#i still really dont understand how asking a friend if they feel comfortable helping one with a sensitive and deeply personal matter is

[flamboyant-king]

Hey babes, sorry I've been dead, but I coulda been literally dead if I had not gone.

I didn't hurt myself and we're still figuring things out. I would love to share but I've already forgotten what I've learned. I hope I get more guidance and time for healing and learning on how to lead my life in a better direction than where I was. But that takes time and effort.

I hope to get some rest, get some support, and get it together. But right now, I don't think it's healthy for me to worry about art in the way I do now. I may not express it here, but trying to maintain my art endeavors/projects while there's so much bullshit going on backstage is not helping me. Especially since I'm not even obligated to do so. But trying to force myself to do something I am currently unable to do will just make me feel worse. I'll follow my dreams and passions one day, but I've been putting off the healing process for years.

So I guess it's better to get better now so I can get the ball rolling again. Why drive on a flat tire?

[sebscore]

ARE WE STILL FRIENDS?

pairings: f1 grid x driver!reader (she/her pronouns)

warnings: angst. angst. angst. swearing. like a lot of swearing. i cannot write crashes/contact for the life of me. argument. lando and reader are assholes in this. 

author's note: dont even ask me why i wrote this, i got inspired and needed it out of my system. lol. 

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''Retire the car. Too much damage. Sorry, Y/N.'' Marco informed her over the radio, sounding frustrated and apologetic over her already finished race. 

The driver took a deep breath before answering. ''Too bad, it was going well. Thanks, guys.'' 

Her race had in fact been going well. She'd made a great start going from P4 to P2, and had managed to keep up with the Red Bull of Max. They weren't even halfway in the race or Lando tried overtaking her, causing contact, causing her to run off in the gravel with too much trouble on the car to continue. 

In her opinion, it had been reckless. The McLaren driver knew exactly she would end up being forced off the track by the overtake, and that her race would most likely be over because of it. 

As she trudged back to the garage, helmet in hand, she could barely contain her frustration. The team greeted her with sympathetic looks, but she didn't stop to talk to anyone. She headed straight for her driver's room, needing a moment to cool off before she could face the media. 

Her hands trembled with anger as she peeled off her gloves, tossing them onto a nearby chair. The season hadn't been going how she had hoped or even expected it to go. Last year she had been the vice World Champion, the undisputed second-best driver on the grid, the only one to essentially have been able to challenge Max's dominance. Now, she got lucky to even end up in the top five of a race. Her team's design of the car hadn't been meeting the expectations the engineers had set, and upgrades weren't helping in the way they had hoped. 

That is why this race weekend had been a great boost for the team's morale and confidence. Qualifying had gone really well, and for a moment they were able to fight for the win even. But the papaya car of No. 4 had shoved their hopes down the drain. 

Minutes later, there was a knock on the door. She turned to see Marco standing there, looking concerned. ''You okay?'' 

''Have I ever been okay,'' she remarked, a sarcastic chuckle leaving her lips. ''I'm just pissed, that's all. I had high hopes for today.'' 

''We all did,'' he smiled sadly. ''The stewards reviewed the incident, but he, uh, didn't get a penalty.'' He said softly, almost as if he was afraid of her reaction.

The young woman let out a bitter laugh. ''Of course he didn't, why would he?'' Her hands covered her face, briefly wiping off the sweat that had formed. 

Marco took a step closer, his expression a mix of empathy and disappointment. ''You drove brilliantly out there. Everyone saw it. The team saw it. It's just... racing politics sometimes.'' 

She dropped her hands, meeting his eyes with a mixture of anger and resignation. ''It's always like that, though. It's always the same drivers suffering the consequences of others, and they don't get shit for it. It is fucking annoying.'' 

Her engineer nodded, understanding everything she was saying. ''I know, we all know. But we keep fighting. We keep pushing. This season isn't over yet.'' 

''Yeah, true.'' She sighed. 

Marco gave her a reassuring smile. ''We'll be ready for the next race. We're all in this together, okay? We're all behind you.'' 

She nodded, feeling a small measure of comfort in his words. ''Thanks, I appreciate it.'' They shared a quick embrace, before he left to join the team again. Meanwhile she got herself ready to go to the media pen. As much as she wanted to hide away, she knew it was part of the job. 

Since she had an early exit, there wasn't much activity inside the area, though there were a bunch of reporters waiting for her. 

''Y/N, tough race today. Can you tell us what happened from your perspective?'' The reporter asked after briefly greeting her. 

''Yeah, it was, uh, challenging, I guess,'' she plastered a smile on her face. ''We had a great start, moving up to P2 and keeping pace with Max. Then, yeah, the contact with Lando. The car had a bunch of damage, and we decided to just retire the car.'' 

''Do you think it was a fair move by him?'' He followed up. 

She paused, weighing her response. ''Racing is always intense, especially at this level. I don't think it was the right move to make, but the stewards saw it as a racing incident.  I'll respect their decision, but it doesn't make it any less frustrating.'' 

''You and Lando are good friends, and have been racing against each other since your karting days. Will you talk to him afterwards or just forget about it?'' 

They had expected a question like this, so the media-trained answer came out very quickly. ''It was deemed a racing incident, so there is not much to say further about it.'' 

''How do you and your team plan to bounce back from this setback?'' The reporter for Sky Sports changed the topic. 

''We'll regroup and come back stronger,'' she answered, injecting as much determination into her voice as she could muster. ''This season has been tough, but my team and I are committed to pushing forward. We learn from every race, and today is no different.'' 

''That's great, thank you, Y/N.'' They wrapped up the interview, and she moved onto a new one. 

Once she had spoken to everyone she needed to speak to, she finally had a moment to herself. She knew the words she had just spoken were the right ones, but they did little to soothe the turmoil inside her. 

It didn't help that Lando managed to take the lead, and eventually get his first win. As she watched the remainder of the race from the sidelines, her emotions were all over the place. On the one hand, she was proud of her friend for finally making his dream come true. However, it had come at the expense of her race. She had pushed so hard this season, and to see her friend and rival celebrate his triumph while she stood there with nothing but frustration was almost unbearable. 

The cheers from the McLaren garage echoed in her ears. They celebrated wildly, the joy of his long-awaited victory palpable even from a distance. He was swarmed by his team as they shouted his name. 

The podium ceremony was even worse. As Lando stood on the top step, the British national anthem playing in the background, she couldn't help but replay the moment that had ended her race. She could see the excitement in his eyes, the genuine happiness that came with achieving a lifelong dream. But all she could think about was the contact, the gravel trap, and the wrecked potential of what could have been her race. 

Under any other circumstance, she would have been there for him. She would have run to the ceremony herself, just like he had done for her when she got her first win in F1 and made history as the first woman to do so. But it just stung too deep. 

''Lando, there was an incident with Y/N that resulted in her retiring from the race. Can you tell us what happened there?'' The Dutch reporter asked the race winner. 

Lando's expression shifted slightly, the euphoria dimming just a bit. ''Uh, yeah. I saw a gap and went for it. It was a tight move, and unfortunately, it led to some contact. But that's racing, you know.'' 

''Have you spoken to her yet?'' 

''Not yet,'' he admitted. ''But I don't think there is much to talk about.'' He chuckled, quickly glancing sideways, but his laugh seemed forced.

''She told Sky Sports that she didn't think you made the right move there.'' The journalist said, instigating a headline for them to be able to use. 

Lando frowned at his words, but recovered. ''Well, that's her opinion. It was just racing for me.'' 

''So you don't regret making the move?'' The reporter pressed on. 

The Brit took a deep breath before answering. ''I regret that it ended her race. But as a racer, you have to take chances. It's a fine line, you know.''

The older man in front of him nodded at his response, knowing they had gotten a glimpse of the tension that was present between the fan-favorite duo. ''Thank you, Lando. Congratulations again.'' 

''Thank you.'' 

With that, the interview wrapped up, and Lando moved onto the next reporter. As he walked away, he couldn't shake the feeling of unease. He didn't think he had done anything wrong, so why was everyone talking to him as if he had done something wrong? 

Y/N was struggling to unwind. The events of the day played over and over in her mind, each replay more frustrating than the last. She tried to distract herself by either watching some TikToks or TV, but nothing could drown out her thoughts. The texts from her friends, family and team certainly didn't help. It was a nice gesture, but she didn't want to think about the race anymore and the messages weren't helping. Finally, she decided to call it a night and climbed into bed, hoping sleep would offer some respite. 

Just as she was starting to drift off, another knock on the door interrupted her thoughts. It was unusual for someone to bother her this late, especially when she was winding down in her hotel room.

She frowned and got out of bed, opening the door to find Lando standing there, wearing his signature grin, acting nonchalant as ever. ''You wanna come celebrate with us? We rented a club.'' 

Y/N frowned at him, confused over his casual behavior. ''No.'' She scoffed, offended by the mere thought. 

