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karokawwo · 2 months ago

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I'll be honest I really hate height differences in vns... like I'm short so technically that writing should be geared towards me, but personally it just feels very infantilizing and it's so annoying. I know a lot of people are into it but it to me it's just kind of upsetting

#i really hate feeling weak #idc if it's a fantasy world where somebody else will protect me i really hate being forced into this position of helplessness #and extensive descriptions of height difference just contributes to this #like i love keir i do... but also i find some of the dialogue in his route annoying on a personal level #(hence why kari is a fucking titan lmao)#and let's not even mention touchstarved!#ik the full game is going to be painful for me bc these descriptions are most used with ais of all people so uh. yeah. not looking hot #(also why kaiho is big jaded and has some fighting prowess. the mc in the game is always so clueless and weak even with the hound bg)

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septimusmoonlight · 6 months ago

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You doing ok?

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#i'm alive. simply being chewed upon by multiple things #work is more stressful than i'd like it to be. for instance i'm hoping that i submitted my time off notification for tomorrow correctly #because otherwise it might read as a no call no show and i would . like to continue having a job #now to be fair. i do have it on the system that i requested it at the beginning of the month and i emailed my supervisor about it last week #so even if i didn't submit it correctly i'm likely in the clear #but nonetheless. i also got a firm talking-to the other day and now i am on ✨thin ice✨ for dicking around too much #because they track ur idle time at my work (computer) and mine was Quite High so my supervisor was like man what the hell is this #but even though she was kind of baffled at me spending so much time dicking around #she couldn't even really be all that mad in the end because i'm still doing good numbers and have made no (zero) mistakes #so she was just like. it's kind of impressive that your numbers look this good when you literally have 50% idle time #so she goes imagine what you could do if you weren't wasting so much time #and yeah i can whip out some Really Good Numbrers when i put the effort in.#so the problem is not my numbers it's just that i'm not spending long enough doing my tasks for the day #but i don't want to drag out those tasks intentionally so i've just been upping my own standards/goals #as much as i hate giving any more of my brain power than is necessary to giant corporations #it's still easy to feel smug after you get Talked To and then immediately turn around and show off #like yeah i coulda been doing this good the whole time. literally pulling up by 20 points. i just didn't want to.#trying to keep everyone's expectations low but accidentally toed the line of um. not working enough to keep my job #...anyway. EAS national weather system issued a . hi #i haven't forgotten about all of you i'm just having trouble tracking all my shit that i got going on ✨ yaaaaaaay #im gonna post things on AO3 soon. i promise. my weakness is that i get sidetracked trying to unwind from work #...i know i said 'soon' last time. but this time for real #asks #not sexy #anonymous

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akkivee · 4 months ago

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was going over the tdd manga and interestingly enough, kuukou is the only leader whose initial reaction to coup was not shown to us. we are eventually told how he reacted to it in the nb drama track and looking at the reactions:

1️⃣: muses their new leader better have power to make change

🐴: laughs that if the new women in charge expect the men to be violent, he’ll gladly oblige and show that violence

🍭: is entertained by the chaos and chance at change

💉: muses even if conflict is ending, there will always be lives to save

🎋: questions how samatoki can laugh in this situation

these line up with their philosophies!!!! and so kuukou, who is always yapping lol, shown to be guiding with his words, notably within his songs, is the only one who was excited about the mics themselves 🤭

#this is vee speaking #i usually point out in the nb track and other interactions between ichiro and kuukou #that kuukou usually has the right idea first the right path to take and it’s ichiro that needs to eventually catch up #lmao kuukou always having the right idea about the power of words and is now lowkey ready to guide/lead the way to that very ideal #would be peak lol #hhhhhhhh like!!!!!! like!!!!!! i hate!!!!! that idk what to really expect out of the 3rd drb story wise!!!!!!!#bc this would be a great time to talk about kuukou believing in being heard and seeing the mic’s potential while also hating weapons!!!!!#the reliance on weapons is the mark of a weak man kuukou says!!!!! kuukou who openly admits he is weak!!!!!!!!!!#I WANT MORE KUUKOUUUUUUUU!!!!!!!! IM FEELING SO ANSTYYYYYYYY!!!!!!!!!#THE ITCH IN MY BRAIN ABOUT THE TRACK IS STILL THERE!!!!!!!! MITIGATED BC ENTIRE BAT FAMILY IS BEST FAMILY ➕ KUUKOUS SOLITUDE WAS ADDRESSED #BUT I NEED MOREEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE #c: rapping boys

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random-autie-fangirl · 2 months ago

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I drew another Chara- living with the Dreemurrs edition

"The King and Queen treated the human child as their own. The underground was filled with hope."

