#i still push through most of the time but. augh

[ghastbutlikegay]

the wild thing about rsd for me at least is that the anticipation/expectation/fear of rejection is MUCH worse than actual rejection. like if i experience outright explicit rejection or like "im mad at you" or "i dont want to talk" or whatever else, it sucks of course, but i feel legitimately panicky if im left wondering. if i feel like someone might be avoiding saying that theyre mad/annoyed/uncomfortable it makes me nauseous

[cozygold]

Mystery of Lilia's ring

Pt.I Pt.II

Lilia x reader

Warnings: angst/fluff, fem reader, general Lilia, possible spoilers for book 7, young Lilia and Sebek clutching their pearls because woman

Intro: Lilia wears a wedding ring under his gloves. However when asked he doges the question or makes up some silly excuse

Malleus is aware that he had wife. Lilia confirmed it a while ago but did not elborate further

It was only during the Malleus overblot incident that Diasnomia family found out about her and who she was

Tags: @koneko-dreams

"Hey! Rehabilitanion is necessery if you want to be able to move that leg not just drag it around"

(it takes place after Malleus have put everyone to sleep Silver/Sebek/Yuu watch Lilia dream play in front of them like movie)

"AUGH! HUMAN! I'm starting to doubt your validity as medic and suspecting you to be a professional torturer!"

Its been 2 months since Lilia was saved by a strange human. After agreeing to cooprate more his condition was quickly improving.

Most of the injuries healed however more serious ones still needed to be checked once a few days

(y/n) worked hard to help him recover feeling the pressure of time on her shoulders. It was only a matter of time as his soldiers come looking for him

Being gone for so long and finding him with a human will only cause trouble. They both knew that

"We have to get that leg moving"

"Aren't you doing that already?"

"Well, kind of. Its more of a warm up for you to stand on your own"

(y/n) backed away from the bed, examing him for a minute. She reached out her hands towards him

"Take my hand, try to stand up"

His eyes drifted between her and her palm, scowl making its way on his face. He ignored her hand, pushing himself of the bed with his own strenght

"I don't need your assistance with something as trivial as-"

His sentance was cut short when his legs gave up under his weight

"Lilia!"

(y/n) jumped forward, catching him in her arms

"I thought we went over this already! Quit-. Wait you're actually pretty light. That's great news! That armour of your made you waaay heavier!"

She rambled on as if unaware of the situation. Lilia was the opposite. His face was red, his pride hurt and head snuggled against human's chest

He sat there frozen. This warmth was comforting. He could stay here a bit-... No. What the hell is thinking! As if burned he tried to wiggle away from her grasp

"Unhand me, human temptress! What are trying to do?"

"Temptress? Well i'm flattered but you're the one who's fallen into my arms because of your arrogance. If you listined for once we wouldnt be in this situation in the first place"

Suddenly (y/n) felt a light bub light up over her head

"Lilia! If we're already in this position lets take advantage of it!"

She grabbed his hands placing them on her waist. The bat fae gave her look of utter shock and mild disgust

"I knew it! Shameless woman! Let go!"

"You're the one making this weird. I was just about to suggest a dance"

"A dance? Why-"

"Oh just let me finish. It clear that you're unable to stand alone. During the dance you can hold onto me while i guide you through the steps.

I will need you try to keep up with the rythm the best you can. This way i can monitor how well you're able to move"

Lilia hesitated. Dancing is something intimate to bat fae but she probably didn't mean anything by it. His recovery was going smoothly thanks to her care. There should be no harm to just go play along with it, right?

"...Fine"

"Great! Hold on me tight and follow my steps"

He gripped her waist tighter while she held his shoulders. She started softly singing to give him some music to dance to

There's a fire in my brain, and I'm burning up

Oh my, oh my

Keep running for the sink, but the well is dry

Oh my, oh my

Meanwhile Sebek, Silver and Yuu observing the dream

"I know this song! I think i caught father singing it a few times but he stopped as soon as he saw me"

"I heard Lilia singing it too while he walked around Ramshackle. It was a first time i saw him so...sad"

Silver and Yuu train of thoughts was broken by Sebek

"Master Lilia was right! What this woman is doing is completly inappropriate! Does she even know what action mean to bat fae?"

"She mentioned it was her first time treating a fae so she's probably not very in touch with their culture"

"Huh? What are you guys talking about"

Right. Yuu's a human too. They probably don't know the implications either

"For bat fae dancing and singing is a courting ritual. Father accpeting the dance offer pretty much agreed to be courted"

Yuu stared a them with wide eyes

"Hah! This human should feel honored"

Back to the dream

Its month of (y/n)s and Lilias daily dance sessions. The fae was now able to walk properly and felt as good as new. (Y/n) was amazed at his quick recovery, finally deciding to "discharge" him

And today was the day he finally left the cottage. He watched as (y/n) ran around the house like a chicken with its head cut off, gathering all the things she was going to give him on his trip back to the castle

"Here's your medicine! Remember to take it 2 times a day! Before breakfest and after dinner! If you fell like your leg is acting there's some pain meds in this pouch"

"(y/n)..."

"There's some food i prepared for journey. I made sure that it won't spoil for a long while. However just in case-"

"Oi, (y/n)!"

"Your clothes, spare bandages are in the green bag! You should be able to attach this water bottle to your belt but if you lose it there-"

Lilia grabbed her shoulder cutting her off and making her look at him in suprise. It was a first time he initiated any touch

"Did you just call me by my actual name?"

Lilia sighed ignoring her question

"I will be okay. Don't worry i will make sure your afforts won't be wasted"

(y/n) took a deep breath calming her rapid heartbeat

"Okay. Just remember. If you ever need a check up, you can count one me. I will try to fix this cottage up so you'll know where to find me"

She smiled walking him to the front door. It was dark outside. Lilia insisted that on going out late at night to decrease the risk of running into humans

"Human"

He turned his head towards you

"Despite my mistrust, i am indebted to you. If you need any favors just ask"

(y/n) huffed

"I already explained that i'm just doing my duty. I don't have anything to ask of you"

"I insist"

"But-"

"I insist"

"Ugh-fine then!"

Her cheeks flushed red while she thought about the right words to use for the request

"C-can we spend some time together sometimes? Not like patient and a doctor anymore but like....friends?"

Lilia looked at her with wide eyes. This was the last thing he was expecting. Human asking a fae war general to be their friend? To think he live enough to hear such a thing

He burst out laughing

Its been years since he laughted so genuinely. This preposterous request and this whole situation now looked like big joke

"REALLY?! When i tell you what i want you just laugh at me?! You know what forg-"

"Fine"

"Huh"

"I will see you again, human. You're amusing and proven to pose no threat"

Lilia leaned closer to her face, smirking

"Make sure to keep yourself alive untill i come back"

Another month gone by

(y/n) spent it travelling around possible battle scenes, looking for any victims that might need assistance.

She tried to fix up the cottage as well as she could with her limited recources. It still looked ran down but at least it wasn't leaking anymore. And it actually sheilded her from wind. Mostly

It was a peacefull spring evening. Its a busy season for her. Many herbs bloom and grow only during that time

She spent her whole day roaming around the forest gathering them. The sun slowly dissapearing behind horizon, its rays coating the forest in warm glow

As beautiful as it was she knew that she has to hurry home. During the night time fae were the most active

She heard rustling of bushes behind her. A shiver went up her spine. She slowly turned around

There was nothing there

She let out a nervous giggle

"Haha, i'm must be getting paranoid"

"Good evening, human"

A voice spoke next to her. She let out a yelp and jumped back. Just about when she was about to throw a rock at the offender she reconized the pair of familiar red eyes

Now hanging upside down from the tree

"HAVE YOU GONE MAD?! I WAS ABOUT TO BASH YOUR BRAINS IN WITH THAT ROCK?!"

"That pebble and your twig arms would have done nothing to me"

"Why you-"

She was about to berate him futher before she noticed. His legs were hooked around the branch

"For you to hang like this... It means your leg is doing great"

"Of course it is. I'm not as weak as your mortal brethren"

"Same as always, i see. I'm glad to have you kept your word. Come on, come on! I will brew us something delicous and nutritious"

As soon as they reached the house (y/n) got to work. Lilia shifted uncomfortably. He didn't know the exact reason but he felt nervous. Its been a while since he just hanged out with someone outside his work

"I-its umm. Looks like you did some renovations. I don't feel as much wind on my back as i used when i first stayed here"

"I'm glad you noticed! I was tired of being woken up by droplets of water dripping on my forhead. But its still not completly cold or wind proofed. I'm lucky its spring otherwise i would be freezing to death here"

She giggled making a joke of situation. Do all humans treat their fragility with such humor. For some reason he didnt find it as funny as she did.

"We talked enough about me when we met. What about you Lilia? How have you been doing?"

"The queen seemed to buy my lie about escaping after being caught by a opposing army. There should not be any more issues"

"That's great! What about the Maleanora? You seemed worried about her"

Lilia crossed his arms leaning against the chair

"I was. She is reckless and has quite the temper. I know she can handle herself very well but at the time you found me, she was carring her egg"

"Egg?"

The bat groaned, annoyed at her ignorance

"How you can stay so deep in Briar Valley's territory, yet know nothing about the royal family?"

She shrugged

"I try to keep a low profile. Information about Draconias is of no use for me"

"Let me help you be a little less ignorant then. The draconias are dragon faes meaning they hatch from eggs. The Princess recently had hers"

"Oh that wonderful news for the faes right? Their royal family is going to have heir"

"It may be but that's also more work for me. The Princess is easier to anger than ever"

She giggled, stirring the stew boiling in the pot

"Are you prehaps not good with dealing with woman? This way you're going stay unwed forever"

"I was not planing on having a family anyways. I'm way to busy and find children crying unbearable"

"Haha, i'm not the least suprised you feel that way"

"What about you? Are you not afraid that you're going to rot into forest moss before you find someone you can marry? You seem to hardly ever leave this forest"

"Hey! I found you so theres still hope right?"

