#i realize what i want isnt unrealistic

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The universe is within you, but it is not a part of you

[strawberrystealer]

Bungo Stray Dogs- What I think they’d do if someone kidnapped you

Characters: Fyodor, Nikolai, Sigma, and Akutagawa

For some reason I think about this a lot sooo why not write about it!

Fyodor- 

Angry, upset, annoyed, all of those would be understatements

The pure rage that would fill this mans body once he gets the news-

If he saw like a letter or something thats like “Ayo we got ur bae come get them or they die lmaooo #livelaughlove” But a lot more sinister and stuff he’d go straight there and uhhh

Basically kill everyone there using his ability of course

He’d be so quick about it too, like drop everything he was doing and go straight there

Once he’s at the place in like the span of a few seconds everyone’s already dead and he goes over to you and idk takes off your blind fold or whatever they have on you

He becomes the softest man you’ve ever seen just for that moment cuz he doesn’t know what you’ve been through and he doesn’t want to cause you anymore pain

Once you two get home he’ll run a bath for you or something and stay by your side

He’ll make sure no one ever touches you again, he can’t ever risk losing you.

Nikolai- 

I bet he’d be like coming home all cheerful, ready to come mess with you or something and... you’re not on the couch.

Not in your room, the bathroom, anywhere

The smile immediately drops from his face and he gets worried

But then again he probably does this all the time so he texts you and you don’t respond??

Now he’s 10 times more worried than he was before!

Probably not a lot tho cuz he probably knows where you are

If thats the case then he just goes the the location and pays you a lil visit

Knocks on the door like a gentleman ofc 

But when they open it-

BOOM

“QUIZ TIME!!! Where’s my lovely little s/o?? Can you guess??” And he looks over and sees you inside the house.

Then he’d immediately kill move the kind gentleman into a burning fire! So sweet ik

He’d get to you and ofc be worried but once he finds out you’re okay he’ll be fine and back to his normal goofy self 

Unless you want the more realistic take where he cant stop thinking about it and thinks its his fault for weeks but is also trying to rid himself of emotions so ofc he cant be scared or guilty so he’s constantly battling himself on whether or not its his fault and if you still even like you because he might not have been there just in time to save you.

Sigma- 

He’d be so unbelievably worried 

He wouldn’t know who did it, why, how, or anything and he’d be just as confused as you probably are 

He’d probably have to ask for help, contemplate calling the cops but then realizes hes fr a terrorist he cant do that-

So he asks Fyodor for help and after a bit of pleading Fyodor gives him the location of where you and your abductor are

Once Sigma gets there, with some guns he’s probably scared to use, he sees the man that kidnapped you

Its gonna be like “if you give me ur casino ill give u your s/o” type of shit (super unrealistic but its all I can think of rn)

So obviously ur man isnt having that and shoots him

I mean he had no problem shooting that red haired girl (whatever her name is in the hunting dogs) so he probably wouldn’t have a problem killing some weak guy to get his lover back

Once he gets you safe he’ll keep asking if you’re okay alllll the time just because he’s so scared

“Darling are you sure you’re okay?? He seemed really scary... he didn’t hurt you did he? Do you need any bandages?”

Akutagawa- 

He looks completely unfazed

Like he’ll read some letter telling him to come get you or you die and be like “...Ugh not this again” 

He will get you though

And he is slightly scared but not really because he knows you’ll be fine once he gets you

When he gets to the place he doesn’t even knock on the door

He just punches a big ass hole in it with his ability and goes through it 

Also kills your abductor<3

Once he gets you he’s quiet

He’ll lightly hug you, glad your alive and the drive home will be silent

He’s considering weather he should be all “you’re so weak how’d you even get kidnapped” or “are you okay? ... He didn’t do any physical abuse to you, correct?” But both of them sound weird to him so he’s silent

When you get home he’ll prepare anything you wish

Tea? Dinner? Blankets? Anything, he’ll do for you

He does love you and he was very worried its just he has a poor way of showing it, thats all :)

[cybrthrillz]

i think a large part of where fan creators go wrong with wallmark - more specifically wallter - is that they all make the same mistake of assuming that wallter reminiscing his past relationship with mark = wallter is still in love with mark

the reality is that no matter how they actually feel or felt about the relationship, no matter how much they hate their ex partner now, people in real life will reminisce a LOT about past relationships- especially a marriage that lasted for six years. and on TOP of that, wallter and mark have probably known each other for a very long time even before that. its not unrealistic, nor out of character to assume that wallter sometimes misses what he had with mark and remembers an idealized version of those golden days of their relationship, while also absolutely hating mark and not wanting to see his face ever again.

truly, the person who loved mark is gone now. the moment he let himself fall into the influence of gray stuff, which may have stuck him into a point of no return. wallter and mark can NEVER happen again, not by apologizing, or making up, or talking about each other's feelings- it just is not possible unless you completely ignore wallter's gray stuff addiction and pretend it's not killing him. he literally just doesn't care about anyone or anything that isnt a building made of concrete.

its also very important to remember thst just because he may miss his relationship with mark sometimes, that doesnt mean he feels that way ALL the time. its also a very common realistic experience to suddenly be hit with guilt and regret when thinking about happier times in the past that you can never get back- only to later on realize why they ended in the first place, and it turns out you dont actually miss those times all that much.

feelings arent linear and they arent permanent and they are absolutely NOT supposed to be simple to understand. it lacks realism when you think of feelings and emotions purely in a conventional way. theyre adults, it only makes sense that they have complicated adult feelings and cry about stupid things sometimes.

[postpendulum]

Some deformed jumbled mess of whatever this idea is has been rattling around in my adhd riddled brain for weeks now and I'm finally forcing myself to write it down, it is barely fleshed out in the slightest (hence, "deformed") and only the main idea is in my brain right now so I'm basically making it up as I write this so, apologies.

The Fenton parents (for whatever reason) decide that Gotham is the perfect place to spend their summer vacation, and while their there through some

💫Wacky Shananagans💫

Danny ends up meeting (omg your never gonna guess this, it's so out of this world for me, who only has one dpxdc post so far and it's this ship as well, it's so wacky and wild, blow your brains out pew pew pew)

DAMIAN!!!!!!💥💥💥💥💥💥‼‼‼‼💥💥💥💥💀💀💀💀💀:O

What the what!?!?!??!?,! WHO WOULD'VE THOUGHT????? I AINT MEVER DUN DIS BEFORE!!!!!!!!

