#i read that this quote isnt even from his books lol

[loverssfevers]

terence doesnt annotate his books because there’s a high chance his borrowed them from the library or will be passing it down or selling it. if its a textbook- he has a parchment open next to him that he uses to write down interesting quotes or his thoughts along with the page number etc on it to look back on. but thats the most he annotates. If his reading a book his more likely to bring it up to his friends saying things like ‘i read something interesting today… I can’t stop thinking about it… what do you think?’ i think he benefits from conversation.

adrian underlines. theres no massive paragraphs about his thoughts but he will only only underline things he finds interesting and important. or quotes he really likes. i see adrian reading mostly… biographies lol but he does dabble in more. but he would be underlining inspirational sayings or things he thinks will help him or the team. even his friends tbh!! everyone thinks his so wise and he IS but thats cause he reads!

graham reading is rare i fear, annotating even more scarce. all his books, textbooks are all in perfect condition. id say if he was to read it would be a book his already read multiple times, one he knows back to front. it could be some sort of comfort. i dont see him actively seeking out another good book cause his attention just wont stick around for a book he isnt sure on. which is so valid! his just a hands on learner!

miles dog ears his books im so sorry guys but he does and he definitely cracks the spine bending that book ALL sorts. his much like terence where he intends to sell or pass down the book so he doesn’t annotate and if he does its with a pencil to rub it out later. he doesn’t write anything anywhere else though he just assumes he will remember (he wont) (or he might but it definitely wont be at the right time or right place).

[lostfracturess]

nici i’ll have u know i just took two shots of tequila in preparation for this chapter 🤣🤣 and it’s close to 1pm on a tuesday

ALSO I CANT BELIEVE S&C IS OVER 100k NOW THANK U FOR THE NEVER ENDING FEAST QUEEN

“how can u stay so calm?” “drugs, sweetheart. it’s the drugs.”

i cackled so fkn hard 🤣

"Tell me," he whispered, his breath a warm caress against your ear. "Where would you want him to touch you?"

IM CHEWING MY MF KNUCKLES I NEED THIS MAN (or both men) IN MY BED IMMEDIATELY

Geto stripped the rain from his hair, then twisted the dark strands into a fresh bun. His eyes flickered between you and Satoru, a single raised eyebrow his only question. You wouldn't meet his gaze, the floor suddenly fascinating. 

stoppppp okay first of all the writing is eating so hard idk how but w every chapter i just fall more n more in love w the way u write 😭 BUT ALSO DON’t GIMME THE IMAGE OF A RAIN SOAKED GETO or else something ELSE is gonna be soaked out here🧍🏻‍♀️

ok i have to stop quoting every other line lmaooo

"Just so we're clear," Satoru's voice suddenly cut through the quiet, "I don't share. Not you."

PLS I KNOW I SAID I WLD STOP QUOTING EVERY OTHER LINE BUT THIS WAS THE NEXT LINE AND IM SCREAMING this is not fun to read while i’m in my fertile window

sighhh the conversation ab the 37 y/o pt passing n how he’s just a statistic now 😭 so heartbreaking yet realistically put

im loving the daddy dom energy satoru is exuding in this chapter i just love when usually flirty/amused men lock tf in when things get serious lol it’s so hot. also so sweet how all he’s concerned ab is her reputation & career ahead

“A familiar ache rose in your chest. You longed to reach out, to bridge the chasm he insisted on maintaining. But his posture, rigid as stone, and his clenched jaw, sent a silent warning. This was his battle, one he'd fight in isolation—as always.”

ughh i feel like this perfectly sums up their dynamic. also if s&c was a paperback book this wld 100% be a quote that readers wld highlight on the page n crop to post on pinterest lmaooo it’s so good

“He was falling apart. But all you could do was watch.”

🥲 pls. stopp im so fragile rn.

NOOOOO NOT SUKUNA BOOO BOOOOOO 🍅 🍅 GIMME FIVE MINS IN A ROOM W HIM RN 💥👊🏼

i have sm anxiety over this ethics hearing my palms r actually sweaty. its like i’m THERE rn.

wait nici can u explain again sukuna’s want for revenge towards gojo n wanting to tear him/reader down 😭 was it like the jealousy that he wasn’t able to become a successful surgeon like gojo n had to settle on educational matters instead? :”) im dumb sry. ik he’s the root of gojo’s addiction but i think i might be missing something here lol. or do we not know yet

ok i still hate sukuna’s guts but there is partial truth to what hes saying🧍🏻‍♀️not saying reader isn’t brilliant n talented in her own right, but for sure, satoru’s attraction to her has given her opportunities that other qualified students were potentially robbed of (we live in a society lol). but idk how exactly she ranks among her peers, so maybe she rly was the best student for the job, but that’s all very subjective

"Because you would do the same," you finally managed, the words scraped raw from your throat. "You would stay. You wouldn't leave me."

ok “why do you even stay?” sent a chill down my spine but THISSS. im gaspeddd :””(( reader loves him sm and if her commitment to not letting him take all the blame isnt evident enough, her sticking w him thru his drug addiction is truly a type of devotion that comes from a purest point of love

“You—you make me feel things I've spent a lifetime avoiding, things I don't know how to handle. It scares the hell out of me."

ouchhhh 😭 ok but i feel him on this. that avoidant attachment be hittin againnn lmao me n him are so same

"You don't need to deserve me, Satoru. Love isn't about deserving. It's about choosing each other, again and again, no matter what. And I choose you.”

CRYINGG YES 😭😭😭💕💕💕 this healed a part of me ngl

"If you don't come down in the next few minutes, you're the one getting folded, first-year."

WHY IS HE ALL OF A SSUDEN MR FUNNY MAN NOW PLSSSKDJDJD their chemistry this chap is off the charts

FFFFFUCKKK MEEE JUNKYARD BOY CHOSO!!!!????? I BET HE SMELLS LIKE GREASE N SWEAT N SOMEONE I WANNA FUCK. omg he called me pretty company 🤭🤭 bye dr gojo im all about them blue collars im sorry 😔🤚🏼

"I love you, first-year. Damn it, I love you. I don't care how complicated this gets, I want you."

god pls 🧎🏻‍♀️ if i’ve done anything good in life, then just give me this man

OMGGG HES GONNA FUCK US OVER THE HOOD OF A CAR ?!??!!?

"You give in too easily." A teasing smile played on his lips. "You don't really want me to fuck you on this hood, right?"

😐😐 this isn’t funny. im not laughing rn. i will not stand this sort of edging. gimme dick NOW

omg🧍🏻‍♀️ive no words to say about that smut. delicious, devious, dampening. he is my every fantasy and i desire him. i desire him so deeply

aaa he hurt her in his sleeeeppp 😭😭 for a man that cares so deeply like him that mustve really fucked w him. also this is so random and must be my daddy issues speaking lmao but satoru (minus his addiction) wld be such a good family man🧍🏻‍♀️the way he loves is sooo providing and stubborn to a fault but almost in a way that’s kind of grounding lol bc i feel like he’s almost always, at the end of the day, right about everything? haha i cld be proven so wrong ab this but i just had to share the thought

mannn im on the second court hearing n im just SO damn curious what is going thru satoru’s head rn 😭 it seems like something switched in there somehow, his demeanor is so different

him actinf so calm rn is scarinf the shit ourta me im ngl🧍🏻‍♀️like bb ur scaring me. PKS IN SO SCARED WHY IS HE SUDDNELY TELLINF US HE LOVES US

ah. and there it is. satoru’s impending fall from grace. i saw it coming from a mile away and that he wld do something like this, but fuck. the way it was written. i thought it would be something that came a place of more heightened emotions from him, something desperate to protect (kinda like in the first hearing). but THIS….so calm, collected, so sure of his love for reading that he’s willing to let go of almost everything that has given him purpose in life up until this point. it aches.

:( im heartbroken rn. amazing chapter 😭💕 thank u sm for writinf it, oh my gosh, jusf amazing

i need more tequila

giiirl!!! not the tequila ahhhhh 😭😭 that brings back bad memories omg.

& yes the story is over 100k already and still no end in sight. i never thought i would write so much lol. but also i'm already so sad when the story will eventually someday end. like i never want to not write about my unhinged neurosurgeon gojo help.

stoppppp okay first of all the writing is eating so hard idk how but w every chapter i just fall more n more in love w the way u write

thank you so so much!! that's such a big compliment coming from a fellow author <3

BUT ALSO DON’t GIMME THE IMAGE OF A RAIN SOAKED GETO or else something ELSE is gonna be soaked out here🧍🏻‍♀️

GIRL 😂 I'M SORRY.

i have sm anxiety over this ethics hearing my palms r actually sweaty. its like i’m THERE rn.

so glad the angst transpires well in this chapter!!!

wait nici can u explain again sukuna’s want for revenge towards gojo n wanting to tear him/reader down

so first: sukuna is an asshole.

second: sukuna is an asshole.

third: SUKUNA IS AN ASSHOLE.

no seriously, how i portray him is like a very power driven man, that thrives on the misery of others. moreover satoru being his lifelong rival and sukuna finally getting a change to push him of his throne is just something he wouldn't let slip through his fingers. so it's really all about power and control on sukuna's side.

also satoru's states in that chapter that he did something stupid in his past that sukuna is still mad about. feel free to speculate, given satoru's past 😂

ok i still hate sukuna’s guts but there is partial truth to what hes saying

yes it is!! satoru really has just eyes for yn and is defensively letting other students down in the process. this just adds to the overall mess their relationship is.

ok “why do you even stay?” sent a chill down my spine but THISSS.

hmmmmmm ahhhhhhh SO HAPPY that these lines landed well <333 love them!! they are so messy and raw ahhhhh

WHY IS HE ALL OF A SSUDEN MR FUNNY MAN NOW PLSSSKDJDJD their chemistry this chap is off the charts

he had a little bit of drugs and was all happy again lol.