It was now Lando's turn to frown at his friend. ''Why?'' 

She crossed her arms, incredulous at his obliviousness. ''Why? Are you taking the fucking piss out of me or something.'' 

His grin faltered slightly, but he tried to maintain his composure. ''If this is about the racing incident then you're being ridiculous.'' 

Her eyes widened in disbelief, her frustration boiling over. ''I am being ridiculous? You were ridiculous with that move you pulled!'' She retorted, raising her voice. ''You ran me off the track knowing how hard this season has fucking been for me. You know how much I needed a good result today and you ruined it for me!'' 

''Y/N, I get that you're upset, but it's racing. These things are bound to happen. I saw a gap and I went for it. The stewards didn't even penalize me, so clearly, it wasn't as bad as you're making it out to be.'' He was restraining from rolling his eyes, she could tell. 

She scoffed, shaking her head. ''Oh, so now you're agreeing with the stewards? Now that it is benefitting you? And there was no fucking gap, you were just being selfish. You knew what you were doing, and you didn't care how it would affect me.'' 

Lando's face hardened, his patience wearing thin. ''I didn't do it on purpose to screw you over, where the fuck are you getting that from? I saw an opportunity, and I took it. That's what we do out there. You know that better than anyone." 

''If that opportunity was ruining my fucking race, then yeah, you really took the opportunity, Norris.'' She rolled her eyes, voice tinged with sarcasm. 

He took a step closer, his frustration now matching hers. ''I'm sorry that you didn't get the result you wanted today, I really am. But I am not going to apologize for racing and doing my job, Y/N.'' 

She simply glared at him, disappointed in how he was acting towards her. They'd never really had an argument before, at least not one where they couldn't see each other's point. They'd been frustrated with each other before, but it was always in reason. 

''If anything, I should be angry with you- not the other way.'' Lando suddenly said. 

''Why's that?'' She sneered, almost in disbelief that he would have a valid reason. 

''Because you didn't even have the fucking guts to congratulate me,'' he snapped back, ''when you won Silverstone, I was literally one of the first people to hug you and congratulate you for your win. I stood next to your fucking parents, Y/N! And today you didn't even bother doing anything.'' 

Her mouth fell open, a mix of shock and anger flooding her veins. ''You are unbelievable… You ruined my fucking race, Lando! How am I supposed to stand there and cheer for you when you cost me everything today?'' 

He rolled his eyes while throwing up his hands. ''This isn't just about today. You're just jealous because my season has been going so much better than yours. You can't fucking stand that for one time I'm doing actually better than you.'' 

''Jealous… of you?'' The words came out like laughter, slightly hurting the McLaren driver's ego. ''You think I can't be happy for you because I'm not doing as well? That's so low, Lando.'' 

''Ever since the start of the season you've been so moody and distant, and now you can't even say or even fucking text me a congratulations for my first win. You're so pissed that I got a win before you this season, you can't even hide it.'' He shot back. 

''Oh, give me a break. Like you wouldn't act the same if you were getting all these shit results. Maybe I didn't congratulate you because I was too busy trying to scrape gravel out of my fucking tires.'' She remarked, throwing in the sarcastic comment. 

Lando looked unimpressed by her remark. ''You're just mad cause I'm outshining you. You can't fucking stand that I'm getting all the attention.'' 

''Outshining me? Are you hearing yourself?'' She mocked him, laughing bitterly. ''You get one win and you're acting like you're a fucking World Champion already. You've been riding Max's dick these last years hoping some of his success will rub off on you. Newsflash Norris, everyone is just fucking laughing at you.'' 

His face turned red, either embarrassment or anger. ''At least I'm not constantly whining about my car and blaming everyone else for my problems. Maybe if you spent more time focusing on your driving and less on complaining, you'd have more to celebrate.'' 

''You're a fucking spoiled brat who can't stand some competition. You think everything should be handed to you on a silver platter.'' She retorted. 

''And you're a fucking baby who throws a temper tantrum everytime you don't get what you want. It's time to fucking grow up, Y/N!'' He shouted, his voice rising with each word. 

She took a step closer to him. ''You should spend less time trying to prove yourself to people who don't give a shit about you, and more time trying to be a decent fucking human being. I'm ashamed to call you one of my best friends.'' 

That last sentence had clearly hit a nerve or several nerves. He shook his head, taking a few steps back. ''Fuck you, Y/N. Enjoy your pity party.'' Lando turned and walked away, joining his friends who were waiting in the lobby. 

She watched him go, her chest heaving with a mix of anger and heartbreak. She could feel the pulse of her racing heart, the adrenaline from their argument making her feel jittery and unsteady. 

A lump formed in her throat as she replayed the last few minutes in her mind. She cringed internally at the words she had fired at Lando, while also trying to ignore the sting from his own harsh words. She wondered how they would be able to come back from this. They had never been in a situation like this before, and she knew that she would never want to be in this situation again. 

The young woman knew that she had let her emotions get the best of her. She had always prided herself on being fair and understanding, but now she felt ashamed of herself. 

Her thoughts were interrupted by the sound of another door opening. George peeked out, concern etched on his face. ''Y/N, you okay?'' 

She shook her head, not wanting to deal with anyone else. ''Mind your business, Russell.'' She retreated back into her room, not before slamming the door behind her. 

As she leaned against the closed door, the weight of the evening pressed down on her. The room felt too small, her emotions too big. She slid down to the floor, pulling her knees to her chest, and let the tears she had been holding back finally fall.

Even when she finally got up, even when she tucked herself in again for the final time, and even when she tossed and turned the entire night, the same question lingered in her mind. 

Are they still friends? 

The question haunted her, gnawing at her thoughts every time she closed her eyes. She replayed the argument over and over, dissecting every word, every expression. The hurt in his eyes, the anger in his voice- it all felt so raw and irreversible. 

As the hours dragged on, sleep remained elusive. The darkness of the room mirrored the uncertainty in her heart. She knew they both needed time to cool off, to reflect, but the thought of facing Lando again filled her with dread.

The first light of dawn began to seep through the curtains, and she felt no more at ease than she had the night before. 

Are they still friends? 

story ideas are always welcome, but remember that it can take a while for me to get to it! :)

[inumakis-boo]

May I have some dating Toge Inumaki headcanons? Both sfw and NSFW... If you're comfortable.

TOGE INUMAKI ♫₊˚.🎧 ✧💬

headcanons 𓍢ִ˖ hello and thank you for the requests! i am current rediting all of my posts, so if this looks a little different than when you first saw it, thats the reason why!

anyways, i hope all of you enjoy! and if course, NSFW will be tagged and is written for a female perspective.

safe for work headcanons

- would probably not notice each other the first time you meet, maybe an interested glance but it doesn't really hit until the second or third time that he really sees you

- probably asks for your number just so yall can talk better, and once you do, its an instant connection. he literally wouldnt be able to stop, staying up all night to text you

- texts you out of the blue, and although probably feels embarrassed to double text, he is just that interested in you

- would totally deliever a bag of goodies he bought at the store for you, and additionally maybe offer to make you a lunch to try before he makes it for everyone else

- you comment on one of his t-shirts he wears and he puts it in one of the goodie bags he buys you, doused in his cologne because he wants you to think of him

- would totally send annoying memes and tiktoks and bully you over text, also play 8-ball COMPETITIVELY cause he aint gonna lose to you (he doesnt even pity lose to you)

- shows up unannounced just to kiss you in the door frame of your dorm room as a goodnight and then leaves you there

- that is until you invite him over to your dorm at night and he brings post-it notes and teaches you his semi-bilingual language for easier understanding, and utterly loves you for it

- the talking stage would be him just pining over you cosntantly, writing it all down in journals or in his notes app

- after yall started dating, it is very much a no public affection mostly because he doesnt want anybody to be in your business. especially with his noisy ass friends

- but no matter what, he is going to hold your hand, especially when going on dates and walking around campus at night (would definitely talk u into sneaking out)

- he would be hesistant to kiss you even after yall became offical, probably go a few weeks before you just say it straight that you want him to kiss you and you dont even get it all out before hea pinning you to a door and giving you the best kiss of your life

- would absolutely use his speech on you so you cannot resist it when he tickles you or when you are beating him in a game

- he is not the sappiest guy, but if you start to get sappy over a movie or a sad book, he will rub your back and give you head-kisses to help you feel better

below is not safe for work content. mdni.

not safe for work headcanons

- you find out very quickly into the relationship that he cannot resist a challenge of any kind. therefore, using that to your advantage always works out

- challenging him through text to sneak out of his dorm will work, but ofc he wants a prize at the end (you are on your knees for the next hour)

- the benefit of his speech is that you don't feel any fatigue whatsoever during its use, so that makes it really easy to make your body endure while you deep-throat him over and over.

- it doesn't diminish the pleasure though; being told to stay still while he fondles your chest takes away nothing from the experience, and he knows how much you like having no choice.