Anyway basically they have a summer romance because idk mwa mwa kissy noises gay gay homosexual gay and whathajaga

And then idk I had this that that like, I saw someone say once somethen like "damn tho the most unrealistic thing about this show is that nobody at that damn school thought Danny was hot💀" and I thought like, "damn bitch that true tho." So like idk, I thought like, I'm pretty sure its psychological fact or whatever (this gonna be damn embarrassing if that isnt true tho cuss ona my possible options ideas plans whatever for college is psychology💀) that confidants makes people more attractive, so like, ig like Danny builds confidence over the summer with you know, getting a boyfriend, Damian not taking any of that whatever bullshit idk ahjaobznaja or maybe just ghost aura shit whatever idfk whatever you want.

Basically when he goes home at back to school after summer break is over people suddenly realize "oh shit wait whys he kinda hot tho," and the fuckers like randos, maybe a-listers, whoever's just a buncha people like flirting tryna shoot their shot whatever, but then Danny's just like, thinking about how much he loves his boyfriend and how much he can't wait to see him in person again and what not. I also like to think Danny probably didn't even tell anyone at school he got a boyfriend, like maybe he even forgot to tell Sam and Tucker because he was to busy being fucking lovestruck, I mean I doubt that would actually happening and it's more likely that he'd constantly be gushing to them about Damian rather then not and I actually like that idea a lot better now that I thing about it that other one was more of a funny little side thought idk. But yeah nobody knows besides like Sam Tucker and Jazz, so yeah.

On o think that's it for me I'm done good night y'all *cue mic drop*

[stardustedreams222]

Pick a Pile Collective Love Reading ✨

What’s something your Significant Other wants to tell you but they are too afraid to say it?

🦢These are hard truths to hear, please take a deep breath to open your heart space then choose the pile, crystal or emoji you’re most drawn to. As always, Take what resonates and leave what doesn’t. You are always in control of your life. ☁️✨

𐐪𐑂 𐐪𐑂 𐐪𐑂 𐐪𐑂

☁️Pile 1: Redline Marble

7 of Wands, Hermit Reversed, King of Cups

They wanna tell you that you’re doing more harm than good by standing your ground and putting up boundaries. That right now, you’re really just isolating yourself from the world. They don’t think it’s healthy but they don’t want to tell you bc they don’t want you to push them away too.

Here’s your advice: Boundaries are a good thing but you have to set those boundaries with compassion and a balanced mind and heart. Are the people you’re cutting off from your life people who are really bad or are they just telling you truths you’re not ready to hear? You need to have Compassion and Patience with yourself first so that you can feel your emotions and have compassion and patience for others who might not have the right words to say the right things.

Signs this is for you: Seagulls, 1989 Taylor’s version, Out of the Woods song in particular, Beach, Pier, Malibu, Sand, White, Blue, 999 777 1111

🦢Pile 2: Selenite

4 of swords, 7 of swords, Chariot, Six of cups Reversed

They want to tell you that they think you need to stand up for yourself. Right now they think you’re taking things too lightly, and justifying it as “I’m staying out of it for my own peace”— but they really think this is just letting other people get away with being mean to you. They want you to start standing your ground and sticking up for yourself even if this means getting into an argument with someone or taking the conflict to HR. They think it’s necessary and the faster you do this the better it’ll be for you. They also want to say that if you need help doing this they’re here for you. You don’t have to face your bullies alone. 🩷

Conflict can be really difficult to face but you deserve to feel safe and if someone is causing you trouble, talking it through and fixing it is better than putting on a mask and convincing yourself it doesn’t hurt.

Signs this is for you: Napping a lot, Feeling restless, Anxiety, Shaking, Mirrors, Mirror magic, Cats, White, Black, Orange cats, Golden retriever, Pitbull 323 333 444 777

🤍Pile 3: Rose Quartz

Knight of Cups Reversed, Knight of Pentacles Reversed, 4 of Wands

This is in regard to a wedding or a marriage. Some of you are planning a wedding and others are already married. There’s conflict with the parents in law or with your parents. Your significant other thought this would be like a fairytale wedding/marriage. But it’s turning out to be either a nightmare or they’re realizing their ideas of this were unrealistic. They thought you were going to be their knight in shining armor to defend them against all troubles with your parents {this is giving Rapunzel, where the prince saves her from mother gothel except you didn’t do this. But they thought and wished you would.} They don’t want to bring this up because they’re worried that when push comes to shove you’ll choose your parents{in law} over them. They’re used to being neglected or chosen last for everything and as much as this is hurting them right now, they’re choosing to suffer in silence. I can see this isn’t your intention at all, but instead you just wanted to keep the peace. Unfortunately, this isnt a situation where keeping the peace is a good thing.

Your advice is to think about what you want and what you are willing to do to show your love. This will require you to stand your ground with your parents{in law} to be the protector your significant other needs you to be. First, create a safe space for your significant other where you can sit down and talk. Let them know they are loved and cherished. Work on making them feel that they don’t have to worry about you choosing someone else over them including your parents{in law.}

Be prepared for healing tears and be open to collaborating on how to fix this moving forward not only with your parents{in law} but with each other. Work on rebuilding a foundation of trust with open, honest communication. It can be difficult at first to get the words out but be patient and compassionate with each other and everything will be all right 🩷✨

Step Two is implementing this by talking to your parents{in laws} and putting up boundaries necessary to protect you and your significant other’s peace.

Signs this is for you: Fighting over tablecloths, Theme wedding, Elven or Fantasy theme wedding, Destination wedding, The Witcher, Game of Thrones, ACOTAR, Estranged parents, Mother/Father in law visiting, Crowded guest bedroom/house, Family gathering, Reunion, Red, White, Black, Silver and Bronze, 353 333 555 444 1111

𐐪𐑂 𐐪𐑂 𐐪𐑂 𐐪𐑂

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With Love, Astrid 🩷✨

[veraoli]

Aspects that show if you’re dating a cheater in astrology

(Remember, not all people with these aspects are cheaters. These are just aspects that are PRONE to cheating if they aren’t self-aware.)

Uranus conjunct venus: A person with this aspect isn’t really comfortable with long-term relationships because they like their independence and freedom. They also get bored easily and can suddenly start liking someone completely different out of the blue because it excites them. They are the type to: “oops” I didn’t mean to kiss them. The impulsive cheaters. But as long as you both keep the spark in this relationship or you are open to letting this person having their freedom and independance, you don’t have to worry.

