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Oh, please, I must know nowā¦ Donnie during mating season??? :D Iām loving ur writings about this :)
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alright you thirsty purple fans, itās time!
sidenote: i am. so glad. that people are enjoying these. theyāre a lot of fun to write!
double sidenote: i have added a link to my masterpost to all my bayverse mating season headcanons! you can also find them here
sooooo donnie. he's a freak in the sheets, you cannot change my mind. so especially strong spicy warning for this one š¶ļø
Donnie is extremely matter of fact about mating season. The first time he brings it up with you, heās more nervous about your answer than he is shy about explaining what it entails. (You couldnāt hear the words, but you did hear him muttering to himself before he came up to ask you. You suspect it was a pep talk.) He is very thorough when explaining mating season in general and how it affects him in particular. You are grateful and also a little turned on by the time heās done.
Before you were in the picture, Donnie used to work himself until his system overloaded and he passed out during this time. Now he finds himself working a lot less, because he has you to focus on. He appreciates that you make him spend more time on leisure and donāt let him overwork himself. He also appreciates that you do let him work at least a little when the desire hits. Getting to cuddle with you is a surefire way to get him to rest when he needs it though. As long as youāre nearby, heās happy to do whatever.
Donnie is a talker in general, but it gets ramped up to 100 when itās his season. Unless his mouth is busy doingā¦ other thingsā¦ itās basically a 24/7 stream of consciousness fest. Mostly itās about you. How much he loves you, what in particular he loves about you, how exactly he wants to make love to you. His morning star, his starlight, his celestial beauty. Sometimes, though, heāll interrupt himself to talk about something that just occurred to him about one of his projects. It never fails to pull a laugh out of you and make him rub the back of his neck in (adorable) embarrassment.
He enjoys physical affection and often seeks it out from you, and this holds true during his season. He wonāt whine or get grumpy if you donāt want to be touching him all the time (*cough* like his brothers will *cough*), but he does prefer if youāre in contact with him somehow. He enjoys watching movies with your head on his lap and your hand in his. He especially likes it when you're on top of him.
Donnie is used to just taking care of himself whenever necessary, AND he is used to handling delicate things during his season. So there is a lot of gentle manhandling when the time comes. You can't do anything particularly engaging because he will come up and interrupt you whenever to have sex. IF you are wearing clothes at all (not often), you cannot wear underwear or pants, at most a skirt. That way he can just lift it up and enter you whenever the urge hits. He is especially fond of doing this when you're sitting on his lap while he's working (... "daddy's little cockwarmer").
Having you around does not mean that all of his toys go unused, oh no. He is very considerate, and would rather resort to them when you're getting rest. (He got your permission to stare at you while you slept and he used his toys. So considerate.) He also came up with some new toys that the two of you can use together. Having toys custom designed for your pleasure? Well. It really adds to the experience of mating season.
He likes to take his time and study you. He is always coming to you with a new experience he wants to try. He does get a lot of pleasure out of trying new things, but he mostly just wants to know how you'll react. He is intimately familiar with your body and how it reacts, and he wants to see if those reactions hold true when different stimuli are applied. His prodigious brain is always working. He particularly likes when something catches you off guard and a surprised gasp comes out of your mouth.
Donnie is not overtly possessive, even in his season. But there is always one hickey very carefully placed somewhere noticeable that you can't cover easily. He knows just how much force to use to leave an imprint of his hands without hurting you more than you enjoy. And if he catches someone looking at you? You will probably be walking a little funny the next day. When he ties you up (he enjoys tying you up. a lot.), he'll take a minute to sit back and observe you, pleasuring himself to thoughts of how you belong to him the same way he belongs to you.
When his season is over, his favorite thing to do is cuddle with you while the both of you sleep it off. He won't leave the bed, not even to work, until he deems you fully rested. (He will work in bed while you sleep on his plastron though.) His second favorite thing to do is bathe you. He takes his time to make sure every inch of you is clean and cared for. It's a lot like going to a spa, because Donnie did a lot of research into spas so that he could replicate that experience for you. And if you give him a little pampering in return? You'll get to hear him chirp and churr in complete satisfaction.
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head bonks: @yorshie @avery73 @justalotoffanfiction @thejudiciousneurotic
#bayverse donnie#bayverse donnie x reader#tmnt#talking tag#theory tag#mating season#*blows kiss to all the donnie fans out there*#couldn't be me#i definitely haven't spent the past three days thinking about his thighs. and his biceps. and his teeth. his tongue...#ANYWAY#special shoutout to yorshie's 'donnie's working music' playlist for making this a lot easier to write than it would have been otherwise lol#i really hope this was worth the wait i uh struggled a bit to focus on him and keep him in my head. the mikey brainrot is Really Strong#mr. fearless leader angsty boy is next that'll be fun
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watching the nickel apology scene from the great bluish bakery over and over going completely insane. i could rewrite this to actually sound like nickel.