- not that even if it was tiring, you wouldn't let him throat-fuck you, the noises he makes are heavenly for someone who can't speak straight, the struggle of watching him grip the bedframe and biting his lips so he doesn't utterly ruin you is SO worth a bruised throat.

- he might be nervous to use his speech on you the first time, but after you make sure that you can handle it, its becomes so much more confident in using it

- he loves making out with you, he loves making your lips red with all the biting, he wants to see them glossy and wet right before he puts his fingers in your mouth (you know where they are going next)

- sexting is so fun, yall thought it might be cringy, but its literally the best when he calls you with a command and he gets to listen to you whimper and moan as he jerks off to it, can be totally unexpected

- "Ride me."

- hand on your thigh when nobody can see, and his pinky is awfully close to your panties that it makes you nervous.

- ofc he can easily make you cum, but will he always let you? not without a cute little 'please' hes not. begging is fun, isnt it?

- lets be honest, the dick game is so good he don't even have to tell you to go to sleep after

- ofc he would definitely lay it down on you exactly how he described through text, and then clean you with special wipes he bought from the store because he aint a dickhead, duh.

I have so many more, especially for different situations, so lmk if you want more! Thank u for all the support as of recently!

bye pookies!

[xiepheer]

You know i really want to know how you would do Y/N If they have autism and having very sensitive ears to loud sounds i just want to see how the Beast's would deal with Y/N having autism and having very sensitive hearing

Good luck friend i just ask this because i have autism myself and i just want to see how you would do this love ya <3

Autism

Beast cookies x Autistic!reader

Heh... Hey guys... Look who showed up to Tumblr... Heh..

Sorry for not showing up for a week! 😭🫶

Hope this is good! Ima try my best to upload!

Also I got a new hyperinflation for the Dragon Cookies 🙏

‧₊˚ ☁️⋅♡𓂃 ࣪ ִֶָ☾. 🫧𓇼𓏲*ੈ✩‧₊˚🎐‧₊˚ ☁️⋅♡𓂃 ࣪ ִֶָ☾.

‧₊˚ ☁️⋅♡𓂃 ࣪ ִֶָ☾. 🫧𓇼𓏲*ੈ✩‧₊˚🎐‧₊˚ ☁️⋅♡𓂃 ࣪ ִֶָ☾.

Mystic Flour cookie

Mystic Flour cookie, your mother, knows you have autism.

And she tries her best to help you through it.

She knows when you're feeling disturbed so she'll help you and comfort you the best she can.

When she realized you're often sensitive to loud noises, she tries her best to let everyone know to keep it down.

Everyone who tries to yell at you will return to flour because who would want to mess with the only person Mystic Flour cookie considered important in her life?

She does have a hard time trying to help you with your autism but she gets used to it.

She has never tried to yell at you or use your autism for excuses or use it to her advantages.

As your mother, she would try her best to grant your wishes but of course she would remind you that there will be consequences in each of them.

Whenever you're having a hard time, she would be there.

"No matter what you are, you are my child, you and I have a purpose, my purpose is to help you go through the things you wished you never had to go through."

‧₊˚ ☁️⋅♡𓂃 ࣪ ִֶָ☾. 🫧𓇼𓏲*ੈ✩‧₊˚🎐‧₊˚ ☁️⋅♡𓂃 ࣪ ִֶָ☾.

Shadow Milk cookie

Being a autistic father (Hc that SMC is autistic), you've developed autism as well.

And often, your father would try his best to try help you through the hard things you couldn't understand.

He's not that evil to specific people like you.

He was rather gentle.

He knows he doesn't understand his own feelings and had a hard time understanding it.

He would understand your random outbursts because he had also done that.

And being autistic himself, he could easily see that you're sensitive to loud noises.

And that makes his jester like loud acts tone down a bit when he's with you.

Of course he may not show this to anyone else but you, he has also given you things that helped him when he was alone.

He just knows you couldn't and you don't need to suffer the way like how he suffered.

Just like Mystic Flour cookie, Shadow Milk cookie would not hesitate to turn everyone who dares to trigger you into puppets.

Of course he's still the jester alone or not but he mostly have a soft spot for you.

Whenever you did something he wasn't pleased with, he would just talk with you.

No yelling, no strings.

And he would of course, being the Fount of Knowledge, he would teach you about your sickness and how to handle your emotions better.

He would let you yap and he would listen and yap as well.

He's grateful that he's not the only one feeling this but also glad that he's able to help you through it.

After all, despite his jester like actions, he didn't want to see you go through an identity crisis and break down like he did in front of Pure Vanilla.

He wouldn't mock or make fun of you because he does think about you and instead encourage you to open up to him.

He would also gift you things that would help you incase you get triggered and he isn't there.

"Dont be afraid to tell me. We have each other for a reason."

‧₊˚ ☁️⋅♡𓂃 ࣪ ִֶָ☾. 🫧𓇼𓏲*ੈ✩‧₊˚🎐‧₊˚ ☁️⋅♡𓂃 ࣪ ִֶָ☾.

Burning Spice cookie

For Burning Spice cookie, he would kinda find hard to learn about your sickness and would often be clueless cuz.... Destruction is all in his mind.

But of course, being your father, he would try and understand.

And though he wasn't like he used to, when he was Herald of Change, he would still try.

One of the main reasons is because you're his child and that you still have needs.

Second reason is because he knows you're suffering as well in the same endless loop so he would help you end that loop.

When he finally understands what your sickness is, he would spoil you with things and help you with your medications.

But of course, he's still very destructive and well ehm... Loud.

When he sees you that you're getting triggered, he would at first call you weak but as time passes by, he would soon care for the cause of your triggers.

He would eventually order everyone to keep it down and would keep you away from the battle field.

When he finds out you're too weak to get out in the battle field to fight, he would accept that.

Why?

He knows you're sick and wants you to feel comfortable.

He would order servants to care for your every needs.

Get you the things you need no matter how expensive it is.

Despite the fact that he's destructive, he's still a king who has respect for specific people especially you.

And of course, you respect him back.

And ofc he has a soft spot for you because you're his own offspring.

And even though you're sick, he still does teach you how to fight but would stop when you tell him to.

Even the beast of Destruction knows when to stop to care.

"Everything that triggers you will remain nothing but dust. As your father, I may be a monster but that doesn't mean I don't care."

‧₊˚ ☁️⋅♡𓂃 ࣪ ִֶָ☾. 🫧𓇼𓏲*ੈ✩‧₊˚🎐‧₊˚ ☁️⋅♡𓂃 ࣪ ִֶָ☾.

Heh... Hope yall enjoyed this! ^^

Also yall I only need 1 MORE SOULSTONES for Fire Spirit. Dev sis, why must you do this 🥀

Ima try my best from now on 🙏

[separatetheyolk]

I need need neeeeeed headcanons of a trans!reader and Lewis Hamilton featuring Isack Hadjar, they’re little selfie moment is living rent free in my head rn

Lewis Hamilton X Trans!Driver!Reader

ʚɞfeaturing: Lewis Hamilton & Isack Hadjar

ʚɞ Trans!Driver!Reader headcannons

ʚɞ contents: mentions of needles, surgery, media, dysphoria obvs

ʚɞ word count: 1,135

ʚɞ note: trans man reader intended. He/him pronouns used.

✰ Coming out:

He was a little blind sighted at first

Initially, you took that as he was against the whole thing

He quickly cleared that up

If over text/phone call, he'd go over the very basics with you. Name, pronouns, if there were any plans on coming out publicly, who knew, how should he address you to others, that kinda thing

He'd save the more in depth topics to talk about in person. Whether that would be in a few hours or a few weeks

Transition goals, coming out to the public/family/friends if you haven't by the time he's home, things he can do to make your life easier, how he should address transphobia, so on so forth

This man would RESEARCH

Like im talking what would usually be a minimalist phone/laptop with about 4 tabs open at any one time would turn into an absolute shambles of about thrity tabs and 4 separate notes

Would absolutely buy a new notebook JUST for writing down what he's learnt

If you learnt about this he would turn into a blushing, stuttering mess

Would absolutely help you come out to the rest of the drivers/crews if you needed. Would tell them for you if you decide that's best

Would absolutely drive home his support for the LGBT community, support/fund charities, create spaces for them in racing, stand out against injustices

✰ Transition:

The first thing that would be discussed in regards to your transition would be what would you want done

He'd make a list

Though obviously would leave it open for you to add or take away things

Take things at your pace

With your permission, he'd probably take care of the forms side of things such as name changes, gender markers, new passports, visas, paddock passes

Would help you to plan your transition around the F1 seasons

For the sake of easiness on my part we'll say you want top surgery and testoseterone a short haircut and all the things that come with a social transition

Would help you find a barber you like and would make sure they're LGBT friendly and do home visits. Partly for your comfortablility with not wanting to be stared at by other clients but also because media, fans, photos, big nono

Would help you gain your diagnosis of gender dysphoria

Then would help you with getting testosterone

Obviously, because of going on testosterone, the question of kids/egg freezing would come up

Essentially, it came down to Lewis is 40 now, you're both focusing on careers, but you never know so best to just freeze them. Just incase

If you don't use them? Eh, oh well.

