#i rofled. some might say

[babychosen]

someone who Is Not being quiet with that bag:

[becausegoodheroesdeservekidneys]

I think the reader's response to this post is probably going to either be "That's incredibly minor" or "Holy shit YES I'M ALSO PROUD", depending on people's personal experiences with academia, but:

Today I am incredibly proud of one of my students.

In the interests of disguising identities, let's call them Ceri. Ceri is one of my third year undergrads (meaning their final year, for anyone unfamiliar with UK uni systems.) They transferred to us last year, and within two weeks I was giving them the contact info to get to Student Services and get themself screened for ADHD; they have some mental health struggles, but I clocked pretty quickly that they STRUGGLE with procrastination, and punctuality, and attending 9am lectures in particular. Naturally, as is the way of my people, it took them a further four months to remember to go to the screening. Lol. Lmao. Rofl, in fact.

But, they did it eventually! Their screening lit up like a Christmas tree at the ADHD section, and they got a free laptop and optional one week extensions and a study support worker named Claire. This has helped tremendously, and although mental health + until-then-unsupported ADHD meant their academic profile had slid sideways somewhat, with the new tools available and a couple of resits they passed the year and hit this year running.

Until, that is, the last fortnight.

Now, I take them for a Habitat Management module that has two assessments: an academic poster presentation before Christmas, and a site-specific management plan in May. Naturally this means we are at that happy point in the year for the poster presentations. I give out the briefs at the start of the year, so they've had them since October; I've also been periodically checking in with them all for weeks, to make sure they don't have any major burning questions. The poster presentation was to pick a species reintroduction project, pull the habitat feasibility study out of it, and then critique that study; Ceri chose to look at the hen harrier reintroductions proposed for the southern UK. All good.

Which brings us nicely to today! Ceri's presentation is scheduled for 2.30. At 11am-1pm, I am lecturing the first years on Biodiversity, while Ceri is learning about environmental impact assessment with a colleague I shall call Aeron. This means we are separately occupied during those same hours.

Nevertheless, Aeron messages me at about 12.

"I think Ceri needs to see you after your lecture," he writes. "They're panicking, I genuinely think they might cry. I'm worried. Are you free at 1?"

I say I am. At 1, I get lunch and sit in the common area; Ceri comes to see me. To my personal shame, imagine all of the following takes place while I stuff my face with potato.

Now: this part is going to be uncomfortably familiar to anyone who has ever tried higher education with ADHD, especially unmedicated. It certainly was for me. All I can say is, I never had the courage to take the step here that Ceri did.

"I have to confess," they said quietly, and Aeron was right, they were fighting back tears. "My mental health has been so, so bad for the last fortnight. I've left it way, way too late. I don't have anything to present."

"Nothing at all?" I asked.

"I've been researching," they said helplessly. "I found loads on the decline of the hen harrier. But it wasn't until last night that I finally found a habitat feasibility study to critique. Generally... I've been burying my head about it, and it just got later and later. I thought I should come in for Aeron's lecture, and I should at least tell you."

This part is a minor thing, right? But honestly, I remember being in the grip of that particular shame spiral. I never did manage to tell my lecturers to their faces. I just avoided. I honestly can't imagine having the courage it took them to come in and tell me this, rather than just staying home and avoiding me.

"I think..." they said hesitantly, "I know I can submit up to a week late, for a capped mark. I think I need to do that, and apply for extenuating circumstances. But then I'll have both Aeron's assignment and yours due at the same time."

Which meant they would crumble under the pressure and likely struggle to pass both; so me, being as noble and heroic as I unarguably am, stopped eating potato and said, "Let's make that plan B."

(It was good potato. I am a hero.)

So, we made plan A: I moved their timeslot to 4.30, giving them three and a half hours. The shining piece of luck in this whole thing was that this was the crunch time assignment - if it had been Aeron's, they'd have had to try and write a 3000 report in that time. But for me, all they had to write was an academic poster, and those things are light on words by design. We found them a Canva template, and then we quickly sketched out a recommended structure based on the brief: if it's habitat feasibility, look at food availability, nesting site availability, and mortality risks in the target release site. Bullet point each. Bullet point how well the study assessed each. Write a quick intro and conclusion. Take notes as you go, and present the poster itself at 4.30.

"You think I should try?" they asked doubtfully, looking like I'd just asked them to go mano-a-mano with a feral badger.

"If you run out of time, so be it," I said. "But your brain is trying to protect you from a non-existent tiger. That's why you've procrastinated - it's been horrible, and you've been shame spiralling, and your brain is trying to shield you from the negative experience; but it's the wrong type of help for this situation! So while you're sitting there working on it, hating life, every time your brain goes 'This is hopeless, I can't do it', you think right back 'Yes I can, it just sucks.' And you carry on. Good?"

"Good," they said. "I'm going to mainline coffee and hole up in the library. Enjoy your potato."

And then, of course, I had to go and watch the other students' presentations, so that was the end of me being any help at all. I spent all afternoon wondering if they were going to manage it, or if I would be getting a message at 4.25 telling me they'd failed, and would have to submit late and hope for an EC.

And Tumblrs

Tumblrs

Let me FUCKING tell you

They turned up at 4.15, fifteen minutes early, wearing a mask of grim, harrowed determination and fuelled by spite and coffee, and they pulled up that poster and started presenting and yes, okay, I'll admit their actual delivery was dramatically unpolished and yes, they forgot to include the taxanomic name for the hen harrier on the poster and yes, fine, I admit that there were more than a few awkward moments where they lost their place in their hastily scribbled notebook but LET ME FUCKING TELL YOU -

They smashed it. It was well-critiqued, it had a map, it had full citations, it had a section on the hen harrier's specific ecology and role in the ecosystem, it had notes on their specific conservation measures. They described case studies they'd read about elsewhere. They answered the questions we threw at them with competence and depth. There was analysis. All that background research they'd done came right to the fore. They were even within the time limit by 15 seconds.

You would never have known they'd produced it in three hours, from a quivering and terrified mess fighting the bodily urge to dehydrate via tear ducts. After they left, the second marker and I looked at each other and went "So that was a 2:1, right?"

I caught up with Aeron downstairs and he was beaming. Apparently Ceri had seen him on their way out, and had gone over to talk to him. Aeron said the difference between the Ceri of this morning and the Ceri of then was like two different people; in four hours, they'd gone from their voice literally breaking as they admitted the problem, ashamed and broken, to being relaxed and happy and smiling.

