#i need. NEED! to get song analysis out of my brain okay

[merp-blerp]

A Gaylor Interpretation of "Message in a Bottle"

Overblown Analysis Under the Cut ↓

So similarly to my "Champagne Problems" analysis, this is just to exercise my brain and see songs differently than what's expected. It's likely a stretch, and that's okay.

"I know that you like me // And it's kinda frightenin' // Standing here waitin', waitin'"

So... it's basically become my thing to see a lot of romanticly coded songs as about Tay's fanbase, and that doesn't change here, hehe! Taylor knows that her fans like her. They were in love with her when she wrote this song back in the early 2010s and that has only grown over time. For a formerly bullied kid, seeing people, most of whom are the same age as you and your old bullies, support you must've been exciting and fulfilling for a young Taylor, but also frightening because it's new and you want to keep things that way. Even using the words "you like me" makes it feel like a little kid talking about their peers taking an interest in them. I know for me on a personal level, as a kid getting compliments from kids my age, especially bullies oddly enough, would make me really happy and desperate to keep pleasing them so rejection could never come to bite. It's a strange cycle to try to appeal to people who will never accept you, and I think Taylor's music over time has explored how tiring that cycle can be.

But what is she waiting for? It could be coming out. I personally think Taylor has known she’s not straight since at least her debut era, likely before that. I also mentioned in my "But Daddy I Love Him" analysis that Taylor has been het-washing her songs since the beginning, but also flagging in her songs little by little for just as long. In the early days, it was subtle, and took some thinking to see it. For example, "I hope you think that little black dress... and my old faded blue jeans." If Taylor's in the blue jeans, who is in "that" dress, which she notably separates from being her's by using the word "that?" Likely not a boy, unless he was very progressive in 2006.

So she's waiting for the courage or the opportunity she needs to stop being in the closet. Or she's waiting for the fans to receive the messages we'll talk more about in a bit.

"And I became hypnotized // By freckles and bright eyes // Tongue tied"

In this particular reading, this is the only line I think is about a lover and not fans. Taylor has romantic feelings for this "freckles and bright eyes" person she describes it seems. Naturally, this being a gaylor reading, I see this lover as a woman. Although, it would be interesting to see this "freckles" person as a beard, hypnotizing her in the sense that it's making her do things she wouldn't naturally do, leaving her "tongue-tied" or unable to speak her truth. I just don't know of a beard she's had that has freckles, but I could just be forgetting someone. Noticeably, she doesn't say something along the lines of "By your freckles" or anything, so it doesn't seem like this song is overall addressed to this person. The you/your are the fans in this reading.

"But now // You're so far away and I'm down // Feelin' like a face in the crowd // I'm reachin' for you, terrified"

Maybe because of the freckled person's role in Taylor's life, Taylor now feels distant from the fandom she has treated like friends. They feel far away from her. Maybe because she can't share her true self with them they feel like strangers she can't connect to like she did before the lover or bearding entered her life.

"I'm down" could refer to mood, as in feeling down or sad. And as dark as it sounds, I can't help but also suggest that "down" could also mean "in hell", a place a lot of us queers get told we're going. If you feel "like a face in the crowd" you feel unimportant or not famous. If Taylor connected with her fans like a friendship, she wouldn't feel like the famous person she is, but just another person in the arenas/stadiums she performs in. Since she's feeling distant from her fans due to her sexuality, she decides to reach for them and connect with them through her hairpins in her songs. But she's scared while she begins to flag more. Why?

"'Cause you could be the one that I love // I could be the one that you dream of // Message in a bottle is all I can do // Standin' here, hopin' it gets to you // You could be the one that I keep, and I // Could be the reason you can't sleep at night // Message in a bottle is all I can do // Standin' here, hopin' it gets to you"

She's scared because she loves her fans and is going into uncharted waters with her hairpins. Taylor is known for loving her fans. And for her fans at this time, she is their dream celebrity with a good rep and reliability. If her fans see her for her, she could be even more connected to them. She could love them even more for seeing her and get to keep them by her side forever. And her fans could keep her too, not sleeping because they stay up pouring through her work which is exactly what I'm doing right now drafting this—it's almost 4:00AM—please help. If they understood her signaling and accepted her as a queer person, they could continue to be happy.