If he's afraid of needles (?? The guy shits himself at the sight of an onion but drives f1 cars and scares tigers so i really dont know?? He also has tattoos? But so do I and i'm still scared of them so??) he'd get over them to help you with T shots

Sit there and massage your thigh if it started to hurt after the shot/if your nerves start to get shot from the injections. Would not stop unless you say your uncomfortable or the pain dies down

Would wait on you hand and foot after your top surgery.

Absolutely advocate for you medically if you needed him to. "He's struggling to keep down food" "He said he's in pain. Can you up the pain medication or no?" "Hey, just calling to ask if we can loosen the bandages at all? He say's the drains feel like they're cutting his skin"

Bad dysphoria day? "Here babe, take my hoodie" "You need some privacy?" "Come on, lets get you away from these cameras" "I know you don't like wearing the race suit but you can't race in your binder" "Lazy day? Sure, we can do that"

If and when you're comfortable, he'd 100% worship your body. He might not 100% understand why you dislike it, but damn he's gonna help you to like it even if it's just for an hour

He'd either stand in front of wind to block it or direct you out the way of it to stop it from showing your waist and chest because he can't have you feeling uncomfortable :(

Just small things like that. Things that most probably wouldn't even think of but he does

✰ Fashion:

He would defo help you explore mens fashion

I mean, this is Sir Lewis Hamilton afterall

He'd keep mental notes of what styles you liked, the different cuts, the fabrics, even ones you'd shown intrest in but too scared to try on

He'd also probably take mental notes of what shirts you liked but didn't want to buy due to lack of top surgery

And then would buy them for you after you've had it and healed

Ofc, lots of baggy clothing and hoodies on standby too

Would probably start wearing them more often for you incase you ever needed it

If he's not wearing one it's probably in a bag

Would teach you how to layer clothes to hide your waist

Notices how your jeans are too long length wise but fit your waist so offers to get them tailored

Quickly learns what colours hide shadows of your chest better

When bad dysphoria days fall on hot days and you're wearing thick clothing, this man is reminding you to drink more than a race engineer

Would sneak off to help you put your binder on before any podium celebrations regardless on weather your up there or not

Because sweaty, binder sticks, get stuck if you attempt to put it on alone

Eventually FIA had to stop fining you for being late after your team and fans threw the word "discrimination" around

Defo have like 5 different binders

✰ Media:

Lewis isn't typically one for confrontation in public. Though would absolutely stand by you in boycotting from races in *cough*certain*cough* countries.

If you're in a photo and you decide you don't like it, photo will immediately be deleted and another will be taken without you in it if thats what you want. Zero questions asked

More recently the selfie with Isack. He knew immediately you hated it. He prompted Isack to delete it then encouraged him to take a new selfie without you in it

He was a little confused

Lewis let you explain in private

Say no more, first photo deleted

Doesn’t take a single "joke" photo of you, doesn’t post any photos online with you in them without your permission. Even if you're barely recognisable in the background and it's on his private accounts

Honestly, Isack would be an absolute sweetheart about it all

Lewis would block you from cameras if needed

Tbh most of the grid would do that

Basically, the guy would be your absolute rock.

[starlovesganyu]

doing their hair!

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various characters x gn!reader

characters: clorinde, dehya, ganyu, nilou, ei, chiori, keqing, kokomi

warnings: none

not proofread

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clorinde -`✮´-

• would definitely be hesitant at first

• if you give her puppy eyes, she'll crumble and let you do her hair

• realizes how nice your hands feel

• will sheepishly ask you to do it again tomorrow, even if you messed up

won't tell you it's because your hands in her hair makes her insides turn into mush

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dehya -`✮´-

• she feels super comfortable around you, so she lets you style her hair without a second thought!

• but you are not allowed to tell anyone, especially her merc friends!

• if you are lucky, she will let you style her hair into different styles in private

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ganyu -`✮´-

• would be surprised by your offer at first

• no one has ever offered to do her hair before :(

• be careful not to touch her horns while you are styling!

• will be blushing from head to toe the entire time

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nilou -`✮´-

• her hair is silky smooth, you can't help yourself from aimlessly playing or running your hands through her hair

• definitely would hum some sort of tune as you do her hair

• even lets you put on her headdress!

• after you've finished, would offer to do your hair because she's an angel <3

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ei -`✮´-

• doesn't really understand why you want to do her hair. She can style it herself

• after you explain to her that doing each other's hair is a common activity between couples, she'll allow you to do her hair

• would offer to do your hair, then completely mess up

• wouldn't give you much of a reaction, but then she'd go and show it off to miko in secret

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chiori -`✮´-

• you are going to need to beg

• before she lets you do her hair, she makes you practice on mannequins first

• when you finally pass all of her tests, she finally lets you try on her

• you better not mess up-you only have one chance!

• would definitely critique your handiwork, but it would be constructive criticism

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keqing -`✮´-

• good luck

• her hair looks very hard to style (idk if it acc is i dont have long hair)

• you'll probably mess it up slightly, but she'll still roll with it

• would ask you to do it again, not because she likes it or anything, but only because she is too lazy to do it herself!

she loves it

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kokomi -`✮´-

• her hair would be silky smooth, similar to nilou

• she loves when you do her hair, its one of her favorite ways to relax or start her day

• your hands are so soothing she might fall asleep because she's overworked </3

• energy +10

[sca-nerd]

Hi!! unlike a lot of the asks youve gotten lately, i dont have any advice or answers for anyone, but i do have a few questions for you!

im not worried about titles or how id be treated in the SCA as a trans person given the demographics of my area, but i AM kind of worried about things like clothing. i know there are some somewhat neutral options but having to be historically accurate kinda kills my usual method of blending historical clothing into androgyny, do you think theres any leway for things like that or would it be up to my local group entirely what theyd allow?

i was also wondering if the SCA is always so focused on such a specific geographic history (everything ive seen is either very english or somewhat scandinavian), or again is it up to the individual as long as its time period accurate? i think my local group would be the canton of seashire/barony of ruantallan so im sure theres at least a few people whod want to deviate, i just want to join a group like the SCA but i dont have much love for the english....

i also have a disability that makes it hard to travel and do stuff like pitch tents, i sometimes have to skip events. is that something id be able to compensate the group for in other ways if i need a little extra understanding sometimes? i dont feel right asking for help and not paying it back when its my own fault.

thanks for always helping us when we want to know things, ive wanted to join a group like this for so long but the SCA seems so strict that a two hour drive for someone who cant drive wasnt worth it, but now im moving and this new group gathers down the road from where im moving to so i figure maybe id try looking into it again! (im sorry this sounded like an email 🙃)

Hello, friend!

I have great news for you. :) The only requirement for garb in the SCA is that you make SOME attempt at pre-16th century clothing. That's it. That's the rule. Some people interpret this for themselves as being as strictly as historically accurate as they can, while others interpret it as doing what they can with the resources they have. It all depends on how you want to play your game. The other good news it that, just like today, people then played with fashion to fit their specific needs. So if you want to adjust your garb to something that is more comfortable for you, then by all means - do it!

When it comes to fashion among the populace, there are definitely trends that happen. But, like I mentioned before, there's also necessity in fashion. There was a little ice age happening from approximately 1300-1800, and so fashions tended to be layered and well... warm. That doesn't really work in some of our modern climates. In warmer Kingdom's you'll see a lot of Roman or Anglo-Saxon happening in the summer. In the winter, Viking tends to take over. You also find that fashions that are easier to make and wear are usually preferred over ones that are more complicated, expensive, or just unsuitable for the event.

In my Kingdom, there was a trend for a little while for each of the reigns to be themed. We've had a Persian reign, a Landsknecht reign, a Viking reign - and then the populace made garb to coincide with the theme of the reign, which did add some diversity to looks. Right now, I've noticed that Landsknecht is definitely on the rise in our particular area after Viking had a bit of a strangle hold for a while. It still does, really, because it's such an easy fashion to make, and can be comfortable in all climates depending on the material you use (linen for summer, wool for winter).

Everyone has their skills and talents, as well as their limitations. You can absolutely find something to contribute to your group based on your own capabilities. Coordinating the hospitality, offering to watch little ones, heck - even being in charge of making the field space reservations would be ways that you can contribute to the group event experience. If you are a crafter, an artist, a performer, or even filling an officer position or assisting an office with their duties. And if you're none of those things, that's fine, too. Events are more fun just having people there to share the experience with. No one will begrudge you for not doing something you are incapable of doing. If they do, then forget them - I'm your SCA Mom now, and you can come play with me.