"I reckon I've passed," they apparently told Aeron, pleased. "Maybe even a 2:2. There's things I wish I'd had the time to do better, but I'll be happy if I passed."

They won't know until late January what they got, because we're not allowed to release marks until 20 term days after hand-in, and the Christmas holidays are about to hit. But I'm really hoping I can be there when they're released.

But mostly, I'm just... insanely proud of them. I cannot tell you how happy I am. And I know, I know, obviously this is not a practice I would want to see them do regularly, or indeed ever again, and it only worked because they were fucking lucky with the assignment format, but like... when life is just punching you in the face, and you hit a breaking point... isn't it nice? That just this once, you pull off a miracle, and it's fixed? The disaster you thought was about to ruin you is gone? To get that relief?

Anyway. Super super proud today.

[heretyc]

How Outlast Characters Respond To "Can You Buy Me Pads?" [HEADCANONS]

Walrider would be confused. Bless him. You'll have to show him what they are.

Miles lowkey steals them. Fuck the government, fuck taxes, and fuck people who get compensation from a natural biological process. He'd also steal your favourite sweets.

Waylon would love to but we all know that dumbass (affectionate) would fall over everything. It's the intent that matters.

Nick would also do this.

Eddie, once informed of what a period and pads are, gets upset on your behalf and pretty much buys you anything you want. He's a big hulking guy, he doesn't care for the stares he'll get by weirdos lol.

VAL. WIFE.

Val would send Heretics to buy you pads [assuming Val's in their Mud Era]. This is what occurs after:

...They're doing their best, that's all I can say.

To ease any cramping, Val will get you all cozy, whether it's in a bed or against them. Oh, also, sex. Penetration helps break up clots [which then help with cramps]. TMYK!

When Val ISN'T coated in mud and is instead wearing their cassock and boots, they'll bring you with them to pick out the brand you want. They leave the Heretics in the carriage/car [obviously rofl].

Jeremy's a prick, what did you expect? [He'll get them if you beg real prettily, though.]

She says this in a joking manner. She'll 100% buy you some.

He's happy to help. He might also shout "LYNNNNN" at the top of his lungs because he doesn't know what the different colours mean and his wife isn't around to help lmfao

Knoth is one of those assholes who thinks that periods are "dirty", and therefore, won't have anything to do with them, even though "God" made females have them, so. Laird is the same way.

Val's the person to call when it comes to period-related issues lol.

She can. And she will. Menopause is a bitch but she doesn't miss her menstrual cycle.

Whether it's because he's a doctor [your doctor btw] or because he's obsessive, he'll have your cycle tracked. Weirdo.

[ashlynniis-bracketeers]

[Image Description: A monochrome piece with three simplified character heads and text between them. A simplified Meursault head on the left, a simplified Don Quixote with sparkly eyes and a smile on the right, and the Queen of Hatred's base form on top. The text in the middle reads: Defines themselves by seeking happiness/love through "usefulness" and/or "purpose", primarily through selflessly serving others, and having some (hidden) fear/resentment over the idea of being "useless" and "thrown away" as a result. End description.]

Woe, "Queen of Hatred E.G.O (In the Name of Love and Hate) for both Meursault and Don" Propaganda be upon ye.

Something I've noticed while I was ruminating about Meur and Don's possible "attunement" with the Queen of Hatred abno,with how much the "Don should have QoH E.G.O" and "Meur should have QoH E.G.O" groups have been getting louder lately lmao. Who says we can't have both?

Both of them could synchronize with the funny snek magical girl more than they'd care to admit... Y'know, might as well copy-paste my thoughts on QoH Meur, considering how many people have written whole-ass dissertations about QoH Don.

Copy-Pasted from Discord:

QoH seems to define herself by "usefulness" or "purpose". When there's evil in the world, she has a purpose! She's happy to serve, in the name of Love, when there's a villain on the loose! But without evil, without a villain, she's "useless", and risks being… thrown away.

QoH seeks Love (and technically Happiness, though that's technically more King of Greed), while Meur has been attempting to seek happiness. QoH is eager to serve, until she is considered "useless" and goes ballistic, while Meur tends to obey without complaint and both has difficulty expressing his emotions and was probably taught to repress them heavily, and probably feels some bottled-up resentment over the idea of being discarded…

Copy-Paste End.

Does any of that make sense or am I just looking too deep into what most people I've seen consider just a joke/meme lmao. It's PMoon, who knows rofl.

[manic-sapphic]

ok so, been wanting to mention -

catra's ears. omfg. who doesn't love em? i mean, i'm sure some people don't, but i've never talked to em rofl cause tbh, i'd prob rather not -

i would need to do a rewatch in full & pay close attention to say for sure, but i'm fairly certain, much like the addition of melog, s5 puts catra's true feelings on blast w her sweet lil ear cat-reacts more than the first 4 seasons combined.

the ears drooping -

the ears perking up -

wtf lol - cut it out!

she got rid of her kinda youthful lil hackles (that she'd had since the earliest years we see her in their childhood memories) after shadow weaver conned catra while they were in her jail cell - catra visiting her, & sw sorta twirling one of the cute lil tufts near her hackle hair -

hoping to manipulate catra into doing what sw wanted her to by this alignment deadline... & i think she spends s1-4 actively suppressing her cute cat-ear-reacts cause of the the way they'd give away her feels. but by s5 after prime? :/ pretty kitty can't help it; she's too traumatized to walk around w any kinda façade anymore.

and of course, catra had already done what sw asked of her. but honestly, i hate any comparison that likens sw to being catra's "mother" cause that would make her adora's too & i've seen antis hitch their argument against them on this insane idea that it somehow makes their relationship incestual (are u fucking kidding me?)

and eh - sw simply just isn't a mother. like, never was for either of them. they were not daughters. they were pawns.

sw was a caretaker at most, and hordak straight up calls adora & catra both sw's "wards" - look up the definition if you need to, but it sooo does not imply motherhood in the slightest. "mom stuff" is the most sw ever did, & all that was just the middle of a venn diagram where some qualities in a military guardian and a mother might overlap. which may make her the closest thing they knew to some sort of parent growing up - but angella was more a mother to adora in her short time around her than sw ever was.

cause teaching someone how to tie their shoes doesn't make one a mom. anyway...

catra leaves the cell smiling, and sw turns to her tray of slop food and gasps -

cause she told catra she was tired and to "come back later" (knowing she absolutely would) but has now seen - that cat don't needa come back. and sw did not gaf if catra did.

ever. and i mean like - ever.

fuck off forever, shadow weaver.

