#i was never really an rper of any kind it just did not do it for me

[ot3]

i dont like the idea that kids these days are doing their fandom rps with ai chatbots. that's how you're supposed to make lifelong friends as a weird really online teen.

[eraserisms]

Your portrayal sticks out because it represents the only time I've ever fallen in love with a fandom just because of 1 RPer, never mind that I agreed to RP with you on this account despite my usual apprehensions about interacting with fandoms I don't know. I trusted you & I'm glad I did. You're so patient yet passionate when it comes to summarizing scenes of the show & relationships between characters--but that's over IMs, OOC. (Yes, everyone, the mun is kind & funny, in addition to be being a great RPer.) ANYWAY!

Shota's 1 of my favorite characters to interact with on here. I don't have it in me to go read or watch all of MHA, but I'm always finding myself asking questions about Shota or wondering what he'd do in ___ situation. & you know his voice, so you know the answer. & then there's all the work you put into developing parts of him that aren't canonically talked about. This is what the writing part of fandom is meant for. I don't know if you write fanfics, but they'd be enjoyable as fuck. I love reading your metas & HCs for Shota, no matter how long, because I CRAVE THE INFORMATION!! Also he's my dad (lol).

TL;DR - you're my only Shota & I love the effort you put into your portrayal. Thanks for introducing Kylie to his first boyfriend.

In reference to this post

You're so sweet. I am so glad that you gave me and Shota a chance! I have to say though, I feel the same way about the characters that you write. I honestly had forgotten how much I enjoyed X-men and Marvel things and didn't plan on doing too much interaction with those fandoms despite BNHA being a superhero based fandom. Thank you for reminding me, truly.

Also I am always ecstatic to answer any questions that you have about the fandom and storyline-esque things. Your active interest in something that you are unfamiliar with is really flattering within itself. I feel that you've also been so incredibly patient with me as far as explaining things goes because I have forgotten so much about those fandoms. Also the only comics I've ever really read as far as Marvel goes have been The Incredible Hulk, Captain America & Hawkeye. So, you filling me in on stuff I don't know about has been incredibly helpful especially considering that so many other Marvel RPers have reached out to me here.

I haven't written any MHA fanfictions yet but maybe sometime in the future. If I were to do anything like that , it would likely be some sort of one shot because I'm terrible at writing them to be honest. I think that's why I end up writing a lot of long-winded headcanons/metas here instead. & Shota is more than willing to 'dad' you any day of the week, being a dad is one of his many talents.

P.S. - I do a lot of shippy things with the person who introduced me to Shota who also plays All-Might. I actually made this blog with the intention of building familial/platonic & student/teacher relationships with Shota. Also given Shota's asocial nature, I didn't think that I'd be writing too many romantic relationships for him. But, given that we had written with each other in the past I was more open to the idea of shipping with you in general. & I have to say; I am happy to have started shipping Kylie with Shota. I feel that they compliment each other so well.

[rpmemesbyarat]

A Less Obvious Toxic RPer: The Overaplogizer

I see a lot of RP resource blogs that talk about toxic RP partners in the cases of people who are overtly controlling, aggressive, demanding, and/or cruel, but rarely if ever do I see posts about a different sort of toxicity: The over-apologizer. These RPers don’t get defensive or aggressive, they get so submissive and self-hating and apologetic over the SLIGHTEST criticism or even suggestion. It’s not a problem of “not saying sorry” it’s a problem of TOO MUCH sorry. Here are some examples: Sally: “Hey there, I know we planned for our muses to end up together eventually, but some of your recent asks seem to suggest they’re already a close  couple. I was hoping for a longer slow-burn sort of thing, moving in too fast will definitely scare my muse off. Could we dial it back a bit?” Bill: “I’m so sorry, I completely fucked up! Please don’t hate me ! I should never have started RPing! Let’s just drop the whole thing I’m sorry I wasted your time!” Sally: “Hey, so in your last reply, you had a whole bunch of spiders come out of the walls. I probably should have mentioned this before, but spiders are kind of a trigger of mine. Could we change that to something else?” Bill: “OMG I’m so sorry I’m such an asshole! I should delete my blog, I’m so terrible at this! This is why nobody likes me!” Sally: “Hey, I really love our threads, but our last three have all focused on my muse saving and comforting yours, and the new plot you just suggested seems the same. I like writing with you, but I was wondering if this time around, your muse could help mine instead?” Bill: “I hate myself, I’m such a selfish prick. I push everyone off, why did I think this would be different?” Sally: “I love talking to you OOC, but could you stop messaging me about New Show? I’m just not really interested in that.” Bill: “I’m sorry, I didn’t mean to annoy you, I’ll just shut up now. I’m sorry I’m such a loser.” So, why is this bad? Well, for one thing, insulting yourself isn’t what someone’s aim is when they ask you to change something or cease a behavior. It makes the Sally in this situation feel bad, like they’ve just bullied you, when all they’ve done is politely communicate a reasonable request. It changes the topic of the conversation from Sally communicating a need about RP, to Sally having to personally reassure Bill that she doesn’t hate him, he isn’t a terrible RPer, etc. This is really, really uncomfortable for the Sally, and usually, in my experience as a Sally, ends up taking a lot of time and emotional labor all focused on Sally comforting Bill and apologizing a lot herself simply for speaking up about something bothering her. All of this combines to making Sally more and more unlikely to voice any further concerns or requests to Bill, because she doesn’t want to go through this again and again. Which means Sally either suffers through threads that bother her in some way and aren’t fun for her. . .or she gets tired of that and just ghosts. This sucks for both Sally and Bill. Now, I don’t think most people are trying to be deliberately manipulative when they act like Bill. Some certainly are and I hate them, but it can also be that they’re genuinely extremely insecure, anxious people who think they have to over-correct due to either mental issues, trauma/abuse in the past, or both. So I genuinely try to be patient and kind, but I won’t lie, it is still manipulative and it gets my hackles up. It leaves me conflicted between wanting to comfort the person and reassure them, and at the same time being pissed at them. It’s definitely a frustrating experience. And honestly? I still don’t actually know how to handle this when I’m in the Sally position. So I tried to do the next best thing, and write this for the Bills out there, who might not REALIZE this is toxic behavior or why. Bills, you’re not a bad person, and I know this behavior can be hard to rein in, especially when it’s a trauma response, but please do what you can to try! I wish I had advice for how, but I don’t. All I can do is point out that this behavior, while it may have helped you survive a bad situation in the past, is actually really shitty to others now. And if someone WANTS this behavior from you? If someone WANTS you to scrape and grovel and insult yourself when they point out the slightest thing wrong? Get the hell away from them, because that’s toxic as hell too.

[languajix]

Cabin 14 Science Fair Event RP

The Cabin 14 crew have been working on a project for the science fair; this is where we RPed the making of our sparklers!

Enjoy our ill-advised foray into fireworks.

All involved cabins/RPers linked at the bottom.

Tie dye project completed for the moment, Mike noticed another piece of paper wedged underneath his wet, dyed, plastic-wrapped baby-sling-to-be. It must have come in on the table, when they set up the station. He tugged it out from underneath and scanned it.

"Huh. Says here that next on the docket's a 'science fair'?" He waved it around at the room. "Who here needs a hand? 'Cause I'm no Bill Nye. I can minion it up with the best of 'em, though, at least for a while." He'd gotten a little better about wandering off in the middle of things with age, as long as he could keep his mind occupied well enough.

A thought occurred to him and he looked over at Spirit, in particular. "You don't happen to be a mad scientist in need of a henchman, do you?" Seemed unfortunate that Spirit hadn't been able to participate much in some of the previous events.

Spirit’s face lit up at the thought that he can finally participate in an event. “Yes!” He exclaimed in excitement

The paper crumpled in Mike's hand as he tapped it against his forehead in a very clumsy salute, schooling his face into a playfully serious expression. "Excellent! Alright, little boss, what scientific endeavors will we undertake?"

Spirit giggled at the action and the nickname, “we shall undertake the scientific exploration of fireworks!” He exclaimed.

Mike waggled his brows. "Awesome! Loud, explosive, colorful, all qualities of the very best science!" How hard could it be?

Mike stood up with a quick stretch, dropping the piece of paper on an open space on the table. "Okay, let's see. Fireworks. What's step one - are we making them somehow, or are we getting them from the gift shop and the science will come in when we figure out the plan to set them off?"

“Uuuuhhhhh…” Spirit didn’t that far ahead, “we make them!” He decided, surely it wasn’t that hard to make fireworks right?

Mike shrugged and typed on his phone, looking it up. How hard could it be, indeed? 

"Hey, guys, do any Donatellos in the cabin happen to have... potassium nitrate we could borrow? And, uh, charcoal and sulfur? Maybe not borrow. Probably not borrow. 96% chance you're never getting it back, but your contributions would be very much appreciated in any case." 

ICE looked up, rather interested, but mildly concerned "I packed a vial or two of potassium nitrate.. but why would you need that?"

Mike held up his phone. "Says here that that's how you make fireworks! And. Uh." He suddenly realized that this really actually might be a recipe for injuries. And here he was trying to be a semi-responsible adult in the cabin and all that. Whoops. "...we were gonna... make fireworks for the science fair? You wouldn't happen to know a way to do that that won't blow this whole cabin sky high, would you?"

