#i want to feel vindicated on at least one
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What if S8 opens with Fire Marshall Bobby, and everyone keeps being like "pleassse don't sue us this time" and teasing Buck about it
#s8 predictions#911 season 8#guys i have put all my predictions under that tag bc i am so confident in everything i predict i want to be able to scroll back and find#them all and be like yh ofc i was right. but im gonna be so wrong on all of them probably#i want to feel vindicated on at least one#911 abc#9-1-1#9 1 1#evan buckley#eddie diaz#911 show#bobby nash#hen wilson#chimney han#jwpyyy#ravi panikkar#silly ones#prediction ones
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After learning about the video game "CONTROL" and watching Julia LePetit-Drawfee play it, I have amended my views on brutalist architecture.
I used to think that brutalist architecture was a completely miserable and hideous style of architecture to expect human beings to exist in or around, with absolutely no acceptable applications.
But NOW I think that brutalist architecture is a completely miserable and hideous style of architecture to expect human beings to exist in or around, which is actually quite suitable for a visually striking video game about a living building that fucking hates you and is actively trying to kill you and everyone in it. â
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I'm being silly but tbh anyone who disagrees with me can go ahead and spend 10 years commuting in the dingy gray concrete brutalist dimness of the DC metro system and then fucking get back to me.
#brutalism#brutalist architecture#brutalist#architecture#control#control game#secret sleepover society#julia drawfee#julia lepetit#original#Also bc brutalist builsings are made up of massive blocks of concrete theu are not only hideous but also basically impossible to get rid of#And that's why every college in America still has at least one fucking hideous corporate concrete building from the 1970s#those colleges would like to get rid of the buildings but because they are largely indestructible it is too expensive#I don't know what the fuck was happening in the '70s but I imagine in the '80s everyone was like oh fuck#I mean it's right there in the name it genuinely does feel brutal to spend a long time in a brutalist building#it's like if there was a style of architecture called stinky shit-ism XD#but control the video game is about just the worst building in the universe so it works#brutalism asks the question what if every building could have the same vibes as a parking garage??#anyone who wants to feel vindicated on this topic should totally check out the very funny sketch on youtube from#the Comedy Central show alternatino called The Man Behind the worst buildings in the world - or something like that#i cry laughed
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Dont incredibly know what Anthony's deal is, but I do think this is an interesting moment thatll come back later. It just reflects back on the concept of Living Dolls "not being their own (or a) person" that could have twisted into a sense of inferiority and/or identity issues he's potentially struggling with.
#dee p thoughts#shadows house manga#when youre the first person you know of to discover a terrible truth you and others live under. struggling yourself with that truth and wha#to make of it among losing someone important to you as a result of them...failing in that struggle?#does anthony feel better than christopher because he didnt off himself? among the sense of responsibility of the latters death and maybe#hoping hes honoring it by doing what ''christopher wouldve wanted but didnt have the strength to''#christopher turned into an idol who's being tarnished in an attempt to honor him#I feel like theres a sense of sincerity to anthony in this chapter never have I thought he was just being vindicative#just kind of...hopeless but trying to work against it at least. seems like hes struggling with what to do with himself as someone who didnt#have a self along with losing someone who was great but he also thought was him so hes no longer great with this new recognition of#personhood. along with something along the lines of a savior complex because what else are you gonna do when youre life kind of revolved#and revolves around it. the system hurt you and the one you loved but you quite literally do not know anything else beyond it.#is this to save others from your fate? is this to honor someone you lost? is this to prove youre better than whats hurt you?#anthonys interesting... anyways way past my bedtime so this may not be eloquent lol
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Im actually gonna cry
#riddle me this why the fuck do I have a card quota if Iâm not a cashier#just bc u want me to do every fucking thing in this building#the more cards i get the slower Iâll get on the floor idc#also u got demoted. tf u checking my cards for#u got demoted and ur still doing the work u USED to get paid extra for!#kys#Itâs annoying#ugh not to be braggy or whatever#but whenever ur good at ur job itâs like not even the managers who get pissed for the smallest thing#Itâs ur other coworkers feeling vindicated when ur bad at smht#and Itâd be smth if I did the same to them but no! never!#like no ur an asshole man#u know what would fix me#WAIT I CAN DO IT NOW MY#LIGHTERS COMING SOON#does it matter if the candles arenât skin safe#i think if I use one it wonât matter#Iâll buy some skin safe ones soon#Im just gonna crawl outta my fucking skin if I donât do something#and Iâll cry for something stupid#at least I can cry for smth that would actually hurt yknow
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I know we are talking about menu themes and not music but P5 I need you to-
(Edit bc I'm paranoid: I'm talking to P5 only, not Midori, I like Midori TT0TT they just happened to be the one sharing the info)
#I KNEW they were going for pop punk TT0TT#(surprised rap isn't an inspo too but eh got one of them right at least sdkafjlfja)#silly talks#i feel vindicated#but also GDI IF YOU WANT POP PUNK THEN GIVE ME SOME GD POP PUNK SONGS MAN TT0TT#don't take the visuals gimme some music too man! DX
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Jason 'Died and didn't even get the T-shirt' Todd, seeing an Entire Glowing, Lazarus-Eyed, Hazmat-Suited Child casually going about their day at a Starbucks like absolutely nothing is out of the ordinary: "Why is Nobody saying anything about that guy over there"
Duke 'Ghost Vision' Thomas, head whipping around at the speed of light: "YOU CAN SEE HIM TOO?????"
Short DPXDC Prompts #472
Lazarus pit people view Halfas in reverse. Example: In Ghost form they view the halfa as a normal person and in their human form they look like a spooky ghost. Jason is quite confused seeing a regular ass teen just flying around the high buildings of Gotham.
#I just think it would be Fun!!!!#Shenanigans of Duke hanging out with other members of the Batfam and he keeps seeing this absolutely Bizarre guy#In otherwise normal settings. But No One Else notices anything wrong and it annoys the Hell out of him#Like. He's looking at Danny and seeing about three different forms layered over each other#Constantly falling into and out of place like a snake shedding skin just to reveal something older beneath over and over surrounded by star#And he knows logically he Should say something because this is Probably a meta thing but???? They're literally just on a day out#And he doesn't know if the dude actually Has any bad intentions or if he's Just Some (Weird) Guy#So he stews in silence right up until it turns out Jason can see at least a Little bit of what Duke's powers let him see thanks to the pit#And he feels So Vindicated#-Okay so I may have gone a bit too Duke-centric considering this is a prompt about Lazarus-Affected characters but he's been on my Mind#I kind of really want a Duke/Danny ship thing now it just sounds sweet???#I don't even know if they have a ship name but I'm dubbing them Ghost Lights for now until someone informs me of a cooler alternative!!!#Writing a Novel in the tags but they've just Taken Over my brain the last few days#dpxdc#bones prompts#Bongo's Reblogs!!!
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Badly summarizing Hazbin Hotel songs: season 1
Happy Day In Hell:
Local nepo baby is very optimistic for someone who was born and raised in hell but damn it if you donât find it a little endearing.
Hell Is Forever:
Your gut feeling about the pastorâs son was correct and he is indeed an annoying prick who likes to act Godâs always got his back.
Stayed Gone:
Demon Jeff Bezos finds out his Ex is in town, isnât happy about it and tries to slander the man only for his ex to immediately clap back and serve everyone some piping hot tea.
It Starts With Sorry:
Some of yaâll are way too forgiving and it really showsâŠyouâre lucky you dorks are adorable.
Respectless:
A 4â11 Millennial bitch serves absolute âšCUNTâš at a meeting she didnât want to attend, local MILF is not amused.
Whatever It Takes:
A MILF and a lesbian sing about how theyâd willingly die for the ones they love. Itâs sweet but deeply concerning.
Poison:
Local twink took âconceal, donât feelâ way too seriously and now youâll never be ok again. Have fun in therapy.
Loser Baby:
A DILF and a twink sing about how theyâre the biggest losers in hell and itâs the sweetest fucking thing youâll ever see in your god damn life.
Hellâs Greatest Dad:
2 grown ass men fight for custody over a grown ass woman.
More Than Anything:
The literal king of hell loves his child more than your father will ever love you and you just gotta live with that.
Welcome To Heaven:
The polite Christians are trying to convert you, but theyâre really good at show tunes so I ainât even mad.
You Didnât Know:
Vindication for everyone whoâs the black sheep of their family and now have religious trauma.
Out For Love:
Local MILF hypes up her newly adopted lesbian daughter by telling her love is the ultimate murder weapon.
Ready For This:
Local nepo baby discovers that the fastest way to get cannibals to fight for you is through show tunes and the promise of flesh.
More Than Anything (Reprise):
No, the two leading females are not âjust really close friends.â You were told well before this moment.
Finale:
While the main cast is having a Bob the builder moment, 3 local bastards are promising to fuck shit up next season and the person you least expected is having a mental breakdown in the break room.
#Hazbin Hotel#hazbin hotel spoilers#hazbin hotel music#charlie morningstar#hazbin hotel charlie#Vaggie#hazbin hotel vaggie#Alastor#alastor the radio demon#hazbin hotel alastor#Angel Dust#hazbin hotel angel dust#Husk#Husker#hazbin hotel husk#Niffty#hazbin hotel niffty#sir pentious#hazbin hotel sir pentious#carmila carmine#zestial#the vees#Vox#hazbin hotel vox#Valentino#hazbin hotel valentino#velvets#hazbin hotel velvette#lucifer morningstar#hazbin hotel lucifer
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Pairing: Spencer Reid x Fem!Reader
For the CM Kink Bingo Challenge 2024
Requested: spencer realizing that heâll never love someone as much as he loves you. (whether that be because of a case or what have you), his mind is absolutely blown with how much he worships you and how much you love and care for him and he shows you that with the softest most sickeningly sweet sex you and him has ever done. <3
Warnings: 18+ MINORS DNI! Discussions of case details, case burnout, very close friends to lovers, oral (f receiving), vanilla sex (p in v penetration). Discussions of mental health, and two idiots in love.
A/N: I'm hitting the prompt Vanilla for this one, so please don't be scared off by the KinkBingo tags! I had a lot of fun writing this one (and adding Pride and Prejudice quotes into the smut scene because HELLO). Let me know what you think in the replies~âĄ
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You hadn't seen Spencer in 100 days. Which in the grand scheme of things wasn't that long, trapped in the purgatory of a âwhat ifâ the way you had been for the last eight years.Â
You'd lived without him for longer than 100 days before. He'd been in prison, you'd been on assignments, you'd lived an entire life before meeting him, but now somehow 100 days was too much time, and you were exhausted. You understood why Spencer had to take some time away from you, from the team in an official capacity after everything he'd been through. You supported him even.Â
But when even your free time didn't overlap anymore, you wondered if your relationship would ever be the same again.Â
Spencer was a friend, your best friend, probably. You'd arrived on the BAU team, he'd rattled off some statistics, stammering the way through them, and you'd immediately warmed to the man. He was brilliant, funny, and fiercely loyal, and you tried your best to protect him even when the job seemed designed to break people like him into thousands of little pieces.Â
You'd tried to convince him to leave before, after Maeve had died. You didn't want to see him heart broken again, but no one else had seemed to agree.Â
âReid needs purpose,â they'd said. âReid needs something to do.âÂ
What Reid needed was to not end up dead before he had a chance to be happy, and happiness didn't come often in your field of work.Â
You'd been almost vindicated a year later when he'd been shot again, almost fatally. Vindicated, maybe but distraught and inconsolable. Morgan had to carry you screaming and clawing out of his hospital room multiple times. It sounded stupid enough to yourself that it was only then you realized your feelings for the man.Â
You wanted to be Spencer Reid's happiness, which was why you were so lost without him.Â
He was coming back on Monday, and at least you had the weekend to sort your feelings out about everything.not just about him, but about the job you'd found didn't fit you well enough anymore, about the team you loved like family, about the relationship you knew would likely never come to fruition.Â
You dumped your bags at your door when you'd arrived in your house that night, pushed yourself into your bedroom and let yourself collapse on your bed, balling up into as cozy a position as you could. You didn't even bother taking your jacket off, you just let your brain haze over and sleep rush in.Â
Three quiet raps at your door lifted you up and out of bed again, not an hour later.Â
You grabbed your phone, grabbed the second go-bag you kept at your house, put your shoes back on, and opened the door, expecting Emily and a new case.Â
âWhere are we going?â You said, rubbing the sleep out of your eyes, not even looking up at your guest.Â
âHopefully, nowhere? I brought takeout.âÂ
Your eyes widened then, taking in all 185cm of Doctor Spencer Reid, tweed jacket and plastic bag full of chow mein included.Â
âSpencer,â you breathed out, like a sigh of relief, letting the bag drop to the floor next to the first one and letting yourself into his arms.Â
He held you carefully there for a second before leading you back into the apartment, wrapping an arm around you and ruffling your hair. It was brotherly, and it made you sick to your stomach.Â
âWhat are you doing here?âÂ
âEmily said you were back from a case,â he started, unpacking the takeaway from the containers. âAnd it feels wrong to eat this without you.âÂ
You rolled your eyes and followed him into the kitchen, pulling two forks out of the drawer nearer you and stabbing them in the top of your two cups.Â
âHey, I can use chopsticks now,â he said, defending himself against an inside joke. Spencer was always useless with his hands.Â
âI don't care if you can use them, I care that they don't accidentally end up stabbing me,â you said, taking yourself back to your bedroom, Spencer following.Â
âYou'd hardly die from being stabbed by a wooden chopstick, maybe a papercut or a splinter but-âÂ
âBut you're just bad enough that I don't want to risk it.âÂ
You kicked off your shoes again and climbed onto your bed. Spencer followed.Â
âRemind me again why we aren't sitting on your couch?âÂ
âUncomfortable.âÂ
âOr at your breakfast bar?âÂ
âGlorified filing cabinet right now. Eat.âÂ
He shook his head but complied, leaning back against your pillows as you both began carefully eating. Silently, you pulled your laptop onto your bed, opened it up, and pressed play on a movie, one you'd seen more than once, and you'd forced Spencer to watch before as well.Â
In a comfortable, friendly silence, you finished your food. You stretched out in a yawn once and then curled into his side, letting his mumbling voice, repeating the movie lines as they were spoken, lull you softly into sleep.Â
Spencer knew he had to leave, but he couldn't bring himself to wake you. The movie had finished hours ago, he'd closed the laptop and turned off the bug lights, but he couldn't leave.Â
Unlike you, he hadn't counted the days that you'd been apart. He hadn't needed to. He knew you'd be waiting there for him when he returned, knew you'd give him a smile and a pat on the back, and immediately start bouncing ideas off of him. It was what he loved about you.Â
As he laid next to you in your bed, a place he'd absolutely been before, his heart thumped. Just once, but hard.Â
Even in sleep, you looked exhausted. Your shirt was crumpled, hair a mess, you were still wearing makeup, and he knew he'd probably get an earful for letting you sleep like that in the morning. You were a mess, and he still wanted you.Â
The thought came to him suddenly, another painful thump of his chest echoing in his mind. He rubbed absent mindedly at his chest as if experiencing heartburn. In the dim light of the room, he let his head drop to the pillow and wrapped two shaky arms around you and pulled you in closer.Â
The two of you were a picture - both in suits, both with badges still somewhere on your person, both dearly clinging to the person they feared losing the most.Â
When you woke the next morning, it was actually the afternoon.Â
âSpencer,â you groaned, melting under the heat of his embrace. Somehow, during the night, he'd rolled on top of you, pressing you into the bed with a delightful pressure, head nuzzled into your neck, arms tucked around your waist.Â
âSpencer, we should get up,â you said again, forcing your eyelids apart as your mascara tried to glue them together.Â
âMmmmhh,â he groaned, moving to pick himself up off you for a minute but lowering himself again. If asked, he'd blame your hand in his hair, stroking the rogue curls gently, as if he were a prized pet and you their carer.Â
âSpencer, its 2pm.âÂ
âOn a Saturday.â You laughed at how pouty his voice sounded, but he complied and rolled off of you slightly, arms still wrapped around you.Â
âCome on. Get up. I've got some clothes that might fit you, let's get you out of the tweed.âÂ
He huffed but nodded and lifted himself halfway to upright, eyes still closed lazily as he let in the light millimetre by millimetre.Â
âGod, my face feels horrible,â you said, itching at your nose. âHow did we even sleep so long like this? My belt is still on, Spencer, my belt.âÂ
âIf you were still wearing a weapon, then I'd be worried,â he smiled.Â
You shot him a sarcastic look and finally detangled yourself, only to clasp his hands and pull him forward as well, letting him trail you to your closet.Â
âHere, change in the bathroom,â he nodded and walked away, following directions with eyes still closed, as if it were really his apartment and not your own.Â
100 days without him, and it was as if it had only been 100 hours. Your entire body chemistry changed when he was around, the stick holding your spine rigidly in place, dissolving into calm, into a smile and a free giggle. It felt right again, and you almost forgot you'd ever felt wrong.Â
After briefly changing, you swapped place with Spencer, who'd exited the bathroom with a toothbrush hanging out of his mouth and wet hair.Â
âDry it for me?â He asked, sitting on your couch, and you nodded your ascent. A shower and a quick change later, and you were doing just that.Â
As much as he tried to keep his head upright, it kept lolling onto your thigh, yawns stretching out of him as he nuzzled closer to you.Â
âSpencer, you're like a big kid, keep your head up.âÂ
âI'm not a kid,â he laughed, hooking his arms behind your knees and nuzzling closer into your soft sweats. âI'm just tired.âÂ
âYou're right. A child would probably be better behaved.âÂ
âOur child would be,â he sighed, but you'd already turned the hairdryer back on, drowning out everything. Everything but that thump again. A child, he was thinking about children, and more importantly, he was thinking about your children. With him.Â
He'd always imagined himself with a family, knowing it would ultimately stay in his imagination. But for a second, his visions changed. It wasn't just a child or two. It was you. Thump.Â
Thump. Thump. Thump. Thump.Â
He only released the image when you finally pushed his head off of you and stood, turning away from him to get a glass of water from your kitchen.Â
âSo, any plans today? Books to read, papers to mark, undergrads to run away screaming from?â You let the ice water cool your hot cheeks, but kept your back to him. You were hot, embarrassed, and you were looking at him in a sickeningly sweet way that could only be described as love struck or struck dumb.Â
âNo, no, I finished all my obligations at the college yesterday,â he said, following behind you and picking up your cup when you set it down, taking a sip himself.Â
âI was⊠I was actually hoping we could spend some time together? Unless you had plans, which is totally fine-âÂ
âNo, Spencer, yeah, I have no plans, that'sâŠ. Well I have to do laundry, which is a bit boring but, no. No plans.âÂ
âLaundry?âÂ
âTwo week case in Florida, I don't know how you didn't smell me yesterday, Spencer. I'd be running for the hills.âÂ
He laughed and stepped away again, grabbing the two go bags by the door and coming back into your space.Â
âHow about we get this done now so we can spend the day in a Who-Trek marathon?âÂ
âMake that a Who-Greys Anatomy Marathon, and you have yourself a deal.âÂ
He pouted again, and you snorted at the sight, taking another sip of water to calm yourself before you could react safely to that face.Â
âCome on, you know you've been dying to know what happens next at the Grey Sloane Memorial Hospital.âÂ
âI thought it was called the Seattle Grace Mercy?âÂ
âOh we better get to that laundry now. You have a lot to catch up on.âÂ
Grabbing a bag in one hand and his free hand in your other, you made your way down to your building's laundry room. But despite the man by your side and the relaxing day threatening to stretch ahead of you, a gloom caught you in the corridors.Â
You'd worked for two weeks, practically solid. You'd killed a man two days ago, or at least someone on your team had multiple shots having been fired. Another day on your job, another unsub felled, and everyone else was content with this just being a part of the job description.Â
It felt like each step towards the laundry room, each thing you did that was normal, that was regular, threw back in your face the pain you endured to save lives.Â
The bag in your hand weighed you down, pulling you lower and lower by the second.Â
You reached the laundry room, and you found the weight almost unbearable, stopping just before you could step in. You didn't have to think about what came next though, because suddenly the bag was out of your hands and Spencer was sorting your laundry for you.Â
âIt's a Saturday, so your neighbour's won't complain if we separate the darks and lights into two machines, will they?â He asked, not looking up at you as he worked pouring out the fabric softener and the detergent. âY/N?âÂ
You hadn't noticed the lightness in your body until the tears hit your cheeks, the weight gone with his support.Â
âY/N, what is it? What's wrong?â He said, hands cupping your face, because of course he was immediately at your side.Â
âI-I can't do it, SpencerâŠâ your voice shook, pitching upwards, your vision blurring with tears.Â
âCan't do what, Y/N? Talk to me please, let me help?âÂ
âI can't do laundry!â You said, finally bursting into a full fit of tears and burying your head in his waiting chest.Â
âL-Laundry?â He said, trying not to laugh, but the smile slipping out anyway now you were holding him.Â
You only sobbed again, nodding into his shirt, aware you were probably leaving snot all over it but not being able to care. It was your shirt anyway. You would just have to add it back to your laundry pile.Â
The thought set you off on another wave of sobs, and Spencer set about comforting you again. Keeping an arm wrapped around you, he put his quarters into the machines and set them off before quickly ushering you back up the stairs into your apartment.Â
âY/N? Y/N, please talk to me,â he begged, smoothing your hair out of your eyes as you tried to gather yourself.