Neptune square mars: These people can be flirtatious and act like they want you. The truth is they might just be leading you on. They are the type of people to be f*ckin with 5 people at the same time and lying about it if they think you would get hurt by it. People with this aspect are also confused about what they desire and are attracted to. They are the go with the flow type of people and that’s why they can also cheat. Especially when alcohol or drugs are involved. I would suggest only dating them if they show you with actions that they want you because words or s*x isnt really proof that someone loves you.

Lack of saturn aspects to personal planets in the chart: if the person you are dating has no saturn aspects to personal placements (ascendant, venus, moon, mercury, mars, sun) this can create an individual who isnt serious, trust-worthy or reliable. They can lack discipline and might not be able to stay faithful because of this.

Venus in 8H: these people LOVE s*x. That doesn’t mean that they will cheat (this one depends on the aspects). It’s just that they can’t be in a relationship if the s*x is lacking and might go looking elsewhere. So if they suddenly don’t want to have s*x with you, I would be worried if I were you, because…They might have found a new supply😭

Venus square moon: They want a pretty woman/man by their side but once they have it they feel empty. This is because they aren’t connected with their inner emotions and this disconnects them from getting what they actually need. Only liking things for the aesthetic wont make a person happy and thats what they might not really realize. These people might also take you for granted. Sometimes they have an unrealistic view of love and what it truly means. This person can cheat because something is just “missing” from your relationship.

Neptune square venus: they might use love as a form of escapism. They might be dreamy, charming and perfect on the outside but that is because they only tell you what you want to hear. They also really like living in a romantic fantasy story where everything they do is ”for the plot”. Type of people to tell you ”lets get married tomorrow” only to break up with you two weeks later. You can’t trust them because they can’t even trust themselves tbh. I would personally stay away from people with this aspect unless you want to get hurt.

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[vitalphenomena]

Give some of your favorite ships in your writing and why they’re good!

if you're on hiatus (holyrots, bluedprints, and freekzout come to mind) or stopped writing the character i probably didnt list our ships because i dont want to overwhelm your notifs while you're out or make you feel any kind of way but rest assured i hold you dearly and our ships are good. if you want a list of these ships i can maybe send it to you privately.

if i didnt include a ship and youre bummed because you feel like that indicates a lack of interest, it isnt. we probably need to write (even) more or i just forgot bc i have a lot of characters.

let's get the 'spirit's ship with an older man' category out of the way. if your 'spirit's ship with an older man' ship isnt listed, it's because i dont want to overwhelm you, i dont want to shame myself adding too many of these, or we still need to flesh it out some more and will if youre willing.

daniel @despiterage and spirit. simultaneously within my comfort zone and stretches me out of it by being so graphic and intense. simultaneously extremely unrealistic and yet tragically believable. despite moments of hilarity, especially initially, is such a sad fucking story. stretches the extents of their individual capabilities and demonstrates their values when it comes to seeking pleasure, prioritizing wants, and moral obligations.

hugo @bludrite and spirit. at the risk of being repetitive: simultaneously within my comfort zone and stretches me out of it by being so graphic and intense. simultaneously extremely unrealistic and yet tragically believable. allows hugo to be his worst self and also as sympathetic as possible for him. potentially a stepping stone for spirit to allow her to grow into a more independent and assertive woman—but more than likely another facet of a narrative about how "a child weaned on poison considers harm a comfort."

reaper @dxsole and spirit. he treats her like a grown woman, and i realize how rare that is. something poetic about the girl who hears ghosts and the entity who walks people through their final moments. he is the end and she is the new beginning.

and the rest:

callisto and spirit @miidnighters. girl for girl. tender. possom lets me write spirit at her worst and most unforgivable, but also lets me explore a side of her that's softer, more vulnerable, and kinder to herself (most importantly) as well as others. i love learning more about how callie loves and her backstory.

spirit and willow @unpossession. girl for girl. maisie lets me write spirit at her worst and most unforgivable, and spirit shows this off more viscerally than in just about any other ship i currently write. i enjoy being a part of some of willow's character development. what started out as girls who are good friends very casually became girls in a loving and sexual relationship.

alex and ridley @withbeasts. the tragedy of being in love with an addict. the tragedy of being in love with a man who has a fraught relationship with his mother. one of my favorite second gen plots because of how much timeline we have to work with and how it flirts with angst while retaining some elements of slice of life.

cain and zachary @id1eyouth. two characters with impractically tragic stories who deserve happiness and whose happiness will satisfy the audience. dominant/service top cain stretches both of our comfort zones in a good way. despite the age gap or perhaps leaning into a cliche of this nature, zachary has a lot to teach cain about enjoying life, forgiveness, and acceptance.

harris and roman @catfcng. one of the only harris ships where harris is with someone as foul as him, if not even more foul, which makes it a lot more comfortable and satisfying for me to write. can be hilarious (but that is just because normal man roman sionis is my good friend and he makes me laugh). stretches the limits of what harris allows himself to feel as well.

didi @dxsole and hanna. girl for girl. hilarious. what they want, accept, and deserve. refreshing to write something that's riddled with hijinks (didi's plot to exasperate and taunt her father, hanna juggling polyamorous entanglements) without being painfully toxic. allows me to write with your girl of all time, and as someone with a girl of all time of my own, i enjoy getting to witness other people write who they adore.

and ships that arent romantic/sexual ships even if theyve had sex even if it was only a dream sequence and that only applies to one of these and i won't tell you which one:

aria and vampire arthur @muckcourt. wretched, irreverent, vicious girl who can't die meets principled/dated, angsty, repressed man who is undead. i like writing aria a lot and you let me write her almost as much as i want to. i hope it's fun for you to explore your long overdue vampire arthur verse, too, you dracula loving sicko.

max and pneuma @muckcourt. taboo subordinate and superior of all time. toxic is not the right word. perhaps my favorite dynamic i currently write, and if we ever stop writing it, i will only remember it fondly. i'm super proud of their scenes we've written on tumblr and i cant wait for people to see more because it's good and because they're like the car crash human beings resist looking away from, except worse.

beck and homelander @rejectory. so, so much fun for me. has been formative to beck's development and could allow me to explore a villain arc i never thought possible for him. the audience will hate that. i will love it. allows me to write with you and i'm up your ass. allows me to read writing that epitomizes so much about what i love about mr lander's source material and you.

fernanda and josephine @ruinaa. while not toxic on its face or through many of the threads we write, tragically sullied by kieran's presence in fernanda's life especially, but josephine's life as well. refreshing to write a girl who is good to josephine for unselfish reasons.

hara and spirit @petitsdieu. i love queer baiting. allows me to write spirit at her richest and most sympathetic. repetitively being repetitive, allows me to get to know your girl of all time, and as a writer with a GoAT of my own, i love getting to know yours.

