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novelconcepts · 8 months ago

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I Saw the TV Glow is such a uniquely, devastatingly queer story. Two queer kids trapped in suburbia. Both of them sensing something isn’t quite right with their lives. Both of them knowing that wrongness could kill them. One of them getting out, trying on new names, new places, new ways of being. Trying to claw her way to fully understanding herself, trying to grasp the true reality of her existence. Succeeding. Going back to help the other, to try so desperately to rescue an old friend, to show the path forward. Being called crazy. Because, to someone who hasn’t gotten out, even trying seems crazy. Feels crazy. Looks, on the surface, like dying.

And to have that other queer kid be so terrified of the internal revolution that is accepting himself that he inadvertently stays buried. Stays in a situation that will suffocate him. Choke the life out of him. Choke the joy out of him. Have him so terrified of possibly being crazy that he, instead, lives with a repression so extreme, it quite literally is killing him. And still, still, he apologizes for it. Apologizes over and over and over, to people who don’t see him. Who never have. Who never will. Because it’s better than being crazy. Because it’s safer than digging his way out. Killing the image everyone sees to rise again as something free and true and authentic. My god. My god, this movie. It shattered me.

#i saw the tv glow #I saw the tv glow spoilers #it is SUCH a queer story #the disassociation. the hiding in fiction to feel alive.#the horror of watching time tick by and knowing you’re not who you’re meant to be #the unique paralysis of staying put in hell because it’s safer than what might be over the horizon #the tragedy of trying to help someone who isn’t ready to be helped #god it’s so much. god. rarely do I walk out of a film and just stare soundlessly into space #anyway. please see this movie. although I sort of hope if you’re reading this post it’s cuz you already have #eta: I used he because the main character never quite vocalizes another pronoun #but this is SUCH a trans story. suuuuch a trans story. it is not even a little subtle #it’s so good and so so painful

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timelessbian · 9 months ago

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actually that ao3 post about calculating kudos-to-hits ratios to decide if a fic is worth reading has me so pissed off. someone put real time and energy into something they are SHARING WITH YOU FOR FREE on a site where you can quite literally filter and search by anything you want and you're STILL trying to find a foolproof method to find stuff that's "good enough to read"???

YOU ARE NOT THE TARGET AUDIENCE FOR EVERYTHING

you don't have to like or read everything in a given fandom or tag, but you also don't have to be a cunt about it and imply that it's not worth reading. this is the kind of shit that moves people to stop creating altogether, and to see people agreeing in the tags is so disheartening. absolutely unserious behavior.

#some of y'all would not have survived pre-ao3 fandom spaces and it really fucking shows #i have so much more i could say about this but at my core it really just makes me sad #i'm obviously not tagging the op of the original post or anything but i hope they and everyone agreeing with them learns to chill tf out

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min-play · 7 months ago

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learned what overwhelmed means

#min draw #min move #minbitt #took me this long #i zone out a lot in public spaces especially when its crowded #so much happening!#Thank you Tani for the additional voicing!

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ink-the-artist · 3 months ago

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house tour :)

bonus art, lossy versions of the first 2 gifs

#ask to tag #unreality #flash warning #art #gif #photomanipulation #ganbreeder #<- for the creatures in the first 2 gifs #horror #surrealism #liminal spaces #weirdcore #creatures #i ended up using the non-lossy versions bc they were better for the effect i wanted #+ i wanted the last one specifically to look like it was corrupting the camera kinda like radiation #but thought id still include the lossy versions cuz theyre neat #the third gif is based off a reoccuring thing from my dreams #some sort of bright white object usually a big orb or disk #that you cant look at directly bc its so bright. its like a welding arc #you can usually touch or move it #it doesnt turn red like that in the dream or glitch out the camera tho thats just for the spooky #well the glitchyness is more bc the non-lossy version compressed the gif badly #so i figured id just play into the compression effect and make it fit the mood better #honestly turned out much cooler. limitations in art etc etc

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raepliica · 1 year ago

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they're down to their last cigarette so they're sharing✨️✨️

#trigun #trimax #trigun maximum #vash the stampede #nicholas d. wolfwood #vashwood #raepliica_art #sharing the lung disease🤸🤸#anyway. they're always finding a way to be in each other's space no matter what #ww likes to quietly read the newspapers in the morning #but vash needs the attention like a spoiled cat so he'll try to be a little annoying to ww >:)#at first i wanted to give vash full black hair but it would've shifted this to another tone so i left it half-half..🧍#umm not much else to say other than i blacked out in the middle of it and it was suddenly coloured and done

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starleska · 8 months ago

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"CAN'T TRICK ME TWICE, HONEY!"

