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look i made chris in the sims 😂
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#i think he’s pretty okay tbh#i gotta cheat his acne off but other than that i like him#gonna make his stupid ass love me now hehehe
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listen. if i drew fuyuhiko as majima, then i have to draw him as goromi.
#hes PARTYING and HAVING FUN#(friday night plays) im ready to gooo tonighttt yeah theres a party alright#been thinking about gender. and femininity and masculinity lately. and just how stupid it all is#i love feminine men!!! so much#personally i dont think he'd like to dress like this all too much but#hey its okay to be OOC sometimes#and who knows maybe he would enjoy it a little. once in a blue moon#would LOVE to draw hiko in more dresses tbh. hes so pretty. so if anyone has suggestions.......#plus hey transfem fuyuhiko folks i like you. hope this is good food. interpret it how you want really#bongo art#art#digital art#danganronpa#super danganronpa 2#danganronpa 2#danganronpa 2 goodbye despair#sdr2#fuyuhiko kuzuryu#fuyuhiko kuzuryuu
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from this thing lolz
ty to @cherry-207 for the idea !! XPP
vargas by zarla-s
#sunny's art#vargas#edgar vargas#vargas zarla#scriabin#zarla s#scriabin vargas#would add shitpost tag too but i made so much effort on these to call it shitpost#this took me like 4 days . it could've taken two but i had to go out most of these days#this is just another “ i forced myself to color this thing just to practice coloring ” piece#went crazy with this one X3#changed pretty much all of my brushes#bye square-shaped brush . i'm gonna miss you#i feel like edgar would actually find this cute tbh#it's perfect for them and they both know it#i know that the actual meme doesn't really look like my artstyle#but this is the first time i draw a face from that angle okay#that's all bye#nevermind i want to rant about something .#okay it's like . everytime i draw edgar i struggle a lot thinking of the clothes i want to draw on him#so i literally took a screenshot of every thing zarla has drawn on him so i can yk . pick something out of there#well on this one drawing she made he had this pretty beige cardigan and i was like okay sure let's get that one#then . was just coloring and when i tried to shade the beige it just looked dirty and ugly#why when other people do it it looks good and when i try to do it it just looks ugly ??!!1!1?!#funny enough this is the third time this happens to me#it also used to happen with gray . i just changed the color of the shading to dark blue and boom fixed#so i had to change it to green . looks better like that anyways#so i'm thinking . does beige look bad on edgar or it's just that i don't know how to shade beige in the first place#( probably second one#i think this is actually all
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Ok I know I'm heavily biased here but like I kinda love that Astarion's romance is one of the few in this type of video game where you basically end up canonically unmarried and childfree in his "good" ending? Just travelling the world??
Like it's honestly the millennial dream lmfaoo cannot believe i chose what would undoubtedly be my favorite option, first try
#also love that he's basically atheist like ok thanks you made the man exactly coded to be my type#and the humor and beautiful curly hair is very much something my IRL partner has too so like... how can i resist#anyways not sure a lot of people relate cause i think a lot of people want that fairytale romance#even tho wyll is right there yall#but i love me an unconventional or nontraditional one!!#i'm TIRED of being married with children as the endgame pls let's not do it#also a lot of people seem into him being a dad and im like... how? why? where in canon did he ever lmfao#more power to ya if you dig it but i just dont see it being in character#like in DAI i loved cullen and my inquisitor getting married and having a dog#and they seem the type to wants kids one day. but Tav & Astarion? lol no#i just think it's neat#is this a hot take? i have no idea but i don't see it mentioned a lot as a new fan tbh#pls do not come at me you can enjoy whatever you like#i haven't seen the ascended stuff so idk if being his 'consort' is like being his bride#but i feel like overall it's not and the vibe isn't all that different in this sense#except that you're hosting evil parties instead of travelling :/#Astarion#bg3 spoilers#baldur's gate 3#baldur's gate 3 spoilers#bg3#also YEA he's nice to Arabella but you can tolerate certain kids without wanting one or being 'good parent' material#case in point: me lmfao#OKAY update i saw the AA stuff and yeah you're kind of implied vamp married and he does mention spawn as children 😫#but he also says in banter he won't make any other spawn??? so what is it dude#anyway that's also clearly the “bad” route and he doesn't seem as happy as unascended#who feels “truly free”#and if you're durge I'm pretty sure its even worse to consider having kids?? lol#but i digress#pk plays bg3
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ever since I wrote the thing where spock tells mccoy that the ozh'esta can be platonic, in the back of my head I keep thinking about a fic where the entire basis is that spock does know he's into mccoy, and he (don't do this) basically lulls him into vulcan dating without telling him? like finger kissing sure sure sure, but other things as well that, like, up the ante a LOT. and because i'm not a particularly kind person, I was trying to think how kirk could also be doing that, but of course he doesn't have the same leeway as spock, as mccoy obviously knows what human gestures of affection/romance are - so i think the best workaround would be for kirk to convince mccoy to try a chill/casual friends with benefits thing with him, except kirk keeps, like, doing super intense romantic things, and (i'm exaggerating for comedic affect) gaslighting him that they're really just what every friends with benefits situation is like, and because mccoy's never had a fwb, he's just like......"that sounds wrong but I don't know enough about them to prove you wrong" and goes along with it.
