most serious and intellectual and groundbreaking book in the entire world. yes it is groundbreaking and yes it is based on a lot of real life horrific events, but it's also. extremely entertaining. it's written beautifully and has some very poignant scenes that i love, and i am gonna be honest i lost where i was going with this point. i think what i'm trying to say is like before i read it, i saw a lot of people on the internet saying that it is like. the highest peak of literature and such and like. for me, it's mostly just a damn good time. i go into most books looking for entertainment (meaning like. i would like to feel emotions, not necessarily happy ones, just emotions in general) and what i think a lot of people made it seem like, was ONLY an epic tome about the brutality of war, the military, and colonization. and it absolutely is about that ! i am not docking points for it being about those things, in fact if it hadn't had all these hard hitting topics i wouldn't have liked it as much. but it's ALSO about rin, kitay, and nezha, and how they love and hate each other. and sometimes i think people lean too much into one aspect of the book, one way or the other (i have absolutely seen the inverse of this, people forgetting about the colonialism and militarization aspects in an impressive show of hypocrisy. which... is worse imo.) but idk. i have no idea what i am trying to say i just like this book yall.

next oml. okay again grouping them together for my own sake but i read the southern reach trilogy by jeff vandermeer ! this series was such a creepy and weird and offputting good time i ate that shit right up. the first book and the biologists pov are my favorites, and all of the insight we get from her and the first book into area x was just. so compelling i could not put that shit down. i'm pretty sure the second i finished in the hospital lol i was INVESTED. and honestly. i did really like the second book. not as much as the first, but i don't think it was bad or underwhelming compared to the first. once i got past the pov shift, i really liked controls pov partly because he is just some guy. like he is just so average and banal, and seeing this set against the absurdity of the rest of the book was really interesting. i liked how even though we weren't IN area x, the southern reach still had that otherworldly and offputting suspenseful energy, even in a familiar setting (office building type i mean. as opposed to weird as fuck forest). that and also i am deep into my f1 phase so like i kept picturing control as checo perez. like hes just so guy to me like hes just a normal guy that has no fucking clue whats going on and thats really funny and awesome to me. like man. anyway the third wasnt my favorite, but i still really like the series as a whole and will probably read the 4th one coming out whenever it does.

NEXT. sharks in the time of saviors by kawai strong washburn. did i cry. maybe. did i really like the story. yes. it was definitely a change of pace for me after reading the above books but the story was lovely and magical and engaging and very sad and i enjoyed every bit of it.

after that i read scattered all over the earth by yōko tawada, which is a story that i kinda have mixed feelings about? i listened to the audio book and the narrator did such a wonderful job, i loved listening to the two man characters talk about language in the mc's made up language, panska. and if the book was just about that, i probably would have liked it more, exploring language and the loss of it; however one of the side characters constantly get's misgenders when the story is outside of her pov. and it's like. really fucking distracting. so like i guess i don't have very mixed feelings about it lol. i liked one bit, definitely did not like another bit, and the rest of the book wasn't really strong enough to sway me back into the "i like this book and think it's interesting" camp. although if you can get past the blatant transphobia, the audio book really is nice to listen to, especially coming off a post surgery high.

next i read the ghost bride by yangsze choo ! this was another really atmospheric, palpable book. i could feel the setting, the humidity, the smells, all of it and it was so good! an engaging story, i'm pretty sure i read this one in a day or two. the characters were fun, the plot moved quickly in a way that made sense, and exploring the realms of the dead and the living with the characters was so fun, definitely recommend !

im gonna wrap this post up here mostly bc im hungry but i still have a lot more to update on ! if u made it this far thank you and also im sorry. happy reading!

#silver nitrate #the poppy war #southern reach trilogy #sharks in the time of saviors #scattered all over the earth #the ghost bride

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alvie-pines · 9 months ago

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The post you thought was about my little pony. Yeah I probably would have too if I wasn't specifically looking in the tags for what it actually was. Luna and Mafuyu aren't really that similar (imo Mafuyu is closer to Twilight(still not really)) but you've got me thinking about Celestia and Shizuku and I didn't watch the later seasons of MLP so I could be wrong but like. Shizuku felt like she had to be perfect and couldn't make a single mistake. She felt like allowing herself to be imperfect was letting everyone who looked up to her down. She just wanted to do the best thing but she felt cornered and like she didn't have anyone to talk to about it.