I'm so glad that you're closer to a group and are going to be able to be involved! I hope that you have an amazing time - please let me know when you go and how everything went! I'm so excited for you.

Welcome to the dream!

[byjovewhataspend]

1A!shinsou and quirkless!deku who are just close friends, that start fooling around at UA specifically while fantasizing that the other one is aizawa and mic respectively. Like one closes their eyes while the other goes 'aizawa would be doign this and thinking this and saying this' and they take turns, they are both just obsessed with their prefferred one and the other is just helping them out, and when you spend every night sneaking into eachothers bed to do it you might as well spend the night too

naturally people end up assuming they are dating, which they dont like, but trying to say otherwise would just be weirder so they put up with it. they try for a bit to maybe seem flirty and sexy in public so that emic will be interested, but their heart isnt really in it and it gets no reaction the few times they manage to time it right, so they just give it up and continue on how things are. People might as well think we are dating, at least we have better reasons to always be with our best friend, right? and we dont have to sneak around as much anymore, which is nice.

this extends into adulthood where they work for the same underground agency and people ask about when they are going to get married and they are just like 'haha... no plans for that just yet...!'

(it gets nsfw and weird below the cut. dubcon, obsession, horror, etc)

"Ill never get used to people thinking we are dating." Shinsou says while sinking into Izukus ass, hissing at the too-tight drag. Izuku didnt like him to use much-- if any--lube, since hes sure mic is bigger than shinou. "Honestly I see you more as like, a brother?"

"Me too," izuku replies in Aizawas voice, Shinsous mask strapped tightly around his mouth as he tries his best to keep it upright because Eraserhead wouldnt push his face into the pillow the way Izuku wants to. "I just really dont see you that way at all.'

(notably, neither of them has any siblings)

they dont EXCLUSIVELY do things they think their 'target' would do, they are best friends who are mutually fulfilling the other ones fantasies. there are some things off limits-- (Izuku wont accept more than two fingers in the front, he wants to save it for mic-- just in case) and even though shinsou is sure that aizawa is a top, at best a switch, he isnt interestd in bottoming for izuku.

'hes special, you know? i wouldnt do it for just anyone' and izuku completely understands. he doesnt like shinsou to mimic mics voice because his voice is too SPECIFIC, too nuanced, but he DOES like to be called 'listener' as a pet name.

So this goes on, years of being comfortably obsessed and debased, honest only with eachother. theyve graduated from UA and hardly ever see Eraserhead or Mic anymore. Izuku still listens to his radio show and sometimes they catch sight of Eraserhead on a patrol, but thats about it.

and then one day their agencies call ALL OF THEM to some big case, all 4 of them in the room together for the first time in years, and they get to be alone together for the very furst time

and aizawa and mic are fun and casual with them. seeing them as fellow hereos now. they are 25ish, fully formed, independent and strong, theyve been pros longer than they were ever at UA. Hey, how about we all go hang out? how about we all catch up? lets go drinking-- lets go dancing-- lets go for a ride

and the last think they really remember being out of it and twisted up together in the back seat and maybe aizawa and mic were doign somethign in the front, its all unclear--

and they wake up at home. bruised and bitten, sore, leaking, full. They both feel like theyve been hit by a truck. they feel like got hit with a quirk. they feel like they partied for days without stopping.

But it was just one night, and they are in their own bed, and when they stumble to the shower there is blood--just a little between izukus thighs, where he can tell his puss got used, but mor importantly there is much more of it splattered along their hands and faces, washing down the sink

'we must have gotten into a fight' they think, and largely brush it off. they are heroes, those things happen. 'more importantly, did we finally have sex with them??' it seems liek they must have, they are excited, not upset at all. they are only upset they blacked out from drinking. they see emic again that evening at work but emic arent acting like they did anything at all last night. so not a fun consensual night of mutual fun.

thats.. more concerning. Were they roofied? they are both so obsessed with them that they dont even really mind if they were-- they HOPE that emic wanted them that bad in fact, they get off together fantasizing about it-- but then izuku gets panicked. why would they have needed to? we wouldve done it willingly in a second. Izuku panicking about what if after all this time it was shinsou that fucked him and not mic at all???

emic arent fessing up so they take to their hero resources. following security cameras to see where they ended up last night ,but losing sight of mics car in an area largely abandoned because of an old town-destroyign quirk effect. no cameras around there. no proof but they do find out that there was a murder there that night. something grizzly and violent, the likes of which the cops in that area have never seen before.

And Shinsou and Izukus stomachs drop as they realize... maybe they arent the crazy people in this scenario. maybe they arent the sickos. Maybe the objects of their obsession did something terrible to them-- or had them do something awful to other people-- and they are just too blind to see it

After all this time, could the people they are in love with actually be monsters?

and if its true, are the two of them good enough people to stop wanting them?

or is it too late for them?

Theyll have to investigate, have to get closer, have to repeat the circumstances and figure out what mic and aizawa are up to!!! (thats all i got in that TONE but below, some random things) something-something some instance during their investigation in which they accidentally end up fucking the WRONG partner. not being attracted to them personally but LOCKING IN and consenting so that they can memorize it all and bring it back to their boyfriend and do it more accurately-- and realizing they have been... wAY off base. that they are much scarier in person, in real life, in bed, and then when they try to repeat the perfomance with their partner they get too into it and its kind of scary for both of them, who have been so In Tune with eachother for so long

izuku and shinsou are willing to accept (and EAGER to accept) a CERTAIN level of evil from the object of their affection, but there is a LIMIT and the worry is they mightve crossed it. Story wise have thebig reveal turn outto be an evil thing that they CAN in fact accept. its bad but not as bad as they had built up in their heads, and the two of them have BIG imaginations and have imagined emic doing horrible things for so long that they are kind of immune to it. emic picked up on the slight sheen of madness in their eyes and finally went for it. a certain level of 'driving you insane on purpose' because they have spied on you and know youre obsessed with them. some mindfucky here to see how far they could push you and OH GOOD you sprang right towards them and into their bed! happy ending with 4 kind of bad very unhealthy people that are happy to just be obsessed with eachother.

[necromosss]

I’ve followed you since 2020, through SWTOR and D&D and BG3. The imp trio are some of my favorite original characters by any creator. Your art style absolutely captivates me, and I love your sense of humor. I’ve really admired you as an artist and thought you were generally wonderful.

So seeing that you’ve been posting about Harry Potter up to the year 2023 absolutely breaks my heart. I know that you don’t owe your followers transparency about what other media you engage with, and that you’ve attempted to distance yourself from the franchise. But on the other hand, as a transgender person, I feel deeply torn. I genuinely want to keep following you, but the fact that you can still give any time or attention to that media and the person behind it just makes me feel awful.

I know that leaving behind a character you’ve invested years in wouldn’t be easy. But I really, sincerely hope that someday it will no longer be worth it. No matter how much you love a character, they’re not real, and the harm Rowling is doing with the platform you’ve helped give her is very real.

Hello anon, Thank you so much for voicing your thoughts out. I really appreciate you doing this and I understand your concerns and disappointment. You have ALL the rights to be disappointed! But please hear me out on this one (it is absolutely ok too if you dont!):

I absolutely, 100% in utter disdain about the fandom and that person. Heck, they supported the blue-white flag and i have zero tolerance for that (Palestine WILL be free). To say all love that I hade for the franchise died. (A lot of it was inconsistent and fucking awful anyway.)

and as you said; my characters are fictional, and in that regard what I did was to make a whole new worldbuilding of myself. And places my old OCs in there. (I hate the thought of using the old fandom, I really do. We are hating the same thing here). Was my world inspired by the 'original' world building? Yes. But does that mean I support them? Heck no. If anything, It is under my SPITE that want to STEAL the good ideas from there and make it my own. To my eyes they have lost the entireity of those rights and I will steal it for me and my friends. and mark my words and emphasize with the utter hatred: I WILL TWIST it to the thing that THAT person HATE THE MOST.

If you're curious, I have an entire world made to scratch. The only thing that is similar are just the 'houses' (which is to my knowledge, is a common thing in UK schools, but correct me if im wrong)

So fuck JKR really. I want them to go to the ground and to the bloody dust. Me and my friends in this RP are also sharing the same thoughts in this matter. We spite them, and we want just want to rip the good things out of their bloody, rotting hands.