point being that he is routinely getting to idk vulcan third base with spock, but spock is just like "odd that you think this is romantic and/or sexual, this is just vulcan friendship, doctor," and meanwhile he's supposed to be having quickies with kirk to blow off steam, but kirk keeps doing the most romantic shit and being like, "yeah, giving you roses is my kink, why are you being so weird about it" and mccoy's just. listen. he's dated around okay, he's not some shy blushing virgin, but he has made the tragic mistake of trusting his two best friends, and by george are they gonna abuse that trust (don't do this) in their attempts to win him over lmao.
I mostly keep thinking about other vulcans coming on board and them subtly realizing and reacting to spock's ~claim~ on mccoy, and spock being disgustingly smug about it, and meanwhile someone hits on mccoy and kirk swoops in and, like, tenderly cups mccoy's cheek and kisses him and then leaves, and mccoy's like, yeah, no, we're just friends?, and everyone around him is???? babe??? no you aren't???
is it possible to write this without mccoy coming off TOO oblivious and/or spock and kirk coming off TOO lacking of boundaries, I just don't know, but it does make me giggle now and again when I think about it
also the fact that he is going to genuinely murder them when he realizes what they've been doing, and they can't even complain, because they both know they absolutely deserve it.
#tos writing ref#this feels too disjointed to put in the tags so i will just keep it in my writing tag#i think about this pretty much every time someone interacts with the counseling fic tbh#listen listen listen i have admitted many times that i'm a sucker for kirk and spock running roughshod over mccoy's boundaries#and mccoy long-sufferingly Allowing it. and this feels like the logical conclusion of it tbh. he's gonna hafta murder them both tho.#that or he's gonna set payback along the lines of......they aren't allowed to touch him for two months (how long he had to deal with this!)#but he's allowed to touch them whenever/however he wants during that time 😌😌😌#(honestly they'd have preferred if he just killed them lbr)#okay i'll shush up i need to go make dinner anyway lmao#the heart wants what it wants and my heart wants silly and unhinged mcspirk 😔🙃😌
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okay it's 3am…. but i just watched the campos vlog for the first time as a new campos girlie and i'm- 🥺🥺 sebas and chris's hand heart? hello??
