#i want to be better but i dont know what that means

[olderthannetfic]

Actually, sorry, nevermind with the pro ship stuff ! Did my research and I'm more informed abt it :) you dont need to post either of the asks I sent abt it (and I'm lowkey scared if coming across as a close minded purist prude whose disillusioned about being by one.)..either way ty!

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*giggling*

The reality is that any new, viral thing from thirty seconds ago spreads easily on TikTok, most especially misinformation. Instagram is another pretty terrible platform just in terms of algorithms and how it's run. I wouldn't expect the prevailing understanding of such-and-such from within one bubble on either to necessarily be well informed.

The concept of "antis" under that name is pretty new, and the concept of "proshippers" is even newer. It has always meant "not antis". Some people have started mutating it to be about specific dark content, but it was always supposed to be about opposing censorship-happy idiots.

I don't find incestuous ships any freakier than other common fantasies people have. Same with adult/minor ships. You're seeing them in a distinct category because they upset you in particular. The feelings are fine, but they don't actually mean that these kinks are darker than all the other ones antis go after.

I know you think someone will be able to interpret "proshippers DNI" as "only the actually bad people should stay away", but that simply isn't what's going to happen. First, DNIs are moronic. Curating your online space means that you need to be the one blocking and avoiding. You can't ask random strangers, possibly your enemies, to do it for you. Second, people are going to have all kinds of opinions on which content is Bad Enough to count even assuming they share a similar definition of 'proshipper'.

This kind of "Well, we all know what the Bad Stuff is" attitude tends to have a chilling effect on a space. People are all paranoid that their kinks might count and self-censor far beyond what the person who said it expected.

Honestly, aside from the constant misuse of the terms, my assumption is that public proshippers on Instagram and TikTok are mostly into extreme things because anyone less extreme wouldn't have the balls to be public. The amount of death and rape threats from antis wouldn't be worth it.

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As for my "rules", I don't have any. This is my personal tumblr, but since I leave anon on, people send me lots of things. I post most of them, but I get so many now, that I'll sometimes cut off a topic that has dragged on boringly. I usually don't post the threats I get unless they're funny and I want to mock them.

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Re teens in fandom, I got into fandom at 13 on Usenet and set about reading all of the freakiest porn available. I read far worse stuff outside of fandom. I was curious, as many people that age are. It never did me any harm, and it won't do any harm to current 13-year-olds to read dark shit.

The people who get fucked up already have a lack of decent mentors in their offline life, are reading things as self harm, are actually being harmed by the social side of fandom where they've found some creep for horny roleplay, are the subject of a public hate campaign, etc. That sucks, but it's not something I can control or that will get better if we exclude them from fandom.

Teens would be better protected by their parents removing TikTok from their phones than by anything to do with fandom. Its short form makes it ideal for poorly fact-checked soundbites that sound good on the surface but discourage critical thinking or nuanced engagement with a topic. Youtube et al. are also cesspits, but TikTok has elevated predatory algorithms and viral misinformation to a whole new level.

Now back to rewatching miniminuteman. Hahaha.

[eliwatchesf1alot]

people often mistake what i feel about lando so here is a post clearing that up

some of my acquaintances think i have a silly celebrity crush on him and some just pull into the 'she just watches f1 becasue the drivers are hot' narrative which are both false actually

yes i think lando is pretty look at him look at this boy

but i think its his smile that makes him so pretty its how absolutely genuine he is and sometimes how he says some mean things he doesnt actually mean but you can see how much of an whatever he says has on the people around him i love his relationship with carlos with max with oscar with his team engineers with maxf with penelope with his family and how he in general treats the people around him how he holds himself accountable (sometimes too much) for the mistakes he makes on track and tries to get better its how much he has been loyal to this one singular team since the beginning of his career and now he's winning but still acknowledges the teams part in it so often and his champagne pops and his little expressions how he celebrates and laughs and smiles and talks and giggles and smirks and wheezes and its all so honestly pretty

hes not my crush hes my comfort person i admire him so much

but he's also my baby i birthed him if anything bad happened to him (god forbid) i would be so incredibly sad i wish him all the happiness and success he wants i'm rooting for him to win wdc in 2025 i want him on the podium again next year i hope he gets a fast car with good balance

miami was the first race i watched that got me into this beautiful sport in 2024 i saw him win for the first time, took one look at him and decided okay yes im going to care for that person now which is weird because i dont even like some of the people i know in real life that much like how can i care so much about someone who doesnt exist but theres something about looking at his gifs and videos that gives me such happiness like yes i want to see more of this pathetic little boy smiling give it to me

what does one call this

[agent-stone]