[destinyc1020]

Model friend anon.

I asked her some follow up questions that you sort of just raised. She said JE liked the notoriety aspect of him dating Z. He saw her like a prize and a reflection of his own ‘magnificent self’ (her exact words) he liked the idea of her more than her. He apparently called her dull. He was apparently pissed she was still clearly into TH as he saw it as a slight on his manhood and thought TH was well below him ( the ego on him)

I kept asking how she knew this, from odd bits it sounds like they hooked up a couple of times. She said he had a big mouth when drunk and boasted that Z bored him and he dumped her (she suspects Z ended it because of Tom as he said some really shitty things about Tom, which she wouldn’t say, apparently he doesn’t like Austin either)

She stopped hanging around with him about 2 years ago. Said he’s an egomaniac leech and is amazed he’s actually making a name for himself but Hollywood is filled with a holes.

I also don’t understand why anyone would send nudes in Hollywood, so dangerous.

👀🍵

Hmm.... I'm taking all of this with a HUGE grain of salt Anon . ..

But hey, you might be telling the truth! 🤭 Also, not surprising to me if he hates two guys who both had women dump him for them rofl 😂 🤣 The dude sounds salty that he got dumped by two women lol.

Re: Tom....

I've never actually heard JE mention anything about Tom tbh. 🤔 So I can't verify if that checks out. Tbh, I always got the impression that JE was dating Z just for the notoriety. No offense, but that's just the vibe he gave me. I'm sure he was attracted to her (what guy wouldn't be?), but I never got the impression that their relationship was really all that deep tbh. I think he just saw a big fish. Plus they seemed like they became friends on set on euphoria. 🤷🏾‍♀️ I really don't think their relationship was all that deep though. But if he did dislike Tom, it could have been for the same reasons Nadia disliked Zendaya lol. 😂

Re: Austin....

I know when JE was asked about the comparisons btwn his Elvis role and Austin's Elvis role, he mentioned something about it being weird that people online were turning things into a blood sport and that it didn't make sense to compare the two of them. I thought that was nice actually? I think that was the only time I actually agreed with something he said lol, but who knows, maybe he was just lying in the interview lol? 😂

The part about JE being an egomaniac sounds like it actually checks out. He seems like he has those tendencies based on his print interviews and some of his past behavior. I wouldn't be surprised lol.

Very interesting.....

I guess this is all hearsay, so you all can either sip or spit. 🤷🏾‍♀️

All of this stuff doesn't even matter anyway, as ALL of these people have all moved on to other partners by now, and TZ are engaged anyway, so their rebounds are not even on their minds and they're not even on the minds of their rebounds! 😂

JE has had TWO relationships AFTER Z at this point lol 😆

He's had 4 relationships in the public eye already chiiiiilllle.

[rainofaugustsith]

July is disability pride month! In honor of this, as a proud disabled person, the top 10 things I've heard/read about disability that just need to be addressed.

"Disability payments" = SSI.

Nope. There are a number of programs which are "disability payments." There are programs that look at your income in addition to disability status, such as SSI and VA pensions. There are programs that look at your disability status and work credits, like SSDI. There are also programs that look at disability and if it's service connected to your military status, like VA disability. There are people who have disability through their former employer. All of these provide a monthly payment to people who are disabled and cannot work. 2. Disabled people can't get married.

Okay, this one is complicated. There is to my knowledge no law on the books anywhere in the United States that prohibits a consenting disabled adult from marrying another consenting adult, disabled or not. If you are on disability with a program like SSDI they could care less if you get married or divorced.

The trick here is that if you are receiving disability under a program that considers income, like SSI, if you get married it's more than likely that you will go above the maximum income threshold and lose your benefits entirely. They somehow assume that you both can survive on your spouse's income alone. This also means the disabled person essentially loses all their financial independence. The maximum income threshold for SSI is to my knowledge far lower than almost any other program, so there's very little wiggle room here.

So a disabled person on SSI has to choose between getting married and losing all their income, or maintaining some financial independence with their own income - and that's really not a fair choice at all 3. I saw that wheelchair user stand up! Scammer.

Nope. A lot of people who use wheelchairs and other mobility devices are ambulatory. They may have pain or orthopedic issues, they may have a condition causing extreme fatigue or dizziness that makes them a fall risk, they may have a heart issue, they may be able to do some walking and standing but not a lot. Some people need mobility devices only when they are doing something particularly strenuous that would involve a lot of walking and standing - for example going through an airport or visiting a museum or theme park.

Bottom line, if you see someone using a wheelchair, a scooter, a walker, a cane, whatever, don't be an asshole to them, and don't ask them to explain their medical history to you. 4. That person has a placard and is using the parking space close to the building, but they can walk!! Scammer.

Nope. Again, you have no idea what that person's condition might be. They could have a cardiac or respiratory condition, they could have rheumatoid arthritis or an issue with their feet or knees, you have no bloody idea, so mind your business. 5. That person wouldn't be disabled if they'd meditate/take this supplement/pray/think positive! Why were they offended when I told them so?

Because their treatment is not your concern? Because although you did a lot of studying on Tik Tok University, maybe they're trusting the trained medical professionals who are treating them? Maybe because what you are saying has no actual basis in mainstream peer reviewed science? It's gross to try to give a disabled or chronically ill person unsolicited treatment or religious advice. 6. I asked that disabled person what was wrong with them and they got mad! Why?

Random strangers you meet are not required to give you detailed descriptions of their medical conditions. Also, asking anyone what is WRONG with them is so damned rude. 7. Ugh, the pandemic is over but that person is still wearing a mask! ROFL.

Yeah, there are a lot of people out there who are either immunocompromised or have another condition that makes them high risk for the numerous airborne viral illnesses still circulating, or they live with/care for someone who is, or they have another reason they're wearing a mask and they don't want to get sick. And? Mind your business. 8. Heh, that person said they were allergic to soy and I put soy milk in their coffee! They'll never know.

Congrats, you just might have killed someone or sent them to the hospital. If someone's telling you they have an allergy, please for God's sake take them seriously. If they consume or in some cases even smell or have contact with that allergen, it could absolutely kill or hospitalize them. There are also a lot of other medical reasons someone might tell you they can't have a particular food or drink - for example, some very common medications have a serious interaction with some very common fruits that could potentially cause them a tremendous amount of harm. Or they have a condition like celiac disease where eating certain things will result in pain and illness flares and serious complications for them. None of that is a joke. 9. Eyeroll this disabled person needs to get to the bathroom/another area that is only accessible by stairs and now they need me to unlock the elevator or door for them. Damned PITA.

