#i think ive really captured his essence

[zerooriginalityitsalljustcrabs]

My artistic talent knows no bounds

[shaadowmilkcookie]

One of Shadow Milk’s many prop replicas of himself, left behind. Even though the eyes are forever staring straight into the distance… Oddly enough, you still feel like you’re being watched.

But surely, though, it won’t hurt to take it home and touch up the colours, right? :)

[subsequentibis]

i'm not feeling my lineart today. you get scribblies

[girlwiththeobsessions]

love sick c.f.

this book has also been published on wattpad. same username as the one on here. i update faster on there.

you and conrad had a secret relationship two summers ago, when you were 15 and he was 16. you broke up with him because your younger sister, belly had liked him, and you were afraid of hurting her. now, flash forward, you were 17, and you thought you had gotten over him, but maybe you haven’t

iv. deb shopping

part 1 part 2 part 3

i had no clue what was going on with conrad, why he was acting so different this summer, making me wonder what happened to the same conrad who would go on and on about infinity.

i slept in that morning, because of the fact that i stayed up way too late at that bonfire, but i eventually got up since i had work today.

when i went downstairs, dressed in a white lifeguard tank top, and red shorts, laurel, steven, and jeremiah were downstairs.

conrad was on the couch, and jere was making a 'hangover smoothie' for him, while steven was standing behind him, looking over his shoulder.

"do we really have to physically sit for our portraits?" jeremiah complained to laurel. "can't she just- look at a picture on her phone or something?"

"right?" i agreed with him.

jeremiah backed up a little from steven, having enough of him hovering over him. "okay, get out." jeremiah pointed at the door.

steven laughed. "what. why?"

"she needs to see you in the flash to capture you essence." laurel said, fixated on her laptop. "while you're still young, and full of hope."

"so poetic, mom." i joked, while steven and jeremiah laughed.

"her words." laurel rolled her eyes at us with a smile.

"well, conrad does not have hope, actually. he's hopeless." jeremiah insulted, causing me to laugh a little. "but! my hangover smoothie, it cures all."

"can you please just hurry up." conrad rushed him from the couch.

"just go back to bed. alright?" jeremiah shot back to him, and steven started looking over his shoulder again.

jeremiah put a hand on steven's chest. "alright, seriously, steven. get out. this is a delicate science."

"she hasn't painted you since you were little. i think it would be nice to have these portraits for when you're older." laurel added in.

"oh, no." steven joked. "when i'm older, they'd have like, holograms i can watch of myself, you know."

"or, this is why we have technology." i say. "where we have pictures? on our phones?"

jeremiah started the blender, causing conrad to jolt awake.

"just sit for your portraits." laurel told me and steven. "you don't see conrad complaining.

"he'll complain when he's actually conscious." i shot back at laurel.

jeremiah went to the couch and tapped conrad. "hey. here."

"come on, man. hurry your ass up, i can't be late to my first day of work." steven rushed jeremiah. "those little country club boomers are gonna tip me so hard they won't know what hit 'em!"

i made a disgusted look at steven. "ew. steven, i swear."

"come on, y/n." jeremiah laughed. "my boys gotta get that bread."

"stop." i shook my head at him.

i look over to see belly walking in the kitchen, and i give her a small smile.

"good morning." jeremiah says to her in an enthusiastic tone.

"belly, where have you been?" laurel asks her in a serious tone. "is that a bruise."

belly stands next to me and i run my fingers over the bruise. "mom, relax, she tripped when we were at the bonfire and landed on her face." i lied, i knew belly wouldn't wanna tell the actual story

"doesn't look that bad." conrad said from the couch, i look over at him, and made eye contact with him for a few seconds before returning my focus back to belly.

"uh, cereal?" jeremiah asked belly.

"yeah, hit me." belly softly responded.

"oh, my god!" susannah ran into the kitchen. "belly and y/n are going to be debutantes!" she hugged both of us.

belly laughed. "it's really not that big of a deal."

i'd forgotten all about the whole deb thing. it'd be hard trying to balance a summer job and being a deb, on top of that, i'd have to find a date.

"i'm sorry, like those two? my sisters, right there?" steven teased us.

"shut up, cretin!" i shot back.

"okay, this is going to be so much fun!" susannah fantasized. "just you wait. there's the tea, the auction, the- ball, of course.. i gotta write this down. we need to go shopping!"

"this sounds expensive." laurel said.

