#i wanna see him again but i also don't
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#gonna rant for a bit#i thought the last i'm gonna see of him was at his father's funeral but somehow i ended up at his party last night#and dear god i got drunk and he got drunk and we ended up talking for like two hours#and he said to me in too many word that he always liked me and that he misses me at uni#and that he somehow still thinks about the things he said to me while we were second year bc he made me sad then#which is true#and he ended up saying so many things but i wish he hadn't#bc i'm gonna think about it for the rest of my life#and all of this was happening while his girlfriend was like not even 10 meters away from us#he also invited me to his other party which is in a month but i know i'm gonna get uninvited bc dear god that girl must hate me#and she probably hated me for years even when they were not together but she was into him#i just wish he got drunk enough to not remember some things i said#bc as usual i revealed too much and i overshared#oh god#i wanna see him again but i also don't#bc he is an idiot who HAS A GIRLFRIEND#i really thought i was over him lmaooooooooooo#isn't it funny how almost every time i talk about a guy here it's about the same one#anyway
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Shen Qingqiu, after being taken as a captive in Binghe's palace: I can have anything I want? Fine! Then I don't want to see you! Ever!
Shen Qingqiu, after Binghe complies with his wish and doesn't bother him: WHY won't he come and see meeeeeeee?!?!? This protagonist is nothing like the gongs in Meimei's books!!!! WHY DIDN'T HE LOCK ME AWAY TO HAVE HIS WAY WITH ME??!? WHY IS HE RESPECTING MY BOUNDARIES!?!?!!
#anqels ramblings#eva.txt#svsss#luo binghe#shen qingqiu#bingqiu#he was sulking so hard#like he really thought binghe wouldn't listen to him#but bingbing is a respectful boy <33 (except for the time he was trying to scare him but shhhhh that doesn't count)#i mean sqq was also actually mad at him for lying to him. and for attacking cqm.#but I genuinely don't think he meant he never wanted to see him again#he just said it in a fit of anger after having his heart broken#i really need to reread this part if I want to do a more accurate analysis#i'll probably reread it in august to celebrate 2 years since reading svsss. i wanna try and read it in 3 days like I did the first time
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Honestly, I'm very excited to find out what happened to Caleb and Beau, but specifically because Ludinus's current status is WILD for Caleb's epilogue in particular. It means his boyfriend is basically free and clear of everyone who has explicit material knowledge of the deal he made. It means the goal he planned to dedicate his life to is basically complete within six years. It means that virtually no one left on the Assembly cares much what kinds of changes he makes to Soltryce from here on out.
Ludinus is on the moon and probably not coming back, given the general expectations of the heroic fantasy genre, and the rest of it is a whole lot of "not Caleb's problem".
What does this man even do with the rest of his life?
#also who succeeded vess. this is the real question. no one in that role isn't fucking evil.#I'm just thinking about it. I don't imagine they'll have the same kind of time in the one-shot to go through epilogues again but like.#I do hope there's a lil bit. I wanna know what caleb does knowing that this massive problem is no longer a problem for him.#I am admittedly also presuming that margolin was implicated in or at least disgraced by the scourger shit cuz like#that's just not an easy thing to claim you knew nothing about lmfao#and fuck 'im#but like. the rest of the group is just. whatever yanno. but does caleb keep pushing? idk#I think he should get to be headmaster he'd be great at that#but then I am a caleb as magical headmaster truther so#ANYWAY I just want to see it. I wanna see what caleb looks like when he has absolute freedom before him.#it's WHAT HE DESERVES DAMMIT.#critical role#caleb widogast
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Look all I'm saying is if that a shadow game can work THAT well and be so well designed story wise and gameplay wise
HE can work