Wikihow was probably not a sufficient teacher in this case. 

Spirit suddenly realized that maybe fireworks weren’t the best thing to make, especially in a cave and fireworks go very high up in the sky. “How about instead of fireworks we make sparklers? I don’t want to make the cave, you know, ‘cave in’ and squish everyone.”

Mike perked up a little, glad to hear their project was going to be just a little smaller scale, for safety reasons. "You're the boss, little boss! Alright, guess we only need a little potassium nitrate. And..." he typed into his phone, scrolling for a second, "wires? Metal fuels that are gonna determine the color on these bad boys, and a binder. This sounds both kind of simple and kind of dangerous. ICE, if you're cool with it, how many of these did you happen to bring, and do you think we can do this project in a way that OSHA wouldn't send us to turtle camp jail for?"

He showed ICE a list of ingredients according to his random online search. Totally trustworthy stuff.

“It’s not an OSHA violation if they don’t find out.” Spirit said, “at least that’s what my Donnie says.”

A malicious grin spreads over ICE's face, and he gets to his feet, reaching over for the backpack under his bed "Well Uncle Mike, I can assure OSHA will never find out.. and that I have more than enough materials necessary." Opening up the bag, ICE shows it to Mike. The bag is stuffed with more or less illegal materials, including most of the supplies Mike had required.

“Wow!” Spirit gasped, looking at all the stuff ICE had in his bag, he didn’t know what the majority of it was but it was cool nonetheless.

"ICE, you are the turtle," Mike said. "Okay, guess we're doing this. This very ill-advised adventure into explosives. The life of a science henchman is never boring, I suppose." At least it was Mike risking severe burns or something, and not Spirit. And if ICE really did know his stuff, maybe it would turn out... okay?

(Don't try this at home, kids.)

He turned to Spirit. "What colors are you thinking? I'm partial to orange, myself, but you honestly can't beat green. Or are we going for a set with the full spectrum here?"

“All the colors!” Spirit cheered, “let’s make lots too! So we can share with our cabin mates!” Spirit was excited to see where this little science experiment will go and he wanted to share the experience.

"Sweet! I like where your mind's at, boss-turtle." 

Mike winked towards ICE with a grin, a playful challenge in his voice. "Think you're up for a little science?"

A commotion sounded from the second floor. A muffled explosion followed by multiple heavy footfalls and unintelligible heated conversation. 

A blue glow appeared, signalling a portal opening quite a few feet above the floor of the main area. A figure came through, nearly hitting the floor before mechanical arms stopped and cushioned the landing. 

Captain looked up to the now closed portal. He snarled a guttural sound, lips pulled back exposing his fangs. 

"If you want to do some explosive do it outside! We don't need you setting the curtains on fire!" A voice shouted down 

"Fuck you!" Was the childish retort. "At least give me my shit!" 

A second blue portal opened, this time closer to the ground. Out came a soot covered box and a flying SHELLDON.

ICE quickly stopped what he was about to say, though he was still secretly happy that the parent aged adult wanted to make fireworks with him. He looked down at Captain, surprised "Are you guys okay? What do you mean, explosives?!"

Captain unsuccessfully tried to wipe at his face, leaving a streak of soot instead. "Nothing. Just trying to make smoke bombs. My supply ran out." 

SHELLDON hovered over, offering a handkerchief.

Captain accepted the handkerchief and began to wipe his face and hands.

"It should've been fine if THEY DIDN'T SURPRISE ME!" he directed the last part up towards the second floor.

Mike walked a little closer for a quick visual inspection. He wasn't exactly responsible for the younger turtles in the cabin, but he couldn't say he wasn't, either. Good thing Captain didn't seem particularly injured - just a little dirty. "We were just about to put together some explosives, too, kinda. Guess we know who not to make 'em around! I can't afford to blow my poor eyebrows off."

Mike had no eyebrows.

Captain raised a drawn on brow. "What kind of explosive are you trying to make? Mechanical, chemical, or nuclear?" He lifted his box, brushing off the soot from it.

Nuclear?! "Not trying to make a godzilla or anything! Think a lot more low key. I'm Spirit's hands - er, hand -  for the science fair," Mike wiggled his fingers demonstratively, "and we were just enlisting ICE to help us make some sparklers. Or something. It was gonna be fireworks, but we're kind of in a cave and I have a slight suspicion it just might not be the best idea to explode stuff close to the roof over our heads. So we scaled it down a little! Gonna try and make enough for everybody in the cabin, in all the colors of the rainbow if possible, according to my boss." 

Marco emerges from his room with a jar of Kraang matter.

“...science project?”

"Or you could just make the ones that doesn't shoot to the ceiling." Captain typed on his wrist tech, showing the resulting images to Mike and ICE:

“Looks like a fire hazard,” Spirit mumbled, “as much as I would love to see something like that, in a cave with many  wooden cabins I’m not looking to be kicked out for arson.” Spirit said.

Captain shrugged. "Arson's not the worst. The burning smell stick to you though." He scrunched his beak, remembering the last time that happened.

‘You would know that wouldn’t you,’ Spirit thought but kept it to himself. “As boss of the science festival I say we make small sparklers! But! If we’re still feeling violent we can make firework cherry bombs, how’s that work?” Spirit asked.

A smile started to form on Marcos face, well. More of an evil smile which is not entirely common- he has a evil plan-

Mike put his hand on his hip and nodded once, decisively. "I think it sounds like a great idea! Okay, science guys, wanna do some chemistry with us?"

"Oh good, adult supervision. Now we won't be the ones in trouble when we are arrested for this." Thought ICE.

“Chemistea!” Spirit cheered, his mispronunciation brought upon by his childlike mind.

"Chemistry indeed, little boss! Let's do this!" Then he rubbed his chin, looking around. "...maybe not inside, though? Just in case this turns more explosive than we mean for it to. I want us to have beds to sleep in when this is all said and done."

“Ah” Spirit simply said, he temporarily forgot that living people need sleep, “great idea my assistant, to the outdoors we go!”

Mike saluted sloppily, as he always did, with a wink. "Tally-ho, then!"

There was a picnic table outside the cabin front door that was perfect for science experiments, if one was concerned about such things as not setting their cabin on fire. 

Captain followed the group outside, not about to refuse the chance to get some data on the other occupants of the cabin.

Mike put his hand on his hip, staring at the assorted chemicals. He wasn't sure wikihow was going to be the best resource for this portion. "...great. I may know how to do a great many things, but I think this might just be a little bit beyond me. Uh, ICE? You mind taking the lead here? I'll copy you."

Looking up from his phone, ICE nods, "sure thing. I watched a YouTube about this last night, so I'm pretty sure I know what I'm doing now" he walks over and confidently scoops up the pile, carrying it over to where he had a lighter and some can thing from the campstore.

As nerve-wracking as it kind of was, between ICE's chemicals and specialized equipment, they managed to make it work.

(Mike didn't think he'd be able to do this back home, but that was the power of a Donatello, he supposed.)

He might have been sweating a little, staring down the barrel of actually lighting one up to test it, but that was the next phase of the scientific process, right?

"Okay... here goes nothing, guys. What color sparkler should we light up for the test run?"

” The answer is obvious- we should do pink-“ Marco suggested.

“BLUE!” Spirit yelled, pulling out his best puppy dog eyes and clasping his hands together to put the appeal together.

"Marco, it seems we are at an impasse." Mike held up his hand to wiggle his fingers. "...but since I am contractually obligated to obey my boss, here, and you have some fingers left to risk yourself, why don't I grab a blue and you grab a pink, and we light 'em up together? If we did mix them fine, we'll get some cool colors, and if we didn't, the scorch mark on the ground from where we blow up should be twice as big and twice as impressive!"

...he was pretty sure there wasn't going to be an actual explosion, and he hoped Marco got the vibe from the teasing wiggle of his brow.

...maybe 95% sure, anyways. 

”Hm, alrighty...“ Marco seems a bit more tired than usual and he had a sweater on. “...lets get this thing done."

Mike raised his brows for real, a little concerned. "You sure you're in the mood for fireworks? Because if you don't wanna, that's totally cool too, Marco. I can light a pink one in your honor in just a sec." 

”. . .yeah yeah I’m fine, just a bit sluggish today. Besides, gotta supervise.”

"Alrighty then, just lemme know if I can ever do anything to help. I mean, yeah, I'm involved in this very irresponsible experiment, currently, and I can be really impulsive, and my mouth does tend to work faster than my brain..." where was he going with all this, again? Oh yeah. "But I am technically an adult, too, and I know how to share the load." At what point did that switch flip, Mike wondered. When one really felt like an adult. As a teenager, he'd assumed by 27 he'd have his life all figured out, that he'd know what he was doing, that he'd feel old and grown up and knowledgeable. He really, really didn't, but he was getting better at pretending, at least.

Mike handed Marco a sparkler from their pink pile, and then grabbed one from the blue, holding it up to Spirit demonstratively. "Alright, lil' boss, the moment we've been waiting for..."

