#i rewatched both and cried cuz it was so good

[zeviolett]

[nutklcker]

I'm thinking about Curly and the fact the fandom is kinda slowly turning on him and starting to,,, blame him? More than Jimmy? And I've just been thinking about that

Like the takeaway from the game that Curly did not do the right thing and was not good at taking care of the crew is DEFINITELY an important, if not the most important, takeaway. Being constantly aware of toxic masculinity causing the bystander effect in others who feel like they have to cover for the toxic ppl is VERY IMPORTANT and I don't want to confuse people into going "Curly did nothing wrong!" "He's just a victim too it's not his fault!" "He didn't need to be responsible for Jimmy's actions!" Cuz that's just dangerous

But I do wanna dive into the fact that I think his actions (lackthereof) aren't just due to toxic masculinity and that feeling many cis men have where they have to cover for other toxic men and try to downplay all negative situations. Maybe it's just that I relate too much to Curly but it really seems to me that, after Anya, he's the most abused by Jimmy.

Like, I rewatched the Curly's Birthday Party scene where Jimmy not only berates him BRUTALLY but does so IN FRONT OF EVERYONE ELSE (/nm) AND Curly doesn't stand up for himself after the first few attempts, which will come back later. Jimmy verbally abuses him so comfortably (seen via 1.him doing it in front of everyone else 2.the fact he got Curly to shut up really fast and 3.the fact nobody stepped in to help Curly/stop Jimmy (which in Anya's case is so fair she was like having a panic attack but I was really expecting Swansea to say something or Daisuke to try and defuse)) really makes it seem like that's a common occurrence. The fact that the crew is used to it just feels like not only has he done that before but he does it frequently enough that even Daisuke, the last minute new hire, is used to it

Like when I first saw that scene my first thought was oh shit Jimmy really does abuse EVERYONE indiscriminately. But it kinda seems like the fandom forgot how quick and comfortable he was verbally abusing Curly On His Birthday Celebration, In Front Of Everyone.

And then, what I said earlier about Curly trying to fight back a little at first before giving up and just taking the beratement 100% applies to the scene where Jimmy beats Curly after giving him his pills. The same thing happens there, Curly screams out at first but eventually stops and just whimpers/cries while Jimmy beats him until he's done, at which point Curly starts full-on crying.

And again, this doesn't absolve him of the fact he didn't help Anya. Not one fucking bit. Like, as much as it's played for irony in game it was, to a pretty big extent, his responsibility as captain to make sure that his crew could coexist. And he SHOULD have done more to stop Jimmy. I'm not saying he's innocent, I'm saying that the assumption that he was a bystander to Jimmy's actions simply due to toxic masculinity influencing men to cover for one another is a little inaccurate. It's definitely the more important takeaway because being conscious of the dangers around you is important. It's just that seeing the specific ways he was abused by Jimmy and how he reacted to it makes me feel like it was less of a toxic masculinity thing and more of a Fawn response thing, because he DEFINITELY was a victim of Jimmy's abuse too. And I feel like that's a little important, both to show how men can abuse and manipulate one another and to show how abuse in general can make more than the abuser a danger to others (in the sense of people who are abused are less likely to speak out when they see other abuse, because they're used to it (speaking from experience, not being an asshole)). But I really don't want this leading people to baby Curly and excuse him from not sticking up for Anya more, cuz it's not an excuse, it's an explanation, a further development. He is still at fault for not doing more, but I this the reason he didn't do more isn't a toxic masculinity thing but an abuse victim thing

(Also it's interesting to see how Jimmy doesn't fuck with Swansea very much. I assume it's because he knows he can't topple Swansea, yet he's already toppled Curly and Anya so they're the easiest victims of his abuses. He knows Swansea would fight back, but he already has Curly wrapped around his little finger and Anya severely traumatized so he just focuses on them instead. Also this is in reference to the fact he doesn't try to go around Swansea and get into the Util/Cryopod room until he thinks Anya's hurt Curly. It's like he's afraid of Swansea, which he should be <3)

[k-odyssey]

The Matchmakers | ep 11 + 12

^ is it me or did these episodes have cozy vibes in spite of... everything? like attempted murders, treason plots, detective work, heartbreak and the usual matchmaking.

all of that time seon deok and mr resentful man were spending together was strangely comforting to watch. because their love is a forbidden one, it felt like like time they had stolen for themselves. reclaimed, if you will. with the excuse of matchmaking, of course.

i'm so happy the prince finally knows who seon deok is. it took 12 eps!!!! he knows her full self!!! and then they almost died, and they kissed!!! and i cried because it was actually so damn sad to watch. since seon doek was really saying she had fought this love and lost, and truly looked in despair. she sees no future in which they can be together and it hurts.

i actually like the character of seon deok's mother in law a lot. she's plotting to put her heir on the throne, so in that way she's an antagonist. but she's also a woman, and as powerful as she is, the men who're supposed to be on her side don't treat her with the respect they'd give a man. even tho she's smarter than them.

she's also good to seon deok, as conservative as she is. and she fiercely loved both of her sons. i trust her to take revenge for her eldest's murder.

sometimes the drama is obviously trying to explain a plot point and i have to pause and wind back cuz i don't get it lol. like ep 12, mr prince (rowoon) was standing with the officer (future brother in law) in front of the red string conspiracy board. they were strategizing. and i was like, i did not get a thing of what you said.

mostly i never know how anyone is named so i have to use context clues. after rewatching i kinda got that they were going to propose punishing the traitors for different crimes, to spare seon deok's family. but for a moment there i was like, wat?? how does that work? (also will the traitors die? i did not get that part)

and um, yeah, they're really going for the match between a child and a grown woman. feels "of the times", in a way. is it a feminist twist if the boy's the child? i'm kidding, i actually hate this. this drama has reality tv confessionals each episode (which i LOVE btw). so do we really need to bring such uncomfy age gaps from the past?? nope. we don't need that kind of realism here. he could've been like 17, that would've been much more acceptable.

outside of this one subplot, i loved watching these two eps!! like a lot. and i like how rowoon's character is so deeply uncool in many ways, but so earnest and fun to watch.

[kyuuxmizu]

I went to watch both events for the Gintama Ato no Matsuri!!

The afternoon event via live-viewing in the cinemas

The evening event inside the actual venue, Ryogoku Kokugikan~

IT WAS HONESTLY THE BEST DAY OF MY LIFE!!!

(2023 is also my 15th year as a Gintama fan so what better way to celebrate than attend the matsuri!!!!)

Hihi we used the penlights inside the live-viewing theater too.. hey most of the ppl in our row were using it too okayyy😂😂 It was so much fun!!!

ofc nothing beats the experience of watching it LIVE inside Ryogoku~🥹🥹

3Z Anime announced!!!! Everyone was like majiiiii????

They kindly asked us not to post any spoilers on social media until the evening event ends, so I kept mum about it XD

Upon arriving at the Ryogoku, my friends and I took pics of our matching Sonjuku ita-bags!! 🥹🥹 (Mine is the Takasugi one hehehe)

So many ppl!!

Then I went to pickup my preordered goods, which I'll post later!! XD

Outside Ryogoku~

Inside Ryogoku~

With my sibling wearing our matsuri shirts and sukajan~

We won the tickets during the Advance reservation lottery so we got pretty good seats~ マス席 in the first floor and facing the front! My friends were seated on a different row T^T

On to the event~ (A lot of screaming and crying XD)

I already knew most of what was gonna happen since I watched the afternoon event so I thought my hype would be dampened??? But the emotions just kept flowing!!!!!!!!!! 😭😭😭 (Tho ngl I wished they unveiled the 3z anime in the night event instead... I was expecting another bomb to drop actually hahahah xD)

The atmosphere inside Ryogoku... everyone's so passionate!!! You could feel the love not only from the fans but also from the seiyuu and bands as well!!! Aaaa I love Gintama and it's fandommm 🥹🥹💞💞

Never watched One Piece but the hype inside the venue and Kitadani's energy was so high it made me sing along too, idk how I managed to do it cuz I barely know the song😂😂 they went all out with this even parodying the OP of One Piece and the seiyuu mimicking the strawhat pose😂

Then the 生アフレコ went a trip down the memory lane🥹🥹 Makes me wanna rewatch everything all over again 😭

I started getting emotional when ChicoHani started singing ヒカリ証明論 (Kiheitai tapos Bansai death scene talaga..mashaket po mga mamshie...😭)

And サクラ舞う暁に..it's my fave ChicoHani song okayyy Chico shouting Matsuri ja Matsuri jaaa🌸🌸🌸 So fun to sing along with the crowd!!! Almost everyone switched their lights to pink!! one brain cell~ XD

Their surprise was the Samurai Heart cover!!! 😭😭😭

ChicoHani's gntmと出会わせてくれた song, Pride Kakumei!!! When the Honeyworks guitarist shouted "saikou da saikou" waaaa the hype!!!!! Crowd went crazy!!

Otsu-chan so cute I didn't expect the fox at all (Gintama always subverts expectations so true even for events like these x3)

Toshi always up for anything riding the Thousand Sunny Sadaharu-Eli ship hahahah And Sakaguchi-san!!! 🥹🥹

Then 生アフレコ again~!! XDDD

Surprise was KUROKO's special appearance (with Suzuken as Murasakibara and Nakai-san as Imayoshi!! Chiba-san's side comment: なんかイチャイチャする 😂😂😂😂)

SuzuKen funny he said he could hear Kensho Ono from the Kuroko mascot hahahah

plus GINCHAAAN (for the evening event)

It was so adorable how Sakaguchi-san took a pic of Gin-san and Sugita on stage... He really loves Gintama, ne (The whole cast loves Gintama!! that alone makes it so special)

Sugita's side comment: he wants Oguri Shun to join too hahahaha

DOES so cool!! Everyone switched their lights to red when DOES started their set list~

It's also no secret that Wataru-san loves Gintama sm, he mentions it in his SNS accts frequently🥹🥹 ワタルさんかっこ良かった...有難う! Crowd shouting Wataruuuu Bravo!!! XD

The SPYAIR covers gosh 😭😭😭 I almost cried listening to the Wadachi cover 😭😭😭 (I did cry when I rewatched it through Abema haha 😭😭😭)

From the band's message in the end, it was apparent that SPYAIR really wanted to attend but alas they have no vocalist yet 😭😭😭

The highlight of the event for me was Yama-chan's surprise appearance 🥹🥹 LITERAL CHILLSSSSS I mean... THE KOICHI YAMADERA...

Apparently, Yama-chan never attended events like these and Ato Matsuri was the first one. That alone just made me.....🥹🥹🥹😭😭

is Gintama that special he agreed to make an appearance 🥹🥹😭😭

Or did Higuchi-san (producer) really splurge their budget on him ahahahah

We were joking that they must have spent most of the special guest budget on Yama-chan that's prolly why no other guests appeared 😂

And gosh that man has range.... I also learned that Yama-chan voiced Donald Duck from Kingdom Hearts..!!! That's why his animal and nature dubs (from the special Matsuri manga) are on point 😂😂😂😂

He can sing too (He sang JPN version of Prince Ali and Circle of Life) and had a duet with Hirano Aya (Nobume VA) for the Yakuza game 😭

Koyasu-san was a no-show as usual (I had high hopes since he attended the Isekai Oji-san seiyuu event at Anime Japan last year) He had a voice message tho, saying his ponpon was in pain (basically he had a stomachache) 😂😂

And then there's Sugita's closing message 😭😭😭

That even though gntm has ended 4 years ago, he hasn't forgotten about Gintama

That he'll be Sakata Gintoki until he dies..no, even if he dies 😭😭😭GURL I GOT SO EMOTIONAL!!!

