#i was just talking to emma and this fell out and gosh i just

[janovavalen]

✧HER NEW CUT || luke castellan x fem!reader

summary: luke as always admired y/n…from afar, but when she comes to camp one morning he can’t help but talk to her about her very bold hair cut

word count: 3174 (cray cray)

warnings: slight obsession from a far (not joe goldberg type), horrid flirting, y/n had a long to short haircut like taylor russell’s hair type short, slight jealousy, happy and soft ending<3

a/n: for more dramatic feels listen to japanese denim specifically? 3:09 so hope u read fast when it comes to the end bc JAH!

at the camp, luke and his group of friends walked amongst themselves as they laughed at the endless and kind of weird jokes one another was telling.

luke was always lucky with making friends but his friends were kind of—not to be rude—on the weird spectrum. he himself couldn’t say he wasn’t weird either.

‘dude, then the next thing—oh shoot, look who’s gotten out of her cabin this morning’ his friend jake, who pointed over to persephone’s cabin.

as luke looked over he saw none other than y/n l/n. daughter of persephone, goddess of spring and nature. persephone was known for her beauty, and her love, her kind mind towards all even when they’ve done bad.

all of persephone’s children seem to have these traits, but y/n? no. she had them more, she had them down to the freckles on her face that seemed to align like the stars of sirius. the most beautiful, brightest star in the sky.

y/n had been at the camp for only a few months, not as long as luke, but the second she stepped foot into that camp was when luke gave himself over to her willingly. but to her, unknowingly.

as crazy as it sounds, luke has never said a word to y/n. the only thing he did do however? was embarrassingly trip over his own foot, slamming down into the earth below her feet as she stopped her movements, he could remember it alarmist like it was ten minutes ago.

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as luke walked out of his cabin he saw y/n walking with her sisters as they laughed and talked together, their laughs seemed to drown out and the only noticeable one being y/n’s.

at the moment, luke had the duty of taking his wooden swords to the swordsman practice field.

as the girl—mainly y/n walked their way across from herme’s cabin, luke tried to make himself look more attractive? cool? so he straightened his back, the wooden swords being in one arm as he confidently walked down the steps—just as the girl passed, he tipped over a tree stump that had grew out of the ground.

when he did, was well hades himself rose from the ground and put hell on earth—the swords went flying into the air, one hitting y/n’s sister in her head.

‘oh my!—‘ as luke fell stomach first into the ground he grunted.

‘oh my gosh! are you okay!?’ a soft and worried voice spoke above him. as he looked up he saw a worried face of y/n…the girl he was so desperately trying to impress.

‘i—im fine! i’m okay, sorry! i’m so sorry emma!’ he yelled to the girl as he scurried up to grab the wooden swords. y/n turned to see one laying lot to far behind her so she went to reach, but at the same time like some two-thousands movie cliché, he went to reach for the same one.

his larger hand being on top of y/n’s who looked him into the eyes she smiled warmly while he smiled back, cleaning his throat.

‘again i'm so sorry’ he nervously smiled at y/n who kept her eyes trained on his own. she smiled warmly and shook her head.

‘don’t, it’s okay, it wasn’t your fault’ she calmly told him while placing her hand on his chest. he took a deep breath while they looked each other in their eyes.

‘y/n? come on we need to get emma to the clinic’ her sister called out to y/n who turned around. luke kept his eyes trained on y/n who called out—‘o—okay! i’m coming right now!’ as she turned back around she was quick to luke in his eyes.

‘well…i guess ill see you around prince charming’ she smiled with a hint of playfulness in her tone. he nervously laughed while holding onto the wooden swords as she walked away.

not without turning back to look at luke how never stopped looking at her.

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snapping out of his memory, luke looked over to jack to smirked at him.

‘dude, whatever—‘

‘i mean come on luke! you’ve been obsessing over her for how long? like how many years?’

‘about two i think?’ one of this friends said. jake pointed at them to prove his point.

‘see! two! and not to ruffle your edges but she’s a very pretty girl…she’s not going to wait for you forever luke’ he stressed. luke and jake have been friends for some time now and he was tired of watching luke get jealous every time y/n talked to some other guy at the camp.

and eveytime he let it happen, luke would go into his quiet, mystery guy mode and not talk to anyone for thirty minutes or an hour just falling over the fact the guy y/n was talking to and laughing with wasn’t him.

luke rolled his eyes a bit and shook his head.

‘nah it’s okay…besides maybe he deserves someone else, i don’t think i’m first and only in line anyway’ luke watched y/n sadly as she talked to some camper from zeus's cabin.

he was basically torturing himself as he watched the two laugh, her hand falling along the guy's shoulder.

turning around once he saw that, he sucked in a breath and tried his best to brush that off. the overbearing jealousy putting him through a spiral. a way in his mind.

turning around once he saw that, he sucked in a breath and tried his best to brush that off. the overbearing jealousy putting him through a spiral. a way in his mind.

‘okay—guys let’s just go have dinner, have fun, y’know?’

jake looked over to the rest of the group who sadly shook their head at the effort of getting luke to talk to y/n. sighing he followed luke over to the small outdoor cafeteria.

there were all of the kids who laughed and ate.

‘you guys can sit over there and I'll go and get dinner’ luke told them. some of the group didn’t really eat often, they more often ate their snacks they had saved up in their cabins.

‘i’ll go with you!’ jake called out.

as the two of them made their way to were the food was being handed out, luke failed to notice y/n who smiled up at him and called his name softly.

‘luke is that you?’ she smiled. turning around immediately to see y/n smiling up at him he stumbled to turn around to her completely.

‘y/n! hey! how are you? how’ve you been?’

luke was trying his best to make it seem like he didn’t know she been rather okay.

‘i’m good! i’m good, and you?’ she walked him him down the like of food.

‘i’m good as well! uhm…how’s camp going for you?’

‘good, uhh—me and my sisters have small sleepovers almost every night, we’re also doing some get-togethers for the other demigods to join, you can come whenever you like? i already asked mr. dionysus and chiron’s permission. they said it would be a rather good thing for the demi-gods to put their differences aside and get along as a full community’

y/n was always one for having a soft spot for people. even for her own good. but, that’s what luke loved about her. she was always so caring and supportive of everyone aside from the fact they’re all from different gods. that didn’t matter to her.

nodding his head and smiling he agreed to showing up to one of them—‘yeah, yeah i’ll try and make it if i’m not taking care of other things or sleep’ he chuckled a bit at his own joke while y/n did the same.

‘good good, i hope you can. it was really good to talk to you luke, i mean it. i always saw you a couple of times but you were with other people and i didn’t want to interrupt—‘

‘no! no—you could never interrupt, you can always talk to me, i mean it’ he was quick to shut down her worry in trying to intrude her way through conversation he wasn’t even paying attention in.

she smiled and nodded her head while holding a plate of food.

‘well, i’ll see you tonight?’ she tilted her head to him with a smile on her face full of hope. he mindlessly nodded with a glaze in his expression that didn’t go unnoticed by jake but blinded it her.

as she walked away with her plate in hand and her long flowing hair behind her, jake was quick to hit luke with his shoulder.

one thing that was very different from all of her sisters was that her hair seemed to grow ten times the return speed hair takes to grow. she had the length of hair that almost reached her calves. she always liked it long, and luke didn’t want to lie to himself he loved the way it looked on her.

‘ouu! look at you man! get your game on!’ jake make a corny comment making luke look back at him with a shake of his head but a grin on his face.

‘dude she only invited me to some function everyone is going to be at…’

‘yeah, but she smiled and talked to you? what definitely soldier boy points’ jake nudged luke once more before leaving to the table. when luke was down with his own plate and made his way over to the table, he was bombarded by cheers for him getting somewhere with y/n. finally.

luke only grinned and smiled while he turned around to see y/n eating a bit of her strawberry while looking at him with a small smile.

luke felt his chest tighten and his face grow red and warm. smiling back at her before she turned and he did as well—not before letting his eyes linger on her for a bit longer of course.

‘dude! this is definitely going to be your night!’

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later that night, all of the campers made their ways back to their own cabins. luke with his friends and his own sibling in his own cabin.

like had found himself in a predicament. he was trying to decide if the white shirt or the black one would go well with his gray sweats. he wasn’t one for fashion since at the camp everyone wore one thing. but they got lucky and got to pick out some casual clothing away from the orange shirt and regular pants.

‘look at lukey-pookie trying to find a cute date outfit to see his girlfriend!’ one of his siblings called out with a teasing smile on their face. turning to see them he rolled his eyes.

‘no she’s not my girlfriend and i could care less what i wear…’ luke turned back around still trying to decide what shirt.

‘dude wear the black one, chicks did the whole tight back shirt and sweats thing, trust me’ one of his other siblings told him as they sat their doing their hair.

‘really?’

some of the other unclaimed kids nodded in agreement super fast as he hummed to himself and slipped on the black shirt.

‘make sure you flex your jaw and muscles every now and again as well—‘

‘yeah, you have a very defined jaw and your like jacked’ another spoke while they put on their shoes.

luke nervously turned around—does y/n think he was jacked? or does she think he has a very defined jaw? finding himself thinking of y/n and her smile he grew red and cleared his throat.

‘okay whatever, are you guys ready to go?’ luke fixed his shirt and soothed it down while he pulled out his shoes to throw on.

‘yeah we're ready…we’ve been waiting on you for like ten minutes to decide on what shirt to wear…’

‘yeah you literally stood there looking at the wall for a bit. we thought you left us’ they all laughed as luke rolled his eyes.

‘go! get out’ he yelled with a small smile as they did what he said.

while him and his group of siblings and some other that he still referred to as siblings, began to walk their way to where the small get-together was being held, they were imminently introduced with a lot of flowers.

more than usual. there was a trail of them leading down some part of the forest along with some small fires that were stuck on torches like the ones back at camp.

‘they persephone kids do know how to set a mood huh?’ one of the siblings spoke as he looked at the different versions of flowers that slowly grew in their wake.

luke couldn’t help but take notice of some of the flowers that he immediately knew were y/n’s. not to be a weirdo or anything but he saw her growing some flowers every now and again and sometimes wore them in her hair or as a flower crown.

smiling slightly as he heard small sounds of laughter and a bit of music he looked up to see the crowd of campers laughing with and down at each other.

as they walked deeper into the green patch of grass that seemed to form a perfect circle that was surrounded by trees with the light of the moon above to shine down on all the people below.

‘whoa…’

‘this is actually pretty neat’ some people spoke behind him as they departed from luke.

jake and luke’s other friends however stayed together.

‘this place actually kind of looks entertaining’ jake mumbled to like who had his focus setting for the only person he came for. jake took notice of this and cleared his throat.

‘she’ll be here, why would she invite you then not show up,’ luke looked at jake and nodded his head, trying to calm himself down and focus on the small gathering around him.

‘yeah…yeah no your right—i’m just going to get some juice, i’ll see you in a sec?’ luke departed from jake who let him go with a nod.

as luke made his way through everyone. some of them gave luke a smile and some gave him hugs, he smiled and hugged his way through and to the small table full of snacks and drinks.

as luke reached the pitcher of juice he poured himself some in his cup and drank it a bit. his eyes still searching for her.

while he did he noticed a small group of what looked like persephone daughters. squinting his eyes as he looked to the very distinctive long hair that belonged to y/n he couldn’t help but take a notice to the very short hair girl that stood next to the daughters.

there was something about her? was it her outfit? no…maybe—once he heard her laugh however? was when his thoughts could come to rest.

it was y/n.

as she slowly turned to her friend who walked up to her from behind her, was when he saw her new haircut.

and boy…did his mind go in a ruckus.

he felt as if his once tight enough grip on his cup faltered as he watched her laugh and move some of her hair out of her eye. their hair was extremely short, more short than he’d ever saw. did she ever cut her hair? he can’t recall. but that didn’t matter, not a bit, not at all.

feeling his mind become blank and his eyes go in a daze, the only thing he could every really focus on was her. she smiled and nodded. talked and laughed with her friends and sisters.

she wore this cute flowing dress that reached her thighs and had skinny straps.

it wa plain (f/c) which he took a note looked amazing on her. he never really saw her in anything other than shorts and the orange camp shirt. so he took his time to absorb her new look.

as y/n moved her hair out of her face once more she looked up and it seemed the stars aligned. her eyes met his and he hurried to turn around .

tightly closing his eyes as he cursed myself for doing so, he took a shaky break and sip of his drink. unbeknownst to him, y/n walked her way slowly up to luke who’s back was turned to her.

‘luke?’ she spoke. he hurried to turn around and let out a nervous laugh.

‘y/n? oh my—what? that’s crazy, i didn’t expect you to be here at all! that’s insane…’ he closed his eyes once more to collect and mentally punch himself repeatedly in the stomach for what he just said.

‘uhm…yeah of course i’m here! i invited you silly’ she smiled at him while he smile back. hit face growing insanely warm along with the tips of his ears.

‘yeah—yeah i just noticed that…sorry, i’m so sorry i just—‘

‘you wanna go somewhere more quiet?’ she suggested. luke looked into her eyes immediately to see her signature soft look focusing on him.

god, could she be anymore beautiful than this? he thought.

only nodding in response, he let her take the cup from his hand and place it on the table.

‘come on’ she smiled at him once more while slipping her smaller hang into his large warm one.

he took another note at how her hand seemed to fit perfectly into his. his mind going insane as if he were some teenage girl with her first celebrity crush.

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as the two of them walked hand in hand deeper into the forest and near a more quiet place. luke couldn’t help but let his focus wander onto her and her hair.

while they found a spot near the lake surrounded by some sand and rocks, y/n looked over at him. he gazed down to her and saw how the moonlight traced her face perfectly.

‘i come here to think sometimes. or just talk to my mom…hope i didn't creep you out on how far we are’ she nervously laughed while letting her hand slip from luke’s.

he quickly let his heavy hand chase after hers as she turned to him with her hand holding his again, her grip soft and his worried that some monster would come and snatch her away from him.

‘no! no, no not at all! not at all i like it out here, i like how quiet and calm it is. very calm and quiet…very’ he mumbled and stumbled over his words.

he only found himself like this when it comes to y/n and he was okay with that. she laughed softly as this and shook her head while looking at him over his face and chest.

breathing and and taking a small doing to what his sibling said he clutched his jaw a bit while mindlessly looking away to make his jaw more prominent.

unbeknownst y/n took a notice and noted this for herself.

‘so uhm…your hair!’ he called out, looking back at her immediately while her eyes snapped back at his own.

‘what about it’ she reached up and turned a bit of the hair pieces over me another. it looked so smooth and healthy he shook his head in a hurry.

‘nothing! it looks good on you, really good…not! in a creepy way! i didn’t mean to say that in a creepy way! y’know im just saying, you look good, very pretty—pretty beautiful—very…beautiful…’ he was almost disgusted at himself for saying such things in such a rushed manner.

what was actually going on? y/n couldn’t have liked something like that. she’s too special for that—she can’t like or even go for a guy like him. why did he even think—

‘i cut it for you…’ she quietly admitted.

looking over at her immediately once more he saw her gaze and her hand slightly gripping his own a bit tighter as she refused to look up at him.

‘you what?’ he breathed out. waiting for her to continue he didn’t fail to notice how her arm seemed to pull him a bit closer so he mindlessly let her tug him closer.

‘i cut it for your attention…i thought if i changed something out myself…you’d notice me. it’s stupid but ever since i saw you fall in front of me with your wooden swords i couldn’t get you out of my head. and for almost two years straight i did things like…talking to other guys or laughing at jokes i didn’t really think were funny so you could hopefully look at me? i don’t it’s stupid i—‘

before she could say anything else luke bent his body and face down to press his lips fully onto hers. as the two of them shared a single kiss. he pulled away to look her in the eyes for her to only look at his pink pull lips. placing her hand onto his face and pulling him closer, she smashed her lips onto his once more.

this time, the kiss wasn’t like the last. it was more desperate, full of energy, and all the times he’s thought about her non stop, over and over and over.

her hands found their way to the back of his neck and through his hair while he grunted a bit and placed his hands on her waist.

the two of them sharing what seemed like a never ending kiss. their were fireworks, bombs, sparklers, a full zoo and war going on all throughout luke’s body and mind right now.

he’s never experienced anything like this before and he was so sure he never wanted to experience anything like it except if it was with her and only her.

y/n smiled into their kiss as luke pulled away and gave her one last kiss.

‘i don’t know, what you were denying about what i feel. i have never stopped thinking about you, ever. it’s impossible to forget you and to stop thinking about you, every morning, evening and night even in between, when i wake up for water, i think about you. y/n…’ placing his hand on her cheek as she smiled dazingly into his eyes he let his nose hover and almost touch her own.

‘…your all i ever see.’ he finished as she gave a small smile and laugh. her hand made its way up to his face and her thumb traced over his scar which he closed his eyes on. their foreheads resting on one another.

‘awh luke…’ was all he could say before placing he slips onto his once more.

as he mindlessly and desperately kissed her back she made sure their bodies were close.

the moon seemed to shine over the two as they shared their moment of glory together.

after a bit more of kisses, luke and y/n pulled away from one another as they held their closeness. y/n found herself wrapping her arms around luke’s body as he held her against him.

after a moment of silence luke spoke—‘i really like your hair by the way’ he told while y/n laughed a bit.

‘and i like your shirt, it's very tight. my sisters kept gawking over it. not going to lie that what noises my confidence to walk over to you a bit more’ she revealed making luke feel a whole lot better at how he always got jealous.

needing to know more he pulled apart and packed his hands along her waist—‘wait! so…were there other moments where you got jealous?’ he needed to know, bad.

while desperately looking at y/n for an answer she shyly looked down at the ground and back into his eyes before placing her finger over her lips as to show she couldn’t tell.

just before he could say anymore, she pulled apart slowly from him and made her way through the forest .

‘wait! y/n, baby— please? tell me i need to know!’ he desperately tried to get her to speak.

‘maybe!’ she yelled back with a smile. as luke followed her he smiled to himself and felt a bit giddy.

she actually got jealous over him? possibly even protective? this was too adorable to him.

running up and behind her grabbed her from hind and spinned her around in circles while she laughed. his kisses spread from her face to her neck.