Lilia felt his cheeks burn, he quickly avoided her gaze

"Me? As if! Fae and human marriage will never be officiated"

"I just meant that if i found you in this forest, it means there's a chance i can find another. You're interpreting my words wrong~"

She took up the opportunity to tease him. Enjoying the sight of scary general stumbling on his words

"You're the one making everything suggestive! I swear you play innocent but its all on purpose!"

"Oh the food is done"

Her attention shifted the stew. She took a big spoon, pouring them both a portion.

"Eat up~"

" ... thank you"

Lilia mubled and took a sip of stew. Taste of fresh mushrooms, potatoes and meat floading his mouth. Human cooking was diffrent from faes.

But it wasn't bad. Comforting. Not just the food but her presence. As much as he hated to admit it, she completly made him lower his guard

He felt like shedding his armor to bask in her presence like a cat in the sun. He knew its all temporary. The longer he will stay the more anguish it will bring him in the future

He knows it

He should turn back while he still can. Run away before the flame envelops him completly

But he didnt

[silliest-heartaches]

Ohh my god DRINKKK!! Dude I love them sooo muchhh. I just love imagining them being head over heels for each other yet constantly denying their feelings, because of how they view themselves, yet still finding comfort and solace with each other. They are so. YES. PERFECT. AUGH.

SHARE MORE ABOUT THEM PLEASE!!!

And I love how you use they/them for Ink and she/her for Dream!!

GOD YEAH I LIKE THEM SO INCREDIBLY MUCH... tbh the main reason i started liking them was bc i was thinking abt them and how doomed yuri coded they were and. The worms Wormed in from there,,,,

I actually use he/they and she/they for ink and dream respectively but!!!!!! I love all hcs and interpretations of them for REAL. nonbinary people who are gay as fuck for real,, very inherrently queer ship regardless of how u see either of them i think...heart seeing them as t4t transmasc and transfem forever personally though so thats what i see em as hehe,, also in my head theyre both aroacespec (though the specifc kind varies from au to au though i do consistently see ink as ace and dream as demiaro :>>)

Im not sure how long these will be so...hcs under the cut lol

- okay well while in my mind while error is technically the First Entity ink sees that isnt just a normal entity, dream is like their First. Friend. you know. Like when error first saw him he was screaming and crying for the hills bc it was also his first time seeing another outcode so. that reaction BUT with dream she was more filled with gentle confusion... this is a bit after she unstoned in the apple incident but still was new to au hopping and naive to most danger so they became friends!!! Questionably so.

-to elaborate, when they first meet dream is still stuck on the ideals of toxic positivity and pushing through hardship no matter what... i think this is something they eventually grow out of and dream will eventually learn to see the need for balance eventually but one of their first disputes happens when ink is running low on ink and most of whats left are the Negative Emotions within him alongside the especially strong panic that he usually feels when they get like this... dream would try to comfort him and try to say that itll work out in the end no matter what and that they just need to push through and that itll be okay like normal comforting words because dream is an empath and can sense feelings right,,i feel like its comforting in some cases but when things get Really Bad and especially when the main reserves of feelings that ink has are Negative, they heavily override his normal sense of self and i imagine they get a lot more. Snappy.... theres also the additional hc thingy of ink also really overexaggerating his feelings and overplaying them a lot for the sake of trying to feel more intensely (doesnt work, just drains him faster and will never truly feel natural to him...personally think that ink feels a lot of disconnect from his feelings) which could be considerably offputting to dream (though before adding swap to the group she thought it wass normal because she had only seen the fake pretend nice joy of the village influenced by her aura and not Genuine Feelings)

I think eventually through the years they would learn a lot from eachother...like with ink learning to be more naturally charismatic and dream learning to see past toxic positivity and have his perception on emotions change for the better (ie in learning that having different emotions are okay, so long as there is a balance)

id do alot more hcs but tbh what it boils down to is: toxic codependent yuri. intensely up and down relationship where theres an insane amount of love and attachment but also a lack of self from the both of them because they are only able to see themselves as a Thing to the other. Also exes who turned out to be besties. Thry got together and broke up wayyy before blue (they casually tell him stories about it and for the parts that he does know about he is horrified for.) Oh and they share hobbies and do parallel play alot. dream is more music oriented and can play the cello and flute. ink can play the ukelele but hes more familiar with drawing and painting duh. Also they have a garden. they love growing flowers but their favourites are sunflowers. Also have writing sessions together. Also may/may not also have beautiful princess disorder. (The both of them)

im so sorry this is so incoherrent but erm. yeah im very normal abt them (half of this stuff comes from oc projection the other half is like. Mental illness while in the shower tbh)

[amazinglyegg]

hi!! i want to say i love ur blog sm. its amazing and one of my fav blogs.

i have a hc where sole picks up children’s toys, teddy bears, jangles the moon monkey, and giddy up buttercups while walking thru the wasteland looking for shaun. could u write a react for fo4 companions asking why they pick up “that junk” vs their reactions after finding out the reason why?

Thank you so much!! And this is the most adorable headcanon ever, I love it <3<3<3 I can only imagine how hard it'd be for Sole to constantly see all the toys they was planning to get Shaun for Christmas all broken down and rusted. Plus not even knowing if he's alive or if he would like any of them anymore... augh my heart </3

Companions react: Sole who collects toys for Shaun

Ada

She doesn't even bat an eye when Sole goes around picking up every toy they see

Sole probably only tells her the truth once they overhear Ada calling it scrap

After that Ada will make very sure she doesn't scrap any toys she finds and instead leaves them in a nice pile for Sole to sort through and keep any they want

Might even find it hard to scrap the toys Sole doesn't want (because they're too broken or unsalvagable)

She definitely gets wanting to keep something to remember someone by, and seeing Sole do this might just convince her to keep a transitional object that reminds her of Jackson

Cait

Cait immediately feels like crap for complaining so much

Not only because she kept complaining about Sole's habit, but she had definitely made comments on how dumb and boring the toys are in the past

She doesn't really get it since she's not a parent (and never wants to be), but she still feels like she should have realized it sooner

It also hits a bit close to home for her because she never really had many toys as a kid, so realizing Sole cares about Shaun so much they're constantly looking for trinkets for him is almost unreal to her

She'll probably not say much about it for that reason, too awkward and vaguely in disbelief that parents actually do that for their kids for her to make any comments

Codsworth

Oh he is SO supportive of Sole

Even before Sole tells him they're for Shaun he's pointing out how much Shaun would love them

Probably has Sole's Christmas list for Shaun still stored in his memory (because let's be honest Sole was definitely obsessing over their baby's first Christmas back in October) so he'll point out whenever they find a toy that was on the list

He'll probably go out of his way to grab any toys he sees for Shaun as well

Shaun's bedroom is going to be PACKED with toys before he even gets out of the Institute

Curie

Definitely more curious than frusturated with Sole picking up toys

Might push Sole too hard for an answer at first, but realizes her mistake and apologizes when Sole tells her the truth

I can imagine her having wildly different reactions on it, especially while she's getting used to emotions

One day she's going "but Shaun already has three blankets, no?" and the next day she's crying at the sight of a broken teddy bear

Grief is such a big emotion for Curie and she's so empathetic she's 100% going to be more weepy than Sole is a lot of the time

Danse

Sort of stuck when Sole tells him why they collect toys

On one hand it's his job to tell Sole to drop down the unnecessary stuff and travel light... but on the other hand... they're grieving

So as much as he wants to complain, he probably won't

He gets this is Sole's way of coping and whatnot but he's never been too good at empathy in general, so he won't really know what to say

He definitely won't bother Sole about it, but he will also just kinda ignore it

If him and Sole are close he might (rarely) bring them a toy in good condition he found (he's a scavenger at heart, of course he'll be looking for those things)

Deacon

Probably one of the most initially annoyed companions in this list

He hates kids and everything to do with them so before finding out he'd make plenty of half-jokes half-complaining jabs at how much the kids toys suck

Every time Sole picked up another toy Deacon's saying "Why did they have to make that face so weird?" "Did kids really play with this crap?" "If Santa got me THAT as a gift Christmas would be ruined forever!"

But once Sole tells him the truth he feels like a major asshole

He's another emotionally stunted man who won't know what to say!

He'll mostly ignore it and look the other way, but he'll also sometimes offer to carry the toys for Sole if their pack is too full

It's the least he can do after being so rude to them

Father

He definitely felt Something when Sole told him that fact (sympathy?? Longing?? Who knows)

The fact that he never left Sole's thoughts even while they were struggling to survive in the wastes means a lot to him (he has parent issues okay?)

Gets a bit weirded out if they still insist on gathering toys and giving them to synth Shaun

Like... he's a robot... he doesn't play with toys... why are you grieving me when I'm right here (he's also very emotionally stunted. Unsurprisingly)

Generally not too empathetic about it, and will definitely comment on it if Sole tries bringing dirty/broken toys into the Institute

Gage

Least likely to back down and apologize like the other companions after Sole admits the truth

Probably takes the realist approach of "There's toys everywhere... why can't you just wait until you actually find Shaun and then bring him to an old toy store or something?"

Will be a lot easier on them once he knows the truth though

It's just weird when they're surrounded by toys everywhere. They're literally in an amusement park. Can't Sole just bring Shaun there once they get him??

He's also a bit worried about Sole seeming like a softie, or trying to leave Nuka World once they get their kid back

A toy car or a deck of cards is fine, but you are NOT parading a five foot tall teddy bear around Nuka World. Gage will put his foot down for that one

Hancock

He'll probably only get annoyed with Sole's collection if it manages to get in the way of their work

He has always found childrens toys creepy... he's pretty thankful not many kids wander around Goodneighbor for that reason

Once he finds out the truth his demeanor will change from mild annoyance to "you know what? You do you"

He'll probably find an old tire or something and go "You think Shaun would like this??"

He doesn't know what kids like!! Especially old world kids. When he was a kid he would have been entertained for HOURS with just a stick... why wouldn't Shaun??

