#i want to become the best version of myself. i dont want to suffer needlessly anymore. | Explore Tumblr posts and blogs

orcelito · 8 months ago

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I think I just want to have a calm and gentle life. I want to get things together. I want to not have too much stress. I want to spend time with people I love, doing things that I enjoy. What's the point of being miserable? There is none. I've had more than enough misery to last a lifetime.

#speculation nation #i have to live as long and healthy of a life as possible for my sister and her eventual kids and for the memory of my father #i have to keep myself from being the level of disorganized that my grandparents were.#throwing things out if they have no more use to me. If They Dont Spark Joy so to speak.#ive been feeling awfully fragile lately. half the foundation of my life lit up in flames so suddenly.#and ive been... scrounging through the ashes. trying to put things in order.#for the love of fucking god ive had enough of suffering in my life.#i want to become the best version of myself. i dont want to suffer needlessly anymore.

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