#i think there's 39 laughs here. YES i could have done more but i wanted this to be a quick project

[felldragon]

as per the request of an anon of @crimsonshadesblog's, here's a rating video of some various seofon laughs!

[jaegeraether]

Sunsets and footballers (Part 44)

Lucy Bronze x Reader (39) & Jordan Nobbs x Leah Williamson Mini (3)

Masterlist (other parts here)

((**This is now my largest chapter at 7.5k. Enjoy!**))

YFN had instantly fallen asleep in her seat on the plane and woke to the jolt of the landing gear absorbing the impact on touchdown. She shook her fatigue away and took her phone off flight mode. 11:15am UK time. She gave a sigh of relief that the flight had been quicker than usual. She knew she’d been cutting it close with the flight time and instead of Ruby picking her up as planned, she’d told her to go to the stadium instead so she could get an Uber. It worked out well, because it meant she had time to speak to Jordan without feeling rude talking in front of Ruby.

She collected her bags and timed the Uber well, hopping in immediately as she exited the building. The stadium was thirty minutes from the airport so she’d be arriving just at kick off. She wasn't too concerned, though. Bridget and Emily were also in Manchester for a 1300 game between Man City and Brighton and were getting a bit more experience up onsite with Ruby at her game. She was lucky to have such good workmates.

She slid into the cab with a polite hello and found the only contact with a fish in it.

“Hey chicken! How was Barcelona?”

“Oh my god, Dory, it was amazing. Absolutely amazing. But I’m dead on my feet.”

Jordan laughed. “I’m guessing Lucy didn’t let you sleep much?”

“Don’t be cheeky. But you are correct.”

“How many hours are you running on?”

She counted. “I had two hours sleep on the plane so…about five hours?”

“What?!”

“I think…I remember we had a ‘midnight snack’ but that was about 4am so…”

“You’re unbelievable. Priorities, right?”

YFN chuckled. “I have no regrets beyond the struggle to walk-”

“Oh god! I don’t want to hear it.”

They both laughed together.

“How are you? Tell me everything.”

Jordan hummed and then proceeded to tell YFN about her dreams and the flowers and note that morning.

“Why didn’t you lead with that?!”

“I don't know. Good news before bad?”

“You think the flowers and note are bad news?”

“I don’t know. My head’s all over the place from the dreams. They were good and bad, but it’s just wrecked me emotionally.”

“I understand that…it’s not great for game day. Are you on your way there now?”

“Yeah, I’m on the bus. We have another hour and a half to go.”

“Well, you can’t resolve these emotions before the game because that would be a miracle. So how about you put a movie on and distract yourself? Don’t sleep, you won’t be able to.

“Yeah, I think I’ll do that to be fair…”

“Perfect. Have you messaged her?”

“No. I can’t do that today. Trying not to mess with my head before the game.”

“That’s all good, I was going to suggest maybe not responding until after the game.”

“You’re doing two games today, aren’t you?”

YFN’s mouth almost dropped open. “You have no idea how proud I am that you remembered that? I told you a while ago...”

“Oh, sorry, I should probably keep up my forgetfulness, right? Who are you again?”

YFN laughed. “I love forgetful Dory. She’s my favourite. Along with cuddly Dory. Football Dory though…jeez she’s terrifying.”

“I definitely will be today.”

“Get those emotions out, girl! Just don’t hurt anyone or get red carded please.”

“No promises.”

“As for your question, yep. I have the 1200 Man United versus West Ham game at Leigh and then the 1845 Arsenal versus Leicester game at King Power.”

“Oh that's right! Kyra…”

YFN had obviously told Jordan about Kyra. They both thought it was cute.

“Yes ma’am.”

“Our bus will drop us back at Villa Park about 7pm tonight…I can drive and meet you there?”

YFN could tell that Jordan needed comfort, and most of her friends were in London. She did the timing math in her head.

“You’d arrive about 8pm tonight with the traffic…how about you get a lift with my guy, Matt? He’s relocating to my game and then driving me back to Birmingham after it’s done.”

“Oh, yeah! That works out brilliant, that does. God, you’re so good at this logistics stuff. I just kick a ball around.”

YFN had a giggle at the visual image and messaged Matt. “And you look great doing it. Plus, you do more than that and you know it.”

“Yeah, yeah.”

YFN bit her lip as she thought a little. Jordan needed some love, and she knew just what to do. “What do you think about us asking Katie and Caitlin to stay the night? We’ll all finish up around 9pm in Leicester so they’ll have overnight accommodation. If I message them then they’ll have time for the team to cancel their room. They can come home with us.”

“Ohhh I didn’t think of that! See, this is why you’re the best.”

YFN grinned at the sound of genuine happiness in Jordan’s voice. She knew she missed them a lot.

She looked up and could see the stadium approaching in the distance. “I’m excited! Okay, I’m almost at the stadium. I’ll message the group.”

“Okay, love you!”

“Love you more. I’m so excited to see you tonight! Have a good game today, please. Smash it.”

They hung up happy and she opened a message from Matt that replied with an excited yes. Being a Villa supporter meant his dream just came true. YFN wondered how the car ride with them would be to Leicester and couldn’t help but be amused.

YFN then put a message in their little four-way group. Caitlin was usually the first to respond whether it be message or Instagram, and today was no exception. She’d answered an unequivocal yes for the both of them before she’d even stepped foot into the stadium.

The national anthems were playing just as she arrived and met up with her workmates. Bridget was running the boundary line, excitedly videoing the singing while Emily and Ruby were taking photos.

“Hey, Em.”

“YFN! Hi!” She gushed, wearing her purple and yellow Lumos hoodie. YFN was wearing Lucy’s hoodie so she opted for a beanie instead. “How was your flight?”

“I slept the entire trip,” she admitted with a chuckle.

Emily snapped a few shots of the starting line-ups.

“How are you and Bridget?”

“Oh, great! Yeah, we’re excited to be staying in Manchester tonight. Because we all have tomorrow off, we have plans to sight see and visit some family.”

They chatted for a little longer when YFN recognised the photographer from the last game she’d been to. The one who followed her home. She pretended to not notice him as she kept speaking to Emily and then made her way around the field to get a few good videos and say hi to Ruby and Bridget also. Bridget was running a mile a minute as she usually did, and Ruby mentioned that she had a date with Matt the next day. Ruby also ran a mile a minute, just with her mouth rather than her legs like Bridget. The whistle blew.

“Oh are those two already leaving already?” She asked rhetorically as Bridget and Emily waved on the way out. “Aw I didn’t say bye! Anyways, Matt said he’d take me on a date but I don’t know where-” she snapped a few photos and then cringed at the tackle she’d just captured, “-and I know it’s going to be amazing because we’ve been talking for a while now and…well not a while but since we all met and we were first partnered up-” she jogged further up the field to take another and came back when she was satisfied, “-and we’ve both been talking about supervising this next group of people coming in and we’re so excited for them to join us-” she took photos while YFN pulled her phone out to get a good Instagram video of Man United’s goal as they were both standing just a few metres from the West Ham goal. Goal number one, just three minutes in. YFN uploaded the video straight to their social media with an update on the score, “-and I just think it’s going to be amazing to have so many people with us. Is that guy staring at us?”

YFN turned to the photographer who’d been following her around the boundary, more focussed on her than the game.

“Yeah…just ignore him. He won’t hurt us.” She said, repeating what Catherine had said to her. Phone still on video mode in her hand, she pressed record but before she could lift her arm up to video him, they were interrupted.

“Now, now, physical violence isn’t my thing.” The voice teased from behind them.

YFN didn’t even have to turn, but she did out of polite habit as Mark stepped next to her, his eyes focussed on the game. She kept her phone on record and down near her body, but angling the mic towards him.

“Mark.”

“YFN. I hear you had a lovely trip up to Edinburgh to meet your…controversial leader.”

Ruby frowned, not understanding.

“He’s just teasing,” she assured. “Could you give us a minute?”

Ruby nodded and headed back up the field.

“So none of them know then?”

“What could you possibly be referring to, Mark?”

“Joanne.” He almost hissed. “That heartless woman.”

“I have no idea what you’re talking about.”

“Well let me be clear, then. I know your boss. She took something from me, so I’m going to tear her whole fucking business down.”

“Which business would that be?”

“The only one not protected by a board. Lumos. Her baby that she’s trying so desperately to hide. And you know exactly how I’m going to start?”

“By getting a photographer to follow me?”

He gave a grin that sent shivers down her spine. “Something along those lines.”

He handed her a large yellow envelope. Against her better judgement, she took it and looked inside. She found several printed photos of herself and Lucy kissing at the airport. The photos weren’t the best quality, they looked like they’d been taken on a phone, but still…it was disturbing.

She turned her attention back to the game as if she were unbothered. “Congratulations. You gave me photos of my girlfriend and I. You do realise that we are public? We have nothing to hide.”

“You don’t think that someone in your position dating one of the most famous footballers of all time is a conflict of interest? Let me give you some advice…people will care. Whoever Joanne has investing in her company will. And this is just the start. I’ll get more and more dirt on not just you, but your workmates also. I’ll drag you all into the fucking ground.”

She sharply breathed in. “You want to ruin a good thing for a little rivalry?”

“A good thing?” He scoffed. “Nobody wants to watch women play. Look around you. The stands are only filled with friends and family. As for everyone who works at Lumos…” He shrugged. “Collateral.”

YFN let herself look at him. He was determined and deadly serious.

“See that photographer? Get used to seeing him around. As for Joe…tell her I’m going to tear down her company before it even begins.”

It was a dominant display by Manchester United who ended up winning 5-0 with five different goal scorers. YFN felt for West Ham who she’d grown a soft spot for since her visit, and especially felt empathetic for their Captain, Mackenzie Arnold, a fellow Australian, as she was the goalkeeper. She couldn’t imagine how hard it must have been mentally after a game like that. You’d feel like it was all your fault while having to be the one to pull the team together.

A few of the players wandered over to her after the match, one being Mackenzie. She gave her a hug and surprisingly agreed to an interview. She interviewed her alongside Mary Earps, letting the two talk business. Mary didn’t exactly have a quiet game, she’d had shots that she’d saved and they both bantered about that, with YFN steering the questions when and where she wanted. The fact that they both pointed out the brilliance in several different moments of each teams and gushed over not just their team but the opposite was the exact reason she’d fallen in love with women’s football. After those two, she interviewed Kirsty Smith and Riko Ueki with Ella Toone and Lucia Garcia. The dynamics of who she put together were interesting and got the results she wanted. She felt like she was Graham Norton putting interesting guests on and leading them here and there with questions, making sure they each felt acknowledged and appreciated for their time and their skill on the pitch.

They finished up around 2:30pm and stopped for a late lunch and some quick editing and posts before they started their two-and-a-half-hour drive to Leicester for their next game. It was only early evening, and YFN could already feel herself getting tired.

As they got into the car, Ruby noted that and told her to get some sleep. She had no idea that Ruby could be quiet for long enough and was pleasantly surprised.

Just before she went to sleep, she sent the video recording of Mark’s voice to Catherine who she knew was busy with few royal duties, and then she fell asleep just after she put her phone on charge.

YFN woke to the loud sound of her phone ringing and she jumped, her face feeling half numb from the window. The car was stopped and she looked outside to Ruby who’d noticed her wake and gave her a thumbs up from the fuel bowser. She gave one back and answered the phone without checking the caller ID.

“YFN! Are you okay?!”

She recognised the voice immediately. “Cath- I mean. Joe? Wow, you really did a great job of sounding not yourself before we met.”

Catherine gave a light chuckle. “One of my secret talents. I listened to your video. Did he threaten you?”

“Not physically, just what you heard on the video.”

“He’s absolutely insistent and much more of a pain than I’d expected.” She sounded annoyed and that was amusing to YFN as she was always painted as the perfect Princess. “I’m so sorry. I spoke to Joe and even she is surprised. He will not hurt you. If you feel unsafe at all, I will hire security.”

“That’s okay, I think we’re okay for now. He seems to be all bark at the moment..”

“He is, I assure you. Also, there is no conflict of interest here. I’m aware of your relationship. We are not even covering her games yet and when we do, it is absolutely not a conflict of interest. The man doesn’t know what he’s talking about. I know you, I chose you for a reason and your judgement, and your actions won’t be compromised by your relationship. Not only that, but there’s nothing in which to base these allegations on just yet. I understand the implications that may occur with you interviewing her and potentially being seen as biased, but I’ve seen your work, I’ve seen you interview friends and colleagues without that bias. I chose carefully.” She sighed. “My plan was for us to build your reputation in the field so high it would surpass any of these allegations before they even occurred.”

“I appreciate the support, and I promise that anything to do with Lucy or her team against another team will not be an issue. I want everyone and every team to be represented, regardless of if they’re against her or not.”

“Perfect. We’ll cross that bridge when we come to it, I think. In the meantime, you don’t need to hide your relationship. I’d never ask or expect that of you.”

“Thank you…also I’m assuming part of your security check on us is that you look for anything controversial which may be used against us like this?”

She hesitated. “Yes. I don’t like it, but we need to protect ourselves and the business from any potential threats…”

“I understand, and I agree.” Ruby hopped back into the car then with a grin. “You have my support…Joe.”

Catherine took the hint. “He won’t find anything controversial on the other employees because there is nothing. We just need to stay a tight knit group and continue our jobs.”

“Copy that, will do. Would you like me to send out a group memo about him?”

Ruby started to drive again.

“Yes, absolutely. If you don’t mind, I’ll write it and you send it?”

“Perfect, that saves me the work.”

“Lastly, the office won’t be ready tomorrow.”

“Oh?” Her interest peaked at that. She could be with Lucy on her day off. Jonatan had been giving her more days off with her knee. She only had to train four days this week, Tuesday to Friday.

“It’s all related. Mark somehow managed to talk to the local council…anyways I’m sorting it. It’ll be ready by Wednesday, I promise you.”

“Okay. That’s perfectly fine. I’ll meet up with the real estate agent and then the original ten of us will settle in and prep for the new group to arrive.”

“I thought it would be best to start the new group on Thursday instead because of the timing with the office date moving, but I wanted to check with you first to make sure you weren’t losing too much preparation time with them for the next round?”