He shoved the stick under his left arm so he could use the lighter, leaning forward so the ends of the two sparklers met. ...his body was a lot closer to this whole shebang than he would have liked, honestly, but whatever. One, two, and the lighter ignited, and with a careful application of flame to the very tips, they had liftoff! Success, they weren't exploded and the sparklers did, in fact, work like sparklers!

He grinned in his excitement and anticipation, snapping the lighter lid down and tossing it onto the table, quickly snatching up the end of the sparkler in his fingers and holding it out a ways so Spirit could get a good look.

The air crackled with the blue and pink light as their successful sparkler experiment started to sputter and burn its way down the length of the sticks.

Spirit did a little loop de loop in the air, his excitement clear as day “Yippee!” He cheered, “it worked!” He hopped from one spot to another, his little form unable to contain his happiness.

Marco held the sparkler away from him, his hands were shaking slightly. He stares at the bright sparkles emitting from the stick.

“. . Hm.”

Mike laughed. "It did! Take that, Bill Nye!" A spark fell close to his foot, and he hopped away as it fizzled out on the ground.

"Okay, now that we know they work, we need to share these bad boys with everyone! We definitely made enough." He leaned towards the open cabin front door. "Hey guys, our science experiment was a success! Anyone want to come out here and play with sparks?"

Leaning over, ICE smirked at Mike "I'm surprised you didn't lose another arm. It's probably for the best though, that's why I had you test it out instead of me." he leaned his head against Mike's shoulder sweetly, as if he hadn't just confessed to signing Mike's death warrant.

Mike huffed a little in amusement at ICE's comment, relaxing a little at the head resting on his shoulder.

He was glad to be the one to test it, too, just so nothing happened to the kids. But he did trust ICE's knowledge, or he wouldn't have tested it in the first place. "I think we're a great team, actually! I had faith in us."

Marco looks out to the environment outside of the cabin, his mask tails flickering in the wind. He hugged himself, this is all weird to him. Not the fact he's in a cabin with versions of his brothers, more of the sense of rare comfort, for once he isn't lurking in the medbay. He takes his goggles off and lets his eyes adjust to the light, he coughed a couple times.

He felt like he needs to work, that's what he's been doing before the apocalypse and during. He places the now burnt out sparkler and slowly stands up " I'm going to check the first aid kit, just to take out the unnecessary things in it. You guys go ahead with this... uhm... sparkler stuff-"

He walks back into the cabin and takes the first aid kit from the wall, he zips it open and started to go through the bag, he has done this several times already it became an excuse for him to get out of uncomfortable socialization. Also try to keep him feel like he’s doing work, he paused for moment to rub the dark eyebags underneath his eyes.

Spirit tilted his head to the side as Marco entered their shared cabin but he shrugged, he’s an adult, a child shouldn’t have to worry about adult issues.

He took a sparkler and waved it around the group, “can one of you help me light it up please?” He asked.

Mike watched the sparkler finish burning itself down in his hand, then dropped it next to Marco's own discarded one. He wasn't sure if he could help Marco - though he might try to catch him some other time when they weren't in the middle of a science experiment just to make absolute sure - but he could definitely help Spirit. "Sure thing, boss!" he said, grabbing the lighter and turning it on, holding it up to the end of Spirit's sparkler.

The sparkler lit up perfectly, sending a shower of sparks into the air to Spirit's happy whoops and Mike's sigh of relief. Another successful summer camp event!

"...now what are we gonna do with all the extras?"

@tmnt-fandom-family-reunion

The AUs involved:

Hold Every Memory (me)

Ghost of the Past (@wandering-ghost)

It’s a Complicated Equation (@leilanising)

True Colors AU (@v-albion)

Fear's Embrace (@karonkar)

[cwarscars]

🤩 Who is someone in your rpc that you admire?

Unconventional munday asks!

🤩 Who is someone in your rpc that you admire?

(( aside from yourself? owo. whose positivity and passion is ALWAYS inspiring? well, i'm gonna limit myself to listing a few people here because if i list everyone, i will be here ALL day -

@midgarwhispers | amazing plots, mature & down to earth discussion, incredible writing, interesting muse, great GREAT dynamics, lovely ooc chat. i have so much admiration for this sweet lil carbuncle ( i say lil, she a giant ) - i've just had so many fun discussions and plots this year with her & ooc-wise, i cannot stress how kind & lovely she is. i just - urgh - 10/10 - massively recommend.

@stingslikeabee | when wont i waffle on about mari and how much i love her? you want mature, well-written content? you want an interesting oc who can squeeze into any kind of universe? you want a down-to-earth, interesting & intelligent mun with whom you can chatter everything from adult chat to films & culture? mari's a legend. i will forever simp.

@cloudvii | anything sayj touches turns to gold, honestly. not to say cloud wasn't already gold but - look - i admire sayj's passion and interest in their muses. their headcanons are in depth and powerful, but they're never without reason. like - they always make sense & make you do a double take and a little 'ahhhh!' when you read them because they're so interesting & in tune with the character. i just really adore what sayj does with the characters that they pick up. and their respect / appreciation for og? *mwah*.

@phoenix-flamed | hot damn, vonny. where do i even begin? i didn't follow vonny until fairly recently-ish. i jumped on them on my sylv blog and was barely there so HAD to grab em with heid and i just- the rpc should consider itself blessed to have such a wonderful write & a wonderful person in their midst. vonny's elwin is so incredibly weaved that i would read a book about him written by them; i always admire someone who picks up a side-character but someone who then gives that side character a well-crafted story, interesting headcanons and pushes it all with infectious enthusiasm and passion? sign me the F up. like, GODDAMN. and as a person? vonny is so incredibly sweet, someone i'd love to bug more honestly because wow. & on a personal note, someone who did something recently for me that really helped me in a great & personal way. i just - <3 - so much love and respect in my soul for this one.

@svnsworn | light is somebody who if you say to me 'recommend a user', im gonna recommend her. she jumps to the forefront of my mind like a lil froggy. i always mess up when trying to run multis but she makes it look EASY. the AMOUNT of times that light has told me a headcanon about a character and i've gone 'holy shit! of course!' she has that knack for spotting those details, and then expanding on them. and no matter who she chooses - from leon to luna - she injects this love & insight into them that they truly deserve. she's really incredible and there isn't a day i wouldn't recommend her. and as a person? light is always lovely. like, alwAYS.

@rikelusshinra & @ofgeneticperfection & @ivory-paragon & @steeleidolon | I DIDN'T WANNA KEEP LISTING EVERYONE CAUSE IF I DO THAT I'LL CRY CAUSE THERE'S SO MANY AMAZING PEOPLE TO WRITE AMAZING THINGS ABOUT BUT I DID WANNA MENTION THESE GUYS -

i look at them and i see original final fantasy vii. i see a love and passion for the media that has spanned years. i see these unique insights into characters / ocs & i just admire them a lot. i see them as being like, the people that all ffvii rpers should look up to and aspire to be. i just admire them a lot & love seeing them on my dash.

[lockedtowers]

repost and rate your muse's traits out of 10 in each category !

COMPASSION: 2/10

so william… does not care. not a lot, anyways. when he first saw michael his brain had the tiniest flint of a spark of ‘i did that’ he didnt do shit but raw it and he definitely showed michael affection and love at first, fuck man he was teaching michael engineering, plushtrap was the first animatronic that they worked on together, in my main verse he did not care about his wife at the time at all especially when she caught him with henry but thats a different story but he did, in his fucked up way, love michael, but he also definitely favored evan by a lot when evan happened. of course i have verses where he did love his wife to a degree, but he doesnt really love anyone more than he loves himself. lizzie was very very close to getting there, but even her his love is more or less an extension of himself rather than as their own individual selves. lizzie has his cruelty and villainous streak, and his refusal to listen to no. michael has some of his aggression and recklessness. evan he favored in a way as the version of himself he lost due to his own parents, which is also why he kind of babied evan a lot. he made voice boxes for evans plushies so evan had someone to talk to, because him and michael didnt get along, and he never wanted michael and him to hate each other. in all though williams most compassionate moment, the one moment he was truly a decent guy, and the moment that ultimately destroyed any semblance of normalcy he could have attained, was evan getting springlocked. william tried to get him out, and his own suit springlocked on him causing the initial scars, and all in all sort of retriggered certain thoughts and issues he thought he grew out of. he any semblance of affection he had died when those locks went into his skin, and left him in a much worse state of mind and being.

BITTERNESS: 9/10

this man has stacks upon stacks upon stacks of journals about henry, how much he loves henry, how much he worships henry, how much he thinks henry should worship him. he still treats michael like shit when michaels an adult for what happened to evan when michael was a child himself when it happened. lizzie dying was entirely williams own damn fault and he still blamed michael for it because, in his mind, if michael didnt kill evan, charlotte wouldnt have had to die, henry wouldnt have had to be framed, and now lizzie wouldnt have had to die. this man takes bitter ex to a whole new level too considering even turned into his creation, he was still mad obsessing over henry.

HAPPINESS: 5/10

depends on when in the timeline. he did actually enjoy being married (the second time in main verses, dependable on mrs afton rpers otherwise) even though he.. wasnt exactly a faithful husband at all given his obsession with henry. honestly if he just learned what poly was and it wasnt the 70s/80s so he couldnt openly be poly and with a man, he’d have been much happier. he loves killing people tho.