But regardless if you want to leave or not, it really is up to you. I have no rights to keep you around, and you 100% SHOULD prioritize your own comfort first. Thank you anon, and I really appreciate your support of all this years 💖

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Oh and before anyone asks "Why dont you make an entierly different setting" Oh but I do! I have tons of world buildings, one of my pride and joy is KLIEVERDE UNIVERSITY where you can literally check the world here:

Mysthaven is placed in THE SAME worldbuilding as KU does. Just different campus, different aesthetics. There are other tons of other campuses in that worldbuilding too, so its not just one RP, really. (i try to make do! >.<)

[ironmanstan]

ill always love going to the masjid on eid theres so much about it but it does embody a lot of the good you can find in muslim ppl even with the issues our communities have… the HUGE array of outfits is awesome kurta, kimono, etc so many wide varieties its great. it is always a little bit funny bc everyone is dressed to the nines and wearing flip flops so they can take them off inside. also funny that everyone collectively forgets how to pray the eid salah even tho its only two rakah lol 😭 and even when the imam explains the structure ppl (me) still mess up.

One thing I am happy about forever is that regardless of whatever gripes I might have, every time I’ve gone to a masjid in the past few years there are announcements and calls for donations to palestine, sudan, afghanistan, etc. Anyone can say whatever they want but I’ll always be glad that for this collectively and at large muslims are very vocally working to help and speak out against the injustices happening in the world rather than solely for personal gain.

it is also nice in general that as ive gotten older theres been a kinder attitude to muslim people culturally, at least from what i’ve seen and where i live, and even just seeing acceptance in people around me will always hit me very hard… me praying in public and my friends without hesitation being okay with waiting and making space (and them being nearby is nice also because then i dont have that fear of being harassed like ive been), people being more frantic than i am while checking if the food theyre giving me is halal, people in classes asking genuine questions or what different things mean or why i do certain things and taking the effort to ask kindly. its all things that seem really small i guess… it feels very huge to me though.

You grow up post 9/11 hearing everyone who isn’t like you will always look at you a certain way and you can never truly feel trust or understanding from people who haven’t lived your life, and then it’s proven over and over again (which is crazy bc how are you HOME SCHOOLED barely seeing other kids and when u do you still get bullied for being muslim 💀). im glad it isn’t accurate to my life anymore.

it does make me sad though. i know i find a lot of comfort and understanding in a lot of things through islam and its not just a cultural thing to me i do very deeply believe in it a lot of my core values and who i am as a person are informed by it. you really cant separate me and the way i think and approach anything in life from it because they are intertwined. core beliefs are being charitable and what have you, im always going to see pieces of islam in everything around me. but i think nowadays id be an odd case, or maybe its always been like this. and i know so much of that is either colonialism or xenophobia or abuse of religion or spreading of hatred in the name of it, and it really is something horrible to me. i think the downfall of a lot of aspects of religion are when it is organized on a larger scale and power or divinity is understood through a person. theres acknowledgment of studying and understand and then theres this minor worship of someone whos just another human being. the quran is specifically against this but i think people are placed in these positions in our minds without us even realizing more often than not. idk. we’re TOLD to question and TOLD to learn and never stop. i think its right to investigate and question what you dont understand until you find an answer you can. even if it doesnt explain things i think finding something you can accept is better than blindly following whoever places themself before you…

it irks me as well from the outside being lumped in with western christianity categorically just bc. theyre both abrahamic religions, bc while its true i think a lot of our practices are ignored in the process, and its assumed we’re like is christianity was worse/harder. there is a lot spiritually that ends up being brushed under the rug with this mindset. and a lot of cultural things that are lost as well. god isnt a man and gendering god like that isn’t right, we believe in magic and spirits and worlds we cant see, shooting stars are accompanied by jinn being thrown back down to earth, there are prayers to protect yourself from the unseen, nobody talks about the emphasis on not being attached to this world (similar to buddhism?) and accepting the love and care you hold is important but also temporary, think about death often and make peace with it, live knowing you can die any time any moment, strive to be in a place where if you died you wouldn’t feel you didn’t do enough. the soul feels everything from birth to the ground, we hope your grave is spacious so your soul has room to breathe.

tangent, but itll hurt me forever my dadi is dead and ill never feel right until i see her again, but i mention her every time i pray and i feel no worry for her and i feel no sadness for her because i know she is free from the cycle of burden in this world and it was her time to leave… the only reason im sad is for myself because i miss her and love her, but at least i feel like shes okay. it is sad not having her here on eid though, itll always feel like my family got smaller one day and someones voice is missing and i cant make it out no matter how hard i listen for it. its weird to say it like this, but part of me is glad she died, because i feel like her life was full of suffering and she allowed a lot of it to cascade.. i think she is free from that now, and even while she was alive no matter how much she went through in the end she was surrounded by GENERATIONS of her family because we all loved her.

[sweetblitz]

i think every prumano fan should make a lil post about what they enjoy about their dynamic. i'll go first

TRAITS THEY BOTH SHARE

Personality fronts- they both tend to mask their inner feelings, gilbert with his confidence (arrogance) and lovino with his grouchiness. they're both lonely, gilbert pretends he's not and lovino pretends he doesn't care but they both express desires to be spoken of and thought of positively by the people in their life only for that to.... not happen... (to their knowledge at least)

Older Brothers- one of the most common similarities people talk about, they're both the passed over elder brother. this one is the most obvious but i don't think it's *as* obvious as people depict, Lovino and Gilbert both have very different emotions around their brothers. Gilbert has a lot of pride in Ludwig but also a lot of concern, he wants to be there for him- with him- whenever he can to make sure Ludwig succeeds. Lovino feels overshadowed by Feli and has a lot of complex feelings towards him, shame and guilt for not getting to be the capable brother (due to their separation in their youth) and general discomfort that comes with having your closest living relative be a near stranger. Despite this they still try to have a relationship and Lovino is extremely attached to his late Grandfather so basically... What they both have in common is they're both very family-oriented (not in the same way)

Losers- i mean this affectionately, they're just lame. Lovino is kinda lazy and doesn't like to do much, doesn't enjoy getting out of his comfort zone, homebody-type. Gilbert is active but his interests are generally uncool. that being said i think they would enjoy doing anything together and laughing at everyone else for being lame

Religion- christian prude x catholic guilt

INDIVIDUAL TRAITS - OPPOSITES ATTRACT

Outgoing x Shy- Canonically Gilbert is very extroverted and loves to show off his 'skills' but most everyone doesn't really care because they find him so obnoxious. I think Lovino is legitimately charmed by this (despite his own wishes) because he is genuinely impressed and jealous. He doesn't have many talents unique to him and anything he is good at Feliciano is usually better so it's probably extremely frustrating for him to put himself out there or try new things on his own.. but with an overbearingly encouraging gil helping him i think theres a lot of room for new experiences and growth

Messy x Neat- Lovino being super haphazard with where he puts things while also being a hoarder with a million things combined with the unexpectedly organized gilbert... i think they'd both be surprised at how the other lives since Lovino is generally pretty put together when he goes out and gilbert is a fashion disaster.

Popular x Loser- this is more a superficial view you could have for them. surface level it does seem like gilbert has more friends, he talks to a lot more people, he's involved with a lot more groups, but he's not really anyone's *best* friend. most of the people he interacts with tend to speak poorly of him or don't have any expectations because they're relationship is so casual. Lovino has.... antonio. theyre relationship can look so different depending on who you ask. Canonically, Antonio is essential to lovino being the way he is and lovino stays loyal to him despite his cruel remarks and occasional (harmless) violence. i think that everything that lovino expresses towards antonio shows that he is kind and he wishes he was stronger and better able to care for the people he loves. but antonio has a lot more people in his life than lovino and they dont always understand each other. lovino and gilbert together?! both misunderstood and latching onto the people in their lives in unequal relationships

thats the end of the post thanks 4 reading.

(I prefer thinking about the characters in human aus so their personalities can be fleshed out more based on the setting, but in general i think about them having the same core traits regardless)

[waddleonmywaywardducks]

Practicing with adhd.... (A kinda long commentary on how to work with ADHD in your practice instead of against it)

(disclaimer: I'm making this post as someone who has a struggled with ADHD. In no way am I glorifying mental illness or symptoms of mental illness. This is just something I've dealt with all my life and i know other people have too. I'm just posting my own experience and advice. You do not have to use this at all.)

I was diagnosed with ADHD when I was either 7 or 9 and have been struggling with it ever since, idk why I never grew out of it. Over the years of practicing, I've encountered a lot of practitioners with the same problem as me, only all of their advice was to try to get rid of ADHD has much as possible, well I tried that, I'm still the same. But that's just it, ADHD is apart of me, whether I like it or not. For years, I've always hated my ADHD, I constantly feel stupid, childish, and not responsible, but I am, I just need to work with my ADHD instead of around it. And that my friends is what Im going to teach you all here today, so grab a nice comfort TV show and a fidget bc your ADHD ass WILL READ THIS POST!!!!!!!!

My biggest problem with adhd and witchcraft

honest to the Gods, my biggest problem has got to be that witchcraft isnt dogmatic, you aren't going to get a rule book, there is no duality, you pick what's right from wrong, you make your practice your own. I had such a hard time figuring that out because I'm a very hands on learner. I grew up in a Christian household, most historical events that I wanted to research I could read in the Bible, or go to a church, or if I wanted to find community to help me figure out where to go well....it's basically all around me. But we don't have that with witchcraft. We only have ourselves (unless you were born into pagan/witchy family then lucky you I guess 😭😭). So obviously the only thing we can do is research.