"oh, don't worry, laur, it's on me." susannah smiled. "it was my idea after all."

"y/n, are you sure you wanna do this?" laurel asked me. "it doesn't seem very you."

in truth, not really. but if it made susannah happy, it made me happy. i had to do it for her.

"it's not." conrad, once again, added his two cents from the couch.

i don't know how he went from how he used to act towards me to.. this.

"conrad, could you please be a little more supportive?" susannah told him. "now, which one of you are gonna be belly or y/n's escort to the ball."

"not me." conrad immediately responded.

"shocker." i say, in a sarcastic tone.

"i went last year." conrad finished his sentence.

"me neither. i swore off balls." jeremiah told us, causing steven to laugh. "the dances dude!" jeremiah said, laughing.

"wow, guys!" i say, sarcastically. "stop fighting over us."

"i'm not going with either of you." belly finally spoke up. "i am going to find my own date.

"it says debutantes require instruction, morals, and social etiquette." laurel read off her laptop.

"i'm going for a swim." conrad leaves through the back door, as i watched him go.

"yeah, y/n could use some etiquette." steven laughed.

"and you wonder why you don't have a girlfriend." i rolled my eyes.

all the sound drowned out as i watched conrad from the window, in his shorts, and no shirt on. i missed how things used to be.

i felt a hand on my shoulder. "you alright, y/n?" jeremiah asked me.

"yeah." i tried push aside anything feelings. "we should probably go soon."

"wait." susannah spoke up. "before you go, we have shopping to do!"

"seriously?" i asked. "i have work. i'm not going shopping."

but that wasn't true. susannah is a really convincing person, so before i knew it, i was shopping around stores with susannah, laurel, and belly, for the debutante thing.

i tried on different dresses, all colors, and different accessory's, hats, sunglasses, and bow, bags over my hands and arms.

then, i had to try on a debutante dress, i found a beautiful white long dress, i loved it, but maybe conrad and laurel were right. this whole thing was not my scene.

what have i done?

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END OF CHAPTER

[lunarleonardo]

You like fanganronpas? If yes, which ones you like? :3

Ohhhh OHH I looove Fanganronpas. The only ones I've seen are Super Danganronpa Another 2 (i couldnt figure out how to play the first one :( i also just havent had much time), Danganronpa Despair Time, and Danganronpa Lapse. lunar ramble incoming

(will try to avoid spoilers for each fangan !!)

DRDT was the first one I saw, probably since I imagine it's one of the most popular, and ohh. I LOOOVE Teruko!! teruko they will never make me hate you. She and Whit are definitely some of my favs,, because. well. Who doesn't love Whit xD I also really like Nico :p I think they're sooo funny just. in general. btw chapter two had me in pieces thanks for asking

SDRA2 took me a good week to watch, and ill admit. i didnt finish chapter 6 (ノ_＜。) I was really sick when I watched chapters 3 and 4, and it didnt help that i was pulling all nighters because i was so hyperfocused i couldnt sleep. chapter 3's trial is unironically one of the most entertaining things Ive ever seen in any dr game AND fangan EVER. Like guys!! what is happening here!! that being said, I sort of knew who the culprit would be cus i was spoiled just a tiny bit, but I was STILL SURPRISED AT THE END cus ohhh my god. the twist. Sora is one of my fav protags ever btw I love yuri and NO not the character Yuri althohgh. he was really funny ill admit. He wasnt creepy in the Hifumi/Teruteru way and i really appreciate him for that. i also laugehd when they found him and he was like "Oh hi guys!" totally normally. dont get me started on... teruya and mikado ...... duuuudee they were actually tweaking literally what were they even doing. This fangan captured DR essence very well and took it a step further in an even more unhinged way, probably due to tbe lack of limitations on monetization n stuff, and honestly I APPLAUD that. i want what they have lowkey