âI don'tâŠ. I can'tâŠ.â You took a breath again, aware of the way your breathing hitched in your chest as you did.Â
âI don't think I can do this anymore,â you said, and his eyes widened quickly.Â
âThis? Y/N, if you mean this as in us, then I can't-âÂ
âThis job,â you clarified, hands digging into the soft flesh of his arms further as he held you, finally sitting back on your couch.Â
âThe job. Okay, the job. That's okay. We all feel like this at some point.âÂ
You sniffed again and refused to meet his eyes.Â
âBut this isn't like the other times this - It's like my whole b-body is protesting, and I can't sleep, and if I don't, then I might get sloppy and an unsub could-âÂ
âY/N, focus on my voice. You're spiralling. Listen to my voice, let's take some breaths, and think about this for a second.âÂ
He guided you through some breathing, a hand on your back tapping out beats even as his voice grew quiet.Â
When you finally relaxed, you were sat on top of him, his hand rubbing circles into your back.Â
âI think it started when you left,â you whispered. âWhen you went to Mexico, and then, you know,â you've voice thickened, and you couldn't get the words out.Â
âAnd then these last 100 days they've just beenâŠdifficult.âÂ
â100âŠdifficult,â he echoed, almost breathless as he listened to you.Â
âIt's like I can't do it without you. I never had to try to do it without you, and now I get what people say when they say this job is shitty, because it is when your best friend isn't there.âÂ
You gave him a weak smile and wiped away your tears, trying to climb from his lap. But his firm arms held you still, and you didn't really want out anyways.Â
âWhen I get home, everything is different, and I can't make myself do anything. If you weren't here, I wouldn't have done that laundry. I'd let it sit and avoid it for weeks. Do you understand?âÂ
âY/N, lots of people feel depressed sometimes-âÂ
âIt's not - Spencer, I don't think this is something I can medicate my way out of. I don't know what to do because I can't do my job without you, and I can't be happy doing my job, and if I leave my job I'll be without you and then-âÂ
Your voice cracked again.Â
âAnd then I still won't be happy.â The words were barely a whisper, but they were a plea, too. You weren't sure what for.Â
âYou can't be happy without me?â He asked, but it was more a statement than anything else. Spencer felt horrible in that moment as his chest rattled, gleeful that he was your happiness.Â
âI love you,â he said, outloud finally after eight years.Â
âI love you, too, Spencer, but-âÂ
âNo, Y/N. Listen to me. I. Love. You.â The thumping of his heart set the tempo for the choir that was his senses to begin singing, as he finally leaned forward and kissed you.
âI love you, and I don't care if you're working at the BAU or if you're avoiding laundry at home. I, god, you're amazing and wonderful, and you're a human being, and you've our yourself under so much pressure for the last decade to keep me alive, to keep all of us alive really andâŠ.âÂ
He took another breath, leaning into kiss you one more time.Â
âAnd you deserve a break.âÂ
âW-When we take breaks, people die.âÂ
âDid anyone die when I was teaching for the last three months? When JJ went on maternity leave?âÂ
You shook your head, but your brain was still a mess.Â
âYou all had reasons, I-âÂ
âYou have reasons, too. Y/NâŠ. Y/N, let me be your reason.âÂ
For a moment or two, Spencer truly thought you were going to say no. He thought you would get up and walk away, or better yet, ask him to leave and never come back.Â
So when you pressed your lips to his, he was sure that this was a dream.Â
But to you, it was salvation. Spencer Reid's love was the lifeline you'd been thrown, and it was buoyant enough to make you start floating.Â
His hands kneaded the flesh at your hips as he pulled you closer still to him, his tongue slipping into your mouth to explore every part of you there.Â
âY/N⊠loveâŠyou,â he mumbled with each spare breath he caught, and you only detangled your lips to hear him say it again as he pressed similarly heated kisses against every inch of your exposed skin.Â
When Spencer's mind lost its ability to create original speech, he leant back on a lifetime of information, of learning love through books and people and marathons with you.Â
âI know that all I know right now is that I love you. And I know that I always will,â he whispered, lifting you and carrying you back to the bed you'd only crawled from an hour hence.Â
A hand slid under your shirt, and slowly pushed it over your head, letting it slowly drop to the floor as he held you tenderly.Â
âTo me, you are perfect.â
His mouth found one nipple, and he gently kissed, then suckled at it, hands softly caressing your stomach, feeling along every ridge of you as you writhed under him.Â
âOf all the FBI Units, in all the towns, in all the world, she walks into mine.âÂ
âSpencer,â you said, voice still thick with tears, but these ones more tender, more joyful.Â
His hand eased your sweats over your ass and off, his hips settling between your legs as if he found the place he was made to lie forever.Â
âThe truth of it is, Iâve loved you from the first second I met you.âÂ
His mouth trailed lower until his tongue hit your clit, brushing against it languidly, as if it was his deepest desire to taste you and nothing else ever again.
His tongue flattened and flicked and pushed inside of you as you replayed his words again and again and again. You found yourself repeating them with him.Â
âI love you,â you echoed as he pushed a finger inside of you.Â
âI.. love you,â you gasped as he added another.Â
âI love you,â you screamed as your back arched up off the bed, finding your pleasure in his tongue, just ad you'd found love in his words.Â
âYou have bewitched me body and soul, and I loveâŠ.â He freed his cock from his pants, and took it in hand.
âI loveâŠâ With another kiss, he pressed the tip of it against you, asking for permission silently as you nodded your head.Â
âI love you.â He pushed in slowly, but it wouldn't matter how he did it because now you knew how he felt, and you didn't want to return to a time of not knowing.Â
Hooking your legs around him, Spencer dropped his forehead to yours and looked you directly in the eyes as he began moving. In and out, he thrust, mouth open in a moan of pleasure, likely mirroring your own.
The poetry, the movie lines, they were gone now, and Spencer was left with nothing but you, and love, and love for you.Â
âSpencer,â you moaned out, and he felt his chest swell. Pride. His name on your tongue, his body pressed to yours, claiming you as his ad you claimed him as yours.Â
He came with a shudder and you were not far behind, his undoing sending a shiver up your spine as his fingers grazed your clit again.Â
You sat panting for a minute, still attached, still forehead to forehead.Â
You weren't sure if it was him who giggled first or if it was you, but you were glad it was one of you.Â
You spent the rest of the night, the rest of the weekend, wrapped in his warmth, dressed in his love, taking each day a step at a time as you basked in his adoration.
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kinktober - day 28 - phone sex
gaz x f!reader | 1.3k words cw: mutual masturbation, slightly mean ex-boyfriend kyle garrick, but also desperate kyle garrick a/n: you might say "have some pride" but then it's kyle on the other end. summary: kyle calls you for help. banner by @/cafekitsune | kinktober list
Your phone clattering on the bedside table startles you awake.
It rips you out of a deep sleep, and your eyes sting from the strain of staring into the dark at the jumping sliver of light. With a groan, you reach out of your blankets and blink until your vision clears. Great. You grimace at the number.
Kyle.Â
A mixture of irritating emotions tangle together through the fogâannoyance, worry, and, regretfully, interest. As it vibrates, you debate whether to answer. His late-night calls arenâtâŠunusual, but they always leave you conflicted.
With a resigned sigh, you swipe and bring the phone to your ear, voice thick with drowsiness and edged with a feigned indifference.Â
"Kyle, it's the middle of the fucking night," you grumble, rolling to your back. You have an inkling of what his call is about.
He doesnât bother with a âhelloâ or a âhow are youâ but jumps straight to business. Something wicked curls in your chest, smug and vindicated at the sound.Â
Shamelessly, he groans, "Babe, Iâm close," Thereâs a distinctly slick noise down the line. "Can youâŠFuck. Can you just talk to me?â
You roll your eyes at his request. Heat creeps into your cheeks, and you try to ignore it. You keep your tone steady and nonchalant, echoing, âTalk to you.â
âJ-Just talk. Anything. Itâll help,â He swallows audibly. âIf itâs easier, I can be there in ten, and we canââ
âAbsolutely not,â you hiss. Like hell, youâll have him over. Inside you. âWhy should I do anything for you? You throw me out of your life for your job, and then just expect me to get you off whenever you want?â
âFuck, yeah, thassit.âÂ
âKyle!â
You shift in bed, pushing off the covers slightly. Visions of him fisting his cock come to you unbidden. Itâs embarrassing how clearly you can imagine it. You dig your teeth into your lip. Down.
He chuckles, the sound breaking with a hitch, and speaks matter-of-factly. âYou fuckinâ love it. You love how I fuck you, donât you? You know how Iâd fuck you right now.â
You rub your temple. âYou have such a way with words.â
His voice softens, but you still hear him working himself over. The strain bleeding into his tone. âHelp me out, please. Iâm, ah, fresh off a work trip. A shit one. You always know how to make it better.â
There it is. The sweet talk. A Kyle Garrick special.Â
âCome on, babeâŠIf youâre not up for talking, my other suggestionâs on the table.â
And there that is. Him losing his grip on everything but his dick. Theoretically, you hold the power over himâhis desperation is clearer than the signal. Your ear might be wet by the time you pull your phone away.
Still. Resentment with a side of horrendous yearning course through you.Â
You know that with one word, heâd be right outside your door. A part of you wants it. Wants him begging in person, groveling after unceremoniously dumping you weeks ago.
âYour attitude is hardly charming.â You inject as much ice into your voice as you can muster, but it melts at a pitchy breath on his end. Sitting up with resolve, definitely not resignation or defeat, you switch the lamp on and lean against your pillows. A restlessness grows, the inevitable response to Kyleâs calls that seems to always derail any semblance of willpower you pretend to have.
âBabeâŠ?âÂ
"Fine," You finally concede with a sigh. "What is it exactly you want me to say?"
Kyle groans out a yes. âWant you to tell me how much you miss my cock. How you need it.â Itâs a wonder his ego fits through the mic. âTell me, ah, how empty you feel without me. Make me believe it.â
At least heâs predictable.Â
âYeahâŠIâŠmiss yourââ
âDonât patronize me, donât lie to me. I know when youâre faking it, I always have,â He snaps with a sudden angry and impatient bite, so abrupt that it makes you think you were ignoring it before. âI said make me believe it. Do it, or Iâll come over there right now and weâll sort out how you really feel.â
Itâs bait. Kyle wants to rile you up. He always loved make-up sex. Indignation blooms regardless, the burn familiar and grating, but the worst part is that it works. It butts up against the low-simmering want in your belly. Your free hand twitches on the waistband of your shorts.
You close your eyes. You can do this. Whatever keeps him from turning up.
Wetting your lips, you begin again. âI miss you.â Instantly, your chest tightens. Too sentimental of a start. âI miss how youâd go down on me for hours, how youâd have to hold me down after a while. Not letting up until I was shaking or close to tears.â
âFuck, yes, babe. Donât like seeing you cry âless itâs like that.â
You loathe how the encouragement makes you feel. âThen how youâd use me to get your dickââ
âYeah, fuck. Miss that pretty pussy. She always looks so gorgeous after a few kisses. Like sheâs cryinâ, too.â
Your blunt fingernails scorch through your bush so suddenly you jolt, having not realized your hand slipped into your shorts. You donât retract it.
âAnd t-then youâd tease me a little more. With just your,â Your finger tucks right in. âJust the tip.â
âI like how needy your hole gets, fuck, flutterinâ and clenchinâ on nothing.â
Your thumb draws small, tight circles over your swelling clit. âWhen you finally put it inâlike pure heat. Overwhelming.â
âKeep going, donât stop,â He whines. âSo fuckinâ close.â
âAlready?â You dare a breathy laugh, slipping your middle finger in alongside your index. Theyâre nowhere near a proper substitute for Kyleâs fingers or cock, but youâll make do.
âBabe.â Kyle snarls, huffing. The slick noise is louder. Fuck, he must be dripping.
You chuckle uneasily, then wedge your phone between your ear and shoulder, snaking your newly freed hand to pet your clit so you can fuck yourself better.
As you continue, itâs like thereâs a phantom sensation of Kyleâs body against yours. His cock in place of your hand, when heâd pause his thrusting to slowly grind. âAnd, ah, when you were inside me, hard and deep, it was like nothing Iâd ever felt.â You force a second, wry laugh, hedging your words with a sarcastic effect, but you swear you feel it. Your eyes squeeze shut, tongue darting out to lick the salt off your mouth. You might actually come from this.
âFuck, babeâŠâ Kyleâs breaths come in short bursts now. Maybe seconds from coming, you think. âTell me youâre mine.â
Something must be twisted in your head. Your brain pauses, but your fingers donât. Youâre near drooling onto your phone and pillow, both hands working yourself at a desperate pace. A sliver of reason begs you to pry a hand out of your underwear and hang up.
Youâve done dumber things, surely.
âIâm yours.â
Kyle grunts into the line and mutters a storm of curses. You picture him bucking off the mattress, heels dug into it, sheets rucked down to his knees, shirt pulled up toâŠ
âFuck. Finally,â He sighs, whistling low as he comes down. Then he yawns, and you hear him adjusting in bed. âWell, thanks babe. Same time next week?â
Your eyes bulge in the dark, fingers startling to a stop at the rapid change in conversation. You fumble for your phone. âI donâtââ
âGânight, love.â
Click.Â
You nearly throw your phone. Grumbling, you blindly open your bedside table, grab your vibrator, and finish business.Â
Stupid. Pompous. Greedy. Bastard.
Youâre only slightly ashamed when you come clenching around your fingers, imagining him instead. As you wash up, hoping that rubbing one out helps you into a dreamless sleep, your phone buzzes again.
Then, a distant knock at the door to your flat.
>> gonna let me in, or is one enough for you?
#gaz x reader#gaz x f!reader#kyle gaz garrick x reader#kyle gaz garrick x f!reader#sy kinktober#kinktober#the last gaz prompt for kinktober :') so close to the end!
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Before I Leave You (Pt.75)
(Omegaverse au, Mafia au, Bts x Reader)
Summary:Â Getting you home and into the nest before your heat hits proves to be a bit more of a challenge than Namjoon anticipated.
Tags: forced caretaking, slight loss of autonomy, feral omega's, m/c acts a little violent at the beginning, biting, blood, brief blood play, kinda inspection kink if you squint, body worship, preheat, non- sexual nudity, cramps, scenting, nesting, mindless fluff, hurt/comfort, omega/omega content, possessive behavior, omegaspace, yoongi has slight self-esteem issues, discussed past abuse but everything is better, manhandling,
W/c:Â 13.7k
A/n:Â I feel guilty because i had to snip this chapter in half because there was simply too much stuff going on in my life at the moment and i didn't want to go more than a month between updates. on the bright side i will try to get the second part out quicker, and i will also be very drunk at a engagement party when this is posted <3 gotta love that for me.