"but omg chaos,,, I can't research I have executive dysfunction!"

I understand. Executive dysfunction is so weird why do humans have this??? Why was this built into my system??? Anyways, the best advice I can give you for executive dysfunction is that you can either go one of two ways:

1.) while you are laying in bed, cursing yourself to get up and do something. At least do something, but you just can't. That's ok. Dont beat yourself up about it, honestly the more you do that the more you're not going to want to do it. Allow yourself to be like this, allow yourself to just lay there. If you need to give offerings but you just can't get up, say sorry out loud, I always find that this brings me comfort and that my deities will know I'm truly sorry. Then forget about it, now it's time to allow yourself to just be. And then you wait until you find the strength to do it. That's it. Just be.

2.) you're laying in bed and you really need to give offerings to your deities. Get up. Just do it. Immediately once you have the thought in mind don't even think about it just do it. I know this doesn't work 100% of the time but it does for me. So 🤷

"how do I know if my practice is my own or if it's just a hyper-fixation?"

OK OK. I don't know anyone else who has this struggle but I have. When I started out, I was just a bright eyed kid filled with questions about the "unholy". I really started practicing when I was like 13-15. During these times, I didn't know how strong my hyper-fixation was with Greek mythology and religion until I fell out of that fixation. It was very disappointing to see myself gain so much momentum only to come crashing down. One thing that helped me decipher whether my practice was my own or not was simply asking questions to myself about my own beliefs and upg. If I couldn't answer these questions then I knew I wasn't really practicing I was just researching. Without my own experience, my own UPG, my spells weren't working correctly, and my rituals were failing. If there is no emotion behind it for me then the spell is just a bunch of herbs in a bottle.

"I struggle with grounding and meditation, how can I become better at that?"

Firstly, I need people to realize that I don't believe there is one right way to meditate. For me, starting out, I listened to guided meditations which helped me A LOT. Guided meditations I feel like are really slept on but I got a lot of communication done with my deties through this way, I met one of my guides this way bro. Another way you could do is laying down. As long as you are allowing yourself time to get into the meditative state, and if you can't, oh well, don't beat yourself up about, you can always try again.

"I have trouble remembering herb properties, correspondences, and holidays"

Write. Everything. down. Every spell you've ever created, every experience you have with your deties, every tarot card reading. Write it all down. Cross-research everything until something sticks. Give up the idea that grimoires need to look a certain way or give off a certain vibe. Just start writing shit down. In any book.

How I work with ADHD in my practice

Have you guys ever seen those post, I think they were floating around here around like 2019 or 2020?? They we're like "spells to get rid of ADHD" or "spells to get rid of depression" and shit like that. Yeah, I never understood those. I don't understand why we are treating these illnesses/disabilities like they are monsters?? I hate the ideology that all illnesses are bad, because yeah they impose a great risk to our health, but we can always look on the brighter side of things. My ADHD allows me to feel more deeply, because of this I feel connected to the gods always. My ADHD makes me passionate about my Interests in the gods, my ADHD can work with me.

Some ways I work with ADHD in my practice is by making a schedule and sticking to it but a bigger importance to that is recognizing when I need a break. During days that are dedicated to the gods, or holidays, I often times have a big thing planned that might take up a lot of energy. I allow myself breaks with things that aren't witchcraft related at all, then when I'm ready I pick it back up from where I left off.

I honestly think if you are reading this and you're like "yeah maybe I should start working with my ADHD instead of against it....but none of this stuff is hitting for me."

Then I advice you to look at your own symptoms and try to see if you can find any way you can work with yourself. For example, if one of my symptoms was that I was impulsive, one thing I would do is dedicate something impulsive to one of my gods. Like dying my hair, going out of town for the night, getting drunk on a Tuesday afternoon (keep it stable buddy.), who gives a fuck. You are using your symptoms in a way that works with it instead of against it.

In conclusion....

I've had this post in mind for a while I just never had the words for it until now, and I still don't even know if this makes sense😭😭 I just hope to help atleast someone (it's 3 am and I literally decided to write this like....20 minutes ago.) this post was also me bashing on people who think ADHD is "all bad." Anyways, if anyone has any other advice or suggestions on how to work with ADHD, please leave them in the comments! I would love to get as much advice from adhd practitioners as I can! Alright I'm going to sleep now

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Paring: wonwoo x fem!reader

Genre: lovers to exes

warning(s): angst

summary: wonwoo realizing that good things dont last unless one takes care of them.

words:750

a/n: I request each and every one of you to comment on this fic don't be a silent reader it helps me as an author to understand my readers and i would love to communicate with all of you. Constructive criticism is always welcomed by me so do talk about this fic or send me an ask.

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Wonwoo had realized you were the love of his life from the prime age of fifteen. You obviously were not aware of this revelation of his, but you did not need to, he was fine with keeping it secret from you till he was comfortable with sharing it.

He had met you when you were six and though a series of unfortunate events, wherein you shoved his face in dog shit and he pushed you into the lake without knowing you could not swim, you both became best of friends, almost inseparable.

The first crack in your ever so strong friendship came with Wonwoo realizing his feelings for you, he stopped talking to you trying his level best to make sure it goes away. It resulted in you breaking into his house to inquire his sudden disappearance from your life and decreasing his life span in the process.

He had his first serious conversation with you about your relationship then. After spending the whole night talking, you both realized you were equally in love with each other and felt the innate teenage need to get into a relationship.

That was the second crack. Now that he thinks back to that day, he realizes the foolhardy risk you both took. It just resulted in a lost friend and a broken relationship.

That was five years ago, both of you were young and dumb, and did not know how to actually work out a relationship. Now at the age of twenty, both still young and dumb, but wiser than your fifteen-year-old selves stand in the living room of his college dorm teary eyed and exhausted from the conversation you just had.

"Maybe it's time we take a break you know experience the world, because I don't really have the energy to do a long distance anymore Wonwoo, not when it's just me putting the effort." You spoke.

That was the topic of the argument, 'his extreme ignorance to your presence', as you had stated, taking utmost care to point out all the time when he went wrong and how you are the only one putting enough effort.

In return he had used up his energy to point out valid reasons as to why he was not able to be available for you in his schedule. His head is throbbing, and he would very much like to have a glass of water but alas the predicament he is in refrains him from doing so.

"let's break up then, what are we waiting for", he says.

All he gets is a scoff from you as a reply. You turn around while running a hand through your hair, you mumble something that sounds similar to 'prick' and walk out of his dorm slamming the door shut.

Maybe if he would have tried to understand where he went wrong instead of making excuses, maybe if you would have tried to understand his predicament or maybe if you both would have sat down for a discussion, you could have salvaged the broken relationship of yours.

But that was not the case here, you both were too deep in your emotions to even try and feel the others, the years in uni had made you both incapable of accepting the changes you both went through. It has made you both hardheaded souls who refused to accept their own shortcomings and blame the world for everything when they could easily fix the problem with accepting their faults instead of defending them.

You were Wonwoo’s first love, and he knows he was yours, but maybe good things do not last long or maybe to make them last one must put in effort, which you both just refused to do. He knows before anything else you both were friends; he does not know if you will be anymore, but he sure does hope that the friendship stays.

Maybe he is a prick he thinks, but you are no less, he knows both of you are equally at fault here, but he will take the easy route this time too, he will blame you because it takes too much courage to blame one’s own self.

He just hopes when the storm dies down you come back to him maybe not as a lover but as a friend because you are too precious for him to lose, and he hopes you think the same as him. Because at the end of the day, you are best of friends.

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wasg going to send a more coherent ask but it became. this. thanks for listening if you do and have a nice day :)

i really really dont want to assume anything but sincerely a lot of the gender discourse sounds really really fuckin american. like im not trying to say that everyone dismissing t-androphobia is american but it is sincerely kind of breathtaking how many people think bigotry is this kind of inherent brainworm that transcends culture, context, and all physical boundaries

when sometimes it is literally necessary to understand that a lot of this Is just a distribution issue. the world and people's lives are massively narrow and patchy. posts like "you never see x happening" drive me bonkers because literally doesn't mean anything? it's the black swan paradox all again. i feel like it's done me a world of good to realize that i could run around at a speed of 10 mph for the rest of my life and still not be able to see 90% of what people experience and know to be real

also a huge part of this debate leaves me scratching my head because there's this assumption that someone who does not experience some sort of oppression is forever unable to understand such oppression...and then as this idea evolves we get all sorts of fun varieties like "trying to relate to some sort of oppression with your own experiences is presumptuous appropriation" (odd to me because at least as i've been taught sometimes this can be helpful to comfort and connect to people) "doing so means you're jealous of the perceived attention oppressed people get" (this one is silly to me) "everyone different from you can never actually ever be your friend because your oppression is central to your identity and if they don't understand it they will tear you down" (just downright not true, in my experience, though of course, it's also entirely possible that for someone else's experience, it HAS been true.)

i don’t necessarily think that anyone who buys into the tma/tme divide is just someone who has never experienced oppression before, though. honestly, some of the blogs vilest towards transmascs are, from what ive seen, run by people who are struggling or isolated currently. i can’t help but feel like this rhetoric is preying on people who feel alone and perceived as an animal by everyone around them by telling them that this is true, but that this time their isolation can be self-imposed to keep all those enemies out. it all leaves a really fuckin bad taste in my mouth that it especially targets vulnerable people.

