#i was rlly glad i still knew how to sing this one song and he has to be an asshole :)

[ochaka-archive]

Okay the singing class went well but when I got downstairs my dad immediately went "what were you excusing yourself for what did your teacher say" in his asshole voice and like wtf !! Kill me!

[mag200]

my initial reactions to red tv

(i wrote this down on my first listen thru but was way too exhausted that night to post it lol)

state of grace: it sounds like, kinda rushed but i think that’s probably just me being a little anxious cause its one of my favorite songs. she sounds fantastic oh my god the notes

red: OH HELL YEAH SHE SOUNDS GOOOOOOOD. the guitar!! the production!! im obsessed this song was already so good and just feels like revitalized now i love it. THE BRIIIIIDDGE. it fucks!!!

treacherous: oh she sounds so soft and good its stunning how much her voice has matured in the last decade. gorgeous incredible showstopping. the background vox are perfection

ikywt: oh it slaps i knew it would. the beat drop sounds a little more modern i love it. i can hear so much more in the background its so cool.

all too well: 🥺🥺🥺🥺🥺🥺 she sounds so good but im crying oh god.

22: oh this is so good and fun. i love that shes almost 32 singing this you can hear her having fun with it. it definitely sounds less authentically young than the og does but i think her voice and the production are also more pleasant to listen to now. im so excited for anyone whos 22 right now and has this.

i almost do: ohh the “i cant say hello to you” line hit DIFFERENT i love it. the guitar coming thru in the last chorus actually reminds me so much of debut era which i am SO excited to hear rerecorded. god she can do things with ballads now that she couldnt before and its so good. like 3 separate syllables in “mess” in “we made quite a mess babe” it sounds excellent.

wanegbt: shes gotten so good at the singing-like-shes-talking thing the snark comes thru so strong blondie i love u. its a bop it sounds so great. the “wheeeEEE” is so high pitched but i think its funny

stay stay stay: oh her voice sounds softer i really like it. the fake country twang has returned lol good for her. recreating the giggle “its so fun” at the end feels Mildly weird to me but whatever its cute.

the last time: OH HI GARY LIGHTBODY his vocals sound soo good. IS THAT A HEARTBEAT IN THE BACKGROUND. UHHhhhhh??? OH. OH WOW. aAHh. okay!! okay. i feel normal and fine. this fucks. everything sounds so clear. its cinematic. groundbreaking spectacular.

holy ground: YEAH YEAH YEAHHHHHHH BABEYYYY. god she sounds so fucking good im losing braincells. i was hoping she’d do the deep throaty joan jett “DUST!!” she did at that one 2017 (i think?) show but its still good.

sad beautiful tragic: this needs to be in a movie someone needs to use tbis. fuck its good. this song doesnt need a big show to be spectacular its just so fucking cutthroat shes just such a good writer.

the lucky one: her singing this after 2016 hits different huh ah its soo good tho. ppl always slept on this one but its a banger.

everything has changed: good lord this album is long. ok. ed sheeran sucks but its a good song. i dont like that i can hear more of eds backing vox in taylors lines hes so annoying.“all i know is pouring rain” always fuckin gets me its good. she sounds stunning.

starlight: i am literally a barbie on the boardwalk. she sounds SO GOOD god!!! this bitch really tried so hard to become a kennedy. go girlboss. the new production does so much for this song i love it.

begin again: this songs perfect always has been always will be <33

the moment i knew: he literally didnt go to her birthday party…. anyway hhghh ive always loved this one its just so big and sparkly and dramatic and heartbreaking.

come back be here: yeah yeahhhh yeAHHHH always been in like my top ten songs im so glad to have this. not much different rlly but her vocals are insane. love u blondie

girl at home: OHHH IFS SO DIFFERENT AND COOL!!! i love the og but i think taylor was like no one likes this so i can do what i want. anyway its VERY cool & reminds me of 1989 and rep. girl isnt at home shes in a club i think. i like it!!

state of grace acoustic: mystical and enchanting <333

ronan: yeah i cant handle this song im listening to it once for release night but probably wont be listening much its too rough. she sounds good but christ dude.

better man: oooh the melody changes are interesting. i think its gonna grow on me i kinda liked the stripped back country approach to it more but i like hearing taylor do it more than little big town.

nothing new: PHHHOOOOEEEEBE!!! she got a verse <33 oh fuck these lyrics hits hard. women.

babe: what about your PROMISES PROMISES??? what ABOUT them!!! hearing this in her voice just hits different.

message in a bottle: ooh this is SO glittery sparkly christmas pop. like this sounds like a christmas song. this is the prelude to christmas tree farm. its cute!! it feels like a disney song lmao i like it tho

i bet you think about me: it sounds so good i rlly enjoy the sound but this is SO funny does taylor think shes poor? im sorry girlie do you think you grew up a poor working class farm girl?? bestie???????? its a good song tho. fuck the gyllenhaals. “your organic shoes” ajdjfjjsjdjd get his ass

forever winter: the way im getting i’d lie vibes from this omg. love it. its another christmas pop ballad. im convinced im hearing sleigh bells in the background. good for her.

run: tragically im forced to really like a song that has ed sheeran in it. wish they would stop doing this to me hes so annoying but its a rlly good song. kinda reminds me of dead hearts by stars.

the very first night: they dont know!! about the night!! in the hotel!!!!!! the prologue to dress. once again this is quite clearly a christmas bop. did taylor want to write an og christmas album in 2012??? this is very fun tho im enjoying it.

all too well 10mv: mentally im unwell. blondie signed my death certificate w this one. like. oh wow. all the new lore about this rlly changes the perspective on this relationship and makes it sound so much more toxic than the og atw did. “ILL GET OLDER BUT YOUR LOVERS WILL STAY MY AGE.” im revving my chainsaw. im crying in a river. the production!!! i rlly like the drums and the light synth its different but not too different from the original. the lyrics holy fuck taylors taking no hostages. “just between us did the love affair maim you too?” i wasnt even there and it maimed me so. that outro is so haunting she literally sounds like a ghost.

[sunshinecrashed]

Hii again! Hope you're having a nice day! How about prompt 42 of the clichè prompt list with Tsukasa? I just love this adorable psychopath. OwO

ʏᴏᴜ ᴄᴀʟʟ ᴛʜᴀᴛ ᴀ ᴅᴀᴛᴇ?

𝗍𝗌𝗎𝗄𝖺𝗌𝖺 𝗒𝗎𝗀𝗂 𝗑 𝗋𝖾𝖺𝖽𝖾𝗋

𝟧𝟢 𝖼𝗅𝗂𝖼𝗁𝖾 𝗍𝗋𝗈𝗉𝖾𝗌 𝖺𝗇𝖽 𝗉𝗋𝗈𝗆𝗉𝗍𝗌, #𝟦𝟤. “𝗂’𝗆 𝗀𝗈𝗂𝗇𝗀 𝗍𝗈 𝗌𝖺𝗏𝖾 𝗒𝗈𝗎 𝖿𝗋𝗈𝗆 𝗍𝗁𝖾 𝗍𝖾𝗋𝗋𝗂𝖻𝗅𝖾 𝖽𝖺𝗍𝖾 𝗒𝗈𝗎’𝗋𝖾 𝗁𝖺𝗏𝗂𝗇𝗀.” 

𝘀𝘂𝗺𝗺𝗮𝗿𝘆: 𝘁𝗼 𝗽𝘂𝘁 𝗶𝘁 𝘀𝗶𝗺𝗽𝗹𝘆; 𝘁𝘀𝘂𝗸𝗮𝘀𝗮 𝘂𝘀𝗲𝘀 𝘀𝗼𝗺𝗲 𝗾𝘂𝗲𝘀𝘁𝗶𝗼𝗻𝗮𝗯𝗹𝗲 𝘄𝗮𝘆𝘀 𝘁𝗼 𝗵𝗲𝗹𝗽 𝘆𝗼𝘂 𝗲𝘀𝗰𝗮𝗽𝗲 𝗳𝗿𝗼𝗺 𝘆𝗼𝘂𝗿 𝗵𝗼𝗿𝗿𝗲𝗻𝗱𝗼𝘂𝘀 𝗱𝗮𝘁𝗲. 

word count: ~1.4k

↳ warnings: a rlly self-absorbed classmate, buckets of sarcasm, some cursing, and uhh,,, jumping out of a window,,,,,,,

a/n: i just gotta say this rlly quickly, thank u for being so patient!! i hope ur having a nice day too 🥺💕let me know if there was anything u wanted to change!

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“[Name], I think I really like you! I was wondering if I could take you on a date?” your classmate, Ryou asked you, handing you a small gift box. 

You questioningly cup the box in your hands, your eyes flitting over the wrapping before looking up to meet your admirer. 

“I.. didn’t know you felt this way about me.” you admit. Ryou was someone who you occasionally talked to during class, and he was fairly popular for his status and charming looks. But still, this was so.. sudden?

After a short pause to think, you concluded, “But I wouldn’t mind going on a date to get to know you better. Here,” you scribbled down your number on a scrap piece of paper before handing it to him. “I’ll let you know when I’m free, and we can go from there!” 

“For sure! I’ll talk to you later, cutie!” Ryou flashed you a grin and waved, rounding the corner to go meet up with some friends. 

As you turned away with a bubbly smile, you found yourself almost knocking into a curious Tsukasa. 

“So.. Who was that, [Name]?” 

“Tsukasa!” you jumped. “That’s a classmate of mine. He asked me out on a date, isn’t that exciting?” You playfully twirled around him as he attempted to hold you still.

 “You can’t just go on a date with some random person and not expect me to be.. to be…” He blinked, uncharacteristically trailing off. 

“Tsu..kasa?” 

“Ah, nevermind!” His cheerful demeanor was back in a flash, so quickly that you thought.. maybe you were imagining that out-of-the-blue mood swing? 

While you opened your mouth to question his odd behavior, Tsukasa grabbed your wrist and started to lead you back into the school, hastily changing the subject.

You weren’t given any more time to dwell on his mysterious reaction. 

After a few days of texting back and forth with Ryou, you agreed to meet him at a local coffee shop on the weekend. It was a quaint little place, and despite its limited space, it still had a small second story that made up for the lack of room on the bottom floor. 

You ordered a simple mocha with whipped cream for yourself and sat down at a booth on the top floor. 

‘Okay, he’s a little late..’ you thought to yourself as you peeked at the clock. 

After twenty minutes passed, you narrowed your eyes and stepped out of the booth to promptly leave. ‘..He’s not coming.’

But right as you stood up, you came face-to-face with a Ryou, a relaxed expression on his face.

“Ah, sorry for being late. Something came up that I had to take care of.” He didn’t seem like was in a hurry at all. 

The crease in your brow softened, and you sat back down. “It’s fine, I understand. I wasn’t sure what kind of coffee you liked, so I just got you a simple latte.” 

Ryou made a disgusted face and nudged the cup away from him. “Really? A latte? I’m not a big coffee drinker, you know.” 

‘Then why did you want to bring me to a damn coffee shop‒’

You plastered a calm smile on your face, muting your internal screaming. “O-kay. Then, what do you like to drink instead?” 

“I’m so glad you asked! I’m a great fan of tea. My family actually runs a highly successful business…”

 He droned on, and on, and on, talking about himself and his accomplishments. Or rather, his family’s accomplishments, while throwing in a back-handed compliment to you here and there. 

He didn’t ask you a single question about yourself. When you tried to contribute to the one-sided conversation, he would either cut you off, or wait impatiently for you to finish, before continuing where he left off in his “dramatic” life story. 

An hour hadn’t even passed before you were already thinking, ‘how the hell do I get out of here’. 

While he paused to take a breath, you quickly interjected, “Hey, so, I think you are a pretty nice guy and all, but I don’t think our interests are aligned‒”

“You aren’t trying to ditch me, are you?” 

His sudden question almost gave you whiplash. With your most deadpan expression you stated, “I have no idea what you’re talking about.” 

Maybe he would finally get the hint‒

“Great! We’re on the same page!” How the hell could someone be so.. dense? 

Ryou’s eyes moved past you as he spotted some school friends.

 “HEY, over here!” He shot up out of his seat with a huge wave, already heading over in their direction. “[Name], could you give me a second here? I need to talk with them about something really quick!” 

You internally sighed with relief. “By all means, take all the time you need.” 

He joked, “You better not be gone by the time I get back! Haha!” 

Once he was a fair distance away, you mumbled under your breath, “And wouldn’t that be tragic..” 

You shoved your face into your hands in exasperation. 

Tap-tap‒ 

Someone’s.. tapping your shoulder? 

As you lift your head up, someone’s hands cover your eyes. 

“Guess who?” a sing-song voice called. 

“Wait.. Tsukasa??” You questioned, confusion riddling your voice. “How the hell did you find me?” 

He took his hands off from your eyes and gave you a sly smile. 

“Well, I followed you, of course. And I,” Tsukasa settled into the booth across from you, “‒am going to save you from this terrible date you’re having.” 

Both of your eyes glittered with mischief.

“I... like the sound of that.” 

A vivacious smile tugged at the corners of your mouth. With a fleeting glance around the room to confirm that your date was still distracted, you leaned across the table to whisper to your favorite ghost. “So, what’s the plan?” you asked. 

“On a scale of one to ten, how.. Ambitious are you willing to be?” 

“A million.”

“Oh,” you could immediately tell that you made the wrong decision, and Tsukasa knew it.

 “Well in that case..!”

. . . . .

“I am not jumping out of a window.” 

“C’mon! It’s not that far of a fall!” Tsukasa pouted. “You did say that you were willing to do anything!” he called from below. 

You were currently looking down at him from the second-story bathroom window. With a bite of your lip, you threw your leg over the side and hung onto the edge of the window frame. “Tsukasa..” 

“And besides,” he continued. “He’s blocking your only other entrance! This is your best bet, [Name], I’m telling you!” 

You pointed a finger at him menacingly. “If you fail to catch me, I’m going to come back as a ghost and knock the shit out of you. You hear me?” 

“Aye-aye captain!” Tsukasa yelled back with a cheeky grin. 

Taking a deep breath, you muttered, “Okay, here we go..” 

“One.. two.. Three‒!”

You shut your eyes as tight as you possibly could and let go of the window frame. 

For a solid couple of seconds, you could hear the wind rushing past your ears as your stomach dropped. 

‘ohfuckohfuckohfuck‒’

And even though it only lasted a moment, you were still surprised when you felt a pair of arms quickly secure around your waist. 

Opening your eyes cautiously, you looked up and met Tsukasa’s wide, golden eyes. He was just as surprised as you were. 

