#i never go on this blog anymore but its too kpop to post on my other blog

[latetaektalk]

update.

hi there!! its me, linh. and i have an update to give.

it probably surprises no one, but i think its time for me to officially announce that its the end of my time here on tumblr. trust me when i say that i say this with a heavy heart. over the past few months i just realised that ive just kinda outgrown (that sounds so weird to say) writing, tumblr and even kpop in a way.

regarding love to hate you, im so deeply sorry that this how the series is coming to an end, or well... its not. but i really havent felt the desire to touch it at all. or anything for that matter. i will hold that series near and dear to my heart and forever cherish it for how much fun i had creating it. im sorry for leaving it on such a note but i hope you guys can understand and still appreciate the chapters i offered to you guys.

i will keep the blog up, so you guys can go back and read their silly little story again and again. (for those who really really need to know if they make it or not, i will put it in the tags)

and for those few who care, ive been doing really good! im really happier than ever but busier than ever too (uni has been kicking my ass). still, these past few months have been so fun for me and i hope the same applies to you all!!

if you guys want to, you can send me messages because i will still log on every now and then to check up on things. because even though tumblr isnt really a part of my daily routine anymore, i did gain a lot of love for it over the past few years. and hell if the writing itch catches me again, maybe i will post something. its a big maaaybe and right now it looks pretty unrealistic given how busy i am, but never say never i guess

so, it looks like this is a goodbye. but its a good one, a really good one. and i hope you guys understand and see it that way too!!

linh.

[whenfatecollides]

I think this post will be with little to no surprise for most people, but I still want to talk about the transition that is happening with this blog (and with me). I know most people currently following me will have followed me for dreamcatcher, and I genuinely cherish a lot of moments I spent here in this fandom, one of the things that made my time here so much fun was exactly sharing it with you, laughing with you, hearing your feedback and opinions on situations we were going through, etc. I have a lot of regrets regarding my teens and my early 20′s, but I don’t have regrets in regards to the last few years that I spent with dreamcatcher. they actually pushed me to do a lot of cool things, to be more independent, I drove an hour ride by myself back in 2018 to see them, booked flights and hotels on my own, hell I even ordered a cake for siyeon and got it delivered back in 2019 and we all got to sing her happy birthday while they were on stage thanks to that. I’ve made so many friends that I’ve gotten to meet in real life, I’ve made friends that I know are going to be for life and I’m so eternally grateful that I got to cross paths with them thanks to dc. I’m so proud of so many things I did, as well as we all accomplished together for them. I have no hard feelings towards them, nor do I feel bitter about how things could have been. at this point in my life, I just feel like my time in the fandom has just naturally run its course. just like I’ve seen it happen to a lot of my friends in the last couple years. losing two pets last year also changed a lot of things around me, and it changed me a lot too, and I just feel like dc aren’t a priority for me anymore. I’ve finally let go of the expectations that I felt I had on me in regards to them, genuinely other than some things my friends send me here and there, I haven’t been keeping up with them anymore. and I don’t feel like I have to. they’ve changed a lot as well in the last 2/3 years, so in a way it kinda feels like we’ve just grown apart, and I’m okay with that. I know I’ve gone on deleting rampages before, but I promise that all the content I’ve done for dc here will remain available, like I mentioned, I don’t have any sore feelings about the last couple of years. this isn’t to say that I’ll never blog about dreamcatcher again, or make content for them ever again, I still enjoy their music a lot, but they won’t be my main focus anymore. anyway, I know it’s not that deep, this is just tumblr, but I did do a lot to try to help build a community for dc’s fandom here, help the fandom and dc grow, etc, so I feel like I owe that part of my life a proper farewell, even if it’s not a definitive one. when I first got into dreamcatcher, I became their fan with the mentality that I would stick around for as long as it made sense to me, and I just feel like that time has come (in regards to dc and kpop in general tbh). It’s truly been a blast to be a part of their growth all these years <3 for anyone that started following me recently because of them, I’m sorry I guess, if you wanna stick around for xena, warrior nun, and any other stuff I’m finding interesting at the moment, feel free. if not, it’s been nice to cross paths with you and I wish you the best ✌️😎

[aettuddae]

i think this my first time being late to an update omg…🕷️ anon washed

starting off with business matter first…would it be crazy if i said this was my fav update 😭😭 i loved chapter 92 specifically because it forces serim & rina to both face their feelings (& doubts), intimacy could only go so long as a form of communication b4 they both were left unsatisfied (more so serim) its rlly sad even now karina cant fully accept her feelings using ning as an excuse to let their bond go (not rlly an excuse but how she self sabotage b4 anything could rlly happen) it was such a good chapter and i just like angst (obvs by now)

im rlly worred about ningning in all this tho…whether serim & rina end up together or she ends up with serim (with the knowledge that she will never feel how she feels for jimin) its a lose lose situation for her…unless im reading too much into it and shes not taking her time with serim seriously/just having fun

them saying goodbye to eo was amazingly beautiful i dont even know what to say…bittersweet i guess

KYUIN GIRLFAILURE WE LOVE U ALREADY 🫶🫶 also adding another delulu jimin into my bag thank u 💋 i think i say this about all the friendgroups in ur stories but I LOVE novaHIVI DYNAMIC ALREADY THEY FAMILY (havent stopped thinking about this group either like u cooked so bad here)

the difference between how anthology!kazuha and hole in one!kazuha act dhsbshsnsn

minjeong n milf 👍👍

i just wanna say i liked minkwan…i probably didnt say anything tho cause my peasized brain zeros in on yuri 😕

SUCH A WASTE ON CHITTAPHON NOOOOO U SEE WHAT HAPPENS WHEN I LEAVE, THE GAY BOYS NEED LOVE TOO 😭😭 (its also interactive too so the min i figure out how that works im getting my mean gay boy x loser gay girl both being down bad serve idc)

simon says is amazing…we just love father dem jointz over here and we thank god everyday sm passes him around like a groupie in that building

also so many anons are flirting with u now that means u made it…dont forget me when ur famous

- 🕷️

it's literally the end of the deal, it's so important, makes total sense !! and all of the events and circumstances make it more hard for them to be delusional about what they feel, serim couldn't hold it anymore. glad you enjoyed it, even if it was some sad episodes.

yeah, with the new update i just posted 😀 ningning's situation changes a little, since she's actually capable of trying and prioritizing her mental sanity, although it's probably gonna hurt for her in any scenario, she's more aware and ready than the other two

kyuin is a cutie that has barely learnt how to exist in society, we need to protect her 😭 i have already accepted i'm never writing a normal boring jimin, i always have to make her borderline schizophrenic 😔 so happy to hear you like novahivi's dynamic, you always focus on the things that matter to me 😅 i always prioritize the main character's friend groups a lot and i find particularly fun writing novahivi interacting with each other

shut up finally a kazuha that's not attempting to murder anyone (YET) (jokey joke)

minjeong and milf 🫴🏼

OH NOW EVERYONE LIKES MINKWAN GET OUTTA HERE, Y'ALL ARE TOO LATE

this blog is a woman's world i swear, readers don't even support gay men 😔 i will support any idea you have to get the gays thriving and vibing

father demjointz 😭 literally, i owe him so much, has given me my fav kpop songs

i will never forget you, spidey, you're literally my everything

[kpoptarotastrology009]

i even try liking kpop casually but it just feels like something not for my age group anymore considering that they are barely debuting adult aged idols theres no one my age debuting in kpop anymore. it just seems that in todays world fame is everything and i dont want that to tbe the only reason why id ever want to do anything of that sorts like yet its the inly thing ppl seem to get recognition for for instance if celeb or idol dies its all over the news and they get such overreaction in the media for it so it wouldnt matter if i wasnt here bc no one seems to really need me for anything. that or situations just i had, had no explanation for it and i mean really bizzarre and unhelpful ones or just stupid gossip wherever i went and it sounds like im making this up or being woeful or victim mentality whatever the term is nowadays

i had one situation in 2003 that just had no explanation for it either and since then it got weirder and more alienating since i was the only one who saw them no one wouldve believed me anyway. no it wasnt aliens it was just two weirdo guys filming me then they ran off soon as i went inside where we were staying, yeah such a perfectly normal expeirnece for somoene my age then someone like maddie mccann winds up missing and dead years later sometimes i wish it couldve been me instead. im guessing its sketchy cult stuff too bc those somehow exist too even in this society.

