#i think it kinda means a LOT to the girls that theres not one normal person in their family

[xoxojisu]

"WE'RE NOT DATING!"

synopsis: the 1a girls have a lot to say about you and katsuki's not-relationship.

a/n: hahahaha more pre-relationship just friends trope (do not tell me i do this trope too much it brings me joy) also a lot of people asked for a pt two to my unofficalbf!katsuki hcs and this isnt quiiiite that bc there's not a whole lotta interaction w katsuki but uhm its smth. i have more wips abt this tho so theres a LOTTT more where that came from!

"even if we don't talk about anything important, i want to force it to be about romance!" mina exclaimed as ochako floated off in embarrassment at being questioned about deku.

"oh! speaking of! how long have you and bakugo been dating, y/n?"

you froze. "huh?"

"i don't know how you handle him! you're so sweet and cute and he's all 'die! go to hell! i am the king explosion murder lord!' y'know?" she added.

"he's not really like that with her, though. he's always a lot quieter she's around. you can see the way his eyes soften." tsu commented thoughtfully.

they all stared at you expectantly, waiting for you to answer the question, and you could feel blood rushing to your cheeks. "uh.. katsuki and i.. aren't dating?"

a beat passed. then another.

"WHAT?!"

"no way! i thought you two were dating for sure! he's always holding your hand and grabbing at you and acting all soft with you! wait, i literally saw him carry you to his room! how are you not dating?" hagakure burst out.

"yeah! and during our movie night last week, you were laying your head on his shoulder and he had his arms around you!" mina chimed in. "we all just assumed you two were dating like a given! what do you mean, 'you're not dating?!'"

"i mean, we're not dating! we're close friends, sure, but katsuki's never, like, asked me to be his girlfriend or anything! we're just tight childhood friends, that's all! he probably thinks of me as a little sister with the way he looks out for me, or something." you explained, waving your hands in the air frantically.

"y/n, i love you, but you're being as stupid as kaminari! no boy, but especially not bakugo, would ever act like that with a girl he wasn't interested in." jirou sighed. "there really isn't such thing as 'platonic cuddling' or 'platonic handholding' between boys and girls."

"well, it's normal for kids, you know? and katsuki and i grew up together, so it just kinda stuck!" you said, making a noble attempt at justifying you and katsuki's we-are-definitely-not-just-friends behavior. they all looked at you unamused.

the girls continued to bombard you with questions, each one getting bolder than the last.

"seriously, though, y/n," mina said, her grin wide, "how do you keep it together around him? you two are always so… cozy."

"cozy?" you blinked, trying to avoid their intense stares. "what do you mean 'cozy'?"

"oh, come on," she teased, nudging you. "you hold hands, sit waaaay too close, and don’t even get me started on the whole ‘sleeping on and cuddling with him’ thing. also, i swear i saw him give you a kiss on the forehead!"

"i mean, that’s just how we are!" you said, exasperated. "we’ve been friends forever! it’s not a big deal!"

jirou raised an eyebrow, crossing her arms. "i don’t know, y/n. most guys don’t carry their girl friends to their rooms when they’re tired."

you froze. the memories flashed in your mind, and you couldn’t help the nervous laugh that escaped your lips. "i told you, he was just being—"

"overprotective?" yaomomo interrupted, practically reading your mind. "yeah, that’s what we thought, too. but i don’t know, seems a little… extra for a friend."

you groaned, burying your face in your hands. “this is ridiculous. we’re not dating! he’s not like that with me.”

they all stared at you for a long moment, clearly unconvinced, when suddenly, the door to the room swung open.

katsuki stood in the doorway, his signature scowl immediately visible, with kirishima and kaminari not far behind. "..what the hell are you all looking like that at me for? you got a problem?"

the girls didn’t miss a beat. mina jumped up, eyes practically sparkling. "we were just discussing how you and a certain girl over here are totally a secret item!"

you froze. oh no.

katsuki's eyes widened then narrowed as he stared at her, his eyes a mixture of grumpiness and fluster. "the hell?" was all he said.

“you’re always carrying her, holding hands, and let’s not forget you cuddling with her sleeping on you during that movie last week. with how comfortable you guys were with it, i'll bet it was far from the first time you guys have done stuff like that, too! you two are practically made for each other!”

katsuki glared at her, his fists clenching. "i don’t give a shit what you idiots think." his voice was sharp, dismissive, and he turned his gaze toward you for a moment, his usual annoyance evident.

you let out a nervous laugh, relieved that he wasn’t actually acknowledging any of the weird feelings the group was pushing on you two.

the girls looked between you and katsuki, still skeptical, but he wasn’t having it. he gave a quick, sharp glare to the group before glancing back at you. you failed to see the way his sharp glare softened ever-so-slightly when he did so.

“you’re all so damn nosy,” he muttered, turning to leave. "get a life."

he marched off grumpily, kirishima and kaminari now excitedly talking to him about assumedly the same topic. he slammed the door in their faces, but they were quick to scramble after him.

you let out a sigh of relief once they left, but before you could even speak, mina burst into laughter. "there it is! classic bakugo. totally in denial!"

"totally!" ochako giggled.

"mhm!" hagakure agreed.

"ugh," you groaned, face in your hands. "please just drop it already!"

the girls kept their grins, but the teasing finally slowed down. "alright, alright," mina said with a wink. "we’ll let you off the hook for now."

you exhaled in relief as the group slowly started to branch off into different topics, the heat finally off of you. you excused yourself for some water so you could get some air, and began heading back to the dorm rooms.

to your surprise, katsuki was already waiting for you outside the common area. when he saw you, he gave you a gruff nod of acknowledgement.

"kats! i thought you were going to bed!" you chirped, unaware of how your demeanor instantly brightened when it was just the two of you.

"i am," was all he offered before grabbing your hand and dragging you to presumably his dorm room to cuddle and hangout.

as you rambled and chatted with katsuki, hand-in-hand, on your way to hang out in his dorm alone, the words of your friends came back to you, causing a pink hue to rise to your cheeks.

..yeah. you two were definitely not "just friends."

[stealingpotatoes]

POTES SEMI-LIVEBLOGS KOTOR!

ive been writing my thoughts in the notes app but due to popular demand (one person asked for it) i'm posting my liveblogging DO NOT SAY/TAG/COMMENT SPOILERS PLEASE i read tags

warning im a yapper, im 10 hours in and theres a lot already (separated into sessions):

SESSION 1

whos this clown i thought i would be playing as revan

ive been too spoiled by dragon age origins this character creator sucks ass

only human???? ): fr?? ill just imagine her different in my brain or some shit

my life is being mansplained to me. is this bad writing or do i have amnesiacs

hes meta now??? hes talking abt the screen controls?????

omg a jedi and an evil jediii

omg their asses suckedddd they both died immediately

i <3 bringing a sword to a gun fight

WHY R THERE SO MANY SITH WHERE IS TJE RULE OF TWO

i clicked a workbench and it said lightsaber so either i get a lightsaber or i get a jedi friend whose lightsaber i can steal if im careful

I assume u play as revan in kotor2 so im gonna buy that now so i can play it when im done playing w this clown

i got light side points im getting a good grade in game morality which is something both normal to want and possible to achieve

everyone keeps saying revan is dead but thats my friend revan from tumblr hes clearly alive. or they???

my characters ass is distractingly present onscreen

huge fan of the way everyone collapsed drunk what the FUCK was in that wine

ok these sith ppl might be the bad guys but their armour is DRIPPY AS FUCK

ideologically i dont agree w the sith but they kinda went off w the fits

googling how to become a sith without being evil cause they have Drip

SESSION 2

i paid £1.19 to see revan he better show up in this game at some point

all these sith n i still cant find one revan….. stop faking ur death rn come out n talk to me babygirl this isnt like u….

why can i be light/dark side if im not a jedi. give me a laser sword

maybe this jedi gyal will know where revan is faking his death. or give me a fuckin lightsaber PLEASEEE

was just thinking 'does this game have romance' and then carth called me beautiful. i dont think im gonna romance anyone until i get this amnesia sorted

why is carth questioning me so much abt the crash im pretty sure i have amnesia

why tf did the jedi lady have me transferred to this ship are we in lesbians with each other???

carth's not wrong it is suspicious but i lowkey have amnesia so i coulda done that i coulda not

a lot of clone wars voice actors in this. was lucasfilm so broke in the 2000s that they could only afford the same 3 VAs for every project

mission is 14??????? we need to get my girl back in school

SESH 3

tale as old as time i fucking suck at racing games

ok i didnt realise you had to mash click i won

REVAN!!! REVAN!!!!!!!!!

why am i dreaming abt revan tho. real as hell but ?????

lmao cringe revan getting blown up. i thought the jedi beat rev-meister in a fight but no. accident

"such visions are often a sign of force sensitivity" COOL YAY GIVE ME A LIGHTSABER

BASTILLE LOST HER FUCKING LIGHTSABER??