“Hey, you actually caught me!” You cheered and wrapped your arms around Tsukasa’s neck in a make-shift hug. Your warmth enveloped him, and he allowed himself to indulge in it.. just this once. 

He gave you a child-like laugh, “Aww, you don’t trust me? You wound me, [Name].” 

Tsukasa set you down onto your feet, but didn’t quite let go of you yet. You had a beaming expression on your face, and your cheeks were tinted just a little red from the excitement rushing through your veins. 

That’s the expression that made the odd, bubbly feeling grow in his chest.

“Wait,” He started, piercing you with those cat-like eyes, “Shouldn’t I get something in return for saving you?” 

Oh fuck. You should have figured he would sneak up on you with this. He may not look like it, but he really knows how to get what he wants.  

You chuckled, already seeing where this was going. “Oh yeah? And what would that be?” 

“A date, of course!” he brightly exclaimed.

You plucked the hat off of his head and placed it on your own; this time, with a victorious smile.

“You know.. If all of your dates end up like this,” you gestured to how close you two currently were, 

“‒Then I just might have to take you up on that offer.” 

[catboyshinsou]

it doesn’t have to be 18+ but i keep thinking of like,,, singer/performer y/n x keigo ??? like he goes to a performance and gets flustered or soth over the lyrics or the choreo,,,, thank you <3333

Eyes don't lie

pairing: Hawks x gn! performer reader

warnings: none rlly ? choking mention maybe

summary: hawks is assigned as security guard at an upcoming artists show

a/n: sorry it took so long :P also i hope this is okay for u even if i drifted from the request a bit <3

In a world full of quirks, heroes act as celebrities and law enforcement. There wasn't one country or place you could go where people didn't adore heroes, even in the tiniest villages you could find one or the other All Might or Endeavour fan lurking around the streets.

You yourself weren't a fan of heroism. You could appreciate the ones that dedicated their life to it, whether it be as a part of hero society or a mere fan but the streets just weren't your terrain to play on.

Yet you loved the spotlight, being admired and making people smile. Being on the big stage and having a stadium chant your songs with you while your dancers and band hyped everyone up. That was what you'd craved all your life.

It was the first time in a while since you performed in Japan. You tried to visit home as often as possible and give it the best performances even if your management wanted to focus on your breakthrough in the west. It wasn't like you didn't have a big enough fan base in the west to not sell tickets but somehow your management wanted to make you a real deal, even though you did this for fun not fame.

“KYUSHUUUUU! HOW ARE WE TONIGHT?!”

After your band played the opening of your intro song, you stepped on stage with confetti flying through the arena. The crowd cheered at your appearance while also humming along to the melody. You adjusted your outfit, pulling on the places that had moved from their original position while getting ready to start the night.

It wasn't unusual for heroes to be recruited as security forces in public events. Especially with the League of Villains on the rise and using public spaces to intimidate people, the commission was extra careful on the streets.

Hawks, currently number 3 hero on the Japanese Hero Billboards, sat in the security booth with his feet kicked up and a soda can in his hand. The venue was his patrol territory, it was close to his agency and had the best layout for him to keep an eye on everyone.

Though he didn't do this on his own accord. Concerts were worse to watch over for him, the music and constant movement made it hard for him to actually listen to potential threats. His feathers sensed everything, even giving him a light headache from having to process everything but still stay alert enough to react as fast as possible.

“I know I haven't been… too present in Japan the last few months…” You walked around the stage, waving and winking at the front rows as your stage crew changed the setups. The spotlight only showed you, everything else in darkness except for some flashlights in the crowd and light sticks that weren't yours, blinking in a colourful pattern. You weren't sure if it was trying one's best to support or mockery but either way you appreciated the effort.

The crowd booed in response to your comment on your almost year abroad, all in a lighthearted manner of course but your tummy couldn't help but turn. Especially at this next number which was again, not entirely your idea but part of the plan of breaking through in the west. At least they gave you the opportunity to choose the song.

Hawks watched you intently, cocking an eyebrow at your trembles and tight grasp around the mic. There was a bunch of his feathers placed around the stage area to keep you as safe as he could and the one that you had around your neck was the loudest of them all.

Of course nobody in the audience noticed your nervousness, it took a trained eye to look through the cover of a pop star but your elevated heart wasn't from your performance and the shaking in your hands most definitely not from you being tired. He looked into the crowd.

Was there anyone suspicious he had missed? No that couldn't be. Him and 3 of his sidekicks were watching over this place, there couldn't be any type of danger around. Maybe it was something personal? An ex maybe? Would that pose a threat to you or the crowd?

Hawks’ thoughts were cut off by a synth or some type of organ playing two chords and the lights getting brighter on stage. This hadn't been part of the rehearsal in the morning, was this the reason you trembled so much? A new song?

The crowd went quiet as you positioned yourself in the middle of the stage, mic clipped into the stand and your foot tapping to keep you on beat. When touring through England especially, you had heard this song up and down on the bus you used whenever you travelled in the country.

The simplicity of the progression that pulled through the song, the adding of instruments as a way to build up for the high of the song to then slowly dropping instruments until it came back down to the organ and guitar as it was in the beginning…. Something about it had just struck you and you were more than glad to perform this in your own rendition in your home. Yet you couldn't keep focus on what was happening.

Come on, breathe, y/n you've practiced and it will be okay… Your inner monologue went wild as the synth waited for you to finally start the song. The crowd became restless at the tension you'd built up with seemingly no resolve, you felt more judgment on you than normal.

Your eyes searched for something to ground yourself with, like you used to when you were a rookie. Anything or anyone to look at while you performed to keep your nerves from getting the best of you.

Then your eyes met those of the pro hero assigned to security this time. Hawks’ yellow eyes sparkled as he winked at you with a smirk. His arms rested on the railing of the security lounge, laying over each other and hiding most of his face. The red wings poked through from behind him and you could see that he took off his signature feathered jacket. You took a deep breath before intently looking him in the eyes.

“I'm going back to 505… If it's a 7 hour flight or a 45 minute drive…” Your hands grabbed the mic and the stand as you swayed to the beat, lulling the crowd to do the same and take out their lights. There were quiet screeches from a few people who seemed to know the song. But you didn't let them disturb your new found focus or let them stop your new found anchor look.

“In my imagination, you're waiting lying on your side… With your hands between your thighs…” The guitar kicked in. Your hands left the mic and you stretched them into the air to get rid of their stiffness. The confidence of the first song came back to your core, no trace of nerves found in any of your movements.

The pro hero lazily stared at you after your first eye contact, relaxing as the feather around your neck got quieter. He raised his eyebrows at that last line, even if he knew that it probably wasn't at all intended for him. Your not breaking eye contact suggested something else but he wouldn't fall for the invitations of a worldwide known pop star. He was more than just smarter than that.

“Stop and wait a sec…” You stretched out your hands towards the security manager and tilted your head as you sang the next words. You had loosened up quite a bit as the instruments joined for the first verse. “When you look at me like that my darling, what did you expect?”

The hand slowly came back towards you and softly grabbed your neck before smoothly rolling into a cheek hold. “I'd probably still adore you with your hands around my neck… Or I did last time I checked…”

Pro hero Hawks had been trained to be a hero longer than he could remember. His training included quirk enhancement, multiple language studies and espionage training which had also taught him to stay cool in every situation.

Yet his cheeks flushed red and he rose from his slouched posture as your pointed at him and almost seductively grabbed your neck, all while not breaking your eye contact with him. He cleared his throat multiple times and averted his eyes whenever it became too much for him. Hawks couldn't be charmed by such simple actions. That's what he told himself anyways.

Having regained your confidence after fearing that your audience would be disappointed, you closed your eyes and went through the rest of the song in the lower register of your voice. It was nice to perform something like this between your usual set. It almost cleansed a palette like coffee beans after entering a perfume shop.

But then the bridge hit. The kick drum and snares were hit in unison before a quick second of silence fell, your hands flinging towards the mic and you opening your eyes on beat. “BUT I CRUMBLE COMPLETELY WHEN YOU CRY. IT SEEMS LIKE ONE AGAIN YOU’VE HAD TO GREET ME WITH GOODBYE”

You opened your lungs and let out the higher notes, almost screaming them out as your eyes looked at Hawks again. The instruments filled the room completely, screaming in their own way but also complementing each other.

Like a wave, Hawks was hit with your passionate voice singing him those words as if they had been only written for him. His embarrassment to be addressed in such a manner switched to curiosity and excitement. He tipped one of his sidekicks on the shoulder.

“Make sure we act as security on their next performance in Japan too.”

“But Hawks, we aren't a security agency-”

“Oh yeah? Well for them we are, I want to be part of the security team for every japanese performance to come.”

In a stern but gentle voice, Hawks commanded him to find your manager to arrange future collaborations. His flushed cheeks reappeared when you finished the song and just stood there, eyes closed and sweat glistening on your face as you breathed out the last emotions of the song. Something about you looked, ethereal. Was that the right word for it? He didn't know, but it felt right in any way .

[ghostofvixx]

So glad|KYS|

The soulmate thing doesn’t work easily, but for you it gets ten times hardes if both of you hide your birthmark.

Genre: fluff + bulleted au

words: 2.7k 

warnings: swearing the title’s supposed to be so f*cking glad but we’ll talk about it some other time, uhm trying to decide if this is cool or absolute trash, cute at a certain point

other soulmate aus: | san | YEOSANG | yunho | wooyoung | mingi | hongjoong | jongho | seongwha | (no particular order)

Yeosang is usually a very confident person. We could say he has no complexes.

(yes, he doesn’t look like it, but he is)

Except for one: his birth mark

He just DOESN’T LIKE IT AT ALL, his friends -the ones that know about it- think it’s cute but he DOESN’T.

He has tried almost everything to remove it at this point

But nothing can remove it effectively on a daily basis

Not as effective as makeup at least.

And that’s how makeup has become indispensable for him since he was in high school: that’s how he hates his birthmark.

What he doesn’t know is that that’s the reason why he can’t find his soulmates.

he’s ready, he can feel it, he’s been ready for years now, but why the time doesn’t come?

      .:Keep reading :.

“You just have to know new people, you barely meet new friends Yeosang! Once you do it BAAAM the time will come.” Yunho tells him, overreacting as always.

Yeosang laughs, but deep inside him, he knows he’s right, just he doesn’t know how or when to know new people.

Then he began going to parties with the rest of ateez more frequently and actually getting to know ppl

classmates

ppl from other years

ppl from his uni and from other unis

but nothing happened

then he met you.

At first, it was just as usual: just some random person he had to be paired up with for a project.

Nothing new: he’s made a lot of friends like that,

but with you it was different,

he just felt SO comfortable with you.

He blamed it on your personality and your will to do the project right, and how attractive you were too

and you blamed it on the same thing

So none of you dummies realized just how comfortable and heart eyes emoji you were with each other

nor how both of your -covered- birthmarks were actually shining behind all the concealer.

Now let’s talk a bit about you.

Your birthmark is LITERALLY on your left thumb.

Why on your left thumb? Well, that will remain a mystery

Until you meet your soulmate at least

You don’t have that much of a complex but still, you don’t like it

So, knowing it’s the only thing that can tie you with your soulmate, you decided to not cover it for a while

Then you got tired of it and decided to put concealer on it.

It’s not that you wanted it, but you were lowkey mad at the world itself

because your soulmate was NOWHERE TO BE FOUND

Usually when you have a mark is because your soulmate is getting closer right? Or because you might meet them anytime SOON right?

Well not for you.

For you it was like it had to shine or something like that -words literally said by your friend, who liked all the soulmate stuff and had done researches on every type of soulmate in the world-.

So oh well here you are

you had eventually given up

maybe you’ll end up like those that won’t find their soulmates

but it was supposed to happen, right? You should have crossed paths with then at least ONCE for that to happen

But you didn’t

That’s what keeps you going, secretly you have some hope

Then you met Yeosang and you suspected

Because you had that THING like you NEEDED to boop his nose

Even if he wasn’t your soulmate you NEEDED to have something with him

Welcome to what we call: having a crush

crush culture is hard, maybe because you thought he wasn’t the one for you, after all, he isn’t your soulmate, right? AND ALSO because he was ALWAYS with his various friends

It’s like he barely had time for you

pretty understandable, taking into consideration that you guys weren’t the closest, but still he has told you so many times that you feel special

WHERE’S THE SPECIAL NOW KANG YEOSANG?

You barely see him outside class, you barely talk on the phone outside class

BUT YOU’RE STILL SPECIAL? WHAT?

The only time you see him is when he’s partying with his friends,,, and you don’t want to approach him

so you go unnoticed for the night

sometimes he’s noticed, some other he hasn’t

besides, you don’t like it when you’re with him in that mood, because everything becomes awkward.

“Y/n, do you want something to drink?” He would always ask you

you say no bc c’mon there are already a LOT of drunk people around

sometimes his friends,,, which is,, awkward

because sometimes they would ship you and uh that’s a nono on the outsides but a yes yes in the inside, right?

“Are you having fun?”

“I am.”

AND THAT’S ALL PALS

Not a single “would you like to dance?”

nor a singing along to the song together

NOTHING

T H A T ‘S  I T

His friends don’t say it, but they look at both of you as if they were saying “why are y’all as awkward lol aren’t you friends?”

and that type of thought haunt you sometimes at nigh

BUT THEN WE HAVE TO MENTION A SPECIAL PARTY

apparently that night his group of friends got mixed with another one

and he wasn’t feeling himself

he told you that morning that today he didn’t feel like partying, he was in a bad mood

“why?” You asked.

“Just… Some random soulmate thoughts.”

Every time he talked to you about his soulmate, your heart skipped a beat

“Have you found them” you voiced your biggest fear.

“I haven’t, that’s the problem.”

He then explained to you that he couldn’t find them and that made him sad,,, especially today,,,, for no special reason

“O-kay?” You said. “Well, just try to enjoy yourself for once! You’re still young, you’ll find them soon! We’ll see each other probably, by the way.”

His heart jumped in his chest,,, how can you be,,,, as perfect for him? He just feels like it.

Like you were made for him

but then not really.

Back to the point

you were RIGHT about to approach him,,, then you saw who he was talking

that person wasn’t from his group of friends,,, nor a person you knew

and they were talking so,,, close,,, so so close

you don’t mean to do it, but you’re sure you’re pouting because you can sense some chemistry from them???

Or is it just you?

It was one-sided, but those types of things are hard to see when your crush is being flirted at.