my great aunt is who i wouldve preferred to have been as she has seen so much and done so much and she still gets about even at her age yet i couldnt seem to get anything close to what shes had. ive been told my fs is a footballer but again since its not sometning ive ever done its not something id care deep enough for

i dont want to care for wealth yet it seems we need more wealth in this era to get by to barely own a properth and it just fucking sucks bruh cause theres specific time period i want to "go back too" but ik i will never experience physically its like its torture for my soul bc what i like isnt around anymore, even the music i like has been digitalised bc the artists arent around anymore or i have to find something to like even if its not always my taste or style

i have to suplement it with the modernised versions and even then its not enough i need to actually go back in time and have different experience to what there is currently bc it all just bores me to death or will bore me to death eventually. even i could live without tv bc theres nothing terribly exciting bc its all modern junk that either wants me to buy things i dont need and items that used to just be simple, affordable and practical yet its all been littered with even modern cars are getting beyond boring, smartphones too much similar and it all does the same thing so why cant we live a bit more freely huh? whys it all come down to needing x amount of grades and work experience on top of it just to get piss poor everything

it just makes no sense to me. if im not going to fit in then why should it be forced on me anyway? cant i then idfk just wander off into the hills and act like i never existed? ik my ancestors probs dissapinted in me too but truth is it just sucks these dayd cause every other thing is abt needing our reaction and usually its negative sort like the media or tv

i want to do something real but theres nothing real abt it anymore bc its all done on a screen, its like i dont even need the basics of my brain anymore either bc theres google, calculators and maps that do it all for us. heck i dont even need to put thought into anything anymore. thoughts have been put in short forms of tweets, blog posts and instagram pics or tiktok reels, words have been replaced with gifs and emojis

the only celeb i truly admire for both his talent and ability to stay away from the internet is cillian murphey why cant they all be like that? theyre rich enough to not need the internet to stay in touch with random hate comments and backlash that they get on the daily basis, same goes for idol groups tbh. ok maybe they arent all rich but again why cant ppl ever feel content with just the basics?

then i often think well it wont matter once im dead but it shouldnt have mattered anyway cause living should come easier to ppl. yet its like if u fail once u have failed for life bc theres little to no other options since everything rests on grades or experience or talent anyway and ppl who often make it worse for itherw get away with it too... just like my friend who was beaten up. yeah school is basically hell and they havent made it any easier either so i dont know what im supposed to care about long enough for me to do so that i wouldve been happy doing it

i watched a beautiful video the other day of a 102 year old dancer from the 1900s and i was thinking wow how different their entertainment was to nowadays, where it was more lively and simpler less formatted and wasnt about ppl trying to be tiktok famous in short periods of time and most of all the dancers back then actually seemed happy compared to where its forced happiness bc we r all glued to screens for our brief momentary entertainment and distraction from the world. im also obsessed with a certain place of another time period that i will never ever get to do but it jsut always seem like history repeat itself in this world. wars pandemics and so on. couldnt we just have one normal year or is it always going to be so dramatic and less calm and relaxing? even kpop like look at all the junky drama surrounding many groups yet i also dgaf about it anymore but wth is going on with that why cant kpop also have one normal year without negative overreactions from their fan bases?

It's all fake and that's why don't focus on the Media too much, you don't know how bad they are living their lives off cameras , I know the sense of feeling not belonging in a generation is the worst but what can we do about it? This is life and me personally I think we should spend it with people that we love in real life , family , friends, going out enjoying life and don't overthink anything whatever is gonna happen will happen don't make yourself tired by things that won't serve you anyway, live the real life have friends and enjoy the moment don't this too much about the future because nobody knows if they are gonna be able to see tomorrow or not , live everyday of your life like it's the last day of it .

Everything you said is right but you're only focusing on the negative side of the things . Start searching for something that gives you happiness, something real , something you can build yourself again from , no matter what is but build a life that can serve you , anything you want on your mind do it if it's hard face it and win over it , what I learned in life that there's nothing impossible

And there's always bad people out there that only care for money and will do anything for it and in kpop too this is everywhere but let them do whatever they do only think about you , because thinking about them will only give you the negative energy that people wanted to affect people with and you can see it's happening , when you focus on people with bad energies you got bad energy, when you focus on people with beautiful energies you will get a beautiful energy, this is exactly how it happens

[quokkacore]

eventual [rest]

hi guys. i’m sorry for never coming through with updates, but i’m kind of going through it at the moment.

ignoring the things going on in my personal life… i’m tired. i chose tumblr as my fanfic platform because of the community and how much i enjoyed being able to interact with others. it’s just not the same. recently there’s been a small influx of feedback (for which i’m extreme grateful and will be responding to soon!!!) but it’s just. maybe i’m asking for too much but it feels like too little too late. its so upsetting seeing “xyz has reblogged x post” and clicking on it, and AS ITS LOADING telling myself “don’t get your hopes up it’s probably empty”.

i deserve better. writers deserve better. i’m doing this for free and for fun and i get so little in return when i could be working or doing my homework and actually working towards my degree. not to brag, but i KNOW i’m at the very least, a decent writer. i’ve started setting my sights on traditional publishing despite how difficult it is to break through because i feel like i’m good at what i love doing. but i don’t want to do it on tumblr anymore. i don’t feel the drive to.

if you’d like to read about some of my other reasons, it’s below the cut, but a lot of it is me discussing triggering topics—pls be careful.

if you don’t feel like reading below the cut for my reasoning as to why i’m going to eventually stop posting, here’s what i want everyone to know:

i’m going to TRY to finish king & lionheart, with great power and the punisher anthology, because i love these stories so, so much. the updates will come when they come—i’m not changing my updates page, but i’ll at least try to give a few days heads up that they’re coming.

once i’m done with these fics, i don’t think i’ll write anything else on this blog. maybe, maybe not—i think it depends. i’m just all out of steam.

this blog will remain up mainly an archive, mostly because i know how upsetting it is to want to reread a fic and finding out the author deactivating. i’ll delete some posts, and if i post anything, it’ll be feedback for nsfw fics or answering certain asks. who knows, maybe i’ll drop something here and there.

i’ll eventually be going through my follower list and removing any ageless blogs or blogs who i know are minors on this main blog, something i should have done a long long time ago.

finally, i’ll be setting up an nsfw free side blog and using that as my “main” if you guys would like to keep contact with me. this isn’t just gonna be kpop but my other interests as well (but mostly kpop). i’ll also be posting sfw fic recs there. the blog is @threesrachas if any of y’all are interested!!

other than that, thank you so much to my mutuals and the ppl who made my time on tumblr so much fun. i loved getting to know and work with so many of you, you’re all amazingly talented, kind and funny people. thank you for being my escape from real life, i love you all so much for that.

tw: intense homesickness + generally bad mental health + self harm + hypersexuality

as some of you might know, i moved continents to study abroad last year. that’s a big part of what’s impacting me—i’m away from my main support system, i’m worried about issues within my family, as much as i want to deny it i feel like i’m losing my friends back home, i have to be financially independent and rely on myself to pay for things like tuition, groceries, health insurance, etc etc. it’s caused me so much stress and i feel like i’m being pulled in a MILLION different directions.

i kind of… don’t feel like myself. i wouldn’t call it disassociation because from the reading i’ve done my situation isn’t as severe. but i just feel so lost and disconnected from everyone around me. i feel like i’m unsure of where i want to go and how to move forward with things i know i need to do, but i don’t know how to bring myself to go through with them even though it’ll only be detrimental to me in the future.

i’m also realizing that my hypersexuality is becoming more and more of an issue as i go onward. and with this, i’m giving everyone a warning—i’ve been in the tumblr/ao3/wattpad fanfiction space since i was 12, and only at 21 am i beginning to realize just how detrimental that was for me. consuming so much nsfw content as a minor caused me to normalize and glorify certain sexual behaviors in an unhealthy way, and recently i’ve stumbled across more violent sexual content and the way that my brain has fixated on it terrifies me. i probably need to speak to someone about it.

as a result of these things, i’ve started self-harming again after being clean for like,, 5 years, and i hate myself so much for it. i thought i was finally better and i could finally put it behind me, but apparently not.

i just need more time for myself. my free time feels consumed because i get anxious for not writing, and i hate it. i need to take better care of myself and that’s not going to happen if i down scale back on my wips and unfinished fics. i want to get better. i miss being better, so so much.