POLITENESS: 3/10

…. he’ll fake it

MORALITY: 2/10

he murdered kids and thinks cheating on his wife with henry was perfectly fine because ‘he could love both of them’ when that doesnt make it fine, u big dickbag. also he wants complete control over his kids, he literally built the fu/ntime animatronics with the intentions of trapping his families souls in them so they could live forever with or without remnant. (yes this is a personal headcanon no i dont give a fuck about canon, canon had a lot of stupid moments, shush) he, hes not moral, hes one of those people who would just go off on like ‘oh morality isnt real its a social construct designed by the government to make you behave a certain way, the only true way to be moral is to believe in yourself as a god’ and all that stuff, dont trust the tall man

PRIDE: 9/10

he’s actually insufferable with how much he loved himself im ngl. he takes great pride in his subpar performances canonly. he thinks hes the greatest liar, engineer, and shopowner of all time. all the things he hated his parents for he ironically manages to do even worse than they did. he might struggle to love others but he definitely fucking loves himself, which is kind of funny when u think abt it, bc he also hates himself.

HONESTY: 2/10

he cannot even be honest with himself he’s not honest with anyone. he looked his wife in the eyes and claimed he would never betray her as he was cheating on her with henry. he kidnapped his own son after evan died with the intentions of completely breaking his brain in the same setup he built to ‘cure’ evan (which would likely have traumatized and made him worse) and fully intended on charlie being in that set up with him until she made the fatal error of fighting back, michael got the worst of the treatment for sure though.

BRAVERY: 0/10

one of the main things i think about this man is, he pretends what hes doing is brave and amazing, like im a great serial killer im great at everything im massively prolific in the public eye and people love and adore me, people flock towards me and think im charming and amazing, and they do. but he isn’t brave. he isnt anywhere close to that, he’s a fucking coward. he intimidates people, he hurts people, but when faced with the punishment for his crimes he was terrified. he isn’t brave. he doesnt know what brave is.

RECKLESSNESS: 2/10

his most reckless situation was what happened with charlie (and main verse wise, his first wife). it wasnt planned like that, he only intended to kidnap her. She thought back and he got angry enough to not only kill her, but abandon her body on that street in the storm. He hasn’t been exactly reckless since then and everythings been very carefully thought out, but he isnt in the right mindframe anymore, he hasnt been since evan died, he does make mistakes, and unfortunately it usually ends up being henry who pays for them since henry is who he framed.

AMBITION: 8/10

He’s definitely very ambitious, like he worked his ass off to get to where he is even though hes not really great at performing like he thinks he is. His main issue is his current goal is just Henry, not even anything specific really, he wants to be henry. The springlock incident made his obsession with henry a million times worse, and i can speak on that personally as someone whos had a head injury and who has OCD, it can intensify obsessions very very badly. So ambitious, yes, thoughtful on what they are, not anymore. though he did drain the lifeforce out of the kids he killed so.

LOYALTY: 1/10

that one isnt even for his fucking family its for henry and he betrayed that man too and framed him for his own daughters murder. his loyalty is to himself and maybe, MAYBE, on RARE occasions, and specifically as an extension of himself, his family.

SENSE OF FAMILY: 3/10

his childhood was fucked up. but while he was being a mostly present father, he showed promise. did he only love his kids as extensions of himself? still yes. did he at least love them? yeah. its a.. shitty situation all in all.

ATTRACTIVENESS: 6/10

evidently a lot more people wanna ride the serial killer than i gave him credit for.

AGILITY: 7/10

he’s surprisingly agile for his… everything. man in the movie version that man was rly pushing sixty and still bodied mike to hell and back what the hell dude.

SEX DRIVE: 7/10

he’s a f/urry. he had/has a whole ass wife, a ton of kids, and still canoodles with henry wtf do you think

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Tagging: @orangeshinigami @auburniivenus @mechanicaldance @faultyconscience @riiese and if u see it, you

[leftrib-moved]

I've followed your other blog for a while, I was wondering if you recommend any roleplayers to try giving a shot at rping with?

I'll take a wild guess you're askin' specifically about Haz.bin / Hell.uva RPers since you sent this in to my Adam blog lol. But, honestly, I may not be the best to ask for recommendations. I have yet to interact with too many Haz.bin roleplays or really get to know any but out the gate I do believe I do have a few I'd recommended out of the people my picky ass has come to like over time via talking with them or watching them interact with friends.

@cxncrie / Star who's a friend of mine is someone I'd definitely recommend. She writes Alastor, Charlie, Lute, some other canons as well as some of her OCs plus a canon muse that's crossed over into Haz.bin. She's been great to talk to and write with, is rather patient with me despite how horrifically slow I write, has been consistently kind to me, and is the reason I'm even still in the Tumblr RPC funnily enough. All the stuff she writes is great, her writing is worth consuming. She's also one of the few people that seem to clearly communicate with her partners anymore or, at least, try to as much as you can when a bunch of people seem allergic to it. All around Star is great and someone I'd always recommend following / writing with if you vibe with her and aren't already writing with her. Also, her OC Nimue is great. Like. One of the few OCs I would ever genuinely recommend and is the first OC in a long time I willingly shipped some of my canon muses with on my other blog.

@shadowzgather / Tera is also great. I have yet to actually get proper threads fully going with her, albeit that's the fault of my slow ass more than anything, but Tera has been great thus far as I said. She communicates, cares about her muses, and writes them quite well from what I've seen. It's been fun watching her and Star write their stuff with Pentious and Nimue. Not to mention Tera does write the funny snake man quite well and is probably someone I'd consider making my main Pentious on my other blog. I do really like how Tera tries to do more with him despite how he was mostly a joke in canon, trying to emphasize how he can be more serious and isn't just a joke while also managing to keep Pentious. Well. Pentious. It's pretty neat to me how she manages to make him more serious while also keeping the quirks that make Pentious himself. This is to say I like how she manages it without accidentally turning him into an OC wearing his skin like I've seen happen with other characters with other writers.

@xluciifer / Luci isn't someone I've had a lot of chance to write with, again because I'm a slowass bitch, but Luci is also like one of the few Lucifer roleplayers I genuinely like. I've privately recommended Luci to people before but, hey, here's a fuckin' public recommendation now. They genuinely put thought and effort into writing Lucifer, they actually looked into scripture for writing him. He isn't just "quirky and depressed father" with them. He isn't just "omg innocent wittle man who did no wrong" with them. He isn't just "husband to Lilith !! omg precious ship!!". They also don't write Lucifer just to shit on Adam like I've seen several other Lucifer writers do. They have Lucifer be hostile to Adam a realistic and in character amount based off how they choose to write Lucifer. They're like a god damn blessing because I thought I'd never meet a Lucifer roleplayer who wanted to write with my Adam that didn't want to either harass / bully him, straight up murder him, or try and get me to write Adamsapple as an autoship. They're also just very sweet to speak with and quite nice to speak to OOC when we have / do talk now. Very nice writer, splendid take on Lucifer.

@edenhazbin / This is someone I have yet to properly write with, but from what I've seen myself and heard from friends, I've come to enjoy her interpretation of Cain. It's been quite interesting to watch Cain's interactions with Star's OC Nimue. Also, her Cain is just an interesting take to me because I typically saw people interpret Cain as some sort of evil, malicious, violent hellion. Making him unnecessarily violent and malicious to all, like some sort of edgy overpowered villain OC, but her Cain isn't that and is quite an interesting difference from that usual I tended to see.

I'm sure there's plenty more people I could recommend here but I'll stick to just recommending these four for now since I feel comfortable with recommending them. And this isn't to say I dislike anyone I didn't recommend or anyone who writes the same muses as those I did recommend. These people are just who I felt most comfortable recommending due to being friends with them, people I've talked to OOC, or people who know friends of mine.

[damnfandomproblems]

Below the cut is all of the responses that were in the inbox related to Fandom Problem 3954 and the subsequent asks. These will be all of the ones that were sent as anonymous.

The following ask came in on April 19:

I just want to say I appreciate the DID asks on this blog. It was a nice sanity check for me. One of my friend's kids who is in high school got sucked into it, he started "switching" at 17, and she's getting him to go to therapy to find the source of the problem, but he's apparently really argumentative with the psychologist and keeps insisting he only has DID, for very wrong reasons. Symptoms that don't match any kind of DID I've seen. His mum was really careful to find someone who was familiar with DID, I know she wouldn't send him to someone who doesn't know what they're doing because shes amazingly good with google-fu, so it can't be because the psychologist doesn't know what DID is or how to spot it. For a while the whole thing made me feel a bit crazy because his obviously fake symptoms and onset (?) didn't match how adamant he was that he had DID, I was starting to believe him too. I want to thank the asks for resetting my perspective. He certainly needs help it just isn't going to be help for DID.