oooh yeah! celestia 100% had a ton of responsibility on her shoulders and it canonically stressed her out. and she felt disconnected from everyone else because of it. iirc there were a couple episodes that touched on this. one was the episode where starlight switched celestia and luna's cutie marks and they had to take on each others roles for the day, and luna found out just how strict the expectations and responsibilities on her sister were. (celestia also found out that luna's life wasnt easy and fun either. but we're talking about celestia here.) the other was the one where luna and celestia tried to take a vacation and celestia was over the MOON that she got to act "normal" for a few days. though she was bad at it, lol. and celestia in general doesnt really have anyone to turn to, except maybe luna, but luna is her little sister and has already been thru a lot. in s3e1 (which i just watched, hehe) i noticed that celestia told twilight she'd always be there for her, and also added "and i hope you will be there for me when i need you." this was right after twi became a princess. it was said very casually but seemed a little out of place compared to the slighty aloof, all powerful princess we saw before... i think she was very grateful to have someone else close to her level who she felt she could be vulnerable with and turn to for help... bt the thing is, she doesnt lean on twilight emotionally or open up to her much throughout the rest of the show. so i kinda get the vibe that she WANTS to lean on people but when it actually comes time to ask for help, maybe she's not able to.

god, i didnt expect to analyze celestia so much-- she's never been a favorite of mine, but the great thing about mlp is that theres something worth looking into for pretty much all the characters. its a very character driven show. idk where im going with this now so im going to end it there ��

#askbox #tadofvylad #celestia #mlp

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faerunsbest · 9 months ago

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BG3 Backstory Bash by Kelandrin

This is a challenge to help people flesh out their Tav’s backstory by exploring their past. It is organized into four sections with seven prompts. You can treat this as a monthly challenge or a general project. You can write headcanons, fics, or share art based on the prompts! You can interpret the prompts however you want. If you want to share use the tag #bg3backstorybash

i was tagged by @rolansrighthorn , this is just out here making my day! i tag @dutifullylazybread

Baby:

Parents: an unknown peasant woman with many a john to pay the get what was needed at times

Birth: out in the fields she was born in the dirt of drying crops and had to be plopped into a basket as mothers shift wasnt over.

First word: "mama?"

When they first walked: there was no one present to remember the day she waddled across cold wood floors to try and pry a door open so she could follow her mother out. it didnt work she cried until she fell asleep

Tantrum: too many to count, she didn't like being left alone

First sickness: she was perpetually malnourished, any other ailments where hard to pick up on

Thunderstorm: she loved the rain and she loved when the sky was angry, it made her feel validated and understood

Childhood:

Friends: Dwylla didn't really have friends she kept robbing people and on the off chance they caught her she would just go kinda wild and make sure they couldn't take anything back.

Siblings: she was born to a woman who thought she was infertile, there are no others.

Birthday: midspring precise date is unknown but she doesn't know this.

Games: tap, when she was sold to a gladiatorial ring her and the other kids would play tap. you have to touch a persons face and if you win you get half their dinner because the whole thing seems cruel. she won so often that she wound up being the bulkiest of them all.

Learning something new: she stares and watches with intense focus, she can learn so much that way as there was rarely ever anyone to teach her. she would watch patrons and guests she watches pick pockets thieves and assassins at work. its when you are seen as about the same as the damn floorboards

Trauma: Her mother sold her to a gladiators for a small pouch of gold. Dwylla started in the stocks and mills, cleaning up and serving people but after rebuffing unwanted advances was punished by being put into a selection pit. they didn't expect her to win. As he prize she was permitted to enter the smaller rings as a side fighter, where she was expected to die a splendid death. instead she won and kept winning and with every victory came a prize, a little potion bottle. it contained a small but permanent strength boost, hers focused on the parts of her that had the best circulation. her legs and tail.

Teenager:

First love: First love was an visiting gladiator who didn't know who she was he played and though she would be a fun bedding, he was the first person she strangled with her tail alone.

Rebellion: when she was given the prize of a private room with a view to the outside she ripped apart parts of the wall and clawed her way out .

Running away: its all she ever wanted to do but resulted in her being locked up and tied down in the 'champions tower' until it was time to go out in he ring again.

Reckless behavior: her reckless behavior keeps her alive though just barely.

Peer pressure: you cant bully a person who sees you as competition

Growing pains:she has stretch marks on her upper thighs,lower back and around the base of her tail from those damn strength potions

Taking responsibility: she is very much of the mindset of ' i either did it or i didn't" and has no problem admitting when she did something. until waaayyyy later

Adulthood:

Their “first time”: It's Rolan because of course it is. She sees straight through him, she loves how much he loves his siblings and it breaks her heart that he only has himself really. she can put up with how prickly he is because its nothing to her, words said in anger are very little most of the time. Rolan rarely stings her this way and hes never even considered raising a hand.

