#i think im going back to school tomorrow tho. depends

[speakofthedebbie]

by popular demand (re: one person) some radioapple fic recs!! (i hope thats what you meant lol most of the fics i read are just radioapple)

Bedtime Rituals to Try out Before the Next Angelic War by @miribalis

just yes. thousand times yes. so basically my boy luci has some sleep troubles and that somehow leads to a qpr with al look its been a while ok just read it

Managerial Liberties by the same fella

these two tags explain it pretty well

something that sticks out to me about this is that charlie is actually (reasonably) cold to adam and like. im actually surprised with how little ive seen that. i mean i dont think id be exactly buddy-buddy with my besties killer either. only 3 chaps as of writing but already looking to be a radioapple classic

im not sure if its meant to be read as such but it kinda feels like a squeal to bedtime rituals in a way (edit: not meant to be read as such, just the same vibe)

devils don't fly (don't expect me not to fall) by @corgiss

also just yes. basically a really not cool joke evolves into a blossoming romance because why wouldnt it. (man if i had a nickel for every radioapple fic that had a masquerade that was sabotaged by the vees- *gets shot bc i cant mention osas yet*)

i’ll hold you close (i’ll stay the course) by the same fella

the entire time i was just going "yas king! put that egotistical flatscreen in his place!!". basically luci reminds the overlords who he is and vox shows he can be more of a threat than he lets on.

ykw fuck it just the entire series (i didnt mention i would give anything to not give a shit (but i do) and my perfect rock bottom (my beautiful trauma) because the first one sounded a lil too angsty and ive gotten enough of that from other sources [pointedly glares at Quietly, It Slips Through Your Fingers, Love {also coming up later!}] and the second is (mostly) smut and ive been trying to step back from that because "ive seen worse" isnt a valid excuse for that torture actually)

Of Saints and Sinners by the forever amazing @morningstarwrites!! (if you see this i have a serious question: is this your first time ever writing a fic? because how do you get so much right the first time- [not even beginners luck could explain this level of skill])

i could sing its praises until my death bed but ill hold off so i can explain whats happening. basically after burning down a meeting room several times, luci and al make a deal ("not a deal!", luci laments to the void): they will attempt to be civil and maybe even friendly, and by the end luci will owe al a favour. whats the favour? read it yourself dammit! seriously, 10/10, i am foaming at the mouth till friday (depending on how this goes, that might be tomorrow or today)

Quietly, It Slips Through Your Fingers, Love by Starlit_Rainfall (no tumblr in sight, so AO3) (i. urgfgh. what happened. i was just smiling over the fluff while crossing to go to school. where did it go. where did it gooooo)

if thats anything to go by, the last few chapters have been rough. the fluff feels so far away that i cant even explain what happens. luci was waxing poetic about swimming in maple syrup for al, i remember that much. also emily is there (fallen) tho we havent seen her in a sec. if you read it, warning for the gut punch of angst that starts chap 32 "She/Her" (though the chapter before that, "Should Alastor Know By Now?" ends pretty rough too)

Freely We Serve by @romanaxe

i dont remember how i managed to stumble upon this but im having a great time. basically alastor is a new sinner fresh in hell (but time doesnt matter and the whole cast is still here) and thinks "what better way to gain power than be the personal assistant of the heartbroken king of hell!" features a 6(?) year old charlie and a morally dubious lilith (also i loved eepy al X3)

A Family Forged in Hellfire by Green_Ghostwriter (once again, no Tumblr, so AO3)

this ones a bit newer (10 chaps), is so far mostly exposition and the slowburn pot hasnt even been put on the stove, but as just a hazbin fic in general i see the potential. basically its a 1920s au where heaven decides little charlie doesnt deserve to be raised in hell and is sent to earth with a "foster" family where her actions in life will determine witch realm she will return to after death. her "parents", al and minzy, are given false memories so they can claim the girl as their own and gee i wasnt kidding when i said it was a lot of exposition. erm honestly explaining anymore would tech be spoiling so go read it!

The Red Thread That Binds Us by @scun-gilli

{{future me prefacing this by saying i have no idea where i was going with yesterdays thought process, all you need to know from it was im on chapter 27. also scungilli your comment is making me very worried 😟 well theres no mcd tag so im sure itll fine, right? RIGHT, SCUNGILLI??}}

basically its a king x kings guard au where al and luci grow up together and only grow closer after a. certain life event for al (its fine guys trust :)) [she said, like a liar]) then al is sent of for royal guard training school (ik its not called that i forgor 😭) but dw he comes back. just watch out for graphic depictions of injuries (i think thats this fic) angst and a sneaky eve bc radioapple fics are allergic to happiness (or maybe im not looking hard enough lol) (also im really tempted to make the friendship bracelets they had 👀)

somewhere down the line by kj_crwm (AO3 link)

this one starts off as human!alastor/lucifer but by the middle(?) its just regular radioapple. basically al is encountered by luci while finishing off a job who agrees to keep quiet. luci just keeps on showing up, reveals hes the devil to which al us just like "lol ok" and eventually they get in a relationship (ooh lala 👀) but they break up after saying some hurtful things to each other (oh nono 👀) with luci promising al they will never cross paths again. if you watched the show then well. you know that doesnt happen 😂 most human!al radioapple have al summon him (no hate to them) so this was an interesting change of pace

cannot stress it enough but this is a WORKING list i WILL be coming back to it bc these are purely the fics i could think if off the top of my head. IN FACT, if any of you have radioapple fics you love, SEND THEM THE FUCK IN! i am one person whos only been in this fandom for 4 months, and reading fics/shipping radioapple even less, theres bound to be some ones i missed that you think are Worthy™️! and if theyre nsfw then at the very least it shouldnt be the main focus

EDIT: so sorry anyone who reblogged this before had to see the disgusting unedited version. literally just found out that tumblr doesnt apply edits to reblogs. what the fuck

[star-girl69]

do you have any hcs for what dating natalie would be like?

Dating Natalie Scatorccio Headcannons

(pre and post crash)

warnings: swearing, mentions of drugs and alcohol, regular yellowjackets things, tell me if i missed anything!!

pre crash

IM SORRY I LOVE NATALIE BUT…. SHES A LITTLE TOXIC BEFORE THE CRASH

and i mean you can partly place the blame on her using and also her home life, but still

she gets a little jealous…. gets a little crazy….

but sooner or later she’ll finally realize that she’s just being a little silly and apologize to you

date nights for her depend on her mood. if she’s happy? you’re going out and doing something! think shauna and adam in season one- mini golfing, jumping off bridges, etc

if she’s not in a good mood, then she probably just wants you and let’s be honest some drugs and/or alcohol (I LOVE HER I SWEAR)

if her dad is still alive then he’s real suspicious of y’all but HIS DAUGHTER BEING GAY??? HE REFUSES TO EVEN ENTERTAIN THE IDEA

just some gal pal’s to him

NATALIE AT SCHOOL IS WILD

when she’s not skipping she’s probably finding some way to annoy you

“will you come to practice today?” “sorry nat i have to study” “oh, okay. will you come to practice today?” “no, i have to study” “that’s cool. will you come to practice today tho?”

and if you’re also on the soccer team she is so happy!!! loves talking to you about what happened during the game bc unlike other people she knows, who don’t like soccer, or aren’t as into it as her, you just get it like no one else does

communicating with looks across the fields for sure

if you’re not on the team you basically are bc she INSISTS you come to every single game and every single practice

“PLEASE I HAVE A TEST TOMORROW I HAVE TO STUDY!!!!” “but like we win every time you’re there so….”

coach martinez genuinely told you to stop studying and get on the field and you were like ???

but he insisted so you walked out there until natalie was like ???

“you do realize y/n is not actually on the team, right, coach….?”

wilderness

natalie is so done with the wilderness as soon as she gets there like

especially during the summer months even if you suck you’re going hunting with her

like literally imagine just sitting on a tree stump while natalie just goes PEW PEW PEW and the brings back like a bunch of dead rabbits bc she’s amazing like that

she LOVESSSS reminding you (and everyone tbh) that she was the one to get the food

“omg this is so good” “thanks yeah what can i say i have a gift”

she totally finds a little corner of the cabin somewhere and just is like: me and you here ok? ok

winter months get crazy

all of sudden she’s like no don’t come hunting stay back but like you’ve gotten weirdly into it now and besides YOU WANT TO BE WITH HER??

“no you can’t come”

“why?”

“bc it’s cold!!!!”

“ok and??? you’re going!!!”