Then some boy named San sat between them and that caught Yeosang’s attention completely

actually everyone’s attention too

even you, who barely know him, know it’s a part of the “San effect”, he’s the nicest boy ever

overall when he whispered something into Yeosang’s ear and suddenly Yeosang began to look for someone in the crowd

until his eyes met yours

and his smile lighted up

and omg he’s just so cute god pls help me

you know when he just looks so tiny when he smiles bc he’s excited abt something?

THAT’S THE WAY HE LOOKED AT YOU

T I N Y

and you k n e w you had been admiring him for too long without smiling back or smth because suddenly he frowned

and then you panicked

you’re not subtle at all lmao

for some reason, you seem like an open book to him

so, after panicking, you just leaft asap

not knowing he was actually going to r u n after you 

why? He doesn’t know, he just adores you and can sense something’s wrong

so yeah he said goodbye hurriedly and ran after you and stuff and finally found you outside the house where the party was being held, walking back home.

“Are you leaving?”

you were astonished and flustered to listen to his voice

“I am.”

“Why? It’s soon, isn’t it?”

“I’m suddenly tired.” You said and turned back.

“Suddenly? I mean-”

“Yeosang, you’ve drunk, I’m sure, why don’t we talk tomorrow?” You didn’t mean to sound rude, but back then all you neededd was: a bed

to sleep!!1!111!!1!

not to cry11!!!1!1!!

“I haven’t drunk that much.” It was the truth, he’s not the best drinker, but he’s not a bad one.

“Well, we’ll talk when you are 100% sober, okay? Besides, you seemed pretty entertained-” You stopped all of the sudden

now he knows you’re jealous!!!!!!! ah these kids nowadays

however, you were cool bc if he remembered that the following day, you couln blame it on the alcohol

WHY DID YOU THINK HE WAS THAT DRUNK GOD HE’S A SAINT HE’S BARELY DRUNK YOU DUMMY

but well never mind, you just kept living in your little world

AND you had given the other dummy an idea

“But I don’t want to drink anymore~” he said in a singing voice that m e l t e d your heart. “I’m not wasted, but I know I’ve drunk and my friends seem pretty irresponsible right now.”

he just wanted to spend some time with you you know

“Oh,,,” what else can you say? Was he REALLY saying he’d rather be with you?

OH

“Then what can I do for you?” You asked

“Let’s take a seat somewhere? Is it fine by you?”

“You’re the alcoholic one here my dude.”

“Shut up, I still can talk! You should speak to Yunho right now.”

“Not a nice influence, Yeosang.” You said jokingly. Actually, you know Yunho and he’s the nicest dude out there

another softie

but not in the same way as Yeosang.

“Still, you won’t remember tomorrow, right?” You asked him.

“I probably won’t.” He decided to play that game.

You ended up taking a seat on a bench inside a park,,, to talk about some stuff and all that

and it’s comfortable for a few seconds

until you realized the boy is literally sweating

and you probably are too bc it was so hot inside,,, and it’s not rlly cold on the outside

so you grabed some wipes from your bag

“Do you want one?” You asked the boy “They’re cold.”

“Why do you have them in your bag?”

“Oh come on, you have to be ready for parties, don’t you have them inside your bag?

“Uhm, not really,,, maybe I should.”

you felt a bit ridiculous, but then he actually takes one and smiles

“summer’s coming and this is cool, better be safe than sorry”

He always has that ability to make you feel right

“I’m actually going to remove my makeup.” He commented, laughing.

He was a bit scared, but you wouldn’t notice if he didn’t pass the wipe where his birthmark is, right? Besides, it was too dark to actually see it.

But when he’s in the process of removing it, you see that he’s not doing it right

I mean one side of his face was going to disappear if he kept rubbing while the other one remained intact

so you decided to do it yourself because WHY NOT and well

he panicked, you panicked, but continued being awkward as if nothing was wrong

THEN the time comes, he closed his eyes, focused on how intimate and nice this feels 

and you passed the wipe right next to his left eye, where his birthmark is

while you were holding the wipe with your right hand, where your birthmark is

the moment feelt like a movie

because right when you had passed the wipe, his eyes opened and he held your wrist, and you looked at him shook

and was it you or are you a bit closer than before?

but THE thing is that you could see his birthmark because it’s shining with a very subtle light

and yours was too

but you made no comment because he was only just looking into your eyes and holding your wrist,,, he hadn’t made a single comment

has he even realized?

he wouldn’t tell you

but dude you had sEEN EVERYTHING YOUR CRUSH IS YOUR SOULMATE???

Apparently, he just didn’t care??? So you pretended you hadn’t noticed too??

:(

and the night went on and he still maDE NO COMMENT

D:

DDDDDD:

So ye he just accompanied you home and said goodbye with a smile

HAS HE REALLY NOT REALIZED?

Were you the only one that has felt their heart in their throat?

Is the soulmate thingy broken for you?

There’s literally no other way to explain it

and you couldn’t sleep because all you could think about was the fact that he wuldn’t remember

he had told you

and when you see him on Monday you go ignoring him hours because hoW ARE YOU SUPPOSED TO TALK TO HIM?

Are you really his soulmate?

“y/n”

DAMN IT, HIS VOICE ONCE AGAIN

“y-yes?”

“I remember you know?”

oh,,, THEN WHAT DOES THAT MEAN?

“Y-you do?”

“I’m sorry for reacting that way.” SO HE KNOWS? “Next time I won’t pretend I’ve drunk, I could notice you were awkward.”

nvm apparently he doesn’t

Eventually you changed your mind tho

Like homeboi be dropping hints about finding a soulmate but he yeeted your feeling through the window

That must be because he knows right?

BUT WHY DOESN’T HE DO ANYTHING ABOUT IT????

Suspicious

It was starting to get you on your nerves

He would ALWAYS vent to you about finding a soulmate, about being ready, about feeling it close

HOW CAN HE NOT KNOW GOD YOU WERE SO ANGRY

He always felt like you wouldn’t want to talk about the soulmate thingy, and he wouldn’t usually talk about that subject, knowing it bothered you

He thought that it was because you were frustrated bc nobody would come through

Dummy

Both of you dummies

One day it all just??? Exploded???

You had an awfully taught day at college, and when you talked to him about it you couldn’t even bring out the subject

“Sh, y/n listen, I’ve been thinking about it and I have a theory,,, do you think she’s my soulmate?” And he pointed discreetly to one girl standing on the other side of the road

“w-why would you think that?” Can you hear a crash? Yep, that was your heart.

“I don’t know, she’s with me in my math class and we get along well, I’ve known her for a few years now and-”

“Do you not like me?”

Yeosang was astonished.

“what?”

What what? Why does he looks so confused?

It made you feel so angry

“Look I understand if you don’t like me as your soulmate and you only see me as a friend and all that, just don’t rub it in front of my face, I feel awful every time because I like you so much Yeosang, you don’t even know-”

“what? Soulmate? What are you talking about?”

You don’t feel like a clown, you feel like the entire circus.

“Didn’t you know??? That we’re soulmate?”

“I- YOU- WHAT? MEN NONONONO ABSOLUTELY NOT WHAT ARE YOU TALKING ABOUT”

It’s always fun listening to Yeosang getting confused, annoyed, and surprised in tiny font.

Some curious people were looking at you so you decided to take a seat at a park so that you can explain the situation through.

It was just both of you, face to face, like that night.

“I discovered it the last time we went to a party, remember? We went to a park like this…”

And instead of just explaining, you repeated the action, your left thumb lightly caressed his birth mark covered with make up.

“My birth mark is how I can find my soulmate?”

“Yep.” You nodded. “Mine is too, though it is not as visible.”

“That moment was meant to happen, didn’t it?” He half-smiled so fondly you were about to faint.

“So, about liking me and stuff…”

God you were so shy

And he was too

But he moved his head forward and looked at you straight in the eyes

“ I can’t imagine anyone better for me, I’m so fucking glad it’s you.”

Butterflies? You felt and entire zoo going up and down your body when his gaze fell to your lips

“So fucking glad.” He repeated, and kept starring at you, but not moving forward.

How can he not be so AWKWARD right now??? You literally went completely RED????

But you said fuck it I’ll do it myself

And joined your lips

And finally you felt it

Yes, so fucking glad.

[floorbed]

7 19 23 35 40 52 69 for The Jester and The Crimegirl

thank you so much bee omg i loved the questions u made sm!!! time for Them. this is super super long im sorry njdkkfkrenkjr

7. which party member do they understand the least?

for pen it is probably alba if he had to pick anyone? just because he can do Crazy Shit Sometimes. but pen still feels like he understands him v well!!

for agni its probably elvira! she is from a place she knows next to nothing about besides what elvira’s explained or what she’s learned from school, she is 100+ years old, yeah! while agni doesnt like fully Understand her she still thinks she’s really cool!! it was rlly nice of her to try and comfort her when she initially found out abt Rei Time. and also knitted her a pretty holster that was so nice of her!!

19. what haunts them? what doesn’t?

pen’s is home. so mf much he genuinely loves his party a lot and has gotten really attached but also like he misses home so bad it hurts. he felt like he was an intrinsic part of something that he fit perfectly and was never gonna have to give up, and he got to be w everyone he cared about all day. he’s haunted by mikolai’s wedding lol. he’s also haunted by The Shit That Went Down Pertaining To His Exile, His Subsequent Exile, Making the Pact,  Dying, Making The Pact Pt 2, The Thing He Had To Do After He Made The Pact, And Then Also Dying Again. he’s haunted by holding ori dead in his arms and bringing her back using power he now understands was from a Not That Great Place. he barely knew her then but he still thought about it all the time, and now he thinks abt it even more lol! he just is not used to life being. Like This. at all. he was a vvvvvv spoiled kid. (some nobility complex part of him is haunted by lydia! stupid jester!) 

he’s not haunted by everyone he’s been a bitch to lol, unless he vocally apologized for it later nfjnf. he’s not haunted by vargas. uh

agni is not haunted by most things and That’s On her super healthy coping mechanism! she tries to not think about her personal life with that much weight, she tries to keep it abstract in her head? but also there are some things she can’t help but get Unnamed Bad Feeling from instinctively. rei. w how last session fucking turned out lol, watching seras collapse in the doorway Will Def Become One. Moms Time, both for individual reasons. sometimes, not being accomplished, but that also filters into Moms Time. everything else tho she kind of just vibes through. 

23. how do they feel about nicknames, titles, or labels that have been given to them? how do they feel about their name?

pens Official Title is penance the jester, court jester of tarbyen (and he makes sure no one forgets it lol.) everyone he grew up around had official titles so it made him feel realllyyy good abt himself that he had one too! (he likes that the party’s nicknamed him pen tho, he thinks its sweet >:) ) his Name name is camil, but only his mom n mikolai called him that, so he thinks its very like..... informal, and he likes being a Formal Title Boy, but also it makes him go all soft bc the two ppl he loved most called him that!! conflicting feelings. 

agni’s had her nickname since she was really young i think, one of those like, you’re in fantasy kindergarten and learning how to spell and your first name is rlly long, so u employ a nickname very early Kind Of Moments. her full name is agnodice and she likes it well enough! it feels very kind of like. stiff and formal to her tho. she thinks agni suits her better!

35. which party member do they worry for?

pen worries for All Of Them. he tries to follow juni when he’s having one of his (as pen puts it) “freak out moments” bc he’s scared someday it’s going to be something that really hurts him, and he wants to be there to help if it does. pen has fully accidentally triggered ori before, and he feels really bad about it, especially since her triggers literally Set Her On Fire. so you know. he tries to be really careful with his words around her, especially since the incident a couple sessions ago. also, he is Very Concerned abt all of her past stuff with the mahne that he’s recently learned abt, especially putting together all the past knowledge she’s given him abt the river and what to do in a pact and Where Exactly She Got That Info From. he’s grateful she’s not in any of that anymore, though, whatever the mahne is exactly. alba’s impulsivity worries pen n he wants to make sure alba doesnt accidentally Put Himself In A Situation accidentally w that someday. 

agni worries for theodosia, just because she seems to know a lot about the fucked up illness time thats going on and it seems to rlly effect her and she knows it cld be coming from prior past experience? she also worries for cyrus because of the whole you know. his family’s shop and home being burned to the ground Situation, even though theyve since recovered it couldnt have been good for him. worries for kai, also, because he is Small Baby Boy. but worries as in like. does so in her agni way and it may not come across as such?

40. do they enjoy poetry?

pen loves poetry he heard a lot of epics at home!! the stories were Less fun when it was about like, war and bloodshed and stuff, but he loved them when they were all pretty n flowery or like romantic 🥺

agni likes hearing poetry recited, especially when it has a specific repetitive syllable pattern she can get lost in!

52. from whom do they seek validation?

pen simply be like [wants validation from nobility noises]. its his Complexes. thats why being @ ravenloft rn is so... bad for him lol bc hes getting like all the positive attention from important people hes wanted for his entire life, oops. hes literally living out a dream being asked to dance with someone so important!! he also seeks validation a lot from like powerpful women bc of growing up with his mom and how much he looked up to her and cared about her, which manifests itself a lot w wanting attention from ori and jenny (and previously w lady wachter lol) and also the lady of delights. 

growing up agni sought validation from her mothers n instructors, now (while she still wants momsvalidation) she looks for validation mostly from herself, which is kind of bad bc she never feels fully satiated w her work n accomplishments! 

69. how would they describe their party members?

for pen: ori feels like an older sister to him, hes too scared to express as much, but yeah! she is warm (he means figuratively but also lol) and Kind and Competent and Smart and above all, Safe. he defintely feels like, the safest with her than anyone else he’s encountered in his life, both i mean in the physical protection sense but moreso the emotional sense! yeah. juni is.,, complicated. at first pen was uhhh scared of him bc of the whole Sorcerer Thing, but after all of them talked abt it at jenny’s, that feeling passed and he was more just concerned for him than anything. he is Powerful and Pretty and even though he’s been thru a lot of things pen himself cant even comprehend juni’s still Soft and Understanding and pen really admires that about him! alba is Also Complicated, for different reasons. pen thinks he is Reckless and Impulsive but also Smart in his own little scheme way, and pen really appreciates him as like a constant in his life? like yeah, he is scary and concerning sometimes but he’s always Predictably as such and while pen doesn’t see alba as all that loyal in general pen is kind of blind to that stuff when it comes to ppl in relation to him, so he’s just glad he’s met someone that wants to stick with him.

for agni: cyrus is so nice to her!! he feels like a capital f Friend in her head and so far like. she’s only had one of those before so thats really cool!! he helps her out a lot and she tries to do what she can to be there for him too! it was nice of him to teach her abt Beach Swimming. theo is really cool and agni loves seeing her in her element doing Medicine Stuff she thinks she is really smart w that kind of thing and rlly respects her practice, agni’s also very interested in her magic!! she thinks dendy is small little lizard guy who sings silly songs. greatly appreciates him. she wld follow kai blindly into terrible plans because she wants to make sure this cool teen is alright , is thankful to know he can turn into a bear at will and she didnt do that on accident that one time! amadeus is confusing and hard to keep track of in her head, but at the end of the day she thinks he’s very caring and just looking out for people. adaeze is really fun to hang out with and she is both concerned and greatly impressed w her just straight up downing one of fer’s Fucked Up And Evil Potions no questions asked, bc thats something even Agni’s too scared to do. thinks her sword is very interesting in terms of the arcane, wants to see what happens w all that! elvira is super different from anyone agni’s been around but she thinks she’s an amazing artist and would love to see her home bc she talks about it so vividly!! 