Serious relationships: its really only ever been Rolan, it only ever could be.

Work: after winning her way out of the ring she does manual labor, building houses and bridges. she just loves being able to build things instead of tear them down. the first things he makes a is a traveling wagon. it has the tiniest wood stove, it fits about 5 pine cones in it and keeps her little wagon toasty, with s a single massive window on side its easy to feel at ease in it

Leaving home: she won enough fights to 'buy herself' and was free at the tail end of 29 years old but was taken up by the nautiloid about 1 and a half years later

Aging: she will age slower than a human but much faster than an elf, so maybe she'll never live to be several centuries old but maybe one or two

Finding their place: she though she found her place in the world when she was building houses at super cheap rates for families who just cant afford more. she loved watching kids run in thrilled to have a roof and a door.

Staring a family/found family: she truly considers with all her heart Lae'zel and Astarion her family as she calls them her left and right, in reference to heart ventricles but they joke Astarion the left because something ain't right! Lae'zel takes pride in being her right hand.

in fact the 1st reason Rolan may have noted his importance to Dwylla is because he realized she left behind Lae'zel to protect him and the siblings. Dwylla would never do that, not for anyone. when he mentions it to Lae'zel, she tells him he must be of some value if was smart enough to make the connection.

she does eventually build a family with Rolan though she never gets comfortable in the highest parts of the tower

#bg3 #baldurs gate 3 #tav #oc #rolan #bg3 rolan #romance

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only-lonely-lovers · 11 months ago

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07.26.2022

tags: fingering, pantomime, dubcon, manipulation

notes: having fun with positions! and thinking about earlier TL hananene

Bird is あ / Avvy is つ

つ：[in reply to this drawing] I like to think tsukasa will eventually wrap his legs entirely around hanako while he plows Nene and he'll be horny about it when he thinks its her doing it, up until he feels heel of shoe bumping him and hes like [distressed kermit] she wasnt wearing shoes

あ：this is a good follow up.

つ：a smart boy would do this as he knows climax is approaching

get sunk nice and deep. encouraged by a grasp of legs. hanako briefly: YEAH YOU WANT IT AS DEEP AS POSSIBLE DON'T YOUOHHHH I CANDO THAT FOR YOU

あ：ohh if there's anyone attuned, to when amane is 'close', it is tsukasa. from the position of being spectator 90% of the time and having a more clear head, and being really keyed in on little physical tells like that

つ：poor nene in her state is not so capable of…. conscious actions and tactical moves. she's just skittering about helplessly.

あ：I think nene has like 0% capacity of registering environment when this smothered It's just like. AHHHHH

In an endearing way, I don't think she can… think… mid plow… about almost anything…

it is the ideal time for Tsukasa to slide in with a motion of somekind. and he gets to enjoy the feeling of Hanako definitely definitely responding to it and being encouraged, baring weight down harder, clutching tighter… s'good it's just like aha.❤️

つ：she can't make choices at different phases… it is up to tsukasa to move her through a new phase

あ：You hear Hanako like huff breath loudly and shake his head

つ：the moment at which hanako just responds huffing and chuckling evilly and ramming all his weight down--

あ：The Yeah The villain

つ：its a cause and effect. and tsukasa gets to enjoy being shoved into the floor along with Nene. its very mmm❤️ yaay heehee

squeezes affectionately with legs. that one makes him briefly hornier like wtfff mmmmy little minxxxx [feels shoes] WAIT

あ：[his body betrays him and he nuts before backing out of this] It's just like wait -- shoes-- AHhh.

つ：the problem is as well Nene is making all her little noises she does like it and your brain is responding to this tandem of being squeezed and hearing her

あ：your cock is not discerning.

つ：still very much worth coming about you just feel a little bit of dread mixed in

あ：There is nothing to do. about the circumstance.

Though in moments like these I think Hanako really would prefer to not. Address it. i can't call attention to it, because it'll seem like i was like idk. perhaps consciously abiding by it. lay there

small thing also but I like to think Tsukasa is the only one who can really enjoy the feeling of two whole bodies resting wholly on him in a stack like this www…. i think it is a unique enjoyment. being so compressed down there

つ：mmm everyone i enjoy to do the hug to all.

あ：[reaches up and rubs both your bodies intermittently]

comparatively i imagine its like. in any other arrangement its kind of as though tsukasa latched onto the back of someone like. nene is resting on hanako and tsukasa crawls on her like a frog. and hanako is like oof. [1 second later] no. [rolls] and for nene its like. oof. […] um… boys. ^^;

つ：its not very uhmmm… maintainable for her. hanako also being 3 stacked is like.. this is silly. goofy come on…..

