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My HTTYD NATM fic is getting a re-write

Why? Cause I realized that it's a beat for beat of the movie and I want it to have those touches of NATM

Tell me whatcha think, much appreciated :]

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"I fucked with the forces that our eyes can't see, and now the darkness got a hold on me"

Hello hello! I made a fun poster-like of my MC from the novel I'm writing, paying homage to the album that inspired it all, I'm actually super happy about how it came out!!!

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(t/cw for swearing & implications at abuse)

It was just a simple solution, it was simple. Simple! And yet, somehow in this convoluted mess of a museum he just had to end up in the one place where anybody has a trace of memory of who he was supposed to be, of who he was before this. Of what he went through before it all came crashing down on him, of course he had to! And they could do nothing but wait, that's what he spent his whole life doing, waiting.

And then came oblivion, finally willing to take him and he willingly accepted his trip down the Styx. Until Anubis asked for a favor, 50 odd end years ago, he asked for a favor

So now he waits- he paces, he paces until the granite should get worn down, until his legs burn and his lungs scream, until he feels fit to fall apart held together by the straps of his armour, Jedediah was by all means, entranced by this side of Rome, a more accurate Rome, an Augustian Rome, one he carved, one he sculpted, one he burned. He left that Rome behind, they called him by Octavius and nothing more, and that’s who he is, Octavius, *Ockie*. By all means, except in the daylight, human.

Not here, he killed the Emperor, he watched him die slowly by disease and none of his family wept, Rome mourned the man they saw, not the man he was, he wasn't strong, he wasn't kind, he wasn't peaceful, he was weak and selfish and a coward and so, so angry, animistically, Achillianly, he was fit to murder the senator himself so he's pacing, pacing to do something, pacing to keep his mind off it, pacing to try and ignore who- no, what he saw.

The door creaked.

“Augustus?”

No, no, don't you fucking dare!

“Augustus!”

The hug he's trapped in makes him want to vomit, he wants to tear off his skin and burn it, his lungs fail to breath, his heart pounds like a rabbit in a snare, his blood boils, he can feel his face twisting up in disgust. His friends, his accomplices, look at him like his some monster, like Athena transformed him right then and there, he pulls back and frowns “are you not happy to see me? After all these years?” He can't say anything, if he goes, he'll surely scream so loud his vocal chords will snap like the string of a bow, simple, methodical, fatal. “I thought you'd be a little happy to see me, I gave you an empire after all!” The general steps back, he has to, he has to, to run, to flee, to avoid death and punishment, he's telling himself, but he knows deep down that if he doesn't step away one of them will surely meet one of the fates.

“How have you been all these years?” He trains his eyes on the man who ruined half a century, half a gods-forsaken Century for him. “Good, once I figured out how to forget all that you've taught me” he looks hurt, good. “All? Really?” It's a ploy, a silly little trick, he always said, a play, gaslighting, manipulation Nicky had told him. “Yes” he responds “after all I did for you” he says, looking away “you really hate me that much?”

A dull, pathetic laugh pushes it's way out, carving, not slicing, it turns into something manic, something Cesarean. “Hate? Oh, let me tell you how much I've come to hate you since I began to live! There are one million, three hundred and twenty thousand cubic meters, that fill the colosseum in my diorama” he had begun to progress, pushing into Ceasar’s space, defying it, disrespecting it, it was exhilarating “if the word ‘hate’ was engraved into each nanometer of a nanometer of those hundreds of thousands of meters, it would not mean a one-billionth of the hate I feel for you at this very instant. All for you, hate, hate!” His laughing had turned feral as Ceasar actually physically dropped in fear, looking at him as if he was some sort of creature, something inhuman.