[pinkykitten]

Breakfast + Dancing

Overwatch

Gabriel Reyes x female! reader

Warning: lots of fluff youll die

Specifics: fluff, romance, comedy, race neutral reader, one-shot

People: gabriel reyes / reaper, widowmaker 

Words: 1,106

Requested: By @harrington-lover Hey I saw u write for Gabriel Reyes! I love him! Can I get a fic of the reader waking up and finding Gabriel cooking for her like he’s dancing/singing while doing it and being the beautiful Latino he is. Like a very fluffy morning and if u could can they also be recently engaged? Thanks so much

Authors Note: i loved this request so much because this is my life. my grandma used to wake up every saturday and play spanish music and dance while cleaning. i love hispanic music it makes me feel at home. to me gabriel is Puerto rican so this is him as that. i love being a latina and im glad someone requested this. 

Life was perfect. It was pristine and simple. You had everything you could ask for. 

You had him. 

The birds chirped outside as you laid against the soft mattress. Your breathing calm and collected, feeling at peace with the Saturday morning you were experiencing. Your eyes fluttered open and you rubbed off any drool you had from the sleep. Thinking about Gabriel, you patted his spot beside you thinking you would feel him except the spot was empty. There was no one laying there, yet it smelled of him still. He had this delicious smell. Everyday he would put his favorite cologne on. He knew how weak it made you so sometimes he would add a little extra just to get you going. You smiled at the smell, you did truly love this man with your whole being. 

All of a sudden music began to play. It was no hip hop, pop, this generation music, no it was his music. Moviendo las cadereas started to play loud on the speakers. You rolled your eyes. Every Saturday was like this! It was either him cooking or cleaning. Every time he said the same thing, “mi abuela (grandma) used to do this okay, it has passed down to me.”

Chuckling you threw the sheets off of you and planted your feet into your comfy, soft slippers. You were gonna kill this man!

“Gabriel!” You tried shouting over the music. You walked in on him with just sweatpants on and no shirt. He was shaking to the music. Dancing salsa, moving his butt with the beat. His dog tags slapping against his thick chest. His curls bouncing with each step he took. He stood by the stove cooking you breakfast. He held the spatula in his hand and pretended it was a microphone, singing, “ Moviendo la cadera, moviendo la cadera moviendo la cadera, moviendo la cadera, moviendo la cadera, moviendo la cadera.”

“Hey baby,” you called out to him. 

“Hey mami, what are you doing up?”

It took everything out of you not to burst out laughing seeing him dancing. You giggled and Gabriel raised a brow. “Are you making fun of me?”

You shook your head, “no its just...okay yeah I am. Your dancing!” You laughed, throwing your head back. Gabriel loved to see you smile and laugh. “Oh you mean this dancing?” He shook his hips as he danced to you. 

“No Gabriel, no!” You tried running away. Gabriel wrapped his arms around you. 

“A la derecha, a la izquierda a la derecha, a la izquierda a la derecha, a la izquierda”

He started to dance with you. You were okay at dancing salsa since he taught you a while back but you were still learning. He twirled you around and kept his hands at your hip the whole time. “There you go baby, you’re doing it,” he encouraged you. His hands trailed lower and lower and you swatted them away, “keep the hands away from the merchandise.” Gabriel smirked and twirled you to sit at the table. Then he grabbed the cuban mop and started to dance with that, singing the lyrics to the object. You cackled at his silliness, clutching your stomach. 

The song finished and Gabriel kissed your lips out of breath. “What’d you think of that performance?”

You clapped your hands, “bravo! Bravo! Better than Amélie!”

Gabriel bowed and kissed atop your head. “I didn’t want you to wake up just yet though.”

“Oh was this supposed to be a surprise?”

Gabriel cooked your eggs just the way you liked them and nodded, “yeah it was.”

“I’m sorry,” you embraced him from behind as he cooked and kissed his back. You could feel the goosebumps that littered his skin at the contact. “Can you forgive me baby?”

Gabriel turned around, “of course mi corazon (my heart).” He gave a peck at your lips, but then deepened it, placing his strong, calloused hands on your cheeks. With a whisper Gabriel said, “I love you so much.”

“I love you too,” your nose scrunched as you kissed him again but then took notice of the smell. “Is something burning?”

Gabriel’s eyes widened and he turned around, “my maduritos!” Most of them were black (thats actually how i like them) but they were still edible. Gabriel placed them on the plate and looked disappointed, “I ruined your surprise.”

You felt so bad but wanted him to see that you didn’t think that. Your hand went to his face, against his cheek, “no my love, you didn’t ruin it. I love it still the same and I am so hungry.” Gabriel looked to you and saw your beaming smile. 

“How did I get such an amazing woman in my life?”

“I think your dancing is what caught my attention and made me fall for you,” you winked as you helped him set the table up.

“Oh and my cologne, don’t forget about that.”

You two situated yourselves and after Gabriel’s prayer started eating. He made you a complete Puerto Rican breakfast. Eggs, maduritos, pan sobao, oatmeal and to drink cafe con leche, and parcha (passion fruit) juice.

“What do you think mi princesa (my princess)?”

You were shoving all the food in your mouth that you couldn’t speak. You moaned. You were in heaven.

“Mi gordita linda.” (my beautiful fatty; ok so i know what ur thinking that sounds rlly mean well in latin culture that is actually like a joke and funny, i get called this all the time by my sisters and mom when i eat like crazy its just something funny and taken lighthearted if it is meant that way)

You lifted your slipper up and almost slapped his face but he put his hands up, “I surrender, I’m sorry.” He chuckled. 

“Thats what I thought.”

“How about mi pollito (my little chicken)?”

“Gabriel!”

“Okay, okay, okay I’m sorry, how about then nena (my baby)?”

“Thats better.”

As you picked up a piece of bread your ring glistened from the morning sun. Gabriel paused and got a good look at it and then you. This was his life. You were his and he was yours. That ring signified that soon, in marriage, you two would become one, husband and wife. It made his heart pound in excitement as he looked forward to the future with you. You made him happy, you made him smile, you were worth everything. His whole life would always be devoted to you, no matter what. You are his life. Gabriel grabbed your hand that carried the ring. He kissed the ring and grinned, “to my future, beautiful, wife.”

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[too-attached-to-fiction]

Insecurities

Masterlist here.

Word count: ~1130

Requested by anon

Request: hihi!! ive found myself falling quite fast for loki- i love his character and the way he’s written. anyway, i’d love it if you could write a loki x reader where loki is just,,,rlly insecure?? like the reader could have nyone they wanted- nd most ppl generally don’t look twice at him. and they just sorta,,,have to comfort him?