Previous part - Masterlist - First part
Yoongi stands on the porch, watching the street.
The warm air tickles the hair on his forehead, bringing with it the familiar smell of ocean brine and a faint daffodil from across the street. The streetlight isnât bright enough to cast them into anything like color, but the smell remains- still itâs not the scent that heâs looking for. The scent that Yoongiâs body hungers for.
Thatâs why he looks into the street, looks to the end of it where the tallest streetlights glimmer lighting up the concrete and the stop sign.
Looking for you and coming up empty handed.
His heart beats hard at the passing headlights of every car. Every thrum of wheels against the ground makes his body perk up. And every car that passes without turning in makes his hopes come crashing down. Like a seesaw, up and down. Like the ocean's rising tides reaching for the shore and finding it always a little out of reach.
Logically, Yoongi knows they have at least another hour, but it's hard to tell his instinct that- to detangle the fear in his chest and make something useful of it.
2 hours ago. Thatâs when he called you. Panicked and nervous about ruining your vacation- only to greet similar panic down the line.
Yoongi had been right earlier. Yoongi doesn't know if he feels vindicated or sick with worry. Self-assured or absolutely terrified. Heâd been right, but he hadnât believed in himself. He'd known and yet he hadnât done anything about it, hadn't put his foot down or kept you home and kept you safe. you are halfway across the state where he cannot help, cannot touch you, cannot ease this pain.
All because he didn't speak up. All because he was trying to be a good mate and was trying to let you make decisions for yourself. something in him, deep and dark and hungry, says 'See, this is why she needs you, see? This is why you should be more firm. The others are allowed why not you?
Yoongi quiets the voice but does not stop feeding it. You'd sounded so small over the line, your voice so quiet and so tired.
Jinâs loud shouts punctuate the night-time quiet. The interior of the house is similarly a place of worry strife and instinct as night falls. Yoongi can just barely make out Jin's words as he barks orders at Jimin and Tae to move it this way no move it that way. A distant laugh is a balm to Yoongiâs nerves. Drawing a smile to his lips even now. Even bratty, even in pre-heat the pack still clamber to do everything their pack omega asks.
Yoongi isn't just worried about you, he's worried about Jin too. Any other time he would be inside and helping Jin make the heat nest. holding him and easing away his instincts, making him calm in the way that the others- not even Jungkook- can.
But this heat is not going to be like the others.
The pack has never handled two heats at once before. Two ruts? Sure. That happens more often. Jimin and Tae go in spits and spurts, in sync one rut and then out of sync the next. But Yoongi has a feeling that everything is about to change. It's not abnormal for an alpha to skip a rut or an omega to skip a heat with the addition of a new packmate. But this? Two omegas in heat all at once?
Yoongi feels more than a trickle of fear.
Nesting instincts are an endless chaffing in pre-heat. The last time Yoongi dared venture inside the house Jungkook was dragging the bulk of the pack's nesting material into the basement to wash it preemptively. By now they're probably already drying. Probably being dumped warm on top of the broody pack omega inside, enough to placate him temporarily.
"What did you do with my pup! Nest theif! I want my pup"
Jinnie sounds close to tears, Jimin's low voices must not be soothing because Yoongi hears a hiss and a the telltale thump of a pillow thrown against a door. Yoongi winces.
He hopes Jin doesn't hit a window. He's got frightfully good aim, so there's a good chance he won't actually try to destroy the house.
If theyâre lucky theyâll have another day before the heat is in full swing. If they're not lucky it will hit by tomorrow morning. Regardless of when it actually hits. The pack has another hour before they have two cranky omegas in pre-heat, and that's more than they could hope for.
Yoongi should be doing prep work. He should be cutting up fruit or putting in another food order for tomorrow morning (that was the first thing he did after getting off the phone with you). It's too late to sneak away to the store; Jin's instincts might take it as a threat and make his heat come quicker to keep Yoongi close by. Yoongi should make sure that the pack has enough protein bars and easy-to-eat things for you and Jin.
Your body not being strong enough was the whole reason why you never went into heat in the first place- making sure this doesn't strain you too much should be his primary concern.
And yet, all Yoongi can do is look out at the driveway and wait for you to come home. Watching the darkness for headlights like people check the night sky for shooting stars and eventual wishes. There are things to do and meals to cook, nesting material to gather and wash. But Yoongi is still as a statue, standing watch and keeping guard. Shaking just a little- although he's not sure if it's nerves or just the cold.
(Frozen in fear, absolutely scared shitless, body a mess of misfiring anxiety and worry. Breathes coming quick. Goosebumps. The idea of every little bad thing that's ever happened to you that could continue to happen. Hurtling down his train of thought like a runaway car. Endlessly hurtling in a single direction towards a singular direction.)
Thank God itâs just you and Jin. If Jungkook went into heat too- who knows what the pack would do.
Yoongiâs fingers continue their drumming on the banister, Yoongi watches the moths flutter around the streetlight in the center of the cul-de-sac.
The door behind him opens letting the sounds from inside spill out onto the porch. And Hobi who has narrowly escaped Jinâs wrath with a fresh-looking pink hickey on his throat.
Yoongi wouldnât be surprised if everyone inside wore his mark, itâs likely theyâll wear it before the night is through. Jinâs snappish reply of. âNo- not there Kookie- here- like this-â
Yoongi winces. And tells himself that whatever scratches are left on the floor from them rearranging furniture will be worth the effort it eventually takes to buff them out.
Jin is a bratty commander when it comes to making a heat nest, theyâve been working on it for the better part of the last few hours. Making it perfect- making it for you. Everyone knows that Jin won't stop until you're home. You're to be the finishing touch, the last and most important addition.
Hobi stands in the doorway for a second calling yoongi's name softly. The sound is honey-soft in the nighttime quiet. Yoongi's teeth worry away at his lower lip.
Yoongi doesnât turn, Yoongi canât turn away from the street, even as Hobi comes up behind him and sets a warm palm on his shoulder.
âIf you wonât come inside, will you at least put on a jacket?â
Yoongi doesnât want to, if only to punish himself with the chill in the air. You must be cold too- an omega in heat outside of a nest and without enough packmates to help you regulate your body temperature seems so neglectful.
He doesnât respond, but a few seconds later a thick blanket that smells of Jin hyung (overly sweet, overly syrupy even to Yoongiâs dull nose) is placed around his shoulders. When he turns away from the street for a second, Hobi grins a little nervously.
âIt was the only way I could get him to agree to let you stay outside.â
Yoongi bites his lip and doesnât speak- feeling like if he does something embarrassing or scary will happen (or both). Hobi nuzzles into the side of Yoongiâs face, ignoring the way that Yoongi subtly shifts away. All too aware of Yoongi's predicament. Does Hobi know how unworthy he feels of the touch? That he feels he doesn't deserve the comfort?
Stepping up close behind until he can feel the alphaâs heat behind his back. Hooking his chin over his shoulder and nosing into his throat. Yoongi knows his scent smells sour and salty, knows it but Hobi doesn't recoil.
(The monstrous thing in Yoongi's chest that wants and wants and wants does not get room to move around, mostly because Yoongi does not feed it. He keeps his ego and his arrogance on a tight leash, a leash that your love holds the other end of. A many-headed dog like Cerberus guarding the underworld. Yoongi's desires and you. Two similarly sinful pursuits on either side of the scale judging Yoongi neither monster nor man).
Yoongi doesn't know what's wrong. Is this what the heat feels like? Coming down the mating mark?
âAre you okay?â Hobi asks, even though he must already know and can certainly scent it on him. Yoongi doesnât look at Hobi, worried heâll break if he does. âYou can tell me you know? It's okay I'm-" Iâm her person too, Iâm worried too.
Yoongi could let it go. Yoongi could say nothing and he knows that Hobi would let him- but- but- Â
The words come out all at once, scared and quick. Yoongi is so scared and he doesnât know what to do. Yoongi is a mess of emotions, some overlapping and some contradictory. He's feeling so many things at once and all he can do is stand here and watch the fucking street.
âI donât know how to do any of this.â
Yoongi turns back to look at Hobi anxiously. âJin and Jungkook- thatâs different. That you know Iâve done before but-â Yoongi hesitates. âIâve never helped her through a heat before and Jin is so particular. What if she- what if I'm not-"
Yoongi takes a shaky breath. What if she needs more than I can give her, what if she doesnât want me to touch her. What if weâre not back there yet. I've treated her so poorly the last few weeks. I'd understand. I'll have to understand if she says she doesn't want me.
Yoongi's instincts rage, Pacing the inside of his mind like a trapped zoo animal. A monster that's never allowed out, aching to stretch its claws.
Ruts and heats have a way of bringing out your hidden wants and desires. The things youâve been holding back, and what you havenât said.
There are other reasons why omegas usually mate alphas. The fact of the matter is that Yoongi might not be able to sate you in the way that matters.
It's simple biology; Yoongi does not have a knot.
Jin and Jungkook don't calm until they get one and neither does their heat fever. A heat fever is something that can actually be dangerous for Jungkook and his seizures. He doesn't usually have them during his heat, but the few times he has have not ideal.
Yoongi's usual job during heats is not the same as Hobi, Jimin, or Namjoon and Tae. Yoongi's there to settle, to ease. Usually, he's the only scent that the omega can tolerate during pre-heat. The only scent that doesn't bring about headaches and nausea.
But he can't even do that right, smelling sour as he does and miserable with you so far away. Yoongi has never wished he was born an alpha, never, but itâs hard not to wish it just a little right now.
As if on cue, deep in the house Jin snaps at Jimin harshly. âNot there, please donât put it like that Minnie- Minnie- stop.â
And then the next minute Jin goes back on it as if recognizing his harsh tone. turns from angry to teary and overwhelmed in an instant. âIâm sorry Minnie I didnât mean to yell at you.â
âItâs okay hyung. Just tell me where it needs to be.â
Understanding and allowances are offered to omegas in pre-heat. Jin's instincts are probably making him feel ten times as worse than anything said in the pre-heat of the moment could. The pack won't take anything said personally.
But you might if Jin snaps at you. Yoongi knows it might actually hurt you. You're sensitive like that. Delicate. Too delicate to be going through your pre-heat in a fucking moving car. Yoongi's stomach lurches at the horror of it.
âIâve kept my distance but now-â
âAnd now you feel like that might bite you in the ass because youâre not where you should be to help her with her heat.â
âYeah,â Yoongiâs eyes are glassy in the light of the streetlight.
âIâve never helped her with this before. I donât know what she likes or what she doesnât, I donât know where the boundaries are and Iâm really-â he takes a steadying breath, âreally used to that.â This is one of the few things that you and Yoongi have yet to go through. That he has yet to understand about you.
Hobi swallows, âThis is new for all of us then.â
Yoongi glances at Hobi's face, letting out another breath; less shaky. Hobi looks out at the street. He doesn't look worried; he doesn't even look nervous. Hobi has every reason to be a little bit tentative around omegas and their heats and he can count the number of times you've had sex on both hands. But if he's afraid or unsure, he doesn't show any of it.
âItâs okay not to have all the answers. Itâs okay to be scared and worried. If you wanted to not help-" Hobi sighs, "I donât know."
Yoongi shakes his head firmly the second Hobi voices it. âNo, I want to. Iâd never ever do that to her. Never. It's just scary.â  Iâm just scared. Yoongiïżœïżœïżœs arms are wrapped around his body, but his hand hovers over his hip, and Hobi notices for the first time how heâs cradling it.
âThe mating mark- itâs so tender. It actually hurts right now. I think itâs telling me I need to be close to her.â
With alpha's and omega's who are mated, a mark often means that one heat triggers a rut and vice versa- or at least false heat and false rut. Hobi is unsurprised that Yoongi is feeling at least something.
âIâm sure she wants to be close to you too hyung.â Yoongiâs eyes go darker and itâs like heâs not sure if he really believes him. He doesnât want to call Hobi out on placating him. So instead- hoseok changes the subject.
âWhat does the mating mark feel like?â Hobi has never asked. Yoongi goes quiet, palm lays flat over Hobiâs chest not exactly over his heart but close to the bone. Where Hobiâs ribs and all of him connect covered by a thin layer of muscle and skin.
For a second Hobi would swear he feels some horrible terrible ache.
âIt feels like thereâs an emptiness here, an emptiness so hollow that it hurts. Itâs like a scab you want to pick or an itch. Not a wound but something different. It's like needing to breathe and holding your breath. Like being hungry only you canât eat. Like wanting to sleep but you can't dream. It's like that, all at once and all the time.â Hobiâs breath hitches, bones and body expanding against Yoongiâs touch. âAnd it only goes away when sheâs next to me.â
Hobiâs eyelashes flutter, âNamjoon and Jin, and Tae and Jimin- when they-â
âOh, theyâre gonna be fucking ridiculous, absolutely impossible. Jin isnât gonna let Joonie out of his sight. I think Jimin will go legitimately crazy too- if he's not already. It was a lot worse at the beginning. Even her sneezing felt scary, like leaving the room for a tissue was gonna take all of me with her."
Yoongi and you don't talk about your beginning often- those few months that you both lived in this house and adjusted to each other without the pack. Hobiâs hand settles on the back of Yoongiâs neck, and it's like he can touch those moments like this, run his fingers along the strings of fate that have bound you and Yoongi so close it's hard to detangle either of you. He can feel your name in every pulse of Yoongi's heart, the rhythm and the melody to his being.
Maybe it's a good thing this wasn't me, maybe it's a good thing that I never had this choice Hobi thinks. Although there is still time- Jungkook doesn't want to mate- and the pack already has it's decided pairs. Hobi might not want it to be anyone but you.
Who knows who he might have become. What he might have done as your mate. Yoongi has never second guessed himself for Jin or Jungkook's heats before.
Yoongi does not growl and snap his teeth at the shadows. Yoongi doesn't even pace, he just stands and waits.
Hobi pulls him to rest back against his chest and Yoongi goes quiet. And when he looks up, he looks so scared, so young and Hobi knows heâs just terrified. Hobi presses his face into the side of Yoongiâs neck, nuzzling against his scent gland in little circles. Rubbing cheek to cheek to soothe his anxious scent, not all the way but just a little.
Hobi might be making things up, but for a second- it almost smells like Yoongiâs a little sweeter- smelling a little muskier, whatever part of his body that is bonded to yours already adjusting for the necessary stress of the next few days. Mateâs bodies are so perfectly in sync.
âYouâre her mate,â Hobi says it like thatâs all there is to it, voiced hushed and reverent with the truth of it.
âBut what if I'm not enough and I want to be enough."
âYou have a pack- youâve got us. Itâs not just on you anymore.â
Yoongiâs heart is thudding so fast, that he feels like he canât tear his eyes away from the driveway. It will be a few more hours still until you and Namjoon get home. Â
Until then, the two of them stand there and wait. Yoongi tips sideways until heâs leaning into Hobiâs chest and Hobi's hands hold Yoongi up, carry the weight of his body. That at least, he can carry.
~-~
The drive home is long and uncomfortable. Several times you double over, curling up in a ball in the front seat, the cramps racking through you violently and without pause.
Everything presses into you, the seatbelt, Namjoon's scent. The distance between you and the house, you and your nest, you and the pack. Everything is an oppressive weight pinning your breath in your chest and making you breathe quick.
Namjoonâs hands stay on the wheel, the back of your neck sometimes. His palm is cool against your clammy skin. Soothing you with grumbles and words of encouragement that do little to actually help the pain. After an hour or so, Namjoon just canât stop saying, âIâm sorry.â over and over again.
You donât stop you drive straight through, skirting traffic and long stretches of brake lights that seem to stretch on for miles and bleed into each other. Irritating your eyes and making you close them. Your skin is so oversensitive that every place it touches your scratchy sweater or the leather seat feels like too much, the sensation too vibrant and intense.
You wish Yoongi was here, his clothes are always so soft, and his hair and his skin too. You wish you had his scent on you and not Namjoon's- the thoughts makes you feel so guilty you dare not voice it. Â
And then the nausea starts and you have to turn away from Namjoon at every available opportunity so that you don't vomit. Especially when the car lurches. You have him crack the windows and then open them fully the worse it gets; you dry heave out the open window.
âIâm sorry Joonie I donât know why I'm,â Your face leans against the open door, sweaty somehow but still cold regardless of Namjoonâs jacket over your shoulders and the heat pumping from the vents.
âItâs alright pup, itâs okay, you don't need to apologize. Jin gets this way too.â You couldnât even pinpoint what was so wrong in his scent if you wanted to but the curdling nature of his liquor in coffee makes you feel like youâve just taken a dozen shots on Christmas Eve. You feel nauseous, teary-eyed, and upset. Something clawing at your chest that hurts more than anything else.
You must fall asleep at some point, or fall into a stupor because you feel it in your bones that youâre home before Namjoon even fully comes to a halt. Eyes still shut but blood singing and heart beating quick. You hear it, the whisper of your mateâs scent in the air. Maybe someone actually says your name, maybe you hear it from far away.
Your fingers fumble on the door handle and you donât even have your eyes open as you tumble out of the car. The car lurches to a stop the same second you try to get out, dizzy and off-kilter, trying to get your feet under you while vertigo makes the world spin, the streetlight, a figure silhouetted against the porch light runs to you.
You see him in double vision.
âPup- Donât-" But Namjoon is too late to warn you and You fall out of the car onto the gravel.
The momentum of the car takes you, banging into the door first with so much force that it's jaring before you crumple onto the gravel where it digs into your hands sharp. Painful.
But you hardly feel it. Your hands are suddenly slippery with something you can't see. Something you don't care about because you just need to get inside, you just need to get to the figure running towards you. Seeing double- are there two people running towards you or just one?
Dizzy, you are so dizzy and you actually are going to vomit. No sooner have you wretched onto the gravel below you than is someone picking you up, and you actually do let out a high-pitched keen.
His hands are under your arms, the light from the porch casting his face into shadow chiaroscuro, but you'd know him anywhere. If not from his scent or the fluff of his hair then by the way your heart sings when he touches you.
"I've got you, I've got you. Oh sweetheart, it's gonna be okay- i'm here."