oh and i could go on a full rant about how freaking cute pepe is but i shall try my best to refrain… it will only send me into a spiral and i will end up not sleeping……. so instead i'll just drop off this vid of his ADORABLE laughter and call it a day 🫡
(also this ^^ specifically @ that one anon who sent me an ask weeks ago about his laughter…….😭)
#felt cute calling myself a campos girlie 😭#ive been a pepe girlie for quite some time but i never rlly felt anything special for campos as a team#these days tho 🤭#gotta learn spanish to be a campos girlie tho apparently#but tbh it felt good not understanding bcs then i could just focus on the pretty faces#okay just short about pepe#his smile :(((( he looks so genuinely happy#i wanna pinch his cheeks#oh and him measuring the ground ??? or whatever it was he was doing#like i saw it on their ig also last week but 😭#such a silly boy#love him sm#okay i need to not think anymore sorry#f2#pepe marti#campos racing
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your post abt dean not corrupting sam it’s the other way around is just !!!! yeah!!! that’s a reason i’ve never quite been able to get into weecest either bc very few people actually know how to characterize them so. i agree w you
yeah that’s exactly what i’m saying. i think the show was pretty blatant about sam being in the “temptress” role in their dynamic, as i already mentioned in this post (also in this post but it’s more of my own personal headcanon based on their interaction in playthings)
#their interaction in playthings was almost a seduction (sam basically seducing dean) but rather unintentional#it’s more about dean wanting to fuck sam and feeling guilty about it than sam actively trying to seduce him#although i think it’s safe to say that sam is canonically pretty shameless about wanting to get dicked down by his brother#tbh dean represses himself (rather his feral side) a lot when it comes to sam#which is part of why i don’t agree with the take that he corrupts sam#he’d have devoured him bones & all if sam wasn’t his little brother whom dean’s sworn to protect & take care of#so i think these /feral/ urges towards sam would actually scare him at first#but once they get to the s*xual part sam will convince him it’s okay to want him in /that/ way#we always hear about the dom corrupting the sub but in the wincest dynamic it’s the sub corrupting the dom <3#wincest#samdean#spn
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Prince Jenson of Somerset
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Yayyyyy omg finally have drawn portraits of the four main characters!!!! I'll show the process of Jenson's first and then them all four together. Though it's a shame the Seb/Fernando ones are older, I think it's hopefully obvious how much I've improved since November?
Look at him in all his handsome, princely glory 🥹 It's funny, I'm always happy with the second sketch and initial lineart, and then I start coloring it and I absolutely hate it, and it takes a significant amount of time into the painting for me to like it again. And then I reach a certain point and I'm in love with it again. Ugh though I gotta say, I love drawing the curls, it's just so 18th century, but at the same point, man I always will love my original lineart for the hair the best ah. Also yes I absolutely had to give him a big ass hat with feathers, he really is that kinda guy to me. I originally drew a bicorne and then realized that those don't really exist until basically almost a century later oops, so tricorne it is!!
Okay now omg look at them all together 🥹
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Haha wow I have improved a lot! Just like the Seb/Fernando ones, Mark and Jense's were meant to be put together. I think there's a lot of inherent characterization in their poses that highlight the difference between them. Mark is looking up, very wistful, looking up to greater people, greater things. Jenson's head is tilted down, almost looking at the viewer, he is very satisfied with his role and revels in it, he's here to slay!
Okay, yes, lore, characterization, sorry that it is so far down on the post!!
Jense would probably be the fan favorite if this AU was an actual book or show or something. He's the guy you randomly find while browsing Wikipedia and you're like, woah this guy is so cool??? Unlike Sebmarknando, he doesn't really have the same level of angst, he's kinda just chilling. He's a bit harder to write a lore post about, because he's basically that character who is always magically around the corner, ready to witness some crazy thing and just breeze past it.
He is less linked to Seb than people like Mark and Fernando, because he's basically just his personal minister of transportation(read: horse fucker), so he avoids a lot of the relationship complications and drama, but that isn't to say he's completely uninvolved. He really likes Seb, and loves to hang around with him and serve him, but he's not as beholden to him. He's who everyone goes to air their grievances or to get away from the others, and he's very happy with this role. He's generally willing to play any side in an argument, but does tend to have a pretty big soft spot for Seb overall(Seb also gives him cuteness aggression, and he wants to bite him. Especially when Seb puffs himself up and acts super bratty when he gets offended at not being seen as a proper ruler.)
He's royalty from other kingdom, but pledged his loyalty to Seb's kingdom when he was quite young and has served him(his father first) ever since. He started off somewhat low in the military, rose to a pretty high rank, was a renowed war hero, and then ended up retiring pretty early to tend to Seb's horses. That's an oversimplification, but yeah. He liked the military life, was very good at it, but decided he had done enough, and wanted to be involved in more direct service, albeit more laid back. As I mentioned in Mark's post, Mark *really* doesn't understand his choice to do this, because if Mark had been in Jense's position, he can't ever imagine being able to let all that go and living the quiet life.
