#i used to tag everything n now im just like meh

[rawrmeansilyindinosawr]

REA$$UR@nc3 Rice .!!!!<3

GuandulASS pigeon Peepee peas<3 n reassurance rice …. r so yummy.!! w chorizoos n spams n chili oil:) Okokokkkkk so i hasnt written blogzz posts in a WHILEEZZ cuz ive been SAD CUZ I HAS NO MORE ADDERALLL N I BEEN takin lotzz of time 2 b semi domesticatedd .!! my tummy hurtz from k crampz n bein shemxii n im at a macdonaldzz rn drinkin a carmel fappeH. :-} i luv eating reasusrancess rices cuz it means my boyfriend luvs meh even tho brown rice is rly crunchie n he is cute in his daddy cardigan:-]] N CAMEL MILK MAKES U PREGENANET.!!!

we walkeDd 2 da wrong sapphire strwipp club n dese white ppl in front of us were like “is this whut it’s like to feel lik ur in Bushwick.??” Officee mag zine strippah releases wuz fun n kute tho i did leave after 3 min :-] i wuff kholing n trauma dumping in chikfila 4 approxx three hours is littytittttyz n crying ab how many abandonment issuezz u has:-] n linkin wiff fwendzz at starrbarr n farewell n then crying 2gether at market hotel so hard til security asks u if ur ok then ur old situationshipz old roomie whos rly hot tells u they lik ur red assthetic cuz ur like shy n like in luv with them kinda n alsoo u jus got a haircutt at tha same place tht they fucked it up the first time but it wuz kinda good just likk how Tht piercing place off myrtle wycoff fucked ur bridge twice but lik wuz kinda good n lit for ur hippy dippys rn :.?! Every1 deserves 2nd n 3rd chancezz to redo piercings On ur body n haircutz cuz piercings can b removed n hair grows back.!!! n Everything 😃🙃 is temporary lik permanenttattooz .!!! N berlin guy at markett who asked meh to go into baffroom wiff him to do his Berlin K MADE MEH CRY.!!!!!!!

I luvv going on the train N reminiscing ab old aptzz u Ated max N cheeze in N doing K in the park in broaddayy Lite in chinatown shaming our ex’s in deep addiction while we snort deeply n Hard in front of Children while All my cute clothes From the Xxtra virgin Popup shoppeeepee kinda fall off of meh N i almost Stole their chinese leggings then realized While after i paid n was pretending to listen to another artistss story ab their visual art piece then i had an anxiety attack.!!!!!!! beijing yogurt is LIT.!!!

i am still UNMEDICATED FOR MY ADHD N I DUNTTT KARE ANYMOREEEEEEEEEEEEEEE .!!!’ my indexxx finger has 3 holes on it from stabbing myself unintentionallt wiff tagging Gun n yessh im annoyed cuz the office i work at w three earth signs n A PUPPY is still acting lik everythin i say is WEIRD n fat shaming shelly duvAll n they told meh to turn my music lowerr cuz u cullds hear moi music thRu my dollskilzz Bedazzled kitty headphonezz . :-[ im sad ab my crush who i stood up at carmallows 2 yrs ago but mercury gatorades is best in the flavor CHERRY GLACIER.!!!!!!

yEth my eyebrows r growinn out rn N r awkward n Yethh my kuromi socks r sticking out of my WOODENjeffreyy campbells Rn n Yethh my nipple piercings still haves pus inside AND outside N yethh i still has aKUTE pain of my rite shoulder as a diagnosis on my Mychart in callen Lourde N Yethh istill am doing k in the bathroom B4 n After my 9amtherapyy appointmentzz dere n Yethh dressing more n more slutty unconsciously for each appointment n workday N Yethh i did tell my therapist i think Theyy r the type of queer adult thtt dresses like a comfortable baby AKA all queer adultss wear overallz n sweater vests n lik make it shemxy n Kute in their own way cuz thts Faggot Fashion.!!!!

IM PEEINGG AT DIS MCDONALDZZ N DERE IS HAIR ALL OVER THE SINK N ALL OVER THA FLOOR N ALL OVER THAA TOILETT N IM SCARED SOMEONEE RIPPED OUT ALL THEY HAIR FROM DEYY HEAD JUS TO MAKE A STATEMNTTT RN N IT MAKES MEHH RLY SAD WHEN MY BOYFRIEND ALMOST TRIPS BC THEN I AM IN A FRAGILE EMOTIONAL STATE BC I AM SAD BC HE ALMOST FELL BUT DIDNT N THEN IT MAKES ME SAD BC I THOUGHT AB HIM FALLING N NOW BAD IT COULD HAV BEEN BUT HE DIDNTTTTT.!!! also he hass alopicia only on his thighs :/]

i FINALLT CONQUEREDD MY FEAR OF WEED N AM SMOKIN A J WITH QUEEF ALLLLL OVA IT WHILE WATCHING DA SUNSETT N WALKIN 7 BLOCKS 2 FIND DA TAMALE WOMAN WITH MANGOes IN WILLIAMSBURG N NOT FINDING HER :-]]]]]] i bleached my hair 4 times in one dayy last wk cuz of IMPULSIVITY N then havin a mental brekdownz cuz i wuz called “STRABWRRY SHORTCAKE PHEONIX HALEY WILLIAMZZ POLLYPOCKET.” le FUKIN SIGEHH. ii keepss tinkin ab how i wanna get married at oliveGardein but not lik in the soy meat frozen chiggen nugget way.., n how i rly want my boyfriend to divorc his wife .! N how ii made cookie4 u butt ated it n how i offered last bitee 2 u n Den u ated it n now im SAD.!!! N i wanna beat up my sisters boyfriend “KALE”for eating my fried chikkin 1 yr ago.!

i luv gettin airdropped selfies of peoples vaginas with their fingers spreading it open on Tha train n gettin picked up by Latinx uber drivers whose names r Chang Chiu n kholing in the basement of Hawaaiinn restaurantsz n doin our makeups for 25 minzz dereess . KATCH ME in likeee three More music videozz cumming out soon N also in la la landds this thurs til mondayzz n plannin diss chiggens fashion show in June tht my boss says i need to “LOWERR MY EXPECTATIONS FOR…” :-] <3 <3 i kunt wait 2 c mybestie dere who just rolled their ankle n got their tires popped n has a frog obsession n a pet opposum named mochi :-] <3 <3

Xxx, have safe seggs, or NOT,,,,,, N never trust a bride who is a PODATRIST…!!!!,

renny Xcx <3 <3

Vroom vroom.!!!! :-D

[elnorasims]

lol i gave up real fast tryna keep my cc finds blog organised 

[wolfish-trickster]

Liar

part 5 (hopefully close to the last part to end our suffering)

Loki x female!reader

Word count: 1,2K

Warnings: angst, typos (except for the part where Loki and Thor are in Asgard, mistakes there are intentional), some humor in these tiring times

Tag list:@gaitwae @lucywrites02 @hard-to-be-the-bard @birdgirl90 @laramoonworld @belovedadam @mascaracoffee @serebrum @myworldgoesboomz @lokis-leah @nickkie1129 @getyoutmoon @kozkaboi

"-and then Ollie ran away from Max and chased Rex around this giant oak and me and Max tried to catch them, but they were like two rockets," you chuckled at the memory. Loki asked you how you knew Max and since you were never a fan of awkward silence you talked the whole way back to Tower.

You had a bad feeling ever since you left the park. So you tried to distance the rest of your previous conversation as much as possible by talking about anything and everything in fear of the conversation taking a bad turn. You talked mainly about Ollie and Rex's adventures, even though there weren't many. Besides it was good to think about something else than Loki and the drama you two had between eachother. You were tired of it and wanted it to end already.

Words can't express how glad you were when things started to look good between you two.

But you felt a bit ashamed after your little cry in the park, so you tried to watch either your shoes or your dog chasing around butterflies. Anything besides Loki’s face.

Finally you entered the elevator in the giant building and were on your way up. "So, uuuuh," you begun when you entered your bedroom, "what do you think of my new walking buddy?"

"He seems a bit rude, disturbing us like that," he crossed his arms.

"He's not always like that," you defended him even though you wished he left you alone when he saw you talking to someone. Could've saved you a lot of anxious feelings in your belly.

"Sure."

Silence. Long and awkward one. You hated it.

"Didn't you want to finish what we started in the park?" you asked carefully. He didn't look like he was in a good mood and you sure as hell didn't want to risk another screaming and tears.

"I already told you what I wanted. I'm sorry for saying those things and for making you think I will ever tell them to you and mean them," he said rather dryly.

"Why are you like this?" you asked.

"Like what?"

"All... I don't know, cold? All of a sudden," you thought out loud.

"I am not cold," he said stubornly.

"Yes, you are. Is it because I have friends outside of this place? Is that why you're tetchy?" now tiny anger started to bubbly up inside you at his possesivness. It would be cute, if things between you weren't so tense. You would even blush and think he maybe has a crush on you and is just jealous. But things between you ARE tense. And you view his possesivness in a not so positive light.

"I just wish you had better tastes in friends and found someone with proper manners, that's all," he looked away and crossed his arms over his chest again.

"If I had better tastes in friends I wouldn't be one with you," you muttered under your breath in anger, but instantly covered your mouth with your palm.

Loki's face was expressionless and hard like a stone. He sighed, closed his eyes and rubbed the bridge of his nose with his thumb and forefinger. "Look, I don't wish to argue any more. I apologized and we talked. That's all I wanted," he removed his hand and revealed how dark and empty his usually bright eyes became. "So if you have nothing more to say, I have a work to do," he straightened himself and walked out of your bedroom sooner than you could open your mouth and apologize.

*

When Thor was depressed he either drank or worked out. That's something he and Loki had in common. And when Thor saw how sad and miserable his brother looked when he told him (after begging for 30+ minutes) he intended to take the pain momentarily away.

And since Midgardian liquor did nothing to either god, he summoned Bifrost and dragged Loki to Asgard. Right now they were both slouched over a giant half empty barrel, each prince had their own, and were shoveling up the alcohol inside with their helmets. If Loki was sober and if he cared he would call himself out over how low he had fallen.

"Why iz the whole Universe against me and Y/N? Huh? Answer me brotha," he lightly kicked Thor to wake him up.

"You agenered- anegerde- ANGERED. THAT'S THE WORD! Yu angered 'im," Thor said with a heavy tongue and dipped his winged helmet into the barrel.

"It's juss... She fucks up som'imes, and I do tu. Bu'," he sniffed. "I lov 'er."

After hearing that Thor spat out the mead and started laughing. "How? All you do this days is a'gue!"

Loki shrugged. "Tru. Bu' I love still 'er. No, wait. I still luv her. I thogh-*hic* I thought ever'thin' will be good. But then that, that, that BASTARD 'n his dog said hi to us. Jus' as she was aboutto say she wants me as 'er frend again!" he waved his horned helmet around spilling wine all over the place.

"And he was ALL she was talkin' about."

"I know, you alredy said it."

"And she defended him. Sum mortal she knew for twoo days at most!"

"I know."

"And she told meh she wudn't be my frend if she 'ad good tastes," he sniffed.

"Ladies, man. One does not simply unerdstand 'em," he mimiced a movie character and took a sip from his silver helmet.

Loki stood up, well, he tried to but failed so he crawled on all four instead and got to Thor. He sat down beside him and put his head on his shoulder.