[ghoulfr13nd]

hi!! gosh i'm so glad it didn't seem this way, sometimes i say things and i worry a lot how they come across (it's the overthinking mixed with good ol' 'tism fsnfds) like "oh god what if it sounded subtly manipulative, what if i give off bad vibes, what if im making them uncomfortable" etc etc like. god. fgsdh so i actually appreciate the honesty and assurance that you'd told me if i did something out of the line! fhsdk i think that's a good thing you don't force yourself! it means you're honest with others and yourself and that's a great thing! :D

also im happy you don't feel obligated to make aspect playlists because it's legit one of my fave hobbies so it's nice to share this passion! :D and i already sent you ask with my opinion about your started playlists but it bares repeating that i love what you've got so far!!!

oh we're oversharing? don't mind if i do too! fhsdjl (i can't send pictures on anon but i can still copy my results!) Warmth 26% Intellect 50% Emotional Stability 26% Aggressiveness 38% Liveliness 14% Dutifulness 54% Social Assertiveness 26% Sensitivity 74% Paranoia 66% Abstractness 90% Introversion 30% Anxiety 86% Openmindedness 54% Independence 90% Perfectionism 26% Tension 46% it's so funny to me that according to this quiz we're basically polar opposites in Warmth, Aggressiveness, Social Assertiveness and Perfectionism 😭 also your scores are more like- in the middle? while i have mainly extremes? which im pretty sure is saying something! fhdfjlsdk

i think you once briefly mentioned you were at Barns Courtney concert once but without any details! i'm so jelous i love Courtney so much! 99 is great song and oh, to have a t shirt with its lyrics! which lyric specifically is there??? 👀

Valley of the Dolls is such a good song and you're so right, it also IS SO GENDER FHDSJK and here, the Void playlist! :D Ghost by Mystery Skulls Everything Black by Unlike Pluto Dawn of Man by Michael Guy Bowman We Are The Universe by Pink Elefants Skeleton by Set It Off Midnight Thoughts by Set It Off Queen of Nothing by Elliot Lee Dance in the Dark by Au/Ra ECHO by CrusherP Ghost by Tris Mikal Circles by KIRA dark hour by DEMONDICE Tranz by Gorillaz The Underground by 8 Graves x Unlike Pluto OK by 8 Graves awake at night by halfalivea Cannonball by Barns Courtney Valley Of The Dolls by Marina And The Diamonds Body by Mother Mother Ghosting by Mother Mother (with void i remember having a talk with my friend where we were trying to make void more cheerful because "just because it's void it doesn't have to be sad" but uh, i don't think we succeeded here fgsdj)

and oh boy, the whole rage playlist? i don't know if it's super, super long, but there's a looot more here than in the rest of our playlists fgsdjk (also it's kind of edgy but i think it comes with territory here fhdsjk) but since you aksed, here it is! :D Rage: Judged by Billy Talent Light 'Em Up by Fall Out Boy Raging on a Sunday by Bohnes Dark Side by Blind Channel Not Afraid To Die by Written By Wolves Cynics & Critics by Icon for Hire The Pretender by Foo Fighters Wolf in Sheep's Clothing by Set It Off It All Adds Up by Shinedown Kings and Clones by We Are The Empty Jericho by Celldweller One For The Money by Escape the Fate Riot by Three Days Grace You're Going Down by Sick Puppies GASOLINE by Måneskin KULT by Steve Aoki Stick Up by grandson Amerika by Rammstein Survivalism by Nine Inch Nails Eyeless by Slipknot Totally Spies by Lead Horizon devil may care by Fae Gun In My Hand by Dorothy Boohoo Baby by Snaggletooth BLOODMONEY by Poppy STFU by Rina Sawayama Angry Too by Lola Blanc Two Face (Dark Version) by Jake Daniels Sometimes by Nick Lutsko Wrecking Ball by Mother Mother Villains, Pt. 1 by Emma Blackery In The Next Life by Kim Petras Madness by Ruelle Seven Devils by Florence + the Machine Tot Musica by Ado (in general i automatically sorted songs by similar vibes/genres but since it's rage me and my friend kind of intended for this playlist to be played on shuffle, it has to be unpredictable!)

ohh yeah, as a heart player that's also aromantic seeing so many interpretations of Heart as basically Romance Aspect felt so alienating 😭 everyone was giving such flimsy arguments too! "oh it's because Nepeta loves shipping/romance and Dirk has messy romantic life and Heart is about emotions and what's more emotional than romance" etc etc and it presents it as if people can't have intense emotions about their friends, i hate this automatic putting romance on some sort of pedestal but that's general problem, not only homestuck specific fgsdjk but also it's wild to me when people try to act as if the rest of the cast didn't have messy romantic lives, most of them had, Romance is not Heart locked in the comic! so even then this argument doesn't make sense! if we'd have to make any aspect being about Romance i'd choose rather Hope or Light, based on what was happening in the comic but I don't see anybody locking Romance into these aspects because they aren't heart-shaped and pink ☹ oh my god, excuse me, this turned into a rant i just have a lot of Feelings about this fgsdjfkl;fsdhgj but here's our Heart playlist! gdsfjl: Copycat by CircusP TV Head by Elliot Lee Human by Anavae O My Heart by Mother Mother Maurice's Monsters by Small Leaks Sink Ships Mystery to Myself by Brick + Mortar Love Like You by Rebecca Sugar still feel. by half•alive Sick of the Silence by Mother Mother Monster by Imagine Dragons Tak… Tak… To Ja by Obywatel G.C. Not Your Kind of People by Garbage Theatre by Icon For Hire Dance With My Demons by Blame My Youth Metamorphosis by Penny Parker So Am I by Ava Max Soulmate by Lizzo I'm Good The Mowgli's Who I Am by The Score The Masquerade by Go! Child (with heart i kind of wanted to create a some sort of story of a heart player not being sure of their identity/not liking themselves/not understanding their emotions but then slowly accepting and becoming sure of themselves :D it's so important to me for this playlist to end with The Masquerade too fsdgfsdgfh)

oh about the Life playlist! i'm glad you liked these songs! if you liked Ado she has a lot of great songs and such a great and powerful voice! and the animations in her songs just- chef's kiss :D also me and my friend were going for a very specific vibe here! like, sometimes i think about specific type of player while i make aspect playlists, for example, we have 2 playlists for light, one with general idea of Light and a second one for like- a very Vriska type of light player where we focus more about the spotlight and the need to be on the foreground of the story fgsdfjk: Monster by KIRA Candle Queen by GHOST Primadonna Girl by Marina etc. so with this specific Life playlist we were going with a interpretation of Life player that goes to the top and aims for success and wealth, kind of like Meenah or HIC fgdsjkf but うっせぇわ by Ado for Aggretsuko… god, now I can't unsee this! fhdsfjk

OMG pls do the classpect theories for the spiderverse characters when you feel up to it i'd be so down to read them!!! :O

fgasdjfklakhs thank you for indulging me with my aspect playlists!! fgsdjk

ooh maybe if we put it into homestuck narrative, it could be read like- you changing since you identified as a Witch of Void as your Witch powers evolving to the point where you seamlessly can manipulate void into light! that'd be cool, could mean you basically leveled up! fsdgfjk of course you still can choose the other two options too! that's the beauty of classpects, under certain circumstances and under certain interpretations so many classpects could fit one person fhsdjkfds you know! once i found in classpect community there was a system that's like- they had one Main Classpect and sub-aspect! like, I mainly identify with Page of Heart but my sub-classpect could be Page of Light (or sub-subclasspect Page of Rage fhsdj) i think it's a nice system for the undecided! :D and i'd be actually very interested in hearing why and how do you relate to these three titles! if you feel like it, of course!

you used to consider page of heart too? that's wild im shaking ur hand! 🤝 :D but what does this classpect means to me hmm you know how pages start with deficit in their aspect even though they think they are full of it and that inspires others into helping pages with their aspect and also that they have endless potential but their journey is extremely slow? yeah that's me with a lot of aspects actually but heart is the strongest here fgsdajkf oh boy do i have a land fdgsfjlas it's Land of Trilliums and Static! (according to the internet, Trilliums symbolize consciousness btw!) LoTaS from the space looks like a funny mirror version of Earth, the grass is pink and water pastel blue, the whole planet seems to be pulsing with red light but on the ground everything looks mostly normal, outside of unusual colors. water is normal, fauna is normal, everything seems ok and almost like our earth with a small exception the planet is almost DROWNING in early stage Trilliums and all these flowers are stuck in a white noise, unmoving and stagnant, lost what to do without a Signal. in the middle of big ocean there's a big tower that can be seen even from cosmos, it pulses with bright red light as well. the main quest is to bring back the signal to the planet so the Trilliums can get out of the static and make them grow and develop fingerguns do YOU have a Land per chance??? 👀👀

ooh what's on my dream list? i think Rammstein is probably at the top of bands i'd love to see! (i had an opportunity once but i didn't take it and i'm still so sad when i think about it fgdsjfksd) maybe Mother Mother? Imagine Dragons, Billy Talent, The Score, Barns Courtney, Måneskin, Metric and Fall Out Boy would be cool also i think, just from the top of my head! :D awh then i hope you'll be able to see at least 60% of these artists!! and there's always time to decide, gender presentation can get complicated sometimes fsdjk the most important thing is to feel comfy with it i reckon!

your grandmother knew what it was all about, that's the only thing you really need to live in foreign country fgsdjkf oooh french, do you remember something from school? 👀 (you mentioned that german sounds weird to you and i think i can honestly say french sounds weird to me btw fgdsjk) and hungarian! :O why did you decide to learn hungarian if i can ask? im curious because it's not the language i usually see people want to learn fhsdjkl and how's the learning? i heard that slavic languages can be hard to learn for english native speakers! for me i can confidently say i am bilingulal, my mother language + english (even though some of english grammar still baffles me ;v;) but outside of that i can't say i know any other language as good, i know some german, a tiny bit of italian and maybe microscopic bit of japanese but certainly not enough to have a comfortable conversation 😔

AND OH BOY THIS ANIMATIC IS FDHSGFJLKSD A LOT HM. OK!!! so- it's supposed to be like the No Mercy Run, it starts with Reset button being clicked during this brief moment before the counting starts, then on "Eins" we see Frisk killing the first monster leaving dust behind, they do that on every count, so like: on Eins - Froggit, Zwei - Whimsun, Drei - Toriel, Vier - Snowdrake, Fünf - Doggo, Sechs - Dog Marriage, Sieben - Papyrus, Acht - Shyren, Neun - Dummy, just going through the world, killing without any thought, easily, and on "aus" we get to the Monster Kid, trying to kill em and here comes Undyne the Undying, then on the first "drop" in the song i wanted for the fight to begin, Frisk failing, getting killed left and right, resetting constantly. then when singing starts again at "Everyone is waiting for the light" Frisk is slightly glowing, through the first verse Frisk's getting better and better at the fight. when the chorus starts with each count Frisk lies an attack and in the meanwhile while Undyne starts melting, on Vier Undyne turns to dust, then on "here comes the sun" and during second verse we can see Frisk ominously walking through the underground, there's something akin to a halo around their head, they kill more monsters until they stand before sans. this time on each count Frisk gets killed by sans, and where there are words after the count ("here comes the sun", "it is the brightest star of them all") we can see glimpses to the pacifist route. during verse 3 we basically can see Frisk talking to sans during singing, visuals kind of almost literally showing what is being sung. then! on the count from one to three Frisk's getting closer to killing him, on five they do, then on six they get to asgore, on seven flowey dies, on eight and nine Frisk and Chara stand against each other, the light goes to Chara and Frisk gets killed and then, when there's this feminine vocalization at the end we are stuck in the complete blackness and that is a rough draft of my very edgy animatic of No Mercy run fgdsjkfsdfhl let the cringe consume me!!!!

and you know, i can't blame you for this being a red flag for you fgdsjkf trust me even people from outside of america can still be so WEIRD about german culture UGHHHH in one of Rammstein's official videos from their song Deutschalnd (which predictably is about germany) they cast a black woman as a personification of their country and you can imagine how normal (heavy sarcasm) certain fans were about it :') but i can't say i'm that surprised, this band is openly left leaning and yet people will find a way to completely miss this fact somehow ;; but you know, honestly i think the main reason why my top metal bands are german is because i think this language sounds great in this genre fgsdjk i know very little about german culture, even with family there fgshkf outside of metal i don't listen to german too much, i think the only other artist that's german i listen to is Kim Petras and even she sings mostly in english

and ok then! :D i already included 3 rather long playlists so i'm not going to write more here but maybe in other ask i will try~

and pls don't apologize for the lenghth i love reading your answers so much! also this time i wrote even more i feel like so you know fsdgjk sending much love!

music anon 🎶

you are so good anon dw dw!! i'm also like, a pretty patient person in general, so it takes a lot for me to get annoyed with someone to begin with :0 also like, i've learned a lot from past friendships/relationships that i dont want to lie about how i'm feeling. i think it is a disservice not only to myself, but to others.

anyhow, YES, ASPECT PLAYLISTS (AND AS YOU KNOW BY NOW, CLASS PLAYLISTS!!!) absolutely not an obligation!!! to skip down in your ask a little bit -- i listened to yours!!! the vibes are SO GOOD for real!! i enjoyed void a lot, but rage was where it was at for me!! honestly, i know i still have other asks to get into and idk if its going to be talked about again there, but i was like "gosh, yes, mac is a rage player! this is a mac playlist!" while listening to it. and i loved the journey you created for heart!!

also its so funny that you mention that if anything, Hope or Light would be the more "romantic" aspect because i had the EXACT same thought right before you sent your ask!!!! but no, like, reducing Nepeta to her shipping wall and Dirk to his relationships is so... i don't know what word to use. uh. bad? SKDFJG i mean like dirk, prince of life, is literally destroying his own identity by fucking his own head up by making copies of himself. he's so completely detached from his sense of self and thats his like!! whole struggle!! i don't want to get too into it bc its admittedly been a long time since i really interacted with actual character lore but, i have further thoughts on him and nep that i might revisit once i refresh my memory on them.

anyway thank you for sharing your playlists!! jumping back up for a minute becauseeee we need to talk about the quiz results!! to me your extremes tell me that you're really sure about what you are and what you aren't :0 whereas my self-view is a little more... wishy-washy. AND YEAH SJDFKH WE ARE OPPOSITES IN THOSE... and we're tension twins B) and we're similarly introverted too :0

actually i can't believe we're the homestuck guys and we haven't talked about our signs!! do you know what yours are? i'm not sure how much i buy into astrology but i think its fun. i'm a virgo sun, aries moon, aries rising sdfkjsh

also re: Barns Courtney shirt, the line on it is "wipe the stardust from your eyes" and has a cool design on it! i like the shirt a lot but i uh. i dont wear it much.... i would if i didnt have . a huge chest

as for the spiderverse guys!! idk when i'll get around to that kjshdfh i gotta wait for it to hit the right parts of my brain again. maybe someday......

ok so i fell asleep here but im going to finish this before i carry on with my day

so. ok. holdo n im actually going to combine these and i might not have time to finish it before i leave. but. im going to switch tracks to the classpect playlists and with that -- this ask!

OK SO!! I'D forgotten you also talk about dirk here :0 BUT IM SO GLAD YOURE ENJOYING THE HEART PLAYLIST

and on that note

IM DYING TO KNOW WHAT PLAYLISTS ARE MAKING YOU FEEL EMOTIONS AND HWAT THE EMOTIONS ARE PLEASE SHARE??

ok anyway YES i agree with everything youre saying with rage and i really feel like it fits mac best!! which means now i gotta move on to ves and figure out her deal which has been a little bit harder :0 if you have any ideas i would love to hear them!

my goal is to eventually write a story about them! i'll be sure to make sure you are one of the first to get to read it, if i ever get around to actually doing it... hahahaha....

AND YEAH!!! actually i was talking to my non-homestuck bestie about classpect (and made her take the quiz -- shes a maid of light KJDFHGK) and she read some of the analysis for them and she was like "dude you're a breath player no question." and then i was fucking around and listening to music and i was like "jenna from waitress is a rogue of breath" and sent her the analysis for it and she was like "DUDE THIS IS YOU!" and you know what? shes right. thank you bri for having a phd in knowing me.

AND ACTUALLY ON THAT NOTE SHES AT MY HOUSE SO I HAVE TO GO NOW LOL but i'll finish replying asap!! at least when i get done i'll have. replied to everything all at once. so not too shabby yeah? i guess you dont need all this extra stuff but you're getting it anyway. aaand actually i'll go ahead and post this and then reblog it once i'm ready to continue.

ok talk to you later bye<3

[swashbucklery]

Okay but look LOOK I just have FEELINGS they’re important. And I am really struggling with whether to even post this because people have gotten so intense about turning this season’s arc into a narrative of who hurt whom the most and who deserves whose apology and I just feel like. IDK I mean that’s valid, do your thing, live your lives if that’s the lens that makes you happiest!

But I feel like the way I’ve been looking at this season is a little different and this week’s ep really crystallized a lot of the feelings I’ve had about Lena’s arc (shorthand: I’m cross with her but also this arc is narratively delicious) and if you want to read more about those feelings I have put them below the cut!

But also: they’re below the cut so that you can choose whether or not to read them!

Basically I’ve been really riveted by the journey they’ve taken Lena on because I think the core of it is this: Lena truly does have the capacity to be Lex Luthor, in every way, and her goodness is the product of a series of intentional efforts not to be. And that is cool and thoughtfully done and compelling, and also makes her a perfect foil for Kara. Framing her choices and her personality in this way actually makes it a narrative that I prefer, and I want to use this essay to explain why!

I think what really got me was the way that, over the past few eps, Lena’s used words like narcissist and megalomaniac to describe Lex and his plans. And the reason it got me is, like. Ultimately she kind of is doing the same thing? Like, we’ve seen this from her before! Even looking at her talking about the move to National City, it’s not about moving for a fresh start it’s about moving and then being seen as the Good Luthor, being appreciated for the Luthor Who Won’t Get You Sick And Kill You, if you will. When she talks about Non Nocere but also when she talked about her work in past seasons, the phrasing and the framing she uses is never just about her invention. Lena talks about her work as a tool that will allow folks to understand her genius. She wants to make the world better and if she has to break a few eggs to do it, that’s okay, because once everyone sees how brilliant her work is they’ll forgive a few ethical transgressions.

And the show has been really intentional this season about like. Showing us Lena doing that, with Non Nocere, but also telegraphing Lex telling us that, to give us that clear parallel. Lena organizes an illegal human trial on prisoners because Non Nocere is worth the blurry lines, Lex specifically tells Brainy that the ends justify the means to get Leviathan where he wants them. 

Lena follows her project to its logical conclusion and it’s only when she really fails at it that she looks up and really notices what she’s done. Once it’s clear that there was never going to be any brilliant achievement, that all she’s left with is a bunch of ethically dubious choices and no product, she has that epiphany: this wasn’t the right way to cope with her pain. And it’s not because that’s the first time she’s thought of it!

All season she’s had Kara try to make amends, had chances to stop and examine her decision-making. With her first run-up with Non Nocere and Hope she had so many chances to stop and recognize that what she was doing had the potential to cause real harm and was kind of Not Okay, but - at the time she wasn’t ready. She was still so wrapped up in that drive, that surety that when she was successful, all of this would be worth it. And it’s so, so like Lex. Because fundamentally, Lena has the capacity to be a lot like Lex.

She has the intelligence, the skill, and ultimately what this arc shows us is that when her back is against the wall she falls victim to that inner narrative that says that she is special, she's a genius and she can fix the world and she can fix everything and if only she could just be in control of everything the world would be okay. And once she got started down that path, she really - like. She got stuck. She needed to discover for herself that this wasn’t going to work, and to really notice the way she got perilously close to being Lex without realizing, because her hurt feelings were letting her fall into that trap. 

I think in a lot of ways, that’s why this arc makes her that perfect foil for Kara. Because that’s always been the beautiful thing about Kara and Clark as heroes: that they have power and strength, and choose to be gentle. That they choose to temper that power with will and intentional decisions to use their strength for good as best they can.

And that mirror in Lena - that Lena has the capacity for real darkness and real harm but chooses to be good, every day. That’s so much more compelling to me than Lena just being good because she could never be anything but.

(And of course this is just my perspective - I like this lens bc it’s a lens that has so many stories inside it for me and I want to talk about them! You can approach this narrative in a way that feels most satisfying for you; that’s also totally valid! But I am going to be enjoying myself here and that’s allowed.)

(Like, Lena who is fucked up and has fucked up and is working hard to make things right not because she’s a villain who has to ~earn her hero badge but because part of goodness is recognizing when you make mistakes and doing your best to make things right.)

(And there are so many layers to that, like. There’s the layer of how she reacted to Kara initially and then the layer of the ways in which she punished Kara this season and the ways that the both of them failed to communicate which made things worse. There’s the layer of the illegal human experiments and the fallout from that, the fact that she helped develop technology that is probably going to be used to do real harm and is she morally responsible for that harm and so many other complicated, interesting questions.)

(There’s the layer of Kara and Lena rebuilding trust by choosing over and over again to work through their hurt and trust each other - not with some big gesture but with the complicated, messy work of just. Caring on purpose. Like that’s good shit and I feel so much more excited about talking about it than just arguing over who owes whom an apology when the answer is: both. They’ve both earned apologies, they both have to make apologies. They both have to make things right at the same time, together, because trust and relationship building isn’t a zero sum game and doing the math of who owes whom more is not helpful in that process.)