YFN thought about it a little. Their first game was Saturday, and it was the only one. Catherine had gotten permission for ten employees at that game which allowed her to send two original crew with a full new crew to train. “I think Thursday will work. It’ll give us two full days to cover everything which is enough, and for eight of them, they’ll get experience on Saturday at Stamford Bridge. If I feel we need more, I’ll organise Saturday with the others not at the game to prep more.”

“Agreed! We think very much alike, you know.” It was a compliment that made her blush.

Catherine asked if she had any more questions before the call ended. She wasn’t surprised it wasn’t a long conversation, as she knew she’d been busy all day with regular duties and then Mark’s drama in the background. She couldn’t help but think about the possibility of booking a flight to Barcelona to spend the next two days with Lucy, as she knew she had the next day off. She could explore Barcelona with Narla and do a bit of work on the Tuesday while Lucy was training… She bit her lip and shook her head. Jordan needed her. Jordan was her priority. Thinking of, she looked up Jordan’s game which was almost finished. It had been fairly even all game and Jordan had been subbed on in the 65th minute, having a goal attempt in the 66th minute. YFN smiled as she watched Jordan running around, looking frustrated which was so opposite to her everyday self. Aston Villa were up 1-0 and she watched while Ruby listened to the end of the game. Multiple fouls were made by both teams. Aston Villa scored a second goal. A foul by Jordan at the 90 minute mark. And then it was over. Jordan had only played 30 minutes, but she’d made an impact. YFN sent Jordan a message saying how proud she was of her.

They arrived in Leicester around 5:45pm and stopped at a local café for another snack and a drink before the game. Being too early at the stadium meant boredom. They made sure to arrive around 6:15pm and set their equipment up, capturing the players during warm up. The Leicester players exited first to warm up and a few came over to chat. Luck have it, Courtney was one of them. Australians tended to flock together outside of Australia, she realised. YFN asked if she’d do an interview after the game and she agreed for the price of a hoodie. She liked Courtney and could see why Kyra did too. They were both cheeky.

“Hey stranger.”

YFN turned to see Leah’s smile as she stepped next to her. She was alone and not in kit, not quite ready to play after her ACL.

“Leah!” She smiled, pulling her into a hug. She liked Leah, regardless of her issues with Jordan, and she’d previously spoken to Jordan about their little growing friendship. She was okay with it, of course, otherwise YFN wouldn’t have been so forward. “How are you?”

“Oh mate, desperate to get onto that field, I’m telling ya.” She looked longingly at the pitch and then back to YFN. “I watched your interviews. They’re great! I don’t know why anyone hasn’t interviewed like that before.”

“The ones from last week?”

“Yeah and this morning. I loved it, honestly. I’ll be happy to do interviews anytime with you, just let me know.”

“That’s just given me an idea…” She hummed as she thought.

“Taking me up on the offer already?” She laughed.

“Actually I’ve been trying to work out different segments and ideas that would make us stand out from other companies….you’re not playing today. There are always players who are not playing but watching their teams. So it might be a good idea to get players willing to on the sidelines with us to interview and to film some of the snippets we upload with their own perspective and jokes and insight. Sort of like when you’re excitedly screaming motivation at the girls from the bench, but this time they’d be in snippets for our social media. It’ll promote the team and show just how supportive all of the players are with each other. Plus, I think it'd be hilarious.”

“Sort of like when they mic up the cricket players?”

“EXACTLY.”

“Put me in, coach. I love the sound of that. Plus, if it mucks up, you can just blame me.”

“You are 100% my scapegoat if it goes bad.” She laughed. “You’d be willing to today?”

She shrugged. “I have nothing else going on and I’m used to the camera so why not.”

“Perfect! Yeah, oh that’s so exciting-” She stopped and bit her lip as she thought of Jordan.

“What is it?”

“Um…maybe not today? Maybe next game?”

The frustrating thing was that she didn’t know yet if she’d even be at Arsenal’s next game. It depended on the roster.

“YFN, just tell me.”

“So…hm…here’s the thing…”

“Please don’t tell me this is about Jordan?” She asked, a little upset. “I was hoping that wouldn’t affect our relationship…”

“It won’t! Dory’s fine with us being friends. It’s just…”

“Spit it out, mate.”

“She’s going to be here in under an hour.”

She swore Leah paled. She definitely froze. “Oh.”

“Yeah…so she’ll already be with me on the sidelines for company.”

“She just finished a game…” she looked at her watch. “…so if she’s coming here I guess it’s to talk about us?”

“Leah…”

“She told you about this morning?”

“Yes.”

“Okay.” She groaned and ran her hand through her hair. “Look, I don’t know your opinion on everything and I don’t want to drag you into it all, but I promise you I just want the best for Jordan.”

“And the best for Jordan is you?”

Leah held her eye contact. “Yes. Just…I know I don’t have the right to ask but I will. Can you please maybe tell Jordan it wouldn’t be such a bad thing to go with me this Friday night to the awards? I want to win her back, to be there for her but I can’t without opportunity to actually be around her.”

“I won’t convince her to do something she doesn’t want to…”

“I wouldn’t expect you to. Just…advocate for me? You don’t have to push it. Just…please?”

“I’ll have a talk to her,” she murmured.

“CHICKEN!”

The Arsenal players were headed out for their warm up and most were headed her way led by the Irishwoman who was being overtaken by a smiley, wavy Kyra.

“Thank you, I really appreciate it. Also, I can still do that thing with you, I can be over the other side away from Jordan if she doesn’t want me near.”

“Thanks Leah, I’ll ask her about it when she gets here,” she replied with a smile.

“Ask who about what?!” Kyra asked as she landed on YFN’s back. YFN’s hands immediately caught her legs.

“Oof. You do realise I’m small, right?”

“Yeah, but I knew you’d catch me. When’s Nobbs here?”

A few of the Arsenal girls looked awkward because Leah was there. “It’s okay…” she assured them. “She’ll be here during the first half.”

“Okaaaaay.”

“Oh, also Kyra invited herself tonight.” Caitlin said as she wrestled Kyra off of YFN so she and Katie could give her a hug.

“Tonight? Where was our invite?” Beth asked.

YFN grinned sheepishly. “Our apartment isn’t big enough for the entire Arsenal squad…”

“I’m just joking, this one wants an early sleep anyways,” she said as she nudged Viv who looked unimpressed as usual.

“Aw what a granny!” Kyra teased.

YFN couldn’t help but laugh at the look on Viv’s face. Kyra giggled at her joke, ducking away from Caitlin’s motherly swat to the back of the head when a blue shirt appeared amongst the red and Kyra stilled.

“Hey…”

“Courtney!” YFN replied, making sure she didn’t feel left out. “Hey!”

Courtney looked around, her eyes finding Kyra and then tearing them away pretending she hadn’t looked at her. “Just letting you know Sam and Sophie are both good for the interview after the game. Do you know who it’ll be with?”

“Awesome! Yeah, I was hoping Beth and Frida would be up for it…”

“Me? Yes please! Not sure if I’ll be subbed on though,” Beth said eagerly.

Viv rolled her eyes. “She’ll be subbed on.”

“FRIDA!” Katie yelled.

“FRIDA!!” Beth yelled shortly after. Viv covered her ears and YFN chuckled at that.

The blonde spun around and jogged over. “Yes?”

Frida Maanum was a Norwegian midfielder who’d been with Arsenal since 2021. She was rarely chosen to be interviewed and softly spoken, so YFN thought it’d be great to involve her and help her confidence out with Beth who she could always rely on to talk if she didn’t.

“Want to do an interview with me after the game? YFN wants to know.”

Frida looked over at YFN with a polite hello wave. “It’s going to be with Sam Tierney and Sophie Howard from Leicester. You can absolutely say no if you want.”

“You want me?” She sounded surprised.

“Of course she wants ya, you’re amazin’.” Katie said with a playful grab of her shoulder.

“O…okay. Yeah.” She smiled at YFN which made the Australian feel good for asking.

“Aw, I’ll look after you mate! No need to be nervous!” Beth said loudly, extending an arm around her shoulder.

“So…Beth and Frida,” YFN said to Courtney with a smile. “And then you and Kyra. Is that okay Kyra?”

“Yeah that’s cool.” Kyra said, suddenly quiet.

Courtney’s eyes widened hearing that she’d be interviewed with Kyra. YFN knew it was sneaky of her but it was an opportunity for Courtney to reject the idea before she surprised her with her ex. Not that they were ever public knowledge.

“Okay. I’ll see you after the game.” She said, directed straight at YFN but she knew it was more for Kyra from the tone of it.

Caitlin and YFN shared a sheepish look.

“Come on girls, Jonas is about to kick our asses. Let’s get warmin’ up!” Katie ordered.

“If you see me shouting from the sidelines, it’s because I’m mic’d up!” Leah warned them and received some amused looks in return.

“You’d better not be focusin’ on my ass.” Katie teased.

Caitlin messed up Kyra’s hair. “You’d better be focusing on this one’s debut!”

They all jogged off and Leah turned to YFN.

“Okay boss, where do you want me?”

Jordan and Matt arrived just after 7pm, both with wide grins. Matt because he’d just spent a car ride with Jordan and Jordan because of YFN.

“Dory! Come here!” She took her friend in a hug big enough to lift the footballer off the ground and a few Arsenal fans spotted Jordan and shouted their love for her as she did so.

“I missed you.” She mumbled into Lucy’s hoodie.

“It’s been a day. Needy, hm?”

“I’m always needy.” Jordan grumbled as she put her down.

“I missed you too.” YFN chuckled before turning to Matt. “You look excited, mate.”

He was still grinning ear to ear and nodded.

“I think I tired him out with all the talking, to be fair.”

“I’m glad you two got on for the drive then. Matt, are you okay taking a few of us back to Birmingham tonight? If not, I can ask Ruby…”

“Yes!” He almost shouted and then cleared his throat. “Um, yes, of course. Who..?

“Uh Dory, Katie, Caitlin, Kyra and myself. Oh actually that won’t work… Ruby will have to take some of us anyways… maybe those three and I’ll ask Ruby if she can take Kyra and I.”

“Done.”

“How was the game?”

“Yeah, great. Noel and I got some great footage. A few of the girls were asking about interviews but I said we’d start next week.”

“Next week hopefully… and congrats on Aston Villa’s first win for the season?!”

“Yeah!” Jordan grinned. “I wasn’t on for long but I think I did alright.”

Loud noises from the crowd turned their attention to Leicester running towards goal. The ball was pushed out by Lotte for a corner.

“I’ll go record that.” Matt said as he ran towards the goal up the side of the pitch. Jordan spotted Leah behind the goal then.

“Leah…?”

“You had to have expected her to be here,” YFN teased.

“Well yeah but…is she recording with a phone?”

“I have her mic’d up for some footage. Trying something new out and she’s helping.”

Jordan frowned but her eyes remained on her, mixed emotions in her eyes.

The crowd went wild as Leicester scored from their corner. Jordan swore. The game reset.

“She really wants you to go with her on Friday..”

Jordan’s eyes flicked up to meet hers. “She said that? What else did she say?”

“Nothing you don’t already know… that she wants the best for you, she wants to win you back, and she wants an opportunity to do so.”

Jordan groaned. “I can’t. We rarely went to events together before. Now she wants to show me off to the world like I’m hers when I’m not?”

“I think she just wants a night with you, Jords…”

“Nope. No way. Unless she has another plus one and you come to chaperone us.”

YFN tilted her head. It wasn’t football but… “I could get an invite?”

Jordan spun back around. “You could?”

“My boss can 100% get me a ticket. Now, did you mean it?”

“I mean…” she looked over at Leah. “If you’re going, I will.”

“And is this really what you want?”

Jordan got a little frustrated and pouted, trying to think. She was a bundle of confused emotions and the dreams wouldn’t have helped. YFN put her arm around her and pulled her close.

“What do you think?”

“I think whatever this is, you need to resolve it. The best way to do that is communication. I think you should go. Sooner or later it’s going to be clear to you if you do or don’t want to have her back in your life.”

Leah looked over at the pair, her and Jordan looking at each other. She nodded. “I’ll go.”

“You’re sure?”

“I think I wanted to, I just didn’t want to admit it. Plus, you’ll be there now so it’ll be less awkward.” She grinned up at her.

YFN rolled her eyes and messaged ‘Joe’. Just as she finished the message, Leicester was surging forward, forward, forward, and tucked away their second goal. Two goals in two minutes. A terrible start for Arsenal.

Jordan settled next to YFN, following her and her camera around, watching the game intently. She always wanted the best for Arsenal. They had more of a catch up in between photos that she’d changed to as Matt was now doing the videography. YFN didn’t miss Leah off and on staring across at them just as longingly as she stared at the pitch she missed. Jordan and YFN gradually moved closer to Leah through that first half, though Leah ducked away to the change rooms for half time with her girls.

While it was half time, Ruby, Matt and YFN on worked on their footage while they talked.

“New office tomorrow?!” Matt asked excitedly.

“Oh…no. That’s been delayed until Wednesday. Waiting on approvals. New group are now starting Thursday.”

“You’re not going to Barcelona?” Jordan asked. “Doesn’t Lucy have tomorrow off?”

“You spoke with her?”

“Yeah she messaged me. I assumed you suggested it,” she laughed, “she’s terrible at messaging.”

“Not with me.” YFN winked. “Also that was all her, I promise.”

Jordan rolled her eyes and nudged her almost off her chair. “She misses you.”

“I was there this morning…”

“You miss her too.”

“Dory…” She groaned.

“No.” She said, putting her hand on the camera YFN was playing with which made her look up at her. Ruby and Matt shifted a little nervously as they could do nothing but listen. Jordan looked serious. “Don’t you dare stay here tonight just for me. You barely get any time with her as it is. She’s my friend too, and I like to see her happy. And you happy. And you’re both never as happy as when you’re together.” YFN opened her mouth to argue but Jordan continued. “Let me live vicariously through you. You’ve already done enough, I have Katie and Caitlin and Kyra tonight! They need a bed.”

“You’re kicking me out of our apartment?” YFN laughed.

“Only if you can find a flight.”

She put her camera down and took Jordan into a warm, long hug, mumbling into her. “I love you, Dory. You know that? If we’re both single in five years, I’m going to propose.”

Jordan laughed but they were both emotional. They just wanted the best for each other. “Okay but Blu will be ring-bearer.”