Either way, he lets Sole go do whatever they want to do. He won't judge as long as he doesn't have to look at Jangles for any longer than necessary

Maccready

Feels like a complete asshole for not connecting it together sooner

Childrens toys, missing child... how did he not SEE that

Hell, HE grabs little toys for Duncan every once in a while. Obviously he can't judge

He might be a tiny bit salty though

He's had to teach himself to not pick up every toy he thinks Duncan would want because he simply can't send them all to him, so seeing Sole constantly fawn over plushies and trinkets... just kinda hurts knowing he can't do the same at the moment

That being said if he finds something he wants to give to Duncan but can't, he'll give it to Sole instead

Ends up being a pretty good system for them both

Nick Valentine

Out of all of the companions he'd be best at emotional support

He'll sincerely apologizes for bugging Sole about the "junk" they've been lugging around and will reassure them that Shaun would love it

He still remembers which toys were popular at the time and will talk to Sole about it whenever they find one

Catch him and Sole repeating commercial jingles back and forth

He gives them a lot of space to grieve and never complains about all the toys once he finds out who they're for

He doesn't shy away from gently putting his foot down if Sole gets a bit ridiculous, but he does so very, very gently

Like "Hey, that teddy is in tatters. How about we find one that's a bit more... huggable?" or "Shaun doesn't need two Giddyup Buttercups, but if you're okay for it I know a little girl in Diamond City who's been begging for one all year"

Old Longfellow

Aw hell, why not?

Definitely empathizes with them

He feels bad for Sole once he learns the truth so he's perfectly happy to just shut up and let Sole do whatever they need to do to grieve

He's also not really a toy person so he doesn't get it

Like "you think your kid would like THAT??"

But whatever. Sole knows their own kid better than he knows them. If Shaun gets traumatized by seeing Jangles the moon monkey, that's Sole's fault

Piper

Likely to take an "aww, that's sweet" approach to things

Similar to Hancock in that she... doesn't really get it??

Like who needs all these old toys most people don't know how to play with?? Nat played with a rock and a loose piece of string when she was little and she was just fine

Tries to show enthusiasm but ends up going wayy off the mark

She grabs a Barbie doll and says "wouldn't Shaun like this?? He can... I don't know... brush her hair??"

"Shaun would love this!" "Piper that's a mechanical keyboard... with no computer" "Well maybe Shaun would like pretending to write stories!"

Preston

Straight up apologizes for being so harsh to Sole

He didn't need to be so rude about Sole picking up toys. It's their backpack, they can fill it with whatever they want

Appreciates what Sole's doing and will make sure the kids in any settlements don't touch Shaun's toys

He's pretty curious what a lot of toys actually do. He'll ask Sole things like "so do kids... just... sit on the Giddyup Buttercup? And do nothing else??"

Will offer to carry some toys or have caravans bring them back to settlements if they're too much for Sole to carry

X6-88

(assuming Sole's either keeping the toys for themself or wants to give them to synth!Shaun)

Doesn't get it

Father is right there?? Why are you grieving his childhood and focusing on a synth instead of being proud of his achievements??

Going into headcanon territory here but I assume the Institute probably makes toys for (the scientist's) kids to play with already

Not to mention the Institute is pretty anti-clutter, and Shaun doesn't "need" toys to begin with

He just can't wrap his head around why Sole feels the need to hoard a bunch of old broken toys when good ones are in the Institute already

If Sole just insists on keeping the toys in the old nursery he'll be a bit annoyed but won't show it (gotta respect the future director and all)

[itrustmydiscoverweekly]

They took so much of my money this week

⭐⭐⭐⭐⭐(5 out of 5 stars)(yes I'm very biased)

augh, I love twenty one pilots, I've been listening to them since before I was even old enough to comprehend anything they were talking about, and wow they have made another brilliant album.

I can't even begin to explain how hyped I've been for this album since the album art leaked back in February (?). I bought the vinyl and the digital remains (WHAT IS 25??) I'm so excited for the proper Paladin Strait MV. I LOVE THIS ALBUM. yes, I am biased. Glad I'm alive for this album. I don't think I've ever had lyrics so quickly memorized to any album before, I love this album. Trying to pick my favorite songs was impossible. Your honor, they're all my favorite. Anyways, I guess I picked 3.

opinion time! (as always, not opinion order, just album order)

"Vignette" THESE DRUMS oml I love them, if you get a chance, watch the mv and just watch Josh. And jesus the lyrics cut in a way so similar to self-titled, laugh this SONG. Big fan of the bird noises at the start too, wish is was a vulture to tie in with Trench but those things make nasty noises and probably wouldn't be too good for a song... Live laugh love Clifford... I think this song, although it doesn't state anything outright, is a song of hope especially with the line "Where do I grow from here". And that little instrumental before the final chorus, augh, I'm kissing Paul Meany on the mouth.

"Navigating" seems to be a lot of people's favorite and with good reason. Again, big fan of the drums here. It's such a hype song with such a painful bridge. Tyler can shush that he doesn't like this song and dear god how I want to hear Drag Path and the other scrapped songs because what else is Tyler hiding from us! Again, a lot of this album carries really, really heavy themes but with that theme of hope and Pushing through. That last chorus, man that second to last my oh my, I wanna scream with him, I love it. Super fun

"At The Risk Of Feeling Dumb" I think this song is really silly, it sounds super silly, but I can't sit here and act like the message is silly, it sucks, and it's really heavy, but it is classic tøp, happy sound, dark lyrics. this song is great, I love it, it hits deep, and the chorus is very catchy drums are less notable here but still amazing. Paul Meany struck again, I love the mixing on this song too

Honorable Mentions!!! 🥳🥳🥳

I'm gonna hold myself back, I would put every other song here but I'll pick some favorites.

"Midwest Indigo" I'm from the Midwest, I'm biased, this song is fun it's high-energy. I'm in love with the lines "I requested Counsel with the counselor/ And he canceled twice" and just the way Tyler sings them. And Josh singing "What's your ETA" and "Chill out man we're right on time" live was so cute <3.

"Routines In The Night" I feel is a sister song to "Navigating" This song is more chill, and super vulnerable aghhh. The backing vocals on the chorus at 2:10 are also so addictive, listen to just that section oml.

Both versions of "The Craving" are so sweet <3

"Lavish": the award for the most creative way to say get fucked goes to! What a wild way to end a song Tyler!

"Paladin Strait" BLURRYFACE!!!!

[frostedpuffs]

hi ash, do you have a fic rec list of miraculous fics that you have enjoyed? 👀 i’ve watched miraculous for years and been a fan but i’m new to reading miraculous fics 🐞❤️🐈‍⬛💚

i can try! i actually don't read a lot of fanfic, but i can recommend a few I've read that I've enjoyed :) most are one-shots.

Experimental Kisses by MireilleTanaka (komorebirei) Summary: Ladybug watched him. Maybe it was guilt, maybe sympathy, maybe a streak of playfulness. Maybe the traumatic akuma experience had softened her up. Whatever the reason, a thought wafted lazily through her mind and out of her mouth. “You know… you’re right. It isn’t fair, is it?” Chat Noir looked up. “I remember my first kiss, but you don’t.” She hummed and tapped her chin, making a show of remembering. “It wasn’t a bad kiss, but we were in the middle of fighting an akuma, so I didn’t get to enjoy it much, either.” Oops—that came out sounding a little, no, a lot more flirty than she had intended. Anyway, if she was going to commit to this idea, she may as well go all in. Rating: T Comments: a very cute ladynoir kiss fic. i really like the way the author wrote the kisses here!

i think it’s time i told you (i’m a fan of your universe) by a_miiraculer, clairelutra Summary: Years after Hawkmoth’s defeat, Ladybug and Chat Noir have a conversation about life, love, and marriage. Rating: T Comments: a WONDERFUL little one-shot where chat noir buys a ring, and ladybug wonders who it's for. ladynoir.

where roses bloom by @carpisuns Summary: “You’re sick, aren’t you?” He drops down to the balcony. “You’re sick because you love someone and … they don’t love you back.” (Love square Hanahaki AU, Marichat centric) Rating: T Comments: i LOVE LOVE LOVE this fic. a bittersweet marichat centric Hanahaki AU that makes my heart feel things. please read it

whose woods these are (I think I know.) by Reiaji Summary: Four years after his future turns to cinders, Adrien is a servant in the house he was meant to inherit. Disowned by his father and abused by his stepmother, his days are filled with drudgery until he meets a masked huntress in the forest behind his father's chateau. As his friendship with Ladybug turns to first love, he dreams of a future spent at her side. Then, on the eve of the Princess's masquerade, he meets his guardian—and is granted a wish. [Ladrien Cinderella AU] Rating: T Comments: magical ladrien cinderella au. it wouldn't be a fic rec list by me if i didn't recommend the fic that i still think about on a daily basis. the poetic writing, the story, the characters, just...AUGH. i cant even describe how good this story is. I'll admit i wasn't into it at first but by the time i got near the end i COULD NOT PUT THIS FIC DOWN. very good please read. multichapter

Eating (nothing but) Affection by crownedcrusader Summary: Some cats won't eat unless they feel safe. Unless someone they trust is nearby, keeping them company. Unrelated: Adrien has pushed away so many cold meals that he can't eat if he's alone. Rating: G Comments: a sweet fic where adrien doesn't like to eat alone. his friends notice this.