Then he says "Chinko"!! how very Gintoki!!!😂😂😂😂😂😂😂😂

And finally the Ginpachi-sensei anime which will be part of a series of projects for Gintama's 20th anniversary (which will last until 2026!!!) I am so excited 😭😭😭😭

AAAAAAA MY HEART AND WALLET ARE READY

As Suzuken said 終わらないね銀魂ァァ

Thank you so much Ryogoku~ See you again in the next Gintama Matsuri!!!

[kiwi-and-pasta-at-3am]

Update!!!

I have finished band of brothers! Watched both episode 9 and 10 yesterday but didn't post about it cuz holy fuck!!! What the hell!!! Oh if I cried!!! God damn it!!! Also!!! I'm failing math!!!

I spent a good chunk of my day choosing to acknowledge only and only the fact that at one point Speirs and Roe were in the same scene together, like it was just them on the jeep and hey those are my two favorite guys! So it was cool

I'll have to rewatch the first episodes now that I kinda sorta can recognize the characters better

Anyways it was one hell of a ride and the chemicals in my brain have been changed

Also everyone keeping Speirs from stealing shit in episode 10 was kinda funny, man we all know you were that mad because YOU wanted to pocket that album

Next I'll be watching the Pacific! But like next next week since I'll be home from school 4 days straight so I can binge it

To sum things up, GOD DAMN WAS THIS SERIES GOOD OH MY GOD

[cloudy-leonhart]

The Wolf God’s Human Daughter.

[Author Note: alright, hear me out, I rewatched Princess Mononoke, and it was so friggin good I just needed to write it AOT version, originally it was going to be a Reiner x Reader, but I decided with Armin cuz why tf not]

[Summary: After voluntarily leaving his tribe after being infected by a god taken over by a demon, he wanders around the lands, meeting a woman, named Reader in the forest with a god. He meets once again, in a town called Irontown, in which he saves her from death while trying to survive his own.]

(I DON’T OWN PRINCESS MONONOKE)

Pairings: Armin Arlert x Reader.

Type: Feminine Reader.

Theme: Fluff/Action.

TW: blood, fighting, shotguns(?).

Recommended Song: Princess Mononoke- Main Theme.

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“No! But you can’t leave tomorrow!” A woman whined out, Armin had asked to help around the Irontown women and was getting ready to head out. “Can’t you stay a little longer?” Another voice cried out, Armin almost backed out from the whining voices who were obviously sad at the fact that he will be leaving so soon.

“You can stay and work here!” A brunette woman tried to convince Armin to stay, in which he just countered with a small smile and a chuckle, “Thanks, but there’s someone I have to find out in the forest.” He explained, holding onto his sword’s handle. A small vision flashed through Armin’s eyes as he gasped quietly.

It was the same woman he met by the creek, who was helping the wolf god before disappearing. He saw a glimpse of her riding one of the wolves he saw earlier in the day. Charging for Irontown, he presumed. He looked off to where he felt her aura the most, looking very deep in thought, the women followed, looking in the same direction he was.

“She’s here.” Armin mumbled, suddenly taking off to the direction of the mysterious person’s aura. A loud banging against an iron plate sounded around the town, an alarm from one of the people who’s on night shift. “The wolves are coming! It’s the wolf princess!” the person yelled out, banging the hammer as hard as he could so the whole town could hear.

You jumped up onto the top of the walls, you made eye contact with the spearman who defended the side you had infiltrated. You held onto your dagger tightly as the man swung his spear, breaking the spiked-shaped wood as you dodged, jumping a few meters away.

You dodged every single attack of the spearman as he tried to do as much as slash you, you slashed your dagger towards his direction, where he struggled with his balance, falling off the platform of the fort.

You ran towards the right side of the fort, a man with a shotgun sat up high in a better fort, shooting at you. You jumped up high enough to dodge the bullet, you felt yourself pant as you jumped onto another rooftop, running towards the center of the town.

Armin ran towards the sounds of shooting, he panted as he held onto his sword by his waist, Armin looked up, seeing your masked figure running right on top of him, both of you made eye-contact for a few seconds before you started running once again, Armin didn’t realize that you made eye contact since your face was covered by your mask.

you made a risky leap as you landed right in front of the blonde, you slashed your dagger as Armin moved back to avoid being gutted by you. He grabbed his sword from its scabbard clashing with your dagger, he grunted, your strength was not something familiar, it matched the strength of a wolf, rather than man nor woman.

He tried to make you stop your attacks, he yelled out, “Stop!” as his sword and your dagger clashed more, “Wait! I don’t want to fight you, I’m a friend.” He tried to convince you. You grunted, realizing the growing number of people, you knew if you didn’t get out there in seconds you’ll be killed, you jumped up, using the roofs as your escape.

You ran towards the factory of the town, you could tell the blonde was right behind you, following you, Armin could barely keep up with your speed, he breathed in from the nose and out his mouth as he kept running, he could hear how much ruckus you were causing.

You hid on the top of the factory as the wretched Eboshi you despised so much came into view, you scowled as she called out for you, “Can you hear me, Princess of Beasts? If it’s me you want, here I am.” She called out, Armin saw what she was doing and was afraid you would get killed.

“If you seek revenge for all the animals we killed,” Eboshi’s strong and stern voice taunted, “well, there are two women down here, whom I’d love for you to meet.” Eboshi spoke with cockiness, Armin watched from a rooftop as two women beside her propped up their rifles.

“They want revenge for husbands killed by your wolves.” Eboshi called out, glancing at the women beside her, everyone could tell that both of them were brimming with anger. “Come on out, you little witch! My husband’s dead because of you!” One of them taunted and threatened, holding their rifle tightly.

Armin’s gaze left the crowds of people with spears, looking over to you, where you were crouched behind the roof, he grunted, you stood up onto the roof, as the people alarmed the wretch they called m’lady about you showing yourself to the crowd.

“There she is!”

It was loud and unorganized down by the land, you stared at the pitiful humans following Eboshi, “Everybody, out of the way!” A man warned, his hand was outstretched, “Riflemen, get ready to fire!”

Armin watched as a few riflemen positioned themselves and their rifles towards you, he felt his heart quicken, he scowled, a silent gasp was let out. “It’s a trap,” Armin put it all together, “No! Wait!” He yelled out, trying to warn you, you ignored his pleas and cries as you kept staring at Eboshi with pure hatred.

he groaned as he left his hiding spot, “Princess of the wolf gods! Don’t go down there!” He called out, desperate to make you turn around or retreat back to your home, or the forest. He started to get annoyed about how you were ignoring him. “Go back to the forest!” He tried his best to convince you to turn back.

“Don’t throw your life away!”

You looked at him from the corner of your sight, you were slightly irritated, since he didn’t even know you, why’s he so set on saving you, you decided he wasn’t worth your time and raised your dagger up, starting to run down the roof. You were swift, just like a wolf, although your footsteps were light.

Armin mentally groaned as he ran towards you, hoping to cut you off before you landed down on the ground, where you’d be kebabed as soon as you touched the dirt. The riflemen shot right where you ran into, you felt your body fly off in a flip, you let out a pained grunt as you clutched your side.

Armin leaned back, grunting from the heat of the shots of the rifles, he felt a few wood chips get lodged into his arm, he hissed and pulled them out, drops of blood staining the fabric wrapped around his arm.

“She’s down! We got her!” One of the men yelled, running close to your body, you were in a state of shock as you tried to get up, grunting and silently whimpering from the pain of your impact. “Stay back!” Eboshi warned, looking behind her, although she was ruthless, she did not want to lose any of her people to someone like you. She looked back at your injured figure, rolling down her factory, continuing to speak. “Cut off a wolf’s head, and it still has power to bite.”

Eboshi looked to the right of her, to the woman who had her rifle up and ready to shoot,  whispering out, “Take aim right where she falls.” The woman responded with a ‘right!’ before looking back at you.

Armin panicked, you were going to get killed at this point, he looked for a way to keep you safe, he glanced at your body slowly rolling down nearer and nearer to the ground. He looked back, he gripped onto the wooden logs of the factory, he struggled as he tried to rip a part of the log out, he felt the wounds in his arm sting and throb with pain, he gritted his teeth so he didn’t let out a yelp of pain.

You fell right to the ground, landing on your knees and hands, you huffed and shakily stood up, looking up to Eboshi. She scowled and yelled out, “Open fire!” Both women with Eboshi pulled the trigger, lighting the rifles and aiming it directly at you with the intent to kill. You felt a heavy force hit your masks, breaking it into pieces, you were shot back, falling back to the ground, you were unconscious from the impact of the shot.

You let out a breath as you felt yourself start to fade in and out of consciousness.

the men of the town took this as a sign to charge right at you, unaware of the log Armin was about to drop to keep you away from them. “Stay back!” Armin called out, dropping the log down, the men stepped back, a bunch letting out yells of surprise. He dropped down near your body, grabbing at your shoulders and shaking you lightly.

“wake up,” He softly called, you felt him shaking you, your eyes shot open and your hand swung, cutting his cheek, he winced and jumped back a few feet away. He dodged your swings, until he was out of your way, you lost your attention on him, running towards where Eboshi was.

“No!” Armin warned, his hand reaching out towards your running figure. One of the men swung at you. You scowled and jumped up, most of the mens’ stare were up at you, looking as you landed on the man’s face, you jumped over the men and landed perfectly near Eboshi. The women beside her ran out of the way out of fear, Eboshi smirked as she threw her kimono cover out of the way.

Eboshi grabbed a small knife out of her pocket, you clashed against her sword as she tried to stab you with the knife, you dodged her swings as you returned some back, both of you brawled as some of the men yelled out and encouraged Eboshi to win. The clinks and clanks of your dagger and her sword encouraged you to keep fighting, stand your ground.

Armin recovered from your attack, he stood up as he felt anger and hatred fuel him, his felt his fists tighten as he walked towards the crowd, he pulled his sword from out the scabbard, approaching the crowd, the man you stepped on held his hand as he stood up, watching Armin approach with anger.

He saw the aura around his right hand, he gasped out of shock, “Traitor! You’re a spy for the wolves, aren’t you?!” Armin could see him slightly shaking, he can’t tell if it’s fear or shock, it might well be both. “Stay back!” The guy warned, holding onto his sword tighter.

Armin just scowled, his hand gripping onto the sword, bending it like it was nothing, it left some of his demonized hand’s aura on the sword, the man struggled to get the metal out of the blonde’s grip, he looked at Armin who stared back emotionlessly, “step aside.” he heard Armin speak out.

He stood speechless, as he watched Armin walk away, suddenly chattering his teeth as he saw the aura’s slugs try to bite him.

Armin threw men left and right, trying to get past the group. He pushed through a huge group of people, most of them toppling over each other from the force of his push. Irontown’s people stopped making commotion, as Eboshi spared a glance at Armin who approached them calmly, all the while still on defence with your attacks, you didn’t care about Armin coming up to the fight, if he gets hurt, it’s his fault, so you continued trying to hurt Eboshi.

He finally intervened, his right hand held your dagger, while his left hand stopped Eboshi’s sword, both gasped, you struggled against Armin’s hold. “What do you think you’re doing, boy?” Eboshi sneered, pulling her weight onto her sword against Armin. He grunted, “This girl’s life is now mine.” You paid no attention to what his words were, you bit down on his arm, trying to get him to let you go.

Eboshi scoffed with a taunting smile, “I’m sure she’ll make a lovely wife for you,” Armin held onto his sword tighty, “There’s a demon inside of you. It’s inside both of you.” You pulled back, seeing the shadows of the demonized hand come alive, you gasped, along with the townsfolk who were watching the whole commotion.

Armin looked away from Eboshi’s gaze, raising his voice, “Look everyone! This is what hatred looks like. This is what it does when it catches hold of you.” Whispers emerged from the townsfolk, although he kept speaking. “It’s eating me alive, and very soon now it will kill me!”