Danganronpa Lapse is the one I played most recently and HOOOLY SHIT do not get me STARTED. ECHO!! ECHOOOO!!!!!!!!!! i was SO HAPPY finding a nonbinary dr protagonist you have no idea. and they were SOOO CUTE </3 DR Lapse is definitely a LOT shorter than any usual DR format and it deviated a lot, but despite that it still felt like a Danganronpa game and everyone there was SO. i was so in love with them. rip lyle you wouldve loved your turn to die. I do have to admit I was a little confused on the ending, but overall I really really enjoyed it. Also Zero was there and that makes it an immediate 11/10 thank you zero for accidrntally making me give you the funniest possible voice for your character

ok so it just hit me..now. BUT!! I have seen a little bit of Cartoons in Danganronpa!! I really really need to watch the prologue and..yknow...actual chapter instead of just watching the class trial and being absolutely blown away by every tiny thing. Theres a lot of characters in there I LOVE and especially seeing DIPPER GOD DAMNED PINES?? IN DANGANRONPA???? AND ERIC CARTMAN?? absolutely peak. funniest thing ever. but also i am so scared for the conclusion of that trial because the suspects are worrying. Also shoutout to Gaz for being the funniest one there . The artwork is so similar to their respective styles but you can still so clearly see a touch of the creator's own style and that really gives the entire fangan its own charm. The voice work!! Incredible. Thats another thing that hit me hard with DRDT TOO!! THE VOICE ACTING!! fuuuck it's sooo good ugh

another one is Ive seen the prologue to DR Mortalis Perpetua. I think it's a REALLY fascinating approach on the danganronpa style and I need to make the time to watch the new eps .. attention span please if you can hear me come back i need you

I love these fangans SO much and I love love seeing fangans in general. It's amazing seeing people's passions come to life, and i get SOO so happy whenever I see one. I adore peoples creativity, and even if it doesnt catch my eye, I still appreciate the passion and work put into those projects ^^゜゜(´O｀)°゜

And honestly? I really want to make my own fangan. I do already have one, a crossover fangan with my girlfriend, but I really want to make one in a video game format. I know I'll probably forget about this in like a month or two, but I have always wanted to try and make games. That would mean, however, I have to teach myself coding... @_@; so Ive been on Scratch. and it's going great (ITS NOT ITS NOT ITS NOT ITS N

if anyone out there has any tips for getting into making games... please help. I have a very bad habit of overwhelming mysrlf ( ；∀；) and i need a starting point lmao

anyway we'll see. I fear I might need to start looking into ADHD medication

[meatsex]

vinny came into where i work today (and is apparently friends with one of my coworkers lol) and i instantly thought of you<3 i don’t watch him but i’m a long time oomf-in-law and your art is really great and captures him well👍

WHAAAAT thats so cool.... i love that, i imagine he was more chill when in a casual situation like that and not talking about piss and shit on stream

thank you for inmediately thinking of me at the sight of the liminal vineman i love that, thank you oomf-in-law i appreciate this so much its so silly

and thank you im glad my art captures his rotten essence well i feel like ive drawn him a million different ways somehow but im happy to know its recognizable as vincent vineman

[just-jordie-things]

i am the biggest spidey fan and trust me ive read my fair share of spiderman au fics from all kinds of fandoms over the years but i think yours takes it… truly the best spiderman au ive ever read. its everything ive ever wanted from one,, you stayed true to megumis canon characterization (so often authors just peter parker-ify the male mc theyre writing about even if theyre canonically nothing like him) while also still capturing the essence of what makes the spiderman au love stories so great—the adorable school romance, the deep understanding that can only come about through the mask, the banter, the UPSIDE DOWN KISS?? i also feel like a lot of times the attraction the reader feels for the male mc As Spiderman in these fics can often feel shallow, but it made so much sense in yours it was so well fleshed out. THANK YOU for this masterpiece and i know their story wrapped up pretty nicely but i would be far from mad if you wanted to give us a little more from this couple…

AHHHH OHMYGOD THANK YOU THANK YOU!!!!!

i had the most fun writing this piece BECAUSE i didn’t want to change megumi’s characterization and his sense of justice/morality paired with the spiderman character was INTERESTING AS HELL!!!! because peter parker doesn’t want to kill people or hurt them all too bad… but megumi?? my feral man???

pfft if i gave spiderman!megumi his shikigami mahoraga would’ve shown up and annihilated those guys that made the reader uncomfortable let’s be real

but thank you so so much!! compliments like these really mean a lot to me i take them straight to mind and heart because i do make an effort to make sure the long fics are worth it!! they’re not long just to be long and every added word is necessary!! especially when ur writing an upside down kiss mshdjskans

[golden28s]

tag game wednesday friday ! 🌻

im late again for this but anyways thank to the cool lovely people that thought of me and tagged me 💖 @mickeysgaymom @milkovichrules @guinguin1984

1. if you could switch bodies with anybody for only one hour who would it be and what would you do? someone rich just to transfer the money to my bank account and then i can go back to my body

