#i want to love him so deeply that he doesnt care about the fear of loss anymore.
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i actually have a hard time understanding childe's character and is mostly because of other people's takes + im like so scared of mischaracterizing him
#like when ppl where saying he doesnt kill and people were calling that mischaracterisation#and then they turned around and called him a sociopath who doesnt care about others (sooo not true its painful)#its not that its a middle ground- both versions are just. not him#i think childe kills not because he's some homicidal maniac but because its his duty to the tsaritsa#and while he does not do it on text from my pov is like heavily implied? yk? her majestys weapon?? feared in battle?#but the word duty is important#i think childe wants to be good- more than anything#he wants to be a good brother and a good son and a good comrade#and being a harbinger is what has allowed him to do so#being her majesty's weapon is both a prision and liberty for him#he can take care of his family. he can find strong opponents. he can gain strength.#he cant make meaningful connections with others. he cant always do the work he wants to do. he cant (always) be the good guy#last part is the most important to me. its clear during liyue he didn't enjoy putting innocents at risk#but he does so anyway- out of duty#and here is My Interpretation: childe knows his position and knows it will force him to hurt others#which he doesnt enjoy#and to cope with that he seems to have convinced himself that if he only hurts those who are bad then it means he himself is not bad#for childe that is enough. except we know it isnt#the fatui is a deeply unethical organization- even if their goals are pure their means arent and we know that#childe thinks that separating himself from his coworkers and just trying to hurt those who he (or the fatui) deems as bad is enough#but it isnt enough ! because he still is contributing to said organization- he is by extenction enabling their unethical actions#he isnt good#and thats what i love about him#him not killing wouldnt make sense because then what is his internal struggle? why is then that the older members of his family hold +#so much contempt for him#if he were just a silly malewife who just likes to battle - why would his father have sent him to the fatui in the first place#along the same vein him enjoying killing and finding no issue with it wouldnt make sense either#because again then where is the conflict- by several voicelines is clear childe doesnt care much about himself / has a low self esteem#childe knows whats right and whats wrong and he knows that what he is and what he does isnt right#yet he still does it. out of naivety or (and i like this answer more) duty
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Writing an essay about the song Beautiful Things and how it relates to Fenn and why having woken up with it stuck in my head is making me cry my gay little eyes out at 8:30am in the morning--
#its the desperation.#its the 'ive finally found good things in my hard life. please please dont take them away from me'#after Eddie dies he *knows* what it means to lose somebody close. the thought of losing me like that shatters him#he wont say it. but he's so scared of losing me. of losing everything he's built his life around.#he's back in contact with parents. he's got a steady job. he's finally FINALLY happy#he beat addiction! he's handled loss! he knows what it means to be down and out! and all he wants.... is to be happy#I want to give him happiness#i want to love him so deeply that he doesnt care about the fear of loss anymore.#god I fucking...... love yhis man with all of my heart#rain rambles#Fenn
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I cannot understate how clever and beautiful Penelope's response to wyfilwma is. In the original myth, Penelope literally isn't sure if the man before her is truly her husband, so she asks him to move a bed that is impossible to move. A fact about their relationship that only he could know. When he gets absolutely flabbergasted over this request, it's proof that it IS him.
In Epic there is only one change. Instead of Penelope being unsure, Odysseus is unsure of himself and feels like he would be unrecognizable to his wife. He keeps telling her over and over again, I am not the man you knew, and it's almost as though he's trying to convince himself, too. Like since he crossed every line he's killed all the gentleness in him, and he has to force himself to accept it. Penelope knows better, Penelope knows him. Instead of using their wedding bed as a way to prove it to herself, she proves it to him instead.
"See that wedding bed? Could you carry it over?
Lift it high on your shoulders and take it far away from here"
Shes talking about their bed but she is also talking about their love, their history, everything that makes up their marriage. Its like shes asking him, if you truly are someone else- here's everything that we used to be, everything that we built together, throw it out. You're not the same, right? Then surely you can detach yourself from it all.
But he cant. he cant he cant he cant and she knows that. The shock and the outrage and the pain of being asked to do such a thing hits him with a full force and he talks of how he made the bed, what its meant to them, why he couldnt possibly move it away.
"Do you realize what you have asked me?
The only way to move it is to cut it from its roots"
To cut it from the roots would be to sever their love entirely, it cant exist without what came before and what came before was the two of them. He fears thats what she wants, a completely uproot of their life together. But the fact that he fears it, truly deeply cares like a sentimental bastard, the fact that he could never not be the man who loves her is what she's been trying to show him all along.
"Only my husband knew that
So I guess that makes him you"
like my GOD. THIS LINE. He cannot be anything but her love because he is the only man who knows what they are to each other. She says it and that is final. Moving it is impossible because seperating the man he used to be from the man he is is impossible too. They are one in the same.
"I will fall in love with you over and over again
I don't care how, where, or when
No matter how long it's been, you're mine
Don't tell me you're not the same person
You're always my husband and I've been waiting, waiting"
She is not loving him by ignoring the trail of bodies in his wake and her love does not change the carnage-- in fact she is the reason for it, she knows this and she doesnt care. This is her husband now and always. And as long as bloodied hands will still hold her weaving ones he is the same exact man she's been waiting for.
It is such a beautiful message to leave your audience with. It is so perfect for Penelope as a character and the emotional weight this song has elevated my understanding of the odyssey and their relationship. Twenty years is so long, everything has changed, we have done unforgivable things to get home to each other-- because our home is each other. You are sharp and cruel and I am cunning and so so angry and we are both so tired but guess fucking what, I love you. No matter how long its been, youre mine.
#epic the musical#epic the ithaca saga#odypen#this is my tribute to this musical <3 i was gonna draw something but analysis felt more fitting#i cannot breathe when i think about this song#ill miss you epic saga releases :(
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a semi lengthy post on the relationship between the drakes:
disclaimer: I am too lazy to find more panels than what I already have so u kinda have to just trust me when I say stuff which works a lot better over on twitter where people actually Know Me but. I will cite the panels I have used and highly encourage u all to read robin 1993.
I know this is an unpopular opinion but I think the dc fandom, the part that actually reads the comics, does way too big of a pendulum swing on fanon’s crazy abusive drakes thing. I do think the drakes neglect tim and neglect is a form of abuse. it’s not inaccurate to call the drakes abusive. I do however think calling them abusers is a stretch.
the fanon portrayal IS inacurate, I feel mainly due to the fact that they leave out how much love they all had for each other. and you can see that shown over and over again. especially the way jack speaks to tim right after janet's death and with jack’s reaction tim being stranded in no man’s land.
(batman (1937) #480)
(robin (1993) #72)
is his reaction in no man’s land a dramatic one? yes. is it unwarranted? not at all. for all jack knows, tim could die. and his response to that is anger. something any parent fearful of losing their kid would exhibit. he clearly cares deeply about tim’s wellbeing, in fact, he cares so much he makes sure the news of tim being trapped in no man’s land is shown on every station.
(robin (1993) #72)
which, while embarrassing for tim, ends up being pretty much the sole power no man’s land comes to an end. go dad power!
(robin (1993) #73)
in addition to that, tim clearly mourns his parents. not that you cant mourn an abuser, but that’s not what this is.
(detective comics (1937) #621)
(identity crisis (2004) #6)
not to mention, of course, that tim did have mrs. mac when the drakes were on trips. he was not left home alone edit: I have since been corrected by the lovely spoilerjpeg that mrs. mac was not hired until after jack drake woke up from his coma. it is assumed that tim was at boarding school during these years, given the drakes did not have a place of permanent residence before.
in contagion, when tim is literally on his death bed he hallucinates his family, alive, happy, together, and aware of his identity. he misses his mom. he very clearly loves her, and he sees himself running up into her arms.
(the batman chronicles (1995) #4 - begger's banquet)
tim's identity remains a point of tension, as tim desperately wants to reveal it to his dad, but cant, as it would compromise the identities of the rest of the bat family. you see this illustrated as early as batman 480 which I reference in this post multiple times, and the issue of robin in their relationships remains up until the death of jack drake. it hits a peak in issue 124 of robin 93, where jack discovers tim's identity and is well, upset. saddened. afraid. his first thought isn't anger, it's immense grief. he's clearly afraid of losing tim, he mourns the him. and this panel is later paralleled with tim's reaction to jack's death. jack doesn't even blame tim, he instantly goes to bruce, filled with grief and anger. he doesnt know what to do. and how do you threaten bruce wayne or batman? let alone both? bruce has endangered his child for years now, without telling him, and his eyes, forbidden his kid from telling him, this reaction, in my opinion, makes complete sense, and I honestly commend jack drake for it. it takes balls to stand up to bruce/batman and he's doing it for his kid.
(robin (1993) #124)
all this being said, I think the drakes never really wanted to be parents. it’s the expectation of the times. theyre academics, travelers, their lifestyle isnt suited to that of a child’s.