Here are the ones from April 17 and they are out of order because of how I added them from the inbox:

1:

I'm in college and know multiple people who are barely even minors anymore who just started faking tourette's out of the blue. One day they just showed up and started doing tics. Obviously fake tics for that reason, also because it's obvious they have a brief "wind up" period before them when they look like they're contemplating just how to pull off tics. They're all neck tics and arm tics too, nothing is ugly or painful. So I can confirm a lot more people are faking these things than people think. Dhar Mann even made a good skit about it because it's such a popular thing for kids (even college age adults who have trouble making connections and getting attention) to do

2:

Oh god this is syscourse

It shows up on my dash once in a blue moon and I never have any idea that the fuck people are taking about. All I know is it has two sides who both despise each other and years of grudges

3:

just wanna say that i'm glad most people here seem to have sensible takes regarding the "DID" boom online

4:

As someone who knows someone who uses a system and has DID, the anon that said they were not responsible for making someone feel safe in the discord server is awful.

That anon makes my blood boil because it literally happened to my friend who has a system. My friend's fictive is part of who they are, and it is them. They have the right to feel uncomfortable when people do strange things with the character the fictive is.

In my friend's case, they had been in that server before the rper had joined. But the server mods decided to take my friend's "character rights" away since they said "technically you aren't rping as the character, so someone else can have them." Would you all agree with the mods in this case?

Y'all saying people with systems who are uncomfortable with how people portray characters that are their fictives should just accept it do not get it.

Would you be okay with someone portraying a real life person in a different way?

Would you be okay with people rping as real people?

If the answer is no to both of these, then y'all should understand why people with fictives feel uncomfortable with people portraying their ficitives in such ways.

5:

Replying to a comment on 714814266546470912: "that doctor literally took videos from their tiktoks without permission" Bruh, first off, someone does not need permission to share something that was posted publicly on a public website. Once you post something to the internet, it's fair game. This is why adults tell you to never put something online unless you want it to be there forever, because once it's up, it's up for good, and people can save it, share it, edit it, however they want. If someone has posted selfies on the internet, someone has probably saved them, for whatever reason, because they thought the pictures were cute, because they're collecting dirt on them, etc, and even if that's not the case, the data will always be there. Maybe it's not pristine ethics to share videos of minors, young adults, etc with mental disorders (not DID, obviously they have something else like factitious disorder), but it's not illegal at all. And if you actually watched the video (which I doubt), you would know the doctor, faculty, etc had covered all legal bases by repeatedly saying they cannot diagnose anyone over the internet or thought videos. Repeatedly. And they were strictly looking at the behaviors which they see regularly in people who fake, behaviors which are a strong indication (but, again for legal reasons, not a guarantee) someone is faking. They said this. You really need to brush up on your knowledge of laws, most of all in medicine, research, studies, etc and actually using nuanced thinking.

6:

Sorry to add to the fire but in my fandom I see LOTS of "traumagenic systems" (DID) who also claim to "support endos". That raises so many red flags too because if someone really did have DID and was well educated on it as a result, they would know how DID really works and they wouldn't in a hundred years support people who are pretending to have something with totally wrong, obvious fake symptoms and consider them "part of the community". I guess it makes it easy to know who to block though?

7:

I want to thank the person who sent 714815628520898560 for sharing that video, I watched it this morning during my shift and it was really insightful!! I learned a lot :)

8:

I’m thinking about Roman genius and Juno spirits, and also of the post made by EarlGrayTay about how the English language struggles with nuance, when it comes to degrees of intensity.

We don’t have a word for something between having some tulpas and having DID, and so people are saying they have the latter even when they don’t clinically qualify. I do think that in most cases people who self diagnose with DID are more likely to be closer to the tulpa end than the disordered end.

Also, as memory stuff is part of it, it’s entirely possible that the apparent excess of people with DID in fandom is because the nature of the internet allows for pseudo-sockpuppeting, with multiple personalities creating different accounts, potentially unaware of what the others, as memory is a big part of the diagnosis

9:

714820580417863680 2% of the world's population as of 2020 is 156 million people.

Say that again, slowly.

156 million people do not have DID.

10:

These asks are wild lol. My thoughts are, fine, maybe "endogenic systems" exist in the context of not being actual DID, but if someone really thinks they can have multiple identities or parts without having trauma to predicate that, well, I hate to say but that's basically a religious belief at that point, and not even remotely related to a medical disorder. The human brain usually has one continuous, cohesive identity. Unless, like someone already mentioned, you experience harrowing trauma in your early childhood. You can call yourself a tulpa, you can call yourself endogenic, you can believe you have fifty fictional introjects, five different Resident Evil characters living in your head, but that doesn't make it science. If you want endogenic systems to exist, call it what it is: a religion. And stop trying to bully and force your way into getting medicine to accept these ridiculous things, because it will never happen

11:

Got diagnosed with did in my 20s. Here’s a thing most of the issues I’ve had with the online system community in general. Also this phone im typing on doesn’t show text cause tumblr so ye spelling mistakes a plenty.

1: the whole community regardless of endo or traumagenic is kinds crap. Came to it for resources on how to manage things like persecutors and understand wtf was up. Covid was a wild time. Therapist officially diagnosed me in 21. Why is this important, cause the whole ass community hted endos or trauma or whatever and all unanimously hated tiktok

2: the whole fictive debate became even more dumb when there were 50 different i ndividaula claiming to be a fictive from genshin. Really weird. Cause the peeps in multiple communities threw a fit making those name close cultures. Personally i think it was due to so many fictives or some blue haired guy?

3: the fact people treated it like fictionkin something i thought i had because yknow issues with dissociation well the fictives got treated more like kinning

4: the biggest thing is the community allowed delusional attachments to become such a common place thing. I get it identity be fucky but its an issue when delusional attachment’s cone into play. Mainly cause most if not all system communities used carrds and tiktok as resources.

5 or 6? Cause phone be fucky: despite claiming to hate endos the community was nothyper critical to self dxing without reseach and minors self dxing. There’s a lotta reasons why it normally os pouring gasoline on a fire.

Finally most system communities are primarily white and it shows cause of how much they prioritize racial relations and closed cultures along with treating introjects like shit.

So the submission about bein a fictive whos tired of people treating em like they’re gonna be identical as the character iscorrect. Rampant problem

12:

Re: all this DID stuff and certain people digging in in the comments to defend what they're doing, I think it's interesting to contemplate not just why people do this for DID delusions, but also for fandom things in general because I think it applies to both (and to keep things a little more on topic, ha). I read a comment recently where someone was talking about personal truths, which are subjective feelings and beliefs, and social truths, which are laws and social constructs. When someone loves themselves and has confidence, they're able to maintain personal truths that may differ from other people without feeling threatened, and they can maintain those personal truths or values. This is what happens when someone has strong feelings about characters, or identifies with a character, but is able to witness people sharing opinions without going to war over them.

On the other hand, people who have insecurities and a lack of self confidence (or worth) will fight to make personal truths into social truths, to make up for that self loathing. They feel they can force society to accept their personal truths to make them feel comfortable, because they can't derive any actual comfort from simply existing with their personal truths that differ so much from social truths. This is what happens when you have, like a lot of confessions lately have mentioned, people bullying others over headcanons, calling them bigots for not sharing a gay ship or something. Or when people have low self-esteem and might be struggling with mental health problems, and are trying desperately to find answers and find self-worth, but have accidentally opted for something that is not a social truth, but a personal truth (believing they have DID when it is very obviously not), and so they fight tooth and nail to make that warped version of DID into something officially recognized. That is the only way they can get validation beyond their bubble. I think it's a growing problem not only because it seems like the world is kinda imploding right now and people need some kind of stability, when personal truths may not suffice for that because of the above issues with self-confidence or insecurities, but also because we've reached the point where kids are growing up without ever NOT having known social media, and they have near-constant access to that social media, which makes for an increasingly bad precedent. Not just for kids, adults with underdeveloped coping strategies are susceptible too.

13:

I'm pleasantly surpirsed by the convo around DID here, because I read the post and was half expecting a horde of endogenic or willowgenic or (word)genic systems to come stampeding in here calling everyone ableists lol, I'm kinda relieved there hasn't been a bunch of that

14:

Honestly laughing at how a word like sysmed exists. Are people "sadmeds" or "anhemeds" for telling someone they're faking depression? Are people "schizomeds" for saying people are faking schizophrenia? This is absurd and it's ao fricking offensive to compare the above to being a transmedicalist.

[realmythsmoved]

Cressida is petty, yes. She's not always kind. She's often not, to be honest. Her initial crush/admiration for Daphne faded once she saw her as a rival on the marriage mart. Daphne being named the Diamond really messed with Cressida, and she hadn't wanted it to but it did.

Then her admiration/crush moved to Eloise. That, despite her best efforts, hasn't faded. Despite knowing she might never see her again. Despite Eloise's (second) rejection. Cressida is unsure of what to do exactly. All she knows is that she misses Eloise and wants to get her back as a friend.

Cressida is well aware of the constraints of her society, and how her parents would react if they knew her, truly knew her. So she doesn't tell them everything. She thinks her mother suspects, but her father does not, and for that she is grateful. She can only imagine what he'd do if he knew.

As for Penelope, besides her friendship with Eloise, Cressida envies Penelope's closeness with all of the Bridgertons (by birth). Cressida wishes that could be her life. Yet she fears it never will be. Especially with what she's done to Daphne and Penelope.