[mejomonster]

Modu chapter 5: fei du blew him a kiss

两位大爷谁也得罪不起，陶警官只好冲着无辜的夜空翻了个白眼，快步跟上骆闻舟。

走了几步，他下意识地一回头��果不其然，看见费渡正一动不动地站在原地目送他的背影，见他回头，费渡好像早料到这一幕一样，倏地一笑，伸出两根手指，在自己嘴唇上贴了一下，然后冲陶然轻轻一弹。

陶然：“……”

So the thing is. I read edanglartranslation's english translation of modu before. And I remember that while early in the story tao ran seems more like he cares for fei du... the more you learn, the more you realize Tao Ran is a realist and Luo Wenzhou's actually the one who is more open to believing Fei Du can't be capable of truly monstrous things... even when evidence implies otherwise. Luo Wenzhou acts like he assumes the worst, but hes trying very hard to push fei du onto a good path and be a good person. Knowing (some) of where fei du came from and some of the reality of his still cruel at times behavior. Whereas Tao Ran sees the fruits of fei du being influenced by luo wenzhou in a good way, and has hope for the kid, but when fei du does or seems to be involved in dark stuff well Tao Ran is less unfailingly in his court. The little girl who kills in case 2 is, as always, my favorite fei du parallel. Shes done similar to what he has done, and tao ran cant imagine saving her after all shes done or how she could even be this cruel. Luo wenzhou saw a fei du much like that little girl, and tried to help him grow into someone better than his surroundings (his dad etc). Luo wenzhou found a victim he failed to save, failed to help in time (and failed even as an older kid regarding fei du's own self harm versus what luo wenzhou didnt know), and still tried to help. And in just trying to helo, he did help fei du heal to some degrees and ultimately make some good choices and have a much better idea of his own internal morals and confidence in them.

Its always interesting to me the roles tao ran and luo wenzhou played in fei du's life abd as the story shifts what it lets you know. And as like an age gap relationship story, it actually uses that aspect to explore some really interesting perspective stuff about responsibility and blame and delusion and naivety. From luo wenzhou seeing fei du as His Responsibility to care for/help/save/fix as more than you'd ever see an adults choices (until of coursdl luo wenzhou learns to see him as an adult who now is responsible for himself), to fei du assuming unrealistically high blame and self hatred for things he isnt the cause of (because children tend to blame themselves more for tragedies in their lives and things they had no control over). Those two aspects make them very much savior/victim and hero/monster in each others eyes when they arent thinking clearly. To fei du, at his most irrational, hes a monster and its all he can be and luo wenzhou is a hero. At his most emotional, luo wenzhou sees himself as a failed savior and fei du as a victim he desperately wants to prove he can save.

They can both think clearly, but meeting when fei du was so young meant fei du took personal hatred of himself for his own trauma (and put luo wenzhou on a pedestal that luo wenzhou FELL off of by failing to help), and it meant luo wenzhou naive young detective faced the reality he cant save innocents and cant protect even if he tries and he reacted in a very controlling parent/cop way to try and fix by controlling (an interesting parallel and reverse of how fei dus dad acts - luo wenzhou punishes in ways fei du finds soothing and non threatening, luo wenzhou pressures him to be Nice, luo wenzhou lets him throw fits and hit and be a brat and be Anything versus his actual father who was terrifying if fei du actsd out even a little. Luo wenzhou is the "safe" outlet where fei du actually gets something close to a healthy upbringing, and by extension tao ran - who helps with that healthy modeling of safe authority figures because luo wenzhou pushes him to help give fei du safety and support).

Their ages when they meet develops this very particular way of using each other to heal and lean on, and then the relationship cant really bloom as romantic until luo wenzhou faces the fact fei du is an adult responsible for his Own Choices now and that luo wenzhou Cant Protect. They cant be together until fei du stops seeing luo wenzhou as a replacement for his mom - a precious person who loves him, who he fears he'll hurt or kill because his dad made him believe people he loves will die like his mom and itll be Fei Dus fault (in his head). They both have SO much baggage with each other by the time they start to try a romantic relationship. Because theyve already had each other to serve various roles and supports (and to support their own deluded way of hating themselves) for years.

Tao Ran, the realist, has had the least lies built up in his own head and least relying on those two (versus luo wenzhou who sees tao ran as a proxy wife/partner/beloved trusted person which Luo Wenzhou tends to NEED to fully trust in someone, and fei du who uses tao ran as a safe outlet to csre about... since luo wenzhou is too beloved like his own mom, too parental like his own dad, too precious to risk being close to lest fei du harms what he values). Tao Ran has his own delusions, mostly that he hurts ppl by being in their life, that he has to take on risk alone, and a lot of self sacrificing biases that are typical of a lone detective mold. If luo wenzhou is a optimist who hopes good people exist, and fei du is a pessimist who believes everyone is a monster, then tao ran is a middle view of believing its up to him (on his shoulders) to try and keep the world FROM being all monsters. And his failures crush him (where luo wenzhou can bounce back better), his hopes are fragile. As a trio the 3 of them make for an incredibly interesting story exploration.

[natsmagi]

I hate to be rude but do you know how to draw body fat or are you just gonna make tsumugi a stick with boobs over and over

THE "I HATE TO BE RUDE" AHAKGSQKG3KWHQJSUANSHDNGN PLEAAAAASEE ANON DONT LIE TO URSELF U KNOW DAMN WELL THIS WAS WRITTEN WITH CONDESCENDING INTENT LMAO but to answer ur question; yea i do! admittedly im not the best at it as i lack experience (i dont draw nudity very often so the opportunity barely arises) but i do have a general understanding of how its meant to look and yes i will continue drawing tsumugi as a stick with big boobs over and over! because this is the body type i headcanon her with and i think it suits her. i know boob sizes arent that deep, but a figure like hers carries a more "motherly" vibe to it (theres a reason we say "mommy milkers" n shit after all) plus it adds to her "hot klutz anime gf" energy. theres a Reason this portrayal is so common in the broad enstars community (including JP/KR/CN/etc artists too). when coming up with femstars portrayals my priority is not in giving you representation (that was never even there to begin with); it is to try and translate what made the character good in the original and keep that energy in this new version. now, sometimes adding a larger bit of diversity DOES help translate over the characters energy, and its a win-win for all! it just simply is not how i picture tsumugi in my head (but this does not mean i eat up those different portrayals of her any less!!! i think its super fun to see and she will always be absolutely gorgeous!!!!). if you disagree with my headcanon of her you quite literally do not need to consume my art. no one is forcing you to look at what i make. Pick up a pen and draw the tsumugi of your dreams yourself