Yoongi presses his face to the top of your head. And you grip the front of his jacket while he picks you up. His hand rubbing away the frustrated tears on your cheeks. Hands pushing back the hair from your sweaty face, your flushed cheeks.
And then your hand comes up to touch his face, and both of you see the blood.
There is blood on your hands, on the side of Yoongi's face when you touch him.
Yoongi smells so good, so unbelievably good. Like sleep after sex, like chocolate ice cream in the middle of a summer night, so sweet and heady and musky you start to leak slick a little, Legs shaky. You don't care about the metallic cling of blood to the air. Everything else is unimportant but him and staying close to him.
You shrink away from the tall presence behind you, Namjoon bristles, and Tae is on the top of the steps watching you. Her voice almost hissed. "Don't do that again." Namjoon grips the back of your shirt, huffing a tired sigh.
âDonât run away from us pup itâs not-â
But then He spots the blood, suddenly strong-arming his way around Yoongi to get to it despite your chirp of protest. Namjoon's hands are big where they clutch at your hands, his hair standing on end. There is another person behind Yoongi. You weren't seeing double.
âNot safe,â Jimin finishes, pulling Yoongi towards the house. And then the wind shifts casting the scent of blood to Jimin and his nostrils flare. His whole body tenses and a growl sounds out before he's even seen, looking down at your hand. Eloquent with his. "Oh- oh fuck- how the fuck did you even fuck up your hand like that?"
"Get her inside" Namjoon barks. His anger a wild thing in the darkness. Your sweet heat scent tangles with the smell of blood sets them all on edge.
"What?" You say, unsticking your tongue from the roof of your mouth, you don't like how cross your alphas sound, "What did I do?"
No one answers you, Yoongi curls around you as if he's trying to use his body to shield you from any prying eyes. Namjoon settles a hand on the back of Yoongi's neck and pushes him towards the house, towards the den, towards safety.
Your knees knock, and then give out. It's only through the virtue of having so many of them around you and Yoongi still basically holding you up that you don't fall over again.
"I'll get your stuff from the car."
"No- leave it Jimin just help me."
The sensations tangle. Jimin and Namjoon and their unhappy scents. Yoongiâs strong arms. Yoongiâs hands on you basically carrying you up and over the slate to the steps. Jimin is close beside him, You glance over Yoongi's shoulder at Jimin, watching his jaw roll. You turn your face away from him and his drawn expression. His stinky stinky vanilla and smoke scent- stale and grating- everything is too much too much too much.
"What's going on? Why can't I stand?" Even your own voice sounds far away.
"It's your blood pressure," Namjoon snaps.
Yoongiâs hard hands grip around your waist and when you pull back a little his dark hair catches the light from the streetlight and he ducks in close. Rubbing his chin across the crown of your head. âIâve got you; Iâve got you, here- get inside.â
He half carries you half walks you back up the steps under the porch light. Tae opens the door for you huffing, looking tired, a ring of hickeys bitten into her pretty pretty collar bones. You want to rub your face into them and add your own marks but she also smells too intense to get too close. "Pup? What's-"
You push your face into Yoongiâs throat in reply, so close that Yoongi wonders how you must be breathing; all youâre inhaling is his scent. His chocolate is a balm to your heat-fried nerves. But Yoongi feels it too, the pressure behind his eyes, his teeth, itching for a bite to render you docile and calm.
You are losing track of the minutes and moments. You are in the kitchen and your hand is under the water. Yoongi is still holding you, and Namjoon is talking to you. Making you open your palm. You can't hear what he's saying.
You try and lift up your hands, but Tae doesn't let you take Namjoon's jacket from around your shoulders. Seemingly thinking the same thing that Namjoon and the rest of them are.
That you need to be minded. It's not too far from the truth.
Your anxiety and annoyance ticks higher as you look around. Has the house changed in the last 10 hours? Why do the lights feel so bright? There are bags and bags of groceries on the counter, sitting grey-yellow like tumbleweeds, half empty.
The couch has none of its usual blankets on it and it makes your nostrils flare- Jin had a nest there this morning- why isnât it there? Where did it go? Who took it? Where is your pack omega? Why do you feel so annoyed? Why does everything feel a little bit off?
Where is Jinnie?
Namjoon touches your scrape and it stings. A piece of gravel thumps into the kitchen sink with a metallic plunk. The water stops going red and really- you can't even feel it. You try to tell Namjoon that- but he doesn't listen.
Namjoon is biting his lower lip to keep from yelling at you. Jimin is trying to keep you standing, but you seem more intent on leaning back into Yoongi's arms to press your face into his scent gland.
His hands cradle you, holding you over your stomach, nuzzling close. Closing his eyes hard before looking up at Namjoon, eyes swimming with guilt.
"I'm sorry. I should have been quicker," his hands are shaking where they hold you. All of you are that- shaken.
But blood first, pre-heat second.
"It's not your fault." Namjoon spits, wrapping your cut firmly. Gentle with how he holds you even if he holds you so hard you cannot do anything. Cannot squirm or move or wiggle your fingers. Like this, you can do nothing at all but be held and taken care of.
The gash isn't bad at all really, it doesn't need stitches, and it runs from the middle of your thumb just down to your wrist where it peters out. Clean and not bleeding clotting. You wouldn't know that with the way that Namjoon is crouched over that the way he stiffens when he cleans the dirt from it.
"I don't think her fingers are broken, fuck- do you think Jin would let me take her to the hospital?"
"You just got home Joonie-"
"I know but-"
Instead of wiggling your fingers, you flick water in Namjoon's direction. It hits his face with an audible plop and the pack alpha flinches.
The whole pack just stares at you.
Namjoon wipes the water off of his face, slow and intentionally with every movement of his body. You sense Namjoon's composure is about to slip. Good- you really want it too.
"See I can move my fingers!" You flick Namjoon again. Smiling a little, grinning, dopy and so high on heat hormones that you think it is funny. Flicking Namjoon to show your hand isn't broken even if your knuckles are a little scraped really- you'll be fine. They don't need to act like you're dying.
You try to do it again but Jimin grabs both of your wrists, holding you still. "That is the opposite of helpful." Tae snaps.
"Don't yell at me. I'm too tiny." you say, your voice that. Small.
Namjoon whips his hands on a kitchen cloth slowly. Staring you down without saying anything.
Yoongi runs his teeth over the back of your throat, hard, enough that you feel it, and it's like it unlocks your instincts. He's not sure why he does it- why you need the release of violence before your heat begins but you do.
Jimin and Yoongi Keep you in one place as you try to lunge for Namjoon. You barely even jerk in their firm hold. strong as they are. every one of them has more than half a foot on you- you'd never stand a chance really. Jimin holds you effortlessly- without even breaking a sweat.
Namjoon grips your face in his hands, and you almost want to hiss at him. Lip lifting in a soundless snarl. His voice is a gentle hush, a tone you are intimately familiar with.
The same tone of voice that has preceded every punishment and scolding you've ever received from the pack alpha. Every time he's ever coaxed you to take his knot (icky) or an orgasm (less icky). As he drags you close and speaks to you. Soft but firm. gentle but unyielding.
"You are allowed to be needy, you are allowed to be small. You are allowed to need everything and anything and I will personally make sure that each one of those needs are fulfilled."
You aim to bite him his hand, teeth clicking together, but Tae holds your jaw. Fingers digging into your lower lip. Making your lips push out. You push at them but they hold you still.
You like it. You like feeling your alpha's strength, your mate's strength. Where they begin and you end. You want to test it want to make sure they can protect you. Want to make sure they're worthy.
For what? You can't say. you think it might have something to do with the terrible sensitivity between your thighs, the bleeding hot need slowly gripping you, a distant storm rumbling. But you're not sure.
Tae keeps your mouth open and Namjoon taps his finger against your tongue, your lips, your teeth. Does he like how sharp they are? They feel awfully sharp in your mouth. Good omega, see? You want to tell him. Strong like you. Not a pup. You don't whine and recoil the way an alpha would at being poked and prodded at. You fight one moment then go pliant the next. letting him look, letting him touch and pinch your tongue between his fingers, loling it out and making it cute. tears building at the corner of your eyes by how frustrated you feel, how much you want.
"How cute" Tae coo's and you hiss at her- or try too. Namjoon's finger pressing against your tongue stops you from doing anything but whine.
Jimin smiles. Agreeing. "Cute little omega, acting like an alpha."
Tae lets you go after she's sure you're not going to try and bite Namjoon again, You grin at him, bearing your teeth. Behind you Tae stresses, concerned at how far you're trying to push Namjoon.
"Pup-"
"No, let her hiss." Yoongi's voice rumbles behind you. You let it out and although you mean it to sound threatening, it's more a tiny kitten than a powerful jungle cat. As loud and as menacing as you can make it but still- awfully cute. Tae hides her smile behind a hand and behind you, Yoongi rolls his eyes, all fond. He sort of wishes he got that on camera.
Namjoon smiles gently. And you want to scratch it off his unnervingly pretty face. You try. But Jimin effortlessly holds your wrists.
Namjoon taps your nose and you jerk- trying to fight them but getting about two inches before both your mate and Jimin have you completely immobile.
Some part of you loves being held and controlled like this and wants to purr instead of hiss. Your mate and Minnie are so strong- they hold you so well. It makes you feel all fuzzy and floaty. Like your anger and body is a separate creatures.
"If she bites you, I'm not kissing it better."
"She's allowed" Namjoon is looking away from you and you don't like it- the pack alpha should be looking only at you. You are feeling too many things at once, so many. Angry at Namjoon and hungry for him. Annoyed by his presence but needy for his attention. "I bit her when I was in rut you know. She owes me a good nibble."
"Not gonna bite you-" you hiss while you struggle against Jimin's grasp, but he doesn't even have to fight to keep your hands from pushing at Namjoon. You want to push at him more- want to get him to lose control. "You're icky."
Namjoon laughs, and it only makes you more angry.
An omega in preheat bleeding is a creature of instinct. Your instincts can not sort through what you need and what you want. Why you're bleeding and why you're not in the nest. Confusing threat for care.
Namjoon doesn't even blink in the face of your aggression. "You're allowed to bite me and hiss and want to pick a fight- to test us- But what you are not allowed to do- not now, not ever, and certainly not in pre-heat- is jump out of a moving fucking car."
"Namjoon" Jungkook says from the doorway. Leashed anger in his voice.
The whole pack looks up at him and you break eye contact, breaking the spell on all of you- and you go from jungle cat to fluffy kitten in two seconds.
You forget Namjoon instantly at the sight of him.
Jungkook is there, Jungkook is there and heâs the only person besides your mate that doesnât smell too much or too intense. You completely shift out of Jimin's grasp and the alpha lets you. Disregarding his anger too- as you should. He smells so yucky.
Jungkook does not smell yucky. He doesnât smell like his unhappy rotten flowers- no- Jungkook smells so thick and happy you half expect your mouth to be stuck shut with honey when you open your lips and chirp. It sounds petulant and pupish even to your own ears, but Jungkook just smiles and bullies Jimin and Tae out of the way to get his arms around you.
Yoongi does not. But you wouldn't want him to anyway. He back hugs you, keeping your back pressed against his chest. Face tucked into your throat.
Strange. All of that was so strange. you're angry one minute then sweet the next. utterly pliant and a doll under their touch. scenting you this way and that.
You tangle your hand in Jungkookâs shirt and grab him, tug him close. Whining. The corners of his eyes crinkle. And you know all your fears of pushing this on them so suddenly are for nothing.
Jungkook bounces up and down on his heels- he smells sweet and excited. Youâre so relieved when you see him that you actually start crying a little. âYou saw me like literally 5 hours ago-â
âI know- but- but-â
Jungkookâs purring is loud and strong against your chest. A sound that shocks out of your own chest too. A special little omegan hello.
Yoongiâs hand settles on your back, one on Jungkookâs too. âBoth of you need- weâve got to-â
"At least wait until the blinds are shut before you start purring. Are you trying to announce to the whole world that you're-" Namjoon's worrying is cut off by Tae's hand on his arm, his shoulder? Your alphas ring you, keeping their distance only slightly. Over your head- Yoongi mouths 'leave it'.
The sound of Jungkook purring fills the air with his honey-golden scent. Makes you forget about the living room and your hand, and everything else that's wrong with the den slips away. Itâs a sound you usually only hear in the nest, during the quiet of the morning when things are especially good and special.
He lets you rub your face into his chest until your nose is rubbed raw- you already feel raw, everything chafing. And you let out a happy little trill when he rubs his wrist along yours.
Behind you- one of your alpha's lets out a deep pleased growl. Someone says something that sounds like "Possessive little shit" pouty and grumpy that they didn't get to you first.
You sense that things are being said over the top of your head but you have neither the want nor brain cells to listen to them. Trying to press your face as hard as you can into Jungkook's throat. Into Yoongiâs, then back again.
Jungkook paws at your sweater, and you protest for a moment before you let him, tugg up the hem, not off, not yet. âItâs too scratchyâ he nips at your throat, rubbing his wrist over your stomach at the same time. The pleasure-good-nest-Jungkook-omega of it makes your knees go a little weak.
Yoongi catches you and Namjoon jerks forward arms out. For all his snapping he is still the first person to reach to catch you. âWait until sheâs in the nest Jk here-â They puppet you- and youâre honestly more interested in pressing your face to his and Yoongiâs necks than helping them waddle walk you across the house.
Good- something nearby smells really really good. Not like Namjoon who smells too stressed, the scent of his displeasure a zing against your nose. Not like Jiminie who's all stinky, not like the touches of Taetae here. Her's is usually a scent that you love but now she smells so cloying you want to paw at your nose and get it out.
âHobi and Jinnie are already in the nest-â Namjoon stoops to kiss Jimin's mouth, a quick peck that interrupts his words. âKoo was helping me cook and I think we've got enough food but-"
"That's perfect Mini thank you."
Jimin preens under the pack alpha's attention and you whine. On closer inspection Jimin and Jungkook and just about everyone is covered in bite marks ringing their throats. You know the shape of Jinnies mouth. The sight of them has you blinking, wide-eyed, an ache in your jaw that you donât understand.
Pretty alphaâs you need to bite your pretty alphas- theyâre just so yummy. Yummy but stinky. Maybe you can wait until after they shower and they stop smelling so gross.
Yoongi huffs, answering you even though you didnât realize you were speaking. âYou need to eat real food first,â you stay buried in his chest. Namjoon sighs.
They move you slowly through the house, stepping over curled-up heaps of blankets on the floor. Inelegant curls of fabric.
You know what they are- decoy nests. Meant to distract any potential alphas or predators from finding your real nest. A behavior that like the purring and chirping, is vestigial. You know your alphas are strong enough that theyâd never dream of letting anyone into your den.
Luckily, they're not any of your usually favored nesting materials- the blanket thatâs just a slightly displeasing shade of chartreuse here, the one that has too thick seems here. You donât mind them, something about the sight of them makes the last of your anxiety dissipate.
You can only imagine Jin feeling what you feel- the anxious ever gripping anxiety of an unseen threat, not having Namjoon nearby must have done a number on him. You love him, even if you wanna bite him. You tell him that.
"I know- Just-" he grumbles. Admits, "love you too."
You wonât be confused; you know your pack omega wouldnât want you anywhere else but in your real nest next to him. Jungkook and Yoongi steer you. Guiding you not to the nest upstairs but through the house past your and Yoongi's old bedroom. On the way past the door, namjoon checks the lock, making sure it's secure.
They take you through the house to the pack's old bedroom. What had been turned into a little extra shelf space for Taeâs collection has now been disassembled. Redesigned in Jinâs nesting fervor.
You donât know how your alphas moved the shelves out because you thought you saw Yoongi bolt them to the studs. You have a sinking suspicion that theyâve put them in the room at the end of the hall- all of the clutter stuffed there to where it canât aggravate the sensitive pack omega.
The nest almost takes your breath away. It's so perfect.
The floors have been laid clean; mattresses piled from wall to wall with only a small space of spare floor to step into the room. Every single pillow and blanket and what looks to be half of the packâs wardrobe are piled in concentric circles.
Itâs a good choice, to have your heat here. The walls feel so close and yet the ceiling doesnât feel too far away, cozy and protected. The warm walls are shadowed by the lights above. The translucent curtains pool and hover like low-hanging clouds and keep the nighttime out. You're protected here on the ground floor and the alpha's won't have to go too far to get you food and pee and do whatever else they'll need to do while you're in heat.
The nest itself is so pretty that it almost brings tears to your eyes. There are pieces of you and the pack everywhere. Jin has thoughtfully lined some of your stuffed animals against the wall and Noodle's cat bed is tucked into a corner. Your big blue blanket- your favorite blanket- has been fluffed and kneaded in the center. The twin to it- Jinâs favorite- a thinner duvet that's yellow and rough and holey matches on the other side like two crescent moons.
Jungkookâs whole collection of throw pillows is scattered about- the ones with funny shapes and the velvet fur and fine silk fabrics. They build up the walls and guard the nest from the doorway. But the placement of them is a little off. Not like Jungkook hadnât been caring where he put them, but like heâd been distracted. You can fix it later.
Blankets ring a wide center in heaps, dotted with the pack's clothing; your and Hobiâs favorite sweatshirt, Yoongiâs flannel, Taeâs delicate silk dresses (with holes bitten into them by the pack omegaâs blunt little teeth). You canât go more than a step into the room without disturbing it.
You stand in the doorway dizzy. It feels good, gets a weakness to your bones to be back here. In this room back where it all started, the first room that you were ever Jin and Namjoonâs. You remember being so shy and unsure looking across the hall and wondering what it would be like to enter as a lover. You remember wondering if youâd ever feel welcome- if youâd ever be welcome.
Now you donât have to wonder, you feel the rightness in your bones when you look at it.
Your blood sings, your heart beats quick. Instincts screaming good here safe, pack omega pack omega pack omega.
Jinnie.
Jin looks like heâs not as pleased with how the nest has turned out; quite the opposite. If you had to choose a word to describe the pack omega youâd choose scruffy.