“ITS DIFFERENT OK”

“NO ITS NOT???”

eventually she’ll probably cave in and let you come but TRUST she is wrapping you up herself you look like a little penguin at the end probably

but if it’s ever like REALLY cold she is not above begging to make sure you stay in the cabin

—-

everything taglist:

@emilynissangtr

[ellecdc]

okay list uhhh : whats a normal day in your life like, like actually down to the dot for funsies, uhhh whats been your favourite food of most recently?, most random thing you have done all week (like actually so random it was lowkey weird).

was gonna ask you about school but omg i have fucking school work to be doing… i have a test uh hahah tomorrow.

its snowing in the uk so i pray to all highest my bus doesnt show up then i have an excuse not to go 🥰🥰

(sorry if that sounded kind of invasive??? i swear im not a stalker)

(no thats not what a stalker would say… i think because im not one so i wouldnt know hahah help)

-🏹

Hmmmm well it depends what classes I have that day. But most days I get up stupid early even though I don’t have class until almost noon because if I want to find parking on campus I have to get there at 8:30 🙃 and I’ll grab Tim’s on campus and then sit in the library to do work or readings before class! Then I come home and immediately get into my pyjamas even if it’s only 2pm. Free time is spent split between school work, writing, and being a lazy sack of shit

My favourite food lately….my mum made me a birthday dinner the night before I left to come back to the city, and sent me a bunch of leftovers so I had really yummy pasta at the beginning of the week! My apartment smelled like east side marios 😅

Most random thing I’ve done all week is helping myself to cuttings from university plants around campus, but I’m not sorry about it and I would probably do it again

Omg good luck on your test, babes!! Hopefully the bus gets cancelled tho 🫶

[jamesheathridge]

tag game!

tagged by @monstraduplicia, ty !! <3

Do you make your bed? not unless people are over tbh

What's your favorite number? 4 and 6. for ocd reasons

What is your job? im unemployed rn 🤐

If you could go back to school, would you? i'm in uni right now and am quite literally thinking about dropping out constantly

Can you parallel park? i dont even have a license.. i live in a city so i dont really see the point of it right now

A job you had that would surprise people? idk i've only ever worked freelance art stuff + theater jobs + at a movie theater and i don't really think any of them are. that surprising.

Do you think aliens are real? yes actually. i think the universe is wayyyy too big for us to be the only intelligent beings out there. yknow.

Can you drive a manual car? nope

What's your guilty pleasure? im trying to destroy the part of me that feels guilt or shame but alas im failing. media wise its OBX, otherwise i am constantly picking my own scabs

Tattoos? i have my fav childhood stuffed animal tattooed on my thigh! an elephant with a hoodie on

Favorite color? green probably

Favorite type of music? i looove goth rock and industrial rock

Do you like puzzles? depends on the kind i think. i get frustrated very easily lol

Any phobias? scorpions and fireworks

Favorite childhood sport? never been into sports. i played basketball for like 2 seconds

Do you talk to yourself? yes all the time. although it usually just transfers to me talking to my dog as a surrogate audience

What movies do you adore? BIG question. probably the holdovers, the thing, dinner in america, the passenger, i saw the tv glow, bones and all, mysterious skin, tcm 2, evil dead 2, sound of metal, the lost boys, the house of tomorrow, hedwig and the angry inch, a monster in paris, boy, brigsby bear, slc punk, probably more i cant think of rn

Coffee or tea? tea. i hate coffee. i rarely drink tea tho

First thing you wanted to be when you grew up? that i can remember? either an actor or a veterinarian

tagging @cassidycasablanca @th3finalboy @shithitsmynipples @eorzea @jdeanmorgan @birthofvcnus

[otgwbgyu]

okk gotta keep this going going yeah yeah

January 8, 2024

woke up late lollll at like 6:35 😓 it’s wtv tho i got the job done! 🙏 buttt when i was getting ready i noticed the back of my right knee felt painful… like id stretch the muscle to lean forward while its straightened it’d hurt like i tweaked it. twas a very familiar pain. i was nervous to drive with it but it didn’t hurt a bit. it was killer cold tho i was violently abd i mean VIOLENTLY shaking for the first 5-10 minutes it was brutal. my thigh muscles were contracting so hard i thought i was gonna accidentally jam on the accelerator but i didn’t hehe lucky me

started actually assignments today 😞 have geometry hw but it isn’t due until 8 am and since tomorrow’s a virtual day bc of winter weather im staying up late 😛 i’ll do it later

today was chill tho

oh yk how i mentioned i was nervous abt yet ANOTHER group project in english? bc i have like no friends? 🥲 yeah well guess whattttt 😁😁 like an angel sent from above amy asked me if i wanted to be partners w her in advance 🙏🙏🙏🙏 thank the LORDDDD 🙏🙏 she genuinely seems so cool im so excited id love to get closer to her maybe idk. sorry i just get so excited at the thought of making new friends bc im such a shy person TT

Back to my knee tho if i relapsed my injury from last year im gonna flip. i did PT exercises annually for more than a year just to keep this shit at bay if i have to hobble around with an ace bandage wrapped on my knee for a couple of months again im gonna fucking riot that was the most humiliating shit ever i hated it sm. and is this how it’s gonna be for the rest of my life? am i just gonna be on and off this stupid knee injury depending on how much i work it out? like idk if its normal to have to continuously do PT just to keep pain at bay… like that shit’s for recovery not maintaining a healthy knee for the rest of ur life…. im literally crying over it rn lol kinda out of pain bc i just had a deeeep pop like omg i felt it in my chest it was HOLLOW and it felt good in the moment but ended up causing even more pain than before 😓 idk if sitting criss-cross is the best decision rn but i lowk dgaf it makes me feel secure. im also crying out of fear lol i rlly don’t want this to be a permanent think i hope i just tweaked it (that’s actually very likely tbh) i cant give up pacing its the only thing keeping me sane especially during txt’s hiatus (no shame they deserve this break so damn much) ughhh

i’m so excited for the virtual day tmrw tho ahhhh i always have such bad anxiety over going to school at the beginning of the second semester for some reason like i physically feel ill thinking abt it (only for geometry, english, and biology tbh) i cannot wait for that to pass and regular school anxiety sets in instead 🙏

alrighty goodbye gonna read fanfics indulge in my online shopping addiction and eventually do geometry hw 😛😛

[dorefasolsido]

5.

what is the one thing you remember most about January of last year? 

I wasn’t doing particularly great in January last year mentally, so not much really stands out. Maybe just that I went to my first live basketball game around that time because I felt I desperately needed a change of pace.

you look at the clock and it’s 11:11, do you wish?

Sometimes lol, but it’s more common to do that here at 22:22 or 00:00.

how do you think you will look 3 years from now?

Three years from now I’ll be almost 30 so I’d rather not think about that time lol. Buuut I doubt all that much will change. Maybe a new hair colour by that time?

once you graduate (if you haven’t already) are you leaving your hometown?

I did leave my hometown, though I frequently go back to visit my family and etc. But yes, not planning to go back to live there.

what is your dream job?

Writer/translator, which is what I’m doing anyway. But I think my genuine dream job is becoming a fiction writer, and I’m not quite there yet. I am happy that I’m in my dream field though.

what would be number one on your bucket list?

Hmm, probably visiting Japan just one time in my life.

how old do you think you’ll be when you make your will?

No clue, tbh. I’ve never actually given that much thought.

you get a text message. who do you hope it is?

I guess depends on who I feel like talking to at a given moment? Just not my editors, please :)))

are there any songs that you hear that just make you wanna dance?

I like dancing, so yes, plenty. I’m not good at it tho, but it’s fun.

do you get any of your songs from limewire?

No, and idk if I was too young for that or if it just wasn’t a thing here, but I only later found out it’s a universal millennial experience lol.

what’s the oddest thing you are wearing right now?

Not wearing anything particularly odd.

you and your best friend get in a fight. why do you think that is?

Most likely because I suck at communication sometimes, and the things I say may come out too blunt or not the way I want them to. I’ve been working on that, but being tactful is a skill that doesn’t come entirely naturally.

do you use the word “basically” a lot?

Probably, yeah.

do you use proper grammar or use IM talk?

Depends on the context; I try to use proper grammar as much as possible but I think abbreviations and internet slang is pretty fun too.

what is your biggest annoyance at the time?

Hmm, my friends and I are planning a trip together, but organizing everything is a nightmare because we’re all very indecisive. That in itself is something I can deal with, but the fact that no one ever properly communicates in the group chat is driving me crazy.

you see the person you fell hardest for. what do you do?

Nothing much, I’ve last interacted with that person for real 10 years ago, and I have no particular feelings for them. I’d say hi because we still know each other, maybe make small talk if we were in such a setting where that’s necessary, and that’s it.

have/are you depressed?