2. whats your most trivial / dumbest hot take? I’m so sorry

uh, idk that maybe fictional characters are just fictional characters and half of the discussions about them aren't that deep but half of the time they're also representation and give visibility to something, to some people's reality and you have to treat with respect and empathy

3. if you had to teach a college course what would it be in? anything related to medieval literature

4. season 12 of shameless is suddenly happen and youve been put in charge! what plot point(s) are you gonna make happen?

ian and mickey navigating marriage and see them learning how to communicate even better, allow them to have moments for them and be romantic and cheesy and embarrassing because they couldn't be any of that during at least 10 season so they deserve that. probably try to fix lip and tami relationship or simply make them break up because they don't see to understand each other and lip needs peace and space to try to get on his feet again, try to find new goals and aspiration, a new horizon. also maybe open the conversation about ian's experience with grooming and let him heal that wound and at some point after that, and some therapy for mickey too why lie, ian and mickey having an actual and honest conversation about kids and deciding that they're ready for that.

also give debbie a real chance to try to built her own life.

5. who would be your godly parent? (can be any mythology).

idk never thought of this

6. what’s something you love about yourself?

that i cant be angry for too long, i get upset but i cant be mad for hours or days or weeks i just can't

7. describe your day in 5 emojis: 📖📚📒🎧🎶 i've been basically doing uni assignments

8. what shameless character do you think you could beat in a fight? lip because i probably wouldn't even have to touch him, id just say that he's wrong about something and he would be crying shaking yelling

9. tell us 2 truths and a lie, we’ll try to guess the lie!

-ive been writing poems and stories since i was 8

-i hate pickles

-im scared of darkness

10. do you have a pet(s). if so how did they get their name?

i have a cat and idk i just thought it was cool

11. show us a meme (or picture) that captures your essence

12. whats your typical coffee / tea / beverage order?

I don't like coffee and i don't really drink tea but peach iced tea is so good

13 . use a song to describe the last 5 years of your life?

you're on your own kid by taylor swift, it's been a hell of a journey but i have some kind of peace now let's just say that im like mickey and change is not my thing

im late to this like i said so im just gonna tag a few people and feel free to do it or not ! and feel free to ignore too if youve been tagged already @lupeloto @juliakayyy @energievie @creepkinginc @transmickey

[thissugarcane]

Ten first lines, tagged by @winderlylandchime !

Rules: list the first line of the last ten (10) stories you published. Look to see any patterns you notice yourself, and see if anyone else notices any.

the queer as folk are brian/justin and mdzs are all jiang cheng/wei wuxian. a mix of fandoms.

1. anger doesn't mend a broken heart (neither does forgiveness if you ask for it) [mdzs] - Really, no matter what Jin Ling thought, this wasn't Wei Wuxian's fault.

2. swimming with sharks [qaf] - The thing that Justin didn't fully understand until he was interning at Vangard was: when you stop moving, you die.

3. wait [qaf] - A week after Justin leaves, Ethan emails him twice, calls him, finally texts how he's aware Justin hates his guts but he really needs to talk to him, it's important and it's not about their relationship.

[a few random prompt scenes got posted here]

4. delayed reaction [mdzs] - Jiang Cheng is sitting next to him at the banquet table; his mother was angry about the seating (he should be up at the head table, shown off at his father's side) and his sister was upset about it (she'd had to sit next to the chairman instead).

5. the water's edge [mdzs] - "Why couldn't you have suggested this while we were still in Yunmeng, Wei Wuxian!" Jiang Cheng hissed.

6. Statistical Modelling of Quintessence Fluctuations as Affected by Coalition Task-Force Non-Standard Units of Time: Case Study by M. Holt [voltron legendary defender, keith/shiro] - So, once upon a time, there was a brilliant and handsome rebel Commander, who just happened to also be courageous and strong and--

Right, okay, well mostly true.

7. you aren't the safe bet [mdzs] - It starts during a cultivation conference at the Unclean Realms where Wei Wuxian is bored out of his mind.

8. need to know [star wars rebels] - Hera hears about the lullabies from General Airen once they get to Yavin IV.

9. chance meeting [vld and dragon age inquisition mashup] - "And what are you selling?" came the booming voice.

10. into the dark [supernatural] - The first night alone -- really alone, still smelling like his brother's funeral pyre -- Sam prays to Jack.