#sonic#silver the hedgehog#sonic the hedgehog#silver right now is such a open canvas of a character#story wise and gameplay wise#he's been a side character for so long and in the one time he was a main character his whole story was basically axed from canon#he's definitely been explored since then but not to extent we've probably wanted with this character-#and I'm talking mostly game silver cause obviously in IDW and archie he got some LOVE there#even if we never saw idw silver actually explore his good future#which i still think is a shame but also apparently if sega doesn't want that to be explored in a comic and saved for the games then#THEY BETTER EXPLORE IT SOON#and honestly gameplay wise he needs another shot as well#like C'MON his psychic's just needed better...well...PSYCHIC'S TO WORK#can you imagine what cool and fun movement he'd have now that sega is now slowy understanding what kinda stuff they wanna do with#the sonic franchise again and how it should play#i don't know if i should fully expect a silver game at any point#but he should ATLEAST be a second main character in a new game so people can be reintroduced to him and they can cook with him#IM TIRED OF SEEING MY SON GETTING HATED ON OR CALLED LAME#I WANT PEOPLE TO BE REMINDED OR SHOWN HOW COOL AND FUN HE CAN BE WHEN GIVEN THE SPOTLIGHT#archie and idw are the best examples of him as a character#he is a lovable friend and ally#but serious when he can be character#and his powers are literally so COOL AND INHERENTLY UNIQUE AND POWERFUL COMPARED TO OTHER'S IN THE CAST#like when surge saw silver come in casually carrying a large object and she got nervous THAT'S WHAT IM TALKING ABOUT#THIS MAN CAN BE A THREAT.#okay rant over DHDNDNDB
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(dress ref)
there's aus where u try to recreate the "effect" of a character's personality and behavior through an alternative "cause", and then there's this shit where i Just think umm well personally wolfwood being down to kill for vash is hot and it's a bummer vash doesn't think so too, but what if an au where he does ?
it's not a true "villain" vash au, basically it goes that vash decided to stick it out with knives in the hopes he could mitigate the damage knives planned to do to mankind, and it's worked for the most part-- at the expense of vash taking on much of knives' ire himself. this vash is even more isolated than in canon, unable to meet the standard knives enforces for what a god is supposed to look like, and constantly concerned with appeasing knives: dressing and styling his hair in a way that doesn't annoy him, talking very little, always offering compromises that put himself at a disadvantage
it's a wholly bad deal, up until the eye (yeah i'm blending stuff from other triguns in even tho it's a 98 au lol) offer vash their latest up-and-coming disciple to protect and serve him directly, though the "protecting" thing ends up being extremely mutual. wolfwood is the first bright spot in vash's life in a hundred years, and he's not going to allow anybody to take that away
#trigun#trigun anime#trigun fanart#vash#vash the stampede#wolfwood#nicholas d. wolfwood#vashwood#shared devotions au#<- in case i ever draw it again lol. it's an abba reference cuz abba is delightful villain music fhdhdjdj#literally my motivations here was just. i wanna see a situation where wolfwood has to do something fucked up for vash#and instead of vash proselytizing and projecting his trauma at him vash is like. Oh. you really do care for me don't you.#and EQUALLY AS MUCH SO i need vash covered in someone else's blood having thrashed a fucker for getting near wolfwood fhdhdjdjjs#wolfwood can have a lil religious moment realizing how much this traumatized godthing loves him. as little a treat.#love drawing vash's hair all fucked up as a visual representation of his decaying mental state dhfkgdkf#also love vash and knives' opposing color schemes and what you could interpret about their self-perceptions from that alone <3
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#can i yap for a moment#im extremely sleepy but im feeling very upset and mad and confused#also lowkey questioning whether me feeling all that is justified or if i am overreacting#anyway#made out w a boy tonight#and he wanted to go to his place#and i was like no i wanna stay and dance with my girlies#and he gets upset??#asking why i'd kiss him if i don't wanna hook up and i said i just wanna have fun?