and before anyone brings it up: yes!! skinny ppl can have big busts!!!! crazy, isnt it?? ud never expect it from the way yall discuss it! boob sizes are determined partially by fat, yes, but also genetics and if uve undergone pregnancy (the mommy milkers.....) so its INCREDIBLY weird to see people constantly talking about how those of us who draw tsumugi like this "dont know how women look" when yall dont even research the shit you spew. the reason "big boobs skinny waists" is something we've been fighting against in media portrayals is because there was a time where that was ALL THE PORTRAYAL OF WOMEN WE'D GET. THAT IS UNREALISTIC. women come in ALL shapes and sizes, and to dictate what women Can or Can't look like is fucking misogynistic and i cant believe you people dont realize this. i cant believe you dont realize the harm in what you say. alot of skinny people with big busts end up getting breast reduction surgery because 1. those mfs are heavy and 2. everyone sexualizes them!!!!!!! their bodies are viewed purely as something pornographic!!!!!! and no one wants that!!!!!!!! which shit like THIS (something being wrong with having big boobs) perpetuates. often times they hide their busts by wearing baggy clothes, which hides their figure and they end up looking a few sizes bigger just to avoid being viewed as an object. its sad!!!!! and now theres a new wave of people BODYSHAMING THEM??????? and for what??? because men think big boobs are hot???? why can women only exist in contrast to men???? why must women always think about how men will react to how they look or behave?????? why cant women of all body types just EXIST. why must there ALWAYS be someone we punch down at???? bodyshaming isnt suddenly cool just because youre shaming something men get off to

so, i have a question for you too! genuinely, what is wrong with drawing tsumugi like this? what is the harm? theres like 6 characters out of the 49 in enstars that i hc with big busts, so its not like im reducing women to this body type, and its queer people and women who are my target demographic. so whats wrong with it? im genuinely curious

[puhpandas]

I have to admit that I find your Gregory and Tony headcanons to be interesting I think you might go a little overboard with Tony's flaws to the point of making a relationship between him and Gregory (romantic or not) feel unrealistic.

I admit that you might be your intention, but it seems like waiting until Greg calls him out to start his development feels like it would be too late for the relationship to be maintained.

real life relationships between people, especially two 14 year olds will ebb and flow and they wont be perfect people right of the bat. people can make mistakes and do bad things and have bad mindsets while being friends with someone else and wrong them. that's just something that can realistically happen in real life. that doesn't mean the relationship should be terminated, it means you work through it

gregory and tony in this scenario are not just buddies from school (although that shouldn't matter), they have a lot of motivation to want to know eachother and be friends and have history. so even if tony made a mistake, gregory would be angry but also would totally have the means to forgive him if he apologized. tony has deep inner turmoil and tunnel vision surrounding his DAD, not Gregory. he isnt the root of the problem.

Tony is not too far gone so neither is his relationship with Gregory. after Gregory called him out, Tony did the right thing. he realized what he was doing wasnt right and changed his mind, then remembered why he shouldn't and didnt do it again

not every relationship in media has to be either sunshine and rainbows and they get along perfectly besides the minor argument, or straight up toxic. it is realistic for a relationship to have this level of of intricateness and flaws. tony is a flawed character and so is Gregory. sometimes flawed people can get worse or improve. in this case, tony got worse then improved. people and characters in turn are never easy to understand and have lots going on. ESPECIALLY at their age in this case at 12 to 14!!

[shiocreator]

[blasts through the door so that unrealistic 3d blocks aimlessly and slowly float around as dust particles]

If I may-th impead on your domain. I ask-th, if you may, tell me about either most angst ideas you've ever had with OC x canon or the "kicks feet and giggles" sweet type ideas

I saw ur post n Tumblr said nah so I came here.

ANJJKNSKNJS

Ok So....

The Beauty that is scarlette is.

She has so many fucking issues man every SINGLE ship ive put her in has been slowburn strangers friends to lovers in some form cuz i genuinely cant imagine her one day getting randomly into a relationship in like, a blind date way.

SO A LLOTTA THE ANGST CAUSE IS JUST *HER DENIAL* AND AVOIDANCE, i quite frankly LOVE using misunderstandings with her in particular cuz she is so avoidant, she stsrts to avoid her crush and loses friendships that way a lot,

"they'd hate me if they knew i had a crush on them" cuz past trauma of first confession in middle school where everyone already didnt like her and all, and her only friend back then was her "crush", (which might have just been her desperate to cling to the only classmate she thought was a friend) and he just. Slung A lotta insults after she confessed that was the last straw caused her to be how she is

SO EXPLANATIONS OVER HERES THE FUNNY SHIPPING PARTS, read more to spare ppl. Also realizing this isnt just aus but abit vaguely entirely au related in some cases so. Beware

Scarhouse:

Angst; her starting to gain a crush and upon both Madhouse and her pining she realizes this and starts becoming so so *so* avoidant, which makes mike think she hates him now and Robyn has to force them BOTH to confront each other about it in the end (confession time at least happens)

Sweet; i like to think scarlette uses mike as a mattress cuz she can touch ghosts so he CAN hold her, so just cuddling typically on a hot day, wrote a fic n put it on ao3 and i still think its really fun.. touch starved individuals BHFJ

AnxiousGlamour; cant think of angst but the entire dynamic of enemies to friends to lovers with them is so fucking funny to me they yell at each other and insult each other banterly their dynamic before friendship is so funny to me, but lord they genuinely have surprising amount in common, sweet moments wise in my Monsterheart au Scarlette checks on Mettaton cuz ya know. Limbs, and just. They talk. Quiet moment of "you arent so bad afterall." Just quiet moments, Mettaton and her take the boat back to waterfall cuz Scar wanted to say goodbye to Napstablook, before she supposedly died or not. Somber ish moments before she says a "final" goodbye

Now ACTUAL shipping wise? Confession where scarlette is finally okay enough to acknowledge she wasnt get slaughtered or hated by a now at this point good friend just for having a crush, confesses to Mettaton, and "I'll uh, I'm probably gonna be pretty avoidant so i can make the crush go away so im sorry in adva-" "Darling I have been flirting with you for weeks now" "What" hjVKV

MonstrousLiars (okay so NAME CONTEXT. They're both liars. One would think Reigen would be more monstrous cuz ya know. Conman. So figurative 4 him but also hes Really Not. Scarlette is a Literal Monster.): Scarlette nearly dieing to save his and the kids asses which makes her go fully into a kinda adrenalyn fueled shapeshifting moment where she may be a Little drunk off the magic rushing through her veins and afterwards kinda has to be watched over cuz shes not doin great rn,

Scarlette is able to sense curses but not see them (ie she gets very bad vibes gets pale and goes into a minor cold sweat when too close to one, or gets a bubbling sense of dread with skin prickling etc etc, shes essentially absorbing the cursed energy against her will so her body feels BAD) so she just feels really ill and like shes dieing when she DOES get cursed, walks all the way to the office and collapses concerning everyone.