(And god don’t you just - like the depth of it. The strength of that trust that is easy but also hard, that comes from effort but is also effortless. That’s fucking gorgeous okay and yeah it doesn’t have to come from hardship per se. But we’re here, the hard times have happened, and the only way up is through and it’s just delicious.)

(Give me these two tenderly trying to figure out how to baby step towards working together and putting aside months of hurt feelings. Give me Kara and Lena both resisting the urge to make this about their own hurt and work towards a common goal and remember how good it feels to be a real team again and hold both of those conflicting experiences in their hearts at the same time. Give me the trust between these two, fragile as a baby deer, wobbling along while they figure out how to not trust each other but also trust each other and act decisively and quickly but also not impulsively.)

(Give me these two just being Complicated.mp3 by Avril Lavigne I can’t wait).

[eggtartz]

a/n : my heart actually is in pain after reading the manga... major manga spoilers alert

summary : kazutora coming out from juvie to visit his dead friends (kinda like a twisted timeline i created myself)

wc : 1111

"thankyou for your care sir"

"don't come here again okay? it's already enough time you're here, now go your friends are waiting outside" kazutora gave a slight nod and went through the juvenile hall gates where there he met your eyes. your eyes that warmed his heart a nth time and would always do. upon seeing him, you ran towards him and launched your body againts him where he catched you and hugged you.

"gosh baby i miss you so much"

"i miss you too tora, don't do this to me again. don't leave me again. please" you sobbed while furiously crying in his arms. chifuyu just stared from afar, feeling conflicted on how to drop some bombsheels to the man who've been in the rehabilitation center for a decent amount of years.

after settling down, you three went to a restaurant where the kawata owns and ate a lot of yakisoba. chifuyu kept fidgeting with his fingers on how he was going to tell kazutora about takemichi and mikey and everyone else. that they're dead and he has no idea.

you saw his troubled eyes and reassured him, after all you were the one who insisted to keep it secret from him. if you did tell him God knows what kazutora would do?

"tora can we talk?" you softly said while both of you were resting in your apartment that day. he was eating chips while watching tv so when you he looked at you there was pieces of chips on his cheeks. you giggled a bit and swipe the chips away.

you looked him straight into the eye "im so sorry". suddenly, tears come rushing in as you reminisce the old days where everyone was happy, everyone was alive but it couldn't stay like that. a confused kazutora looked at you who was crying and put down the chips. he didn't said a word, silently asking what's wrong.

"it's.. it's takemichi and mikey. and draken. tora, tora they're all.. gone"

the apartment fell silent that both of you could hear the water dripping from the kitchen sink. "they're.. gone? but, but that can't be?" he questioned while his own tears start sweeling up.

"tora they got into a fight. everyone, mikey and such. takemichi tried to save everyone but he couldn't and he died. im so sorry, i couldn't tell you because you would do something and i can't-"

"damn it y/n at least tell me something! you said mikey was fine EVERYONE WAS FINE"

"I DIDN'T WANTED YOU TO GO TO JAIL KAZUTORA"

again, the apartment was silent. both of you had fat tears rolling from your eyes.

"if they send you to juvie you can still come back. if you did something and they catch you they'll send you to jail, tora. i can't do that"

tears streaming down, kazutora hugged you and both of you cried so much that day. kazutora has plans to meet with everyone but he was too late. acknowledging that, kazutora hugged you tighter if that was possible and cried harder. you silently comforted him. it was painful enough that he lost keisuke but losing more of his friends will take a toll on him. he grew gloomy over the days but one morning he woke up extra early.

"can we visit them?" he said.

you drove him to visit keisuke's cemetery first. there, he placed fresh flowers and paid his respects while being on his knees. you waited him in the car while he took his time having chats with his late friend. he would occasionally, smiled to himself almost like his friend was there to smile with him. your heart physically ached. then, you drove him to the sano cemetery. you could see kazutora trying to keep the tears at bay but he totally lost it when he saw mikey's grave specifically besides shin's and emma's. he fell down on his knees and cried so much you could hear his sobs through the closed windows.

he had told you prior that you do not have to be with him, that he needed time alone to cry for his friends that have left him too soon. so, you stayed silently in the car while hearing to your boyfriend's pleas and why's. a lot of "why did you do it" or "why can't you just settle down". he placed another fresh flowers on their grave and broke down again. the pain was unbearable at one point kazutora wondered did it had to go this way? could he have prevented this in some way?

with guilt he cried some more. he cried some much that day, kazutora forgot how to breath and his oxygen supply suddenly felt restrained. upon visiting, draken and takemichi's grave he sat there about an hour to talk to them. you heard yellings but most of the yellings were his regrets not being there to protect them.

"takemichi you dumbass" you heard that a lot and he said the same words with different voice tones too. angry, sad, amused. kazutora couldn't bring forgiveness for himself, that he was a horrible friend. he started to knock his own head on the cemented floor and that was where you draw the line. you slammed the car doors shut and stopped him but didn't spoke. kazutora was grieving and mourning but that wasn't an excuse for him to do this to himself.

"he would hate it if you did that, you know? takemichi would cry if he knew you hurt yourself because of him. mikey and draken would tease you for that. keisuke would knock your head you know?" you mumbled softly in order to calm him down.

"that would be much better i wanna hear their voices again y/n why does this have to happen?" his voice was desperate, filled with pain.

"that's what life is kazutora, people would die for each other. they care for each other so much, it's so beautiful and reckless. i wish we all had more time but unfortunately they had to go. it's life kazutora, everyone leaves one day" you said while longingly stared at takemichi's grave. you stroked kazutora's yellow highlighted hair to calm his sobs. later that day, you both came home and kazutora plopped down on the sofa. you observed his face and saw tear stains. sighing, you took a seat on the floor. it's been a long emotional day. it's been hard for both of you. you informed chifuyu about everything and he said he would come that night to comfort him more. you would do anything to lift his grieves but this one particular grief might never leave.

[gmopotato]

My Shipping Journey

*as a child, me and my brother would scream and cower behind the sofa whenever there was a kiss on the tv *but whilst reading Juvenile Fiction Novels my brother could not see what happened in my mind *I still believed all girls were icky, however, as my brother accidentally taught me (it's not something he believes, just something I picked up from watching him in an unfortunate misunderstanding) *so I never openly got into shipping, but I would privately think, "hey, those two characters are prolly gonna have somethin happen" *I disguised it from myself, saying I was simply predicting where the story would go *but some stories didn't go there and I held on to those "predictions" nonetheless *enter my favorite shows

*Gravity Falls- enormous expectation subversion. I had never read a story where the main characters first crush wasn't his soulmate forever. Several months later I realized suddenly that Wendip would have been super illegal and creepy. I ended up with Dipcif being my final conclusion, although Roadside Attraction was a bonkers episode and confused me SO much. I actually thought Emma Sue was just weird enough to be a great addition to the main cast of the show... only to be completely emotionally destroyed in less than a minute. smh

*Phineas and Ferb- Act Your Age was a beautiful episode, and I would have cried if my brother hadn't been standing directly over my shoulder making gagging noises and pretending to vomit the entire freaking time. This is when I consciously realized that I had learned that all girls were icky from my brother, and I started to break out of that mindset and openly embrace shipping

*The Owl House- several stages happened here. First of them, Grom hit me like a sack of bricks, I never saw it coming, but over the next few months after that, Lumity cured my homophobia *Since Lumity was a thing, that left the other two main characters, Gus and Willow, as a pair as well, right? Right? Wrong. I was a fool and didn't realize Gus was 12. They literally have the exact same age gap as Dipper and Wendy and I fell for it AGAIN. I can't believe myself. *On Disney+, the show just cut off in the middle of season 2. I didn't realize this, though, and thought season 2 was just over on the episode where they introduced Vee. For several months Vee was my favoritest character ever and I would often forget that she even had a sister. I think Vee is my first official blorbo. Since I liked Vee so much, I wanted to ship her (as you do), and since I hadn't noticed the age gap between Gus and Willow yet, I shipped her with that new character who was probably gonna get a redemption arc soon, Hunter. This was my first ever noncanon ship that I knew was never ever gonna happen, which was pretty different from the prediction model I had used up to this point. This marks my transition to the blorbo model of shipping, where you ship characters because you like them, not necessarily because there's any evidence whatsoever. Since I ended up waiting several months for new episodes, I would spend a LOT of time thinking about this ship. I see how ridiculous it is NOW, of course, but it did get me to start calling Hunter by his name instead of passive aggressively calling him "golden boy"

*Amphibia- I started watching this while waiting for more Owl House episodes. Instantly fell in love with Maddie. Instant hardcore Spraddie fan the second they were onscreen together, I was SO into it. I still get annoyed looking at Sprivy, but I've learned to deal with it. Fricken' Ivy. Gosh darn. *I also shipped Marcanne. I very much thought it was going to be outright canon. But when Disney+ cut off with no explanation at the Christmas episode in season 3, I started seeing spoilers drop about stuff, and several little bits of people talking about Sashanne. I started to get a bit defensive about it

*but that's when I realized that the Owl House had also cut off in the middle of the season, and I was blown away that I hadn't realized it earlier. I mean, only ten episodes long, and the last episode really didn't FEEL like a finale, even though it introduced my favorite character ever. Then I checked it and realized that there were six more episodes *Any Sport in a Storm got me out of Hunter + V. I knew it was never gonna be canon, but I believed in it until it got disproven, and I grudgingly resigned to Huntlow as the ship the show was going to push *When The Owl House cut off again I knew this time that it wasn't the end of the season, and I was more wise about avoiding spoilers. I still have No Idea how I managed to go months without getting any when I thought I had finished the season

*Avatar the Last Airbender- whilst waiting for the next episodes, I finally found the time to watch Avatar. I had heard it was really good, I had just never seen it. This is what got me to think about shipping consciously, because it kept subverting my expectations over and over and just really beating me over the head with it. I got EVERY ship wrong in this show. Well, except Aang and Katara, that was spoiled for me before I started watching the show, but if it hadn't been I would have never seen it coming. Even though it's brought up in the very first episode. I'm usually bad at seeing age gaps, but this is the first time I've seen an age gap where there wasn't one. *Now here's the thing- I still used the prediction model for general use, and the blorbo model when I found a blorbo. So here are several predictions in ATLA that I made using the prediction model that freaking sucked: *Sokka and Suki? Ha! You think I'm gonna fall for that? clearly, they will never see each other again. I know that whoever Sokka's ACTUAL girlfriend is will end up turning into the moon, via spoilers! *promptly forgets that Suki exists* *Katara and Jet? Ha! Unlikely, given that Aang and Katara are gonna end up together! *Now Sokka and Tai Lee? That I can get behind! Tai Lee seems real nice, and I would like her to get a redemption arc. That would be real nice to see. *Apparently every girl wants to date Sokka, and I fell for it every time. I was real confused when Suki came back. *Zuko and Mei? Pfft, surely not! This show, thinking it can trick me into shipping this before the REAL ship is introduced later! Comical! *Briefly enters blorbo mode, tries to ship Toph with literally everyone, does not elaborate, leaves *Seriously, though, when Toph said "Sokka, you saved me!" and kissed Suki my brain blew up and somehow shipped two contradictory things at the same time and they were both wrong. "Welp, you can just let me drown now." *Zuko in Ba Sing Se. Goes on a date. I get absolutely enamored with the idea of a foreign prince from an tyrannical dictatorship running away and living life as a normal person and finding love in a tea shop owned by his uncle, and the girl that falls in love with him learns to see him as the person he is instead of the position his family and country put him in, and subsequently he learns to love himself that way too and honestly I loved this so much why the frick was it only in like a quarter of an episode and NEVER BROUGHT UP AGAIN I am so mad. This is when I realized that I am really bad at predicting where a show is going to go. Absolute garbage. I could not have been more wrong about this and it annoys me because I didn't realize until Zuko was dating Mei in season three and it happened OFF-SCREEN so I had NO WARNING and I'm just so salty. *Zuko and Katara. I knew it warn't gonna happen, but dang they really do have chemistry. This was brought up multiple times by the show, and I think they really should have gone that route instead of teasing it over and over. Aang looks like a baby compared to Katara. *Loved the show, I hear there's another one called Legend of Korra that I'll get around to watching eventually. I did not guess a single ship correctly in the entirety of ATLA

*Creates a tumblr account for the first time, after months of scrolling through r/tumblr

*Then I discovered that you can watch Disney shows for free on the internet at Disneynow.com, and it isn't piracy because it's owned by Disney. This was great, because now I could finish The Owl House and Amphibia, except for the finales because those weren't allowed for some reason. I got a youtube TV free trial for those *Labyrinth Runners frickin' beat me over the head again, and I was like "Oh, OF COURSE they wouldn't have anything resembling a straight ship in this show" and I legit thought that I'd been tricked once again and the show WASN'T gonna push Huntlow, it was gonna push Hunter + Gus instead. (Reminder, I did not know that Gus was 12. Apparently I just struggle with age gaps) *I saw the episodes that were getting people to talk about Sashanne, and they made me SO MAD. How DARE Sasha step in when Marcy is out of commission like that! Who does she think she is?! *Finishes both shows, mildly surprised to see that Amphibia didn't have canon ships in the end, but happy for Olivia and Yunan. Briefly wonder, during the finale, if Sasharcy could be a thing

*Finally able to look at the fandoms for my favorite shows, because I have finished the shows and the fandoms won't spoil anything for me anymore *Realize that Gus is 12 *Realize that Marcanne and Sashanne were never in competition with each other and that most people ship Sashannarcy *seeing Huntlow fanart converted me to Winter, and I ship it with the same ferocity I shipped Hunter + Vee in that period of months when I thought season 2 was over *Sashannarcy still feels a bit odd to me, but I can now ship Marcanne, Sashanne, and Sasharcy interchangeably on a dime. *still pissed about Sprivy

[ouatsnark]

CaptainSwan is Toxic aka When SQ takes stuff out of context

I’m taking up the torch of debunking more stupid hate directed toward Emma & Killian. Especially since one of them just recently sent me a blog post claiming CaptainSwan is more toxic than Swanqueen. No. No it isn’t.

And since SwanQueen claims the two of them were in love in S1... and since they use Villain Hook and Dark Hook ... I’m including times Regina was still full on villain.

Claim 1

Hook [to Emma, before leaving her in a cage to starve and die] This is a symbol. Something that was once magical, full of hope, possibility... Now look at it. Dried up, dead, useless... much like you. The time for making deals is done, just as I'm done... with you.

Villain Hook. They weren’t together & she’d just betrayed him. No one is claiming that they fell in love, true love, at first sight.

Also you wanna talk about how Regina destroyed Emma’s entire childhood and tried to murder her? NEXT

Claim 2

Hook [to Emma, while entrapping her on the floor] Normally, I prefer to do other more enjoyable activities with a woman on her back. With my life on the line, you've left me no choice. When I jab you with my sword, you’ll feel it.

And more villain Hook before they were together. Yeah he was being a cocky arse trying to throw her off balance. If he’d said this after his redemption and while they were together then I’d listen. But as for right now?

You wanna talk about Regina ordering a man to her bed chambers & actually committing sexual assault on him for 28 years?

Wanna talk about Regina’s line y’all salivate over “Now how to get the savior to taste my forbidden fruit?” - Regina plotting murder. NEXT

Claim 3

Snow [to Hook]  You’re a pirate. You know which way the wind blows, and, right now, it is gusting towards us.

Hook, while licking his lips suggestively  I see where your daughter got her gumption.

OMG a man flirting with a woman. The horror.

Wanna talk about how Regina tried to seduce David which would’ve been rape if she’d succeeded? NEXT

Claim 4

Hook  *violently pushes Emma out of the way so he can stab Rumplestiltskin*

I love the violently part. Adds an extra touch there. LOL. Yeah he shoved her. He’s made it clear no one stands between him and his revenge on Rumple. He was an evil villain. Also... they still weren’t together.

Wanna talk about when Regina punched Emma? OUT OF JEALOUSY!?

Want to talk about the time Regina choked Emma?

How about that time she threw Emma down her walkway? NEXT

Claim 5

Hook [to Emma, as they climb the beanstalk]  You know, most men would take your silence as off-putting, but I love a challenge.

Emma  I'm concentrating.

Hook  No, you're afraid. Afraid to talk, to reveal yourself, to trust me. Things will be a lot smoother if you do.

OH GOSH THE HORROR! He’s speaking to her. I just... wow. WOW.

Wanna talk about how Regina used the dagger while Emma begged her not to as she tried to force Emma to reveal something to her that Emma didn’t want to talk to Regina about? NEXT

Claim 6

David [to Hook]  You're here for Emma. And let me tell you something. You’re never gonna get her. I’ll see to that.

Hook  It’s a good thing you’re gonna to die then.

Yep he was being an ass. But it’s also not abuse. And Hook tried to warn David against revealing what had happened because he knew David wasn’t ready to tell his secret nor did he want to take credit.

Wanna talk about how Regina plotted to murder Emma and her family? NEXT

Claim 7

Emma [to Hook, after saving David's life]  Thank you.

Hook, while tapping his lips suggestively  Um... Perhaps gratitude is in order now.

Emma  That's what the "thank you" was for.

Hook  That's all your father's life is worth to you?

OH THE HORROR MORE FLIRTING! Just admit it that you hate men and move on. Y’all usually claim that this is him forcing her... where’s the forcing? He’s TEASING. Emma decides to give into her desires and she kisses him of her own free will. Stop trying to remove Emma’s agency as if she can’t think for herself.

Want to talk about how Regina demanding thanks after hurting Emma with the dagger? Wanna talk about how Regina demanded they all accept her into the group the moment she decided to stop murdering so she could get a happy ending? She thought that should be enough after her decades of abuse when it wasn’t. NEXT

Claim 8

Hook [to Emma]  When I win your heart, Emma, and I will win it, it will not be because of any trickery. It will be because you want me.

Emma  This isn't a contest, Hook.

Hook  Isn't it? You're gonna have to choose, Emma. You realize that, don't you? Because neither one of us is gonna give up.

Oh gosh it’s a 300 year old pirate declaring his intentions. EVERYONE RUN! He’s very clearly stating that he isn’t going to deceive her. That he has a code. That he wouldn’t let a man die just to have her... because he wants her to want him of her own free will. He is, after all, in this for the long haul. And he meant it.

Wanna talk about the times Regina blackmailed Emma with the dagger into saving Robin’s life when Emma could have fallen into darkness forever? NEXT

Claim 9

Hook [to Emma]  Don't take this the wrong way, but I'm glad to hear that.

Emma  You're glad to hear I had my heart broken?

Hook  If it can be broken, it means it still works.

He’s talking about her walls. He’s happy she hasn’t completely walled her heart off again to where she doesn’t feel a thing. He’s happy she hasn’t completely retreated.

Wanna talk about how Regina made Emma doubt her capabilities and told her “seems like the savior needs saving these days”? NEXT

Claim 10

Hook [to Emma] If I didn’t know any better, I’d say you’re trying to get me drunk, which is usually my tactic.

OMG IT IS A MAN FLIRTING WITH A WOMAN WHOSE FLIRTING WITH HIM! Someone call 911!

Now this one I know is accompanied by haters of Killian Jones claiming he’s boasting to Emma that he’s a serial rapist. Which is absurd. It’s even more absurd to believe that’s the case and that Emma wouldn’t react to it.

Does he sleep with a lot of women? MAYBE. He talks a big game but we’ve only ever seen him care deeply for two women and we’ve seen him pay off a pre-paid hooker when his heart was wrapped around Emma Swan’s finger even though she was in a different realm and he’d likely never see her again.

Regina slept with a lot of men and raped one for 28 years. She’s the only rapist here but hey lets delve deeper into this.