FFFFFUCKKK MEEE JUNKYARD BOY CHOSO!!!!????? I BET HE SMELLS LIKE GREASE N SWEAT N SOMEONE I WANNA FUCK.

i was wondering, if i should just do a random character or one of the jjk cast and choso just came into mind at first. idk why but i think it fits ahaha.

omg🧍🏻‍♀️ive no words to say about that smut. delicious, devious, dampening. he is my every fantasy and i desire him. i desire him so deeply

here to serve!! so glad you liked the spicy scene. they are always a pain in the ass to write.

aaa he hurt her in his sleeeeppp 😭😭 for a man that cares so deeply like him that mustve really fucked w him.

YES!!! you're the first to comment on that!!! also thought that this is so so so SO BAD for him. like he would never (physically) hurt her and doing it unintentionally in his sleep??? EVEN WORSE. poor boy must have felt so miserable and angry at himself after.

the way he loves is sooo providing and stubborn to a fault but almost in a way that’s kind of grounding lol

honestly, love your observation about the potential family man side of satoru! his love IS fierce, demanding, and sometimes overbearing, but at its core, it's deeply protective, and i think you're spot on about that being grounding.

but THIS….so calm, collected, so sure of his love for reading that he’s willing to let go of almost everything that has given him purpose in life up until this point. it aches.

so happy satoru's fall from grace hit well!! wanted that choice of his to feel both shocking and inevitable. not a desperate outburst, but this chillingly calculated decision, born out of love. it just hurts so good!

thank you so so much for your lovely reactions to the chapter ellie, as always!! it means the world. also give me some of the tequila lol. sending you kisses and hugs ♡

[gerardpilled]

why isnt not the life it seems a reliable source? and is t worth reading anyway?

There’s a few things! Some people have pointed out that the book gets dates and timelines wrong. Things like when Mikey + Frank joined the band relative to when specific shows were played. It also completely glosses over the fact they had other managers before Brian (one being Mikey’s then-girlfriend)

Honestly, that’s not really important to me. (The manager thing might be indicative of ignoring women involved in the band, but that’s another topic) Most of that stuff changes almost nothing about anything. To me, the things that stuck out were the quotes that were obviously altered in some way. The author is British, and a lot of quotes supposedly said by the guys have British slang when there’s no way they would have said that.

A lot of third-party books use quotes that aren’t exactly real, mainly because these things happened so long ago that you just kinda need the general gist of what’s being said. That bothered me though. It instilled a sense of distrust whenever I read a quote lol. The author even interviewed Frank especially for the book and even some of his quotes feel off.

Third party books about bands have always existed and I think they’re super important. I just think this one was rushed and the fact the author works for kerrang makes is worse imo. I feel like he took quotes from surface level interviews and interpreted them as fact. In reality, the guys probably said a lot of those things offhandedly, hung over and tired. They probably had no concept of it ever being used in a biography.

But to answer your question, I do still think it’s worth it! There’s a lot of stuff that I think just helps to better understand the overarching story of the band. Just be open to it being proven wrong at some point in the future I guess lol

[actualclownfucker]

ughhhghhghhgggggg book quotes about barty, literally choking on my love rn

i rly went off w this one, apologies… if there’s anyway i can make it more organized or easier to read, lmk

YES! omg okay!! i thought there was a line where barty said smthn about seeing voldemort as a father figure but i hadn’t had time to go back through my screenshots from GoF yet and remember and i was NOT about to misquote my son !! isn’t it so fucking good? there’s so much to overanalyze and god, i’m so ready to do it

your hc about barty also having a psychosexual obsession over daddymort? correct. voldemort is everything he wants in a father figure, everything he wants in everything. and barty, having grown up with bcsr, doesn’t have a good sense of where to draw the line. where wanting to be voldemort’s son ends and wanting to be fucked raw by the man starts LOL it’s all one blur of craving affection for him (which we also see in his relationship with his father, mother and sirius, sexual attention is easy for him to understand)

and voldemort has no interest in any sort of relationship with barty outside of Leader/Follower and a bitch to do his bidding. but he’s smart and if letting barty sit next to him sometimes, saying “i’m disappointed in you…” and just giving him a small sliver of attention from time to time is what he can use to make barty even more loyal to him, he’ll do that. because barty is undeniably valuable to him (12 owls, after all!)

and this is enough for barty to convince himself that voldemort feels the same way about him. voldemort is far too busy to spend too much time with him after all, but look at everything he does do! it’s more than bcsr would’ve ever dreamed of! and oddly enough, for the first time in barty’s life, being voldemort’s bitch, he’s happy. he’s useful, hell, to voldemort? he’s even good! and that parental approval he’s been looking for, for so long is finally fulfilled

also “closer than a son” tf is that, barty? lovers???

(and yeah lol, barty has like, the most obvious oedipus complex i’ve ever seen)

that’s such a valid point! there’s no way anyone would know about voldemort’s past, unless voldemort explicitly wants them to know. so there had to be a way to use this against barty and i think it’s exactly as it seems. voldemort knows that barty isnt going to tell anyone, that he’s going to treasure being the only one that voldemort “opened up to” and would talk about his life to, it creates this idea in barty’s head that “i’m special!!!” so voldemort tells barty about where he comes from under the pretense of making barty think that they’re close, that voldemort does love him too. because why else would voldemort be willing to give up such valuable information? it’s the only symbol of trust and love that voldemort is actually willing to offer barty, but it is more than enough

(i mean unless voldemort’s gonna let bcj suck his dick or smthn, bc god knows barty would love that

also lol barty accidentally calling voldemort “daddy” in front of all the other death eaters fucking thrills me LOL)

barty likely definitely would’ve become a blood purist after getting to hogwarts, hearing about voldemort and deciding that voldemort is what he wants to dedicate his life to. i just think the fact that he never mentions blood purity makes is obvious where his loyalty lies. i think if he was a blood purist first, he would’ve mentioned it mattering to him, but the fact that he didn’t is more telling that it’s just voldemort that matters. whatever voldemort believed in, barty would’ve said, “yep. me too!” and it all definitely does go back to his mental illness

so absolutely in a world where he’d gotten help and support for whatever was going on in his head, he never would’ve started following voldemort. he still never could’ve made his father proud, but he could’ve learned to cope with that better

sirius mentions in his dialogue about barty that it came as such a shock to everyone barty turned out to be a death eater. ik the wizarding world is stupid, but i really think it’s because he kept his crazy behind closed doors. where only the people who really knew him would’ve seen it

honestly, other people probably saw him as a bit of a crybaby. if you asked his classmates about him, i think they’d say, “i always thought he was the kind of guy to hurt himself, not somebody else”

ohhhhh, yes! i totally agree!!! outside of blood purity and just talking about parenting techniques??? no, bcsr doesn’t see anything wrong with the way walburga treats sirius

but he would never, ever say that to sirius, because sirius needs to hear that bcsr understands and loves him. bcsr needs to be someone that sirius can complain about walburga to, so that bcsr can use that information and know how to manipulate sirius into believing that he’s so much better and he’ll always be there to take care of sirius

and yes, that’s so real. james just doesn’t know what he’s talking about when he says how bcsr treated sirius wasn’t right. because james was raised in a place of nothing but love, he doesn’t actually know what’s bad and what’s not. he’s just being dramatic and overestimating it, sirius knows the difference between bad and good, love and hate, and obv bcsr loves him, so it’s all okay!! (there is something, in the back of his mind, that tells him that it’s not. that he doesn’t want to be hit, but he can’t let himself actually think about it without feeling guilty bc how dare he when bcsr has done so much for him?!)

bcsr is like orion and walburga all wrapped up in one parent LOL he’s got all the emotional and physical abuse, the manipulation and expectations of walburga and then the cold distance and working too much of orion, but sirius doesn’t see that side, bc bcsr always has time for him. i think that’s really what makes it so easy for sirius to accept him as a father figure, it feels like exactly what he needs. and even tho he’s so similar to walburga for sirius (sirius doesn’t actually see it, of course) he’s nothing like that bastard of a man orion. and bcsr is happy to tell sirius orion is a terrible, terrible father

absolutely, the potters would NOT let sirius go see bcsr after everything they’ve heard about him. and that would make sirius feel sososo guilty, because bcsr is probably so lonely without him around. he probably misses sirius so much and sirius misses him too, but the potters are really trying to get into sirius’s head that it’s. not. okay. the amount of damage they have to work on undoing with sirius is wild

ugggggh, yes!!! you’re so right that when sirius first shows up, mrs crouch might honestly feel a little relieved since bcsr is calmer and less volatile towards their son, but she quickly learns that it’s actually for the worst and not for the best, because what she actually wants is to mend her family. not further separate it

but of course, barty is barty and reacts to everything, so he’s not just going to sit there and let his daddy be stolen from him. the one bit of attention bcj got from his father was beatings and now with sirius around, bcj doesn’t even get that anymore? all he gets is “be more like sirius, bartemius”? he can’t stand for that, so he takes it right to his father and says “fuck you, fuck sirius” any insult that he can think of to direct towards sirius and barty feels elated when the anger spreads across bcsr’s face and he knows he’s about to be beat

and everything just gets worse. bc now barty is going out of his way to cause trouble for attention more than ever. and mrs crouch knows the only way to try getting her family back on track is to get rid of sirius…..