(robin (1993) #11)
(batman (1937) #480) - the note reads: "Dear Dad, I wish could go back and start over again! When I was a kid, I used to dream - to pray - that you and mom would stop travelling, forget business and just settle down. We'd be together, the way a family ought to be... now I have my wish. I'm going to with you all the time. And it's tearing me apart."
tim addresses that letter to "the father I never knew." tim and jack got the chance to rectify that, but tim and janet’s relationship never really had the time to recover from it and I think tim can have an idealized version of her in his head as a result of it.
jack really fails tim in a number of ways. he says he’ll make an effort after janet dies and you expect for that to be a catalyst for him, especially because he actively says it will be, and it isnt.
he does this a number of times. he says he’ll make an effort and then he doesnt. or he ends up making a huge amount of effort all at once and then stops, the cycle repeats. tim learns to expect it.
(batman (1937) #480)
(robin (1993) #15)
later, he goes way too hard on the strict dad thing, which I get, because tim isnt an easy kid by any means, but he forgets that tim has never Had that structure, and he needs to actually build the relationship’s foundation first if he wants to decide to be a parent now, and he never does.
(batman (1937) #480) - the note reads: "Funny. how once you never seemed to care - at least, you never showed me that you did. And now you want to run my life. Do you really think we can start over..?"
jack also often doesnt even give tim the chance to explain himself, even in situations that really weren't his fault.
(robin (1993) #44-45)
it never really ends up being just tim and his dad, because the second jack gets out his coma he brings in dana, and shes honestly what keeps the relationship from not worsening. dana is often the mediator, telling dana to ease up on tim. it’s dana who influences jack to put in an effort. shes the catalyst, not janet’s death.
(robin (1993) #47)
warning for the upcoming pages - mentions of underage (consensual) sex as an unhealthy coping mechanism after an implied sexual assault (from someone outside the relationship)
(robin (1993) #45)
even with her mediating, things are still rough between jack and tim. jack very clearly has no idea how to parent tim, never really having had to before. tim has always been extremely self sufficient, mainly due to his parents' neglect.
(baatman (1937) #480) - the note reads: "I've no idea who you think I am, Dad - but I'm not that boy. I had to fend for myself for a long time. I changed, Dad. I have a lot of... secrets."
jack really never had to discipline tim, mainly as a result of often not being around to do it. which means he is not always the best parent, and not what tim needs. he also misinterprets a lot of tim's behaviours that he has as a result of being robin as a sign of disrespect.
(robin (1993) #45)
dana's presence is also another point of conflict as well, another way tim’s belief that jack will always choose something/someone else over him is reinforced. and he’s not wrong to think it. jack’s neglect of tim continues well after janet dies.
(robin (1993) #12)
I think tim is right to be pissed when jack all of a sudden decides to step up. I think jack’s reactions to tim’s actions make sense, but I cant defend them when he hasnt created the foundation needed to execute that. plus, he switches often between being too strict, with him watching tim too closely and judging him for it, and being neglectful.
I see a lot of people say “tim doesnt make an effort either!” well. Yeah. hes never had to before. and it’s not On Him to make that connection at all. hes the kid. and honestly the effort jack makes, especially in the start, feels like a way to display his masculinity to dana. or just... strange. and maybe not what tim needs, instead being what jack tries to project onto him.
(total justice (1996) #1)
I think sometimes people end up projecting on tim and/or projecting their parents on the drakes and they dont want to acknowledge their own parents’ mistakes, so they defend the drakes'.
the drakes arent bad parents, but they arent good ones either. they're human, at the end of the day. theres a lot of love between the drakes, and a lot of hurt too. it’s very hard to find nuanced conversations about that. I think they have a very realistic relationship, especially given the times.
#dc#dc comics#tim drake#the drakes#janet drake#jack drake#dana winters#robin 1993#batfamily#batfam#thank you nana batgirlT__T on twitter for asking me a question on their relationship#spent hours making this and did not peer edit so if you find any spelling mistakes please god tell me. thanks all#analysis#riley talks comics
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This has been rattling in my mind for a minute and i need to scream about it.
The significance of the item display of the backpacks and how much that defines the QSMP characters.
If you dont know, Leo found out you can display an item in your backpack and show it off. Kinda like a little charm or a keychain. Ever since then, a bunch of people have been displaying items.
Lets start off with the trend setter.
Leo:
Her item is a totem. Obviously this is about Foolish. She spends the most time with Foolish and adores him. They are super close and are super similar. Another reason could be showing off her wealth. Also, a joke that she is immortal (she isnt) and its a bit of a hint to that.
Foolish:
His item is the player head that Leo always wears. Obviously, like Leo, it represents how much he loves Leo and the time they spent together. It also looks like Leo is in his backpack and showing that they are always together (Siempre juntos) no matter what.
Philza:
His item is a skull you can wear on your head. Now theres a lot to interpet here. The obvious one is that this represents Missa. Either that he always chooses Missa or that Missa is with him and Chayanne even if hes away. Again theres a lot to talk about.
Another reason is that death isnt scary for him / death is always there. Philza in general is associated with death (his irl wife's lore is being the goddess of death). With his son on one life for so long and now his granddaughter, he has come to terms with death. He isnt scared of the Code Monster. He will fight until the death no matter what.
Tallulah:
Her item is a poppy. I believe she gives poppies to people she meets for the first time. For me, it represents her innocence. In the way she views the world and how the world views her. Everyone sees her as a sweet girl and is super kind. Majority, if not everyone, always loves her. For her, she always views the world with love. She is told by Wilbur and Phil that her kindness and love is necessary. In a world full of terror and fear, there needs to be love and gentleness
Chayanne:
His item is a potato. For anyone who doesnt know, Chayanne is deeply inspired by Techoblade. Technoblade is known for being a incredible warrior and a great Potato farmer. Please look up his videos. Philza told Chayanne about Techno and again is deeply inspired by him. The potato is a reminder of Chayanne's goals. To help everyone and to protect everyone.
Richarlyson:
His item is a heart container, one used to get an extra heart of health. I have so many emotions about this. I think the main one is that Richarlyson is the heart of the Brazilians / Favela Five. He is the core, for better or for worse. He always loves all his dads. Even recently with how scary everything is, he still loves and trusts his dads.
Forever:
His item is a Nether star. I honestly feel like this defines his character so well. An item that takes a lot of time, resources, and strength to get. Forever has put in that time and effort. His strength shines in his armor and how persistent he is. Also, the nether star is needed to make the highest level of the block reinforcer. Its needed to make everything safe. Forever has shown that over and over again. He wants to make everything safe.
(Update, Richarlyson changed his to a nether star so him and Forever are matching!)
Cellbit:
His item is the universal block remover. I dont know how recent this change is, but I noticed it when he was in his federation office. Just like Forever, this defines his character so well. He is there to break something, either the Enigma or the Federation. He is trying to get inside.
BadBoyHalo:
His item is a Scythe. For anyone who doesnt know, Bad said he is the grim reaper. Either coming to people to remind them to drink water or that he helps guide people to the afterlife. A lot of people thinks that why he cares so much about the eggs. He is the one to transport them to the afterlife.
Mike:
As im making this post, Tazercraft went live and I noticed Mike has a red block in his item display. I dont know a lot of Tazercraft/ Mike's lore. I do know that in tazercraft's game of hide and seek, a red block is represented to show who is the seeker/killer. Maybe it relates to that?
This is everyone I can think of off the top of my head. Theres probably more people who have it, but yeah.
#qsmp#qsmp philza#qsmp forever#qsmp badboyhalo#qsmp cellbit#qsmp chayanne#qsmp foolish#qsmp leonarda#qsmp richarlyson#qsmp mike#qsmp tazercraft#qsmp tallulah
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slender with reader whos easily startled?? so he doesnt even realize when he teleports to them it would be a problem..been on my mind
Pairing: Slenderman x reader
Contains: fluff, Slenderman is the eldritch horror we love, you think he cares or understands human emotion? That's cute.
Unfortunately for you… Slender doesn't care about his own proxies getting slaughtered, so I doubt he'd care if he startled you.
If anything he's glad because those precious seconds you spent gawking with your heart pounding gave him an opening to grip one of his tendrils around your waist.
Now you're dangling upside down with you're face 0.2 inches from his featureless one.
“You smell delicious when you're scared, Darling.”
If you faint that's fine, its easier on him.
Once he's sure you wont run away he will become less antagonistic with his teleportation, usually choosing to appear in front of you rather than jump scaring you from behind.
That is assuming you're let out without him.
I always think Slenderman would easily be one of the most possessive creeps due to the sheer amount of inside knowledge you'd have on the operator because Slender doesn't like letting you go too far from him.
There was absolutely a stretch of time he had you chained to his desk.
Masky, Hoodie, and Toby are all there actively trying to ignore their rising annoyance at the crying/terrified person their boss is currently trying to coax into his lap.
Masky would probably end up whacked upside the head with one of his tendrils because he made a comment about killing you.
Toby would low-key just feel bad for you but keeps it to himself.