No, but I experience ups and downs like everyone.

did you grow up in the united states?

Nope

are you dreading tomorrow?

Not really, but I do have to do a presentation for my German class and I despise presentations.

do you call anybody ‘baby’?

Nah.

if your school had a winter formal on new years, would you go?

Never had those

where is the fanciest place you have ever visited?

I actually have no idea, not much of a person for fancy places

who is the one person you can completely be yourself around?

Maybe my sister? But to be honest, I don’t think there’s anyone I can be 100% myself around.

are your pop-ups blocked on your computer?

Yes

do you wear earrings on a normal basis?

Yes, I have the ones I’ve worn since I was very young; those are my lucky earrings and I never go anywhere without them.

how old were you when you realized that life goes on?

I can’t really think of a specific age or event

are your parent’s night owls or morning birds?

Definitely morning birds.

do you like to sing?

Yes, but I’m not good at that either lol

are there some songs that you will never understand the lyrics to?

Probably.

do you own a lot of picture frames?

Nope.

who is your favorite author?

Kafka and lately Sayaka Murata.

how many pillows are on your bed?

Just one

how is your hair right now?

In a ponytail because it needs a wash soon.

is your phone fully charged?

Nope, like half charged.

what’s your favorite thing about the holidays?

Food, meeting up family and some relatives I haven’t seen in a while, the general holiday spirit.

are you still in school?

Nope

how many days/months until your next birthday?

A little less than 4 months, omg

what is your favorite type of cake?

Anything with chocolate.

how many rings do you wear on a day-to-day basis?

None.

when will you next laugh until you cry?

Idk but just yesterday I was laughing so much reading some comments with my sister that I not only nearly cried, but nearly died of suffocation. I was in genuine pain lol

[ghostriesmoved]

“Dude, you use all of this just for your face?”   Felt like drawing smthin pastel and cartoony/cute..and ofc with Welkin  Sweater is from this post ! x

[ayoharuko]

~Genshin Impact bf headcanons~

Hello hello this is my first ever post that is about uhm something? And yea about the boys now this will be in parts this one is part 1 about the Monstadt guys and the second one might be posted tomorrow? idk depends...i have school and homework to do soo it really depends.

Now this will contain headcanons, nicknames, voice line about you(when traveler asks about you) and an voice line about them talking to you. ALSO what tpye of bf I think they would be!

There might be spelling and grammar errors so beware and sorry. and this is from my notes and I wanna share it! of course might be cringe or occ sorry about that...

Anyways I hope you enjoy this!

(Mondstadt Boys)

Diluc Of Mondstadt (Diluc Ragnvindr)

~Overprotective Boyfriend~

Yea that's right...he's overprotective REALLY overprotective like he doesn't let you go home alone at night... We all know there's a reason behind this behavior of he's so he has ptsd about it.... If he's too overbearing and protective sometimes it leads to fights between you both...which is quickly solved the next day.

I believe in the saying that he sings or hums to you when you guys are taking a nap/sleep.

Let's you style he's hair...even If it's...too much..he will wear it with pride when he goes somewhere or the tavern, he just doesn't have the heart to ruin it..because YOU did it. Feel bad for someone who comments about he's hair-. Now I think he's used to it tho...since when he's baby sitting Klee she also likes to style he's hair.

Buys you flowers. Red roses to be specific with

He likes holding your hand or you holding he's arm in public that's probably the only pda I imagine him doing in public.

Definitely gives you he's coat when your cold and it's sooo warm~

When he goes to he's nightly duties. He sometimes comes hom with wounds/injuries of course when you catch him returning it results in you treating him and scolding him.

He knows he's sometimes hard to love...so he appreciates how patient you are with him :)

That's why to him even if he's a Pyro user your the fire who lights up he's world💕

Nicknames:Darling, love, sweetheart and my world

Voice lines about you: "Huh? What about y/n? Are they alright? Are they ok? Are they-. Oh...don't scare me like that traveler...what? Can I not worry about my lover?"

When he talks to you: "My love...my world...please understand...i..im sorry if I'm too overbearing and protective sometimes... I just....dont wanna lose you..."

Calvary Captain "No horses" (Kaeya Alberich)

~Flirty Boyfriend~

This boy has NO SLAME like whenever yall are out on a date he kisses you in public, flirts with you and the thing he loves the most is.... teasing you. He thinks your cute when your red🤦‍♀️

He flirts back with other people for fun because he likes to see you jealous thinks your cute when your mad (jerk)

You guys have makeouts in alleyways....

He's the only one who can tease you and see your cute reactions....if someone else does...well...pray for them-

Definitely flirts with you when he's drunk, Like the cheesey pick up lines too😂

Also sometimes forgets about you too being a couple when he's drunk so he just flirts with you as if you guys met for the first time

Flirts with you infront of Diluc to piss him off hahaha-

Boy is a SLUT and SIMP for you. FIGHT ME👿

But over-all he really loves you alot...it takes time for him to actually trust you. And he prefers not to tell he's dark secret...since he's afraid of losing you...

He has nightmares about he's homeland and about you.... When you don't wake up he holds you close to him praying you'll not leave him...

He's very open on pda

Imagine a accidental confession because he was drunk...it would either be cute or hot-

To him your the fire that breaks he's icey walls.

Nicknames:Babe, baby and hottie

Voice line about you: "Hm..what? I seen distracted? haha...so you noticed...im thinking about a...certain someone. You think it's y/n? why why...your right~ I am thinking about them...."

When he talks to you: "Heyyy there hottie~ what? I'm not drunk~! Anyways are you single? Ehhh your not?? Wait what I'm your boyfriend?? Ohohoh..lucky me~

"Barsabatoes" (Venti)

~Sunshine Boyfriend~

Our favorite tone deaf bard always smiles when he's around you, Like a sun smiling down at you

He definitely takes you on rides on davalin and he has told davalin that if something happens to him...davalin would be the one protecting you.

He sometimes let's the wind blow to you or plays with you with the wind

When your upset/sad he will do ANYTHING to make you smile again... He cherishes your beautiful smile so please smile for him...

Writes songs and poems about you and then sings it infront of everyone infront of he's statue, soo sweet💕

When your gone he asks the traveler where you are or just looks for you

begs you to buy him wine since he's broke-

He sometimes has nightmares about he's friend and when he does... He wakes up with tears falling down he's face... Please comfort him that you won't leave him too...

He makes you promise him you won't leave him early....

He plays he's lyre when you lay your head in he's lap while humming or singing a song to you

I believe that he can still turn into he's old form which is a wind spirit and when he's does(rarely) He flies around you and cuddles into your face, neck or head!. Man in the form seals your money-

You complete he's life because without you he feels as if he's world is windless despite being the anemo archon

Nicknames: My windblume, My muse and my love

Voice line about you: "Hey traveler! Have you seen y/n? No? Aww..i miss them... their only been gone for 2 hours? That's too long!"

When he talks to you: "My dear windblume...my muse...promise me you'll never leave me early....ok? why? Well...who will buy me wine!? ow ow ow...im only half joking...maybe..ehe"

Unlucky Precious Boi (Bennet)

~Insecure Boyfriend~

Sadly I think of him as the inscure tpye... why? well because he knows he's unlucky and he knows it WILL affect you...

So please reasure this poor boy....he needs it

On a normal day you both go on adventures together! Like going on mountains or just doing tasks and commissions

Takes you on campsite in dragonspine and look at the sunset while cuddling in a thick blanket. (MY HEART💘

You help him patch wounds up when he's injured

I can imagine him asking he's dad's for advice (Kaeya and Dliuc)

He's just a cute insecure boy who needs kisses, cuddles and reasurence :)

Nicknames: My goodlucky charm

Voice line about you: "H-How are they Barbara? There doing fine? Oh... thank Barbados...i shouldn't have fed them my soup...my bad luck again..."

When he talks to you: "You really are my Goodluck charm! I-I'm lucky your with me...thanks for sticking with me"

Cute Wolf Boy (Razor)

~Clueless Boyfriend~

By clueless I mean your he's first EVER ONLY love...so he's VERY new to this weird feeling we call love

He takes you haunting with him and cooks you food!

Introduces you to he's wolf family and they love you~ Like imagine you guys and them cuddling all that fluff...omg heaven💕

He probably tells Lisa about you and tells what he's feeling...she giggles at this and tells him he just loves you alot~

He always goes to Lisa to talk about you since he thinks she's very smart and she just gives him advice and teaches him about dates and such things about love.

even if he's technically not a wolf he acts like one...like he likes headpats and when he sees you he's imaginary tail starts wagging.