tagging my mutuals: @doderyscoffee @iwishihadabettername @thegoodthebadandtheempty @always-wishing-for-rain @lix-ables @multifcndoms @lixesque @jl-micasea-fics @christallise @lixtokki @the7thcrow @sweetlemontart @heartcravings @itsapapisongo @lotus-dly @cherrydumpling @ohmysparkle @aliceu @milfgyuu @ncteaxhoe @moonctzeny @illicitfuck @lixhues @spilledtee @just-come-baek @feelsaesthetic @minthoodie @justhereinmydarkcorner @seulgiswhoreee @jeongvision @heejinnien @softcrescendo @sleepylixie @jenoentry @jaehyyns @chanluster @missskzbiased @smileyjaeminies @ynvngwolff @lamaiejeno @wonjaekook @moonbeamsung @puppywritings @danishmiilk @saturnznct @nightshade-minho @ncweab @ichigofelix @whosjunglejim4322 @nyctophilin and i’ll be tagging the rest soon </3

[dreamescapeswriting]

♥*♡∞:｡.｡Thank You｡.｡:∞♡*♥

As we’re getting closer and closer to the end of 2021 I wanted to make a thank you message! There is so many things I want to say and honestly I don’t even have the words to put them out! (Despite being someone that writes...Shh)

This year has been hard on me, and a lot of other people too. This year I had a lot of personal issues happening my life that I had to battle against. When I first started this account I never would have imagined growing this much and achieving what I have you with guys.

ꕥ Kpop had always been something that had been there for me through the years, in 2014 a friend of mine unfortunately was taken away from this world but before he left me he introduced me to Kpop. He showed me all of this incredible work from people and I hid that I liked it. 

ꕥ I hid it for so long that I finally found something that made me feel like I belonged somewhere, I didn’t want people to know and for them to judge me more than they already did.

ꕥ But as years went on I continued to fall more and more in love with it I decided that in 2019 I wanted to start creating fanfics.  At the end of 2019 when I first started this blog I was having a rough patch, I had just gone through a toxic friendship with someone that ended up shattering me into a billion and one pieces. It’s hard for me to describe what happened between me and this person as it was a three year long process of what they had done to me and conditioned me. But it broke me.

ꕥ I suffered with my depression a long time before this person but it seemed to have gotten worse when they had finally gone. I couldn’t get out of bed in a morning, I wouldn’t and couldn’t leave my house alone and to this day still struggle with things but time went on...

ꕥ I started writing mostly for myself as a way of comfort. I would write small fics down on my laptop and save them on a USB stick for myself to go back and read. I needed something in my life that was going to keep me getting up and out of bed every day, something that was going to kick my ass into gear and this was it. 

ꕥ I decided that I wanted to create content that made me happy and as it so happened it made other people happy and comforted them too so I began posting.

ꕥ It’s now getting into 2022 and I couldn’t be more thankful for every single one of you that follow me and have supported me during my time on tumblr. Without knowing it you all help me so much, even if its just by liking my posts or interacting with me you all help.

ꕥ Through tumblr I have managed to met so many beautiful and wonderful people who I now can call some of my best friends. People I speak to outside of this app and some I don’t but still I know I can count on them! So thank you! Thank you for helping me.

ꕥ You give me that reason to motivate me in the mornings, you give me that boost I need to say to myself “M, you need to get out of bed because your content brings joy to people online” it wasn’t just me I was creating for anymore.

It was you.

Words will never be able to describe how incredibly thankful I am for each of you, even if you’re just a silent supporter or someone that lurks without an account I love you and I cherish you so much.

I love you and I am proud of you for making it through this year with me and the next. Because I know that even if I have dark days you’re here for me and I want all of you to know that I am here for you. You always have a safe place to come and talk, on anon or off, in my inbox or in my DM’s. You are never alone. You will always have someone.

My 2019, my 2020, my 2021 and my 2022 are all made better because I have all of you in it <3  Happy New year my beautiful lovelies! I love you so much! <3 

I also want to tag some of my mutuals that I am almost sometimes scared to tag them in (anxiety is a hell of a bitch) but I want you all to know how thankful I am for you and how much I love each of you. You’ve all been there for me even if its just reading your content or speaking to you! <3 

@decembermoonskz @sw33tnight @sweetrainwrites @sulfurcosmos @jl-micasea-fics @stayarmysstuff @taestannie @a-little-suga @kneel-begyourpardon @selfcontrol-idkher @lost-leopard-beanie @delicatewerewolfsoul​ @ressjeon​ @international-kpopfan​ and to all of my beautiful anons!

[cosmiclatte28]

A thank you note from me

I want to thank EXO, for appearing to me at the right time of my life :)

I'd like to thank NCT, for being the reason I can experience writing a wide variety of fanfiction character genre

I'd like to thank SVT for always being the reason I laugh

I'd thank TWICE, for being the very first reason I realize that KPOP dance is to be enjoyed too and not just "perfection"

I'd thank GOT7 for lowkey being the reason I can sing something in spanish and well ofc JACKSON WANG MY MAN 💖

I'd thank Eric Nam for his KPOP Daebak show or well his podcast and how Kevin from The Boys is just my bestie goal

I'd thank Instagram for being the first platform I tried to be a "fanpage" but I am too late in knowing news 🤐

I'd thank Wattpad for being the first platform I posted my story (flopped but thanks to it I go to tumblr)

I'd thank tumblr, for being my happiness, my diary and well my second world.

I'd thank EXO for being in a military service also in the right time of my life, where I had to start focusing on life and how I can't just keep on having fun

I'd thank SuperM for teaching me how within a fandom disagreement can finally hurt you but you can still stick with them and enjoy their laughter and happiness together in Mtopia.

I'd thank the Youtube accounts who made random dance videos, well thanks to that me and my friend can enjoy KPOP from the old generation to the new one and how Sorry Sorry just make everyone come to the center to dance

I'd thank Youtube crack creator who spent their time compiling funny moments or just questionable things (insert group name) does

I'd thank my eyes for closing when there's hate or something too bad to see

I thank my ears for making me able to recognize whose line is this

I thank my body for well keep waking up and striving for another day.

I thank my mutual here, for tagging me on games, sending me memes, making sure i am happy and you guys should do that to yourself too

I thank SHINEE for teaching me how actions cannot be undone and we have to make good decisions

I thank my readers, ghost readers, likers rebloggers whoever help me reach this far and keep feedbacking or just never sending me hates! I LOVE YOU ALL

I thank the internet logarithm that my page is not visited by pitiful anons that send hate messages.

I thank my fingers for not giving up in typing a story when you really want to just end it there

I thank my phone, for making me pretty good edits (i mean its not that bad right)

I thank my tears for pouring out when I cannot hold it in anymore

I thank myself for doing this so I can see just how much thing is there that I can be thankful of

I thank every one of you for staying here and even when I don't know where you are I remember your pfp, your blog name and just your appearances in my dash

I thank the people I reach out via dm who later become my family here.

I thank my will and motivation to not stop when we first started. We? well cosmic is an alias so I gotta thank the real cosmic too right ?

i want to go again but i have to finish some stuffs.

[woozi]

i agree how you described twt, sometimes everyone's just ready to fight it seems, i've genuinely had fun on both platforms at different times but now it's just too much on stan twt (no space for difference of opinion djsjdjj) it's good to know you're having fun as well :3 & omg i've seen few of my moots starting to give svt their attention after fallin flower dropped, everything abt it is <3333 the song, mv, choreo i love it.

hdjdjddkdjdj " virgos 😐 " also me in next breath "happy birthday mark :D i love you so much 🥺💕💗" any virgos reading this i really hope you enjoy your month to the fullest djjdjd <3. righttt?? you're correct abt mark's temper being very virgo djdjdkd.

your line screams hard-working people <3 jihoon, jaebeom, jeonghan the 3Js <3. isn't jaebeom also an infj? (i don't take mbtis seriously but at the same time it also makes me happy if it ends up matching someone i like djdjjd) chan & yugs 🥺 these two imo have the sweetest personality, like the one which makes you feel welcomed & they also have the cutest laugh 🥺.