CARTH IS RIGHT THATS LIKE DAY ONE JEDI SHIT. ok i still love her even tho shes a bit of a bitch and also doesnt have a saber

if we find a lightsaber im taking it first tho

whys carth getting weird abt me being weird that he doesnt trust me. i just wanna be friends mate

SESH IV: A NEW HOPE

'i mean no disrespect, but perhaps one of the male slaves could serve you better' i went in here to start a slave revolution and instead got called a lesbo

LMAO THERES A SPICE LAB???? WALTER WHITE WHERE ARE YOU

thats insaneee they blew up BILLIONS of people to get to one jedi?????? these sith arent fucking around theyre scary

UM THIS IS CRAZY GRAPHICS THE LIGHTING IS CLEARER/DARKER WHEN I COVER THE SUN W THE SHIP EDGE?? 2003 IS THE YEAR OF THE FUTURE

someone just called me padawan i kinda assumed i was in my late 20s do i just have baby vibes

all the jedi in the movies are so chill but every kotor jedi i've met so far has been a bit of a bitch

YO THEY HAVE A YODA!!! its not THE yoda but

cool so these guys are just the regional managers at best. your asses are not the council

why can everyone smell my force juju so strong

THATS STRAIGHT UP YODA'S CLONE WARS VA

why does fake yoda not blink both eyes at the same time. im calling him master tortimer he reminds me of the animal crossing mayor

bastila there was no need for such a fancy bow

malak is like evil aang

revan is so much shorter than malak omg

are me and bastila sharing dreams. are we both obsessed w revan

poor mission ):

WHAT WAS MASTER TORTIMER ABT TO SAY????????? EVER SINCE WHEN??? DID WE KNOW EACH OTHER BEFORE MY AMNESIACS????? DID BASTILA TELL U SMTHN MORE WHEN I WASNT IN THE ROOM???

im intrigued i like this whole hidden jedi shtick its very compelling. so is whatever theyre hiding from me

kinda surprising no jedi found me before tho given my force juju is so strong

IM A LEGIT JEDI NOW??? SICK!!!

does revan rlly not have pronouns i thought that was a tumblr thing but they straight up are a nonbinary icon ive never heard a single pronoun used. revan's pronouns are revan/revan's

damn revan seems so cool in these stories (charismatic war hero that convinced their troops to join them as conqueror?? julius caesar) and yet all we've seen them do onscreen is get blown up and die by accident

A YEAR AGO? the way they were talking i assumed revan died like. a week before the game started

master uh i forgot his name he has martin scorcese vibes said revan was a paragon of the jedi so what im getting is that all jedi gifted kids turn evil

even if i didnt know revan as a tumblr darling id KNOW revan has to be alive somewhere they way everyone talks abt them is too cool for a character who exploded and died. i think. i hope. I PAID £1.19 TO MEET REVAN

'only you and bastila can stop malak' seriously????? just us two?? ive been a jedi for like, 6 minutes and you guys keep calling bastila young???? do you guys not wanna help??

omg im getting carth to traumadump! <3

HE WAS ON REVAN'S ARMY>??

i totally knew the jedi code and did not have to google it whatsoever

they rlly said fuck going to illum heres a crystal from the bin

he told me id be a great sentinel and i was like i know but i want blue cause i dont wanna be matchies with bastila

OGH!!! I HAVE A LIGHTSABER!!!! THIS IS GAME OF THE YEAR!!!!

omg i made my lightsaber perfectlyyy which is rare <3 getting a good grade in jedi

maybe i was a travelling lightsaber salesman before my amnesia

seriously though WHO was i everyone's kinda stopped acting like i have amnesia since the first mission BUT IVE PLAYED DRAGON AGE THAT GIVES YOU OPPORTUNITIES TO RP UR PAST. THIS DOESNT. EITHER THIS GAME IS BAD (but i love it so its not) OR I HAVE RETROGRADE AMNESIA

also everyone keeps being like "Oh ur force juju is so strong" AND NOBODY FOUND ME TIL NOW??? suspicious. did getting a really bad concussion activate the force in me

im too confused and amnesiac'd to think abt anything except the fact i have a glowing stick now

FSESH FIVE:

big fan of using aliens to avoid having to get VAs to read every line

oh so carth's boyfriend saul betrayed him and became leader of the sith fleet so he has trust issues

well he needs to calm down. i can't betray him cause i dont know what the fuck is happening

yooo i love the design differences on the mandalorians

oh my god this lady wanted to fuck her droid cause it was her husband's. and then it killed itself. wtf. game of the year tho

wtf they jebaited this juhani person into going dark side but then i talked her out of it. that seems a bit mean of them

i hope she can join my party she looks too unique to be a random npc

ive been thinking and I might be going crazy but there was a loading screen tip ages ago that said jedis could wipe ppl's mind and all i thought at the time was 'fuck the shitshow acolyte didnt make that up'. but what if one of them wiped MY memory and i used to be a jedi or smthn ????????

cause they keep being like ur weirdly good at this??? did bastila steal my memories??????????

I KNOW I HAVE AMNESIA!! EVEN IF EVERYONE DOESN'T BRING IT UP BC THEYRE PROBABLY TRYING TO SAVE MY FEELINGS

if i dont have amnesia and im just deeping the fact the opening had my life being mansplained then im gonna look real stupid

anyway time 2 go to the fuckshit ruins cave where r-dog and malak went to

"it must be referring to revan. the dark lord and malak--" revan's pronouns are revan/thedarklord

bastila said theres no mention of the Builders in the archives. does she just know every text off by heart

THIS DROID IS 20K YEARS OLD ???

omg i can equip 2 lightsabers at once. game of the year

OK I TAKE BACK EVERYTHING I SAID ABOUT THE AMNESIA BASTILA IS ASKING ME QUESTIONS ABOUT MY BACKGROUND THAT I CAN ANSWER. I REPEAT I DO NOT HAVE AMNESIA

ok i didnt get choices and i didnt really uh… say anything that i didnt already get told im still not ruling out amnesia

also booo i didnt get to find out how old i was

master tortimer rlly looks like the ultimate ketamine yoda

LMAO THERE WAS A DIALOGUE OPTION 2 CALL JUHANI A CATGIRL

omg kashyyk from jedi fallen order!!!

I CAN UPGRADE MY LIGHTSABER THIS IS JUST LIKE JFO

omg this ship is fun i wish everyone had personalised bunk spaces like hfw… a game which came out 19 years after this i should probably just take what we have

im gonna start w manaan cause im p sure thats what B-dog said n its the same language the droid was speakin

omg hyperspace from star wars

THE GUY THE BUILDING FELL ON???

am i having dreams abt revan bc bastila killed revan and im connected to her this is so roundabout

maybe i'd sleep better if my ponytail wasnt clipping into the pillow

[kiwi accent] six

carth needs a xanax every time i think we're friends he stops trusting me

also lmao he actually pointed out how wild it was that a day one padawan is being sent on this uber important mission and HES RIGHT IT IS WEIRD!! i thought it was main character logic but he's calling it out

i really really like the sense of unease that's setting in like at first i thought it was just cause im not used to 2003 games but no this is on purpose bc carth my friend carth keeps calling it out

THERE IS A CHILD ON MY SHIP ??????????????????

lmao the representative for menaan is roland wann. its like poetry it rhymes

there are no cameras in the sith hangar <3 rookie error i can commit crimes now

bastila's favourite hobby is getting shot and walking into my grenades

this isnt a combat system this is a missing system

I GOT ARRESTED???? IM JUST A GIRL

nvm i had a datapad that said the sith were evil so theyve let me go free and we're besties

why do i feel like ive just walked into an underwater horror mission

this suit waddles at the speed of a penguin on fentanyl

i tamed the beastie this is like how to train your dragon

MALAK FIRED ON REVAN?????? WERENT THEY BEST FRIENDS???????

but maybe revan escaped when bastila wasnt looking THEYRE FINE THEYRE OUT THERE SOMEWHERE. I BELIEVE

so hopefully when we run into revan they'll be like agh i changed my ways cause of the being shot thing and they'll be my bestie

great news i successfully communicated w the ship child and gave her back to dantooine. my girl has shockingly good linguisitics skills

bastila is so dour "oh watch out for the dark side" GIRL I AM. I NEED TO GET THE BEST GRADE IN GAME MORALITY

ok OFF TO KASHYYK i hope cal kestis is there… thru the force i guess… bc he wont be born for another 4000 years but its whatever

omg you'll never guess what. another vision. wow its one of the thangs. cool this is a tomorrow me problem

[junabuggy]

Okayy so I’ve done something similar but I wanted to see it from someone else but it’s Creepy pasta room head canons !!! I don’t mind who you do but I would love to see Jack’s most of all !! Thank you <3

Creepypasta room headcanons

A/n: At the beach rn with family.. sighhh I hate the beach (._.) BUT I LOVE THIS REQUEST !!! LMK IF YALL WANR A PART TWO (^_-)☆

Includes: Jeff, Ej, Toby, BP and Nina :333

Warnings: None

「 ✦ Jeff ✦ 」

🔪✮ MESSY ASS ROOM and it does NOT smell all that great tbh 😭😭

🔪✮ Has zero shame about it too, you come to hang out in his room he'll just kick stuff to the side and shove stuff off the bed casually.

🔪✮ Posters all over the walls, most of them are of bands he enjoys (He stole most of them 💀)

🔪✮ Jeff has a knife collection so he has a little setup for them :3

🔪✮ ALSO!!!! Side headcanon he fucking loves MSI (The song "This Hurts" by them is literally him chat)

🔪✮ There's a window in his room by his bed that you can use to get to the roof of the manor, it's actually got a pretty damn good view too

🔪✮ Has a mini fridge in his room beside his bed that has drinks in it

🔪✮ Mostly energy drinks and Pepsi with like, a singular water that'll never get drank.

🔪✮ Probably doesn't have sheets on his bed.. the mattress is full of mysterious stains

🔪✮ Musty BEAST (I love him)

「 ✦ Eyeless Jack ✦ 」

👁️‍🗨️𖤐 Jacks room doesn't smell all that great either.. he keeps all his organs to munch on and such in there.