"I love ya, y' know? Lika a lot. You're the only bro I'm ever gonna get. Even tho you're dumb," Loki chuckled.

"Aaaw, luv you too Kiki. Bu' I'm not goin to go onna date with you, if thas what you want."

Loki made a disgusted face. "You're too ugly fo' me," he pat Thor's cheek.

Thor fell into a long laugh and Loki followed soon after. At least he forgot about his pain for a little while and relived his fun times with Thor.

When they both calmed down Loki started thinking of you again. He knew you didn't mean those words. He was now scared that you won't apologize and put distance between you two so you could feel safe from him, just like you said in the park. Is it what you said, or is his drunk memory playing tricks on him? Either way, he found it ironic how you were the one hurt by his words before, now it's quite the opposite.

He chuckled at that. "Look how turntables," he mumbled.

"Wha?" Thor asked.

"Nuthin'. Listen, I need advice... how to make up with univers so they can stop messin' mine and Y/N's ralationship? Whatever it is at the moment."

"Universe confusing. Women confusing. When making up with women you giv flowers. You shuld giv univers a flowers," Thor mused.

"THAT'S IT! Thor, you're genious when you drink," Loki sloppily kissed his brother on the forhead (something he didn't do since they were in diapers) and dragged both of them on their feet. They had a garden to destroy.

[realityphantoms-stalker]

Warm - Douma x Reader Oneshot

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"Okay, there's no denying it. I fucking love Douma." I thought while looking at the blonde sitting in front of me.

It's been six months since I first laid my eyes on this gorgeous man, and my feelings have only grown stronger the more we interact. "But it's frustrating because literally, everyone knows he's a player." I frowned.

"Meh, a girl can dream right?" I snapped out of my thoughts as the teacher called on me. "Miss L/N, would you mind sharing as to why you're so distracted?" I rolled my eyes and stayed quiet. "Hm. Now then, answer this question." The female teacher pointed at an equation on the board.

"The answer is x8," I said nonchalantly. "Correct." Then the class went on as usual. Soon enough the bell rang, signaling it was time to go home. "Miss L/N please stay after class I need to speak with you." I groaned internally at her words. I just wanted to go home.

"Okay." I answered, simply. I swung my bag over my shoulder and walked up to the teacher's desk. Everyone had already left for the busses, so it was just me and the teacher. Or so I thought.

All of a sudden I felt someone swing their arm around my shoulders. I jumped in surprise from the sudden contact. "Heyyy Y/N-chan! You're staying after school too? Is it detention?" I heard a familiar voice say. I whipped my head around and came face to face with Douma.

"O-Oh no the teacher asked me to stay," I replied, stepping back a bit to create a distance between me and the handsome man. "Oh really? Same here!" He clasped his hands together.

The teacher cleared her throat and we both turned our attention to her. "I see you've met..." she started, "now then, the reason I asked both of you to stay after school is that Y/N, I want you to tutor Douma." My eyes widened in surprise. Douma made a pouty face in response. "Ehhh?? I thought I was making good grades!" He whined.

"Douma, you have a 40 in this class." The teacher facepalmed. I decided to stay quiet and see how this played out, because, well, I'm not against spending time with Douma anyway. "Oh, well then I guess me and you are study buddies now!" He faced me and grinned. "My house at six." He winked. With that, he ran out the door. "W-Wait! The teacher isn't done—" I sighed.

I faced the teacher and gave her an apologetic look. "Sorry.. is there anything else you need?" I bowed. "No that is all... but do you even know where Douma's house is?" She asked. I deadpanned.

"N-No.." She snickered and wrote something down on a yellow sticky note. "Here's his number, call him and ask him yourself." She handed me a sticky note. "And before you ask, I have his number because it's written on his student ID form." I nodded in response. "Thank you!" After waving goodbye, I made my way to my car and left.

When I arrived home I threw my bag on the couch, and quickly pulled my phone out of my skirt pocket. Taking out the sticky note from earlier, I put in Douma's number and sent him a message.

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Y/N

...dude you didn't even

tell me where you live

(this is Y/N btw)

Douma

Ohhh my bad! Just

come to house XXXX,

Kimetsu street 💕

Y/N

ok thx  😻✨

Douma

Wait how did you get

my number

Y/N

teacher gave it to me

im not a creep I

swear 🙄✋

Douma

Lmao okay see you at six

Y/N

cya

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I put my phone down and checked the time. It was 4:30 pm so I had time before I needed to drive over there. I decided to go pick out clothes since, well, I want to look nice in front of my long-time crush. Although this is supposed to be casual, I wanted him to look at me and think I'm beautiful. It can't be helped, this man is my addiction.

I opened up my closet and picked out a f/c blouse and a flowy red skirt. I removed my school uniform but kept my black, thigh-high tights on. After replacing my school clothes with the outfit I picked out, I walked over to my vanity.

"Hmm... what hairstyle should I do?" I thought to myself. I decided on doing a high ponytail and leaving my front strands out to frame my face. When I finished doing my hair I took a good look at myself in the mirror. My blouse was neatly tucked into my high-waisted skirt and my tights were hidden securely underneath my skirt.

My outfit was casual but nice at the same time. I smiled, happy with how I looked. "Maybe I should wear my earrings." I debated whether or not I want to put them on. "Eh, why not." I grabbed my moon-shaped earrings and put them on my ears.

"There we go." I said out loud. I checked the time to see an hour has passed. "Ehhh?? I took that long?" I thought confusedly. I grabbed my bag, since it has notes I could use to help Douma, and ran out the door.

I hopped in my car and put Douma's address into its GPS system. On the way there I found myself freaking out. I mean, I'm literally going to my crush's fucking house right now! How could I not freak out? "I'm so excited yet at the same time so nervous."

"I really hope I don't end up annoying him..." I was worried he'd not like me and I'd ruin my chances with him. "Well I shouldn't dwell on it, it's not like this is a date or anything, it's just tutoring."

The GPS said I was here so I pulled over to the side and parked. I found myself in front of a large apartment building and sweatdropped. "I hope he doesn't have roommates... seeing as he lives in an apartment."

I texted him that I was here, then took my bag and got out of the car, locking it to make sure it doesn't get stolen. "Wait... what room number is he?"  I deadpanned. "This man really doesn't know how to tell someone the information they need."

I was about to text him again to ask what his room number was when someone called my name. I turned around and saw Douma running up to me. "Y/N! Y/N! you're finally here let's go!" He took my hand and dragged me inside.

I blushed from the contact. "U-um..." I stuttered out. "So, before we go up I do have a roommate, his name is Akaza and he's a bully." He rolled his eyes. "But don't worry he's out with his girlfriend, Koyuki, so we'll have the apartment to ourselves." He stopped in front of a door and quickly pushed me inside.

"Here we are! Make yourself at home." He walked over to a couch and plopped down on it. I sat down next to him a good distance away and opened up my bag, getting some notes and papers for math.

"So... what are you struggling with in math?" I asked. He shrugged in return. "I honestly don't know, I thought I was doing good in everything but I guess not." I sweatdropped at his answer. "Ah.. okay well if you don't know what you need help on then I really don't know how to tutor you..." I scratched the back of my head.

"Then let's do something else instead of studying!" Douma suggested. "Eh? Like what?" I tilted my head as I asked. Douma's cheeks were tinted with pink after my reaction. "What about... hide and seek tag!" He clasped his hands together.

I deadpanned. "Isn't that a game for kids..?" He chuckled at me. "You're never too old for anything! I'll be it first okay? Go hide nothing's off-limits." I nodded and ran out of the living room as he counted. I opened the first door down the hall and found myself in what seemed to be the master bedroom.

"Ahh... where to hide..." I looked around and saw the nightstand had a cabinet that could fit my petite form. I crawled in the cabinet just as I heard Douma yell. "Time's up! I'm coming Y/N!" After he said that it was eerily quiet. "It's like a fucking horror movie." I thought.

Suddenly I heard the door creek open and I held my breath. "Y/N~ are you in here?" He said, dragging out your name for effect. My heart was pounding in suspense as I heard his footsteps come closer. "Under the bed?" He stopped in front of the nightstand and presumably check under the bed. "Guess not... what about the cabinet in the nightstand?"

As soon as I heard that I bolted out of the cabinet and dodged his attempt to tag me. "I knew it! You're done for now." He laughed as he chased after me. "Nooo! Get away." I laughed along. I looked behind me as I ran down the hall and saw him getting closer.

"Hey! Y/N watch out!" I heard him yell as his eyes widened. I looked back in front of me and ran headfirst into a door. "Oww..." I fell back on my butt and felt tears well up in my eyes. "That hurts like a bitch." I clutched my forehead in pain.

"Y/N! Are you alright?" Douma crouched down next to me and looked at me in worry. "Yeah, I'm fine, it just hurts and I feel dizzy." I responded. "Here I'll go get you some ice." He got up and hurried to the kitchen. I heard the fridge door open and Douma muttering to himself.

He came back with an ice pack in hand and held it to my forehead. I blushed from the close proximity and quietly thanked him. He smiled at my shyness and helped me up. "Do you want to stay the night? It's late and I let you get hurt so it's the least I can do." He asked. "U-Um if you don't mind..." I didn't really want to drive home at night, it gave me chills just thinking about it.

"It's fine! You can take the guest bedroom." He gently pulled me along to a room and opened the door. "Here it is, if you need anything you can find me in the living room most likely." He handed me the ice pack and smiled. "Thank you for your help." I bowed. "Ah, it's nothing." He waved it off.

I felt my dizziness get stronger and I held my head and squinted. "You okay?" He asked, tilting his head. "Y-Yeah I'm just really dizzy." I answered. My knees buckled and I lost my footing. Thankfully Douma was there to catch me. "Oh my, I really hope you don't have a concussion or something." I was suddenly too tired to respond.

He picked me up bridal style and sat me down on the bed. "Stay here I'll try to find some medicine for your dizziness." He left the room. Although my mind felt like it was on anesthesia, I was still able to freak out about the fact Douma carried me like that. Through my drowsy state, I silently fangirled. "I'm back." He handed me a glass of water and a small pill. "It'll help you, take it." He smiled at me.

"Thank you." I whispered, before taking the pill. Building up my courage, I grabbed the hem of his shirt. He looked at me, clearly confused. "U-Um.. could you stay with me until I fall asleep." I asked shyly, avoiding his gaze.

He smiled warmly and nodded. "Sure thing Y/N-chan." He sat down next to me and I plopped my head into his lap. He chuckled at my behavior. I closed my eyes as I felt him petting my head affectionately. He pulled a blanket over my petite form and continued petting my hair. "Goodnight Y/N," and under his breath, I swear I heard the words, "I love you."

Sleep captured me before I could question whether or not I heard correctly. But nevertheless, it made me feel warm.

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[descendantofthesparrow]

Commission - Harry Hook x Reader- do I love her? Do I love her not? - part 4

@musicarose​

=

“Today we will begin writing a research paper” the class groaned, harry included, making (y/n) snigger at his side, patting his back.

“I know, I know, but! The topic is, magical artifacts!”

Harry perked up, looking over at uma, who was smirking dangerously at him. The wand she mouthed, Harry nodded, turning to (y/n)

“lass ye know a bit about FG’s wand right?” you nodded, scribbling down ideas for your paper. “can ye help me do my paper on it?” you smiled, nodding once more.