He is the palace whore, everyone has been with him honestly. It'll be like, some man walks into his bedroom, only to see Jenson in bed with his wife, but instead of being angry, he's like "wow you couldn't even wait for me??" He's just very carefree, and happy to just slut around and tend to Seb's horses.
I think he definitely still advises Seb, and would go to battle if truly need be, but generally seems to be living in a different world than the weird psychosexual homoerotic political drama that the others seem to be living in. But as I said, it's not like he doesn't contribute to it! He loves to goad Fernando, and constantly plays devil's advocate in "debates" between Fernando and Seb. He's also obviously the one that keep "accidentally" locking them in rooms and forgetting where the key is.
Sorry if this isn't very explanatory, I hope it gives a general idea to the type of character he is???? As always, let me know if you have any questions! I kinda struggled on what to write here because I'm finishing this at almost 8 am 😭 so I'm not sure if it's great or not. But basically you need to know: horse fucker who is generally breezy and carefree but also can be a bit of a menace to society every once in a while.
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#YAYAAAAAAA PRETTY HAPPY WITH THIS ONE!!!!#lmfao tho not 100% sure about the lore notes because i wrote this at like 8 am#hope its understandable 😭 and that you love jense as much I do#hes probably the funniest character in the AU#and like if it wasn't centered on seb/nando he would be the favorite#hes just often there as my kinda reaction character#tho both he and Mark are reaction characters but on opposite sides of the scale and they play off each other#jenson walks into a room where sebnando are psychosexually glaring at each other from across the room#and hes like hmmm how can i make this worse#and mark is the type to walk into the room. see whats going on. and briskly walk away#so jense absolutely loves to tease him w this kinda thing and just make any situation 100x worse(aka funnier)#well funnier for him probably not the other people involved#but its okay bcs they love him. hes jense!!! who wouldn't love him!! hes our favorite guy!! our jense!!!#I just love to imagine he gets all the sides of the gossip and is like hmm yes yes interesting#but doesnt use it for scheming or evil but rather just to tease and be annoying and make everyone blush :)#okay well anyways wow im not really discussing the art itslef sorry!!!@#I think he looks so handsome pretty in this 🥺#hes pretty difficult to draw but i think it came together when i gave him freckles tbh#i hope he gives off carefree but seductive but laidback prince 🙏🙏#f1#formula 1#jenson button#catie.art.#boy king au#*not sure about his title officially yet. i mean hes from somerset but yeah idk its okay
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Jiang Cheng antis after the burning of Lotus Pier: hmm, well if MY parents and community were brutally slaughtered in front of me and I was traumatically thrust into a position of leadership of a devastated clan at like, 17, I would handle it super well?? and I definitely wouldn’t lash out at anyone (briefly) because I was angry and grieving, cause I’m not fucking abusive?? like sorry but some of us are built different 💅
#jiang cheng#canon jiang cheng#mdzs#cql#spoilers#the fact that people no joke hold his reaction against him is so wild to me#like tbh I think it’s a pretty realistic reaction sorry he didn’t shed a single man tear in the rain or w/e#like him crying for his parents was the moment I was like okay this character is fucking compelling#cause that’s realism baby that’s pathos!!#like there are some real questionable things jc does that y’all can absolutely critique 100%#but not instantly processing his parents’ death isn’t one
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there r a lot of things about the myth of psyche and eros that makes me a little insane but one of them has always been the tasks from aphrodite and the unfairness of it. they're not intended to be possible. they're so obviously not meant to be possible, and psyche isn't fucking hercules, you know, she's not a demigod or whatever, she's mortal and these aren't mortal tasks!! it's why psyche has to be helped with each one, fucking by like ants and river gods and shit. and so like. idk. i know ppl see psyche and eros as like a story about love and shit which obviously it is but as a kid psyche and eros always felt like a story about being able to accept help