#made me feel so stupid#that anger in me led to a little fight with another boy (who was unfortunately very cute) and i just wanted to punch him#i just hate when boys think they're so superior#so i argued with this stupid but hot man#until an ex? friend shows up and he was pretty drunk just yapping about things#anyway he basically told me he'd like to rekindle our friendship#but not in a heyy haven't talked in so long let's meet up again#it was in a heyy let's hang out again got a new big car and moved out of my parent's house 😋#which gave me the ick bc that's why we aren't friends anymore and i told him no multiple times#and got sad bc he was one of my closest friends#anyway and then we left the party#this guy pulls me aside the parking lot#and i was so embarrassed bc there were so many people and they were all looking and i could already see people gossiping about it#and i just wanted to die#and then he just CONFESSES??#gives me flowers and all which is saur saur cute#but i legit have zero feelings for him </3#and have commitment issues and have never been in a relationship and don't wanna be in one#actually grosses me out thinking about relationships </3#the confession was so random and i kinda lost another friendship? even tho i wouldn't rlly consider him a friend we just share sum classes#but yeah boys are so stupid and confusing and i dunno how and why i get myself into these situations :') m sorry just needed to rant </3
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Thinking about how in purgatory....They split Bad off from his closer relationships with people by having them in different teams (Max, Bagi and Etoiles in Green gay ninjas, Foolish and Baghera in Bolas). How Bad's only close friend that was in the same team as him was Aypierre and then he ends up with Aypierre as his cellmate too < 3
#Also when I say Bad's only close friend - I mean like in terms of BEFORE purgatory#he and aypierre were pretty good friends and still remained good friends after it#pre-purgatory obviously Bad's connections with Pac and Tubbo weren't the best#their relationships got better after purgatory < 3 which I'm grateful for#while Tina and Bad are friends - I wouldn't say they're as close as Bad and Pierre? if that makes sense#It's not like Bad wasn't on friendly terms with other members in soulfire like Pol or Niki or Lenay but again - it's more referring to#someone closer to him#bug testers#game breakers#qsmp purgatory#tagging for purgatory for those that don't wanna see it#qsmp aypierre#badboyhalo#I'm just happy that Aypierre and Bad get paired off together < 3
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Maybe you've answered this before, and I didn't see it, but are you planning on adding Dark Cacao and Mystic Flour to the Intertwined Opposites AU?
Pretty interesting thought!!
Most of intertwined opposites is centered around Pure Vanilla and Shadow Milk, but the other beasts will be mentioned and have part in the story to an extent.
Mystic Flour's arrival happens when the main team is still in the faerie kingdom (to my understanding) so Shadow Milk isn't doing anything yet, it all happens in the "prologue" of it all.
But, the awakened forms of the ancients will be helpful when he's eventually confronted by them, and if he doesn't release after another 3 years like Lily I may reference a few things that happen in (possibly) his own episode during the last segment of the storyline.
Tldr: The other beasts are gonna play their part in the order they release, awakened forms are gonna do so too but aren't the main focus for the most part. Current beast yeast episodes are influential and happen in the same way as kingdom canon (unless I gotta do some tweaking for continuity's sake/ involving the main knowledge duo)
#askbox stuff#intertwined opposites au#silly AU asks!!#also silly ramble in the tags over here abt crk canon and how pewpaw's handled>>#DEVISIS I'M STARVING OF PV CONTENT WHERE HE'S NOT FORCEFULLY SHOVED IN THE MIDDLE OF THE MAIN TEAMMMM#LET HIM AND LILY SHINE OUTSIDE OF THE KIDS PLEASEEEE#Let them be their own characters omggg#I wanna see their mentor role switched up I wanna see “I don't know wth is going on” PV again and I wanna see them talk on their own#give them some alone time so we can understand them better like with cacao and others pleaseee#mkay rant over/silly#I'm a sucker for characters interacting with different people or doing routine stuff on their own#having their moment of privacy and being themselves outside of roles they got#cookie run kingdom
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who raised you, sir? why does MAWS slade insist on starting bitch fights with literally ever person he comes across at all times? why is he physically incapable of being polite or even just not being a dick? why is he beefing with someone who looks more like his comics version than he does? i love him.