1) We see him matching Emma drink for drink (or so he thinks). He thinks she’s as drunk as he is. We see him drinking with other females. The show portrays him as someone who likes to drink and drink with other people. This is not a crime. He DOES NOT say he remains sober and gets women drunk. In fact...

2) Women and too drunk for sex while I’m sober is not in that line and is not what is being portrayed.

3) An off handed comment like this is not an admission of rape nor does it equal rape.

4) We see Killian walking away from Milah when they first met. We see Killian give Emma a couple of chances to back out. He isn’t forcing anything.

5) He paid off a pre-paid hooker... to be honest ... if the show wanted to portray him as a rapist they did a pretty lousy job.

You can’t use your opinion or your own twisting of words or inserting your own meaning into them as canon proof something happened. It’s only canon if the author has shown it to us. And the only canon rapists on Once Upon a Time are Regina, Zelena, Gothel and likely Rumple and depending on how you view statutory rape... Neal.

Claim 11

Hook [to Emma, while grabbing her and unwantedly pressing her to him]  What do you say we set sail? Come back with me for a nightcap.

Emma  *tries to wiggle free from Hook's grip*

Hook  Or shall I find someone else?

Oh look it’s him giving her an out! And unwantedly? The woman is flirting with him and even has her hand on his leg. Give me a freakin break. Never mind that he backs down. 

Wanna talk about Regina’s unwanted sexual advances on him in the Enchanted Forest? Again, Regina has actually committed assault. She’s punched Emma, even. And tortured her. NEXT

Claim 12

Emma  The Snow Queen came here looking for blondes. There’s a lot more than just me.

Hook  Don’t I know it.

Uh yeah he went looking for her in New York? I... ok.. whatever

Wanna talk about how Regina wouldn’t let Emma leave Storybrooke alive & ended up nearly killing Henry? Or that time said “I should know better than to trust blondes?” NEXT

Claim 13

Hook [to Emma, as she tries to adjust her corset, which reveals some cleavage]  Your discomfort is a cross I’m willing to bear.

Oh dear goodness how do we survive in a world where men flirt with women! This is also not abuse nor toxic. You guys are perfectly fine with two women enjoying how the other looks but oh goodness help us if its a man! Also, context. He knows she needs to be disguised so people won’t remember her which is important as it could change everything. Her discomfort is necessary, unfortunately.

You want to talk about how Regina didn’t give a damn about how Emma was feeling over Henry being kidnapped? She threw it back in her face. NEXT

Claim 14

Hook  *unwantedly kisses Emma without permission*

Emma [to a police officer]  This is the guy. The one who assaulted me.

Hook  It was a kiss.

Emma  There. He confessed.

Are we going to accuse Snowing of toxicity next? ::crickets:: Yeah figured. OK so yes, Killian Jones attempted a True Love’s Kiss and it failed because Emma Swan didn’t remember who he was. And she punched him for it. Honestly, good for her! Good for Snow too. However, intent matters. He wasn’t kissing her to gain something for himself or to intentionally cause her pain. He wasn’t doing it out of violence or maliciousness. He even had reason to hope that she felt as he did because she kissed him passionately, called on him for help and encouraged him to think of her every day. If he were to try this on Belle or Ariel or even Snow who never showed any romantic interest in him then this would be a totally different story. But he was trying to make Emma remember who she was so she could return with him to save her family. The show was intentionally paralleling Snowing here.

You wanna talk about how Regina decided to murder Emma’s wish parents in front of her and cause her emotional pain and distress to the point where she was crying her eyes out and begging for mercy? NEXT

Claim 15

Hook  *unwantedly follows Emma around despite her numerous attempts to let him know she isn't interested*

This one is actually complete BULLSHIT since Emma called on him numerous times for help and even asked him to watch Henry. She was most definitely interested as she met with him in the cafe and everything.

Wanna talk about the time that Emma followed Regina around trying to be her friend and Regina threw it back in her face and made Emma feel like she was a bigger villain than Regina for SAVING A WOMAN’S LIFE? NEXT

Claim 16

Hook [to Emma]  Swan. Don't make a man drink alone.

Emma, while trying to walk away from Hook  Not in the mood for a drink or a man.

Hook  *unwantedly goes after Emma* *uses his hook to turn Emma to face him* *unwantedly kisses Emma without permission again*

Are you guys for real? She’d kissed him three times now and pulled away. He has every right to ask her what is wrong. And stopping her is not abuse. Also, he did not kiss her without permission. She’d just said she was scared of losing him and then she kissed him back and put her arms around him.

You wanna talk about Regina throwing Emma down the driveway? NEXT

Claim 17

Hook [to Emma]  Shall I order us some drinks?

Emma  Not tonight.

Hook, while giving Emma a predatory look  Why, love? You a bit worried you'll find me even more irresistible after a few libations?

Oh. oh no. He’s flirting again. WHAT ARE WE TO DO! Not a crime. Not abuse.

Wanna talk about how Regina tried to ply Emma with alcohol to make her talk about Killian leaving and Emma opening up to the bar tender instead? NEXT.

Claim 18

Emma  *tries to go after Regina*

Hook  *forcefully grabs Emma's arm to stop her*

Oh so pretty much every time he touches her is abuse? BULL SHIT. Also he says “nothing good ever comes from pushing that woman” (meaning Regina).

Wanna talk about that time Regina refused to listen to Emma about Henry and instead accused her of being jealous? NEXT

Claim 19

Emma  *tells everybody to stay away from her due to unstable magic*

Hook  *forcefully grabs Emma's arm anyway*

Oh my goodness heaven forbid he wants her to know he isn’t afraid of her ... Heaven forbid he show concern. Heaven forbid he wants her to know that she she doesn’t have to face this alone....

Where was Regina during this? Banging a dying woman’s husband & ignoring calls about Henry. NEXT

Claim 20

Hook [to Emma]  I liked you the way you were. I liked your walls. I liked being the one to break them down.

Yeah that’s a sad scene. Also it’s not abuse to try and help someone through the pain of the past. It’s actually the opposite.

Wanna talk about how Regina screamed at her “you don’t get to act that way with me after what you’ve done!” As if Regina herself hasn’t done much much much worse but yet here she is acting self righteous with Emma? NEXT

Claim 21

Hook  *threatens to jump off a roof while calling Emma's name to force her to appear and save him*

Yeah not abuse. Not under these circumstances which he was trying to get her to open up to him and tell him the truth. Dark CaptainSwan was not the healthiest but also wasn’t who they were outside of the darkness. If we were talking a show without magic and darkness then we could talk... context matters guys!

Wanna talk about how Regina yelled at Emma for saving her life in that fire? NEXT

Claim 22

Emma [to Hook]  This is who I am now. Why can't you accept that? Why can't anyone accept that?

Hook  Because this isn't you.

Not abuse. They’re both struggling with her being the dark one. He’s struggling even more since his arch enemy was also consumed by that evilness...   the evilness was inside the man that took his heart to control him. And Dark Swan wasn’t Emma, either, not completely. She made a few choices our Emma wouldn’t have (like making Zelena the dark one and killing her).

Wanna talk about how Regina called Emma “stupid” and a “problem” and insisted she was going to destroy light magic? NEXT

Claim 23

Emma [to Hook]  Do you love me? If you tell me you don't love me, I will let you go.

Hook  I loved you.

He actually apologized for this and you have to look at the problem behind it: Emma is consumed by the same darkness that took his first love and set him on a path of misery.

Wanna talk about how Regina claimed Emma ruined her life and never had her back when Emma saved her from a mob? Twice? NEXT

Claim 24- Dark Hook BS

insert all of the quotes said by Dark Hook

Literally he was consumed by darkness that was fueling his rage. Killian Jones did not say this to Emma Swan. Dark Hook said it to Dark Swan. There is a difference between our Killian and the Killian consumed by evil.

Regina was never consumed by evil. Yet she told Emma “I want to hurt you. I want you to see how pointless you are.” NEXT

Claim 25

Hook  *attempts to murder Emma’s son and entire family*

While consumed by ultimate evil and he was able to overcome that evil and instead sacrificed himself.

Regina has attempted the same. In fact, half of her tried again in S6 and Regina let Snowing face her other half... Emma could have lost her parents again and Regina did nothing. NEXT

Claim 26

Hook  *insults Emma's son when he was just trying to help*

People get frustrated and lose their temper. If this had happened more than once I’d agree but it didn’t. No one is claiming anyone is perfect.

Wanna talk about the many many many times Regina has insulted Emma, her parents, friends and her boyfriend? Cause I’ve got the receipts! She downright bullies them and is quite the ableist when it comes to Killian’s handicap. NEXT.

Claim 27

Hook [to Emma]  Are you really that desperate to avoid talking to me?

Emma  I'm not avoiding you. It's just... I need to be alone.

Hook  What the hell is going on with you?

Emma  Nothing.

Hook  You can lie to everyone else, but you can't lie to me.

Emma  It's fine. I already asked you once to go.

Hook  Right. Fine. No need to ask again.

Not abuse. Also, he listens to her request and walks away.. he waits for her to come to him.

Wanna talk about the time Regina said Emma was giving her a head ache? NEXT

Claim 28

Emma [to Hook]  I have an appointment with Archie.

Hook  Ah, you're still gonna see the cricket? I'm impressed.

Emma  Did you think I was gonna back out?

Hook  Well, you know, being vulnerable isn't exactly your strong suit.

What? It’s wrong to be proud of someone whose seeking help? When you know that person has a tendency to bottle it up and try to face it on their own?

Wanna talk about how Regina’s jealous rage caused Emma to be an orphan? NEXT

Claim 29

Hook  *ignores Emma's plea for Archie not to reveal her secret in fron of her family and urges him to reveal it*

HAH this is more on Regina than it is on Killian since it was Regina’s evil half in disguise. The EQ is still Regina. She isn’t consumed by darkness. So.

Never mind that it isn’t a crime to be concerned for someone when something is clearly wrong. Killian asks. So does Henry. Emma grants their request. NEXT

Claim 30

The issues with CaptainSwan lying about her visions, the scissors and Killian not revealing his secret

Yes people lie to each other. Emma was lying to protect them. She says that. She was afraid of losing them. And Killian has every right to be upset that she isn’t confiding in him. A huge difference between his frustration & Regina’s  is that Regina belittles Emma.... Killian does not. He doesn’t call her names, attack her ideas or call her stupid.

Not abuse and not toxic either. More like human.

About David’s father... If he was lying to hurt her then I’d understand but he wasn’t. He had fully intended to tell her about David’s father but couldn’t when he saw how happy she was. That secret literally ate him alive and he made the wrong choice. But we see the guilt, the remorse, the anger at himself... He owned that. Which is so very important.

He also did not abandon Emma without telling her... yes, he’d almost done so because he was so blinded by guilt that he thought it was what he needed to do... he’d seen how wrong he was and was on his way back to her to make everything right when he was pushed through a portal. Big difference there.

Lets talk about how Regina never owned murdering Graham even though Emma counts him as love lost? NEXT

Claim 31

Emma, when we met, there was just one thing that mattered to me... getting my revenge. You showed me that a heart full of love was the most precious treasure of all, and one that I don't intend to lose.

Hook, 15 minutes earlier  *attacks Rumplestiltskin while his back is turned to him* *vows to take revenge on Rumplestiltskin*—

Oh noes. Oh noes. Oh how dare he try to stop a man that’s trying to kill them all.. again! How dare he take up for Emma against an evil villain! You all act like Rumple is an innocent man... he was betraying them. He was threatening Emma. 

Wanna talk about how when Rumple threatened Emma & Robin, Regina ripped out an innocent woman’s heart and used her for blackmail? NEXT

CONCLUSION:

I think there’s this misconception that people need to be perfect and if they aren’t they’re toxic. When it comes to CaptainSwan the human aspect is removed and instead the focus is on a single moment instead of the whole picture.

The truth is CaptainSwan hit a literal dark patch in their relationship when they were both consumed by darkness. But that isn’t who they were. They both made mistakes but they’ve both apologized for it. Which is important. Even more importantly, Killian Jones and Emma Swan worked through their differences and in the end stood strong about their belief in each other. They were there to support one another. Killian always put her first. Emma was always ready to see the best in him. They did make each other better.

The truth is that Regina was never a good person even after she stopped killing people. In fact, she stopped killing for purely selfish gain and not to make things right. She joined Team Hero so that she could have her happy ending. She never once mentions the pain she caused her victims, even to Snowing when they lose their daughter a second time. It’s always all about her and her pain and her happiness. Regina’s sarcasm, insults and rudeness reflects how she sees herself as far superior to Emma and the others. She was a constant bully throughout all 6 seasons and not for just a few episodes like Dark Hook or when he was a villain. That’s the difference. She blamed everyone else for her bad choices. She stole Emma’s agency, used the dagger on her and tortured her. Then demanded thanks. Regina actually destroyed Emma’s childhood and has said she doesn’t regret it. Regina murdered a man Emma cared for and never told her.

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[faithfulcat111]

Alright guy, we've reached the Hatchetfield era of shows. Note: I tried to do Movies, Musicals, and Me, but I just don't care for that show. Clark was the only good part. I loved him. So we are just moving forward. Starting with TGWDLM act 1. Favourite bits under the cut:

Jaimie's voice

The choreography in this opening song

Mariah's voice

This song is so fun the first time you hear it, but so creepy the more and more you hear it

'Where the fuck is he?' 'I have no fucking clue.' Jeff's face *shrugs* 'The guy just doesn't like musicals!'

The costume for Mr. Davidson

Jon just walking on stage with his chair at the end of the song.

Robert and Lauren then calling him a piece of shit with zero reaction

I have so much headcannons about Melissa for someone that only has two lines, I love her. But what is with the softball league girl

Charlotte putting the cigeratte away just to pull out a flask.

'The touring production of Mama Mia!' 'Wow, she'll like that just as much as Hamilton.'

'She thinks you're cool! Maybe you can talk me up a bit? Let her know her old dad is pretty cool too.' 'Bill, no.' 'You got other plans?' 'No.'

'You going to Beanies?' 'Yeah.' 'You didn't invite me.'

Okay, Ted is someone I would hate in real life, but I love his character.

LATTEE HOTTEE

'Oh my gosh so mean!' *flips him off*

*slowly backing off-stage* 'I have very low blood sugar.'

'I've been brewing up your coffee!'

'You meant this just for me. I don't have to split this with anyone?' 'Oh no, that's for you. I don't give a shit about them.'

Paul is trying so hard to flirt with Emma

'Excuse me!' Paul and Emma's faces as Hot Chocolate Boy comes back onstage. (I also have so many hc's about him)

'Oh shoot, I forgot about Bill's carmel frappe. Ah, fuck Bill.'

Greenpeace girl and Homeless guy saying hi to each other

'You know that money you're raising? You know how much of it actually goes to the turtles?' 'Well, none of it. I just made that up.' 'That's right none!'

'Zoey, you need a ride?' 'In your shitty car? I'd rather not crash and die, thanks.'

Okay, I love how they quickly flash between the different characters in this scene.

Wait, did Joey switch pants between Ted and Smoke Club guy? I backed up to check and he did! Damn, I knew Mariah and Lauren and Jaimie all changed here, but they put clothes on over top of what they were wearing and entered where they exited. Joey had to put a shirt and hat on, change pants, and get to the other side of the stage. 62 seconds, actually plenty of time. Still impressive.

Peanuts!!!

'That was interesting...' *Smoke Club girl and Hcb doing a leap spin* 'That seems like a lot.'

Paul having some sort of weird rivalry with Greenpeace girl

Greenpeace girl giving herself a high-five when Paul wouldn't.

Homeless guy's whole verse for La Dee Dah Dah Day (also this is way more tragic after Nightmare Time, but ignoring that right now)

Paul trying to crawl out the spinning circle of singing people

'Lights down, quick change, quick change.' *all the others running off stage already removing costume pieces, leaving Paul*

'Charlotte, you got enough coffee in the sugar?'

'Like a flash mob?' 'Yeah, what else could it have been?' 'Did you get a video of it?' 'No.' 'Fucking useless, Paul.'

Ted accidentally outing that he knew Charlotte's husband didn't come home last night and trying to cover.

These guys came so close to figuring stuff out before Melissa called Paul into Mr. Davidson's office

The whole of What Do You Want, Paul?

Jeff is is so unhinged during this (and Jon is trying so hard not to laugh at some points)

'Get my wife on the phone for me.' 'Mr. Davidson, I think I should leave.' 'No Paul, I want you to hear this. If you leave, you're fired.'

'I want to go home!'

'HELLO! PLEASE I JUST WANT A BLACK COFFEE!' 'Black coffee, I'm your coffee gal-' 'NO!!!'

Emma's expression not changing from utterly done for the entire tip song

Cup of Poisoned Coffee is so good

'Well, how the hell am I supposed to pop out of a trashcan and not scare the shit out of you?'

'We were just at Beanies!' 'YOU DIDN'T INVITE ME!'

'Paul, get in a trashcan. You, beat it.' 'Uh, fuck you.'

Robert making siren noises

Ted knocking Sam out with a trashcan lid (actually the choreography here at the end chasing everyone around is good. I wish i could see the whole thing at once to track everyone and there is a gap from different filming days, which annoys me)

'His brain fell out!' 'Well, put it back then!' 'I don't know how, I'm not a doctor!' 'Charlotte, look at that. That's not his brain! It's blue!' 'Well, how do you know, you're not a doctor either!'

'I am a presbyterian, I'm not going to die in your dirty-ass methodist church.'

'These are my friends! This is Paul and them.'

'What on earth does that look like to you?' 'I don't know, some kind of blue shit?' 'Exactly, Emma! What the fuck is this shit?'

'You bet your ass we got booze.'

The whole kick your head scene

'Could be worse. Could be dying in Clivesdale.'

'Fucking Timberwolves! We hated you guys.' 'We hated ourselves!'

Jaimie holding that note at the beginning of Join Us and Die

Actually her voice through this whole song

Ted's expressions during this song

Also him picking up a chair to fight the aliens

Hidgins just coming out with a shotgun

'Sing the beginning of Moana!' *cocks gun and points it at the others*

Bill singing The Circle of Life instead and Paul's expression when they realize.

'Alright, that was terrible.'

[t-lostinworlds]

The Devil All The Time: A Review That No One Asked For

Well, I don’t know why I’ve been putting this off but here I am 48 hours later. Though the fact that I’m still thinking about the movie two days later is proof how long it stays with you right after you watch it. By all means, I’m not an expert reviewer aha so this maybe all over the place but: It is a good movie. It wasn’t perfect of course, the flow could’ve been a tad bit better, and the narrator threw me off sometimes, a few missing bits in terms of the characters but it’s still good nonetheless. I do want to point out that the movie wasn’t as dark and brutal as how the book went. It wasn’t a graphic or gore as I’d expected it because some critics did overplay it. So, if you’ve read the book, the movie will come off as a much lighter tone. Also, if you watched GoT, then you’ll be fine with the gore. But with that said, there are still triggering scenes so people should still be mindful when watching. A couple of changes but that’s a given with every book adaptation but there were a few that I thought was better in the movie than in the book, which I will get more into in a sec because I’ll try and keep this other half spoiler free.

The visuals, the cinematography, it was beautiful. I loved how everything looked on screen, scenery, colors, lighting, the whole lot. The music and the little added touches of sound effects was just so spot on that you just feel more on edge as the movie goes, like little ticks here and there. Now, the cast, whew. Nobody fell short with their performance. Some might have smaller screen times than others but still, nobody was lackluster or pushed to the side and they gave their best with the material they were given. Although, I may be biased but from what I’ve been seeing around I think we can all agree that Tom Holland struck out the most (I’ll gush about him more under the cut aha).