#in my theoretical adaptation of psyche and eros i'll never write i emphasize this theme#by changing psyche from a princess and youngest daughter to a poorer girl and eldest daughter who is very like. sophie hatter esque#also tbh when i first started thinking about my theoretical adaptation of psyche and eros i was reading hmc LMAO#also also ALSO. as a kid i always felt like the story was soooo deeply about regret and atonement and forgiveness#like YES the story is about love but not about easy love. love is difficult and requires work and sometimes u hurt each other !!!!!#it always struck me as a kid how psyche just. accepts the tasks.#i always read it as like. psyche KNOWS these tasks are unfair and i dont even think she expects to achieve them#but she accepts them anyways because she so deeply regrets what she did to eros and has no idea what else she can do.#am i verbalizing this well or have the worms eating my brain reached an irreversible point#also tbf im pretty sure the version i read as a kid didnt include the multiple times psyche tries to kill herself LMAO.#but we're ignoring that because i love the idea that shes just. so aimless and resigned to the tasks#ALSO on eros' side of things#i dont have like proper analysis about it but as a kid i saw eros hiding his face as like. fear?#like. fear that the person he loves will think he's a monster if he reveals his true self. or somethin. which also. i think is very queer#also very beauty and the beast. for obvious reasons since it was based on psyche and eros lmao#oh also. i already mentioned it but psyche and hercules r so similar.#did something unforgivable to a loved one --> given multiple impossible tasks to atone for it etc etc#i dont have any real analysis abt it i dont remember a lot abt hercules tbh but. yah#ALSO. okay i think retellings of hades and persephone where theyre totally in love and stuff r kinda tired.#BUT. in the theoretical adaptation i always imagined a scene where psyche does the last task where she goes to the underworld#and shes tired shes soso tired#and she goes to persephone and persephone is gentle and motherly which aphrodite has Not been to psyche#and i think if persephone is unkidnapped and truly in love w hades#then i think there could be a fun parallel between persephone and psyche in which like. theyre both in love w ppl#who are seen as monsters. and shit. or whatever#anyways. idk what made me think abt this again. ACTUALLY i do know i might write a twine for the neotwiny game jam#and it might be inspired by psyche and eros#anyways. lmao#jc.txt
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DELACROIX SPOTTED!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
#That's my favourite painting ever I'm so giddy right now :D :D :D#Delacroix aside... Nice chapter! I love political discussion! I'll have to think over it for a while!#I'm SO happy someone finally said that Fukuchi's thesis is antihistorical!! That's what I've been saying since forever!!!!!!#Thank you Dostoyevsky for voicing my thoughts ilu#Peace obtained through total war... I'll have to think about it for a bit... It doesn't make any sense... I need to reread the chapter 🤔#Anyways I love when they get into political theory <333#On the ss/kk front. Not much but we got a couple of nice matching panels so I won't complain :')#It's especially funny because I'm sure they're not understanding a thing about what Dostoyevsky and Fukuzawa are talking about.#I saw that panel of theirs and had the thought#“that's the ss/kk from my room posters looking down at me as I ramble about politics for 364982 time” ajhsbashjdbsadb#Other than that the cover is sooooooo pretty!!!!! Aaaaahhh!!!!!! I love it so much!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Thank God for Harukawa!!!!#May they be happy forever!!!!!! I love the even more Medieval vibes... Especially the quasi gothic details.#And Akutagawa in it looks A LOT like the early chapters art style and hhhhhhhhhh it has me so !!!!!!!!!!!!!! He's so#Adesljhfbsledfbgsleifugdb he just looks great okay 😂😂#BEYOND THOSE BLACK EYES............................. ← The most important part of the chapter if you ask me.#OH I JUST REALIZED. Canon black eyes Akutagawa 😂😂#The super cool skull-looking headgear too!!!!!!!!!!!!! Whaa I love the illustration so much. Wish I could do something with it 🤔#Oh and Fukuzawa died I guess 😔 Called it. Just the two of us Everyone else is gone etc. etc.#I'm lowkey glad like... Tbh he was already dead inside. Let him rest at last‚ he was in so much pain 😔#That's all! Excited for what comes next!!!! (That is to say excited for the ss/kk moments that will definitely FINALLY come after this :D )#random rambles#bsd spoilers
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i may not actually believe the leaks are fake but that doesn't stop me from reading all the posts about how they're fake and nodding along like i do believe them. it's like how i used to watch conspiracy theories i didn't believe for fun. like while i'm reading them i'm like "yeah no absolutely. the leaks are definitely fake." and i'll even add to the conversation. but then i step back and go "anyway that was fun. the leaks are definitely real tho."