あ：cut it out. be serious this feels like some sort of kiddy game now

つ：for nene its just a fond like mm… hugs… then politely rolls them over as a stack. but its most likely to be hanako who intervenes first.

あ：A girl can enjoy a big hug. but it's like well… if we're going to hug. maybe we ought to be in a better position for that if we are feeling cuddly

It is only Tsukasa who likes to feel so squimched. likes the chest pain guts are so flattened

つ：enjoy the doubled up weight

あ：My brain also keeps being like. tsukasa is the guy w the crazy spine. & then chopping and screwing griffin being like, horse destroyed my dick and balls with its crazy crazy spine

つ：thinking as well about birds hanako fingering nene while tsukasa is being cute with his fingers… like to imagine hanako getting fogged and hazy obviously after a short period, watching fingers go in/out, kinda tuning out tsukasa's presence, it's about the details of wetness and folds…. tsukasa gently, loosely circling thumb and pointer and middle around hanako's fingers/knuckles, stroking up and down, so as Hanako sinks in and back out, this extra loop is passed through… which does get hanako's attention in a more fluid, almost subconscious way? enjoying the light pressure and the rhythmic rolling sensation, the pulling of the pussy walls as he sinks in-out chased by this looser ring of fingers. Reaches a point eventually he naturally pauses the fingering to watch and feel the fingers stroking over as his tips remain prodding her, enjoying watching mucous trail and smear over his fingers..

but its going to be like…. [tsukasa notices this] [squeezes gently, breaking the rhythm intentionally] [hanako snaps out of it and almost embarrassed, and indignant, just starts arrhythmically ramming Nene, hard enough to smash tsukasa's hand between them, crossfire, a real… pointed carelessness.]

ACTS LIKE YOU'RE NOT HERE! things like this are. ah nene's end is like she can't begin to predict what sensation is next. lost in feeling needy while hanako is still and this odd brief flitting, tickling sensation of tsukasa's hand moving faintly, contacting her and moving away… and then just KLF;SDJKG

あ：oh like there's no way for her to keep up with this play by play, on her end she's just been feeling hanako get slower and slower and then eventually stop… I like the thought of fingers encircling over fingers a lot, while both of their hands are coated in wetness, verrry fun… i always love the visual of fingers pumping over fingers, in pantomime, has its own elegance to it..

hanako the. fingers guy. i do think it makes him like space out to see/feel… uncontrollably enjoys the show

It would ruin Hanako's life if his fingers thing was especially brought to attention / exploited honestly. I think it'd feel so. [pie in face] not even able to be as mad as he gets about other things as much as like searingly humiliated like ffhjghfH jgfhZ!!

Just kill me

つ：feeling yourself respond fetishistically is a new sensation and sadly its vvvvery tasty fruit. i imagine once fingers stuff is detected it will feel the MOST like being dangled a treat and having to resist it.

the desire to. experience more and layered finger appreciation via the multiple bodies…. agonizing when its like mnrngh i wish nene had more hands… [brain goes to problem solve] NO, no…. no

but I think its also why… ohhh so effective. to just wait til he's really enjoying luxuriating in Nene to start stroking his neck and chest and adding more stroking anywhere else he'll just be like mnnmmgh its getting so awesome rn… [not counting the hands]

あ：It is a unique, new kind of torture. as it is, just having to navigate not feeling too baited and caught during sex is a minefield, hanako always is ready to be on edge and dodge being seen enjoying something too much. a specific fetish being brushed up against is like mgh… always going to make brain feel slowed to a crawl. start to pant

Oh I do think he's really a guy who likea get chest, neck rubbed… liiike the feeling of fingers and palm dragging against body, sliding around. Before any awareness creeps in, I think it actually really stills his mind and makes it like [peaceful kind of head empty]

つ：its the feeling of luxuriating under touch/attention on top of it aalllll. feeling like king. the desire to not appear to enjoy something too much, and the impulse to egotistically luxuriate in waht suddenly feels like mmm deserved splendor, they are often battling

the braincell that starts to scream WORSHIP ME!!!!