YFN laughed back into her and sat back, wiping tears away that she didn’t even know had formed.

“You’re putting Kyra on the couch?”

“I’ll let her share my bed if she shuts up.”

“She’s only small, she’ll be asleep before you all finish dinner. She tends to tire herself out fast, the little baby.”

“Little baby,” Jordan mimicked adoringly. “Now look for flights. I’ll message Lucy.”

“Or…how about we make it a surprise?”

“I love it! If she thinks you’re robbing her and knocks you out though, that’s not on me.”

She did wonder what Lucy’s reaction would be. She found a flight from Birmingham to Barcelona at 11pm.

“Won’t you need her to unlock the door?”

“I have keys…”

“You two are adorable.”

“I found an 11pm flight from Birmingham…”

“Do you think you’ll make that?!” Ruby asked. “I’m happy to take you…”

“That…sort of works out perfect because then the girls will all fit in Matt’s car. Um…the game finishes at 8:30pm. Interviews until 9pm. Arrive at the airport around 10pm. Cutting it close for international but it’s a late flight and nobody will be there… I think we can make it?” She shrugged and booked the flight anyways. If she didn’t make it, it wasn’t meant to be.

Jordan grinned. “Tell her to thank me when you get there.”

“Honestly, I’m probably going to be passed out from fatigue all day and not even get the chance.”

Her phone buzzed. It was the flight confirmation.

“Are you sure?” She asked Jordan. Sure, she’d already booked the flight, but it was cheap and she didn’t care. She wanted Jordan to be okay.

Jordan grabbed her around the shoulders and smiled. “I promise it’s okay. You’ve really cheered me up today and helped with my Friday night decision. Plus, I have the girls tonight. We both know you’ll just pass out anyways.”

“How dare you…” she laughed as the crowd began cheering loudly as the players re-entered the field. Ruby and Matt got to work. She stood to do the same when her phone buzzed again.

Joe: Done, they sent us through two invitations. Check your emails. Enjoy!

She grinned at the message and then at Jordan.

“What?” She handed her phone over and Jordan took it, an ecstatic look crossing her face. “Yes mate!”

She took her phone back and pocketed it, holding her camera up to take photos of the players as they ran out.

“One condition.”

“Anything.”

She jerked her head towards Leah who was wandering over to the pair. “You tell her.”

Jordan groaned. “Okay but at the end of the night. She can sweat until then.”

YFN chuckled at that.

Starting the second half 2-0 against them meant Arsenal had to push deep. And they did. Arsenal kicked six goals in the second half. Their first came at a hesitation from Courtney which YFN felt terrible for. She was next to Leah when that happened who filmed a mic’d up scream of joy from behind the Leicester goal as the shot went in. Slowly Jordan gravitated towards Leah more during the match, Leah managing to let her come at her own pace. The rest of the match was an absolute riot. Caitlin with an assist and a goal, Katie with an assist, and Kyra with multiple attempts at goal. She was shocked when she saw Courtney take Kyra down in the 83rd minute and wondered just how much of the history between them she didn’t know. The game ended 2-6 Arsenal. A complete second half dominance that had Leah screaming with joy on the sidelines. It turned out to be the perfect day to test the mic’d up segment, as she posted the live updates with video’s Leah had taken of her yelling at the girls running towards goal and screaming, turning the camera around on herself to show her celebrating. It was great content.

Regardless of the outcome, the Leicester players still came over for their interviews. First she had Sam, Sophie, Frida and Beth who actually did get some game time and almost a first goal since she’d come back from her ACL tear. Beth was the loudest, of course, and helped Frida to open up a bit. Frida had some back and forth with the Leicester girls talking about some of the plays including Sam’s goal. Overall, she was happy with the results of the interview, and how much the girls had come out of their shells.

Next was her interview with Courtney and Kyra who seemed equally nervous next to each other. They knew each other well though. YFN waited to sense the overall mood before she allowed herself to go in with some cheeky questions about Courtney’s tackle on Kyra, and Kyra’s debut. Her goal was to get them to start teasing each other, and it worked. At first, they didn’t want to address each other, and after a few comments here and there, it was more them talking and throwing cheeky comments to each other, and YFN could almost sit back and enjoy watching the show. She had to steer it a few times of course, both were young, but the tension between the two was obvious. For the sake of the viewers and their privacy, YFN made sure to make it known to the camera that they were teammates and brought up that they went to school together as justification which started a whole other line of questioning about their start in football.

Only when she was satisfied that she’d helped them break whatever awkwardness they’d previously had, did she end the interview, but not before she told Kyra how proud she was of her on camera for her debut. Courtney gave her a proud shove for that too.

Being Australians, and women, they all hugged their goodbyes, Kyra whispering a thanks into her ear. As they were packing up, she could see them still chatting as Courtney was being called away. She gave Kyra her phone and she typed into it what YFN assumed was her number. Courtney gave an awkward wave, obviously not knowing whether a hug was appropriate, and ran into the change rooms. Kyra turned to YFN with a grin and a little fist pump. It was adorable.

She looked past Kyra to where Leah and Jordan were standing, Jordan telling her she’d go on Friday. Leah’s expression flashed excitement before she contained it, and then it went a little shy as she pretended to be calm about it. They didn’t speak for long, just enough for Jordan to agree before she wandered off with Leah’s eyes following her longingly. She watched for a while until she met YFN’s eye and blushed, having been caught. She mouthed a ‘thank you’ to which she gave a smile in return.

“We really need to go.” Ruby stressed. She looked at the time and groaned. She only had time for quick goodbyes with everyone and a threat to Katie and Caitlin to not have sex in her bed. Katie seemed to enjoy the idea of the threat, to be honest, and that terrified her.

She rushed through security as quickly as possible and was the last person to board the flight, sweating and grateful she’d made it, though cursing herself for having to stay longer just to make sure Kyra and Courtney were good. As with her morning flight, she passed out immediately and wished she had a chance for a shower before seeing Lucy. Instead of a shower, she tidied herself up in the bathroom at the Barcelona airport when she touched down, changing her clothes and washing away the day. She brushed her teeth and did her nightly makeup routine, ignoring some funny looks. She sure as hell wasn’t going to let her skin suffer more than it already was with the change in weather between the UK and Spain.

Her Uber dropped her off at just before 3am and for some reason she was nervous, jiggling the keys Lucy had given her in her hands and playing with the little flags. At the front door she took a deep breath in and unlocked the door, entering as quietly as possible so as to not wake Lucy or Narla. She kicked off her shoes and left her suitcase in the entrance, not wanting to risk the wheels waking them. The smell as she walked into the house was home. Vanilla and bitter orange, and whatever the hell Lucy had been cooking for dinner. She swore she could even smell the big breakfast they’d had that morning. She looked at the trophy Lucy still had out and smiled, putting her phone on charge next to it before tip-toeing her way into the bedroom.

Lucy was quite literally dead asleep. She was on her back facing YFN’s side of the bed, one hand touching the pillow YFN had been sleeping on the night before. She was beautiful. She loved seeing her so vulnerable and herself. Her dark hair was spread out over the pillow, another thing she loved. Lucy with her hair down. She clicked the door closed quietly and snuck around to her side of the bed, avoiding Lucy’s collection of shoes around the bed. She carefully laid down and when she touched Lucy’s hand to move it, she jerked awake, her head rising and her eyes opening.

“It’s just me.” She whispered and put a hand to her cheek, coming closer so Lucy could see her better without her glasses.

“What? What?” She was dazed and confused, her body tense.

“Shhh. Shhhh.” She comforted and cuddled up to her, her head finding Lucy’s collarbone. “It’s okay, it’s just me. I’m sorry for scaring you.”

“Little one?” She asked, unbelieving. “You…you’re here.”

Her arms wrapped around YFN tighter than they ever had before, holding her close to her body, her own body softening into her. “Is everything okay?!”

“Everything’s fine, Luce. I have the next two days off. I’m all yours.”

Lucy groaned happily and kissed her wherever she could reach.

“Sleep now, Luce.”

“You’re home,” she whispered huskily with emotion, her voice already fading.

“I’m home.”

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Ok my friend Imma gonna hit you up for some more 😜 Fic Roulette!!!

1. 6 and 16

2. 10 and 39!

Hehehe, I'm almost afraid to ask but yes, Hunter 😂

You did marvelous on the last ones! Can't wait to see what you'll do with these!!!

Ohhhh sweet @dragonrider9905 You thought you could stump me huh? Well you almost did. LOL. Just kidding.

I hope you enjoy both stories. This is 6 and 16.

Love oo,

Not Your Fault

Warnings: Feelings of guilt, mentions of death, fluff, grief, sadness, I think that's it. If I miss anything please let me know.

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Omega laughed as you tried to do a fishtail braid, “Sorry,  hun, I’m doing my best here, but it’s coming out a little …” you scrunch your face as you look at your handiwork, “Let’s just say if this was a real fish’s tail, this fish would be dead. Do you mind if I start over?”

“No. Go ahead.” She answered with patience and love, just happy to spend time with you.

“Alright.” 

So you set to remake the fishtail, yet, no matter how hard you tried, the tails didn’t look even or how Omega wanted them, and she couldn’t stop laughing, “Omega,” you laughed unable to hold back, “I’m trying to fix your hair, so hold still.”

It was about another hour when you had finally managed to get the tails to look like tails and to make them even enough they wouldn’t embarrass her, make her look odd or like a crazy person. She ran around telling her brothers about her fishtails and showing them off. 

You chuckled to yourself, slowly following her footsteps. However, you stopped midstep, your eyes focusing on Hunter sitting in his patio chair looking out over the water. There was a near blank expression on his face, yet his eyes held all his emotions. It broke your heart seeing him so … lost? Guilt-ridden? Maybe it was just overwhelming grief.  

After all, it hadn’t been long since Omega and Crosshair came back. Frankly, you were happy to have them back, especially after losing Tech. Everyone on Pabu felt his loss, and getting to know Crosshair had been challenging at first, yet Hunter somehow took on the responsibility of making sure Crosshair got along with everyone.

As each day progressed, the emotions in Hunter’s eyes were slowly becoming more and more overwhelming. It wasn’t hard to see he was still learning how to move on without Tech. How to live his life without his brother. 

You’ve suffered more than your fair share of losses, and you knew how difficult it was to just start living again. To start putting yourself back together without having that support you relied on so heavily. If anything, Hunter needed a friend first and foremost right now. 

Not wanting to disrupt his peace too much, you did what you could as you quietly walked over and sat beside him. 

Hunter didn’t flinch or react as you took your seat, he knew you were there, but he’d rather focus on the horizon, at the moment.

It was almost half an hour later, when you finally spoke up, “You okay? Caught you staring off into space again.”

His face turned to look at you, doing his best to give you a smile, even if it was half hearted. 

“I’m fine.”

It had been his go-to response lately. Everything was either ‘I’m fine,’ ‘I’m okay,’ or ‘I’m just tired.’ Honestly, you had to keep reminding yourself not to get upset with him, he and his family had been through a lot. More than most families and it didn’t help if all you were going to do was nag him. 

So you did what needed to be done. Find a way to get him talking. Whether you two would still remain friends after this conversation, was yet to be seen. But he needed this, whether he admitted it or not. 

“It’s not your fault you know,” you rested your clasped hands on the table as you looked at him.

“What’s not?”

“Losing Tech, Omega getting captured or even Crosshair choosing to stay with Empire for as long as he did before leaving them.”

He let out a vexed noise, “It is.”

“It’s not.” You told him emphatically. 

“You weren’t there.” 

His eyes narrowed as you talked about the unspoken topic that was never to be mentioned between the two of you. He knew you cared, it was evident by how you took care of them. Ever since they moved into the house beside yours, you were quick to offer any assistance. Helping Omega, cooking dinner, even giving a listening ear to whoever needed it and keeping what you had learned to yourself. 

However, he didn’t want you to be tainted with his failures. He wanted you to remain separate. 

“You’re right.” You nodded, as your eyes focused on the sunset, “I wasn’t there, but you know who was?” I turned to look at him and smiled, “Wrecker, Omega, Echo and Tech. I’ve spoken with Wrecker, Omega and Echo, and each one of them said Tech made a choice. It was a difficult situation and it was either he delayed the inevitable and you all got captured or killed, or … he’d make the ultimate sacrifice to ensure his family survived.” 

You reached over and took Hunter’s hand in yours, “Considering who Tech … was, do you think he would’ve been happy knowing you would’ve been captured because of him?”

He shook his head, as he let out a choked laugh, “No. No, he would’ve made us go over the scenario a thousand times to make sure we never let that happen again, and then he would’ve come up with a plan to enforce that.”

“And would he have blamed you for going to the outpost you went just to find information on Crosshair?”

“No. He … he was the first one to suggest it.”

You nodded, tightening your hold on his hand, “Then would it be right to say it was your fault? I mean Tech made the ultimate sacrifice for his family, that’s commendible and honourable. Don’t cheapen his sacrifice with your guilt.”

Hunter let out a long sigh as his free hand ran down his face, “If only it were that easy.”

“I know, it’s easy for someone like me … an outsider … to look in and tell you what you need to do; but as the person who lived it,” you smiled as you looked at him, “… you can just tell me to shut up and just hold your hand.” 

A small smile of understanding appeared on your face as you offered it to Hunter. 

“I’d never tell you to shut up.”

“Maybe I haven’t irritated you enough, yet.” You looked into his eyes letting him know you were there, as you squeezed his hand, “Hunter, nothing that happened was your fault. Omega getting captured was as Echo put it ‘an overwhelming amount of force.’ Crosshair choosing to join the Empire was no more your fault, than him choosing to leave the Empire.” You reached over brushing his hair back and tucking it behind his ear, as you cupped his cheek. “You can’t take on people’s choices or circumstances beyond your control, simply because you’re a Sergeant, or were a Sergeant. Life gives you no karking choice but to play the cards you’re dealt, and I for one, am glad you guys found your way into my life.”

He leaned into your hand holding it against his cheek, “Your friendship means more to me than you know.”

You smiled as you looked into his eyes, “I know. Your friendship means a lot too. Just … promise me, you’ll talk to me when you’re letting your emotions overwhelm you. If not me, at least someone. Please?”

“Alright, mesh’la. I promise.”

Hunter’s smile grew as he kept looking at you, even as you pulled your hand away. He’d been holding off on telling you how he felt for so long. However, he couldn’t hold back anymore, he was going to tell you.