(failed coherent ask anon) more rambling idk if this would have fit into one asks’ wordcount. people are bringing up past ace discourse and i agree. almost all of the posts are also phrased in a similar way, just kinda funny to me. anyways, it’s actually a really cowardly maneuver every time. it goes like this: we have determined group A is mathematically less oppressed than the umbrella group we have determined that us, group B, are mathematically oppressed more for a multitude of reasons, we bully and belittle group A bonus steps: find discussions that are naturally happening around the oppression of group A and convince people that these discussions are silencing, proof of jealousy of oppression, proof of some uniting whinyness/cringyness/personality defect of the whole group, or proof of oppression towards group B people react to us bullying and belittling group A no matter how vile the bullying, no matter how harmful the bullying proves to be, no matter how much proof of real oppression group A may provide, you can brush it off because of the main mantra, “group A is not oppressed but group B is.” we can structure every conflict between the two as inherently oppressive because A are always the oppressors, and B are always the oppressed. final step: if anyone from group A calls out the bullying, we can again go to bonus step 4 and use this as proof that A are trying to make themselves out to be oppressed, which is ridiculous, because A are and always have been oppressors it’s such a lazy, automatic argument. ace attorney would eat those chucklefucks up. (i know nothing about ace attorney)

My Ace Attourney fan friend probably agrees lol. Such circular fucking logic.

[yakichoufd]

You inspired me to write my first smut for Grimmlove. I’m kinda shakey on characterization but I just wanted to let you know you inspired me lol. But now I have to go to bed because I work in the morning.

Omg! I am so moved that somehow my fanarts could inspired you 😭

Characterization is always tough, especially with a character like Grimm that we only know from Leo's POV and he is still a bit mysterious. I think what could help is to see how their dynamic works and to keep it in mind while writing?

Grimm is serious and direct when he speaks. I don't think he is the kind of character that easily open up except if the situation fits. One of my HC about him is that he is farmer boy who didnt get the education than the others had, he is surrounded by rich kids, so it is not so easy to fit in. Plus i think he doesnt relate to most of the rich kids there, he might find them superficial and think they dont understand the real world like he does.

While Leo is full of chaos but has a lot of empathy for others. I really see Leo as a bard archetype. He is funny and wants to be the center of the attention, but he also knows when to be serious and treat people as his equal.

And their adventure together showed how humans both of them are. Their assumptions about each other had been corrected, they now can be friends (if Grimm is OK to simp silently over Leo. But both of them would simp about each other and think that curse really sucks lol)

Sorry, you didn't ask for this, I just got excited lmao! I hope you have a lovely day at work! I am looking forward to read your own vision of them and what you feel comfortable sharing!

[my-castles-crumbling]

Anon Advice Asks - May 2

grounded anon, 100% anon, panromantic anon, 24 anon, in the mirror anon (new)

Grounded anon

Hi!

Okay so I'm guessing you're underage, so I'm not comfortable talking about the first part or your ask. I'm not mad at you at all or judging you, I just am not comfortable taking about it.

As far as your friend- honestly I was just talking to someone else about how it's SO difficult to tell the difference between like...fried-flirting and flirting-flirting. It can be so frustrating! I wish I could help somehow, but I have to say I'm not the best at seeing the difference. I'm glad you were there for her though! <3

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100% anon

hii cas its 100% anon

so in my last ask you said i might be afab but i didnt know what that means so i researched it and thats what i undrstood that its a prsn who was a female at birth but does not feel like one right? like they could be genderfluid or ?? (pls correct me if im wrong) and im not i pretty like being a girl!

but i realised that im probs a lesbian because like i gind all woman attractive but i think for guys its probably a friend crush? like i feel i want to get to know them and stuff but not be with them...

anyway hope youre doing okay!!

hihi! So AFAB just means anyone who was 'Assigned Female at Birth' or, in simpler terms, when you were born, the doctor said 'it's a girl!' AFAB people can feel like girls, or they might not. So when I said society kind of conditions AFAB people to want validation from men, it's because society kind of teaches girls, or people who are treated like girls, that they are inferior to men and need their approval. But you don't!

And it sounds like you're figuring more out about yourself, but remember that it's okay to be unsure! Just do whatever feels right to you, label or no!

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panromantic anon

Reading your stories, you put warnings for homophobia transphobia etc, and I realize how fucked up my environment are more.

.. Because those things don't seem bad while reading. Obviously bad, but I hear it- I see it too much it's as normal as someone calling someone an idiot. And it hurts.

Most of the time I go back to fics, people put trigger warnings, and after reading I end up very surprised it's put a warning at all.

I hate being born into learning to hate lgbtqia.

Sorry for venting, it's panromantic anon. And I want to say, I don't mind you putting my asks. It was probably someone else who wanted you to not show their ask.

Thanks for answering always, I ask too much here and I am sorry to bother

Hi!

You're not a bother at all <3 and you don't have to be sorry for venting. You're allowed to be angry and sad and hurt. I wish I could do something or say something to help, but please know that I am here to listen <3

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24 anon

hi, cas, its 24 anon again 😮‍💨 i got too see my therapist again in the time since i last assaulted your askbox. ive had two big conversations with p during that time too, they both left me feeling real not good but i have gained a bit of her perspective finally, even though i dont think it was very enlightening and honestly just made me feel worse. the jist of it all basically boiled down to her being like 'i noticed that we were talking and hanging out less but i figured thats just how it was now, it made me sad but i thought everything was still working out fine' so apparently this has been an issue only to me. im really thinking about asking for some genuine distance, if only for the sake of being able to get over the unhealthy attachment i have to her and our relationship in a space that she's not constantly invading? that feels so harsh to say but when we weren't talking i felt so much peace and the second i started talking to her again ive had this inescapable pit of dread and grief and guilt coiled in my stomach and my chest feels so, so heavy. i cant keep having this conversation with her and watch her keep not taking it as seriously because she doesn't see a problem, or acknowledge and respect or understand that at least im having a problem. i point blank asked if we could work out something that'll work for both of us and thats when she hit me with the 'oh well i thought everything was working fine' bit and then immediately devolved the conversation into out usual bantery bullshitting as if the conversation never happened. she cant have a serious conversation to save her life and its driving me insane, i always end up having to reassure her and it keeps reading as like 'its okay i know you're trying and youre not hurting my feelings as badly anymore' and every time i say shit like that i always end up worse. i feel so incomprehensibly guilty about wanting time away from her but i really cant keep doing this. ive been going rounds with myself trying to figure out how to ask without making us both feel like irredeemable assholes. and im so terrified to finally pull the plug even temporarily because she is so genuinely all that i have to rely on and the idea of losing that makes me want to cry. i genuinely do not have any other friends to talk to about anything anymore and my support system is non-existent across the board. im terrified of being actually, truly alone like i will be, but staying in her orbit is making me feel just as, if not more, alone. everything fucking sucks, cas. too many things are falling apart on me and this is like sending me over the edge rn. im so tired lol

Hi! I'm so glad you got to talk to your therapist!

As far as your friend- I know it's incredibly hard, but you need to think about what's best for YOU. It's clear that your friend is not prioritizing your feelings, so why are you prioritizing hers? Someone needs to look out for you, here, and since I can't come through your computer/phone to help, you need to be the one to do it. It's not mean or horrible to do what is best for you- even if that's taking a step back. It's GOOD, because you're taking care of yourself. So you need to think about what would be best for YOU, and do that, even if it's hard <3

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in the mirror anon

Sometimes I wonder if I hate my body because I'm trans or if I just hate my body because I'm fat, and either way, I don't want to look in the mirror. I don't know how to tell the difference.

Hi <3

I just want to first say that what you are feeling is so difficult and overwhelming and defeating and I have been there. It sucks. And I'm sending you so much love.

I think...I think there's no easy answer. Battling dysphoria and accepting the shape of your body are both difficult things. But I think one key thing to know is that you deserve to love yourself. So like...finding the balance between doing little things to make yourself more comfortable in your body (gender-affirming things, clothing that you feel good in, etc) and also finding love for your body is important. But it's something I struggle with daily, so I get it <3

Sending love <3