👁️‍🗨️𖤐 There really isn't much there tbh, just the essentials to have in a bedroom.

👁️‍🗨️𖤐 A bed, a wardrobe, chair and a desk with an old computer on it..

👁️‍🗨️𖤐 Oh and a few shelves with one big window that he usually keeps closed ദ്ദി(ᵔᗜᵔ)

👁️‍🗨️𖤐 His flooring is a grey-ish carpet and his walls are painted black

👁️‍🗨️𖤐 Kinda boring, ik 😭

「 ✦ Toby ✦ 」

🪓☆ Chaotically clean room, bro is a maximalist to the extreme (^o^)

🪓☆ ‼️‼️ He yearns to collect ‼️‼️

🪓☆ there's a few shelves with trinkets he's collected over the years on them (≧ω≦)

🪓☆ Posters, banners, stickers, drawings and records littered eevveryywhere on the walls and ceiling of his room (maybe this is just projecting because thats witterly my room ☝️)

🪓☆ Has the glow in the dark star stickers on his ceiling for sure

🪓☆ His room is MUCH bigger than the other proxies, has everything he needs and more

🪓☆ I mean, he has a little couch in there that has a big stuffed animal on it and a bug blanket (His hyperfixation is bugs, if you couldn't tell /silly 🪲🪲 )

🪓☆ He spends a shit ton of time in his room because it's genuinely super cool

🪓☆ Has a Tv mounted on his wall in the corner !!

🪓☆ Oh and he has a guitar in his room that he l can't play, he just thinks it looks cool o_O

「 ✦ Bloody Painter ✦ 」

🎨꩜ VERY CLEAN ROOM. AND VERY PARTICULAR ON HOW HE KEEPS THINGS.

🎨꩜ Don't mess with any of his shit without permission first and you'll be fine 🙏

🎨꩜ Has some of the normal (Ones that he doesn't use blood in, he keeps those safe.) paintings, drawings and sketches he's made on his wall behind his easel in the corner of his room :33

🎨꩜ I also think he likes to write!! So maybe some poetry is on his wall as well in that little corner ^_^

🎨꩜ Almost the entirety of his back wall is window which he loves

🎨꩜ HAS PLANTS !!!! 🌱🪴

🎨꩜ Has a nice desk to draw on with a comfortable chair. Theres a nice smelling candle on it with a few books and a lamp (●＾o＾●)

🎨꩜ Also owns the most??? Comfortable?? Blankets?? EVER????? Amazing textures, NO SHERPA <(｀^´)>

🎨꩜ Has a drawer thingy dedicated to his art supplies (Which is also very organized, btw)

🎨꩜ HE HAS A RECORD PLAYER. YOU CANNOT CONVINCE ME OTHERWISE.

「 ✦ Nina ✦ 」

🪱ᰔ SHES A SCENE GIRL!!! ROOM IS SCENE!!!

🪱ᰔ Like holy shit it's so colourful ( ꩜ ᯅ ꩜;) 

🪱ᰔ LOTS and LOTS of homemade stuff stuck on her walls along with various other things, there's stuff everywhere

🪱ᰔ Now you already know she owns a gir blanket and a gir backpack, like cmon (灬ºωº灬)♡

🪱ᰔ Collection of stuffed animals !! Some on her bed and some in a hanging net in the corner above her bed

🪱ᰔ Has LED lights and there's no windows in her room

🪱ᰔ Has a nice desk with a computer on it and trinkets, her keyboard lights up rainbow ☆´∀｀☆

🪱ᰔ Her wardrobe and closet are FULL. She has like, so many cool clothes, belts and accessories

🪱ᰔ Convinced slender to let her paint her walls funky and cool !!

🪱ᰔ Soooo her walls are purple and she painted on with a smaller paint brush cheetah print all over them :3 (She's an icon and I love her dearly)

𝐏𝐥𝐞𝐚𝐬𝐞 𝐝𝐨 𝐧𝐨𝐭 𝐩𝐥𝐚𝐠𝐚𝐫𝐢𝐳𝐞, 𝐫𝐞𝐩𝐨𝐬𝐭 𝐨𝐫 𝐭𝐫𝐚𝐧𝐬𝐥𝐚𝐭𝐞 𝐚𝐧𝐲 𝐨𝐟 𝐦𝐲 𝐰𝐫𝐢𝐭𝐢𝐧𝐠 𝐰𝐢𝐭𝐡𝐨𝐮𝐭 𝐩𝐞𝐫𝐦𝐢𝐬𝐬𝐢𝐨𝐧 ◟( ˃̶͈◡ ˂̶͈ )◞

ᯓ★ 𝐣𝐮𝐧𝐚𝐛𝐮𝐠𝐠𝐲

[suffarustuffaru]

why the emilia camp thinks otto is their most threatening member 👍

i see some people being confused on why the emilia camp collectively seems to agree that otto is the biggest threat there for some reason and like. yeah. i get it.

but let me explain real quick why i think it makes sense for the emilia camp to think that :O !!

otto though is disarming because. well okay look at him he doesnt look threatening at all. he has the looks and personality of a wet cat. hes whiny. hes cringe fail. he gets stressed out with paperwork. he looks like you could just smack him around like a bug. he HAS been smacked around like a bug. but that makes him unpredictable because apart from roswaal, he is the Most Amoral one there. you can expect roswaal to be trying some shit, but youd never know when to expect otto is planning something. his moral compass is just “does this benefit me or my loved ones in some way? if not, then its gonna be gone 🥺”.

sure, he does nice things sometimes out of the goodness of his heart. he genuinely means well a lot of the time.

but also then you read the shit hes thinking in his internal dialogue and its like.

“should i go save some girl i dont even know from bandits??? hmm lemme think for a couple minutes. im the only one that can help rn… some guy claiming to be her dad is begging me to help his daughter, but also hes kind of annoying… but i dont even live in this city so why should i help… or Care. actually. but i feel kinda bad about this girl… but also this is gonna put me and my profits in danger… but if i reject helping then im forever gonna be known as the guy who abandoned them and then i wont be able to make any sales in this city anymore :<<<< ……anyway im gonna help them then lol im so smart.” and then he gets captured by the exact same bandits anyway so hes like “well okay now me and this girl might be sold into slavery so i might as well save both of us or ill feel bad ☝️☝️”

(yes. yes this is genuinely ottos thought process if you read through the Otto's Bittersweet Peddling Log side story.)

except all the back and forth Calculation he does in his head Stays In His Head and doesnt match up with his outward appearance most of the time. which means that sometimes his words dont match up with his actions. “dont be surprised if i leave at the first sign of danger,” he says, right after risking his life and writing a suicide note over a dude hes known for like four days. “ahah thanks for giving me a vacation to see my family…” he says, damn well knowing he cant go back home yet otherwise he’ll get sniped by assassins. “im gonna give you some of my own money bounty money to help you BUT BUT BUT DONT THINK THAT IM NICE OR ANYTHING I NEED MOST OF THE MONEY FOR REPAIRS OK YOU CAN ONLY HAVE A BIT :<<<“

this also means that whenever otto says or does something Particularly Questionable, all his friends are still kinda blindsided by it because otherwise otto seems Mostly Fine in comparison to whatever the hell everyone else has going on. hes just a wet pathetic cat of a guy ahah. theres nothing more going on with h—

“if everyone in vollachia dies but rem and natsuki-san live, then we’ve won. if everyone in vollachia lives but rem and natsuki-san die, then we’ve lost.”

um otto can you repeat that. what the fuck did you just say.

otto looks Mostly Normal, Just Stressed Out or Somewhat Chilling the vast majority of the time, and then he whacks you over the head with a steel chair. like can you imagine being garfiel and learning that this pathetic rag of a man is actually pretty brave when it counts. youre like “oh cool lol we kinda beat each others asses and i was Annoyed but now that thats all over i got some newfound respect for you!!” and then you read through his diary and hes got a suicide note in there, which is like. okay fine whatever hes kind of a clown just like my New Captain lol but hes dedicated to his friends, ill give him that. and then a year later you find your now brother figure (whos also lowkey highkey an alcoholic) with a broken hand after punching a wall because he couldnt do his Lets Abandon 50 Million People Plan and youre just sitting there going

and okay dont get me wrong—subaru is Batshit Crazy. in Multiple Incomprehensible Ways. if the emilia camp (or Anyone. At All.) knew about all the shit hes done and been through with rbd, subaru would INSTANTLY be skyrocketing up the Most Threatening People list. but at the same time subarus less threatening than otto in the sense that subarus Always going to want to do good. hes Always going to want to save everyone. hes Extremely forgiving, on top of that. he goes along picking up friends everywhere he goes in his own Incomprehensible Unhinged Way and hes fond of All of them.