i love jus2 <3 focus on me is one of my favorite kpop mvs of all time & also drunk on you??? i love this song so much, very sexy of them. the vibes, style and everything w/ their album, i want more songs like that. and for when i am feeling melancholy i need more songs like jjp's verse 2 😭💔 but i am also okay if they don't want to go back to these units bcoz everything so far they've been giving is just as great <33 ( maybe in future we'll get blessed w/ features 🥺)

honestly g7 as grp and individually have won me over with their music style, even if i don't like full album ik there will be 3-4 songs which will be exactly what i like to listen to, all of the music they've released individually i've liked it so much. there is this song of youngjae's, titled "i'm all ears" i had no idea of its existence until it popped up in my spotify i'm so glad it did, it's been in my playlist ever since. there was also a time when i was obsessed with jackson's 'on the rocks' djdjdk.

aww <3 the live performance video of 1° has mark as thumbnail so for long time i used to associate this song with him jdjddk. i think the only j*pe thing i'd miss is got7 studio live sessions 🥺. RIGHTJDKSKS aju nice's mv is very cute djjddk I love it, in reality its reverse tho, i see them and boom! 💖💛💗🤍💕💙

it was the year they won first bb*as award so that gave them the exposure, and no i don't follow them anymore. mixed feelings abt them, very negative feelings abt f*ndom fjdjdjd. i do miss what it used to feel like liking them sometimes. at that time i never thought i'll willingly drop them from my interest (i've stanned zayn since 2012 first him as grp member then solo. sometimes thinking abt it gives me a whiplash hddjks it's been 9 years, really thought it would be same with them too but it didn't happen)

i've had falling in love by yugs and in to you by jaebs on loop for days djdkdk i really love these two songs and also air by bammie <3 (i'm slow jams kinda person djdjdk :3)

(bam released the most fun album & title this year idc abt others, ribbon is one of the soty) also special mention of look so fine & running through the rain. yes! you do make sense they feel organic & very them.

exactly 😭 it's more believable when they drop stuff out of nowhere like encore 😭😭. the way youngjae posted his letter on twt too ddjjdkssk the announcement & release of encore is such a 'you just had to be there' situation the excitement, nervousness, confusion and everything 😭 sometimes i can't with them. also is the bibi with mark on ost, the same one you mentioned in last ask? the ost is really good <3, it must've been fun to see it happen (if its same bibi).

making a whole ass playlist just for me???? 😭😭😭🥺💗 yza you're so sweet nooooo 💖

and don't worry abt replying late jdjdkdjd i mean it, sometimes my friends text me after weeks and i'm am the same. it's really okay <3. i hope this week is treating you kindly, take care yza - 🪂

p.s ( just saw last post djjej) - it was me who manifested more bunny dino <3 manifesting even more <33

i was on stan twt during my younger years too and it was v fun and memorable to me ngl <3 idk what happened though.. it's evolved to be.. Something Else.. i still see a lot of good people there though 😭 and now that i'm in my Hag Era... idk it's just too fast for me now 😭 it's still my go-to place for updates though nothing can top twitter on that dept

and ms fallin flower.... i feel like everyone was blown away by it (based off of what i see carats when talk about it) and rightly so!! she SERVED. the looks too oh my god. it's another factor i look forward to and enjoy so much when i watch their performances!!

u know what? virgos 😐 indeed KJJKDFJKFDJKFDKJ i want to slander virgos today because it's their season and no one slanders them that often so <3 ABOUT MARK'S VIRGO TEMPER THOUGH... i know i've said i enjoy seeing it sm but whenever i think abt it i cant help but say that.. I Love His Temper <3 he doesn't get pissed off in a scary and douchebag-y way it seems so... contained?? IDK HOW TO DESCRIBE IT he punched an a/c though so that might not be the perfect word to describe him lmaoo <3

THE J TRINITY HFDJFJDJHDF BESTIE UR MIND IS SO!!!!!!!!!!! honestly... maybe it's the acts of service for me <3 JKDFKJFDKJFJKD i think this is just my eldest sister and savior syndrome speaking though kfjkdkjf ALSO OH MY GOD THE WAY U NOTICE THESE THINGS <3 THAT'S SO SEXIE OF U!!! and yes he used to be an infj!! there was an interview that's more recent wherein he mentioned that he's now an enfj though but i cant rmb which interview it's from :/ ALSO MOOD FKJJKGJGKF i dont believe in mbtis too but im just... a little obsessed w it for the fun of it all <3 and the way u described them </3 what if i tear up a little </3 I LOVE CHAN'S LAUGH SO MUCH BUT IM SO SOS O GLAD U BROUGHT UP YUGYEOM'S LAUGH??????????? IT'S NOT TALKED ABT ENOUGH LIKE...... HELLO!!!!!!!!!!! one of my bird moots said he sounded like a schoolboy in choir 😭😭😭😭😭😭

GOD UR TASTE!!!!!!! what if i start falling in l*ve a little :/ what then :/ focus on me was ahead of it's time and people fucking slept on THEM i cannot fucking believe this. this has to be some kind of sick joke 😭 ALSO HAVE U SEEN THE CHOREO FOR SENSES!!!!!!1 INCREDIBLE!!!!!!!!!! holy fuck!!!!!! sorry for the expletives but like.... holy SHIT they did THAT!!!!!!!! ALSO UR SO RIGHT </3 jjp verse 3 when... ALSO did u know i let go of the jjprojects url... thats the worst mistake of my life KDKJDSKJDSJK also agree wholeheartedly <3 i think they're all trying to find their footing this time around as soloists and im so proud of them for that!! i'll stand by my jus2 agenda though bc they're almost in the same company so maybe.. i might have hope left 😭

SO TRUE BESTIE!!! the same principle goes w svt for me as well <3 got7's such a flavorful group musically like... all of them have the capacity to go solo and they're still considered flops.. waht the fuck <3 ALSO OMG FJDKJFKFJD YOU'VE HEARD The Song!!!!!!!! maybe he'll be releasing something along those lines <3 esp now that he's supposedly coming w an album KJSJKDJSK on a similar note.. do u also listen to jamie (the other artist on the song) <3 NOO SHUT UP THIS CANNOT BE FOR REAL!!!!!!!!!!!!!1 i was obsessed w on the rocks too 😭😭😭😭😭😭 IT WAS MY FAVORITE ON THE MIRRORS ALBUM HELLO??????????????????????????? im proposing to u rn

ok now i have to watch all the live vids again JKDSJKSJDKDSKJ ik keep saying 'ur so right', 'i agree', and 'so true bestie' but im gonna have to say this again bc i LOVE LOVE LOVE live sessions sm no matter the artist. i also just am a little partial to live bands in performances like that in general so JDJKKDSJDS

the way you're saying these cute things abt the svteenies.. </3 giving me heartache!!! i'd bully them though i can't coddle them anymore <3

not the fandom JKFDKJFDKJFDKJFKJF ok but i think it's mostly their younger fans tbh. it wasn't this bad before.. i also really liked bts during their debut days. their songs were really good!! i kind of lost interest though and couldn't really get into them although their songs slapped lol. my irls are still into them though so i still hear about them. 9 YEARS............................... wait oh my god it HAS BEEN a little over a decade since 1d was The Thing huh 😭 now i feel kinda old lmao. and i totally get that feeling </3 it really do be like that sometimes JKFDJKJKFD

you really ARE keeping up w the sevens oh my god how are you doing it!!!!!!!!!!! it's like getting svt content now at this point but more complicated bc u need to get the updates from different sources JDKJSDKJJSKD love ur song choices too <3

ALSO FULLY RELATE!!!!!!!!!!!!!! when i saw bam's teasers... the aes was my cup of tea and THE HIGHLIGHT MEDLEY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! i can't fucking get it out of my mind it's objectively one of the best things i've seen from kpop in 2021. i'm super impressed <3 love how abyss really supported bambam on this. they really went all in for him!!

I KNOW GKJDFJDK I GOT SUPER ???????/// DURING THE TIME EVERYONE THOUGHT THEY WERE DISBANDING LMAOOOO they pulled a move that's so unheard of though no one really expected That. i respect jaebeom so much for handling all the paperwork and shit behind the scenes it must've been HELL!! ALSO IT MEANT I CRIED FOR NOTHING THEN 😭😭😭 AND YES OH MY GOD IT'S THE SAME BIBI!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! THE SHOCK I HAD WHEN I SAW THE LIST????????????????????????? thought i was gonna black out like,,, mark,,, AND BIBI??????????????? she's fucking phenomenal how is she just a YEAR older than me.. INSANE!!! ... and i also thought jackson was gonna have an ost for this movie.. idk why it wasn't released though i didnt look into it :/

i had a rough few days so i'm not yet finished with the playlist (my laptop's Dead i am still trying to revive her and uni's starting soon 😭) but for the mean time, here's another one that some people from caratblr previously asked for JDSJKSDJ these are mostly english songs though its not my k-playlist KJDSKJSDJK

i do hope this week gets better!!! and i hope that you'll have a fun one too <3 thank u for being so patient w me 🥺 i just get so many messages and find the need to recharge FDKJDFJK

ALSO I FELT LIKE IT WAS U!!!!!! OH MY GOD, i even searched my blog for the word manifest but for some reason your ask didn't come up in the search so i didnt mention u in the tags so i wont misattribute if it ends up not being u 😭 thank u for manifesting this chan for me he's my little... hop hop now ig... 😭

[mashumiwu]

Explanation about indefinite haitus

Hey guys, Ji here!