I don't like this as much as the last one but oh well... I ended up rambling a huge amount in the tag, so if you want details and headcanons about the actual drawing again, you'll have to look pretty far down this time, sorry (Also, I ran out of tags after a while. Tumblr is tired of me, lol. I might reblog this more tags later if I remember what I was going to say.)

#chara dreemurr #undertale #next up: the narrator #(I know that's not a title they receive in game like the other two but... just let me have this)#The future monarch of monsterkind. The prophecized saviour. One of the most important people in the underground. An angel apparently.#Chara puts all of their effort into appearing perfect in both appearance and manners. They're representing all the underground now and they #don't want to let down the king and queen! (Plus Chara's scared of getting kicked out or worse should they ever disappoint their family)#But... they're gonna save everyone! They're gonna make sure the monsters win this war! It's their destiny! The prophecy says so!#(... That's why all this happened to them. Chara sees themself as smarter more careful and maturer than their peers... because of the way #what a strange child...#hey look! I did a thing #my art #they were raised on the surface. They believe they have the skills to lead monsterkind to victory because of what they suffered.#Almost like they were trained or led to this moment. Like they don't have a choice. But this makes all their pain worth it right?#It was always for this fated grand purpose right? That's why they hate feeling robbed of their ''purpose''! Might be part of why they hate #determination! What do you mean you can defy fate? What do you mean things could've been different? That I didnt have to go through this?#that it wasn't written in the stars?... Oh shit I forgot to talk about the drawing!#The little bunches are supposed to look like monster ears. Especially with the monster soul locket. They're doing a curtsy which they alway #upon meeting someone new and introducing themself as the future monarch of monsterkind. Calling whoever they're talking to sir or ma'am.#Wanted to make it a curtsy/bow combination but I couldn't draw that. They have a little golden flower clip to pull their hair back and #they gave themself the belt and flouncy petticoat. They iron and polish everything they wear literally everytime they go outside.#Chara wears heeled boots whenever possible because they really hate being so short...they somehow think it makes them look weak.#The blushes and lashes are make-up! Chara wants to look perfect after all! They also really really hate their red spots/birthmarks and will #cover them up whenever possible...and they're wearing their crucifix again. Of course they are! Through it all they'll always keep #their faith. ....Until Chara finds themself a figurehead of an entirely new religion. I think they're...newly 11 here. (Second year in the #underground. 10 when they fell. 13 when they did.) Comfortable (comfortable as they can be) with their new family but not yet desperate #to get them out as soon as possible. Might not even be working with Gaster yet. But Asriel already gave Chara their locket.#I definitely think it was...a while before Chara really thought of returning the favour. Not that they don't utterly shower #Asriel and their parents in other gifts or affection! But they're just not one to make... promises of forever lightly. Especially because #Chara isn't really planning on staying around for a long time at all! They will break the barrier like prophecized then climb the mountain

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uncontrol-freak · 3 months ago

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#just wanted to make a post where i put down everything on my mind but then decided against it #because why. i really hate being weak on main no matter how i feel #the only thing that objectively could make me feel better is doing some spicy art but dunno.#objectively the entity needs a hug #gonna delete this later

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arkiwii · 1 year ago

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very sad still see the saria/silence divorce headcanon still going around

have you ever tried to consider that they never dated before lone trail because it would be unrealistic with the timeline and the events and also because it would be overshadowing the actual truth of why they couldn't get along

#i'll elaborate #firstly it's ok if you headcanon this i don't want to invalidate what people think #it's just that I think it's a fanon joke that have been going around for way too long #and I can't help but shed a small tear when I see people really headcanoning it #I personally think it's way more interesting if we consider that they never had something going on before Lone Trail #mostly because it's weird that they started dating in like some months when they barely knew or saw each other #but also because it adds nothing but just makes things even more harder for them #my personal headcanon is that Silence was maybe having feelings for Saria but like #you know these very premature feelings #like just “oh wow she's pretty and nice”#but nothing like really deep #but they never had anything going on before the diabolic crisis #and after lone trail after they made up and saw each other's true person #they start to actually get real feelings #I'm just complaining but I've been still seeing it around somehow and it's sad to me that this joke became a fact for many people #there's still a lot of fanfics about how they had been dating and now they're on bad terms #I think that going on the “they're exes” route is way too easy and actually hides the potential and interesting reason #of why Silence was mad at Saria #it's not because she hates Saria or blame her #it's because she's mad at herself for being so weak #really making them appear as exes just hides this really interesting truth and makes it all seem to be a sad love story #consider that they never had any of this and that this tension between them is because they blame themselves!!#their story is not a love story but above all a story about self love and acceptance #just my two cents enjoy my rambling i go back to bed now #(not putting this in the main tag I don't want to start a war I'm just rambling)