あ：the crown starts to descend thats right… thast… THAST RIGHT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I think it's even comically a slippery slope of like. braincells start firing off tyrant boy king chemicals. and then the crazy inner monologue starts going off like Ohh you just cant fucking resist can you…. [BITING. TONGUE.] stupid……….. skanks…. [coughs]

つ：when the entitlement and frustration and boyking crown sortof kiss in the way of like, crushing tsukasa in an interaction or acting more overtly, punctuatedly careless (like just stepping on him if he's scrounging about below them and getting in the way, or shoving his face with palm and leaving it there to shut him up), it just simply results in pleasing tsukasa with a motion meant intentionally for him and him alone. and i think it also gets hanako off at that point. when it is one hand on girl's hip holding her in place to smash and one hand over tsukasa's mouth to shut him up it is MY THRONE!!! I CONTROL WHEN THE FRUIT WILL FALL

thats right you stay still girl. and thats right you also stay still. everyone fucking BEHAVE

あ：There are times when dom brain is a useful crutch like well fine, you've forced my hand. i'll just make you all act like how i want you to.

つ：I think the mental state also sometimes bleeds into nene which is fun for her incidentally… if he's feeling snarly from tsukasa's rascalling in a particularly spirited day, it also results in becoming more impatient and rougher with her…. which is, hot. for her.

あ：uncontrollably attracted to shitty bf

つ：less patient and understanding when she whines or goes to grab at him or isn't cooperating with something.

あ：my brain always chops and screws these panels bc i think about hanako grasping nene's face this disrespectfully a lot. and shaking her side to side. same with tsukasa though. just a thing…. in my brain

つ：the observant face I'm always rly into… its such a good… looks at you like bug… expression. its often used in AMVs so tastefully and i can feel us all wishing hanako would look at us like that

the thing where hanako is a DOM!!!!! we're respondinngggggg. me and the girlies of the world

あ：girlies gather round…

つ：i think successful baiting in the long termmnn is like… plowing nene…. in the mood that is grabbing tsukasa's face to shut him up/keep him from sniffing or whatever he's trying to do… tsukasa starts sucking his fingers… and it becomes mmgnmmn.hh hmh.gmgnf.hmh…. hgg [starts fingering mouth] FINE [JAMS FINGERS IN THROAT]

but then i think you can't multitask so good and its just intermittently ramming Nene, skittering about, then rubbing tsukasa's gums and teeth and pinching his tongue, then getting back to Nene cuz you stopped moving, then tsukasa starts swirling tongue around knuckle, then its back to that,

あ：sucking fingers in such an instance would ex-TREMEly be successful, it is perfect bait congratulations tsukasa… it's really the perfect balance of agitating hanako and turning him on with something. it's not like as pest-y or annoying as some other things tsukasa could do, the more pure rascal moves. this is really like. oh yous tupid fuckign slut im. [GRABS YOUR THROAT TOO.] for a second becoming so. throttles.

But also while brain is totally fizzling… cock is twitching, while buried in Nene… drags knuckles up against Tsukasa's front teeth. I don't think it's easy to multitask at all like this. though it's surely a fun experience for tsukasa and nene in the end, kind of feeling jolted suddenly as the focus redirects

つ：i think it gives nene enough reprieve time that she gets to take breaths, take stock, slightly unfog that little brain and feel the twitching in her... necessary when he's being so intense in bursts

あ：tsukasa is here to help take on this monster

つ：you need someone to tag in, ideally.

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あ：I feel. Like I do need to take Avvy behind the scenes where I did get lost in the sauce earlier thinking about Hanako like. bragging about how good the sex is gonna be. The sheer shitty boyfriend aspect at it's apex of like, being showboating and confident in own abilities while being INCONSIDERATE and UNEDUCATED… it's funny to have gotten so distracted though since I was initially just having some sort of corrective emotion abt fanfic. thinking 'tch the scene would go more like…' and then just getting lost. New scene actually I'm doing my own thing

so like. I just ended up thinking about, an instance where hananene has sex immediately wwww… cuz it's such a case of hanako not fact checking his own creed. belief system. (but as much as I don't think he's thinking about it early on when Nene is clearly proposing herself as interested in being his friend, and I think binding himself to her is also just… foolish, ignoring his own rules really.) so he jumpcuts into dipping it and has sheer brainrot from it.

but the precursor to such an event having to be that Nene was so desperate she initiated something, simply a girl more… tempted by the circumstance of having someone into her, feeling more eroded by the concept of them being supernaturally bound. it's as if the roof scene where she proposes to call him 'hanako-kun' also comes with an air of -- cuz, if we're basically a couple… we… we can be more. direct and. [crumbling] and this activates hanako so predatorily like. [amane going fwuun] what's this…?