Probably Not The Best Idea by @coffeebanana Summary: When Adrien first offered Ladybug his spare room, it was mostly joke. Not once in a million years did he think she'd actually take him up on the offer. After all, he's the only one who's hopelessly in love. Right? For her part, Ladybug never meant to make a habit out of visiting Adrien. But now that she has, well…spending time with him feels safe. It feels right. So why not give this roommates thing a try? Surely it'll be nice, not having to hide her hero identity in her own home for once, even if she has to hide her civilian identity instead. All in all, it might not be the best idea they've ever had, but…can it really be the worst? And if they happen to get a little more than they bargained for in the process? That's just part of the fun. Rating: T Comments: VERY cute premise, excellent writing, ladrien roommates who are obviously in love with each other, WHAT MORE COULD YOU ASK FOR GO READ IT. multichapter

œuf ouch owie by miraculousunflower (ominousunflower) Summary: Chat Noir enlists Rena Rouge's help to create an Aspik illusion. Absolutely nothing goes wrong. Rating: T Comments: literally the funniest gd fic I've ever read in my life. I've never had a fic actually make me laugh out loud before and this one did. i still go back and reread it when i need a laugh. it's like a shitpost in artistic form

L'Autonomie by @xiueryn Summary: After three years, Marinette tells Chat Noir who she is. The only problem is that he doesn't believe her, insisting that her and Marinette couldn't be the same person. With the knowledge he's close to her, she tries to figure out who he is. AU. (mari finds out adrien is chat noir and has fun planting clues to make him believe she's ladybug.) Rating: T Comments: a silly ladynoir and adrinette reveal fic. ladybug tries to convince chat noir she is marinette. he doesn't believe her. it's adorable and i love it

i hope this is enough! happy reading ♥

[faetaiity]

Haven’t seen someone do this before but

Evil! ROTTMNT AU headcannons

TW: Murder, Mentions of drugs, weapons, explosives, mentions that April might be dead, the turtles and Splinter being pricks for the most part.

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Crime rate is so fucking high In New York because the turtles literally just rob and attack/kill people 💀

There’s a night-time curfew, you NEED to be indoors by 9pm

Murder victims are found brutally beaten, sadly this damages the View of Mutants in the public’s eye

Surviving victims often refuse to talk about it, only muttering about mutant turtles…

In this AU, they follow the traditional Ninja occupation

Aka Trained assassins and spies

In this AU they work closely with the Foot, Draxum, and Big mama (They also cause tension between said groups because they’re little shits)

Going out after the Curfew ends up in disaster 9 times out of 10.

April isn’t friends with them in this AU and could possibly be dead.

The reader in said AU probably won’t meet them in a kind way.

Even seeing them could be a death sentence

Surviving said encounter makes them more interested in you because they tend to harm their victims pretty badly

I mean, you still had sprains from running, and small cuts from a Kunai barely hitting you, almost missing you entirely

if you manage to survive you kinda have to deal with coming home to your apartment and seeing them

After getting to know them, or you just kicking them out, they tend to stalk you if you have to go outside at night

Meaning you’re off limits to Draxum, Big mama and the foot clan

Sometimes they just come up next to you and scare you before laughing and asking how you’re doing

After awhile you get used to this, and end up spending time with them

It’s alarming when you find various trinkets and stashes in your apartment

Weapons, drugs, explosives, machinery, anything illegal you could think of.

They don’t really care if you take any of this but I wouldn’t recommend it.

Because even if they don’t care, the people they’re getting it for, definitely will.

The mutants that are the villains in the original universe aren’t aggressive in this AU

you’d probably end up befriending them

Keep them far away from the turtles and Splinter

Now for Individual headcannons

Mikey is almost always in a similar personality to ‘Dr. Delicate Touch’, it’s basically the norm, honestly this man is fucking insane, sorry not sorry

Leo is the trickster, he’s the one who plays pranks that can end in missing limbs if he’s you’re enemy, I feel like he would be really good at training attack dogs, total flirt.

Raph is,,,, Similar to 2012 Raph, aggressive, mean and not the greatest to be around if you like to push buttons, He’s made you flinch before just for the fun of it, after that he does it all the time and thinks it’s the funniest shit ever

Donnie,,,, where the FUCK do I begin with Donnie.

His brothers try to keep you out of striking distance with him, loose canon, absolute wild card of a mad scientist

He’s also experimented on misbehaving Foot members but anyway-

You probably get introduced to Splinter at some point

Does not go well.

He left you with a dislocated arm

Needless to say, you don’t go to the lair after that

They stopped knocking on your window after a few days and just break in unannounced.

First time that happened you had a friend over, the tension was so thick you could cut it with a knife

Mainly because Mikey was halfway through the window and your friend was staring bug-eyed at them

Donnie almost tased them, so, like any normal human, they freaked the fuck out and left your apartment running

Donnie thought it was the funniest shit ever

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Augh I love dark AU’s and I dunno if anyone else has something similar so I made this!!!

They are the men fr

I will probably accept rqs for the Dark AU, I’m just bored lmao

[densewentz]

I am. Quaking over Crowley and Hanna cause AUGH they're so adorable. Getting up into antics! What do you think some of their adventures would be? Chaos at the nursery garden stores? Lurking in woods to find creatures? Sorry I just really wanna know.

"Can we get a 'wahoo'?"

First off thank you for the perfect reason to post this sketch!

I cannot even begin to imagine the terrors they rain on the general public tbh. Between Crowley still feeling jilted and Hanna feeling free for the first time, the limit is really their imaginations (of which they both posses quite a fair bit).

In fairness since this little au I'm simmering takes place pretty soon after the end of s2, they probably don't do a lot of REALLY outlandish stuff for a while. They'll stay local, probably spend time with Nina and Maggie and probably end up meeting the Them at some point. Crowley would also probably want to try and keep inconspicuous (hah) with heaven and hell looming over their heads and now with a squishy thing to protect. I LOVE the garden center chaos idea btw, shoutout anon, and Crowley's little pseudo Eden is definitely going to rapidly expand into a vibrant and terrified indoor oasis (skylights included). Shops in general are going to have to watch their backs (Crowley has a reason to go into many of them quite frequently now, and without his celestial counterpart to keep him from goofing off too much). Hanna is a big fan of the classic "run down the aisles of a toy store and rapidly push every single button you find" method of spreading foment.

Since Hanna hasn't had an opportunity to see/experience most of the world, I imagine they spend a LOT of time popping through museums/zoos/aquariums/etc. Crowley pointing out things he caused, things an... old friend caused, things that actually happened way differently but got recorded wrong. Hanna dragging her dad around and both of them getting WAY too into reading the information plaques for all the animals. Then seeing which animals freak tf out if her dad flashes his eyes. (The giftshops get terrorized if there arent enough fungus-themed objects, although there is always miraculously at least one). They probably break into a lot/if not most of the exhibits after hours to take selfies for Crowley's rapidly growing photo album. Hanna sits at the shark touch tank and loudly proclaims how smooth they are. And since im a sucker for I-Want-To-Share-The-Stars Crowley, they probably pop over to an observatory or break into idk, where they keep the telescope on the Canary Islands or something. And he'll tell her what he remembers about the Creation and what it feels like to hold a new star in your hand. Hanna will curl up against Crowley's chest and get lost in his voice and the distant glitter of a world her dad designed. They probably also commit crimes. Not major crimes, mind you, although that's due more to Crowley's occasional sense of "as a parent i probably shouldn't let you" than any unwillingness on Hanna's part. But she'll definitely help him move signs or infiltrate office buildings and other assorted sabotages. She 100% gets her own little version of the Fuck Shit Up Jacket, and whether he likes it or not the Bentley has decided Hanna gets to pick the getaway music.

It doesn't really count as demonic but Crowley DOES keep a bag of spare change and googly eyes for Hanna to glue to things at will while they're out.

But tbh i imagine the most trouble she gets into is if she's left alone with Muriel. Evidently Hanna has her father's talent for tempting angels into misbehaving or at least into not noticing that they are, in fact, misbehaving in the human sense. Crowley usually feels almost bad for the baby angel but, needs must. and sometimes he needs a babysitter. The rule is SUPPOSED to be that if Hanna is with Muriel, they DO. NOT. LEAVE. the bookshop (they always leave the bookshop).

At one point she meets a boy named Kian at a pub called the New Inn. Crowley very desperately wants her to not want to spend time with Kian for reasons he refuses to explain 💕

At any rate if anyone ever wants to write or draw anything with Hanna they're more than welcome to and also I'll probably cry a lot so Cheers! Thank you for the ask (apologies for my signature long-winded answer)!

[mintys-musings]

Game Night (Makoto Yuuki x Fem!Reader)

inspired by a classic scenario + a not-so-recent bug in a popular game i keep needing to update but never do

Summary: Whenever your boyfriend plays games, you’re always there to support him 💚

Tags: cockwarming, does this count as public if it’s game chat?— either way gamer sex /hj, edging? kinda

Word Count: 1100

NSFW under cut~

Makoto was never one to turn down your affection, even when he was busy. In his mind, just being around you healed any weariness from his day that latched onto him. It was normal to have you settled in his lap while he played video games, occasionally pressing a kiss to the crown of your head or squeezing you affectionately to alleviate any rage. Your very being was soothing to the very skittish idol.

Right now was the only exception to that.

His jaw tensed as you teasingly wiggled on his lap. This was the most silent Makoto has been all game. He hasn’t even once spoken in the in-game voice chat like he normally does when he duos with Jun. Luckily, his friend wasn’t feeling like talking anyway either.

Pants and boxers shoved partially down his thighs, his dick was shoved comfortably in you as soon as he gave the okay. That was a couple matches ago and he couldn’t possibly fathom why he had said yes to this idea. His aim was entirely off and every time you shifted, he would let out a small whimper. You were facing him just to make it easier to ride him if you wanted.

“You’re sweating, babe~” You purred.

“I-It’s not like I can help it...” He grumbled in response.

Being the amazing partner you were, you tried to “calm” him down by planting kisses along his jaw and down to his collarbone. You could feel him swallow a little as you did so. His breath hitched when you grazed your teeth along his skin only to turn into a yelp when he gets blasted by somebody’s ult.

“You doing okay, Yuuki-san?”

Jun’s voice was faint from you position on his lap, but you could still hear it leaking through Makoto’s headphones.

“Eh?! I-I’m fine. Just died. Has my mic been on this whole time?!” Makoto panics clear as day as he speaks.

“No. Just heard you right now. Hot mic. I guess.”

You cover your mouth to suppress a laugh as your boyfriend tries to solve the issue.

“Okay... Now it should be muted.”