#bnha leaks#i'm pretty neutral on the new pages tbh. i will give my full judgement when the official chapter comes out.#personally? i like the izuocha moments. i like their ship a lot. and as a multishipper i win no matter what.#it's kinda interesting seeing even izuocha shippers are going ''hey these leaks are definitely fake???''#idk. it's fun. sometimes you just gotta pic a nonsense conspiracy theory to believe in now and then#it's kinda funny. that. izuku said no.#when the official chapter is out it'll be fun to read exactly why he said no#i think my fellow bakudeku shippers need to step back a bit though... like. it's okay!! i promise it's okay!!#also. people need to be more okay with people being critical over bnha. it's okay if people didn't like the new chapters.
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Dr ratio is kind of really interesting to me bc I feel like there's quite a bit going on w him too- I'd love to write about him someday but I'd rather figure out how I characterize him before that
#I'm a strong hater of the “Ratio can't have nous' gaze on him bc he's not selfish and self absorbed”#i dont think he's like insulting everyone in existence just because and just a complete asshole either actually#while i do think Ratio definitely still kind of feels upset about never receiving Nous' gaze#i dont think its so bad that it's bothering him every moment of the day#but ahhh writing about him is different i need to reread stuff about him to make sure im really getting him right#the only reason i haven't yet tbh is bc i kind of 😅 don't know how to imitate his manner of speech That level of English is HARD OKAY#but on that note o might write stelle someday? she'd say skibidi sigma im pretty fluent in that language
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OKAY GAMERS Sorry for the delay I keep getting distracted (Undiagnosed ADHD moment) Tis time for me to infodump about my Three Houses N AU teehee. AKA me mashing hyperfixations together like dolls because I’m insane and love crossover bullshit. Stuff isn’t completely set in stone since I need to likely review the timeline and stuff but yee :D
I’m putting everything under a read more, both because of general spoilers for the game and because I won’t lie, Three Houses can be a *tad bit* bleak and I try to write any fandom stuff about it in a similar tone. Content warnings for N’s story include child experimentation, child death, general childhood abuse (mainly from a cult and a man acting like a father figure), a lot of talks about mortality and fantasy chronic illness, and some mentions of emeto/coughing up blood
If any of that would be triggering for you then please scroll past, remember the phrase “Dead Dove: Do Not Eat”
If you want a link to what N looks like pre and post time skip, click here!
-For setup. N (Or “Natural” at the start) doesn’t remember his birth parents, and originally grew up in a small orphanage with his older sisters, Athena and Concordia, both of whom are biologically related to Natural in this AU, rather than adopted siblings. The orphanage itself wasn’t bad, maybe a bit underfunded but meant well, but Natural always felt isolated from his peers, not really understanding human connections well unless it was with his sisters. Due to his mostly solo and antisocial behavior, he spent a lot of his childhood feeling isolated and struggled to get himself and his sisters adopted
-However, things started to look up when an older man dawning a black cape and a cane started frequenting the orphanage, looking to adopt. Immediately, the “kind” older gentleman seemed attached to Natural, stating he had “great potential for the future” and was “A bright young man destined to be one of the greatest figures in Foldlan”. Natural, of course, wasn’t used to being directly treated so kindly despite his personality quirks, and within just a few days, papers were finalized for adoption. The only thing the two argued about during the adoption process was convincing the old man to adopt his siblings, but after some convincing, the old man would (reluctantly) allow Natural’s sisters to come with to live with him
-Of course, no one can have nice things. This man was Ghetsis, a powerful sage within The Cult lurking underneath the belly of Foldlan, regularly referred to as “Those Who Slither In The Dark”. What I neglected to mention, was that Natural has something valuable to The Cult. A Crest, AKA a token from The Goddess herself given to warriors generations ago, and have been passed down from heir to heir granting them various powers. Though Natural wasn’t even aware of his status, considering his lack of blood parents to inform him, he was the only one out of his siblings to gain The Crest of Beasts (though not the only one to possess it, I’ll get to that later). Ghetsis needed a child bearing any Crest, so one being so available for easy access was convenient for the man
-When indoctrinating Natural into The Cult, Ghetsis was very peculiar about specific things, making sure his health was always monitored, being selective as to how often he interacted with the fellow children The Cult had access to, and barely even letting Natural see his own sisters without permission. Most notably, however, is the name change. Ghetsis had it so Natural were to only be referred to the first letter of his name, simply referring to the child as N. N didn’t understand these changes, but his rose tinted glasses of finally having a “complete family” made him unaware of the horrors to come