Since he's vocabulary isn't that good he likes when you guys do things that are quiet. Such as napping under a tree and reading a book while he's laying on your lap.

When you kiss him on the lips he's very confused about it...like he likes it and it makes he's tummy rumble but what is it!?

You explain that it's a "kiss" and now he asks for kisses alot. He definitely has liked you before lol

Protects you alot like he's your feral bodyguard

Likes smelling your scent says that you smell really good

Marks you with he's scent.

Even if he's clueless about love and still learning...he knows that this feeling you make him feel good things as he words it...your he's Lupical he's family that's for sure

Nicknames: Lupical(Nothing else he doesn't understand it)

Voice line about you: "Lisa...whenever Razor talks to y/n...razor feels...weird...is razor sick?"

When he talks to you: "Lisa saids that I razor loves you...huh..why you red? are you ok? huh? you love me too?

Chalk Prince (Albedo)

~Curious Boyfriend~

Albedo is definitely the type to be very curious about this thing humans call love....

He unintentionally makes you blush or flustered but sometimes he does it on purpose😐

When you asked him if he wanted to cuddle he just gave you a confused face. So you explained it to him and when you guys did cuddle he.could.not.get.enough

You guys will be trying different cuddle positions and he notes in he's notepad which one he likes which one he doesn't like

Omg when it was your first kiss it was honestly a accident....you were drunk and he was helping and then your dumbass accidentally kissed him and confessed your feelings🙂👍

He likes kissing you he thinks your lips are soft and perfect like you guys can't go a day without kissing either a peck or making out.

Klee LOVES you alot...more then albedo

You both are CHAOS you guys go fish blasting and albedo just paints the scene while smiling just happy your getting along with he's sister. (even if Jean kills him later)

Your he's muse he will draw you he just can't help it...when you ask him why he just saids that your Beauty has to be painted~

Always tells you how beautiful and perfect you are🥺

You help him in he's lab like pass him things or being he's test subject jkjk-

Makeup and dress time with klee~! May lord Barbados help albedo-

Even if everyday life is chaotic with you and Klee he's happy that he's no longer alone... For him you make him feel human

Nicknames: Love and my muse

Voice line about you: "Hm? Where's y/n? their with Klee fish blasting again.. What? Jeans gonna be mad again? it's alright...I'll handle jean"

When he talks to you: "Just do a simple pose my muse...there...love..your beautiful...love your beauy doesn't rival anything"

That's all everyone!

I'll be posting next part maybe tomorrow depends if I start to feel better and not busy thank you for reading this far and I'm sorry again for any grammar or spelling errors!

Byee see you next time~

[curiouskurona]

i think a lot of alois's behaviour can be explained by his circumstances . and liek , obviously , tha trauma . but i dont just mean that

he just came into wealth and power , through a name he wants to run through tha mud , with a demon under his command / thats supposed to protect him , and he'll soon be dead

liek . of course hes kinda wild ? of course he does whatever he wants ? what exactly does he have to lose here ? you finally get a taste of power , and you know none of it will matter in a few short years , so you might as well go all tha way , right ? thats what im getting from him

and since he WANTS to bring shame upon tha trancy naem , he has no problem being loud and bold and shameless . ostentatious , even . its not his reputation to tank , its not his money to spend , and he laughs thinking of how hes ruining it all . it maeks absolute sense to me why he has little , if any , inhibitions

and it extends to his lief in tha manor as well . throw tantrums , crush macaroons into tha carpet , flip tables , flood tha bathroom , tear tha wallpaper , throw things out tha window , throw tea at your servants face , throw your shoes across tha room and laugh as your butler has to go get them and try to put them back on you over and over again . throw everything all away , dont think about anything anymoar

what are they gonna do ? kill you ? as if claude would let that happen before he gets to eat your soul , right ? he has no reason to watch himself around them [ his servants ] , but every reason to exert his power over them , every reason to put on shows of dominance . every reason to remind them whos in control , in that scary manor where everyone was bigger and stronger and older than he was . he lieks to watch them clean up his messes , and laugh

besides , theyll fix it all by tomorrow . theyll have a new one put in on the hour , itll all be clean tha next tiem he passes by that room . perks of demon servants ( tho he only knew one was a demon , at tha tiem ) . what does it matter . what does any of this matter

i also posit that hes barely literate , because when would he have learned . claude probably taught him to sign documents , but is he really gonna spend tha last year or two of his lief in SCHOOL ? as if , lol

which brings me to a point of intrigue . what would alois be liek without his power to fall back on ? i see lots of modern / highschool AUs ( and i enjoy many of them ) , but depending on how his backstory is incorporated or changed to fit tha new setting , i think it might change his behavior quite a bit , if im being honest

something to explore ,, how much of ourselves are circumstance ? are situation ? how many of us would act differently if we could only xyz , if abc wasnt there . plenty of teen movies have characters that lead double lives , hiding who they really are from their parents . who would you be if you could be free ? if nothing mattered and no one could hurt you anymoar ? if you had nothing to lose ? havent you ever wanted to just get up and walk out of a classroom , but you didnt because of whatever consequences ? those consequences dont apply to alois , with his power and status and protection . and if they do , they dont matter . hes gonna be dead soon .

his trauma obviously has a huge influence on his behavior but i wanted to taek a look at just how his circumstances / living situation influenced him , in this post . even if he wasnt traumatized , he very well could have ended up tha way he is just by loss of inhibitions . though it certainly wouldnt be as compelling , or sympathetic , and his disregard for his newly acquired naem wouldn't maek as much sense

i had written moar for this post but i kind of went off on a tangent . " lost tha plot " , as some might say . so im cutting myself off . tha point is : alois had every reason to act tha way he did , of course when you taek into account his trauma , but even when you disregard that and just look at his place in tha story . his actions maek sense to me and i dont think hes necessarily as . inherently unhinged ? as ppl portray him . and also i do wonder what he'd be liek if his circumstances were different , liek in an AU of some sort perhaps

[mrkfav]

hmmm i would say i’m alright but college is actually a bitch. right before half term started i got into some friendship issues and i think i broke this friendship with this friend of mine (idk cos he still texts me but i don’t really wanna talk to him and i’m actually scared to go school tomorrow cos i’ll be seeing him again) but everyone that i told about it told me that my reaction was valid and that it was reasonable of me to wanna break the friendship.. man it’s giving me a headache fr. it’s alright tho, i’m not someone that depends to heavily on friendships to keep me happy, i wasn’t attached to him either so 🤷🏽‍♀️

ALSO BASICALLY ever since the school started these to guys are giving me mixed reactions 😭 as in i can’t tell if they’re being nice or trying to flirt but some of the stuff they do fr is not something you’d to an acquaintance so i’m so lost. the thing is i don’t even like both of them like appearance wise they’re so not my type (yeah i judge based on appearance you can boo me) and personality wise they give me bully vibes.

other than that i’m just resting AND i started a new writing account (remember my little writing phase on here 💀 i was such a enha stan back, but yh im just a dreamies writing blog rn)

- nura who is sorry for all this trauma dumping 😕💗

if your friends are saying your reaction was reasonable and valid then believe them nura like u wouldnt break a friendship off 4 no reason lmfao also NOT ATTACHED TO HIM LMFAO ????  regarding these 2 guys if they give u bully vibes thats so gross literally stop talking 2 weirdos like that YEAH UR NEW ACC !! i followed and i was lowk shocked 2 see nct dream bc i was like wait since when was nura a nctzen LMFAOOOO 

[shadow--writer]

Hi!! I LOVE your writing!! may I request something for modern! Muriel where he goes to a school, never talks to anyone and maybe still lives in a hut, so he doesn’t really know all the modern stuff. He sees the MC (fem would be nice) and develops a crush on her. One day he sits in like a library and he’s on his laptop and the poor guy just doesn’t know what to do with it, so the MC offers him help and he’s a big blushing mess. She invites him to come to her house to study and she has this small apartment with like lots of flowers and animals so he feels right at home and they talk about plants,animals and stuff? it’s so much I’m sorry, I thought it’s cute 🥺

awwwww omg thank you so so much! I’m still super surprised people like my writing and like me enough to follow just I love y’all. 

So these are in headcanon form and I went a little wild. Also this counts as a little birthday present for @tabbybells​ since I thought of Bink and Muriel the whole time I was writing~ Lov u and your amazing artwork. You’re super fun and very sweet, if y’all have the time go check them out! Wonderful art of Muriel and a super adorable MC cat bastard named Bink. (there is a bonus with Bink and Muriel too after the other headcanons just for fun! Lmfao hope I got Bink right XD)

Muriel x MC modern au. Made it college, he’s a Veterinary Science Major MC is not specified with gender and major (you two have science classes together tho ;3)!