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azatas · 3 days ago

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it sucks that the ending ruined the experience for so many people because me3 has some of the best moments in the series to me

#tuchanka… rannoch… and YES even thessia. all bangers #even the smaller missions like mars and sur’kesh are great #and i would argue that with the expanded epilogue the ending is Fine #i feel like the biggest weakness the game has is kai leng and even then….. i really don't hate him as much as most fans do #like i think he was a necessary plot device executed sloppily #then again i've never minded when a game forces you to lose a fight but i've noticed most gamers HATE that #so idkkk #dee plays mass effect

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gifti3 · 15 days ago

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i felt like i came at kylar with regina george energy here ngl

#anyways he like did the whole why him and not me thing #ur so silly #my pc is dating sydney rn....so maybe that might be why kylar...#degrees of lewdity #my character isnt allowed to talk meekly to ppl anymore #ive been fighting whitney too much #too violent #yall im so weak #i feel like im playing this game wrong lmaoo #well u cant really play it wrong #but u know what i mean #now im at the point where im like U KNOW WHAT FUCK YOU BAILEY #ill just go fuck whoever rando u sold me to to keep my money 🙄#im not giving u 300 dollars asshole! i toiled on the docks and did random shit in ppls houses for my money...#and thats how my ass got trapped by eden for like a day lol #this town...#how do i hate fuck and then ignore a character like i dont know them #is that feasible??#once i figure out sydneys whole situation maybe...#ALSO i have this collar on my neck and cant get it off iwdjksijwd

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aelswiths · 8 months ago

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*screams into the void*

#the way he like seems to be choking back a sob of emotions before he says this #he can't bear the fact that he's causing her pain #and that there's nothing he can do to stop it #even though talking openly would help her but he can't do that #because if he does he would have to be vulnerable and if he's vulnerable aelswith might think him weak #which is something he knows she abhors (even though she hates it because of her own feelings of being seen as weak and unworthy)#and he can't bear her rejection because he loves her and if she were to reject him it would destroy him #he can be this open with uhtred because its a manipulation tactic #he's using vulnerability to get uhtred to do what he wants and thats why he can be so open in this scene. he's doing it strategically #but to be open with aelswith leaves him (in his mind) open to losing her since he's caused her so much pain throughout their marriage #and he would have to face the fact that he's done that and she might not forgive him and he can't do that #aelswith is so upset in this scene because she thinks its his final way of saying to her “you aren't worthy” when really its a tactic #to help ensure that she and their children will be safe #but they literally cannot properly communicate with each other because of all of the painful history between them #I'm going insane #I love them so much #they are everything to me #literally everything #he loves her so much #like he could not survive losing her - just the way he clings to her all throughout s3 speaks to that #I really think that because of the similarities between uhtred and aelswith uhtred's betrayal makes him start to fear that he could lose he #and he just starts to cling to her for reassurance that she'll never leave and she won't stop believing in him #ok I'm done #for now #I'm crying #your honor I love them #they mean so much to me

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dykedvonte · 4 months ago

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you make really good points, I think I used the term karmic wrong sorry. I think of it more as not how I personally think he deserved all that happened to him (which thinking back os exactly what karma means, I messed up sorry), but as his fate being directly tied/parallel to anyas. I handnt noticed the toxicity of jimmy and curlys relationship, from the first playthrough I watched and the first interactions I had w fandom I saw so many ppl just. dismiss the terror Anya went through and focus too much on him as the "ultimate victim" and that just didn't sit well w me. I really dislike seeing ppl go "oh well nothing could've been done" I think it's much more complex than that. also I forgot to mention in the last ask that I really appreciate you bringing the point that this game isn't just about the harm of patriarchy but also very very critical to capitalism, I haven't seen too many ppl touch on this. I hadn't thought too deeply about how it makes "he deserved to become disabled as punishment" come up and I agree that's really messed up. I'll try watching a playthrough again with all of this in mind. but either way thanks! I really appreciate your answer 🫶🏼

I guess this is just part of being in a fandom like this. I've noticed a lot of people don't actually see posts outside of their curated view. So some people only get like anya posting or jimmy or curly and it can make it seem like that is what is saturating the conversation.