#oh Russell this is the most pathetic lie you've given us yet 😂😂😂#RUN OUT OF ACTORS????? be serious 🤭🤭#we're on the right path folks #it would be deeply funny if it actually went nowhere but i doubt that so much #doctor who #doctor who spoilers #susan twist #russell t davies #boom #the devil's chord #space babies #wild blue yonder #starleskatalks

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heartless-aro · 1 month ago

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People when a character is aromantic or aromantic coded: Wowie! They’re aroACE! Because they aren’t interested in romance! Look at how aroace they are!

People when a character is aroace or aroace coded: Isn’t it cool that this character is asexual? Asexual icon! They’re such great asexual representation :)

#aro #aromantic #ace #asexual #aroace #alloaro #it feels like there’s this weird mindset of #if a character is aro then they MUST be ace too #and if they’re aroace then the ace part is all that matters!#and of course aplatonicism is never even mentioned as a possibility in fandom spaces (even with characters like Saiki who is apl coded af)#hell. even with real life people who have come out as aromantic #if someone comes out as aromantic they’re assumed to be asexual as well #and if someone is openly aroace it’s very common that people emphasize the ace part over the aro part #and while I get that some people do talk more about their asexuality than their aromanticism #it’s still weird to me that like #for example #Yasmin Benoit is one of the most prolific aromantic activists AND one of the most prolific asexual activists #yet I rarely ever see people mention that she’s aromantic or aroace. Everyone always just says “oh she’s asexual” and leaves it at that #her aromantic activism seems to just get ignored even with how much of it she’s done #when trying to find news sources talking about aromanticism for a research project about half of them were interviews #with Yasmin Benoit! she’s done so much work for the aromantic community #yet even in her Wikipedia article which describes her as an “asexual and aromantic activist” in the very first sentence #the section on her activism doesn’t include the words aromantic or aromanticism even ONCE.#like. yeah she does emphasize her asexuality a lot more than her aromanticism. but her aromantic activism should be acknowledged too

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arsenicflame · 7 months ago

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Bonus round! Do you use a queue tag?

#ive been super curious about this because people seem to have really strong opinions on the queue! so many people seem to HATE it #but i love using the queue! i dont really know exactly why i like it so much- i started using in like... 2016 and its a fundamental part of #my tumblr experience now. i think i started off just using it for offline hours so id hit most my american mutuals (/ for aes posts)#but these days basically everything goes in my queue (cept time sensitive things & like. current hype and original posts-#anything 'normal' posting is in the queue)#idk it feels. nice to me! i like to spread out my posting and not rb 30 things in half an hour and then disappear for the rest of the day #esp since my spaces are so circular- the same post runs on my dash a dozen times minimum. and i get to put it on ur dash a week late!!!#and its so nice to have small interactions with mutuals in incompatible timezones; to open up my notifications in the morning #and go: oh! my friends were here <3 #its such a Part of the tumblr experience for me i dont think i could ever truly change now. maybe switch to timed queueing #but my availability changes so much i prefer to just. know i guess #but (i am so sorry for all that) im curious about how other people feel!!!!!! itd be so interesting to hear abt why people do/do not like i #i know some people like the experience of spamming and going. some people think it makes this seem to much like influencing or whatever #everyone has their reasons and i want to know!!!!!!!!!!!!!!#nyxtalks #poll #queue #no see answers option because you must fall into one of these

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eliotbaum · 8 months ago

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just perfect

LMAO I screamed

#not art #thank you so much this made me laugh so hard #oyster-mash #i have more asks to answer i'll get to them asap! also trying to space em out so it's not just text here #if only this was their endgame (knowing the dark truth)

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ceilidho · 25 days ago

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something something you being in a casual no strings attached relationship with Soap before his accident versus the quieter, more brooding man that knocks on your door after months of PT and therapy (it did not help).

#I basically already wrote this back in the day (Petrichor) but I want to spend more time with it…#like he’s loud and brash and takes up so much space without thinking about it #but when he comes back after he’s more on edge…it takes him longer to get the words out…#dealing with paranoid thoughts and grappling with almost losing everything #he’s still loud and takes up too much space but he’s almost angry about it now

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rystiel · 2 months ago

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that annoying moment when getting left for dead in the trunk of a car in your 20s comes back to haunt you 40 years later (take a shot every time ford says “stanley”)