Blame your employer or whoever owns the building for not making it accessible. Don't blame the disabled person who is asking for the same access to the facility as anyone else. Do you really think it's the highlight of anyone's day to find a locked elevator and have to search for whomever has the key, simply to go pee? 10. Eh, that person told me they can't walk up the stairs! But it's not that steep!

If a person tells you they can't walk up or down stairs, they can't walk up or down stairs. Period. Case closed. This isn't something negotiable.

[bladeweavedance]

I decided to do one of those ship template meme thingies. There is no official height for either of these characters that I have seen, but they appear to be about the same size, so I kind of gave 'em an average-ish height. Wyll's age is his official age. Gale does not have any official age - he looks to be in his early-mid 40s, but I can't discount the idea that the orb might have prematurely aged him a bit, so I put him in his late-30s.

I figure Wyll and Gale take turns being the big/little spoon hence why I kinda halfsies it for both of them.

For the lends clothes / borrows clothes thing… Well, first of all, I headcanon Gale as being stockier than Wyll weight-wise - so it's likely Gale would not fit in any of Wyll's clothes (which seem rather tight on him anyway). Additionally, I just have this thought in my head that Wyll is sort of used to not being near a water source for washing his clothes for days at a time - so, he might sort of have this habit where he ends up running out of clean clothes and where normally he'd just wear the same thing over again (sort of a young bachelor-type of mindset almost), he just decides to borrow Gale's clothes instead. When they get married, Gale tries to gently break him of this habit. Though, he does like seeing Wyll wearing his clothes. It does things to him. LOL

I feel like neither Wyll nor Gale are the type to really excessively use pet names, but they might use a few simple ones with the occasional unique one sprinkled in. Wyll uses darling, dearest, my love - and maybe "my sweet wizard" and "my king" - playing into the sort of fairytale romance thing with that. Gale is put-off on using darling himself because he's heard Astarion use it too much, but he also uses dearest, my love, my hero, my Blade, and he uses "my king" back to Wyll as well.

Wyll is very charming and he seems really sociable when he's in a good mood (he mentioned dancing a bunch of sarabandes with the ladies and gentlemen of the Gate, and he's really a Man of the People sort, I think - he likes interacting with people and inspiring them) - so I put him all the way on the extroverted side. Gale is a bit harder to judge - on the one hand, he enjoys a lot of solitary activities (reading, he stands off to the side at parties, etc.), but he also exhibits a lot of very social traits as well - seeming to enjoy conversation and hanging out in bars. So, I headcanon him as being the sort that's kind of in the middle in terms of extroverted and introverted.

Wyll and Gale are not only both service-oriented people, but they're also rather eloquent and enjoy romantic phrases and poetry and building up people around them (especially their partner). So, I see both of them as being in-between when it comes to Affection through Words and Affection through Actions.

I wasn't really sure what to put in regards to Confesses First and Waits for Confession. On the one hand, they both tend to play the slow-burn in terms of romance, but on the other hand, they're both also rather eager and bold people… Sooo… I kinda just put them both on the same level. They seem like they'd both confess their feelings first at various points in their relationship (Gale might be the first to say "I love you" but Wyll ends up being the first to propose or what have you).

The bugs question… ROFL While I don't see Gale as really being the scream-y sort about anything really (he's pretty level-headed in the face of danger), he does seem to harbor some wariness towards bugs, particularly spiders (Not just the "Stop licking the damn thing!" but he has some words about phase spiders and Kar'niss). Wyll meanwhile is absolutely fearless and will definitely squash bugs or anything else that might set Gale on edge without question.

More to come for the rest of this! Darn character limit…

[damnfandomproblems]

I'm going to round up the remaining few more replies regarding 8073 and hopefully we can move on, with further discussion taking place in the comments of their respective posts instead of in the inbox.

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Anon:

"Believing every person has DID", said like there's even a question of some of them actually having it ... meanwhile the last couple blogs I saw were shit like "The fallen collective" blood/vamp/them, bodily 16, partner system "the Toybox Collective" "The divine collective" bodily 16 (quelle surprise), bpd + npd + autism + "c-DID" (hey look, an actual fake disorder) "The gore system" 200+ alters discovered (rofl), bodily minor (is anyone else seeing a pattern here because I'm not) These were way too easy to find, my blocks are full of them. Every single one screams "i'm a dumbass kid who doesn't know wtf they're doing and needs actual therapy," there isn't even room for any of them to be real. Sorry, but laughing at the fact you say people are acting like truscum for raising an eyebrow at these actual children who think they all have a disorder so rare even experts disagree on its existence and think it might just be a type of BPD or something. In that way a lot of these kids do seem to have BPD, so maybe there IS a connection there! But rofl, it's not DID, and fuck you for trying to equate healthy skepticism to bigotry. If everyone woke up tomorrow and pretended to have ALS (but they wouldn't, because it's not intriguing or sexy or creative), I'd be singing the same tune.

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Anon:

(replying to this ask)

The fact the "generations" anon effectively predicted the demographics of people who would like a dumb ask like this is SENDING ME holy shit lol. Never disappoint, tumblr. Or never stop disappointing, that is...

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Anon:

(replying to same ask)

I always think to myself, maybe fandom, maybe internet, isn't so bad actually, then I see something like this that implies people who don't believe these children who are playing make-belief disorders are similar to fucking transphobes, and I lose my mind all over again. I have no faith in humanity anymore.

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Anon:

(replying to same ask)

Harassing people is bad. Going into their inboxes and concern trolling is also bad. But this is a pretty stanky ask. Sorry, but if someone looks at minor #489523 on tumblr who says they have a Tyler Durden, DreamSMP, and twenty other pop culture characters as "alters", and call themselves something nuts like "the guillotine outrage system", and immediately discounts them as not really having DID... Saying that they're somehow similar to a truscum for that is the most outlandish crap ever. Are these kids fucked up? Probably. Most well adjusted kids don't do this. A lot of them are probably fucked up mental-health wise. The rest are falling way too far down into the peer pressure and in-group rabbit holes. But it's so not DID. God forbid someone uses their brain and exercises nuance and understands that fact. I guess they're like a truscum now, just for doing that? Pathetic, guys. Pathetic. You can't just go, "oh, you sound like a truscum" whenever someone points out basic probability, trends, and facts. It just makes you look like a tool.