(not kill him but it makes me giggle to imply it anyways)

and OMG i looooove barty seeing himself and sirius as if they’re in a competition for bcsr’s attention, so being beaten by bcsr in front of sirius, just thrills him so much!!! and i think honestly sirius just tries to look away bc yes crouch sr smacks and hits sirius a few times, but it’s never a proper beating like that and it’s rly when his pity for barty comes in

YESSS. sirius being his little doll that he can build and shape into what he needs him to be is bcsr’s wet dream!!!! it’s exactly what he actually wanted in a son and it’s so interesting that sirius spent all this time fighting against his own family, their ideals and what they wanted him to be, meanwhile bc bcsr does it with love and hides his manipulation a little better, sirius falls for it easier

and him telling sirius he can cry occasionally is sooo good. sirius never does, just like bcsr knew he wouldn’t, but it makes sirius’s heart swell with happiness just from being told that he can for the first time in his life

omfg,,,,,, bcsr sending sirius home when he’s in a depressive episode???

bc that’s the exact kind of overdramatic shit bcsr doesn’t want to deal with. these kids need to “get over it” and act right. bcsr is not going to deal with them acting up and sirius in a manic episode probably reminds him too much of bcj, and that’s not what bcsr wants from sirius. “you’re supposed to be better than him, sirius, i’m disappointed in you” so sirius does everything he can to not disappoint him again, getting the potions from lily is perfect and bcsr is just “so glad to see you’re back to normal, son” and even gives him a pat on the back. so affectionate and wonderful, amirite?

barty and ocd ♥️♥️♥️ he has harm OCD absolutely. he wants to hurt himself and others, anyway, as often as he can. he has panic attacks that last for hours at a time some days, crying, screaming, hitting himself against walls, banging his head and wrists on things. because on top of all these bad feelings, he has this energy and need to get them out and he just can’t and it’s frustrating and he’s sobbing, because he doesn’t know what to do, bcsr won’t help him, and as much as his mother wants to, she can’t either

and then on top of it, he’s clumsy, ungrateful and falls over all the time LOL drops and breaks stuff, which pisses crouch sr off to no end, runs into things and walls. and it’s never “are you okay?” but always “what did you do now, you idiot child?!” can’t beat the clumsiness or mental illness out of him unfortunately

barty opening up to walburga and her not giving a shit is the funniest thing ever to me LOL he rly thought he was gonna get sirius with that one, but fr. why would walburga want bcj over sirius? perfect, beautiful, looks just like her, sirius? everyone likes sirius better, even bcsr!!! thank god for daddymort entering the picture!

im gonna see if i can’t find the chapter regulus’s age might be mentioned in, bc sirius’s exact words about barty were “he can’t have been more than 19” that doesn’t mean he is 19, he could’ve been younger, anywhere from like 17-19, i’d say. so i’d just like to see the wording on regulus’s age exactly

(i’m a pro-shipper and all, but the ship that irritates me most is j/egulus NGL)

LOL i’ll gladly accept my award for it, ty, ty!!! it’s the perfect way to describe barty’s obsession with sirius. it’s not love, it’s barely any real genuine feelings outside of hate, tbh.

barty sees this guy who his dad is all over and barty wants to be with him, wants to be him, wants to kill him and be killed by him all at the same time

he’d go out of his way to start fights with sirius whenever bcsr isn’t around (it’s fine when he is around too, but that’s more about fighting bcsr than sirius)

and i think sirius would do his best not to fight back, because he thinks he understands barty. he gets that he’s upset and why, so he does his best not to engage with it beyond defending himself

but sirius WILL defend himself. and ohhhh when he does??? bcj just about creams his pants from it, it’s the hottest thing in the world and i think he’d just grab sirius by the back of the neck, sirius prepares for an actual physical fight, but suddenly bcj is kissing him instead???

and it’s messy, their teeth keep clacking against one another’s, their lips press too hard together and it really shouldn’t feel good, but it does???

and sirius knows better than to get involved with him, he really does, but he pities barty and figures “well, fine, if fucking him gets him to chill out, let’s fuck”

also idk how you see barty’s looks, but i don’t see him as being all that attractive? like he looks fine, but he’s got pale yellowish skin, looks like he’s gonna throw up and start crying constantly, freckles and a bit of a baby face in my head and is sooo thin in a sickly way. it’s sorta just his manic personality that makes him hot and i love the idea that it doesn’t actually match his face. at all

also, nothing makes me uncomfortable. the more toxic and fucked up it is, the more i’m gonna like it. the whole time we’ve been getting into this, in the back of my mind, i’ve been like, “okay,,,,, what if bcsr and sirius fucked tho?” i tried to hold it back, but you’ve unleashed me

(you can also tell me if i go too far here but i just love fucked up shit)

barty would be crushed to know his daddy is fucking sirius. that should be him. he should be the one with all of daddy’s attention and getting “i love yous” whispered in his ear, he should be the one that gets told he’s doing a good job when he gives his daddy head

the idea of him just standing in the doorway, looking in thru a crack while he watches bcsr fuck sirius is everrrrything to me

and this doesn’t at all help his psychosexual attraction to sirius either, because he’s jealous of him and wants to be him, but he also wants to be with him???

and on sirius’s end, i could totally bcsr grooming sirius into them sleeping together, being jealous of anyone else Sirius seems to like, because what is he going to do if sirius finds someone he likes better than bcsr and stops spending time with him? no. that’s not okay, he doesn’t want that.

so bcsr has to be everything for sirius. he has to be there for emotional support (not that sirius would complain too much, bc he doesn’t want to be a burden), he has to be his father, he has to love him, raise him and teach him what to be in life, but he also has to be his lover, because he can’t stand the idea of sirius having anyone else for anything

and as long as bcsr loves sirius, sirius would give him anything. as long as it keeps bcsr’s attention on him and he keeps praising him and sirius just keeps making him sosososo proud and doing so well??? sirius would get addicted to that praise. whatever it takes to get it, he wants it, whatever bcsr tells him to do, he does it

but!!! bcsr not wanting sirius in that way is also so interesting bc of how rejected it would make sirius feel from bcsr for the first time so far. yes, he’s disappointed bcsr before and yes hes made him mad and gotten hit, but bcsr has never really told him no before??? that would be so jarring and upsetting to sirius, he just might have to go sleep with bcj (LOL)

do you mean barty crouch sr by bcsr??? because omg plz tell me what you think about sirius’s relationship w him, i find the crouches so interesting, i would love to hear about that

YESS i LOVE you !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! i dont actually know how much of what i imagine for them can be fit into canon/is canon but like sglkfd.

so barty jr and sirius probably met during their childhood i think, bcjr was intelligent and well mannered and a respectable kid in sirius' age range, and ofc there's the hc that he was close friends w regulus, too. i hc he was pretty distant w bcjr himself but i just knoww sirius 'daddy issues' black needed everyone's parents' approval. orion was a negligent asshole sawr i think its a pretty valid course of action yk

and ofc bcsr loved him !! he was intelligent, he was quick, he was charming, well mannered, all the shit he wishes his bastard of a son was. and barty sr is a bit manipulative too yk he would definitely try to steal sirius away from his family and friends because he knows what sirius needs.

and like !! bcsr. he knows his son is death eater, he does use sirius as a replacement. he doesnt hide it, either, which he thinks justifies using a very obviously traumatized young boy to forget about the guilt in his heart about abusing, traumatizing and neglecting his own son. that being said, he gives sirius the watered down version of abuse his parents do - which sirius has grown comfortable enough with. that being said, the main reason sirius ran away isnt there: he's not a supporter of voldemort. he's actively fighting against him. (also hehe i hc walburga as bipolar so sirius is just happy he doesnt have a timebomb in the house 24/7) (or at least the timebomb doesnt explode around him !!). bcsr still mentions who sirius should associate himself with, still is disappointed when he doesnt get a good grade (an E instead of an O), he yells at sirius, maybe he raises a hand at him too - but at the end of the day sirius finds him justified because he's the one who took sirius under his wing, and is helping him, and is nice to him, and this is really what parents do to their children, right?

here is also when the post comes in btw: bcsr feels entitled to sirius' life, his idea of a parent/child relationship is ownership, and unfortunately that's sirius' view of it too, but bcsr is a lot calmer and quieter than walburga, he cares more than orion - to sirius its really the best of both worlds. bcsr wants sirius to go in politics which sirius does not want because he already has whatever career he's chosen for himself, and bcsr feels it necessary that sirius follow his - his own son wont.

bcsr does need sirius, he confides in him, he loves him (in his own fucked up way). sirius moves on, he runs away and gets farther and farther away from everything that reminds him of Before and feels resentment that bcsr (a man who he's considered his strongest father figure for years) doesn't even reach out to him once. bcsr feels that its a child's responsibility to reach out every time - he feels betrayed that sirius didn't runaway to him, that he didnt even know sirius had runaway till someone told him in passing. the letters they exchanged come to an abrupt end and it just feels like everything ended in the middle of it yk. barty crouch sr doesnt see sirius till sirius is arrested, soon after his own bio son is x

(also, yes sirius does still have the potters, but the potters are a completely different world to him. he's not used to that kind of completely unconditional love, he's not used to seeing how they shower their heir son in love. its a little bittersweet, it feels like a fantasy, sirius feels like he's intruding, he fills resentment to james for being raised with parents who love him and ofc he doesnt want that so he finds solace elsewhere. he thinks the potters are angels on earth, his relationship with bcsr is what the normal parent/child relationship. if walburga and orion are a 10 on the scale of what sirius considers to be 'bad parents', euphemia and fleamont are in the negative. bcsr falls somewhere in the middle, like a 2 or 3 to sirius. to bcjr, sirius can recognize, that bcsr is horrible. he yells, may hit, he's permanently disappointed when they do interact. they barely ever do - bcsr is always busy, he makes special time for sirius (which makes sirius giddy bc wowzers am i that important?) which cuts out even more time from bcsr and bcjr to interact. also, bcsr calls sirius son and he doesnt call bcjr son. sirius is lowk a homewrecker i love him.).