Long babbling short, I loved it. Right after I finished watching, it truly did feel like I went running lol, like I got so into it that those last few moments (or every intense scene for that matter) that it had me at the edge of my seat. But I also wanted to watch it again soon after. It may not be for everyone’s taste, although I am interested to see what the people who haven’t read the book thought of it because I do see how it can come off confusing in some parts. I already knew what was going to happen and some background on why it happened so it was easy for me to fill in the missing pieces. But with that said, it’s still a good adaptation and it stayed as true as it can get to the books. 8.5/10 would recommend watching, with caution of course.

a more detailed (specific scenes, characters, actors performance, and more) rambling below the cut aka spoilers ahead!!

I’m going to start off with Willard Russell who was played so well by Bill Skarsgård. I haven’t seen anything else of his before but he was so good in this movie. His interaction with Haley Bennett's character Charlotte was different from the book but I'm not mad on how it played out in the movie either. It was a cute and a little awkward interaction which was all good. Charlotte is exactly how I thought of her, a sweet, beautiful, caring lady and Haley played her just as well. Especially with the scene where she and Arvin were singing together, that was just the sweetest thing.

But back to Willard (Bill) and all his interaction with little Arvin (who was also so great btw), it was just damn. For one, in the truck after he beat the living daylights out of those men, that switch of him being out of breath and angry and him teaching Arvin about those bullies and finding the right time and him saying, "there's a lot of no good sons of b*tches out there." to when Arvin asked him if it was more than a hundred and he chuckled as if he didn't almost just killed a man? And then suddenly he was back to this loving father who cares so much about his family and would anything to protect and defend them (sounds familiar right? Apple doesn't fall far from the tree.) Although I will say that Willard is a much horrible person in the book than he was in the film. The prayer log could've gotten more… bloody and gross as time passed by. And the thing with Jack Russell (Arvin's dog, who wasn't actually a jack russell but oh well), they changed it so that he was with them longer so it did have more weight if you put it that way since Arvin has grown to love Jack, so killing him off screen was still going to be heart breaking. But in the book, it was a stray dog that wandered into their place and Arvin fed him, named him but on the same day, as soon as Willard got home he shot the dog right in front of Arvin. Now that would've been much crueler and could've showed just how far gone Willard is with his whole "faith" and how desperate he was on saving his wife who he's so in love with but damn, the things love can make people do. Or, they could've added the part where Willard killed the lawyer and poured his blood on the prayer log because that for me was a turning point in the book where I went, Willard has lost his freakin mind with the sacrifices. They did show the lawyer in the movie that's why I was a bit confused when it didn't happen but you can't cram anymore into a 2-hour movie. To conclude, this movie made me want to watch more of Bill for sure, but I'm too scared to watch IT (im a coward) so looking forward to what he does in the future.

Next I want to talk about are Helen, Roy and Theodore. Mia Wasikowska was great. She had so little screen time but whenever you see her on screen she just embodies Helen so well. Helen didn't have much to do in the book either aside from the fact that she was supposed to marry Willard and then didn't because Willard went off with Charlotte and Helen went to marry Roy which was kind of the starting to point as to why everything in their life has gone to hell, and then be a sweet mother to Lenora. But besides that, Mia gave her best and served the character well in my opinion. Theodore on the other hand could've done so so much more. Given that he was the driving force that made Roy kill Helen. If ever I haven't read the book, it would’ve look rather random how suddenly he wanted to try resurrection. Roy and Theodore's relationship could've been explained more, specifically Theo's feelings because that was why he pushed Roy to do it. Now, Harry Melling as Roy Laferty was great. The scene with the spiders and then the emotions you see in his face and his eyes when he tried to resurrect Helen? Remarkable. The slow realization that it wasn't working, the shift on his face was so clear and that momene where it crosses his mind that he just killed his wife it was just, Dudley Dursley who? Though his death came earlier than I expected, and they changed quite a lot and it felt so random how he just left Theo in the car and went on a hitchhike when in the book, Theo died first that's why Roy decided to try and go back to his daughter. But his death scene was still intense, and the fact that his last word was Lenora? His daughter? Amazing.

So, now we see Carl and Sandy Henderson, who showed immediately how crazy they were when they killed Roy (who wasn't their first kill but). Both Riley Keough and Jason Clarke were fantastic, and they really did bring the uneasiness so well on screen. And I love how you can actually see how Sandy change from the first time we see her to the last, like it looked like Sandy was played by two different actresses so huge props to Riley for smashing that role from innocent sweet girl to this troubled serial killer. Although I wished their story was showed better, more so Carl than Sandy because out of the two, Carl was much, much sicker in the head than Sandy. He was the one who'd constantly look at those horrible photos and do…stuff, which was so sooo gross to read I feel sick just thinking about it. But Jason Clarke did a great job at portraying Carl's creepiness as much as he could, like I couldn't bear looking at him on screen without grimacing.

Lee Bodecker. Sebastian Stan did a great job a making him insufferable that's for sure. I always love how the moment Lee is on screen Seb is just gone. He just never failed to feel like this weird and corrupt cop or sheriff. Although I will say, his and Sandy's relationship could've been showed better because I have seen where people didn't realize they were siblings until the end. But I do like how you see that Lee doesn't really care that much for Sandy, I mean he does, but not as much. His mind has always been about being re-elected and having these stories about Sandy won't make him look good does it? Though his emotions in the end when he was in that car with Sandy was really spot on.

Emma and Earskell, I won't really dive into much because there's really isn't much to say than they were both great. They both made Arvin and Lenora feel like they do have a family and that they weren't alone, like they just came off as kind people on screen. But gosh Emma, that woman deserves a proper vacation for everything that she's went through. But Lenora, oh gosh, her story and how it ended was the most painful to read and watch. She was just a sweet innocent girl who got bullied and she deserved none of that. Eliza Scanlen was just wow. I loved her in Little Women, loved her even more on here as well. And her chemistry with Arvin (Tom) in the movie was just amazing, like they bounced of each other so well and you can see with just one look how much she admires Arvin. But the last scene where you can see her face, that split moment when she paused and then slowly smiled as she thought how her grandma won't be ashamed, and that she will take care of her baby and give it the life that it deserves but then she slipped and that made the scene even more heart wrenching. Let me tell, I screamed "Nooooo!" when I read it in the book and I screamed just as loud when I saw it on screen despite already knowing how it ends.

That f*cking rev. tergaryen what's his face. I couldn’t stand him in the book couldn’t stand him just as much in the movie which says a lot on how great of an actor Robert Pattison is. Each time he's on screen I emotionally and physically just can't stand him. Mind you I watched all his scenes with the Reaster girl and his wife with a proper scowl and kept looking away. But his scene with Lenora in the car I was peeking through my fingers because I can't sit and watch it fully because it was just so disgusting to watch. Robert Pattison played him so well that even his voice was just so creepy like dude, shut up. And when he was manipulating Lenora, rambling about his freakin delusions? Ugh I really wanted to punch the screen, big kudos to Rob for bringing that disgusting character to life. And well, I'll say he did get what he deserved in the end so.

Last but definitely not the least, Tom Holland as Arvin Russell. Gosh, where do I even start with this lad? This boy has range I can tell you that. I'm going to be talking so much about him so haha sorry but he was just amazing and I need to point out so many things. First scene was his birthday, and you can see how he seemed like just a normal, happy boy celebrating with the people the he loves but the moment Uncle Earskell handed the gun and mentioned that it was his father, his whole mood changes, his whole face fell and the look in Tom's EYES, his eyes does so much to portray his emotions and goodness he's so freakin amazing at switching from one emotion to another in so little time. To be honest, Arvin in the book is much more cold and harsh, even when it's towards Lenora and his Grandma. Hell, he makes sly digs at Lenora in the book which is more of a way to make her see how cruel the world is, sorta a tough love kinda of thing. He's just not that affectionate, with how he grew up, it's a given.

But Tom brought so much more depth to the character that even I didn't see as much while reading the book. Which is why people are so drawn to him, it makes him easier to sympathize and like in the movie, all because Tom added even more layers (i need my onion emoji dammit). I mean, Arvin is complex as is in the book, a lot colder for sure, but with how Tom portrayed him you just get to think so much more on what could possibly be going on in Arvin's head. You can just see all sorts of emotions the character goes through, from being rash, to angry, to hatred, to fear, to sadness, to vulnerability and these emotions happen so close to each other that the switch is just incredibly impressive. When he charged towards those bullies to protect Lenora? This is where you can see that when he's filled with rage, he sometimes doesn't think things through. It was three against one with guys much bigger than him, it was obvious he was never going to win but he still did so anyway because he loved Lenora, he'd do anything to protect and avenge her, why? It's what his father taught him. It's what he saw when he was a kid, that no matter if it’s a violent act, he'll do it for the people that he loves. Like i said in the beginning, the apple doesn’t fall far from the tree.

There so much like father like son moments in this film, which didn't even come off forced because I've seen in an interview where Bill and Tom read their lines together despite not having a scene together and oh did it pay off because you can see a little bit of the Willard you see on the first bit of the movie in Arvin all throughout, which is again, a testament to how great these actors are. Also, Tom's scenes together with Eliza are just wow. It's incredible how much they contrast each other but still be connected in a way, like Lenora is this sweet innocent girl who's kind hearted and is willing to forgive her father for whatever he could've done while Arvin, gosh, every mention of his father his face always falls stoic and it's so amazing to see Tom play that emotion so well with so little movement like a clench of his jaw or his eyes. Their relationship was just so wholesome. Even with that scene in the meat shop where Arvin was teasing his grandma, it was such a sweet moment to see that side of him because in the book, the interaction was just plain he said, she said which I interpreted as being nothing more than a casual conversation but in the movie it was more light-hearted which is so interesting given the a few moments later, you see Arvin's rage again and he was already in fight mode when that preacher insulted Emma's cooking (which was a so not okay that freakin imbecile) which again, slowly opens the doors to how far Arvin will go for the sake of protecting and avenging the ones he love. Also, the fact that they changed who found Lenora's body to Arvin instead of Earskell was far better. My heart freakin broke for that boy when he was screaming as he tried to keep her up in hopes that he could still save her. Thomas Stanley Holland man, that scene was just wow, it was a lot to take in. But that change only added as to how he was going to handle the preacher later in the movie.

What did impress me the most was the quick switch Tom makes with his emotions. First off, that moment with those bullies. He was relentless with how he handled them, just full on anger and hatred like when he beat those boys best believe I kept flinching because it looked painful as hell. And then he says, "I'll kill you." (with that thunder sound which was a really nice touch), and this is where you just see how he's someone you shouldn't mess with who can potentially do so much more damage (which he does). But the moment he gets in his car and closes the door? You see nothing but a kid who's downright scared of what he just did, he knew it was somewhat wrong, like he couldn't actually believe he did that in the first place but as he'd said, he did it because had to and felt like it was the only way, which is again, a callback to what he saw with his father with them 'bullies,' it drilled on him how that's the only way. But my goodness the way his hand shook, his breathing, the fear in his eyes, and then when he wiped the blood on his hand then that flashback with Willard? Yes yes yes, another like father like son moment.

It's the same thing with the way he handled the preacher, it was much more different in the book but I liked this version better. There's just something poetic about it being in the church all while Arvin confessed the preacher's sins for him, it was just amazing writing. But the way his hands shook when he was standing the first time he enters? Like he could’ve done it right then and there but he can't because he's scared. I mean the way his voice was breaking with that sinner line (which was so funny how they made it seem so badass in the trailer) he was trying to get himself together, like the way he was breathing so shakily shows his nerves and his fear. But as he reiterated all the disgusting things the preacher did, you see that rage bubble inside him, you see him slowly grow more confident because his fear was now replaced by anger. And once that his rage was at full capacity, the moment they started talking about Lenora? (Tom and Rob's exchange was amazing btw) He was able to shoot him down with one hand, shaking gone all because he was angry. But as soon as he's dead and the anger subsides, the fear is so quick to consume him, you see it the moment he sits down. And again with his eyes you see it all in his eyes, just Tom Frickin Holland everybody. That exchange was easily the best one.

As for his interaction with Carl and Sandy, his expressions in the back seat as he slowly realizes what was going to happen to him, it was just amazing. This is where you see more of Arvin actually being smart, he's a bit rash and compulsive sure but he is definitely smart. But now, you don't see his anger because he doesn't know this people, the only thing he knows is that they were trying to kill him. So notice how he shot Carl with two hands this time? and how he was shaking exactly as he pulled the trigger? Same with Sandy? Compare that to how he handled the preacher. Also his fear when he thought he got shot? The utter panic was just, though he did puke in the book which would've showed just how much he didn't like what he just did and how he felt so wrong. Same with his interaction with Lee, he knows how asses his situation and damn, I don’t know if its sheer dumb luck or this boy just got incredible aim, I mean he's practiced in the books and he's gotten good but you don't see it in the movie though. But still the same, you see more of him being regretful which just shows how complex he is as a character. And Tom showed all these emotions so freakin well without saying much at all. You just see it, which shows just how talented he is.

Everything somewhat came full circle in the end, he buried Jack's bones which what he's been wanting ever since. And he also buried the gun, which was somewhat him saying how he's had somewhat a closure with his father and that he's putting it all in the pass. And then we end the movie with him trying not to fall asleep which honestly what it felt like after watching the movie. I needed a breather. That last shot was so calming though it does make you wonder where he goes on from here.

My goodness I could go on and on about Tom's performance and I definitely missed so much more but I feel like this is long enough lmao. Also feel like i’ve missed a few moments in the movie as well. Now I hope people will see what good of an actor he is and to show that he's more than just playing Peter Parker. Right, that's enough. I'm going to say how many words in total this was but, it's a lot.

And that is it for The Devil All the Time. A very good movie, would want to watch again but damn, I feel like I need a nap because what a movie indeed.

[whatusernameshouldieven]

✧･ﾟ:* You and I  *:･ﾟ✧*

Art by: https://twitter.com/cchaiart

Genre: fiancé au, fluff

Pairing: Fiancé!Choi San x Foreigner!Reader ;)

A/N: Hey~ This is literally my first tumblr post ever, lol. I’m still a newbie so this is unedited~ Thanks for checking out!

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⇰ Chapter 1: Unexpected Date 

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“Oh my god, Oh my god, Oh my god!”, you squealed in pain as you suffocate your face in your favorite pillow, legs kicking like a newborn baby. You threw your phone across a bit, making sure your aim was not shallow enough to make the phone fall out of bed. The black sheets supported your body, as you rolled around in an uncontrollable way.

Your best friend was just sitting at the side of the bed, feeling like a bystander watching a scene. “Okay… what’s wrong with you?”

You stop dead straight on your as you spread out a bit, staring at the sky as if you were seeing stars. “Choi San invited me to a restaurant, he said he had something important to discuss.” Your heart hammered in her chest, you were awkward at social places.

Your best friend’s eyes widen dramatically as her expression falters to disgust, “My brother invited you to a fancy restaurant? YOU-- ARE YOU GUYS DATING?”

“No, what?”, You chuckled in disbelief at your best friend’s question, “We’re best friends, he has eyes for another girl, Emma. I think.”

Emma or your best friend wriggles her eyebrows, “Or...he invited you to a date… oh my god, is he trying to make things romantic so he can ask you out later? Oh my god, you’ll be my sister in law-Ah!”

Emma catches the sudden pillow attack, as she stares at your tomato shaded face. “It’s not like that, you know it. Why would anyone be interested in me anyways? I’m not even Korean like him.” Emma tilts her head, “So? I mean...you guys talk A LOT.”

You ignore Emma’s statement, “Whatever… you’re involved, you’re helping me with clothes and everything.”

“Oh, it would be my pleasure!”, Emma exclaimed, feeling the rush of excitement. 

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Time: 10 P.M

>>>FANCY RESTURANT

You now stood outside of a tall marvelous building with wide eyes. This was not what you had expected at all. Surely, you had been at various of fancy restaurants with your family before but this was just next level. The building in front of you was full white, architected marvelously with the elements of the Greek culture. The building stretched quite a bit and there was a huge golden door, with vivid colors of brown and grey used together to compliment the color of gold. The rushing water of the fountain could be heard, as you heard various children play around there and here. The giggles and laughters were the only thing that reassured your rapid beating heart. 

Your best friend had advised you to wear something elegant, and you finally knew why. You were grateful for your friend. 

Your hair was in a neat french hair bun, as you wore diamond diamond oval-shaped piercings accompanied by a three-layer collar diamond necklace. You wore a black off-sleeved dress, which you were personally shy about but couldn’t say anything since your best friend insisted. Holding your black wristlet purse with you, you entered inside the huge door.

You were met with a whole another world.

Outside of the gate was a simplistic city with workaholics walking around in a daily basis but inside the door was an Ethiopian paradise filled with the colors of joy and happiness. You had never seen something like it— nor even thought of.

A cathedral ceiling was above you with beautiful historical symbolisms of what seemed European. There was a huge chandelier made out of crystals in the middle, shining a light down on you. The walls were consistent with the colors of golden and had pillars. You were standing on a royal red carpet which led you to the receptor of the place.

“Hello, um… I was invited by a friend here.”, You shyly asked, feeling a bit out of place. The male receipt gives you a kind smile as he nods, “You must be Ms. Y/N. Mr. Choi has been expecting you.” You smiles back, awkwardly, not sure what to say. “Let me lead you to him.” 

The man nods in a bowing motion slightly signaling you to follow him. You watched his action as you begins to walk behind the man, looking around to admire the place as you go.

You both enter an elevator, as the man pushes a random button which you can’t comprehend since you are behind him. You hold onto your bag tightly, trying to ignore the awkward silence that has filled in. The man stays silent as you just stands there with your hands together at the front.

You examines the elevator, feeling quite of a honorable person since you were surrounded by golden tiles. The floor had the restaurants logo, a fancy T in a rhombus shaped surrounding. Now you realized, you had not even bothered to check the restaurant’s name.

“We’re here”.

Your thoughts are broken by the man’s voice as he steps out to a elevator hallway, while you gently follows behind him, in a wary way. You both are met with a huge golden door, you guessed it was an entrance to the dining place.

The man begins to lead her, opening the door wide open for you as you step in. 

There entered a peaceful night day like you would see in the movies. A huge hall-like room, almost an entire family could live in bliss and ease. A king-sized bed at the corner with greyish sheets with yellowish-brown blanket to cover the mood of the room. The same colored pillows were an accent. On the opposite side of the bed, was a huge sofa with a modern TV. For you, this seemed like a set that they would use in Hollywood movies, you had never experienced in person. 

But what caught you off guard wasn’t that the restaurant had an unusual hotel-like floor, but that beyond the white wooden doors in front of you, there was a beautiful balcony. Your face froze when your eyes fell on San, the one who invited you here to begin with.

San’s face broken into a small, gentle smile. His eyes squinted a bit, delighted to acknowledge that you had came after all. “You came.”, San gracefully walked over to you with a glass in his hand, the liquid slightly purple in color. 

You were mentally freaking out for two reasons. One, Choi San was towering over you as if he was asserting dominance with such a youthful innocent face, which also made you cringe in a way. Second, he looked hot.

“Uh, yeah. It would be rude if I didn’t.”, You got yourself together as you eyed the glass, “What are you drinking?”

San smiles wider as he glances at his glance, twirling the liquid in it mischievously, “Wine. Want some? This hotel has amazing beverage.”

Excuse me, hotel?

“Hotel? SAN? I THOUGHT IT WAS A-- I thought it was a restaurant. Oh my god, I-”, You mentally cursed multiple times, feeling betrayed, “You LIED to me?”

“Y/N, Y/N calm down. This is a hotel with a restaurant, so I technically didn’t.”, San reassured in a softer tone to reason with you. He sighs in relief to see you finally, once again, getting yourself together.

You massage your shoulders, with a vulnerable expression, “Gosh, I’m such an idiot. I thought this was some place for rich ones-- so I completely overdid it.”