otto? yeah his opinion of you could shift on a dime and you could end up in his personal shit list unless youre one of the *checks list* *clears throat* maybe like ten people he cares about. and even if youre on the I Care About You! :) list, he could still get pissed enough at you to, i dont know, punch a wall over you? and spiral into obsession? and even if hes not upset at you hes still gonna mansplain manipulate malewife his way to his goals <33

and yeah of course subaru is also Mansplain Manipulate and Gaslight Gatekeep but at least he has way more good intentions AND his attitude about it is gonna be like "sorry :<<< i just gotta do this for your sake :<<<<<< :((( haha dont worry about it". subaru would never ever want to do anything big to hurt his loved ones (except for rbd). while otto doesnt even bat an eye. everyone can be manipulated if he has to. he goes down his list of Things I Need To Do and goes "yeah that had to be done. oh well. anyway i got more shit to do (like maybe kill a toddler lol)"

also lets talk about roswaal's perspective really quick. post-arc 4 hes like "well subaru-kun is always gonna want to save everyone and hes doing a pretty good job of things in general so whatever lol. i can still keep him in check by killing everyone if even one of his friends dies :)". so its like. YEAH subarus an Unhinged Wildcard. roswaal knows that. but right now subaru is more predictable and also again, roswaal knows he can keep subaru in check by making subaru have to reset if roswaal really needs to.

but otto? yeah ottos second in line for being an Unhinged Wildcard. but whats even worse is that otto is Basically Subaru but More Calculating and with a moral backbone thats Near Nonexistent. roswaal was genuinely concerned for otto in arc 8 for once and there was still Literally No Stopping Otto from being a stubborn little shit whos hell bent on all the maladjusted insane mentalities hes got floating around in his head, half of which he doesnt even say out loud, and all of which he thinks is Completely Right and that theres Nothing Wrong with what hes doing.

and also otto being underestimated and Not In The Tome was a big help as to how subaru got the win over roswaal in arc 4 👍and then otto Continues to try keeping an eye on roswaal after arc 4, to the point of getting roswaal's tome and actively trying to investigate roswaal's actions, so roswaal is Very Aware that otto is. a bit of a threat. roswaal of course is smarter and more powerful than otto though, but that still doesnt change the fact that otto is still capable of being a threat if roswaal doesnt Also kind of keep an eye on otto back. because roswaal kind of lost to otto already in arc 4!!

but okay, on top of all of this, no one knows the full extent of whats going on with otto, not even roswaal (though he has his Suspicions), and most definitely not subaru yet (whos Still a bit of an otto apologist anyway), and otto is already a bit menacing even without knowing All of that. and the rest of the emilia camp are already a bit more lenient with roswaal (as hes seemingly chilled out after arc 4 + they all need him still). that, and you can easily Expect roswaal post-arc 4 to be suspicious and Probably up to something. you wont know what it is, but you wont Exactly be surprised when it happens.

and also roswaal isnt publicly batshit crazy like otto is. otto of course isnt as Openly Weird as subaru, but otto is still Openly Unhinged and Pathetic. just look at him declaring julius and anastasia, HIS CAMP'S ALLIES, as enemies right to their faces alsdfjlsdjfl.

and with subaru, there is Zero doubt in the emilia camp's minds that subaru wants the best for them and everyone around them.

otto though? yeah he also wants whats best for the camp. he Cares about them, he really does. but hes so obviously Questionable by the time you get to arc 8 to the point where the entire rest of the camp starts eyeing him like this:

theres also the fact that ottos dp allows him to have eyes and ears Everywhere so long as he doesnt overuse it. that paired with his Intelligence, Stubbornness, and Lack of Morals or self-awareness/sometimes guilt/regret over his actions is dangerous. theres a reason why gluttony if subaru decided to flood The Entire Surrounding Area Around Otto. the flood took away the potential army otto couldve made out of the animals and allies otto had in the city, and once you do that, whats otto going to do against someone like shaula? all of ottos power regarding his People Skills and Animal DP was stripped away.

but if that Isnt stripped away... well honestly otto can do whatever the hell he wants the moment he figures out a solid plan to try and get what he wants. his biggest ability at the core of what makes him dangerous is his ability to quite Literally be in the background. so long as hes underestimated, so long as he still has secrets, no ones gonna know the full extent of his bullshit!! you cant stop him if you dont even realize what hes going to do, and hes Good at doing that!!

and if gluttonybaru hadnt taken out otto, subaru would be skyrocketing right to the top of ottos shit list after subaru literally just killed All of ottos (and previously subarus.) loved ones. otto wouldnt stop until he figured out how to destroy subaru. its to the point where im pretty sure if otto had to choose between destroying half the world vs kill gluttonybaru once and for all, otto would certainly choose one of those options in a Heartbeat.

anyway. if youre an emilia camp member, and you see the dude whos in charge of the Vast Majority of the factions political affairs, the guy who you Know is very intelligent and competent and determined when it counts, say shit like "if everyone dies in this entire country i wouldnt even give a single flying fuck as long as our friends get back safe and sound :) it would be such a loss if the entire country lived but our friends didnt :<<<" OF COURSE I WOULD BE LIKE YEAH THAT GUY IS THE MOST DANGEROUS ONE HERE. HE HAS THE SKILLS AND THE MOTIVATION TO BACK UP THAT STATEMENT AND I WONT EVEN KNOW WHEN ITD HAPPEN. he also has the Mental Instability to back that up too, given the amount of times he spends drinking and Raging and Being Terribly Anxious over Every Little Thing.

youll be sweating buckets being wary of otto while ottos casually standing there with his wet cat looks and a knife in your back.

and otto has, for the most part, some of the most normal trauma compared to a bunch of people in this cast (not to discount ottos trauma and pain or anything but its true lajdsfls sorry otto. but also im not sorry because arc 5 was partially on you T^T). he doesnt have rbd, he doesnt have some weird family drama bullshit going on like the astreas or emilias family or the segmunts, he hasnt been erased by gluttony, etc etc. but hes still like this. if you put him in subarus position and gave him rbd, he would get even worse than he already is.

yeah so anyway thats my quick rambley psa about why i think it makes sense that the emilia camp's voted otto as the most threatening one there 👍

but the fact that we (the audience) (or at least some of us!!) keep questioning why the hell the emilia camp thinks otto is the biggest threat there is means that otto's funny silly guy image is. Kind of Working??? just a little bit.

because. granted. of course i think subaru is easily the most threatening person there with both His Flavor of Insanity and rbd. subaru is an eldritch horror in every single way. but at the same time - hes an eldritch horror who thinks friendship is the best magic of all T^TT !!! he FORGIVES PEOPLE WHO'VE KILLED AND TORTURED HIM. hes not threatening in this sense - the fact that hes kind of just way too nice in this sense!!! granted yes, he IS abusing rbd and Terrifying and Threatening in a multitude of ways, but i'd rather take my chances with mainbaru over main otto right now HAH T^TT at least subaru will apologize and start bawling his eyes out if he stabs some random innocent civilian and stranger in the gut for Some Necessary Reason!! otto would feel a bit bad and then completely Eradicate that feeling of guilt with "i had to do it. it was them or me so no regrets <3".

because otto..................... yeah otto is the Worlds Most Pathetic Yandere to his whole camp.

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i lovvveee the drogo and primula that exist in my head. like its like they are the twisted and weird as hell versions of bungo and belladonna except infinitely less stable and mature like. one of relationship is a reliable, comfortable hearth and the other is a star that burns hard and fast and dies even faster

if you looked at these pairs from a distance they would look like very similiar couples, dynamic wise. you’ve got the ~wild~ took (or tookish brandybuck) girl and the stuffy baggins boy. but once you actually look you would realize they are completely different

bungo was a needed sense of home in belladonna’s life. he gave her something to actually come back to, a reason to come home and stay there. a reason to want to be in the shire. he literally built her a house. he loved all her weirdness and her tookishness, of course, even if it scared him a little sometimes. but mostly he just loved her. i think once everyone else got used to them being together they regarded belladonna and bungo as like... the couple. ultimate hobbit couple goals. they were madly in love and they knew how to handle it. they were normal about it, ya know? like a cute elderly couple or something.

but drogo and primula... uhhh...

lets just say, this was a match made in hell in eyes of their families.

drogo was a perfectly good hobbit before primula. fussy, stuffy, a little stuck up and a lot a coward - guy was the quintessential baggins. probably never even kissed a girl. and then primula happened.

primula is a firestorm. widely regarded as a hell-raiser, trouble-maker and disturber of the peace. often pictured standing on top of the burning corpse of respectability and good hobbit sense. not much of an adventurer per se, but definitely a little manic. somebody that definitely needs to be kept away from alcohol at all costs. takes pleasure in causing other people mental anguish and is total adrenaline junky. everything about her screams unstable, unrespectable. seriously, shes had like seven boyfriends, even a girlfriend or two

and then she starts flirting with drogo. and to everyone’s horror, he’s kinda into it.

whats worse is that she only becomes more insane, all to impress drogo. and. it fucking works.

primula is wild. probably a little deranged. and shes the most fun drogo has ever had in his life:

being the perfect baggins is boring, okay? there, he admitted it! he doesnt like being stuffy and fussy, locked up in his little hobbit hole stuck officiating mind-numbingly boring tea parties with distant relatives pretending to be interested in doilies, wondering about all the fun hes too scared to find.

but primula. primula.

she doesnt mind that hes a squeaky little coward who whines about unnecessary dangers and stained shirts. its like she sees through him, sees through all his toothless simpering that feels more like a force of habit than actual protests. shes exciting, shes fun, shes actually insane,

oh, and drogo! the flirting didnt really mean anything to primula, not at first. she flirts with a lot of hobbits, just because its fun. little primula motto for you: if its fun, why hold back?

but drogo is different. she didnt notice it at first, but once she did she was hooked.

he looks like the perfect baggins, acts like the perfect baggins. but its all an act, and shes the first one to see through it. he whines about danger and irrespectability, and hes not actually pretending to be scared. but theres a spark in his eyes when she steals a cart and takes them on a wild joy ride through hobbiton. hes screaming, but hes also laughing, she knows that look he has:

like he just started living for the first time in his life.

drogo was coaxed and eased into love. primula fell into it full force and with bang when she realized that this stuffy little baggins who cares about table arrangements and handkerchiefs is the first hobbit to also know thats it not just about being a menace for menace sake, thats its not about causing chaos. its about feeling alive. and he feels it too.

bungo and belladonna fell in love as equal and opposite forces, coming together like two puzzle pieces that somehow complemented each other perfectly. primula and drogo didnt fall in love with their opposites. they fell in love with the first hobbit in their lives that actually understood them. that actually got it. they fell in love because they were, at heart, the same. and yeah they burned so damn bright and died like a supernova but god, it was amazing while it lasted, wasn’t it?