You have seen this from countless animals, all consumed by rage and hatred, you worried it would spread to you, trying to swat it away from you, fear starting to cloud your eyes. Armin felt you struggle in his hand, “Fear and anger only make it grow faster!” Eboshi felt like she was gonna burst a vein, annoyed at Armin’s antics. “I’m getting a little bored of this curse of yours, Armin.” She warned.

“Just let me cut the damn thing off!” She pulled out her small pocket knife, attempting to cut Armin’s arm. Armin felt her knife cut a bit of his hair away before stunning her with the hilt of his sword, making her slouch over onto his arm. He did the same to you, you fell unconscious and stunned, and tossed over his shoulder.

“Someone come take her from me!” For a bit, some of the people hesitated taking Eboshi from him, then a few ladies, came up and took her from Armin, calling out her name. “Don’t worry, she’s just stunned.” Armin comforted the worried ladies. He placed his sword back into it’s scabbard, repositioning you like a boar on his shoulder.

“As for me, I’m leaving, and I’m taking the wolf girl!” One of the girls Eboshi was with fell angry, she yelled out, “No you’re not! Nobody treats my lady Eboshi like that!” Armin just stared at her, as she aimed her rifle at him. “Move and I fire!” The woman was nervous, she was shooting down a human like her.

His eyes just softened as he turned around and walked away with you around his shoulders. Most didn’t bother stopping you, they parted a way for you to get out of the crowd. The woman shook nervously, the crowd’s eyes switching back to her and Armin, before another woman interrupted her, “Kiyo! What are you doing!” She yelped and pulled the trigger, striking Armin just above his abdomen.

Armin felt the pain as he stuttered in his steps, a second of shock then replaced with determination to get out of the town.

He walked towards the gate, a bunch of men were there guarding the wooden gate, a short man stopped Armin and you, as he glanced at him, gritting his teeth behind his lips, the pain starting to worsen. “Sir, I can’t let you pass.”

“The gate’s been ordered shut. It can’t be opened.” Armin stopped listening to the man’s words, moving forward, being blocked by two other guards, they whispered, almost pleading, “Turn back, please.” the other guard continued, “We’re grateful. You brought those men back to us. We don’t want to hurt you.” Both guards pleaded, Armin ignored them. “I walked in through this gate this morning.” He kept his tone stern and sharp. “Now, I’m leaving the same way.”

He held up his hand, and started pushing against the wooden gate, putting his strength into it. The guards panicked, “Don’t be a fool, it takes ten men to open this gate.” He gritted his teeth once again, feeling both the wound on his cheek and stomach start seeping out more blood, he felt his shoes absorb the liquid at his feet, yet he still kept pushing.

“Stop it! You’ll kill yourself!” The old man called out, taking note of the puddle of red liquid pooling at Armin’s feet. A rumbling could be heard, the gate was opening, all by Armin. The guards gasped in disbelief, “The gate’s opening!”

Armin had fully opened it enough for him to slip through with you in tow, he saw the white wolves that he assumed were your companions, he could also hear more men come to stop him from taking you and leaving.

Armin chose to ignore what was behind him, calling out to the approaching wolves, “She’s alright! Your princess is safe with me!” The wolves bared their teeth at him, cautious and worried. Growls emitting from the two white wolves. “Stay and I’ll bring her!” Armin instructed. Armin’s elk was behind him, “Come on, Yakul.” He waited for his elk to pass through before passing too, not before turning back.

“You have my thanks.” He stated, dropping the wooden gate and placing you on top of his elk, He rides with the wolves, who showed him the way to get you back home, his wound lost too much blood, and he was starting to get light headed.

You awoke from within his arms, gasping softly, you looked around your surroundings, the fields you used to love so much, broken and teared down by the humans. You felt Armin’s arms start to loosen around your waist, you whiped your head back, seeing Armin already falling off his elk. Your wolf brother growled and took him falling as a sign to bite your head off, if it wasn’t for you calling out to him.

“Stop it!” You called out, jumping off Armin’s elk, “Leave him, he’s mine.” You winced at the throbbing pain from your abdomen, you were sure there was a bruise. You looked down at him, his face was planted against the ground, you were confused.

“His own people shot him. He’s dying.” You observed, letting your wolf brother nuzzle their way under your arm. You saw him twitch, you crouched, complaining, “why did you stop me from killing her? Tell me while you’re still alive.” You demanded an answer from the injured blonde.

“I didn’t want them to kill you, that’s why.” Armin whsipered softly, in pain. “I’m not afraid to die! I’d do anything to get you humans out of my forest.” You spat with vile and disgust. “I knew that from the first moment I saw you.” He replied back.

“And I’m not afraid of you! I should kill you for saving her!” You yelled out in anger, reaching for his sword, turning him over in the process and pointing the very tip at his throat, as he struggled to breath.

“That woman is evil. There’s no one who can stop me from killing her.” You could feel yourself fill up with anger and pain. You were angry at the way they treated the forest. “No. Live.” Armin still continued to try and convince you to live, you shook your head, the tip of the sword touching his neck, “Shut up! I don’t listen to humans!” You felt like bursting out in flames, so angry to the point you seemed blinded in what you were doing.

Armin opened his eyes slightly, looking up at you, a scowl on your face, he took a deep breath, “You’re beautiful.” He commented, you froze, feeling heat rise up to your cheeks, you jumped away, feeling your back bump into your wolf brother. A gasp escaped your mouth, you were flustered.

You felt your brother speak, “What is it, Reader? Want me to crunch his face off?” You stayed quiet, before a rock broke you out of your confused thoughts, “the ape tribe,” you stated. “Apes, how dare you show such disrespect to the wolf clan!” he scolded the apes, who kept throwing rocks.

“This forest is ours,” One ape spoke out, “The human. Give him to us.” another spoke, “Give us the human and go.” A rock was thrown with the last sentence, you flinched, “Go! Before my fangs find you.” You brother threatened. The apes protested, “We will not go.” they chanted about eating Armin, you glanced at the blonde on the floor breathing heavily, seeming to want to live.

You and your brothers argued about Armin, he could barely hear your muffled voices, as you tried to reason with the Ape tribe.

Both parties had enough, as the wolves chased away the apes, Armin felt himself lose consciousness. You sighed and looked over to Armin’s resting figure.

“It’s alright, don’t worry about them.” You tried to comfort your brothers, “You go on ahead, I’ll stay here and deal with the human.” You made your decision, walking up to him. “What about the elk, can we eat him?” Your brothers asked, staring at the elk, panting hungrily, you smiled softly, laughing. “No, you may not. Go home.”

You looked over at the elk, “Come over here. Don’t worry, I’m a friend.” You encouraged the elk to come close to you. “Don’t be shy! I won’t hurt you, I need you to help me carry him.”

[ghidaora]

So I have some thoughts on RWBY: volume 6 finale - and a little bit of volume 5 while I'm here, but mostly just Blake & Yang ramblings:

First id like to say, that the fight with the giant robot was definitely as scrambled feeling as the big lionheart fight in volume 5 in the academy. The fight felt oddly slow which definitely hindered my enjoyment both times. I mostly just laughed at big black ops zombie man and cried when weiss was struck by cinders flame javelin, and likewise with volume 6, I sorta just laughed at the funny parts but didn't pay too much attention to the combat, as it felt pretty weird.

BUT just like volume 5, volume 6 shined in the finale during their more intimate battle, with Adam Taurus versus Blake & Yang. Like the pseudo Raven vs Yang ending of Volume 5 (The cinder and Raven fight was cool but my main interest was Raven and Yangs conflict).

I feel rwby really excels at this type of conflict in particular, and it comes off as them wanting to explore certain characters directly, but obviously can't just toss the giant group we're with to the side. Which is why my favorite volumes are when ruby, yang, blake and weiss weren't actually together. I loved seeing how they were on their own and their own stories, it was very refreshing. so I can't really fault them for that, making large battles impactful is hard enough as is, unless ur like infinity war lmao, and since it wasn't really my cup of tea anyway.

And those favorite volumes of mine, having them be alone definitely serviced their characters and made their dynamics stronger. Which leads me back to my point about the intimate fights:

I think the Adam vs Blake & Yang fight was done really really well. The combat was very clear and easy to understand while being super engaging and seeing Yangs progression from like what Volume 1? easily baiting Adam into attacks was really satisfying. I loved seeing them kick his ASS.

Especially when you take into consideration of how abusive he is/comes off as. With how he seemingly just appeared and found blake, to his constant degrading of her, and trying to reel her back in down to his level, it was done very well in my opinion to show how horrible he is, and that's not taking into consideration of how he is in Every volume prior, this is just him in the finale. I felt the yang and blake dynamic had a lot to be desired in the volume 5 finale but I'm happy to say I can see why! It was because they were still building to this, and I'm absolutely in love with the route the writers took! But my very very favorite aspect of the fight wasn't the kick ass combat, or the dynamic of yang and blake (which is very close to being my favorite),

but the fact that they don't celebrate after he's dead.

There's no hurrah, no clapping, no victory kiss or anything. They're traumatized and I feel that THAT was the thing that was done the best. Many people probably wanted a bumbleby kiss after that but I feel it wouldn't have made sense in the context of the situation. It wouldn't be right. I'm not saying they won't kiss in a later volume, it's like Yang says in the next volume, going through that much with someone changes things. They're connected in a very very unique way compared to the rest of the cast, through more than just this, Akin to Nora and Ren's closely knitted past, and we all know how that turns out 👀 BUT we got to SEE IT! Not just in flash backs but through actual narrative progression and I loved it.

The story of Blake and Yang has and probably always will be my favorite part of RWBY, and the volume 6 finale was super satisfying for me because of that. Here's to hoping volume 7 has a good finale, cuz id love to see more characters explored as deeply as Yang and Blake are!

(And if they were already im sorry, there was a bee in my face I'll go back and focus during a rewatch sksk)

[baoshan-sanren]

In your opinion, which episode kills you the most? Cuz like I need to prepare myself

I mean the first episode is like death in the first fifteen minutes or whatever so def get ready for that whole thing. You don’t have any context so it’s not as bad as it’s gonna hit you like 30 episodes later.

In my opinion, it’s episode 11 when shit starts hurting, because you’ve just fallen in love with the characters and things that matter to them, and everything starts going downhill. 13 and 14 are an emotional wild ride for the two main characters, and I think I had to pause both like a dozen times. 16 and 19 are all fucking pain. 21 is more pain. 26 and 27 are just fucking annihilating. I cried rivers in 31. 33 repeats the happenings from episode 1 and now that death is going to hit you like 57686776 times harder, so get ready for that. 38 and 39 are the Yi City arc and like, I know people who rewatch the show regularly, but skip over Yi City because it kills them. The rest has plenty emotional impact but like, mostly the good kind. 42 and 43 I also paused a thousand times so I can breathe, but not because it was sad, but because it was sooooooo gooood. and for 46 you might need to lie down for like.. a few hours (yeah I lied bc this one hurts too). The last 4 episodes aren’t that painful, if you don’t get too attached to other characters bc some gonna die. 

lmao I hope that helps, it might have been just easier to say nothing hurts much before episode 11 and then everything hurts forever after.  

[indigopurple]

Basically a review of OP episode 503 ig

Currently rewatching post-war arc (in the dub so I don't have any screenshots for u guys sry) and theres a few things id like to point out.

During a conversation Dadan once had with Garp, they were talking about Roger. Garp said that even if they were facing powerful enemies, he would never run away because he wouldnt dare leaving his comrads behind; it wasnt an option for him. Obviously we see this in Ace. But ALSO, isnt this what he did with Katakuri? It was a little different cuz of the setting mostly, but he separated himself from his crew to fight off katakuri, and lied to them about being okay so they didn't worry (he was already getting his ass kicked by then, so he just made that stupid smile and told them not to worry (or smth like that, I can remember the exact line) (that smile was so gross and fake cuz he fucking sucks at lying). Also he said roger destroyed a buncha soldiers cuz they mouthed off his men. That's what Ace tried to do but instead he died. :(

"The pain he went through just made him hold on tighter to the ones he loved" -Garp, about Roger. "Despite his flaws and his bad reputation, his crew still trusted him completely." -also Garp, about Roger. These both sound a lot like Luffy AND Ace.