He looked at him and steadied his breath, chuckles still coming out of him with regards for how they view his sanity, it's not like he has an empire to run, does he? “You do not know the meaning of the word, but I, I have lived it because of you, isn't that funny?” The general smiled, sighed contently “I hate you” he said with that same smile

“Ockie!” The general looked over to his cowboy, smiling and waving excitedly “gigantor’s boyfriend finally figured out what from where, hurry up, we gots an pharaoh ta save!” Octavius sighs again and looks down at the man who is now him, terrified, shaking, anticipating the next words, praying to the gods that it would just end “vade in Tartarum, meretrix” the general coo’ed, happily walking out and stopping side by side with the cowboy “who was that by the way?”

“Oh, nobody important”

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Non binary Jedediah my beloved

I'm NB Jed's number 1 fan (mostly cause I'm NB and everyone calls me a cowboy)

I know ppl like gnc!octavius bc of his pteruges looking like a skirt but hear me out… nb!jedediah dressing more gnc/ambiguously since they came out

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What's this? A selkie fic? Who woulda guessed!

(CW: sort of gore/body horror? Nothing graphic but please just scroll past if it makes you squeamish!)

((poses referenced from mellon_soup on Patreon! All free to use but please go check them out!))

Hey hey! Thank you @chuffedchough for giving me the inspiration to finish this lol

I think I'm starting to get the hang of this simplified version of my art style! And this is the first time using a monochrome pallet, everyone welcome Selkie!Octavius, sorry if it doesn't quite look like him, I did this without much reference and I couldn't resist giving him curly hair lol, I also tried to get the actual vein structure of a seal but I could not for the LIFE of me find a good reference so I ended up using what I believe the heart capillaries are? Either way, I think it looks cool and it's a sketch so, who cares

Please let me know if you'd like more Selkietavius in the future, or if you would like to see a fully rendered piece! This was definitely my favorite AU to make by far!

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(CW: sort of gore/body horror? Nothing graphic but please just scroll past if it makes you squeamish!)

((poses referenced from mellon_soup on Patreon! All free to use but please go check them out!))

Hey hey! Thank you @chuffedchough for giving me the inspiration to finish this lol

I think I'm starting to get the hang of this simplified version of my art style! And this is the first time using a monochrome pallet, everyone welcome Selkie!Octavius, sorry if it doesn't quite look like him, I did this without much reference and I couldn't resist giving him curly hair lol, I also tried to get the actual vein structure of a seal but I could not for the LIFE of me find a good reference so I ended up using what I believe the heart capillaries are? Either way, I think it looks cool and it's a sketch so, who cares

Please let me know if you'd like more Selkietavius in the future, or if you would like to see a fully rendered piece! This was definitely my favorite AU to make by far!

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Say it with me people

ART IS SUPPOSED TO BE WEIRD

That character is odd? That's probably intentional. The trees are different? Ask why, maybe there's a reason. You're creeped out cause there's bones and gore? Scroll on past brother. It's edgy and dark? Alright, it's meant to be that way. It looks shitty? Too bad, maybe they like it

SOMETIMES ART ISNT FOR YOU, AND THAT DOESNT MAKE IT BAD

THE ONLY BAD ART IS ONE MADE WITH NO HEART AT ALL OR MALICE, YOU CAN BE A HORRIBLE PERSON AND MAKE GOOD ART

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I love them, look at the sillies

This reminded me that I should finish making those lil desktop buddies of Jedtavius

Wow holy shit y’all love Jedtavius lol

I was surprised at how much activity was on my last post especially after unknowingly blocking myself as my friend put it lmao

I wanted to draw more of them but school’s kinda starting for me again and I have a lot going on so like, have these doodles I did on whiteboard💥

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@monkey-suncle gay

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If I ever make something where the NATM fam goes back in time at any point in time, it's gonna be the 1800's and Jed and Wea will be the duo, because I want them to be utterly confused by the world even though the both lived relatively near that area of time

Some random guy: *being racist/sexist/homophobic*

Jed and Wea: *confusion*

Person helping: "why are you so confused???"