[fairytalemorgue]

ohayou soz abt last night myu im gonna make it up to u by bothering u some more <333

i have a challenge but u can pick which one u want

oumaeda conspiracy theory (the more unhinged the better rofl admittedly this one might be expert mode

skip 4 songs in ur media app & w/e song is the 5th is ur song recommendation (u obv have to say it lmfao >:) dont cheat MYU 5th song even if its embarassing

good luuuuck <3333

Good morning~

I really need to clear out my screenshots, I don't even know why I have some of them XD! Anyway, I'll see what I can do.

not sure if this has any actual meaning, it might? But Nagito's collection of horse figurines in his cottage in d2 XD! I'll explain if necessary.

Opeth - By the Pain I See in Others

eta: I just saw the part where you said I could pick one or the other XD! Guess I did both, what do I win~?

[austinslounge]

why not be with someone you care about though? It’s not as if Austin would have a difficult time finding someone who actually adores him. Unless he has someone that we don’t know about on the side that he actually cares about.

Idk about Austin's private life other than what we see out in the open.

Wrt your question though -- Think about this for a second. This is just a thought.

Austin was in an almost 9-year relationship with a woman that he loved very much, and who was the most serious (and longest) relationship he's had in his adult life so far. Austin and Vanessa were practically married rofl 🤣, and in some states, they may have even been viewed as a common law marriage. When they broke up, it was shocking (tbh), and one of the reasons I think they may have gone their separate ways is because Vanessa may have been coming to a stage of her life where she really wanted to settle down and start having kids (which is totally normal and understandable), and Austin just wasn't ready for that at that time, and/or perhaps wanted to get his career in order first before settling down with someone. They were discussing marriage before their breakup, so it's obviously smthg that they were both considering.

No matter what V stans on Twitter or random people online say, I think both Vanessa and Austin were both hurt by the breakup. Anytime you have been with someone for that long, it's going to hurt when you go through a breakup with them, because this was someone you loved, someone you shared your deep thoughts and feelings with, and (in Austin & Vanessa's case) someone who went through the toughest moments of the death of a parent with you and were there for you during those difficult times. 😔 Even if you know that a breakup was for the best, it still hurts.

Idc what anyone says, that breakup hurt Austin too. He doesn't have a heart of stone, and we all saw how happy and how comfortable (at least in public) he looked with her. So nobody can convince me that he wasn't hurt by their breakup too.

We all know the rebounding he did after the breakup. It's normal.

My thought is: I've been wondering if maybe due to what he went through with Vanessa and how painful it was that he wasn't able to be "the one" for her or who she wanted him to be (her husband), that Austin may have decided that the next "serious" relationship he got into with a woman, he would make sure that it wasn't someone that he wanted to be super serious with, and he wouldn't be with someone who would want kids and marriage right now so as not to hurt the person or go through pain himself.

Right now, Austin's main priority seems to be his career. That's not to say that he doesn't ever want marriage or kids one day (he's never talked about those things, so we really don't know for sure), but it might just mean that he doesn't necessarily want those things right now.

Again, this is just a theory, not fact.

[dvilsdesire]

SENSES & OTHER SPECIFIC HEADCANONS

What does your muse smell like?

Haarlep smells of perfumes and oils. Expensive ones. Generally speaking, he soaks himself with whatever Raphael has around the house (so that would be palmarosa, pepper, and cherries). Beneath that, though, Haarlep's pheromones are musky, the smell of warm skin that is comforting, of sweat that might attract someone. When they are strong, it's thick, like you can't get it out of your mouth and nose. It can be extremely intoxicating.

What do your muse’s hands feel like? 

His true form hands are gentle and soft, as if Haarlep hasn't worked a day in his life. They are well looked after and lotioned, and of course, being an incubus, they are smooth and well skilled. They are softer than Raphael's glamour.

What does your muse usually eat in a day?

Raphael's cock? Lol. If he can't get his hands on a soul, Haarlep will munch on the delights around him. Grapes, fruits, meats. He prefers his meat raw, and he has a taste for hearts in particular. Food does nothing for his kind, it's just something to partake in. His sustenance is gained by souls and/or the pleasures of sexual intercourse.

Does your muse have a good singing voice?

It's pretty decent, yes. (lol I'm still not 100% convinced that I want his true voice to be Tim Curry when he was younger but >.> the DRAMATICS)

does your muse have any bad habits or nervous tics? 

Bad habits? I'm pretty sure Haarlep IS a bad habit rofl. Haarlep is a troublemaker and an absolute gremlin. He is cruel, mean, mischievous in nature, has no social boundaries, likes to watch others suffer and cause paint and torment, and he literally tries to bed anything that moves (: I wouldn't say they have any nervous ticks, but Haarlep can get very bitchy and hissy, and turns into a real fiend (like a serpent) when pressed.

what does your muse usually look like/wear?

Raphael's younger self. Haarlep wears Raphael's glamour 98% of the time. Obviously because Raphael demands it, but it's also become a bit of a comfort and trophy for Lep'Lep. Clothes range from outright nothing to gimp outfit, to sexy gowns and... RARELY... (begrudgingly) proper clothes.

is your muse affectionate?  how much?  how so?

You might not think he is, because he's a fiend, but Haarlep is literally a house cat. He LOVES affection, but it's entirely on HIS terms. If he doesn't want you touching him, he'll turn his tail on you and walk across your lap like a cat saying fuck you lol. But yes, he gains a lot of pleasure by getting affection off others, and also by giving it. He's a very physical creature. Haarlep is sensual and sexy in nature, and when he's not being sexy, he's being cute by sitting on the desk or someone's lap, or massaging their shoulders from behind so he can get nice and close and soak up some of that physical affection.

what position does your muse sleep in?

Haarlep doesn't require sleep, but that doesn't mean he won't rest his eyes (okay dad...). He lounges anywhere. Obviously if the bed is free, that's the most comfortable. Haarlep tends to sleep in a ball, curled. His true form has digitigrade legs, so it's more comfortable curled up. But in his boredom, he might also end up on the floor, or hanging upside down like a bat. He's entirely chaotic in this nature, and it's not uncommon for Raphael to find him resting in odd places. When sharing the bed with Raphael, he is generally the bigger spoon, and snuggles close to his pookie.

could you hear your muse in the hallway from another room?