Don’t worry I’m still here and I’ve just been scrolling through tumblr every once in a while...

I want to explain why I haven’t been posting a lot...

So uh...how do I start this...? I haven’t been in the best mood since last month because of all this family problems and issues...and my mental health and my health in general isn’t great either...

I’ve also lost the motivation to write all of my series fics on here...so I’m thinking of cancelling all of them...I’m so sorry...I’m not a very good writer, I can never finish my series fics at all :(

Also another reason why I haven’t been on here is that I now have a limit on my phone...I’m only allowed 4 hours a day on my phone (excluding weekends, but I'm always busy during those days)

I will be on here every once in a while, just scrolling though my dash and maybe a few writings here and there, but I won’t be online most of the time anymore...

I will still be updating my KOC blogs, but the same thing will happen, I won’t be online much, but maybe I will write a few things here and there for that

Right now, I have 2 unfinished fics that have been in my drafts for over 2 months now, so I will get to those soon (i hope- unless I go offline again) and I’m also working on a surprise post that will come out probably in August

Well, that’s all I want to say for now

I’m also on my instagram @/tiny_destiny.7 (my personal account but its on private tho) and @/trashykpopspamzz for all my kpop stuff if you want to see me there too :)

Alright, that’s it for now! Have a good day/afternoon/evening to you guys!~ Remember, my dms and asks are open if you guys wanna drop in and say hi or just talk! Ily guys!

Be safe! Wear a mask and wash your hands regularly!!

[withered-rose-unbreakable-lotus]

Hey, what do you think is behind the decline in interest in VK in the West? It’s ridiculous how much the fandom has died down. Is it just because of the rise of kpop and the general decline in interest in all sorts of rock? Or are other factors at play - like how toxic the fandom could be?

In my opinion, kpop doesn’t really have much to do with it. People liked visual kei because it was different. What I think is responsible, because I’ve seen many fans admitting they grew out of it because of it, is a list of things (bear with me, it’s gonna be long):

1) disbands: While disbands were always a big thing in the visual kei scene, with more and more people translating stuff for fans and, bands getting on social media used by mostly western fans, like facebook and twitter, more western fans were exposed to how often this actually happens. Some fans maybe thought that visual kei is dying because of it, but truth is, disbands were always there, with smaller bands we might have never heard of, because there was sooo little information for us back then. Also, many big names in the visual kei scene have disbanded the last 5 years, which is why many fans thought that putting so much devotion and spending money on sth that could be destroyed at any moment isn’t worth it. For example (I am sorry if I am not wording this well ^^’), I knew fans who left vkei because they were tired of liking a band and then these bands kept disbanding. There is no stability. American artists and kpop artists do not break up or retire that easily, you know? And some fans want that stability or become too hearbroken when having lost a band they’ve been supporting for 10 years, or sth, and don’t want to go through that anymore (it might sound a little bit too much or dramatic, but there are fans out there who genuinely feel things about these bands, they have found some short of shelter in them and their music, so losing that band might hurt a lot and the best way to move on is by cutting ties with anything like them). In my case, this is the reason I barely like new bands anymore. I like finding newbies and keeping an eye on them but I do not actively follow them unless I am convinced they are in it for the long run. And honestly, so far, I’ve been lucky with this, because most of the people I chose to follow are still around, either as bandmen or sth else, or trying with new bands that I happen to like. Of course, I have lost some favorites too but I get it. It’s a hard life to live and, some people eventually change their mind, but not every fan feels this way and if they do, they try to “retire“ from the whole thing like their favorite artists and move on with their life. (I am in no way saying that a bandman shouldn’t leave his band when he feels like it, even if he is 20 years active. It’s their life, their rules and we should all respect that, but it seems to be hard for many people to do so, sometimes)

2) fandom. Like you mentioned, fandoms can be toxic. It happens with every fandom, though, not just visual kei, so I wouldn’t like to point fingers, especially because I’ve been lucky enough to meet some of my best friends through the fandom, most of whom aren’t even in it anymore. :P I can tell you with certainty that our lack of translators is entirely the fandom’s fault, though. People just don’t get what reblog or share with credits means and some people grow tired of it, you know? Contrary to common belief, translating a video of 30 minutes or an entire interview might take someone more than just a day, maybe even a week, and if people don’t respect that, then unfortunately the translator has to cut being nice to everyone and continue being a fan in privacy (they don’t get paid for this, they got their jobs, their families, but still wish to spend time sharing sth they love with others and helping them learn more about it through translating, even though, between us, some of those translations are illegal because we need permission to translate magazine stuff etc (a visual kei artist once said that, saying yes translations are great but guys be careful because some things are copyrighted and you might get in trouble), but some people just wish to take and take without helping others get to the initial source to find out more, too. I think there are still many visual kei fans out there, they just no longer blog about it because they want to enjoy it by themselves and without the negativity and opinions of anyone else. I started as a private fan for example. I liked fangirling on my own, I didn’t want anyone to intervene with that because it was my sole way of having fun, I didn’t want anyone to ruin it for me, but eventually, I wanted to help the bands spread their info beyond their social media and I am currently running 3 fanpages, 1 of which is on hiatus. I still get shit while doing that, by the way, there are still know-alls among us but I am not going to let anyone spoil it for me. So to cut everything short, I think that fandom could have played its role as to why so many left and why those of us left, became so quiet.

3) Some people might bite for this one but it’s a mixture of “Mainstream“ and “platform“. I believe the best people to talk about this are old-schoolers. When bands like A9 and the Gazette entered the scene, most old school visual kei fans had already started barking about the fact those bands were copying their predecessors and that they don’t really make cool music (they were making shallow stuff for their tastes, aka mainstream stuff). Truth is that, fans of that “new/2nd generation“ visual kei era are acting like old-schoolers did, when their faves came out, to the newbies coming out now, aka people following bands like Xaa Xaa or Kizu. But if you pay close attention you might notice this: When bands like A9 and the Gazette came about, old schoolers seemed to be very few among us, weren’t they? Many seemed to have disappeared and given up, because to them, visual kei was dead. Honestly, I follow many old schoolers right now. They are still around. They just don’t fangirl as loud as the rest of us do. They stick to old pics and the occasional updates from visual kei artists of that time that are still active like Sugizo, Malice Mizer members, Buck-Tick members, etc. This is what I see happening now too. There are still people listening to visual kei of the 2000s. They just aren’t loud enough and the new fans of visual kei are more present on twitter than here or facebook. Why? Because visual kei bands are also on twitter now and they can immediately fangirl on the posts of their favorites by retweeting the pics. (It also adds that some visual kei artists reply to those retweets either with words or likes) So yeah, I think we are few here now because many have moved to twitter and also because new bands sound mainstream to us fans of bands from the 2000s.

