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My grandmother gets mad when i hear her "private" conversations about me, but she speaks so fuckign loud?? Shes talking to my grandfather on speaker in the other room and i heard her say "if she lost 30-50 pounds, she's still going to be a bigger girl, or fat, because of her structure of her hips, legs, and thighs. I dont know how much she weighs now. She's extremely tall for a girl. She towers over guys her age and these things bother guys. There are guys interested in a heavy set girl, but other guys don't want to take the time to get to know someone, they judge based on looks" to which my grandfather replied "thats from society. she's still beautiful"
Stop talking about my weight and my height. I wish I were fuckign shorter, and I've already lost 50 pounds within the past year. I'm so insecure about these things and to imply I won't find someone to love based on my appearance not being accepted by society rly hurts. Like ??? This is why I can't stand my family. I'm the topic of every conversation and it's always negative or "oh I wish she was skinnier and shorter so she could actually find a man to love her"
#whats stupid is ive only had like 2 boyfriends actually in my life#and they were my height or shorter than me#ive casually dated a few people who are taller than me but that has never been about my personality and what i bring to a relationship and#only based on how i look/how i can 'preform' for them#that nonbinussy if you will#and now i rly cant trust whether people like me for me or not because all ive heard is how i should kill myself so i can please society and#im not going to be loved and apprecisted becauze 'the young and stupid men want a toothpick not her'#ive been loving my body so much because i can see im slimming down#and im consistently between hating my body and loving it. it provides for me but its also a contributing factor to why no one loves me how#i want to be loved apparently#accordijg to family^ not to me#this is why i make videos etc so i can feel good about myself but its not authentic#i love when people love my music and what i can do and take an interest in my interests#becauze without that i have nothing. i am nothing. i like so many differwnt things and i want to believe somwone will love my humour#and intellect. over my body. but i still want them to love my body and think im oretty#im not asking for much#rly getting mad at them pushing me to find a man. becauze until i moved out at 18 they didnt want me dating because they didnt eant me to#'end up like her mother' as in getting pregnant at 17 and not finishing school#as soon as i left and i turned 18 she was asking me when i was going to start having kids#like you have to be kidding me with this shit. her mother had her at 19. she had my mom at 19. my mom had me at 18. even on my fathers side#my great grandma had my nan at 18. my nan had my dad at 17. my dad had me at 16#so for at least 3 generations (including all the cousins and shit) there have been young parents#but i wasnt allowed to? until i became a legal afult???#idek if im fertile and im afraid to find out if im not because i want to have kids#and if i find out i cannot girve birth it will break me. i know theres ivf and adoption but i also know i will never have the finances to#explore those options#so natural birth is the cheapest and only option i currently have. but no one wants a baby. and i cant with sound mind and body put someone#through the disjointed and fucked up life that i had#this is just a whole ass rant post. i need to walk the dog and bake before i go to my friends house for horror movie night#which ngl im looking forward to deapite the 'friends' they are
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Apparently the local university’s undergraduate entomology course sends students to catch insect specimens at the same place I like to go birdwatching, which explains why I saw three enormous frat looking dudes with tiny bug nets and overheard one emphatically say “bro BRO I told you we already have enough lepidopterans”
#I told my brother (in the ag field) this and he said ‘oh those are definitely turf bros’#apparently entomology is a required course if you want to specialize in golf course management which I guess is a career that some desire#and there is some Westside story type beef between the turf bros taking entomology for pest control reasons and future PHDs who love bugs#actually chatted with them later they were very lovely
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a lot of these candies have a lot of haters out there despite most of them having a lot of lovers too. but which one do YOU love despite it all??
#i like all of these except whoppers#i didn't want to do anything TOO hated although i'm sure licorice is going to be least voted for :( i love licorice#my polls#candy#tootsie roll i might not seek out but everything else (except whoppers) i would be thrilled to have#but i like mint licorice and coconut which people apparently tend to hate
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They're judging their sibling's life decisions, and they are not impressed.