“sure” you whispered, pointing toward the front of the room “now pay attention, this shits important” Harry sighed and turned back to face the teacher, a sinking feeling in his gut.

=

“so meh paper should probably also include the security around the wand righ’?” harry muttered, tapping keys on your laptop.

You shrugged “you'll probably get extra credit if you do that, luckily I know quite a bit on its barriers and gates”

Harry hummed in agreement, with your help, starting to plan his outline and beginning his research.

“Alright, we'll start with the origin of the wand, and well end with its present state and presence in Auradon, sound good?”

“aye”

=

“This is perfect Harry” Uma muttered, reading over his paper, grinning at the security section “with this information, stealing the wand will be a piece of cake”

“we’re having cake?!” Gil perked up from his bed, grinning excitedly, Uma sighed, waving her hand in a downward motion, making Gil pout and lay back down, playing his on his Nintendo switch Carlos gave him.

“but its not detailed enough for us to safely get past everything, we need EVERYTHING Harry” harry sighed and nodded, taking the papers from uma and setting them down on his desk, opening his chat with (y/n) and beginning to chat.

*hey lass, can we go do something?*

(y/n) almost immediately responded

*of course! Wanna go to the enchanted lake?*

*please*

*are you okay?*

*just stressed*

*:c okay, ill bring some snacks and rootbeer*

*thx*

Harry stood, ignoring umas questioning as he grabbed his jacket and walked out of the dorm, he didn’t want her to know what he was thinking.

He doesn’t want to lie to (y/n) anymore.

He had to tell her.

=

He sighed, falling asleep as (y/n) grazed her fingers through his hair, almost making him forget what he originally came here for.

But, he knew when he told her, she would hate him, and he wasn’t ready for that yet, so he would lay here for a little while longer, just imagining if there wasn’t a plan to grab the wand in the first place.

He wouldn’t be feeling the intense anxiety at the thought of telling her.

So he simply listened to the soft tune she was singing to him

~wise men say, only fools rush in, but I can't help, falling in love with you~

He sat up suddenly, he couldn't take it anymore, he had to tell her “(y/n) please don’ hate me after I tell yeh this but-“

You tilted your head, worry brimming in your eyes, reaching out to cup Harry's cheek, whos hand came up to lace his fingers with yours.

“harry? Are you alright, and what's this about hating you?”

“yeh have to trust me when I saw this, but I genuinely fell fer yeh my bonny lass” you started to feel sick, shuffling forward on your knees to completely face harry

“Harry you're scaring me”

“im sorry but-shit” his phone went off with texts, from uma. “im sorry but umas blowing up my-christ” now she was calling him.

You smiled, pushing his phone towards him, “go ahead you can tell me later” Harry clenched his jaw, staring down at his phone.

*we do it tonight, get over here now so I can fill you in*

*mal found out, we need to do it tonight*

*get ur ass over here now*

*I don’t care if ur hanging out with (y/n) get over here now*

*if she cooperates, shell stay out of it*

Harry leaned forward quickly, kissing you on your cheek.

“just know that I really love yeh (y/n)” the worried look returned to your eyes, “alright?” you muttered, watching harry jog away, he was scared of something, but you didn’t know what.

=

You woke up that night to sirens, you jolted up, looking over to uma to make sure she was safe but…

She wasn’t in bed, and all of her stuff was gone.

You leaped out of bed, quickly shoving your shoes on and rushing outside to where.

….

…Harry was being shoved in a police car, he was hardly resisting. he looked up, shock and guilt filling his eyes.

“(y/n)!” he yelled, finally starting to move around, trying to get out of the officer's grip “im sorry! I tried to tell you! I-i- I tried to-“

Mal moved in front of you, her eyes glowing green “I warned you (y/n), he was using you to get the wand” your heart shattered, tears brimming and streaming down your face.

Harry's heart hurt so much at your face he yelled, “i-I was, but-but I really fell fer yeh (y/n)! I real- guh!” Jay punched him in the gut, harry doubled over, choking on his spit.

“shut it you piece of shit” jay snarled, grabbing Harry's shoulder and shoving him in the car. Harry yelled out your name, one last call of desperation.

You broke, screaming out “I TRUSTED YOU! I LOVED YOU”

Harry fell limp, you could see his shoulders shake with sobs. “im sorry im sorry im sorry im sorry im sorry im sorry” he mouthed over and over again.

Mal turned to you, placing her hand on your shoulder “im sorry (y/n) I should have tried harder to warn you”

“it's not your fault Mal” you whispered, watching the car with Harry drive away towards the isle “im just an idiot who fell for a villain”

You turned, running back to your dorm, slamming the door shut behind you. You collapsed against the door, sobbing your heart out.

How could you be so stupid! So naive! Falling for a villain like him.

You froze, feeling the weight of the necklace on your collarbone, you lifted it up. You glared at the opal, pulling your fist in, preparing to break it off your neck.

You stopped, turning over the gem, gasping softly as you stared at the engraving.

*to Harry -mama<3*

He…he really gave you his mother's necklace….tch, probably just to fool you into really thinking he loved you.

But still, you carefully took the necklace off, standing and storing it in a little velvet box.

You put the box in an empty drawer, stuffing all of Harry's jackets and shirts you had collected in the three months you and harry had been together.

“goodbye Harry Hook” you muttered, shutting the drawer.

 --end of part 4--

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I believe it is a bit difficult to believe, but after seeming so many posts about "you ship JonRya/Jonsa, you probably wanna sleep with your brother"

This is uwwww. Wrong.

I've seen tons of shows and movies, and actually, I believe of all the ships I have ever had(and it is really a lot), just two were actually incestuos.

JonRya(ASoIaF)

YuMe(Vampire Knight Manga/Anime)

All the other fandoms, I don't ship incest because everything I see is pure platonic love? No chemistry at all? Includding Supernatural with the called "Wincest". I don't like it, and by all the logic of why I love JonRya /one dying for one another, the longing, co-dependence, a bit of non-healthy obcession/, I should also ship Dean and Sam. But no. They are brothers for me, and for me, they will always be brothers. Destiel have my whole heart and soul. Even being in JonRya fam for so long, I was truly surprised that there were people that shipped Wincest. Kind of: Nop. Nop. That is gross and not for. Creepy. (IK it is a bit hypocrite, but I truly don't care. It is the way I feel.)

Another incest(Pevensie x Pevensie) I was traumatized after seeing this tag on ao3, and accidently reading on ff.net believing was just a sister-brother bond fluff. Really traumatized.

(Fanfiction.net should really improve their filters.)

Because the pevensies are siblings. S I B L I N G S, and no matter what those people say I cannot see them other way.

Anakin x Ahsoka? I actually got nauseus after seeing this, because even not being related, they loved one another as siblings too, and they never showned anything else. Anakin was like Ahsoka's big brother. Also guys, AniDala is life and tragedy, and I really have drawned with this ship. (All the tears, omg.)

Homecest? 🤢🤮

Obikin? For me, both Anakin and Obi Wan would be ashamed seeing those, because Obi Wan was basically a father figure in Anakin's life, and Obi Wan called him brother.

Leia x Luke? Meh. Nop. Never. Ever. In. My. Life. Luke x Mara and Han x Leia is everything.

There are contless anothers, but those ones I'm focusing now are because they are the ones I'm more into the fandom recently.

I truly believe all the incest ships, actually needs a background to start being shipped wildly or actually, that we start shipping at all.

In ASoIaF for exemple, there are countless Incest relationships, and not just in the Targaryen family(there are in the Lannisters, not being only Cercei x Jaime, it is in the Stark family as well, but not between siblings, probaly with the Arryns, Tyrrels, Martells and Tullys too, but Im not sure) and it is an open thesis through out the whole saga, what makes the readers more open to the idea of something happening between relatives than in any other fandom.

Like Jonarya, Jonerys and the worst: Jonsa.

I believe that with being a part of the fictional world where the characters live and it is all the time being showned on paper, we just put aside the familiar bond, and start just looking if a future relationship would be "healthy" or "toxic" with the same standards we analyse other couples that are not related and the characters toughts about anothers can become much more than just familiar.

Exemple: "Beneath all this furr she could be as skinny as Arya"

It is a question of enviroment of the world building, how our brains deal with the information and with wich couple we are more syntonized, that atracts us more. Like: From Childhood friends to lovers being truly sweets, protectives towards one another, or the enemies to lovers of great leaders joining to one another for a greater cause becoming an incredible power couple, or just... Well... The hot guy with the hot girl kind of thing.

This why I feel that is really dumb to actually criticize pointing problems for someone else's real life just because they enjoy something in fiction.

Do you judge someone who actually stan the Joker, for exemple? Batman? Dark stories? Someone that enjoys horror movies? Shooting games? Do you believe those people will actually take a blade and snipers and become serial killers, vigilants, just because they enjoy fiction?

There are studies of psychology about it, and is really something interesting to study.

Im just talking and talking and I believe this is getting confusing, but is just a theory.

Toughts?

Anyway, bye.

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50 questions tag

tagged by @chngbok

1. what takes too much of your time?

school

2. what’s makes your day better?

music

3. what is the best thing that happened to you today?

that ask, where someone said they were also ace and I was the first ace stay they'd met

4. what fictional place would you like to go to?

in a ghibli film

5. are you good at giving advice?

yes, but i'm bad at following it

6. do you have any mental illness?

I mean yeah, like I'm not gonna say, but u could probably easily figure it out

7. have you ever experienced sleep paralysis?

no, tho I think I used to have night terrors where I would scream out and scare my cousins, those were fun times

8. what musician inspired you the most?

if we wanna get all deep n personal n mushy gushy n stuff, then my cello teacher and a rlly close friend of mine, but like not as deep n mushy gushy n stuff, suga, day6, and skz

9. have you fallen in love?

nope!

10. what’s your dream date?

hmm, ig like a walk and just wandering around

11. what do others notice about you?

uh, I've had someone say that when I play cello I act differently, does that count?

12. what is an annoying habit that you have?

talking way too much when I'm w my friends, tbh I need to just shut up when I'm w them and only speak to when spoken to

13. do you still talk to your first love

never had one so, nes

14. how many ex’s do you have?

none

15. how many songs are in your playlist?

uh main one about 2390

16. what instruments do you play?

only cello and piano, tho im trying to learn acoustic and bass guitar, and I do chorus (if u count that)

17. who do you have the most pictures of?

oof I have a fuck ton of skz and suga

18. where would you like to go before you die?

out of the US

19. what’s your zodiac?

aries

20. do you relate to it?

meh, sometimes, usually when I wanna fight someone

21. what is happiness to you?

uhhh,,,, ermmm, I wanna think of some cheesy ass shit, but nothings coming to mind :/

22. are you going through anything right now?

I sure am buddy boy! :)

23. what’s the worst decision you’ve ever made?

uh, deciding to bottle up my emotions in like 8th grade (or maybe 7th), rlly fucked me over tbh

24. what’s your favorite store?

this music store called opus

25. what's your opinion on abortion?

pro-choice

26. do you keep a bucket list?

nope

27. do you have a favorite album?

it's not stray kids, but mitski? be the cowboy? absolutely owns my entire heart

28. what do you want for your birthday?

it'd be nice to see skz live and thank them, yknow?