When Dogra got home and told everyone about Sabo's ship being shit down and him dying (which we all know didnt happen, thank fuck), (by the way the absolutely lost looks on Ace's and Luffy's faces with the sudden silence hurt like a bitch), Luffy started crying and said "WE SHOULDNT'A LET HIM GO, IT'S ALL OUR FAULT". Which fucking says something about him (thinking of episodes 913-915 when he goes fucking berserk, but before that he learns that Kaido probably killed Tama and he says "I should've escorted them..!" (*ugly cries*)). Ace also reacted pretty similarly-- "Sabo...why didn't we go back into town and bring him back here?! We're so stupid!" And he gets mad and asks where he could find the bastard that killed him (obviously not getting a good answer since it was a fucking celestial dragon ugh). That is what Luffy does, in present time. He results to anger first, not sadness. Not sure when he learned to do that but I'm 99 percent sure it was from Ace. Also the blaming himself thing? High chance thats ALSO from Ace. Who else would teach him that self hating behaviour?!

Dadan pins Ace down to stop him from going after the Celestial Dragon to calm him down, telling him he cant do anything, he's not big or strong enough to do anything and he'll be killed as soon as he tries anything, especially since it was the whole country -the whole WORLD- that killed Sabo. He can't do anything. And then they tied him to a tree outside to let him cool off. Oh yeah then he also told luffy to stop crying like a little girl or else he'll- (and he didn't finish the sentence). ...Ok maybe thats why luffy started being more angry than sad.

This is where things get a little more :( . Ace reads the letter Sabo sent them before he died. As he reads, he walks to the end of the forest, to a cliff overlooking the ocean. And starts fucking bawling (btw the voice actor who had Ace's childhood part did not do a very good job, no where near as in character and real as Coleen Clickenberg did with all of Luffy's crying scenes. She was spot on.) ...do you see where im going with that? He isolated himself before letting himself feel sad. It was all rage and then calm beforehand. Y-you see where im going with that. Dont make me say it.

"How's Luffy doing, is he any better?" "Well...he hasnt been eating much, but he still eats twice as much as we do". Oh look, That's what happened after Ace died too. There's a behavioral pattern that hasnt gone away. Not sure why it wouldve tho.

Luffy is mopeing, lying on the ground in a similar setting ace was at when he cried. Hes thinking about some of the things Sabo said, like how theyre gonna sail the seas together, and he clenches his hands into tight, shaking fists. After Ace shows up and hits him, and talking abt some other stuff I don't feel like relaying, Luffy tightens his grip on the straw hat and tells ace, whimpering, he wants to get stronger (and stronger, and stronger, and stronger and stronger and....) And he wants to be the strongest in the world. "And then, I'll protect everyone. I won't lose anyone I care about". He gets stronger mainly to protect the people he loves. And then he asks ace to promise he won't die. To which he hits Luffy again and tells him he should be more worried about himself dying first. And then the famous line that hurts like a bitch- "I'm NEVER going to DIE!" And then this hopeful music comes on (fucking damnit funimation, u gotta do this? Really??) Also he says he wont die as long as he has a wussy little brother to protect. ...FUCK. Ok, the fist clenching is a thing he does all the fucking time, usually when he gets mad. This was different because he wasnt mad, he was sad. He clenched his fist because thinking about it hurt. Which, huh, sounds a lot like his whole episode after waking up from his 2 week coma on the polar tang. To try and stop the mental pain of those horrendous memories, he resulted to physically pain. He hurt himself. So, He clenches his fists in times like these to fight off the mental pain and the urge to cause himself physical pain. Guys, our boy is bad at emotions, help him. ....ok this paragraph is longer than I anticipated so ill dumb down the rest of it ig. Next part, him asking ace to promise he wont die. The music, the body language, the over change in mood- this comforts him. He stopped hiding his face and silently sobbing after ace said this. OH YEAH! didn't he tell jinbe not to die when they parted ways in Totto Land? And then, hes missing still in Wano and we see Luffy is worried....but convinced Jinbe will show up. Again, this comforts him. Hes nervous cuz someone KOFF KOFF ACE broke that promise once. But jinbe is his crew mate so he trusts him, thank god.

"-But whoever did it, they must be opposed to freedom." The whole freedom thing? That runs through Luffy's blood and spirit.His brothers fought for it, his dad is the man who strives to give everyone freedom basically, and Luffy himself has seen enough of the OPPOSITE of freedom to be so, so much more than just against it. Hence why he of course was so eager to free the slaves in Sabaody, the kids in punk hazard, the toys in dressrosa, the country of Wano from Kaido's tyrany. The apple doesnt fall far from the tree huh.

I dont think Luffy would remember his promise with Shanks if it werent for his brothers putting feul to his dream. It was a stupid bet at first; he just wanted to beat Shanks, right then. But after meeting Sabo and Ace, he found the opposite of freedom and human rights. And then he wanted, REALLY wanted, to become the free-est man in the world; the pirate king.

Last one i promise ok? This one is less connected to whats going on in the episode at this point, but something I noticed (its so obvious everyone has seen this ok) was when luffy cries, his posture is always open. He doesn't curl in on himself like many people would do (I know I would, lol). He doesnt hug himself, protect himself. He's just, opened up to whoever is watching, literally. This has a little more to do with something I haven't talked about much in this post yet; his self-destruction issues. I said he tried to hurt himself when he felt mental pain, which is definitely similar. But he cries and doesnt try to protect or comfort himself, like he doesn't have that programmed into his mind. Reminder that he only wants to live because of his dream, and if he doesnt have his dream, he wants to die. (Whoa.). Ok, so no self preservation mechanism at all rlly. Hes basically ride or die. So, when things hurt so much that he cries, he has no hope left. He just kinda...dies inside. So this was mildly different after sabo died. Yes we saw him just standing there, sobbing. But the next day he's still crying, and instead he's laying on the ground. I saw that and the voice in the back of my head told me he wanted to be a part of that lifeless dirt beneath him. Then, Ace walked over. And his words made him feel the hope that I told you about earlier, and he sat up into a sitting position. And HUGGED HIS LEGS TO HIS CHEST. There's some self preservation! Some hope! Some will to exist, to live! Something we saw none of as he sat in front of his brothers corpse, shutting down. He sat there, open to his enemies, incapable of protecting himself. Practically anyone couldve killed him right then and there. I think he mightve liked that, at that moment. Like thank god he has that stupidly good luck cuz if he didn't I swear someone couldve thrown and axe or FUCKING ANYTHING AT THAT MOMENT and hed be dead becuase he never physically or mentally prepared himself. On purpose.

Our poor boy needs some fucking attention and therapists. (Insert my rant post about how jinbe is on the crew primarily for anger management and therapy, not just being a helmsman.) Ugh, smh ugly cries

Aaaaand thats about the end of the episode. Theres so many little tics and peesonality traits that you notive thru this episode, and I only noticed them cuz im rewatching this part of the show for like the third time. I don't react as much as the first time of course but some things are definitely sadder after knowing what's going on and what will happen later on.

Moral of the story (post)? I think luffy is almost equally as alike -if not, more similar to roger as ace is. Also, high key genuinely think Luffy met like NO ONE but Garp before he met Shanks and his crew. What the fuck was his first like 5 years of being alive like? (He wantd to be a pirate cuz Garp didnt want that. Rebellious baby asshole. And then shanks made things worse, in a good way for luffy. And then ace and sabo made that worse thing worse for a good reason. Luffy lives...for those influences. And that is fucking it. Why.

Oh thanks tumblr for moving my picture to the bottom of the post u fucking idiot

[romansleftshoulderpad]

This isn't proofread at all, but here you go. One Remile fic is just as good as like a bottle of medicine right??

Remy didn't even hear it happen. He just saw movement out of the corner of his eye, and when his head turned, he saw someone being pushed to the ground. Three teenage boys were laughing at a girl who was now lying on the pavement, her knee scraped. Remy huffed out an agitated breath and marched over.

"Why did you do that?"

The three boys turned to see Remy crossing his arms at them, and they started to laugh at him too. "Get lost, kid, you're too young to have such an attitude. What are you, like five? Six?"

Remy glared up at them through his dollar-store sunglasses. "I'm eight, thank you very much," he said, eliciting howling laughter from the teens. He knew he was a little short for his age, but who were these kids, pushing people around just cuz they're older?

"C'mon, let's go. Kid's not worth it." The teens walk away, shoving Remy aside. As soon as they leave, he kneels down next to the girl they pushed.

"Are you okay?" Remy asked, offering his hand. The girl sniffed and nodded, letting Remy pull her up. "Do you need a bandaid?"

The girl frowns, her head turning to the ditch on the side of the sidewalk, where a stuffed fish lay, dirtied by the mud. "They ruined my Dory," the girl whispered. Remy could see tears pricking in the corners of her eyes, and he quickly ran down into the ditch to grab the plushie.

"Hey, it's okay," he said when he got back up. "We can clean it." He holds his hand out again, and the girl takes it, letting Remy lead the way. "What's your name?" he asks.

"Emily," the girl replies. 

"Okay, Emily. Let's go clean your Dory."

---

After that, they were nearly inseparable. Remy took to being Emily's bodyguard, going everywhere with her to make sure no one messed with her. People bugged him over and over, teasing him and asking if he was her boyfriend. Remy didn't see that as much of an insult.

He was there for her on the night that her parents got divorced, and she ran to his house and cried, so he took her into the woods so they could be alone while they talked. He was with her throughout middle school when she would get 50s and 60s on her psychology tests, so disheartened because all she wanted was to pursue that path. He was willing to rewatch and rewatch and rewatch again "Finding Nemo" because every time it was Emily's turn to pick the movie she would without a doubt pull out the blue DVD case.

He was there on the night that Emily--now Emile--told Remy that he was a boy, and that his parents weren't happy about it. He was there during high school when Emile's dad decided he was old enough, and kicked him out of the house, and Remy took him in and let him cry into his shoulder, and begged his mom to let Emile stay. He was there to see Emile's marks slowly improve, to the point where he would get upwards of 90s and even 100s on his psychology test, because Remy suggested studying tactics that would link the answers back to Disney movies, which made Emile understand them so much better. He made sure everyone knew that it was Remy to thank for his marks.

---

"Remy? Can I talk to you for a minute?"

Remy looked up from his phone, confused. "We've kinda been talking for like... all of lunch period, Ems," Remy replied. Emile shook his head.

"I mean alone. Without all these people around." Emile had his arms tucked around himself, and Remy got the feeling that it was an important topic, so he shut off his phone and stuffed it in his pocket, extending his hand for Emile to take. Like always, Emile let Remy lead the way outside.

They stopped when they were in the middle of the baseball field, completely deserted except for a group of kids on the other side, too far to hear what they were saying. "This is good?" Remy asked. Emile nodded, tapping his fingers against his leg. His eyes wander away. He was never great at eye contact anyway, not that it bothered Remy any.

"You're... are you going to the prom with Roman?" Emile finally asks. His voice is timid, and Remy's brow furrows.

"What? No. I don't have a date to prom. I thought we were just gonna hang out there, you and me. Why would you think I'm going with Roman?" 

Emile bites the insides of his cheeks, his eyes flitting around the grass. "You're always flirting with him. I thought you two were together," he says quietly. 

"...I flirt with everyone, Em. I would have told you if I was with someone."

"Why don't you flirt with me then?"

Remy's heart jumps. "Because... we've been friends forever. I'm so used to your presence... I don't think... it's not just that easy to start with someone who's all... like, if I know them--" Remy stutters out, his eyes flicking away. Truthfully, it was just hard to flirt with Emile. Flirting pointlessly with someone Remy wasn't interested in--that came easily. When that person is Emile though, it becomes a whole different story. Remy actually likes Emile. How do you flirt with someone you like?