Slenderman sometimes forgets about the whole “humans have basic needs” things y’know cause he's not human so imagine his surprise when you tell him you cannot in fact eat raw meat.
He also realizes how careful he has to be with those static headaches after he nearly gave you a brain bleed :(
If you're not a captive but rather one of his proxies you'd be one of the only one he gives a shit about.
Expect near constant jumpscares, your only warning is how silent the forest gets before he materializes.
He almost always puts you in those bullshit page posting duties and you know each time he's gonna try and blend into the trees until he catches you.
Honestly, it's probably his idea of a fun date.
Its even worse when his voice does the telepathy thing, so there's nothing anywhere and then you have a voice IN YOUR HEAD and you STILL CANT SEE ANYTHING.
He genuinely, deeply, adores your fear almost as much as he wants your love.
#creepypasta x reader#creepypasta imagines#creepypasta fanfiction#creepypasta headcannons#slenderman x y/n#slenderman x reader#slenderman imagine
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Hii, how do you think the members would react when they realize that a friend of their crush also has a crush on her? I hope you understood me 😣
hi anon!!! thank you so much for being my first request<3 so sorry this took so long 😭 i hope you still enjoy though its so so late !!!
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xdh — finding out about a friend's crush on you (+ confessing)
genre: fluff as always, light angst (i love to see a man in emotional turmoil)
tags: drabble, ot6, female reader, jealousy/light possessiveness?, pining, starting as friends, friends to lovers, reader is shorter than them, confessions
warnings: none
note: reader is some sort of employee or person that works in their building or around the area for added context ... they see you often even if not directly working with them basically (vaguely gestures). and the friend is kiiiind of rude anyway so he doesnt deserve your time in the first place
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gunil — tries to be respectful, succeeds. (and then fails)
perhaps he's very comfortable in his role as "the responsible one" as the eldest of the group. he tries to embody a role-model for his bandmates when he can, there's a very caring and deeply responsible part of him that naturally comes out. he is not known for being selfish. that being said, when he finds out one of your friends has a crush on you there is a deep urge in him to find you immediately and just confess all the feelings he's kept buried in him for months. it bothers him like mad, because he knows that he shouldn't get in the way of anything or anyone you might be vying for. what if you felt the same way about that friend? what if he made it difficult for you to choose him after confessing? what if he ruined his friendship with you when you didn't feel the same way? there were just so many uncertainties and not enough safety for his comfort, so he chose to suffer in silence, as he was used to doing.
there was a familiarity in being alone with his thoughts that he wasn't sure if he could find the courage to leave behind just yet.
he sits with this feeling for days. he tries to convince himself that he's simply content to see you at all, and wants to be happy for your happiness, though it is so clear to his bandmates that he's not his usual self lately.
it's not until he sees you with said friend that he can't help himself anymore. he hated that you were laughing with him, but he hated his lack of conviction more. he makes up his mind to tell you as soon as he gets the chance because the fear of rejection meant so much less to him than watching you get taken from him right before his eyes without doing anything about it.
and you—you're none the wiser about it all until gunil confronts you that night as you're heading home. the intense look on his face is something you've never seen before, passionate and desperate underneath the warm ambient light of the dimly lit room. it illuminates his face in a way that strikes through your heart. you always found him to be attractive, but tried not to let your feelings unfurl further since you knew that there was not a chance he'd feel the same way, not with all the projects and people he manages on a day to day basis. he was just too busy for romance. but right now in this moment, the way that his eyes are narrowed with a seriousness that you haven't seen from him before sends a shiver up your spine. and not just towards anyone, towards you.
he steps closer to you. you're basically backed up against the wall, your heart beating out of your chest. he's so close you finally get a good look at how his dark eyes are trying to find something in yours—answers. you can't help yourself from putting your hands on his chest and bicep to steady yourself.
"i... i have something to tell you." he speaks so lowly and so desperately it mixes in with the sound of his sharp breaths.
you can barely hear him because all you can focus on is the gentle curvature of his beautiful lips. he notices this, because with his hand he pulls your chin up in order to angle your face to meet his eyes, forcing you to see what sort of distress you've put him through.
for the first time in a long time he's wanted something, no, someone for himself, and you're about to find out what.
jungsu — tries to be respectful, fails immediately
jungsu is the sweetest guy ever. he's always looking out for others and wants the best for him. after finding out about your friend's crush on you, though, something takes over him. you wonder why he's suddenly being so much more attentive and sweet, way more than normal. comedically and somewhat pathetically (in a sopping wet dog with glassy eyes kinda way) offering to carry your things, buying you sweets, praising you—it was even a little much at times. you were starting to get a little annoyed, not because you didn't like it but because you were wondering why the hell he started acting like this out of nowhere.
it's not until you're out shopping with him that you start to connect the dots. you run into the friend-in-question and he sparks up a conversation with you, both of you completely unaware of the growing panic and jealousy growing in jungsu's mind.
to your surprise, the usually soft-spoken and patient guy interjects whatever you two were talking about and grabs your hand, hastily pulling you away into some other random store. at first you're worried that you did something to offend him, but then you notice the embarrassed pout on his face as you two slow down near some unassuming accessory store. he's chewing the inside of his cheek, wondering what possessed him to be so rude (he knows exactly why, he just couldn't stand watching you two get along and got swept up in his emotions). the people already in the store make some shifty glances at you two, some of the aunties even shaking their heads, going 'gosh, another lovers quarrel', but it doesn't reach your ears by how hard you're trying to figure him out right now. he has no explanation for himself, simply looking aimlessly at the assortment of necklaces on the racks and refusing to meet your eye. he doesn't let go of your hand.
"i-i'm sorry, i just ..." he's struggling so hard to find the words. he really should just come out and say it but that would mean confirming his feelings for you right here and now, and there was no way you'd accept considering what reckless thing he did just now. "you ... i just didn't want ..."
a beat of silence, and then a resounding 'oh' pops into your head as you finally realize that it was actually your friend that was the problem for him. you smile at his shaking visage. how cute.
what happens next is in your hands, the same ones that are fit so perfectly in his warm, nervous palms. you're glad the group of aunties left before you could do this.
the air feels electrifying. you pull him closer and stand on your tippy toes and he's watching you do this so adorably but it doesn't compute in his head until he finally feels the plush feeling of your lips against his, and suddenly he feels right again. this is what he's been waiting for this whole time.
gaon — gets clingy
jiseok has always been physically clingy. he shows his love and affection by quite literally hanging onto you, through hugs or wrapping his arm around yours. it is very casual and very natural for him to do that with people he loves. emotionally, however, he's a bit more withdrawn than expected. he likes his alone time. he likes you more. but, he is so painfully unaware of it. so when he finds out that your friend has a crush on you, the petty side of him that simmers at the surface of his mind really comes through without him doing it intentionally. it becomes an increasingly common occurrence for you to receive a text from him that goes along the lines of "are you busy friday? :)", or "there's a new movie i wanna see, can we hang soon?" because he thinks you'll genuinely enjoy what he had planned for you, and not because of any other reason.
this, of course, is his way of getting you away from that guy who's trying to get with you. honestly, he thinks he's boring and won't treat you right. there's really no one in your circle that he deems worthy for you.
you're more than happy to spend time with him. but it starts to get to a point where you're wondering 'what are we' when he starts to get a little more clingy, more so than his usual friendly self. his hands linger a little longer on yours, his eyes seem to follow your every move and he's smiling at you in a way that holds so much adoration that your heart starts beating faster.
when you text him that you can't hang because you feel bad you keep blowing off the friend-in-question, who had asked for your time today already, he sulks like crazy. he knows he shouldn't be so childish about it but it sucks because you're his best friend and you're wasting your time on him and he's going to confess to you and then you're gonna start dating each other and then you'll get married and go away forev—oh. oh man.
he quickly grabs his jacket and runs to your place before you can even think about leaving for your outing.
you see him show up to your front door and almost collapse to his knees, leaning an arm on the frame of your front door. "what the hell— jiseok?! are you okay?" and he's heaving so hard he can barely speak, "yeahi'mfineILOVE. YOU. ohgodmyribs. DON'T. GOTOHIM. i just. foundoutiloveyou. stay. right here". you can barely believe what he's saying, not only because he's huffing and puffing, but because you really had no idea he felt the same about you. the silence worries him because he looks up to see your confusion, or worse, hesitance, and through his labored breath and takes your hand in his. on one knee as if asking for your hand in marriage, "stay with me. please," and you can't help but laugh when it finally all clicks. this is such a dramatically jiseok way to profess feelings to someone. you're definitely gonna bring this up again.
but for now, with a bright smile, you give his hand a reassuring squeeze, "come in. let's get you some water."
o.de — kicks himself into action
finding out is a wake-up call to him. he kicks himself for getting complacent. it's not that he didn't think other guys would be into you or anything, just that he didn't think it would happen so soon. he put off his feelings for you constantly because he feared ruining things between you two, but now that there was another guy in your radar it meant that he had to be on high alert. he immediately starts thinking about the best way to confess to you, and fast because who knows if this guy is going to sweep you off your feet out of nowhere.