If Haarlep wants you to, then absolutely. Generally, he's more soft spoken, with an intimately close voice that makes you lean in just a little more. But that's all part of the manipulation. Generally speaking, he's bold in voice, and as proud as his master. Haarlep is precisely as loud as he's MEANT to be at the given time.

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[skaruresonic]

TBH I refuse to play SXS Gens out of pure principle until the option to restore the original Generations dialogues and animations are avaible, fuck the rewrites

I just finished the Shadow portion lol. Overall I feel like you're not missing much. Like, yeah, it's supposed to be an anniversary game and all that, but there's honestly not much in the way of story. You would unironically be better off playing the older games before this one.

I really feel like the "SxS Gens is necessary to catch new players up to Shadow's history" argument is looking a lot weaker now. If anything, you wouldn't understand the emotional resonances behind many of the allusions unless you've played previous games; they don't provide exposition or context within the narrative itself. You wouldn't know that the ARK raid happened because nobody implies as much. The narrative is written as though it expects you to know why Black Doom's threats to possess Shadow are such a big deal.

This game's narrative is about as patchwork as Gens; characters are in nonsensical spots (why do we find Metal Overlord in Kingdom Valley's boss area, but Mephiles in some random cave on the side of Chaos Island's? what purpose did Metal Overlord's presence serve? or Mephiles', for that matter?) and the plot is just "stop giant monster before it destroys the world" sans Eggman. Much peak, many wow.

There's literally no plot progression from point to point; there are six levels in total, and you will only see most of the "plot" unfold at the 3/4ths mark. Until then, you're just running around without much rhyme or reason.

Maria and Gerald are simply there for moral support. They don't really do anything besides that. Gerald justifies this by claiming he doesn't want to mess with the timeline by changing anything.

I went around talking to various characters. Conversations with Big and Maria were the most enjoyable, and I felt like they were the highlight of the game. Rouge gets a bit on-the-nose by comparing herself to Amy when saying she'd support Shadow. Some of Omega's lines strike me as a little acanonical. For some reason, Orbot and Cubot are also there, and you can help them build a rocket by collecting 80 machine pieces. From what I've heard, however, there's no reward for collecting them all, so I was like "lol bye" and left.

I was also disappointed by the lack of a Sonic boss fight. I would have loved a reprise of the original ARK race from Gens; it would have been a nice callback to how you get to see the race from both perspectives in SA2 as well, but we can't have nice things ig :v

Mephiles appears. Lol. Lmao, even. Rofl, if you will. It feels like ST included him solely to riff on the fact that he'll never be canon. He's such a nothingburger of a character and is so negligible as a plot point that he might as well not have been there. He's only there because fans wanted to see him again.

For one thing, you find him in an out-of-the-way cave under Chaos Island. For another, my guy literally says "I just want to exist" and Shadow goes "no. perish." Based, but also, way to waste my time lmao.

Black Doom wants to consume the world as well as possess Shadow. It's not explained how he returned; Gerald handwaves it as "he rebuilt his body through timey-wimey shenanigans."

The gameplay is serviceable for the most part but also incredibly tedious; I found I only enjoyed Radical Highway Act One, and that was because the design was unencumbered by the use of Doom Powers.

Chaos Control and Chaos Spear are your standard abilities, nothing to write home about.

Doom Missile has limited application since only enemies or targets can be shot down, and thus isn't used much.

Doom Surf controls like a friggin' surfing Blooper.

Doom Morph is okay, I guess. Shadow turns into a giant squid and is able to traverse pools of Black Arms juice.

I hate how the Doom Wings control so much omfg. And they say the Homing Attack is a crapshoot. >.>

tl;dr It's okay. Not terrible, but I honestly don't think I'd play it again.

[lullabyalikpoptarot]

well for BTS I have always received that their success is actually organic and not the type to paid off or YK Boys seems organic too and people who have worked with them have said it too. my intiution and readings not saying u are wrong tho but the government is actually very much after bts instead they have been dragged for absolutely everything. Take Yoongi's recent dui case for example he was pushed to another limit and now even after he is receiving dead wreaths the company and the govt. are down and so are other idols. ALSO if they were that you know..i do not feel that they would not have not gotten a grammy. every human has flaws and i do not even stan them but the boys energy is cool to me and great jimin actually is most hard to connect to sometimes and so is Yoongi because they are protective. for jk he is very talkative sometimes and have received positive on my side but of course everyone have different sides. and tarot and intution both are not always 100 percent accurate even ours rofl.

I never said I was right, and I did not say they weren't organic. I do believe in the beginning it was, but to be a high-level stakes fame as they are, I feel you got to play the game at some level to stay at that level, or they will knock you back down. This is all opinion and feeling. No one ever knows. I just express my opinion and my gut feeling. I trust no one in the industry and their energy can block things, so you might not get who they truly are. And I am not here to knock these people down. I agree we all have flaws, and I am not judging them in a negative light. I have a problem with the industry, not the idols. My readings are to show to not idolize these people. And to look beyond the veil of illusion they show, not their fault, it is the industry I dislike. I like people to empathize and relate with the idols more. To not put them on a pedestal, none of them are above us, but I don't want people to look down on them either. We are all on the same level, trying to move through this world. But there will be people who will have a negative view on these idols and that is how it is. At the end of the day, it is all opinion.

[ashlynniis-bracketeers]

Woe, sequel to this be upon ye.

Seeing discussion about my post and possible Sinner/E.G.O combinations in regards to the Magical Girl E.G.Os, I ended up slapping this chart together, mainly of personal theorization.

I used the Sinner symbols for the Sinners, and Card Suits for the Abnos/E.G.O. For the Abnos, from left-to-right: Diamond for King of Greed/Magical Girl of Happiness (Gold Rush), Heart for Queen of Hatred/Magical Girl of Happiness (In the Name of Love and Hate), Spade for Knight of Despair/Magical Girl of Justice (the Sword Sharpened With Tears), Club for Servant of Wrath/Magical Girl of Courage (Unknown E.G.O name). I will be shortening their names to KoG (King of Greed), QoH (Queen of Hatred), KoD (Knight of Despair), and SoW (Servant of Wrath).

It was a massive pain in the ass lmao. There are twelve Sinners and four Magical Girls, so it would logically be a trio of Sinners for each E.G.O, but trying to cut them out so cleanly was... not possible with my skills and knowledge, to say the least lmao. Servant of Wrath fits for so many of the Sinners, it's unreal. Also, wtf do I do with Ryo, Hongler, and Outism rofl.