Both of them are silent for a few moments, before Emile slowly sucks in a breath and says, "do you want to go to the prom with me?"

"We're already going to the prom--"

"No, I mean... Do you want to go to the prom with me? Like, will you be my date? Uh, romantically?" Emile's eyes are trained on the ground as he says this. "A-And, I don't just want it to be prom, too. I like you a lot, Remy, and I want to be your boyfriend. I never told you, c-cuz you never seemed to pay that kind of attention to me. It was like--like I was the only one you didn't think that way about, and I'm so scared, because you're such a loving person, what does that say if you don't like me? What if--"

"Woah, woah, slow down, Em." Remy gently places a hand on either side of Emile's face, coaxing him to turn his head, to look at him. It isn't often that Remy gets to see Emile's eyes straight-on, and seeing them filled with tears hurts him deeply. "This is okay?" he whispers. Emile nods, though his eyes flicker to the side for a moment. 

Remy takes his hands away from Emile's face and moves them to his forearms, sitting down in the grass and bringing Emile down to sit with him.

"I never meant to make you feel like that, Em," Remy says softly. In the distance, they hear the bell go off, signalling the end of the lunch period, but they stay still in the grass. Physics be damned, Emile is more important right now. "And if it makes you feel any better, then I want you to know that I've liked you for a long while."

Emile smiles besottedly, ducking his head and picking at the grass with his fingers.

"Emile?" Remy whispers. "Can I kiss you?"

Emile's heart thuds against his chest, and he nods. "Yeah."

Remy's hands are on his cheeks again, and he leans forward, pressing his lips to Emile's forehead for a few seconds before pulling back. Emile laughs a little, then lifts his eyes to meet Remy's. "You missed," he says, and then leans forward to capture Remy's lips.

—-

Logan: KSHAKDHKADBAK W O W KAHDKS THIS IS SO HECKIN S O F T 😭

GUYS LOOK WHAT @accidentally-logince DID!!!! I LOVE IT AND THEM!

[meteor752]

Obi-Wan’s padawan that I accidentally created and ended up liking (This title is terrible)

My friend, Vera, who cosplayed as Ahsoka during Halloween, found out I had this blog and checked it out. Her favorite post out of them was about Obi-Wan’s Padawan loving Maul, and she asked me to make them a character.

So yeah, we sat down together with Kim, who played Obi-Wan, and started talking about directions to take this character. If you don’t like it, then good for you.

Oh, and I realized that we never came up with a name or gender, so I’m making it a She because I wrote out their whole “Family Tree”, and there’s a lot of males, and her name’s gonna be Vera cuz this was her idea

So yeah, Vera River was born somewhere on Wecacoe by an unknown mother. This unknown bitch of a mother sold her quickly, as she wanted nothing to do with poor Vera, so Vera grew up being sold left and right to different slave owners.

Growing up like this, Vera became a very quiet and scared little girl, because if she talked then it was chains. She hated being in chains, and even later in her life, she refuses to wear things like bracelets as it reminds her of it.

This continued until she was five years old, where there was some mission to Wecacoe by two Jedi and she was accidentally stumbled upon and brought to the Jedi temple. And as you might have guessed, the two who stumbled upon her was a 12 year old Anakin and a 28 year old Obi-Wan Kenobi. Because of the fact that she was saved by the two, she started to idolize them like you wouldn’t believe and made sure to keep up on what was going on in the two’s life.

Vera was put in a clan like every Jedi youngling, and in her case the cobra clan (Again, how do they name these?? We just made this name up). Because of the first five years of her life, it did make her a bit insecure and jumpy, which was easy to pick on by her clanmates.

The cobra clan consists of a Pau’an male named Timoa, a Devoranian male named Kaltin, a Kel dor female named Tiivia, a Mon Calamari named Meeka and a female Chiss named Amore. Vera did not get along with either Timoa, Kaltin nor Amore, but Tiivia and Meeka were nice.

Vera herself is from an unknown species (Don’t try to look it up, my friends and I made it up), that is sort of near-human. Her skin is chalk white, french braided hair is ebony black and eyes mud brown with a single peck of Amber. She looks relatively human, the only really abnormal thing is that her arms are a little extra long, and sharp fangs instead of teeth.

The thing is, she has a “Beast” form. When she feels threatened or scared, her outward appearance completely changes.

Her limbs grow longer, her back curves so she has to walk on four legs and her jaw can unhinge when she snarls, hisses or roars. Her mouth is unable to form real words, so instead she sends them telepathically into whoever she is talking to’s brain. The top of her head is formed into a sort of tentacle mass, and two extra arms come out of her back. The worst thing though if you ask her, the worst thing is the eyes. Upon the tentacles, there are almost two dozen covering them, and multiple appear and disappear on her body all the time. It is creepy and confusing on so many levels.

Vera is extremely shamed of the beast, and no one in the Jedi council knows of it except for Master Fisto.

During her clan’s first swim class when she was around nine, Timoa pushed her into the water and the beast emerged, as Vera is deeply terrified of water. Master Fisto comforted her, the sweetheart he is, and promised to keep it a secret. He also made the rest of her clan, who were terrified, keep the same promise. After that day, she had gained a lot more respect from her clan, and she overcame her fear of water.

During her gathering, after having to climb up a wall she could only do as the beast, she instead of founding one crystal, found two. Confused as ever, she climbed back down with the two crystals tightly in her grasp and made it out of the cave, first in her clan as well.

Back on the ship while looking at lightsaber types, she stumbles upon something called a Light Whip and falls in love. So yeah, this sweetie now has two blue light whips, good luck defeating her.

But like, a week or two after Ahsoka, aka the clone wars movie and stuff, Obi-Wan once again requested a Padawan, and after seven years Vera once again met her hero.

And she was his Padawan. Great, time to panic.

Over the course of seven years at the temple, she had done her fair share of research on Master Kenobi and holy kriff this guy can’t catch a break, can he. 

So she decided to put up a bubbly, happy exited facade so he won’t have to deal with the mess of a being she is. 

The two of them actually ended up getting along quite well, despite Vera putting him on a pedestal all the time. They joked and sassed out each other, but they also fought together perfectly. 

Vera and ‘Soka got along as well, with both being new Padawans and not too large of an age difference. They became like sisters, and more than once referred to each other as such.

Ani on the other hand...they didn’t exactly hate each other, they just..did not...get along. Vera still admired him greatly, he did help with her rescue as a five year old after all.

During a mission where just the two of them ended up stuck in a ship in the middle of space for a couple of hours, Vera tried an Ice Breaker to get to know each other better.

They ended up really getting to know each other though, as they both vented about their past and feelings -Ani about his jealousy for Vera being a better Padawan than he could ever be and his anger for the Jedi council, and Vera about bottling up her feelings- and then cried. After that they had a better connection and became sort of slave buds. They never called themselves that though, cuz that is weird.

Oh, remember this? Yeah, if Vera was present she would have been discussing that with them, as she is easily distracted.

 After that though, she started pondering about their actual lineage and how wide it goes, so yeah she started her research, and after a couple of months she had mapped out everything and was on multiple masters radar.

The only people she Officially showed were Master Kenobi, Ani and ‘Soka, but she did slip from time to time and just accidentally showed someone to prove a point. 

After ‘Soka by mistake called Ani dad (A headcanon of mine, you can’t tell me it didn’t happen at least thrice) she did another family tree, but this time of how she viewed her family, and since both the 501st and 212th are apart of it she had to get to know the name of every clone trooper in both battalions that have ever lived. 

It. was. torture. But worth it!

This one was more personal though, and only a few people knew about it. And anytime Ani and Master Kenobi had a “moment”, she may or may not have squealed a bit because the tree ‘Soka! The tree!

This also created the inside joke of Master Kenobi and Vera from time to time calling each other “Dad” and “Daughter”, mostly to tease Ani and ‘Soka, but also because they had made a bond over their time together.

Even though she viewed both Master Kenobi and Ani as her father figures, Vera still really liked Satine and just thinks that she and Master Kenobi should hook up already.

She’s also one of the very few people that are unaware of Senator Amidala and Ani’s marriage, but she still thinks they would be a cute couple.

Ummmmm, what do we more have...she’s Aromantic Asexual! She just doesn’t see Romantic Love as necessary to her, and Sex will forever be destroyed for her thanks to her history as a slave, cough cough.

Her diet mainly consists of bugs when she’s unable to go hunting. This grosses Master Kenobi out like you wouldn’t believe, cuz great now there’s two of them. Ani and ‘Soka approves.

When she is on a forest planet though, then she gladly sneaks away to go hunting. It’s not that she’s not allowed, persay, it’s just that most of the time parts of The Beast is shown.

If she sees that it is safe enough, she sometimes lets the beast out for a run, mostly because if she doesn’t and keeps it hidden for too long she becomes aggressive, and she fears that it might appear out of nowhere.

I realized after this was finished that fuuuuck, this means I have to add what Vera was doing during every episode both Obi-Wan and Ahsoka is in fucking kill meeee. So yeah, this is not discussed with either Kim nor Vera, this is only me. Surprise Mother Fuckers.

And I won’t explain every arc, as most times she was just standing around or fighting.

During Mortis she was unconscious. I rewatched the episodes for this, and realized that there is no way to add her without changing major plot points. So yeah, after Ahsoka and Kenobi fall asleep in that cave and have their visions, she does too but doesn’t wake up until they’ve left Mortis. I will explain why later

Slaves of Zygerria she just takes Rex’s place basically, since she’s an ex-slave and doesn’t want to be put back into that. This backfires however as they are put into the slave camp, and suffer terrible nightmares after it for months. Lot of cuddles with Ahsoka if ya know what I mean

During the Citadel Arc, she actually follows orders and stays behind, Ahsoka!

She goes into depression during the Hardeen ordeal and didn’t leave her quarters. No one blamed her for that.

Alright let’s address the elephant in the room here.

She found out at an early age about Maul killing Master Kenobi’s master, and at first she was as shocked and terrified as most younglings were, because A Sith?! We thought those were dead!!

But then she was actually showed a picture of Maul, and holy shit this guy looked cool!!

Like, she has seen Zabraks before, obviously, but damn! The way his dark tattoos looked against his red skin, the glowing eyes, the tattoos just !! Wow!!

It got even worse when she first found out about his red double-bladed lightsaber, that made him look even cooler!

More than once after Vera became Master Kenobi’s Padawan did she ask about the Sith, as vaguely as she could, but her master didn’t really like talking about it and she accepted that.

When she found out that he was alive though...holy shit...

‘Soka could literally not make her stop talking about it, and Vera waited not so patiently day after day until finally, finally, her master told her that they were dealing with a “Maul Issue”.

Callback to this, she freaked out, Maul and Savage were confused as hell and Master Kenobi was just. what. the fuck. why. is this. happening to me.

On their way back to the temple, bloody and bruised, more Master Kenobi then Vera as Savage had a very hard time fighting her, he asked what the kriff that was.

So yeah, Vera started rambling about how fucking awesome she thought Maul was, the same with his brother who she found out existed two hours earlier, and that she really wanted a double bladed saber and Master Kenobi just being like this is really not what I meant, stop idolizing them.

She acts similar around Mr. Ohnaka, who finds great joy in the little Kenobi and gladly answered all of her questions about being a Pirate when they meet.

Now, Vera isn’t all happy feeling of course. Just like everyone else, she suffers negative feelings as well, and in her case they are quite...extra.

She has a bad habit of tapping into the dark side of the force, sometimes out of anger, sometimes fear, and sometimes just because it’s the easiest way. If you are able to kill someone by force choking them to end the mission, why shouldn’t you? It doesn’t make you a bad person, right?