4) the Visual Kei scene. Ok, I am not that sure about this but I think it plays a role to this somehow. There are several visual kei artists that claimed visual kei is dead the last few years. I won’t name who cuz only one name comes to mind right now, but I know I had read it from many more people. I don’t know how the visual kei scene is like in Japan right now, but I know there are more bands forming than in the past, most of which are not serious about it (see bands disband within a year). This happened in the past, too, I don’t know to what extent though, but we didn’t know about those as much as those who actually had sth to say and still do to this day. I’ve heard artists complain that the new kids entering the scene have no concept. That all they care about is looking cool and nothing else. They are lucky to have more means of promoting their stuff, though. Twitter reaches out to western fans, some bands get a music video from their first release and maybe cool costumes from their first release, things that bands of older times would beg for, when they started. And still these kids do not use those means as creatively as they could so, they fail to impress the old fans enough to get an active following that fangirls about them everywhere. Not all new bands. But most. Like, Kizu, for example seem to have a vision (i am not their fan by the way, I have just seen some of their stuff and they seem to be in it for real). So, the result of all this, is fans getting bombarded by 100 new bands each year and having hard time sticking to anything. So they just retweet sth and comment about it and that’s it. They do not get into long talks about music or concept or anything because most of these bands have no concept. I dunno, I think it plays a role. And also, sth that I hadn’t thought about and was also brought up on twitter. Some big venues have closed in Japan the last two years and due to the big amount of bands wishing to perform, they are all struggling to find dates to perform. In other words, there is so much competition right now that if you aren’t a big name by now, you gotta wait in line for scheduling your lives. One of my favorite bands was like “yeah no live this week, everything was closed.“ and I was surprised. Also big events have stopped happening. I don’t know if you had experienced that but there was a time Nico Nico, the channel had several bands hosting their own shows. It was mostly PSC bands that did that but due to tough schedule it stopped. There was also the Xmas live, a festival with many bands which was broadcasted each year and that I’ve heard nth about the last two years. The show does still happen they just don’t broadcast it anymore. There was another festival called Stylish Wave. That stopped being broadcasted too so many events that were broadcasted for free are no longer happening so this is why I am saying that we’ve lost lots of the hype from Japan’s side too. I knew so many people who were looking forward to such events and then we’d all gif everything and translate stuff. It’s no longer there though. Only one interview show is still broadcasted on Nico Nico for free, the rest is paid stuff.

So yeah, all in all, these are the basics that I think played an important role in losing western fandoms. Of course, this is just my opinion, many people might disagree. Thank you for the question, I am always glad to exchange opinions on visual kei stuff. ^^

[narika-a]

Mutuals?

[ describe your fav mutuals without saying who they are and see if they know ]

I really doubt they would actually see it, if I did just that, so I decided to combine these asks into one 😂

also this was asked such a long time ago im sorry for taking this long akshdaskfjl

@pandaddictedtomanga some idiot idk why i follow her or why she follows me stfu pls lmaooo, also bonus fact: its the first blog i followed once i joined tumblr

@kangseungsicc precious human being whom i like very much, it’s so fun chatting with you, also i love your blog, that's why i started following you in the first place, alsooo fellow myname stan TwT, also also fellow love liver still sad your acc got deleted, add me once you create a new one lol, also fellow nugu groups stan, there needs to be more of us, also did i mention i love chatting with you??!!!!! 💕💖💞💕💖💞💕💖💞

@anyhao ahh i really love your blog, for me it has this nice aesthetic lol, i dont even remember when or how we started following each other but im happy we are, we should talk more tho 😂

@sefuns i crown you the queen of exo gifs 👑 i always see stuff from you first and you have been making gifs for them for the longest time i know anyone did and i just like your personality as much as your gifs, nice chatting with you 😁

@theycallmebaepsaeee7 fellow country mate, sorry i suck at replying so often, hope we actually get to meet irl one day some day, you never know 😂 tarp kitko daug esu lt cia sutikus, bet su tavim bendrauju ilgiausiai tai taip tikrai nice ir kartais net kazkaip ir strange kad ateini i tumblr ir yra lt zmogus, smagu zdz, nice talks musu 💞💞

@everythingkpopuniverse i know there is a few admins on this blog and i appreciate you a lot, you always reblog all of my original content , either gifs or writings and stuff and ahhh that means a lot!! 💕

@pyomin fellow myname stan, honestly one of the few persons i know on this site that actually keeps up with them and its so nice that you post stuff for them and yeah i just really like your blog too!! ✨✨

@kttendrama you’re so funny and i love it and chatting with you is always a good time but where you vanished off to?? is sk treating you okay? you did not get lost or anything?? 🤔

@heebiejbies this girl hasnt been on tumblr for ages but we still keep up even off tumblr and i just love her personality and yeah everything!! alsooo breyeol forever!!!!!!! come back to tumblr so i can tag in you in chanyeol content again 😂😂

@jisungified idk are you still on tumblr? we used to have nice interactions, i like your personality, you’re so sweet! hope you’re doing well 💕

@limsjaebeom you reblog random stuff from me from time to time and i do the same and now whenever i see you on my dash or activity i first think about star wars lmaoo anyhow i like your gifs! i dont really remember how we became mutuals tho but im glad we are 😂

@shawtyimmapartyy its nice talking to you and i think we completely strayed off kpop but thats totally fine as all the conversations are just as good, idk do i make sense? 😂 also i dont wanna sounds like a creep but you’re really pretty, just wanted you to know that 😂💞

@junguwusus okay, listen ppl, idk if you still go on tumblr but you have been and still are one of my favourite blogs on this site, i just love the fact that you love nugu groups and MYNAMEEEEEEEEEEEEE all ppl who like myname are automatically on the top of my list and honestly your personality seems nice and yeah, i was very happy when you followed me back, so yeah, hope you’re doing well even if you’re not active here anymore, i will still continue to follow you!! 💖💖💖 also bonus fact: if i remember correctly, you’re one of the first people i started following here 

@kihobebe ahh i like your gifs!! and i appreciate when you reblog my stuff and yeah i see you in my activity lol, how you doing? we havent interacted in a while but i always get excited to see you on my dash 💞💞

@sarcatlady i always associate you with knk and i see you from time to time in my activity and i like your blog but it’s like silent mutuality or how do i call this lol   😂

@ladymaysworld fellow nugu stan, i love how multifandom you are, also your gifs!! and you seem really nice in general!! we should talk more 💖 p.s. also is that you in your profile pic cuz i always wonder and damn then you’re very pretty 💓

@rangrids another fellow country mate. honestly i love your blog, it reminds me of my sis’ and the posts are so funny, sometimes i just check it to laugh lmaoo okay that sounded creepy anyhow, yes i do check your blog even if it doesnt seem like that 😂 also i still really appreciate the fact that you follow me despite the fact my blog has been almost taken over by kpop and now like every second post is kpop but yeah, thank you!! and all our interactions have been so nice! we should talk for normal some day one day ya know 😂 as kazkaip per shy pradet conversation bet jo man dar visada keista, kad tu is lt bet jo labai nice ya get me ya get me 💞

@roamingthesails honestly you’re the sweetest and so chill and such a tol bean and were so nice and i mean still are to me and when i met you i was like  💓💓 i’m so glad you contacted me before the concert and even tho we didnt get to talk irl for that long i hope i can come back once again and meet you again and we could like chill or maybe even go to a concert together idk but yeah! fun times! fun chatting with you!

@lovekatelynmarie ahh it’s fun chatting with you and im sorry i suck at replying all the time 😂 i appreciate you liking my stuff and i see ya in my activity! also the posts you share, send more of them 😂 and im still shook you were that summoning circle anon, like damn spot on omg 😂 also also your doggo!! your doggo is super cute!!

@3rachha i really like your gifs and i was following you before you remade and then one day saw that you deactivated and was like oh snap oh damn but then i found ya again quite quickly tbh 😂 and then you followed me back and yeah now im happy 💕 also i see you in my activity as well and that makes me double happy!! 💕💕

I think it’s not all of them but the ones I remember the best/interact the most atm, sorry if I forgot anyone 🙇🙇🙇

[avenger-hawk]

What other minor and/or major fandoms are you in? (Or what other shows/series do you keep track of?)

This might be boring to read because there are people who are up to date with manga/anime/tv shows/movies while I’m the opposite xD I’m the type of person who sticks with something they love to the point of obsession for a very long time.

Other than the Naruto one, the last fandom I joined was the MetaMoro fandom (italian singers and beautiful couple), last year. I never shipped real people in my whole life cause I don’t care about real people enough, and cause found it kinda creepy (btw I bet tumblr police has something to say about this as well) but things happen and you can’t control what you like (hi again tumblr morality police), besides, there is no fanservice in Italy for this kind of things, it’s not like idols or kpop bands or US celebrities, so..I didn’t even want to be active in the fandom tbh, but I just happened to write some comments in my tags and then I received asks and suddenly people were interested in my opinion, then in my ideas so they suggested prompts and before I knew it I was posting angsty darkfics lol ( so this is the fandom that steals my time from naruto fic writing)

I’m not in other fandoms, these 2 take too much time already, and most of the anime/shows I like are either quite old or over since a while. I don’t know most of the shows people talk about, and when I stumble on their gifs/images I just don’t feel interested.

I am a Game of Thrones fan, I sometimes wrote a few comments on episodes and with my personal blog I follow GoT blogs with gifs and edits, but I don’t read fics and I never read fan theories though.