He looks like Noodle after a bath and a blow-dry. None of his carefully curated edges are intact. Heâs underneath the windows on his knees. A bit of stubble on his chin, his cheeks and under eyes puffy. A determined look in his eyes as he sets about fluffing one of the duvets. Curling it, winding it with another to make a structurally supportive border, delicate. His hair half pushed up by the back like heâs been rolling around in the nest to make sure it's properly scented.Â
Jungkookâs hand settles on the back of your neck, and Yoongiâs fingers brush your palm. Jimin and Tae watch from a distance, they know not to come any closer- after already having had their heads bit off for even daring to pass by and double-check that Jinâs okay, that heâs gotten everything he needs.
Namjoon's eyes are honey pools as he watches Jin, a soft growl building in his throat. Pretty pack omega, mine, my lovely little Jinnie. Namjoon's blood sings with the urge to protect, the need to provide and keep safe.
After substantially ordering the lot of them around and nibbling them until the hunger in his chest quieted. Jin had promptly banned them the alpha's from the nest until you had a chance to alter it.
But Jin didnât need to worry. Itâs perfect. You donât want to change a single thing.
(Well- logically- Noodle's nest should be by the door so that he can escape when he needs to. You donât think you should allow him to use it while the heat actually going on...but it would be nice if he wanted to cuddle in pre-heat).
For all of his fussing, Jin doesnât immediately notice that youâre in the doorway waiting for him. Waiting for permission to enter his nest like a good pup. Teetering, swaying with the pack omegaâs movements, eyes following his hands. A needy and petulant chirp building behind your lips that's hard to restrain.
Then all at once, a lump near the window moves- youâd thought it was just another pile of blankets but itâs Hobi. His hair pushed up and ruffled at the back like heâs been scented to hell and back. He looks a little chewed up, a little bitten, wearing a ring of hickeys around his throat that looks suspiciously like a collar. A big tank top that youâve never seen him in shrouding his slender body.
He makes eye contact with you and your legs go wobbly again.
âHyung.â
Jinâs head whips around, eyes narrowing the second he sees you. Lifting his lip in a greedy snarl that sounds suspiciously like âmy pup.â and then he hisses, not at you but at the alphas behind you, lingering too close.
Jin lunges- pulling you swiftly into the nest, pulling you to his chest where his heart beats- rabbit frantic against your cheek.
You heave a sigh of relief.
âNest thief, Pup thief, back-â
Namjoon lifts his hands, backing away. Jimin too, his non-proverbial tail tucked between his legs. Tae does her best not to let the rejection show on her face.
âSorry Jinnie.â
âSorry, love you, wonât come in againâ
"Call us if you need anything!" They slink away down the hall as Yoongi gently lowers himself onto the edge of the nest and lets you shuffle forward, stifling his laughter. Jungkook flops down, pulling a pillow to his chest and sitting criss cross.
"You tell em babe." Jin's hiss peters off. nosing through your hairline eagerly. Sitting in his lap sideways as Jin clutches you to his chest. âNest thief?â You parrot, a little dazedly, a little quiet as Jungkook starts to pull at your sweater. Pouting at it.
âThis is too scratchy for the nest.â
Jin noses along your shoulder, big and imposing and all right there. he recoils when he tries to rub his cheek along your shoulder. The scratchy texture that assaults his senses. Agreeing with Jungkook's assessment that your sweater is too scratchy. biting and nipping at the collar before he pulls back.
"What is this?" he hisses, grabbing the sleeves of it. Yanking at the fine wool and pulling the stitches loose.
"Joonie's. I was cold."
Jin shrivels his nose. "Alpha knows nothing about nesting."
"You know nothing John Snow." Hobi parrots and Jungkook rewards his shameless meme reference with a pillow to the face and a grin. You hardly notice them roughhousing, careful as they are not to disturb the nest too much.
Your pack omega looms over you, puppetting you until you're spread out. Ignoring your weak whines to stay close. jin's hands and gaze go hungry as he noses along the side of your neck to the hollow of your throat. down. check- he needs to check and make sure that no one got to you- that the icky icky nest thief did no damage. (You have a feeling Jin's also checking to make sure that he left you un-bred.)
Your pack omega is so much stronger than you- a few bratty wiggles do nothing to stop him as he examines you, lifting each of your extremities up to nuzzle and inspect and scent. giving particular attention to your stomach. Yoongi shuffles over, laying a hand flat there.
"Good tummy?" you ask, shy and small. An omega's tummy is always particularly sensitive even outside of a heat. Your shyness now has nothing to do with your body and the state of it. Nothing to do with your weight but everything to do with the fact that Jin and Yoongi are touching the place that the alpha's will breed later. Cradling and being delicate with your hips and stomach. Soft and vulnerable. strumming his fingers over the fine hairs reverently.
You wouldn't let any of the alpha's outside touch you there, you might not even let jk touch. Only your mate and pack omega are allowed, are safe enough.
Yoongi ducks low to peck your nose. you wiggle happily at the sensory pleasure of it, hiding your face in your hands because your emotions are too much. You're too happy, the way yoongi's looking at you makes you feel too much love- your chest might burst with it.
"Best tummy" he corrects you.
Jin continues his check of you, touching everywhere he can get too. stripping off your socks and tossing them into the hallway. Fingers running over everything. Your hips your sides your stomach. You wait with baited breath for him to notice and when he gets to your hand and nuzzles into the gauze- his eyes shoot open and He snarls.
Distantly down the hall, you hear, "That wasn't us!"
Jin nuzzles into the bandage on your hand, lip lifting at the smell of blood, upset, near sick with worry as he pulls back to look at you. eyes starting to swim with tears. "Hurt- pup hurt."
You quiet Jin's tears with a nuzzle into the side of his wrist. The urge to bite down, to mark him, is almost overpowering. "Alpha made it better, alpha almost let me bite him." You're sort of giddy with it.
Jin grumbles. Cheek rubbing against your hand, aching dully just like the quiet pitter patter of your heart.
"Nest thief, icky alpha," Jin hisses.
"Icky." You agree.
"Hurt?" Jin asks, laconic and speaking through one-word phrases, but the sight of you in pain has Jin coming back to himself just a little.
"No worse than my cramps." You squirm, and Jinnie holds you closer. hands loop around your waist, hovering on your stomach in a different way. Protecting where you're sensitive with the wide splay of his palms. But there's nothing he or any of them can do.
"How's yours?"
Jin sighs and rubs his cheek along the top of your head. Flopping over and curling around you. done with his inspection of you for now. "Coming and going. Not bad."
Yoongi huffs, combing a hand through your hair then Jin's, Both of your bodies are boneless temporarily, relaxing- with no intention of moving or fluffing the nest.
Yoongi pecks your head and then Jins and then starts to get up. "I'll get the heating pad" he depresses the nest under his feet. And no- that's not right.
Yoongi is so special and soft and yours. He can't leave the nest now, not when you've just gotten here. One of the alphas can go get it, you don't want him to leave the nest. You perk up, pulling yourself onto your knees- even that level of movement makes you dizzy.
You don't know why, but the thought of Yoongi leaving the nest is terrifying. Makes you so scared you feel like crying. Adrenaline pumping until you're scrambling for him, grabbing the hem of his sweatshirt, pulling it until he stop. Swiping and grabbing at Yoongi's sweatshirt. Pulling at the hem of it.
He looks back, looks down at you, eyes a little wide. lips parted, as your eyes slowly go glassy. Filling with tears.
Behind you, Hobi stifles his laughter. Jin just looks down at you, so much fondness in his gaze that it's hard to look at without feeling like Yoongi's intruding. Yoongi is not intruding. Yoongi could never intrude. You stare up at him and whine until he sits back down.
Yoongi still has blood on the side of his face, your blood. A faint splatter of it over his jaw where you'd cupped his face. Jin purrs and pulls the beta down to his level before he licks it off his cheek.
You blush, and Jungkook cringes. "Gross hyung."
"Can't- don't-" words are so hard for you to say in this state. All of the aggression from before melted away, and now you are gentle and small. You need Yoongi. You need Yoongi right next to you or else something terrible will happen- you're sure of it. You press your face into his throat and his hands come back up to hold you. Suddenly the urge to bite is there, but you don't, just nuzzle and crowd him.
He lets you, holding you when you get a bit too aggressive in your scent marking, and threaten to make both of you topple over. eyes wide with surprise.
You hum, satisfied, a purr starting up in your chest that has the air turning sweet where it had been tense. Pressing your face into his chest, body boneless and gravity doing its work as you search his body the same way Jin examined yours.
You find it the mating mark, nosing under the fabric until Yoongi tenderly cups the back of your head and pulls his shirt up. "There- better?" You purr and rub it up against your cheek. Sprawling in the nest. Your hair gets all messy as you push and push and push your face into his mating mark.
Yoongi smells so good there. The best. Sweet sweet sweet chocolate. you nibble a little at the puckered skin and are rewarded with a noise- half moan and half sigh. yoongi's thighs splay wide giving you access. He tucks your hair behind your ear and above your head, Hobi and he share a long special look.
You pull at his waistband and Jin stops your hand. "No pup, not yet."
"But- but-" your protests fall on deaf ears. Jin is so strong, picks up your hips and lies you flat. Hands continue their checking moving south regardless of your shuddery squeeks.
He tries to get between your legs, and Jungkook stops him. Jin goes at him teeth snapping. Jungkook just grins. "Cute hyung but no- you told me not to let you do that."
You kick your feet a little, but Hobi reaches over to grab your ankle. "Why? why can't we?"
Jungkook detangles you from Yoongi, from Jin, gentle and slow so that your instincts aren't triggered. directing your face up to where the air is clearer and guiding you to breathe until your mind clears a little.
Jungkook strokes over your throat, looking down at you. "Any sexual attention at all from any of us will make your heat come quicker. For the record I'm all for it- but the rest of the pack want your heat to be gentle."
The fact that they'd had a plan that you hadn't been apart of, makes you feel warm all over. And it has nothing to do with your heat. These things are just too big for you to grasp. So vulnerable and too pupish to make your own decisions. You don't even protest at what Jungkook says or try to deny it. you don't lie and say that you can decided for yourself how you want your heat to come.
This is why you have a pack, why you're at the bottom of the hierarchy. Why would you ever even need to make decsions for yourself? They know best.
A tightness in Yoongi's chest eases, just a little. Watching you and Jin and Jungkook interact with each other. You tense up, and your cramps, are suddenly there. Fingers leaving Yoongi in favor of cradling your stomach and whimpering. curling up quick.
Jin growls and tries to pry your hand away from your stomach. but Yoongi sets a hand on your back as you curl up. "Breathe deep for me sweetheart, breathe. You're doing so well." But there is nothing any of them can do but hold you through them.
Jungkook does not hop up, or hold you, just rolls until he's by the door, sticking his head out to shout down the hall, Jimin's head pops from around the corner almost immediately followed by Tae's. Both of them look pink-cheeked and red-lipped. (Jungkook knows how they are, how the scent of omega's in pre-heat riles them up.)
"Heating pad? For pup?" His eyelids flutter, and Tae watches him as Jimin jumps up, almost slipping into his socks on the polished wood floor.
"On it."Â
Tae watches Jungkook intently before he slips back into the nest.
the cramp stops and you relax, uncurling yourself. Jin's thumbs rub over your belly, and you nuzzle into him. He lets you nuzzle into his stomach too. He's so soft here- so soft and plush and cozy, it's honestly unfair. You have to concentrate really hard to speak, alternating from pushing your face into Jinnie's tummy and Yoongi's hip. You don't really know why other than that you need to.Â
"Are you? Close yet?"
Jin leans low to rub his chin over the crown of your head. His body isn't tight with cramps. Not like yours is. "No, but soon."
His eyes are wide and glassy, licking his lower lip. But Jin seems to come back to himself a little in the face of you in discomfort, the idea of his littlest pup in pain. âDo you want a fresh change of clothes? Some snacks? Yoongi brought some- so helpful.â
Behind you Yoongi blushes and Jungkook pinches his cheeks, your mate tries to swat his hands away. âYah-â
It seems you're not the only one keen for a fight, between the two of them- Hobi and Yoongi get Jungkook just like you and Jin, sprawled in the nest and purring at a nip to his throat. You and Jin pay them no mind. their rough housing.
âDo you want some water, to eat? To sleep to-
You stop him, leaning over, pushing your face into his thighs, flopping over, cutting off his rabid train of thought. Resting your head on his lap. âJust want this, just need this.â You peek up at Jin, at his stricken expression. "Please?"
Your body is so tired you don't know if you could move if you wanted to. Finally- finally you're not too cold or too hot, just perfect, just right. Just fine right here. Jin threads his hand through your hair, hard, urging you towards his stomach.
Heâs so soft and vulnerable there. You need to protect his tummy- make sure no one gets close to it who isn't perfect. The scent of Jin's slick is so distant to the urgency of protect pack Omega needs to protect that you don't even notice it as he sighs and cups the back of your head.
Hobi reaches over, to touch your head too but you growl. It's a squeaky sound, not at all as threatening as you mean for it.
His hand retracts quickly- you whine, petulant. âNo- sorry Iâm just-â
âPossessiveâ Jungkook says, touching your hips, your thighs, checking your temperature there, finding the skin hot and puffy. You sprawl out parting your tights for him to touch. Yoongi smiles, trying to hide it but failing.
âYes.â
Jinnie Is mine. You want to say, want to say- but canât do more than whine and growl and chirp. You're all mine, none of the alphas can have you- none of them. All mine. My nest. Omega made it for me so it's mine.
Jinâs hands run through your hair after a moment, combing through it and twisting it to keep it out of the way. Until all heâs teasing at are the baby hairs on the nape of your neck. Pulling at them softly like a lifeline drawing you out of your instincts. You keep eye contact with him, lucidity growing in each of you the longer you spend in each other's presence.
Jin and Yoongi make everything feel alright, makes everything not feel scary.
When you look back up at him Jin looks more lucid, more aware of what he's doing and who he's doing it with. A crinkle between his eyebrows that will make fine lines in a year or two.
You nudge against his palm; you don't have to ask more than that to get him to tell you what he's thinking
âI kinda thought that you might want a heat without all of us- just you and Yoongi- or at least one where we could take care of you.â
Jinâs cheek is chubby where his lips pout, you love it. It looks like a crescent moon. You want to bite it, his cheek, and feel the give of your pack omega under your teeth. Yoongi answers for you.
"No, of course not- you guys are-"
You curl up, your knees nudging Yoongi's back, dragging him closer to where you and Jin are cuddled.
âIâm not going to be able to take care of you quite as well as I hoped. Your first heat wonât go like how I wanted it.â Jinâs voice sounds so sad, almost broken.
You and Yoongi immediately fold yourself close. You tangle your injured hand with Jin's gently. Yoongi leans in, pressing a kiss to Jinâs spine and the pack omega sighs at the sensitivity and soreness.
âItâs okay, you canât control it and-â and itâs nearly better this way. Youâre honestly so tired that you couldnât even start to nest, and even if you could- you doubt that youâd be able to make a nest as lovely as this one. You say that- say it.
And Hobi fluffs up, keeping his distance after you growl at him. But he's there at the edge of the nest. Your eyes narrow. âI told him to put up Christmas lights just in case.â
"Can I bite you?" Hobi raises an eyebrow at you. But you see the telltale way his cheeks pink up. "I need to bite Jinnie first, and then Yoongi, but after-"
A giggle shocks from your packmates but Jin just huffs at you, eyes melting away from frustration and into endearment. His scent is sweet and cloying milk.
"You mean you don't want me to leave?" Hobi asks slowly, carefully while Jin's fingers rub at your waist, under the waistband of your pants Apparently dissatisfied with them. Starting to tug them off until you're in nothing but your underwear. Jungkook takes them and tucks them into the outer layer of the nest.
"No? Why would I want that?"
Jin doesn't let you and Hobi hash it out yet, preoccupied with the idea of being marked and bitten.
He tugs you up and closer. Ushering you close to his neck and scent gland, puffy and inflamed just under his jaw. Face to face with it again you cannot make your mouth reply to Hobi's question, mouth-watering.
You nose at his throat for a second but then Jin's hands are pulling you closer and your mouth parts against his skin. You suck and suck and suck, Jinnies scent gland is so squishy beneath your teeth. The skin is sweet.
You lose yourself a little. Going needy and clingy, hand tangling with the front of his shirt. You feel his sigh, his relief at having you close. The give under your teeth that states an unfurling hunger in your chest, the kind of hunger that's starting to burn.
"My little omega," he croons, running a hand over the back of your head while you suck to your heart's content. Your heart rate slows a little. Thudding loud in your ears. A finger nudges your cheek and you growl. Jungkook just laughs at you.
By the time you pull back, you're dazed and every breath is Jinnie Jinnie Jinnie. Jin's throat has several small marks on it, little and pink. The pack omega smells so good, so soft and good. love Jinnie so much, just wanna stay next to Jinnie in the nest forever, and never wanna leave. Best nest, perfect nest for pups-
"Pups? You're pups." Jin pouts, cheeks pink, and you grip his shirt. The others are there and you'll mark them soon but you need to be done with the pack omega first. Need to mark him first before any of the alpha's so that they know he's yours, before he's theirs. Can't steal the pack omega away from you- you need him too much.
"Nest thief" Jin hisses, sitting up quick, and jostles you. Sending you out of your omegaspace because of the way you almost fall. Almost fall except for the way that Jin curls over the top of you and hisses in the direction of the doorway. And you sense a movement by the door, letting out a growl and wheeling, turning.
"I'm just dropping off some water." Namjoon says, retreating with open palms. the heating pad sits rolled up at the edge of the nest too. "Love you guys, goodnight."
"Nest thief?" You ask again. Still a little dazed. Still very out of it.
âJinâs been calling Namjoon that. Heâs angry that he stole you.â Hobi says, voice rough in the nighttime quiet. A laugh hovering on the edge of his words.
Any reply you could possibly muscle is quieted by Jinâs needy trill- the pack omega displeased that your attention is not on him, not focused on him. He pulls your sweater up and over your head to replace the scratchy sweater with a shirt. Formerly folded into the edge of the nest that smells strongly of Jungkook.