Does....does Shadow not realize typing that he called you dad means you now know he called you dad? That's strangely adorable. You're gonna be a good dad and I really hope your husboss comes back soon so you two can raise your edgy hedgehog son together.

Also Shadow? It's okay to want to be tucked in kiddo, according to earth standards you're still a child.

Stonedad???

I... did not look at what he typed. I didn't know he typed anything, I just thought he was reading it. I can't believe (as I'm looking now) that he did call me dad. He really sees me like that?

Thank you for the support, anon. I've been stressing over whether or not I can handle myself and Shadow, but now I feel better knowing someone trusts me to keep a kid/hedgehog.

And I also hope my husboss comes back. I really do. If he does, it probably would be a little awkward, but it wouldn't matter. I do wonder how he'll feel about me keeping Shadow...

Speaking of, I'll let him respond to his part.

Shadow

Firsy off, i didn't WANT him ti knpw about me calking him dad. Second, I dont know wgat a "husboss" is. Th8rd... Im aware I'm stkll consideref a kid in eartj terms. I wasny around for the padt 50 years, so dad's Stome's been keeoping me up to datw.

P.S. - why is stpne so infatuatrd with Gerald's grandskn??? I don't jnderstand

-- Stone + Shadow

[brownhood69]

TFE RANT (also spoilers)

Okay, so for those of you who haven't heard of Transformers Earth Spark, it's basically a show where the cybertronian War is technically over and now cybertronians are trying to get used to the life on earth. But they are completely treated like they are animals. If you want to watch the show yourself then go right ahead it should be on Amazon Prime or on Paramount Plus because this will contain spoilers for the first season and the 2nd season so feel free to skip this.

ANYWAY!

So all of you know the Decepticons right?

👆

These guys?

Well, near the end of the last episode of season 1 of Earth Spark they all decided to work together with the Decepticons to take down mandroid, the main antagonist of season 1. There was also two episodes where one of the Decepticons started to have a relationship with the Malto family. Like for example

Nightshade and tarantulas:

And Starscream and hashtag:

See how these two GIFs are completely wholesome? Infact, the first season teaches that even though somebody could be on the opposite side of things that doesn't initially mean that they are a bad guy completely, just misunderstood.

It teaches that everyone can have a second chance if they really try but not everyone can really get that second chance.

And then season 2 comes around,

And BOY was I pissed off about it.

Now I haven't watched season 2 myself but I have watched one episode in it and that's it. remember that I said that the Decepticons finally decided to fight Mandroid thanks to Twitch and that some of the Terrans actually had some decent relationships with some of the Decepticons?

Well season two just completely THROWS ALL OF IT OUT OF THE FUCKING WINDOW!!!

When I watch season 2 I thought it was going to be all cool and hype and I thought everyone was just overreacting over season 2. NOPE! THEY HAD THE RIGHT TO BE UPSET! Because one episode in and I was immediately flashed banged with shock. Robby was explaining after 2 years of like saving cybertronians from Mandroid's destruction the quintus prime Stone (I don't remember what it's called) kind of shattered into like thousands of pieces across the globe. He then says that the Decepticons help them to retrieve them but then they decided to turn on them and get the shards for themselves. EVEN THOUGH THE FIRST SEASON SAID THAT NOT ALL DECEPTICONS ARE BAD!!

Like where did this even come from!? And why make them back into villains when we already saw the shot of them HELPING TWITCH AND HER FAM FROM KILLING ALL CYBERTRONIANS!? Like, what is the point of this!? If you're just going to make them bad guys anyway, why give the Terrans a chance to understand them and sympathize with the 'cons!? You had such a good new take on the Transformers yet you decided to throw away that said good take and just take it back to square one!