[scuffs shoe…] well, I was, just being mindless horny so i wasn't factoring realism //// so the scenario devolved in my mind, of Nene grabbing his hand and bringing it between her legs. And Hanako's brain shutting off after this gesture, having been cheeky/flirty but then just being thrown off so hard. but then he starts back up but -- [voice is lower, more out of breath, but sounding cruel…] "You. You…. ah…a… ahah. Ha-!"

licking lips. "You're crazy." ahh, it's just fun to say. "You're just crazy!"

devolving into… just outright grasping her face, tangling through her hair… watches as she tears up from overwhelm and embarrassment. but it doesn't stop him from reaching up and locating pussy -- brain is on autopilot, the. can't not feel it. it's raw instinct. rubbing up at her through tights… heeeat felt. closes eyes for a moment.

“Shouldn’t girls be more careful about this sort of thing…? You never know what a guy could be like, Yashiro.” opens eyes, looking at her pointedly. “What if I did something weird and perverted…? What if you didn’t like it? You’d be stuck with it, though. Cuz you wouldn’t think to say no! Hmm…?” humming.

“… unless, you're really tell yourself you’d like anything. Is that the kind of person you are…?” Continuously rubbing at her, and suddenly feeling an awareness of. wet. fingers are getting damp. Staggered by this, what. Was she really so wet from this? To feel it, through layers of clothing. Did girls get this wet? Kind of blanks. Rubbing… finding, what feels like… what would have to be, the entrance? Throat hurts. The ah… -is a virgin- status effect is unavoidable, in a sense. Starting to feel like shhahshhsh…. G-girl, girl wet, wet about me, right now. [stretch of silence, looks down her] Hot girl. tacks on. for himself, privately. commences shoving hands under her tights and messily moving past any panties, no grace. it's about direct contact now. Though like a maniac gets activated by the soft soft smooth lips, feeling of skin dragging against his fingers, it's like. There's no stopping the urge to shove up into, after locating entrance, pushing up into. This makes Nene buckle and squeeze her legs protectively shut on her own sort of virgin response. S-scared!! scary….

“H… hhhow easy are you?” sounding obviously more ragged… ignoring her anxiety. “Are you going to come quick, for me? Just from my hand?” Toying touches, dabbing his middle finger shallowly inside of her. Make a girl just feel insanely objectified, 'played with'. rgh… clawing at his wrist, clawing at his chest, but he won't budge, keeps flicking fingers. He has no sense of… pace, or, where to touch. it's just a pure obsessive prodding in and out and swirling against, feeling walls stretch.

intrusive thoughts: Want to put it in her. want to feel that want to feel it. [starting to feel the impediments though of. the fact that, if he did that, it would indicate personal desire] -- i wish she would ask for it though. WAIT but she should-- “Mh. M… maybe I should make you, beg for my cock.” sucks breath sharply in, as the statement wounds him as well. “–don’t you, think that’d sound nice…? You wanted to start calling me Hanako-kun, right?” grasping her face. “Hanako-kun, Hanako-kun… like that. Let me hear it?’

Oh but it looks like she’s struggling to breathe, drowning in a lake. Unable to speak. Only sounds she makes are compulsive huffs, whimpers, sniffling. poor little thing.

“Too hard?” click tongue. “Ah… just hands, then.” disappointed sounding.

つ：oh poor girl…. she would feel so. WHAT IS HE SAYING? WHAT'S HAPPENING? early series nene is so helpless… unable to THINK. almost at all

あ：she's not ready for this. FOR REAL PERVERT… WHAT THE H*CK

つ：a Hanako who has revealed nothing about himself either, I think is also the strongest and most powerful Hanako…. before Kou has unveiled his evil murderer thing, Hanako has the ultimate enjoyment of his lying and the image he gets to present. I think early series Hanako is a lunatic and he likes the little performance and his ~new personality just for Nene, and how ignorant she is is so fun. Like ohhh I can convince her I'm any kind of guy❤️

あ：it is like that… i think it's why he can start the tenor of their rship so much like ehe ✌️✌️it's me hanako-san✌️ of the bathroom👌

he is an utter stranger to her and her life is… intrinsically……… kind of… inconsequential… she could die at any point in the next few months… but ah…. yeah it is, fun, to think about a hanako who isn't… yet burdened by his history or much emotional investment in nene. basically the most casual hanako can be

つ：the most cumbrained idiot

あ：feeling like he is just a novelty to a girl. this is the hanako who does a flourish and is like i am No. 7 ….. [does his whole spiel]

つ：oh i can be this kind of guy to this girl. i think it enables him to indulge because its not.. 'real'….? this is… a play. a game. its not me really achieving something, it's pretending i am (goes in real stomach) its funny, even.