Weirdly, I think in a lot of cases the first line captures the vibe or quintessential essence of the whole thing. Happy accident?

[cheolhub]

hi sar🥰 i just finished reading what you need and i LOVED it!!!!!

because of this… i think i’ve finally decided that slightly mean, soft dom wonu is my favorite kind of wonwoo to read😩 it just suits him perfectly and i think you nailed it when it comes to capturing this sort of essence for him<3 the visuals you write get me every! time!!

this fic was sooooo nice to read and it’s making me excited for whenever you choose to post meant to be yours pt 2🤭 ok BYE I LOVE U ❤️

HI MY LOVE! im so happy u liked it 🥹 i was afraid i was a little rusty bc it’s the first thing ive written in months

i loveeeee a meanish soft dom!wonwoo sm 😵‍💫 he’s my favorite wonwoo to write (true and real) but THANK U SM, it really means a lot bc ive been working on less dialogue and more imagery?? (it’s hard)

im working on meant to be yours pt2!! i have no idea when it’ll be done but it’s coming together… slowly 😅

[finalgirlagatha]

ohhhh my god i just read your little keian snippet and it is. so good. the way you captured the little nuances of their character and dynamic is amazing. they really are scared of each other, almost hate each other sometimes. ive also thought that rhian would probably think drinking is foolish but would ultimately turn to it in a situation like this where his entire sense of self is collapsing around him.

“He didn't even move, he stood still. This used to empower him, his silence and stillness. Now, it was a prison." i love this line soso much, it really captures the essence of kei's character.

“You're real. When we were boys... even when you were King, I couldn't believe you were real.” this was another fav because YES rhian's not real! so much of him is a persona, some untouchable concept that he's created. you can't get too close to him because he'll burn you but kei's managed to get so impossibly close. i imagine that there is a huge part of kei that can't fully conceive of rhian as like a real person so i really loved this bit.

overall you did such an amazing job of capturing how their mutual resentment would boil until it explodes if they were exiled. this was so great to read!!!

i'm cryingggg thank you so much! 😭 this is so sweet. keian are in Such an interesting place in this scenario because they are utterly stripped from their carefully formed personas! Like you said, rhians entire sense of self is gone, and kei's previous demeanor of impassiveness keeps him from a real connection with rhian. And rhians in a place where kei is all he has and he loves, fears, and hates that!! they are so impossibly interesting, i'm so glad you liked this!! thank you for this beautiful comment <3

[closetnerd62]

episode 1

- the intro gave me chills again

- percy and grover are so precious in the flashback

- baby percy🥹🥹🥹

-i just noticed that riptides pen form turns gold when percy starts to see through the mist

-i really like the lighting in the office scene

- the way that they use the word special is so real and it’s so accurate to how people treat struggling children

- sally jackson you don’t understand how much you mean to me

- walker does such a good job of maintaining that percy is just a kid

- SALLY CRYING WHILE PERCY WAS ASLEEP IN THE CAR I WILL NEVER RECOVER

- every interaction between sally and percy is just so good and the cutest thing ive ever seen

- entire scene of sally telling percy is INCREDIBLE , the whole i am not a god speech is so relatable and is amazing writing and the way that virginia reacts to her son saying that he’s broken is heart wrenching. honestly one of the best scenes in the whole show, it really captures the whole story’s essence

- percy treating grover’s betrayal like a break up is so good

-the sally grover banter is incredible

- the look walker gives when grover brings up camp>>>>>>

- walkers expressions all of the time actually >>>>>

- the cinematography all the way from the end of the car crash scene to the end of the minotaur fight is GORGEOUS i’ll admit that for the rest of the show i don’t like how dark it is but for the minotaur scene i think it adds to the disorienting feeling

- that being said i personally do not like the lack of music during the minotaur scene. i understand it was supposed to be an artistic choice to show that percy isn’t in his element but i feel like there are better ways to do that

i’m doing a pjotv rewatch so follow my updates after every episode

[orcelito]

ok i caved so here r some of the picrews ive done of Fang (plus links!)

first - second

third - fourth

fifth - sixth

[mchi22]

Mr. Barney's Mind for the character ask?

favorite thing about them

is just saying "hes pathetic" a cop-out?

least favorite thing about them

mean 2 his gf. die 1000 deaths

favorite line

hmm.... i dont have the best recollection of stuff hes said but i am a fan of "is there no end to the problems i can solve by shooting things?"

