#i want to scream cry to i t

[etchedstars]

new life goal: go to a boygenius concert to scream cool about it

[angelkeitai]

you. presidential artist. right here. in the dash. draw a first lady im begging you. draw a first lady PLEASE

[amphypan]

WOW ITS TIGER AND BUNNY 2 COUR 2 DAY

HAPPY TIGER BUNNY DAY!!! AAAAAA-

[kindheartedgummybears]

you wanna know what??

I am

TIRED

of overmasculinized werewolves!!!!

I WANNA SEE A

WEREWOLF

WALKING AROUND IN A CVNTY LITTLE OUTFIT!!! WALKING THE STREETS!!!! DISEMBOWELING CREATURES!!!!

I WANNA SEE WEREWOLVES COVERED IN BLOOD AND GORE WHILE WEARING A SHORT SKIRT AND CROPTOP WITH HELLO KITTY ON IT!!!!

I WANNA SEE A WEREWOLF WALKING AROUND IN COTTAGE AND FAIRY AND PRINCESS CORE OUTFITS!!!!!! WITH A DEAD MANGLED RABBIT IN ITS MOUTH!!!!

AND MAKE THE WEREWOLF

D I S G U S T I N G ! ! !

[rooolt]

still talking abt this but like it was Chekhov’s gun right, we always knew it was gonna happen but the fact that it wasn’t because of a roll but because he made the choice, that’s what gets me so hard

[caenith]

What do you mean I have to wait for the next book in the series? 😭

How exactly should I do that? 😭

[crossbackpoke-check]

a junkyard dog ain't always pretty but you always love that toothless smile

[thanatos-nightshade]

Im so sorry i played Our Life: beginnings and always and not only has it sucker punched me with bittersweet feelings of life and change and relationships but its also thrown me into brain rot hell of it. Im sorry if ocean boy cove floods your feed get it? Its a pun

[one4sorrow]

So I tried to go out on a walk and I regret it.

Its always nice when i first get out of the house. Even as foggy as I've been the sun still feels nice on my skin. But its late, and I really should have known better then to think it would stay good

Charlotte stopped by on my the foggy walk. i twas nice to be able to talk to her again. i hate how the whole thing makes me feel though

i always feel a little cold when she stops by. it feels like a little piece of me gets leached away when the fog rolls in. its that cold feeling that reminds me just how fucked up ia m as a person. charlotte seems so...peaceful, i guess

why can i be that?

she isnt stressed out or anxious anymore, she just seems peaceful. content.

i wish i could do that, that when the fog rolls back out and she fades away i could do the same and go with her to wherever she goes.

im so tired of feeling like this. of having to wake up every day and hear my brothers talk about the latest problem or think about how my own mother thinks im just as bad as my oldest brother because of all this custody shit

i wish i could make it stop, the feeling of my skin crawling when i go outside by myself too close to dark.

i hate how till she was there i just couldnt be alone without wondering if every shadow was going to grow hands and claws and hurt me agian

i want this to be over, i want to learn to fly and leavce all this behind

[surviveds]

okay. tommy posting! a masterpost of introductory hcs for my portrayal. i might expand on specific points in different posts because i have a lot of thoughts and feelings.

first and foremost: tommy is closer to 50 than 40. lou is 39 but it doesn't make sense with the canon they've provided in s7 for tommy to be the same age, because if he was, that'd mean he was ~19 in '05 during chim begins and that's just not possible with him also having served (he's clearly not a probie and it seems like he's been at the 118 for years at that point). i'm putting him at maybe 45 or 46.

i do take a lot of inspiration from what lou has had to say about him. he's an only child of shitty parents who didn't really want to be parents, and that had a profound impact on him.

his dad was a miserable man and mediocre cop who felt bad about being mediocre and took it out on his wife and son.

tommy actually did fairly well in school, hoping it'd help assist in his plan of Getting Out, but things really didn't go his way on the college front and he felt trapped, which is what led him to enlisting.

and for the most part, he operated fairly well in the military. it was good to have order. and he was already accustomed to being treated terribly - but it was a little different because at least it wasn't his dad. he did his job and kept to himself, at least for a while, until he started a 'relationship' with another soldier. it was toxic and pretty terrible, overshadowed by DADT, and it ended pretty brutally. tommy had already become pretty disillusioned to the army by the point it ended, but it was another major factor in him getting out the first chance he got.