San raised an eyebrow with a questionable expression, “Overdid it?” You scoff in response, as you sarcastically show-off your outfit. “Oh.”

“Yeah, see? I can't believe--”

“You look beautiful.”

“What?”, Your eyes widened, your mind going blank. 

“You look stunning, Y/N.”, San politely smiled as he held his glass still in his hands, “It would be rude if a man didn’t compliment a lady.”

You let go of your shoulders, as you show a disgusted face, “Are you showing off?”

“Shh...don't ruin the moment.”, San whispers, trying to ignore your words, “Come, let’s eat.”

You prayed inside that you would last in this awkward date, where you were constantly dying of San’s sweetness and tenderness. Could it be that he was taking this seriously? Hah, no way. You followed San to the balcony, and you are immediately greeted with a gentle breeze blowing, rhythmically. You sits yourself down on a white wooden chair, thankful that a cushion was there to support your butt. San does the same.

A smile rises upon your feature, as you are delighted to witness that a mushroom-sauce steak was in front of you. The scent was lovingly welcoming to you, as it seemed to be visually fresh. “I know you like mushroom steak.” Your eyes travel towards San’s soft ones, as you start to buffer for a moment. 

Getting yourself together for the third time, you speaks, “Yeah, we would often go out to eat it.” You softly chuckled, recalling a memory of San eating a hot piece of steak, him in pain after it.

“Y/N.” San’s voice suddenly becomes all serious and dramatic, causing you to stop at your tracks from approaching a knife and a fork on a table. You hum in response, as your wide excited eyes gleamed. San bit his lip. He felt terrible to suddenly cause the atmosphere to change, but he had to get straight to the point.

“Marry me.”

Silence.

Your mouth was agape, as you were frozen at the place, not even blinking once. San held his hands together, as he looked at you in such a determined and confident manner which did not make the situation any better. The words circled in your head, as you tried to control your rapid heartbeat along with your breathing.

“What?” Your voice came out as cold and ruthless, slightly piercing San’s heart but it was expected. 

“I know this is awkward...but I need you to listen to me…”

You knew what was going to happen due to the tone of San’s voice. You had noticed how San speaks excitingly, yelling a few times there and there. His expression would be awfully animatic but he still managed to keep his tender melodious voice. Right now, San’s voice switched from animatic to awfully tender and slow, as if he was telling a sad story. His eyes only guilt tripped you, since they were so considerate and lenient. 

“I’m listening.”, You nod.

“My parents had set me up to arrange marriage with the daughter of a huge CEO. I...I can’t stand to marry a girl that I have never met, I don’t want to associate myself to a corrupt family like hers. So, I thought if I had already told my parents that I am engaged with someone, they would reconsider and break off the plan.” San pleaded, “I know....I know I’m not the man of your dreams. Ugh, what am I even saying? I’m so selfish for asking you this...I’m sorry.”

You let out a long sigh which seemed to last seconds, “Okay, San. I understand.”

San’s eyes perk up, “You do?! Oh my god...you don’t have to.”

“Meh, I don’t mind. I don’t have anyone special in my life so.”, You shrugged. 

San smiles as he rubs his neck a little, averting his eyes, “Oh god...I need to do this better.”

“Better?”, You were confused. San stands up as he walks towards you in such a wary way that made you expect the unexpected. He crouches down as you slightly turns your body towards him. He takes out a box from his pocket, as he stares at you lovingly, “Will you marry me?”

This was so weird. Everything was so weird. So unusual. Did things like this even exist, such scenarios that are hard to experience? Tears started to appear on your eyes, without you even knowing. You felt touched, but why? Was it because some man had asked you to marry them when you swore you will never have a husband, or was it because you thought you would never experience such a beautiful moment?

“Ye-...Yes.”, Tears slipped down your eyes as you started to cry like a toddler.

San becomes horrified as he quickly sets the box on the table, holding your face, gently. “Why are you crying? Did I do something wrong?” The pure concern in his voice only made you more vulnerable, as you softly hit his chest. “You sentimental idiot!”

“What? Y/N...please tell me if I did something wrong.”, San ignored the soft punches on his chest, not even feeling them as he softly brushes his thumb to wipe the tears away. “I’m just touched, you doofus…”, you wipe your tears away, as you stare at the box.

San lets go of your face as he holds the box, opening it for you. Your watery eyes sparkled along with the oval-shaped diamond ring, a huge oval diamond in the middle while small shaped ones surrounded the big one. “San...thank you…”, you smiled, “It feels like an actual proposal.”

“I’ll be a rude man if I just used you for my own benefits...this is only a small thing.”, San says as he takes out the ring from the box. You both turn towards each other, looking at each other eyes for a moment. San holds your left hand, gently, sliding the ring up on your ring finger.

“Woah-- it looks good on--”

The sound of small kiss being placed on your hand seemingly echoed in your ears. The tingling sensation filled your entire body like electric shock, the sensation lingering right at the spot where the soft lips had been placed. She blinks multiple times as you blankly stared at San’s face, your heart rate once again beating fast, as a blush creeks up to your cheek. San stared at you with such love in his eyes, which was once again, unusual.

You chuckled awkwardly, averting your eyes, “Wow...um...you’re really doing so much for me.” You turn back towards San , involuntarily , whens you feel the grip on your hand tightening. “I’m doing this because it’s you...I chose YOU for this...because I trust you.”

“San…”

“I don’t want you to think I’m using you to get away. It’s not true at all. I chose you because I genuinely feel comfortable with you and I don’t mind experiencing a new life with you.”

You chuckled softly, “Sounds like a proposal.”

San presses his lips together, pressing them tightly together causing his cheeks to puff up. “Alright, I won’t tease you.”, you wished you could photograph his face.

“We should eat our steak.”

“RIGHT!”

[myownworldstayout]

Prompt #22 Family

@felixmonth

(So this is technically a part 2 of Model AU nad it’s pretty long so fair warning.)

Marinette clicked her pen in and out as she looked over the schedule. After this photo shoot, Felix needed to change quickly so they could make it to that charity event. Then, she’d need to go over her latest designs with him again for the upcoming fashion show. Not to mention, check on the fashion show and make sure everything was going well.

“Mlle. Dupain-Cheng.”

Working as a designer for a famous model was a hassle, but now that it’s been a few weeks, she’s managed to settle into the role quite nicely if she did say so herself.

“Mlle. Cheng.” 

Of course, there was that darned crush that’s been festering for a while. She thought her love for Adrien would keep her relationship with Felix strictly professional. It seems her assumptions were wrong. Ever since Felix requested they call each other by their first names, she’s found it harder to keep her thoughts from wandering to dangerous places. For example, What if she became brave enough to tell him about these feelings? Or what if- even worse- she acted on them without thinking? Say, a quick kiss? On the cheek? Or even a hug? How would Felix respond? Would he kiss her back and admit he’d fallen hopelessly in love with her too? Or what if he-

“MARINETTE!!”

The ravenette jumped, clutching her clipboard to her chest. In front of her stood an impatient photographer, hands on his hips and foot tapping on the concrete floor. 

“I-I’m sorry?” Marinette said sheepishly, her gaze flickering over the photographer’s shoulder to Felix. 

The blonde stood on the set disinterestedly, hands in his pockets as he waited for the next picture to be taken. She didn’t see a problem with his outfit or anything, so why did the photographer need her? 

“I need you to be on the stage.” He stated bluntly, moving back over to his camera now that he had her attention.

“You what?” Marinette blanched, nearly dropping her clipboard. Her? On stage? No. That wasn’t her job. She was a designer, not a model.

“What about the other model we had scheduled?” 

The photographer shrugged. “Couldn’t make it. Hurry up, I don’t have all day.” 

Marinette swallowed. She didn’t have all day either, but modeling? She wasn’t even dressed for it!

Before she could object any further, a flurry of people swarmed her, messing with her hair and putting different powders on her face for a “Touch up”. After a few minutes, the crowd dispersed, taking her clipboard with them for the time being. Then, someone pushed her onto the set, where she fell into a familiar pair of arms.

“Are you alright?” Felix asked calmly, helping her stable herself.

Marinette blushed, immediately straightening her posture and stepping out of his grasp. “Oh, me? N-no- yeah- no, I’m totally fine!” 

A faint smile crossed Felix’s lips. He was probably used to her ramblings by now. Goodness knows she’s done them enough around him.

“Who’s the lady?” 

Marinette blinked, looking down to see a small, blond-haired girl in front of her. 

Felix knelt down to the girl’s level with a small smile. “Emma, this is Marinette. She’s gonna help us with the picture.”

The gentleness with which he spoke melted Marinette’s heart. She’d forgotten the theme of the shoot today was “Family”. Even though the little girl wasn’t actually related to Felix in any way, he still acted very much like a father in her opinion.

“Alright, positions!” The photographer called out, causing Felix to stand up. 

Marinette wasn’t entirely sure what “positions” meant, but Felix carefully placed Emma in front of him, then extended his hand to her. When she took it hesitantly, he pulled her against his chest and wrapped his hand around her waist.

“W-what are you doing?” She stuttered, hoping he couldn’t hear her racing heartbeat.

“It’s a ‘family photo’.” Felix muttered, keeping his eyes on the camera. “Just look at the lens and smile and it’ll be over in a few minutes.”

Marinette pursed her lips and nodded, but all she could think about was Felix’s hand on her waist. 

The photographer took a photo, looked it over, then shook his head. He took another photo. Same reaction. With each new picture, Marinette became more and more tense.

“You’re too stiff.” Felix finally pointed out when the photograph gave an exasperated sigh.

“Sorry, I just-”

“No, no, this isn’t working.” The photographer interrupted, putting down the latest photo. “Why don’t you try a different pose? You guys need to look like a happy couple with a happy kid.”

Felix immediately got to work, picking up Emma and telling her which poses to do, but Marinette frowned. 

“What do you me-” She tried to ask what the man meant. How can they look more like a couple than they already did? They were practically hugging each other with a child in the middle for Pete’s sake!

Marinette didn’t get to finish her sentence, though, because Felix turned her towards him and, just like that, pressed his lips to hers. 

Her entire world came to a screeching halt.

Felix. Felix culpa. He was kissing her. On the lips. Without a second thought. His arm was pressed against the small of her back, keeping her in place. Was he only kissing her for the shoot? Shouldn’t she be upset if that was the case?

But, oh, the way his lips felt on hers, warm, soft. The exact way she imagined a models lips would taste like.

Before she knew it, she was kissing him back, reveling in the feeling of breathlessness it provided. 

*click*

As soon as the camera went off, Felix pulled away, taking the warmth of his kiss with him. Marinette almost whimpered towards the numbing coldness in her chest that he left behind.

“Oh! That’s great!” The photographer grinned, taking a good look at the photo. “I don’t think I’m gonna need anymore photos, so you guys can go ahead and go. I’m out of time anyway.” 

Felix set Emma down, who ran over to her mother, and walked off the stage towards his dressing room without a word. 

Marinette only stared after him, not sure what to do. I mean, they had just kissed- their very first kiss together, she might add -and he didn’t even seem fazed in the slightest. To him, it was probably just another photo shoot with a different model.