“You know, one of these days, you’re going to have to tell me what mesh-a-la means.”

“I will,” he leaned forward, keeping your hand in his, “I promise.”

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[kararisa]

marigold promises

— 39. the day the world stopped moving (☕︎ = 0.8k words)

notes: and we're back to our regularly scheduled program~ hope you guys like the chapter ^^

The warmth of the sun on your skin, the gentle breeze that carries the scent of freshly cut grass and Sweet Flowers as you lay down on a soft picnic blanket underneath the protective shadow of the tall oak tree behind you. Yes, the perfect environment for a study session. 

Your laptop sits on your left, its screen slowly growing dim as you leave your lab report unattended. Sitting to your right is Albedo, who’s currently occupied with a textbook. Aside from the sounds of nature and the occasional sound of a turning page, courtesy of your study partner, it’s pretty quiet in this little corner of paradise. 

You take a breath, caught up in this brief moment of serenity. How you wish you could stay here for just a moment longer and forget about all your worries.

Alas, you can’t afford to grow careless. With the deadline for the internships that you’re eyeing fast approaching, you’ve been scrambling to try and finish up your applications while juggling with the multitude of group works and quizzes your classes keep handing out to you.

The closing of a book and rustling of papers to your right pulls you from your thoughts. You turn to Albedo, who, after pulling out a wire-bound sketchbook and a pencil, proceeds to sketch his surroundings.

His hair is in its usual updo, glowing golden as it catches the sunlight. Silhouetted by the golden light, he looks almost ethereal in the way his observant gaze scans the environment. Albedo taps the end of his pencil as he focuses on his surroundings, and he once again directs his attention back to his sketch.

You watch this cycle repeat itself a handful more times, your laptop screen now asleep, your lab report long forgotten as your study partner’s hand glides across his paper canvas.

His gaze drifts to you, and you suddenly feel very exposed.

Plastering on an easygoing smile, you ask him the first question on your mind in the hopes to draw his attention away from the fact that you were shamelessly staring at him. “What are you sketching?”

If he noticed you staring, he doesn’t show it when he answers, “Hold still, I’d like to sketch you as well.”

That… What the fuck, how do you even respond to that?

“Must be pretty bored if you can only think to draw me, Sunshine.” you retort.

Albedo lets out a small laugh, “I’m offended, Cupcake. I only sketch subjects that I find interesting.” 

You make every effort to conceal your astonishment, scoffing as you look him straight in the eye, “What, you want me to pose or something?”

He sighs, “Just stay comfortable.”

Laying down on the dirt, even when on a picnic blanket, is hardly the epitome of comfort. You shift your position, trying to relax and hide the growing blush on your cheeks.

You feel a hand on your shoulder, “If you tense up like that, your shoulders are gonna get stiff. Relax.”

“I am very relaxed, thank you very much,” you say, brushing off his hand

“You can tell me if you’re uncomfortable with me sketching you. Just say the word and I’ll stop.”

“It’s... It’s fine. Just sketch me already, will you?”

He shuffles closer to you, muttering under his breath. “So stubborn.”

You tell him to fuck off in response. 

The hour slips away unnoticed, and Albedo starts to pack up his things

“Let’s go,” he reaches out a hand to you, “I’m sure you don’t want to be late for labs.”

“We have thirty minutes, Sunshine.”

“Lawrence Hall is a ten-minute walk from here.”

“We can make that five minutes if we run.”

“Do you really want to sprint to class?”

“Wouldn’t be the first time we’ve done it.”

He gives you an unimpressed look, “Just get up, will you?”

But you had other plans.

In one swift motion you grab his hand tightly and pull him down. Albedo loses his footing and he tumbles on top of you.

For a split second, your faces stood inches apart, and you swear that the world stopped moving as you felt his warm breath on your lips. And right then and there, it felt like you were the only two people in the world and this moment was all that mattered.

His pale blonde hair frames his face, soft strands falling effortlessly across his forehead and brushing against your cheeks. Sunlight, streaming through the leaves of the tree above you, shimmers like a halo around his head.

Caught up in the moment, you gaze into his eyes. His teal eyes, full of warmth, stare into yours and reflect every emotion you’re feeling. Shock, apprehension, desire.

Albedo looks even more ethereal like this.

And he’s so close.

But he’s not close enough.

The moment passes just as quickly as it started, and you both scramble to your feet, almost as if you were afraid of what might happen if you stayed that way for even a moment longer.

Albedo avoids eye contact, reaching for his bag. “We should head to class.”

“Right.” The sense of longing is palpable in the air as you pack your things. And you swear that both of you were blushing.

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summary: it's been two years since you've been reunited with your childhood friend. while your rivalry has blossomed into something friendly, you can't exactly say the same for the way your heart skips a beat whenever albedo so much as looks at you. however, as the pressure to excel in your academics starts to burn you out, it begs the question: how much force can a person endure before they break?

author's notes:

and here's where Nilou joins the cousin roster

albeyn's love languages are banter and eye contact fr

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[spnexploration]

Collared part 38

Pairing: Dean x Reader eventually

Series summary: Sam and Dean save a woman from where she has been held as a slave by a witch. But things turn dark whenever they try to take her magic collar off, leaving them with a slave to look after and a curse to break.

Episode summary: You go for a run with Sam

Warnings: None

Word count: 1.6k

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Part 37 <- -> Part 39

Sam opened his bedroom door and was surprised to see you sitting on the floor opposite it. You looked up and hastily jumped to your feet when he saw you.

“Y/N? What's wrong?” he asked, worried. He wondered if Dean had done something to upset you, given you'd come to him not Dean.

“Umm, nothing’s wrong,” you said, a little awkwardly. He waited for you to go on, having found silence to be the best encourager. You were fidgeting with your hands, which he thought usually meant you were worried about what you were going to say. “Can I- umm- can I come with you on your run?”

That was it? He wondered. Why were you so scared to ask that? “Of course you can,” he said with a smile, trying to reassure you. It did make sense about why you'd come to him now.

“I, umm, I don't think I'll be as fast as you,” you muttered, looking at your feet. Ah, he thought, perhaps this was the reason for your hesitation.

“Hey, it's ok, we’ll go as fast or slow as you need to. I can always go again later if I really want to.”

You nodded, looking pleased. He noticed you were already in exercise gear, despite it being quite early. “How long were you waiting out here for me?”

“Uh, probably longer than I’d like to admit,” you joked.

“You sure everything's ok?”

“I'm fine, just wanna go for a run and don't want to scare Dean again.”

He'd wondered when Dean would come up. He might see if you'd talk more on the run.

“Ok, let's see what you've got, Bambi. I'll send Dean a text to tell him where you've gone.”

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“So, is there a reason for the sudden interest in running?” Sam asked while he jogged alongside you. “Or have you always been keen and we were depriving you?” he joked.

“Oh, depriving, obviously,” you laughed. “Nah, I was never a huge one for running, but I thought I might need it now.”

He had a feeling he was getting close to your reason, but he didn't want to spook you and stop you from opening up. So he replied in an interested but casual tone of voice, “Oh? Why’s that?”

“Just, umm, just in case I need it.”

He looked at you sideways. That wasn’t really an answer and he knew you knew it. He waited. Your pace had slowed and he was walking alongside you now.

“For, umm... Forwhenyougoonhunts.”

It was hard to distinguish your words, but he thought he understood what you were saying. “You're worried about us going hunting again?” he asked gently.

“Umm, well, I'm not sure if worried is quite the right word... I mean, yes, a bit. But, umm...” you trailed off. He waited patiently.

“I don't want to be a burden,” you said very, very quietly.

He stopped walking and reached out to tug gently on your arm so that you would stop too. He tugged again until you faced him. “Believe me when I say, you are not a burden,” he said sincerely.

“I'm stopping you two from hunting,” you said with a choke in your voice.

“Did Dean say something?” He couldn't imagine Dean calling you a burden, but he could easily imagine him saying something that you'd interpreted that way. You had a tendency to see the worst in statements and Dean had a tendency to speak with his temper.

“No, no. But I'm sick of being the damsel in distress, only able to go outside with my bodyguards-come-minders, and getting in the way all the time at home. Not to mention stopping you from doing your jobs .”

“We don't think of you like that at all,” he said sincerely. He tried to wrack his brains for anything he or Dean had done recently that might have led to this. “Is this about when Dean got mad when you went outside? Or the weapons cache?”

“No, it's not really any one thing. Well, I mean, I guess the fact I couldn't even remember to pay for pants without Dean stepping in...”

“You're going to make mistakes, you were under a mind control spell and enslaved. But you can also learn from them, I bet you'll never make that mistake again.”

“But that's just it, I'm sick of needing supervision! I was an absolute mess the last time you guys went hunting, and you haven't done it again. There are people out there not being saved because I am incompetent!”

He opened his arms, wanting to hug you but giving you the choice to come to him. It seemed to him like there were two issues here – your worry about them not hunting, and then another, perhaps deeper and more strongly held, lack of self-confidence.

You took a step forward and leant against his chest. He wrapped his arms around you and held you close, grateful you were willing to accept his comfort.

You pulled away and he let you go, his hands hovering near you a few seconds longer than strictly necessary as he gauged whether you might be unsteady on your feet. Old habits die hard, and his protective mannerisms towards you were certainly in that basket.

“Dean and I had discussed when we might start hunting again,” he started, mildly concerned how this conversation was going to go with you. Two weeks ago and you'd probably have started screaming at him already. “But we don't want to rush things with you. We've been sending hunts that we see to other hunters we know, so people are being saved even if we're not there.”

“What about the hunts those hunters would've been on otherwise,” you said sullenly. “And aren't you two, I dunno, particularly good at hunting? Surely not everyone has an angel at their beck and call and an underground giant lair.”

Sam didn't want to lie to you, but he also didn't really want to brag or escalate your feelings of being in the way. “Uh, ok, yes, we’re fairly good at our jobs.”

“And you want to get back to it.”

His heart wrenched. “Eventually, yes.”

“What do you mean ‘eventually’? It's been weeks and the only people you've hunted have been for me.”

Sam thought it was debatable whether Dean had wanted to get Azaneth so badly for you or because of what he'd done to you, but he wasn’t going to say that. “Healing takes time, not to mention that for half of that you still had a collar.”

“My point is that I am stopping you. You can't argue, it's true.”

This was going in circles. He decided to change tact, “You said you wanted to go for a run so you were ready. Is there anything else you've been thinking about?”

“Well, you guys don't like leaving me because I'm too useless, so-”

“Whoa, whoa, you are not useless.” He was right, it was the underlying lack of self-confidence. He put his hands on your shoulders. “I will take you running with me if you want it. I will, and I'm sure Dean will too, teach you anything you want to know, anything that you're interested in or that makes you feel safer. But I will not do it if you’re doing it because you think we need to see that. If you think you need to prove something to us, because you don’t.”

Tears gathered in your eyes and you brushed them away. “Thanks, Sam.”

“You have a think about if there's anything you want to do for you, and we will make it happen.”

You leant forward and gave him a hug again. He knew his words wouldn't fix things overnight, but he was pleased they seemed to have landed well with you for now.

“Dean's going to think I'm slower than a tortoise if we take any more time,” you joked, gesturing to the track. He chuckled and started jogging alongside you again.

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“What's up, Bambi?” Dean looked up from his phone to ask, as you walked into the room.

“Can we, umm, try again with the gun? I thought about bringing one to you to ask but I didn't want to make you think I was threatening you, and I know it went badly last time but I think I'll be ok this time, but I'm sorry in advance if I’m not, but I-”

“Sweetheart, relax. You're rambling. Of course I will show you how to use a gun again.”

You gave him a small smile. It made your whole face light up.

“You wanna do it now?”

“Only if that's not inconvenient to you.”

“I look like I'm solving world hunger over here or something?” he said, gesturing to his phone in his hand. “I'm just doom scrolling.”

“Doom scrolling?”

“When the world is going to shit and you’re just scrolling social media and shit.”

“Right, well, can't say I know much about that.”

“Fuck! We never got you a proper phone. Right, let's do guns now and then when Sammy’s done making lunch, make him do some research with you on what kind of phone you want.”

You were staring at him incredulously. “Uh, if you wanna do that first I guess I can take over from Sam in the kitchen...” he said with a lot less confidence, not really sure what it was he'd done wrong but hoping that would fix it.

“No, no, I don't mind waiting. I just... That wasn't the reaction I was expecting. I didn't really think about a phone at all, haven't used one in so long.”

“Yeah, that's on me.”

“Dean, you don't have to take everything as your fault.”

“You been getting some speaking points from Sam?”

You laughed. “Come on, show me how to fail at loading a gun again.”

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[megthemewlingquim]

wasteland, baby! | one: an eternity of sand

Summary: Striken with encephilitis lethargica, the 'sleepy sickness', you are stuck in dreams: an endless desert.

Pairing: Dream of the Endless x Reader

Warnings: vomiting

A/N: This chapter contains some dialogue from "The Sandman" #39 "Soft Places", written by Neil Gaiman.

It is here that you will meet Morpheus.

I will reitorate that there are MAJOR SPOILERS for The Sandman graphic novel series here. If you have not read "Fables and Reflections", "Brief Lives", "The Kindly Ones", and "The Wake", I would recommend you wait to read this until you have done so.

read the previous chapter: prologue

wasteland, baby! masterlist

You’ve been in the sand for years. Or, has it been weeks? Months? Days? It feels like… like…

You don’t know anymore. Time is meaningless, and your mind is mush. All you know is sand and sun and burning and nothing. The sand whips at you, tears at your face. The air is hot, scorching desert wind. The sweat drips down your face and you sink down onto your knees.

Which way is East?

You look up, squinting at the light. The sun is high in the cloudless sky, right at the center. You would think it’s 12 noon, if not for the fact that it has been 12 noon for days. Months. Years?

You’ve been checking the sun for that long, too. Or, at least, that’s what it feels like. You’re going mad, aren’t you? There is no time. No self. You are a formless, nameless puddle of flesh, stuck in an endless world of sand and sun.

You know you’re going to die here.

Can you die here?

Can… Can you… die?

You want to. It would be so easy, wouldn’t it? Just lay in the sand and let it swallow you up. Let it wrap you in a warm blanket and let yourself sleep.