Well, it did however turn on her after she turned fourteen, two years after she was assigned to Master Kenobi, and just a few months before the Jedi Purge (Also before ‘Soka’s trial)

A small stealth mission, Master Kenobi and Ani with their two Padawans and a handful of clones, was surprised by a full on assault. The four of them nearly got killed that day.

But a wall inside Vera broke, and every ounce of the Dark Side of the force inside of her was set free, which meant that parts of The Beast were shown.

Vera herself lifted off the ground, together with every droid in front of her, and then they all were crushed at once.

When Vera’s feet were back on the ground once again, and she looked back at the three near unconscious bodies, it was instead of her two mud brown eyes six pitch black one, two on her cheekbones and two on her forehead.

She smiled back at them, showing off her fanged teeth, but she was met with faces of horror. That was when the true realization of what she had done hit her, and The four extra eyes melted back into her skin. Horrifying sight, truly.

She was silent on the way back to the Jedi temple, ‘Soka trying to ask her what happened, but she simply just shook her head.

It was the same in front of the council, she refused to speak so Master Kenobi had to explain what happened. Master Fisto also ended up telling them about the beast, reluctantly, and only after gaining a silent nod from her.

She was expelled that day.

Left silently, didn’t speak to her master, brother Padawan nor sister.

(Alright, I want y’all to take the next thing with a grain of salt. Vera, Kim and I had fun with the idea, and it was mostly a joke, but I’m going to share it anyways. Oh and also, I would recommend reading this beforehand, as use that headcanon, thanks!)

Barely a week or two after she left for Wecacoe trying to find anything about what the kriff she was, she started to feel a presence. It was weak and vague, but one thing was sure.

It was dark.

So Vera sat down in meditation position in front of a candle, as she had always found that that helped, and started to meditate in the dark side of the force.

Barely an hour into doing this it was there once again, more evident this time. When she opened her now six eyes, she locked eyes with a barely solid being, whose eyes shone with gleam and amusement. A being she had only briefly seen before it had knocked her unconscious for who knows how long a year prior in Mortis.

The Son

As any sane person she stood up and ignited her whips, asking how and why he was there.

So he explained who she was.

A fucking force wielder, created fourteen years ago in an attempt to create a being as powerful as him to balance how to ever growing light side of the force. His daughter.

After a lot of convincing and ifs and buts, Vera actually agreed to follow to Mortis as the embodiment of the Darkside, just so she can balance everything out. 

(Personal headcanon of mine, the moment a force wielder dies another one is created, if one doesn’t already exist that is. So yeah, she also agrees to find her one year old cousin and brings him there no she did not kidnap him hush).

The Jedi council notices the small shift in the force, and Kenobi, Skywalker, and Tano eventually figures out Mortis, and thanks to the fact that Anakin is a Force Wielder himself (I will never stop believing that), they manage.

The three of them expect to find the Son, or something like him in the Cathedral.

Instead, they find Vera on the floor meditating, her eyes dark and ominous and red markings over her white skin.

They questioned it, obviously, and she explained who and what she was. They didn’t believe her, why would they, and thought that the Son had just manipulated her. This angered her a little as the son, her father, had passed away just a few days earlier. A force manifestation doesn’t make it for that long without a body, and he had fulfilled his purpose by bringing her there.

She offered them to stay, and if they would declined she didn’t want them returning. They refused, and Vera snapped, attacking.

She nearly killed Ahsoka. She stood above her, her whips way to close to the Togrutas throat, eyes once again pitch black and fangs glimmering in the small light that was let in.

Anakin saved her life by slicing up Vera’s mouth, completely destroying parts of her lips. Everything stopped inside of Vera for a second as she was thrown back, blood pouring down her face. A force wielder could not die unless it was of the dagger, but physical damage could be caused to them.

The rage flooded inside her veins, and when she looked up back at her former master, brother padawan and sister, her eyes were neither black nor brown. They were red, and had no sign of her usual kind and happy nature left in them.

Vera lifted the three of the ground, and as angry tears streamed down her face she yelled at them to never return or she would end their life immediately, and then forced them out of Mortis. That was the last time she saw any of them.

She spent most of her days taking care of her cousin, Tartur, or meditating the pain away. Crying became a part of her routine. At first, she constantly checked Kenobi, Skywalker and Tano’s force presence, but stopped after just a few weeks as it hurt too much.

The purge almost gave her a heart attack, as it was so much pain and death at once. All the deaths mixed together made that she couldn’t clearly tell who died when, but when it was finally over she simply assumed that everyone was gone, including her former master and her sister. 

Skywalkers fall was understandable, she’d felt his possessive nature when she was still a Padawan, but she was still angered.

Tartur grew up hearing stories of the galaxy, the Jedi and the force. Vera taught him everything she knew about using the force and trained him in hand to hand combat and with a pole resembling a lightsaber. She never picked up her light whips after the day she nearly killed her sister.

Despite being the woman that raised him, and his family, and being the embodiment of light, Tartur grew up hating his cousin because she could leave, he couldn’t.

By Anakin, the child of the force, using the dark side, Tartur had to stay on Mortis to keep the balance and push light side into the force at all times.

Vera on the other hand could leave, or for a few days at least, but she chose not to unless it was for a supply run (This girl loves her son good hot chocolate), otherwise she stayed at all times.

When Maul died, she felt it which was a surprise to her for two reasons.

One, he survived for that long? Told you he was awesome!

And two, she hadn’t felt any deaths since the purge.

Obi-Wan was next, which nearly tore her open. His death actually made her leave Mortis just to find out what happened, and that was when she met a sunny force sensitive young boy named Skywalker. Wait a minute-!

Ahsoka’s death was the last one, years later. At this point she had nearly gotten used to it, and she was able to accept it.

It was also during this time that Tartur and her started to avoid each other for long periods of time. They kept to their side of the planet for sometimes weeks, sometimes longer. Once they went for two years.

After maybe a millions years of living on this planet, sulking for the most part, Vera decided to take initiative and actually see the galaxy, find out what happened to the places she used to love so much.

And the galaxy sure was...different. When she walked around, a cloak covering her dark Jedi looking robes and red eyes scanning the area, she noticed multiple untrained force sensitive beings.

During some quick research in a library, she learned that the Jedi were seen as myths and legends nowadays, and that very few people believed in their existence.

So she took some more initiative and managed to charm her way into talking in front of a couruscant school, her old masters teachings always comes to use, and before she knew it she stood on a stage in front of hundreds of wondering and confused eyes.

So she started simply, asking how many knew what a Jedi were, of which maybe a fourth of the school raised their hand, something that made her incredibly sad. When she asked how many believed in the Jedi, nearly everyone lowered their hand, except for a small Zabrak boy, maybe thirteen or fourteen years old.

The Zabrak boy got a few laughs from the audience, but Vera simply smiled kindly and asked for his name, which was Revar.

And then she explained the force, the Jedi, the Sith, tales of the old republic she’d heard as a child, the clone war, the empire the first order everything. Everything to these children, and no one said a word as she spoke, just stared at her in awe.

When she was finally done and her mouth was dry and she craved hot chocolate, an even younger Twi’lek girl raised her hand and asked what the Jedi were like.

After she answered that question, more hands flew into the air.

So she kept returning to that school, once every three months, to tell stories and answer questions. Some kids did a little research on their own and asked questions about specific Jedi, and she gladly told them of what she knew.

Around ten kids on the school were force sensitive, including Revar, and there were even some that were related to the Jedi of her time. This she never told them while on stage though, and instead in private. She taught these ten a few tricks to conceal their force abilities, but also how to do simple Jedi mind tricks or moving small objects.

More schools requested her, and after around three years with these kids she moved on to a different one. Eventually she stood on stage in front of entire planets, and from time to time even got help by Tartur.

Planets started to hail the Jedi more and more, and small monuments were built in their honor. Temples were created and some requested Vera to teach them, something she accepted.

Soon the Jedi were back, but in a different way than before. Instead of mainly using the light side, or mainly the dark side, it was a mix of both as that is what Vera are.

Vera and Tartur made sure this lasted for billions of years, teaching new younglings and making sure the older spread what they had learnt. Of course they had to regularly return to Mortis, but when they could they were traveling the galaxy.

Aeons after her birth, Vera finally passed away peacefully, her cousins promising to take care of the child that would be created when she was gone.

He didn’t cry, he’d seen this coming for days and he knew that his time weren’t that far away either.

Vera reunited with her family finally in the force, and she watched as what she had created continued to live on long after she was gone.

•

•

This took time! Like, really long time! Me, Vera and Kim talked for hours about this, and had to stop to rewatch the Mortis Arc in the middle of it. I actually like where we took this, and it was fun to do.

But for real, this took weeks, so be grateful

[rogeahtaylah-blog]

15 questions, 15 mutuals

we were tagged by @xquiet-thoughtsx & @freedie-mercoory! thank you, loveliess  💖

1. are you named after anyone?

flor: not really, my dad just liked the name lol caro: i don’t know??? but my middle name is the same as my mom’s, so i guess that counts

2. when was the last time you cried

f: i don’t remember... but i was about to cry when i was rewatching amy’s documentary the other day ): c: a couple of days ago, out of sheer frustration and anger because of the mess that the kitchen was.

3. do you have/want kids?

f: i don’t want kids in the near future, idk when i’m older c: maybe??? i change my mind about this constantly: sometimes i do, sometimes i don’t, but like flor, when i’m older.

4. do you use sarcasm a lot?

f: surely i am when i have the chance lmao c: sometimes yeah, i don’t really notice how i say stuff

5. what's the first thing you notice about others?

f: probably what they are wearing c: the gestures in their faces

6. what's your eye color?

f: brown c: imma be real bri here and say.... hazel brown bc they’re like brown around the pupil and then green

7. scary movie or happy ending?

f: i’m not eager of scary movies rlly, they are awful nowadays.... but i love anything with a good ass plot twist, don’t care if it’s happy or not c: if i gotta choose between these two, i’m a bitch for happy endings, tho my opinion is the same as flor’s

8. any special talents?

f: i’m constantly finding resemblences between people,, does that count¿ c: uhhhh idk what’s special but i can curl my tongue and learn things fast

9. where were you born?

santa fe, argentina 

10. what are your hobbies?

f: listening to music 24/7, daydreaming, reading, astrology, obsessing over things c: same as flor, but instead of daydreaming, i’ll say talking to myself.

11. do you have any pets?

f: yes, i have (1) loud, cute doggo c: yeah! two as-adorable-as-annoying doggies, and my son cat.

12. what sports do you play/have you played?

f: literally the only sport i like is volleyball  c: i used to practice martial arts, do swimming (when i was real young, like 9 or something), and i sure have played basketball and volleyball when i was in highschool but currently i’m not doing any sports

13. how tall are you?

f: 1,72 cm last time i checked c: around 1,64 cm

14. favourite subject in school?

f: language, history, biology, art, philosophy c: art, chemistry & physics, philosophy, history

15. dream job?

f: something that has to do with astrology, psychology (or fashion) i guess c: i always change my mind about this, so my answer usually is i don’t know but my dream job would be one that would be tied both to investigation (cuz i gotta keep my curiosity well fed) and the expression of creativity.

we literally don’t know who to tag because we don’t know at which point we should consider ourselves your mutuals??? but here we go: @taylordeaky @a-kind-of-rogers-magic @roger1na @wewillrocknroll @reddifreddi @a-man-possesed @caviarandqueen @rogermeaddows @deardeacy @softspaceboibrian @doubledenimapologist @lapofthemusicgods @bismillah-nooo @shesadramaqueen @darlingdeacy

friendly reminder that it’s not necessary for you to do this if you don’t want to or you’ve already done it ♡

[felixthekoala]

Okay I want to talk about this boy here, and explain why I’m swerving into his lane.  (and no it’s not bc of his abs, I’m 99% sure they all have abs, as most dancers do, it’s not that rare asdkjfnaks)

okay, let me start off by saying, yes, ofc he’s gorgeous, I can’t deny that.  But tbh that's part of why I resisted straying to him for so long, I didn’t want to be associated with the type of people who just liked him for his looks.  That’s not me. (and tbh kind of why I strayed from Felix, I just got a little tired of people only liking him for his accent and his looks and stuff, because these boys are so much more than that).  