Unfortunately, Marinette had too much to do today to stand slack jawed about kissing some model. So, she retrieved her clipboard from the staff member who so rudely took it earlier, and headed for Felix’s dressing room to help with his new outfit for the charity event. 

~~~~~~~

Felix groaned as soon as he closed the door to his dressing room. What was he thinking kissing Marinette like that? 

But that was the problem, wasn’t it? He wasn’t thinking!

Or maybe he was? It’s no lie that Felix has been wanting to kiss Marinette for a while now. He just never really got around to telling her that. 

The blonde sighed, pinching the bridge of his nose as he went to change. It was a coward’s decision, really, kissing her when he could play it off as part of the job. She didn’t deserve to be treated that way.

Oh, but when she started kissing him back..

He had to walk off the stage as soon as the picture was over to make sure he didn’t kiss her again. He’d already overstepped his boundaries enough. Felix didn’t bother looking back either. He couldn’t. She probably hated him for how he acted. Well, maybe not hated, but.. Strongly disliked.

A soft knock on the door pulled him from his laments.

“Felix? Can I come in?” Marinette asked politely, something a bit off in her tone. He knew what it was.

Felix subconsciously licked his lips, the aftertaste of her flavored lipstick still there. He didn’t realize he liked strawberries so much until now.

“Yes, go ahead.” He answered, keeping his tone leveled as he finished pulling on his shirt.

He heard Marinette quietly shuffle inside from behind him and close the door. She had a habit of making sure all of his doors were closed. It was an odd thing to do, but he didn’t mind.

“So- uh -have you tried on the n-new outfit yet?” She stuttered, anxiously fingering her clipboard. Her cheeks were still a soft pink from earlier.

Felix held back a smile, nodding and holding out his arms for her to inspect the clothes. 

Marinette cautiously set down the clipboard, taking in a few deeper breaths than necessary as she looked him over. After taking out her sewing kit, though, he saw her body relax slightly as she shifted into “work mode”. 

A tense silence filled the room while she worked, sewing this and that to help the clothes fit better. He couldn’t help but notice the way her hands would linger just a bit too long. Or how, every now and then, she would absently touch her lips and her blush would deepen. Gosh, why did she have to be so endearing?

Finally, Marinette leaned back. “How does that work?” 

Felix moved around a bit, rolling his shoulders, bending his knees, etc. 

“It fits good, thank you.”

“No problem. The limo should be here in ten minutes. I’ll check on a few other things before we leave.” 

Although she didn’t say it out loud, Felix could tell she was nervous, distracted. Her mind wasn’t on work anymore. Naturally, it was the same for him. 

And so, as she scurried off towards the door, Felix made a split second decision.

“Marinette, wait.” He needed to talk to her. Now.

Her shoulders hunched at the sudden call, and she froze by the door. Just for a moment, He second guessed his actions. Perhaps she really just didn’t want to talk about it? What if she actually believed the kiss was only for work? What if she didn’t return his feelings at all?

“I.. I wanted to talk to you. About the shoot.” He said, swallowing the lump steadily forming in his throat. 

A shuddering sigh escaped her lips, and she turned around. “It’s okay, Felix, I get it. You were only doing your job.”

“But I wasn’t!” Felix blurted out, taking a step closer to her. 

Marinette blinked up at him, and his heart logged itself in his throat. “You.. but I thought.. What do you mean?” 

“I mean..” Felix trailed off, unable to find the right words. How was he expected to focus on anything when those blue orbs of hers enveloped all of his attention?

The blonde let out a frustrated sigh, lightly cupping Marinette’s cheek and pulling her into another kiss. If he couldn’t tell her, he would show her. 

It didn’t take long for Marinette’s lips to start moving with his, sending an electric shock through his entire body. The clatter of the clipboard falling onto the floor was collectively ignored as Marinette buried her hands in Felix’s hair, pulling him closer.

It was like walking through Heaven in a haze, nothing but pure bliss in your mind. He never wanted it to end. 

*Bzzzt*

Unfortunately, Felix was reminded, all good things come to an end at some point.

“Felix.” Marinette panted, sparing a glance behind them at her phone. “The limo. It’s here.” 

“The limo can wait.” Felix murmured, lips brushing against hers as he spoke. It was just a charity event. Surely they could wait a few extra minutes?

The ravenette bit her lip, pulling further away from him. “Believe me, I want to continue this as much as you do, but we really need to get going. This event is a big deal.” 

Felix tisked, finally sliding his hands off her hips so he could kneel down to get her clipboard.

“Alright. What about dinner then? Surely you can find time in your schedule for that?” He asked hopefully.

Marinette pursed her lips, taking the clipboard. “I should be able to make it work.” 

She then gave him another quick peck on the lips, before rushing out the door. Felix grinned.

The reporters were going to flip when they hear about this.

[marshmellowtea]

hey!! im gonna send you a lot of charas, you can answer them as you want, I just wanna make sure you have enough to answer all you want!! seishi, nikei, ayumu, marin maki, komaeda, makoto, mikan and sayake, please!

aaaaaaaa anon ur so sweet ilysm ;o; 

i’ll probably have to divide these into a couple posts so i can break it into chunks for myself but i’ll start off with seishi, nikei, and ayumu here :’0 

also putting this under a cut so i hopefully don’t break anyone’s dashes 

seishi 

favorite thing about them 

he’s just,, baby?? he’s just baby hdfjaslkdfsdf i don’t even know how to describe it. i was attached to him the moment i saw him and the more i watched of him the more in love i fell he’s such a precious dork,, 

least favorite thing about them 

idk if this actually counts because this is more of a criticism of his writing than anything but it’s so annoying how people just default him to “standard evil villain” after the katagiri zen reveal like no,, there’s so much more that can be done with him,, how dare you,, 

favorite line 

tbh as much as i’m disappointed (read: angry) with the direction voices was going to go, “did you just call us horny?” is still an ICONIC line fhaslksdfjlksdf i love it so much 

brOTP 

him and marin! also him and mikoto,, and him and nico,, tbh him and any girl is good he just vibes “let’s go wlw let’s go!!”, y’know? i also like him and nikei being like. adopted brothers or adopted cousins tbh it’s really cute 

OTP 

seishi/akira/ayumu/saiji. yes that it as an ot4. yes it counts come at me bro. any seishi/rebirth boy ship is good tho 

nOTP 

i,, really don’t like seishi/girls fjadsklfjsadf feels bad man 

random headcanon 

he has TRAUMA dammit!! i hc that he has a backstory similar to maki’s in that he was forced into being an assassin at a young age so it wasn’t really his choice to get involved in all this. i’ve kinda ran that idea into the ground at this point though so here’s a lighter headcanon: when he was 14, he reeeaaaally wanted to be a cat. like, to the point where he’s embarrassed to look back on those days because oh my god he really straight up tried to act like a cat 24/7 huh? kinda ties into another headcanon of mine that he’s less mature than he lets on and tends to go through periods of feeling kinda childlike but ssshh shsh shsh shush

unpopular opinion 

he’s a good boy with a morally dubious job and that doesn’t make him automatically evil. y’all are just unimaginative, uncreative and mean >:( 

song i associate with them 

coughs at my seishi and zen playlists uhh there’s a lot tbh but the songs most strongly connected with him in my mind are “this is how you spell haha we destroyed the hopes and dreams of a generation of faux romantics” by los campesinos! and “i’ve got all this ringing in my ears and none on my fingers” by fall out boy (and yes those are two songs with very long titles i know hdfaklsjdflsd ;w;) 

favorite picture of them 

aaaa rebirth doesn’t have a lot of good cgs to pull from across either of its canons and idk if fanart counts so,, but gosh i really love his surprised sprite. he’s like :o. he’s so baby i love him so much 

nikei 

favorite thing about them 

he’s so interesting. it’s clear a lot of work went into his character, and it’s always a fascinating struggle to try and write him. i think it might be a bit easier after chapter four is fully translated but still there’s a lot of complexity to him and it’s interesting trying to break down his outer shell and get inside his head, y’know? also, he’s adorable. i wanna squish his cheeks. 

least favorite thing about them 

oh my GOD does my boy stress me out. i hate seeing him being mean to my other favorite characters and i’m always just like baby why are you like this please don’t ohmygod?? i’m gonna have to watch chapter four with my hands covering my eyes hasdfjslkdf i hate betrayal plots :’) 

favorite line 

this is kinda hard actually hasdkflsjdfk but “and she threw them away just like that? girl, are you a genius or an idiot, make up your mind!” from the third trial is reALLY GOOD FHKJDFLKDSF on a more heartbreaking note though him apologizing before he dies is just,, god. god.

brOTP 

him and the other voids!! they’re a family fight me. and him and seishi, ofc. i also like him and setsuka a lot though,, after chapter six i’m doubling down on my “she’s his mom!!” stance okay. i also like him and yoruko because i think they could have a fun dynamic (and maybe a soft dynamic with older yoruko,, maybe,,)(what i’m saying is that he gains another mom okay. let me project my mommy issues in peace) 

OTP 

i,, actually largely headcanon him as aro so there’s not a lot of ships with him i’m super passionate about?? i still kinda like him and setsuka in aus and such but other than that i mostly dropped all my ships for him after chapter six cuz it’s no big loss to me. though,, i’m not gonna lie, i still have a HUGE soft spot for sorakei. after seeing his free time events they just,, grew on me and i’d think they’d be really cute together c’mon guys can we make it happen- :’0 

nOTP 

nikei/mikado nikei/mikado nikei/mikado LIKE CAN WE PUT IT TO REST ALREADY I ACTUALLY HATE IT 

random headcanon 

his hair is actually naturally super curly and he straightens it every morning so other people don’t realize this. the other voids think it looks really cute pre-straightener but he thinks it makes it hard for others to take him seriously which is why he goes to such lengths to try to hide it basically he does NOT appreciate the cooing he gets from emma, thank you very much. hgalsdjfadlfkl

unpopular opinion 

i’m not actually sure if this counts cuz i don’t see this on tumblr at least but i don’t think we should take what he says to emma and hajime in the void theater at face value. i think despite what he says he actually does care about them in his own way, he just doesn’t really show it well because he doesn’t like to be vulnerable around others. he’s an asshole sometimes (actually a lot of the time hadsflkjsdflk), but that doesn’t mean he’s unfeeling or unable to care about people. 

song i associate with them 

once again side eyes my nikei playlist ahdfslksdfjslkfd a part of me doesn’t want to spoil one of the songs on it because i do eventually wanna release it to the public but i really just,, i really gotta go with “are you satisfied?” by marina. it’s just too perfect and i think of him every time i hear it now 

favorite picture of them 

honestly? his first tts avatar. no talk him. him angy his last tts avatar upsets me though LEAVE HIM BE LINUJ

ayumu 

favorite thing about them 

AAAAAAAAAA BOYFRIEND BOYFRIEND he’s so sweet such a good boy!! i like that he’s empathetic towards others cuz of his luck and he cares about how it affects them. i like that he’s soft and definitely a good cuddle partner. i love that he’s a trans icon even if that’s not really the intent i don’t care he just vibes trans so well (gal or guy or nonbinary but i tend to stick with the trans guy headcanon cuz haha i transmasc-)  

least favorite thing about them 

i kinda wish he had more of a canon sarcastic side? i mean i’m gonna continue to write him that way lol but c’mon there had to have been times where his luck is just so wildly terrible that his inner hinata jumps out and he makes a quip about it hfkajsdfksdf 

favorite line 

aaaaaa his little hope speech during in voices’ chapter one trial makes me soft,, i love him so much,, i also like him shutting aruma down when she’s being too horny hdlkajdsflksdf it’s really good 

brOTP 

ngl i tend to ship him with most of the class so,, like,, i also brotp him with the whole class,, dalfksdlfkasdf 

OTP 

see above but my favorite of those pairings are ayumu/seishi, ayumu/akira and ayumu/mikoto 

nOTP 

when i’m headcanoning him as a trans guy: nico, misuzu, and kasumi cuz i hc them as lesbians. when i’m headcanoning her as a trans girl: seishi. kind of a nonissue when i go with a nonbinary headcanon though 

random headcanon 

he plays minecraft with akira a lot, but they always have to play in create mode where you can’t really die otherwise it’s just a montage of ayumu dying over and over again, pfft. even with unlimited life though he still usually ends up stuck somewhere and akira has to come dig him out and since akira’s a rude boy he’s always laughing his ass off as he’s doing it smh >:0

unpopular opinion 

it’s,, silly to be mad about his “secretly a boy” twist on the same level as you’re mad about the v3 protag twist,, it’s a fangan and not even that well known of one at that like it doesn’t really have the power to “break down barriers” like that or whatever tf you’re expecting hdsflkajsfdlksdf 

song i associate with them 

he’s another character i have a playlist for ahdflaksdjflaksd but “this is home” by cavetown and i cry every time :’) 

favorite picture of them 

once again there’s not a lot of canon art to pull from but i do adore the promo art of him with his “male” and “female” versions :’0 

[watchmegetobsessed]

Day one - Grayson Dolan

me, being the fucker that i am wrote a grayson dolan imagine when i should have been studying....... whatevs

I wake up in the middle of the night after a weird dream that I almost immediately forget about. I stare up at the ceiling for a few minutes before turning to the right. The bed is empty, Emma is nowhere to be found, but I’m not surprised. She must have went over to Ethan’s after I fell asleep. I don’t even know why the guys made us sleep together when Emma said she is too tired to drive home, I was a hundred percent sure she would end up sleeping with Ethan. I sigh sitting up in the bed rubbing my face with my hands. I’m not sleepy anymore, I don’t remember the dream but it surely woke me up in some ways.

The house is quiet as I walk out. As I walk past Ethan’s room I see that the door is open and I reach for the handle to close it, but before that I see that Emma is there, cuddled up to his side with one of his arms around her small frame. I smile at the sight and close the door knowing Grayson will probably wake up before them making noise.

I get a glass of water in the kitchen and sit down on the couch facing the backyard with the pool. I’ve been here for a week now and I only have three days before I fly back home and even though we are already planning my next trip here I’m sad that I have to leave. Emma, James and the twins really grew on me, especially one person.

I liked Grayson a lot even before I met him. Before I first came all the way to LA to shoot with them we talked for weeks and I always got along the best with him. After meeting him I just started fancy him even more, but of course, it’s my little secret. It’s just pretty disappointing to see Emma and Ethan being the lovey-dovey couple and just stand in the back when I feel the same way towards Grayson.

I hear a door open and for a moment I think Emma woke up and she is going back to our room, but I hear steps approaching and soon Grayson shows up.

“Hey, what are you doing here?” he asks rubbing his eyes. He has a black t-shirt and grey sweatpants on, his hair is messy, far from how it usually is when we are doing a video.

“I just… can’t sleep,” I shrug smiling at him in the semi-darkness. He grabs a bottled water from the kitchen and joins me on the couch and we both just stare out to the backyard. “Emma sneaked over to Ethan’s,” I chuckle. “I don’t know why you guys wanted to put us in a room.”

He shakes his head smiling.

“Just… I don’t know. She is seventeen, Ethan is so protective, even if it comes to himself. He doesn’t want to pressure her into anything.”

“That’s sweet, but I don’t think he should baby Emma, she is pretty strong and mature.”

“I know,” he nods.

A moment of silence falls on us before he turns to me. He runs his fingers through his hair somehow taming them a bit.

“Are you excited for tomorrow’s… well, today’s video?” he asks.

We are taping a battle video, basically it will be Emma and Ethan against Grayson and me, we will do a lot of stuff, like wrestling, Charades, a bike race. I’m a little bit nervous to be a team with Grayson, just the two of us, I’m afraid I’ll start acting weird and anxious around him.

“Um, yeah, it’ll be fun. I’m just a bit afraid to compete with an actual couple,” I say making up the second part.

“I think we will be a good team too.” He smiles at me warmly and my heart skips a beat. I love it when he is soft and nice. Actually, this is one thing why I fell for him and not his brother. He is more mature and considerate than Ethan, who is a bit wilder. This is why he is perfect with Emma, because they are so much alike. But I’m not as discursive and energetic as they are, I’m more settled and softer.

“Yeah, I think too,” I agree smiling at him.

“I’m happy you are here,” he suddenly says a bit out of the blue. I’m surprised, but it makes me glad he is happy to have me around. Even if it’s just as a friend.

“These LA trips have been my favorites lately,” I admit feeling myself blushing a bit, but luckily it’s too dark for him to see it.

“Ethan and I enjoy having someone else here, sometimes we make each other go nuts, but we love having you here.” He says, and at the end, he adds: “Especially me.”

My lips part and my heart skips a beat. Suddenly, I don’t even know what to do. What did he mean by especially him? Does this mean something or am I just talking it into myself?

I come to the conclusion that I’m just delusional and I probably should go to sleep before I might say something stupid.

“Yeah, um… Hey I think we should get some sleep, right? We want to win tomorrow.” I stand up and tug my hair behind my ears as I try to walk past him. I already a step ahead of him when he grabs my wrist and pulls me back. “Wha-“

I don’t get to finish because he crashes his lips to mine kissing me and the world stops for a moment.

My mind freezes, but my body knows what I want. My hands slide around his neck and I tiptoe so I reduce our height difference. His arms circle around my waist and my lips open up, welcoming him with everything I have.

Kissing him is nothing like I imagined. It’s softer, sweeter, I feel like we instantly click and I’m just hoping he feels the same way.

I don’t know how long we stand there kissing, but the next thing I know is that someone switches the lamp on and I go blind for a moment.

“What the fuck?!” Grayson groans looking up and as I turn around flinching my eyes I see Ethan and Emma at the end of the hallways, both of them grinning like idiots and I want to comment on that, but I can’t, I’m still trying to process that Grayson just kissed me.

“Oh my God! I’ve been waiting for this all fucking week!” Emma shrieks grabbing a handful of Ethan’s shirt in her excitement.

“Dude, congrats on growing balls and finally taking a step! I thought you’ll always just cry after her!” Ethan laughs and my eyes widen.

“What?” I ask in confusion.

“He literally has been crushing you since day one.” Ethan comments and I can’t stop myself from grinning.

“Thanks for busting me, Ethan!” Grayson growls annoyed, but I notice that his arms are still around me. Gosh, it’s the best feeling in the world I swear.

“Okay, let’s go and leave them, we just ruined their moment,” Emma tells Ethan and pulls him back to his room leaving us alone. I turn back to Grayson.

“So… Since day one?” I ask with a cheeky smile and I can’t believe my eyes, but he is blushing!

“Kind of. Does it weird you out?”

“Not at all. Because you are my day one too,” I admit and it’s such a relief to finally get it off my chest.

“I was hoping you would say that,” he chuckles lightly.

“Yeah?”

“Mhm… So I don’t look like a pussy for waiting for so long.”

“You’re not a pussy. Also, you’ve been spending too much time with Emma, you just used the word pussy,” I laugh caressing the side of his face with my palm and he basically leaps into my touch, it’s the sweetest thing ever.

“Probably, so I’m gonna spend more time with you now. Come on, we have to sleep to win tomorrow,” he announces and as if it’s the normal thing to do, he picks me up and carries me into his room while I just laugh and let him do whatever he wants. I’m just happy to be with him the way I’ve always dreamt of.

[demitruli]

Hey, I keep forgetting to ask you (Disney princess that you are :-)... Do you like any of the live-action remakes of the animated films that have been coming out. I thought B&tB was pretty good but the others I haven't bothered with since the trailers haven't really grabbed me. But we just saw the trailer for Mulan and that looks AMAZING (besides being one of my all time favorite Disney animations). Just wondering what you think?

Well hello hello hello, it must have been over a year and a half since I last answered an ask, so THANK YOU for this opportunity 😊

Also, I’ll have you know that I squealed at the Disney princess part. How original of me.

On to the question. I have absolutely loved a lot of the live-action movies that Disney has made -The Pirates of The Carribean, The Parent Trap, The Princess Diaries, Ice Princess, Bridge to Terabithia and The odd Life of Timothy Green to name a few. But not the remakes. NOt. thE. rEMAkES.

Mostly is the philosophy behind them that bugs me than the execution. If I want to feel nostalgic about my childhood, I will watch the original, not the freaking remake with the stupid CGI effects. Yes there were some things added to some of the movies that made them a bit intriguing to watch, but those were not worth paying a ticket, not worth watching more than once, and not worth sacrificing the company’s time and money that it could have used to make new movies, animated or live-action, I dont forking care. New. I don’t believe Disney has run out of ideas, it has so many wonderful minds working for it - and Frozen II certainly proves so (you’re not the only one nudging. Heheheh). But the more remakes are made, the more it shows that they DONT want to use those wonderful minds, they just want something ready, which had succeeded in the past, and because the original makes people nostalgic they will come watch this one to try to get a taste of the magic of their childhood back. Well, guess what. The magic is sucked out of these movies. At least when I think about them, all that comes to mind is money money money. Ready food for Disney.

Let me talk a little bit about the ones I have watched separately.

Maleficent was the first one I watched. And the only exception to the rule. Because lets not kid ourselves, it had nothing to do with the original but the costumes, it was a completely different movie with an incredible plot twist, Angelina kicked ass, and it was just beautiful. I loved it.

Cinderella was the second one. I didn’t love it, but I didn’t hate it either. Personally, I didn’t really like the fairy godmother at all, and I hated the CGI mice, JUST GET REAL ONES, they weren’t talking anyway... But the movie, in general, was different enough to thrill me, and offer me something new. We knew what happens in the story of course, but the development of the prince and ella’s relationship was nicely portrayed, the villain actually felt like a hurt and relatable human, and the characters actually had.. you know, a character. Also, I liked the backstories with their parents. But it was a movie I wouldn’t watch again, to be honest, and that says a lot for someone that has seen every disney movie over a hundred times. No, I am not exaggerating.

The Jungle book was borning. Seriously I almost fell asleep watching it. Cool kid, cool effects, but gosh that was such an indifferent movie.

I loved the beauty and the beast when I first watched it, now I loathe it. I get why you like it. Emma and Dan kicked ass, they were both amazing. And the effects were cool, and the music was the same, and everything was the same, and everything was... the same... They didn’t even try, just added a couple of songs and the tiniest gay reference to get the lgbtq+ community on board, and those are enough reasons to remake a movie. You must see it because of them, it will change your life. Just... why? But I have to admit Emma was a good reason to watch. She was the cutest. And that line at the end “How would you feel about growing a bierd”, YES. THATS THE CONTENT I CRAVE. You know, if you’re gonna make live-action remakes for us that were kids when we watched the originals, GREAT, grow your movies along with your audience (like frozen II did. *Wink* *wink*). Give me Belle being a beast in bed. Give me Aladdin showing Jasmine a “whole new world”. Give me R-rated movies, Disney! Oh you won’t do that cause you’re a kid-friendly company? THEN STICK TO FORKING ANIMATION. For the love of-

Speaking of Aladdin, let’s not speak of Aladdin. Cause the only thing worthy in that movie was the Speechless song.

I didn’t even bother with Dumbo. That creature gave me nightmares from just the poster.

And now we’ve come to the King.... of BULLSHIT. (Truli is aggressive today, yikes. Me mad). It was basically a movie about showing off Beyonce's talent by random songs of her screaming SPIRIT over and over. I mean she killed it, of course she did, but that’s beyond the point. Do I start with the fact that this wasn’t even live-action, it was an animation remake of an animation but like 1000% worse and 1000% mechanical and emotionless. Seriously the models didn’t have facial expressions, the little actor that played simba (THE TALENT!!!!!) was bawling his eyes out and the cub on screen was flat faced. Look, with animals you either go for realism or you go for a cartoonish look that has emotion. They sucked at whatever they did there. Here is an amazing video that voices exactly what I found wrong. Jesus, this is one of my best friend’s absolute favorite movie, he is a literal Simba (dad died when young, horrible and abusive uncle, I guess I'm the silly, hakuna-matata friend in this jungle of our lives) and he FORBID ME of ever mentioning this monstrosity of a movie ever again. THEY RUINED OUR LION KING. WHY???

Now Mulan... I have to admit it looks good. Like, really forking original and accurate and adult and maybe R-rated, good. But I did make a commitment after the bullshit king to never watch a live-action remake again, so I don't know if I’ll see it, in the theaters at least. I know that it doesn’t make a difference, but I’m out. From now on I’m only supporting animation, or original live-action movies. Just ORIGINAL. Not stolen work that leaves all these talented animators and brilliant brains out of business. Also, did I mention I saw frozen II five times in the theater. Cause I did.

Yeah, so overall, I just think it’s sad, you know. Just look at how the remakes outnumber the originals, and most animated aren’t even Disney, they’re Pixar.

I want my Disney back.