[a-court-of-moonlight-and-ire]

Ive been thinking a lot about Feysand UTM fanart lately and why it discomforts me the way it does. Like, i know a lot of people like to complain about it and shame feysand shippers for romantizing that part of the story and i get it, but I also understand that sometimes people have dub-con or even non-con fantasies and thats very normal, hell, I love reading dark romance stuff involving dubious or even no consent because I think it can be very hot. Well, as long as its not cishet. I think Ive talked about this before, but when I see dark romance where theres a submissive traditionally feminine fragile "girl" and a dominant dark dangerous man, i just see The Patriarchy but on a smaller scale and while I can understand why a lot of people do find that hot in some way, i just find it kinda repulsive, so its only hot to me if its gay pretty much. or if the woman is the dominant one but its so hard to find stories like that

Anyway, so thats my first reason for disliking that genre of Feysand fanart i guess, although its really more of a reason for my dislike of Feysand as a pairing in general. The second reason is that Feysand shipper as a whole often put themselves on a moral high ground because their ship is the one thats 'healthy' and 'feminist', so it really rubs me the wrong way to see those same people create art about the traumatic events that the female main character went through that does not center her trauma at all and in fact objectifies her. And like, there are definitely plenty of Feysand shippers who like it exactly because its fucked up and a typical dark romance couple (i mean just look at all the people who only ship acotar!feysand because its the only version of the ship thats genuinely dark and they like that) and Im guessing those are the people who usually draw romanticised UTM fanart, but it does still find appeal in the broader fandom space so I think my point still stands

And now the last reason: the original UTM scene is not written to be titillating at all. Like, I just said that I find dub-con/non-con stuff pretty hot so Ive read a lot of it, and there tends to be a very distinct difference between non-con fiction thats supposed to be hot and get you off and fiction about rape or SA that actually explores the topic in a serious manner, and the original UTM scene is very clearly a case of the latter, so I find it pretty discomforting when fans (and the books themselves tbh) retcon it into being hot instead when its like, thats clearly not what it was originally imo

[theosconfessions]

if youd like to read the stephens from the beginning you can over here :)

if youd like to read the stephens continued you can over here:)

@ohsosims

dustin- hey, you see rivers school pictures? this is our last year of these with him and blake chooses that time to go tongue him?

theo- [scoffs] yeah blakes bold as shit

dustin- thats one word for him. the other is...

theo- dusty, babe. no chill. hes a good kid. and if ends up not being a good MAN riv wont stay. hes seen us.

dustin- thats the problem. he thinks thats normal. to let someone cheat on you.

theo- i can assure you he doesnt. just from our talks. hey riv shit aside. i need to talk to you before i lose the nerve to.

dustin- what do you mean lose the nerve to? what happened at the doctors?

theo- well he said a lot of shit.

dustin- i knew i shouldve gone with you. i just couldnt find someone to watch the kids with the girls busy and..

theo- dusty ...its okay. just listen. he um has a few theories to whats been going on. why my memory is kinda in and out? theres bad news and worse news. bad news is i could just be going senile normally which is fun..for you and for me.

dustin- okay we can handle that. its just age related shit we got that.

theo- thats the thing dusty..he thinks its more than that

dustin- oh.

theo- he thinks we're at the beginnings of alzheimers

dustin- [eyes tear up] i dont know what to say

theo- yeah well. same.. look weve been through a lot together. from the moment i stepped into that bar. babe, i need to be clear on something here. youre still...young, kid. and if this is THAT and it gets to much i need you to know that i am OKAY with you stepping away to take care of yourself, i want you okay,dusty. i dont expect you to 'the notebook' with me. god knows ive put you through more than anyone else in my life. kids included.. if it gets bad,dusty..and thats what im facing then i need you to know its OKAY to do what you need to. no matter what it is . understand?

dustin: no we're totally notebooking. but a long long time in the future.

theo- [smirks] youre stubborn kid

dustin-if i werent we wouldnt still be married

theo- i dont deserve you.

dustin- yes you do,theo. now you? you deserve me. what you dont deserve is THIS SHIT

theo- amen [smirks] listen we dont know though. i could just be senile. he was worst case scenario-ing me. i honestly hope its just me going senile,man.

[my-castles-crumbling]

Anon Advice Asks - March 28

extra friend anon (new...ish), A very confused anon, 20 times anon, family dynamics anon (tw: death), germany/france anon (new)

Extra Friend Anon

Extra friend anon (not new but it’s whatever, i’m not usually anonymous in your asks anymore,, he/they)

So like, i’m an extra friend in a friend group, i got introduced by this one girl…

Well, i feel attracted to one of those friends, and I’m not sure how he feels about me, and i can’t say it’s mutual because i’m afraid that would be a bit delusional.

But i do understand that it might be the same for him, and that he just has his own stuff to deal with. How do i confess that i don’t want it to just be physical attraction but that i really want more than that? My last relationship ended because i cared so much about romance while my ex gf seemed to only be physically attracted to me. Which physical attraction is a part of a relationship to me as well, but i am more of a romantic type of person at heart…

Anyway how do i confess that i don’t want this to just be another friends with benefits type of situation? I really care about the friend group a lot. It feels like we shouldn’t be together but i really do want to be with him. I’m not even sure if he likes guys or not and even then I don’t know if he would have those same feelings for me.

Hi!

I think the best thing to do is to be straightforward. Because the thing is, even if he doesn't want the same, it's much better to know that NOW, at the beginning, then halfway through the relationship. Like you implied, if you don't know for sure, it can fuck with the friend group and also it's just not want you want and could be hurtful. It's much better to risk that small amount of hurt now than a whole lot of hurt later.

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A very confused anon

You asked me to tell you what i think, so here’s a check in:

fist and foremost: your answer helped me alot, and i reaaaaally appreciate you for everything you do!! Your response made me feel a little more comfortable with just being, ya know? But at the same time i know my feels arent “normal” so i kinda wanna know what i can call myself, even if its not a set sexuality (which it probably wont be)

Also, i started going through the resource you have in your intro post for aro/ace labels. Aaaaand i cant find one. I haven’t read through the full thing, but i’ve been thinking and theres been some discoveries.

Do you know if the aro spectrum also includes liking people differently than normal or is it just lack of romantic attraction in various levels?

— a very confused anon (aVCa) —

I think the thing you need to remember is that feeling aren't normal or abnormal. They just...are. Who's to say that your feelings are any less normal than anyone else's?

Can you explain what you mean by differently than normal? I guess in my head, romantic and sexual attraction is just a spectrum, it's not a 'normal' or 'not normal.'

Also, here's a website with some definitions about ace/aro identities!

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20 times anon

20 times anon here

hi, cas, how are you today?

i have a little update about the situation. me and three of my other friends decided to tell her mom about everything. we are all afraid she’s going to be upset with us, but her mom reassured that she wouldn’t say it was us whole told. we just all want her to get better and hope that she gets the help she needs.

when i had a chat with her (the best friend) about it the day prior, she told me she didnt want to get better. it concerned me, and that’s why i decided to tell an adult. thank you so so much for the advice because i really needed it.

Hi!

I think you made the right call here and it sounds like her mom is a decent person- like she won't just get mad, she'll try to help. Remember, even if your friend gets mad, you did what you did out of love and concern, and you made the right decision <3

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Family Dynamics anon (tw death)

I am so, so sorry to hear about your grandma. Deaths that are more shocking like that can be so hard. Remember to be gentle to yourself and give yourself time to grieve. Whatever you're feeling, it's valid, and I'm here if you want to tell me about her or how you're feeling <3

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Germany/France anon

Hi hon <3 I know you said i didn't have to reply but I just wanted to let you know that I'm here whenever you need to vent. I don't know if it makes you feel better or worse, but, living in the US, I completely understand how you're feeling. It's scary and difficult, but we'll make it through somehow <3

Sending so much love

[ushis-gushy]

PT 2 of Hear me out

If you don’t know what’s going on, go to my page and find part one! (If you want. I’m pretty sure you can get context here either way 😅)

Main points you need to know to read:

Miles has a crush on Hobie and pavitr

Gayatri and pavitr has an open relationship

Hobie and Pavitr are together

Miles is very oblivious

Theres going to be a lot of misspelt words and bad grammar in here (I’m sorry)

Let’s get started:

the spider gang + Gayatri started walking to the fair after Miles had gotten a phone call from Ganke inviting them. It wasn’t too far away. Miles was in front leading the group using the gps app to help sometime. Gwen and Gayatri were in the middle of the group talking. (fun fact: Gwen was talking to Gayatri about how stupid the boys were. Like Miles was for not noticing that both Hobie and Pavitr liked him and the same thing back to the pair of boys)

In the back of the group, Hobie and Pavitr were talking about plans to woo Mile’s heart. (Pav: oooo why don’t we draw? Hobie: we both know we can’t draw Pav: *sad pupppy Hobie: *sigh, let’s think of another plan before that twat nicks Peter Pan) When the group reached the fair they decide to split up. The girls went straight towards the rigged carnival games. Gwen said that she could always beat the system no matter what. The girls left, leaving the boys to themselves. Pavitr waved bye to his girlfriend when she left and jumped on Miles back when he couldn’t see her. Pavitr asked, “Sooooo, what do you want to do?” Miles perked up, “Well, there is the art wall I really want to go to, but there’s a small concert thing with my friends from Vision.” Hobie spoke up leaning on Pavitr who was still on Miles’s back, “When you mean friends do you mean Gan-“ Before he could finish his sentence, the small group heard someone call Miles’s over. They turned their head over to see Ganke and the rest of Miles’s friends. Mile’s eyes widened before leaving Pavitr and Hobie. Hobie saving Pavitr from falling from loosing the weight he was leaning against. ”GANKE! What’s up!” Miles gave Ganke a hug and Ganke gestured to the boys, Hobie and Pavitr (who were looking at him in jealousy), and quietly asked Miles if those are the guys Miles has been gushing about. Miles blushed (to Hobie and Pavitr’s dismay) and nodded.