#personal#my adventures with superman#maws comic#'peachy keen' this man was not raised right#someone was not responsible when it came to his upbringing because why are you behaving like this#is waller the ONLY person he hasn't been an ass to in canon so far???#god again: he needs to be married. someone with this characterization NEEDS to be married and a father.#like you know how it's great that bruce wayne is this big ball of issues and self hatred and fear and is The Night#but he's also a devoted father to like ten million children#you know how that's just really good because it feels like it shouldn't work but it does#this slade being married is like that#i know he has someone who matches his freak i wanna see addie be just as amoral and boss him around#i want their sicko for sicko gitmo marriage and they don't even have to be divorced cuz the eye is already gone#even without the attempted child murder
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finally unlocked maid blade's intimacy rooms and i just. i gotta say. i am very pleased. SO VERY pleased. excellent, everywhere, all around, fantastic loved it start to finish (i got a little worried in the middle bc distressed blade gnaws at my sympathetic heart chamber) but now i am filled with new images and new appreciation for big floofy skirts and blade's adorable master-pleasing ways
#i've had him since the original classy affair idk why it took so long to unlock him#oh. i know why. FEAR OF RESOURCE SCARCITY *clutches all my keys to mine bosom*#but now that my hoarding instincts have amassed enough key riches... i can afford to unlock more rooms and chars#i don't have to stress and try to decide who will be unlocked via store shards or room-only keys#i can just... unlock whomever i wanna unlock! wow!!#now i'm only limited by the insane slow drip of intimacy point gift giving1!!!!!#throws dozens of eiden dolls at blade every 5.3 hours#it accidentally coincided with... maid day? whatever that is?#so i unlocked it. then i got to see eiden in a maid dress AGAIN for funsies. DOUBLE MAID! QUADRUPLE MAID (topper included now)#ugh. maid on maid action. too good. we need more of this flavour. thank u blade for your 800 genders and lack of gender simultaneously#blade would also bottom if you ask nicely and *claps* I! LOVE!! THE RANGE!!!!#me with no previous attachment or particular fondness for the maid aesthetic:#*cocks gun* I DON'T CARE WHAT GENDER U ARE. PUT ON THE MAID DRESS
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I also think the dsmp kinda talks about empathy. The characther rarely put themself in others shoes to see the things through their airs. Actual empathy it's undertanding why someone thinks the way they thing and putting youself in their shoes. A lot of the characthers dont do that. With c!dream no one ever put themself in his shoes, they all see him and go "well I'd have do this in your place and so you should do the way I think it should happen" showing a lack of empathy and more a attempt to justified their view on this person and hear their opinions of him repeated back. And the ones who do are "good" and the ones who dont "bad". The prison arc it's the extreme point of this I think, while exile shows cdream's own lack of empathy for ctommy I think prison arc shows this in a more extreme level in how csam and cquackity talk about cdream.
That's why for me it's not a coincidence that ctommy, someone who wanted to undertand cdream before but more to support his vision of him, is forced to literally put himself in cdream shoes. That's the first time he could actually feel empathy for him. He undertood that cdream it's not him and the reasons for why he did what did might not have been good but that's not the thing, the thing it's that they were good for him and he thought that's the solution and ctommy undertanding that's how cdream saw the world and trying to talk him about it and make him see his methods werent good. In that moment, true empathy was showed and that's a thing that lacked on the characthers of that server bc everyone was so focused on themselfs and never tried to think in how others think and feel until it was too late.
Sorry for the long paragraph, I really like to talk about this thing with the lore
God yeah the empathy stuff is so so interesting, especially considering that cc!Dream stopped streaming from his character's POV, which kind of like...forcibly cuts c!Dream off from the audience. Which makes his character harder to empathize with, I'd argue, because you're no longer able to see the story from his perspective the way you can with other characters. Super fascinating move. IIRC cc!Dream said he did that because he was already a big creator and wanted to give smaller creators the spotlight (i could be wrong, feel free to fact-check this as you see fit) but like...regardless of what his intent was, he cuts c!Dream's POV out of the narrative more or less right as c!Dream starts pivoting to a more antagonistic (or i guess antagonist-adjacent, in some ppl's view) role in the story.