he's trying to plan something grand and a little cheesy because he thinks, no, knows that you deserve to be appreciated. he would yell his love for you from the rooftops if he could. he's thinking about it so much that you stop hearing from him for a couple days. his absence lingers in the air around you and you start to wonder why it feels so heavy without him around, because wasn't he just a friend?
you get your hopes up when your phone pings with a text—but it's not from seungmin. there's a dull ache in your heart when you see it's from the friend-in-question. you're disappointed but don't want to take it out on him, so you say yes to dinner. you go with him, and clearly he's trying to make a move on you by spoiling you with a nice meal and compliments, but you just can't get your mind off of seungmin and what he's doing right now. you end the date, which was more just like him talking at you, by rejecting him. you're wondering if he was just friends with you to try and get a chance with you, and it hurt a little.
then, it happens. your phone buzzes as you're about to leave the restaurant. it's seungmin. as soon as you pick up he sounds out of breath and desperate. "where are you right now?!" and you answer honestly, about the date and how it ended, and how you missed talking to him. "stay right there, i'm coming."
he picks you up from the restaurant, having drove there in a hurry. there's roses and chocolate on the dashboard as if he were going on a date himself and you know immediately who it's for by the look on his face and the slight sheen of sweat like he'd been worried sick about something.
there's not even a moment that passes while in the car before you both can't help yourselves anymore, having the first real taste of what you two felt for each other, sealed with a kiss.
junhan — withdraws himself
junhan has always been quiet, but you were starting to love getting to have late night conversations with him about life itself, your place in the the universe and who's your favorite character in dungeon meshi. he seemed to open up when he was around you and you loved getting to pick apart his mind. you felt that you both were able to keep up each other's intellectual abilities, and it was refreshing.
so when he suddenly reverts back to the shy personality he had when you first met him, you know something's wrong. you're trying to figure out how to confront him about it without making him curl back into his shell even more.
in his mind, on the other hand, he's doing you a favor. after finding out that your friend has a crush on you, the one that is so much more extroverted and good at holding up conversations, he thinks its best that he takes a step back so he wouldn't be taking up space in your life that could be reserved for your friend. he throws himself into work even more so than before, using it as an excuse to avoid you so it doesn't hurt as much when you inevitably start dating that stupid guy. but that doesn't mean he stops watching and analyzing, watching to see if that guy really, truly was good enough for you.
and of course, he wasn't. call it intuition or just plain logic, junhan noticed how he very often seemed to talk over you. it bothered him to know that there's a possibility that you'd be happier with your friend, but it bothered him more to think about you unhappy with him, because at least junhan would actually notice if you were.
that wouldn't do at all. while junhan is very rational he absolutely does not mess around when it comes to you. the friend-in-question is busy chatting away while you're forced to listen to him. you think he's a nice guy, but he was the type of person who was more used to talking at someone rather than to them. you never really felt heard when speaking to him, unlike with junhan who took every word you said into account, making sure you knew your thoughts mattered to him.
junhan, with tingling fingertips and an audacity that could only be stirred up by the thought of losing you, calmly walks up to you two. you wouldn't have guessed it took all his courage to ask "can we get drinks tonight?" and you're over the moon at the mere suggestion, "is that even a question?! of course, i haven't seen you around in ages!". your eyes light up with excitement, unable to stop yourself from excitedly rambling about how you really wanted to talk about some new manga that dropped during his absence. junhan smiles at you, half because he knows this feels right, like you both were meant to be together in this moment, and half because he loves the way that guy's stupid grin drops when he sees how happy you are to see him.
"so it's a date?" junhan says with a radiant smile, almost as if the guy standing next to you didn't exist. he was enjoying taunting this guy a little too much, he thinks to himself. your jaw drops a little at this unexpected confidence, but you'd be lying if you said you didn't want it to be. and so you shoot a quick, very obviously awkward glance at the so called 'friend', thinking about who you knew would treat you right, and turn back to say:
"it's a date."
jooyeon — makes it everyone's problem
when jooyeon finds out about your friend's crush on you he cannot stop from complaining about him to his bandmates. jiseok rolls his eyes hearing the groans from jooyeon, going for the millionth time this week that "he's just not right for her" and "he's not even good looking" and "she's way out of his league!" to lying in bed upside down with his head hanging off the edge groaning into his palms, "but what if she likes him though?! do you think she does?! is that why she hasn't been around lately? aghhhh, girls are so confusing. this sucks. wanna play league?" in which jiseok replies with a sigh, "dude, you could just text her and figure it out for yourself right now." and leaves before his head explodes from how much of a baby joo gets when he's frustrated about something.
when he's finally alone, jooyeon gets to sit alone with his thoughts. just pure and utter him, not the shining jooyeon on stage with his bass, and the thought of you, beautiful and kind, and how much he misses the sound of your pretty laugh. you're constantly on his mind. sometimes he finds himself idly smiling about some dumb text you sent him or the one time where you tried singing along to his strumming and it wasn't good but you gave it your all. it was just so you. you're his friend, yes, but he didn't realize how he felt something so much more for you until the idea of you not being around him anymore became a very real possibility.
the thought of you not being in his life wasn't even in the question for him. it breaks his heart to think of such a thing happening, that he wouldn't be the one making you happy but some other, boring, loser of a guy ... but he doesn't let the others know that part. deep down he's more insecure than he lets on. whatever exasperated complaining he lets out barely scratches the surface of the sort of emotional vortex swirling in him at this very moment thinking about you dating someone else.
when he sees you he makes it so unbelievably obvious, everyone around you two is betting on the moment that you finally realize. you're wrapping up your lunch together when he brings it up. "stoooop hanging out with him, he's boring and he only plays fps games, i mean come on," he's basically begging you like a kid.
you snort at him, "and you know almost every pokemon. he's not doing anything wrong, we all have things we really like." you're saying this to defend your point but in reality you also thought it was annoying that that was all he talked about with you and didn't seem to care about what you liked at all.
"yeah, well." jooyeon grumbles, pitifully tucking his head into the crook of his arm, leaning onto the table. he doesn't make eye contact with you, just pouting cutely. "heard he likes you, too... he's not special." the last part is almost unintelligible from the way he buries his head further into his arm as he says it.
that piques your interest. "oh? what was that? after the first part?" you know exactly what you heard but you just can't help yourself from teasing him.
"'ts nothing."
"joo." he refuses to meet your eyes but you see the tips of his ears reddening.
"i gotta get back to practice."
"joooooyeon. lee jooyeon. jooyeon of xdinary heroes. did i hear correctly? 'he's not special?'"
he's already walking off.
"joo, you know i'm going to the same place as you!" you shout after him. quickly, you shove your things into your bag and catch up to his rather hasty speed. you're giggling because you can read him like a book. that cute little pout on his face is all you need to see before you go to grab his hand mid step. he jolts a bit, not expecting your touch, before he eases into it and finally looks you in the eye.
"you ..."
shifting your hand so your fingers interlock, you smile at him, looking him in the eyes with earnest, "i like you, too."
in a few moments he's trying to stay cool and ends up failing miserably by how the corners of his mouth refuse to stay still. he can't help himself from breaking into a grin at those words. he would get to it later, be able to grandly profess his love to you like how he had imagined it going in his head, but for now he was content with this. simple and happy with your hand enveloped in his larger one.
it's by no means a scene out of a drama, but it was perfectly enough for the two of you.
(later that night jooyeon is so completely over the moon about being chosen. it feeds his ego BAD. you have to take him down a peg by telling him how he hasn't really properly confessed to you yet, and you are very entertained by how he stutters and struggles to say it to you directly after such a grand display of confidence. oh, joo ...)