You hold your chest wearing no bra, just in your underwear, hiding from their gazes just a little. Although the pack knows your body better than you do- being nude still feels a little sensitive a little too much.
Yoongi wordlessly sets a hand on your thigh. Rubbing up and down your skin, soothing away your goosebumps with his warm palm.
You grimace at what Jin offers you.
âJinnie- I love you, but Iâm not putting on Jungkookâs used workout shirt."
Jin blinks down at whatâs in his hands, lower lip wobbling. âbut- but-â
Jungkookâs and Hobiâs chests are shaking with quiet laughter, and Yoongi smiles as he hunts through a nearby basket before peeling his own shirt off and tugging it over your head. "hands up" he says, and you obey him. kissing him on the way out, yoongi tugs your hair out of the collar, twisting it away from your face but not tying it up to sleep. The long fabric pools around your thighs. âThere- is that better?â
Jin just looks up at Yoongi and purrs. Rubbing his face into your back. "best."
Jin tugs and you fall into a heap onto the nest. Pulled against his front. Jinnie is- Jinnie is so warm, the whole house and the ride over youâd felt so cold, and now- now you feel so warm. Jinnieâs body feels like sunshine pressed up against you.
You breathe in deep expecting everything to smell happy, but you freeze; Hobi smells sour.
You didn't realize it because he was covered, burritoed in, but as he pulls himself out from under the blanket to get a glass of water, it sends his sourness everywhere. Before anyone can stop you, you shuffle and flop over top of him. You whine, burying your face in his stomach. Keening high. Displeased.
Hobi almost spills the glass of water all over you but doesn't by virtue of Yoongi's steadying hand. âJeeze, donât get all teary-eyed on us.â You breathe in and out, blinking away your tears, Hobiâs hand rubs through your hair trying to soothe you. Yoongi takes the glass from him.
âNot crying cuz Iâm upset, just-â You let out a frustrated noise.
Hobiâs eyes are dark with understanding. âI can get up and leave if you want I know that Iâm not-â an omega, goes unspoken, but your arms just tighten further around his waist.
You remember everything heâs ever said about his last pack- Moonbyulâs pack (you remind yourself as you have had too many times over the last few months.) How theyâd never let him stay in their nests through their heats.
Unless they need to use him.
You have a lump in your throat thinking about that. a lump that feels like anger but can go nowhere but inward. You canât imagine making him feel that way. Making him feel unwelcome.
The others arenât allowed in the nest because your skin is too sensitive, too friable, their scents too pungent with wanting too easy to want. but Hobiâs scent is not as intense and not as irritating. Nothing about his caramel scent is yucky- just soft and subdued beyond the sourness there from nerves.
âWhy donât you smell-â Hobiâs hands tighten on his forearms, and he closes his eyes, cringing as he waits for it. âbad like the others do? You don't smell awful like Namjoon?â
Jungkook huffs a giggle, but he's the only one. there is laughter coming fromt he hallway. Yoongi sighs, making eye contact with Hobi before he answers. Hobi bites his lip, looks like heâs about to cry, shuts his eyes shut tight tight so that he doesnât have to watch your expression. You, the person he trusts more than any to understand this, to understand him.
âMost alpha's bodies react to an omega in heat- becoming stronger so that omegaâs can find them once the heat starts and make it come quicker with their hormones. But Hobiâs body doesnât have the same reaction anymore. Not even before you.â
Since the abuse. You read between the lines. the fact that they'd hurt him so bad, so bad that his body and his scent changed, that they'd altered him so- feels so unfair, that you can't change it- can't make it better.
You go still, looking back up at him utterly stricken by this information. Hobi holds out his arms. Thin but muscular looking. Strong even if his smile is fragile and tight.
"So Scent away pupcake- I'm not gonna make your heat come quicker."
You pull yourself over to him and rest there. Hobi's arms do not tremble as he hugs you, just briefly until Jin pulls you back to him. So that you're sitting in Jin's lap but holding onto Hobi. It's like they're playing tug of war with their favorite toy.
You like being their toy. You like being the lowest one in the hierarchy because it means you get coddled and controlled and treated like you're precious. You don't let Jin pull you back right away, looping your arms around Hobi's neck. Closing your eyes and thinking hard. Putting all your energy into imagining it.
You think of all your favorite things; Noodle and late-night drives, cuddling with Yoongi in the morning, and helping Tae with her makeup. The feel of Jimin's hand in yours. The way he's always watching, the way he's always checking. The sound of Jungkook's laugh and Joonie's kisses and when Jin asks you to nest with him.
You cuddle up in Hobi's lap and think of only happy things- so that you smell as happy as you can- just so that he knows.Â
Hobi's breath is coming shaky and when you look up Yoongi's holding his face. Yoongi's thumb wipes away the wetness on his cheek and You rub your face into his throat the same way you did with Jin. Hobi smells soggy-sad-happy, like he's sad but it's healing.
It's late and everyone is tired, but certain things take precedence over sleep. You nudge his nose with yours, "Can I bite you?"
A laugh shocks out of his chest, a little relieved sounding. "What is it with you and biting?"
"You're veryâŠ" Your eyes flicker down his form, making him blush "Biteable."
Hobi tilts his throat, happy you can't feel his heartbeat, can't hear it going quick. "Go for it."
You tug at the collar of Hobi's tank top. You don't mark his throat next to Jinnie's marks. You leave your mark for the space just over his heart, small, you don't want him to feel the ache. You don't want any of this to hurt him.
Your teeth dig and hobi sighs, hand coming up to cradle your head. "You can take what you need- you can-" (Hobi tells himself that anyone alpha or not- would have the same reaction in their body at having a hickey sucked here, tells himself that the half chub in his sleep shorts isn't permission or a confession. Even if Hobi wants those things- wants this with you. His brain is all tangled, memories and wants and fears a dizzying combination that stops him from acting confidently)
When you pull back, you press your forehead to Hobi's. You know you won't be lucid for much longer. That if you go to sleep, you'll probably wake up in omegaspace and that will be it. But there are things you need to say to Hobi.
This is all still so new to him. All of this, the sex and the marking and the scenting. You haven't had sex with him enough, haven't learned him enough for this.
"I'm not going to be hurt, if you only want to help Jinnie okay? If you're not ready then I'm not ready."Â
Hobi swallows hard, eyes glassy nodding. He can't say anything, can't open his mouth without crying so he doesn't. Can't do more but tangle his hand with yours and squeeze.
Jin pets through Hobi's short hair, purring deep and rumbly.
âSee alpha- pup wants you- told you she would, told you she wasn't gonna want you to leave the nestâ Jin croons, petting more and more as you bury your face in Hobiâs throat. You luxuriate in the feeling of having them close and heave the first easy breaths you have all day as Jin settles in close behind you.
Lying both of you down in the center of the nest. Pressing his face to your vertebra crowding you up against Hobi and promptly going to sleep.
Yoongi gets up and shuts the door and the light, saying something softly to someone in the hallway. Hobi falls asleep soon after Jin. Breath evening out and eyes fluttering closed. His hand is slackening where it's tangled with yours.
Youâre a little harder to settle, you toss and turn, trying to get comfortable. Jin and Hobi quickly nod off but you canât.
You stay like that- warm in between the two of them until another cramp hits you. You hiss, hands settling over your abdomen hard. You still- tremble through the pain, and dimly- youâre aware of Yoongi rubbing up and down your back.
âDo you need-â Your hand settles over his squeezing hard- not too hard, as you breathe heavily.
Once you stop trembling, Jungkook detangles you from Jin, the pack omegas fist tangled in your shirt to keep you close. âCome here.â he guides you to rest against his chest while Yoongi gets the heating pad set up. Clicking it onto the highest setting and putting it under your shirt. "I'm so sorry baby."
You shrug, "There's nothing you can do." Sniffling quietly, "s'not your fault."
âDo you think you can stomach anything?â You shake your head at that nausea rippling through you.
"I promise i'll eat more in the morning but my cramps- theyâre too-â It feels like youâre carrying a rock in your belly, something heavy that you canât put down, canât do away with. Your organs tighten around that weight. A heaviness without name that comes with only pain and no satisfaction.
(Is this what reproducing is? Do you feel the weight of the lives you could carry before they come? Would this hurt less if you'd be a different sort of mother Or can the world feel how unequipped you are and how selfish you'd and is punishing you for it. Youâre old enough to have a pup and yet- you feel so small, so unprepared, so childlike.)
Jungkook sets his hands on your stomach.
You open your eyes and look up at him. his dark hair that settles over his forehead like inky strands of night. Jungkook looks at you and you know that he knows. That he understands.
(Being able to have kids is more of an open wound that an advantage, you wish alphas knew that. Itâs all a big question; to stem the wound or keep bleeding, to not bleed at all and count the lack of blood as payment. To tell yourself, I donât want to be a mother anyway).
(But I wouldnât mind having a family.)Â
(you've already got one, and they're all around you)
Jungkook settles you back against his chest, and the warmth of his body pressed behind you instantly makes you feel better. Jungkook readjusts the heating pad, removing it from your front and placing it instead on your back, between your ass and his lap. The relief of it is instant. It doesnât get rid of all the pain but heat is what you need.
You sigh against him, relaxing against his chest while your mate rubs at your hips, watching you, looking down at you. Then Jungkookâs fingers dig into your abdomen- digging in on either side of your hips and you almost keen at how good it feels.
You know he has experience, that he's learned from pt and the other personal trainers at his gym how to massage- how to get rid of aches and pains. you just didn't know heat cramps where one of the things he could help with.
The relief is sort of instant as he starts massaging up and down your stomach and sides. He keeps the pressure even and firm and itâs like heâs holding the weight between your hips.
You feel his breath against your ear, and he closes his mouth around your lobe sucking on it just a little. You're distracted by the way he holds you, holds all the pain, and tells you with his body that it's okay and you go boneless.
but Jungkook sucks his own mark into your throat, sucking at your scent gland until you go sweet and pliant.
He moves his fingers, going up and down either side of your stomach, digging close and low to your mound but it's not sexual. Not yet. Every moment of it eases away the ache.
Jungkookâs blunt omega teeth dig into the nape of your neck. His voice husky when he tells you to sleep. Heâs so warm behind you.
Very very very warm.
You should bite him too, before the others have a chance to. The same way you did with Jinnie. You have to let the alpha's know that Jungkook is yours.
Before he gets any warmer.
That will have to wait until morning, Your body listens to his command. In the quiet darkness, Yoongi watches you and Jungkook, worry bleeding down his back. âCan you show me how to do that Koo? The cramp massage?"
Jungkook laughs, all fond, but lets the nighttime settle.
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Notes:
i think yoongi and his fears, touches on a little thing that all of us feel at one point or another- that we have no idea what the fuck we're doing with our lives. yoongi is a character to often rails against his own mythos- there is danger in being revered by the people you love. and i think in this moment- yoongi is worrying about living up to those expectations.
i played with the idea of making yoongi spank the m/c for her stunt with the car but honestly- i don't think he would ever willingly engage with physical punishment for her. i don't think he could physically raise a hand against her- i think his trauma would stop him big time.
this is another chapter where it felt like "bily is a story, less of a fanfiction" like this is a process and i'm bringing you all through it. it's less about getting to the end and more about enjoying the ride.
i wish i could accurately articulate the utter love and frustration in namjoon's heart when she's giving him the runaround- my boy is /stressed/ out about her in such a lovely way.
i did not originally intend for her to go so feral but...here we are.
honestly the way i wrote the part with jin nesting with the m/c was so hard to edit, i feel like it does not make a ton of sense what's happening but they're both in omega space so- it's not necessarily supposed to make sense.
the ending scenes where also hard to keep track of like- most of the time I love the way that the series shifts perspective from person to person- and it's one of the things I really think makes my writing unique- but dang even i got confused when i was editing asking myself "whose thinking and feeling this right now?" oh well- it's too late too change too much of it.
honestly when they're all in the nest- i really wanted it to feel like they where almost fucking- like- its so intimate even though no one is actually pleasuring each other it's like...sex without the sex almost.
the lines where the m/c is talking about reproducing...i'm working through some shit is all i'm saying. working through my own wants and figuring out if i even want to have kids, my cousin is really struggling right now and found out that she's infertile and it feels so like- yucky that i can have kids (probably i've never missed a period) but she can't and wants to when i can and don't want too. but also at the same time my family is falling apart at the moment so- i've got a lot of emotions and bily is how i catharsize them!
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á°.á after getting your heart broken by professional soccer player, rin itoshi, all because he loved the game more than you, you officially swear off all men â especially athletes. your publicist doesn't get that memo, though, and you find yourself roped into a fake relationship with yoichi isagi, who isn't just a pro soccer player, but also your ex's rival. things could get messy. ( fem!reader )
pairing yoichi isagi x reader (endgame), past! rin itoshi x reader word count 2.9k chapter synopsis there are certain perks to having a relationship that operates on a "private not secret" basis. for example, you're allowed at least two weeks before the batshit crazy people online figure out that little miss it girl just got her ass dumped. chapter contains partying to cope, social drinking, diet culture, this fic is so chronically online LOL author's notes so normally, i would organize the fic's different arcs or acts by explicitly saying "act 1" or whatever. like i said, we're gonna be chronically online, so the arcs are described as different "eras" and when it's a new arc, we'll get a new era đ€ each era has special graphics for it: what the media sees vs what's actually going on. think of the era intro as a moodboard for the chapters that'll follow <3
âËàż CURRENT ERA: PARTY GIRL đđËâ from the outside, it's giving irl serena van der woodsen but even better, no one can possibly have the same 24 hours as you, someone needs to convince you to drop the skincare routine STAT, matter of fact - we just need your whole game card
â guest starred on the hottest pop culture podcast where it was basically just a glaze session for you (besides the last 10 minutes where the host started asking about rin), articles that want to help readers live your (unattainable if you're not rich!) lifestyle, and a devoted fanpage that updates your every move... every move.
on the inside, it's actually giving listening and actually relating to sad music, asking an 8 ball if you're the problem, being desperate enough to believe those tiktoks that say if you claim this sound and interact 3x he'll text you back, wondering when you should mail him back his stuff, keeping busy in the public eye so no one suspects how miserable you are right now
â even spotify clocked you and it's auto-generated, customized playlist perfectly depicts what you're going through (talk about the saddest soundtrack to your life), got desperate and consulted quora (this is how you know you're at rockbottom). not shown: your credit card statement (retail therapy works, right? right?!)
âPromise youâll be on your best behavior?â Yukimiya peers over his sunglasses so he can give you a very pointed look. You tilt your head innocently.
âWhen am I ever not?âÂ
Yukimiya lets out a very loud, very drawn out, very exasperated sigh. When have you not been on your best behavior? Well, just last month, you got drunk, stumbled out to your garage, hopped in your custom-wrapped pink Porsche, and somehow ended up falling asleep on top of the hood. (In your defense, at least even in a drunken stupor, you werenât stupid enough to drive.) Last week, you collected the numbers of about eight different athletes and models, sufficiently led every single one of them on, and are now actively ghosting all of them because they committed the cardinal sin of not sounding like, feeling like, or being anything like Rin. And speaking of the devil, Rinâs the reason why just last night, you ended up blocking not just him from your social media, but his whole entire team, too. You felt vindicated when you did this at 2 AM. Yeah, because thatâll sure show him! He hasnât looked at your story once since the breakup (not that youâve been keeping track or anything), but in case he tries to play it cool and gets one of his teammates to view it on his behalf, youâll have put a stop to that plan.Â
(Even when youâre spiraling, youâre still painfully aware of the fact that Rinâs most likely doing okay, if not still performing at his best. He is most certainly not doing something as childish as getting his teammates to relay info on you to him. Meanwhile, you are apparently a social liability for your closest friends. Spectacular.)Â
âDonât answer that.â You tell him. âI donât want to know what my life looks like through your eyes.â Itâs bad enough that every little thing you do gets documented, photographed, and then sensationalized on the Internet, but itâs one thing for strangers to commentate on your behavior when they donât even have the full story. Itâs another thing entirely when itâs your best friend criticizing your current lifestyle.Â
âIâm just saying, itâs going to be a very casual lunch with my favorite people. Not a party.â Yukimiya clarifies.Â
âKenyu, you do realize that inviting me to a birthday party, and then saying âitâs not a partyâ is kind of giving mixed signals right now.â Now itâs your turn to give him a pointed look, but just like his, thereâs no true venom behind it. Itâs Kenyuâs birthday celebration, anyway. Youâre not about to corrupt Mr. Catholic Private School and tell him to throw a fucking rager.Â
âIf my team gets their way, there probably will be an actual party. If there is, youâll be the first one I give the details to.â Thereâs a distant shout in the back; the photographer is done with his lunch, and heâs ready to wrap this shoot up. Kenyu examines his hair in the vanity mirror before getting out of his chair and giving you a quick hug. Your photos have already been taken, and thereâs really no point for you to be on set still.Â
However, Kenyuâs on set. Your only other viable option is to just go home and hide under your covers, rewatching Someone Great on Netflix and Doordashing Ben & Jerryâs. Juliette is home in France and wonât be coming back until the end of the month, and youâre not really in the mood to see any of your other friends. Itâs tiring being around people who canât separate front-cover-of-Vogue you from the real you. If youâre going to have to fake a smile, it might as well be on set rather than grabbing brunch with people who would kill to be able to leak something as headline-inducing as your breakup.Â
âPinky promise?â You look up at Yukimiya. âYou promise to tell me about the party even if Iâll make a fool of myself because apparently I donât act on my best behavior?âÂ
He rolls his eyes at your comment. âI didnât mean it in a bad way, and you know that. Besides, you could never make a fool of yourself. Anything you do is declared iconic, anyway.â
Having a famous movie director as a father and a certified Hollywood starlet as a mother, life wasnât just set at easy mode for you. You practically were given an unlimited money hack and started off with like, five times the XP compared to any other beginner. At thirteen, you told your parents that for your birthday, you wanted to become a model. Two phone calls and a private jet flight later, and you had signed with the best modeling agency in the country and had your first ever photoshoot booked.Â
Fate gave you parents with connections, and youâd be a fool to not use it to your advantage. Fate also gave you the same photoshoot as another young model, and youâd be a fool to not befriend Kenyu Yukimiya immediately. Out of all the friends youâve ever made, fate only gives you good luck twice: first with Yuki, then with Juliette. You used to think you got lucky three times â meeting Rin for the first time was like experiencing something cosmic. Now you know better. Even rich people can have shit luck, too.Â
Todayâs unlucky situation is the way Yukimiyaâs âfavorite peopleâ all happen to be athletes. Thereâs not a single person here who isnât his teammate or somehow related to Bastard Munchen, except for you. If you didnât love Yukimiya so much, you would have hauled ass. Itâs normally easy enough for you to avoid soccer players at parties because they donât normally get invited to the same social events you do, but now youâre the odd one out.Â
At least the food is good. You donât have a photoshoot scheduled until next week, and thatâs exactly why youâre comfortable with choking down half a bagel sandwich rather than socialize with the guys seated by you. Yukimiyaâs real big on intimacy and the power of friendship or whatever, which is probably easier to achieve when you play a team sport versus the modeling industry, where good jobs are few and far between, and the reason why some models are so skinny is because they canât afford to eat â literally and figuratively. If theyâre not booking jobs, thereâs no way they can buy groceries in this economy.Â
He has everyone assembled at one long table in the massive backyard of his mansion. Itâs honestly kind of Last Supper-core, but it fits him. Little Yukiâs finally old enough to have a seat at the big kidâs table. Heâs sitting across from you, and youâre sandwiched between Kunigami and Hiori. Next to Yukimiya is Isagi. Out of everyone at this party, soccer player or not, Isagi is the person you want to avoid the most. So far, you think youâve managed to skirt under his radar. If everything goes as planned, youâll be able to leave this lunch with your belly full and not having to interact with anybody. Itâs looking like you wonât even have to drink in order to get through this.Â
âHey, out of all of us at this table, who dâya think would have the best shot at being a model?â Hiori is clearly speaking to you. The blue-haired player is looking directly at you, for Godâs sake. You wonder if itâll be mean to blatantly ignore him, but considering how this little question seems to have captured the attention of the surrounding players, it looks like pretending youâre hard of hearing is out of the question.Â
Inside, youâre dying. The last thing you wanted to do was socialize, but itâd be selfish and bratty to request that Yukimiya find more time in his busy schedule to have a one-on-one celebration with you. Youâre here to support your friend. You can stomach being friendly with boys who have probably seen Rin more recently than youâve last seen him. Fuck â why are you thinking about Rin? Do not think about Rin!