“Nope~”

“Augh!”

“Today just isn’t the day, huh?” Jun chuckles, “You’re normally really good at this game. What happened?”

“I’m just a little out of it—“

“Ayo, sorry. I might need a heal soon.” Another person in the team called out. “I’m defending right now and they’re sweaty.”

Jun cursed and, in the reflection in Makoto’s glasses, you saw Jun’s character dash away.

Makoto breathed out hard, muting himself— or at least he hoped— and moving the mic on his headset away from his mouth a little. He was sweating bullets as he continued on playing, trying to ignore how you purposefully clenched around him once the attention was away.

You didn’t want to humiliate him in front of others. Not completely, at least. You just thought the way he death stares down the monitor and presses his lips into a line was too attractive. You couldn’t keep to yourself whenever you saw it. Your hips raised, feeling the drag of his cock inside of you. Your chest was pressed against his in a way that you could feel how rapidly he was breathing.

“Babe...” He mumbled quietly, resting his chin on top of yours. “N-not now—“

His words were once again cut off by another whiny sound when you pushed your hips back down.

You heard his teammates ask how he’s doing and he let out the most pathetic excuse of a “Fine.” you’ve ever heard.

You simply covered his mouth and continued to ride him. Tantalizingly slow, you made sure to roll your hips and really push yourself onto his lap whenever you went down. Your eyes scanned over his flushed face, noting how his eyes were watering a little. He was trying not to close them out of pleasure. His eyes were practically black with how wide his pupils were as he stared at you.

Makoto slid down the chair a little, dick throbbing in your tight cunt. It made it all the more easier for his own hips to snap up and meet your bounces. Even with your hand covering his mouth, he was still letting out small noises. Having been in this position for a while, you both needed release. You started to pick up the pace, tipping your head back in pleasure and moving one hand down to play with your clit.

He didn’t have the mind to pay attention to the game all too well when he had you debauching yourself on top of him like this. He was purposefully throwing the match at this point so that in the few seconds it took to respawn, he could grab onto your hips and rut into you feverishly. He was growling, whining. You took a moment to lean in with a lascivious grin.

“Shhh... Do you want to get caught~?”

Your voice was quiet, but you were moving just as desperately as you neared your release.

As your bring your hips to smack back onto his lap, he groans. Loud. It was a miracle it coincided with him dying in game.

“You’ll get him next match, Yuuki-san,” Jun said over the mic.

Both you and Makoto’s eyes both widen as the realization hit that the mic issue hadn’t been fixed.

He scrambled, holding you down onto his lap so all you could do was grind needily against him. It wasn’t enough to send you over the edge. You needed to come, and so did he. But Makoto wasn’t going to let either of you get what you want just yet.

He pulled the mic on his headset closer as he eyed you down. His glasses were askew and his golden hair was tousled nicely. “Yeah. About that. I think I’m going to head off for tonight though.”

Thank the stars idols needed to learn breath control to sing while dancing like they do.

“Ah? Alright. I should probably go too. Good game everyone.”

Jun and everyone else said their goodbyes as Makoto exited out of the game as quickly as possible.

With a strength both of you didn’t realize he possessed, he lifted you onto his desk. The dim light of the monitor was the only thing illuminating his face. A stern look spread across it as he pinned down your wrists.

“You’re no fair, babe.” He huffed, slowly pulling out all the way before slamming himself back in.

You pulled him in for a kiss and a wink. “Never said I was. Now make me come, baby~”

[temporalhiccup]

Heeeeeeeeeeey everybody, it's my birthday!

It's a big one too, I turn 40 today! ❤️

I thought I'd put some of the "Essential Rae Games" on sale to celebrate!

This is a highly personal write up of these games that reflect my time so far in game design, so I apologize if they don't accurately represent what the game is, whoops.

Become One is my first foray into the itchio ttrpg scene, the first time I put out a game on the internet! This was for the sad mecha game jam, and started out as a four page game.

Honestly, this game holds up extremely well, and every time I come back and play it, I'm surprised at how this game plays way beyond my actual design level of the time.

But, to this day, I have yet to make another mech game (as much as I love the genre) or make a game that works so well as a one shot (I have tried and failed over the years haha)

It's funny that this first public game of mine contains so many themes that show up in almost all of my games. Emotions, memory, my absolute distaste for hit points in ttrpgs...

Our Haunt was my first attempt at making a Belonging Outside Belonging game and since then I have made...uh...a lot of BoB games, hah! BoB remains one of my favorite systems to design in, and the poetic constraints have made me a much better designer. I still think there's so much to explore within the BoB space! Coming back to Our Haunt two years later for the final release, and redesigning it to reflect all that I've learned, was really fun!

This is also my first game to actually get published and printed, after making TTRPGs for four years(!!!). I don't have direct access to things like Kickstarter or similar crowdfunding platforms (I'm a Filipino in the Philippines, global south woes, etc), so being able to finally see one of my games in physical book form was...wow. I can't describe it. Absolutely surreal.

Also I kinda wonder how much of Our Haunt's success is because I made a playbook that's basically being a cat. I wrote it for my partner, who is...basically a cat. (He absolutely loves it)

We Forest Three is one of the few solo games I've designed, and it was certainly the most difficult to write. It's essentially a choose your own adventure ttrpg, and I keep wondering if I've become a strong enough designer to come back and try making another game that follows a similar structure. Hah!

I think this game shows my obsession with the conflict between extremes: forest and city, supernatural beings and humans, family and the individual, love and horror.

This is also the game that notoriously everyone else has had better luck than me! Whenever I play this game, I die a horrible death 90% of the time. (I usually roll the worst stats, augh) Good thing I wrote those (many, many) deaths to be really fun I guess!

BALIKBAYAN is undoubtedly the game that caught everyone's attention. Many amazing opportunities have come my way because BALIKBAYAN made such an impression! I really really should get around to uploading the current version of the game, but even this version on itch is a great. I'm proud of smashing together a distinctly 90s anime cyberpunk vibe with Filipino myth and folktales, while also pushing back against Shadowrun's idea that magic and tech are two opposing forces. Instead, magic and machinery are the same thing in BALIKBAYAN.

I'm also really glad that this game has connected to so many Filipinos in other countries, and resonated with them so deeply. It reminds me that even though I'm still perceived a foreigner in my own country (because I'm bi-racial), I can still connect to others like me through games.

One more thing I'll say is that I think BALIKBAYAN has unfortunately given people the impression that I'm very cool, only for them to meet me and realize I'm a dork. Sorry friends, I just write cool games, I'm actually dreadfully uncool.

Spectrum of Horror is a really fun experimental story game, that works well solo and with other people. I try to incorporate using the tarot in a way that's closer to how a tarot deck actually works.

I think this is (one of many) examples of why I would design straight into layout: Spectrum of Horror is technically eight micro games, and each one takes up a single spread. (Of course, a better designer than me could just figure it out with word count or whatever, but there you go)

Also here's a secret: all of the redacted words are still readable. You just have to select and copy the text from the PDF and paste it somewhere else to see what I wrote, heh.

Brinkwood: Despair (still under its original title on my itch page, whoops) means so much to me, because it's my first FAN GAME. I loved someone else's TTRPG just that much that I had to write a prequel for it.

(I LOVE BRINKWOOD SO MUCH THAT I EVEN WROTE ANOTHER GAME FOR IT, but I'll talk about Brinkwood: Refuge another time!)

I think all of my games are games that are in response to other games, really. But Despair has such a special place in my heart because 1) I just LOVE Brinkwood that much 2) I really cherish the playtest memories I have from when I ran games on the Brinkwood discord server 3) Erik has been really generous with inviting other designers to create things in the space of his game.

Despair is almost finished (thanks to @ostrichmonkey-games helping me out on it) and I can't wait for folks to see the finished version!

Shitty Adventurers is here because, like Cozy Town, I think it's one of the few that are so unlike the rest of my games.

I'm not a very funny person. I'm like, your typical serious Capricorn. The best I can manage, only in front of a few people, is dark humor. I'm really shocked I managed to make this game, to be honest. (Tho humor is incredibly subjective, I have no idea if this game is actually really funny)

I think because this game is so outside of my "brand", and comedy TTRPGs aren't in high demand (afaik!), this game tends to get overlooked. Still, I've heard some wonderful stories from folks who've played the game!

Memory Hunter is a prequel to BALIKBAYAN, and it's also another tentative foray into OSR inspired games. I say tentative, but I'm also really proud of the writing and design here! I released Memory Hunter this year recently and it didn't seem to make too much of an impression, but I hope that if I keep working on game expansions that'll change!

There are many reasons I haven't felt comfortable or confident enough to create more games in the OSR space, but over the past year it's become more inviting! I'm really grateful that Tony Vacinda of Plus One EXP immediately offered to publish it (and Tony in general has been one of the most positive forces in the indie ttrpg space, for sure!)

I'm really looking forward to creating more things for Memory Hunter!

[ebonybow]

oh so we can choose which blog to reply to posts from now but im still sending asks from my stupid dead blog. anyway sex pollen scargrian 👀👀👀👀👀👀 if u dont mind

Augh I KNOW pls Tumblr, catch up!!!

I have a whole bunch of this sex pollen written but it's mostly from the start of this year, and it needs some major rewriting because I feel like I didn't have a proper grasp on their voices yet. Premise: Grian falls into a weird spore blossom cave and comes home feeling unwell, and Scar checks in on him a few times, clueless as the sex pollen fever progresses.

Sex Pollen:

Grian’s various pieces of armor are scattered in the hall outside the bathroom, as though he’d flung himself into the shower or bath the moment that Scar had left the night before, though his elytra are neatly hung in their usual spot near the door.

And then, he finds Grian in bed in his room, tucked into the back of the base, bare shoulders peaking out from beneath his bedsheets. The air is stuffy back there, almost muggy with the windows closed, and Grian is asleep face-first in his pillow.

So Scar does the most sensible thing and checks if he’s still breathing, leaning in close.