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✨Kaiju Siblings!!✨
Did something small & simple just to take things easy & also while having fun. I often enjoy drawing these two interacting with each other. At least in my version of things, they are in fact siblings. They both share a lot of things together & of course are the future heir to Godzilla’s name & status. However, each are very different in their personalities. At least how they treat & do things:
Junior is the more curious outgoing type. She loves meeting new friends & generally seeing/learning new things. More so, she’s the one to start conversations & ask a lot of questions. To her, she likes getting to know others better (for that reason she has a lot of friends). Junior can also even be more confrontational whenever necessary to be. Putting her skills as a kaiju to the test & being able to stand herself strong. She’s not afraid to intimidate (she can be pretty brutal with downsizing the other if deserved (I’ll provide an example later ^^:). But for the most part, she’s very sweet & overall very adorable in how she does certain things (making her more serious moments more unexpected lol)
Minilla on the other hand is very awkward & less outgoing like his sister (pretty much the opposite; an actual introvert). He always wants to prove that he can be just as strong & be a great kaiju like their dad. But in the end, he lets fear overcome him or suddenly the thoughts of failing already overwhelm him into thinking it would happen. Along with the thing that he doesnt exactly like confrontation or being outed as much. If anything, he prefers if all could get along peacefully (which isnt anything easy in the kaiju world. But however, he still wants to work on being more confident so he often looks up to others he sees as role models. Minilla’s own role models happen to be: Godzilla of course, Ultraman (he happens to be Ultraman’s biggest fan actually), & even his own sister. He’s still very much going at it. No matter how many times he fails, he still keeps going. Shows that he’s got a very strong will & pretty sure he’d be great as the next Godzilla
Junior very much deeply loves her own older brother (Minilla’s the oldest & Junior’s the youngest btw). She understands his struggle more than anyone, for that reason she’s more than willing to helping him out. She’s quite literally his biggest supporter & always brings to his attention whenever he did something well or showed improvement. As a matter of fact, Minilla has their own burst of celebration whenever they’re able to successfully accomplish something (think of it as a lil happy dance he does). She hugs him as a reward as a good job & despite her being younger than him, she has the big heart to care after him too (as a way to show her love). Minilla always loves watching Ultraman whenever on tv (in this universe, Ultraman both doubles as a celebrity superstar & actual hero for both the humans & kaiju; well, more of just a celebrity to the kaiju at least) & taking inspiration from his favorite hero. That way to boost his motivation & even getting ideas on how to be a more powerful kaiju. Minilla does in fact have to deal with Gabara in this version too. Despite of how much Gabara has made him feel afraid from being bullied by him, Minilla’s ready to fight back thanks to the help from others with him
Well those were just some of my own thoughts. I also gave them some outfits that i felt matched perfectly with their described personalities ^^
[If there’s anything specific you guys would like to know about my headcanons, feel free to lemme know :D ]
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Whenever I see someones requests are open all of my ideas disseaper and my mind is all blank :/
Maybe bsd characters caught reader in a situation where it made them think reader is cheating but later understand it is just their fear and totally explainable situations with reader doesnt understand how different the situation can look like. Please be creative about them 😉 (Of course if you are comfortable with writing a concept like this and if you havent already) with chuuya, tecchou, jouno and whoever you want.
when they wonder if your cheating on them
chuuya, tecchou, jouno & dazai<3
warnings: lowercase writing, mention of sex in dazai's, dazai is kinda possesiver, ooc jouno!! unedited writing!!
F/N means friends name!!
a/n: REQUESTS ARE OPEN !!what kind of dazai love blog will i be if i DIDN'T write for dazai as well ☠ I'D BE A FRAUD!! AUAGAHHSA why does jouno's part make me cringe-
chuuya nakahara 🍷
"where we're you all night?"
the first question he asked you the moment you stepped foot into the apartment.
you didn't have time to take off your coat.
"out with the girls?"
you replied, tilting your head.
"i thought i told you.."
"if you did i wouldn't be asking, would i?"
"okay! okay- i'm sorry!-"
"you could have texted me!"
"i forgot to-"
"is that really all you got?"
"okay- what has gotten into you!!"
he paused.
you realized through out the week he's been on your tail. 'where have you been' 'how long are you going to be' 'who's going with you?' 'can i come?'
chuuya didn't even realize he was worrying so much about you.
"i was out for 2 hours!"
"then another 30mins!
"i just lost track of the time!"
"you told me two hours!"
"i know i did- but again, i lost track of time-"
"AGAIN you could've called!!"
his voiced raised slightly.
you stared at him, a annoyed look on your face.
"awh- what's with that look? why are you annoyed?"
"because i let you go out without pestering questions every minute when i get home! your not my parent, your my boyfriend!"
"are you sure about that?!" he cuts in...
"you know if anything we're to happen i would cal-" you pause...looking up at him slowly...
"what?"
chuuya realized what he said and rubs his face.
"awh- n-nothing!"
you cock an eyebrow..
"chuuya- what do you mean? something's wrong with you...you can talk to me, you know?"
"uhm..yeah."
he didn't sound confident at all.
you looked at his feet before letting out a loud sigh..
"is this because of F/N?"
F/N is your middle school friend. you two were like peas in a pod, nothing could separate..
well, maybe execpt for chuuya now him and you are dating.
F/N was so happy for you. finally you were able to snatch someone- someone rich and hot for that matter...but that's not all that you saw in chuuya- not at all.
he cared deeply for you, and he knows how much you and F/N are together...he sometimes feels...out of place.
like he's boyfriend...but also just a boyfriend.
chuuya stood in silence, looking anywhere but your eyes.
you knew you were correct, you didn't need his confirmanation.
you slowly made your way toward him...reaching your hands out to hold his.
"you don't have to worry about me and F/N, babe!" you laughed softly, kissing the back of his hands.
he slowly looked up at you, "i just...i don't want to lose you, okay?"
you smiled softly, kissing his lips as he gently cupped his cheeks.
your ginger-haired boyfriend immediatly melted into the kiss, holding your hands, finger interlocked.
moments later, you both parted. touching foreheads and smiling softly to one another.
"i promise..."
tecchou suehiro ⚔
he didn't have to even think to wonder.
however, here he is.
he doesn't really get upset with you, your his lover why would he get upset?
it was around 10pm at night, both him and you were comfy in your PJ's and sat on the couch of your living room.
you both were facing each other backs, his legs were dangling off the arm on the couch, and your back leaned against his own, your legs curled to your chest and phone close to your face.
your boyfriend kept over hearing your giggles from behind him. he tilts his head toward you and asked, "what's so funny, babe?"
you shook your head, covering your mouth.
"n-nothing!"
and soon after, you were giggling once again.
now, tecchou knew you. if something was so funny, you would 100% show him and laugh along with him, although he barely laughs...he still feels loved when you engage with him.
now, showing that you are not showing him what you are laughing at- he felt uneasy.
"but your laughing?"
"ihi swear- it's nothing! uhm- what movie do you want to watch?"
"i want to know what your laughing at?"
you sighed, "i'm serious, babe! it's just-"
"another person?"
you paused.
"what?"
it was quiet now.
"uhm. i'm sorry. i jumped to conclusions...i'm sorry."
you were silent as you nodded slowly, looking back at your phone and smiled softly.
you turned on your side and rested your head on his shoulder. holding your phone up.
"i was watching puppy videos!"
you pressed play on the youtube video, and the sigh of of puppies flashed on screen.
he chuckled to himself before feeling your hand on his thigh and you smiled up at him,
"i would never leave you babe, you know that?"
he didn't respond for a while, until a silent nod caused you to cuddled into his side.
he kissed your head, and apologized again.
"i love you!!" you sang, making duck lips. he laughed and kissed your lips, "i love you, too."
jouno saigiku 🌱
why would you do that?
do you have the guts to cheat on him?
you've shown how much you love him just by being loyal towards him. so when you didn't come back home until late at night, this is where his protective side comes around.
lucky you.
you entered your aparment as exactly 4: 53am. so it wasn't late- but early.
you had no idea if your boyfriend would be home because he mentioned something about having a really important mission as a hunting dog.
he also mentioned you shoudn't be out alone at night, after hearing about the ADA being terrorists and all that.
he just wants you to be safe.
as you locked the door and placed the keys on the dresser, you felt a figure stare you down in the dark.
you reacted quickly and flashed open your camera flashlight as was about to throw your umbrella until you noticed it was just...
"jouno?" you called out, noticing the figures looks.
there he was,, standing just feet away from you with his hunting dog gear on, however his hat was in his hands as his arms were crossed.
"you told me you would be home by 11..."
he could feel your heartbeat beat fast against your chest.
"i-i just lost track of the time-"
"it's 4am, Y/N."
no nicknames.
he's serious.
you knew he could read you like a book, there was no denying it.
"look- i was just out with F/N and their other friends!"
"and you went to the bar?"
he could smell the stench of alchoal on you.
"i had two shot glasses- barely any alchoal!"
"doesn't matter; you should have told them you were on a curfew!"
"are you serious right now?"
"you know i don't like it when you're out on your own this late in yokohama!"
"i'm not 5, jouno, i can look after myself. besides, i wasn't alone!"
"right, i'm sorry, you were at a bar with three other people who were just a drunk as the next guy?"
"it's not that big of a deal-"
"it is when your dead!"
"this isn't jsut about the ADA, is it?"
he paused/
"what do you mean?"
you didn't respond, he only felt you walk past him, his cape flowing with the wind you created.
"last time i was out late, i told you i was left alone with F/N's boyfriend. and then you kept asking me questions about "him". and this none question stood out to him, "what did he do to you when you and him were alone."
jouno stayed quiet, letting you speak.
"did you think i was cheating on you?"
it was silent. the only sound was the sound of your heartbeat and breathing.
"i'm just...worried about you."
you sighed and he felt you ove closer to him.
your hands touched his shoulder and you leaned up to kiss his forehead.
"i would never cheat on you..."
he's heard that before.
"i find that hard to believe when you come home hours later."
"it was just a one-time thing, hun...i just fell asleep a F/N's place after the others left an forgot to text you, thats all!"
he gave you a sincere look with his facial features, and kissed your lips.