#juice.txt#ii nickel#nickel ii#vague ii neg be warned#ohhhh i feel CRAZY#the quality of nickel's writing takes a nosedive at the end of s3 and it kills me#ive been doing a rewatch of ii where i take notes and focus on nickel and balloon specifically for fun#and nickel starts to talk pretty ooc around spring on the breakfast#and it only gets worseeeee#theres nothing wrong with having nickel care for and love balloon (slash platonic for the sake of my analysis)#but. nickel loves differently than what they write love to look like#he's not 'Correct' about how he loves and he's awkward and uncomfortable about anything emotional#and it just disappoints me to see all that inexperience go away because its convenient or it 'proves he's a good person'#watch the scene where nickel comforts baseball in mazed and confused for a lovely example of how he handles emotional situations#with someone he cares about truly#his comfort is awkward and he ends up insulting baseball anyway but you can tell he is trying despite his struggles.#and that makes way more sense than nickel suddenly knowing everything to do and being willing to do it#WILLING to be vulnerable and to take full responsibility and to somehow articulate himself so perfectly it'd make therapists weep#thats not nickel. thats a script for a character that the writers wanted to redeem without knowing exactly Why he was so cruel#ok i rambled a lot the nickel hyperfixation is just at a boiling point these past few days
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realized i painted half the environments on the first pages of chapter two in the wrong color and it kinda deflated the determination i had to push myself to get the first comic update out asap :/
#ganondoodles talks#i am so good at digging my own graves of creative failure#i can probably play with color correction but its not gonna look organic#idk i can always see that a thing wasnt painting that way in the first place bc it just doesnt fit right#(havent been able to work on anything for the past few days bc my lil brother was here and i just wanted to spend time with him)#(dont see him very often :( played the new mario party together until i couldnt stay awake anymore lol)#i am extremely caught between writing totk rant and concept art for the rewrite and ... comic stuff#i feel like the longer i dont get either done the less its gonna be worth it#and i keep flip flopping back and forth (and with depression artblock kicking my ass too) without getting anywhere#im guessing its gonna go on for so long it will either be far too little relevant anymore or my brain loses its fixation on it#i dont want it all to be yet another ambitious and forever unfinished project ...............#but i cant ever finish anything so i supposed my worry and struggle with all that is in vain anyway
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part 31 is edited and i am starting on the pics!!!!!!!
wanna catch up?
#mine#ts4#sims 4#the sims 4#simblr#sims#ofmd#gentlebeard#ofmd sims#breathing underwater#mermaids#i added abt 1k words while editing lol so im glad i split it into 2 separate parts#using the same poses over and over again i hope it doesn't get boring!!!#ive probably said it before the pics always feel like... kind of a shield somehow?#like...... i am not confident abt my writing lmfao im just not! idk if i ever will be! i struggle w it a lot#and using pretty pics to distract from perceived imperfections in the text makes me feel..... safer? somehow?#and then i worry if i make too many pics too similar#ppl will see past them and be more critical of the writing and i know that is ridiculous!!! š#i need to stop inventing things to be anxious abt š
#ANYWAY okay all that to say#hello!!!! it's still not friday somehow??????? smdh#also it's 78 degrees the day before halloween???????
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do you think this was gene luen yang making fun of how many people misspell kenan's name as keenan jfsjfdh
#have seen this misspelling several times in the past few days alone. really makes you wonder#i feel like this backup was just them telling mr yang hey. you have to find a reason to separate kenan from the jlc#because the whole thing just is so...#like what's the reason they couldn't just be like hey baixi. there's psychic magic involved so i Can't tell you without your brain exploding#but nooooo. ohh he's too smart he'll figure it out from ANY information so you can't tell him ANYTHING#what a copout?#i trust gene luen yang as a writer so my bet is this is on editorial chsfhzf and like overall the details of this story were good#but the PLOT of it was. well#anyways. i love how he writes kenan As a foreigner who struggles with english and assimilation and culture class#rimi talks#kenan
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ok yeah i think i might be entering the critical Autumn Madness period actually
#nothing feels real and time is some kind of thick jelly and I Forgor.#it's getting real difficult to order my thoughts & speech again. you know how it is. or oh well i hope you don't!#i cant believe i wrote this poem less than a week ago? it's like a singular moment that feels like a dream and is suspended in Nothingness#and i remembered the moment & experience that led to its creation but not the actual poem itself - not something which happens usually#might as well have dreamed it#so i just. uh. rediscovered it. feels like an eternity has passed#but it's only been four days#what have i been doing these past four days?#mystery#i remember a few things but cant account for the rest of my activities. bit scary innit!#merely writing these words is proving a uphill battle also. slurry in my skull#we Are struggling
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hilarious being a Jon Kent fan and seeing people who don't like him have takes I 100% agree with.