“Scar,” Grian startles awake and Scar lets out a hoot of surprise, stumbling backward to avoid being headbutted. “Why? What are you doing here? Why?”

Grian's voice is rough with sleep and confusion as he clears his throat, blearily pushing himself into a more upright position in his bed.

“Checking you’re alive,” Scar intones, as cooly and matter of factly as he can. He’s definitely not distracted by just how shirtless Grian is, as he – seemingly self-conscious – gathers his sheets and pulls them close around his torso. 

Grian is– small is the wrong word, despite the height difference. Grian is strong. You don’t haul blocks around for hours on end every day without building some muscle. 

“It’s morning?”

“It’s morning. Your bedhead is adorable.” That’s a normal Scar Thing to say, right? “Anyway, you’re breathing, so. My job here is done.”

Grian's gaze visibly softens again at Scar's flustering, and he slouches back a little bit in the bed.

"No, sorry. Sorry. I'm glad you're here," he says, and it sounds like an admission. He's still so very pink-cheeked, a reflection of the night before, but now Scar can see that it goes all the way down his chest between his pecs. He looks warm. Hot. "I'm glad you checked in on me."

It's like watching glass fog over, the way Grian's eyes cloud, suddenly hazy. He licks his lips.

"You got any water on you?"

"Well sure," Scar says, slipping his pack off his shoulder to rummage through. "Have you eaten? I have, ooh, I brought an apple."

"You brought snacks?" Grian asks, sounding somehow weaker this time, eyes wide and glossy as he looks up at Scar, accepting a bottle of water from him.

"Of course," Scar smiles, and sets an apple down on Grian's nightstand, and a small tub with some watermelon. "Who else is gonna take care of you?"

Grian suddenly makes a strange and very un-Grian noise, like a choked-off whimper, lips parting on an inhale before he bites down on his lip. Of course Scar is staring at his mouth now. Of course he is.

"Uh huh," Grian says, suddenly intent. "Scar, I need you to fuck me."

Had Scar been looking anywhere but Grian's mouth, he may have thought he misheard. Except, he literally sees the words come out of Grian's mouth.

"You- huh. You want me to check that fever?" He says, moving to get up off the bed as Grian's hand shoots out to stop him. "I might have a thermometer back at my place."

"No, Scar, listen."

"You are clearly delirious."

"I'm not. I mean I am, probably, but listen."

It's not hard to break free from Grian's grasp, and Scar takes a step back to catch his breath. The room is stiflingly warm, even more apparent now than before.

"You- you want to take care of me right?" Grian  rises to his knees just to get closer to Scar again, clutching his bedsheets close over his lap to at least preserve some dignity, Scar assumes.

"Of course," Scar says, but it comes out weaker than he'd appreciate. The words have an entirely new meaning now but his answer is still the same.

[turmoilcity]

OFFICIAL LOVE POTION STORY LEAK

This projects getting too big so i leaks it

Episode: Love Potion

Synopsis: Dylan is hit with a love ray after fukkn around Chellvan's bot. these the results

Meanwhile in Chellvans lab.

“Augh I can’t believe they foiled my plans again!” He shouts to the air.

“Maybe if you had took our idea instead-” Aliyanna says boredly.

“WHAT WAS THAT?”

“DUDE” Haiden speaks up, “You’re always winning about not having a support team, but you never take our suggestions!”

“That’s because all your suggestions are dumb.” Chellvan huffs. 

Drystan the most serious or emo one of the group crosses his arms “So why do you waste our team with this whole “Villain group shtick?””

“Waste your time? HA. You’re lucky I found you’re sorry ass in the alley that day!”

“When are we gonna actually take down the GAME team!?” Aliyanna interjects. “You always say we will but then we get our butts handed to us. And I hate losing!”

“Ugh, why don’t you idiots get that this isn’t some easy over night scheme? Taking over game may take weeks, months- years. This is a hero agency we’re talking about, with decades of secrets and-”

“Womp. Womp. Womp, you gonna go into your snoring loser lecture again.”

The group laughs at Haiden, but he gets choked up and then everyone goes silent.

Chellvan is serious, “If I’m a loser, what does that make you troubled, little sheep?”

It gets very serious until Ishmel adds, “LOSER BY ASSOCIATION. BOO.”

“You’re such an idiot” Haiden groans

Chellvan sighs and tosses haiden aside. “The idiot is right. You ARE a loser by association.” He turns a bewildered look unto them, “All of you are! And I’d hate to bed losers.”

It goes quiet again, and ishmel raises a hand, “I think sleeping with losers is fine. Sure, some people may argue that it’s a self esteem thing, but it’s not about who you lay with, rather the experience two possible lovers can share-”

“He’s talking about letting us sleep in his mansion!” Drystan says exasperatedly.

“Oh.” Ishmel blinks.

“I think we’re done having this conversation.” Chellvan says snudely brushing his collar. 

“But before we go, I think it’s best if we mention something that was possibly a win on our end.”

Chellvan turns, intrigued, “Really?”

“Yes. we’ve hit their leader, Dylan.”

----

ATHEGAME HOUSE

“DYLANNN!” Lillian wails

Jenna groans, “Lillian, it’s not like he’s dead! Stop screaming in the guys ear.

“I haven’t seen Dylan this unresponsive since we had to raid that DDLG furry convention.” Collin says.

“eUgh. Please do not bring that up.” Justin shudders.

“Dylan! Say something!” Lillian cries, holding dylan by her lap.

Bella appears with a pan, “I’ve got it,” she says readying a blow.

Unintelligible noise comes from Dylan as he stirs awake. Lillian squeals with glee as bella adopts a look of defeat.

“Dammit.He always wakes up before I can panfry him.”

“DYLAN! ARE YOU OKAY!?”

Dylan see’s two lillians. He moans trying to  say something.

Collin comes in over his shoulder, “Woah, dude… there are like… hearts in your eyes. 

“LEMME SEE?” the group says and ambush Dylan trying to look into his eyes. There in fact hearts in them. 

Lillain gasps.

He pushes them all away, and rubs at them muttering incohensively.

From the pile that was pushed, manny says, “what was that, Dylan? yOu’re kind of… muttering-”

“I said, which one of you idiots actually smell like ass?”

Bella sniffs her brother. “That would be Justin.”

SHe sniffs her pitt, “Actually, that might be me.” SHe smirks.

“HEY-”

The group take a protracted stage step left.

Lillian rushes to Dylan again, “Oh, dylan! I’m so glad you woke up!”

“Yeah, yeah,” he pushes her aside, still a bit dazed. “All the screaming and lights, it’s giving me a major headache.”

“SOMEBODY KILL THE LIGHTS!” Lillian barks. SOmeone turns the lights out while Dylan gives lillian an exasperated look. The sun light is still shining through. “AND THE OTHER LIGHTS” she orders.

“Lillian. That’s the sun.” savannah says.

“DYLAN SAID NO LIGHTS!” she turns to dylan apologetically, “Don’t worry Dylan! If there’s a Lil, there’s a Way! “ She takes off determintedley. 

The group looks after her. 

Without taking his eyes from Lillian, collin says to bella, “Why was your sister dressed as a nurse?”

“I don’t know. Figured it was a kink thing.”

“She obviously dressed that way to make a point of helping Dylan,” Jenna sighs as if it’s obvious. 

“She’s obviously, very dumb,” Bella stage whispers to Collin.

“Dylan, you’ve been passed out since the fight? How are you feeling?” Jennas asks to Dylan kneeling in front of him. 

He’s rambling, “Wow, and you guys didn’t even think to call a doctor? I’ll definitley remember this in the future if one of you gets hure-” Jenna appears infront of him. “Heaven?”

“Huh?”Jenna frowns.

“What?” Savannah and Meghan say simultaneously.

“NO.” Bella interjects boulderzing Jenna out of the way. At Bella’s appearance, the hearts in dylans eyes fade. “Let me see this boy! You have to be SERIOUSLY sick in the head if you think JENNA is heaven.”

“I’d like to think I’m a catch.” Jenna throws in coy over bella’s shoulder.

“Nobody asked you,” Bella glares eerily back at her. 

“That you are,” Dylan says in a gravelly voice, stunning bella so much she cracks her neck back to him.

Jenna goes noticeably red as meghan and Savannah squeal at the fanservice display. Dylan punts bella with force to her friends Collin and manny. 

“HEY!” Bella barks. 

“Hey yourself,” Dylan says, eyes on jenna. Jenna looks flushed.

“What the….” Everyone is quiet as Dylan looks at jenna who’s reddening more. She snaps at him, “DON’T LOOK AT ME LIKE THAT.  DYLAN, I AM YOUR COMRADE.”

“In that case” Collin speaks up, “ What’s wrong with a little… comradery?” he taunts.

The other’s “Oooh”

Jenna goes even redder.

SUDDENLY IT’S PITCH BLACK. Everyone blinks.

LILLIAN HAS SUCCSEFULLY MANAGED TO COVER THE SUN WITH A SPECAIL SPHERE 

“IF THERE’S A LIL… THERE’S A WAY!!!!” Lillian cries heroically

⚠️NEWSFLASH⚠️

A young male news reporter comes in on the news, “This just in, our town ‘Turmoil’ is literally about to go into an ice age due to our incompetent heroes FUCKING OVER HUMANITY AGAIN. WHY CAN’T WE HAVE A NORMAL DAY IN THIS TOWN?”

In chellvans residence everyone is confused. 

Chellvan shudders by a custom fire place, ‘i can’t believe I lost to these idiots.”

BACK AT THE GAME MANSION

Dylan's ringer goes off and he answers it, "yeah, I’m own it.  Me too Mrs. Anne…. Me too.’

‘What did Mrs. Anne say?’ Collin asks, fog coming from his mouth.

“She says we better go see what the hell is going on before she skins your asses alive.”

“Ms. Anne would never say that?” Savannah gasps.

Dylan begans, “You’re right, she wouldn’t. I did. Now let’s go.”

