#i want to be loved apparently
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grandtheftpoptart · 2 years ago
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My grandmother gets mad when i hear her "private" conversations about me, but she speaks so fuckign loud?? Shes talking to my grandfather on speaker in the other room and i heard her say "if she lost 30-50 pounds, she's still going to be a bigger girl, or fat, because of her structure of her hips, legs, and thighs. I dont know how much she weighs now. She's extremely tall for a girl. She towers over guys her age and these things bother guys. There are guys interested in a heavy set girl, but other guys don't want to take the time to get to know someone, they judge based on looks" to which my grandfather replied "thats from society. she's still beautiful"
Stop talking about my weight and my height. I wish I were fuckign shorter, and I've already lost 50 pounds within the past year. I'm so insecure about these things and to imply I won't find someone to love based on my appearance not being accepted by society rly hurts. Like ??? This is why I can't stand my family. I'm the topic of every conversation and it's always negative or "oh I wish she was skinnier and shorter so she could actually find a man to love her"
#whats stupid is ive only had like 2 boyfriends actually in my life#and they were my height or shorter than me#ive casually dated a few people who are taller than me but that has never been about my personality and what i bring to a relationship and#only based on how i look/how i can 'preform' for them#that nonbinussy if you will#and now i rly cant trust whether people like me for me or not because all ive heard is how i should kill myself so i can please society and#im not going to be loved and apprecisted becauze 'the young and stupid men want a toothpick not her'#ive been loving my body so much because i can see im slimming down#and im consistently between hating my body and loving it. it provides for me but its also a contributing factor to why no one loves me how#i want to be loved apparently#accordijg to family^ not to me#this is why i make videos etc so i can feel good about myself but its not authentic#i love when people love my music and what i can do and take an interest in my interests#becauze without that i have nothing. i am nothing. i like so many differwnt things and i want to believe somwone will love my humour#and intellect. over my body. but i still want them to love my body and think im oretty#im not asking for much#rly getting mad at them pushing me to find a man. becauze until i moved out at 18 they didnt want me dating because they didnt eant me to#'end up like her mother' as in getting pregnant at 17 and not finishing school#as soon as i left and i turned 18 she was asking me when i was going to start having kids#like you have to be kidding me with this shit. her mother had her at 19. she had my mom at 19. my mom had me at 18. even on my fathers side#my great grandma had my nan at 18. my nan had my dad at 17. my dad had me at 16#so for at least 3 generations (including all the cousins and shit) there have been young parents#but i wasnt allowed to? until i became a legal afult???#idek if im fertile and im afraid to find out if im not because i want to have kids#and if i find out i cannot girve birth it will break me. i know theres ivf and adoption but i also know i will never have the finances to#explore those options#so natural birth is the cheapest and only option i currently have. but no one wants a baby. and i cant with sound mind and body put someone#through the disjointed and fucked up life that i had#this is just a whole ass rant post. i need to walk the dog and bake before i go to my friends house for horror movie night#which ngl im looking forward to deapite the 'friends' they are
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great-and-small · 8 months ago
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Apparently the local university’s undergraduate entomology course sends students to catch insect specimens at the same place I like to go birdwatching, which explains why I saw three enormous frat looking dudes with tiny bug nets and overheard one emphatically say “bro BRO I told you we already have enough lepidopterans”
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mildmayfoxe · 1 year ago
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a lot of these candies have a lot of haters out there despite most of them having a lot of lovers too. but which one do YOU love despite it all??
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damian-lil-babybat · 5 months ago
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They're judging their sibling's life decisions, and they are not impressed.
(And to think Jason and Dami have pit-madness in their system)
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choccy-milky · 9 months ago
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MC doing what we all wished we could do (aka napping on the floor with ominis )😴💕
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lovesickgoose · 6 months ago
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It's sweaty medic season
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linkedin-offficial · 6 months ago
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assorted doodles and sketches
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valiantvillain · 1 year ago
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You can't convince me Gale wasn't totally advertising himself as marriage material throughout the entirety of his romance. He's got a tower. It's got a great kitchen and a wine cellar. He can cook. He'll formally introduce you to Tara over a nice dinner. His mother will love you. And after so many years of the bar being in the pits of hell for irl men I fell for that shit hook, line, and sinker. Feel his shirt that smells like a library. It's husband material.