#yeah he really should be more like lois#yeah kid jon and his childhood fovus on clark SUCKS ASS fuck u Tomasi#yeah his relationship with damian frankly isnt interesting enough for all the fuss#totally get why you dont like him stranger thank you for not randomly being racist to jay#low bar to clear ik but most people do not fucking clear it#I think part of why teen jon works better is like. the foundation is at least THERE for him to move past all the above stuff#and i find his struggle with the superman mantle compelling and relatable enough that i can tolerate how much i hate kid jons writing#kid jon is so deeply uncritical of what being superman one day burdens jon with#and dont get me started on what Tomasi did with lois. don't even START me#anti jon kent#<- VERY funny tag for me of all people to use#teen jon has the decency to eat hot chip be bisexual and lie#what is kid jon doing other than reducing Lois down to motherhood and then drinking piss
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Progress is being made, just not in a way that's noticeable
#just finished a long writing break and im struggling to get the momentum going again#i did mamage to make some really good changes to the outline these past few days#adjusted some subplots and removed one that was supposed to start next chapter (didnt make sense anymore)#feeling very good and excited about the rest of the story#its gonna be so good once its done#youll see#(eventually)#sgb related
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IRL Update:
Still alive, getting headaches , sharp pains in heart + chest when breathing
#Iāll get back to yall in the morningā¦because I..need sleep#I really do need sleep Iāve been struggling to sleep these past few days Oml#itās 1 in the morning as Iām writing this ;-;
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If youāre doing the drabbles still: Gus telling Creature about what Gatlus was like before the G3 invasion? Or just the two trying to bond sometime after the events of the game or between bounties
The drabbles are open, always š¤² Thank you for the ask ^^
Here's to two sweet lil' guys bonding while BH and the rest of the team are out kicking butt. (and a tiny bit of existential angst)
"Hey, Gus, Gus," Creature called out.
"Huh - What-" Gus jerked awake, "What's up pal?"
He'd dozed off a while back, during a particularly boring part of a documentary on Earth sea slug reproduction that Lizzie had put on to annoy Gene. Sheād āhiddenā the remote by the staircase, before heading out, leaving the trio of Gene, Creture, and Gus to watch the thing.
Gene only complained for about 5 minutes, before falling asleep, and Gus was quick to follow. He hadnāt quite realised how exhausting a life of bounty-hunting would be, and didnāt complain too much, if at all, when Bounty Hunter left him and Creature at home during this one mission.
Creature on the other hand seemed utterly unaffected by fatigue. It seemed like the added stress of constant near-death experiences was comparable, or even lesser than, that of constantly having a dozen kids.
āWere you sleeping?ā Creature asked.
āYes pal,ā Gus blinked in annoyance, āDid you wake me up just to ask that?ā
āNo, I just wanted to make sure you werenāt dead.ā The Gatlian shrugged, as much as his shoulder-less body would allow.
āI was just sleeping, why would you-ā
āThis movie Lizzie put on, itās got me thinking,ā Creature turned towards the TV, he paused for a second, his gaze lost in the wavy colourful shapes of sea slugs merging into a singular non-distinct mass of alien bodies, āWe are the last Gatlians out there. Our planet is gone, and we will never be able to repopulate it again, just the six of us. All our traditions, songs, dances,ā he nudged towards the screen, with a melancholic look painted over his face, āWeāll never be like them. My little freaky babies ā¦ they will never get to have little freaky babies of their own. You know?ā
Gus was at a loss for words. Sure, he knew what he needed to say, which just so happened to very closely align with what he wanted to say, but Creatureās unprompted nihilistic philosophic speech had taken him by surprise.
Thankfully it seemed that Creatureās children were unaffected, as they spent the few minutes they had staring at the mating sea slugs in silent and confused awe.
āAh, Iām sure thereās more of us out there,ā Gus scruffled over and gave Creature a little pat on the shoulder. āBunty Hunter will keep looking, and so will we. Weāll be alright buddy, weāll rebuild. There might no longer be a home for us on Gatlus, but we made a good home for ourselves here, donāt you think?ā
Creature turned to face Gus, earning him twelve displeased groans from his back.