[platypusinplaid]

My absolute favorite quote, it means so much to me <3 

[hahahax30]

Honestly, reading Lili Elbe's *actual* memoir, I have come to the conclusion that the Danish girl's author is more fucked up than I had thought.

He treats Lili's sporadic nosebleeds as a fantastic aspect of the story, as if her intersex condition had granted her a mini uterus in her nostrils, when in reality it was most likely a result of the anxiety/stress her dysphoria brought in (literally a two-minute search will tell you you can bleed from stress and anxiety), because they were only present when 'Einer' came forth, never when she was embodying Lili; with Lili everything was happiness and tranquility. And he doesn't even *mention* the 'mysterious fits of depression [...] and violent pains [...] disconcerting fits of sobbing' (a direct quote) that came with those nosebleeds, and which he would have somewhat explained them when, physically, Lili was fine. Instead he just implies the nosebleeds are there because she has rudimentary ovaries, and that's low-key infuriating.

Not to say that he completely sexualised Lili's childhood? The only actual thing she did as a child was get into fights to proof she could be 'like the other boys' and play with her sister's dolls when no one but her sister was looking. She didn't have a friend whose penis she gawked at 24/7 nor who tried to assault her at like 11.

Just, please, I wish I could get the Danish girl out of the market and erase it from existence. Or at least have a preface written by one of the numerous trans women (which I'm not lol, but I'll leave one under the cut) who've rightfully complained about how horrible the book is, because I know the Danish girl gets randomly recommended to people who have had no contact with trans people in their lives in order to 'understand' trans women, and that's fucked up.

By Gwen Sund:

I hate this book on so many levels. I will say one good thing. It is a very well written book. The prose is lovely and the author does a good job with descriptions. His handling of the characters and parts of the plot though are pretty offensive. I will not go too far into the history and how inaccurate this book is because as the author mentions in his afterwards Lili Elbe is the only character based off of a real person. Everyone else is completely made up. It's okay that the story isnt' true to life, but that opens up an entirely different terrible can of worms that I'll get into. The order of events is different, how things turn out is different. This is "Base on a Real Event" in the same way Exorcist 2: Bazuzoo Boogalu is based on a real event. There will be some spoilers, so if that bugs you stop reading here. Just know I can't recommend this book in any way. I barely recommend the movie, but at least that doesn't have as many issues.

My biggest problem with this book is the handling of Lili. This author made up pretty much the entire story, so even if there might be historical context for some of the details he still chose to describe Lili the way that he did. I am a trans woman and I found his handling of her to be one of the most offensive that I have ever read. He treats her being trans as multiple personality disorder. Since he chose and created so much of the story I'm not going to give historical leeway on this. He chose to do that. Trans people do not experience their identities that way. We are the same person before and after transition. It's not like a demon possession story where over the story the demon slowly starts taking over. It would have been so much more powerful to have Lily come to terms with herself and her past. Have her find a way to love herself in her own skin. Something more true to the trans experience. This story is nearly entirely fiction, so there's no reason why the story couldn't be told in a more positive supportive manner.

And that point ties into another thing. This book won the Lambda Literary Award for Transgender Fiction. For one the author is cisgender so why didn't the award go to a trans author. They existed. Susan Striker, Jennifer Finney Boylan, Kate Bornstein, and Leslie Feinberg were all actively writing in the year 2000. And that's just a few trans authors at the time. There were plenty more. On top of that the book is very bad at showing the trans experience. It is a slap in the face. I can't even say 2000 was a different time and Lambda Literary has moved on from that because after the Danish Girl movie came out they worked with this author again to help him set up a trans charity. They support this story. They still support it. That sucks. I hate it.

One more thing with the handling of Lili is that she has no agency in this story. People keep making decisions for her, they move her around, they treat her like a child, and they make medical decisions for her. The only decision she makes in this book is the one that killed the real life Lili. Some how Greta is treated like she's supposed to be this super supportive partner, but she just controls Lili to death. There's a part in the book where Greta starts telling Einar to become Lili constantly. Not to be supportive but because Greta has become famous for painting Lili and she constantly wants Lili to model for more paintings. What in the world is supportive about that? Greta literally uses Lili for personal financial gain to the detriment of Lili's mental and physical health. Multiple times Lili asks to stop and is told to stay put.

While we're on the topic of Greta let's just talk about how weird that character is. She is very loosely based on Lili's real life partner Gerda. She was a famous painter that was part of the Art Nouveau movement. She is an important painter in history and for some reason she is turned into this bland concerned straight lady. She is so much more than that and I suggest anyone reading this maybe look up some information about her. The end of her life is sad as hell, but the real life Gerda is so much more interesting that Greta.

Speaking of endings I don't understand why the author changed Greta's true life story so much that she gets to live happy and rich while Lili still ends up sad, lonely, and probably dead from having a uterus transplanted into her. Why the hell did he go out of his way to give so many of the cis characters happy lives only to keep the trans character's sad ending? Why? That's awful. That isn't support or visibility. That is voyeurism. "Look at the old school trans woman that thought she could give birth and died. Oh isn't that weird?" Screw that. If everyone else gets happy endings then cut the last chapter, and have Lili exit the story with the guy that asked her to marry him. Have them go off to New York and live to be happy. This is fiction, give fiction Lili the chance to be who real life Lili didn't get the chance to be.

I hate this book. I hate how many awards it has gotten. I hate that so many cisgendered people have made money on this story. I hate it. I don't necessarily hate the author, I just hate this story. Why did I make myself read the entire thing?!

[phoneybeatlemania-bit-the-dust]

I’d disagree with the anon that Paul was “incapable” of love, but I do agree he was very distanced, and pretty cruel (to women) when he was younger. (It was unfortunate they bought into the love at first sight myth, but he was also a charmer, and dropped affection and got colder after fucking them.)

But I just can’t see romantic interest on Paul’s end. I’m sure he loved John, but a lot of the “sexual/Romantic evidence” really can just be as construed as platonic love. I feel there may be some confirmation bias looking for “clues”. (Not an attack on anyone, but some of the analysises seem to try too hard, really).

He does make references, with the whole “calling him babe during concerts”, and “in bed” but that could just mean he’s not uncomfortable with coming off “gay”. He has a quote about it somewhere I think. He’s supportive of the community at any rate.

This is kind of my own bias, but at times I think he…plays it up a little during the present day? Again, I’m positive he did love John a lot, but with how he is, a charmer, good at manipulating his image, he knows there is a benefit to building up the “magical” Lennon McCartney dynamic. John’s dead, and the old conflicts have faded, so he has no reason not to. I don’t think he’s anti-social, or a psycho or anything, but he certainly does put a lot of thought into his image, especially now, with how he wants to leave his legacy.

I’m less knowledgeable about John, and the speculation about his mental illnesses, but on his end, I can certainly see it. Maybe he’s just blind, but the looks are very much…yeah. He does seem to rely Paul a lot, and hold him in very high regard (REGARDLESS of what those old male biographers might make of him). You just know he was suffering over Paul, poor bastard.

Not sure if anything happened. I think Paul knew though, and either ignored it, or was kind, knowing John wouldn’t act on it. OR he didn’t notice! With the whole “we shared beds A LOT. you would think he’d make a pass at me, darling~”

I guess that’s how I see it. I don’t really have strong feelings on the nature of their relationship, or want them to be “confirmed”, so I try to be as objective as possible! Not a shipper, but not a male biographer. In fact, I was very put off learning the ship was a thing at first! With every fan base “having to” ship the main male leads, that’s what I thought this was. But after three years, reading actual books, primary stuff, I’ve began to change my mind on its legitimacy, and this was my conclusion. But new information can always change!

(Sorry for the long long analysis, god! I just took my adderall and I should go eat! Feel free to block me for spam/harassment.)

Yeah, this is basically my big mclennon dilemma: did Paul love John?

Of course he loved him, but I mean did he harbour any homosexual feelings towards John - and I just go back and fourth on that a lot.

In my last response to an anon I wasn’t necessarily trying to argue that Paul was romantically/sexually attached to John, because all in all, I don’t believe he did - but it probably came off that way because I didn’t particularly like the way the anon had phrased some stuff (like calling him “a master manipulator” and “incapable of love”) and so I just sort of wanted to show that the relationship was more nuanced then just “john was simping for paul”. My overall point with that response was more so that whilst I think Paul struggles in showing real affection and emotions, I don’t think he was incapable of love prior to Linda. I think he did really love John (in whichever form of love you want to take it: romantically, platonically etc.)

And so my point I guess wasnt so much that Paul was always capable of love (because I think he did at least love his family, his close-friends, probably Jane etc.), but maybe more so that he was always capable of intimacy with another person, though he struggled with it.

But yeah, he was quite cruel to a lot of the girls he slept with in the 60s, but I wouldn’t say that suggests he was incapable of love (i know thats not what you’re saying but other people might interpret it through that lens) I would just say he was young, dumb, ridiculously rich and famous and not emotionally mature enough yet to really empathise with most of those girls. Not trying to completely excuse him, but like, i dunno, i always just try to view people from the most human perspective. Everyones an twat sometimes yknow

I also really struggle to see romance on Pauls behalf towards John - the only times I think “wait but maybe he did fancy john back” is when I read some of his lyrics (like in ‘Coming Up’, ‘Yvonne’s The One’, and to some extent ‘Here Today’ - though I think interpreting Here Today as strictly platonic love is still a valid interpretation). I mentioned this in a different post though, that analysing his lyrics just isnt particularly convincing for me, because it feels more like speculation - and also as someone who does write songs, I know that a lot of lyrics just arent as deep as we wish they were. It is really difficult to be truly introspective and honest in a song, without exaggerating or hyperbolising or fictionalising any autobiographical aspects.