-Eventually, like most children with Crests The Cult got their hands on, N eventually experienced a gruesome experimentation in his early teenage years, in which the goal was to artificially implant a second Crest into his body, making him a super human of sorts, with the goal of creating a perfect figure to be used to take down both The Kingdom of Fargus, and The Church of Serios, both of which controlled Foldlan, and with the two of them out of the way, The Cult could rule the region. Ghetsis in particular wanted his “son” to be the first true success, so he can use him to propel himself to the top of the food chain within The Cult
-While many died during this brutal process, N thankfully was one of the few to directly survive the process, gaining a second Crest. It seemed like a perfect success, that he looked completely the same and likely would hold the key’s to Ghetsis’s plans of domination. However, after only a few weeks, N’s fate was sealed for the worse
-N’s hair started whitening at the tips, already a clear indicator of Double Crests. Though that itself didn’t confirm anything, his fate came when chronic pain started flaring up through N’s body. It would feel like the nerves in his body were actively stabbing him through his limbs, and would sometimes be bad enough to either make it hard to move, or even cause him to randomly cough up blood. This was the key sign that the experiment was a failure, and that N wouldn’t be of any use to either Ghetsis or The Cult.
-Keeping a caring facade still, Ghetsis decides the best way to rid of his failure is to send N off with some other adults whom are apart of The Cult to The Church of Serios, neglecting to tell him that said members were being sent in an attempt to assassinate Lady Rhea. Ghetsis figures that this attempt wouldn’t be successful, so he’s using this to his own convince to cut his losses and not need to dirty his own hands with disposing his son himself
-Ghetsis is correct in the fact that this assassination attempt goes poorly, as every member apart of the coup is captured, including N. While most were executed by the Church for nearly killing its figure head, N receives a good amount of sympathy from the Church staff. Considering the fact he cannot be older than 13 by this point, Rhea and the others figure he didn’t have as much of a choice in this as an adult would. Plus, him bearing two Crests would make him worth keeping him alive so Professor Hanneman can get direct exposure studying
As such, N is allowed a choice for his fate. Either he lets himself be executed, or he is sent down to The Abyss under The Church and occasionally gets checked in on by Hanneman for research purposes. Obviously, a scared teenager like N in this situation would choose life over death, so he agrees
-From here, N fully intends to live out the rest of his days in the Church’s sewers with the rest of the outcasts, pretty much the same as where he started, but without access to grander society, his sisters likely assuming him dead, and grappling with the fact his “Father” likely sent him out on that mission to die. He also discovers from Hanneman that his double crests very likely do more than just give him chronic pain and slowly whitening hair. The double Crests experiment severely reduced his life expectancy, and he’d be likely to make it past his mid thirties at most. Sooooo yeah this kid is fucking going through it
-Despite everything, N is still a kind man who wants to make an impact on others lives. Even while his mental health goes through it during his years in The Abyss, he still manages to bond with the members of the Ashen Wolves, the unofficial forth house of the Church. He’s practically their fifth member, though I picture he’s likely to stray off and isn’t super loyal to the made up house (trust issues and all that). He *does* leave The Abyss by the time he’s around 17 but also around then is when the war begins so this poor guy can’t catch a damn bREAK-
I know this all sounds super depressing, but I love this take I made on N’s story to fit within one of my current hyperfixations, so he does get plenty of different endings that are happy and give him a chance to heal, even if his time on this world isn’t long. I didn’t even get to mention stuff like his comically large sweet tooth, his intense hyperfixation on ghosts and Wyverns, or the fact that Reshiram also exists in this universe as a fluffy Wyvern N bonds with and uses during the war. Maybe later I’ll make another post but this one is so comically long I’m sorry bout that, call me the yapper 💀
#this took FOREVER TO WRITE MY LORD#N spends pretty much his entire youth like ‘If I get any more tragic backstory mg character development will make me a villain I stg’#his endless patience and kindness is the only thing keeping him off the deep end tbh#and even then. ngl he might be *very* willing to shank Ghetsis at some point if he runs into him during the war#like he’d try and give him a chance or two to change by letting him run off away from battle#but at some point he’s just like ‘Okay that’s it I’m murdering my fucking dad’#that’s a big difference between canon and 3H N#one is endlessly patient and longing for a chance to learn why his dad is like that or hoping he’ll change someday#the other also tries to do those things but also he fights in a war so at some point thag patience runs out#what becoming desensitized to death does to a man 💀#also I should note 3H N is canonically pansexual because 3H doesn’t have enough gay men N needs to help bump the rep up#anyway enough rambling my fingers hurt from frantically typing on my iPad LMAO I hope you enjoyed a glimpse into my insanity#I stay up comically late some nights thinking about him help me /lh#bc rambles#n harmonia#natural harmonia gropius#Three Houses N AU
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Usually I forgive gege/sukuna for his crimes bc gege gives us so many beautiful images of true form sukuna and it takes me an hour to read a chapter bc I just. Keep looking at him. And he's one of my favorite characters.