āYou mean that? Because I donāt think you mean that, not after how you got mad at Kenny for destroying our home planet,ā
āI mean, he literally caused the downfall of our fucking-ā Gus cut himself off, shaking his head. There was no use getting worked up over something Creature didnāt remember, and couldnāt possibly understand.
Suddenly, an idea popped into his head.
āYou know, thereās something we could do before the others return. Bounty Hunter wonāt get it, and Lizzie might yell at us, but it was somewhat of a tradition back on Gatlus. When someone close, like a best friend went on a very long journey, and we didnāt know when theyād return weād throw them-ā
āA surprise party?ā Creatrue excitedly interrupted.
āNo, not a surprise party. A bucket of Takeocot purĆ©e.ā
āA what now?ā
āTakeocot purĆ©e. Iāll show you how to make it. Well, we usually did it before they left, for good luck and to repel mud-bugs on their travels, but Iām sure theyāll get our meaning.ā
The smile on Creatureās face was contagious, and Gus couldnāt help but mimic the grin. It had been so long since heād engaged in casual tasks like this, and even longer since heād done anythingĀ Gatlian.
āHow are the two of you gonna make whatever that thing is, considering you have two arms between the two of you, and no way of getting down from this coffee table?ā Gene suddenly interrupted.
āAaah ā I thought you were sleeping!ā Creature exclaimed.
His children hissed at him again, in reaction to the loud noise.
āI woke up when you said repopulate,ā Gene scratched his face. āDo you want me to call Lizzie to help you with your mushy-mushy bonding activity?ā
āNo thank you,ā Gus dryly stated.
āI mean, heās not wrong about us only having two arms,ā Creature tried to argue.
āTwo plus twenty-four,ā Gus nodded towards Creatureās babies.
āOh, right.ā
With the roar of a dozen babies who were just told to stop watching TV, Creatureās children hopped off his back and helped the duo down from the coffee table before carrying them to the kitchen, as per Gusās instructions.
When Gene straightened up on the couch, attempting to catch a peak of what they were doing, one of the babies ran up to him and hissed at his face. He would have bitten him too, had he not puffed out of existence that very moment.
āYou know Gus,ā Creature spoke while Gus rummaged through the cupboard he could reach, in search of the necessary ingredients, āWe should do this more often; you telling me about stuff Iām supposed to remember, me telling you about how hopeless the future would be without my friends.ā
āSure thing, pal.ā Gus smiled in reply, āJust maybe without the hopeless future part, next time.ā
#high on life game#gus#creature#gene#drabble#yes i'm making customs up#but like the game should have a whole DLC about them in the bast chilling on Gatlus#fight me#also thank you for your ask OP it i have been struggling to find the motivation to write these past few days
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post-forced-extension of that assignment i was losing my mind about tuesday/wednesday i experienced a very familiar "ah.... it's as if the deadline no longer exists....." feeling that has now been replaced with "wait i still can't find the resources i need. and i don't know how to organize this. and i don't know what im presenting on (<- super broad topic and i can't fucking find the information i actually need bc our university doesn't?? give us jstor subscriptions or whatever anymore??? so it's all scholarly stuff i can't read or ppl's blogs which im not fucking using for this and half of them just copy entire paragraphs from encyclopedia britannica. who is saving my ass but whatever)" mixed with "I'll figure it out later šāāļø" IM PRESENTING IT IN 11 HOURS ššš
#im having a really hard time focusing too. which always happens bc when AM i focusing anymore but like#still. would love to do anything but stare blankly at my screen humming will wood songs for like an hour. if anyone can make that happen#can someone just fucking tell me what the effects of ireland's political Situation in the 20th century meant for its literature#im begging you just tell me because im finding nothing. i have read so much General History but i can't find lit analysis thats not paywalld#and thats what the presentation's supposed to be on. not a bio of wb yeats which is all im getting somehow#why is this so hard why couldnt i have just presented on the byronic hero or something. fuckkkk#at least i have rascal lying behind me in the chair. we are ass to ass sorta in solidarity (he doesnt care)#he has been oddly cuddly the past couple of days which is nice. have i mentioned that? whatever#but like i havent even edited the ppt since wednesday morning. ive jist been doing more research i have to write a script and do visuals#and it has to be under 15 mins even though im talking about ireland starting before the famine AND the literature from that whole period#if i can fucking FIND ANYTHING ON IT GRRRRR and also can someone just tell me when the celtic tiger happened#idk why but im struggling to find super basic facts and i feel like im losing my MIND. why is this so shitty#it's not supposed to be this hard why is everything. soooooo hard for me all the time orz orz orz
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the writer's block is real and it's trying to kill me