Before Naruto my favourite manga/anime were Gensoumaden Saiyuki (I wasn’t into it anymore but they published the Gaiden prequel volumes in my country and I almost cried reading the end for how beautiful and sad it was) and most of it all Bleach…I loved it so much, I read fics, searched for doujinshi and fanarts, saved screenshots. It was in my heart for years, and it still is even though I didn’t follow it that much, so when it ended I wasn’t as angry as for Naruto, for example. But I periodically think (more like obsess) about it again, when I stumble on stuff online. And I do periodically think, more like, replay, the scenarios I would think about, my ‘bedtime stories’ lol, as back then I didn’t even consider writing a fic.

I recently read the Psycho Pass manga for the first time, as I had watched the anime already. Then I rewatched the anime and I liked it even more than the first time, so much that I obsessively sought fanarts and fics, too bad that my fave ship is popular only in the reverse top/bottom dynamic compared to the one I like

I’m deeply into Noragami which is the latest manga I’ve been reading, I want to watch the anime but I haven’t yet. Also I haven’t looked for fanarts/fics, even though I really love Yato, and I am very intrigued by the angsty parts like when he cried getting to know his shinki’s past, or when he’s stung and blighted when his shinki has bad thoughts &co. Or the way his father manipulated him, or when he was bitten by Hiyori gone ayakashi…This kind of things is my kind of things, so I’m all in for the dark side of it, but I’m afraid I’m a minority so I don’t even bother looking for stuff. (maybe this was better in the other ask about crack ships lol)

Also because I often drop shows/anime when I disagree with the plot, and especially with tv series this happens a lot cause they keep them going on and on season after season and annoying shit happens, like, I was a fan of The 100 (and I shipped Claire/Lexa and Lincoln/Octavia) but after Lexa died and there was the season finale/cliffhanger for the next one I stopped watching cause I disliked it. Or Vikings but same, I didn’t like it anymore after the first series, it’s like certain stories go out of hand and become ‘too big’ and I can’t put up with that kind of absurdity. And I have an open mind, my favourite stories are those that question reality, so my concept of absurdity is related to unbelievable because it’s badly written imo. Same for Mr Robot, I watched it all but I didn’t like certain things and I’m afraid I’m gonna hate the next season. Or Sense 8, but that was canceled and I even managed to quit it before the forced ending lol. I’m a huge fan of Star Trek The Next Generation and BattleStar Galactica, I bingewatched the latter on a summer, like when I bingewatched LOST with my ex, who was addicted on series more than I. He was an ass*ole but he made me watch good stuff lol. Like cute��Pushing Daisies. Older series are more interesting imo. It’s like the popular ones are like videogames, each season with a bigger ‘aim’, while others are canceled without even trying to continue and see if people get to like them. Some stories grow on people more slowly, but they don’t get it. The latest show I tried to watch was American Gods, its concept seemed interesting and I like the many different cultures and mythologies it refers to, but I found certain things disturbing/triggering so I stopped.

I also liked Death Note but for the story more than the characters. I was reading Tomodachi Game cause it’s quite similar for certain things but I have to catch up. Oh and I never finished Nabari No Ou, even though I liked it. Why didn’t I finish? I forgot. Same for Gintama. Like pretty much anyone else I read manga with an app and I watch anime/shows on my laptop and I decided to read more paper books instead, and use devices less, so I follow my favourite musicians/bands, and ofc my 2 fandoms and mostly I write my fics. Or, well, I try to.

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Hi there! Really excited about the kpop/astrology blog!! If you guys have time I’d like a master analysis! Ship me with exo or nct! My info is: December 19, 1991 Norfolk, Virginia 10:41 am. Please take your time, no rush, and thank you!

Master Analysis: lowtieruwu edition

Ships

Sasori ships you with

Yixing! This soft boy will mellow out your fire vibes and also give you the space and freedom you need. He’ll pretty much let you run the show.

🔞

has no problems being a sub and letting you take the reigns.

Literally up for anything at least once so whatever you wanna try he’s down for.

Wanna tie him up? Fuckin go for it the boy loves rope play. Tie his ass up.

Sometimes he gets a little fed up though and enough is enough.

Like when you wont stop groping him under the table at dinner.

He’s gonna find a reason to excuse you two from the table

“Are they fucking in the parking lot?”

They’re fucking in the parking lot

Peachy ships you with

Ten!

Y'all would constantly be dragging each other, much to everyone’s amusement. And he’d push you to work hard.

🔞

Y'all some straight up FREAKS.

There’s a swing and harnesses and overly complicated lingerie (which one of you wears it though?) And 27 varieties of oil by your bedside.

Post-coital showers are mandatory cuz y'all be putting in WORK.

He loves doming you, especially since you dont make it easy, but he’s gotta be a switch sometimes.

You two always walking around bruised and scratched up.

Absolutely fucked in the dance practice room

And probably on another member’s bed when they pissed you off

Leather

Hallyu Analysis

Main dancer and lead rapper

Not allowed to write her own tracks after she dropped an EP of exclusively diss tracks

Holds the record for inkigayo sandwiches collected

Like if idols were pokemon, your pokedex would be FULL

Literally just has a cork board of phone numbers pinned to it

BUT NEVER REPLIES TO THEIR TEXTS

v popular, even predebut, has a big fan base

Absolutely decimates her members, on accident

Just constantly dragging them without even realizing it

But they let it slide

Bc scared

But also bc they know you’ll burn a motherfucker down that tries to come for them

Dating and partying scandals

So many in fact that no one cares anymore

Mini Summary

Big flighty hippie energy

Always traveling or experiencing something new

Passionate but short attention span

Naturally draws a lot of attention

Has never once pulled a punch in her life and never will, doesnt matter if it’s a physical or verbal altercation

Get Wrecked

Has this chart ever maintained a job?

Being a shot girl in the club doesn’t really count

Although you do make bank doing it

Doesn’t know the meaning of reliable

Has 2k unread texts

“I literally wouldn’t come near this person with a 50 foot pole. Maybe longer.” -Sasori

God DO NOT call this chart for emotional support, job reference, or a ride ffs.

Despite being the least reliable friend ever on the face of the planet, this chart feels things VERY intensely. MUST INDULGE FEELINGS RN IMMEDIATELY ITS V IMPORTANT

And then theyre gone poof

“Oh my god i think i met the one we’re gonna travel the world together”

*2 weeks later*

“Who? Oh i didn’t even save his number”

Probably has a secret child

Never shuts tf up

But We Still Love You

Just kidding, Sasori hates Sags

But Peachy doesn’t!

I would call you at least once a month to have turn up (but you’re never in town when i call)

Definitely the fun friend

Also the friend you call when you get in a fight

Will have your back (if you’re even around)

Also has lots of experience punching probably

Athletic?

Also v good at finessing men (or women, or whoever youre into today) out of free food

Will absolutely share their free food too

Has a lot of interesting life philosophies, definitely an engaging person to talk to

When you love, you put your whole heart into it (for however long you feel like)

I feel like you literally always look good?

Thanks for being our first request 💗💗💗

-Sasori 🍥& Peachy 🍑

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Stray Kids On Tumblr // Jisung

Chan // Woojin // Minho // Changbin // Hyunjin // Jisung // Felix // Seungmin // Jeongin

One of the few members that actually 

Spent a goooood amount of time on his header

And his desktop theme actually 

Like actually learned how to do some html coding to make his blog nice

Works really hard to keep is blog running smoothly

Doesn’t ever use queue tho

Really isn’t that invested 

Anyways 

He’s had the blog since forever

Like ever

Got on tumblr to destress after school

Then continued to use it to destress after he’s long days of training

he just wanted a nice looking blog

Never really made his own posts 

Like he’d go through phases of posting his own things

Little bits of lyrics and poems and texts and stuff

Nothing to fancy

He’d follow some block b’s zico stuff

Because role models am i right

So he’d be aware of the big kpop side of tumblr

He’d be the type of blogs that would write short-ish pieces 

Where there was no real plot

Not really any characters either 

Just like aesthetic writing

Something that started out as a melody in his head

And he’d take that melody and put it into words and post it

Each person could interpret in their own way

Which is why those types of posts ended up taking off

He’d never really post them to often

Because i mean how often can he just put a melody into words

And then yah know eventually he started putting that towards 3racha and stray kids

But every now and then when he would think of something that wouldn’t ever fit with the two of them

He’d write it down

But this is how he got your attention

You’d followed his blog a bit ago

Probably around the time he was a trainee

You couldn’t really remember how you got there

But once you saw some kpop stuff there

And get even further into his blog

And found his little written bits

You followed him right away

You were always waiting for him to post another little bit of writing

And when he finally did

It was even more amazing then you had expected it to be

And you couldn’t help but to leave an ask

Going on about how great his blog was and how much you loved his writing and just wow

And of course he was like 

Woooooh someone likes me weird brain dumb posts enough to leave an ask like this?? 