More detailed thoughts (and a blank version if any of you want to take a stab at it) under a cut. [Includes spoilers for Murder on the WARP Express (and things before it). You have been warned.]

Yi Sang - I'm not going to lie, I mainly just gave him Knight of Despair because... well, just look at him lmao. I put a tentative check for King of Greed because he simply desired to bring happiness for others, but was consumed... though by despair instead of greed/gluttony like the KoG.

Faust - Inside the Limbus fandom, people tend to forget that Gloom is normally replaced by Greed as one of the Seven Deadly Sins in real life, but Greed has been swallowed up and assimilated into Gluttony within the City. We don't know much about "Our" Faust, disconnected from the Gesellschaft, but something that we see between both of them is this: Curiosity. An all-consuming curiosity, a hunger for knowledge. I put a tentative check for Servant of Wrath because of the possibility of her turning against the Gesellschaft at some point in the future, making it her "Hermit of the Azure Forest" figure. This is entirely theorization, hence the tentativeness.

Don Quixote - Both the QoH and KoD seem to fit her quite well. She's made of two drastically-different sides, after all, and could both work depending on what her future is in her Canto and beyond. Someone desperate for purpose and usefulness, their manic personality possibly falling into hysteria and twisting themselves into a monster... or a monster twisting themselves into a human, in this case. And the Knight of Despair was originally the Magical Girl of Justice, after all. I put a tentative check for KoG because of the possibility of her being consumed by her desires, trying to seek happiness through serving others in something that could be seen as selfish means.

Ryoshu - I honestly wasn't sure what to do for her. Ended up just slapping on the King of Greed because her... art tastes, combined with her love of making this "art", can be seen as a selfish pursuit of happiness. A tentative KoD check because... Well, she might have already gone through her original "despair arc" before joining the company, if you understand what I mean (something related to her original literary inspiration).

Meursault - See the post this is a sequel to for more info, but I may as well copy-paste a copy-paste from it: "QoH seems to define herself by “usefulness” or “purpose”. When there’s evil in the world, she has a purpose! She’s happy to serve, in the name of Love, when there’s a villain on the loose! But without evil, without a villain, she’s “useless”, and risks being… thrown away. QoH seeks Love (and technically Happiness, though that’s technically more King of Greed), while Meur has been attempting to seek happiness. QoH is eager to serve, until she is considered “useless” and goes ballistic, while Meur tends to obey without complaint and both has difficulty expressing his emotions and was probably taught to repress them heavily, and probably feels some bottled-up resentment over the idea of being discarded…" And on that note: QoH's "hysterical" state and monstrous transformation could also bring to mind his book counterpart emotionally blowing up at the end of the book. He has tentative checks in KoG and SoW. Starting with SoW: His "Hermit" figure could be many people/figures as he grows more independent and self-driven. For KoG: He's been trying to "seek happiness" for a long time. Who's to say that, as he grows more independent and self-driven, that his ways of seeking happiness don't become more selfish and/or possibly self-destructive? Just because a character is progressing doesn't mean it has to be entirely "positive", especially in The City.

Hong Lu - Oh, I have no clue what to do with him lmao. It's why he has no "certain" checkmarks. I have tentative checks in QoH and SoW. Starting with QoH: He simply wishes to selflessly make people happy, from just being nice to lying to try and soften the blow of a tragedy upon another. For SoW: He seems to have some form of both admiration for and resentment towards his family, members of which could act as his "Hermit" figure(s). The question mark for KoG is because of what his reasons could be for joining the Limbus Company in the first place, despite the high risk of death and people often treating him like garbage. Some kind of self-destructive attempt at freedom?

Heathcliff - KoD may seem like an odd pick... but he was originally seeking "justice" against Cathy for her (as he perceived it) rejection of him, and even know he seeks justice for Cathy and vows to bring her back. His Distortion is also caused by him falling into despair over the idea of never growing into more than a "violent beast". There are tentative checks for QoH and SoW. Starting with QoH: He is also heavily motivated by love, and his Distorted form is called "The Heartbroken". For SoW: His "Hermit" figure could be Nelly. The question mark in KoG is because, beyond everything, he just wanted to be happy for once.

Ishmael - She's definitely with SoW. Ahab is easily her "Hermit" figure. She has a tentative check in KoG because the entire reason she got involved with Ahab and the Pequod in the first place was because she desired more than just a soul-numbing Nest office job, and this desire for freedom and excitement ended up almost consuming her entirely. There's question marks for QoH and KoD. Starting with QoH: A lot of the danger outside of the Lake itself in Canto 5 all started because she mentioned Queequeg, who it was... well, you've seen how popular Ishmael/Queequeg is entirely because of stuff in-game, so you should get the picture. She also grew increasingly manic, violent, some would say hysterical throughout the Canto. For KoD: She genuinely believed that she was valued on the Pequod... at least, for a time. Then, well...

Rodion - She's definitely KoG, no contest. Her own selfishness and desire to be "special" is what led to much of her group being slaughtered, which she then tried to numb with attempts at mindless hedonism and gluttony. I put a question mark for QoH because I've heard many people interoperate the QoH as being representative of hypocrisy, which she has in spades... or hearts, in this case.

Sinclair - Yep, definitely SoW. Kromer is his "Hermit" figure, he's generally considered the youngest of the Sinners (like how the SoW is the youngest of the Magical Girls), and he tends to lash out with surprising, rage-filled murderous violence.

Outis - I had no clue what to do with you, either lmao. I put a check in KoG because she seems to desire happiness through seizing power. She's the resident notorious ass-kisser, and she is implied to have been a higher-ranking military rank, which is something she seems to desire the high of again. The KoG also seems to have been the leading Magical Girl, if some of QoH's breaching lines are any indication. I put a tentative check for KoD because of possible reasons why she's no longer a high-ranking military figure. Her information is heavily redacted and unknown, so that could mean one of two things: She was either forcefully expelled from her position and now has bad blood with her original work, or she left of her own volition for a reason. And she seems to genuinely care for her subordinates...

Gregor - He feels like he fits SoW to me, with Hermann acting as his "Hermit" figure. A child abused and manipulated, used as a tool of propaganda, turned into a monster, by his own mother... I put a tentative check for KoD based around the "originally bright-eyed and happy to help, but turned jaded and sorrowful by his military service" angle, which is more pronounced in his "G Corp. Manager Corporal Gregor" Identity. I put a question mark for QoH because of his possible desires to love and the "an upsurge of emotion or a sudden change of environment may cause parts or the whole of his body to transform into insectile (notably akin to a carapace, resembling that of the _) tissues" information from his introduction information possibly being a good analogue to QoH's Hysteria and Serpent states.