I do see your point with Paul possibly playing up the “Lennon/McCartney m a g i c” - im not entirely sure how much I agree, but I do agree to some extent. I think he’s always been very image conscious, and being in what is probably the all-time most famous pop band definitely wouldve heightened that. Even as a teenager I think he’s always just had this natural charm about him, and that tends to stem I guess from a need to be liked; I think you can see it in every interview he’s ever done to be honest. Its not necessarily a bad thing, (because id take a charmer over a rude knobhead any day) but I guess it sort of just shows that Paul is flawed like everybody else. Also, just read @mothernatures-sons tags and I agree with her - Paul just knows when to be a nice person! Nothing wrong with that! It isnt manipulative like the last anon suggested, its just how most people are: polite :) Ive heard a lot of anecdotes from people who have worked with or met Paul and the majority of them say he was a just a nice guy. Not saying he was never an arsehole (cause yeah he was pretty cruel to those girls in the 60s) but I think overall, hes a pretty good guy 👍

On the other hand though, you could also say that superficial journalists are looking for superficial answers - and Paul knows what the people want to hear. But occasionally ill hear an interview that does seem more intimate then most - I havent listened to it in awhile, but the interview he did with Sean I remember felt more honest to me then most. And when he said he’d like to spend the day “in bed” with John, to me that felt like a genuine and fitting response. Because, whilst it has sexual connotations, it also just feels like he’s saying he’d just like to sit around, chat, dont chat, just whatever with John for a day. Like he would just like another moment of intimacy with him.

I think we are pretty much in agreement on most of this though! At first I was also like “nah, mclennon isnt real, teenage girls just love shipping guys!” (I am a teenaged girl and I can confirm this lol) but then it just sort of became apparent to me through reading more and more about their relationship that there probably was something more on Johns behalf. If John wasnt in love with Paul, then it feels as though a lot of things he said and did just dont add up (the big one for me is him marrying Yoko so soon after Paul married Linda - like I really cannot come up with a heterosexual explanation for that!)

But when it comes to Paul, though ill have moments of doubt, I dont think he was in love with John (homosexually) and I do think a lot of the evidence on Pauls behalf seems like a stretch (but like you, im not having a go at anyone, because I understand that it is easy to carried away, plus its fun - but realistically, most of Pauls evidence just is not convincing to me). He’s comfortable with his sexuality, and I really do try to respect that and not force a gay interpretation of quotes or songs from him, unless it is genuinely making me question his sexuality and mclennon.

PS dont worry, I didn’t take this is spam at all!! And also, I would never block someone just for disagreeing with me! I enjoy discussion and I think its good to engage with people who disagree with you! To be honest, id only block someone if they were purposely being a real arsehole <3

[wherestarsarestillasleep]

1a 2e and 5i for the ze ask thingy!! ^•^

TALKS ABOUT ZERO ESCAPE

1a. Favorite Character?

its (one of) the kurashikis by MILES past anyone else no question but i honestly cannot claim either of them over the other and stick to that it really just depends on my mood. Akane is a better character like quote unquote "objectively" writing wise which like it would be astounding if she managed not to be when she's the core character of the entire series and there's precisely one (1) scene where (adult) aoi isnt lying to your face lmao. BUT aoi just hits like fucking Everything that makes me insane about a character on both shallow surface traits and deep core characterisation levels. akane also functions better as an independent character not part of that pair like trying to look at them individually alone, if that's relevant to choosing one over the other, while aoi isn't much of a character at all if you tried to remove him from akane existing, there's just the santa persona left, like i WOULD still like him because hehe edgy twink :3c but it would be shallow. they're both two of my favorite characters ever ever.. frequently bought together do not seperate

2e. Least favorite scene?

oh damn dont think ive ever thought about that one. okay the first thing coming to mind is the scene in vlr with the lever with clover and luna outside the book room that fucking sucks but i want to give a more real substantial scene that that. there's nothing big that comes to mind that i actively hate i just ignore most of the points in ztd i dont like lol. i have more dislike for the ABSCENCE than prescence of things like how akane never once mentions aoi ever in ztd when carlos spends the whole game talking to her about his sister what the fuck. real answer probably the way they/sigma chose to deliver diana's backstory in the ending where they're stranded

5i. An unpopular opinion?

I don't buy the nebulous "fate dictated it had to be this way" story Akane keeps claiming after 999. I don't think it's ever questioned ingame iirc it's always treated as more of a fact Akane happens to be the one to relay, than a personal narrative or belief of Akane's. And Uchikoshi himself tells it like this in interviews also. So maybe it's more of me rejecting a canon thing than a difference in opinion to say this but the more I think about it I don't believe her word. In 999 there really was only one way to save her, but when she keeps stressing it about the AB Project etc I think she's kidding herself. She had a choice as much as she believes she doesn't. Even in 999 where there was truly one possible series of events that would lead to her retroactive survival, the only interpretation that makes sense to me is that she saw it happen that way because it's how she would have chosen to do it. Like, I've seen a lot of people write her as upset about having to kill the Nonary Board but her hand being forced - no. She wanted them dead. If you allow the "some external universal force beyond Akane determined how everything would need to be done" it sucks away soooo much subtext about her and even actual direct text because you can say well she just needed to SAY that exact sentence, she didn't need to believe it. All the interesting layers of thoughts you can have about her methods and motivations can fall away if it truly wasn't in any way hers. I think what she tells herself and everyone around her about the necessity of especially the AB Project is a justification she's making for herself and mostly does believe but if you dig to her core her motives are a lot more selfish and less noble necessary greater good than she presents them. and i find that a lot more interesting a read personally

[ectonurites]

do u have any thoughts on the whole “tim is zapped to time prison” storyline? bc i feel like it could have been pretty interesting and a good way to bring back young justice/tim’s memories more immediately if it hadn’t been such a blatant attempt to just get tim out of storylines bc they had no ideas for his character

sorry lol u don’t have to respond i just kind of wish people talked about this storyline more? and the fact that tim lowkey became one of the only people in dc with knowledge of the other timelines (i think so at least) and nobody really addressed it?? like going into the next phase where people learn about other timelines after death metal.... tim should already know some of this stuff right?

YES YES YES OKAY LETS TALK ABOUT THIS this got incredibly long because I just have a lot to say (and i included screenshots) and i prob got a little off topic but. but lets get started anyways:

i haven’t read that particular storyline in a few months so i might be missing/misremembering some details here, but that whole ‘time prison + future tim’ thing was like. a really really interesting concept and the implications/impacts it has are a big part of why i liked tynion’s detective comics run as much as i did even with it’s flaws in characterization (such as treating tim like he was jimmy neutron boy genius and making steph..... be all ready to quit/breakaway from the team like that. the steph quitting characterization really started i think in batgirl convergence and unfortunately has haunted her since, even though pre reboot never giving up was like...... one of her defining traits. dc i hate you sometimes) 

i think that one of the biggest things that bothers me about the situation is how little we saw most of the other characters in the batfamily grieve (aside from steph and some with bruce, but again the way steph was portrayed just... hhhhhh. it very much reduced her to ‘tims girlfriend’ more than i’d have preferred) but otherwise like...as far as I can remember there was maybe one line in that monsters crossover thing where dick mentioned tim was gone, jason had a single line about avoiding the funeral in rhato, i dont think they showed any reaction from babs at all until after he was back, and the most for damian I recall is at the end of the 2014 teen titans run (#24) where he looks at... a case with the old red robin uniform Tim wasn’t even wearing anymore when he died? and that just bugs me. Instead of getting to see the actual funeral we get one flashback to it way after the fact once Bruce already knows Tim’s not actually dead

But at the time when they all DID think he was dead? the closest thing we see was in that same teen titans issue (#24) there’s a memorial-type ‘sharing stories’ thing after the funeral with tim’s titans friends but.... we don’t see something like that with his family. tim is a major presence in these peoples’ lives, they are his family, when he gets sent into time prison its even SAID how loved he apparently is

its just... idk. they all thought he was dead, and if they had put more emphasis on showing not just telling how that effected EVERYONE (not just steph) in the batfam, it might have felt a lot less like they were just putting tim away until there was a story idea for him. (like obviously I know they can’t make everyone’s stories revolve around Tim, but I’d have way preferred a detective comics issue of the funeral/memorial with the family than having there only be a teen titans one, I think it would have... held more relevance & meaning... but instead they just went right into that monster crossover story instead of lingering on this)

but then the Tim story itself once it does pick up way later, with titans tomorrow/future tim coming along having that whole “tell conner you’re sorry” “who’s conner?” exchange with current tim... that opens up A LOT of things to think about, and I think was pretty interestingly done if i’m remembering correctly. future tim recognizes the timelines are different, and ya know goes off to try to change things further ("whaddaya got there?” “a gun to kill batwoman” “NO!!!!”), theres lots of fighting etc etc the good guys win as we expect, but once that’s all settled tim’s left there with this whole. thought process

which ya know is the big indicator there’s weird timeline/reality fuckery going on (or also the read here can be that tim and kon are so connected across all space and time that their bond can transcend anything even timelines and realities and reboots... “and they were soulmates” “oh my god they were soulmates”) 

ANYWAYS lets not forget that tim isnt the only one who learns about this other timeline stuff during this whole situation!