29. what are most people’s first impression of you?

that I'm younger than I am and I'm quiet, tho idk if that's right bc thats wha I assume is their first impression of me

30. what age to you seem according to most people?

ayy!! I've already sorta hinted at the answer in this in the last one, like I'd say 15-16, tho I've had someone think I was like 14/15

31. where do you keep your phone while sleeping?

next to me, I listen to music through headphones while sleeping

32. what word do you say the most?

not to sound like a stereotypical teenager, but "like"

33. what’s the oldest age would you date?

so, I'm 18 rn, probably like 19 maybe 20

34. what’s the youngest age would you date?

like 17

35. what job/career do most people say sould suit you?

tbh, ppl don't rlly tell me things like this, but when I tell ppl im doing music they're like "yeah, makes complete sense, good choice", so ig music?

36. what’s your favorite music genre?

pfltlbenr, beats me idunno

37. if you would live in any country in the world, where would it be?

I have never actually been outside of the US, but maybe like uh,, idk some place in Europe? where I could go to different countries easily as I pleased?

38. what’s your current favorite song?

nfwmb - hozier

39. how long have you have this blog for?

for a while, but I just started posting on this one in like January and I had another (same blog I just moved, so it'd be my main) that I started in like july/August of last year (so 2018)

40. what are you excited for?

this year to be done so I can finally be some w high school

41. are you a better talker or a listener?

uh, tbh I keep being told I talk too much, so ig a better talker (even tho im shit at talking)

42. what is the last productive thing you did?

hmm, probably get up and use the bathroom this morning

43. what do you want for Christmas?

uh,, tbh idk

44. what classes do you get the best grades in?

music, hands down

45. on a scale of 1-10 how are you feeling right now?

like a solid 4

46. what can you see yourself doing in 10 years?

music teacher? maybe?

47. when did you first get your heartbreak?

tbh, never, I mean i pair a grandparent I was sorta close to, but like that was more of a long term thing, so ig if that counts as heartbreak, then that

48. at what age do you want to get married?

lol. never

49. what career did you want to have as a child?

anything and everything, like for a while I wanted to be a firefighter

50. what do you crave right now?

validation

tagging: @honeyboyfelix @jal-hago-isseo @hwangwhatjin

[softstraykidsimagines]

Boyfriend!Felix Stray Kids

OH BOY

Felix.

The meme himself

The creator of Changpil

I know right here and now this is going to end me

Let’s get started!

His crush on you is so bloody obvious

He’s not the subtle type

That’s not to say he isn’t hella shy with you tho

No no

He’s gonna tease you to no end istg

But he’ll always end up reassuring you that he doesn’t mean it at all and how special you truly are

Just RaNDoMly likes to crush you in a hug

Quoting the meme “that’s my best friend that’s my best friend!!””

Ye he’s very energetic with you

He’s never

NEVER

Going to stop talking around you

Unless he gets flustered with you

And then he’ll sit verrrrry still

Hands on his lap

With his lips pressed together

And owl eyes

0_0

You don’t really get why he does it

It’s cute tho

What you don’t realize is that he’s fighting with every fiber of his being to not scream and dance around because

Holy shit

He’s head over heels for you

He’s gonna try to confess romantically

Pfft like that’s gonna work out

Gonna try to take you to your favorite takeout restaurant and buy your favorite food

And he’s gonna try to stay calm

He doesn’t stay calm

He’ll suddenly blurt everything in one go:

“Soireallylikeyouandivelikedyouforasuperlongtimesoiwashopingwecouldhangoutasmorethanjustfriendssometime???!!!!!”

Basically shouted

And you’re sitting in front of him SH00K AF because

1) he confessed so suddenly

2) he did just basically yell in your face

Needless to say you’re a little lost

And poor Felix

He just looks at you horrified, apologizes for shouting and kinda looks in every direction as if waiting for someone to come rescue him

But he doesn’t get up

And finally lowers his head

“Sorry I was an idiot there…. I panicked…? I don’t know how to think staight with you”

And you’re about to get teary-eyed because BOI THAT WAS SO SINCERE

“I really like you too, Felix” you say beaming

He’s gonna look at you with the happiest smile ever omg

The same expression he had when JYP said they were debuting as 9 that expression gives me life tbh

So there we go! You guys go on a first date and it’s a sealed deal from there!

Dates with Felix

How to put it?

Chaotic? Ye that’s the word

Improvised, chaotic, fun, amazing dates

You’re ready to collapse at the end of it lol

Especially loves to go to archades or a laser tag I LOVE LASER TAG AND I WANT TO PLAY LASER TAG WITH FELIX DAMMIT *ahem* excuse me

Can you imagine running around in a dark room playing against another huge team

Which Felix is in

You don’t really know-how you both ended up on different teams smh

And you round a corner to see him facing you with the slyest of smiles

“Hey y/n! Look, I’ve got a gun!!” And proceeds to shoot you

Earning a yell of anger from you as he runs away laughing his ass off

Isn’t shy about skinship

Holds your hand without hesitation

But if you peck him on the cheek without warning

He’s gonna have a red face

And he’ll slowly melt into a puddle of goo in your hands

Ye he’s soft

Your first kiss is from a dare I bet

“You need to beat me at this game or I get a kiss”

“But you’re really good at this game and I suck!!”

“Exactly! Now let’s play”

He wins but you refuse to kiss him

“I never agreed to your terms, mister”

He pouts like a puppy but you don’t back down

“Fine then” he sulks “I’ll play it your way” and he snatches your food

Crisps, gummy sweets or a churro, he’s gonna take it and run off with it

“HOW. DARE. YOU STEAL MY FOOD! GET BACK HERE” you run after him, and you both get looks from passing people they judgin you hard

You finally catch up to him, huffing and puffing “give it back, dork”

He jumps around refusing to give your food back

You’ve lost all patience by now

You’re practically steaming when you finally growl “give it back you son of a b—“

He kissed you right on the lips, interrupting you

When you part he’s gonna let out a little scream

“I’m sorry I surprised you! That wasn’t at all planned! Can we rewind and start over??”

And then he’ll run away again, panicking.

With your food.

“FELIX ITS FINE JUST GIVE ME BACK MY DAMN SNACK”

Hehe you better wear ear defenders when you meet the rest of SK

They’re gonna scream 10x louder than ever when they see you

Congratulating Felix, warning you not to tell him where you hide your food etc

You know, Stray Kids stuff :)

“Y/n, can you teach us how you keep him under control?” -Hyunjin

“That would be useful but no one can control that hurricane of a kid” -Chan

“Feel free to hit him if he gets too annoying” -Jisung, as felix tries to wrestle him into the ground

“I hope you’re the right one for him, y/n” says Changbin. “He’s a good person, so don’t hurt him; or you’ll have to deal with me” it highkey sounds like a threat, hello Changlix

You two are the couple that don’t know wtf they’re doing half the time

You’re just having the time of your lives being together

Both of you will be lost if the other gets sick

“Is it a cold? Flu? What can I do to help?? And I might need help in helping you...” -either one of you

After many failed attempts at trying to make food or find the right medicine, you’ll just fall asleep on each other, completely exhausted 

Felix can get insecure about his elimination in the 9th cries in 4 different languages 

And sometimes will work himself to the bone 

If you try to stop him he’ll get really defensive 

He’ll push you away 

“You don’t understand! You can’t understand! How can you?! I need to get this perfect or... or.....” 

He realizes what he said and that it must have hurt you 

Even if you keep a plain face and a steady voice, he’ll know that it hurts you 

He’ll just break down in tears 

“I’m sorry *sniff* I can’t even talk to you properly.... I want to get this right, I want to prove that I deserve to be in Stray Kids....” 

You’re crying as hard as he is

Because his pain is yours as well 

You hug him tightly, listing all the amazing things he can do 

And all the things you love about him 

And you’ll repeat over and over how much he does deserve to be in Stray Kids

And that will calm him down 

NO MORE ANGST IM CRYING DONT LOOK AT ME 

He loves teaching you dances 

Not just dances that SK have done, but dances he’s done before moving to Korea 

Will actually interrupt you if you try to tell him that you can’t dance 

“You can. Because I’m teaching you. And i say you can dance. So you can dance.” 

Veeeerrry stubborn  

Tried to teach you to beat box like him 

It doesn’t work 

Sometimes asks for help when he’s learning something new in Korean 

Even if you suck at speaking it he’ll enjoy trying to learn with you 

Isn’t the texting type 

He’ll call/FaceTime you when he knows you’re free and when he wants to update you in the day 

Is the type to yell your name as soon as you pick up 

And you reciprocate by yelling his name 

If you’re in a place where you won’t draw too much attention to yourself 

You both send your fav memes 

Or quote them lmao 

He loves quoting hella old things the other members have said and melts when you start saying them too 

It drives SK up the wall RIP 

You two are in charge of cooking 2-3 nights a week for the boys 

Neither of you know why Chan was so ruddy insistant on it 

But meh you just roll with it 

If you have to cut onions, you’re both gonna start singing Seventeen’s ‘Don’t Wanna Cry’ 

The cooking days can be either a complete success 

Or a total disaster 

There is no in between 

At all. 

But most of the time you guys make a decent meal to feed 8 other hungry children artists so everyone’s happy 

This boy is nervous as fuck to meet your family  

At first he tries to back out of it 

“Ah ye, I think I’ll be sick on that day?” 

“What?” 

“I MEAN I MIGHT HAVE AN APPOINTMENT” 

He sucks at lying 

But he actually gets his shit together when you meet up 

Good clothes, perfect hair I mean he has perfect hair anyway sooo 

And he’s super smiley 

He’s obviously tense 

To you anyway 

But your fam don’t seem to pick up on his nervousness 

And the day goes by smoothly, and Felix finally relaxes 

He’s gonna flip his shit when you ask to come with him next time he goes to Australia 

He’s gonna start planning it immediately 

If his family don’t beat him to it and visit in Korea that is....

Then he stops functioning 

Amazing s/o + family = happiest boy on the planet 

And you’re relatively chilled about meeting him parents 

And they are SO SWEET 

You get along so freaking well with his sisters and he lowkey becomes jealous 

It’s just the most amazing thing for both of you ever 

In the evenings after practice Felix loves to just drift off while you two talk 

From what you did in the day to a random anecdote from a decade ago 

He enjoys the peace of it until he falls asleep 

Will collapse with happiness if you wear his hoodies 

“ITS LOOKS SO GOOD ON YOU” 

“Felix are you seriously crying right now?”

“I’m just so stupidly lucky” 

Definitely not gonna say ‘I love you’ on purpose 

100% an accident 

He’s gonna say it when he’s half asleep, probs won’t even realize that he’s said it until you react 

“Man, I must dead-ass be the luckiest person on Earth to have someone as amazing as you” he rambles. “I love you so much and I just want to tell the world that I do....” 

Leaving you SH00K to the core 

“YOU WOT MATE?” 

If you say it first he’s gonna cry 

Don’t @ me I know he’s gonna cry 

He's probs stolen your food again

And he’s lowkey being a twat 

“If you had to choose your fav food or me, what would you choose?” 

“Seriously? The food, duh” 

“DUDE WHAT? Alright then! I’ll just leave” you drag him back by his arm 

“Noooooo don’t leave I don’t want you to gooooo” 

“Why not?” 