Sleep.

Sleep.

You jolt up, your eyes stinging with tears. “Oh…” you gasp. “Oh.” You laugh, breathlessly, in a mad fit of relief and hysteria. “I’m dreaming, aren’t I?” You stand up, stumbling a bit in the fragile mounds of sand at your feet.

“I’m dreaming!” you shout, tears streaming down your face. “Hahaha! I can just wake up! Wake up!”

Nothing happens. Nothing about the world changes. The sand still drifts, the sun still shines, and the sky remains that crystal blue. All you hear is the whipping of sand around you.

Your stomach turns. The world spins. The dread sets in.

You scream into the sky. The sound echoes and fills the air around you, carried by the wind. It’s the solitude, the unbearable fact that you are alone in this endless world of nothing. Your throat burns with thirst, your stomach aches with hunger. And you are alone.

You are going to die here.

There you are, says a voice behind you. A deep, masculine voice that’s more solid than the sound of the sand in your ears. I’ve been worried about you.

I’m insane. I’m dying in this place and my mind is giving me one last dream.

That’s the most sound-of-mind you’ve been in… years?

Dream. A small hum of amusement. You could say that.

"Dream," you muse, staying perfectly still. You don't dare turn around. "What…?"

Is this where you've been all this time? This new person sounds… sad. Hurt, but not by anything you could’ve done �� somehow, you know that. It’s been five years since I’ve returned from my imprisonment, and yet… I have not seen you in my realm. And you’ve spent much more time in my realm than most mortals nowadays. He pauses. It has been one hundred and ten years. That would make you three hundred and eighty five years of age, wouldn’t it?

All of this information is bombarding your brain. But yes, he’s correct… as far as you know. Something in his voice tells you that he knows that fact with one hundred percent certainty. And so, you are certain, then, that you are three hundred and eighty five years of age.

You have spent one hundred and ten years in the sands.

Your stomach jolts again and you heave, retching onto the golden sands in painful, lurching gasps. The bile is minimal, hot and yellow and liquid. It burns your throat and makes tears spring into your eyes. But you're crying for more reasons than this.

"What… the hell… is going on?" you gasp, when you stop.

I do not know. I am sorry.

It is then that you realize you still haven't turned around. Standing up awkwardly, wiping your mouth with your sleeve and turning around, you see a thin man with a shock of black hair, wearing a black cloak.

His jawline is razor sharp and his skin is deathly pale. His eyes, you notice, are a watery color; you cannot place if they are gray or blue or both. You see a singular white star in each one — and there is so much… of something… there in that small pinprick of light. You feel a deep shiver within you… you know, suddenly, that this is no ordinary man. He is a being, an entity, one that has seen too much for an ordinary mind to comprehend. He is old, older than gods, older than worlds, older than universes… And this being knows you, knows you more intimately and more completely than you'd ever think possible. It is beautiful and terrifying: he can see right through you, he can see your every thought and every hope and every dream.

Dream.

Dream.

"Oh… you're… you're him, aren't you?" you whisper, remembering the words of both Lady Johanna Constantine and Orpheus. "Dream of the Endless."

His eyebrows raise a little. I did not expect you to know. But yes, I am. Tell me, how would a mortal such as yourself come to know of the Endless?

"Lady Johanna Constantine," you say. "She let me know a little bit about you. She said she performed a task for you that nearly cost her her head."

Is it your imagination, or does a shadow of grief come across the Dream Lord's face?

That is true, yes, he says softly, looking down at his feet. She did.

"She rescued your son."

In an instant, Dream's eyes are back up, meeting your own with a fierceness that chills your blood and makes you lose your breath. There are many things behind his eyes now — anger, grief, confusion… dread… — but again, you know he is not feeling any of these things towards you. Despite this, it's still a gaze that you would rather not be a recipient of.

You know of my son? His breath trembles.

You don't want to answer him, but something inside you tells you that you must. For him. "Orpheus."

The very mention of Orpheus's name reveals a physical change in Dream — he seems to shrink, to curl up into himself. Tears shine in his eyes, now, but he quickly blinks them away. Yes, he whispers, in a voice that is as soft and fragile as a butterfly's wing. Orpheus.

"Something's wrong," you say, noticing this immediately. "I'm sorry to have upset you."

It is no matter. I only wish that things had been different between us.

He doesn't — wouldn't — want to speak of it further, you can tell. You ignore the sinking feeling in your heart… I liked Orpheus, you think, when I met him back in Paris. I wonder what happened to him.

Dream has a necklace on — a beautiful red stone framed with an elegant gold border, all trailing on a golden chain. It glints faintly in the sunlight… and then it's gone. The necklace and the ruby appear and disappear at random — and then it becomes a green stone, an emerald. The meaning of this is lost to you, but Dream notices your curious gaze and looks down.

Ah, he says, the tempest of emotion slowly leaving his face and voice. Time is meaningless here. This ruby is no longer existent. The emerald, however… that is different… He pauses, deep in thought. I have not had a dreamstone in five years. Perhaps…

Dream shakes his head. No matter. Shall we proceed in your rescue?

He does not wait to hear your response. He bends down and picks up a fistful of sand, letting the grains fall through his fingers.

Hold out your hands.

You do so. The grains are soft and warm on your palms. The sand slips through your fingers as well as his… but the sand doesn’t stop flowing…

Thunder rumbles, faintly, but you see no clouds in the giant, endless blue sky. Storms are coming, you think, in a voice that is very different to your own.

Dream’s expression shifts into one of amusement. He does not smile, but his eyes are bright. I did this once for a Marco Polo. I am beginning to see him, now, in your place, just as you have seen me, flickering and fading into someone entirely different. And perhaps you are thinking what he thought, all those years ago. But you need not fear when I am with you. I am taking you away from here.

You find yourself looking at the grains of sand, amazed and awed by the fact that you can see each and every one, and they form shapes and patterns in your mind. I am truly dreaming. They... are patterns. Dreams and sands and stories. Deserts and cities and time. The patterns make up a landscape in your mind and you are utterly absorbed into them. You have no idea what you’re thinking… or if it’s even you thinking... I’ll never forget this, I’ll never forget what I’ve learned here.

Dream’s voice echoes in your mind now. You can no longer see him. It sounds like he’s smiling. We shall go to another shifting place. But this one will not harm you.

The world goes dark.

[teecupangel]

Your vamp au made me howl with laugher.

And I get a stupid idea here:

Purrrfect@always_purfect

I don't know about m＊thrfuking vampires but I think this dude really has some power. It's the FORCE！People! Sith is real！

You guys are with me? Yes? I know this is not the normal shit I do or normal fake news I enjoyed so much to tear apart while laughing like crazy.

After 6 fuxking hours video comparison with 3 more hours debates with every SW YouTubers and VTubers we can gathered at the moment.

It's goddamned real.

The vamp lover's eye color changed from honeybrown to sith gold in the 48 different videos and photos we could found.

From 32 phones, 6 photos, 5 shop cameras, 3car cameras and 2 honest to force Polaroid photos. If you have more video, send it to me！

From his ehh passioned defense of his bestfriend-it's on the Brazil national News- we can found a base color and even then they flashed gold when surrounding lights didn't change at all.

Look at these [1：27 from video2][0：43 from video8][6：05 from video39]. You can see his eye color changed to gold even in the shadows, yeah they were totally glowing The first time I thought it's reflect too. But they didn't change back to honey when he turned around to face [3：14 from video 11] and they just keep going all sith-y when he decided to make a run for it. *[Check for more traditional sith eye color and video lights detail analysis]*

How could we be so sure it's force？

Our (probably not) young Sith Lord wasn't touched by any person when he raced trough the whole mob.

Turned left at third blue guard bar 0.23s early to avoid a grab from a redhood male from behind. Keep his pace and dance though at least 5 intentionaltripping without looking at all. Dropped back 2 inches so a kid next to him didn't lost his balloon because their parents were trying too hard to get a good angle. Dogged at least 12 throwing projects. And so on. I could keep going all day about how it's impossible for human to do what he did. Our pitiful brain just do not have the processing power and spatial awareness for this.*[Check for more kinematic analysis ]*

But the truth is:

Not a single soul could touch him at all. If he's not a chairvoyance, the Force will it is the only answer.

# First real time video record of eagle vision in the human history and it's Desmond running from Leovamp fans # # Sith Lord Eyes#

@fanworldbuildingfun Okay. I did not expect a Star Wars conspiracy angle but I'm all in.

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@revengeofthesithwasagoodmovie reblogs @always_purfect

#anyone who has a better explanation to why his eyes glow like that step up #it's the camera setting is not a good enough explanation and y'all know it! #da vinci vampire lover #leonardo da vinci #da vinci secret lover not-salai #wanted da vinci boy #abstergo being shady af

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We've done it, guys. The Star Wars fandom has joined our search for our Da Vinci Vampire Lover. We've reached main stream. - 39 minutes ago

I thought we reached main stream when news outlets were talking about him? - 37 minutes ago

Nah. We only reach main stream when the Star Wars or Star Trek fandom joins us. - 36 minutes ago

How many days do you think before the SuperWhoLock fandom butts in? - 35 minutes ago

- 35 minutes ago

HOOOOWWW????? - 34 minutes ago

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yo @iamnotmyancestor you can clear this all up, man. Just send us a video of you saying you're not a sith. We all know you're a vampire.

hi @iamnotmyancestor are you a space vampire? (asking for a friend)

hey @iamnotmyancestor where do force lightning come from?

@iamnotmyancestor i swear this isn't star wars related, i need help with my term paper? halp???

"Can everybody please stop calling Da Vinci vampire lover space vampire? We call the white dudes from Stargate space vampire and he's too hot to be one" "I think Todd is hot" "Nobody asks, @toddthespacevampirelover"

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"Hey, guys... Am I a Sith?"

"No, Desmond. You're just a space vampire."

[ayn-alwyns]

Doppelganger - JP Dub [6:23]

Time: A Lazy Afternoon. Location: Recording Studio. “Have you ever seen another version of yourself from another world?” All I could think about now was the story, the future, and the time I’m spending by his side.

[00:00]

*BUGS AND BIRDS CHIRPING, CAR PULLS UP*

[00:14]

Is there another version of me there? Why do you ask that out of nowhere? *SHUFFLING NOISES*

[00:36]

*SOFT SCOFF* I don’t believe it. It’s fine as a story, as a little play we put on. *CHUCKLE* To be honest, there’s no way it can be true.

[00:53]

How am I so sure? I… I just am. Hypothetically… Even if there exists another version of me, I’d kidnap him. I’d send him back home to take care of that mess.

[01:20]

*FRIDGE OPENING AND CLOSING, GLASSES CLINKING TOGETHER* As for me, I can now do whatever I want.

[01:35]

*OPENS SODA CAN* What do I want to do? You’ve answered it for me already.

[01:47]

*HUMS* Why are you staring at the piano? Come back. The answer’s not going to be that cliche. Besides, I would never touch an instrument when I’m eating. It is a matter of principle.

[02:12]

There are a lot of things I want to do. There are a lot that I don’t want to do as well.

[02:22]

*BAG CRINKLING* Hmm… And… Here.

[02:40]

*CRUNCHING SFX* To stop you from talking, of course. That way, you’d stop with the annoying questions.

[02:52]

*SWALLOWING SFX, SOFT SIGH* Back to your previous question… If I could plant a seed… If I could gain many copies fo myself… One would be in charge of handling my family. Another to work and earn money. One more would be sent out to attend classes for me.

[03:22]

*CHEWING SFX* Then… All the boring chores would be taken care of by someone else. Hm? What’s so funny?

[03:39]

It was your question. This is my answer… Yet you laugh at me. You’re terrible.

[03:54]

Wipe your mouth. It’s all over your face. You missed a spot…

[04:10]

*SHUFFLING CLOSER* *SOFT INHALE* Done. If you’re done eating… We can talk about your last question.

[04:30]

Even if every copy has the same soul… We will be different due to our different experiences. Identical states only exist in games. In reality… You can’t just copy and paste something. Every leaf is different. Humans are the same.

[05:00]

Hm? Games? I’ve played quite a few. Yes, I have.

[05:16]

*SOFT CHUCKLE* Sure, I have great reflexes, though. Don’t say I didn’t warn you. You can bring it along to our next meeting.

[05:33]

*SHUFFLING SFX* Wait! Hm, every time you ask me a question like this… You always end up painting something strange.

[05:58]

Never mind. Sure. You can show me. It’s a date.

[wtfuckevenknows]

More kiss prompts for you 💋 13, 19, 29, 36 and 39, please 😁😁😁 (yes, I want you to never stop writing these 😏😏)

Nooooooxy 💖 I love you always, but I love you even more now for giving me more kiss prompts (even though I still think you're insane for sending that many). You're getting one now, the other three later and I have done 39: a kiss because time's run out here.

19: a kiss for luck 

If someone would have told TK that he would be more nervous than his husband, he would have laughed at them. 

But as Carlos was driving himself to the detective exam (TK might be a passenger princess but he DID offer to drive), TK could feel himself become more and more anxious.  

Once parked in front of the building the exam would take place in, Carlos unbuckled before turning towards TK with a tiny smirk on his face. “If I didn't know any better, I’d think your nerves mean that you think I’ll fail this exam.”

“NO,” TK basically shouted in horror, while Carlos openly laughed at him. “I know you can do it, you’ve done so much detective work already and you studied so hard! I just really want this for you.” 

“I know, babe, I was just messing with you.” Carlos looked at the time displayed on the dash of the Camaro, saying “I’ve got to head in. I’ll text you when I’m done.” 

TK leaned over the console to give his husband a kiss for luck. Carlos left the car keys with TK, who rolled down the window on his side as Carlos made his way towards the building, yelling an encouraging “You can do it, babe! Go get 'em,” after him.

Carlos turned around with a smile on his lips and blew TK a kiss, before walking up the stairs and disappearing into the building. 

TK had planned to just stay in the car and play around on his phone while he waited but he needed to get rid of the nervous energy that had taken a hold of his body, so he too got out of the car and walked around a nearby park until Carlos texted him.

You can find the other prompt fills here or on ao3.

Send me a Ship and a Number and I will Write a Kiss

[orchid-harmony]

alright. i am getting my revenge.