The ingeneral fact this woman wont let anyone help her with her issues is a great cause of pain for everyone cuz they WANNA help tbh

Sweet moments wise Scarlette at some point finally trusting Reigen enough to just, be a person, joke around abit, get him extra snacks she knows he'll like cuz getting people food is a love language.

Reigen and her having one on one dinners cuz he just wanted to know her better meanwhile shes just. Shes not even here for FREE food shes SHIT at interacting she doesnt even know why shes here but hey. coffee ! ghjFVUHG

Bonus cuz current brainrot is these two. Scarlette learning from Mob and Serizawa how things used to be way emptier and hints at reigen also just kinda, not being as having friends as one would assume he would have,, and Scar being just. Able to see that. Maybe theyre abit more similar than she thought and reachimg out abit.

She's been keeping pretty closed off, so i like to think her noticing Reigen is more similar to her than she would have assumed first, over him noticing it first, seemed fitting here, cuz shes learned bit about him through others, whereas she's been really rather. Not prone to even talking about herself, and the only way they can maybe learn more info bout her is carter or random moments of her hyperfixations pop up somehow

[emilyjunk]

hm, so. hi! first of all, i am thinking *a lot* about the grad school universe, so thank you for creating something so amazing? second of all, sorry about the rambling i'm about to do.

so, i was stalking the tag of this universe and saw that tweet of the "crying, manipulative and whore" emoji, and you said it was giving you cady vibes. and then i realized that most of the situations we've got to see of cadina involve regina messing up in some kind of way and cady dealing with that. but! i'm really curious to know about a situation that is the opposite. cady is just in a bad mood and regina is left to deal with it. cady messes up in some kind of way and regina doesn't have it within her to know how to proceed.

i did saw cady liking to tease regina in a lot of ways in your fics, but it still makes me think! i get that regina is very insecure on a lot of things about herself and their relationship, like questioning how cady chooses her even after all these years, even if she drives her crazy. quoting the third chapter of your fic (i am obsessed, yeah, sorry), "Regina hates when they fight. She hates that it's always her fault. She hates that she never learns.", it makes me think. there is no way is always regina's fault! i choose to believe that she is just too insecure to realize a time when cady was the one that started a giantic fight for no big reason.

and also! in the fourth chapter, we've got to see cady being jelous of regina, and regina is pretty cool about it. is there a time when regina does not get cool about, but freaks out instead?

i'm sorry if i am sounding rude, please know it is not my intention (i do not have a way with words, mainly in english, lol). i just really wanted to share this thought. i hope i was able to explain my confused mind right now. anyways, i love your writing and your imagination! thank you for creating this amazing fic. sorry again!

first of all hi! thank you for reading and thinking sm about this universe! i assure you it consumes my entire state of mind. i put your answer under the cut, as it got super long!

yes there are definitely a lot more scenes and aspects of their relationship to explore as the universe grows. it's mentioned they break up all the time but we haven't really seen that yet and what it looks like, so i definitely have plans to explore that. as far as cady messing up, of course it's not always regina's fault! that would be unrealistic. but yeah for sure, regina is super insecure and after she cools down from a fight, i think she definitely realizes that she is a catalyst for certain situations and fights, and she almost always escalates dramatically. i mean. that's just who she is. so even if it's just something small they're bickering about, sometimes she's liable to push too far or hard and then cady will get actually mad, so regina has to find it in herself to try to apologize/deescalate which isnt always easy for her, thus making her feel once again like it's her fault.

i think there are definitely situations though where cady is in a bad mood or something and regina has to deal with that. that also is a bad cycle because regina doesn't always know what to do or how to act, and i think it's easy to argue she likely wouldn't have the best track record of making good choices when it comes to dealing with cady's ~emotions~. Regina's go-to is anger or deflection... I think if Cady was upset Regina's suggestions wouldn't always be what Cady was looking for in that moment. And then that pisses cady off, trapping them in a cycle of fighting or bad moods. this relationship is the epitome of healthy relationship goals obviously.

as for the tweet about about being a crier manipulator and whore with the 🥺 emoji LOL, i was definitely not thinking about this in the context of them fighting hahaha. i was thinking of cady like totally preying on regina being whipped for her and down bad for her cute face and so she can get her way sooooo easily. regina doesn't always start a situation by being all about pleasing cady but you know she ends it that way because she can't stand when cady is mad at her for more than 20 minutes, and even when they're being playful and not fighting, i think regina is almost always first to cave! regina has spent her whole life getting what she wants... i think there is something so desperate in her to have this script flipped and cady for sure knows it. hence why she thinks cady was sent to torture her personally. i understand this is just a personal read of her character and their relationship so if people disagree that's totally cool lol.

as far as jealousy goes, regina definitely has had times where she hasn't reacted as cool with cady being hit on etc. but it's very situational. i think regina experiences a constant battle between feeling superior and inferior. for instance, she's not gonna look twice at some freshman hitting on cady. regina is so far above that kid she knows it's irrelevant and even acknowledging him is insulting to her. but at the same time she definitely feels insecure that cady might emotionally connect with someone regina thinks is more......... for lack of a better word, stable? than she is. regina is aware that she is extremely reactionary so sometimes she just says whatever and does whatever and gets mad or upset but she doesn't mean it, or she just needs to walk away and come back, and she probably sometimes feels insecure cady will want someone less volatile. cady doesn't obviously. cady understands this about regina and even if it pisses her off and drives her crazy sometimes, it's not a deal breaker.

welp hopefully that was some fun meta for you because this got long! this ship is fun to play around in the sandbox because they are both a little too obsessed with each other and that makes them act pretty extremely sometimes. but they're still the biggest softies for each other. okay cool thanks for the ask i should go now before i write 10k more analysis.