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ayilings · 4 months ago
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good luck babe [wip] ⚔️🌹
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uncanny-tranny · 4 months ago
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Every time I think too deeply about how we've found the bones of thousands and thousands of years old ancient people and we've given them people names I just
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Guys, do you get it? We put to name these ancient peoples whose bodies vaguely resemble us and we go, "you're one of us, and we will give you a name that we have invented". They are not here to have a voice for themselves, but they are here to be remembered.
To be named is to be loved.
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sehaniine · 6 months ago
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ace of spades, hero of the wild
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sunnymainecoon · 2 months ago
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I know damn well I misunderstood the assignment but we roll, I'll understand it some day
It's killer and dust btw. If you couldn't tell. Which you probably couldn't.. forgor to say but shhh 🤫 Killers having a convo with himself..
..I kinda wanna change my url but idk to what
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Danny was...unnerved, which is unusual considering his upbringing as the child of mad scientists obsessed with the undead.
It had been a few weeks since he had moved into Wayne manor after a conflict between batman and his parents, which led to his home and his friends and family being blown up in a lab malfunction. Most of Amity Park was destroyed in the blasts, including Vlad and his mansion.
Usually Danny would be more suspicious of super rich dudes, but the sorrow in Bruce Wayne's eyes as he pleaded to let Danny take him in was genuine and well, Danny didn't exactly have anywhere else to go. Plus, Bruce looked weirdly guilty when danny told him none of this was his fault, which was weird. Jazz was in college and always looked exhausted on video calls, so he didn't want to bother her there.
The part that bothered him most wasn't that there was anything dangerous or bad happening, but rather the opposite.
Danny was used to dodging his home security system when it randomly targeted him. He was used to ghosts popping up out of nowhere to suckerpunch him. He was used to danger.
And now that there was none, he was jumping at shadows.
Things got better when he met Psaro. He was in the process of being either mugged or kidnapped, he wasn't sure, when this angry goth teen with silver hair and ruby eyes literally came in swinging a steel chair. After the beat down and subsequent rescue, Danny offered to buy them some food. Psaro tried to reject the offer until his stomach suddenly growled, making him blush, and Danny dragged the older goth teen to a restaurant.
They've been best friends since. Psaro later introduced him to his friends Rose and Toilen, explaining that they weren't from this world and that Rose was an elf and Toilen was a Teran from a planet called Terrestria. Danny assumed that Psaro was an elf like Rose due to them both having long pointed ears and mostly focused on Toilen thanks to the "other planet" bit.
Meanwhile, the bats have been keeping an eye out on Danny (aka stalking him) and his new, obviously magical friends.
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sachart · 8 months ago
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They're just so tired
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algortroj · 13 days ago
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very old laezel/shart art. sharing clothes!
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nellasbookplanet · 21 days ago
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Here’s the thing:
I want Predathos to get out.
Not because I hate the gods or want to see them killed or driven off (in fact, I find the 'the gods are tyrants' arguments to be laughably incorrect and deeply hope c3 ends with the pantheon still present) but because ending the campaign without facing Predathos would be a huge anticlimax. If Bells Hells simply kill Ludinus and go back home, it will feel like killing the minion but never actually getting to the big bad. What if c1 had ended with killing the Briarwoods but never getting around to Vecna. What if the m9 had actually managed to kill Lucien with their trap in Aeor before he made it into the Astral Sea to set off his plan. We wouldn’t have gotten to see the nature of the somnovem, the horrific flesh city or the peace of putting it to rest, the wild creativity that was the final battle of imagination. If c3 ends without showing us what the fuck Predathos actually is I will go lie facedown on the floor for a week wondering what we missed out on.
Now, this doesn't mean I want the hells to purposefully let the beast out of its cage. I would prefer the campaign not end with the heroes finalizing the villain's plan and setting off calamity 2.0, thank you very much. But if Ludinus still has an ace up his sleeve that makes Predathos' release all but inevitable (which I honestly expect)? Maybe even if there’s a party split and one or a couple of the hells take the decision into their own hands (looking at you, Ashton)?
I'd love that shit. Show us what Predathos truly is. Let it eat Ludinus maybe. Give us a glimpse of the true end if it’s let loose on Exandria. Have there be a horrific realization of oh, this is what the Vanguard was arguing in favor of. And then kill it.
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