First off, Hyunjin is such a sweetheart.  You can see it in how he interacts with the fans, and just everything you see him do just gives sweet vibes.  He never is rude to his members *cough* Seungmin *cough* (jk ily aha), and he is always so soft-spoken.  His smile looks so genuine like he’s actually happy to see his fans or do his job, he just looks like he’s legitimately a good person, because I truly believe he is.

He is also so unbelievably modest.  Remember in their 7 vs 9 stage when the mc talked about his looks and he got super super shy?? yea he’s constantly like that, and it’s not only super adorable and precious, but it also goes to show just how modest and down-to-earth he is.  He doesn’t let his looks (or talent for that matter), get to his head, he just works hard to do what he loves.

Going off of that, he is so hardworking and talented.  Like, this boy was literally told he didn’t need to actually work to become an idol because he was pretty and Hyunjin went “fuck that” and worked so freaking hard to become a better dancer, and look where he is.  He's honestly so good, I can’t take my eyes off of him when he dances, his dancing is just so captivating and he makes it look so easy.  His moves are so precise and strong and it’s just so unbelievably impressive and amazing.  But what a lot of people overlook is his rapping and singing as well.  During the survival show, (he actually taught me this trick in that episode that helped me a lot), he was working super hard on his rap when he was told his enunciation wasn’t good enough, and he worked late into the night, doing that pencil thing and practicing his rap.  And, tbh, I actually really like his rapping, possibly more than some of the rap line (at least in certain songs).  His voice I find so attractive to me and his raps just sound really good and he’s come so far I’m just so proud.  AND HIS SINGING???? Boy you gotta up that confidence because your singing voice is so dang good and I want to hear so much more of it!!  Like that melodic rap in I am WHO was a start, but I wanna hear so much more of his singing, I truly believe he could go super far with just his voice as well.

And his personality and overall vibe just makes me melt for him.  He is just so gentle and sweet and smiley and he has a muuuuch better personality than like every 00 liner guy I’ve met (I need more Hyunjins at my school please and thank you :’) ).  He is a super sensitive guy, which makes me cry for him a lot more, but it’s also (in my opinion), a really attractive and good thing to see in a guy.  When those awful “fans” posted those TOTALLY FALSE rumors about him, he was so upset and actually cried on stage (which made me bawl for hours in my bedroom, nobody gets to hurt that sweet boy okay!!) Like this kiddo actually is so sensitive and things get to him which is both good and bad, but it just further demonstrates the pure and sweet person he is.  (also can I just say he was so friendly on asc like I just have to say I was like almost crying when I rewatched it and saw him waving with huge gestures at me and stuff like he’s so sweet and kind and enthusiastic to his fans I just love him sm).

He’s also so adorkable like I think people have kind of forgotten about just how dorky he was in the survival show with his constant injuries, like burning himself cooking three times, he’s so clumsy and I wanted to wrap him in bubble wrap but also say “same, bro” like that boy was relatable and adorable and tbh I want more attention for dorky Hyunjin (minus the injuries, we don’t want hurt Hyunjin).  He’s like an underrated overlooked meme, like haven’t you seen the street versions of those songs too?  (Rock and Question) I know some people finally noticed his dorkiness in Question, but this boy needs to let his dork lights shine more XD

But like the final straw that made me majorly swerve to him (I’m not biasing him yet aha, this just had quite the effect on me lolol), was actually not something he did, but rather a dream that I had about him.  What I think made it such a big influence was that, even though it was a fake dream and I know it’ll never happen, it just seemed so in-character for him like personality-wise and it really opened my eyes to the soft sweet guy he is.  (I won’t go into detail about the dream unless people want me to, but basically he was super sweet and smiley and idk he was just so soft).

Okay there is so much more for me to say about why I love Hyunjin, but this is just a snippet cuz my hands are cramping :’)

Now, I’m not hating on people who only like him for his body/looks, you do you, but I think people should realize that he’s SO much more than that, and he’d definitely prefer it if you biased him for his dancing and whatnot.  So yes, this boy has amazing abs and an amazing face, but he’s so much more than that.

(ily Hyunjin, keep doing you cuz you are amazing <3)

[rouzmary]

Game of Thrones - S8E3 - The Great War & Night King 

All in all, I'm happy with the episode, but did expect more death and certainly from major characters. 

However, try as you might to make us forget about Arya - I didn't. 

It stayed in the back of my mind from the moment Melisandre told Arya of the blue eyes and Arya run off. 

As the Night King walked to Bran and Jon couldn't get past the undead dragon, I kept waiting to see just how is Arya gonna arrive & what she's going to do. 

So, no surprise it was Arya, but certainly surprise at how it was executed. Me like it.

When the Dorthraki got wiped out...yeah, that was the first time I felt like...they’re all doomed, just how the hell could they possibly win? They’ll simply get overrun by the dead.

And then with all these smaller scenes which tugged on the strings...the storm, Drogon besieged by those undead, Arya running alone in the halls, Night King rising their fallen comrades...

But when the piano started playing...yeah, that’s when true feeling finally kicked in for me and I was thoroughly captivated, for a lack of a better word.

It added that final layer to make it...how to say it...to make you forget you’re breathing, who you are and all your concentration is on the screen and what is going on.

1st time we heard piano on GoT was when Cersei massacred all those people and now we heard piano again. That really managed to make it all sort of come through to you, to fully comprehend the scale of just what is going on. The death of it all and no hope is sight.

So yes, all in all, I’m happy with the episode. I wonder how it’ll all go down in the books.

I must say I’m surprised they managed to end the Great War in this episode. I fully expected to have some of it in the next episode as well. After all, Night King is/was the ultimate threat to all living.

 And while the episode was indeed magnificently filmed and executed...he really died? Sure, it was the end of the episode and dude got overconfident marching in to Bran with his generals like a boss...but this was THE threat.

Maybe it’s indeed cuz he got overconfident.

Plus, with Game of Thrones it’s expected to expect the unexpected.

I knew the main characters like Dany & Jon will survive cuz hello, we still have 4 episodes to go...but they really killed the Night King in this one. Huh.

Kind of hard to comprehend. 

I kind of expected Arya to go down with the Night King.

I think the episode and all that happened needs some time to settle down in my brain and then a rewatch is needed.

Now that the threat of the dead is forever gone...it’s time for the living to massacre each other again. ...Yay...

Well, no major character for whom I’d truly care for died. Didn’t shed a single tear. But did get breathless with anticipation, dread and just flat out feeling kind of...numb? from all that is going down. Numb in a good way, like...as I said...completely captivated.

Actually, me not crying and stuff isn’t all that surprising. I rarely get moved to tears or soooo surprised/shocked whatever.

lolz, when other people talk of how they cried or were so shocked at the events I’m like - why? what for? Sure, it was good...but not THAT good. You people have low standards and/or are simply way too easily moved.

I’m made of harder stuff. 

Ain’t gonna get to me so easily.

I do wonder if there’ll be people who cried in this episode. Though I’d seriously wonder why, cuz like I said - none of the beloved characters died...for me.

I liked the episode and it did manage at times to make me breathless.

And for all that the episode was an hour and a half, it certainly felt like just 5 minutes. Went by so fast or more like didn’t notice the time passing at all because not a moment felt lacking and it held my attention the whole time.

Now that the dead are gone, Cersei is all that’s left.

Kind of feels like with Night King dead this should be the end, but the story goes on.

It’s back to humans being stupid humans and killing each other over their greed. Well, greed on Cersei’s part. Jon & co are the good guys and just defending themselves XD

With Night King not managing to kill Jon & Dany I’d be kind of disappointed if Cersei managed to kill either or both of them them.

Like, not even Night King could kill them. Cersei certainly shouldn’t be able to either, but then again, the Night King did overestimate the living and got himself killed.

And since humans are indeed the worst, wouldn’t be actually that surprising if Cersei did kill them.

Just kinda tad disappointing.

But.

Where is Ghost?

He’d better be alive.

[youreallyshouldtalkmore]

Dana Don’t Lie_Part 5

This takes place after The Oasis. As usual you can see all the parts listed for this series, along with other fanfics in my Black Panther Masterlist.  

At the time of watching this I was rewatching alot of old Madea plays/movies and got a lot jokes/ideas/inspiration from those.

Disclaimer:  Nothing really, Erik will be Erik so use of the N-word.

Part 5

It was close to midnight and everyone had gathered in the lobby as per Shuri’s orders. When you and Erik exited from behind the tarp, Aquaneesha looked up and began moving forward.  T’Challa gave a smile at the two of you. He figured your talk must have gone right. He was happy to see that.

T’Challa stepped in her way. “Let’s not get excited, Miss. Aquaneesha.” 

“What are you doing? Move. Let me see my man!” she literally pushing T’Challa out of the way. 

“Did she just put her hands on you?” Shuri asked, “I knew I should have had you to call some Dora Milaje down.” 

T’Challa stood aside, “It is fine.” 

Shuri mumbled. 

“Don’t come over here!” Erik snapped loudly with a growl. Aquaneesha stopped with a blink. 

“If you do, I won’t be responsible for what I do.” Erik threatened his arm around your waist as the two of your walked up to the counter.

Aquaneesha bounced the baby on her hips once before handing her child over to Nakia who seemed to have become the babysitter this evening. T’Challa got momentarily distracted in seeing Nakia with a child in her arms. He had to shake himself to pay attention.

“Who is she?” Aquaneesha screeched jabbing a finger at you.

“Didn’t hear it earlier eh? You must be deaf.” Erik muttered darkly.

You reached up and laid a hand on his chest, “You don’t have to argue, Erik. Leastwasys not on my account.”

“You the she-witch that turned my man against me, aren’t you!” the taller woman cried.

“Well, she has him under a spell alright but you wouldn’t know anything about that, would you?” Shuri snapped from behind the counter.

Shuri could not wait to get rid of this woman. She had been working her nerves since she came. Even when she had to take her son’s blood, she was over dramatic about it. Griping non-stop about how useless this was and how useless niggas were in general and other things that Shuri didn’t care to know. In a rare show of emotion, Shuri was feeling a sense of murderous rage.

Wait was this how Erik felt for so long? 

Geeze, how did he deal with it?

T’Challa sighed. He didn’t know the last time he remembered his sister being so ill-tempered like this.  

“Ahh-HA!!!” Aquaneesha cried pointing at you.

“Ahh-HA, what fool?” Shuri asked.

Her brother was now looking a her like she grew two heads. How was one woman getting under his sister’s skin that much? And besides that perhaps she was spending a little bit too much time in this city? Or with Erik? Hmm….

Aquaneesha ignored Shuri, keeping her steady eyes on you and well continuing to point her finger, “What kind of voodoo are you doing?”

“You wouldn’t know if I told you”, you respond coolly. You heard Shuri and Nakia snicker. Erik grinned at this comment and T’Challa looked torn between amusement and concern.

Suddenly Aquaneesha was hurling insults calling you and your mama out ya’ll names. 

The room froze and Erik growled, tampering down the urge to return to sender. Instead, he looked down at you wondering what you would so or say.

You however only looked at Aquaneesha. The small sign of your annoyance as that your right eyebrow twitched.

You turned then and at Shuri, “This decade please.” you said gesturing to the piece of paper.

Shuri gave a curt nod, raising the the paper in her hand.  “I ran the results twice just to be sure.” she preface. “In the case of Erik Stevens verse Aquaneesha Jones…….” she announced dramatically

“Shuri….” you warned, a small smile pulling at your lips.  