---

OUTSIDE THE TOWNS PEOPLE ARE RUNNING FRANTIC IN THE DARK CHILLED STREETS. ONE OF THEM BUMPS INTO BELLA

“Oof! I never understood why these guys run like chickens every time a minor inconvenience happens.”

Justin looks at her, “We literally just dropped sixty degrees in the last five minutes.”

Bella frowns, “Then they'd better be going to get something to throw over their arms.”

“Those guys are.” Manny nods to a group of guys trying to rob a store. Manny, Justin and Bella take off after them.

Savannah looks to the sky where Lillian is still defiantly blocking the sun, “Lillian! Let the sun go, you’re causing a literal out rage down here!”

Lillian strains as she holds the sphere, “MUST. PROTECT. DYLAN.”

“Protect Dylan from what?” Dylan says casually appearing by Lillian’s side. Lillian looks up and brightens. At the sight of him, she forgets the sun and drops the sphere to throw her arms around dylan instead. 

“Dylan! You’re okay!” She cheers. 

Dylan smiles and allows Lillian to take him down to the ground again.

⚠️NEWSFLASH.⚠️

The newsreporter is disgruntled and out of breath, “This just in… We get to see another day.” he falls out his chair.

The crowd claps as Lillian and Dylan land. 

“Alright, alright, shows over,” Jenna huffs. Several cameras appear in her face with news reporters ready for the scope.

Lillian nuzzles Dylan, Dylan is okay with this, but Collin, Manny and Savvanh give the pair a weird look. Bella, Manny and Justin reappear with the bad guys. 

Bella is furious, she storms up to them, ‘HEY! WHAT’S THE BIG DEAL?”

Manny is confused, “yeah, I thought you were just crushing on Jenna? Is she gonna be cool with that?” To this jenna turns her head. 

Dylan gives lillian a look of admiration, “Who cares when you’ve got a girl that would literally block the sun for you.” He goes to hug lillian back, making Lillian blush.

“Oh, Dylan.” she purrs.

The group relches.

“Well, that worked in my favor,” Jenna says, ignoring the mics and reviewers still asking her questions. She hones in on Dylan and his eyes, that has hearts in them. She thinks… “Wait a second…”

---

GAME AGENCY.

In the heroes counseling room, Mrs. Anne paces in front of them, not pleased.

“32 town threatening situations in one month! You kids have caused more chaos then there is time? How on earth is that possible!?”

When we get to Dylan, he’s holding lillian in his lap telling her how adorable she is. Bella isn’t very happy about this situation. 

“And you two!” Mrs. Anne warns stopping in front of the cuddly couple. “What’s with this lovey dovey thing?”

“You didn’t hear Mrs. Anne?” Bella groans sarcastically, “Dylan and Lillian are the newest super romance, according to the town.” She shoves her phone in front Mrs. Anne where an article shows of the two getting sundaes together.

Mrs. Anne is sheepish, “well then… i suppose I can brush up on checking in with my team myself.”

“Are we in trouble because Lillian tried to block the sun? Jenna asks boredly.

Mrs. Anne looks up, “Well i can’t not punish you guys, for that stunt you pulled earlier. What would that make me look like? You’ll get three assignments on geology over the weekend.”

The group groans, collin gathers them, “c'mon group. If we cant do geology for 3 days, then how can we battle the toughest villains?”

SHUT UUUUUUUUP” Bella barks. 

“Ur  just saying that because Ms. Anne is right there aren't you?” Megan groans. 

As the group leaves, ms. Anne looks wearily at dylan and LIllian in their own little world. 

“Dylan,” She says, capturing his attention. “Can i speak with you?”

Dylan kisses Lillian’s cheek before walking up to Mrs. anne a glow about him. 

“What’s up?” he says. 

Mrs. anne is weary, “i don’t know I just…” she looks out at Lillian who is mindlessly giddy. “You and lillian?”

“She’s cute, right?” he smirks.

Mrs. anne smiles, “yes but…. Wait are those… hearts? …In your eyes?

Ms. Anne looks panicked. "Call the group back."

Dylan is oblivious as he grins, “Hm?”

---

“So he’s under a love potion?” Bella asks disinterestedly.

“A quick check up from our doctors and scientists of GAME confirms that Dylan has higher hormoronal charge than usual-”

“HA.” Bella laughs. “So that must mean barely any.”

“The love potion he’s under is a spell that acts as a parasite. If he finds any alluring or charming traits of an individual, the chemicals imbalance to favor his new target.”

“Ick.” Collin grimmaces.

“It’s best you guys keep him indoors, to save him and yourself any trouble.” Ms. Anne explains casually.

“Ms. Anne.” Dylan speaks up, raising his hand. “Has anyone ever told you that you are an incredibly bright woman-”

“Okay, enough lolly gagging get out of my office.” SHe pushes them all out.

---

“AUGH! Dylan and Lillian are an item now?!” Aliyanna expresses in disgust looking at her phone. 

Drystan looks bored, “Well I guess that love potion was affective,” he says to Chellvan who is looking out the window. 

Chellvan ignored them, “Well I guess that’s a point for ANTI GAME MWAHAHA”

Haiden laughs obnoxiously, “HAH! You’re lucky that love potion never hit one of us! Could you imagine Aliyanna and I ever flirting with each other?”

“Who said I’d be flirting with you?” Aliyanna mumbled under her breath. 

THE OTHERS JOIN IN ON HIS EVIL LAUGH-

“Yeah, I’m not sure I really like that name.”

Why did you choose to shoot them with a love potion?” Drystan asks

Chellvan gives him the utmost maniacal look, “because…”

The group waits in anticipation. 

It hits drysatn. He cringes, “Don’t tell me it’s Just-”

“JUST BECAUSE” Chellvan laughs maniacally. 

----

BACK AT THE GAME HOUSE.

“I just don’t think I can do this anymore.’ Dylan says unfazed. 

“NOOOOOOOO” Lillian cries. She recomposes herself “okay.” Lillian skips away, 

“Well, that went a lot easier than I expected.” Savannah mutters. 

“And as for you.” Dylan says, seemingly towards Savannah.

She winced, “Oh, boy-”

“Not you, Behind you.” 

Over Savannahs shoulder is Collin. Everyone turns to him. 

“You, come here.” Dylan motions him towards himself. 

“What am I guilty of this time?” Collin groans. 

“Nothing.” Dylan starts. “But being so damn cute on that car ride home. Has anyone ever told you, you're adorable when you do what's right? That whole “Come on guys. Lets do the right thing! Lets learn geology’ team spirit is just the type of character that gets my motorboat running.”

The group GUFFAWS. 

Collin is confused, “I-I-”

“You don't have to say too much, just take your cute ass to my room and we can finish our discussion there-”

Collin gasps. But Bella bombards through again. 

“ENOOOOUGH.” She cries. Now she gives Dylan an offended, “first it was Jenna. Then my twin, now you're flirting with my BEST FRIEND!?!?!? This has gone TOO FAR.”

“and what are you gonna do about it?” Dylan smirks at her. 

Bella growls, “I'm gonna kick your-”

“MONTAGE!!!” :D Lillian cries over the both of them. 

Montage Timmmmmme

“THAT”S IT!” Bella barks as Dylan watches tv. Je looks confused until he’s almost tackled. He spins out of it causing bella to hit the floor hard with a thud.

“Jeez… whats your problem?” he asks the slightest impressed.

She hops and dusts herself off, then gives him an accusing glare, “you…”

She lurches for him engaging in a fight as Dylan blocks every move

THE CREATOR OF THIS WEBSERIES IS NOT GOOD WITH ANATOMY NOR ACTION SCENES, AND THIS STORY HAS GOTTEN TOO LONG… LET’S FAST FORWARD :D 

Both Bella and Dyan are out of breath. 

Dylan pants swiping his brow, ‘What… -huff- the fuck… -huff- is YOUR PROBLEM?”

“YOU MADE GOOGLY EYES AT EVERYONE IN THIS PLACE BUT ME” Bella cries. She falls to her knees. “How could you do this to me? You know I live to get all your attention.”

Dylan blinks and looks at her, some cogs in his head seemingly turning, “You….  did all this,” he looks back at the destroyed living room. “For me?” His gaze goes softer as a gentle melody begins to grow- He suddenly gets a dark glare, “Who the hell is gonna clean ALL OF THIS UUUUUP” He says rising to grow an electric ball over his fist. There’s suddenly a thud outside and both parties turn to look. The rest of the team also happen to appear. 

Chellvans back at it again. Causing mayhem

“I’ll get the hose.” Manny blinks before walking off.

---

Chellvan laughs maniaccly again, this time in a much smaller robot suit as he stands atop of a building, firing st the town. Bella suddenly appears to spin kick him at the back of his head, knocking him over. He falls off the ledge. 

“E z” she says. Lillian flies down to get him urgent care.

“Now, where were we?” Bella turns back around to Dylan. He holds his hands up.

“Because.” Dylan starts. “I’ve learned over these past couple of hours that really… truly- none of you are my type. You’re all weird and annoying, and quite frankly, I’m embarrassed that I fell in love with any of you idiots to begin with.”

“Up. up. I’m not gonna fight you over this whole love ordeal.”

“Why not?” she says still getting into pose.

It goes quiet for a moment before Bella blares “WHAT?” she begins to fly off the handle, the rest of the team standing back, watching the scene.

“When he was calling us annoying he was talking about you guys,” Justin crossed his arms. “Not me.” As they conversate, the town is still in hysteria. There should be no music on this part.

“Welp.” Savannah sighs. “I guess that’s the end of Dylan’s love spell.”

“He went out sort of weak,” Collin shrugged. 

“Thank God that’s over.” Jenna says. Before flying off the rooftop.

THAT’S ALL FOLKS.

ROLL CREDITS

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[chaoskid-deer]

😅, 🏆, 💔 answer me, ps5

I'm still haunting you I see :)

😅 What's a story or scene you've created that you're a smidge embarrassed exists?