“BECAUSE I LOVE YOU DAMMIT, WHY ELSE YOU IDIOT” 

He’d do that thing again 

0_0 

“Oh my god, Felix I’m sorry it just slipped out” 

“...”

“Felix?”

“I LOVE YOU TOO” he screams 

Once again leaving you SH00K 

And he’ll crush you in the biggest hug ever 

IM SO SOFT HALP MEH 

When SK are away 

Ngl, I would pray for them 

Felix is a whiney baby without you 

Can even be in a grumpy mood 

FaceTimes you in the evenings 

His or your evenings, depending on the time zone

And you two will talk quietly until one of you falls asleep

It’s insanely adorable 

Will actually start dancing in the airport before seeing you because he’s so bloody excited 

And the rest of the boys disown him 

“Who’s that, dancing? He looks like a pigeon” -Woojin

“Dunno, never seen him before in my life” -Minho

Earning a protest from Felix

Your ears will fall off when he finally sees you 

“OHMYGODY/NYOU’REHEREI’VEMISSEDYOUSOMUCHI’MSOGLADTOSEEYOUAGAIN” 

“FELIX SHUT UP YOU’RE RAMBLING AGAIN”

“WHY ARE WE STILL YELLING?”

Changbin butts in “I DON’T KNOW SO SHUT THE FUCK UP”

He’ll go public about your relationship anytime after a year 

In the least flattering way for you 

He’s definitely the guy who pretends to take a photo and ends up taking a video smh 

You’re both smiling at the camera and he’s not taking it 

“Hurry up, man, my cheekbones are getting sore” 

No response from him 

You immediately catch on what he was doing 

“Omg I can’t believe you!!!” 

As he laughs like an idiot 

Will still make sure you’re ok with him posting it tho 

And when he does 

TheInternetHasShutDown.jpg 

You guys will break the internet

There’s not a single person of consequence who doesn’t love you two 

It’s absolutely amazing 

A/N: PHEW! This adorable nugget coming to wreck all your bias lists lmao

Hope enjoy reading! Later :D

[closetspngirl]

Love Heals the Soul (Part 17) - Home

Summary: Jensen finally returns home from Europe

Masterlist

Pairing: Jensen x reader

Word Count: 1531

Warnings: sad reader, angst on her part if you squint, I don’t think anything else

A/N: I have been wanting to use this gif since I started, but it’s so big! haha. Yes, that’s the only reason why I haven’t yet, because it’s bigger than the others and I’m OCD about stuff like that. But I thought this was a good chapter for it. Feedback is always welcome! Italicized are lyrics, POV thoughts or text conversations; you can tell by the context

You had kept busy at the café, giving your assistant some vacation days, just for the shear purpose that you didn’t want to be home alone, and staying at the café working gave you something to do. It was exhausting, working all of those hours, early mornings mixed with bad sleep, but you didn’t know what else you to do. Your arms were getting worse you noticed, probably due to the stress that you were inadvertently causing yourself by working so much. However, things were still manageable so you pushed the thought of it down, knowing that forgetting about it was just a temporary, and somewhat dangerous, solution.

Friday night finally came and you were lying on the couch watching Supernatural, since you couldn’t have the real Jensen with you. It obviously wasn’t as good as the real deal, you know, being a fictional character stuck in a TV. But being able to at least see and hear the voice of Dean Winchester was better than nothing, if not somewhat calming. You heard your phone buzz on the table in front of you, not realizing the hour.

Hey baby, I know you’re sleeping, but I just wanted to let you know that we’re getting on the plane in London. I’ll be home soon. Love you.

Ok. Have a safe flight. Can’t wait to see you. I really miss you Jen.

Sweetheart, you should be sleeping, what’s up?

Eh. Sleep has been rough lately. Just come home soon. :(

I’m on my way. Try to get some rest for me and I’ll see you tomorrow afternoon.

You were a little more relaxed having been able to talk to him, even if it was only for a minute.  Focusing back on whatever trouble Sam and Dean were managing to get into this time, you realized that your body was finally succumbing to the tiredness you’d been feeling all day, all week rather. Remembering what happened the last time you slept on the couch, you moved to your bedroom, put on one of Jensen’s shirts that he had left for you, and crawled in bed drifting off to sleep.

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Since you weren’t going in to work the next day you didn’t see a need to set an alarm, hoping your body would let you sleep in a little. Well, 6:45 is better than my normal 4:15 I suppose. Dragging yourself out of bed you made a cup of tea and a bowl of cereal for breakfast. In your sleepless nights you had done your week’s chores of cleaning and laundry, so you didn’t really have anything to do today. You decided you were going to try to have a relaxing day and hopefully catch up on some sleep. You watched a few episodes of The Great British Baking Show and then went to take a shower, changing into a new pair of leggings and one of Jensen’s flannels.

You didn’t take to these kinds of days as easily as you had liked. You constantly had the feeling that there was always something to be doing, cleaning, or even that you should be at work. It was usually hard for you to just sit and do nothing. It was only two in the afternoon; Jensen wouldn’t be back in town until at least six. You hadn’t made plans or anything, didn’t even know if he’d stop by when he got back. Grabbing your coat and throwing on a pair of shoes you decided to go for a walk, hoping the cool air would help relax you.

It was nice out, chilly but not uncomfortably so; it felt good getting the cool air in your lungs. There was no place specific in mind that you wanted to go, but you soon found yourself at the park that you and Jensen at been to some time ago. Sitting, you realized that you hadn’t really opened up to him since that day. He hadn’t pressed you, which you appreciated, but you were also wondering if maybe you were slowly pushing him away. Ugh, get out of your head Y/N. You love each other. He understands. But he doesn’t know everything. He needs to know everything, before it gets worse than it already is.

A chill ran down your spine, pulling you out of your thoughts. You headed back to your apartment, ready to curl up on the couch with a blanket. Flipping on Netflix and going back to the episode of Great British Baking Show that you had left off on, you heard your phone buzz again.

Hey. How are you doing?

Meh. How’s the flight?

It’s good. Watched a movie, took a nap. But you didn’t answer my question sweetheart.

You could tell there was concern there; even if it was just a text message.

I’m fine. I think I’m just stuck in my head right now…

Do you want to talk? I still have some time.

Not really. Is that ok?

It’s absolutely fine Y/N. I know when you’re ready you will. And I will be here to listen.

Shortly after, you fell asleep watching as the bakers rushed around trying to finish their bakes, chuckling to yourself whenever Paul would make the contestants nervous.

It was a dreamless sleep, for the most part. You realized at some point that you were dreaming of memories, and not having actual dreams. Everything was as if you were looking in on your life, watching everything happen from the sidelines. You saw the time when your aunt and uncle took you and Jonathan camping when you were 8. He was in boy scouts and he showed you how to build a campfire and roast the perfect s’more.

Then you saw that you were in high school, freshman year, kissing your crush that you had had since grade six, only to see Jonathan walk around the corner. Nothing happened with your crush after that, he was terrified of Jonathan. Looking at it now, you laughed at yourself, seeing how Jonathan pulled the big brother card and scared the boy off, but remembering how you felt in the moment, you were so mad at him. You didn’t talk to him for a week.

Next, you saw yourself walking across the stage to accept your college diploma, your parents and Jonathan in the crowd cheering loudly. In the next moment it was after the ceremony, all of you outside taking pictures, hugging and laughing. Your mom loved candid photos, snapping away while you and Jonathan talked, laughing about some inside joke, that for the life of you, you couldn’t remember. Suddenly you were sad, sad you couldn’t remember what you were talking about.

Sad when you saw him leave on all of his global aide trips, as all of the times you dropped him off at the airport flashed by. Just as quick to appear were the memories of picking him up, throwing your arms around his neck and asking about the children. Now you were standing at the airport dropping Jonathan off for yet another aide trip, to Ecuador this time, for whatever reason you were crying when telling him goodbye, but you weren’t sure why, since this trip was like any other. He laughed, telling you he’d call and email. You hugged him and watched him walk through the door…

You felt a nudge on your shoulder, but it had turned dark where you were, the airport fading away into nothing, you couldn’t see anything. You heard your name but you didn’t know where it was coming from. You could feel and hear the nudge and your name again, this time more firm, like it was getting closer.

“Y/N. Sweetheart,” Jensen said, kneeling in front of you, wiping a tear from your cheek. “Wake up sweetheart, you were dreaming,” he said quietly, running his hand gently over your head. Trying to decipher what was real, you realized, slowly, what was going on. “Jensen?” you managed, sleepily. “I’m here sweetheart.” Not two seconds later were you up with your arms around Jensen’s neck. You didn’t want to, but you were crying gently into his shoulder, trying to hold on to the memories you just left; not exactly the homecoming you were hoping to give him.

“Shh, it’s ok baby,” You heard him whisper, rubbing your back. He readjusted his position so that he could pick you up and sit down on the couch with you in his lap holding you close. Your tears had slowed after a minute or two, leaving you with small sniffles as you kept your head buried in Jensen’s neck.

“Do you want to talk about it? What you saw?” He asked quietly, patiently. “Dreaming about Jonathan, was having a hard time letting go of this one,” you whispered; the two of you sitting in silence for a few more minutes. You sat up, wiping your face, “Ugh, Jen, this is not how I wanted to welcome you home. I’m so sorry.” Now you were just embarrassed. Your boyfriend comes home from being on the other side of the world for three weeks, and you’re in tears when you realize he’s there. Cute, real cute Y/N.

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28 Questions

tagged by @nightccrawlcr (ty bb!)

Rules: tag the person who tagged you, answer the questions, tag 20 people, love yourself

1. How tall are you? 5′10″/11″ ish?

2. What color and what style is your hair? brown and kinda a wavy floofy mess (but the ends keep going lighter and IDK WHY)

3. What color are your eyes? light brown

4. Do you wear glasses? i’m supposed to for migraines n stuff but i don’t bc who has the TIME honestly

5. Do you wear braces? nope!

6. What is your fashion style? lots of heavily patterned shirts, with matching nails and trousers if i can be bothered. i also get really into formal stuff occasionally and wanna wear waistcoats all the time!!

7. Full name? i will give my name-adjacent homophone that i always do: anbrew sploopst.

8. When were you born? 16th of july 1999! 

9. Where are you from and where do you live now? i’m from manchester but i live in exeter and it rules!

10. What school do you go to? university of exeter

11. What kind of student are you? i honestly don’t know any more?? sometimes ill feel motivated to do some work, but i am a poor planner so a lot of the time im outta the loop in whats going on unless a piece of work REALLY takes my interest (usually creative stuff) 12. Do you like school? i was GOOD at secondary school but i don’t know if i LIKED it. college was “meh”. uni is way more fun, and a lot of my syllabus is stuff i enjoy, but i do struggle a bit.

13. What are your favorite school subjects? biology and maths (but only certain areas really). in maths i basically like any theory which is interesting and exciting and has cool correlations that you can analyse.  im doing an MSc in biosci , and in biology i enjoy a lot of the theory related to sessile organisms (plants & fungi, mainly).

14. Favorite TV shows? The US Office; The Good Place; OITNB; The IT Crowd (but fuck Glinner)

15. Favorite Movies? Sister Act; Hitchhiker’s Guide to the Galaxy; Beetlejuice; Addam’s Family Values

16. Favorite Books Discworld; Cabaret of Plants; (does Homestuck count) & probably more I’m forgetting but I’m very come-and-go with what I’m into at any one time lmao

17. Favorite pastime? kinda everything?? again i just get sudden urges to get into a new hobby before moving onto another. i do like SCUBA! and looking after plants! 3d printing & design! everything!!