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Muriel is the more reserved student, SUPER DUPER smart and really good at what he does but more reserved 

Hear me out here but: he has glasses. Thick black frames, he pushes them up his nose with his shoulder a lot when he gets distracted 

He does struggle to use his new laptop because he was just fine with his old one until it broke on him. 

You found this kinda funny. You’re studying in the library for a science test and this really big dude is just pouting at his laptop with the blue error screen

Of course this gets you out of studying so you go over to help him. At first he waves off your help, until you show him you have the same laptop and know what you’re doing

Then he gives in

“Good luck trying to fix this mess. Ugh my old laptop was better than this junk.”

...he had a 10 year old laptop that was the size of a brick and ran like a 94 year old woman with arthritis it was not better

He’s smart just not super tech savvy. Think ye old dad’s asking their kids for help with tech kinda not tech savvy. 

It’s okay because he’s freaking adorable when he pouts over his laptop not working for the eight billionth time

You two start to chat a little bit after helping him boot up his laptop, and it’s goodbyes from there when you’re done

But he started going to the library pretty often after that in hopes of seeing you again

You come in every day to study and check out something new (or pester the librarians.)

So the two of you run into one another a bunch. Each time he has a new problem with his laptop (sometimes they’re real other times it’s an excuse to talk to you. O-Only to get help of course!)

Depending on you it might take a few days or a few months to catch on to his plan

And once you do, it makes you smile and laugh a little because gosh he is quite the dork

Of course you developed a little crush on him too during this time, but one day he comes in to actually study 

You two have a science exam together to you invite him to come study over at your house

He tries to hide it but he lights up at the idea of spending more time with you, so of course he accepts (after...a moment of pretending to think about it. He didn’t want to seem too eager and scare you off)

When he first sees your apartment he’s....in shock to put it lightly 

So. Many. Things.

He likes it a lot. The amount of animal stuff you have on your walls, plants hanging from the ceiling and a bunch on every window sill. Birds/cats/dogs/hamsters etc chattering around 

It’s very bright and warm he feels at home immediately

You make warm drinks while he sets up in your living room, looking super large in this almost dollhouse couch and coffee table

It’s quite a sight, but he accepts the drink eagerly. You two study for a bit before the books get forgotten and you just...talk

About anything. Everything. The weather. Your classes. And it moves to animals. 

He gets all excited and lights up when he starts talking about Inanna (met her injured in the woods outside of town when she was a pup. He nursed her back to health and she’s never left his side since)

When he talks about her he gets all animated and opens up a lot more. Still soft spoken and shy

If he notices you staring he’ll blush red and go quiet

But when you ask questions and ask for more stories he’ll slowly warm up to being animated again

You’re...really easy to talk to like this

When it gets late and he has to go home you kiss his cheek and send him off

Bright red he is.

But he can’t wait to see you tomorrow. 

MODERN BINK AND MURIEL HEADCANONS UNDER THE CUT. This is what im good at so Happy Birthday Tabby! 😎👉👉

Modern au Bink feels like a cat person to me. All the cats. Any cat he runs into he gets. House is filled with cats. It’s hilarious 

Muriel calls him Grandma because of this. Bink in turn calls Muriel Grandpa due to his troubles with tech

Asra knits them both matching ugly sweaters

They wear them every time they see Asra

Bink and Faust have gotten into staring contests when they go over. Muriel finds them amusing and they can go on forever 

Bink loses every time but he will not give up

“...you do know she doesn’t have eyelids right?” “I DON’T CARE I’LL BEAT HER”

Bink (to me) seems like a reigning champ of roller skating. Super graceful and finds it fun (gonna add Maeve in here real quick because this hit me: Bink and Maeve are the power couple of roller-skating.)

Muriel is uhh...not that. Clumsy, and VERY out of his element. Bink takes it upon himself to hold Muriel’s hand and guide him around

To outsiders it’s hilarious as Bink is 5′5 and Muriel is 6′10 and looks like he can bench press a truck 

Muriel whittles Bink little presents and cat toys

He keeps the wooden animals on a shelf dedicated to them. You could map out their relationship through the wooden carvings.

Muriel lives on coffee. Bink is banned from drinking coffee

Asra has a polaroid camera and a cork board of pictures of Bink and Muriel 

Faust and Inanna are good friends

Inanna and some of Bink’s cats are not friends 

Inanna is banned from Bink’s apartment due to this fact 

Bink and Muriel go on a lot of late night dates. They both like to nap with one another in a sunbeam on a couch 

Muriel is the dad that passes out when he sits in a comfy chair. Bink is the cat that curls up on Muriel’s chest to soak in the warmth 

Said cats will gather around them as well if they can

Asra has taken to calling them the oldest married couple

They are an old married couple, sinking into home like routine 

Muriel carries Bink on his back when they go out into town because Bink does not want to walk

Bink and studying don’t go together well due to poor attention span (FAIR) Muriel has created a reward system for him (yes Muriel still has his glasses, and yes Bink steals them and wears them himself. yes he has gone blind in them. Yes Muriel has lecture him. yes Asra has a picture of this)

[thebraingremlinsaremad]

Daily Blog #3: August 10, 2021

Getting up today was weird: I woke up at 6:00 and couldn't fall asleep again until around 7:00, but then proceeded to sleep until 9:00. This gave me over 8 hours of sleep for the night, which should have been more than enough, but I was mysteriously tired all day.

I just went about my business, neglecting to eat breakfast, until my mother decided that she wanted to go out for lunch. She chose to go to China House, so I said to call and see if they had anything vegetarian, or else I'd just stay there and eat something else because, quite frankly, I didn't care enough to bother. She refused to call and made me go along anyway.

I didn't bring my keys or license outside, because she didn't bring it up, so she proceeded to oh so reluctantly drive my car and complain about it for the 2 minutes we were driving.

When we got there, she yelled at me again for not having my wallet, despite her not mentioning it at all, because that meant that she had to carry her own purse instead of putting her cards in someone else's pocket.

So the restaurant was closed, and I told her she would have figured that out if she called about the meal options like I asked, but she turned that on me and said that I should have called, even though I didn't want to go.

We ended up going to some other place, which was fine. Didn't really have any arguments there; I just ate.

We got home and I immediately grabbed my wallet and my bag and headed to Community Aid.

I hadn't mentioned up until this point that I was wearing some green skinny jeans and a blue top, which I'm honestly digging rn.

Btw, I use my shaping underwear several days in a row by wearing another pair of underwear inside of them so they don't get dirty. They're like $12 a pair, I'm not buying 5 of them xD. They're honestly great tho and I'm so happy that I bought some.

IN COMES MY MOTHER, AS IM WRITING THIS, TO TELL ME THAT I NEED COUNSELING.

I AM SO FUCKING fed up with her narcissistic, controlling, and manipulative ass. "Maybe the counselor can help you see that I'm not an asshole." YOU LITERALLY YELLED AT ME TODAY FOR NOT HAVING MY WALLET WHEN YOU DIDN'T EVEN FUCKING BRING IT UP!!! YOU SCREAM AT ME IF I MOVE YOUR PURSE TO USE THE TOASTER, AND SCREAM AT ME DOUBLE IF IT'S AT 10:30!!! YOU CALL ME A FUCKING WEENIE AND A PANSY FOR NOT WANTING TO KILL ANIMALS AND EAT THEM!!! YOU LITERALLY PUSHED ME BACK INTO MY TRANS CLOSET FOR A MISERABLE 2 YEARS BECAUSE YOU WEREN'T READY TO ACCEPT THAT.

And yeah. I need counseling so I can have a better relationship with you. That's the ONLY fucking reason she's given me; not so I can learn to love myself after spending 2 years forcing myself to believe I was a man and having issues with my weight that you put upon me. NOT so I can try and get rid of this disgusting internalized racism you've taught me or wean me off of my extreme dependence on my partner, shopping, and electronics from a lack of love and connection for 17 years, but so I'll like you.

FUCK OFF.

Anyway, I went shopping at Community Aid today for about 3 or 4 hours, and ended up trying on a ton of pairs of pants and a ton of tops, but only leaving with a bra, 4 pairs of pants, and 6 blouses that cost me $12 in total. Even though looking through every shirt they had felt tedious and tiring, it still beat staying at home, especially since I can keep replacing my male wardrobe now.

I got home and sat down to watch YouTube, but passed out for about an hour; like I said, I was really tired today for some reason.