WHAT THE HELL HASBRO!?

*SIGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH*

And don't get me started with Bumblebee's relationship with Breakdown. You clearly set them up to be best buddies and then you just set that friendship arc on fire and just went on the 'Con vs 'Bot arc again. But the part that pisses me off the most is Starscream's abandon arc. Earthspark *clearly* wanted to make this Starscream as sympathetic as possible and this could have worked well. IF THEY DIDNT MAKE HIM THE MAIN VILLIAN IN SEASON 2!

And I guess prowl appearing in season 3 is kind of nice but it would have been better if he was like the villain instead of Starscream. If they were going to be good Decepticons then there has to be bad Autobots. But hey, Hasbro isnt keen on keeping promises are you Hasbro?

God, you had such a good idea and you just had to ruin it with season 2 and 3. I hope the rumors of Earthspark getting canceled are true thanks to this.

Also, GIVE US A TRUELY, ACTUAL, HEROIC, SYMPATHETIC STARSCREAM FOR CRYING OUT LOUD! **AND DONT FUCK IT UP THIS TIME!!!**

Okay, I think I'm done for now, but I might add a part 2 if I decided to watch the rest of season 2 and season 3.

K bye!

[babymorte]

i just need to know what it is about me that everyone thinks it’s okay to constantly disrespect me and treat me like a subhuman. everyone keeps telling me it’s not my fault that i keep getting used and fucked over but the common denominator is me.

like i don’t know what it is about guys being on the internet that makes them think women are a roster for them to act how every they want and have no consequences. im sorry it’s fucking trashy and what’s worse is when they’re people you have been friends with for years. even worse when they’re in a relationship. being online does not mean anonymous and social media is not a fucking dating or hookup app and i dont do that shit. i dont associate with people who do that shit and i don’t tolerate it being done to me.

you can ask people to stop but unless they respect you and actually want to i guess change for lack of a better word you’re stuck on a constant cycle of this harassment and borderline mental abuse and it’s really starting to take its fucking toll on me.

I’ve lost some of my best friends who think i just fuck around with whoever gives me attention because of my personality i guess i don’t know but it makes me sick to my stomach and i have never hated myself more. and then to find out your boyfriend is/was doing the same thing? it’s fucking devastating.

all it tells me is that im worth nothing to no one. the only thing im good for is sex or my appearance and when they get bored of me theres always someone else.

i have given up so much of myself to people who don’t deserve to be a thought in my mind and I still will protect them because i want to be the better person.

i just can’t take it anymore. i want to be chosen by someone who chooses me. me the person. sure i want the compliments and the flirty bits n all that but like there’s so much more to me than just my appearance and it’s becoming sickening clear that’s all im good for.

i’ve never felt so alone and i hate myself for it.

[webweirdweedsmoker]

GUYS !! I wrote a little about what I know about pro shipp to post on tiktok, am I right? Is there anything I should add?

꒰ Feel free to give me advice ! ꒱

I changed the font and increased the color, to give more contrast, it looked like this (just an example image):

Hi, So, in the comments of this post someone gave me some very good information, so here is that information:

buni-gutz : there is some incorrect information with the paraphilia page.

paraphilias aren't disordered. they're just kinks. the dsm-5 itself says not to diagnose someone with paraphilia disorder if they are not DISTRESSED by their fetish, or have not harmed someone due to reasons related to their fetish. (this goes for the harmful ones too. if a pedophile is not severely distressed or has not harmed a child, they are not qualified for a diagnosis)boobs are the most common paraphilia, in fact!

also, paraphilias ARE something that is usually gained. usually from early childhood experiences. this is why boobs are the most common paraphilia (association with food creating positive feelings about boobs)the dsm-5 says that being sexually abused in childhood is a risk factor of pedophilia disorder, and therefore also plays a part in pedophilia itself developing. this can go for other paraphilias too. CSA was involved in my own formation of pedophilia and biastophilia (rape). kinks may form as a result of trauma to try and gain control. in a rape fantasy, your brain tends to have control of what's happening. this is important as the one shared trait of all trauma is a lack of control. gaining this control back in the form of fantasy is often very important to the healing process.i also feel it's worth mentioning on the "its illegal" thing, legality isn't morality. there are plenty of countries where its illegal for women to get an education, to openly be queer. there's also places where rape, especially marital rape, is legal, and in some places, might even be culturally encouraged.