18. Do you have any regrets? don’t think so? ask me when i have a hangover :)

19. Dream job? uhh probably building biomimetic robots/prosthetics. that or breeding plants or working at a coral nursery!

20. Would you like to get married someday? i don’t mind? i’m kinda down for whatever my SO is, tbh

21. Would you like to have kids someday? probably not. i’m content being a cool gay uncle

22. How many? ^see above^

23. Do you like shopping? oh fuck yes. probably too much but *shrug*

24. What countries have you visited? canada, turkey, greece, spain, croatia, italy, south africa, scotland, aaaand i think thats it!

25. What is the scariest nightmare you’ve ever had? any time i get AIWS it becomes a prime contender. last time i saw my own skull fly into a giant pyramid and i felt my arms touch either side of my bedroom.

26. Do you have any enemies? i was about to answer “no, i love everyone!” then i remembered Peter Kay, so yes: Peter Kay.

27. Do you have a s/o? ya

28. Do you believe in miracles? nope! i prefer to think that the universe is inherently chaotic and occasionally things just align nicely.

my tumblr is like a dead graveyard where i just shout about the things i like, so i probably couldnt tag 20 ppl if i wanted to! @protosstar , @kate-omalley , @averynerdyfeminist , @fictionisanaddiction , @renallen & anybody else who feels like it!

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VERY long survey

Where have you lived throughout your life? 

Birmingham UK

Do you find your job rewarding? 

N/A

What kind of cake did you have for your last birthday? 

chocolate

To you, which is better: English muffins or bagels? 

I enjoy both, but bagels.

Do you paint your nails? 

yes. although they're not painted at the moment because ive been cleaning the house so much the past couple days and its stripped my varnish off

What’s the last website you signed up for? 

a dating thing

Do you check your email everyday? 

yes, I cant stand having the little red number above the mail app 

Have you created any pages on Facebook?

yes but I dont have them anymore

Is there a subject that you absolutely suck at? 

every subject, but especially maths and science 

What’s your favourite song by Dave Matthews Band? 

I dont know any 

Are there people you have absolutely nothing in common with, but still enjoy talking to? 

I dot particularly enjoy talking to anyone :’)

Have you ever wandered around drunk with your friend? 

yes, we wondered around through the middle of Birmingham at 4am 

Are you good at holding back your laughter if needed? 

haha nope

Have you ever been so unfortunate to suffer from a hangover?

yes

Have you ever had a panic attack? 

many, I had to drop out of college because of them 

Are you deathly allergic to anything? 

nope

Have you ever had a mouse in your house? 

nope

Do you know anyone who DOESN’T have an ex? 

myself 

Is anyone you know really religious? 

my family

Are your eyebrows naturally thick? 

yes

Has speaking in front of people ever made you sick? 

not physically sick, but definitely felt it. the worst experience Ive had with speaking was in college when I had to give a speech then teach a 10 minute class. my throat totally dried up and I literally couldnt speak. everyone just stared at me and I was trying so hard not to cry. longest 10 minutes of my life and as soon as it finished I legged it out the room and burst into tears. 

What was the last movie that made you teary-eyed? 

Mary Poppins Returns almost got me but the last film to actually make me cry was Coco. That shit had me SOBBING!

Have you had two friends that absolutely hated each other? 

yes 

Has a laptop ever burned your legs? 

not really, I put a cushion on my lap normally

Do you know anyone who has a scar through their eyebrow?

no

Who was the last person to flip you off? 

probably rhys, as a joke

Anyone’s birthday coming up soon? 

my dad turns 50 next week

Would you ever wear fake eyelashes? 

I have done a few times but they annoy me

Are you good at following directions? 

no no no I get confused very easily

Do you have someone that you can just act a fool with and not care? 

yes rhys 

From where you’re sitting, can you touch a wall? 

if I reach behind me 

When at a restaurant, do you put your napkin on your lap? 

occasionally, it depends where I am and what im eating 

Do you prefer electric or manual pencil sharpeners? 

manual 

Are your biceps at all noticeable? 

they used to be before they went into hiding under a layer of fat 

Have you ever seen a walrus? 

nope

When it comes to dropping food, do you believe in the 10 second rule? 

no, I believe in the ‘what food is it’ and ‘how dirty is the floor’ rules

If given the opportunity, would you ride on a camel? 

yes. I was supposed to have gone on a camel ride in Tunisia ages ago but I was ill so we didn't get to go 

Do you believe that cellphones actually do cause cancer?

they could be. the number of people getting cancer has gone up a lot since everyone has mobile phones 

When people you know cry, does it make you feel like crying too? 

depends who it is 

Do you tend to jump to conclusions? 

yes. Im an anxious person so im constantly overthinking and I also find people really hard to read and can get

Are you good at remembering your friends’ birthdays? 

yes my brain cant remember important things but when it comes to dates its like a sponge 

Is there something you need to do, that you’re trying to avoid doing? 

getting a job

Ever pop someone else’s pimple? 

ew no

How long does it take you to fall asleep? 

about 15 minutes depending on how tired I am 

Do you crack your neck often?

no that freaks me out 

Did you have a weird dream last night? 

not that I can remember, I have been having a lot of weird dreams this week because im ill

Who do you sometimes compare yourself to? 

everyone. especially when im at the theatre, im constantly watching other people and wishing I could act like they can or look like them or have their style 

Are you more worried about doing things right, or doing the right things? 

both

In what way are you your own worst enemy? 

every way, I dont look after myself at all 

What activities make you lose track of time? 

sims

When you help someone do you ever think, “What’s in it for me?” 

not really 

Who do you tell your secrets to? 

these surveys 

Who do you live with? 

my parents and our foster kids 

When did/will you graduate? 

I didn't 

When are you moving next? 

I have no idea. probably never 

When is the last time you took a vitamin? 

this morning, im fighting a cold 

Why are you stressed? 

im not too bad right now tbh

Do you need to return anyone’s phone call? 

nope

Where do you keep your birth certificate? 

no clue, my mom has it somewhere 

How many books are in your room?

a lot. I have quite a few on display and a whole bunch hidden away in my closet because theres no space for them anywhere else. I'll include some photos of the books in my room;

(the book on my bedside table in the second picture is actually a lamp that lights up when you open it)

Have you ever been IN a wedding? 

nope

What was the last thing you laughed out loud at?

probably my mom 

Do you have a nickname? Why? 

my family call my bongy or Ali bong, I dont know why.. (my name is Alice)

Have you ever had a bad concert experience? 

nope

When was the last time someone told you that you were beautiful/good-looking? Do people often tell you this? 

my mom tells me almost every day but Im like youre my mom of course you would say that 

Are you missing someone of the opposite sex atm? 

no

Want someone back in your life? 

meh

Are you currently sad about anything? 

actually nope

Are you wearing anything shiny? 

my pj top has glittery silver letters on

How important is a sense of humor in a significant other? 

very, I fall very easily for people who make me laugh

How many followers do you have on Twitter? 

198 (@alicethenerd if ya wanna follow 😉)

Do you sleep with the door open or closed? 

closed. I aint about letting those murderers and monsters just waltz straight in easy peasy 

Have you ever been to the beach? 

yes every summer since I was a kid 

Can you handle blood? 

nope

Do you pay your bills or do your parents?

I pay my own bills. no way my dad would be up for paying my bills, he already digs at me constantly about the fact that I live rent free even though I look after the foster kids and tidy the house more than he does

What’s your best friend’s middle name? 

Connor

Has any place hired you underage for a job? 

not officially

Have you ever barely passed a grade/year in school? 

yes

Have you ever carried a concealed weapon? 

no

Have you ever tried to sell something overpriced to someone? 

no

Do you plan to become very wealthy some day? 

I hope to become wealthy enough to not worry about having enough money to put fuel in my car anymore and to be able to pay back my parents and grandad for everything they've done for me 

Do you remember your first time going to the movies? 

no, but my earliest cinema memory was going to watch Monsters Inc with my dad when it was first released 

Does eating breakfast make you sick? 

if I try to eat before a certain time yes

Are you dying to say something to someone right this minute?

not dying to nope

Book series you enjoyed reading recently? 

im reading eve of man atm which apparently is going to be a series

Do you enjoy lying in the grass during the summer, and just existing? 

I prefer lying on a blanket, I dont like the feel of grass and I dont like the bugs crawling around 

Do you have a passport? If so, how many stamps do you have in it? 

yes, it doesn't have many stamps in because I lost the one that did have lots in and I havent been away much since getting the new one 

Are there any keys on your keyboard that have letters fading away? 

nope

Do any of your close friends have children? 

no

What do you plan on having for dinner?

we already had dinner, we had chippy

Do you like Chinese food, or do you find it disgusting? 

I only really like one meal 

Have the police ever come knocking on your door looking for someone? 

actually yes, literally a few weeks ago

Know anybody who works in a tattoo parlor? 

yes, my second cousin 

Have you ever played flashlight tag?

ive never heard of it

Could you call yourself a movie buff?

not really, im a huge movie fan but theres still a lot I need to see 

Have you ever had a piercing get infected?

never had a piercing 

Do you check your fire alarms when you’re supposed to? 

dad does it

Are you a shorts wearing kind of person? 

nope nope nope, my legs are not suitable for public viewing :’)

Is your grandparents’ house obsessively tidy?

not really no. my nan and grandpa’s house is always neat but not obsessively neat. my grandads house is full of clutter because my nan was a hoarder 

About how much can you bench press? 

I dont know, I havent lifted in years 

Have you ever had your phone die on you in the middle of a conversation? 

yes

Is anybody in your family a carpenter? 

no

Are you avoiding someone? 

yes

Do you call your boyfriend “Monkey”? 

I dont have a boyfriend but if I did I doubt id call him monkey

What’s your favorite primary color? 

yellow #hufflepuffpride

What were you for Halloween? 

nothing, I didn't dress up 

Do you have any clothes from Walmart? 

nope, we dont have Walmart here

When did you get a Facebook? 

about 10 years ago 

What color are your eyes? 

green/hazel

What motivates you? 

happiness

Can you walk in heels? 

nope

When was the last time someone asked you your age? 

the other day, my own mother forgot how old I was

Do you keep a journal? 

not really

Have you ever tried a weird flavor of vodka? 

never had vodka

Do you wear a ring on your finger? 

occasionally

What are you doing? 

watching ‘the greatest dancer’ and wondering if this survey is ever going to end 

What’s the last kind of soup you ate?

tomato 

Do you currently have a sunburn?

no. its winter

Who did you last text? 

my sister

Who’d you last call? About what? 

my mom, to ask her to come downstairs and let the dogs out because the baby was asleep on me and there was no way I was going to risk waking her up

Are you currently frustrated with someone? 

yes

Do you drink water or soda more often? 

water

Do you straighten your hair?

yes

When did you last talk to your brother or sister? 

today

What is your least favorite vegetable? 

all of them

Outside of family, name 3 people that make you smile/laugh often. 

Rhys, Addison, Jacob

In school, what subjects did you achieve your highest grades in? 

IT

Was there a subject that you enjoyed, but weren’t too good at? 