1, 2, 3, 4, 5, 6, 7, 8, 9, 10, 11, 12, 13, 14, 15, 16, 17, 18, 19, 20, 21, 22, 23, 24, 25, 26, 27, 28, 29, 30, 31, 32, 33, 34, 35, 36, 37, 38, 39, 40, 41, 42, 43, 44, 45, 46, 47, 48, 49, 50

🤭💕

Questions 1, 8, 17, 31, 35, and 44 have been answered but here is the link!!

C!Orchid's response:

Q: "Do they wear perfume/cologne? If so what scents do they prefer?" A: "No, I don't wear any perfume nor cologne."

Q: "Do they enjoy cooking?" A: "Yeah, it's fun to do."

Q: "Do they enjoy baking?" A: "Yeah, same with cooking but it also calms down my social anxiety."

Q: "Do they have any tattoos? If so what are they and do they have any special meaning?" A: "No, I don't have any tattoos, just not interest in them and I don't like needles."

Q: "If they were badly injured, and for whatever reason couldn't go to a hospital, who would they go to for help?" A: "I would probably go to Becky."

Q: "Do they have any unusual fears?" A: "I don't think so?"

Q: "When they're sick what do they do to feel better?" A: "I would make myself some soup to make me feel better."

Q: "Do they have any regrets?" A: "I mean, yeah, sometimes I wished I could take back some of my actions that I did in the past."

Q: "Do they have any addictions?" A: "Yeah, I have a sugar addiction. Usually gets to the point that both Brick and Becky have to hide the sugar, mostly Becky since she can just grow and put the sugar in a high place."

Q: "Do they have any sense of style? Regardless of the answer do they believe they have a sense of style?" A: "I don't think I do, I just wear sleeveless shirts with shorts when I'm not outside. But when I'm outside, I just wear my Blue jacket with my sleeveless shirt and some comfortable pants."

Q: "Do they enjoy poetry?" A: "I never really understood poetry."

Q: "Do they have a hard time opening up to people?" A: "I mean, that's what both Becky and Brick say."

Q: "What kind of sense of humor do they have? Or do they have one at all?" A: "I sometimes say things out of nowhere that causes people to laugh."

Q: "Do they have or want kids?" A: "No, and probably never will."

Q: "How easy is it to become their enemy?" A: "Depends on what they have done to me."

Q: "How easy is it to become their friend?" A: "Not too easy."

Q: "Do they have a strong connection to their culture?" A: "Not too much."

Q: "What is more important to them, friends or family?" A: "Friends, but I do view Brick and Becky as family."

Q: "Would they ever betray someone for money?" A: "Not really, unless it's a stranger, then yeah."

Q: "How would they want to die?" A: "I would like to die not alone, I feel like it would be the worst feeling to die alone."

Q: "Do they have any enemies?" A: "Not really, but Brick says that I'm too much of a pacifist to have any."

Q: "Do they have any daily/nightly routines?" A: "Yeah, trying to finish my work but either Brick or Becky have to pull me out of it since I'm what they call a workaholic and put myself through too much stress."

Q: "Have they met any of their heroes? Did they regret it?" A: "Yeah, Becky, and I still don't regret meeting her!"

Q: "Has a chance encounter ever had an unexpected effect on them?" A: "Yeah, meeting both Brick and Becky has made my life a lot more easier, now I have the free time that I always wished."

Q: "Are they a #gamer?" A: "No, never really took interest in gaming."

Q: "If they were ever real would you be friends with them?" Creator A: "Yes, a million times yes."

Q: "If they had the chance to be famous would they take it? If they are famous would they rather they weren't?" A: "No, don't really like that much attention on me."

Q: "If they could change one thing about themselves what would it be?" A: "Having the ability to stand up for myself."

Q: "Do they play ttrpgs? If so what kind of characters do they play? Or are they more likely to GM?" A: "As I say, I don't play games."

Q: "How well do they deal with grief?" A: "Not really well."

Q: "Would they ever kill someone? Have they already?" A: "No."

Q: "Are they religious? If so do they have a strong sense of faith, are they uncertain, or are they somewhere in between?" A: "No, I'm not religious."

Q: "What are their dreams like? Do they have any recurring dreams/nightmares?" A: "My dreams are calm, mostly just me sitting on a small hill. Sometimes I do have recurring dreams/nightmares."

Q: "Would they ever crash a wedding?" A: "No, that would be disrespectful."

Q: "If they found a sword in a stone would they try to pull it out? How would they react to being able to pull it out or not?" A: "I would just leave it there."

Q: "Do they learn from their mistakes?" A: "Most of the time."

Q: "Can they speak multiple languages? If yes which all do they speak and why?" A: "Well, I can speak both Fennec Fox language and English."

Q: "Can they handle stressful situations?" A: "Nope."

Q: "Do they plan in advance or just wing it?" A: "I plan for things in case anything goes wrong."

Q: "Would they lie to get out of trouble?" A: "Depends on the situation."

Q: "Would they lie to get someone else out of trouble? Even if they would have to take that someone else's place?" A: "Depends on the person."

Q: "How likely are they to go on a request for revenge?" A: "Depends on what that person did to my friends."

Q: "Do they have any trouble keeping their enemies and their friends straight?" A: "Huh?"

Q: "What is your favorite thing about them?" Creator A: "C!Orchid's kindness."

[bluntzzz]

1. What would you like to say to the FIRST person you kissed this year?

I say whatever I want to him every day lol, but for the sake of question, I love you!

2. What is the last reason you cried?

My mom is very mean!

3. Where is your cell phone?

To my immediate left.

Maybe not finishing college LOL, but if I did, I would not be here today.

5. Did you like NSYNC or Backstreet Boys?

Neither really. Now I like both!

6. Britney Spears or Christina Aguilera?

Britney.

8. Where did you sleep last night?

In my bed.

9. What time did you go to sleep last night?

Pfft midnight?

10. What woke you up today?

Kyle snoring :P

11. What is one thing you wish people didn’t do?

Lie.

12. Are you excited for the future?

Sure.

13. Your ex shows up randomly at your house, you say?

I would not answer the door, for anyone really.

14. Your boyfriend/girlfriend cheats on you with your best friend, you say?

Although unlikely, I don’t think I would say anything. Maybe a good fuck you to both of them lol.

15. Do you have any weird inside jokes?

Heaps.

16. Liquor or Beer?

Liquor.

18. When was the last time someone yelled at you?

Good question. Thankfully its been a while.

19. I am _________ .

Hungry and ready to go home!

21. Have you ever tried to break someone up?

I don’t think so.

22. When is the last time you talked to your best friend?

Hm, kyle is my partner and my best friend, we talked this morning. My non-partner best friend, we texted yesterday I think.

23. Have you done anything you regret this year so far?

Nope.

24. Where is your best friend?

Kyle is probably on his way to pick me up from work now. 😊

27. Who was the last person to make you laugh?

Kyle.

28. Anything annoying you right now?

Being in the office is innately annoying.

29. Is there any emotion you’re trying to avoid right now?

Yes. Im trying really hard not to be sad and depressed about the state of the relationship with my mom.

30. Who has your heart?

Kyle.

32. Have you done anything embarrassing lately?

Of course lol, but I don’t get embarrassed by it. Anything that could be embarrassing makes me laugh.

33. Do people make fun of your nationality?

I mean, I used to get made fun of for being really pale, which is derivative of my nationality, right?

34. Do you eat more than you should?

Sure lol.

35. Do you smoke?

Cannabis, yes.

36. Who’s the last person of the opposite sex to hug you?

Kyle.

37. Last time you shoplifted?

Lmao man, on purpose, a long time ago. About two months ago, I accidentally did not pay for some paper towels or something and no one noticed lol.

38. What will you name your future son?

No future son, no future kids! Kyle already has a son lol.

39. What will you name your future daughter?

NONE.

41. What is your favorite number?

8.

42. What gets you happy?

Kyle, my dog, my cats, lofi, video games, painting my nails.

43. Where were you at 11:45 pm Last Night?

Yes or on my way.

44. Is the person you like older or younger than you?

Younger, by 4 months.

45. Ever talked to someone that was high?

Lmao yes.

46. How tall is the person you like? Shorter or taller?

Taller, by like 2-3 inches.

47. Did you have a dream last night?

Yes. I don’t remember details but I know it was a turbulent dream about my family, ugh the worst!

48. Last comment you left someone?

Idk lol.

49. Do you have a Facebook?

Yes.

50. What do you think about the last person that you stole this from?

I do not know them.

4. What was the worst mistake of your life?

Maybe not finishing college LOL, but if I did, I would not be here today.

5. Did you like NSYNC or Backstreet Boys?

Neither really. Now I like both!

6. Britney Spears or Christina Aguilera?

Britney.

8. Where did you sleep last night?

In my bed.

9. What time did you go to sleep last night?

Pfft midnight?

10. What woke you up today?

Kyle snoring :P

11. What is one thing you wish people didn’t do?

Lie.

12. Are you excited for the future?

Sure.

13. Your ex shows up randomly at your house, you say?

I would not answer the door, for anyone really.

14. Your boyfriend/girlfriend cheats on you with your best friend, you say?

Although unlikely, I don’t think I would say anything. Maybe a good fuck you to both of them lol.

15. Do you have any weird inside jokes?

Heaps.

16. Liquor or Beer?

Liquor.

18. When was the last time someone yelled at you?

Good question. Thankfully its been a while.

19. I am _________ .

Hungry and ready to go home!

21. Have you ever tried to break someone up?

I don’t think so.

22. When is the last time you talked to your best friend?

Hm, kyle is my partner and my best friend, we talked this morning. My non-partner best friend, we texted yesterday I think.

23. Have you done anything you regret this year so far?

Nope.

24. Where is your best friend?

Kyle is probably on his way to pick me up from work now. 😊

27. Who was the last person to make you laugh?

Kyle.

28. Anything annoying you right now?

Being in the office is innately annoying.

29. Is there any emotion you’re trying to avoid right now?

Yes. Im trying really hard not to be sad and depressed about the state of the relationship with my mom.

30. Who has your heart?

Kyle.

32. Have you done anything embarrassing lately?

Of course lol, but I don’t get embarrassed by it. Anything that could be embarrassing makes me laugh.

33. Do people make fun of your nationality?

I mean, I used to get made fun of for being really pale, which is derivative of my nationality, right?

34. Do you eat more than you should?

Sure lol.

35. Do you smoke?

Cannabis, yes.

36. Who’s the last person of the opposite sex to hug you?

Kyle.

37. Last time you shoplifted?

Lmao man, on purpose, a long time ago. About two months ago, I accidentally did not pay for some paper towels or something and no one noticed lol.

38. What will you name your future son?

No future son, no future kids! Kyle already has a son lol.

39. What will you name your future daughter?

NONE.

41. What is your favorite number?

8.

42. What gets you happy?

Kyle, my dog, my cats, lofi, video games, painting my nails.

43. Where were you at 11:45 pm Last Night?

Yes or on my way.

44. Is the person you like older or younger than you?

Younger, by 4 months.

45. Ever talked to someone that was high?

Lmao yes.

46. How tall is the person you like? Shorter or taller?

Taller, by like 2-3 inches.

47. Did you have a dream last night?

Yes. I don’t remember details but I know it was a turbulent dream about my family, ugh the worst!

48. Last comment you left someone?

Idk lol.

49. Do you have a Facebook?

Yes.

50. What do you think about the last person that you stole this from?

I do not know them.

[nataliesnews]

Imbala (israeli Imbala) and the demonstration today at the Knesse

---------- Forwarded message --------- From: Natalie Ginsburg <natanyag@gmail.com> Date: Sat, Dec 31, 2022 at 9:39 AM Subject: Imbala (israeli Imbala) and the demonstration today at the Knesset To:

 Please let me know if you are getting this with the BCC working or if I still have a problem with everyone’s names appearing.

 Also I have been asked to underline so that people can see what they want to read and I have done so 

 I do have a life besides demonstrations, etc. I saw a wonderful performance from the London Theater of Much Ado about nothing.....very modern and great. I am having a breakfast for some people at Nofim Saturday and Sunday, my friends will come to raise a glass in honour ...or not ...of the year to come. And next week I am going to Haifa as I am going to Dubai and will be going with Shosh and her friend who lives in Jerusalem. Besides that to  a movie at Van Leer and an Arabic lesson and one about is God a woman and of course he is not as anyone knows who has to find a bush in the field. But, yes, things are so bad here that most of 

my thoughts are caught up with our politics. I do not understand how so many of my friends can live in  their little cocoons. Don't they understand that eventually all this will have recussions on them and on their children? One woman said to me, very self righteous,  I look after my family and my friends.Please

 So last night I went to Imbala...not the Somerset West one....and if anyone can give me the meaning of the word I will be happy. A cafe/club frequented by the young people of the demonstrations Very small place but when I come in I always get a place. Last night I was by far the oldest person there and at least 50 years older than most of the people. I didn't even have Varda Heled for old age support. The evening was about what to do if someone is injured. What interested me was that evidently if you land up in a gas attack milk is very good for cleaning the eyes and face with cotton wool. 

 But I unintentionally made them laugh. I was by  far the oldest person in the room. Varda Heled had not come with me. There must have been at least 40 years between me and the oldest other person. I remembered  that  we were told by a rabbi that a young man in the Second World war was saved on Yom Kippur because he had to have an emergency operation. Had he eaten and drunk that day, the operation would have been much more difficult and I wanted to ask what about giving someone water. But when I mentioned the Second World War the whole room including the lecturer erupted in laughter. And I of course laughed with them.

 I also had a young man come up to me and tell me that he was a friend of Evan Gorstein. Isaac Johnston. But what was interesting was that he is  here with a group called Extend and that they are connected to a group in South Africa...I think he said JDI...I just looked it up     Just Detention International. Anyone have contact with them?

 And today  about three thousands of people  came to the Knesset to demonstrate at the new government of criminals and those who shirk army service by devious means. My friend, Lea, who takes me to the bridge on Saturdays gave me a lift and we parked far from the road which leads up to the Knesset. We knew not even buses would be allowed in but what we did not expect that we would not be allowed to go in the usual way but were sent on a detour of about 4 kilometre with no warning. Some of the women tried to speak to the police that they should at least let me through but they are autistic in every way. I also said to the woman not to bother to ask for anything for them. Later I said to another group who were standing and laughing as we went past that I hope to see them in the Hague. 