After the Red era and into 1989, Taylor's flagging became much louder, with more thoroughly queer-coded moments like "WTNY", her "Riptide" cover, no beard, the sprinkle of rainbow outfits and androgynous clothing here and there, saying "us" when talking about the queer community at the GLAAD awards, etc. I think this was all intentional on her end, ramping up the messages to get to the fans. This song is about her actively deciding to be louder in the hopes that she'll be seen and understood.

A message in a bottle is covertly wrapped up, locked away in glass, characteristically, and is never verifiably going to get to where it's intended in real life. The glass bottle is like the glass closet; the message is clear as day inside and just needs to be unwrapped. In fairytales, bottled notes always seem to get to the person they are meant to by sheer luck. One example of this trope that comes to mind for me is Pippi in the South Seas. It just happens and the reader shouldn't overthink how. But in real life that's not nearly as likely. But Taylor seems very optimistic in this song, hopeful the message gets to the fans. In some stories, the unlikelihood of bottled notes getting exactly where you want is a part of the point. To send a message in a bottle is to be very desperate. A character might be marooned on an island alone and sending out a bottled note might be their last shred of hope to be saved. The message in a bottle "is all I can do" because Taylor is in a situation where she can't come out but she can't bear to be unseen any longer. Situations like this are what flagging is for. The glass bottle, the glass closet, is her last hope of rekindling her relationship with fans and feeling okay again.

"These days I'm restless // Work days are endless // Look how you've made me, made me // But time moves faster // Replaying your laughter // Disaster"

Taylor's always been busy. The subject of the song making her restless with her endless work days seems very about fans, as I don't get how a lover would make her work days endless, but entertaining fans definitely could, with interviews, easter egg planting, songwriting, touring, etc. But being busy keeps the time moving. Your day goes by faster when you're busy. The joy or laughter from her fans makes her want to continue to have the work ethic she has to keep them happy. It's disastrous because she's scared of losing them. She knows she might not be able to be the "Twin from your dreams" they want forever if she comes out. But the chorus remains positive as she's optimistic they will understand.

"How is it in London? (London) // Where are you while I'm wonderin' (wonderin') // If I'll ever see you again?"

So TTPD's "So Long London" has been interpreted as being about Taylor saying goodbye to bearding, as many of her most intense beardings were with British guys. Here, Taylor wonders what this form of bearding is like. Prior to dating the British boys, Taylor's beardings only lasted for a few months, so fairly light one could say. A few of the British boys were the firsts to last for over a year. So here she asks how will it be to fake-date this intensely? And also, where will the fans be emotionally during these beardings as she wonders if she'll ever be as connected to them as she once was? Will they get her messages, even if they are far away, marooned in London? Will their eyes meet her's through the glass? Will they see her and stay?

Under this lens, this song is pretty sad in hindsight, knowing what we know now. A lot of fans actively choose not to acknowledge Taylor's flagging out of social pressure and guilt others into doing the same. Her messages weren't seen by all. If songs like "But Daddy I Love Him", "Dear Reader", and "You're Losing Me" are anything to go off of, Taylor's connection with certain kinds of fans seems farther away than ever as she taunts them, acknowledges their stranger status, and forsakes them. Lover seemed to hold the last shred of hope she had for them to see her with "The Archer". They didn't stay, they ran from her. Their faithless love was all she received. They weren't the ones to be her evergreen group of friends, but they'll find someone besides her to be their superstar and it'll be alright now that daylight might be near. How many TS puns can I fit in here?

I feel bad for ending this on a pretty downer note despite the happy feel of the song and the expectations that come with that, so here is a gif of a cute dog taking a bath to hopefully help you feel better:

And this gif of Tay in the orange and pink surprise song dress as an extra treat because it makes me so unbelievably happy!