A/N: of course! I’m glad you like the way I write him, I’m always terrified of making him too formal or too out of character. I can totally see Loki as insecure; he’s been compared to Thor by Odin all of his life, how could he not be? I think Loki’s anger actually stems from insecurity, tbh. Thank you for submitting, requests are open!

~~~

Asgard didn’t mess around when it came to feasts. The warriors and valkyries ate double their body mass, as you and Frigga sat and watched. You weren’t sure what exactly they were celebrating this time, but you couldn’t argue with Thor, not when he had a mug of mead and was currently leading a drunken sing-a-long.

Odin had joined in the festivities, and luckily had been guided up to his chambers shortly after dinner. Loki, opposite his brother, stood in the corner of the dining hall, carefully observing the others.

Or, at least you thought that was what he was doing.

Despite appearing as such, Loki was lost in thought, staring off at all of the soldiers. Sometimes he wished he was naturally muscular, the way they were. Why weren’t you with one of those soldiers? Because you dreamed of the same things he did? Fame, glory, royalty?

Tonight you looked absolutely stunning. Still, you preferred to stay on the edge of things, politely denying any and all requests to dance. He’d watched you do it every single time. You never entertained the idea or flirted back. Instead, you simply said no, and asked one of the palace guards to escort them back to the middle of the room.

They had much more to offer. They weren’t as selfish, and they were strong, mighty. At this point, they had greater chances of being king than he ever would, given Odin’s favoritism.

And yet, you chose him, an outsider. The unwanted child. The one with an infamous reputation, the one who fed off of the misery of mortals.

He couldn’t understand how someone as kind, smart, and beautiful as you could love someone like him.

Sighing, he ran a hand through his hair and escaped onto the balcony. The god of tricksters could make himself invisible, but you noticed his disappearance when you glanced over in his direction for the thirteenth time in the past minute.

“Excuse me, my lady.” You stood up, catching Frigga’s attention. “I have personal matters to attend to, but I will return shortly.”

“Go on.” She waved her hand, flashing you a gentle smile. You started to walk towards the balcony. You knew it was one of Loki’s favorite places in the castle.

He went there to think. He’d told you stories of when he was younger, standing on that balcony and imagining himself as the king of Asgard. The view of the empire he longed to rule was always brilliant, the buildings practically shining in the sun.

“(Y/N), would you like to dance?” One of the soldiers appeared in front of you, and you shook your head. The warrior remained in his spot, only more encouraged by your rejection.

“I assure you, I am wonderful at dancing.” He pressed on, and you shot a glare at him. You’d met a few persistent soldiers, but you tried your best to avoid escalation. It was best not to anger a drunken man, especially one with the ability to wield a weapon.

“No. If you’ll excuse me, I need to be somewhere.” You said, gently pushing on his chest and running off, even more determined to find Loki.

The balcony seemed empty, but you knew better. “Loki, my love, let me see you.” You called out into the darkness, and slowly, the god appeared before you. His green robes grazed the stone balcony, his hair slightly disheveled. His eyes, normally ice cold blue, were dull tonight.

“What’s the matter?” You asked, stepping forward and reaching out to fix his hair. “You seem upset.”

“My father would make anyone in that room king, but not me. You wouldn’t choose anyone to dance with tonight but me. I’m perplexed.” Even with you, he chose to keep a cold exterior. He was clearly upset, but he knew how to make his looks deceiving.

“Ah.” you said, running your thumb up his jawline. “Maybe it’s because of a difference in our perspectives of you.”

“Am I not fit to be king? Am I not worthy?” He asked you, and you could see the pain build up behind his eyes. “Tell me, (Y/N).” You dropped your hand from his face, aching to hold his. Instead, you guided him to the stone bench nearby, and the two of you sat together.

“You aren’t fit to be king, and you never were.” You said softly. “You are Loki Laufeyson, god of tricksters. You are worthy of power, and happiness, and so much more. I’m sorry that your father could ever make you think you are unworthy of those things.”

“Surrounded by warriors, you still search for me. Why is that?” He asked, meeting your eyes as he finished the sentence. “Surely there are better companions out there than myself.”

“I don’t want others. I want you.” You argued. “I want Loki, the god who is constantly reaching for universal domination. I want Loki, the same man who wraps himself around me at night because he knows I feel safe when he does that. I want Loki, my love, and my life.” You traced light circles on his knees. “None of them have what you have, none of them are different. They all follow the same patterns. But you...You treat me like royalty every moment of every day.”

“Of all of the creatures in the nine realms, I want you, Loki Laufeyson. Now will you please come dance with me?”

He gave you a small smile as he stood up. You kicked off your shoes before accepting the hand he had offered. Together, you made your way to the makeshift ballroom floor.

Listening carefully, you figured out the song playing was a waltz. One, two, three, one, two, three. Quickly, the two of you went to assume your positions and started stepping in time.

“I love you.” You said quietly as you spun together on the balcony.

“Thank you.” He said, even more quiet. “I needed to be reminded I was loved tonight.”

[loveseungs]

stray kids reacting to you kissing their jaw

goodness i died at these but this one’s for you, @ anon who requested this

➻ chan - “are we still on for tonight?” - chan saw his phone light up in the corner of his eyes and his heart clenched. it was 6pm and he was nowhere close to finished with the newest song. - after finishing a phrase, he pulled his phone and called you - ring... ring... - “chan?” - “hey, love...i’m calling to tell you that i don’t know when this song’ll be finished. i’m so upset. can i book you first thing in the morning? are you busy?” - a hint of disappointment was evident in your voice. “are you sure you’re not busy in the morning?” - he jumped a little in his seat. “this is so unfair to you, i am so going to make this up to you. 8am good?” - “good night, channie.” - beep - chan frustratedly ran his hands through his fingers, typing away. if only he could do everything at the same time, he would. - his thoughts raced from you to chords to disappointing you to a sick new melody as he worked on the riff of the newest stray kids song - but the thought of being unable to push through with the plans he promised made him feel so terrible - reaching out for his phone once more, chan thought of telling you he was dropping by tonight with food and your favorite movies - you didn’t let him. within seconds, you burst into the studio - “what are you—“ - “here. if you’re going to skip out on date night, you better make the skip worth it,” you huffed, placing a cup of coffee and a box of takeout on his table. - shocked? he was FLABBERGASTED - “but i—“ - you shut him up with a kiss on his jaw, roughly touching your lips right there for a second. “would you just finish up now? you need to sleep soon, so you don’t look like a zombie when you meet me in the morning.” - chan fought the urge to explode in ecstasy. - “you light up my life.”

➻ woojin - you had a rough day - by rough day i mean rough week - you were just so angry at everything and irritated and - ugh. you were so tired - so exhausted. if you could sleep and wake up in a different place in life, you’d gladly take the offer - but that wasn’t (unfortunately) how life worked and the next best thing to do was to call kim woojin - you call, he delivers - within a flash he’s at your doorstep, a plastic filled with food in one hand and a big teddy bear on the other - Thank Everything For Kim Woojin - he quickly wrapped you up in blankets and cooked your fav instant noodles - “okay, so i brought my teddy bear but listen. you’re borrowing, okay? no one knows i have this. you can’t let anyone know, and you gotta be really careful,” he instructs, handing you the big plushie - What did you do to deserve this soft man - He made his way behind you and slinked his arms around your waist as you hugged his prized possession - Enveloped in a comfortable silence, you decided to look at Woojin just for a bit - WRONG CHOICE - he looked down at you with such gentle eyes and you just. you kissed him. right there on his left jaw, allowing your lips to linger for a second longer than necessary - his grin??? almost as big as the teddy bear - actually you couldn’t tell the difference between the man cuddling you and the bear you were cuddling - “you should do that more,” woojin comments nonchalantly, even if you feel the erratic drumming of his heart beating a million miles per minute against your back. - with a twinkle in your eyes, you answered, “i should.”

➻ minho - minho’d be doing something silently, like playing on his phone or eating a snack - then you decide to peck him right there on his jaw - he becomes so smug about it - he gives you that MinhoTM smirk and leans in close - “you wanna kiss me elsewhere, too??” - THE TABLES HAVE TABLED U JUST WANTED TO SMOOCH UR BOY BUT HE HAD TO BE SO HECKN EXTRA - lee minho wants to play THAT game?! FINE - you held his chin and tilted it towards you - holy heck where’d that confidence come from - “the question is, minho, do you want me to kiss you elsewhere?” - all smugness has been lifted. lee know does not know what comes next - he is melting.

➻ changbin - u asked changbin to sing for you because u rlly, rlly like his singing voice - so, despite his embarrassment, he sang a lil’ something - his voice was like honey n u could not help but be entranced - so u kissed him gently on his jaw - his jAW, WHICH BY THE WAY IS SO SHARP IT COULD CUT YOU IM SURPRISED UR LIPS AINT BLEEDING READER - he yelpED A LITTLE READER UR TOO SHOCKING - “AISH!!” he shouts, looking at you with pink ears “DONT DO THAT!!” - he attempted to hide under the protection of his cap, but u caught him stealing glances at you - you giggle a little because you were so soft for this soft boy

➻ hyunjin - hyunjin’s such a hardworking boy and he was doing the thing where he practiced rapping with a pen in his mouth - you were working quietly beside him as he continuously practiced - then he decided to practice his vocal part, too - HOLY MCHECK u were not ready when his sweet voice danced to the melody of skz’s new song - his voice has significantly improved and it sounded so smooth - he looked like an absolute angel, and you really could not tear your eyes away from him - so u kissed him on the jaw, a subtle yet cute place to kiss him - A GOOFY SMILE MADE IT ON HIS FACE and as soon as he finished his part, he stopped the music and turned to you. hyunjin peppered your face with soft kisses with his soft lips

➻ jisung - yknow whats fun - goofing around with ya boi j.one - so when han jisung asks u to go on a park date u agree - when you saw him waiting on a bench, you waved and approached him with a smile - HE LOOKED SO GOOD - he was wearing a trench coat and a rlly nice shirt bc korea’s cold like that - so anyway u two started on your slow walk around - you guys talked about so many things! updating each other, talking about the rest of skz, music production for him, your work and home life, etc etc - then u saw a pile of leaves and holy mcheck u! were gonna Do ItTM - u let go of jisung’s hand and jumped really high - rustle rustle~ - THE CRINKLING OF THE LEAVES MADE U SO HAPPY - you called jisung over to join you and he did. in a few seconds u guys were kids again, jumping in piles of leaves - his smile was like sunshine - that’s when u pulled him close and pecked him real quick. on his jaw, too! - HE YELPED A LITTLE AND FOR ONCE, THIS LOUD AND SILLY BOY WAS SILENCED - you giggled and watched him try to process what had just happened but really he was frozen

➻ felix - y’all were chillin in at your place in the evening - it was a slow and laid-back night - but even so, you and felix very much enjoyed each other’s company - “i’m kinda hungry,” felix said, looking up from his phone and into your eyes - you reciprocated his gaze and asked, “well, what do you wanna eat?” - “is it weird? i want cheese, crackers, and wine” - you laughed. “we’re not even allowed to drink that, are we?” - felix pouted. “yeah but like, maybe a small sip? i just really think it goes well with the whole cheese and crackers thing.” - you gave into that terrible pout, and i say terrible because u practically died @ it. - when u returned w/ felix’s strange request, there was some calm music playing on the speaker - after taking a bit of his cracker and sipping a swig of wine, he looked at you again. this time, he stood up - “dance with me?” - wow that was cheesy felix lee but u cannot resist him - he led you as you danced around the small living room space, pace steady - his stare was so gentle. you dared to study his face, and you could not help but land a kiss right there on his jaw - felix broke into a very big grin and gave you a little twirl - then, he dipped you and kissed the top of your nose - it was so incredibly cheesy, but you secretly adored it.

➻ seungmin - school was finally over and u were so glad - it had been a long day, but it was coming to an end - you waited for seungmin outside his classroom and when he came out, you waved - you two had a daily routine of walking to the train station together, so you often waited up for each other - not like u had a crush on him too but - you two were casually conversing until u reached the school building’s exit - the sky was darkening and u knew what was up - y’all rushed outside before u got caught in the rain - but then it started drizzling - you didn’t make it past the school gate when it started pouring. luckily, you two were able to run under a shed - “seungmin, please tell me you have an umbrella” - “looks like we’re waiting here” - “seungmin!” you shouted. “i can’t! i have a family event after this.” - “are you kidding?” his eyes widened. - “no!!” you shook your head. - he took off his blazer and draped it over your head. then, he grabbed your wrist and started bolting in the direction of the train station - screw it. you ran as quick as your legs could take you, and you let out an ungodly scream while at it - when you reached the station, breath hitching and your clothes drenched, you both let out a laugh and headed to the platform - while waiting for the train, seungmin felt a tap on his shoulder coming from you and he turned around, only to be kissed softly on his jaw - he felt his cheeks warm up as you shoved the blazer he’d let you borrow back into his hands - “see you tomorrow, seungmin.”

➻ jeongin - jeongin invited u over to jam with him at his house, so u agreed caus music’s The Best !! - hanging w jeongin’s the best - anyway, when u arrived, he greeted u with an ecstatic face and ushered u inside, where it was warmer !! - you two sat in the living room, making urselves comfy - so like, before anything, you two decided to talk about each other - jeongin convinced u to do those friendship tag things u see on the internet where u ask questions and try to answer for the other - after much laughter and playing around, jeongin grabbed a guitar and started to strum a couple of notes - n suddenly your voice found into his, waltzing to the serenade of the guitar - READER BOTH OF UR VOCALS + THE GUITAR = a pOWER DUET - n u were so heckn proud u decided to record it - so, as he shuffled beside you to get close to your phone which had the mic, you noticed that goodness he was really good looking - and you couldn’t really hold back i mean who wouldn’t kiss yang jeongin - so, with utter care and gentleness, you planted a kiss on his jaw, grinning as his ears turned a concerning shade of pink - HE WAS FLUSTERED but he also did not want to be CuteTM at that moment so with all his strength mustered up in him, he looked at you and said: - “Wow, was I really that irresistible?” - YANG JEONGIN STOP WITH UR DUALITY U LOSER - after being unable to come up with a coherent response, he kissed you back on your jaw - “...damn jeongin... my voice is going to shake during the recording... you monster.”

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thank u for reading i hope u all have a swell day !!

[vivalamusicaltheater]

So I have some svtfoe thoughts (retyping this from memory after tumblr closed and I lost my first draft of this yesterday, so I might forget some. Also this will definitely contain season 4 spoilers, up to the latest episode, and will thus be tagged #svtfoe spoilers as well). This is in no particular order (and covers multiple episodes so it’s kinda long):

I knew Eclipsa and Globgor weren’t evil! I mean come on, after Eclipsa’s arc where she spent the last 2 seasons trying to prove she wasn’t evil making her evil would just be a disappointment

Also Globgor seeing his daughter again for the first time in 300 years? Cry. He just loves his family :(

I also really like how Mina’s getting set up to be the Big Bad, and it raises a lot of questions: what happened to the other original Solarian Project soldiers? Why did Mina survive? What did Solaria do to create the super soldiers, and how is Mina planning to remake them? I’m really intrigued and hoping for some answers

Are the mewmans in Moon’s camp going to be the new supersoldiers? Since they all hate monsters and Eclipsa and I’m pretty sure the original Solarian Project soldiers were mewmans that Solaria did something to?

It’s interesting that the MHC, despite hating and not trusting Eclipsa, was apparently not in on rhombulus’s plot to make Eclipsa and Globgor look evil. I would’ve thought Hekapoo would’ve been the one to pull something like that tbh

Poor Star has had to grow up rlly fast and worry about a lot of adult things that she shouldn’t have to. She’s what, 15? And despite not being queen, she still has to do a lot of the work a queen should do. I’m glad she addressed that and pointed out that she should be able to do teenager things

Tom and Marco singing too little to late again was a great throwback and I love how Marco was like “oh I couldn’t possibly do this” while pulling up the song and getting ready to dance. Mood

Ok though, what was the point of establishing Kellco in Kelly’s Worl (with very little onscreen romantic buildup) and then immediately breaking them up (offscreen!) in the dragon cycle episode? I don’t get it