When I woke up, I ate dinner and then grabbed the PlayStation, which I was yelled at for again despite my mother using the TV, and played some Apex and talked to people while my new clothes (and the ones I had worn throughout the week thus far) were going through the washer.

I put them in the dryer after a bit, put the game down, and started a movie, only to realize the right surround stopped working. This prompted me to replace the 8 different audio cables I was using to supply the 2 surround speakers with some longer, more durable ones I had just gotten from the school. They almost reached both speakers without having to combine cables, but the left speaker was a little too far away, so I just joined it with another cable and called it a day. Both speakers are working now, and that whole process took about an hour.

By this point, my clothes were done drying, and I grabbed them, folded them, and put them away; I know I'll be wearing one of those blouses to work tomorrow.

I sat down in bed, told my partner I was gonna write this, started writing it, got interrupted by my mom, as you have just read, and that brings us to where we are now, with me finishing this story up. All-in-all, not the worst day I've had, but it could've been a lot better. Oh well.

It's not all bad; at least I get to be myself when I'm not home.

If you've read all of this, thank you. Means a lot that I can just talk and rant here; really helps me out. I think I've been feeling more mentally healthy since I've started this blog.

Anyway, I'm signing off.

This has been Leonna,

Goodnight, and be good people.

[dottie-wan-kenobi]

UHHH THE FIC I WISH YOU WOULD WRITE?? Deadass just.... roy and dick hanging out There is a severe lack of fics with them and i just live for your writing in general

thank you so much, that means the world to me 🥺🥺🥺!!! and ohhhhh that would be a lot of fun!!! and this isn’t a fic exactly, just a bunch of headcanons, but still let me preface by saying I haven’t read a lot of their comics so this would all be considered AU probably! AND THIS GOT SO LONG OH MY GOD im not sorry but WOW I got way off track lmao

I can see them doing a lot of different things lol, like when they’re younger I think they’d play hacky sack and arm wrestle and stuff but also I think there would be a lot of nights spent at one or the other’s place, laying under blankets with popcorn and their favorite movies on. I like the thought that either it’s a movie they both love, Their Movie(tm), or it’s multiple ones that only one likes and the other hates but can recite word for word bc they’ve seen it so many times. idk why but I’m picturing Stuart Little dkjfhkjdsah do w that what you will. I also don’t know if this is like a Thing or not but I love the idea of them together at galas. hiding under tables w their PSPs or DSes, trying to be quiet but everything is funnier there, and they overhear all kinds of shit that maybe they shouldn’t but THEY’RE BASICALLY 12 ANYWAY that’s almost a teenager and teenagers can watch R rated movies soooooo!!! and omgggg imagine the superheroing antics. when they’re training together, I think they’d throw trash talk around and at first they aren’t sure where to stop so some feelings are hurt. but the more they work together, the easier it is to tell what’s a joke and where the line is and stuff. they would absolutely practice their aim with nerf/water guns. someone says that they, the ones in the Titans without the powers, are useless and both get absolutely pissed because the other is SO IMPORTANT TO THE TEAM IN THESE WAYS *proceeds to list 27 reasons and doesn’t think to defend self*

when they’re a little older, like teenagers, I think they’d have a lot of fun working together on cases. they’d butt heads but eventually it would be kind of instinctual, like okay Dick will take the lead on this case and Roy will be in charge for this one, and they won’t have to think before doing something that depends on the other because they just know what the other is going to do before they do it. if that makes sense. across the room at Superhero Meetings, they’re making faces/mouthing stuff at each other making inside jokes. Bruce is like “can you please stop.” and they say at the same time, “I have no idea what you mean.” they spar a lot, and continue the time honored tradition of hacky sack and arm wrestling when they’re bored. they always go to each other for advice. when one of them needs a break from life, they just show up at the other’s place. (Ollie, many times: “Bruce? Yeah your gremlin is here. ... Yes I called him a gremlin what are you gonna do about it. My son is making him feel better. ... We’ll have him home by tomorrow afternoon.”) and Dick definitely, 10000% asks Roy if he’d like to join the Titans again, and is sad when Roy says no. they also know exactly how the other likes a lot of foods, like Dick likes his coffee w tons of milk/cream, and Roy likes Hawaiian pizza, and how much is Too Much Mustard, etc etc

as for when they’re adults,,,,,,,,,, this is kind of dumb tbh but them just??? sitting together in silence/quiet music? doing paperwork? they’re not talking or anything, but they aren’t alone either, and once they’re done they’re going to hang but didn’t want to wait???? I love that. I love them having sleepovers as kids, not so much as teens, and then having them again (bc they were comforting, and bc they trust each other so much, and bc they want to stay up all night eating pizza and playing chubby bunny again). speaking of, they meet up and eat pizza together sometimes. I can decide if it’s better like, they’re in disguise? they’re obviously themselves? they’re in costume??? idk I love all of it. they have Shows and they probably try to go on missions together bc Roy is NOT waiting 2 months to watch the next episode absolutely not. they prank each others’ siblings, and by that I mean I’m picturing Roy and Connor (Conner? idk how to spell his name I’m sorry dkjfsdahh) hanging out and Dick pranks him in a way that Connor would IMMEDIATELY assume was Roy, but Roy is right there. within sight the whole time. (C: “what is this bullshit, a shapeshifter?”) 

when they’re like ADULTS adults... training kids together and reassuring the ones without powers that they’re just as capable, and cracking jokes that got old TWENTY YEARS AGO, DICKOLAS. (Roy is still laughing tho. don’t be fooled.) leading the Justice League together I’m 🥺🥺🥺 and ugh oh my god I’m having parents feelings lemme just

obviously they raise Lian together lmao this isn’t a question. holy fuck imagine them tucking Lian into bed at night. reading/telling her five stories (even tho Roy says 2 is really enough, but she just loves the voices they make and how Dick acts stuff out so muchhhh she doesn’t want it to end) before going to bed themselves. staying up to lay on the couch, on top of each other, and be like “WOW she’s adorable but I am so exhausted.” again w the shows but it’s always reruns of like Fresh Prince. they have a stash of food Lian can’t eat, like sugary cheat stuff, and sit at the table holding hands while they eat them. they are the most embarrassing parents ever oh my god they go to as many of Lian’s school events as they can and take videos and actually go back and watch them??? even though they were there??????? Donna comes over and is treated to a viewing of every single award Lian has ever won, which are displayed on the walls. I also have this headcanon Roy has to get glasses when he’s older, like in his 40s, and I think Dick would spend a lot of time helping him look for them lmao. please also imagine them dying their gray hairs together. standing in the bathroom, shirtless, laughing at how silly they look and also how the gray looks REALLY GOOD are you sure you want to dye it. I’m also losing my shit at the thought of them having chairs like !!! this is so domestic but there’s Roy’s Chair, which is soft and has a high back and pops out/reclines so he can chill, and there’s Dick’s Chair which is softer/fluffier, wider and smaller in the back, and it doesn’t recline but it does have huge armrests bc Dick sits sideways so he can look at both Roy and the TV. (they sit in these chairs with their grandkids and fall asleep in them all the time and they are perfectly apart so that they can hold hands comfortably.)

I’m also having NSFW ideas as well but this is already so much?????????

send me a “I wish you would write a fic where…”!!

[maygrcnt]

What Would You Do If?

[Sent to "GHC Extended"] Cyrus: Y'all i really need someone to do smthn with, i'm beyond bored Buffy: Sorry cy im still at bball camp Andi: me and jonah are helping bowie stock records at the store, i can hang tomorrow tho Amber: i have some summer work to do, Tjs free tho if you wanna text him Cyrus: thanks ambs, will do

[Sent to Teej]

Cyrus: amber says youre free, wanna hang out? Tj: yeah im down, meet at the park? or i can just come  over if ya want Cyrus: yeah its cool if you come over, wed probably just end up coming back here anyway lol Tj: cool cool see you in a bit.

Cyrus shut off his phone and set it on his chest, covering his face with his hands and letting out a deep sigh. It was the middle of summer and there was nothing to do at his house he could do to cure the boredom that was making him crazy. He'd already refreshed every timeline and feed about a million times and there was officially no more videos on YouTube to watch (okay maybe that was an exaggeration). He tried his hardest to find a craft or something to do but in the end he figured that he would need to find entertainment in other people.

After checking the fridge for the thousandth time (without finding anything to eat) there was the sound of the door opening.

"Hey Cy, where ya at?" Tj said as he slipped off his shoes.

"Kitchen," Cyrus replied. Tj and him were really comfortable with each other at this point, they basically considered one another their best friends. Even better than the Good Hair Crew, which would've seemed impossible just a few months ago.