Ganke smirked and answered Mile’s question, well we were heading over to the wall and then we’re going to the concert’s venue. Wanna tag along?” Miles looked back the Hobie and Pavitr, and they gave him a thumbs up. Miles brightened up and smiled turning back to Ganke he said, “Yeah! Sure let’s go!” The bigger group walked over the the wall and grabbed some spay cans and markers. Miles walked over to a conveniently big white space on the wall and started drawing sunflowers. Miles was so into his art he didn’t notice the others were getting ready to go to the concert. Ganke came up to him, stopping Hobie or Pavitr from doing so, “Miles, we’re heading out.” ”Oh! I’m sorry, but I really need to finish this!” ”We can stay back so you can finish!” Pavitr exclaimed but Miles shook his head, “No! It’ll take too long. You should go to the concert. I think you’d really like it. Hobie would too. I’ll meet up with you later.” After a long time convincing, Hobie and Pavitr walked away with the group to the concert. TIME SKIP

After the concert, everyone was having a fun time. But, Hobie and Pavitr were worried. Well Pavitr was. Hobie trusted Miles. Anyways, Miles didn’t join them at all. In fact the pair never saw him after they left him at the art wall. They ran towards the wall looking for Miles. They saw the finished art work but no Miles. They panicked a bit before they heard a familiar voice. They followed it to see Miles and some guy next to him. He looked kinda cute but not their type. The guy and Miles looked like they were having a fun conversation. Normal right? Well, they observed the random guy and his flushed cheeks while talking to miles. He rubbed the back of his head and took out his phone. Miles was oblivious to the guy’s feelings smiled his stupidly cute smile (Hobie and Pav’s words) and pulled out his phone. They exchanged numbers.

Miles had gotten his phone back from Nate (yes that is the guy’s name) when he was done putting his number in. They were talking for a bit before he felt weight on his shoulders.

Hobie draped his arm over Mile’s shoulder and said, “Hey Peter Pan! I see you finished your art.” Miles diverted his attention to Hobie. Leaning back and resting his head on Hobie’s arm(body?). He closed his eyes and hummed as to say yes to Hobie. Hobie and Pavitr glared at the guy who was sweating buckets already at the sight of this punk and pretty boy. He excused himself and ran.

Hobie (omg it autocorrected to hippie 2 times in a row) asked, “So who was that?” Miles looked up and said, “Oh! That was Nate. Sweet guy. Liked my art and it turned out we had a lot in common. Got his number.”

Hobie hummed, “I see…”

Miles took note of his crushes behavior. Before he could say anything about it, Hobie shoved his face into Mile’s neck. Miles blushed from the contact. He could feel the other man’s breath. Then Pavitr appeared in front of Mile’s face and said, “Let’s get out of here!” Miles then asked, “But what about Gwen and Gayatri?” “Pfffft” Pavitr snorted Hobie just muttered loud enough for Miles to hear, “Love, they left us already. Havin’ a sleepover” Pavitr took Mile’s hand and dragged him. “Come on!” Pavitr carried Miles as he swinged away and Hobie following behind. During the whole way over, Hobie and Pavitr were telepathically thinking the same thing (boyfriend perks ig). Confess to Miles

The group entered Mile’s home through the front door, catching his mom and dad as they were going out. His parents already met Hobie and Pavitr before so they weren’t that surprised to see them. His mom coughed, “Well boys, we’re heading out to a dinner date. Don’t get into too much trouble and DONT destroy anything.” The guys smiled as they entered the house and went straight to his room. It was full of his friend’s clothes, items, etc etc. the group just chilled out. Miles drawing Hobie and Pavitr. Hobie talking to Pavitr about his plan. Both nodding to each other before Pavitr called out to Miles. He snapped his head up to see his crushes. Pavitr pulled him over with Miles just thinking: wow he’s so strong wth? Pavitr said with excitement, “Hobes is gonna give us a private show come on and put down your sketchbook for once!” Miles smiled and he made himself comfortable of Pavitr’s lap. He listened to the spider punk as he strummed his guitar. He closed his eyes enjoying this private time with the two men. Then he begun to hear a slow song. He opened his eyes back up again. Hobie never really did slow songs unless we pester him about it for weeks on end. Miles, although confused, continued to lay of Pavitr’s lap and listened to Hobie’s song. “But I can’t help,” Pavitr joined in, “falling in love with~” Miles felt arms around his waist, it was Pavitr and they made eye contact as he and Hobie sang the last word, “you.” His eyes widened and looked from Pavitr and Hobie who were looking at Miles as if he was everything, the light in their life, their hopes and dreams. Miles blushed from the sudden attention, “G-guys! What?” Hobie put down his guitar and inched closer to Miles and pulled him into his arms. He said , “Peter Pa-, no. Miles. We really like you so much it’s mental!” Pavitr budded in while hugging the two, “We’ve liked you for awhile. It’s totally fine if you don-“ He didn’t get to finish the sentence as he was met with a kiss from Mikes. Miles broke it and gave a kiss to Hobie as well. He then looked away with his face red. “I like you guys too.” Miles then realized something and whipped around to face them saying, “Wait Pavitr! What about Gayatri? Omg did I just ruin your relationship. Is so sorry!”

They smiled and threw Miles onto the bed before they came up and went on the sides of him. Cuddling the small man in the middle. Pavitr held Mile’s waist and said, “don’t worry about it. We’re in an open relationship. We’re still dating but we can date other people. Gayatri started taking interest in some people but not enough to date them.”

They just lied there, enjoying the silence and the presence of the others. After awhile, Pavitr perked up and asked Miles for his phone. Before Miles could even give him it, Pavitr snatched it from his hand and deleted something, “Welp you don’t need that anymore!” ”Huh? What did you do?” Hobie buried himself into Mile’s neck and said, “Love, do you really think we’d let anyone else have you other than us? Pav deleted that bloke Nate’s number. He should delete that twat Ganke’s too.” ”W-WHAT! No no no no no! Why? He doesn’t like me that way.” ”You told him you loved him.” Pav said with an imaginary rain cloud over him as he pouted ”In like a platonic way! He called me mom and i sarcastically said I love him!” Silence before Miles bursted out laughing. “I can’t believe you thought I liked Ganke! You’re so jealous.” Pavitr and Hobie just looked at each other before they smothered Miles with love and kisses.

“That we are”

fin :)

(maybe there’ll be more idk let me know)

[topazpearl]

tuurmil as in tuuri/emil from stand still stay silent?... speak on that? i've never considered it but i'm curious 🤔

Me when I get to talk about my rare pair ship!!!!!!!!

Alright where to begin………. You see, it all started back in the year of our Lord 2014. The comic was just starting…. characters were still being introduced… And nobody knew Tuuri was gonna die lol! In the earliest chapters, Emil and Tuuri carried a decent portion of the MC dialogue since Lalli is so introverted and knew no Swedish. So I got attached to the idea of them being a couple fairly quickly. And I wasnt the only one!!!! lol!!

I mean like, Tuuri was literally enamored with the idea of Emil since day one when she heard about him so 😂 Im not completely insane. (He's not as tall as she wanted but yknow, love conquers all.) And of course Emil tries to impress everyone, but the fact that after he's only known this girl for one day, he pulls this kind of shenanigans in front of her/??? It speaks to me. (Something something, being comfortable to show your true self to someone)

ALSO!! If you got the book 1 you know theres a bonus comic thats not published online where Tuuri drags Emil into a bakery and theres a couple nuggets of cuteness in there I waaaaaaaa

(a completely normal way to look at someone that you've only known for a few hours)

Oh and there's another bonus comic where he's like "hey who'd win in an arm wrestle match you or Lalli" to her like????? akjalsdjlsfj the way the hotakainens bring out the silliness in this boy i swear. anyway

Basically a lot of this ship for me is (literally unattainable) Potential.

You have Emil, who's kinda a jerk on the surface but that layer is very superficial and underneath is a wholesome, caring guy. And then you have Tuuri, who is very happy and friendly on the surface, but underneath can be kinda conniving and sour. Tuuri beats around the bush, while Emil is often straight to the point. So they keep balancing each other out, and I kinda love that. Also she's the mechanic and he's the pyro: they're the Gasoline Duo! lol If Tuuri had lived and they were given a couple more years to cook, with Emil maturing more, I think they could've been a good couple. (Emil is already so different by the end of the story). They're not perfect of course (every relationship has its pros and cons) but their dynamic is interesting to me.