Cressida does feel that she needs to be ruthless to get ahead. But so far it hasn't worked out for her. Though it is hard, near impossible, to undo her parents' (particularly her father's) conditioning that she needs to make a good match or else, so she doesn't feel she can afford kindness. That said, she wishes that she knew how to be kinder.

There are glimpses of a softer, kinder side to Cressida through her friendship with Eloise. And I truly believe that that side of her does exist. It's just been beaten down far too many times for it to have any true sway over her personality. Cressida will always have a soft spot for Eloise, she feels unable to get over her. And she doesn't know why, as she moved on from Daphne quickly enough.

The issue is, Cressida never really /knew/ Daphne. Sure, they were in the same circles but were hardly close friends. Cressida /knows/ Eloise. She knows what makes her happy. What makes her sad. What makes her angry. She doesn't claim to understand Eloise's mind, but she admires it. And so she's truly grieving the loss of Eloise, in a way she didn't with Daphne because it's actually based on something.

Cressida and Eloise had a true connection, at least from Cressida's POV. Of course, no Eloise RPer has to go along with it. But if any would, I would definitely appreciate it. <3

[orphanedwolfandfriends]

So fellers, I can't promise that this'll be the last post I make about them. They don't fucking listen when they're the reason why nothing's going their way. I may be petty, but blocking, reporting, and IP banning them with the handy dandy statcounter is STRONGLY recommended (if you can afford to anyway, statcounter has a monthly payment thing).

I personally suspect that they have an alt account that none of us are aware of, and I'll say with full confidence that I could be wrong.

I started knowing they existed on account of their dry writing and their godmodding, and after, they'd start to ask a mutual some intrusive and condescending messages on why they're so kind to me. Not my character apparently, me. They don't bother to learn character names and just use URLs to shit talk. They'd ask why there's fanart of my woof child and their muse, which lmao, why's that a fucking problem? Mind your own beezwax. They would also bombard that mutual with asks about their shadowban issue, why can the mutual see other people's asks instead of theirs, and the most the mutual could do was tell them what it means and how they can fix it (which they never did). And as you might've seen earlier, they said me drawing fanart of fictional characters was "weird" and talked about it like it was self insert art I was doing. Self insert art's not even an issue to begin with but yet they took it personally lmao. Perish. Also I wouldn't make my self insert be a fucking child, and the art wasn't even shippy in the slightest.

It got to the point where my mutual blocked them, and they moved onto a Vegeta blog, and really milked that cow dry for how long they'd keep messaging them and whining about them not jivin' with the godmodding, along with complaining to that Vegeta and someone else about everyone making bad comments about their oc. If you look into their blog, you'll see that this person does not have a bio what so ever. Not even in a separate post. So quite clearly they're just expecting everyone to submit to her Mary Sue powers despite the fact we know nothing about them. They even info dumped the same Vegeta through an ask which, dude. Limited text. Look it up.

And then, they would bombard a Raditz rper and bitch about how he's not submitting to their random stranger shit while Raditz accepted a fucking BLT from one of my adult muses, bombard an oc blog like "you're flirting with Raditz, I can tell, your oc's not any better than MINE", AND, try to act like they're such a hotshot at writing, which as you might've guessed, they're not. And they're actively painting themselves in a bad light instead of listening to people and accepting boundaries. They also bugged the shit out of a Beerus mutual, and another mutual who writes ocs, just 'cause the other's muse was just vibin' and giving Beerus food. There's literally nothing wrong with that, yet they'd keep bugging the other mutual with shit like "oh beerus is only keeping you around 'cause you're giving him food, beerus isn't nice blahblahblah".

Do you see a pattern here? They'll get pissy when they don't get any attention from all four of those characters, and send jealous, petty bitch-sounding messages over two friggin children that are just being nice. Imagine being jealous of a fucking child. Actually suck in that shame like a juice box, 'cause that is PATHETIC. Jealousy is legitimately not a healthy thing to have, especially over something like roleplay, and when you actively guilt trip or shit talk them just 'cause of that, that's even more pathetic. And hella possessive. Good luck being possessive when the muns aren't interested in your oc to begin with lmao.

They also chased off somebody after stalking them for a full on year, as I've been told, which from people saying "that explains a lot" when I said who they were, that's...unsettling. Not surprising, but unsettling. And they're suspected to be another individual named Skye. I dunno if that's true but that's why I say "suspected."

TLDR; Please for your own sanity, block @phoenixissims and report them for their harassment. Do whatever you can to keep them far away from you as possible. The Dragon Ball side of the RPC is not the only RPC they've harassed over the years, so it isn't their first rodeo with being annoying and creepy. Do not waste your time with a message.

Now with all that out of the way, phoenixissims, go fuck yourself with a pitchfork, and everyone else? Have a nice rest of the month. I'm going back to my usual tomfoolery.

[hergan416]

😈 🎢🤩 for the emoji asks! :)

Thank you! (ask from here)

😈 Has there been a point in a story where you did something just to be playfully mean to your readers?

Oh uh. Hmm. I'm not sure. I ... don't think so. It's rare I'm thinking of "readers" when writing something, unless it's a gift fic, in which case I am usually just trying my best to deliver on the prompt that I was given. OR I'm thinking of readers and trying to do something they will like.

Although. I might be close with something upcoming, we'll see.

🎢 Which of your fics would you call your wildest ride?

I feel like for me to consider my writing a wild ride... it would need to be on the longer side and I really only have a few fics that are long enough to even like. Qualify?

I guess simply because it's the longest and actually has a completed like "arc" I'll choose Poison Paradise. I haven't actually managed to do that with any of my other longfics. But it doesn't really feel like a "wild ride" to me.

Unless you mean the actual writing process, in which case Who's the Mutt Now?. It's not finished and never will be, but I fucking ate dog food as part of writing that fic.

🤩 Who is your favorite character to write?

What kind of terrible question is thissss aaaa. I love writing so many characterssss.

Marco from One Piece is definitely up there. I love tragedy of immortality and he is so great for it just with (spoilers: all the loved ones who die in canon while he can't).

Seto Kaiba from Yugioh also has to be on this list. I can't have been a Seto Kaiba RPer for that long and not even mention him. That man has carried so much projection I can't even. (And also a fair amount of confidence that I don't/didn't posses but have gotten better about through him. I went through so much with Seto Kaiba.)

James Bonde gives me so few problems when writing, his voice is clear and I feel like he makes sense to me and like he always can fill his narrative purpose without going ooc. That's very nice to write because it comes easily. I love him coaching Louis in Poison Paradise. He's kind of this nice mixture between light/silly and serious so he doesn't ever get on my nerves or pull the story directions I don't want it to like Sherlock, but he doesn't make the story as heavy as other characters seem to. Very nice breath of fresh air.

Honestly, I think I genuinely enjoy writing the side characters more than the main ones with yuumori even if the main ones are my favorite characters. That's a little silly, isn't it?

But I will stay silly :3

[minediamonds]

Cressida is petty, yes. She’s not always kind. She’s often not, to be honest. Her initial crush/admiration for Daphne faded once she saw her as a rival on the marriage mart. Daphne being named the Diamond really messed with Cressida, and she hadn’t wanted it to but it did.

Then her admiration/crush moved to Eloise. That, despite her best efforts, hasn’t faded. Despite knowing she might never see her again. Despite Eloise’s (second) rejection. Cressida is unsure of what to do exactly. All she knows is that she misses Eloise and wants to get her back as a friend.

Cressida is well aware of the constraints of her society, and how her parents would react if they knew her, truly knew her. So she doesn’t tell them everything. She thinks her mother suspects, but her father does not, and for that she is grateful. She can only imagine what he’d do if he knew.

As for Penelope, besides her friendship with Eloise, Cressida envies Penelope’s closeness with all of the Bridgertons (by birth). Cressida wishes that could be her life. Yet she fears it never will be. Especially with what she’s done to Daphne and Penelope.

Cressida does feel that she needs to be ruthless to get ahead. But so far it hasn’t worked out for her. Though it is hard, near impossible, to undo her parents’ (particularly her father’s) conditioning that she needs to make a good match or else, so she doesn’t feel she can afford kindness. That said, she wishes that she knew how to be kinder.

There are glimpses of a softer, kinder side to Cressida through her friendship with Eloise. And I truly believe that that side of her does exist. It’s just been beaten down far too many times for it to have any true sway over her personality. Cressida will always have a soft spot for Eloise, she feels unable to get over her. And she doesn’t know why, as she moved on from Daphne quickly enough.

The issue is, Cressida never really /knew/ Daphne. Sure, they were in the same circles but were hardly close friends. Cressida /knows/ Eloise. She knows what makes her happy. What makes her sad. What makes her angry. She doesn’t claim to understand Eloise’s mind, but she admires it. And so she’s truly grieving the loss of Eloise, in a way she didn’t with Daphne because it’s actually based on something.