"Whatcha doin?"

"Nothing. The whole point in you coming over was that I was insanely bored. Please can you figure out something to do?" Cyrus pleaded.

"Okay." Tj simply said, then left the kitchen and walked up the stairs to Cyrus' room. Cyrus followed him, confused. When he got to his room he found Tj where he always was when he was here. He was on the floor by Cyrus' desk, looking through all the things Cyrus had written down in his notebook.

His notebook was just full of random little notes and prompts that he would randomly think of. Tj found them insanely adorable.

"Why do you always look at that?" Cyrus asked.

"Because they're cute, and right now I'm using them to find something to do." Tj told him.

"How are you using them for that?"

"Word association. I see something you've written and I try to think about what to do with it."

"How about we play word association?" Cyrus suggested.

Tj set the notebook aside and looked Cyrus in the eyes as he sat down in front of him, "Okay. Hit me."

"Basketball," Cyrus said.

"Life," Tj shot back. "My turn, high school."

"Terrifying. Cyrus."

"Cute." Tj didn't shoot out a new word for Cyrus to associate, instead he just sat there, trying to figure out a way to backtrack from what he just said.

"New game." Cyrus said with a small smile, " It's called 'What would you do if'."

"Whats that?" Tj asked.

"One person gives the other a scenario that starts with 'What would you do if' and then the other person has to answer completely honest." Tj nodded his head, "Cool. I'll go first. What would you do if. . . someone told you that they had a crush on you."

"Depends on who they are. What would you do if a boy told you they liked you." Tj shifted his body.

"Depends on who they are, what would you do if. . . one of your best friends had a crush on you?"

"I'd tell them that the feelings are mutual."

The boys both had a smile on their face, and each of their cheeks were flushed red. Tj looked down at the notebook he was holding, "Ooh right here you just wrote the word baby tater like a hundred times, you wanna go get some?"

"Definitely."

//

i really dont care for this one but i still think its cute and the ending is my favorite so enjoy

[taylornock]

how cell phones made our lives better while simultaneously ruining them

hi fam!! it’s me, again. are you tired of hearing from me? me too. that’s why I’m here to rant about social media / phone / technology. bc i hate it… but in a loving way???

everyone remembers when they got their first iPhone. seriously. why is that such a monumental moment in our lives? i can hardly remember what i felt like freshman year of high school but can pinpoint the feeling of sheer glee unwrapping my iPhone 6 in eighth grade. i have this thing that is attached to me 24/7 - when I go anywhere (even downstairs) without my phone i feel weird. that is f***ing SAD! PATHETIC. i hate feeling that dependent on what is essentially a pocket robot.

for what it’s worth - phones have done INCREDIBLE things for the world as we know it. for example, this quarantine shit has been testing all of us; and our phones are helping us get through it in so many ways. our phones let us see the faces of those loved ones we are missing, our phones provide us with stupid tik tok content to keep everything light hearted, and our phones let us check in on each other. all amazing things! when we are at school, we have instant access to our lives at home . being able to call my mom whenever i want is something i definitely abuse. “mom, I’m on my way home from Thompson right now and i think i have a brain aneurysm but my bio final is at 11am tomorrow will i make it” … an actual conversation i had with my mom at the end of freshman year. needless to say i was medicated shortly after THAT meltdown. I am such a brat that i don’t know what i would do if i couldn’t text my dad and have him immediately get me the password again to our Uverse account…… god forbid i miss an episode of the bachelor. i have this phone, and that’s what i do with it? abuse its powers to ask my parents for medical advice or a password i forgot? have we lost sight of everything here?

throughout life and especially throughout quarantine… my phone is the definition of a possession that is a blessing and a curse. I’m so grateful to have the ability to bother my friends - whenever i want! the options are endless! i love keeping in touch with people i thought id never hear from again, and being able to talk to so many people in my life and make my heart swell. now, when a conversation with someone other than my two roommates (shoutout parents) is so rare ⎯ that phone is my weapon and i use it to help flatten the curve: flatten the curve of covid19 and flatten the curve of my mental illness 🙃 [humor is a coping mechanism okay let me live] but like, i KNOW i’m not the only one that looks at my screen time and immediately wants to die. how can i honestly be looking at my phone for that long? picking it up THAT many times?????? my phone is the best distraction and also the most toxic - it makes me feel better but has a tendency to bring up all my issues and blast them into the reflection of my blue light glasses...... its called fashion look it up.

to give some examples - let’s open up my most used app: snapchat. I go on snapchat with the best of intentions - to see a memory from a year ago that makes me smile. to respond to my friends and see what their mood today is based on the look on their face. to creep on snap stories and see what everyone’s cooking and doing with their lives. somehow, tho, after spending a few minutes on the app.. i end up with a pit in my stomach most of the time. the person i want to respond hasn’t responded in 4 hours. oh god lets overthink this- they don’t like me anymore and are no longer interested in speaking to me and only respond every once in a while out of pity or because they are uncomfortable. everyone hates you. oh and GOD FORBID someone leaves me on open??! I am not funny nor interesting nor worth a reply - suddenly, i have equated my value to receiving or not receiving a photo of someone’s blank stare. this is extreme, and this is dramatic. but trust me —— this is the hamster wheel always turning in my head. I’m not even going to touch on snap maps; that feature is pandoras box and someone better fucking shut it.

second most used app is instagram. i scroll for hours, i have time limits set for the app acting like i’m actually going to listen to them and get off. lmaooooooooo. i love looking at aesthetic stuff and dogs and food and recipes and my friends’ beautiful faces. but you know what i don’t like? constant nudges to compare myself to others. oh look at her having a party with all of her friends even though we aren’t supposed to be. am i a loser for trying to be safe? oh look at her washboard abs, i’m never going to look like that and will never live up to the standard of beauty society has set for me. look at all of these people in their happy relationships. why can’t i have that? it goes over and over and over. its not like i sit there and think of these things just like that, its a precedent in my mind when i stare at everybody else that i am going to size my own life up against theirs. for years i followed every single elite model / VS angel on instagram to motivate me to do better - to start being psycho about what i did to my body so i could be as gorgeous as them. what kind of fucked up mindset is that? i would literally watch their footage of them eating rice and vegetables once a day and try to copy it. i would watch their runway walks obsessively trying to recreate them in heels alone in my house - like that was all i could imagine doing with my life. did i ever stop for a second to look at that photoshoot of gigi hadid and wonder if she was happy? wonder if the constant pictures she saw of herself ever made her insecure? what was i doing? the day i unfollowed those girls was a monumental day in my journey to a better self image. i didn’t realize the people i thought were my “motivators” were actually my triggers. i have grown to a point in life now that i would much rather eat a stack of chocolate chip pancakes that make me dance in my chair like an infant than practice my runway walk and shame my body in the mirror. and i am so freakin happy! 

i could go app by app for hours. but moving on to the next thing i hate about cell phones - how they have destroyed our biological methods of communication. you hear about those psychos who think the world is destroyed by technology and we are going to be overrun by robots. but hey, I’m with the psychos on this one. i have this amazing friend, Trevor Wright, who without fail at EVERY dinner announces “phones off friends on” and collects our phones into the center of the table. yes, we are 20 year old adults. yes, we hand our phones over to Trevor and let him yell at us for trying to see if ~that person~ snap chatted us back. i have so much respect for him because of this. there is nothing worse than staring at your phones when you could be having a good conversation about life, about love, about laughter + memories, about “do you think hellen keller is real?” anything, bro, anything. anything but snapchat messaging your hoe of the week or mindlessly playing tetris to twiddle your thumbs. we all need to start loving a little harder, and the first step to doing that is to communicate better. communicate smarter. I’m guilty of alllll of the above, don’t get me wrong. and I am ADD asf and constantly playing mindless games just to stimulate my brain. but i need to stop that! even writing this is taking some time away from the dumb shit on my phone - and encouraging me to communicate how i     r e a l l y   feel to my homies that will read this. communication - especially body language - is fascinating. I’ve studied it in  psych, I’ve learned the neurological bases of behavior and why we do what we do. I’ve learned how much our life experience impacts who we are as a whole...and it! is! fascinating! i also think that’s why i love film so much. because it can capture the raw moments of your friends just being your friends, of you just being the person you are, and the world around you just existing as it exists. i love the raw moments; and not just because indy blue posted one youtube video of her slow mo laughing and now thats the only footage i find myself shooting. 😚

im not quite sure what this post is, lol. but - just a rant on technology. so listen to me:

take advantage of technology + social media! it CAN BE GREAT. for so many reasons. but, don’t let technology + social media TAKE ADVANTAGE OF YOU. stay true to you - know how to communicate with yourself and your loved ones without the use of a robot. remember that feeling when you setup up your first iPhone? imagine if you could feel that again, with your phone nowhere in sight. if you don’t know how to communicate with yourself yet, start by journaling. WRITE! TYPE! SPEAK! do what you want. getting your thoughts down even without an audience is so crucial to understanding yourself and others. if you don’t like to write, reflect. breathe. meditate. make art. do what makes you feel at peace, and do whatever makes you feel like the world makes a little bit more sense than it does. 