Ahhhh I feel like you already know the answer to this one. I am super proud of this fic, because I think it had strong, clear themes, great prose, and as with all my fics it's a testament to my hard work and ability to finish something. HOWEVER, I was fighting off the shame demons to post Tell Me About A Complicated Man, and as much as I want to show it to everyone and ask them what they think I am also very embarassed to show it.

I feel like it has a lot of darker themes than my usual work, so I feel like I gotta attach a warning whenever I'm showing it to people. Frankenstien x his monster isn't that crazy a ship within the fandom, but I also feel like I can understand some sidelong looks over it. What can I say, I like seeing characters psychosexually torture each other.

Also, it's porn, and I've never written it before, and I feel like it says a little TOO MUCH about things I find hot

🏆 What's your most popular fic?

AUGH THIS IS ALSO KIND OF WILD. It's a Buzzfeed Unsolved fanfiction I wrote when I was 16 that has almost 2k kudos and was at one point both one of the longest bfu fics and on the first page of bfu fanfic sorted by kudos. I am super proud of it because it is the first long piece of fiction I've ever finished, and it's novel length, which is a crazy achievement. I think the plot was moving and I really found my stride as a writer. I got fanart for it that I really cherish, and some really kind, moving comments. It was my first time I've really felt a part of a fandom community and I found it to be a really motivating, positive experience.

That being said, I now have some more complicated feelings about RPF, and while I don't regret writing it or begrudge anyone else for writing it, I don't think I'd write RPF again. Also, there are some bits of it, especially in the beginning, that I would rewrite or cut completely. The start is kind of silly and meandering at times. I was posting chapters before the whole thing had finished, which is I think what pushed me to finish it, but also meant that I couldn't go back and tighten up the whole work as a whole. Once it was posted, that was it! I couldn't change it! Now I like to finish the whole work before I post a chapter, because I often only find out what a fic is actually about halfway through writing it.

💔 Is there a fic of yours that broke your heart?

Nope! I am an evil fanfic writer and hurting characters brings me nothing but glee. There's a major character death fic involving one of my clone ocs that I look forward to writing with a dreamy smile on my face. Live in fear.

[springcatalyst]

AUGH morgan is THE most interesting walking dead character. he really seems to be operating on a sort of low level of disassociation constantly after duane dies. it gets obviously worse in response to major trauma but even when he's relatively 'normal' he's still not quite... real.

after duane dies he falls into that state of isolated fight or flight that made him need to clear and he stays there for a LONG time. that time, because it lasts so long, becomes a sort of baseline. he returns to that whenever things happen in the future- when ben dies, when he loses people in the savior fight- even after getting out of it. its a sort of 'safe' state of extreme dissociation that built up as a return state while he was in it the first time. thats what happens when he seems to just freak out to other people, lashing out, trying to kill people- thats the switch being flipped to that return state of obsessive dissociative fear.

BUT even when he's not... when he gets better with the cheesemaker or when he's with rick and the others in alexandria. he still seems sort of distant. he's living in a world that is just barely not reality. you cant always tell, but sometimes it comes up and he does something or says something that leaves a distinct feeling that he is ... not quite untethered, but loose in a way other people arent.

he completely believes that he cannot die. he never questions it at all, this is as real to him as anything else. he knows other people might not know, but doesnt expect that it would strike them as odd or impossible because. well. and so then we get these scenes where he has unwavering faith in his inability to he killed not out of arrogance or cockiness, but just because it is True. to him.

and he is Aware of his frayed tether to reality but only in the sense that he knows he can be pushed back into the extreme, NOT in the sense that his usual is reality but skewed slightly. so he is still very clearly Struggling but hes only conscious of a small part of it. i dont have a point im trying to get to i just think he is fucking fascinating. he is just.... distant from the world. i can SEE him seeing it through a bell jar. god i love morgan

[des-no9]

Just finished reading In The Rain, and when I tell you I weeped... 💙 That absolutely fucking gorgeous, heart breaking, heart soothing, hilarious (I swear, I love your sense of humor) signature writing of yours still has my very house trembling from how loud I reacted on the journey. It's like I was actually playing BG3, you get the canon characters and their many flavors, and your original ones know how to establish theirs with such confidence. I devoured these 10,500 words, and I would do it again in a heartbeat. There is no ache like reaching the end of a good piece of writing, even when you know all good things have a pause, an end, and this one was most satisfying. It's not just skin and leather this fight and fuck shed, it was lies, masks, and that kind of symbolism has me weak. Your writing is overflowing with characterization, and I don't just mean this snappy, so fucking real dialogue that makes me feel a part of the scenery, I mean I found myself thinking like Vanquish through pacing itself. When she accidentally revealed Emp, my brain somehow brushed over the word "illithid" because of the urgency, the speed at which she blurts it out. I basically made the same mistake as she did. I wouldn't have it any other way, it made the escalation even more powerful and harsh. There is so much to comment on and quote I could praise for hours, so I'll focus on the second thing that really had me, and it's how they connect over Caiphon, the link to Voss' sword. It's something so intimate, a moment where two become one through a curiosity driven conversation alone. It really seals their relationship beyond just something physical (though physical relationships are beautiful, do not get it twisted), almost feels like they were always meant to be. I just... Fuck they make me so ill (positive statement). No such a thing as enough Van/Voss in this world. They make me feel so many things, but I think the consensus is they make me damn happy. Thank you as always for sharing your blood and tears (writing haha) with us. 💙

I swear I've read this just....so many times I can't count. Thank you so much love. I can't even begin to express how much it means to me how much this fic and Vanquish and Voss' relationship connects with you and how much you enjoy it.

I was especially touched when you said you enjoy my humour because I always think I'm not funny at all dkjdfj and that I struggle with humour. So I'm really glad my attempts at it come across well.

And I long realised when I started writing seriously that I wasn't like....much of a long form plot writer, but more of a character writer. Short form, moments, character study, emotion. I'm really, just so really happy you enjoy it augh. And the dialogue!!! That is also something I've struggled with a LOT and I've put a lot of work into. It's been really nice to see improvement honestly <33 and feel the characters come through more in the dialogue.

OKay okay so I'm going to ramble some more about Vanquish, Voss, his Silver Sword and Caiphon under the cut a bit sldkfjsdf

AHHH THANK YOU LOVE I'm SO HAPPY you liked that. Like....when I've been reading up on lore about Caiphon, the Far Realms, Silver Swords, the Living Gate and then I was like......fuck they're all kind of connected in a way aren't they? And I just....ran with it LOL

I took what little there was and just expanded. Voss and the githyanki are connected in ways to the illithid and their past in negative ways, but ways that push them forward away from it too. To become something else that shape them into their own people their own voice and power (while re-creating that cycle of violence...anyway LOL)

And for Vanquish, she is so devastatingly (from her past etc) connected to Caiphon and Y'chak in several ways, but also makes it into something that is useful and good (to her) and powerful and hers, where the lines blur for her that she essentially carries a piece of the Far Realms and these Elder Evils within her flesh and blood until she's dead.

I wanted to kind of reflect how thye're both connected to things in pain and the veins of it kind of lead to the same destination (all roads lead to Rome kinda thing idk idk), but for this connection between them now, it is positive, mostly.

New things, anyway. They are both moving forward. Changing. That, is the important thing. Growth and connection together, through chaos and pain.

Maybe they were always meant to be :3 (they also make me SICK HAHA SICKKJDHFSDF)

thank you again so much my love <333 thank you

[heartless-curr]

Same anon here! Okay okay okay I absolutely love this

I'm so happy I got a huge ass paragraph back because I literally thought I was the only one as obsessed with this duo!!

I've hc this for years also!! I just firmly believe sumo protag had to of had a somewhat traumatic/ difficult life before moving to alola to be as badass as she is, like moon just keeps on winning, the pressure put on herself by those around her, like did she ever want to become some special chosen one bc tapu koko saw her save Nebby? I mean she did the same thing any other person would do too.

I love the dynamic of moon being such a good trainer is because she watched silver raise his own pokemon, and she got a pretty good sense on how to be a good trainer, and how not to be a good trainer since silver wasn't aways the most kind hearted. Then adding giovanni's shit to the mix. Like wanting to befriend and protect all pokemon because of how horrendously your own father treated them?

It's cannon in the manga that moon is a pharmacist and creates her own medicine, and loves to help heal people and pokemon. I hc that this is because she saw some very fucked up stuff as a kid by giovannis hand, and team rocket in general. Big bro silver tried to shield her from it as best he could but a kid taking care of a kid? All the stuff moon saw made her just wanna heal pokemon and help everyone she meets. Silver always scolded her for being so trusting and care free, trying to protect her from this cruel world he sees, the one he's lived in. Yet she wants to be optimistic despite this world and just wishes to do her very best and its why she has such a helpful personality but it's also why she's canon mute and vacant at times, even though she doesn't want to be I certain situations she NEEDS to help, and she's pushed further and further into a role she never wanted

Silver torn between being proud of his sister for her accomplishments not only in fhr league but literally saving the world and ultra space alike, resenting her for appearing care free, angry at his own power and lack of understanding. Him spiralling and falling further and further, feeling more worthless then ever that she's acomompished more. Also absolutely hating how moon puts herself in so much danger, I mean it's still his little sister how could he not worry? Like the stress levels he feels are catastrophic. He knows his sister will put everyone before herself and how impulsive she is with her decisions so seeing/ hearing how she puts herself through more shit and knowing any wrong move would be fatal, how can he concentrate on getting stronger if he's also constantly worrying about his sister, who is stronger then he is?

Ahhh sorry I ramble !! Usually I'm just thinking bout this in my head as I had no one to rant too lol! I play the mobile game pokemon masters ex and I'm constantly creating pics of silver and moon together in the photo creator lol.

I will look at the other posts ahhcomg I'm excited thank you !!! Also I didn't even think abou t lance adopting silver but 🥹🥹🥹

AUGH I WANTED TO RAMBLE BACK BUT I DON'T HAVE THE SPOONS BUT ANON. THIS IS SO TRUE. YOU'RE SO RIGHT.