brOTP

him and mindverse gordon <2 i feel like gordon wouldnt really like him very much but would still hang out with him to avoid working

OTP

i simply think he & mr. shephard's mind should kiss a little bit..

nOTP

i guess i dont really have one? ive seen a few ppl on ao3 write fics w him and benry and im not a huge fan of that but idk

random headcanon

he wouldve played fortnite. i know a man who can crank 90s when i see one

unpopular opinion

i dont really think enough people care about him as a character for anything i have to say to be considered "unpopular" 2 be totally honest

song i associate with them

creatures ov deception by rainbowdragoneyes. captures his essence of thinking hes cooler than he is and its got chiptune so. hgfdsjgdf

favorite picture of them

idk if it counts but this post by @/sourcengine is correct

[vadergf]

YOURE LITERALLY SO RIGHT

For the essay thing.

Jeyna 🎶

Do it.

Hmmmm. jeyna . where do i begin. This one just screams potential in my head. now that w’ve got conclusions to both reyna and jason’s arc, there is something to be said about all that was implied to be there & none of it there was. And all that was said individually by both characters after their interactions in mark of athena.

There’s that entire implied idea that both of them had planned a very long and scenic trip thru the ancient lands if they ever retired in new rome. reyna talks about the shrine they had planned to visit, but the only thing she finds there is a note about the quest. jason’s memory is taken and never returned, not even after the seven have completed their quest which essentially means that most of his childhood and all the time before the grand canyon is an illusion. he has the vague feeling that he has a history with new rome, and with reyna, but he resigns himself to the fact that he’ll never get it back.

percy is the ‘glue’ of the heroes of olympus and this is probably why he gets his memories back. he needs to have an individual and untainted view and trust of the romans, and once he completes that part of his arc, he can finally reconcile it with his original, greek side, and lead the demigods to gradually trust each other and heal the rift. Jason is his parallel, but hera essentially weaponizes him against the giants. he becomes a pawn for the gods, and the lack of his memory is what does it.

Reyna is the fearless badass leader of the romans but the way she is written is a fucking injustice to her character. The only good decision ever made by stupid rick dan was the nico and reyna friendship because that was what kept blood of olympus afloat. I will die on that hill. 

Actually no. toa comes along and jiper is no longer a thing and jason is off to boarding school and new rome is barely ever brought up again. He dies a pawn of the gods and luke castellan is turning in his grave. Anyway. reyna is still leading the romans but anyone with eyes (except that rick guy) can tell that this isnt how it should be. Jason dies and hes given a burial by the romans and you can tell that something was definitely there at new rome and those were always the people who cared most for him. reyna is the one who leads the procession and this scene is the final nail in the coffin actually.

In the good universe where hoo and toa are written properly, jason becomes pontifex blah blah and reyna retires. But. doesnt join the hunters. theres a small quest and jason gets his memory back or they imprison hera and make her listen to cow sounds to make her return them. Or jason gets bonked on the head with a brick one final time and gets his memory back. The universe can give good head injuries actually <3. Take ur pick.

Jason realises hes a dumbass and goes back to new rome. Hes walking in the garden of bacchus (wine dude) and guess who he sees. Guess. jason really sees reyna this time and remembers. They hug and build their friendship again. jason asks zeus the stupid god to charter a safe plane across the atlantic and see the ancient lands. they go to rome and to europe and see what they always wanted to see and make that trip. anyway one of them says something about building a life together on real memories. Guess what happens. Everyone gets a happy ending and they live to get their drivers license and jason becomes a skydiving expert (because he can) and reyna becomes a boxing legend (okay so the badass part was definitely true). They live happily ever after.

The end.

[queerbrujas]

floriography

pairings: ub (nate, felix, morgan, ava) x neutral detective wordcount: 1k (~0.25k each drabble) rating: T

read on ao3

a series of drabbles inspired by @twcrohunt’s flower hunt

i. White violets, for Nate Sewell Let’s take a chance on happiness

Ava’s voice echoes in the back of Nate’s mind, words that have been repeated many times, in some way, over the past three centuries. Stop, stop before you’re hurt again. It is always the same story, always with the same outcome, and yet Nate can’t help but come back like a moth drawn to flame because of that one chance it might finally be right.