Tom thinks Marcos the cool one and I think that’s beautiful. I really love their friendship it’s so good

I had something else but I can’t remember >:(((((

Oh! Now I remember! I like how we got to see Eclipsa’s sassy side in the MHC episode. She deserved to be a little sassy after the MHC makes her wait 45 minutes while they get corn shakes, she has to eat Sean’s terrible donuts, and then the MHC accuses her of using really powerful dangerous dark magic with no proof it’s her

This seems fairly obvious but the dark magic user’s probably Mina.

Janna bothering Ruberiot? Gold. (“Who is this?!”)

I don’t have a lot of polyam ships, but I think the series should end in Tomstarco tbh. They’d all be cute together and it’s obvious they care about each other a lot

I forgot what I was going to write I just wrote “I love that” ???

This isn’t whatever I was gonna say but I’m proud of River for standing up for Globgor cause he realized he just wanted to be a father. (And for Globgor for immediately letting go of Star when River said “that’s my daughter” bc he didn’t wanna hurt some guy’s kid)

Buff frog :,) another good dad...I love him

Speaking of parents I’m really proud of Moon for going to the cor(n)onation bc even though she doesn’t trust Eclipsa, she loves her daughter and knows how much it means to her

Globgor and Eclipsa and Meteora are so cute I hope they grow up as a happy healthy family. It’s what they deserve after all they’ve been through

Star and Eclipsa’s cor(n)onation dresses were really cute. Not plot relevant but true.

Cornonation was a really good episode in general I really enjoyed it

[imtrynnawriteshit]

Rami Malek x reader

For @angelfuzzy2!

I do feel like the ending could've been better, but honestly, what's writing without a lil regret, amirite

I did my best to do the request justice, so I hope it's come out fine! Reiterating: I know nothing about music, so if it sounds like I don't, that's why haha

(also if someone would teach me how to pick titles I would rlly appreciate it)

Request: Can I ask what If like , rami(Freddie Mercury) gets a co star in the bohemian Rhapsody movie right (it’s au) and the actress sings in the movie , but in real life is a pop star , and rami(and Freddie ) falls for her ( like how David Bowie sang in labyrinth, but he’s a real life singer)

Words: 1439

Warnings: swearing again haha

Movie: Bohemian Rhapsody

Characters: Reader, Rami Malek, Bryan Singer (mentioned), Ben (mentioned), Joe (mentioned), Gwilym (mentioned)

Relationships: Rami Malek x reader

"Rami! Come on over, there's someone I'd like you to meet!"

Rami, who had just walked in, cradling a cup of coffee, turned to see Bryan Singer waving him over. It was only as he headed towards him that he noticed another figure standing behind him, practically hidden away until he was close enough to see them.

(Y/N) (Y/L/N).

Rami almost froze mid-step, but managed to force his legs to work. It probably wasn't the smoothest recovery, but that would just add to his charm, right? Right?

You glanced at him as he approached, and the smile you gave him made his palms sweat and stomach knot.

He really didn't know how he was going to get through this shoot without royally fucking up around you.

Rami had been extremely excited to meet you ever since he found out you were going to be his co star and love interest. He'd been a huge fan of your work for as long as he could remember (well, since you'd started working in the entertainment industry anyway). Your albums? He'd bought them all. Movies you'd starred in? He'd watched them all.

He supposed he was a casual supporter.

Haha.

Ha.

Thankfully, he hadn't embarrassed himself yet. With that thought in mind, he lifted his hand in an awkward little wave as you stuck yours out to shake it.

Oh no.

Letting out a nervous laugh, he lowered his hand, grasping yours and praying you couldn't tell he was trembling.

"Hi, I'm Rami."

"(Y/N). It's great to finally meet you. I love your work."

If Rami had been excited before, he was over the moon now. If only he knew you were going through the same thing.

You'd barely slept the night before, mulling over how to introduce yourself best to everyone. And especially to Rami Malek. Your fucking idol. You'd come up with the perfect, fool proof plan, only for it to go right out the window the moment you saw him. Your brain was going a mile a minute, and all it was doing was berating you for trying to shake his hand.

For fuck's sake, who even did that anymore?

You almost winced when he laughed, somehow managing to keep your cool as his warm hand wrapped around yours.

Yeah, you're still not quite sure how you handled it.

You continued to make small talk, getting to know each other, and by the time you two were comfortable enough to relax and crack a couple of jokes, you'd been beckoned thrice by now impatient makeup artists. As you took your leave of him, you were both glad the other person couldn't see the goofy grins blossoming.

-

"And cut! Great job, guys, take five, and we'll work on the next scene."

Rami immediately turned to find you. After having finished god knows how many days of filming, he'd grown close to you. Closer, he liked to think, than you were to the other boys.

Jealousy? Never heard of it.

He saw you standing off to the side, script in hand and concentration evident in your features as you went through your lines. Before he could take a proper step in your direction, though, he was stopped by a wall of people.

Three people, to be specific.

Rami rolled his eyes as Ben, Gwilym and Joe smirked down at him, "I don't like this."

Joe smiled wider, if that was possible, "don't like what?"

"Your faces, at the moment. What the fuck are you doing?"

They shared a look, before turning to look at you, then back at Rami, eyebrows raised.

Oh no.

"No, whatever you're thinking of, don't do it."

Ben shot him a look of mock disbelief, "don't you trust us?"

"Frankly speaking, no."

Joe clapped a hand on his shoulder. Hard. "Kinda rude, but whatever. You need to stop pining and make a fucking move. Today. Not just because I'd win the bet, but because everyone is sick of seeing you two flirt every second of every day. Sick. It's sickening."

"Wait, what bet-"

"What Joe means", Gwilym interrupted, "is that you should definitely make a move. No need to hurry, you don't have to do it today, take as much time as you need. Do it tomorrow. Or later this week. Both are good. But for the love of God, do it."

"Would you keep your voice down?", Rami hissed, seeing that you'd spotted the four of them and were making your way over.

"What are you guys whispering about?"

Ben smiled a little too innocently, making Rami glare at him and you tilt your head in confusion, "actually, Rami was just telling us about how he hasn't been able to figure out the piano yet."

"Figure out the piano?"

"Yeah, finger placements or whatever. Hey, you play the piano, don't you?"

"Yes?"

By this point, Joe and Gwilym had caught on, and Rami wanted to die. Ben was a lot of things. Subtle wasn’t one of them. You, to your credit, were beginning to suspect something, but didn't have a chance to think about it as Joe put his arm around your shoulders, "so (Y/N), why don't you teach him? He might learn faster if he's being taught by a professional, you know?"

Curiouser and curiouser.

Letting go of your doubts (for now), you nodded, smiling at Rami, "sure! If you'd like, we could start today, once we're done filming. What do you think?"

Rami muttered something about it being perfect as you turned away to get ready for the next scene. Words couldn't even begin to describe how grateful he was that you didn't see him punch a cackling Joe's arm.

-

It was the end of the day, and almost everyone had gone home, with the exception of a few stragglers. Today had been tiring, and you couldn't wait to get home.

Fortunately, Rami was right on time.

You stood up straight from where you were leaning against the piano and waved him over.

"Hey! Have you decided what to work on?”

“Oh yeah, a lot of stuff.”

You frowned, “specifics, Rami. What do you need help with?"

"Um..finger placements?."

"Yes, but- you know what, never mind, we'll figure it out. Let's just start with Bohemian Rhapsody, shall we?"

You sat down on the bench, patting the spot next to you. Your pulse was racing as he plopped down beside you, and you had to almost physically restrain yourself from leaning against him when his arm brushed yours. Clearing your throat, you played the opening to the song slowly, letting him observe the keys.

"Why don't you try? Go slow, one key at a time."

Rami placed his fingers on the keys, some of them (intentionally) incorrectly. You adjusted his fingers before awkwardly placing your hands in your lap. And then he played.

And you knew you were right to have been suspicious.

"You needed help, huh?"

Rami froze, gulping audibly, a small "fuck" escaping him. He'd forgotten the instructions drilled into his head by the others (“pretend you’re an absolute moron who wouldn't know music if it slapped him on the arse”), driven only by a need to impress you. He glanced at you.

Your expression was expectant and even though he could see a glimmer of amusement in your features, he panicked, stumbling over his words.

“I- I didn't- um I just-I'm a quick learner?”

You signed, shaking your head, “I wasn’t born yesterday, you know. What's really going on?”

Rami wasn't sure what to say. He could tell you the truth, but what if you didn't feel the same? Taking a deep breath, only stopping to say “fuck it”, he decided to trust Gwilym (“trust me, its definitely worth a shot, mate”) and go for it. He turned to face you, his hands hesitantly coming up to cradle your face as he leaned closer, "can I kiss you?"

You were taken aback. This was the last thing you had expected.

Not that you were anything but pleasantly surprised.

Not wanting to take too long and make him think otherwise, you quickly whispered a "yes", closing the distance between the two of you. A while passed before you broke apart, and you laughed as you did.

"This whole thing was a ploy for you to ask me out, wasn't it?"

"Yeah, pretty much."

"You could've just asked."

"Hey, I was going to, but then those three happened. I didn't have anything to do with this!"

You only chuckled, glad the “trio of insufferable assholes” (as Rami was now calling them) had taken matters into their own hands.

You both were, really, no matter how much Rami denied it.

[readmylip-s]

thank u, next.

so here we are, a week left until we usher in the new year. 2018 is probably one of the more major roller coaster rides i’ve had for a while now. i’ve had quite a few accomplishments and fcos the usual emotional-down-turns. i’ve also had tons of blessings and a lot of lessons learnt through the year. i’ve always been told to count my blessings so thats exactly what i’ve been doing. 

if you know me you’d know i prefer keeping my social circle small, though it may not seem that way on socmed. but thats the thing, thats social media. i dont revolve my life around social media. i think i’ve said this way too many times - what you see is only what i choose to show. on a personal level, i rlly prefer the company of a small group of people, even if it means just hanging out with one or two friends. i think 2018 is also the year i’ve had one of the most me-time. i enjoy going to the movies alone, having the entire couple seat to myself, i love sitting at starbucks sipping on GT Cream or seasonal drinks and occasionally with a plate of beef pie. teehee.

i’ll prolly share some positive and not so positive highlights of my year, as well as all the blessings i’ve had through the year. 

this year, just like the past 2 years, i landed myself in the hospital. 

pretty much because of the same old issues i’ve been having. was put on oxygen supply for quite a fair bit, had multiple needles poked through my skin, and multiple bags of glucose. it was a crazy period because it was during the fasting month and prior to the hospitalization, i was fasting. and even when i was in the a&e and eventually warded, i was still not allowed to have food. i was cranky, i was upset and best of all? i felt like i was gna faint. i was due for surgery, again, the next day so i couldnt eat. but i was a rebel. during the night, i secretly chewed on Mr Bean pancake that my brother got me when he accompanied me for a bit. so glad i didnt get caught hehe. fast forward, post surgery, i ate like a monster. the little brother was supposed to fly off the next morn for his school trip but he still came to visit me during the night. he even brought me bubble tea?! i was discharged after what seemed to be a torturous 3d2n staycation at NTFGH. 

2018 was the year i get to tick off certain things in my bucket list. i finally, finally did something i really wanted to do.

i got myself a septum piercing. its a pretty unorthodox thing considering how i dress and all but hey, a girl can dream, and make her own dreams come true. it was on a very random sunday that i decided to get it. but i’m kinda glad i did. i guess all the needles from all my hospitalizations helped me coped with the needle that poked through my septum. pretty sure this is only gna be a phase so all you hateful people, shut your trap. hahahaha. :)

also this year, i finally got to climb a mountain again. 

it was DFOALC’s first overseas staff expedition. (no, i wouldnt consider pulau ubin ‘overseas’, haha) it was the toughest climb i’ve had of all the 4 climbs i’ve done before. in summary - my injury acted up during the ascend and descend, and i also almost lost my life to Gunung Berembun. i survived, alhamdulillah. i just needed my cast when i got back to Singapore. phew. 

moving on to counting my blessings, i call them my constants. 

#4. 

its no surprise that AY is one of the greatest blessing i never knew i needed in my life. i never know where to begin when it comes to how beyond blessed i am for his presence in my life. its still so surreal how we were friends for the longest time and now we’re planning for a future together?! WHAT. hold on, time! 

it is rlly crazy how this whole love thing works. but whatever that is, it has brought so much joy in my life. and AY has made me the happiest kid ever since we began our journey in chasing NZ! thank you, AY. you’re so bloody amazing, and i can’t wait to spend forever and a day with you. dont know what i did to deserve you but i’m glad i did. x

#3.

my bestfriend; nurul. we went through our poly days together, and even when we were separated in to different classes, we still made it a point to have lunch together atleast once or twice a week. clingsterzx much. we even applied for the same job together and among our group of friends who applied, only the two of us got it. is this fate or what?! thank you sissy for being there, always. and for always being the one with the sneaky pick me ups, and listening to all my sob stories. but please dont degil when i try to help you find a boyfriend??? but if you insist then i hope you find your oppa lah okay. we have had our differences and our bumpy ride but what doesnt kill us makes us stronger, yes? so much love for you, sissy! x

my other bestfriend, zulh.jsmn. this photo is the exact representation of our bestfriendship. he annoys the living shit outta me but i have got no choice but to accept him the way he is. unlike nurul, this one is lowkey always asking me to find him a girlfriend. smh. your day will come soon, buddy. i’m grateful for all the times you made sure i was always in check. also for being my guitarist bcus i’m that much of a loser who cant play the guitar, and most importantly for the letter you wrote to me 5 years ago for me to look back to when i feel like the worst person on earth. oh and all the times you traveled down for me just to send food that you cooked so i’d have food to break my fast with during my internship?!?! you always have the most interesting gifts for me whether its for my birthday or just a random gift. the box of clouds from genting, i still have it! appearing in Chicago with SD and a guitar to sing me a birthday song at midnight for my 19th birthday. and the lantern we flew for my 20th birthday in Tennessee at midnight? i choose to believe its still flying somewhere in the sky! thank you, buddy for everything. smell ya in futura tomato saucin, buddiok! #OHOS #GBT #NZV lives! 

#2

my sister, SD. oh sisthur, the resemblance we have is uncanny. it is no wonder people automatically recognize us as sisters through photos. our taxi stand incident will always be etched at the back of my mind. it is one i would never forget bcus it is that one short incident that led us to how close we are up till today. though things cannot be exactly how i imagined it to be, i’m still glad i have you almost entirely. here’s to more sisthur hangz! sayang sawah! x

#1

and of course, my number one constant, my only older brother. you suck and you’re such an idiot but you care for me in ways no other human would. no one, and i rlly mean no one, can ever take your place in my life, for blood is thicker than water. i promise, to always make you proud of me. and i too promise that when the day comes that you shed your tears for me, i’d cheer you up and promise to always be the same baby sister you grew up with. thank you, for calling me your bestfriend, and for loving me with all your life. growing up together hasnt been an easy feat but i’m glad our rivalry only lasted through the times we wore the same sneakers, shared the same room and have the same mp3 player. you rlly suck sometimes but i love you every other day. x 

/wow so much of a summary and a wrap up, nurfa./

but yep, these pretty much sums up my 2018. fcos there were pockets of crazy shit that happened through the year; from suffering cuts and bruises bcus of anxiety attacks, to losing my sanity, to falling out of a relationship, to my injury and to losing friends i thought who would be around a little longer. 

some other things i ticked off my bucket list was meeting Haqim Mokhtar and watch him perform live, singing on stage (i got to sing with sufian suhaimi!), being present for TLV gigs, and fcos, completing my desired Nike Collection hehehehe.

i am very much thankful to God for allowing me to unlearn and relearn whatever i needed to. i dont really do resolutions but in 2018, my goal was just to seek happiness. i’m glad to say that i have achieved my goal of being happy. and in 2019, i pray for constant happiness with the people i love most, and for inner peace. may 2019 be the year i break the chain of having to be hospitalized, and may 2019 also be the year of recovery. 

x, nvrfa 

1623 | 23rd December 2018

[wonderalwaysland]

Hey, I miss you

You know, what, even tho I started this blog for myself and thought maybe I want ppl to discover it, now I just feel like it’ll become a place where I write letters to you, Dream Boy(actually I find it cringy to call u that all the time, so I’ll just address u as you, as I think one day u might read all these posts, at least I hope so).