Jed, who lives with multiple cultures and accepts all of them so he just dead ass kinda forgot racism exists:

Wea, who's been living with the middle aged white men equivalent of an old married couple for the past 50 years:

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I'ma say something that I've seen people both debate and not give a shit about;

I genuinely liked Encanto

I know people give it shit because it doesn't have a clear villain like the originals, or that its shallow, or they don't like the characters, they think it's cheap, don't like the music, only like it because of the music, I don't care

I liked it cause I could see myself in the main character, which is what I think people aren't understanding, I don't like it cause the "hit song" or the fantasy aspect, I like it because of the "I will...never be good enough for you, no matter how hard I try" and say what you will, it should e been this, it should've been that, Bruno should've been a villain, Maribel should've been a villain, etc, etc

I think her finally fitting in is a nice sentiment, I like the ending, yes, but I like the problem a lot more, because I have that, I see that, I AM Maribel for the lot of the movie, almost all of the movie

And that's why I like it

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"oh my boyfriend forgot [insert thing], he must not care :(" sucks to suck bro, mine just bought me a chicken wrap. From Wisconsin. Four states away.

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"crawlin' back to you/I'm too busy bein' yours to fall for someone new"

Happy pride y'all! This ain't my favorite nor is it my best work, I tried a different kind of style and I don't think I pulled it off all that well, I got the pose reference off of Pinterest of what I can assume is Helen and Paris? I sadly couldn't find the original artist but if you know what I'm talking about and know the artist please let me know!

Happy Jedtavius month lmao, stay safe and stay strong, we got this!

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Why representation matters! PM, you're doing great :D

sana is like.. 70% of why I'm no longer self conscious about my body

im literally built like her. hips/thighs and all , and i was talking about how she's my favorite coswan character with my friends and they went "dude.. you look like her, you realize that right?"

and my world view shifted

Well shucks, that’s so moving to hear~

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"don't argue with people online!! It's a waste of time and means nothing in the end!!" Wrong. I am studying them. Like bugs

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Real lol

Saw a post on here(I think?? Idk) where they said, what if the reason that Viktor didn’t think he’d get the chance to speak to Jayce again, was because he jumped but this time Viktor wasn’t there to stop him. I didn’t enjoy that and made this after.

Also I gave up on them like part way through cause finals are kicking my ass

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HOW DID YOU KNOW I WAS READING THIS??

I LOVE YOU BTW, SO MUCH

Loving my partner hours again

Today’s topic; I’m like really protective of them? Concerningly so?

I was thinking about when i was with them, how i would hold them, and i realized id always hold them with my dominant arm

When we were in the car together anytime I felt even a little uneasy, or a car got too close, or when a semi changed lanes in front of us, just anything that could be of any sort of even potential danger even though it was completely irrational, I’d hold them a little closer.

They were telling me about an old classmate who was shitty to them and I squeezed their arm and held them a bit tighter, and they told me they were fine, and I knew they were, it was a while ago, but in my head I was like; “I know you are, baby. this is for me, so I don’t go find the motherfucker.”

But anyway the reason this was on my mind- I made a post on other socials about them with pictures of them, (cause they’re gorgeous and I’m obsessed with them) and my grandpa saw it, and was apparently talking shit about them to my cousin who told me about it and I honestly do not remember a time where I’ve been that mad at my grandfather. like we already knew his not a great person, “stuck in his ways” and whatever bullshit excuse my family give him to keep allowing him to be an asshole, but i really didn’t mind it when they’d talk about me. how “she thinks she’s a they them now she’s so brainwashed” or when my mom would mention a boyfriend and he and grandma would go “at least she’s dating a boy” i kinda just accepted that they wouldn’t be accepting. but the second he started talking about my partner like that? My sweet partner? I never wanted to speak to him again cause I was afraid of what I’d say, I was shaking reading the texts from my cousin and had to calm myself before going to work because what the fuck?? Who does he think he is commenting on my relationship??

But he’s just old and bitter and an asshole so it’s not like his opinion matters especially not on something like this

It still bugs me though for whatever reason

I’ll get over it though I’m sure

But more kisses would help if you’re reading this, my love just sayin <33