"i'm sorry if i overreacted.."
you laughed, "don't worry about it...i should have told you...i love you~"
he smiled, "love you more~"
dazai osamu 🩹
it's not like he doesn't care-
he just knows you love and him and will never cheat on you.
would you?
when his suspicions about this becomes more larger, he now gets extra clingly with you.
holding you close while sleeping.
walking to work with you.
holding your hand when crossing streets.
asking where your going with your friends so he knows your location-
okay, wait- what?
see, to him that's normal.
but to you-
you noticed this far to quickly but never had the courage to ask him about it to him because it would flash you the brightest smile, gaslighting you that everything's okay.
he has a smal secret.
he kissed you passionally on the lips a couple days ago, and as you melted into it he opened his eyes and noticed your phone on the bed facing upwards.
he saw a new message by someone that goes by the name, "cody."
now that's a name he's never heard you speak about to him, and he's met all your friends.
he closed his eyes and pushed you back down on the bed.. yadayadayada...oh yay sex...ANYWAY.
days later, he started to get closer and clingly with you.
you couldn't find the time to ask him this question because he would always change the subject until he's ready tp speak to you about it.
it was a calm evening in your and dazai's apartment home.
both him and you ate dinner, took a shower together and now your both on your shared and wore comfy PJ's.
"are you going to pull another all-nighter?" you asked him as dazai leanes against the bedframe.
he shoke his head, "unless you are."
you hummed softly and leaned against his chest.
couple minutes of silence passed and you could just feel his heartbeat.
until...
he spoke..
"who's cody?"
you sat up and looked up at him, "what?"
he looked at you...
"is he another man?"
"dazai.."
he looked at you dead in the eye; "cody?"
"how do you know-"
"about cody?"
"thats not important...who is cody?"
"cody is..."
"another?"
"dazai, dont talk mad!"
dazai sat up
"dazai- that's my boss!"
he blinked...and relaxed..
"is he?"
"yes!" your eyes widened as you rubbed your face.
"oh?"
you laughed, "your serious, osamu?"
"look- you can't blame me!"
"yes i can, YOU LOOKED THROUGH MY PHONE AS WELL!!?"
"it was on the couch, come on!"
you just laughed, your anger just gone...well- a little bit of it.
dazai begged for you to znot be upset with him, and aplogized left and right.
until you finally forgave him by going on a date and buying anything you wanted
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not over it actually . that sol is a clone and what his response to that says about him as a character.
like okay. traditional clone angst shit is like "oh am i real/im not the original/im just a fake copy of someone else/etc etc etc" . and that route of a character arc might have even made sense w sols whole launchpad history - that he self-identifies as a sidekick. but also. maybe that rejection of being the main character is what allows sol to take a different route entirely. swag isnt just his prime clone, hes his "daddyself". sol doesnt really care about being the prime version of himself, he just wants family.
im so deeply fascinated by how the concept of clone-dom intersects w the concepts of family. what is a son but a version of you fated to go through all the same patterns of experience you have. what is a brother but a version of you whose choices has led him to a place you could never go. what is family if not enveloped in fear, love, idolisation and rejection. what is family if not a piece of your heart fragile and vulnerable and walking away from you.
anyway. so like. just compare how mothership sees clones (expendable identical bodies) vs how sol sees clones (brad & bron, youll always be a part of me you are me)
like. does that drive anyone else crazy.
and the original point of this post has completely flown away from me but in a feeble attempt to bring it back. my interpretation of sol is like. sol doesnt want to be a hero, he wants a purpose to fight for. he wants people to fight for. he wants to be part of this thing *bigger than he is* to dedicate himself to. and that used to be the mothership corporation, and has now taken the form of his friends and family. its only natural he would have adapted the spore network, as someone so clearly driven by his connections to other people. it makes so much sense he would see his clone identity this way because ultimately he sees himself in terms of his relationships to other people
(and if you want to be insane like i am, then you can think about sol as a child abandoned and alone in a derelict waterpark, so desperate for any kind of connection that it comes to form a defining character motivation for the rest of his life) 👍
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we know haitham simps for eremite kaveh hard, especially for his strength.
but what kaveh likes about him? specifically to the au, I mean (or I could rephrase that as "when does kaveh realize he's into this bad-at-dealing-with-weather-and-generally-a-little-pathetic-scholar as well?")
and for purely scientific purposes: does kaveh ever see haitham actually wield a sword and be badass and get flustered by it in return?
im so sorry for rambling sm omg, i somehow got distracted and suddenly it was this much
(haitham is rlly into kaveh but not only bc of his strength but bc of his very being)
anw
kaveh is quite interested in haitham from the beginning already since hes not used to this kind of ppl and they end up debating and bickering a lot (which both secretly enjoy since ppl cant keep up with him (haitham) or ppl generally dont dare bc theyre intimidated or too fond (kaveh))
(kaveh also enjoys the way haithams eyes seem to glint when he goes "oh?" before he starts spouting all his smart things)
(haitham is positively surprised and thrilled that kaveh can easily keep up, as if theyre both scholars)
haitham is incredibly smart, more so than other scholars kaveh had met or got hired by, but unlike those haitham doesnt boast with his intelligence or tries to put kaveh down for being "a mere eremite who doesnt know a thing unlike a scholar hailing from the akademiya", like some of the more rude scholars had said - haitham listens and answers to his thoughts and arguments all patiently, really listens to him
haitham speaks in facts and constantly questions things, no shame in correcting or exposing others very bluntly to get to the truth but the smart things coming from his mouth are not to prove or rub it in that hes intelligent or wise or always right and superior or anything; no sign of arrogance or haughtiness. he simply states things as they are, this is the way he simply is and kaveh already guesses haithams confidence in himself is easily mistaken with arrogance by people who dont know him well or are not looking deeply, thus feeling inferior to him and accusing him of being arrogant and acting like hes above everyone
so apart of that, haitham speaking all factual and straight to the point (its very cute when he pauses at seeing paimons confused face and starts rephrasing in the middle of his speech so even she can understand) and treating him like an equal, it rlly comes down to it when he sees another side of this man
(before i take away too much from the comic im doodling rn, i cant talk too much about it KJABCSKJ but the accident that killed kavehs father and left him in the desert made him develop a fear of falls and dark places; bc of smth happening he got a panic attack and haitham eases him through it with such love and care and patience that kaveh isnt used to and it makes him feel so much. kaveh is strong and doesnt like to be treated like hes weak or stupid or in need of someones care and protection but haitham doesnt treat him like that, haitham knows how strong and sharp he is and doesnt take this away when hes this vulnerable. kaveh (who always cares and protects others) is on the receiving of such care and protection after all these years of not allowing it, and coming from this seemingly stoic scholar....
basically, when kaveh sees haitham treat him with respect and care, like an equal on all levels, and returns this care and protection in his own way, it fills him with warmth and the need to get closer to him to share this warmth with him, to get more of it
(also ofc shortly after that kaveh gets to see haitham slaughter his way through enemies to get them out and the sight of him covered in blood and not only being sharp and quick with his words and mind but also with his sword and body triggers some feral part in his brain that wants haithams clothes gone so theres that, his nerd is not only sharp and clever and confident and pretty and a secret caring softie but also able to fight, feeble scholar his ass)
#haitham keeps saying he doesnt need to fight he only needs to think but kaveh thinks after that that he should think less and fight more#prob JKABSCJK#tho he finds his thinking and being smart without being annoyingly haughty about it also very sexy#rambles#eremite au#reply
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We need to say this to you guys
Us christians and children of God should not give into the corruption of this world. This world is finite, this world is not an infinite world at all.
The corruption in this world is so terrible and awful. That some christians fall to it but as God's children we shouldn't fall to it, we should stand with God no matter what happens. Its because he is the only way to heaven. Jesus is the truth, he is the way and he is the life.
The devil can accuse us of many things but we tell him no. Theres nothing wrong with telling him no. We have the power to tell him no. We have the power to rebuke him and rebuke his demons.
Us christians should not listen to the devil at all, he is nothing but lies and full of lies. He doesnt care about anyone but himself. Though should we respect him yes but should we be afraid of him, no we shouldnt fear him or run away from him. He cannot harm your soul.
Us christians should be aware that were more than the devil tells us. Through the lies and deceit we should remember we are Jesus's children we are God's children. Not just christians but everyone should remember we are God's not this worlds children but we are God's children.
He is our father in heaven and we are his no matter what someone says we belong to him, no matter what the demons say or the devil says we are his for now and forever.
Jesus wants people to come back to him,when you call on him he will come. You might not think that but he does, jesus comes to you no matter what anyone says. Jesus will always be there for you no matter what. Remember God operates on his own time. Some people may think there prayers arent answered but they, they are no matter what. You gotta be patient and wait. He does answer your prayers you might want them to come on your own time but thats not how God operates. He operates on his own time and he does answer them.
Whatever doubt fills your head remember that isnt you, that is from the devil not you. Again you can rebuke him and say no. Whatever evil thought comes in your head thats not from you thats from the serpent. You can say I rebuke you in the name of yaweh.