But he's in time out rn!! Both sukuna and gege ughhhhh that was........ No.....
It can't be Chosover.
#Fucj#I am writing fics to cope and crying and#Jjk manga spoilers#Choso was my NUMBER ONE#Like my fav changes a good bit but CHOSO???#NAHHHHHHHGGGG#sukuna better get extra pretty for me if he wants to be forgiven this time#What even am I saying#I still believe in time travel and everyone is okay bc I am Naruto influenced#Also have we learned nothing from Gandalf or Darth sidious like#Tbh I still think mace windu is alive as wel#At least I have a 30hr Choso playlist to pretend he is still alive and listening to and I'm hanging out in his room#And most of my fics are Choso centric.#Though I'm still. Struggling to write him into my longest one#Ughhhhh#Choso#Don't leave me#Imagine if ui ui switched his soul into mei meis body at the last minute#Then he'll take his original form but with meis abilities and knowledge#And ui ui won't be a victim anymore#YO GUYS THERE CAN STILL BE A GOOD ENDING#chapter 259#Jjk manga#Jjk chapter 259#Spoilers#Idk how to tag this to keep anime only people safe I gave up on not seeing spoilers
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Books of 2024: ORDINARY MONSTERS by J. M. Miro.
Swinging from a teeny tiny read (A SHINING) to this behemoth, which weighs in at 658 pages (that's like. uh. nine (9) SHININGs, never mind about the word density per page).
Did I know this is the first book in a trilogy? No. Did I know the trilogy is not yet complete?? Also no. Will that stop me from reading it now anyway??? Wow, you guessed it: No.
I'm always down books featuring corvids in the cover art and kids with mysterious powers, AND the "man made of smoke" that the jacket promises sounds Very Intriguing. All I know going into this book is what the jacket tells me, though, so I'm excited to be surprised!
#books#books of 2024#ordinary monsters#jm miro#book photography#my photography#okay yes listen#LISTEN!!#i may or may not also have bumped this up the list because a.) the shadowy man made me think of Welcome and#b.) i think there's dimensional fuckery of some sort???#i'm not totally sure but i think i saw a page shot of it somewhere#and yeah the random bit i flipped to in my flipping mentioned being afraid of a hotel and that's uuuuh. relevant#AND it's stylized like NORRELL AND STRANGE and i did love that#i got a new hardback as a remaindered copy for like. $12.#that's pretty good and i had a coupon so i figured Might As Well#i really am hoping i get some driscoll vibes out of this too tbh#it's on my Driscoll Adjacent Stack anyway so we'll see if that's real#i was not feeling particularly inspired with this photo but i was also racing fading daylight and tbh i don't hate how it turned out??#can never go wrong with a tree and some greenery i think#a slug started crawling up my ankle as i took this though which was ????#dude where did you COME from i was WEARING SHOES!!!#YOU WERE SO SMALL!!!#he's outside again now don't worry#(i may or may not have noticed him until i was inside but. now he's outside)
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