not to be a bitch but like. i can never take "ohhhh kon is soOOoOoo sad about tim/ber uwaahhhh he's in love with tim but it's unrequited waaahhhh" angst seriously because like... i get it, the only thing you know about kon is that he's the other half of a popular m/m tim ship, but uh. rebirth kon is living an existential fucking nightmare. i think he's got way bigger fish to fry than whether the tim who only kind of remembers him at all is dating some other guy lmao
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Thinking about Orchid and her connection to my take on Gender (because this was meant to be about her and the Crew but it just devolved into a character analysis kinda??? More trauma-dumping maybe???) This is very much an oc/personal rant so feel free to ignore it 🫡
So, Orchid started off as a character I didn't really think much of (hear me out this is going to be relevant) because I wanted to add a 'girl' character but didn't know what to *do* with her, y'know? She was always going to be the strongest one there, she had the odds stacked in her favor with her parents. She was always going to be the gloomy side-character to match Reset's energy. But I think she's gone through every stage of Generic Woman I could possibly find.
At first she was angry and abrasive (think Fell!Sans) where every other word was a curse and she was likely to throw the first punch then laugh as she kicks her enemy while they're down. This was when Reset was a cartoonishly self-centered villain whose goal was simply to prove others wrong. Then Orchid became a sort of sisterly figure. This was short-lived, but she was the one comforting people who Reset would torment, but would ultimately follow his orders, because at this point he was actually a danger and sadistic. And then there was the phase where the story mellowed out and she became the token Goth Girl who, yes she was strong, but was heavy on the 'whatever' energy. Then there was her Era of deep self-loathing and anxiety about her worth that held her back and made her a much more timid and meek character who would only lash out on occasion.
Now, Orchid is the best of those iterations I've written yet. She's calm, level-headed, and a natural leader. Her father raised those traits into her. But she's very reactive, and can be silly, and when she's comfortable it's likely that air of importance transforms into something more comfortable and familiar. She laughs loudly and grins wide, she likes loud video-games but loves to read in the quiet. She's extremely disciplined, and normally no one can get through her tough exterior besides her best friend, Reset. She does what she does for her own enjoyment, sure, but she's thought of every angle and makes her choice to help Reset and control the others with her whole chest. She still worries she won't live up to her invisible expectations, and that and her loyalty are her two driving forces.
I know that Orchid is important to me because she's the longest-running female oc I've had. I have a rough relationship with womanhood/girlhood and I know looking back that Orchid recieved every ounce of my distaste for being a woman that I could shovel into her. That never made her less of a character, she was actually always one of my favorites, and rarely was she a 'punching bag oc'. I just... projected onto her a lot. And she's a good sign of how I've learned who I am. I've decided that my own femininity is something I could live without. I'd rather not associate myself with it, and I'd like to leave it in my past, focusing on a future where I'm not tied down with any gender roles or expectations. That won't happen, but I've come to terms with it myself. Orchid though? I figured out through her that I don't have to hate women characters. My own distaste for my circumstances doesn't mean I have to push it onto my characters (on God I've never expressed anything rude to actual people, that'd be rude as hell and uncalled for, but I have a bad habit of disliking fictional women in media). So, Orchid is a well-roubded character finally. She has motivations abd goals and a *lot* more depth than I ever expected her to. She's happy with being a woman, she's content. She's not treated differently for it in unfair ways by those she cares about, so she doesn't mind it. She likes to wear pretty outfits and lets Reset add bows to her ribbons. She doesn't let being a woman hold her back in the slightest.
So, yeah. Orchid is one of my babies. If I ever leave this Fandom behind for good, she's one that's coming with (Ichor, Orchid, and Pretender all have human designs I can use elsewhere lol-) but in the meantime I'll just rotate her around in my brain for a while longer.
If I'm right, she's been with me for nearly 5-6 years and I went through a *lot* with her as an outlet. So, she's kinda just like an old stuffed animal. A lil ripped, matted fur, maybe a stain or two, but there's a story there and that makes it important beyond belief.
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I use to not like shin getter dragon but recently it’s been growing on me more however if there’s one thing that still bothers me about it being used in SRW with arma it’s the fact that like- of all characters Ryoma shouldn’t be the one to have it.
I know WHY he does since where its originally from (Daikessen) where it was a unit of his so it’s not originally even related to arma getter dragon and it is cool to see arma Ryoma use dragon since the only time we see him in it outside of Michiru’s death is a audio drama-which most people wouldn’t know exists LOL-but like- it just makes way more sense to me if shin getter dragon either belonged to Go or Saotome given canon.
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just thought id tell you that no matter how hard i try i cannot imagine a human behind your account. to me your pfp (or art account pfp) looks like one of those biblically accurate angels and that’s just what i think you look like. i hope you take this as a positive because it’s meant as one but sorry if it’s rude at all
Tee Hee <3 THANK YOUUU
Rambling time real quick <- lying about the time frame, under a cut cause yeah and i also talk about eyeballs and i don't actually know but think tma flesh eps kinda? so watch out? i think (i noted up the tma ish bits)
I have been avoiding doing self portraits for YEARS (since i started i think). But i'm finally taking the advanced 2d art course this year and i am 90% sure you need to do a self portrait for the curriculum itself, coupled with the teacher has been trying to get me to make one for the last four years, and the collective need for my art to be Weirder has led to me making concessions. I think that because I am on good terms with terms with the art teacher and he knows I can do everything that's normally taught in the art class with my eyes closed that I can make my self portrait look straight up fuckin WHACK. I'm thinking like full season five jarchivist eyeballs whack. (WEIRD SIDE TANGENT (cw uh scophpbia, tma flesh ep) i also want to address my insanely niche pet peeve of having additional eyes added to the skin and not having accounted for the change in form, musculature, and bone structure that comes with adding extra eyes to the face. They're inlaid there's gonna be a slight dip into the face where the eye is going to be or it is going to protrude much farther out of the face. WEIRD TANGENT OVER.) Thanks for the inadvertent opportunity to infodump and sorry i took it.
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So the British press has gone from "Harry looked miserable at the Beyonce concert" to "Harry shouldn't be having a good time at the Beyonce concert because it was too close to the anniversary of his mum's death".
Like, imagine strangers, who never met your mother, telling you that you can't go to a concert because she died 26 years and 3 days ago... 😳
Apparently Meghan "twerking", which is so not what she was doing, is not "royal". Maybe they should inform their future King that dancing in clubs with his arms around women who aren't his wife isn't very royal. 🤣
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every time i see ai art discourse i think i understand how duchamp must have felt a little more
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5sos: puts HBG on the dice
5sos: has to play HBG
5sos: surprised pikachu face
No because those men took a glorified beach ball the size of Luke, slapped a song they actively hate and they think we like because of the chanting (hbg), 2 songs a lot of people talk about in social media and we do actively like (wayf and iydk), a song they never played before that is somewhat popular on 5sostok for conspiracy theories about who it is about (ela) and 2 songs I have no idea how even ended up on the mix (voodoo doll and heartache) and decided that literally throwing that in the audience would be a great idea. A tour doesn't need a surprise song, they made a conscious decision of making the dice, then they pick the songs on said dice and go all when it lands on half of them.
Like dudes what the hell did you think was gonna happen? That you could cheat your way into not playing it the whole tour? If you don't want to play the song don't make it an option, is not like y'all are not pretending half your discography doesn't exist, put hbg in that box and tell the people chanting for it to get over themselves. It's your show, you make the rules. If you hate a song don't fucking make it an option.
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