Finally, describing 'proship' as 'proship' can be confusing. if you ask what 'unfold' means, and i describe it as "to unfold something", well you really don't get an idea of what it means.

proship is a stance against censorship and harassment.

proshippers also encourage properly tagging your stories and art, or at least putting some form of warning that there may be triggering content, so that others can filter out what they dont want to see.

We do not believe you have to like or even accept everything. we just ask that you do not encourage censorship and do not harass others.

we also don't think that adult fiction should not be actively shown to children, and instead it's a parent's job to be actively involved with their kids life and to steer them away from sites like ao3 or porn sites until an appropriate age. adults on the internet are not free babysitters.

It might also be worth adding a page on why censorship is bad, specifically, I would suggest talking about the Hays' Code, how bills like KOSA where made with the goal of censoring queer people, and the bans of trans women on tumblr for posting harmless pictures that were considered 'sexual' for picturing a queer person.these are all things I have seen antis be against, so bringing these up might help them better connect with what you're trying to say.

[batcavescolony]

Katniss is such an unreliable narrator. She says "Then something unexpected happens. At least, I don't expect it because I don't think of District 12 as a place that cares about me" girl you deliver strawberries to the Mayor, you hunt and trade for the district, when you fell at Prim being chosen someone caught you, when you went to Prim people parted for you, when you volunteered EVERYONE stopped. Idk how to tell you but I think you're a pillar of the community.

[nimomo-mo]

Vent

[brainmuncher]

So I had another idea come at me while making lunch (I'm starting to sense a pattern with myself, lmao)

What if when Jazz sends out letters to the colleges she wants to get into, she gets sent rejection letters from every single one... except the local community college. She's absolutely devastated about it. She thought that she did everything she could to be chosen. How could every single one reject her?

Danny, of course, hears about it and asks Tucker to check and see if something happened digitally. Surely, Technus or Vlad or someone messed with something to sabotage her. But when Tucker checks, there's absolutely nothing wrong. She still has her perfect grades and attendance record all set with no marks. Her community service hours are all there. It's only when he looks at the letters themselves that he finds the problem...

After looking online to see what the letters look like, he comes to a puzzling realization... the letters were fake. It's a good fake, but it's not the real thing. The signatures were off, and the writing had been changed.

This is what leads him down the rabbit hole.

He tries to ask about it online to ask others who've also been rejected. Except nobody is answering him.

Sam tries to call the numbers listed on the websites of the colleges... but the person who answers is strangely unknowledgeable about the college they represent.

The only college that seems normal about it was the nearby community college. And that somehow feels the least normal about everything.

It was only when he heard his mom complaining that they never heard from family anymore after they moved to Amity that he figured it out.

Containment. Nothing is leaving Amity. No emails, texts, letters, or posts online. Everything was being blocked.

Of course, this sends him on a mission as to why and how. He spends weeks on it. Sam and Danny actually began to become concerned for him. No, this isn't a pride thing, Sam. And yes, he is taking care of himself, Danny.

Technus is the one who gives him the answer. It was just a passing comment about how he needed to funnel through the GIW in order to infect the world. It didn't make sense to any of them because surely that's the last place you would want to do that. But then it dawned on Tucker. That's who has the power needed to do it! That's where he needed to look!

So he hacks into the GIW and is astonished by what he finds.

The anti ecto acts aren't real. There's no laws even acknowledging ghosts.

There's a file on Phantom, marked as 'candidate for X'.

And all he can find on the containment is a name he's seen described as the creator of the GIW and the main supplier of funds.

Amanda Waller.