Whatever sin you commited jesus will wash it away and make it white as snow. Again dont listen to the devil its true jesus will wash your sins away and make them as white as wool if you ask for forgiveness and repent for them. He will and thats the truth
Jesus has never quit loving anyone, again dont listen to the lies and doubt. He will never ever quit loving anyone, he will always love his children no matter what. He loves people so much and so deeply. That he will never quit on you and will always be there for everyone. Expect love, love and more love from him.
Remember rebuke the doubt and lies from the evil one and the serpent if you keep rebuking him and the lies he will eventually leave you alone.
Hope everyone has a blessed day amen
#christian religion#christian blog#christian faith#christianity#faith in god#faith#faith in jesus#jesus cares#jesussaves#jesus#jesus christ#jesus loves you#jesus loves us#belief in god#god's children#children of god#holy spirit#tumblr blog#christian tumblr#tumblr
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I wanted to share thoughts and analysis on Full Moon (the last scene, at least).
I'll start with saying at the end of the day, I'm gonna be partial to Stolas in this since Blitzø hurt him pretty bad, but I will defend them both. Because the situation is complicated, and Blitzø is also hurting.
Blitzø obviously did and said extremely hurtful things, but I want to break down his actions since he's the one who's not upfront with how he feels.
(Please no discourse on my post. I'm just sharing my personal opinions and interpretation.)
I'll start at when Stolas asked for the grimoire back.
Blitzø is confused and unhappy about the situation. He's clearly uneasy with how Stolas is acting. Understandable. However, he doesn't exactly handle the situation in the best way.
The first thing he does is question if it's because he's skipped the past few nights. The tone he uses feels kind of manipulative (a trait he does possess), especially how he talks about being busy (which assuredly isn't the full truth even if true. With some of the stuff he says earlier in the episode, I'm pretty sure he's been avoiding having to talk to him. He seems to feel like there's maybe something wrong, and doesn't want to face it or make things more complicated).
Blitzø is scared to lose the book, obviously, but I think it becomes pretty clear that it's not the book that is his main worry, but Stolas. Sure, it's a big part of the initial panic but I feel like his reaction would've been more angry than scared and worried if that was the main thing.
The second thing he does after Stolas tells him to hand it back is offer to fuck him. Telling him how good it'll be. How he doesn't disappoint. Because that's how he deals with this stuff. Seduction to get what he wants (like he did the night he stole the book). Because he thinks that's what Stolas wants. Because if he fucks him real good, then Stolas will still want him here. But Stolas makes it clear that sex isn't want he's after.
Once Blitzø has the stone, that scared and upset feeling goes away. He's genuinely happy and thankful that Stolas did such a kind and considerate thing. At least for a moment.
When Stolas tells him that they are no longer bound to an agreement, he starts to panic. He's worried that he's not good enough. He's scared that Stolas is done with him. He says he can do better. You can hear the desperation in his voice.
Stolas assures him that he's not doing anything wrong and thats not why he was doing this. That he was doing it because wanted him to be able to make his own choice to stay. To make it right and fair. Because he cares so deeply for him.
I'm very happy at how upfront he was about it all. He told him he was under no obligation to stay, and you can see the fear in Blitzø's eyes when he says this. He thinks Stolas doesnt want him around anymore. But Stolas almost immediately clarified that he still wanted him to stay.
And you can see it on Blitzø's face how much Stolas's words do mean. You can see it's something he wants to hear, his expression goes so soft. He so desperately wants it to be true but absolutely refuses to believe that it is.
So he turns it back to what he's comfortable with. The thing he admittedly focuses on when he feels like he's getting in his own head. Sex.
Obviously Stolas must be trying to roleplay, because how could he have feelings like that toward him? That must be it. He's so in denial of the reality of it, he will not allow himself to see it.
Until it hurts Stolas. Until Stolas makes it very clear that he was being serious and honest.
What Blitzø did is awful and hurtful. It seems almost mocking knowing that what he's 'roleplaying' is real to Stolas. The "I love you" is especially devastating. He most definitely was not trying to hurt Stolas here. You can see on his face that he's unsure in what he's doing when he starts to talk. And when Stolas stops him, you can see the disappointment and sadness as realized he did the wrong thing.
But he was convincing himself that what Stolas said wasn't true. Because any thought otherwise seems impossible to him.
He's wrong, though. And I completely understand why Stolas kind of just shut down here. That's like a knife to the heart.
And Stolas explains why. Explains that even though he's wanted him for so long, for Blitzø to only see sex in what he says and does was pretty telling to how he viewed their relationship. And that crushed him.
The moment Blitzø realizes that he was serious, his whole view shifts. He gets upset. Very upset.
The one thing I will wholeheartedly stand by Blitzø saying is when he asks if he could give him a fucking minute (Now I disagree with what follows, but I'll get back to that.). Stolas did drop kind of a big thing on him, something that shattered everything he had told himself. And then walked away, which isn't exactly fair.
Again, I don't fault Stolas for walking off, not wanting to hear more, saying he had his answer. Blitzø was unintentionally hurtful, and he's upset and devastated. But at the same time, he really didn't give Blitzø any time to process what was happening and what he was telling him.
He probably didn't think he needed to because interpreting what Blitzø did at face value would be exactly how he interpreted it. And he's not fully wrong that Blitzø sees things as sexual. He purposely sees them that way. But what happened shouldn't be taken at face value. Though Stolas had no way of knowing that.
Now back to what follows that. He says some pretty shit things to Stolas. He's upset and lashes out at him.
The things he says aren't fair nor are they correct. He's projecting his issues with royals in general onto Stolas. He has a dislike for nobility, one that stems from feeling like they step on the little people and don't care about how their 'lessers' feel. That they don't give a shit about imps like himself. The image he's built of Stolas is completely warped by his view on royalty. Fizz has even called him out on it ("It sounds like you just hate him for being a prince").
One of the things that stood out was his line about how he can't treat him like one of his imp butlers and just dismiss him away. He feels like Stolas is throwing him away. Stolas is very clearly leaving because he's hurt, but Blitzø takes it as a kind of rejection. (Like at Ozzie's, he can't see clearly what's going on.)
As I mentioned before, I think the main fault Stolas's has in this situation is not giving Blitzø any time to process and understand everything that was currently happening. He shouldn't have sent him away. He should've at least listened to what Blitzø was trying to say. Tried to understand what he might be feeling.
Because Blitzø was trying to apologize. Once he saw how much his words affected Stolas, saw him crying because of the things he did and said, he realized he fucked up. And honestly, he needed to see that. He needed to know that his actions and words can and do hurt Stolas.
But I don't blame Stolas for teleporting him away, even though I think he was wrong in doing so. Blitzø basically twisted the knife that had already pierced his heart. It broke him. Hearing how lowly Blitzø (incorrectly and through his own convincing of himself) thought of him shattered him. Because how could a relationship be any kind of possible if the other person thinks you're shitty and awful? And to hear that from someone you respect and care so deeply for is so incredibly heartbreaking.
It's why I'm on Stolas's side (not that there even needs to be sides). He was trying to do the right thing. He was being kind and caring. He didn't really do anything wrong, but still got so deeply hurt.
But I can't really blame Blitzø, even though I think he's in the wrong here. Even though he caused a lot of pain to someone who only wanted good for them both. He's hurting too. He's a very broken person with a lot of issues he hasn't worked through. His actions and words were awful and mean. But he's struggling. This isn't an easy situation for him. He couldn't even comprehend someone loving him because he hates himself so much.
It's why he lied to himself about Stolas. Because how can that be true? And because you can't get hurt if you don't actually get close to someone. If you pretend that it's nothing and doesn't matter, it can't hurt you when it inevitably falls apart.
But they aren't true, the things he's been telling himself. And that sends him reeling. The realization comes crashing down, and feelings just come pouring out.
The situation is messy and complicated. And I feel for them both.
#not important to the post#but Blitzø challenging Stolas to fight is surely an interesting way to handle things#what did you think would come out of that?#how could that possibly help?#also he'd kick your ass bud#hes super powerful#helluva boss#stolitz#stolas#blitzø#blitzo#blitz#stolas goetia#wicked hb#wicked writes
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Bruce Wayne for the "send me a character" thing :3
First impression: i dont know, since he has been big in popculture before i was born. he is a bat? very serious?
Impression now: he is sooooo serious. very tsundere of him. given how big dc is and how many different iterations on his character there are, there is very big range of "who bruce wayne is". i have my favorites, which i try to replicate in my stories.
Favorite moment: when he kisses clark- what do you mean that hasnt happened in canon? idk i dont read/watch/play anything.