   The police were out in full force and they had also brought in their horses. We were relegated to a place where we could hardly be seen by the filth driving in. But the crowd was well behaved and did not give the police a chance to use their favourite weapon, gas , nor the horses which they brought in. So sad, But one of the Mothers against Violence who was at the very front was faced by border police standing with their rifles fully primed  and pointed at the demonstrators. She said two of them even had their fingers on the trigger.  She kept on complaining until their commander arrived and told them to lower their arms......but, that they even did so ..... remember what I said, what happens to the Palestinians will happen here in Israel

 One of the signs read ...you have no right to condemn us to war

  In Tel Aviv this evening there is evidently also a protest march by the gay community. They have forced the police to close main roads. It seems the police are acting with sense. If they were here in Jerusalem it would be a very different story. They are not fooled by Netanyahu making Ohana who is an homosexual the speaker of the Knesset...that is lip service and he is a double villain, first for serving in this government and secondly he must know that he is a token gay. But I have to laugh now as I read that in the Knesset (Jerusalem Post) he thanked his partner  and two children for their support.  And the Hariediem nearly had a conniption.

  But I am wondering what  is going to happen with the demonstrations.  I doubt that Ben Gvir can ban them but he can certainly make it very hard. He now has complete control over the border police and they are the lowest of the low in many people's estimation and already, very violent. We will meet them at the borders and at the demonstrations. I also wonder what will happen with Machsomwatch when I think of the way we were received this week at 300. 

 I was at a  meeting with the Combatants for Peace yesterday and as I sat there I wondered if in another year’s time we would be able to hold such a meeting….in the occupied territories….without the police breaking in or arresting us. Netanyahu promises one thing to the diaspora and another to his allies here. But I had a laugh at this sign posted outside Talit Takumi and wondered what the stone would do at the thought of the new government..probably crumble. I got a lift with a friend from Nataf and when we got to the car his battery was flat. He found someone to help us and I was surprised that the man did not bring his car around and then they explained to me that today there is a battery which you can fill yourself ( I can't think of the word) which you use The wonders of the new world.

 Continuing my letter in the morning:

 I just heard over the news about the  United Nations General Assembly approved on Friday a resolution requesting the International Court of Justice weigh in on the Israeli-Palestinian conflict, Israeli “annexation” and the “legal status of the occupation.” UN condemning Israel for the occupation and that the Combatants have praised the decision. I don't know who in the movement or what body took the decision and I also do not know how other human rights groups will react. If I had been called on to vote I would probably have agreed. Maybe six months ago I would have felt differently and felt that it was going too far. But so many people have reacted just as I have to this government with fear as we never knew before. I remember being frightened when Begin came into power.....little knowing that one day I would beg to have to have someone like him leading the government.......but it is nothing to  what I feel today. And I look above at what I wrote last night and I think that for the Combatants the fat is in the fire and we will be in the gun shots of the police and army.  Maybe it sounds over dramatic and I hope that this will turn out to be so.

 Enough. My visitors for breakfast will soon be arriving

 e

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[beneathascorpionsky]

I posted 6,048 times in 2022

That's 6,048 more posts than 2021!

76 posts created (1%)

5,972 posts reblogged (99%)

Blogs I reblogged the most:

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@arceuscansuckmydick

@raincloud-the-33rd-frog

@time-is-a-pain

@strigiiformes

I tagged 2,438 of my posts in 2022

#art - 121 posts

#fnaf - 110 posts

#video - 78 posts

#yes - 73 posts

#writer's life - 58 posts

#pretty - 42 posts

#fnaf security breach - 41 posts

#wheeze - 39 posts

#funny - 36 posts

#cute - 34 posts

Longest Tag: 138 characters

#fandom is me forcing my friend to read snippets from a fic im writing from a fandom they couldn't care less about but supporting me anyway

My Top Posts in 2022:

#5

The struggle when I’m writing a fanfiction and I’m really excited and I really enjoy it and I want to post and share it with people! But! I know how bad I am at finishing projects and the story isn’t even half done and what if I lose motivation and just have another half finished fic sitting out there and I disappoint EVERYONE. But also what if I DONT DO THAT and I could’ve been sharing it the whole time and getting feedback and enjoying reading people’s comments ? and round and round my brain goes on this one circular track 

12 notes - Posted March 17, 2022

#4

Sure those stars might’ve been dead for who knows how long but sailors still looked to them for guidance

15 notes - Posted February 19, 2022

#3

This is such a weird dumb idea and maybe other people have already theorized this and I’m just out of the loop but it’s making me laugh so I’m going to share it anyway

so there’s the whole gregbot thing right? Well what if Gregory isn’t a robot but Vanessa is? Maybe Vanny created her as lookalike/stunt double kind of thing so Vanny was free to wear her creepy mask and run around killing people but could point to Vanessabot who was roaming around the Pizzaplex doing her job as an alibi 

It would explain the rooftop ending where Vanny seems to really closely resemble Vanessa, but Vanessa is shown to be standing up on the roof while Vanny is on the ground. I know there’s the theory of it being Vanessa’s ghost which is probably more likely but idk, Vanessabot is funnier to me for some reason

16 notes - Posted February 3, 2022

#2

Feel like in Security Breach Gregory really went “I’m not trapped in here with you, you’re trapped in here with me” and then committed organ theft

30 notes - Posted January 31, 2022

My #1 post of 2022

Chapter 25: To let go (and to hold on) I saw this moment as poetic and I hope I interpreted this scene right Gosh, William be damned- I love your fic!

I am I'm literally a bit overwhelmed I never thought anyone would like something I'd read enough to make art based on it. This is GOREGOUS and I love it so much and I think you might've just made my entire year. Ty, tysm I adore this and I'm so glad you're enjoying the fic

34 notes - Posted March 19, 2022

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[thatmexisaurusrex]

For the SamBucky Touch Prompt Event…

39.

40. Rubbing the other’s sides. 😂 sorry Hun I’ve lost a fic where this happens and have been trying to remember what else happened in that fic for weeks. One of the other prompts on your list could fit this but I didn’t want to give guidelines although adding a whole different prompt might be worse. Sorry!🫢😳💜💜💜

Thank you!

Thank you so much for the extra prompt, @elektraking! 🥰 😂 This goes with the prompt theme, so I'm excited for this 😆 I hope you enjoy the drabble! 🥰 And I'm sorry, this drabble came out a bit angsty 😅

CONTENT WARNING: This fic contains talk of Riley's death.

Prompt 3: Rubbing the Other's Side

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Sam watched Bucky stumble off the skyscraper in horror. Sam couldn't think. He couldn't breathe.

He thought about Rhodey falling out of the sky. How he flew down but he couldn't do it. Sam couldn't reach Rhodey before he hit the ground in a crater.

Sam thought about Riley.

Riley.

Who had been joking with Sam moments before. Who had kept asking Sam out over and over again. Sam would always smile and tell him, "Next time."

There was never a next time.

There were screams. Blood-curdling screams over Sam's comms as Riley burned alive in the sky. Fell to his death like an angel forsaken. Sam could do nothing. It was as if Sam was up there just to watch.

Not again.

Sam wasn't letting a loved one fall again.

Sam didn't remember how he cleared his path. One minute, there were a dozen Hydra cronies surrounding him, and the next he was bulldozing his way towards the edge of the building.

Sam could hear voices over the comms. The voices became static as Sam's brain zeroed in on Bucky's terrified screams.

Sam didn't know how he got there. How he flew as fast as he did. All he knew was that once he was in swinging distance of Bucky, he searched for any purchase he could get and found a firm grip on the sides of Bucky's tactical jacket. Sam slowed their descent to the ground as he landed them on their feet.

All he could see was the awe in Bucky's eyes as if he never expected anyone to save him. All he could hear was Bucky whispering, "You caught me."

"Yeah," Sam said in a daze, "I did."

Sam remembered that this had to be cathartic for Bucky too. Bucky kept falling off of high places with no one catching him.

"Our traumas complement each other," Sam blurted, his face heating up.

Bucky choked out a laugh.

"I don't think we're supposed to say that out loud," said Bucky in a tone that definitely agreed with Sam's statement.

Distantly, Sam knew he was rubbing Bucky's sides as if to make sure that all of this was real. Bucky placed his hands over Sam's, gently moving them to frame his face. Even in gloves, Sam could feel Bucky's scratchy scruff.

"I'm here," said Bucky brokenly as he moved his hands away from Sam's and wiped tears from Sam's eyes, "You saved me. We're okay."

When had Sam started crying?

"I did. I saved you," gasped Sam, feeling more tears coming as he felt Bucky pull him into a tight hug.

Sam had done it. He saved someone he loved from a fall. Sam fell apart in Bucky's arms, sobbing into Bucky's shoulder. Sam was relieved. He was overwhelmed. He had saved someone he loved from a fall.

He could hear Yelena and Joaquín panicking over the comms, asking if they were both okay.

Sam stepped away from Bucky and collected himself.

"We're okay," said Sam, his relief stark, "We'll be up there in a moment."

"Hey, Sam?" asked Bucky as Sam wrapped his arms around Bucky.

"Yes?" said Sam as he prepared his wings for flight.

"Would you like to go out on a date with me after this mission?" asked Bucky.

Sam kissed Bucky senseless.

"Of course I would," said Sam to a dazed Bucky, trying his best not to focus on Bucky's kiss swollen lips as he flew them back towards the fight.

*****

This series is to celebrate Pride Month with some fun prompts. If you’d like me to write a drabble based on a prompt of you’re choosing, look at the prompts and send me one via ask! 🥰

[mistresscurvy]

Frank Iero Podcast Excerpts - Transcripts

So in March of this year, Frank linked to a podcast interview he had done on The First Ever Podcast. It's hosted by Jeremy Bolm, who's the lead singer for a post-hardcore band and is very much Frank's music contemporary - they have a lot of personal and professional contacts in common. As is probably obvious from the title, the podcast has a question format that focuses on a person's "first evers," so Frank talks about the first album he bought, the first instrument he played, the first band he formed, his first ever gig, etc. While listening to it, I had the thought that there were a couple of snippets about My Chem that would be worth transcribing, but I didn't, and then the moment passed me by.

That moment has returned, friends! I am not transcribing the whole thing because writing up a ninety minute podcast is a bit more than I can do lol, but I do recommend listening to it all because Frank is a delight as per usual and it's nice listening to him chat with a guy who clearly gets it. I am putting in time stamps for the parts I am transcribing, in case you want to go to these bits and hear them in Frank's voice. Enjoy!!! OUR BAND IS BACK, YOU GUYS.

36:57, on how he joined My Chem

Jeremy: So I know around that time My Chemical Romance had started, and you were aware of them, like you saw them play and all of that. Was it kind of serendipitous that your band was ending and they needed a guitar player?

Frank: Yes. But it was still very sad, because like the remnants of Pencey, we made it home [from tour], and we tried another go of it, like alright, we'll do another [iteration] of this band, we'll write some new songs, and we'll do something. And then, as that was going--it was arduous, you know, so the drummer eventually was over it, didn't want to do it anymore, and I was holding on so tight to try to keep it together, and that's when, you know, I met the guys in My Chem. And they were--they had three songs, they did a demo in their drummer's attic, and they were like the best songs I had heard of any band coming out of the scene. I was like holy shit, like this band is so good, and like they were kids that I hadn't really seen touring around or playing around. It felt like they came out of nowhere and just wrote these songs. And so, they were like hands down my favorite band that was coming around. So I said to them, I was like listen, we have this practice studio, you guys are too good to not practice. You gotta just come here and we'll hang out and you guys can share the room with us. And as my band was ending, they were starting. I remember when they came to my house one night, it was like really late, and I had this like dead end street by my house. And they're like yo uh, come with us and we're going to take a walk and talk to you about something. And I was like, alright, I'm either at the end of this going to be in the band, or they're gonna kill me, like--

J: They're gonna jump me.

F: (Laughs) Yeah, like I've been in both situations, I don't know how to read this. But I felt like I could maybe take one or two of them, so that was okay. And we ended up going for the walk and they told me that they knew that Pencey was, or whatever that band was at the time, I think it was called I am the Graveyard, was ending, and they wanted another guitar player, and they thought it'd be awesome if I joined. And I joined the band that night. And it was fucking awesome. I got to join my favorite band. 

39:42, on whether he missed singing when he joined My Chem

J: Did you feel a relief about, okay now I just get to play guitar?

F: Fuck yeah, fuck yeah, yes, finally. (giggles)

J: I just wondered if you had any sort of like, oh I'm gonna miss being the singer. 

F: No, zero aspirations to be the singer, never ever ever. I like to write songs, and I do get that tinge of like, uhhhh, giving a song over to someone else to sing, because it feels weird sometimes to do that, but I would much rather not have to be on a microphone and just play guitar. I do feel like also, if you listen to--say you listen to like My Chem, right, if you were to listen to those songs, especially like the ones when I'm really in the band, like Three Cheers and Black Parade and Danger Days, if you listen to my guitar parts, they are like a backing vocal a lot of the time. And that's stuff that I've always enjoyed doing is finding those melodies that support or kinda fight the main vocal, and without actually having to do it with my voice. That's always been my thing, it's like how do I talk and not use this. 

J: That's super interesting, so like, when it comes to the songwriting process with My Chem, was the structure usually there by the time you were like going to add to it, because that comes to mind because if Gerard had a vocal melody, were you like, okay, well if you're going to do that, well I'm going to fucking do this?

F: That was always the thing for me, I like to write when a structure is there, especially for My Chem. If I know what Gerard's going to do, then it's easier for me to cement my parts, as opposed to just kind of going for it and imagining where he's gonna like [go]. But it's weird, it's only like that in that band, which is kinda strange. Like other bands, it's a lot of you know, nailing down structures and then kinda letting the singer do his thing on top and seeing where things are. I like to, I don't know if it's the way that Gerard sings that makes it so fun to do that, it's strange because him and Ray especially, the way that their brains work are unlike anyone else that I've ever played with. The melodies that they go for and just, Gerard can hum something and then Ray will go underneath and he makes a choice that's so bizarre that I never would have thought of, that it's fun for me to then go on top and add another flavor to it. It's one of those bands that should not work, but it does. It's really fucking weird. And for a long time it was one of those things where it was hard for me to, like, put into words, it still is, that band is an anomaly, it's really really strange how that works. 