[otterloreart]

I am going to use this opportunity to infodump about my ideal g4 pony, but please know i mean this respectfully and im not just trying to be contrary, but this post comes back every once in a while and I've wanted to add to it for a while, especially since I've gotten more g4 toys myself

The funko pop vinyl MLP figures are accurate on a technical level... from a specific perspective, in their display poses and from their display direction.

They can't be show accurate in 3D because the animation of MLP:FIM breaks the rules of perspective a ton, especially in the face. They are "fake it til you make it"-ing the 3D perspective by making it look nice from one angle- which is my problem with like 75% of the original line of MLP:FIM toys anyways.

...and in addition to not having any poes, in my opinion most of their expressions look very blank. (maybe thats just because i hate the funko brand so much tho lol)

I really dislike the very literal interpretation of the MLP:fim style. It's best exemplified by this pinkie pie funko:

ive heard a lot of people give the original blind bag pinkie pie shit for looking "not show accurate" but to me, this is at least an actual interpretation of curly hair, not balloons:

Personally, I prefer to aim for a toy that doesn't follow a super literal interpretation of the show and because I'm more fond of the older sculpts I am interested in sculpting more detail into them, not less.

That's why I gave Twilight a more pronounced chin/separation between the chin and muzzle, a slightly larger body, and indents for the eyes-

IIRC none of the toys I could find even had indents for the eyes, which like, to me is just a sign of lazy manufacturing. If you don't have eye indents you don't have to line up the eye screening (which is why my Candace toy has messed up eyes... sigh)

Some of the later toys actually did get slightly larger muzzles and more dynamic poses, which I would have preferred, but I think their eyes look way too goofy on their perfectly round faces:

I do think the average Tempest looks better because of her large, more sculpted muzzle; I also generally prefer the Princesses because they have more detail too!

The pose in g1 MLP terms just refers to the mold, and I am particularly fond of them because the pose gave each pony more personality rather than just standing there:

(Mimic Pose, which is what i based this Twilight off of)

I never liked the g4 poseable figures because I think their... "shoulder" and "knee" joints look way too wrong. On any other horse toy you can see why: that "shoulder" joint is technically two joints, the shoulder and elbow, while the middle one is the wrist.

Lauren faust is very good at adapting horse anatomy to a cartoon, its just the top of the shoulder doesn't appear in most 2D visuals- like in the original My Little Ponies, it blends in with the body

but the toy designer appears to have looked at the 2D visuals instead of considering how a horse looks, which to me produces. extremely ugly ponies. just my opinion, as someone who looks at too many horses, and horse toys. the animation and the 2D style can break the rules of physics, but breaking it too often leaves the result a jumbled mess.

now, is it presumptuous for me, a person who has been 3D modeling for a scant 2 years and has no professional experience or formal education to speak of, to say i think that a massive company full of talented designers did a poor job at interpreting this childrens toy? hm.

well in retrospect I would change the hoof and face to look more like the above (with the spiral horn, its just late and i dont feel like fixing it), and i would have the hair styled straight but i still think mines better

nobody tell my twilight sparkles, they'll feel worse than they already do.

My dream gen4 my little pony toy

The discourse has long since passed on this since MLP Gen 4 has been out for years, and now they have the g5 toys which are even worse, but anyways.

I think its a real shame they didn't make the g4 pony toys have like... any poses.

Lauren Faust has such a dynamic artstyle and I understand how it was hard to make into 3D but I refuse to believe this was the best they could do:

When theyre posed they have ugly little tube legs and no elbow. I think lauren fausts artstyle works with horses because she actually tool the time to look at horse anatomy and make it unique and stylized but these look so bad and not even very dynamic when they do do the poses but usually they dont do any poses at all.

[xxplastic-cubexx]

Hi!! Your Cherik is so good and gorgeous 🤩🤩 If you don't mind wanna try to draw some Fall of X Cherik please?

thank you so much !!

i have a couple of ideas relating to the fall of x period specifically since theres. A Lot i wanna play with, so i hope this lil thing may be a satisfactory start :]]

and the obligatory bonus:

[ruporas]

good mornings throughout the travel

[ID: Two comics of Vash and Wolfwood from Trigun Maximum. The second is underneath the read more.