I didn't really enjoy any subjects at school

When was the last time something didn’t go to plan? What happened? 

today. I had planned to deep clean the bathroom but I went super dizzy and had to give up half way through cleaning 

Do you have any children? If not, at what age do you think you’ll feel ready to be a parent? 

I dont but I am seriously considering adopting one of our foster babies atm. I want to adopt anyway, theres no way I could be pregnant 

When was the last time you bought a new item of clothing?Describe it. 

I honestly cant remember, im due a shopping trip

Was your last Facebook friend request from a male or female?

female

Do you have an item of clothing that makes you feel especially beautiful? Describe it. 

not really no

Think of the last person that betrayed you. If they said they were sorry, would you forgive them? 

I would cautiously forgive him but I would also make sure he knew that how he treated me was not okay and that he really upset me and this would be his last chance. but tbh I think hes done with me so 🤷🏻‍♀️

Nastiest thing you’ve ever done? 

I dont know, I dont like being nasty

Have you ever been in a lighthouse? 

nope

What colour is your shower? 

I think its silver, ive ever actually noticed

Where do you order your pizza from?

dominos

When is the last time you had a serious talk with someone?

few days ago 

Do you find that you have a certain meal you eat every time you go to certain restaurants? 

yes, im a creature of habit

What colour is your bike?

silver & purple

What word can you not stand to hear people say? 

the c word, I cant even type it

What room of your house are you in? 

living room 

What is the temperature in your city right now? 

9°c

When did you last use a post-it-note?

last week in the script for the show im currently working on 

Would you ever want to own your own restaurant? 

yes

Do you have a fan in your bedroom? 

no I dont like them, they make too much noise 

Who is the last person that you took a picture with? 

one of our foster kids 

When is the last time you were stuck in a fairly long traffic jam?

the weekend before christmas 

Do you have certain friends that you hug every time you see them? 

not many

When was your most recent trip to an aquarium? 

almost two years ago 

What do you like in your salads and what dressing do you prefer? 

I dont like salads

If it has one, do you ever use the notepad function in your phone? 

all the time, Im constantly writing lists or reminders to myself 

How good would you say your memory is?

long term good, short term bad

About how many times during the night do you wake up from your sleep? 

a few times

Are there any air fresheners in your house? What kinds? 

multiple, we have plugs in and sprays and those automatic ones that go off every 15 minutes 

What’s one thing you’re glad you’ve done recently?

done my laundry :’) im on my last pair of pants!

Have you ever done something sexual that you regret? 

no

Do you like to sit in the sun and tan when it’s hot out? 

not really, I dont like being too hot

Ever had a person who was obsessed with you so much that it scared you? 

no

Can you drive, and if you can, do you like it? 

yes, I love driving most of the time 

Have you ever said anything to the last person you kissed that you regret? 

no

Do you like french fries?

yes

Have you ever eaten so much you puked?

not since I was a kid 

Do you care about what others think of your physical appearance? 

annoyingly yes

Would you rather go to Greece or France?

greece

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The Lost Girls || Part Five

Gifs not mine, credit to owners.

Part one | Part Two | Part Three | Part Four 

Pairing: Jax Teller x Reader 

Word Count: 2,256

Request: Imagine being the VP of an all female MC. You come to town and you and Jax fall for each other.

Warnings: smoking, language, mention of sex, mention of drugs, mention of guns + violence

Authors Note: Finallyyyy got another part out for this. I have so much love for this series and it gives me all the Jax feels. I have quite a bit planned for this, Im just trying to get it all in order. Its based somewhere in season one, and Tara does not exist (yet) and I'm not sure if I will bring her into this. I hate part two, I wish I had gone a different direction with the Gemma sitch but meh, here we are. Let me know what you think. x

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The two of you were like teenagers. Worse than teenagers. Neither of you could keep your hands off each other and your lips were raw from kissing. But it didn't stop you from pulling him towards you and every time your lips met electricity shot through your veins and the next thing you knew you were on the floor fucking. And when you were done, your knees red with carpet burn and your body trembling with pleasure, you would have a cigarette or a joint and somehow find your way back to each others lips and the cycle would start all over again. This fire that burned inside you had never been ignited before, at least not like this. Nothing you had ever experienced could compare to whatever this was that was building between you. Jax had been with many woman. Hundreds, maybe. But of them all you were his favourite. Because you didn't flinch when he wrapped his hand around your throat and squeezed. You didnt hold back your moans, letting him know just how good he felt inside you. You looked him in the eye when you came and when he cupped your cheek you wrapped your lips around his thumb and scratched your nails down his back. He lost himself in your moans and the gasps of breath you took when he pushed inside you and time seemed to disappear. Everything dissappeared. The world could be on fire outside and you would be oblivious. You had never enjoyed sex as much as you did with Jax. He made love to you amongst the sheets, soft and slow and then fucked you against the wall hard and fast. It was well past two am when you had finally crashed out, wrapped in each others arms. You had never slept so soundly as you did with his arms draped over you and you nestled against him as the sun began to rise.

The sunlight creeping through the curtains woke you and you both stirred. “Goodmorning,” Jax whispered against your forehead, his voice thick with sleep. “Morning,” You mumbled sleepily and buried yourself into him. His arms engulfed you and you lay like that for a while, your head buried in his chest listening to the sound of his heartbeat. “We should get up.” You groaned and shook your head. Jax chuckled, his fingers tracing over your back. You nuzzled into him, your lips ghosting over his neck and you kissed him softly. His fingers grasped you and he sighed. “Darlin, if you keep doing that Im not gonna get up.” You smiled against his skin, and continued to kiss his neck sleepily. Jax sighed and as much as he didn't want to, he pushed you away. You rolled onto your back with a pout and Jax smirked as he swung his legs out of bed. “Come on. Lets shower and then I’ll make you coffee.” You groaned again, but this time you sat up, brushing the loose strands of hair out of your face. You stretched out your arms and legs and yawned. “I dont know if I can walk.” You laughed. Jax smirked proudly and walked to your side of the bed. He hovered over you, his eyes suddenly hungry. “You need me to carry you, sweetheart?” You bit your lip and nodded, lifting your arms up. Jax scooped you up effortlessly and you squealed as he threw you over his shoulder and marched you to the bathroom, leaving a slap on your ass as he went.

After yet another round of sex, this time in the shower, Jax left you to go and make coffee. You washed your hair under the warm water and scrubbed your body clean before getting out and wrapping a towel around yourself. You quickly dressed, tugging on your jeans and pairing it with a fresh plain white tshirt. After pulling on a pair of socks  and your boots you quickly ran a comb through your damp hair, working out the knots that had been put there last night. When you were done you didn't bother drying it, preferring to let it dry naturally and you padded across the carpet in search of Jax and more importantly the coffee he had promised. You walked into the kitchen and saw that Jax wasn't alone. They both turned at your approach and you smiled warmly to the man, the reaper on his back confirming he was a Son. Jax smiled when he saw you, his whole face lighting up and their conversation fell away. The man eyed you curiously, recognising you as the Vice President of the Lost Girls. “Sorry, Jackie boy, didn't realise you had company.” The man said in a thick scottish accent. Jax smirked and walked towards you, offering a fresh cup of coffee. You wrapped your hands around the mug and smiled up at him in thanks. “I dont think we’ve officially met, lass. Im Chibs.” “(Y/n),”  You smiled at him widely, suddenly aware of the obvious love bites on your neck that he would have to be blind to miss. You were about to speak again when you felt your phone vibrate in your pocket. You flashed them both a smile and excused yourself to take the call. It was Sculley, informing you that Ella wanted to meet with the rest of the club at the Mayans clubhouse in half an hour. You told her you'd be there soon and quickly hung up before moving to the sofa where you had draped your leather the night before. “Heading out?” You looked up as you pulled your kutte onto your shoulders and saw Jax and Chibs watching you. “Duty calls.” You smiled. Jax nodded and crossed the living room. Chibs watched as Jax pulled you into his arms and cupped your face. His lips pressed against yours and you could taste the coffee on his tongue as it massaged against yours. “See you tonight?” He whispered against your lips. You flashed him a smile and nodded slightly before pecking his lips once more. “Nice to meet you.” You smiled to Chibs. “Aye lass,” With one last smouldering smile from Jax you left, closing the door firmly behind you. Jax could feel Chibs’ stare before he saw it and he rolled his eyes. “What?” “Be careful, Jackie.” “We’re just having fun.” Jax explained as he too reached for his kutte. “Thats what crow eaters are for, brother.” They both smirked and Chibs continued. “Things between us and the Mayans are good, for now, Jackie. But it's not always that way. At the end of the day her club and her loyalty is going to side with them.” The Scot left him to ponder his words and Jax couldn't help the sinking feeling that filled his chest. He was right. Your club was everything to you and your President was the daughter of a Mayan. A Mayan president. Jax shook his head. It didn't matter.It had only been one night. Nothing serious. Right?

The Mayans had offered Ella a secure room in their clubhouse where The Lost Girls could meet and you sat in your usual position to her right. Scully sat to her left and the rest of your club sat around a table, all waiting to hear your president speak. You could tell she had something important she wanted to discuss by her body language. Her body was tense and her usually warm eyes were darting everywhere in the room, except you. She hadn't made eye contact with you since you had walked in and you had a feeling that whatever she was going to say, you weren't going to like it. Finally the room fell silent and all eyes were on Ella. She looked down at her hands and took a few moments to form the words before speaking. “I want to thank you all for coming down here. I know it was a lot for me to ask you all to join me in meeting my father and it really means a lot.” “We’re family.” You said softly. “We go where you go.” She flashed you a tight smile which only brought more concern and she looked down at her hands as she started her next sentence. “As you all know my father… The Mayans, are involved with drugs. Its something that we've always steered away from and I know it hasn't been easy for you all you to be around.” She took a deep breath and you could see her struggling to find the right  words. “We have an opportunity to make some real money, and Im not talking a permanent thing here. But the Mayans have a charter up in Oregon and I thought since we’ll be going up there anyway on the way home…“ “No way.” All heads turned to Ruth and the seriousness of the proposition sunk in. The Lost Girls running drugs?! You fell silent. The Lost Girls had never dealt with drugs. It was something you could pride yourselves on. Why hadn't Ella come to you with this before bringing it to the club? You all knew it was easy money but it came with risks and a lot of your members had history with drugs, whether it be from their own addictions or family members overdosing. “It's a one time only thing. Good money. I know its a lot to ask so take your time to think about it. We vote tomorrow.” Chairs scraped back as Scully and Ruth stood, not bothering for the sound of the gavel hitting the table. Ella clenched her jaw as the two stormed towards the door and before Scully could leave she turned around to face Ella. The older woman shook her head, her eyes looking disapprovingly at her president. “This isn't you.”