“Sorry…...” she mumbled under her breath before clearing her throat and saying, “Erik Stevens, you are….”

“See I told you! You are the father!  I knowed it! I knowed it !” Aquaneesha screamed at Erik, “See you gonna be a daddy to this baby! What you gotta to say now?”

Everyone was staring at her as if she done lost it.

“I didn’t even announce the results yet.” Shuri cried waving the paper around.

“Don’t have to! I knowed it!” Aquaneesha paced back and forth her eyes on Erik. 

Shuri eye was fast twitching but a wave of your hand made her look at you.

“What are the results, genius mine?” you asked.

That made Shuri gave a small grin at your comment dispelling the frown that was marring her features.

“Erik Stevens, is not the father!” Shuri announced before slamming the paper down on the counter.

Aquaneesha looked stunned at the news.

Shuri added, “Now, have a good day. Goodbye!” 

You picked up the paper and looked at the test though you didn't know what you were looking at. Shuri noticed and began trying to explain it to you. If this was up here that would mean it’s a match but it’s down here so it wasn’t . You nodded absently and stare at the the test. Meanwhile chaos was swirling around you.

Erik clapped. “See, I told you! Now go find the real baby daddy!”

“That's impossible you must have set this up.” Aquaneesha screeched finally snapping out of it “I knew I shouldn't have let you take the test.”

“Then take it and go get a retake.” Shuri pulled out a paper bag and put it on the counter.

“What’s in there?” Nakia asked, rocking the 3-year old who had fallen asleep.

“A vial of Erik’s blood….” Shuri snorted before snarling at the taller, “Run all the test you like!”

“You could have switched out the blood. How do I know it’s Erik’s blood?” the tall woman growled.

“I take my craft seriously. I don't’ know about you.”

“She did take her seriously, which why she is currently in her predicament!” Erik hooted.

“Erik…..” T’Challa warned, “.....That’s isn’t nice.”

“Don’t remember trying to be.” He looked steely at the tall woman, “But you best take that and git, cause I ain’t gonna be dragged across town every which a way for a blood test. You betta be happy I’m letting you take this.”

“Or if you like, we can send everything to the local hospital and they can run it.” T’Challa offered.

“Cousin…..” Erik growled swinging to T’Challa who held up his hand and said, “To help speed things along and make sure everything goes smoothly. We already know the results.”

“Uh-uh, I want her!” Aquaneesha pointed at you who was still looking at the test.

Shuri threw up her hands, “What are you on now?”

“She is a witch doctor and she has turned him….” she pointed to Erik, “....against me.”

Seconds went by…..

You finally let out a dramatic sigh, “I’m bored….”

Everyone stopped and looked at you.  Erik slowly raised an eyebrow.

You looked up from the test paper, laying down the counter. “And it’s late and I’m tired…..”

You swung your gaze to Aquaneesha, “You plan to be here all night?”

“I sure am! Until we get to the bottom of this…!#@%@” she answered.

Everyone held their breath as she cussed you out. 

 Finally you spoke: 

“You know, I could cuss you out if I wanted I just don’t see much point. I find it doesn’t convey the subtle nuances of ones thoughts. For instance, your courage, if we could call it that, to come here knowing that he wasn’t the father leaves much to be desired only to be outmatch by your foolishness. Even in the face of the results, that fact that you would continue this charade is testamant to your desperation and or stupidity, I’m not sure which.”

T’Challa looked away trying not to smile. Nakia was staring at you amazed while Shuri started giggling. Erik was was beaming like a fool with pride.

And Aquaneesha had her eyes squinted. It took her a long moment to figure out what you were saying and form a response. 

“Are you calling me stupid?” she finally asked narrowing her eyes. 

“In addition, you must have gotten the address incorrect….”  you trailed off.

“What address?”

“This isn’t the studio of Maury or Jerry Springer. I don't’ know where they film but it is not here.”

“How dare you? Erik!!”

Said male turned his back and leaned on the counter with both arms as if he was checking something over it. Shuri was giggling like mad now.

“But more importantly…” You continued, “....I want to know how you going to pay for my emotional distress.  I was doing just fine this evening and then you have to bring your Jerry Springer/ Maury drama up in here.  This is not the place to do it. With the results, I suggest you track on up out of here before you embarrass yourself further.”

“I will not leave until Erik apologize to me!” Aquaneesha screamed.

“Apologize for what? Not sleeping with you?” you asked.

Erik was over there fist pumping.

“How dare you? You want a piece of me! Come on then!” She took of her earrings and kicked off her shoes.

“You can’t be serious, right now. This is not how a mother should act.” Nakia busted out.

“Can it, sista!” Aquaneesha snapped before looking at you.

You gave a long suffering sigh and looked up at the ceiling, “Clearly there are times when being a lady does not pay.”

It was a shock to everyone when you marched straight up to Aquaneesha and grabbed her by the arm making her squeak, “What are you doing?”

“I tried being nice. I tried hoping you’d get the hint, but clearly you do  not. But perhaps this once I will lower myself a smidge and speak a language you can understand. Erik is mine. The man don’t want you. He said as much.”

“He is mine!” she hissed jerking away from you.

“No.....Ho he mine.” you hissed. 

Erik was full out grinning watching this. “Shouldn’t we intervine?” T’Challa whispered to him concern this could get out of hand.

“Don’t interrupt a cat fight, cuz. You should know this.” he whispered back.

Shuri leaned between them, “Don’t get in the middle of that, you might get swiped. Even you as the Black Panther would not survive.”

T’Challa gave his sister a look. 

You narrowed your eyes looking up at the taller woman, “Don’t let the smooth taste fool ya. I don’t like to fight unless absolutely necessary. You are making it necessary.” 

The taller woman gazed down at you. She must have seen something in your eyes because she huffed and snatched up her shoes. Marching over to Nakia, she snatched her son out of her arm before marching out the door without an thank you or goodbye.

“Y/N, you owned that fool!” Shuri cheered after silence stretched a bit.

T’Challa looked at his sister, “I think you need to come back to Wakanda for awhile. Your becoming more like Erik the longer I leave you here.”

Shuri waved him away still grinning.

 You turned around slowly and began to fidget looking sheepish before shrugging, “Too much?”

“Heck no, I got a woman willing to go to bat for me?” Erik questioned walking over to you and pulling you to him, “No not too much.”

“Wow, Y/N….I admit I was worried there.” Nakia standing up from her seat.

“I wasn’t, my girl was gonna be okay! I think I should give you a couple of lessons and how to swing properly.” 

 “N’Jadaka, I’m not trying to be a fighter, you know. Actually, I’m not a fighter.”

“Well you never know. Just in case you gotta throw down.”

You took a step away from Erik as you said, “What this plan to be habit?” 

Erik shook his head. “We ain’t talking about hat. There could be other situations. I want to make sure my woman know how to take care of herself.”

“Hmmm….” you mumbled.

Shuri asked all of a sudden concerned, “If she had swung what would you have done?”

“Duck…”

There was ripple of chuckles at your dry response.

“However I knew she didn't want to fight.”

“How? That’s impossible...” Nakia asked, “Even I didn’t realize what she was going to do. A moment I though she was gonna swing.”

“That $100 nail-do and $200 weave with that $75 mini-dress almost showing all her business and them $100 shoes? Girlllll, she wasn’t ready to throw down. She was ready to show up. So I showed her up. Game set match.” You mimic dunking.

Erik couldn’t help but pull you in with raucous laughter.

“You must be part diplomat….” T’Challa said amazement in his voice.

Shuri leaned over and dramatically fanned at Erik and faked whispered, “This this is the only thing you’ve done right. Don’t mess this up!”

“Get offa me!” Erik groused.

Shuri fanned at once again making him glare at her, “So when can I expect a cousin in law?”

“Shut up.” he hissed at her before looking at you beaming.

“Anyway, it’s late and I am tired. I gotta bounce.” you finally said after a moment. 

Shuri pulled out your backpack which Erik walked back to get for you before walking back over to your and handed it to you.

“Thank you.” you turned to the door only to turn back to the group, “Ladies and Gentlemen, I leave you with this thought.”

“Which is?” T’Challa asked amused.

“Dana don’t lie…..” you said before promptly turning and walking to the door..

“Dana?” Nakia asked confused. T’Challa cocked his head and the two exchanged looked. Shuri was trying to think about it but was coming up short.

Erik followed you out but stopped at the door and turned around with a grin, “The DNA….Dana…..”

The two of you were gone leaving the Wakandans.

“That makes no sense!” T’Challa finally groused.

A/N: I’ve never written a character like Aquaneesha but the end, even she wore me out. I’m tired ya’ll. My own side-character (one time use, I assure you) annoyed even me. Though it did make for good drama if you ask me. Thanks for reading this story in the series! 

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Lounaticm did it so I am as well bc I wanna so there. 😊🥰

1. The first Security Breach, I believe

2. Rewatched one of the 7-second challenges with Eef and Tyler

3. OH I DON'T KNOW uhhhh... I do love his more recent Minecraft playlist!! (haven't had time to watch thru the drunk one yet lol.) Since YouTube had deemed Minecraft kids' content by then, I can't decide whether I wish he'd been allowed to swear and make all the dirty jokes he wanted - OR if it was funnier hearing bleeps/edited words and him screaming "LIXIAN MAKE IT FAMILY FRIENDLY"

4. wisdomteethwisdomteethwisdomteeth oh my GOD he's so sweet 😭🥺

5. Not sure. The only thing that came to mind was a video that was originally streamed: Untitled Goose Game might be my favorite vid EVER.

6. Has to be Darkiplier. And I can say Damien too since they're technically the same right??? 😁😅

7. LOU I PROMISE I'M NOT COPYING YOU I IMMEDIATELY THOUGHT OF HIM TOO. Derek Derekson, definitely. Sadly not a fan of King of the Squirrels either, nothing personal, I just have a... thing about getting dirty or other people getting dirty. When I was little I cried at Winnie the Pooh when he got all muddy. ¯\_(ツ)_/¯ So the peanut butter face makes me uncomfy

8. Space. The emotional range, his acting ability, I just... I love them all but Space wins.

9. I've only listened to a few unfortunately!! But Bob's Fridge was definitely a banger. Classic.

10. Aah yes. Story time. My parents didn't let me on YouTube for a while longer than most people, I think. Among my first subscriptions was DanTDM, mainly because my younger brother watched him lmao. Years later, Dan uploaded Security Breach and I loved the game so much I went hunting for every playthrough I could find. This is how I subbed to both Mark and Sean, bc their vibes and personalities were both just so much fun so loveable so amazing. The most ironic part is that I watched Mark's entire fnaf playlist UP TO SB. And I haven't finished watching him play SB 😭 bc my addled strange brain is "saving it for later" cuz I know I'm gonna love it so much??? Idk alright

11. I t s b i g b r a i n t i m e

12. Honestly don't know cuz sometimes I think my notifications are delayed and come after the videos are actually up 😠

13. I actually cannot choose. Istg it's like witchcraft his hair looks good no matter what he does with it it's incredible

14. I should have been. But I wasn't watching Mark yet by then. Breaks my heart

15. i dONt KNOW. WHAT EXACTLY COUNTS AS A COLLAB. The only thing that deigns to come to mind that's not with the friendos who are involved all the time (Eef and Tyler, Bob and Wade, Sean) is the Rosanna Pansino vids, their dynamic together is brilliant and I love her 🥰

16. Oh geez, I love Phasmophobia or basically any spooky ghost hunting game they play together.

Markiplier Ask Game

I made an ask game based on questions to do with the channel. Feel free to like, reblog and of course, ask!

1. What was the first video you remember watching?

2. What was the last video you watched?

3. Favourite let's play series?

4. Favourite irl vid?

5. Favourite stream?

6. Favourite ego?

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8. Favourite Adventure with Markiplier?

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15. Favourite collab?

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