I just wanted to talk to you, so I felt like writing this. Actually I talk to  u in my mind as well, not sure tho, if it’s u who replies(ik it’s def me haha but still) I mean I just imagine what u would have replied, even tho idk you yet. But somehow I feel that I know you partly, ig we have something in common after all. There are so many things I’d like to share with u, my little discoveries, songs, feelings etc. And I hope u’d do the same one day. So now having no other way to connect to u other than in my mind and maybe dreams sometimes, I’m writing this letter to you. Btw sometimes I can really feel u beside me, it’s really a strange feeling, but I like it, and sometimes when I think about u or feel u my heart gets warm, I’ve never felt this way before. However I get this feeling rarely this days, compared to before.  I guess it’s because at that time I really needed ur help and support, now not as much, I feel like I’ve become stronger. Thank you for being there for me from the start of this year(it’s around that time I knew u r for real, tho I still have doubts about who u are, not that it matters, I still love u). In my mind or daydreams(?) we’ve been supporting each other, mainly just by being together, sometimes with words too. Actually we had fights too! haha But we are still together as u can see. One day when we meet and become really close, even when we have fights I hope we still will be together. You know, I imagined that we were lying on the bed(even tho we had a fight, I’ll tell u the reason later a bit)and u were holding my arm in urs two. Even though we both felt bitter and sad we couldn’t turn our backs on each other. I thought it was really touching and cute(?). You are dear to me and mean a lot for me, I can’t help but love u actually. And I really don’t want us to hurt each other’s feelings, but it can’t be helped sometimes. However that what makes our relationship grow, even though it hasn’t really started yet. No matter what I hope we will convey our feelings and try understanding each other. Really, I love you, I have never had this strong feeling before, it’s weird for me. I think my love for u is sth that has always been there (is what I want to say, but honestly I’m not sure about it). But I love you now, somewhere deep inside me. But it won’t stop me from doing the things I want to irl while we haven’t met yet. I’’ll be enjoying my life to the fullest(well, to the fullest in my understanding, not sure how full it is in other ppl’s minds). Currently I’m trying to leave my comfort zone for real, step by step, I hope I succeed. And till our meeting I’ll use u as my inspiration as I have many projects I’d like to do. I wrote 2 songs about u actually! but I haven’t composed a melody yet. I’ll take my time with it, but I have an idea of what it’ll sound like ig.

So, the thing I wanted to tell is that these days have been tough n sad a bit. But I feel better rn. I haven’t been feeling like drawing, or I was but I was busy and when I didn’t draw i felt bad about myself ugh. But them I reminded that I don’t have to worry about it and just enjoy my life and current moment. Sometimes I forget that, it’s tough to remember that all the time plus really realizing it takes time too. I gotta be easier on myself. I also wanted to go to a gig in Moscow but I couldn’t find a band that I like or that plays the songs that I like ;( And u know, I recently became friends with Sam. We are exchanging e-mails currently and we had a little falling out ig not sure what to call it tbh. So he’s really kind n sweet, I am happy to have him as a friend. But then I think he was daydreaming a bit too much and used lots of endearments in the mail, so I was conflicted. I def want to be friends with him, but what if he thought of it more than that is what I thought(and it made me sad), and then there is u. Ofc I thought for a bit that he might be u, but I know he isn’t, I’m sure of it somehow. And that was one of the reasons we had a fight with u. So in the end I told him what I thought about endearments and stuff, and I was relieved, I am kind of proud for myself for doing it. But he assured me that we are totally friends, but somehow he was sad for making me feel uncomfortable, it made me sad too actually. But it seems all is better now, he is really a good fellow n he had rough times, so he needs a friend and I am glad to be one for him, I actually need friends too. That’s funny how I have several internet friends and no friends in real life, but I have my cousins and sis, so it’s not that bad plus we’ve become closer, I can’t be happier about that(I can actually lol). But I hope to find some other friends too. Another sad thing was that I was feeling unsure of myself about getting a part-time job, just thinking too much about future, it really makes me worry more than I should. So I say to myself ENJOY CURRENT MOMENT AND tODAY, no overthinking about future, i feel better somehow. 

Yesterday mum and bro returned from football match, and Phil was sad, because my told he’ll quit football now as he doesn’t work enough and isn’t hard-working n stuff. *sigh* Well, my mum is just like this, she wants us to put all our effort n mind into a thing. It’s not really bad but from my experience I can say it’s tough. So I feel sad for my brother. Plus my parents are too much sometimes, dunno how to explain it tbh and it’s not like I wanna think about it rn. But they care and love us in their own way? I just felt deja vu rn haha.

So that’s what i wanted to say here ig. I like thinking about u. I don’t wanna idealize u and I don’t actually, but I feel so much love for u and sometimes when I think about it too much I don’t know what to do. But I often kiss n hug u and just enjoy ur presence <3 xoxoxoxoxoxoxxoxoxoxoxoxoxo haha

Sometimes when I can;t fall asleep I imagine lying or hugging u, whatever it feels like at the moment and i fall asleep rather fast. I’ve told u that already but I want to share many things with u, so I often(or not rlly?) talk to u and we are happy or sad together, sometimes u also come to me sad or happy n we feel the same. And I create stories (which I wish to draw\write\animate someday) n usually we are there too! I hope u like fantasy, magic n fairy tales as much as I do. ALright, I gotta finish this letter, I’ll share some songs now. Aslo sometimes I listen to sings and it seems to me u might like them too, but I have no idea rn haha. I love you <3<3<3

[tangerinewrites]

DAY 11: MINA

11/11/2020

wc: 3698

note: yeah i went off w this one at 7pm i had a goal 

After finishing her evaluations, all Mina could do was just remain anxious and dreadful for what the results could be. She knows from past experience that she should not get her expectations too high just because she had done well once. So as she stands in the practice room with all the other girls like they always do once a month, she looks at the coaches, Boyeon, and Seungkwan with anticipation and anxiety.

Truth be told, every time they make their announcements for who the next girl was going to be, she always feels anxious whenever she has to hear it. So this just felt routine for Mina at this point. Still, she listens to them patiently and hears what they both have to say.

“Good morning.” He starts it off like usual. “We’re here today because the eleventh member of HEARTZ has been chosen.”

Eleven. Even if Mina already knew that there was only few spots left for HEARTZ, it only hits her now on how there was only this month left to determine who could be the final member of the lineup. Just from knowing that, Mina already feels the pressure on her as well as all the other girls. Eleven girls are already confirmed to debut. She doesn’t know how the other ten girls were feeling, but she wouldn’t be surprised if this was surprising for them as well.

“We and the other coaches analyzed your performances from last month and decided, in unison, who will be the eleventh face to show the word under the name of HEARTZ,” Boyeon continues. Mina swears that every time she hears that number, it just raises her anxiety. But she continues to try and keep herself calm. If she thought about it any more, she’d probably start stressing out in front of everyone and she did not want to do that. “The girl of the month is…”

“It’s okay, Mina,” she mentally thinks to herself as she holds her breath. “You’re just freaking out over nothing. You will be fine! There’s no need to panic! It’s not like you’re not going to get a chance at this at all.”

“…KANG MINA! Congratulations!”

When she hears the name, she lets go of her breath and claps for the lucky girl being chosen. Though she’s disappointed about how the name was not hers, she was happy for who the lucky trainee was. She looks around the studio to try and find the girl, wondering if she’s ever heard that name around before, only to see that everyone was looking at her.

Kang Mina. Kang Mina. As soon as she realizes, she stops clowning and her jaw drops. THAT’S HER NAME. BANG BOYEON SAID HER NAME! SHE is the girl of the month!

She covers her open mouth so that she doesn’t look like a fool in front of everyone else as everyone claps for her. She looks around to see the confirmed HEARTZ girls smile for her, as well as Yoorim looking overjoyed at the announcement. She still couldn’t wrap her head around it. She, Kang Mina, a trainee of eight months at this point, is being given the chance to debut in Sphere’s girl group? As HEARTZ’s Mina?! As soon as the clapping goes to a stop, she tries her best to look calm for the rest of the announcements. In reality, however, she was internally still trying to process the news while also freaking about it at the same time.

“This does not mean we’ll completely steal you away from the rest of group—and far from that. Still, you’ll have to focus your attention now on making your debut, and also on making a good impact.”

Mina nods at the adult’s words, still in awe over the entire situation. She listens to the rest of the announcements, learning that she will be moving into the HEARTZ dorm in just a few days. And though she has to record her debut and another song with Heejin (god, she’s going to be singing with a VOCAL QUEEN! What an honor!) and Sua, she would still take part in this month’s evaluation with Yoorim.

Once the announcements are done, she’s immediately being congratulated by the new trainees, as well as the other HEARTZ girls. Still in shock, she replies “thank you’s” to them, not knowing what else to say besides that she’s glad she’s been given this opportunity. As soon as most of them leave, she walks up to one of her coaches and asks if she could excuse herself to go outside and get some fresh air for herself. They smile at her and nod before congratulating her as she goes on her way out.

Automatically, as she leaves the room, she pulls out her phone and sends a few messages to someone.

[ ✉︎ TO STANKY DANKY ]

✉︎ hey!!! i have some news to share with u but i need to tell u in person

✉︎ when u have the time, lmk when i can hit u up!!!

✉︎ its good news!! for me at least, but it’s still rlly important

✉︎ :3c

Mina feels as if she’s been doing a lot of packing this year. First, she had to move out of her house to move in with Chungha. And not long after that, she had to move out a month after Chungha did to live with her brother. But now, after three months of living with him and Woong, she was finally moving out. However, unlike the last two where she felt conflicting emotions whilst packing her things, she felt… happy. After all, she has to move in to live with her confirmed group members now.

“I can’t believe you’re going to debut,” Daniel says with a big smile on his face. When she told him of the news, they gave each other a big hug. And though Mina tries her best not to be too emotional with her brother, she did cry when she was telling him about it. Thankfully, she’s gotten a grip on herself so that she doesn’t cry before she officially leaves his apartment. “Just a few months ago, we did our first evaluation together. And now, you’re going to debut! I’m still so happy for you.”

“How do you feel about me debuting before you?” she asks with a smug look on her face. “You better get used to calling me sunbaenim from now on.”

He lets out a sigh. “This is the fourth time you’ve brought that up since you told me. Will you ever get tired of it?”

“No,” she answers with a laugh.

“Also: I technically am still your senior. I came to Sphere before you and Cameo has debuted before you.”

She laughs. “Whatever~ I’m going to be your company senior now! That’s all that matters!”

He sighs, but a smile follows afterwards to show he isn’t upset at her. “Have you told Mom or Dad yet?”

She shakes her head. “I don’t know if I can tell them. But I probably will let Dad know about me debuting when my teasers come out. I’ll probably do the same with Soobin.”

His smile drops slightly. “Still not talking to Mom, huh?”

“Well, last time I tried to have a conversation with her, she just stayed silent the whole time,” she responds with a shrug, a frown forming on her lips. “If anything, she needs to talk to me.” She then gives a bitter smile. “Besides, it’s not like she’d be happy for me.”

“Yeah,” he answers with a shrug. “I guess you’re not wrong about that.”

“Maybe Dad will tell her about it, but know that I won’t,” she responds with a little huff. After she does, she looks at her brother with an apologetic look. “I’m sorry for being a little insensitive about this. Do you want to talk about something else?”

He nods. “You said you and Heejin were going to work on a song together, right?”

“Yeah! It’s called… ‘See Saw’, if I remembered correctly,” she replies. “I heard a demo of it and I feel like she’ll be able to do the song really well. Same with Sua. But it’s okay, because I think I can do my debut song well.”

“That’s good,” he says with a smile. “I know you’ve worked with them before, but they’re really nice and they’ll help you whenever you need it. Same goes for all the other HEARTZ girls, too. I think Chungha might be the member who’s the most excited about you joining, though.”

“Well I hope she is!” she answers with a laugh. “Thanks though, Daniel. Your words mean a lot. I’ll do my best.”

“I know you will!” The both of them hug again. As she pulls away from him, he says something else. “When you become famous, don’t forget me. Okay?”

“Oh please,” she rolls her eyes. “You’re my brother. And if you didn’t forget me while you were on the MGAs, I won’t forget you when HEARTZ officially debuts.”

“I had a feeling that we’d be living together again.”

It’s what Chungha says as she’s helping Mina get settled in her shared room. With such a small dorm and twelve upcoming members, it makes sense to know that there’s only four bedrooms with 3 members each in them. Perhaps it was fate that Mina happened to be roomming with Chungha and Juyeon. Even if she still had to get closer to the other girl, she was glad to know that the oldest out of the three roommates would be sharing the same room… again.

"Quite a bummer that we can’t share a bed, if you ask me,” Mina jokes with a smile. “That means we can’t cuddle like we used to.”

“Excuse me, we still very much can,” the older retorts, making Mina giggle. “Just because you have your own bed doesn’t mean that we cannot cuddle! I will still be expecting some from you, especially since I’ve had the lack of it since moving out.”

“Yes, ma’am!” Mina replies jokingly while giggling. Chungha returns a smile back at her before she says something else.

“Are you nervous?” she asks. “I was nervous back when I was going through the same thing you were.”

“A little,” she answers honestly. “But honestly, I’m just glad I know that I’m a part of the group. The most stressful thing about being in this project was wondering if I’d even have a chance compared to everyone else.”

“And look at you! You did have a chance!” Chungha cheers, making Mina throw her hands in the air and wave them around happily. As she puts her arms down, Chungha gives her a fond look. “You have no idea how glad I am to have you here. I was already super happy to be able to debut with Juyeon, but you’re my mini me. I’d be sad if you weren’t debuting with me.”

Mina nods, putting more of her clothes into her drawer. She looks back at Chungha as soon as she pushes it in. “You know, you were the main reason why I wanted to be in HEARTZ,” she answers. “Back then, I just thought it was a fun little project that could give me experience and make me daydream about what-if’s. But when you got confirmed as a member, I only wanted to try and work harder so that I could be able perform with you again.” She pauses. “And also dorm with you again. Because you’re an awesome roommate.”

“Mina, you’re being too much right now,” Chungha replies with a laugh. “But I’m glad we’re on the same page. And I’m even happier knowing that I get to debut with you. I know you struggled a lot in the past few months, so seeing you here makes me so proud. You have no idea how absolutely proud I am of you.”

The words make Mina feel warm inside. I am proud of you. Growing up, Mina never really got to hear those words often. She had always been the disappointment for most of her life, so just hearing someone be satisfied with her efforts or acknowledge her accomplishments was what warmed her heart. It felt like a lifetime goal to feel as if she was doing something good with her life. So the fact that she gets to hear that from someone who she admired from the past up until now, it definitely affected her.

“Thank you, unnie,” she replies with a smile. “You have no idea how long I’ve been wanting to hear those words.”

“Well, you’re gonna hear it again when you debut!”

Recording songs is a little nerve-wracking, Mina had to admit. Having to be in a studio to record her lines over and over again until the producer behind the screen was satisfied never failed to make Mina feel a little self-conscious. But, she knew that the producer was looking out for her. So, she continues to try and do her best, even if she wanted to give the producer less stress to deal with.

“One and Only” was a kind of song that she thought was unique. When she heard the demo for the first time, she found it a little surreal to know that her solo song had such a high note. She found it more amazing that they gave it to her, someone who wasn’t much of a vocalist as she is a dancer. Not only did the vocals stunt her, but so did the rapping. Even if she had been trained to rap quickly, she still couldn’t believe that she was going to record this for her song. Perhaps the fact that she is going to be singing, rapping, and performing a song made for her was what she found surreal.