You grab one of the premade mimosas from the tray in the center of the table. You down the glass in one swift gulp. On the outside, you flash Hiori a bright smile and give an airy giggle. âWhy? You trying to get a foot into the industry?âÂ
Hioriâs cheeks turn a light shade of pink. âW-well, no. Just wanted to make conversation.âÂ
âNo worries! Iâve been trying to keep up with whatever you guys are talking about, but even after all this time being friends with Kenyu, I still donât really get soccer.â Your smile is still intact. You reach for another mimosa.Â
âRin didnât teach you anything?âÂ
Ever since you entered the industry, you knew that you had to get comfortable with standing out. No â you needed to thrive on standing out. You needed to crave, to rely on, peopleâs undying attention in order to survive. In the eyes of the media, youâre the center of attention. You got what every girl your age wants. At this table, everyoneâs eyes are focused on you. What you want is to be back in your room, away from their prying gazes and curious stares.
But youâre a trained professional. Your smile never slides off, never turns into a grimace. You give a casual shrug, directing your answer to the person who mentioned Rin in the first place.Â
âI make it a rule to not discuss work when weâre together.â You look at Isagi, asking him with your eyes if thatâs a good enough explanation for him. He holds your gaze, looking at you like he sees right through you.
You drink another mimosa.Â
After loosening up because of the drinks, you find casual conversation with the Munchen players to be easy. The boys honestly never shut up, and you donât know what theyâre talking about half the time, but youâre cracking genuine smiles every so often, and by the time Yukimiya is going around and saying his thanks for everyone showing up, you areâŠ
Not drunk, per se. Youâve built up quite the tolerance these past few weeks, and itâs hard to get wasted off of drinks that are basically three-fourths orange juice. (Seriously, was Yukimiya getting stingy with the champagne? Sober You might be able to acknowledge the fact that Yukimiya might have just been preparing for the Worst Case Scenario, which would be you hogging all the drinks to yourself. Which sort of happened. Fuck. Sometimes it sucks to be known so well.) Youâre definitely tipsy, though. Maybe half a tier above tipsy? Whatever the case, you are definitely in no shape to drive.Â
âKenny,â you whine out his nickname, trying your best to pull out your puppy-dog eyes. âPlease take me home.âÂ
âAh, damnnit, [Name].â He runs his fingers through his dark curls. âDid you seriously get drunk off of orange juice?âÂ
âChampagne drunk is the best drunk. Iâm pretty sure People Magazine quoted me on that like, last year, so itâs basically fact.â Yukimiya doesnât seem overly impressed. âAnd Iâm not drunk, but my alcohol levels right now are definitely above the legal limit. Sorry, but I donât plan on making headlines for a DUI. Hard to spin that into something iconic.âÂ
This gets Yukimiya to crack a smile. âI thought you were leaning into the party girl look?âÂ
âYeah, but after Justin Timberlake got caught for intoxicated driving, he made it look totally lame. He ruined it for us!âÂ
âI wish I could drive you back, but I have to retake some photos for this sneaker ad Iâm doing, and with traffic, Iâm really cutting it close already. Do you want to just come with, or hang out at my place until I get back? You shouldâve said something sooner; I couldâve asked one of the guys to drop you off.â
You crinkle your nose. âNo, thanks. Iâm not a fan of strangers knowing where I live.â Becoming a model at such a young age thrust you into the spotlight. With media attention comes total pervs who lurk in Reddit threads and 4Chan, and stumbling upon some of the things said about you, reading the things they would do to you if they found you, all laid out in disgusting, graphic detail, left you kind of paranoid. Getting doxxed might be one of your worst fears. No Ubers. No car ride homes with strangers. âIâll wait here. Itâs been a while since I went through your things, so Iâm sure thereâll be enough of your dirty secrets to uncover to keep me occupied.âÂ
âDid you need a ride?âÂ
Shitty luck, indeed.Â
The teammate who decided to stay behind to help clean up (because heâs just that outstanding of a guy) is the sole reason for why you went buckwild on the mimosas. You can see why Rin was always frustrated with him.
âNopeââ You say, at the same exact time as Yukimiya nods enthusiastically.Â
âWould you mind? [Name] actually lives pretty close by, so it might not be out of the way.âÂ
You shoot Yukimiya a scathing glare. He ignores it completely, smiling at Isagi.Â
âI donât mind. That is, if you donât mind.â Isagi is looking at you expectantly. Yukimiya trusts him. And you trust Yukimiya. By some sort of logic, you should reasonably be able to trust Isagi. Itâs clear that Kenyu wants you to carpool with him, anyway, otherwise he wouldnât have been so happy to dump you onto him.Â
âSure. Iâm ready to go whenever you are.âÂ
What would happen if you jumped out of a moving vehicle?Â
At best, youâd get your pretty skin all scraped up, meaning your photoshoots would either have to be delayed, or you would have to endure all the clear distaste for your âunprofessionalismâ in the workplace from the people who actually had to work to get to where theyâre at. At worst, you end up hospitalized. Somehow, it seems easier to photoshop out a few cuts and scrapes than working with someone in a full-body cast.
As you weigh the pros and cons of jumping out of Yoichi Isagiâs vehicle â a sleek, black sedan thatâs top of the line, sure, but understated luxury; itâs not flashy like the sports cars you see most athletes sporting â he smoothly reverses out of Yukimiyaâs driveway. Isagi does that boyish thing where he ignores his backup camera completely and opts to rest one hand on the back of the passenger headrest, the other hand on the steering wheel. Fuck. Maybe itâs not a boyish thing. Maybe itâs manly. Isagi leans a bit into your space; not enough to bother you, but enough to where you can smell the scent of his cologne. He smells clean and fresh. Maybe itâs not cologne, but laundry detergent and fabric softener. Somehow, you find this very fitting of him.Â
He glances out the window to check for traffic and eases you two onto the open road.Â
Heâs not playing any music, and youâre sure as hell not about to ask for the aux. You look out the window instead, watching the world pass you by through tinted glass. It makes everything around you appear darker. Somehow, you find this to be very fitting for you.
âYou live around this area, yeah?â Isagi asks you, and youâre reminded that if you want to go home, you actually have to let the driver know where home is.Â
âYeah, sorry. Keep heading straight, and Iâll let you know when thereâs a turn coming up.â Talking to Isagi shouldnât feel so awkward. After all, you managed to talk (and actually enjoy talking) to all of Yukimiyaâs teammates. You even got along well with Kaiser. But it just feels weird â youâve never met him directly, but youâve heard so much about him, that itâs hard to not see Rinâs rants every time you look at Isagi.Â
So you donât â look at Isagi, that is. You look at everything else. His car is clean. There are air fresheners in the AC vents. The floor of the passenger seat is oddly clean, like no one ever sits here. If thatâs the case, you hope your heels didnât track in any grass blades or dirt.Â
âUm,â Isagi awkwardly clears his throat at a red light. âWhen I mentioned Rin earlier at the partyâŠâÂ
âWhat about it?â Fuck, this is so embarrassing. Since the car is stationary, youâre in the clear, right? If you just unlock the door, you can escape on foot. Your house is now close enough that itâll just count as todayâs exercise.Â
âSorry for bringing him up. I didnât knowââ
ââdidnât know what?â You turn to face him. His jaw is surprisingly sharp, and you watch the way he swallows before he answers you.Â
âI didnât know that you two broke up.âÂ
No one knows that you two broke up. Youâre still in the process of making sense of it all, and because youâre so messed up over it, naturally you had to confide in Yukimiya and Juliette. Neither of them would ever share that secret, though.Â
So why the hell does Yoichi Isagi know?
âThe lightâs green.â You tell him, shifting your body in the seat, avoiding him by positioning yourself even closer to the door.Â
Neither of you say anything else during the drive.
#yoichi isagi x reader#isagi x reader#rin itoshi x reader#smau#blue lock x reader#bllk x reader#series: if you feel like falling#fluff
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kinktober #4
Light My Fire
kinktober day four | temperature play & monsterfucking (?) | cw: 18+, self-explanatory. Good!Loki is a Jötun and Avenger!You have fire powers. Rather fluffy, just two dorks in love goofin' | word count 2k | click here for full list of planned fics | author's note under the cut |
âDarling, are you sure this is a good idea?â
âYou are occasionally a little over 8 feet tall and very cold and blue. I am average tall but set myself on fire regularly without repercussions. I think we passed these sorts of questions a good while ago.â You pointedly bit into your toast, watching Loki watching you over the rim of his teacup.
Why did he insist on having tea from one specific antique tea set - and having to refill the cup at least five times in the process - instead of getting a mug like a normal person, you did not know.
Slumped over your breakfast in your Garfield pajamas, you eyed your boyfriend pat the corner of his mouth with his monogrammed kerchief before he vanished it away and stood up. His green button-up clung to his chest deliciously.
âSuch a way with words.â Loki chuckled and patted over to place a soft kiss on your forehead. âBut I see your point. We could either seriously harm each other or end up having a wonderful, one-of-a-kind experience.â He tucked a strand of hair behind your ear. You nodded. He stole a piece of toast and pointed it at your nose, tapping the appendage gently with the hard crust. âAnd Tony would never forgive us if we at least did not try.â
âSince when do you care about what Tony thinks?â
Loki gave you an impish look. âHe's not all terrible. Remember the time he 3-D printed an exact replica of Mjolnir and I haunted Thor the entire day with it?â
âThor had a mental breakdown.â You replied dryly even as your mouth involuntarily curled into a smirk.
Loki, however, gave a wide smile. âUh-uh. Tony filmed the entire thing start to finish.â
A chuckle broke out of you before you could stop it. You liked Thor, you ready did, but that had been just a single instance of mischief in the multiple-century long prank war between the brothers. The blonde had gotten you several times in the process of getting back at Loki and you would be lying if you didn't feel vindicated for all those times you had found glitter in odd places and worse...
Not that you yourself lacked your fair share of questionable life decisions. Having fiery super-powers, being an Avenger, being Loki's girlfriend, challenging Natasha to a knife throwing competition... The list goes on. So what if you wanted your icy boyfriend to be icy in bed? So what if he wanted your fiery self be fiery in bed? They do say opposites attract and yada-yada-yada...
âMakes me wonder what the fire giants look like,â you said absent-mindedly later that night while the two of you lounged in your oversized tub. You rolled a small fireball in your palm as Loki sipped his wine.
âLike demons,â he snorted. âNothing attractive about them.â
âSome would say demons are attractive,â you shrugged. âI think Jötuns are attractive.â Using your free hand, you squeezed a slender, muscular thigh. Loki flexed it and you ran your knuckles over the hard muscle. âAlthough you're the only one I've seen. Might have to tell Tony to ban any more from Earth least they come to steal all the women away, being this handsome.â
Loki's cool hand reached up over your stomach to idly toy with your breast. âIs that so? Is my Asgardian form not as stimulating?â He mused.
You pushed into the touch, purring. âThere's just more of you to love, babe.â
His unmistakable laugh filled up the bathroom, genuine amusement as he flicked at your nipple and leaned down to kiss your neck. âI do not think that is anatomically possible.â
âPfft,â you scoffed. âYe of little faith! Have you been on the internet? Anything is possible, provided there is an adequate amount of lube and some leverage.â
The internet - surprise, surprise - was wrong. Loki expressed an unfair amount of amusement at this, and you daredsay, even gloated a little bit. Shutting him up in this form was harder than when he was regular Loki, but not doable. It was, as you both had agreed, a learning curve.
He was cold to touch. Not as a metal pole at a ski resort as you had previously thought, but enough to cause a pleasant, clean chill to settle in the back of your skull as you took the tip of his hard, blue cock intro your mouth. That was about as much as you could fit without going full Chelsea Smile around it. Your hands, kept warm by your powers, slid down his shaft, tender fingertips tracing the textured ridges covering every inch of his skin.
They were truly everywhere, and they were sensitive. Splayed on the various animal skins in front of the fireplace, Loki was a sight to behold: all cerulean blue and raven-haired, red eyes lidded with desire as they observed your exploration with mirrored curiosity. As you warm hands curled around him, a low hiss left his lips.
Attempting to say, âdid that hurt?â with your mouth so full was a disaster. Loki chuckled anyway, and brought a large, cool palm to rest atop your head.
âNo, darling,â his voice, in this form little more than a low growl, did something indecent to your insides. âFeels incredible.â A sigh as you swirled your tongue around the sensitive head. âI surely wish you'd let me at least keep my Asgardian measurements...â
Yes, but no. It would have been more practical, sure, but it wasn't the full Jötun experience you were seeking. With a wet pop, you dislodged your mouth from his cock to delight in his full-body shiver. To remedy the lack of your mouth, heat began to radiate from your palms; roughly the same temperature as the inside of your mouth.
âNot unless you are on board with me keeping the fire lukewarm,â you teased gently, watching his red eyes darken to a lovely burgundy. Slowly, you slid your hands over his lubricated flesh.
Loki was generous with his microexpressions in this form, with him being larger allowing for easier observation. Lust, love, yearning, a dash of insecurity and concern. He was your Loki through and through, simply blue.
âI fear I may have less allocated space for patience in this form,â he mused.
Captivating. His reclined position and the fire dancing over his skin, the horns growing tall and strong above his forehead - the helmet imitation did them no justice - Loki was a vision to behold. You wanted to eat him like the world's most exotic ice lolly and ride that fanged mouth until you forgot your own name and knew only his.
âFuck,â you eloquently summarised your train of thought just as your hands stroked him to full mast. Loki merely tilted his head. Knowing that look well, you batted your eyelashes and gave him the final stroke before shamelessly climbing up onto his lap.
You wore nothing but a thigh-length slip of fine Asgardian silk, just like you knew he liked. Your hot, glistening cunt connected with the shaft of his cock as you settled above it, eliciting a sigh of wanton relief. Loki felt like a bag of frozen goods. You wanted to press him against everything sore.
His large, cold palm stroked the side of your face.
âMmm,â you leaned into it, unconsciously shifting your hips to press closer to the textured hardness of his cock. It twitched as your wetness joined the spit you'd previously covered it in. Some adjusting was to be had - Loki waited patiently as you found your spot, and used his other hand to make you sit down just right. With that first, slow, slick grind, both of you were gone.
It came naturally. Loki's hands on your hips, on your face, sliding your slick cunt over the tip of his own leaking cock. His abs flexed with each measured movement; you kept your palms in closed fists, knowing better than to open them when you were this riled up.
Hurting each other was both of yours' biggest fears and it showed in the way you'd swallowed some of your moans upon feeling the beginnings of a spark crackle on your tongue. Loki refused to take his darkening eyes off your face for he would definitely lose himself in the moment and do... Something.
The intensity of your coupling grew. Your cunt provided ample lubrication on the account of your clitoris receiving all that extra stimulation from the ridges and valleys covering his cock. On harder thrusts, the very tip of his cock snagged the edge of your entrance, causing him to growl and you to whine when your hungry hole was forced to relent and clench around nothing.
It was exhilarating torture. Your cries of pleasure, as usual, only spurred the Jötun prince on.
As you arched your back and moaned loudly and brokenly up to the ceiling at a particularly hard thrust, Loki's deep growling added to the delightful cacophony of sex. He firmly held your hips, sharp nails digging into the meat of your ass, and pushed you down on his cock, missing your hole by sheer luck.
âCome for me, darling,â he rasped in that icy-sharp, husky voice. âI can feel your little quim begging for me. I may not be able to resist fucking you if you cry for me so sweetly.â
Never being the one to disobey reasonable orders, you and your abused pussy gushed your agreements as heat burst from your lower stomach and spread into your body and limbs. Loki's drawn-out hiss had you weakly trying to scramble, to get away from him least your elevated temperature burn the Jötun, but he held steadfast.