(you touched a sensitive button there, sorry for the rumble and all that bitterness. I might watch Mulan tho, cause it genuinely looks good and I am a hopeful soul, I just dont want to believe everything is going to suck from now on.)

[remainloved]

bestfriend!Ethan #1

[requested by anon]

ethan’s bestfriend and grayson’s girlfriend, both title that she owns, however she’s been feeling like she doesn’t deserve the second title.

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Ethan and Y/n have been best friends since the days they were in diapers. Even if Ethan has a twin brother, the connection that he shared with Y/n is still equally strong. Everyone around them rooted them to be together.

Ethan’s parents wish to have a daughter in law like Y/n and likewise. The both families got along really well just like Ethan and Y/n. If people do not know them, they would think that Y/n and Ethan have been married to one another for years.

Grayson is always jealous with how close Ethan is to Y/n compare to him. Grayson would always shy away because he’s afraid that he’s being a bother to both of them. Yet, Ethan and Y/n never made Grayson as an outcast. They would always include Grayson in activities they would do. This made Y/n and Grayson closer. Y/n cares about the both of them more than herself and the twins would always make Y/n as their priority.

However, little did they know, Y/n has her eyes set on the younger twin. Even if Ethan was the first one she met and had a closer relationship with, Grayson has a soft spot on her heart. This made sense because she could never picture herself being involved with Ethan romantically.

When Ethan noticed her best friend would always blush when Grayson is around and Grayson would always notice the small details of Y/n’s that sometimes Ethan forgot. Ethan realized that both of them like each other. Ethan supported this idea and decided to make a plan.

Long story short, Ethan was the cupid and Y/n and Grayson were his target, he succeeded and now both of them are dating. Their dynamics never change, however Grayson and Y/n established a stronger and closer bonds. Both are always open to Ethan with the problems which made Ethan the mediator and solve the problems.

Everything was fine, until these back few days when Grayson was being different. Even if Grayson and Ethan moved to Los Angeles and Y/n stayed back. They were still in contact and their bonds are still strong. However with the hectic schedule of the twins and Y/n’s busy life back home, their bonds are falling apart.

The twins used to come back and visit New Jersey. They always make time for Y/n. However, since they have been hanging out with the “Sister Squad”, Y/n felt neglected..

Y/n has no problem sharing the twins, however she missed the twins dearly. She misses her best friend that would be willing to prank the neighbors. She missed her boyfriend that would try so hard to impress her with his cooking skill.

Today was a horrible day for Y/n. She had a sore throat, she woke up late and missed her class, she fell down the stairs and no one was there to help her, she walked home and a bike splashed her with the water on the streets, she’s home with no food and overall, just a bad day for Y/n.

She was lying on the bed with her cheeks stained with tears and eyes feeling dried. When the phone beside her started vibrating, she sighed and rolled over to pick it up. When she saw the id, she felt her lips twitch. She cleared her throat and answered the phone.

“Hey,” her croaky voice greeted Grayson. Whenever, Grayson heard this kind of tone, he would always sense that something was wrong, however this time he continued and said giddily.

“Hey gorgeous, I’m going on a road trip with E, James and Emma.” She could feel the smile on his face through the phone pressed on her cheeks

“Oh, really?” She sounded surprise while trying so hard not breakdown.

“Yeah,” He said excitedly.

“Well, have fun and stay safe.” She whispered with her heart breaking with every breath that she took.

“You okay, Gorgeous?” He asked worriedly and Y/n just hummed and said her goodbyes.

She was feeling very low and she felt really insecure. For once in her lifetime, she doubted the relationship she had with the twins. Y/n cried the whole night with her hands clutched tightly on her phone and her body curling up inside her blanket. She felt like losing a piece of hers that night.

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When the twins visited New Jersey for the first time in three months, they felt very happy. Both of them felt like the burdens on their shoulders were lifted up. They were so excited to visit their family and of course, Y/n.

“Y/n!” Ethan knocked on the flower shop where she was working. Y/n looked up and shocked that it was her best friend here. She ran outside and gave him the tightest hug she could ever give.

“ETHAN!” She shouted and jumped on to his back. Ethan laughed and hold her back tightly. “How have you been? Oh my gosh, you’re growing back your wings.” Y/n exclaimed while grabbing a hold of his hair.

“This is weird, did you miss me so much that you did not ask me about my little brother?” He said while nudging her ribs with his elbow. She nudged him back harder and muttered, “Shut up.”

“Oh god, what happened between you and Gray?” He asked with his hand on his chest while Y/n sat beside him on the porch in front of the flower shop.

“You’re so dramatic.” She rolled her eyes and slapped his chest lightly with her head hung low.

“You’re not answering the question, Y/n.” He said while poking on her cheeks.” He said softly after sensing that the matter was serious.

“Hmm, what happened with you and Emma?” She smirked trying to cover up her eyes that are welling up with tears.

“Quit changing the subject and answer the damn question.” He said seriously after seeing a tear rolled down her face.

“I feel like Gray is different.” She mumbled softly.

“Different?” Ethan asked confused.

“It’s hard to explain, E.” She took a deep breath and Ethan pulled her into a hug. Y/n cried on to his arms and Ethan held her tight. She was shaking and Ethan rubbed her back in a comforting manner.

“Grayson adores and loves you. There’s not a single day when he shut up about you.” He said sincerely and Y/n cried even more.

“Everything will be okay, I’ll talk to him soon.” He said while squeezing her shoulders lightly. “You cannot get rid of us that soon.” He said jokingly and Y/n chuckled.

“Damn it.” She said while continuing the act. The both of them stared at each other and burst out laughing out loud.

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When Y/n walked back to her house with her heart feeling lighter, she was happy for once that her best friend was back. She opened her door and saw flower petals trailing across the floor. There was a note beside them.

FOLLOW THE TRAIL

She smiled as she saw the familiar handwriting of her boyfriend’s. She walked inside and saw Grayson holding up a big stuff teddy bear with a bouquet of flower.

“Grayson?” She called out his name. Grayson smiled and said, “Hello, Gorgeous.” How she missed that nickname rolling out of his tongue. Y/n put down all her things and ran into him. Her arms enclosing his broad shoulders. Grayson was stunned for a moment before he threw the teddy bear and flower on her bed and snaked his arms around her waist.

The tears that was held up rolled down her cheeks and Grayson could her shaking under his hold. She was grasping his shoulders tightly, afraid that he would leave her anytime possible. Grayson returned the gesture and hid his face on the crook of her neck.

“I missed you so much.” He whispered while peppering soft kisses on her shoulders.

They pulled away and Grayson wiped her tears using his thumb, caressing her cheeks lightly. He smiled and nudge her nose with his. He pressed his lips against her cheeks softly and muttered, “I’m so sorry, Y/n.”

He pulled away shook his head, “I’m an asshole.”

Y/n pulled his head up and looked at him straight in the eye, “Grayson Bailey Dolan, you’re not an asshole.” Grayson’s lips twitch and he whispered softly, “I was being insensitive and took you for granted and I’m so sorry.” His eyes were red because he was silently crying but Y/n pulled the end of her jacket and wiped them away.

“D-Don’t leave me.” He stammered as his heart was beating faster and he was afraid that the love of his life would ask him to leave her house right now. Little did he know, Y/n couldn’t live without him and likewise.

“I’m not leaving, Gray.” She said while hugging him once more, a sigh of relief escaped through his lips and he hugged Y/n once more.

“It’s not that easy for you and your twin brother to get rid of me.” She said cheekily. Grayson squeezed her hips once more and said, “You’re impossible and I don’t deserve you.”

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Happenstance Ch. 3

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Summary:  Emma celebrates a special occasion with her closest friends and makes a decision that will bring some changes to her life. *There is an attack in this chapter, nothing too explicit, not sexual in nature.* Oh, and Neal is a huge asshole in this chapter.

Chapter 3

Emma and Killian continued on just as they had before; if nothing else, the argument had brought them closer together. Emma did begin to have lunch with Killian and his friends, and they quickly fell into a close knit group. Despite having almost nothing in common, Emma and Mary Margaret hit it off immediately. She got along great with David who had a bit of that same chip on his shoulder as she and Killian. He’d been a bit luckier though, since he had been adopted out of the system.  

“I’ll be seventeen next month, and Neal wants to have a party at his dad’s house,” Emma said to the group, “I was wondering if you guys want to come?”

“Uh, I don’t know,” Mary Margaret said. “I’d love to celebrate your birthday, Emma, but I don’t like that family. There’s something dark about them.”

“Jesus Christ, Mary Margaret,” David chuckled, “don’t sugarcoat it or anything. Sorry Emma, I know it’s blunt, but I do agree with her. Maybe we can do something before?”

“Sure,” Emma answered, trying to mask her disappointment that her friends wouldn’t be there among the swarm of Neal’s less than stellar group he surrounded himself with. “How about you, Killian?”

“Of course Swan, although I don’t know if Neal will appreciate me being there?”

“Since when do you give a shit about what Neal thinks? I want you there, he can deal with it if he really wants to celebrate my birthday.”

Killian smiled at her, wondering if maybe she wasn’t outgrowing her attachment to Neal. “Then I’ll be there.”

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“Come on, Swan, you’re going to be late for your own party,” Killian teased as he knocked on her bedroom door. When she didn’t answer, he knocked again. That’s when he heard her sniffling. “I’m coming in.”

“Okay,” she said in a small voice.

She was laying on her bed, eyes filled with tears. Even crying and puffy, she looked beautiful in her pale pink dress. Her hair was up in a high ponytail and her makeup was light and elegant, showing off her angular cheekbones, and elongated eyelashes.

“You’re only seventeen, love, why are you crying? I thought women did that when they turn like, forty,” he joked, trying to get a laugh out of her. He sat down on the edge of her bed and took her hand in his.

Emma giggled, despite herself. Sitting up, she dried her eyes and looked at her friend; he did cut quite the image in his customary black leather jacket and jeans. “I see you got dressed up for the occasion.”

“Well, when you’re as devilishly handsome as I am, there is no need for bells and whistles.” Killian smiled his wide smile, cocking his eyebrow as if daring her to disagree.

She nudged him with her shoulder, “So cocky.”

“Is it really being cocky, if it’s true?”

“Oh my gosh, Killian, you’re impossible. Come on, let’s go before we’re late to meet David and Mary Margaret.”

“You sure you’re alright, Emma?”

She looked at him with wide eyes, it always shook her a little when he used her given name; it was rare. “I will be,” she smiled.

“Wait, I forgot one thing.”

Emma turned around and raised her eyebrows in question.

“You look stunning in that dress,” Killian said, blushing from his neck all the way up to his ears.

“Thank you,” Emma said shyly. She grasped the sides of the dress, holding it out, and twirled around. “Ingrid got it for me, for my birthday.” Grabbing Killian’s hand, she led him out the door. They walked the short distance to David’s house, which was where they’d decided to meet up.

It was a nice afternoon; the four hung out, talked and laughed, and had a nice meal prepared by David’s mom, Ruth.

“You are so lucky,” Emma told David wistfully, “she’s a wonderful lady.”

“I got lucky,” he agreed, “it doesn’t mean I don’t still wonder why, and who they are.”

“Sometimes knowing is not all it’s cracked up to be,” Killian said offhandedly.

They all bombarded him with questions of what do you mean, each in their own words.

“Wouldn’t you lot like to know.” He avoided their questioning looks, suddenly sorry he’d mentioned it.

“Perhaps I would,” Emma said looking into his eyes.

Letting out a sigh, he thought about the simplest answer he could give. “I just mean that even when you do know who and why, it doesn’t always make it better.”

“Do you-” Emma started to ask.

Ruth came into the room at that moment carrying a cake; it was an elegant swan painted in frosting, and said Happy Birthday, Emma! in a flowing font. Tears burned at the corner of her eyes as she watched Ruth set the cake down in front of her. When they started singing to Emma, her tears overflowed, she couldn’t remember the last time she’d had Happy Birthday sung to her. Staring at her small group of friends, she was overwhelmed, this was the nicest thing anyone had ever done for her.

“Make a wish, sweetie,” Ruth told her.

Focusing on the flames atop the cake, Emma made her wish, squeezed her eyes shut and blew out the candles. She opened up her eyes when they all clapped. “Thank you,” she whispered, her voice strained by tears.

After eating the delicious cake, Mary Margaret handed a gift to Emma.

“You didn’t have to do this,” Emma spoke reverently, cherishing the gift before she even knew what it was.

“We wanted to,” Mary Margaret told her, “it’s from all of us.”

Opening the gift, Emma was brought to tears again when she saw the gorgeous swan pendant on a silver chain. “It’s beautiful!” she exclaimed through her tears. “Help me?” she asked, holding the necklace out to Killian.

He fastened it around her neck, and Emma held the pendant against her chest, “All I’ve done is cry all damn day, but I swear, this is the best birthday ever you guys.”

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Half an hour later Emma and Killian were strolling to her next birthday celebration, chatting about possible plans for the future.  

Outside of being on his own in a year, and then possibly joining the service like his brother, Killian hadn’t ever given much thought to the future. Since Liam’s death, the future was nothing special, it was just there. After today though, he was starting to see that maybe a little planning and thought couldn’t hurt where the next years of his life were concerned.

Emma, on the other hand was just starting to realize there were possibilities for the future.  Nothing had made that more evident than chatting with Mary Margaret today. They seemed to have it all figured out, Mary Margaret wanted to be an elementary school teacher, and David was going to be a police officer. Mary Margaret would attend the University of Maine, and David would apply for the local Police Academy. Maybe there was more out there for her, too.

They were so engrossed in the topic of possibilities that Killian was oblivious to where they actually were, right up until he found himself face to face with a place he never wanted to see again. “Why are we here?”

“Umm, this is Neal’s place.”

“I can’t go in there,” he spoke tightly.

She could hear the anger in his tone. “Killian, for me? I thought we were past this.”

“This has nothing to do with you and that sack of shite you call your boyfriend, Swan.”

“Goddamnit Killian, it’s been a great day. Please just come in with me, or at least stay out here and wait for me?”

“Look, you don’t understand-”

“Oh, now I don’t understand? And I just have to accept it?”

“Really Emma, you don’t understand, I used to live here, this is the group home I came from. I don’t want to talk about it right now. If Gold is Neal’s father, then I wholeheartedly agree with David and Mary Margaret; this is a bad family to be caught up with. If Gold sees me here, all hell will break loose.”

Emma was silent, she didn’t understand what Killian was talking about, but she knew she trusted him. “Okay, I believe you. Neal’s parents aren’t home though. Let’s go in, we won’t stay too long, but I need to talk to Neal.”

“You’re sure they’re not home?”

“Yes, Neal said they’re out of town for the weekend.”

Killian reluctantly followed her into the place he had once called home. There were rows of liquor bottles and several kegs, and it reeked of pot and cigarette smoke. “Swan, I’ll be out back, when you’re ready, let me know.”

“Okay,” she nodded at him, “I’ll come get you.”

Killian sat out back ensconced in darkness. He couldn’t believe this was the life Emma wanted to associate herself with. She was so much better than all of this. He was deep in thought on how he could make her see that very fact, because her self esteem was the only thing holding her to these shitty choices.

“That hurts, Neal!”

Killian heard Emma’s voice whisper yelling before he saw them. Neal was squeezing Emma’s bicep, dragging her through the back door. He pulled her over to the farthest side of the house, shrouded by a weeping willow tree, then none too gently pushed her up against the siding, placing both his hands against the wall on either side of her head.

Killian got up from his spot in the corner of the yard, ready to step in if needed. He didn’t want to overstep his bounds and piss Emma off, but he wasn’t about to let this douchebag hurt her either.

“What the Fuck, Em?” he questioned, invading her space.

“You’re drunk, get away from me.”

“Is this because of that pretty boy, Killian,” he sneered, grabbing at the swan pendant that rested on her chest.

“This has everything to do with you. It’s been over for a long time.”

“Is that right?” Neal chuckled darkly. “How about it’s not over, until I say it’s over.” He loomed over her menacingly and pulled her roughly into his arms.

“This is exactly the shit I’m talking about. You try to control me, you don’t want me around anyone else, you don’t treat me the way I deserve to be treated.” Emma struggled against his squeezing grip, it was getting harder to inhale. Her heart was beating out of her chest as she started to panic a little.

Killian was proud of her words, even though he could hear that slight bit of fear indicative of someone who was treading unsteady ground. If he had to guess, he’d say she’d never spoken against Neal before.

“The way you deserve?” Neal laughed, his sickly drunken breath panting roughly against her face. “You don’t deserve anything Emma, you are nothing. No one has ever wanted you. I was the best thing you had going for you. Who’s going to want a trashy orphan whose own parents didn’t want her.” He grabbed her necklace and ripped it away from her neck, tossing it to the ground.

“Fuck you, Neal,” Emma hissed, trying to push him away so she could leave. Tears welled up in her eyes, she wasn’t sad, but pissed and embarrassed that she’d allowed herself to be treated like this for so long.

Neal pinned her in again. “What the fuck,” he roared when he felt a hand on his shoulder pulling him back. “Oh, speak of the devil,” Neal scoffed.

“Come on, Emma, let’s go.” Killian ignored Neal and held his hand out to Emma.

Stepping away from the wall, she reached for Killian’s hand, but before she could take it, Neal grabbed her and wrenched her back toward him.

“Ouch! Neal you’re hurting me,” Emma cried out.

Before anything else could happen Killian stepped between them, “I’m asking nicely once, let her go.”

“Or what?”

“Or that beating I gave your father will pale in comparison to what I’ll do to you,” Killian threatened. He had no wish to lose his shit like he had with Gold, but God help him, if this asshole hurt Emma.

Neal’s eyes narrowed at this new knowledge, and he let go of Emma’s arm. “You think you can take me, Jones,” he yelled, stepping into Killian’s space and pushing him. “I ain’t my old man.”

“I don’t want to, but I will if I need to.”

Neal pushed him again.

“Come on, let’s go.” Emma held her hand out to Killian, imploring him to take it.

As Killian reached to take it, he felt pain bloom across his jaw.  “Killian!” Emma gasped, rushing to his side. “Are you okay?”

Neal charged at them both, pushing Emma away from Killian’s side, causing her to stumble over a root protruding from the ground, and fall.

A hot rage consumed Killian when he saw Neal’s hands causing Emma pain. He lunged forward, taking Neal to the ground. Punching him hard enough to temporarily subdue him, Killian pinned his shoulders to the ground, giving the piece of shit a chance to yield.  

“You know what man, she’s all yours, she doesn’t put out anyway.”

Killian raised his fist again, ready to put this asshole to sleep, when he felt her gentle hand on his forearm. Turning to look into her eyes, he saw the pleading look. The anger fled his body, and he relented. Getting up, he grabbed her necklace from the ground, took her hand, and they left through the side gate.

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An Old Flame (Hope van Dyne x Reader)

Requested by me: Hope and R meet several years after college and old emotions reignite. 

Words: 1187

"Mommy, we're going to be late for school!" Your daughter Emma was doing her best teenage impression as she whined at you. You could have sworn that you had just seen your keys three seconds ago, but they had managed to escape yet again. Finally, you saw the glint of your keys on a counter that you had just searched. With an exasperated sigh, you grabbed your keys and shooed Emma through the front door. Today was her first day of school in first grade. You could have sworn that she had barely started preschool yesterday, but here she was, all grown up.

Being a single mother has never been an easy job. But when you thought about all the work you had put into being able to adopt Emma, nothing else seemed to matter. Emma was the light of your life, and you would not have it any other way. Looking at your rearview mirror, you saw that Emma had already managed to unzip every zipper on her backpack. With a somewhat exasperated chuckle, you made a mental note to zip up her backpack when you got to the school.

Fortunately, traffic wasn't that bad and you managed to get to the school faster than you planned. There were already a bunch of parents in the parking lot consoling their fretful children. You were glad that Emma didn't require that much emotional attention when it comes to going to school. After helping your daughter out of the car, you knelt in front of her as you started to zip up her backpack.

"Now, you know what to do if you ever get separated from your class, right Emma?"

"I ask another teacher to help and find Mrs. Olsen's classroom."

"Good. Now what happens in case I'm not here to pick you up?"

"I wait where a teacher can see me. I don't leave with anyone unless they know our code word."

"And what's our code word?"

"Geronimo!"

"Good! Now have a good day at school." You handed Emma her backpack as you got up. As you watched her go towards her line, you decided to stay for a few more minutes until she left with her class.

Just as you turned around to leave, a woman standing behind you caused you to stop right in your tracks. It was Hope van Dyne, your old college girlfriend that you fell out of touch with around fifteen years ago. Never in your wildest dreams did you think that you would see her again, much less right after dropping off your daughter for school. The look on her face told you that she never expected to see you again either.

"What...um, what are you doing here?"

"I'm dropping off my son. It seems to me that you're doing the same thing with your daughter."

There was a period of silence as you looked at each other and then looked away. It was like you both wanted to say something, but there was so much history and tension in the air that neither of you could actually say anything.

"Would you....uh, would you like to get a coffee with me?" You were prepared for her to say no, and your eyes immediately dropped to the ground as the seconds dragged on. Of course, she would say no, wasn't breaking up with you enough of a hint?

"Yes, yes I would love that." Hoping that your surprise wasn't too evident on your face, you smiled as the two of you exchanged numbers and drove your separate ways.

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You didn't expect Hope to actually call you and hold you to the coffee date that you had brought up. It had been three months, and Hope had been consistent about wanting to see you at least twice every week. Looking at the woman sitting directly across from you, you could have sworn that you were 21 again. Even though you and Hope haven't spoken to each other in fifteen years, it really did feel like not a day has passed since you were still dating each other. Seeing Hope laugh at stories of Emma made your heart flutter despite your best efforts. In an attempt to mask your feelings, you always took a quick sip of your coffee and looked away.

"So what do you do for work now?"

"I work for the government. A little bit of research, and a little bit of everything else."

"Ah, well. That's good. Science has always been your thing, so I'm not surprised that the government scooped you up. Does the 'everything else' fall under the top secret category?"

"Yes, yes it does. How did you know?"

"Well, when we were in college you would always go on about how much you wanted to go on assignments for the government. Most of those assignments would be top secret, so it just makes sense I guess."

"If I recall correctly, we had a lot of good times back in the day. Do you remember when we got so drunk at Emmett's that we had a wedding ceremony at his place?"

"Oh gosh, yes! He even took out his phone and got certified online so that he could perform the ceremony. We made rings out of plastic bag ties. It was a good night, even though we had the worst hangovers the next morning."

Hope gave you a little smile as she studied you. Even now, you could sense that Hope could read your feelings effortlessly, even when you were doing your best to hide how you felt. "It was nice...talking you again like this. I've missed our talks."

"Me too. We were good together."

This brought about a period of silence as neither of you could look each other in the eye. Finally, Hope quietly asked, "Why did we break up? Why did we end up going our separate ways? We were a good team."

"As I recall, you were the one who was pretty adamant about leaving. You never really gave me a clear reason, but I was left with a feeling that I was no longer good enough to be in your life."

Hope looked ashamed as she remembered how your breakup went about. "You were always good enough. Most of the time I felt that you were too good for me."

"Well, I certainly didn't feel that way when we broke up."

"I had a lot of personal issues back then. Even though I wanted to go out on my own, I know that you were always the one for me. When I was with you, I always felt that things were effortless and that I could trust you with whatever."

"I've always thought about how you've been too."

"Do you think we'll ever get back to the way things were back in college? I want to try to make things work if you're willing."

"I don't know, it depends."

"On what?" Hope seemed confused as to what you were referring to.

"Whether that marriage we had in college was legitimate or not."

"It can if you want it to be."