Cressida and Eloise had a true connection, at least from Cressida’s POV. Of course, no Eloise RPer has to go along with it. But if any would, I would definitely appreciate it. <3

[celestialprayer]

SHIPPING INFO. answer the following for your muse(s) so people know how shipping works on your blog.

what’s your OTP for your muse(s)?

bit of a loaded question for a character canon used as sparingly as it did. the closest I can say is Annelie, since she's one of the only non-main cast members (who all have their own Situations going on) Zena has any noteworthy interactions with - and I mean that in a "they shared two Dragalia Life (the gag series) comics together and Annelie was Generally Supportive and Nice in her direction" sort of way.

ofc its a bit irrelevant to the conversation since we're way past the point where dragalia character rpers are freely stumbled on, but! yea

what are you willing to RP when it comes to shipping?

A lot of things! I like to have fun and variety, though I'll admit I'm a bit more of a basic bitch than a lot of RPers - I prefer my ships healthy, or at least to get there with time, thanks! Also no NSFW, very ace writer here, though I can skirt the line with fades, if it fits the mood

how large does the age gap have to be to make it uncomfortable?

A bit dependent on context, imo. Generally 10 years feels like a Lot to think about in a vaccuum, but there've been Individual Instances with more of a gap than that that I can vibe with. That said, Zena's rather a rather young adult physically, and I'd be reluctant to go too much older with her, so there probably won't be too much messing with that on my end.

are you selective when shipping?

not very? obviously I like chemistry and a meaningful bond to be at least implied before I go all in on it, but I'm pretty loose when it comes to what that really entails. I just like having my characters form close and loving bonds of all kinds, and have their base want for closeness met.

how far do steamy moments have to go before they’re considered NSFW?

If there's even a sniff of possibility for the bedroom getting involved, fades/cuts will happen at most once the bed's reached, if I even wrote something that goes that far.

does one have to ask to ship with you?

it'd be nice! i don't mind playing around with little crushes and whatnot without express permission, but if my muse and yours are going to really get meaningfully involved I'd like to make sure we're on the same page

how often do you like to ship?

when it works! i'm a SAP for shipping, I really value the comfort and closeness it can bring to my muses. the ideal is at least one for my muses, but I don't mind messing around

are you multiship?

yeee!! every character and dynamic to explore is different, and I like to explore them all when they're applicable. single-ship is just so restrictive-sounding to me - I might have a preferred ship to fall back on for sake of a blog's central canonicity, but nothing that locks out other options. and i also do poly but i've yet to be that lucky

are you ship obsessed or ship more-or-less?

used to be i'd say ship-obsessed, but these days i'm somewhere in the middle. i've realized that how far i went for ships was rather specifically because that's where closeness and tender emotions were most easily written, but I understand nowadays that's hardly the End of it, and that comfort can certainly come with the right kind of friends, too. I won't turn a good ship away, but I'm not in dire need of them like I used to be.

what is your favorite ship in your current fandom?

See Question 1. like i've never seen ship content of any kind with zena out in the wild, that's how dire it is

finally, how does one ship with you?

just bring the possibility up? if it seems like there's potential in a ship with my muse and yours, just lmk and i'd be happy to volley around the concept and see if I can vibe with it. Worst case we just wind up with good friends instead!

Tagged by: actually i stole it from @gamenu and for the things that woman's done to me i will not apologize /j Tagging: take it if you want it!

[biff-adventurer]

just a long, meandering thought dump, nothing to see here

i no longer have any real position in the accent wars of ffxiv. the way dawntrail was handled in english... crazy. the jpn script doesn't work with accents outside of different kinds of jpn accents, so it's like... you do you. my character has x accent and yours has y? cool. i will accept any logic for accents in roleplay. it's the wild west of rule of cool at this point lmao

speaking of the wild west. i still hold my position on cowboy ocs. like, you don't have to know EVERYTHING about cowboys, but you do gotta understand the history of american imperialism and how to avoid its rhetoric to make me appreciate a cowboy oc. things like "i live out in nature where it's wild and free" is rooted in imperialistic views of nature my good man. a lot of cowboy stereotypes that are portrayed in modern media by western white men are rooted in a lot of nonsense.

i once ran into an rper who thought my character was being problematic b/c he was pointing out to this cowboy that the stuff he was saying was just making tural sound exotic and like some fairyland of freedom where you can do anything you please. the wild west was not like that. it was never like that. i can't begin to articulate the rage i still feel for people who don't self reflect or acknowledge their flaws. this instance was more of that bullshit, where a girl cat tells my white man avatar that he's being a privileged hyur about this. despite the fact that she knew I AM A WOMAN OF COLOUR BEHIND THE AVATAR!

anyway. i love north tural, i do. but i don't love the way people in the roleplaying community try to push their narcissistic, overindulgent, bigoted fantasies on me. it wasn't the first instance--all this nonsense really took hold when the far east was merely suggested to exist in the world of hydaelyn. of course, those are the very people who don't just take "actually did you knows" in stride. and i've just decided to avoid them entirely for my own sanity.

i don't regret trying to speak up. i know full well that people don't like to be called out on their mistakes and they'll usually get defensive. but to me, that's a sign of immaturity and i don't want to be friends with people who can't admit when they're wrong. especially because i admit i'm wrong all the damn time. so it really rubs me the wrong way, b/c these very same kinds of people end up stepping all over that to make themselves comfortable.

none of these strangers are my friends. the world is full of people in different stages of life. these things happen and i don't hold it against the entire world or anything. i just wish people were much much much more careful and thoughtful with the ideas they wield. it sets us back every time someone makes destructive stereotypes more comfortable to believe than the truth.

[forgottenluck]

Hello, very curious! Did your blog start as a canon yuri and overtime become this massive au or had it always been an au? If the former, why still say they are yuri? if they doesn’t go by the name yuri or have any resemblance to his canon? I would love to have the courage to do something like this but I also do not wholelly understand it? I apologize if asking this upset you at all!

Lore question?

LORE QUESTION

I LOVE LORE QUESTIONS!!!!!

*cough*

This is absolutely not upsetting at all! I don't get to talk about Koun's beginnings very often, so I'd love to explain a bit!

So consider this a lore dump for Koun's history as a character! Also this got very long so i'm sorry friend.

A little history on Kie and Vesperia

First thing to note, I've been a Yuri Lowell fan for years. And I really mean years. He's been an absolutely fascinating character for me, and I adore how layered he is even in his official canon. It's rare that you get a morally grey main character in a video game, and Yuri was my first introduction to that kind of character in media that wasn't portrayed as a throw-away character. The struggle of good and evil in video games (and media in general) is not a new concept....but at the time, the struggle of a morally grey MC was something I hadn't experienced before.

Good and evil aren't black and white. It's always grey, because it's always based on introspection, environments, and personal experiences. A society can see someone as a good person, but in reality that person is corrupt. Or a person can do something for the greater good but end up scorned by society due to their actions. It's all about perspective....and Vesperia in general handles this topic extremely well. Both in how it handles Yuri's actions, as well as how it handles government corruption and planetary crisis.

This really got me to love not just Yuri, but the game in general, as it was a very real story that...without the fantasy elements, could happen. It wasn't like Graces, in which Government corruption and planetary crisis was solved by friendship....but through war and death that Yuri had to do with his own hands most of the time.

But enough of my gushing over Vesperia and Yuri! I just wanted to explain why I chose Yuri of all characters.

RP History Before Koun

So we've established that I've been a Yuri fan for years. Lets talk about RP. I've been rping on tumblr in general for about....10 years. My first blog was a blog known as @novelisticartist which i had converted from a personal blog to a rp blog thanks to a couple of friends I'd made. My first ever rp post was made on May 14, 2014 (I just went and looked) and it was with a Yuri rper (AU Yuri). The character on that blog was originally a character I'd made up on the fly, an OC that grew along side the blog and the characters I interacted with.

I've been a writer for a lot longer than 10 years. I have massive stories in my head, hundreds of characters, etc....but until that moment, I'd never really set them out on the internet proper. I had rped a little on Deviantart, but nothing to the scale of tumblr. And I wouldn't be here today if not for that one AU Yuri lowell rper giving me the push I needed in order to try.

I used that blog for 2 years, before I moved over to a new blog. This blog was at that time a multimuse blog called musesofadenvale. Originally I worked with both blogs, but thanks to my ADHD I had a hard time focusing on both. Plus, interest had waned for my original character on novelisticartist. So eventually I moved over completely to the new blog.

Origin of Koun

For years, I had been playing a game called Aura Kingdom off and on. It's only been recently that I've completely quit playing, due to them moving servers and not giving enough warning to players to move their stuff over. I lost years worth of work due to this, and it completely turned me off the game. But I still have very fond memories of it, and it's existence has cemented a lot of lore for Koun in general.

Around September or October of 2015, I met some new friends on there. We'll call them M and A for privacy. They were avid rpers and we just....started rping together. I had styled my character in Yuri Lowell style, long black hair, used a sword, etc.....and we all just kind of ran with it.

This was what he looked like in game, and it was really fun to just kind of shove him in the situations that were in the game. I was doing my best to keep him as canon in personality as possible and We had a lot of interesting rps. one of which was where we were all demi-humans, and were trying to escape and it was just silly fun.