[macncherries]

am i the only one that thinks its crazy when women target popular gay men (or gay/ace/aro insinuated) men with romantic language? because to me its more of a realization that that person loves that character a lot and yet has absolutely no grasp on them as a person or concept. like, im not judging you, because thats your babygirl or whatever, but youve just twisted the image of that babygirl to fit your own notion; its no longer that same character/person anymore.

a lot of this was brought on by a Troye Sivan & Charlie xcx concert i went to a few days ago. there was a girl behind us screaming "thats my husband!" and other various romantically charged quips at him. which i never understood. why are you here? you cant not know that hes gay. if youre attending a concert of his, and comfortable enough to state hes your husband, you have to know hes gay. so why do it? am i taking this too literally? is it just one of those things that "people just say" and there is no deeper meaning behind it? the whole time i couldnt help but to think "girl, you are barking up the wrong tree" which was ironic because i think during "Rush" she was growling and barking at him as well. Also, side note, i love Rush's music video a lot.

this is a lot longer than i thought it would be. more below.

ever since then i realize that the same thing happens very frequently with fictional characters as well. I guess it just depends what fandom im in at the time, but obviously right now dungeon meshi is taking over my frontal cortex like spreading necrotic tissue. Laios specifically, people seem to do similar things with him. i think its because hes relatively 'malleable' as a character— hes easy to project onto and thus easy to mischaracterize. theres also a common theme with him being portrayed as puppy/dog-like and needy and whiny and stuff like that. this is more so in suggestive content. Im not disagreeing with that opinion; honestly i kind of like it, but thats another contribution as to why i think people choose him for the same kind of stuff. I will often see women or very fem-leaning folks hone in on Laios, romantically. And use the same kind of language. "thats my man!" "thats my husband!" "hes so mine" etc. Things that lay romantic ownership. and again, every time i see it, i cant help but to think "girl, you are barking up the wrong tree"

then again, self-ship has always been a little lost on me, so maybe thats where im not understanding. I dont dislike people who do it and i dont dislike it as a concept, i just dont understand why you would use that kind of language with a person who would realistically never be romantically interested in your gender. Obviously, Laios isnt canonically gay, but its highly insinuated he is both queer and autistic. and a lot of people who use the aforementioned language are, in turn, mischaracterizing him. Or at the very least ignorant to his coding and nuance within the character. This ties into the whole puppy/neediness thing earlier. The autism is translated into "dumb" to them, because they want to see the submissive behavior of a male character. Thats a whole different debacle. Im very tired of people categorizing Laios as 'dumb' as a general statement.

I think its still much more acceptable thing to do overall on Laios than it is Troye Sivan though. Doing that to a real person is much much weirder.

I also understand that the point of self-ship isnt necessarily to be realistic, that its more of a comfort thing, but doesnt that also kind of take you out of it? Like, every time i get romantically attached to a character romantically, its out of realism. As in, i would be at least somewhat attracted to them in real life. And inversely they would at least not categorically deny me outright. Getting attached purely sexually to a character is a bit different. And im guilty of being led by my dick to completely unrealistic characters. But im not talking about those, because the people who do this make use of both romantic and sexual language. So its not just a led-by-the-dick thing. Its a genuine belief that not only you "understand" that character, but that when using romantic language addressing that character, it is not just an outright lie.

am i just not understanding the tone? Is the whole "thats my husband" thing a joke and not laying any kind of romantic insinuation? ive only ever seen it used as such, but it could be different on tumblr.

[furymint]

❤️ - How did your muse come to realize their romantic and sexual orientations? Was it difficult to accept? Are they proud of who they are?

Miscellaneous Symbol Headcanons

(Elliot figured it out quickly but not before he irrevocably damaged his understanding of love with unrealistic expectations and few boundaries. He's constantly chagrined by society + his own self hatred but has a decent amount of compromises in place to protect himself. and nolanel is not normal. nolanel will never be normal about anything in his life, least of all sex)

but oh MAN this is a good question and one i think abt all the time. the answers are v detailed and a bit nsfw so it's all going under a cut

elliot was young when he figured it out. his childhood was lonely and studious--and that was partly his doing. josseloux treated him almost like an adult, allowing him to make his own decisions abt where to go and what to do, and elliot invariably pursued learning over play. he was snobbish, oversensitive, and peculiarly observant and analytical--which hasn't rly changed.

he was obsessed with quixotic male heroes, would find his eye drawn for hours to the ideal male figures in statues, and wanted nothing to do with the coarse or unintelligent (read: not like him) boys around him. josseloux wasn't unaware, and stuffed a few books in his shelves to bait his son. something like edward carpenter's anthology of friendship Absolutely ruined elliot's understanding of what a relationship w another man should be: something full of devout loyalty, intellectual greatness, unerring inspiration, and nothing like what he observed in real life. he was Different and he wanted Better.

women were Better but they didn't do it Right. they had the grace, kindness, and beauty that he wanted--except they were women, and women were inconvenient bc of societal structure/expectations and ☆misogyny☆. he intuited what sex was between the lines of his dad's books and decided it was not for him. then a teenage boy stopped an 8yo eli in the hall, bent to fix elliot’s tie, and spiraled him into understanding.

his imagination became more in depth once he knew what he wanted to see but wasn't seeing it. as he grew older, his queerness became more prominent in contrast w the dominant culture, and he began to resent the way people treated him as a curiosity. it was in his sense of beauty, his voice, the carry of his body, his values, and he knew that he would feel humiliated abt it for the rest of his life. he doubled down on himself and allowed ppl who wanted to dislike him to do so; he would weaponize gossip against them eventually.

he's still self-conscious. self-hatred is part of it, but most of that hatred is towards other parts of himself. at this point, he's thrown himself so far into fretting about his socks  that bigger matters feel smaller. almost every salon, house, lodge, and backroom where queer talk happens has also heard elliot's laugh. his experience w relationships before nol are unexpectedly fleeting and shallow, too: 6 months mightve been the longest because he always knew smth isnt clicking completely and it's all hot & quick sparks before they stop talking.

his first approach to nol was intellectual before anything else, then sexual, and when neither of those made nol open up, he regarded their interactions as platonic until he actually learned what nolanel's suppressed af tells were. then he kissed the dope and entered the 'Oh. So Nolanel Like-Likes Me. He's Also Terrified Of Me. Please God Tell Me I Can Fix This' phase. it got worse before it got better. its a miracle he didnt drop nol then and there but i never claimed elliot was smart.