when he was discharged, he didn't even bother going home. he went to LA, choosing it as his new city because it felt very safe due to its size. it felt like a place that'd be easy to disappear and be just another guy.

he didn't immediately jump to a career with the LAFD. he had a few months of trying to figure his shit out, contemplating if he should finally try to go to college - but it was scary to think about so he ended up dropping the idea. he went through some basic jobs before applying to LAPD impulsively. army to police felt like a natural transition, and he thought maybe it would be a way to actually 'serve' his country, because being overseas doing shitty things for people who wouldn't give him good reasons hardly felt like 'service.' and he did make it through training, got a beat - but he realized pretty quickly that being a cop also wasn't for him. he stuck with it for a few months, though, because he was terrified of feeling lost and at least it was something and he did get to help people, sometimes. because he realized he did like helping people - and when, on one shift, he assisted some firefighters in helping rescue some kids from a wrecked car, and suddenly, a lot of things clicked for him. he turned in his badge and applied to the fire department a week later.

being in the army and then a cop means he wasn't surprised by the culture at the 118. he knew how to blend in well by that point. he knew what part to play to survive. and he does feel really bad about it. he worked hard to make peace with hen and chimney, and they're two people who are incredibly important to him - hen, because she was formative in helping him understand that he can be himself, and chimney because of course he wouldn't be alive without him.

(i also want to point out that i believe he briefly had a crush on chimney. but with all of the repression going on he refused to really recognize it. it did slightly contribute to him not wanting to be around chimney at first, though.)

tommy first acknowledged to himself that he was gay just before he put in for a transfer. of course he understood he was attracted to men long before that point; he'd had secret flings - not just the one in the military - but he'd still tried to be with women. he wanted to believe he was bisexual for a long time and that he could just 'suppress one side of it', but it didn't work. when he accepted he was gay, he put in for a transfer because he felt it'd be easier to start over at a new house. it was a very tough decision, because hen and howie had become family, and he had started to form a relationship with bobby... but he knew this was what he needed to be himself. he didn't have some big announcement about his identity like hen did when he transferred, but he didn't make efforts to hide it, either.

buck is the first firefighter he's dated, though. his prior relationships post-coming out were all with civilians - a few of which, yes, originated from meeting on calls. after the third time, though, he really felt it was a bad idea to continue that pattern. for him, personally, it felt like almost like a power imbalance, and he hated constantly wondering if the guys he was seeing just felt indebted.

he kept up with the 118 even after leaving - mostly because it's hard not to, with how often they make the news, but also because he genuinely does care about a lot of the people there. he reached out to chim after the car accident and the stabbing, and to hen after her accident.

[bitterpngs]

i want lip piercings so bad

[foxcassius]

being back in okayama is really cool and is weird only because it doesnt feel weird. i still know where everything is here and i sort of feel like i never left. all of our friends, too, have said while meeting up that it feels like picking up right where we left off. but that is, in itself, weird, because the last time i was chilling here with jake and our friends, he and i werent dating, and now we are, so i get a little caught up sometimes in thinking things are just as they used to be (happy style) and then look over at jake and remember that in addition to everything being pleasantly the same, we get to kiss now.

[panda-of-the-trash]

Fuck online exams

[our-inspire-verse]

Literallyyyyy brought to my knees. What am i to do? What do i even want.

I'm afraid captain!

Be not so. I know.

Stop it Mitten. I'm frustrated and afraid. What do you know? Telling me is making it worse. You STUPId hoe.

Poetry or rant or vent. Fucking idk.

But what do i have and when is it not? What makes it pop and what's gonna make it rot?

Maybe not. Maybe not. Gonna bite someone. Please god im brought to my knees this capitalist hellscape is bringing me no rest. I want to smoke. My body is fighting me every step of the way. Pulling back like a dog on a leash. My collar is up around my ears and the blood is pumping until they're ringing. Even if i stop pulling, i can't breathe. Im in limbo!

This is about everything. And i still dont have a car. But mitten says im not that far. Do i trust her? What is climaxing in February and please stop responding "me, hopefully" if you know something. Strangers will scroll past like. Huh? Lovers will know.

I don't. I don't know. I'm the exception. But I'm definitely still a lover, as lovers often go.

[derpu-doodles]

(pats the top of his head) this guy can fit So Much Sadness in him

whoops I popped off in the tags