Here's the blank, go nuts.

[lou-struck]

Like the Dead

Belphegor x reader

Prompt: +🧟‍♂️+sleep

~ Belphie is not a morning demon, but today he has to be, one way or another

WC: 1.2k 

~This is one of the requested prompts for My Emoticon Expression’s Event; check out the Masterlist on my welcome page.

The dining room is silent, save for the occasional sound of silverware clinking against porcelain as you do your best to wake yourself up to prepare for the long day ahead of you.

You and the Brothers have planned a quick trip to the east side of the Devildom by railway, with your departure time less than two hours away. Lucifer had called the lot of you down for an extremely early breakfast. 

Taking a sip from your glass, you look around the table. You see, with tired eyes, that almost everyone is accounted for. 

“Beel, where is Belphie?” Lucifer asks, looking up from his black coffee of melancholy and looking at the orange-haired demon who sleepily eats through his second bowl of porridge. “We have to leave in a few minutes.

The demon adverts his eyes nervously and glances off down the hall. “Uhh, he said he would be down in a few minutes. I made sure to leave him something to eat this time.”

“And you trusted him?” Asmodeus giggles, looking as fresh-faced as ever, thanks to going to bed early to get his beauty sleep. "Everyone knows that Belphie sleeps like the dead, I bet he would beat some zombies in a laziness competition."

“Yeah,” Mammon snorts, taking a bite of fruit. “If none of us even tried to wake him up, he would sleep through our whole trip.”

“ROFL,” Levi adds unhelpfully from the seat next to you. His shoulders shake with laughter as he spreads a deep purple jam onto his toast.

You can’t help but feel sorry for Lucifer; judging by the deep circles under his eyes, he hadn’t slept at all last night in order to prepare for this trip; taking another long sip of your drink, you elect to help him out. “I can go check on him,” you offer, setting your now empty glass on the table. 

“Thank you, Mc, that would be most helpful,” Lucifer sighs, giving you a thankful smile and returning to his coffee, drinking it hungrily as if it were his god.

As you get up from your seat, your thoughts drift to the youngest brother. Belphie is definitely not a morning Demon, so waking him up would be difficult. If it were another day, he might even try to get to you just to fall asleep next to him, and you would easily give in to his attempts. Although it would be heavenly, it is a luxury you can’t afford. Shaking those tempting little thoughts of sloth out of your head, you move as quickly as you can down the hallway, your feet barely touching the carpet as you rush toward his room.

A quick turn of the door knob brings you into the twin’s room; the split of orange and purple down the middle is always interesting to look at as you walk over to the purple side and look into the lump of blankets and pillows to find that as expected, Belphegor is fast asleep.

Although Asmo was only teasing the sixth brother, he was right. When Belphie says five more minutes, he really means five more hours.

And the empty suitcase that rests upside down on the floor tells you something rather important. He hasn’t even packed yet; if Lucifer had been the one to come up here, the youngest brother would have had to go the whole train ride tied to the front of the engine.

“Time to wake up,” you say, opening the shades and letting bright moonlight into the room. Despite the light directly shining in the Avatar of Sloth’s face, he doesn’t budge from his slumber.

“Belphie,” you call, grabbing his slender shoulders and shaking the sleeping demon, “You have to get up, or you’ll miss the vacation.”

“Uhhhhh.” he groans, gripping your hand, trying to pull you into bed with him. “It’s too early to move; give me five more minutes.”

You shake your head sympathetically, “you know I can’t let you do that. If you miss the trip, you’ll regret it later.”

He goes still for a moment registering your words. “But I can’t get up on my own. Use it,” he groans at last into his spotted pillow. “Use our pact to help me wake up.”

“Are you sure, Belphie?” you ask slowly. You prefer not to use the pacts you have made with the brothers, but if he is insistent on it, you don’t have a problem with it.

“Yes, please use it.” he pleads blindly, reaching across the bed to try to grip your hand, it makes you laugh, and you take pity on the sleepy demon and grab his hand to hold.

“If that’s what you want, I can help you,” you say softly, watching as he nods into the pillow. Taking a deep breath, you command him out loud. “Get out of bed, pack your suitcase, and get dressed.”

The pact takes hold, and he sits up instantly with a surprised gasp. His eyes are still heavily lidded as he slips out of bed and stumbles to the closet. Where you hear the sound of sliding hangers and shuffling.

When he comes back into view, you notice that, despite his movements and the care he has when choosing his clothing, you wouldn’t really call Belphie awake; he moves slowly through the room, almost like a zombie with heavy limbs and even heavier sighs. 

'He even walks like the dead' you whisper to yourself.

As he turns in your direction, you can’t tell if his eyes are open. His lids are so low it’s almost as if he is sleepwalking, and the pact is the only thing keeping him moving right now.

You watch in fascination as he haphazardly drops an armful of clothing into his little suitcase. Judging by the mess, he has made you wonder if you should’ve been more specific with the pact command.

He grunts and goes off to another corner of the room to continue packing. 

Taking pity on the tired demon, you decide to help him out just a bit, carefully folding the clothes and tucking them securely into the suitcase. So that it can all fit properly.

His brain doesn’t even register that you are right in front of him when he plops more things into the suitcase. Normally if he saw you carefully folding up his cow print boxes, he would’ve tried to tease you, but today, your Sleepy Little Zombie gives you nothing. 

He remains focused until the last few things are tossed into his suitcase, and it is securely zipped up.

With the task completed, he looks at you in surprise, awakening from his zombie-like state. 

“That was weird,” he mumbles. “I was so tired when you gave the pact it felt like I was sleepwalking.”

“Was that okay?” you ask, “I didn’t make you feel uncomfortable at all, did I?”

“More than okay, thanks to you. I am all packed up and ready to go,” he yawns, leaning against you sleepily, “Can I go back to bed now?”

You shake your head, “Not yet, but I promise once we get to the train, you can sleep the whole ride.”

“Fine,” he sighs, “but promise me that I can use you as my pillow for the trip.” His violet eyes are alight with mischief as he looks at you pleadingly. He knows you won’t turn him down.

You laugh and ruffle his already slightly messy bedhead, “I think that can be arranged, but we have to get downstairs before Lucifer comes up and wonders what is taking us so long.”