If you're ready to jump into this canoe with me I highly recommend listening to "Wasteland, Baby!" by Hozier and then crying about it bc it's Their ship song to me

[kobold-that-bites-people]

kinda missed tdov overthinking how to phrase this but... its okay if you dont have a "coherent" idea of your gender. or if it feels contradictory or different each time you think about it.

it took me a long time to realize i was trans at all, cause some days i dont seem to mind being a guy. it took longer to realize i wasnt just a girl, and was actually genderfluid, which made a lot of things more understandable in hindsight. it took even longer than that to realize that my personal experience of gender is complicated enough that its easier to just say im a kobold and then explain what that means than to stick to the "normal" labels.

im no less trans on days where im a guy with tits than on days when im a girl with a fat packer. (if i could afford one that is, spent all my money on a bra recently lol)

and at the end of it, even if i didnt want the label of trans, thatd still be just as valid a position. for me, trans rights are fundamentally about self determination. saying, my body is what i make of it, and its meaning is my own to decide. and on these days where we call attention to ourselves, its to show everyone that you can take that idea of self determination anywhere, even if you decide not to be openly trans at all. theres no wrong way to experience gender, and everyone deserves the space to experiment with what it means for them.

anyway, enough rambling, hope yall had a nice tdov.

[grossdyke]

bellatrix pls xx

(ask game)

mwah thank u claude <3

favorite thing about them

i always tend to be the most compelled by oldest sibling-characters and that’s one of my favorite things about bellatrix aswell.. like her undying loyalty to family and especially her sisters, even if the loyalty is flawed and unhealthy, is very deeply special to me. i read a post lately about how bellatrix never used violence against her own family even if her family ended up using it against her. even after azkaban, after years of torture and dementors, she never layed a hand on. she always prioritized her family, despite it being in fucked up and harmful ways .. makes me Sick

least favorite thing about them

honestly maybe nothing ?? i think she’s one of the most interesting female characters in the hp series. she marries but never had children and ended up more powerful and demanding more respect than her husband ever did. she was voldys right hand man, despite being a woman .. she wasn’t heir to anything at all but becomes the most feared black family member of all ?? i think thats very interesting. i suppose i could be boring and say that my least favorite thing is that shes a ’death eater’ but that would be a lie :/

favorite line

"You need to mean them, Potter! You need to really want to cause pain - to enjoy it - righteous anger won't hurt me for long - I'll show you how it is done, shall I? I'll give you a lesson—” <- cunty

brotp

bella & sirius but in like a really fucked up way. in a sirius was bellas favorite cousin way and she hates him more than anything and sirius misses bella because he knew her before her name caused fear to whoever spoke it. they would play quidditch together and play fight and bella was his cool older cousin and sirius was the heir who looked up to her.. they absolutely excluded their other siblings during holiday festivites or whatever and teamed up. i Think

otp

quillkiller <3

notp

any ship with a man. bella is a lesbian to me 🤍

random hc

i think she’s kinda.. gross ? i dont think she brushes her teeth regularly and often gets knots in her hair because she doesnt like brushing it. she was the kind of teenage girl who hated her ’evolving’ body and puberty and how men started looking at her differently and how she became a ’girl’ against her own will

unpopular opinion

young bellatrix was just a pretty normal teenage girl. like yeah she was prejudiced and narrow-minded, but i really believe she was just a teenage girl who loved her sisters and laughed a lot. i dont even tend to think she was that against andys relationship with ted at first and the coin really flipped when she understood that andy was going to choose him. to bella their relationship was just a fling, bella had them too, and then when it really came down to it they would fulfill their duties and do whats expected of them. sort of hogwarts being their rumspringa shdhfjsjf if that makes sense ? <- people tend to think bella was just born crazy or evil as if it isnt in the canonical text that azkaban is what deteriorated her mental state. like yeah she wasnt a good person before that, but she was also. a person. who made those choices and had to live with them and committ to them. i dont think she just Chose to submit to voldy without second thoughts. she wanted to and she was going to do it, but she had sisters she loved and has been hurt in her life and theres just NUANCE !!!!!!!!

song i associate with them

[cowboy-robooty]

Hey, this might sound kinda weird but I just wanted you to know that you have actually helped me A LOT over the past few months. Your drawing put a smile to my face and made me look forward to something and has really helped me get through school. Another thing, (this might seem weird sorry lol), you being a cis guy has really helped me with disphoria and shit. I'm a trans dude and I feel kinda like an imposter cause im really into Hetalia and yaoi and all that fun stuff, but seeing another guy, and a cis guy at that has really helped! Sorry if this makes you uncomfortable, I just wanted to say thank you and that I really enjoy your drawings! Hope you had a good easter weekend (or just a normal weekend if you dont celebrate)!

IM SORRY IVE TAKEN SO LONG TO RESPOND... i wrote a draft before but it got deleted WUH TUH FUH!!!!!!! wwww I'm so cheesed to hear this though wtf... im sorry i never draw these days >_< UWAGHW IT MAKES ME REALLY HAPPY THAT YOU ENJOY MY DRAWINGS SO MUCH!! ugh its so gay to always be saying this #whineybitch moment but i do mean it when im like eehehee *blushes* when people like my drawings specifically since i expect everyone comes here for the content of my drawings not really the artistic value part >\\\<

i remember when i first tried to answer this i tried (and failed UGH) to say something to lift your spirits but couldnt get the right thing to say. I feel like whats genuine coming from me is probably not what is the normally "right" thing to say, but the truely right thing to say is usually unconventional anyways isn't it? I don't know you at all nor how you feel about your gender (nor am i trans so i can only imagine what its fully like), but well, it sounds very similar to that time of life every guy goes through when theyre growing up and get a little worried deep down about not being manly enough. And it's not like you dont know that the most manly thing you can be is proud of whatever shit you like, regardless of the gender norms, its just something that bites at you whether you like it or not! I'm glad that seeing me be an idgaf warrior makes you feel more confident in yourself LOL I know it might not make you feel better or is something you already know, but seriously, theres a whole lot more guys out there who like the exact same shit you do. And I dont mean femboy gay yasss james charles guys (in fact those type usually DO NOT like anime) I mean cis guys that usually get weird around girls and/or see them as another species. All that cutsey anime girl shit is made by gross sweaty otakus and yes yaoi is seen as more the "girl" side of anime culture, but otaku culture as a whole is.. WELL ITS A WHOLE OTHER CONVERSATION TOPIC HOW BEING AN OTAKU IS GENDERED VERY DIFFERENTLY IN JP SPACES COMPARED TO WESTERN SPACES ESP AFTER ANIME HAS BECOME MORE MAINSTREAM IN DA WEST AND STUFF ETC ETC. in short. trust me theres a lot of cis guys out there who are into the exact same shit as you and they arent cute femboys at ALLLLLLLLLL. they're gross. Looked down on by society and tbh usually deserve it. If anything your interests put you in the same group as these guys so you should be more worried about how you're going to not die a virgin. Why do you think himaruya is the one who made hetalia? And also at least for me, I'm highkey a freak of nature i was born from a scum gong x angel shou instead of a seme x uke. So when I felt insecure about sleeping in bed with a pillow of an anime guy cuz "what if that's too girly..." I started realizing maybe I feel alienated from other guys not cuz im too girly but because I actually felt kind of alienated from everybody at school cuz im fucking weird. Because yknow... i think regardless of gender its kind of weird to be telling everybody your main hobby is reading erotica of drawings of two guys banging (and the main fandom you ship from is a material where the most known ship is pedophile dadson incest. "but trust me i dont ship the dadson incest. yes the sscond most popular ship is dadson pedophile incest part two but i also dont ship that one-" or maybe you do? then you must really be starting to see that the main issue isnt about you not "being manly enough", but rather because you need to start getting fucking serious if you dont want to die without having ever seen a nipple in real life) So yah im sorry this is so long! I hope you had a good Easter or regular weekend if u dont celebrate that too ^^ It's super tough dealing with not feeling like you can be confident in yourself for whatever reason, especially when its super hard because of what you like. BUT YOU CAN'T CHANGE THE PERSON YOU ARE! AND WHAT YOU LIKE IS KINDA THE MOST IMPORTANT PART OF IT!! No matter how girly you feel, youll never be as girly as calvin coolidge. Idk anything about him but the other week at a nursing home i heard a demetia ridden old woman keep trying to tell EVERYBODY there "i met calvin coolidge... and he was a lesbian..!" That didn't happen. But it sounds like it would right? Wouldn't happen to you though #warriormale !