#first i thought i would write the past section first since i had a clearer idea of what is going to happen#but after struggling to write just the first paragraph for like 5 days i hopped over to the present day#good news is that it's getting written but it feels like pulling teeth#i already feel like this chapter is missing something. a certain je ne sais quoi#what is it? no clue#me rambling#lu ctb
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Not sneeze just mental health rambling in the tags
#Iāve spent a very long time trying to change my brain so I can just operate at a neurotypical level#itās always been impossible and I feel like shit for it#so recently I finally just said#I am not neurotypical and never will be no matter what I do!#so I need to be kind to myself and make the accommodations I need for myself!#which is a work in progress but idk. itās kind of painful that the neurotypical people in my life act like Iām asking for an arm and a leg#when Iām very genuinely asking if slight changes could be made between us#I absolutely donāt expect anyone to change their lifestyle for me or anything#itās stuff like not holding long conversations when Iām in the middle of writing because it messes up my flow#and I tell my family beforehand! hey Iām gonna write for a couple of hours does anyone need anything from me before#and they say no! but then ten minutes later will start telling me a story about their day#which Iām okay to hear BEFORE I start a writing session or AFTER#and I goddamn communicate that!!! but they act like Iām asking for nobody to ever speak to me again#another thing is that I CANNOT eat anything past an expiration date#I know itās still probably good but my brain will just keep saying YOURE GONNA DIE OF FOOD POISONING#so say the half gallon of milk is past its date#I will buy a fresh one to start using myself but I donāt toss the old one because I know others donāt care as much#and they they complain that Iām wasting milk#like Iām sorry itās 1) my money and 2) how is it being wasted when yāall are happy to drink it til itās done?#idk man!! neurotypical people sure do say that shit should be easy for neurodivergent people#but they sure do struggle to be slightly accommodating without bitching#idk rant over peace out
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Those headcanons(I donāt know what other way to describe them) and art I found, not only were they so outdated they just didnāt make any sense really?
#Countryhumans#Kinda not really I didnāt really draw or write anything CHs related but Iām talking about it aren't I#Also for some reason in the past I could never decide on Irelandās gender to the point whenever I drew him#He always looked different#For some reason my England design in the past was actually good?? Idk why I struggle with his design now#Maybe one day Iāll show my old CH art(its really bad)
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Maybe I'm just cursed š¤Ŗ
#trigger warning for everything that follows in these tags btw#i am in need of some venting into the void#so im gonna vent#so uh#im almost out of time to find a new job before i have to leave my flat and move back with my parents#in the past 27 days ive filled in 189 job applications#6 of those led to interviews#so far 5 of those have been rejections#i even started looking at jobs that paid way less than i can feasibly live on just so i could at least cover rent and stay here but no luck#anyway thats already sucky#and then ive had to go off my adhd meds because of continuous and annoying fuck ups with my drs and im hesitant to work to fix it cause#might be moving counties anyway lol#my depression is the worst its ever been in about two years i struggle to want to exist day in and day out and#this morning i found out my dog - my baby who i dont live with because i moved cities - he lives with my parents#we found out he has an agressive cancer - and i have to now make choices i dont feel ready to make#and im just#do you ever feel like youre already one the ground but life wont stop kicking you#and i feel#so lonely#my friends are doing everything right my cousin who i live with is always checking in on me and i am still#convincing myself i am being a burden i am the problem i#my whole life is collapsing and i#even writing this all out in tags my brain is yelling at me for being an 'attention seeker' or smth and idk#i just wanna#idk#its complicated ig#im fighting#i am fighting so hard#i just want ppl to know im doing my best thats all#anyone who read all of this - hi - i hope youre having a beautiful day. its all going to be okay in the end š
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Writing full-casted Milgram fic is like that scene from Sound of Music when Maria is naming all the children and forgets one -- I'll be halfway through a scene and be counting heads of who I mentioned before whirling around like GOD BLESS KURT (<- aka fuck I forgot Muu)
#im avoiding writing everyone into a scene when i can but sonetimes its necessary#the first time it was muu#another scene i did a head count and had forgotten kotoko#and i was trying to count victims and completely forgot fuuta#asdcvbbj#i dont know what crack ive been on but ive been struggling to write anything substantial the past few months#and then banged out 7k in the past 4 days on this actors au and am having the time of my life#ive had so many canon event fics to write but this Got me idk š#itll take a hot second to edit but yeah its been a ton of fun i cant wait to share it#i just gotta make sure ive got everyone adfggh!!#rose rambles#milgram#writing
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