あ：purposefully acting cool and mysterious. and playful and flirty as if that's anything what he's like in life or even currently [TO ALL THE OTHER MYSTERIES YOU ARE JUST A CREEP!! NOT CUTE.]

no kou there truly is like, there's no one to . weigh in on anything. to protect nene

only i am smart enough to see this hanako as someone who would be VERY DISRESPECTFUL given the chance. honestly more so than hanako later, who has the barrier of his own feefees stopping him at times. i think chapter 2 hanako would do stuff to a girl if she was passed out and he felt like he could get away with it it's just like. I'll be havin that

つ：yeah agree. When I considered if Hanako has mindwipe powers my brain went 200mph like as if we could suddenly in a later chapter get like secret events that he wiped out of nene's mind and i was also like oughrg [gets sick about the ability] oh no

even if tsukasa had an ability suchas that. its at least not unusual for supernaturals to manipulate memories very easily as seen repeatedly. If she just saw some exchange and hanako or tsukasa was like… ❤️you are not supposed to be aware of this thing yet. not time!! gonna have to pluck that out❤️ the concept of this kind of finesse in manipulating nene would just make me too horny if it were true

あ：oh if it could be soo rich…. the amount our girl might not know she is being fucked with. i AM really intrigued by hanako having any fucking capacity to control nene remembering something

つ：anyway… I agree with Bird that early hanako would be in fact more capable than later hanako, who is more worried about what certain behavior 'says' about him, or how it influences her perception….

early boy is very sincerely not…. valuing anything, or doesn't think he is. it's silly funny times. Hanako isn't a real person, to him…. to himself

あ：ahm yeah…. Like later hanako is dealing with finding this precious and worrying about incurring risk. and, i think the intensity of his own want scares him instinctively. since it can't be framed as casual at all, to want to do things with Nene, even getting a cheek kiss from her becomes intense

… an earlier series boy is just not analyzing himself at all, it's all so "whatever" and he's unchecked and unregulated. there's no one to answer to, when you're a lonesome supernatural haunting their domain day in and day out. hanako is too busy being pleased that there's something to break the monotony

it was really just a 'time to imagine hanako saying the worst things' run ww. just going to brutally finger a girl and commenting on it aloud, depraved. observing her like a particle. but also since he's not being careful i think he's also easily praiseful like wow. awesome pussy You're really suited for this

つ：Hanako like aah those boys turning you down, they're really missing out…. ! Lucky for me isn't it ? [humms pleasantly] poor nene like l-lucky..? cries for real d.. do you. do you-- i. do you really fffeel.. lucky….

あ：hanako two wolves'ing for a second where it's like. [admires how for real emotional she seems about this, wow…] but hten like [CROWN DESCENDS, AS HE SEES HOW SHE LOOKS LIKE SHE IS HANGING ON HIS EVERY WORD-!!!!!! MWAHAHAH!!!!!] Ohhhhh ssso lucky yes.❤️ Aw… you like to hear that don't you… Do you want to hear it again? [fingers stroke slowly]

… it's insufferable…….

つ：weak sniffle and nod

the sadness is in how sincere nene is experiencing it and how fake hanako is performing gklf;dgk it literally is a crime!!! its a crime to do this to a girl

あ：god will come for him later [tsukasa]

つ：you'll get pantsed in due time

あ：tsukasa stepping into the scene later like amane… it's not good to mess with girls feelings its really serious for them

つ：I think getting Nene to ask/beg for more particular things is something you have to be patient for… she will go home and feel deeply disappointed in herself and violently cockthirsty and write poems about how it felt and how bad she wants it. actually it would be dope of her to write crazy poems and then be like. i wish i could say this to him….. …. m.. maybe I can just show him… my book….? then… I don't have to say it… with my mouth, which is stupid

あ：I like the thought though of Nene using poetry as a way to communicate with Hanako and bypass the sheer inability to use her mouf… TO be fair I really do think Hanako just drops pretenses of like. bathroom duty. like. [makes up excuse] you proved yourself as a dutiful assistant. but we're closer than that now we don't have to just pal around. in the bathroom.

She's dealing with less like. thine wench. vibes [guy starts massaging your shoulders]

つ：its like Hanako needs to humiliate her to feel anything in canon but if he was dipping it he'd put his feet up like. you are keeping the king stress free

so much easier to do my job if i can take a load off in between mmmm. ahhhh. its like a spa day

あ：let's just roll out that picnic blanket how bout

つ：Hanako kicking up his feet. licking his finger. to read a teen girl's little book about him.

あ：kind of smiling blankly in that way he do

つ：but I dunno how reading it would go….. if it would be pure wild arrogance inducing or if it would make him dokis a bit…..