anyway. nols insanity aside its a huge effort for elliot to have to juggle his big silly personality & professionalism with smth (possibly) undesirable that ppl clock in him the minute he's in view. by n large tho, he likes being gay n celebrates it. he just gets in trouble bc his gay feelings are too big for him to handle.

nolanel is just. jfc. so practically everything in the world terrifies nol. romance and sex are no different. part of that is just his own brain, and the other half is taught or cultural. he grew up knowing the how and why of sex bc of how crucial it was to the operation of the ranch. simultaneously, the only love he had towards a person was ephemie, so he just assumed one day he'd marry her and figure the rest out. he kissed her when he was 10 and both of them were like. uh yeah No.

his only other exposure to love was at community dances in the lowlands, where he danced and tried to convince himself of feelings but just couldn't sympathize with the couples secreted away and groping at each other. it didnt seem fun or worth breaking rules for. halone would be mad.

moving to the brume when he was 14 woke him up. the culture around sex was more open, which was distressing and confusing and thrilling. then the military compounded the jumble with peer pressure, the live-before-you-die mentality, and ohhhhhhh god oh no no no men everywhere why are men hot too. sex seemed embedded in everything down to their uniforms. perhaps he would learn to live w this. :)

absolutely fucking not. the ppl who ply sex horrify him by reminding him of his own desires (which halone says are bad). the most nol's done is make out w rando ladies but the minute they touch him past that he nopes out. this got even worse when his body was burned. dont look at him dont touch him (please look at him please touch him). he wants to be in love and have sex but any exp fills him w dread to the point it makes him sick. also, war makes him scared and sick. he is now doubly scared and sick. he starts telling himself its a waste and a distraction while knowing its not bc he cant. stop. thinking abt it.

ENTER BRUCEMONT. who loves sniffing out a weakness. he drills those feelings deeper into nols head while loudly contradicting them in his own life. he'll sit there and give explicit details abt the woman he bedded the night before so nol gets blueballed and furious. its hook line and sinker every time. truly embarrassing. brucemont loves his job. also, elliot is a political pest Needs To Go.

so this uber ridiculous religious, occupational, and personal shame cocktail is rly not helpful to nols state of mind. he Literally throws up after elliot kisses him for the first time bc he's so violently scared. his internalized homophobia acts up at the worst times, he's deathly ashamed of loving elliot at all for a while, and it takes forever for him learn that privacy is not secrecy and vice versa. the last thing i wrote is all about this.

honest to god if he just let himself enjoy something instead of analyzing the moral properties of kissing the man he's been pining after for 4 yrs, he'd have a better time of life. nol please go get laid im crying. and then he can't be normal abt that either bc hes i like uhhhh yeahhhhh im not rly interested in taking any of my clothes off the first time

i think if he fell in love w a woman he'd feel a lot more comfortable about it. anyone but elliot (and bruce. i know i joke abt it but GOD its possible its terrifying) would also do him good. nol has a v servile personality that adapts to the needs of the person he likes, but he and eli have such wildly different needs that they have to beat each other's brains like laundry for several years before they're compatible. none of this helps nol view his sexuality as smth hes remotely okay with for a v long time

[cherienymphe]

I think so far Im team rafe. I will say that under rafes circumstances, I think people are being too hard on him. As someone with friends with addictions, addiction isnt a linear process. Addicts can feel terrible in the moment and say they'll stop and MEAN it, but putting it into practice and breaking years long habits are two different things. Let alone how the body reacts when you try to wean it off something it thinks it needs now. The reader doesn't owe him anything, especially when he put her own life on the line. But to say hes not worth that effort (not saying you said this. just anons in general) is kinda hurtful and unrealistic. This story was written so realistically, his struggles and her determination to see him through them is admirable. You can tell he wants to be better, and that tiny glimpse of self awareness is what can eventually lead an addict to push themselves, no matter how slow the process. And then theres JJ, who never realized how beautiful the reader was because he never saw her as a woman until it was too late. I feel for him but at the same time I dont. She was right there and you fumbled the bag. I like a man who knows what he wants and isnt indecisive about it or acts like a kid who got his favorite toy taken away. Though i do love me a good corruption arc 😇

ALSO the little stand off between jj and rafe after the car accident reminded me of the stand off between edward and jacob after bella broke her hand. it was so tense and nostalgic and reminded me how much i love reading

Not twilight striking again! But yes I do think Rafe's self awareness does count for something even if it's not much. You're thinking like the reader because the drugs are literally a crutch for him. It's a bad coping mechanism for sure but it adds more grey area to it. I think it's easy to see Rafe for his potential in this fic rather than what he currently is because it's like hey he's trying right? But the same goes for JJ because hypothetically speaking, if the reader was with JJ, she would not be dealing with any of this. But that's the potential of JJ and not what he currently is and sexual assault aside, JJ is absolutely guilty of not appreciating what's right in front of you until it's gone. It's easy to have a you snooze you lose attitude about him

[jupiter-reimagined]

You ever post something you love, then you continue to post it… and then you realize you’re locked into it? Like, no other post would ever get *any* notes, but the second you post a dumb little quote from the thing you loved gets all the attention? Suddenly, you have interests other than the thing you once obsessed over, but no one cares for it. Do you ever just feel… stuck and lost, like I do?

yeah, all the time. i dont think im the proper guy you should be talking to about this but interests change. everything changes. the notes you get, the people who follow you. i have people who follow me for fandom content, which to me, is an unrealistic standard. i cannot and will not stay interested in a thing long enough to *only* post about it.

make art you love making. chaining yourself to a fandom/subject simply because its what gives you that small tiny dopamine hit that is a single note is not worth it. pursuing your actual interests and focusing on those is what matters.

but i can relate. theres a reason i dont post ocs or original works, because they "flop" or go ignored by the people who follow me (which really isnt that many if we're being honest)

i think perseverance is key. dont stop posting just because you have 10 no-note posts in a row. post because you want to and because it makes you happy. i do it because i want my works to be preserved in that way, for better or for worse.

who knows, maybe in a few days, weeks, months or maybe even years, someone will go trough your long-abandoned work and blog and cherish every single piece you posted and will want everything on their own dash.

because thats what ive done before. likely you too. painstakingly going trough ancient blogs from a fandom once thriving and gathering posts for your own blog