IF YOU ARE READING DOWN TO HERE, I LOVE YOU. I LOVE YOU, SAY IT BACK! LIFE IS A FUCKING HIGHWAY. AND IM SO GLAD YOU’RE ON MY INTERSTATE. <3

xoxoxoxo

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ok i just saw this existed, i live on tumblr mobile where i ignore the activity tab and scroll endlessly, bear w me

Animated character that was your gay awakening? uhhhhhhh,,,....,,,.. if i remembered anything abt my childhood i would tell u, im gonna say rukia from bleach because i want gorgeous short people to step on me

Grilled cheese or PB&J? peanut butter Always... tho if it was a fancy grilled cheese (there is a special preparation).... i would be torn

What show/YouTube video(s) do you put on in the background when you when you don’t have anything to watch but you want something on? it really depends! i bounce around, i watch a lot of baumgartner restorations, i watch a LOT of nyx fears video essays on horror movies i would never watch, i watch longplays of, like, nier automata bc im still delighted by cryaotic?

Your go-to bar order, if you drink? i dont really get to order a lot of drinks at bars, itll depend, if im with friends ill order as many things off the cocktail menu as my money allows, if im with my parents ill order long island iced teas or whiskey and lemonade

What’s your favorite pair of shoes that you own? i literally own like 3 pairs of shoes, one of which being the only pair i can actually safely wear haha.... but my favorite pair is the black red and gold converse that dont fit anymore but still remind me of high school

Top three cuisines? mexican, italian, whomever the fuck invented kasoundi

What was your first word as a child (that wasn’t a variation of “Mom” or “Dad”)? yeah as said above i have no clue about anything about my childhood so idk i think mum said once that my first proper word was just ‘no’ which sounds abt right

What’s a job that you’ve had that people might be surprised to find out you’ve had? idk if my last job counts? i mean i used to do all round garden labor stuff until my pain got worse and i literally couldnt anymore so i got relegated to desk work

Look up. What’s directly across from you? oh a container of pesto i didnt like the flavour of and just... forgot to throw out.... i will do that tomorrow

Do you own any signed books/memorabilia in general? i have a rwby poster signed by ray and jack? its p cool

Preferred way to spend a rainy day? preferred right now? wrapped in a metric fuckton of blankets w my partner

What do you get on your bagels? What WOULD you get if you had access to anything you wanted? i..... dont like bagels

Brunch or midnight snacks? i live a weirdly scheduled life, midnight snacks and brunch are interchangeable to me now, so both

Favorite mug you own i..... dont really have one? all of my actual mugs that are mine have my deadname on them haha

What coffee drink would you describe yourself as? overbrewed black coffee that someone left to go cold before dumping six packs of sugar in

Pick a song lyric to describe your current mood (and drop the name and artist!) ‘ And I don't want your pity I just want somebody near me ‘ bc we all love a bit of mitski when we are feeling the self isolation creeping in

Fruity or herbal teas? fruity teas only! or rather i drink fruit tisanes! but if you mean actual tea then herbal, i only drink peppermint tea

What’s that one TV show that you’re a little bit embarrassed to watch but you still like nonetheless? fruits basket! everyone watch the reboot

That book you were forced to read for class but actually ended up enjoying? all the books i read for class sucked but medea wasnt so bad

Do you match your socks? only when theyre very fun patterned socks, and even then sometimes i will match them to the wrong pair but the same pattern, aka my double watermelon combo (i have a pair of green socks w watermelons and a pair of black socks w watermelons so)

Have you ever been horseback riding? no and i never will because i am fucking terrified of horses

What was your “phase” when you were younger? (i.e., Mythology Nerd, Horse Girl, Space Geek, etc) uh.... uh i mean im not sure if it counts as a phase but i was stupid into vampires (to the point of me and my friends constructing the intricate theory that our teacher was a vampire and we had to kill her by the time we graduated (she was not and we did not and i hate all of those people now) i was just the weird conspiracy kid i guess, we used to spend every lunch staring across the oval at a house we were SURE an alien lived in (it was just a plastic bag being rustled by a fan)

Have you ever been to jail? bkdnbrb god no

What’s your opinion on Lazy Susan’s (the spinning tray in the middle of tables)? im a lazy susan

Puzzles? i cant solve a rubiks cube but give me a 2000 piece jigsaw and ill sit there for 6 hours trying to solve it

You can only have one juice for the rest of your life, what is it? oh this is tough..... orange juice, the fancy kind but with no bits in it, i used to like the bits but these days i just want a clean juice experience

What section do you immediately head for when you walk into a bookstore? ,,,,,,the ya fiction section, i never buy anything from there but i like to see if series i read as a teenager ever got new instalments after i stopped liking them

What’s one thing you’re trying to learn/relearn in your downtime right now? how to sleep like a normal person

Who’s your go-to musical artist when you’re feeling upbeat? uh, it depends! lizzo or my playlist of musicals! (which is literally just starkid/tcb stuff)

Where could someone find you in a museum? i could literally be anywhere, probably in front of some old piece though, just staring for an hour bc im struck by the majesty of it (and my legs probably locked up so i couldnt move anyway)

What’s that one outfit in your closet you never get the chance to wear but want to? so i have a nice white button up and some really nice jeans i just got, and my suspenders, and my cool blue heels that i know i cant wear bc my legs cant handle walking in heels anymore, but it would look cool am i right

Rainbows, stars, or sunset colored clouds? i look up at my roof which is almost entirely covered in glow in the dark stars and then stare into the camera (i wish every day that my roof was like the roof of the healthy harold van, i still have fucking dreams of that beautiful ceiling)

If you could own any non-traditional pet (dogs, cats, fish, rodents, etc), what would it be? non traditional? id want a lizard that could curl round my shoulders like a leathery scarf

Do you have more art on your walls or more photographs? i dont have any photos on my wall so art by default

You have to get one meme tattooed on your body, what meme is it and where does it go? i just want the pensive emoji tattooed in the small of my back so if i wear a crop top everyone has to suffer with me

Pick a superhero sidekick to hang out with fuck superheroes they suck, can i hang out with jason todd red hood style

Lakes, rivers, or oceans? oceans, i want to go to the beach so fucking bad

Favorite mid-2000s song i dont really have a Big Favorite but like..... i constantly thank god for esteban

How do you dress when you’re home alone? ive been in the same sweatpants and old paint shirt i got from my painting and decorating course for three days

Where do you sit in the living room (we all have a preferred spot, and you know it)? armchair closest to the kitchen, perfect to make a quick escape if dad comes in

Knives or swords? knives, i dont have the upper body strength for swords

A song you didn’t think you’d enjoy but ended up loving? oh uh run away with me by crj, *bwoooooooo buhnuhnuuuuuu buhnuhnuuuuuhhh buhnuhnuuuuhhhhh*

Pick an old-school Disney Channel Original Movie HIGH SCHOOL MUSICAL BUT SPECIFICALLY ONLY CERTAIN PARTS FROM EACH OF THEM BC COLLECTIVELY THEY SUCK BUT PARTS OF THEM ARE PERFECT

Are you a “Quote that relates to the photos” caption-er, an “explanation of where I took the photos” caption-er, or a no caption kinda person when you post pictures online? no caption i dont want people to really acknowledge that i post things

Name a classic Vine https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=anQds9PQ7CA

What’s the freezer food that you stock up on when you go to the grocery store? hash browns hash browns hash browns ONLY

How do you top your ice cream? god its been so long since ive been able to eat ice cream.... with the reeses peanut butter ice cream shell topping

Do you like Jello? jelly is the pinnacle of our society and i wish i were eating it right now

What’s something that you don’t have a picture of that you wish you did? i wish i had a picture of myself and my partner so i could set it as my phone lock screen (that or i wish i had a picture of me and a friend i really dearly miss bc i have pics of her in my phone but not of us together and i want some but i cant bring myself to say so)

How are you at climbing trees? theres a tree in my front yard i used to be able to hang off but nowadays i think id hurt myself just trying to lift my nasty meat sack off the ground trying