#i think about this so much#tbh i need to rewatch some streams and maybe type up a long ass annoying post about it#just to get it outta my system lmao#asks#oh also#I wanna clarify that when I say “antagonistic role” I don't mean to say /I/ view him as the story's antagonist#what I mean is that there was observably a shift when a whole bunch of viewers started seeing/characterizing him as an antagonist#whiiiiiich IIRC was right around the time cc!dream stopped streaming on the server#again. i need to double check this
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honestly monster next door is everything i've been begging for for big for YEARS like i don't think you'd understand the importance of this drama to me and probably to big too really like i'm just rambling right now because i can't put it into words probably but big deserves this and i hope this is just the beginning of his success & recognition because it's what he deserves after not being recognised for so long
#lex waffles#i think only really jane can understand how i'm feeling right now#because we've both been wanting this so badly for him#and god is it worth it#<- pun not intended#drama ramblings#like his potential in my mate match that went unrecognised in that shit ass company for so long#having to see him suffer through bad plots & being the third point of the triangle 😭#and god ryu was so important to me as a role like i love him dearly and he's the character that introduced me to big & got me into editing#again but god god is just something else i love him so much#(also side note this is why i say don't judge my favourite dramas on the ones i gif because sometimes i don't gif the dramas i adore)#(tho i do really wanna gif mnd i just haven't yet figured out /what/ to gif)
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Update 3: drove the asshole home bc I was so sure he was fr gonna die if he drove himself lmao. Poor dude looked so miserable, like bro was either holding back while we were working or he got worse the second he was able to relax, bc there wasn't a single moment of silence the whole drive back, dude was just curled up in the passenger’s seat shivering and being so fucking symptomatic. Like he was doing that thing where you basically cough all of the air out of your lungs then doing that rattly little inhale and then repeating, like it was Not Good 😬 0/10, hated being there to experience that in person, I was horrified, I want all of that to stay in audio recordings where it can't hurt me lmao. And he wasn’t sneezing a ton, but when he did, he stifled them until I told him to quit it bc the last thing he needs is a fucking ear infection on top of whatever the hell is already wrong with him, and even when he stopped, he was so congested that they sounded kinda stifled anyway 😭 like it's all objectively hot and I would've loved it had I just read it and not experienced it first hand, but unfortunately I'm a massive germaphobe and had to sit three feet away from this guy all damn day. So I bleached the hell out of my car and scrubbed myself down in the shower three times and I still don't feel like anything is clean enough, but I'm tired so it's gonna have to do for now lmao
#this is kinda snz kink ain't it?#whatever idc i feel so gross and I'm tired lmao#i might shower again before i go to bed idk lmao#OH ALSO important to note#he was stifling with his fingers so he was getting that shit all over his hands i was like IN MY CAR????? fucking horrific#again it's objectively hot but not when it's in front of me 😭#i hope y'all are enjoyjng this at least bc I'm not lmao i was trying not to pass away the whole day#like i feel so bad bc i consider my partner a friend so obviously i care about him and wanna help#but at the same time i literally can't train my disgust reaction out of me#I'm fucking weird when it comes to who I'm more okay with being around when they might be sick#like if he wasn't my usual partner or if he was just some random coworker i wouldn't have given him a ride#like i did it scared but i still did it lmao#anyway#i told him to text me tomorrow so i know he's not dead and to call if he needs anything#so we'll see what comes of that#and i will be passing away if he gets me sick so stay tuned for that#knock on wood i haven't been sick since i was 13 and I'm almost 22 now#and last time i was sick i had strep and bronchitis at the same time so that wasn't good#but other than that it's just been allergy flare ups#so other than the vaccine reactions i genuinely don't remember what it's like to actually be sick#so let's hope i just manage to avoid it 😭
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Thinking about the train hostage arc in the first Trimax book....and I have some thoughts on some of the takeaways I've seen (in other places).........