Ava doesn’t understand, not truly—she doesn’t recriminate and she is there to pick up the scattered pieces of him, but the fallout is all that she sees. Not the desire, the longing, the flashes of happiness that make this, in some way, worth it. At least, he thinks it will be worth it—and he can’t bring himself to think otherwise, even through the heartbreak. Even through the sour taste left behind by the ill-advised attempts at intimacy that are better suited to Morgan’s style.

When he meets the detective, Ava’s voice grows louder. But her concern is drowned out by the feeling of being truly alive for the first time since Nate can really recall. The feeling of being wholly consumed by the detective’s presence, their essence, the way they spark feelings in him he had only felt the ghost of before.

It might end the same way again, he knows he would do well to be cautious, but if it doesn’t—won’t it be worth everything, anything, if it’s for good this time?

—

ii. Daffodils, for Felix Hauville The sun is always shining when I’m with you

The light in this world is different, different from that other place that Felix doesn’t want to—refuses to—think about.

He couldn’t say exactly why or how, but it brings out colors in a way that has him turning his head every few seconds to take it all in, shades and hues that are vibrant and bright and he wants to capture all of them, experience all of them, everything this place has to offer to him.

It’s not just the colors, either. It’s the smells and the flavors and the light. He’s never seen so much or felt so much and it makes him throw himself into it all with no worry nor care. (Because he’s finally got a home, and a place to feel safe.)

And then he meets the detective and it’s just—a burst of color and feeling and he has no idea what he’s saying, what he’s doing, but they’re the most incredible person and he wants them near at all times. He had almost gotten used to the light of the sun in this world, but now it feels like an entirely new place; he closes his eyes and feels a tingling warmth that wasn’t there before, he opens them and the reds and the blues and the greens have a brightness to them that he’d never seen.

He’s fidgeting. He’s nervous, yes, a little. But it’s just because they make him feel so much and there’s this bright light all around them—what if they don’t feel the same way? What if they’re so used to all these colors and feelings that it’s nothing special to them?

But they do, they choose him, they want him, and the colors have never been brighter.

—

iii. Petunias, for Morgan Your presence soothes me

Morgan’s senses always get the best of her. She has to deal with the smells, the sounds, even the damn scratching of her t-shirt on her skin is something that won’t leave her alone. Sometimes, sometimes some part of her almost wishes she was like Nate, with all that practice he’s had to dampen his senses, all the work he’s put in to do that and for what? To have human food and drinks and to be more like them. But it’s something she has no patience for. It’s much better to lose herself in the nicer aspects of humans and drown out the noise that plagues her. At least that way she can have some fun.

The witching hour is a relief—quiet and cool and she can close her eyes and almost feel what it’s like to not be overwhelmed with sensation from all directions. Almost.

Well, it’s not like she remembers ever knowing anything else.

When she meets them, she almost doesn’t notice how it all goes quiet. She’s too focused on the enticing lines of their body and the way she can get their heart to speed up and the lovely reactions she can draw from them.

But then they’re gone and it all comes back. The light burns and the heat is overwhelming and the bright colors make her eyes narrow in pain. And she doesn’t know why, she doesn’t know what’s changed but she chases the detective anyway, and if it calms her senses, it’s just the thrill, the anticipation, the excitement—right?

It’s just some fun, right?

—

iv. Striped carnations, for Ava du Mortain I can’t be with you

Ava hasn’t had a care outside of Unit Bravo for three hundred years. Even longer than that if she counts the time when Unit Bravo was the name for what was really only her—and six hundred years on your own can shape you, make you forget a lot of things.

Family and friends have no meaning for her outside of what she has forged over the centuries; Nate, who knows her better than anyone could have ever hoped to know her as a mere human, who is stability and comfort she wouldn’t know how to ask for—that she doesn’t need to ask for. Morgan, who is trustworthy beyond all, and Felix, who she will keep safe at any cost, and the three of them are all she needs.

When she meets the detective it’s like the sound of shattering glass.

No, no, no.

She knows, immediately, what this could be, what it is—but that only makes it worse, and the pull she feels towards them threatens to shatter her in every way; her resolve, her strength, the nine hundred years she has spent being nothing other than what she is.

She hears Nate’s voice in the back of her mind. It will only hurt so much worse if you don’t. It’s a mirror of what she has said to him so many times. But she can’t, she can’t.

She almost gives in, she can’t help herself, and the taste makes her hate it all the more: it is the sweetest thing she has ever experienced—but still she must step back, and deny herself. Nate’s voice rings in her head, but she can’t. Not this. Not them.

She shatters the training dummies instead.