(And to think Jason and Dami have pit-madness in their system)
#color study#My fanarts levels depends on my adhd serotonin#Procastination it is#But they are so prettyyy so i am happy#dc comics#damian wayne#fanart#dc#robin#jason todd#red hood#If i dont doodle my artstyle revert to anime and i need to restudy human face anatomy and sometimes i love it sometimes i dont#Right now i love it#apparently if i want to put two days worth of work on a fanart it doesnt look bad huh#Also been using orange and red again on my skintones...i have been warching this youtube shorts guy that gives advice for art corrections#And its great#Had mild colorblindness so dont know how it looked on you guys but for me it looked good enough#if i make it orange again then just blame it tk artistic freedom lol
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It's sweaty medic season
#tf2#medic tf2#suggestive#<- idk man you can see his cleavage#if this posts twice i will be unhappy#it got bungled the first time#scribbling#apparently my loadout is the sweaty medic loadout according to reddit#sorry for loving my team do you want me to just let them all die#i use the crossbow quickfix and amputator most often<3#also it's been hot and humid lately and it's making me grumpy ASFJFDHSKS
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assorted doodles and sketches
#i love drawing them all sm i am having so much fun#last one is mostly my hcs to celebrate pride + just wanted to do smth like that#by the time this is posted ill be at a parade! so i felt in the mood#also catgirl vivian propaganda no i wont stop#shes so kitty meow meow#(and dragon chimera apparently)#(dont ask)#im not tagging them all but i am in spirit#paper mario the thousand year door#paper mario ttyd#paper mario#vivian#vivian ttyd#flavio#flavio ttyd#doopliss ttyd#doopliss#goombella ttyd#goombella
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You can't convince me Gale wasn't totally advertising himself as marriage material throughout the entirety of his romance. He's got a tower. It's got a great kitchen and a wine cellar. He can cook. He'll formally introduce you to Tara over a nice dinner. His mother will love you. And after so many years of the bar being in the pits of hell for irl men I fell for that shit hook, line, and sinker. Feel his shirt that smells like a library. It's husband material.
#bg3#baldur's gate 3#gale of waterdeep#gale dekarios#apparently i'm a bitch who wants commitment from my pixel men#your honor i love him#give me that happily ever after bullshit#i'll take that Waterdeep view thank you very much#a man who cooks and likes doing it? consider me wed
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MC doing what we all wished we could do (aka napping on the floor with ominis )😴💕
#ill never get over how he just sleeps on the floor its so cute to me and seems so at odds with his personality which makes it better#hogwarts legacy#hphl#ominis gaunt#ominis gaunt x mc#ominis gaunt x oc#ominis x mc#hogwarts legacy ominis#hogwarts legacy fanart#hey look everyone its my nameless MC aka just brown haired clora LMAOOO#its like when u play a fighting game and you and your friend both choose the same chara. this is clora with a diff colour scheme BAHAHA#this has been in my wips for like a year im not even joking im glad to finally actually draw it properly LMAO#i also love how all of my ominis centric posts involve him on the floor/talking about the floor LMFAOO EVEN THE SMUT ONE#what can i say i just love a man who isnt afraid to chill on the floor ok#also i love a hypocritical man LMAO apparently. i always make seb a hypocrite and now im makin ominis one too#HOW COULD U SLEEP ON THE FLOOR MC?#meanwhile#also srry but dont get ur hopes up for more ominis content anytime soon this was just in my wips and i rly wanted to finally have it done#A RARE TREAT FOR THE OMINIS GIRLIES#choccyart
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good luck babe [wip] ⚔️🌹
#revolutionary girl utena#rgu#anthy himemiya#chappell roan#shoujo kakumei utena#sku#good luck babe vmas 2024 changed lives…….mine…#also ! an opportunity to draw something incorporating anthys armor from the opening!!!!!!#wanted to post while apparently everyone cant get this performance out of their head#i wanna maybe paint it later idk it might be a hot minute#i love swords i love lesbians i love sword lesbians#like dude chappells whole performance?? annbait incredible stuff#2024#ayilings#wip#id in alt
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Every time I think too deeply about how we've found the bones of thousands and thousands of years old ancient people and we've given them people names I just
Guys, do you get it? We put to name these ancient peoples whose bodies vaguely resemble us and we go, "you're one of us, and we will give you a name that we have invented". They are not here to have a voice for themselves, but they are here to be remembered.
To be named is to be loved.
#positivity#archeology#anthropology#thinking about lucy right now#learning about her was so amazing as a wee little lad#i think what made me overcome with emotion was when they named her (apparently after the beatles song)#it's not Just that they have scientific names. so many of these people have PEOPLE names (and their scientific category names)#WAIT... LUCY IS ALSO DINK'INESH WHICH MEANS 'YOU ARE MARVELOUS'???#ouuuugh this knowledge makes me want to curl up in a ball and shrivel up (/positive)#i don't care how different the extinct relatives of ours. she is one of us and i love her
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ace of spades, hero of the wild
#ive been wanting to make the zelda characters as a deck of cards for months now#if anyone has suggestions for who should go on the other cards id be open to making this a series?#should i make this a series#the ace of spaces apparently represents death and transformation which i think is perfect for wild link#and tragic#my beloved totk link i will always love you#link#loz#the legend of zelda#legend of zelda#link totk#totk#tears of the kingdom#botw#breathe of the wild#art#illustration#my art
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Danny was...unnerved, which is unusual considering his upbringing as the child of mad scientists obsessed with the undead.
It had been a few weeks since he had moved into Wayne manor after a conflict between batman and his parents, which led to his home and his friends and family being blown up in a lab malfunction. Most of Amity Park was destroyed in the blasts, including Vlad and his mansion.
Usually Danny would be more suspicious of super rich dudes, but the sorrow in Bruce Wayne's eyes as he pleaded to let Danny take him in was genuine and well, Danny didn't exactly have anywhere else to go. Plus, Bruce looked weirdly guilty when danny told him none of this was his fault, which was weird. Jazz was in college and always looked exhausted on video calls, so he didn't want to bother her there.