On the next day, she’d be recording her own lies for “See Saw”, Heejin and Sua to record their vocals for it after her. The fact that she was in this situation was just surprising to her. Perhaps that’s why she’s getting nervous while recording. And she thinks she might’ve made it obvious to the producer about her nerves because then she hears something come from the speaker.

“Mina-ssi, you’re doing fine,” they say as an attempt to reassure her. “I promise you that your voice will suit the song. That’s why we chose it for you, after all.”

She looks at the translucent screen and she gives a bow to the producer. “Thank you, PD-Nim,” she says with a smile on her face. “I will keep on trying my best!”

The instrumental plays in her headphones once again after the RECORDING sign lights up in the studio. She takes a deep breath as she once again sings her bridge lines.

“The reflection of my new shape on the window, it feels familiar now. The voice being heard again; I’m trying to listen!”

The instrumental plays on until it stops a few seconds into the third chorus. “Good job, Mina!” the speaker suddenly says, making Mina says as she hears the praise. “You didn’t sound too flat this time. You hit the G5 perfectly!”

“Thank you so much,” Mina replies, giggling as she feels shy from hearing the sudden compliment.

“Honestly, you’re doing good,” they say afterwards. “I think the hardest part will be the backup vocals. Your harmonies will need to be higher. But if you can pull off this note, I think you can do it. If not, we can always get another member to help you out with that.”

“Thank you!” she bows again to the screen. “What part do I need to record next?”

“Your rap. Think you can do it?” After the speaker clips, indicating that the producer finishes speaking, Mina nods her head and gives a thumbs up. “Okay. I’ll play the first part, then.”

It takes a few seconds for her to hear something from her headphones, but she makes sure to be prepared when given the signal.

With all the new changes in her life, it came in between parts in her life that she had intended to keep constant. The fact that she was a soon-to-be idol who was in a secret relationship meant that she had to see her boyfriend less than she would want to. No longer could he walk her to her home, as her new home was the HEARTZ dorm now. And on a day where she would love to go on a date with him, she had to stay in the company building to help prepare for a secret that she couldn’t exactly tell him yet. Hell, the fact that she couldn’t tell him that she was busier than usual because she’s confirmed to debut in a girl group absolutely kills her. But she’s glad that despite her schedule, she and him still remain strong together.

On the night of February 14th, she sends him a few texts.

[ ✉︎ to garubin ❤️ ]

✉︎ happy valentines, baby!!! i miss u so much and i hope that u didnt eat any of ur admirer’s chocolates

✉︎ if i could, u know id get u a box!!!! i hate sphere for making me work all the time

✉︎ i cant guarantee ill be free for white day either, but i still love u so much

✉︎ ALSO!!! i have a question

Just a few seconds after she sends those messages, she sees messages from him pop up.

[ ✉︎ from garubin ❤️ ]

✉︎ very not cool of them for taking away my gf this valentines, i agree!!

✉︎ but thank you, babe!! even if u aren’t able to celebrate it w me in person, you’ll always be my wonderful, talented, and adorable girlfriend!!!

✉︎ what’s the question though??

He never fails to bring a smile to her face. She quickly writes her replies while under her blanket, Juyeon and Chungha being fast asleep at this point.

[ ✉︎ to garubin ❤️ ]

✉︎ STOOOPOPPP HOW ARE YOU THE CUTEST BOYFRIEND EVER!!!

✉︎ have you been paying attention to sphere lately!!!

✉︎ i hope u have bc ur gf is there

[ ✉︎ from garubin ❤️ ]

✉︎ well… i only watch some convex stuff because of you

✉︎ that haru dude… he’s okay i guess

Seeing that message makes her snort.

[ ✉︎ from garubin ❤️ ]

✉︎ and i also watched sera’s music video because u kept on spamming it to me

✉︎ why???

[ ✉︎ to garubin ❤️ ]

✉︎ well, besides sera, all the other girls in heartz are my friends!!!

✉︎ i’ve been getting rlly close to them recently and they’re all rlly nice and talented

✉︎ i think there’s only 3 members left that need to be revealed!!! so you should keep an eye on them because theyre all super cool

✉︎ i only know about 11 of the girls who are gonna debut, 9 of them already having debuted. so!!!

[ ✉︎ from garubin ❤️ ]

✉︎ oh? do i know a member that you know???

✉︎ besides chungha at least i already know her

✉︎ btw does she like me i can’t tell

[ ✉︎ to garubin ❤️ ]

✉︎ you keep me happy!! that’s all that’s important to her heheh

✉︎ and i can’t tell u any spoilers!! this is all i can tell you for now.

✉︎ you’re just going to find out eventually!

[ ✉︎ from garubin ❤️ ]

✉︎ you’re mean~~ but okay, i’ll keep an eye for you!!

✉︎ i have to go to bed now, but i will text you tomorrow!!!

✉︎ happy valentines, babe!

[ ✉︎ to garubin ❤️ ]

✉︎ happy valentines~~~ i love you~~~~~~~~~~~

And with that, she turns off her phone, puts it on her bedside, and heads to bed.

Mina never thought she’d be able to perform a disco-esque song for an evaluation, but she couldn’t say she was disappointed. Not only was “I Can’t Stop Me” a bop, but the choreography was also entertaining as well. In all honesty, she thinks that besides “Feel Special”, it’d be up there as one of her favorite TWICE songs for both listening and dancing. And the fact that she got to rap in this evaluation as Chaeyoung was probably her favorite thing about performing this, funky-sounding lyrics and all.

However, she does her best to make her last group evaluation a good one. With the fact that it was going to be hers, as well as a lot of trainees, last group evaluation under the HEARTZ project ever, she made sure to try and be close to all the other girls and give them as much encouragement as she could. But if she had to choose a member who she hoped would the last HEARTZ member, she wouldn’t deny that Yoorim was that member to her.

Whenever they practiced with each other in the practice room, Mina would always tell her over and over again about how she had a lot of hope for her. “If I was able to be chosen as the eleventh girl, they’d be dumb as HELL to not make you the last one.” Some nights at the dorm, she’d even tell Yuzu about how she had hoped that she would be the trainee that could debut with the both of them. The fact that the three of them were mutual friends definitely made it hard to not have hopes for the girl.

“We’ve gone through this journey from the beginning to now together,” Mina says with a confident smile. “There’s no way God would make this the end for us.”

Even with her schedule becoming more and more hectic with the fact that she had to prepare for her upcoming debut, she still tried her best learning the choreography as well as learning her lines. Every time she rapped her lines to Yoorim to listen, she’d find herself giggling at the lines a little. “Risky risky, wiggy wiggy,” she would say before cracking a big smile. “Why does it sound much cooler in the song than it does when I’m doing it?” Thankfully, she found the secret into making herself sound cool while performing it.

The end of February comes and she is able to perform the evaluation confidently. With it being the last HEARTZ evaluation ever, she feels proud to be taking part in it as the eleventh confirmed member. No longer does she have to stress about whether she can make it not. Her qualms have been answered and she can now feel satisfied with all the hard work she has done.

[melodicminho]

friends to lovers ❁ hoshi

anon asked: Hello! I really liked your friends-to-lovers Junhui AU, so would it be okay to request a friends-to-lovers Hoshi AU? Thank you! :)

aw thank u, im glad you liked jun’s version! i’ll do my best to make this one just as good!

you both were put in dancing classes when you were young

that’s basically how you two met

the dance moms were mingling with each other as u all had ur class

but i guess soonyoung’s mom and urs just CLICKED

they became best friends which meant u both had to be too

IT’S A RULE

you both got along with each other well so it wasn’t a forced friendship

soonyoung was a very fidgety boy and dancing was something that helped when he was feeling restless

whenever he came to ur house or u went to his you would always see him dancing

like if he was walking down the path to ur house u just see him moonwalking to the door or he’s doing something crazy like KRUMPING

like is this kid okay lol

you’d have to try and stop him from dancing so much cause ur scared he’ll hurt himself by DANCING SO MUCH

looked exxxxtra cute with braces on

he was a bit embarrassed by it, but i mean .. who isn’t u know

“it’s okay hoshi i still think ur cute.”

“oh thank u pft” (*≧∀≦*)

soonyoung hated school

he hated waking up so early to get ready for something he thought was useless

but he still pulled through with those good grades

HE WASN’T ALLOWED TO DATE IN HIGH SCHOOL

so he always pined after girls who he wasn’t able 2 get with

this boy can speak lANGUAGE AFTER LANGUAGE AFTER LANGUAGE

ok maybe just japanese, chinese, and korean

he also wasn’t a very loud person, but whenever u saw him he was blasting his music so in a sense he was p loud

he became more of a rat during ur 2nd to last year of high school

nEVER BACKED U UP FOR GROUP DISCUSSIONS

let u get in trouble w the teacher when it was hIS FAULT

but he is super duper good at taekwondo and whenever a boy or creepy dude went up to u he would ‘HYA’ them in the face

get rekt

also wanted to fight everyone in ur class, he hated all of them

probably would’ve fought ur teacher too if the chance of getting expelled was 0

SUEPR BIG SHINEE FAN

hoshi: JULIETTE YEONGHONEUL BACHILKKEYO

hoshi: dude sing it with me

hoshi: JULIETTE JEBAL NAL BADA JWOYO

hoshi: oh u don’t know that song?

hoshi: ok well how abou--  JAJAEONG MAK JINAN SAEBYEOK YO sing it with me--

u: JINHEULG SOK NUN TTEUN MUEONGA

when u sang the next lyrics he was like

omg (ﾉ≧∀≦)ﾉ

OK but that’s when he knew he fell in love with u

he knew he wasn’t allowed to date until he graduated but </3 he finally realized that u were the one 4 him

perfect, cute, fun

u were hi s ideal type

bc u smelled nice (and he secretly knew that u liked him too)

it was a breath of fresh air once you both graduated high school

bc school’s over

and ,, maybe he could even ask u out soon . omgg soonyoung get urself together (*≧▽≦)ﾉｼ))

ok but when i mean ask u out soon i MEAN RLLY SOON

dude he asked u out three days after graduation lol

“um .. would u pl s go out with me pls”

at first u were like ?? r u bullshitting soonyoung it isnt funny bro

｡(*^▽^*)ゞ “i don’t think i was joking?? idk pft”

i mean of course you said yes to him what a goofball

his mom was very proud

gave him a thumbs up when he told her the news

“son u picked the right one. i was hoping u would fall for them”

“oh thank u mom”

is a loving boyfriend. he loves u so much

rlly likes apples so he feeds u apple slices from time to time

an apple a day keeps the doctor away

still dances A LOT

can rlly krump

but also slow dances with you sometimes when he feels like he should give u some extra love

he’s super cuddly with u aw ):

sometimes wants to fight u cause ur cute

his heart goes BOOM BOOM BOOM BOBOBMOBOOM whenever he sees u

which is like always

“STOP”

“what”

“my heart ,... it can’t take ur . ,,, perfectness .......”

has dance battles with u

and helps u with taekwondo so that u can defend urself when he’s not around

is proud of u even though u just kicked him in the face

“thank u jagiya that was refreshing”

“sweetheart ur on the floor are u sure u don’t need ice”

“babe ur heart is cold as fuck i don’t need ice”

“wtf”

minghao encourages u to fight ur boyfriend whenever he does him wrong

again, his heart goes DOKI DOKI ODKIDOKDOIDDOKI whenever u do something he finds cute or attractive

“omg babe feel my heart it’s beating so fast”

“literally all i did was sit on the couch are u sure u don’t need to go to the hospital”

“fine if ur not gonna feel my heartbeat ill do it myself”

“ok babe”

(੭ ˃̣̣̥ ㅂ˂̣̣̥)੭ु “WHATEVER I DONT NEED U”

he loves u

so MUCH

gets u to sing shinee songs with him every now and then so that he can fall in love with you evenmore

LOVES SINGING LOVE SICK AND PUNCH DRUNK LOVE WITH YOU

u both cry a little whenever u watch that one performance of 낯선자  stranger

this one

“what a blessing. key looks so good here, jagi”

“oh my god they’re so good at dancing”

“my sins have been washed away jus t by watching this”

SNUGGLES U SO MUCH

ur friends and his hate it whenever ur both stuck to each other’s sides

“ur just jealous. bac k OFF”

cries when u cry

vows to never make u cry

unless it’s a good thing like maybe giving you smth you’ve always wanted ( ... shinee concert tickets maybe ) or proposing to u

which CALM DOWN soonyoung you’ve only been dating for a year give it a little more time

ive been rambling for too long im sry

soonyoung would be such a sweet and innocent boyfriend honestly he would never let go of u ur the most precious thing to him

[didleydudley]

14 March 2019

To rmb-

Been running on coffee over the past 3 weeks, rushing here there everywhere. My soul was/ is?? so so so so weary, tired. Burned out. I even searched ‘what to do when you’re feeling burned out’

Pushin myself, thinking I gotta be there for ppl, thinking I got to/ want to do this that and feeling so tired, spending time with God just flew out. Not Bcus I didn’t want to but Cos id just keep pushing it Tmr or the day aft, saying Tmr I’ll be more refreshed but day aft day, instead of sitting quietly I kept thinking that I have to be doing something, that what if I’m missing an opportunity with this person or what if I’m missing out and not hearing God if I don’t go for this or what if and I kept pushing but inside my head was chaotic, extremely messy and vvvvvvvv weary. This tiredness.

Breaking point came when gar and I went to Msia with the fam. We knew we wanted to uphold our boundaries (and no excuse at all) but I think with the past crazy hectic days + not spending enough time with God, our initial want to uphold anything died. First, I wanted to rlly just relax and finally do what I wanted to do and I just wanted to for once in a long while, just not care abt anything and relax but not caring abt anything and just hecking it came at the expense of this sin. This sin id successfully been stopping, with God’s help and so I thot since I’d been so good, it wouldn’t be too difficult. It was with my will and my own strength I was trying to hold off and keep whatever boundaries. And what didn’t help was gar and I ended sleeping on the same bed instead of separately due to circumstances (even tho initially we said no we have to definitely sleep on separate beds) and to add on I had to lie to mum abt this Bcus she asked me to my face and there was no getting out unless I said the truth or lied and if I said the truth it’ll have further consequences of other truths I’ve never told her and will never told her. (Like our boundaries) But it doesn’t excuse my lie. I wish I could tell her everything and be honest. But that also means coming clean with all the past things which I never told her and as I look back I wished I never had hidden anything fr her but now that my hole has been dug. How? Where would I begin too? And besides, there are many other things I’ve never told mum and prob would never tell her. Not Bcus of trust but I guess it’s just.... like that. Some things, mum just never knows.

Everything crashed on Monday when I realised like Wah shit. What happened? How do I feel so far from God and I just feel like a total let down and a disappointment and I knew I hurt God Bcus I wilfully did what I wanted and just sinned even tho I knew it would hurt God and disappoint him. And I just didn’t know how to go back to God aft wilfully stubbornly not caring. I just felt so wretched and so sinful. And even tho I’d been doing so well, diving into the word, growing in God, everything crashed in a moment and I suddenly didn’t know how to face God again. It’s torture not being able to go to God.

It took awhile. But I finally sat down and rlly confessed everything and asked God for help. Bcus I’m so limited as a human and I know I’m so so so so sinful. Maybe this is also a reminder to myself that no matter how much ‘I’ve got it’, this faith is smth that I have to continuously, Everyday Every moment fight for.

“Blessed is the one whose transgressions are forgiven, whose sins are covered.

Blessed is the one whose sin the Lord does not count against them and in whose spirit is no deceit.

When I kept silent, my bones wasted away through my groaning all day long. For day and night your hand was heavy on me; my strength was sapped as in the heat of summer.

Then I acknowledged my sin to you and did not cover up my iniquity. I said, “I will confess my transgressions to the Lord.” And you forgave the guilt of my sin.

Therefore let all the faithful pray to you while you may be found; surely the rising of the mighty waters will not reach them.

You are my hiding place; you will protect me from trouble and surround me with songs of deliverance. I will instruct you and teach you in the way you should go; I will counsel you with my loving eye on you.

Do not be like the horse or the mule, which have no understanding but must be controlled by bit and bridle or they will not come to you.

Many are the woes of the wicked, but the Lord’s unfailing love surrounds the one who trusts in him.

Rejoice in the Lord and be glad, you righteous; sing, all you who are upright in heart!”

Psalm 32:1-11

This reminded me of just how sinful I am. I’m in no position to act righteously. No matter how much I’ve grown, I think for a moment I took pride in my growth in God and thought I had it and wasn’t careful. But I’m a sinful person and will always be. It isn’t by my works it isn’t by my abilities. It’s by God’s Grace I’m saved and saved only by His mercy. This took me back to the point where I was so wretched and running from him a few years back. How He chased aft me at my lowest point and never gave up. Just who God is as a father and Friend just as much as He is God. I rmb back then, how God’s love just broke me again and again and overwhelmed and saturated me, how His mercy came down and brought such a horrible person like me to where I am now.

I have to rmb this. I have to rmb how much I don’t want to stray from God. I have to rmb how much it’s worth to hold off on intimacy. How much I’m touched and overwhelmed by God that I rlly want to honour Him and live this life for Him. God, keep me. You who began a good work in me, keep me till we meet face to face God.

I was feeling so weary. I still am physically tired but there’s a lightness in my spirit again. It’s crazy how God uses a simple campus meet’s worship to meet me again. God you work. You work.