And he checks out your blog naturally 

Because of the ask it links him to your main blog

And its pretty normal

He sees a few kpop posts and is like

Hey!!! They’re into kpop!

And then he sees the links in your description

And checks a few of them out 

And then 

Oh and thennnnn

He clicks on the link that leads to your stray kids blog

And his jaw drops

Because what

He’d been on tumblr for so long

But this is one of the first stray kids blogs he’s ever found

Naturally he’s got this huge swelling feeling in his heart

But he’s also just kinda like

Someone who’s a fan of me found my other blog

Somehow

And still likes me??? 

Even without knowing its actually me??? 

Shook

He cant help but follow you

He follows both your main blog

And your sk blog

Because why not

Of course you notice right away

How would you not notice that such an amazing and inspirational blog followed you

AND your stray kids blog at that

Another stray kids fan!!!!

That in itself was exciting

He likes and reblogs a good bit of your stray kids stuff

And your like

Can’t let this moment pass

So you message him and are just kinda like 

“Hey thanks for following me i really love your blog your writing is amazing. Also i see you like stray kids?” 

And thus the start of a beautiful relationship 

Of course you had nooooooo clue you were talking to the Han Jisung of Stray Kids

The j.one of 3racha

Probably for the best

Because you’d actually die if you knew it was him

Also it’d totally be risky for jisung himself

But somehow the two of you keep in contact 

And actually find decent things to talk about

Instead of giving you his name 

Because he’s smart enough to not thank goodness

He just went by his nickname 

“Squirrel” 

And you’re like yes the cutest nickname i love it 

And then moved on

You called him your “squirrel” 

And he somehow ended up calling you his “puppy” 

And thats just how it stayed

Even when you’d tag each other in posts 

He’d use your nickname 

And you’re follows where always ???

Why puppy???

Tbh you didn’t know either but you just went with it 

Not gonna lie you found it super cute 

Made your heart feel all fluttery 

You loved talking with your squirrel

And he really loved talking with you 

But as the survival show got more intense 

And then stray kids debut on the horizon 

And you were kinda ;___;

Because where’s your squirrellll 

Little did you know jisung was missing you a lot too

Anyways one day you were watching a vlive

And a group of the boys were talking about things they miss

And jisung 

Real chill was just like

Oh i miss my puppy

And you were just kinda ???

Cause you didn’t know jisung had a puppy

Felix had clearly been thinking the same thing apparently

Because he were like 

Wait you have a dog???

And he just kinda looked at felix and then glanced at the camera and smiled before turning back to whatever he was doing before

And you couldn’t help but feel ??? that maybe ??? 

Maybe that was about you?? 

But you pushed that thought out real quick

That’s bs there’s no way that had anything to do with you

So you just finished the vlive and went back to scrolling through tumblr

And then  you stumbled across a list of the sk members nicknames 

And oh gosh

Jisungs nickname 

Of course it was 

His nickname was squirrel 

Now everything you had worked so hard to shove down earlier was coming back

And coming back much stronger

Your squirrel wasn’t han jisung right

It couldn’t be

There was absolutely no way it could be

But you couldn’t help it anymore

So you messaged jisung

And just kinda said something like

Hey did you know you and jisung go by the same nickname?? 

And surprisingly faster than usual he messaged you back and was like 

“Yah, isn’t that ironic?!” 

And you’re just kinda like …..

And then you get another message and its like 

“He also really misses his puppy too!” 

And you’re like 

…….

And he just kinda sends you a winky face 

And your like “there’s no way”

You get a “lol” back

At this point you’re 95% sure it is him

So you take a deep breath and say

“You’d tell me if it’s true right?” 

And he says

“Didn’t i already tell you tho?” 

Youre screaming now

Hes pretty much screaming too

“So you’re really him” you send off

“I’ll only answer if you say it for real” 

“But if im wrong that's embarrassing” 

“pup how can you be wrong at this point”

You can practically hear him laughing at you 

“Wouldn’t it be bad for you to have it so straight forward tho? If we keep it like this then technically i dont have any solid evidence its you…” you say

He takes a bit to respond 

“I guess you’re right…” 

And thus you somehow ended up becoming the mom friend to jisung 

Well...friend�� the “friend” part is up in the air… 

[vakta]

(yes i'm making this my new pinned)

hi!! and welcome! :)

i would say this blog is my safe space. i can be myself here without too much hesitation and i've become a part of a wonderful community that has grown very dear to my heart. i'm homeschooled at the moment and i'm alone most of the time, which makes me even more grateful that i can connect to people this way. i have friends here who i love so so much, who have helped me so so much, and honestly idk what i'd do without them. this blog is very important to me, because it really helps me cope with the difficulties i'm going through.

so, here is a brief introduction of it! i've listed some of the things you might want to know before you interact :]

!!! Trigger Warnings !!!

ED: i am in recovery. fully & truly, not in that pseudo-shit phase anymore. however, it obviously is very difficult and i do have bad thoughts time to time, but i pay a LOT of attention not to post/rb anything potentionally damaging. which means there are NO numbers (kcals, weight, bmi, measurements, etc.), NO -spo and NO encouragement of disordered behaviours on this blog, and vents (which i try to keep as safe as i can too) are always under a [readmore] with a list of any needed tw at the top. needless to say, i'm entirely pro recovery!!

SH: always under a [readmore] with a tw at the top, and nothing graphic

Other stuff to know abt the "content" here (under the cut bc otherwise this post would be waaaay too long):

i tend to swear here and there, especially when i'm angry

i love using pet names (like starting my posts with "babes!!" or "loves" or calling someone bestie or dude (intended in a non gendered way) n stuff like that; i'm often shy to do so tho), but please let me know if sth makes you uncomfy!

english isn't my first language but i'm trying very hard so please forgive me for my mistakes!!

i have a pretty messed-up relationship with my dad and i post about that quite frequently, since this is kind of the only place where i can vent.

when i'm not complaining about my dad, i usually complain about my digestive-system, which i also have a questionable relationship with, due to its lack of ability to function normally, thanks to (surprise, surprise) my ed

i'm in recovery, but it can get really difficult, and then i post my thoughts about the things i'm going through sometimes. though overall recovery is rly nice!! 100% recommend!!!!

i still rb some ed memes for the lolz but never the damage-encouraging ones

i often rb mental health and lgbtqia+ related posts too

also get ready for a ton of shitty jokes, food opinions, harm reduction, picrews, simping for han jisung, and cats

thank you sm for reading through this!! and thank you sm too even if you only took a glance at the highlighted/bold words. i'm proud of you for being here, i'm proud of you for existing. because that's already a big thing on its own!! and i know that fighting with ED SHeeran or struggling in other ways can be really tough and i'm just so damn proud of you for not giving up. please remember that you are worthy. worthy of food, worthy of rest, worthy of love and happiness. nourish your body and soul. take your multivitamins. hydrate. take time to relax. bind safely. wear clothes that you like and listen to your favourite music. do what brings you joy, what makes you happy. i hope you can do something you love today! :)

take care, stay safe, ily. <3

and finally, some stuff abt meeee

you can call me alba or avrora or dawn (or you can translate dawn to any language basically, just let me know so that i don't get confused!)

i'm 18

i use they/she pronouns

member of the lgbtqia+ community but honestly can't tell which of the letters is the one which represents my identity. i can't figure out my sexuality bc of trauma and i just don't even want a gender tbh

my fav school subject is chemistry

we have a dog, she is beautiful and so so loveable

i listen to kpop, mostly skz (& an underrated group i like is lilli lilli, go stan lilli lilli !!!)

overall i'm kinda lame but i'd like to think that i'm owning it :]

if you read it until here, ilysm, have a nice day, you get a yellow flower, a pink flower, a caterpillar, a snail, a smol chicken and a cupcake! 🌼🌸🐛🐌🐣🧁

and a van too bc it looks cool 🚚

enough of doing the anorexia. im doing the recovery.