Idea for a story: a major injury has bruce benched from being batman for a long while. months. recovery is slow. he is sooooo mad at himself and lashes out at everyone. clark cant stan being completely cut off by bruce and eventually he worms his way back into bruce's life. and everyone is soooo relieved bc clark occupies a lot of bruce's time and seems to take his lashings like a champ.
as months pass and there is doubt if bruce is going to suit up ever again, they start talking about what the future might be. bruce isn't saying it, but he fears that without batman, missing this connetion with clark/superman, clark would eventually drift away from his life. clark can tell it's what he is thinking. and one day he just says it all. abt how deeply he cares for bruce, how connected he feels to bruce, batman or not, and how he doesnt want to even imagine a life without bruce. it's embarrassing but rewarded in the end with bruce kissing the breath out of clark. the rest of bruce's recovery is spent in second base. the family learns to knock before entering bruce's room. (bruce and clark's room.)
and then bruce is recovered. clark walks into the cave and is greeted there by batman. it's awkward for clark because this isn't bruce who he has been making out with for the past weeks. this is his collegue who he hasn't been face to face with in months. should he go in for a kiss still?
as clark hesitates for just a moment, bruce's mind is kicked into anxiety overdrive. his face sours and seeing that makes clark not lean in for a kiss.
"...good to have you back, batman."
"hmh."
clark cracks. "can you take the helmet off so i can kiss you?"
bruce tries not to show how hearing that relaxes him. "my lips aren't the part covered up, clark."
"fair enough, i guess. haha." clark chuckles a little self-consciously and leans in for a kiss.
this is canon dc comic. the dark detective: from gotham with love issue #17
Unpopular opinion: he should be tsundere. he masks his love and affection with being aloof and cold and distant. being verbally affectionate with him will make him just want to respond with insults. also he has a vagina. i think thats more controversial. also he is not skinny. uwu
Favorite relationship: idk if this makes any sense but him with... superman? i know its weird, they are aesthetically very different, but you'd be surprised to see how much they have in common in their ideals and how well their personalities come together.
Favorite headcanon: him being trans means so much to me idk why. coping character.
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yandere sebastain x reader
part 2
as he leans in and he whispers "we will see eacother again little lady " then he leaves without a trace then you wake up feeling confused about the dream you had and why he was in your dreams? Was it cus he made you blush and it leaved a effect on you? You didnt know so you stopped think about it too deeply so you wont overthink then you go to wash your face and have some snacks before starting the work as you finish eating you go to counter waiting for new cosmuters to come and you heared the door bell ring its was an old men who seemed to be drunk man's face was red and he was hiccuping then he opened his mounth to speak
"Give mee what i want" the old men says btween hiccups as he slams his hand to the table
"Sir please tell me what you want" you say as you nervously look at the man, the man hiccups few more times and he starts to grabs you
"S-sir! Calm down! " you say to the man but he doesnt care about your pleads as this countines , the man feels a white gloved hand on his shoulder and he turns to look at who is it then he sees a tall, black haired man with a red eyes, and wearing a butler outfit, the man feels his shoulder getting tighter and says btween hiccups " whats your problem?" Sebastain just looks at the man with anger and he pulls the old man by his callor his eyes bruning with anger he lets a out a possive growl and finally speaks " dont you dare to touch the lady like that its very innporite and rude " he growls showing his fangs then the old man shivers with fear " p-please dont h-hurt me " he says as he shakes in fear , a smirk appreas on sebastain face and he gets closer the mans face showing his deep red crismon eyes this makes the old man even more terffied and he begs for mercy then sebastain grabs him more tightly and when his faces twists in anger, the old man screams and runs as away as sebastain lets him go then he turns to look at you with a polite smile and he does a polite bow " the problem has been taking care of my lady" he says with a soft voice and a faint smile " t-thank you , but whats your name? " you ask him shyly then he turns to look at you with a polite smile and says "my name is sebastain michealis, the loyal butler of the phontimive " he kisses your hand as your cheeks reddens, he sees this and smirks "my my what a lovely color, and have a good day miss " he bows and leaves , he thinks about how he wants to claim you for himself and how cute you are with your little shy face ,and he gets an idea ,going to his young master and telling him that he has find a new maid with one swift move, he goes to the mansoin, reaches to the ciel's room and enters inside bows infront of him "young master, today i have a find someone who could be a maid here, i would like to bring her here and train her immadetly" sebastain finshes with a polite smile then waits for ciel to answer him , then ciel speaks
"very well sebastain, bring her in and i accpect you to trian her properly" ciel says with his usual stren look then sebastain nods and goes to find you, after hour or two, he comes back with you, and gestures for you introdoce yourself to ciel, as you introdoce yourself, ciel hums in approval and speaks " very well, welcome to the mansoin, form this day on , you will be serving me, and i accpect you to be loyal, and sebastain will train you as the headbutler, he will teach you how to be a good maid " ciel finishes and gestures for you and sebastain to go , sebastain closes the door and looks at me with a polite smile and says " i hope you are ready for a one of hell of a traning my dear, i will teach you everything you need to know and how to please the young master so listen closely dear " Sebastain says as he smiles sofly then he takes out a maid dress, which is beutifully perpared, its has a puffy skirt with light shoulders and its black and its has a white aporan, and a maid hair band "here my dear, wear this " he hands out to you the dress and gestures for you to go to an room and dress up, as you nod and wear the dress , you come out from the room, sebastain's smirk widens and he lets a hum"my my, you look abosetly adorble " he smirks and you notice that his eyes never leaving you, as he smiles sofly at you, he says "welcome to your new life my dear, i hope you will get used it " he finishes with his signuture smile and walks away dissparing from the sight, as you are now leaved with many thoughts
#my post#yandere sebastian#Black butler Sebastain#Yandere#Yandere x reader#yandere x darling#Male yandere#sebastain michealis#black butler
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Okay, now I am going to rate TADC ships!!
(thanks to your suggestions :3)
So there are my takes!
-Zooble x Caine (by @crystalthesylbreonart)
Hmmm, not so bad actually, in fact, i enjoyed their interaction on episode 3 ^^ I liked how Zooble opened up to caine to talk about their problem to him and vented to him (although Caine is an AI so he couldnt technically read their mind and understand how humans work and how their feel, but he tried anyway lol) and Caine eventually was the one opening up to them LOL
I would say, 5.5/10, not too bad, we definitely saw something between those two <33
-Zooble x Gangle (by @nordigfjollblog)
AKA ABSTRAGEDY !!11!! Gosh, they are so wholesome <333 at first i was confused at to why people ship these two together.. but after episode 4, I FINALLY KNOW WHY 😭😭 they have this adorable chemistry together, the way Zooble wanting to help her out and making sure she is okay and feels appreciated makes me wanna cry ;w; its really sweet to see Zooble's bright side instead of being gloomy, and i am sure we will get to see more of them in future episodes <333 8/10
-Caine x Bubble (by @17-noodlebird)
Well, they are quite hilarious together, but personally, i dont like shipping bubble with anyone (Bubble is a bit of gross, funny but also gross) so uh, 2/10
-Bubble x anyone?? (no, just no)
-Pomni x Jax (by @evelyn-onfire)
huh, this one is a bit of interesting, tho i am not a fan of that ship (for obvious reasons-) but i am kind of curious to see where this is going on episode 6 (since it will focus on Jax specifically) buuut, idk, considering the way he treated her on episode 2, i dont think he will ever make a good partner to Pomni so 3/10 (sorry)
-Pomni x Ragatha (by @vozhd53)
they are really cute ngl! tho i wish they would interact more (maybe they will do that on next episode!) I feel like Ragatha deep down is still upset by the fact that Pomni abandoned her on the first episode, and while i do appreciate that Pomni thanked her later on on episode 3 for always being concerned for her, that moment was sweet enough ☺️ again they are really cute! its nice to see they care about each other >w< i will give 6.5/10
-Pomni x Gummigoo (by @bunny-carrothunter )
AND NOW, THE ONE AND ONLY... FUNNYGUMMY ✨✨
i may biased about the ship, but i wanted to see more of them in future episodes where maybe they will reconnect??? LOOK I BELIEVE THAT GUMMIGOO DOES INDEED REMEMBER HER HE JUST DOESNT TO SAY IT OUT LOUD OUT OF FEAR THAT CAINE MIGHT EXPLODE HIM AGAIN AND NO ONE CAN TELL ME OTHERWISE!! HE DOES DEEPLY CARE ABOUT HER AND HE WANTS TO TALK TO HER BUT AGAIN, HE IS AFRAID, AND WE CAN UNDERSTAND THAT!! same goes for Pomni! she tried to speak to him but she looked disappointed when he "didnt remember her" but she didnt just shrugged and moved on from it, instead she kept reach out to him and tried to talk him, this is sad yet wholesome at the same time <333 this adds a bittersweet taste to this ship, and it makes us wonder if he will ever show up (which i am 90% sure of it) and if he would ever try to...idk.. talk to her more???? omg i cant express how much i love these idiots so much lol. overall, 8.5/10
-Pomni x Zooble (by @poimtedpossum)
huh, never see them talk to each other that much, but its nice to see Zooble deeply cares about her and feels bad for her cause she is traumatized by all these crazy adventures that she's been through, but i dont really have much to say about these two so 4/10
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