あ：oh i dont think he's actually ready to read like artful word s… I think the first flare of emotion is arrogance, hums pleasantly opening your book and scanning over it. but- but like… he does have a whinging poetics side, we see it most in amane. the one who desires to think abstractly, talking about the moon and stars. i think reading poetry about self is like ,,, ,,, ,,, ,,. [smile quietly fades] …. this would be his first real, feeling bad about how authentic she is being. [internally] Ah, she's really ah…. not holding back, huh… Mmn. She's really not careful enough with herself.

admittedly its like. i thought i made her pussy hurt. i didnt think there was more to it

[the guy who, has never heard a girl say suki before] ..,, [rubs mouth.]

つ：confronting that….. it has to spark that. mmm should I really be trusted with this… a girl like this is going to get so very hurt… or, well, she isn't , now is she (she'll die soon)….. (realizing he will be the only guy she writes this sortof thing about. gets a little horny on accident)

its like mmm…? maybe its… harmless, in fact….. if this little play goes on until she just dies. then she'll just have, in HER mind, had a good time. with a guy.

and its better with me and not a living guy who would have to be hurt when she dies. if she were pouring this out into some guy who would go crazy when she dies. as people are wont to do.

あ：Yep. it's a good thing then, that she do this with me. A guy who won't go crazy. and won't care if she dies. Yep…………….

つ：take a deep breath. close the book. stand up. close eyes. unzip pants,

あ：i want every petal I'll just be her little boyfriend until she dies

つ：simply bend you over. thank you for your honesty, yashiro. it was very lovely to read. I will give you all you want. there won't be a single thing left unexperienced. If you have the whim, you should tell me it. Any thing. We're close like that.

あ：Eugh… the thought of Hanako framing this as him being very generous, in the end. this would be like. if this was the manga -- this would be where Hanako says something eerily similar to Tsukasa in terms of, Anything you want, you should have it, right? I'm here for that

[but it's hanako so he says things far sicker….] I'm a supernatural, I'm not a person. It's different, for me. I won't be anything like some guy in your class. … you won't want to bother with them anymore, though, right?

つ：shakes head…. I think Nene….. would…. bbe sso sick… I do think she'd…. be planning/fantasizing about getting a job at the school…. which. i would like hanako to. catch her asking like, tsuchigomori about, career counseling guy

thinking hard about how hanako is a ghost… bound to the school… so. she. has to stay here… how can she do that…. just wonder what positions are open and how one can start at a thing like that…. what class she'd teach… Hanako observing Nene planning for her future dutifully with him would. be . ow

sigh…. mmngh. [meanly, in his head] is the sex that good, yashiro….

あ：damn girl….

つ：she really is far too easily won over….

あ：it's actually a good thing she's dying soon. sheesh… you can't switch career paths for getting dicked down 💭… ………….❔ is she even thinking about the fact that… i'm going to stay…. 13.

つ：SHE'S NOT!!!

あ：chinhands. poor little dummy. in many ways, not meant to live, ig

つ：she is so simple. pitiable thing. oh girls!

あ：this is actually why i need to keep this pussy on lock she's also lucky im a ghost so i can raw her and she will not suffer consequences. idk if she's thinking about that also

つ：this all also might be more dangerous for another guy. this kind of , raw…. emotion, investment. a bit much, isn't it? that would overwhelm a guy…. if his highschool girlfriend is thinking about their future. kowaiii lol…..

あ：it's a shame some girls are just like that… and they can't help it, i guess. a shame cuz this world really isn't built for them to thrive. even if they're hot as fuck www

つ：this world where hanako can more blatantly just think like mrmgnauh hot slut

あ：bagged a sexay one what can i say i love oats and apples…

つ：this world would just be like fucking on the roof and tsukasa shows up. but ALTERNATELY, its interesting to introduce kou. while you guys are having to like. hide. that you fuck. from him. hanako like hey. yashiro. this guys family. they all dont like. guys like me. lets not. reveal. our. taboo relationship. ok its not. a thing. people would approve of. you know.

but mmm the drop of him being a murderer…. i think 'secret's out.' is the same no matter what. its like :p always.

あ：shoganai ne.

つ：oopsie doopsies. awe I was trying to keep the narrative all neat and clean…..

あ：was trying to keep this romantic. but oh well but what's kind of devastating is nene. already in canon is like. i… you're my friend anyways…

つ：she's really so surprisingly and far too overly accepting of him in canon…

あ：so. idk. a girl being absolutely railed and feeling such feefees…

つ：if anything this girl is even more poisoned like [not true but how she feels] but he is... a good boyfriend....

あ：[hanako making some new expression about this]

つ：pog

あ：inventing a new emotion

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