You sat outside as the sun began to set, the sky lined with shades of baby blues and cotton candy clouds. Todays events ran vividly through your mind and you pulled your pack of cigarettes out. The nicotine always helped make sense of your thoughts, at least thats what you told yourself as you lit your lighter and took a drag. Ma had sent you a text an hour ago saying she wouldn't arrive in town until tomorrow. You were both disappointed and relieved. You knew she would be able to tell something was up with the club immediately and you didn't have the heart to explain why. But seeing her would be a comfort, and you knew that if anyone could talk Ella out of this, it was Ma. With your club in strife you had nearly forgotten about the handsome blonde who had been previously occupying your thoughts and you pulled your phone out. You were about to dial his number when you heard footsteps behind you and you turned to see Marcus Alvarez approaching. “Mind if I sit with you?” You smiled up at him and waved your hand to the empty seat next to you, gesturing for him to sit. You offered him your cigarettes, which he accepted and silence fell between you as he lit up. “Ella's told me a lot about you. She's very lucky to have you in her corner. I want to thank you for that.” You smiled at his words and nodded. “She's my sister.” “She's also told me you've been spending time with Jackson Teller.” You rolled your eyes. “We hung out, yeah.” What was this? Some kind of fatherly lecture? A warning? An intervention? “The Sons of Anarchy are friends of ours- for now. But it's not always that way Y/N. If it comes down to it you need to make sure you're on the right side of the line.” “Jesus christ, we hung out like twice. I’m not marrying the guy.” Alvarez nodded slowly, a small smirk on his lips and he blew out a cloud of smoke. “I didn't think you'd be into playing step mom anyway.” His comment caught you off guard and you frowned and turned to look at him. He seemed oblivious to your confusion,his eyes focused on his brothers playing basketball across the yard and your brows furrowed together. “Step mom?” He glanced at you and nodded, immediately noticing the puzzled look on your features. “His son, Abel. I guess he didn't tell you about his wife either then, huh?” You gulped. Wife?! Son?!  “Yeah.. Guess not.” You tossed your cigarette butt to the ground and stood, making sure to crush the butt under your foot and walked around the building to where you had left your bike. Why didn't Jax tell you that he was married with a fucking child? You weren't the home wrecking type and but the night you had spent at his house you didn't recall seeing any signs of a baby, or any womanly belongings. The whole house had a masculine vibe, but it's not like you had gone exploring behind the closed doors. For all you knew he could have just brought you into the guest room, avoided the main bedroom where there could have been signs of his fucking wife. You tugged your helmet down on your head, not bothering to buckle the strap and you brought the engine beneath you to life. It was almost humorous. You had only spent one night together. You were just ‘hanging out’. You hated the idea if being ‘the other woman’ but that didn't explain the nausea that was waving through you or the ache in your chest.

[vigilent-yaksha]

tagged by: @aggy-the-which <3 

Last drink: som agua 

Last phone call: gamestop bc they wanted an interview 

Last text message: me gf abt job stuffs and THE FUTURE

Last song you listened to: fuckin uuuuuuuuuuhhhhhhhhh why do i cry by remote girl??? its so fucin good 

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=gRAw5wsAKik

Last time i cried: i dont remember, probably over smthn dumb tho 

Dated someone twice: nooooooooooo...?

Kissed someone and regretted it: naw son, all keeses good keeses

Been cheated on: gosh i hope not 

Lost someone special: no

Been depressed: hell yea biihhh B) 

Gotten drunk and thrown up: nop! j

Fave colours: lilac, ruddy pink, basically bright neon rainbows,black, and cyan blue! 

In the last year have i…

Made new friends: a bunch!

Fallen out of love:no :0 

Laughed until you cried: lmao all the time

Found out someone was talking about you: no p 

Meet someone who changed you: mmmmmmmmmmmmmmMMMM 

not rlly? im just a nasty boy aint nithin changin me

Found out who your friends are: lmao, none of my friends have been snakes, YET

General

How many facebook friends do you know irl: most except like.... 2

Do you have any pets: my dog napoleon! hes a fuck! 

Do you want to change your name: yea boiiii, idk if i wanna change my last names tho.

What did you do for your last birthday: nothing! 

What time did you wake up today: like 11:30 and i was almost late to my interview ;w;

What were you doing at midnight last night: drawing and watchin some movies

What is something you can’t wait for: hanging w my gf, uuuhh thE SUMMER.

What are you listening to right now: som good ol’ gamley grump

Have you ever spoken to a person named tom: ....n...no?? idk man everyone i know is latino/ not white, i maybe met a tom once.

Something that’s getting on your nerves: i dont wanna say it, its too mean ;w;

Most visited website: uh, dA and youtube really? im mostly on mobile tumblr sooooo

Hair colour: black! 

might dye it but, im looking for a job so //SHRUGS

Long or short hair: short and choppy! i cut my own hair so i keep it shaggy 

Do you have a crush on someone: im very gay for rami malek and mads mikkelson, also my girlfriend i guess shes cool too ;) 

What do you like about yourself: uuuuuuuuuuuuuuh my HAIR 

god i love my hair i think its the most unique part of me, and my eyes, theyre small and cute, also my moles.

Want any piercings: hmm i wanna get a nose one but ima baby so ill probably wear fake ones,

Blood type: idk man 

Nicknames: bec, guts, pissboy, teddy bear, and more probably

Relationship status: me and my gf thottin around

Zodiac: gemini

Pronouns: he/him

Fave tv shows: madok magic, drago maido, uuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuhhhhhhhhhhh

mobbu psycho.............uh.....

Tattoos: none, but i wanna get a witches kiss frm madok on my bod somewhere 

Right or left handed. right

Ever had surgery: yeeee

twice i think 

Piercings: ears and my lip used 2 be pierced but i just let it close 

Sport: naw but i like to dabble

Vacation: hmm.... anywhere as long as i can road trip there, deffs japan, 

More general.

Eating: MMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMM cant ever stop me from gobbling everything up, my fav foods are dumplings/potstickers, fried rice,tortilla soup, and.. alot ok i love alot  

Drinking: i hate soda except apple sodas and sangria, ( w the occasional grape), uhh.... i guess i sorta drink the alcohols, nut much, just socially if im w the boys 

I’m about to watch: nothin, still watchin gamley gramps

Waiting for: me to stop being lazy 2 get some food 

Want:  M O N E Y 

Get married: Maybe! idk it depends in how it works out! i certaily hope so !

Career: idk man fuckin,,,, 

Which is better

Hugs or kisses:huggus

Lips or eyes: lippies

Shorter or taller: im tall, i like being tall, but my gf is a teeny tiny baby, so both 

Older or younger: older!

Arms or stomach: tum!

Hook up or relationship: ....uh.. neither?? 

Troublemaker or hesitant: TROUBLE

Have you ever

Kissed a stranger: Ye, twice

Drank hard liquor: is drinking straight fireball like.. hard liquor?

Lost glasses: no but i break em all the time, 

Turned someone down: not... explicitly, they just told me they liked me, said some sexual things, and then never responded when i said i was uncomfortable, then i got together w my gf a day later! 

Sex on the first date: naw homie, i am a civilized boy 

Broken someone’s heart: //SHRUGS, all of my exes excpet one have broken up with me, exept one, but they had someone new a few days later so, i doubt they missed me 

Had your heart broken: meh

Been arrested: probably

Cried when someone died: well yea.

Fallen for a friend: yeaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa

Do you believe in

Yourself: HELL YEA

Miracles:i belive in good karma, so i suppose.

Love at first sight: MMMMM. it depends, bc you can start having feelings for someone as you see them, but those feelings should be explored before realizing you really want to be with them, is your humor compatible? is your way of speaking and acting compatible?

Santa claus: bih im latino we partied all night santa was never a thing for us 

Angels: the angle in my heart is my darling gremlin 

Other

Best friends name: i have alot ok, so many friends i love

Eye colour: dark dark DARK brown.

Favourite movie: uh, this is hard, i guess i alwasy go back to watch the rebellion movie, uuuhh.... fuckin,,,, //SHRUGS

Fave actor: rAM I M A L E K              

[kaaras-adaar-a]

tagged by: I nicked it, while you let your guard down for that split second 

tagging: Whoever :) 

BASICS:

Name: Sam Age: 26 Preferred pronouns: He/him Sexuality: Asexual (autochorissexual) homosexual with poly tenancies  Zodiac sign: Libra/Scoprio cusp  Taken or single: I got a ring on it.  Three mun facts:           ♥ BIRBS ARE LIFE           ♥ I get sweet and sour sauce like every time I get fast food because NEED           ♥ I am a twin 

EXPERIENCE:

How’d you start: Started Rping over on deviantART through the note system and IM with some friends in the Transformers random. That was... wow, YEARS ago now, a good 8-9 years now. That was my very first RP experience. :3  Platforms you’ve used: Started off on deviantART notes, then IM’s, a Mass Effect forum and emails, and then tumblr.  Worst experience: Absolutely people forcing me to change my character’s perspectives, actions and views in replies. I’ve been manipulated and guilt tripped multiple times, and tbh it’s been some of the worst and most negative experiences of my life in the RP community. 

MUSE PREFERENCES:

Original or canon: I find there’s a lot more leniency with OC’s versus canon. I’m too nervous and shy to write canon because of the possible backlash that comes with it--also I just don’t think I’m good enough. I like Rping with both canon and OC muses here with Kaaras <3  Favourite face: N/A Least favorite face: There’s a lot of FC that I’ve seen that are just the same actors around, which are meh to me, and I don’t find them interesting. Tbh, I don’t really... LIKE real life FCs, I like original character designs the most because it makes it feel far more original to me. :’D Or the in game characters, or the in movie FC’s of a character, etc, etc.  Multi or single: Single muse. 

WRITING PREFERENCES:

Plots or memes: Kaaras is far more a plot heavy character because everything is very real to him, however, I love memes and they are DEFINITELY easy ice breakers, and I love memes :D So, either either is fine with us, but everything will be in the big one plot story line anyway. :3   Best time to write: Any day that is not a work day, rofl. XDDD  Do you like your muse(s): I adore Kaaras and Talan to pieces, they are my precious babies, and Kaaras especially is SO important to me. So SO important. <333 He’s brought me so much damn happiness in the last couple of years, so much love and inspiration and just everything. I love him so much.  How long (months/years?): I’ve been writing since I was around 17, I believe I started writing fanfiction. :) I’ve been writing Kaaras for about 2 years now, fanfics first and then RP. Fluff, angst or smut: I’m comfortable with all and more. <3 Too much angst gets frustrating after a while, though, because Kaaras is someone very positive in my life, and all the constant negatives really make me struggle. Also PLEASE give me all the cute DOMESTIC, SLICE OF LIFE shit, too. Omg, I could eat that up all day! <333 

[8dragon]

Yellow and purple??

if you could have any view from your bedroom window what would you choose? mm seeing big trees from the distance n fields, no apartments (basically the view in my new place, bless)

whats your favourite thing to do on a sunny day? go to the park, or listen to music w the windows n blinds open

what do you consider lucky? self awareness, knowing what u want n need n whats good for u, im clueless lmao

what made you smile today? mm stuff some friends sent me or tagged me in! always makes me feel better

what makes you happy? not to be that gay clingy binch but my gf n being v v close to her

whats your astrological sign? im a taurus, used to like these things but by now its…..meh

whats the best piece of advice you ever received? oh god my memory is shit but id say when a friend told me to take photos of the ppl im with, expecially when theyre distracted, the photos are always so beautiful n its always worth it

whens the last time you followed your instincts? bruh i have 0 impulse control so i tend to just do what they tell me to more than i should lmao

whats your favourite food? anything w pasta i guess? maybe sushi? idk i either love food or hate everything

whats your secret dream? mm tbh becoming a singer, its not much of a secret but only a couple ppl know just bc it came up

this is so long omg sorry yall but tysm for asking ily!!