Eyes so deeply red they were almost black, Loki looked you directly in the face before his cock twitched for the last time.amd coated his chest and your front with an abundance of silver seed. His body shook with restraint even when his mouth had fallen lax and eyes lidded low; he let you rock forward to rest a hand on his hard chest as both of you caught your breath.
Giving into your body's demands, you fell ahead, uncaring of the mess. Immediately, a cold arm draped itself over you. A moment of silence was had. You licked your dry lips, sputtering somewhat as sticky - but not unpleasant - seed made way into your mouth.
âAre you alright?â Loki drawled, still breathless.
You briefly contemplated the phrasing of what you were about to say, but in the end decided to be completely honest as you two had sworn to be to each other.
âYour come tastes like snow. Literal snow.â
You heard Loki's heart skip a beat and then his chest shook, the chuckle as incredulous as your discovery.
âNoted.â Pause. âYours feels like lava.â
Despite everything, you simply shook your head and laughed. âThat's what were writing down in our science report for Tony?â
âYes.â Loki nodded seriously. With a careless swipe of his hand, the mess disappeared, and you promptly found yourself staring at the ceiling. âExperiment number two. I am going to find out whether it also tastes like lava,â he said impishly.
Your tummy clenched in anticipation, but then you heard the proverbial sound of brakes skidding in your head. âWait. How do you know what lava tastes like?â
âI be in situations,â ever the dutiful boyfriend, Loki mumbled his reply into the fat above your cunt on his way down to make you see stars once again. You were not complaining at all.
a/n: I'm personally very impartial to Loki being a little over 8 feet tall in his Jötun form. For, you know, reasons. My nature's pocket can fit a lot of fun things in it, but I don't know about yours so... I left the fine details to your imagination. See how I don't describe the size of his appendage? Very demure, very mindful. âš
Additionally, I don't think Asgard has a book on erogenous zones of peoples they conquered and genocided. I'd like to think that they're both clueless here and Loki is getting to know his Jötun body in a sexual setting. But that's just me.
#loki x reader#jotun loki x reader#loki x you#jotun loki x you#female reader#jotun loki smut#loki smut#they goooooofinn'
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a year or so after the war, a young, recently-graduated doctor gets off the shuttle on ds9, very excited to begin working in a proper medical team in a proper space station as an actual, proper doctor
and they're so eager to learn and so starry-eyed and so full of enthusiasm and have so many things they want to do and ideas they want
and they're used to people finding them a little annoying in all their talkativity, and certainly they're not quite sure what doctor bashir makes of them because while he's very patient and kind, he doesn't smile that much and has a strange sort of look in his eyes whenever they start rambling on too much
but a number of the staff seem to take to them quite quickly and at some point they start overhearing themself being compared to doctor bashir? and not in like, a medical way, which would be ridiculously exciting because doctor bashir is extraordinary and they'd love to be thought of as that intelligent--
but no, it's more... well, it's like people think they've got a similar personality? and they just don't see it. sure, he's very passionate and dedicated to his work, but... excited? eager? not really.
they mention it to a friend, a bajoran nurse who's also recently joined the station. "lieutenant commander mayfield called us two peas in a pod," they say. "and I heard colonel kira joke that "whether or not he has too much work, cloning's supposed to be illegal". are we really that similar?"
"You're practically identical," their friend replies, taking them aback before they realise she's just being sarcastic. "On one hand, a tight-lipped, serious, solemn genius-war-hero, and on the other a bubbly, impetuous, far-too-excitable idiot doctor. Yes. I see the resemblance."
"Exactly," they reply, feeling vindicated.
"... Hey!" they add a few seconds later, realising they'd just been insulted.
they do wonder, though, why they continue to get these comments from anyone who's been serving on DS9 for years. maybe the doctor had been different when he was younger, but no-one can change that much, right? 35 seems practically ancient (well, at least decently middle-aged), but even so, they can't imagine growing up to be anything like their new mentor
it's a mystery
#julian bashir#depressioncore julian bashir#outsider pov julian bashir#i just made myself sad with this#am also writing something else considering like#what does ezri make of julian's personality?#bc llike i know she has jadzia's memories of him#but she's only met him when he's. like. sad#but that's something different anyway#uh yeah#my trek musings#andi writes#wsb
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Regarding the "Does RWBY like women?" poll (yes, yes it does BTW).
You know... the whole poll debacle reminded me of something.
RWBY helped me expand my media diet by telling me that just because people hate something enmass, it could just all be bullshit coupled with mob mentality.
Instead of hatedoms getting me to think:
"Damn, I don't even wanna be associated with that show based on the rage it inspires."
My more skeptical brain is like:
"Okay, so why is it reeeeeeeally hated? Is it reeeeeeeally bad or are people going along with the crowd because critical thinking is too much of a burden in this capitalist hellscape?"
Because bad media literacy is in part a result of the fact that most geeks and normies alike aren't out to be legit critics but rather just want to enjoy the thing, gush about the thing and so forth. They can't exactly articulate their reasonings why like they're trying to get an A+ in Therapy Studies.
And THAT is how the YouTube Video Essay and Angry Critic scene takes off.
We dunk on the Nostalgia Critic (often for VERY real IRL grievances) but his catchphrase: "I remember it so you don't have to" is something many who'd come after would take to heart. These video maker people are taking about a thing you like and are explaining it in a way you not only agree with but makes you feel vindicated.
Be it for love... or for hate.
Because hatedom circles like the RWDE looks to video essays that reassure them, keep them from doubting their stance on the thing and how they enforce it.
With the burden of actually seeing the thing and thinking hard taken off of them, people can confidently say things like "RWBY prioritizes Jaune" despite not looking at any potential evidence in the show that might contridice it.
Which is why this is a call for everyone to question the popular opinions.
Does Jaune Arc reeeeeeally get that much narrative importance at the expense of the main girls?
Was Jaune reeeeeeeally a self-insert?
Was Ironwood reaaaaaally derailed in his character arc?
Was Adam reeeeeeeeally representative of the Faunus?
Was the Faunus reaaaaaally offensive?
And of course...
Was Monty Oum reeeeeeeeally the only one who's vision matter to the show above all else?
Ask yourself these questions and do the work to back them up. If people are giving you responses that contridict you, responses that take evidence from the work itself more often than not, then try to do the same in turn.
Think about that show or movie being panned? What if... you actually like it?
Not everybody is a critic... but we can at least try to.
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Smile For the Camera
WARNINGS: yandere, implied kidnapping, implied imprisonment, abuse of power, slight codependency, non-consensual implications, implied nsfw, implied forced pregnancy, lot of implications lol
A/N: been sitting in the drafts for a while, figured i should get smth out, hopefully it's alright ^^
read at your own discretion.
yandere ! BAKUGOU KATSUKI X READER
âHer eyes are up there, creep.â
She had to resist the urge to sigh, lip twisting in slight pity, watching the boy stammer out an apology as he fumbled with the mic at her chest. She scoffed internally. Was he supposed to put it on blindfolded? She turned to her lover, giving him a gentle, reassuring smile.
Itâs okay. Iâm okay.
Crimson irises met her own, hesitating a bit as his jaw tightened reflexively. He smacked his tongue against his teeth, rolling his eyes, and turned to the host who was shuffling through her cue cards. Memorizing her lines, it seemed.
âI donât want any of that surprise shit, alright?â His voice was laced with the sort of irritation that would normally send her on full alert. They were in public right now, though, and callous, gruff reputation aside, he was no idiot, âWeâll walk out; Iâm not fuckinâ kidding, weâve done it before.â
The host laughed out his nameâhis hero nameânervously, âOf course not, sir. All of our questions were sent to your assistant for prior approval,â As she caught his unimpressed stare, she stumbled out another placation, âBut, I meanâOf course, if youâyouâre more than welcome to look over them again, sir.â
âFuckinâ stop it with thatââsirâ--makes me feel old as shit.â Did it? That was news to her. He certainly liked it when it came from her lips. Her mind wandered to its most recent recollection. When she was forced to her knees, his hand at the back of her neck, pooling the tears from her eyes at the dip where her cheek met the pillowâshe couldnât remember what sheâd done wrong that time.Â
Where heâd brought his lips to her ear, Câmon, voice rough and deep, Ask me nicely, now, And, raising his voice a few octaves to mock her, Please, sir. He huffed out an ugly laugh, Please give me your cock, sir. God, she hadnât been able to walk straight for days, legs and dignity sore and bruised from the abuseâonly one of which ever really seemed to recover.
âOf course, siâOf course. Weâre on inâWeâll be ready in five, if thatâs alright?â He gave the woman a curt nod, and sheâd shuffled off to the stage to prepare, calling the intern tending to her to follow, a direction the boy took with palpable relief, eyes brushing her own apologetically before he hurried off.
âHey,â The blondeâs attention was turned back to her, and he stalked forward, âLast one, alright?â He brought his hand to her cheek in comfort, though all she could think of was the ease at which he could snap her neck between his fingers without so much as blinking.
She shook herself from her thoughts, humming, and brought her hand to cup his own, leaning into his touch. âItâs alright,â At least Iâm outside, she wanted to say, âLong as Iâm with you, Iâm alright.â
His eyes softened at her answer, and he opened his mouth to reply when the lights dimmed, catching his attention. His hand dropped to catch her own, lacing their fingers together, tightening with tension. She had to resist the urge to wince. Though entirely different in circumstance, she felt slight vindication for his fear, no matter how fleeting. Sheâd take what little wins she could get.Â
She was pulled back to reality by the tug of his hand, and let him lead her to the couch across from the host. Fuck. Looking out at the crowd, she remembered how much she really did hate these things. Hundreds of smiling faces, millions more behind the camera, all glinting with pityâfor all the wrong reasonsâand cooing at the sickeningly sweet story spun for the masses to cling to with glee, without question.
There was a call of her name, ïżœïżœAnd, how are you adjusting? After what youâve been through,â What sheâs been through. She suppressed a bitter laugh. As if it was all over, as if she was safe.Â
âItâs been hard, of course,â Sheâd rehearsed the lines in the mirror, and recited variations in numerous interviews before, âBut Iâm so grateful, you know,â That didnât stop the tears that fought their way up her throat, âTo have him by my sideâhe really isâhe really,â God, the words felt like acid on her tongue, âHe really is my hero.â
The crowd awed, and the host brought a hand to her chest, âHow beautiful,â She caught his side eyeâsuspiciousâand she squeezed his hand in reassurance, âThe two of youâreally the silver lining in an otherwise horrible happenstance.â
She laughed lightly, ignoring the burn in her chest, âIâm so grateful. I donât know whatâI couldnât imagine what Iâd do without him.â She moved to wrap her arm around his own, leaning into his shoulder. Time had conditioned the contact to feel like a sort of comfort.
The host smiled, and turned back to ask him a question, something about how heâd found her, how heâd saved her.
How had he found her? She remembered meeting him a few times beforeâsheâd worked for the number one hero, his childhood friendâand heâd never spared her more than a cursory glance, and the exchange of brief, formal pleasantries while she sat in on their meetings, transcribing, taking notes, just doing her job.Â
âWas just doinâ my job,â Ha. Ironic. âSâwhat heroes do.â He looked at her for a moment, softly, and she wanted to tear his eyes out, âWe save people and we fuckinâ win.â He gave his signature sharp, crooked smile, and the audience roared to life, hands clapping in misguided awe and appreciation.
How had he found her? What did she have that the millions of men and women and people that wanted himâthat dreamed of himâdidnât? She wished she could erase itâtear out whatever part of her had captured his attentionâmaybe heâd have left her alone if sheâd been able to kill it.
âThe determination, the grit it mustâve taken,â The host started up again, âYears of searching, itâs truly amazing how you managed to save her.âÂ
How had he saved her? He liked to remind her that thatâs what he had done. She remembered being called into work lateâa normal occurrence, but she still cursed herself for obliging that dayâbeing met, not by her boss, but him. Maybe she would have said yes if heâd gone about it differentlyâif heâd taken her out on a date, brought her flowers, spoke to her softly and gentlyâbut he wasnât ever soft, and he wasnât ever gentle.
âMânot a fuckinâ pussy, thatâs how. I ainât backinâ down from a challenge just âcause itâs hard.â Yeah. He never backed down from a challenge. Though, he never stopped to think that maybe a challenge was not a dare, not something to overcome, that maybe the challenge didnât want to be a challenge at all. That this challenge didnât want to be a conquest, that she wanted to be a person.
âAnd you,â The attention was back on her, âHow strong you are,â She hated that look; everyone she met these days gave her that look, âThe fear and pain you mustâve endured is unimaginable.â Well, she was half right, she supposed.Â
She was stupid to think she knew pain beforeâshe didnât know painânot the kind of pain sheâd come to call home these past years. The type of pain that came in the form of finger shaped burns, and ugly sticky white staining the inside of her thighs. The type of pain that was loud and angry and all consuming, that bruised her hips, rubbed her throat raw, left her aching and shaking and breaking. The type of pain that took and took and took until there was nothing left of her to giveâand yet, still took more.
âHopefully thereâs some consolation,â The woman continued at her silence, âThat the people who did this to youâwho imprisoned youâhave faced justice.â
She wanted to laugh until she screamed. Sheâd long been disillusioned with the idea of justice. Justice. Ha. What a joke. Sheâd made her peace with the hand sheâd been dealt. Resigned herself to what cruel fate the god she didnât believe in had bestowed upon her. Why then, why now, had he graced her with a window to her prison? She knew why. Subconsciously, her hand fell to trace along her stomach.
âItâsâŠrelieving, to say the least.â She forced a laugh, and caught a look she took as approval on her wardenâs face. âAll I want to do now is settle down, move onâŠâ She swallowed. Come on. Youâve done this a million times. âStart our family.â
He took his arm from her grip to wrap around her shoulders, flashing a sharp smile, âThatâs my fuckinâ girl,â Her cheeks heatedâmore from annoyance than embarrassmentâbut the crowd awed all the same. âStrongest damn person Iâve ever met.â
Strong? That was a new one. Usually sheâd get the opposite; weak, helpless, quirkless. Was she strong? She could find a million reasons to contradict the idea. Someone strong wouldâve fought, wouldâve kicked and screamed and cried until someoneâanyoneâlistened to her, until she truly was free. Sheâd rolled over and shown her belly so easily, hadnât she?
No. She did fight. Sheâd gone through all the kicking and screaming and crying she could. But the years had worn her down. She found it was easierâand less painfulâto let him have his way. He could be soft when he had his way; he could be gentle when he had his way; she decided she liked it when he was soft and gentle. And so, he had his way.
Still. Someone, not her, could make the case that she couldnât be strong at all, to go along with this farce. And to this person sheâd point them toâ
âThe Hero Commission truly is an outstanding institution,â The universe had a sick sense of humor, didnât it? âTo keep a case like thisâno leadsâopen so long,â The host smiled a smile with too many teeth, âWe are so lucky to have the protection from such noble leaders.â
He replied, something about heroes and how great and strong and infallible they were. She was too busy fantasizing about how lovely the world wouldâve been had it been turned to ash and dust all those years ago.Â
Because, honestly. How bad could the villains be? If it was a hero that had imprisoned her. A hero who had stolen her from her life and raped her and impregnated her all in the name of love. How bad could the villains be if it was the heroes who kept her trapped in this joke of a life? She decided she liked villains more than heroes. At the very least, they owned up to their crimes.Â
She turned to look at him, his sharp features, built like a tank, and yet, still entirely too pretty for the devastation he had wrought upon her. She couldnât tell if he was a hero or a villain. She couldnât tell if she hated him or if she loved him.Â
âI ainât into all that sappy shit,â He started, âBut, end of the day, Iâm the luckiest fucker in the world havinâ her here with me. Wouldnât trade it for anything in the world.â
Both? Maybe it was both. Could you hate someone you loved? Could you love someone you hated? He lifted his arm to ruffle her hair, and she decided it didnât matter. Sheâd long resigned herself to this fate; what was another resignation?
âNo,â She turned as the audience roared to life, âNot a single thing.â
And she smiled for the camera.
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thinking about Shen Jiu - not something I usually do, he's not my blorbo, but i saw an animatic that got me thinking - no wonder there are so many people obsessed with him.
three reasons, i think, make him prime blorbo-estate.
the first is the obvious one: he's so present in the entire story, and yet he's absent for all of it. and we know so little about him. this is catnip for fan obsession, of course tons of people would love to write/read/discuss him.
the second one is the sheer tragedy of his death in SV: he's dead and no one knows. he died unnoticed, unmourned, unremarked, and got no closure for anything - not even his death. the world went on turning, like nothing happened here. you know how they say the opposite of love isn't hatred, it's indifference? yeah.
so of course this would eat up people from the inside. this is why i think YQY being "sad" that SY hasn't "recovered his memories" or "preferred his old self" is so common in fics. people can't stand the way Shen Jiu vanishes from one moment to the next and no one even knows to miss him, so they try to solve it by having someone, at least, notice and want him back. because no one deserves to go like this.
and the third one, of course, is that he could so easily have been the protagonist instead. i mean, prodigy with a tragic backstory that clawed his way to power trying to come to terms with the betrayal from a loved one, unable to forgive and yet equally unable to leave him behind, having to see him constantly? trying to appear civil while seething in bitterness and betrayal and whatever other feelings he harbours towards YQY? if SJ were in any way inclined to - he absolutely was not - he could have tried to unwind the whole thorny issue with YQY and it could have been an entire new novel.
there's juicy, juicy angst, competence, a high position, enemy sects, secrets, people from his past that might show up... AND a prospect for revenge: if the story were from HIS perspective, we'd probably want to see YQY "defeated" in some way - forced to explain breaking his promise at last, for example. we'd want to see Shen Jiu vindicated, somehow proving his innocence towards everyone who ever slandered him... anyway, yeah, protagonist material.
no wonder tons of people just want to put him in the sandbox and play, and the strong emotions towards him and the potential for stories there kind of makes people forget the details of his personality and the abuse towards LBH a little, or bend them for storytelling purposes. he's a character with lots to play with.
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