I'm ngl it kinda bothers me when people read into the train hostage arc in trimax as "Vash is 100% in the wrong, just like his brother", because that was very much not the intended reading...it wasn't just supposed to be a "look how flawed Vash's ideology is in practice" moment (that's the hospital yuri arc ❤), it was supposed to be a "look how hard it is in this world for Vash to abide to his moral code, and yet he still does it despite the negatives" moment. He wasn't exactly happy with the end solution and wasn't exactly fighting super hard to stop the father from shooting the accused killer—he almost let him do it, even—but he wanted to ultimately stop the cycle of bloodshed and was willing to make himself look like a jackass doing so. The arc is a narrative set-up for the penultimate conflict of the series; it's not so much about the merits of righteous violence vs. pacifism but rather setting the stage for a showdown between vengeance vs. absolution.
Now, would I do the same if I were in Vash's thigh-high boots? No of course not, fuck that one dude in particular lmao. But I don't exactly think Vash is weaker or unprincipled for choosing the option he did, either.
#trigun maximum#trigun spoilers#trigun but also discourse :( sorry guys :((#tbh an interesting thought exercise would be to change certain characteristics of the main conflict and see how the audience opinion change#but I don't think anyone would like that much because those are hard and not actually much fun when you dig into them 😬😬#also this was inspired by the fandom on The Other Site. Nobody specifically here lmao#also also I just want to say I wish more people would analyze this chapter from the perspective of Vash having recently regained his memory#he went from “dude on a crusade of revenge against his brother with barely restrained anger simmering under the surface”#to “dude who completely remembers his childhood trauma and is also aware of the fact that he's a living weapon with a deathcount”#he very clearly doesn't wanna be a weapon and the guilt over killing innocents really obviously weighs heavily on him#and the guilt only becomes more severe over time and feeds into his self-loathing and martyr complex the more clearly he remembers#it's way easy to recognize that he doesn't want people to suffer the way he does even if it makes them seem cowardly to onlookers#once again hitting that “how can I forgive myself if I can't forgive other people and by extension my brother” note#actually this post may be the equivalent of dousing myself in honey and setting myself by an anthill full of bullet ants......hm#hope it doesn't cause drama for people here.....I'll put it under a cut just in case..........#discourse#<- just in case
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It is far too early in the morning for me to be squealing and kicking my feet over my F/Os right now
#might run my mouth about Chick Hicks for a moment#the sad thing is that the voiceline compilations dont have ALL the voicelines and so its like EEKEEKKKK A NEWW ONEBE!!!!#but at the same time it's like...WAUGH IM NOT RECORDING AND I DONT KNOE IF I CAN TRIGGER THE CHARAFTER TO SAY IT AGAIN#would've been earlier in the morning as well if I didn't repeatedly go back to sleep#i love you Chick welcome back. glad to see you havent changed#don't knoe why I'm welcoming him back he never left#I really love that nearly every Cars game except the Cars 2 ones is Chick being irritating towards Lightning#and this one seemingly takes place right after Cars 2 considering Lightning is still in the race paint scheme for it#gosh yall im gonna run my mouth so badly#but it's also like..m I wanna run my mouth but i don't know if it will make any sense out of context and it is a whole story on it's own-#-to add context...waugh!!!!
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I always forget people want gg characters in solely for gameplay and not because they care for the character as. a character
#I saw some1 be like You don't want to vote Raven cause he'd be a repeat of Slayer! (gameplay wise)#And that is so funny to me. I do want Raven because I want to see more of him as a character#But also if he was busted again like Slayer is now it would be real funny.#I wanna see what they make his hobbies be. One of them has to be photography ruight...
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