Brother Eye has records of future tim’s timeline, and cass & steph see who they used to be! and as soon as steph finds out ‘holy shit i was ROBIN and BATGIRL?’ she also desperately wants to know more! which then a bit later leads into young justice 2019 where instead of going off to college like they told Bruce they were gonna, Steph and Tim go get the help of Zatanna to see what might be going on in their brains with these timelines and weird feelings (as we see in flashback form in yj 2019 #5)

and HOO BOY DOES SHE FIND THINGS! she gets in there and finds out that oh yeah, their brains had very much so been tampered with, and with her magic she undoes some of it, by unlocking memories, and Tim finally remembers Conner! (also in case u were wondering, that panel is specifically a callback to this one from yj 1998 #17 when Cissie quit the team)

one thing that I think is weird/interesting/idk if it gets... properly addressed even, was that Zatanna also poked around Steph’s brain too and she didn’t remember everything? Might have something to do even with how Tim had been in time prison, might have taken less work from Z to open things up because of that? Who knows

additionally i wanna call attention to how he said “That entire chapter of my life” which... leading into my next point a bit... strongly leads me to believe even though he’s remembering some things he definitely does not have ALL of his memories back (because theres a lot more than just the young justice ‘chapter’ of tim’s life that was drastically changed by the new 52 & rebirth) 

BUT moving on, i wanna bring up this part from later on (after they figured out that there was a crisis that caused things in the world to change, which is why their memories/brains were messed with) in issue #16

so yeah, I think it’s indicated even though Zatanna brought back some memories and opened up his brain a bit, there’s still many holes, and some things seem more like dreams rather than memories and he’s probably unable to tell which are which on his own to some extent. (also for reference the real thing that Tim thought was just a dream is... likely yj 1998 issue #1)

So based on the things i’ve brought up here (which are the things I remember off the top of my head, I could easily be accidentally leaving shit out LMAO i haven’t fully read through any of these books in at least 3 or more months now) I think it’s safe to assume that Tim definitely has a head start on getting back his memories before Death Metal happens, but that it was by no means a complete thing. So the after effects of Death Metal are probably just gonna... be a little less drastic for him vs most other people because it was already happening, but it’ll be kinda filling in the remaining gaps? 

And like you said he is absolutely one of the few people that already knew about about the timelines/the fact that these crises have happened and changed things, but pretty much all the other young justice characters are also aware that there was meddling in the timeline/that multiple timelines and alternate universes like this exist since they were all together as a group when it got explained (in like. yj 2019 #15 i believe is where most of the explaining happens) (and cass as well is aware of things to some extent because of her and steph’s interaction with Brother Eye) but the difference is that Zatanna didn’t go into everyone’s brains, so they aren’t dealing with the same memory things as Tim (and possibly Steph? because again Z DID go in her brain, she just wasn’t able to unlock all the same things as she did with Tim) 

but yeah in general i SO wish this was explored more, both in canon and in fanworks (fanworks tho... that can still happen >:3c). Memories hazily coming in for Tim while Kon and Bart are able to confirm or deny things, him dealing with conflicting memories and feelings about his past as they trickle in... like I think we’ll start to see these types of things moving forward across a lot of titles with Infinite Frontier (i BELIEVE dont quote me on this but I BELIEVE the person writing Damian’s upcoming solo had mentioned in an interview that the memories coming back of the other timeline aren’t going to be an all at once thing but will be more gradual for most characters) but the fact that it theoretically had already been happening for Tim for MONTHS and we only got that one crumb indicating it in #16 of it instead of any actual exploration makes me SAAAAAAD 

[romancemoved]

💖 SPARKLING HEART - are they a subtle or a showy lover?

💌 LOVE LETTER - do they like love letters? what kind of messages do they leave for their partner?

✨ @escapedartgeek. meme. still accepting!

💖 SPARKLING HEART - are they a subtle or a showy lover?

vi is definitely an acts of service type lol. so hes not very showy. very practical... he’ll do ya taxes. he already got ur w2 dont even worry about it. he also got ur form 1095-a, form 1099-misc, 1099-g, form 1098, etc. he has it all and hes making sure the burden isnt heavy on u... gljgfdgjdf. virote isnt very showy lol. hes kinda quiet in his affection in that he really hates big gestures. he hates receiving big gestures too. his worst nightmare is a proposal in public. glfkdjgdfk.

not to be an astrology ho but virote’s a cancer sun w. a virgo venus in the 3rd house so like i said ealrlier he’s a tender acts of service type but but but alsoooo he also loves to write letters. i’d say all of his other love languages revolve around acts of service and communication, too. like even when he gives his boyfriend a gift, it’s a gift that he can really use in his daily life because he doesn’t believe in giving away shit that serves no purpose. like he likes receiving stuff he can use, too. hes a very practical bf…!!!

ironing his lover’s clothes and leaving them out for the morning.

rubbing their hands with rosehip oil at night.

doing some of their errands for them.

running them a hot bath with a bunch of oils and salts so it’s real comfy and stress relieving.

of course kissin and cuddlin is great....

anything except being showy, basically. excessive, big gestures of romance freak him out. he just wanna fuck in the back of a rolls royce and make sure u get ya coffee in the morning.

💌 LOVE LETTER - do they like love letters? what kind of messages do they leave for their partner?

his love letters are usually very, very sweet. not in a crazy way tho lol he just likes telling his boyfriend about his day, how hes feeling, some little facts about himself, show some appreciation. some quotes from a book hes reading. personal. on the flip side hes never received a love letter so............

............. idk what he actually likes. hes not entirely sure what he likes to see in them, himself.

............................. i think he deserves a love letter.

[satum-eloquence]

AAAAAAAAAAA I CANT WAIT FOR “THY CREATURE”!! (it reminds me to continue play mazm: jnh but thats for another time).

so in anticipation i will share my thoughts and my speculations on thy creature and some little things i noticed in the trailer and other materials mazm released. note: i havent played mazm much but however i am just so stoked about a frankenstein game sooooo

ready?

HERE WE GOOOOOO

My Dumbass Thoughts on Thy Creature I Will Regret Posting (as of March 2021)

(SIDE NOTE: I will use he/him pronouns for the creature as the book uses this pronoun for him and in the MazM caption of the post, the pronouns were not explicitly stated or implied)

THE DESIGN OF CREATURE

Honestly? Very good and yet somewhat accurate to the book. As I, vaguely, recollect his description includes “yellowish skin; scars, stitches, long, dark hair; yellowish eyes, 8ft.”

In the MazM ver,

he has lots of scars and stitches

no yellow skin but his current skin is very becoming of the overall aesthetic

long hair but not dark

has a yellow eye

i am not so sure about his height but i conjecture it would be similar to the book

has some cool looking horns!! there is a mysterious, alluded, character whose presence is set up as this big mystery that is continuously hinted at. maybe symbolic of his past or his conflict with himself?

imo, the creature looks very innocent and not as horrid as he was described in the book :> (such a cutie!)

holding a white flower. symbolizing innocence, maybe?

shows some flesh.

GAME MECHANICS

A very fun impression though I might feel very frustrated because of the maze lol (im bad at mazes, i just panic). Not much to comment on

So as we can see, it plays out like a typical mazm game with the whole “approaching other people, seeing their well-designed sprites and reading their dialogue”.

but it introduces unique gameplay

other than what i previously mentioned, we can dodge certain attacks as we travel through a maze

and in some instances (the non maze part), we a little logo of sorts with “x75” beside to it.

maybe that is the number of lives we have

75 is quite the large number, exceedingly odd!

the game might be very difficult or something like that or maybe we only have to complete the game in a single attempt before retrying. idk much about game design lol

its on pc so maybe we will use wasd or the arrow keys to move

TRAILERS, TEASERS AND DETAILS

This is the part where I point out small details and seeing what they could mean and stuff.

Teaser:

at the start of a teaser posted on MazM’s instagram two days ago (Mar. 22), the narrator says “many unbelievable things happen in the world” and we see a fluffy white creature with horns similar to the creature’s and that one mysterious character. as what i have mentioned in the design portion, the creature has a white flower which could mean innocence. the small animal (?) seems to resemble a lamb, a known symbol of innocence. It seems like the theme of innocence will be a recurring theme.

we then see the creature and start the gameplay.

slides of text reads “struggle all you want before i am fair to everyone”... does it mean that the creature will treat everyone else poorly because of his mistreatment by the humans? i am not sure

In the gameplay segment, two black figures, whose silhouettes remind me of a wedding dress, express their concerns over someone (likely male because of the “he/him” pronouns). They say “Poor thing.” and “He needs his mother’s care”. hmmm mother’s care?

also the figures seem to be identical to eachother

after the segment, we see an old man with a scarred eye (maybe de lacey???) and a woman beside him (if the old man is de lacey, maybe agatha is the one beside him).

If my guesses are correct and they are the De Laceys, could they be allies of TC (the creature)?

After the scene w the duo, we see creature and the quote of “Why does she hate me?” Who is she? An OC? heck, maybe fem!Victor? that could be linked with “he needs his mother’s care” (if the quote is referring to tc) but the fem!Victor thing seems QUITE farfetched imo because i am just shooting in the dark w no braincells recovered from school. some of these are just probably from the mazm ver of the creature’s past

also ooo a book at the right-bottom portion and the screen and a counter for how many of those lamb-like creatures (chimeras? parallels to creature? idk)

after they show us a bit of the maze gameplay again, a book which is similar to the book i mentioned, is on the floor.

Maybe the book is actually Victor’s journal which you can collect to know some of the lore

TC approaches the old man and says “I came to help you, why are you frowning at me like that?” It is likely that the old man isnt de lacy because the old man is probably not (fully) blind upon perceiving him. if he is de lacey, theyre taking some “creative liberties” by not rendering him fully blind. grrr i wish i had more context >:((((

then after TC interacts with a book which contains a letter from Ingolstadt. Most likely written to Victor and it speaks of overdue books on human anatomy, etc.