Unfortunately, me and A did not last as friends. She was a minor at the time and was not in a good household, and often times used me and M as venting stations. I was handling a lot, taking care of my mother at the time, who was recovering from a transplant, and we ended up growing apart after I put my foot down and requested that I not be vented too at the time.

But me and M continued to be friends for years. It was to her that I initially suggested the basic idea I had at the time for Koun. We were playing the game together and an idea hit my ADHD brain like lightning. She was aware of my love for Vesperia, and Yuri Lowell. I'd introduced her to the game and we had fun talking about it. And as we were playing, I just....had the thought of "what if Yuri Lowell was a god of luck?"

M absolutely lost it at the question, and started talking about how ironic it would be, hilarious even. Since in Vesperia, Yuri often talks about he's cursed with misfortune. The irony of him being a literal being of Luck was hilarious.

And yet...the idea stayed with me. Dug itself in my brain.

At the time, I was already rping on tumblr, and had already divided my attention between the two blogs. I was also playing Okami at the time too, and I have a weakness for japanese folklore in general. I played around with him on Aura Kingdom for a while, did a lot of research into some aspects of folklore, and fleshed out a lot of things on pen and paper (most of which were destroyed in an event at my old apartment which sucks but it is what it is.)

Finally, in January of 2016 I posed a question to my main blog Novelisticartist. I'd spent 2 years building up lore and fleshing out the character on that blog, and I had quite a few people who praised me on the sheer amount of work i'd put into her....so I posed the question of "would you all be willing to rp with an extremely AU version of Yuri Lowell?"

I wouldn't have even suggested it if the first person I'd interacted with had not been an AU Yuri themselves. Unfortunately, that blog is no longer on tumblr, and I hope wherever they are, that they're doing well.

Past Koun and Current Koun

When I first started rping Koun, I really focused hard on keeping what I believed to be the main elements that made Yuri...well Yuri present.

Sassy, Sarcastic, a being with a authority issue. A self-sacrificing idiot sometimes who travels around due to wanderlust.....willing to do something dark for the greater good. I worked hard to integrate similar lore into his AU as his canon...similar things happening. He has a Flynn, he has a Estelle (though their names are slightly different)

Everyone's interpretation of canon characters is different, after all. This was what I believed to be what the main elements that made Yuri up. Kind, but sarcastic. Blunt, but willing to help.

But he's had roughly 6ish...7 years (math not my strong suit) to develop. I'm quite aware that what I intended to do with him is not exactly what happened. he's evolved, changed as a person, with each interaction he's had over the years.

He is not the person he started as. But does he still count as an AU?

In some ways, yes. In others, no.

The basics of him are still the same. He's still sassy. He's still a self-sacrificing idiot. He definitely still has problems with authority figures. He has a thirst for adventure, he works easily with others despite whoever they are.

But there is a rather large divide now between Yuri Lowell, and Koun no Yuuri. Yuri rushes into danger, has a thirst for battle along side of adventure.....but Koun has become cautious. He has legitimate fears, he's cautious about who he interacts with, he has learned from mistakes and events.

The reason I still call Koun a "Yuri Lowell AU" is because I still see Yuri in him. Yuri was a core part of who he was for so long, it's not something I can just get rid of. I've debated with myself numerous times on whether or not to just call Koun an OC at this point....and I think he does qualify as one by now....but i talk myself out of it every time, because of what I see in the character.

As for the name thing, it's more....Koun's full name is Koun no Yuuri. This means "Luck of the Lily" very loosely. One of the things that I liked about Yuri was he gave nicknames to everyone...silly ones, but still nicknames. Koun is merely a shortened version of his own name, and he will often introduce himself (if he gives his full name) as either Koun or Yuri, giving the person the choice as to what to call him.

End Stuffs

I'd like to note, I'm dyslexic and neurodivergent, so explaining things isn't exactly my forte, so some of my reasoning may not make sense. It's hard to get the right words out to explain what's in my head.

In my years on tumblr, I've seen many things. Many different variants on how to rp different characters. I've seen sort of AUs, massive AUs, characters based off canon but not canon nor AU. Heck, the first person to get me rping on tumblr was a "Hipster" Yuri Lowell. The most important piece of advice I can give to a person...

Is do what you like.

Sure, there's lots of discourse over how things need to be "completely accurate to canon" if you wanna call yourself canon.....but I really honestly think that's bullshit. Because as I said earlier, Canon is subjective. Everyone will interpret differently. In the end, what everyone else thinks doesn't really matter, because you should write how you want to write.

Write what you want too. Write what makes you feel good. Find yourself some people who will write with you to have fun. Because that's important. It's important to have fun in what you do. What you write.

If you want to write a mostly canon character, do so. If you wanna write an OC, go for it. If you wanna write an AU canon character so AU that it passes an OC, jooin uuuuus. We welcome you with open arms.

I am always open to questions, or if you need advice! And I absolutely love lore questions! I'm sorry if this long ass reply was intimidating, but I love talking about Koun's backstory, his conception, and meta posts in general!

[miqojak]

Can you explain more about your “do not reblog” rule? /gen

Do you not want reblogs of anything ever or just certain things? I try to check tags but tbh I’m still not really clear on the why so I do t know if I’m doing this right.

Hey, thanks for asking!

What it really boils down to is that it is incredibly hurtful when you've spent years looking to make contact in an RP community, and no one will reach out for RP, or show genuine interest in your OC... but complete strangers in the RP community will come by to take your OC aesthetic for their OC, and never interact otherwise, which is ultimately just using another person for your own gain.

If you like a character's aesthetic, and it's similar to your own OC's... why not go ahead and interact? (Send asks, or comment on posts or reblog writing or gposes with tags about how much you like the character, or whatever! ) Wouldn't that be a good first sign that your characters might get along, or have similar interests of some kind? It's a social hobby, after all, so you gotta talk to strangers eventually... so who better than someone whose OC blog intrigued you to begin with? If you like the aesthetic but not the OC... why not just follow the same resource blog they did, for more of the aesthetic you like?

An RP blog is essentially for helping to meet other RPers; it's like making a scrapbook about your character to show/advertise to others, to see if they might be interested in RP with your lil guy - "here's what they're like, are you interested?". But when people come by and only take from you, and don't engage in any other way, shape, or form? They don't reblog, or even hit the heart on your original works ( ie they literally just take aesthetic posts they could have gotten from the same resource blog that I did, so I get a notification, thinking it was someone actually interested in engaging in our shared, social hobby - but it's just someone who wants something from me) - or support you by maybe sharing your original work at all... well, it certainly makes *me* feel used, and it's both hurtful, and frustrating. It makes me feel like I'm just an object, and not a person behind a screen looking for contacts in a community that only seems to stop by when someone wants something; it makes me feel like people don't think about the person behind the screen.

That said, I explained it recently like the old "neighbor asking for a cup of sugar" thing - if I know you and we interact and I know you're not some stranger who only comes by to take from me what you will? Why wouldn't I be willing to share/ 'give you a cup of sugar'? There are definitely people I think are great on here, who support not only me, but so many others in the community, by sharing creative works and writing fun tags on them, etc. But if a complete stranger showed up at your home and didn't ask for a cup of sugar, but barged right in and started helping themselves to everything in your fridge... wouldn't you be upset in some manner? They didn't say hi, didn't introduce themselves... they didn't say anything at all, and you have no idea who this person is! You'd probably lock your door, and not open it to strangers anymore - plus, it's not like you wouldn't make them a sandwich if they were a friend in need, but it's off-putting to be used... and doubly so when you don't even know who this person is.

I've lost a lot of my desire to try and be active, myself, because no one seems to reach out for RP anymore (all my longterm RP friends from years ago have quit RP over the last few years because of this - they were always the ones putting in all the effort with reaching out to new contacts - among a handful of other reasons), and as a fellow anxious person... you just gotta bite the bullet and be social at times if you want RP, you can't hide behind social anxiety in a social hobby (don't I know it). You can't just hope it falls in your lap. But between being regularly ghosted by people (who seem to only want ERP, and disappear when it doesn't happen) - and Tumblr mostly just being a hurtful experience... I've largely gone inactive, and try to share others' stuff when I do log on.

Tl;dr If the only thing people want is aesthetic posts... why not just follow the same resource blogs - why use the blog of someone trying to make connections? If they want to RP, or establish some sort of connection by mutually sharing each other's creative works, and sending asks and doing tag games, etc. - (ie if they want to establish a rapport) then that's amazing! Full steam ahead.

But it hurts, and ultimately makes me feel pretty worthless when I love a character I've worked hard on and tried for years to establish, and then most notifications are just another name of a stranger who only comes by to take aesthetic posts they could have gotten anywhere else.

Sorry for being long-winded - the ADHD contributes to that, but I've also had some people be incredibly entitled and cruel when I was blocking them, and pointed out to them that the only notifications I had from them for many months was them simply taking aesthetic posts, and never interacting otherwise... as if they felt entitled to pump my blog for their own OC's aesthetic (or its someone who follows me and just instantly starts combing my blog for their OC's aesthetic... conveniently skipping anything that's actually original work I spent time creating) - so I tend to overexplain, these days, so it's clear that it comes from a place of hurt, and trying to protect myself and cultivate a healthier circle of people around me... its not out of malice, or grudges, etc.