[lullabyalikpoptarot]

ooh something else i wanted to ask you if you have had any paranormal experiences or somethings you just couldnt explain? and do you believe people are genuinely mediums because surely if someone has to announce it then theyre kinda pushing it a bit to either get some revenue out of it or theyre just looking for attention or theyre trying to prove it to others because theres no other explanation for what they experience?

is it something like how if u believe in something then itll happen only bc u believe it? sort of like these "haunted dolls" fad i love the dolls im not so sure if i believe theyre haunted. i do love using my pendulum its fun when it works and gives me accurate results or when someone else has confirmed something for me and its been on point with what my question or what my suspicion was. but i do think that haunted dolls is quite a sellable trend however if u need like dozens of different instruments such as cat balls to get a response from said doll then i think its rather comical and the price some folk is selling them at is obscene and questionable too. i mean i buy the second hand ones cheaper bc a) i like them affordable and b) they dont come with an obnoxious backstory which im sure would be true to some extent and c) i might as well be classed as haunted at this point i have lots of emotional baggage anyway but i havent honestly experienced much more usual things. i mean i got a scratch once or twice one on me neck and one on me shoulder but again i couldve chlked it up to me scratching myself without realising. like sure ive seen something i like and thought oooh i love that doll/picture and so on so i buy it without even thinking oh maybe its got a spirit attached to it. so idk where so many folk is getting these stories from some peoples "haunted" dolls. i also think it has to happen spontaeniously too like u can use pendulum to get two different answers if u word them differently same with the pic i bought one vintage pic of a lovely victorian girl bc i saw it once and liked it then went back to buy it again i dont think its haunted at all, i just think i was drawn to it. not paranormal per se more like i was telling myself i should buy it, i dont regret it bc its a pretty picture and it was still reasonable too! so clarice now sits on my drawers next to my doll ruby c: plus ive seen some folk have bigger collections too. but this girl i think she may be exagerating her youtube videos bc shes seen the popularity of some other big youtubers who easily fake paranormal stuff for views. i do think some of it can be real but again how do they time it just to happen when theyre on queue for filming it? like those pranks folk did for views u had to know it was planned in advance for the video to be perceveied to be funny from the start

what do u think personally and have u ever im not skeptic but im not 100% believer of haunted dolls per se i just think theyre interesting to have or look at and u can get them super cheap too. i did buy one "haunted" doll but thats just bc i was drawn to the way it looked and i hadnt browsed enough to see if anyone was selling it any cheaper. i mean u can get a normal priced doll and it will look exactly the same as a typical "haunted" doll but it will be considerabley less than what other people was selling it for. my pendulum sometimes gives me mixed answers and im not quite sure in how im supposed to ask certain things without getting someone else to clarify it for me. i maybe doubt myself too much or think similarly about paranormal stuff ah it was just bc i wanted to experience smth spooky did it happen type of thing or its bc i wanted a certain answer that got a yes for that? am i overthinking it probably. pendulum is moderately more fun than tarot imo. i still think its a case of using ones own intuition / gut feeling though as well.

i do think theres likely a spirit hanging around me mums workplace bc they get all sorts of weird shit happening yet at the same time it is rather old anyway so its probably bound to have faulty lights and other things making noises when no one else is there. see what i mean? unless ive seen it myself or heard it myself i dont quite know what to believe but i do think tarot can be eerily accurate in some cases but it still comes from intuition and i guess vibes of the person u are reading on too?

Yes, I believe mediums are real, as I Tarot reader. You communicate with spirits/guides, so it is easier for me to believe in Mediums and being able to communicate with the dead.

I don't know anything about haunted dolls, but I believe anything can be true, so if you believe it, then believe it, or don't. There are things that cannot be explained, and I accept and embrace that. I am spiritual, so I am believer that nothing is real, just our perceptions create this reality. Science actually backs that up, look up Quantum mechanics/psychics. I mean Science can't even explain things about this world, like what is dark matter lol They know it is there but can't show you it. Anyway, what I am saying is not everything can be observed or understood to realize the validity of it.

It is true only your experience can verify something, so if you haven't experienced it, then to you it isn't real, but for someone who has experienced it will see it as real. It is all about your own lived experienced, but you can learn to open your mind to the possibilities of experiences happening for others, but you should also go with what you truly think, so if you believe it, then believe it, if not, don't.

Thank you for sharing your input. A lot to read, but as an avid reader. I don't mind reading these long nuance messages <333

[kenta-torture]

Heheheheh can you post another ramble if you have another idea i really love it take your time though >__<

take your time though.................->currently sifting through my brain for ideas. tips skull over and two snakes fall out. scratches head.

i think u people want a kenta mikoshiba character study. which is something ill probably do at some point actually but i need to finish the cds and loop through everything again. which i only do on school days so well see.

anyways breaking away from the kenta torture (hey thats my name!) the only kenta thing thats been on my mind lately is 2p and girl kenta. or like any aus. but 2p and girl kenta for today. its a ramble so there is no like end point here im spilling my brains

starting off with 2p. im a big fan of the idea of reverse/opposite characters because there are sooo many ways to oppose someones character. in the same way that there is no definitive opposite of happiness, you can argue that maybe anger or sadness or fear is the opposite, there isnt an objective way to make an evil kenta.

i say this all to say that i dont have a good grasp on 2p kenta actually. @/lechatalunette has a 2p(?) paradox live post that i consider like. one of the best ever (i also really like their art in general) which inverts the trait of him being a dickhead into like. an uwu poster. 2p kenta as a blogger to oppose how anonymous he normally is? taps head.

theres also a different direction(? kind of) you could drive 2p kenta into because there is like at least two main traits he has you could flip. what if he was tech stupid. think about it. you could also make him genuinely cruel/manipulative-> which is to say that normal kenta is not that. imo at least. like i think a lot of his bitchiness is a defense mechanism and he would prank/trick people into doing things but he wouldnt go that far. i think he just likes having control-> hey wasnt that director guy like an insanely major part of kentas character. which i get is the point of having a character have a trauma point(bad wording) but still thats kinda crazy 2 me lowkey.

moving onto girl kenta!!!!!!!!!!!!! i also have a hard time thinking about this because like. there are nuances i think im just not smart enough to think of them all. there was this post a while back of someone saying that when they do genderbends of characters it is the exact same. and no hate to that person like that idea doesnt harm anything it just bugs me. because imo a lot of a character writing/personality is affected by gender and like how society differs in reaction to them.

yaoi tangent thats in relation to this its just easier to explain what i mean with yaoi and yuri. obviously at its core they can be interchangeable like two girls who like each other that can be yuri but. there is always a sort of tension/comfortability that comes with gender that isnt always the same. like that one meme of girls who kiss or whatever could just be friends but its different for guys because that is a type of affection that isnt allowed for as much? i might delete this section later because this is with the nuances of gender that i do not get but there are certain things like affection that are seen differently depending on gender.

back to kenta. girl kenta. i think her behavior would be seen more as tsundere ism which i hate cant a girl just be a hater!!!!!!!! i honestly have no main points here i just think she should be even more annoying. i do think that maybe her backstory could be read a bit differently/i mean if you already see kenta's backstory to be that way it would just push it further ig.

rapid shot random kenta aus. i like to look at other series and see how to fit my favs in. milgram fuuta kenta. i think thats obvious from like t1 at least. if we were to base the rest of the au around this i say we have to make ryu amane. because i love kenta and ryu okay so like i read a take that kenta has an interest in ryu because he read alter trigger logs and saw that ryu was like one of the only ones to come out of it kind of normal. which is fine BUT i really like the idea that kenta is like blorbo attatched to ryu does anyone see my vision please please please. "god is talking on my birthday arent i blessed" that is how i talk about my muse my beloved my character of all time.

im into joseimukes if u couldnt tell... but the others ones i know are hypmic which is like. kenta is already a rapper. charisma house kenta is just charisma of. annoying. charisma of being a dickhead. im looking into boys be maids and like. you could put kenta there. he would be a shit maid as we already know though (butler but still...)

twst kenta would fall into iginhyde obv. he would probably bully tf outta idia if given the chance. twisted wonderland tangent but im lowkey a little pissed that iginhyde is only two characters. like the sidekick dumbasses from hercules are right there. and i get that their personalities dont really fit but AAAAAAAAAAH. pokemon kenta with a rotom who he tries to hack and make do things but it just goes "thats illegal ^_^" and kenta thinks of smashing it in with a brick.

anyways. im like out of ideas to talk about www if you have anything u want my opinion on or like to ramble abt. you can ask. it can be anything paradox live related i just know kenta (and. two other characters) best. im actually very surprised that there are atleast two people who like the rambles. i feel so thinker. kyaaaaaah

[diamantposting]

bc its like. Sel is such an outcast n so lonely n acts lik it doesnt bother her n in a way it doesnt but then theres this total normal girl n shes lik so intent on being bestie w her n thinks sel is so cool n sel is like UGH this BITCH!!!! im just gonna torment her just bc i dont know how else to act…. I DONT NEED FRIENDS BITCH!!!!! but u know keep ur friends close n ur enemies closer… they spend a lot of time together n sel is like oh… i actually like having her around outside of tormenting her its like i just want her Around … but i cant let her kno that… I HATE HER!!!!! but like we see with atlas n rose, sel can kinda say n do anything to luna n she wont leave.. literally has humiliated luna publicly several times n luna still likes her… but sel has this thing luna wants in a way…. a normal human life as a woman.. complete solitude n peace away from constant attention.. like the way sel just dgaf… n i mean in also physique that luna learns quickly is the “ideal”, I kinda PaRAPHRASED WHT U SAID BUT IDK IM JUST RAMBLING GOODBYEEEE

No bc they rly are atlas/rose but. Different . N like. No bc it’s the way that like luna/rose will not leave sel/atlas but also sel/atlas are so dependent on luna/rose 😭😭 it’s a vicious cycle … I don’t remember the movie but it’s a pretty common trope but anyway it reminds me of the trope of like . The movie is like a rich girl and a tomboy girl like switch bodies and see how the other one lives it reminds me of that (in a very vague loose way) bc it’s like . Sel/Luna both want what the other one Has but neither of them are going to say it bc … why would U