Then some speedy text!! I am not able to procure all of them but I got “I am” and “everyone”.

By 1:01, we see the same mysterious entity with horns similar to the creature (except the horns are even).

There is a family portrait of (possibly) the Frankensteins to the right. I conjecture the woman is Caroline and the boy beside her is victor himself! :D

Anyway, my eyes feel a bit droopy and there is still a trailer but yknow i gtg. so see ya and thank you for enduring my dumb thoughts for this long. youre pretty cool <333

[bi-dazai]

a summary of the whole contrapoints thing from someone who has been spending most of her time on twitter and seen it first-hand throughout

(im using screenshots, some ive downloaded from trusted twitter mutuals and some ive made myself. since i have the shinigami eyes extension and many of my twitter mutuals dont, some scs will be inconsistent. i have checked each downloaded sced tweet to make sure theyre real.)

please dont try to start an argument on this post, im just summarising whats happened. ive already argued myself out over on my twitter and whatever point youre trying to make has literally already been said 20 times before.

Basically in late august/september natalie said some inflammatory shit about pronouns and nbs and “binary transes” which she’d said stuff along the lines of in the past. both nb and binary trans folks have criticised her lightly for this kind of attitude in the past as well. she has a pattern of behaviour (including being very...lenient towards terfs) but the stuff she was saying and the bad takes were tolerable, if incorrect and a little ignorant. what she said this time was basically “asking for pronouns in trans spaces is good i guess but it hurts passing/semi-passing transes like me” which is a take that makes no goddamn sense and is extremely ignorant towards both nb folks and trans folks who do not have the luxury of even trying to pass. she exaggerates the actual effect it has on her as well. basically the entire tweet reads really badly (the discussion was about asking for pronouns in trans spaces):

peter coffin made some batshit crazy takes (as usual) including inventing the term “enby cultural capital” which he refused to actually evaluate on past asking people to read a book (if you cant clarify your point on your own then you have an issue). he started tweeting like a madman and making it painfully clear how hard he will go to bats for natalie despite him being nb himself (many people joked/suspected  that its because he wants to fuck her, same with philosophytube, and honestly looking at how they see her that isnt hard to believe).

natalie went off twitter for a while, eventually leaving an apology that was actually alright and made me and several others believe she would return a little more understanding of trans intra-community issues, especially in terms of class because she has always had an issue with ignorance from that angle. she said she had a friend called gwen taking over (nobody knows who this is nor had they ever heard of this friend, leaving some people suspicious that she may have made her up. im not going to confirm or deny this because i have no clue.)

idk what peter coffin was up to because at this point i and most ppl had officially stopped listening to him but i believe he was angrily tweeting about cancel culture. a lot of people were as well, even though the bulk of the criticisms of natalie had been written and expressed in a mature, appropriate way. some of my twitter mutuals who had been involved in discussing natalie’s past trends with these issues as well as her lack of class consciousness and (probably) accidental antisemitism began to get messages from what was very clearly alt-right trolls trying to doxx natalie. it was real information, which is extremely concerning, but no person published it and her criticisers that got those dms were vocal about not bullying or doxxing natalie. natalie wasn’t pushed away because of “cancel culture”, and “cancel culture” really isnt a real thing and many contra fans believed this too until she came under criticism, which highlights a pretty weird mentality but whatever.

anyway, she came back this week with a new video titled “opulence” which i dont care for watching so i just read about it from my twitter mutuals who did. since i didnt watch it ill only summarise its criticisms very basically. 

to put it simply the main criticisms of the video were that she conflated trans aesthetic with literal opulence and class again, which people weren’t a fan of. she talked about her experience over the last few weeks, spinning it her way because how else would she spin it, thats to be expected. it was mostly just the usual contra, flawed takes and a bit of class ignorance...except for one blaring massive issue which is absolutely undeniable proof for where she’s heading with her politics and her content.

on that video, natalie invited infamous transmed, the guy who outed lana wachowski for money, buck angel, to collab with her. this guy is infamous in the trans community for being a cis bootlicking bigot. he makes kalvin garrah look like a lovely guy. he’s been around for a very long time and he’s very famous for being a massive asshole. heres just a taste of the kind of attitude he carries:

contra has previously spoken up about why you shouldn’t platform bigots. so her platforming a bigot has some very very obvious implications.

needless to say, people were and are pretty mad and very disappointed. a large majority of her fans have been against this.

 when oliver (philosophytube) promoted the video on his twitter many replies to his quote tweet were his fans begging him to be even mildly critical of contra. 

on contra’s subreddit (for clarification, natalie isnt a mod there and im not sure about how involved she is on the sub) there was even a thread created in which MANY of her fans on there expressed criticism of contra’s views. the mods then locked the post, deleted comments, and banned the use of the word “truscum” because it was offensive i guess? it was a move very close to “terf is a slur” territory

furthermore, some pretty infamous transphobes have been in support of her and buck angel in the past, including ian miles cheong which is...wow. some of these are scs from a twitter mutual, but the ones with red names are from me - i have the shinigami eyes extension, so basically any person with a red name is a known transphobe (im surprised buck isnt marked yet lol).

finally, ill put some threads here that give a pretty good analysis and view of the situation imo

[solongllondon]

1, 7, 16, 28, 37, 44, and 48 for book ask game!

thank you!!! <3

1. What book did you last read?

(let’s preface this with the fact that im always reading at least 2 books at the same time lol) 

i’m currently reading Amy Spalding’s We Used to be Friends, which is really cute and quite innovative! also re-reading Hot Milk by Deborah Levy because a friend wants us all to give her our favorite books with annotations on post-it’s in it for her birthday (super cute idea btw) so im doing that. but honestly, the only book im actually actively reading right now (aka reading more than 2 chapters a day from) is Midnight Sun. It is very bad which also makes it highly entertaining.

7. Do you borrow books from people?

i do!! and i will return them in pristine shape because i hate when people ruin borrowed books lol oops  

16. What book has been on you TBR pile the longest? 

probably all the lotr books? i read the first one ages ago but never read the others because they’re so fucking long. also war and peace. 

28. First book that comes to mind, tell us about it. Rant

okay. so. mockingjay. (spoiler, i guess??) i totally get that she had to kill finnick to showcase the brutality of war and how quickly a life can end and it made sense to pick him because he had finally gotten his happy ending. but. but. but. has Suzanne Collins ever thought about the fact that maybe. just. maybe. i didnt want finnick to die or get eaten by lizard mutts?? has she?? he is the literal love of my life and she?? just?? did that?? it’s honeslty. still so rude of her. 

also just in general people are quick to ignore mockingjay and say it’s bad and rushed but?? it isnt. it’s a brilliant book about the catastrophes of war and the awfulness of a tyrannical government and how in war people die quickly and there’s no time to mourn them, they’re just casulaties over all and it’s so clever and so well done and katniss’s ptsd is honestly expertly portrayed and you can still see that she is simply a 17 year old girl even if they all want to paint her up to be a war hero or traitor or both and how both the capitol and district 13 use her like they want to, essentially throwing her back into being a fucking puppet in their games?? GENIUS. Suzanne Collins is genius and we owe her. a lot. 

37. Is there a book that you think everyone should read?

James Baldwin’s Notes of a Native Son. I read it for a uni course and it has not let me go since. Honestly, read anything James Baldwin ever wrote but definitely read Notes of a Native Son. 

44. Favourite book quote, go.

This is gonna show how pretentious I am, already apologize: 

“She was beautiful, but she was beautiful in the way a forest fire was beautiful: something to be admired from a distance, not up close.” - good omens, neil gaiman & terry pratchett 

“All happy families are alike; each unhappy family is unhappy in its own way.”  - anna karenina, leo tolstoy 

“But beyond that, in a time when things could still change, there were revolutions. The people rose, the empires fell and things changed. Liberty moves in arcs, rising and falling with the tide of time. - red queen, victoria aveyard. 

48. Do you write, highlight, underline etc in your books

I do if they’re uni books no question. I also do it occasionally in none uni books. for example, i have two copies of the hunger games series, one is pretty for displaying and the other one is highlighted, annotated to death. i think there’s a few pages missing in the first book, at least. and if i wanna annotate a normal book i’ll use post-it’s. 

thank you this was super fun!!

✨ Send me books asks ✨

[gayregis]

OK whoa before i even react to the second episode.

FUCKING TRIGGER WARNING FOR THE INTRODUCTION to the second episode. i mean . just what the fuck what the fuck man

that intro made me literally nauseous and disgusted what the fuck. i GET its yennefer’s Terrible Backstory but did they really need to do that? REALLY? also i thought it was her d*d that did that stuff to her, not otehr kids

i like how they make istredd a more likable guy in this :) i really hated the biased perspective from geralt in the books lol

LOL TISSAIA ROLLIN’ UP.......... does this mean we dont have to see much of the abuse? i hope to hell not i cant stomach any more

okay officially crying! that feel when when your “family” betrays you!

also oh no yennefer ... i know in the books she attempted suicide many times though right.. OH THANK YOU FOR NOT SHOWING THAT thank god

did ciri get scratched? by the RAT?