I mainly just follow the general tags and look for anything new because I'm like obsessed but I know some are only looking for what they want or believe to be the case and can get weird about other ideas.

Sorry if I came off mean its just a last few of the asks have been like circular conversations like this and its not draining per say but seeing all the nuance and details get overlooked to fit a straightforward and basic narrative really sucks cause there's a lot to explore character and theme wise.

#its like idk i feel like im yapping about the same stuff over and over and over again cause people confuse simple on paper with simple in #execution or like without the human factor like idk sometimes to humanzie Anya people dehumanize the other characters to an extent #which is also part of the systemic problem because by dehumanizing people you take away from the awareness like idk the statements #that curly was the captain and just a guy like have to exist together hes like an okay find decent even good captain just not great #hes not exceptional and i think a lot of people are acting like the game said he is when thats just jimmy like Swansea and Anya see that he #just a guy under everything else hence why they dont feed into the vitriol jimmy tries to serve about him crashing the ship and how they #talk to him pre crash even with anya i feel like people are so focused on trying to see what jimmy doesnt that they are adding intention w #where there isnt not even on like she cant be this scale more so you are treating this like everyone in this game is doing some secret gran #gambit when they are just trying to surviv in really back circumstances like having anya respond to jimmys behaviro through the #fawn effect isnt making her a weak depiction its a real response that can coexist with purposeful action because she is clearly scared of #Jimmy even if she hates and thinks he's incompentent like shes not gonna roll over for him but shes gonna be docile in his presence so he #doesnt create a reason in his head to lash out at her like people simply cannot combine concepts to create the complex responses we see in #the game and idkn why its so hard because not every statement contridicts like Jimmy is a monsterous asshole can exist with how #systematic oppression and social enabling create/allow people like him to do their worse cause at the end of the day he chose to do #everything he did despite other options vs the others trying to figure out the best option for all whether that was the best or not like #he dug his own grave vs the others sorta being lined up in front of theirs and shot like this is more interesting to me than him just being #like idk cartoonishly evil and gross and why cant concepts stakes like fitting aspects together is fun its like the worlds shitties puzzle #mouthwashing #mouthwashing game #anon #ask #ur fine anon im just insane and get frustrated easily when i think im explaining something bad

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dent-de-leon · 5 months ago

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I think if he had more time, Caleb could have fixed him (Lucien Tavelle)--

#I mean this so sincerely #molly really had lucien when he said 'kindness is never lost and forgotten' and shared that memory of kissing caleb and seeing him #as 'softness and light'--#like. of all things.....it was that memory of kissing caleb that molly used to demonstrate to lucien that love always matters and no act #of love is ever wasted #caleb who broke through lucien's control time and time again #how much it terrifed lucien that someone could reach molly so easily. how molly still made him Feel for caleb and how much he #lucien hated himself for that. saw it as a weakness--#and that is. without lucien and caleb's backstories being exact narrative parallels --

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581ism · 6 months ago

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begging lando norris to stop airing out his personal confidence issues infront of everyone and the world. it's making you look sooo bad bro and i say this with as much understanding as is possible and only a little bit of contempt

#i feel kind of bad for him. not bad enough to not add my two cents though #like i get it!! ok!! it's probably very hard to be on such a public stage having every bit of yourself analyzed and hated on #but like maybe get a (better) therapist or just try to stop overcorrecting insecurity and feeling bad for yourself into being rude #anyways. who knows what's really going on with him thouhh #and also maybe he's just simply an asshole and everyone's theorizing is completely unbased but. idk #anti norris #< for blacklisting purposes i'm not actually anti him rn #this is partly bc of the stream clip of him being weird about lewis and george possible heatstrokes #like come oooonnnn. at least try to act like you have empathy it's not like their issues would take anything away from ur race win u know #anyways it all makes me wonder how he'll go down in f1 history in case he ever wins a wdc. is he gonna be called a weak minded champ as well

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sportsmusicsoapsmoviesfan · 1 month ago

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This is the man who stole my heart