The first is in four panels and follows Vash and Wolfwood through hotel rooms. First, Vash and Wolfwood exit adjacent rooms, and Wolfwood has sparkles floating around him as he exclaims, “Rise and shine! Ready to go?” Vash frowns, displeased, and says, Urk— Good morning to you too.”

Next, they’re in a room with two beds. Wolfwood is awake and fully dressed. He’s sitting on the bed and smoking, back turned away from the viewer and he says, “Wake up already, sleepyhead.” Vash sits up with his eyes still closed and yawns before saying good morning. After that, they’re sharing a bed, and Wolfwood gets up and says, “Morning, sunshine. Time to get up.” His body shadows Vash from the sunlight. Vash is still lying down with a blanket draped over him as he mumbles good morning.

Finally, they’re embracing in bed, both shirtless. Sunlight shines on them, but their contact allows their shadows to drape over their faces. Vash smiles, kisses the top of Wolfwood’s head, and says, “Good morning, Wolfwood.” Wolfwood sleepily says, “Mph, g’morning, needle-noggin’,” snuggling into on Vash’s shoulder. End ID] ID CREDIT

TRIMAX Vol. 10 Spoilers under read more // bonus comic

[ID: The bonus comic starts with Vash asleep in bed, fully clothed with his hair half-black. Someone says “Good morning,” and Vash says, “Morning, Wolf—w...” He trails off as Livio, holding a plate of food, stares with abject shock.

Livio says, “I’m sorry.” Vash, smiling but sweating, says, “No, it’s my bad...” Livio repeats, “I’m sorry.” Vash says, “Geez, stop apologizing,” and cuts off Livio’s “I—” with a “Good morning, Livio.” Livio quietly mumbles, “... Good morning...”

Vash sits up from the couch he was sleeping on and looks down, thinking, “... That’s right. I won’t wake up to you anymore... I have to get used to that...” End ID]

[hinamie]

binding vow

[ur-fave-hoe-cas]

Detta thats not what i meant

And i know im not fixed yet

Of fucking course i do

Im just trying to help with something i wish i had help with

If u dont want the help by all means tell me to fuck off

We can talk about something else or not talk at all if u fucking want!!

I just wanna do whatever helps u detta

And maybe wait till ur a bit better before asking or doing it

One cuz hell defo say no rn

Two cuz u wanna show him how good ur doing even without him right?

Stupid

- V

What is detta?

[eir-trixa]

Alright … *gets the gun*

Percy Jackson, get behind me

(Ive always prayed for a book that may address Percy’s trauma and self esteem issues but it just occurred to me that I may suffer while reading it. Like Percy is definitely suffering)

[yuwuta]

yuuta exhibits such previously abandoned, recently adopted dog behavior. incredibly anxious all the time, even though nobody’s out to get him or leave him behind. waits for you to return home or from school or from work excitedly, just to see you when you walk through the door. follows you around senselessly, hovering in your space just for the sake of companionship. initiates affection in prodding ways—starts off next to you, then a hand on your thigh, then deems it safe to lay all the way down, then slowly pushes his head into your lap. gets up whenever you need to get up, and resumes his position as soon as you’re ready. brings you gifts as a sign that he’s thinking of you, and maybe because he likes the affection it brings out in you, maybe because he likes the gentle affirming touches of a hand in his hair or a pinch to his cheek. rests his head on your stomach or his chin on your shoulder when he’s sleepy, stays there, immobile, and will not move unless absolutely necessary. sometimes he gets surprised when he hears you calling for him, there’s a moment of disbelief as he thinks “me? really? you need me?” but it’s very quickly overshadowed by this compulsive need to show up, to please, to do anything for you, which is why he always answers when you call. he doesn’t realize that he has puppygod eyes, especially when he’s excited or confused, but he does and it’s incredible endearing. very reluctant to share your space or attention after a while, considers that to be sacred and he won’t risk being let go or lost again, so as a safety precaution, he keeps himself right by you, waits for you always.