The part that bothered him most wasn't that there was anything dangerous or bad happening, but rather the opposite.
Danny was used to dodging his home security system when it randomly targeted him. He was used to ghosts popping up out of nowhere to suckerpunch him. He was used to danger.
And now that there was none, he was jumping at shadows.
Things got better when he met Psaro. He was in the process of being either mugged or kidnapped, he wasn't sure, when this angry goth teen with silver hair and ruby eyes literally came in swinging a steel chair. After the beat down and subsequent rescue, Danny offered to buy them some food. Psaro tried to reject the offer until his stomach suddenly growled, making him blush, and Danny dragged the older goth teen to a restaurant.
They've been best friends since. Psaro later introduced him to his friends Rose and Toilen, explaining that they weren't from this world and that Rose was an elf and Toilen was a Teran from a planet called Terrestria. Danny assumed that Psaro was an elf like Rose due to them both having long pointed ears and mostly focused on Toilen thanks to the "other planet" bit.
Meanwhile, the bats have been keeping an eye out on Danny (aka stalking him) and his new, obviously magical friends.
#dpxdc#prompts#dragon quest#dragon quest monsters#fanfiction prompts#danny fenton#danny phantom#batman#bruce wayne#bruce has regrets and blames himself for the death of dannys loved ones#psaro the manslayer#was anyone going to tell me that Psaros last name is apparently Banesword or was i supposed to read that online myself#the hero and his party are still wanting to murder our little pouty goth baby and i will not stand for it#the bats see how paranoid danny is and heard him talking about the nightmare security system and all that so theyre overprotective of him#them finding out Psaro is a teenage demon lord either isnt going to go over well or he gets adopted
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They're just so tired
#apparently I can't stop drawing them sleeping#i just want them to have a nap#when are they gonna be well rested#also that's Curt at the back but there's no point tagging him cos he's unrecognisable and barely there#love you Curt#bucky egan#buck cleven#john egan#gale cleven#john bucky egan#gale buck cleven#clegan#buck x bucky#bucky x buck#masters of the air#mota#sach art#hbo war
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could it be ur face i see, on my computer screen?
#barbara gordon#bart (as in bug art)#babs gordon#oracle dc#batgirl#fixed up my babs design :) i looove her#i ended up giving her braids bc apparently all black vigilantes just have protective hair styles#<- which! makes sense in my brain! but the real reason for her is bc of#maxine from living single#for the 90s of it all#+ i wanted to make a black babs that was oracle#this is like a little treat to me#i will stop rambling now o7#dc#dc comics#detective comics#batman#oh! also rip babs gordon u would’ve loved objectum <- for henry
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This feels indescribably bad in a different way from 2016, less panic and just a dull sense of unbelief. For all my election anxiety, in my heart of hearts I really and truly did not think he could win again, and of course now I feel like a fucking idiot. I’m not really sure what we could have done to effectively counter this much of a rightward shift but I think we need to take a hard look at the state of the electorate instead of being in denial about how right-wing this country is.
#once is an aberration but twice? this is who we are as a nation apparently#not a whole lot you can say about that#also I don’t know if he would have won or not but this confirms my gut feeling switching out biden that close was a bad idea#I loved kamala and got caught up in the excitement because I wanted her to win so badly but this was a blowout
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Full-Size / True Color Version
Sometimes I think about the fact that first living being to orbit the Earth couldn't understand what was happening to her, couldn't understand the history she was making. Laika wasn't a volunteer. The technology to bring her back alive didn't exist. They sent her up anyway. She died, scared and alone, in a malfunctioning spacecraft hastily built to meet a political deadline.
When her heart rate tripled from the stress of acceleration, did she understand the magnitude of what she was experiencing? When she saw the stars outside her little window, did she believe the world had gone dark? In her final hours, did she feel wonder, or just fear?
"The more time passes, the more I’m sorry about it. We shouldn’t have done it. We did not learn enough from this mission to justify the death of the dog. When you understand that you can’t bring back Laika, that she perishes out there, and that no one can bring her back…that is a very heavy feeling." Oleg G. Gazenko
For me, there's some small consolation, at least, in knowing that although her death was unnecessary and cruel, Laika will never be forgotten. I love you, Laika. May you find peace among the stars.
Prints are available here.
#my art#laika#laika the space dog#i ugly cried while drawing this im not gonna lie. she was a good girl. she deserved better.#my dog was sitting next to me the entire time i was drawing this. i wish we'd given laika the love she deserved without killing her for it#if you don't know about laika- i WOULD recommend reading about her but the story is rather upsetting.#also apologies for the print site showing a bunch of weird options. i turned off phone cases but it keeps insisting i want to sell it as on#i thought it would fix itself overnight but apparently not. its not actually available if you click on it. should be just prints.#space art#space history#artists on tumblr#stained glass art#art prints
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