J: When those people come together and find all those different things, you just hear it back the first time and you're like, I guess this song makes sense. It shouldn't make sense, but it makes sense. And not only does it make sense but it's got an appeal to it, it's far reaching. So um, whatever you figured out, I think it worked out alright. 

F: Thank you, I appreciate it. So far, so good. (laughs)

43:53, on joining the writing process of Bullets

J: So when you went into the first record, I Brought you the Bullets record, I think I saw that you had written a couple of songs on that, but maybe a lot of it had already been written. Is that fair?

F: Yeah, a lot of it had been written. And I think that was one of the things too, coming into it. I didn't want to, you know, like, it's hard. Because like, they're a band and they're writing a record, their debut record, and they've asked you to join, so like, what is that like. Do you come to the room and take your dick out and piss all over everything and make your mark, or do you take a step back and see how things are working, and then, almost like subversively, like, put your stuff in there, without stirring it up too much? I wanted to take a backseat and see what I felt like I could bring, without like, you know, mucking it up too much. Plus, this was the first time I had ever been in a band with people that were essentially strangers to me, really. Like I didn't know any of these guys really well. We met at parties at the eyeball house and we hung out at the studio, but I didn't know them. They had all grown up together, of course Mikey and Gerard are brothers, but they knew Ray and Matt--Otter--for a long time, so I was the new guy in. So It was weird. I didn't want to rock the boat too much, but I also knew that there were some things I could add. Three songs we all wrote fully together, the rest were just kind of like, alright what do you want on this song, let me see what I can do. 

101:08, on pressures going into Black Parade:

So then going into Black Parade, I think for us it was like yeah, there's a lot of pressure, a lot of people are concerned, you know, because it's the sophomore thing, but we were under the impression that everyone was going to hate that record anyway, like it's your sophomore major label record, like no one's supposed to like it. So we were like okay, so if we're going to go and make a record and everyone's going to fucking hate it regardless and we're going to lose all our fans, like let's make the most craziest batshit record we can make, and that was really our mindset, like alright, get into the bubble, don't listen to fucking anybody, make all the wrong decisions, the ones that we always wanted to make that no one can tell us not to, because this is it. Like the working title of the record was The Rise and Fall of My Chemical Romance, we're planning on like, now we're getting really big and now we're going to make this record and everyone's going to fucking hate this thing and that's it. That's where our heads were. So I think the pressure inside was like, alright, make the best thing you can because this is your last chance to do it. 

So yeah!!! Just a couple of snippets, and like I said I really do recommend the whole thing, it's just a great overview of Frank's career both in and out of My Chem. Can't wait to fucking see him play in his favorite band again this summer and fall <3 

[dahbeez]

1. "You're such a dork."

2. "Get over here, you doof."

3. "Cheeky."

4. "You're so needy."

5. "Kiss me again."

6. "You're so adorable!"

7. "Look at you... goodness, you're so cute!"

8. "I'm just so happy!"

9. "I can't stop smiling."

10. "I like that you make me laugh so much that my cheeks hurt."

11. "You are being extra sweet today."

12. "Oh, look at you!"

13. "Your eyes are so pretty."

14. "I'm really happy that you're here with me."

15. "Thank you for staying with me."

16. "I don't think I've ever loved someone this much before."

17. "I feel like I'm in the clouds when I'm with you."

18. "You're like my hero/heroine."

19. "I'm gonna tickle you if you don't come over here."

20. "My, oh my. You are such a beautiful creature."

@drink-it-write-it​

21. "Go with me?" "As long as you hold my hand."

22. "Is there a reason you're blushing like that?"

23. "Have you seen my hoodie?" "Nooooo..." "You're wearing it, aren't you?"

24. "OH you're jealous!"

25. "Can we stay like this forever?"

26. "Please just kiss me already."

27. "I think you might be my soulmate."

28. "Sleep over? Please?"

29. "Are we on a date right now?"

30. "I think I'm in love with you."

31. "Are you flirting with me?" "You finally noticed?"

32. "Am I your lockscreen?" "You weren't supposed to see that."

33. "I wish we could live together already."

34. "They're so cute when they're asleep."

35. "I just wanted to let you know that I think you're beautiful."

36. "Quit touching me, your feet are cold!"

37. "Sharing is caring, now give me the hoodie!"

38. "Give me attention."

39. "You met me yesterday." "Yes, and I would die for you. Next question."

40. "She's hiding behind the sofa."

41. "Did you just hiss at me?"

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42. "Have you kissed anyone before?"

43. "Can I kiss you?"

44. "You're not hurting me, you're not heavy. I've got you, love.” 

45. "I look at them and I just... it's like when the Grinch's heart grows three sizes."

46. "I don't... I've never... been in a relationship before and I'm going to make mistakes... I just need you to tell me. I need you to talk to me."

47. "You didn't tell me your friend was cute! Now what am I going to do?"

48. "You give me a reason to be better, to do better."

49. "God, you are so fucking cute."

50. "I love you, but I need you to go away because you're really bloody distracting and I have to pass this test tomorrow."

51. "Oh no... they're cute."

52. "I can't talk to cute people, okay? I don't know how to flirt!"

53. "God, I love your face."

54. "Don't look at me, I'm a mess!" "I love it when you're a mess!"

55. "Please do your homework for me...? Just one time." ... "I said one time, y'know... you didn't have to start studying. Not that I'm not proud or anything."

56. "I'm already home."

57. "Your comfort and happiness is more important to me than some stupid dinner."

58. "Stop moving! I'm going to have to start counting all over again!"

59. "I just thought that since you weren't feeling too good, this would help."

60. "I'm not kissing you in the rain! We'll catch our death!"

61. "Would it help if I stayed?"

62. "I apologise sincerely if my beautiful/handsome face has kept you up all night."

63. "God, you're pretty."

64. "Calm down, it's just a chocolate bar!"

65. "Please, tell me you brought a toothbrush?"

66. "You take the bed, you need it more than me."

67. "You're so warm!"

68. "You're freezing, Jesus!"

69. "You always look beautiful."

70. "Your hands are so small!"

71. "Sometimes I just want to cuddle, okay? Is that so bad?"

72. "Now I know where half my wardrobe went."

73. "Here, let me just–" 

74. "You're really special to me."

75. "That tickles!"

76. "We only have one room left for the night..."

77. "Naps are life, okay?"

78. "I don't think I could love you anymore than I already do."

79. "I had the weirdest dream..."

80. "I got you a trophy, it's only plastic, but it's for being the best human I know."

81. "Someone keeps leaving love notes in my locker and I don't know if I should find it endearing or creepy..."

82. "I love your voice."

83. "Put me down! I can walk!"

84. "Can... can you come over?"

85. "You're the best."

86. "Can you please stop biting your lip, it's distracting."

87. "I thought you liked love songs!"

88. "I know you're not a fan of Valentine's day... I just thought that maybe I could change your mind..."

89. "You're my favourite know-it-all."

90. "That was the least romantic proposal in the entire history of proposals."

91. "I never knew you were a romantic at heart."

92. "I made it. For you. I know it's not the best, but..."

93. "Let me carry that."

94. "How do you know my favourite drink?" "I'm observant."

95. "We've known each other's for years and I don't think we've ever had a proper conversation."

96. "You're the clumsiest person I know, how did you survive past childhood?"

97. "It's always time for a milkshake."

98. "You know, humming the James Bond theme tune defeats the point of sneaking."

99. "I think your cat wants to kill me."

100. "Where have all my jumpers gone?"

101. "I don't get paid enough for this shit."

102. "Oh my God, I love you."

103. "I told you to bring a jacket."

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104. "Is that my shirt?" "You mean our shirt?"

105. "It's you, it always has been."

106. "You're everything I could've wanted and more."

107. "Kiss me."

108. "Home stopped being a place when you entered my life."

109. "You should probably go home." "But I'm already home."

110. "You're an idiot." "But you love me."

111. "I'd do anything for you."

112. "You took all the pillows so I'm using you as one."

113. "Stop moving and let me braid your hair."

114. "I'm so proud of you."

115. "You are my family."

116. "I'm right here."

117. "Can you just please hold me?"

118. "I'm pretty sure they're my soulmate."

119. "This reminded me of you."

120. "Your hair is really soft."

121. "Are you blushing?"

122. "Can I stay here tonight?"

123. "Because I love you."

124. "Make a wish!"

125. "I love seeing you smile."

126. "You're just a softie."

127. "You are crushing me right now."

128. "Darling I love you and all, but please step out of the kitchen."

129. "Take my hand. Just trust me."

130. "You're the only thing that matters."

131. "Did you know that you talk in your sleep?"

132. "Hey, look at me. Focus on me, alright?"

133. "Why can't I get you out of my head?"

134. "Don't let go."

135. "Stay."

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136. "You smell really nice."

137. "If you steal the blanket, I'm going to put my cold feet on you."

138. "You're comfy."

139. "But I want to hear you sing."

140. "Don't get up – I'll do it."

141. "Care to give me a back scratch?"

142. "Your bed head is really cute."

143. "How about a kiss?"

144. "Uh oh, I know that look. What do you want?"

145. "Are you really flirting with me right now?"

146. "I like the way your hand fits in mine."

147. "You have something in your hair, umm... do you want me to get it out?"

148. "It's nice that your voice is the first thing I heard today."

149. "This movie is really scary, but you're into it so I'm trying not to cover my face the whole time but– WHAT THE HELL IS THAT!?"

150. "Wait, don't pull away... not yet."

151. "Half the time I get too embarrassed to say anything."

152. "No, it's fine. I can wait until you're done talking to them."

153. "No, like... it's just, I can't believe you're actually wearing my clothes."

154. "I've been trying to get ready for like an hour and an half because I know you're going to look so good and I need to try and match up."

155. "I wanted to say 'I love you' for the first time without stuttering, but that failed."

156. "We could order pizza and just stay like this all day."

157. "It's not a double date. We're just third and fourth wheeling."

158. "I remember practicing how to ask you out in the mirror..."

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159. "It's not funny!"

160. "That wasn't suppose to happen."

161. "Hurry back."

162. "I can't take you seriously."

163. "Problem solved."

164. "That was embarrassing."

165. "It's freezing in here."

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166. "I love you, baby."

167. "Hey, cutie."

168. "I promise to love you for the rest of my life."

169. "You're my world."

170. "I don't care if you're sick, catching a cold from kissing you is worth it."

171. "You are so perfect."

172. "Marry me?"

173. "You're the best part of me."

174. "Stay here with me. For the rest of our lives."

175. "I'm speechless, you're so beautiful!"

176. "Come here, I need to hug you."

177. "When everything's wrong, it's you that makes it right."

178. "You're the one."

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179. "Well, it's the thought that counts." "Wait, no, don't take my kisses away from me!"

180. "Oh, you've started stealing my socks now?"

181. "You owe me a kiss."

182. "How did you get in here?"

183. "That's not even fair."

184. "You promised me a cookie!"

185. "Ew, that is so sappy, I might vomit."

186. "You're not very intimidating."

187. "That was, by far, the stupidest thing you've ever done."

188. "Why don't you take a picture? It'll last longer."

189. "Why the hell is there glitter everywhere?"

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190. "I'll feel much better if you let me walk you home."

191. "Apparently, all our friends have a bet going that we end up together."

192. "You make me feel alive. For the first time ever, I feel like I can breathe."

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193. "It's two in the morning and you want to cuddle?"

194. "You shine so bright it's intimidating. I love it."

195. "I'm here."

196. "What's your name again? Sorry, I just got that super weird feeling that we only see in movies, you know? Like, the whole world stopped turning and all I could see was you."

197. "I was born to be yours."

198. "Isn't it a bit too cliché?"

199. "So, you're just kissing strangers for no apparent reasons?"

200. "You'll always be my favourite person."

201. "You're making it weird, stop making it weird."

202. "There's nothing I love more than running back into your arms."

203. "I'm yours. Forever."

204. "You always know how to cheer me up."

205. "I... I lost the ring."

206. "Will you be mine?"

207. "Darling, you look perfect tonight."

208. "You saved my life."

209. "Don't give me that look. No... NO! I said no puppy dog eyes! You know I can't resist them! Argh, fine!"

210. "I missed you and your bad puns and even your horrible cooking and the way you fit perfectly against my body when we cuddle. I just really missed you."

211. "We're a team, remember?"

212. "There's no place I'd rather be than by your side."

213. "Your smile brightens the whole room."

214. "I kinda adopted a puppy behind your back... don't be mad! Look at those cute fluffy paws!"

215. "You're burning up. Guess I need to activate my nurse mode."

216. "I love you. As in more than friends, more than best friends and more than super extra best friends."

217. "I love you just the way you are."

218. "We need to kick his ass, no questions asked. You in?"

219. "Hot chocolate and cuddles? Kisses?"

220. "You make me feel pretty."

221. "You'll always be my best girl."

222. "Never hide yourself from me."

223. "Babe! There's no toilet paper!"

224. "I'll never give up on you."

225. "Do you feel that shirt? That's boyfriend material."

226. "That prank went so wrong."

227. "Care to dance, my love?"

228. "AH! You're stuck with me!"

229. "You're too good to me."

230. "Is it that time of the month?"

231. "Can I braid your hair?"

232. "It's okay to have doubts, as long as you don't let them overwhelm you."

233. "Come here! I can't stand to be so far away from you!"

234. "I got you."

235. "I wanna fall asleep next to you every night and wake up every morning with you by my side."

236. "Stop, I need to finish this!"

237. "I just wanna binge watch The Office, but it's not the same without you."

238. "Because I care about you!"

239. "I just wanted to impress you."

240. "I love you even though your breath stinks right now."

241. "Did you just puke on me?"

242. "We should get drunk and do stupid things."

243. "I always know what you're thinking about, babe. You're like an open book!"

244. "Could you sing to me?"

245. "I, uh, could you... could you play with my hair, please?"

246. "Nooooo, don't leave! I'm cold!"

247. "I think you're suffering from a lack of vitamin me."

248. "A mistletoe? Really?"

249. "Will you join me, love?"

250. "I have feelings for you."

251. "You are the reason."

252. "Take my hand, I wanna show you something..."

253. "You have a lovely name."

254. "You're my everything."

255. "You do know a lot about my blushing schedule."

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