HE HAS THIS BIG BIRD ON HIS HEAD LMAOOOOOOOOOO

please instead of calling cahir nilfgaardian to make him mad can we please call him big bird? thank you

LUTE MUSIC?????????????

this doesnt look like gulet, I KNEW THEY CUT GULET OUT! but someone is singing :)

OH IM SO TORN RIGHT NOW!!!!!!!!!!!! dandelion is supposed to be actually good at his job but also the way THAT JOEY LEANED ON THE POLE? TH. OK. and THE FACT THAT HES PICKING UP THE FOOD THAT THEY THREW AT HIM.................................... classic dandelion. well actually okay hes supposed to be like, you know, mid-20s right now, this dandelion isnt a MASTER OF POETRY yet. he needs to evolve , like a pokemon. ... i like this scene just for the leaning on the wooden support and the fact that hes picking up. the food they threw at him. ALSO WAS HE GETTING PAID FOR THAT OR JUST ANNOYING PEOPLE???

h. he. APPROACHETH THE WITCHER. okay i like this, i like joey, i like cavill, lets see how this plays out. try not to throw up, geralt.

THE MOVEMENTS??????????? THE HAND GESTURE................ this is invoking the “i hate how camp straight dandelion is” emotion in me

JOEY STOP LEANING ON THINGS LIKE T HAT IM GONNA HAVE AN ANYEURISM. HE REALLY ACTS WITH HIS WHOLE BODY HUH

you can tell he loves this stupid fucking role huh. hes having fun you can tell.

ohhhhhh hes not blonde but they got the perfect fucking man for this

obviously not feeling too good about that punch because literally isnt geralts thing that he doesnt hurt the vulnerable? that was VERY out of character . also it was out of character for dandelion because dandelion would have CRIED or VOMITED you know how he is. 

ARE WE NOT GONNA TALK ABOUT FRINGILLA’S FUCKING HAND?????? TISSAIA??? YOURE GONNA HEAL HER RIGHT... RIGHT

oh yennefer... ME IN ALGEBRA II WHEN I COULDNT FIGURE OUT A MATH PROBLEMMMM

LMAOOOOO FIONA ... ARE WE REALLY JUST GONNA GO THROUGH CIRI’S ENTIRE NAME UNTIL WE GET TO HER BLOODLINE AND THEN SHE USES FALKA??? LMAOOOO the time of contempt VIBES right now

we’re moving SO fast through edge of the world........ ughhhhhh pain... what about the smart quote from geralt about why humans invent monsters? ill listen to the audiobook tomorrow to quell my sadness

this is what i predicted though, fantastic acting on joey’s part, but the writers just said fuck friendship HJGDJKLS:

ugh the heterosexualisms.......

im predicting right now we’re not gonna get any ill set the world against you fun action huh

“is he a knight” wait a few books

wow yennefer and geralt really had the SAME ASS CHILDHOOD huh. lovely mentor figure but really really harsh schooling

tissaia explaining why shes harsh... oof but also can you please give yennefer a hug or something

ugh this edge of the world is so emotionally void.... i dread to think what its like if you didnt read the books. fans are legit gonna think that geralt despises dandelion, and its gonna be netflix’s fault!

also dandelion knows elder speech??? didnt he... only just learn that in time of contempt?

also watch out, lute!

[xmarksthescott]

i just read one of emma’s origin comics and i wanted to know if you had too and what your thoughts are on the different ones out there. also do you have any good scemma recs? comics or even fanfic! i’m not picky...i just read morrison’s new x-men and i’m struggling to see how emma fell in love with scott in that book and how the dynamic of their relationship even works? i want to like it! i just struggle to see it in that book

oh did you read the 2005 mini? I like the story overall. granted, it’s been a good while since I’ve read through it but I think it does a good job of explaining why she wanted to reinvent herself, how she hardened herself and how, particularly, men have repeatedly disappointed her. i think dark x-men the cabal has a really powerful retelling of her story from her own pov in a quick little one shot if you ever wanted to give that a read.

as for scott and emma…i don’t think morrison wrote them well. in my experience, morrison cannot write women and he frankly never seems interested in doing female characters justice. to me, his emma always felt like he just wanted her there to cause drama with jean and have some petty fallout instead of writing an actual character. and honestly i dont even blame you because i didn’t even ship scottemma in his run.

to me, scott and emma’s dynamic is better explored in other writers –particularly the run right after morisons was what sold me on it. basically, emma treats scott as an equal, she doesnt put him down or play into his fears that he isnt enough. she makes him a more confident leader and works with him through his insecurities and fears. in turn, scott was able to mine out a side of emma she didn’t even think she was capable of having. he’s the first guy to love her unconditionally and treat her like she deserves it. yeah, emma could have any guy in the world –she’s emma frost– but she chose scott and that’s always been really sweet to me. they’re just good for each other and they know it, it’s a cute and mature relationship imo.

as for recs for scottemma comic wise, some of my faves are:

-Astonishing X-Men v3 #1-24 + giant size (this was the run that made me first fall in love with them tbh)

-Uncanny X-Men #495-497 

-Uncanny X-Men #518-519 (#522 is worth reading because it has one of my favorite quotes from emma about scott but its not essential lol)

-Dark X-Men: The Confession

-Heralds #1

[withallthingslove]

the handmaid’s tale s3ep2 & s3ep3 thoughts

combining thoughts because 3 episodes released at once is a lot!

EPISODE 2

I might have missed it but how did beth end up at commander lawrence’s house from jezebel’s? I remember hearing jezebel’s mentioned but don’t remember if it was ever fully explained

im going to be honest... I would have rather had this be an emily centric episode. Honestly I kind of wish June and Emily could split the time as the main focuses. For ep. 2 I’ll talk about Emily’s/the Canada group’s storyline first

okay so love love love loved it. Showing Emily acclimating as a refugee feels so well done. It’s sad and rewarding at the same time. She’s gone from worrying about being executed to her biggest problem being that she has high cholesterol. And Alexis portrays that so well on her face 

Moira would be obsessed with Nichole first (I’m sorry I’m still Team Holly this is just easier because she’s annoyingly only referred to as nichole now). I think that’s in her personality to be like OMG JUNES BABY and see the positives of having Nichole around, while Luke is going to be struggling with it at first. 

This episode did a good job showing luke’s survivors guilt. He knows June is alive and Hannah is alive and growing, and he has his wife’s baby with another man (presumably from rape) and he can literally do nothing about it. His comments to Emily were rude af, but its understandable why he is upset. In his mind she can reunite with her family while he cant with his. 

Okay soo lowkey feel like Moira’s comment about how most reunions aren’t actually happy was @ june and luke. Like I have been saying for ages that they are too different to ever fully recover as a married couple even though they still love each other and I think Moira’s quote is foreshadowing to that, if they ever get a reunion 

When Emily called her wife though.... I cried

Also baby Nichole is so fucking cute and Luke finally accepting her was also so cute

okay june’s storyline... it was cool to see the martha stuff but felt forced at times idk. 

LOVE june’s sass with her new shopping partner its fucking hilarious

aunt lydia is acting exactly like how i expected her to she feels like she needs to prove her strength and when she feels weak (ie when june shows her sympathy) she lashes out

EPISODE 3

aight so commander lawrence.... i know we aren’t supposed to have him figured out so I’m not even going to try 

I will say though I think him bringing june into the meeting to serve tea was so that she would have way to hear what was going on. And then he humiliated her to keep people from being suspicious. that’s just how i interpreted it

But like.... is june allowed to read now like tf? Telling her to get a book with the yellow lettering in front of a room full of commanders. I was half expecting him to say “okay well that will cost you a finger” after she handed it to him. Because that would be the ultimate power move to make her read and then punish her for it. And then later at the end of the episode she gave him the files back and he didnt say anything. Obviously hes chill enough he wouldnt punish her like that in private but I’m confused at how a room full of commanders were just chill with june reading the spin of a book in front of them

i dont think lawrence is 100% anti gilead and he clearly likes parts of it i think he does just morally feel like he needs to do some stuff to help the resistance so he can sleep better. I will say though between him and serena, I think serena is more likely to backslide back to being bad than lawrence is

Serena... does everyone just like her now? Rita has softened towards her, june is nice like wtf. Props to her mom for telling her that nichole isnt hers mwuhahaha

and then she goes to june and admits nichole isnt hers and june tells her that only a mother could do what she did like barf. whatever. i hate that we havent had nick mention nichole once and have now seen serena crying about it for three episodes. like what is up with the writers wanting for us to suddenly forgive serena for everything and feel bad for her? I love serena as a villain but it just doesnt make sense. And why are they so deadset on having june bond with her children’s kidnappers about her children? it’s just icky

fred is so pathetic i cant even hate him. and joseph fiennes and elisabeth moss have really good chemistry in their scenes. and no I don’t mean romantic chemistry i just mean they play their parts well. It’s like as soon as june saw fred she relaxed because she knows how to play him and he falls right into it too. idk their scene in lawrence’s kitchen reminded me a lot of their scene in the kitchen in 2x06 when june gets up to get water. they have a rapport together and a familiarity so that when fred is not being the creeper he is their scenes play out nicely

nick....

lol

I wondered if he would be promoted to commander this season. The writers have made him pretty cold in these first couple episodes which is understandable but even when june stepped in the room you could just see the shock and love on their faces. 

when beth answered the door and was like “you arent here for me” i almost felt bad. i think that even though it was always just physical for nick that she harbored some real feelings for him. maybe not in love with him, but just genuine caring. And the way she said wasn’t sad, it was just that she knew he was there for june. Because I’m sure she recognized june as the handmaid nick had feelings for right when june arrived

their goodbye. i know some people were thinking it was out of character for them but i dont think it was. june reacted the way she always does when something bad happens. she lashes out at first, and then when she gets the bad news she closes her eyes, shuts all her emotions down, and then acts cold. And as soon as she acted cold she immediately regretted it and whispered “no” and ran after nick. And of course he was there waiting because he knows her and knew she needed space at first to process her anger. And then she took his hand and brought him back in the room, and they LOCKED THE DOOR TO HAVE SEX. I will not be taking any questions.