Bye bye! 🧡🩷

[kodaiki]

HAII!! I JUST WANT TO SAY THT I ADORE YOUR SCRIPTED HEART SMAU SMMM!! But genuinely I think that y/n's and gojos's fandom would reunite together to make edits of them together, get paparazzi's photos of them and probably '10 minutes of gojo and y/n being a chaos couple' from that one live. (I think mostly from Gojo fandom since he have bigger fame) And when there's a y/n hater or gojo hater expect the fandom TO BASH ON THE HATER LIKE THERE'S NO TOMORROW LMAO they're just supportive of their favourite actor being together 🤭🤭 [happy]

Anyways!! Sorry if you're having a hard time understanding what I'm trying to say, I just randomly thought of it at 3AM (I need to sleep brah)

OH AND ONE MORE!! If gojo and y/n ever break up expect your TikTok fyp TO BE FILLED WITH THEM! Edits of them together with sad taylor swift songs, a video about a girl ranting how she won't believe in love anymore, comments crying abt them, a video on how they can shoot their shot on gojo now 😭 + MAYBE PERHAPS A YOUTUBE VIDEO ANALYSIS ABOUT HOW/WHY THEY BREAK UP?? 🤨🤨🤨 Oh, I forgot to mention those Twitter accounts that update everything 😔 I bet people would find out from them first and would be like 😯😯 (Goodbye)

Oh my goodness I srsly need to sleep.

OKAY BUT I LOVE YOUR SMAU SM THOUGH #LIVELAUGHLOVE GIRLLLL!! CANT WAIT FOR THE NEXT CHAPTERR! Also I'm putting this on anonymous because I'm shy when you see this

omgg yesssss you're so so right, i can say proudly those videos already exist (from their first interview, the live, and any paparazzi footage of them seen together) fun fact/sad fact: y/n doesn't really look at her mentions on soial media because although she has awesome supporters that are og fans of gojo, she inevitably has delulu haters too :((( so she stays away from that aspect of sm to not let it get to her head, even tho its fake! your brain at 3am is amazing i love it. LMFAO TIKOK would be mourning for their breakup 😭😭

thank you so much bby! smoochies for you!! <333

[linabirb]

okay guys so i had another weird dream. story time

i was watching a movie and it felt SO REAL i genuinely still think it might be real like i still think it might actually exist i refuse to believe my brain came up with all of this it's way too specific.

okay so the movie had like, moments where it was more of a cartoon and the beginning was like that as well. i don't remember it that well, all i remember is that you, as a viewer, were visiting two kingdoms and you were telling the rulers how to do things. one of them gets offended and then SOMETHING happens and the live action part starts.

the mc looked very cute, she had this tomboy look and she was very short. basically the whole "point" of the movie was that everything around her started becoming too literal and if the person said something, it didn't matter if it was a metaphor, it would definitely happen. also objects weren't called what they were anymore, like after the whole beginning part, mc is just walking somewhere and then she gets bullied by some girl who insists that she needs to do "the pipe thing". the pipe thing turns out to be a bunch of mean nicknames written on the pavement and mc was told MULTIPLE TIMES THROUGHOUT THE MOVIE to pick one for herself.

the movie also showed mc watching tv multiple times and i THINK she was able to go to those kingdoms from the beginning through it but both of them looked destroyed. also a guy who looks a bit too much like screwllum from hsr is there and it's revealed that he was an important figure in one of the kingdoms and he explains that something went Wrong and now yeah metaphors and stuff like that doesn't exist.

also this is a very weird part. throughout the movie mc hears people say "take your time" to her and for some reason every time they say that to her there's this cute kitty with her, im assuming it's hers. closer to the end, she hears the phrase again and she realizes something and her cat suddenly becomes GIGANTIC and its face becomes. like it's half kitten and half very old cat. it starts destroying everything and in the end mc calms it down and they have this very wholesome moment and the kitty disappears. the movie ends with mc walking home and THAT girl appears again and this time she's carrying a literal pipe and she asks mc to help her out with something and mc refuses and she comes home and watches tv again.

NOW JUST LIKE I WOULD DO IRL in that dream i went ON TUMBLR to look at all the pretty gifsets and i remember that someone (possibly a mutual..) compared one of the characters to mappi and it was a very long analysis but im sorry i don't remember much. i also went to read the theories and some of the most popular ones were that the movie is either about grief or survivor's guilt, autism, or. idk i remember it was somehow related to the creator the whole theory felt very weird. i also remember listening to some soundtracks and they sounded very cool i kinda want to recreate them but i can already feel my brain forgetting them. some of the songs also sounded french i think?..

anyway yeah. also no i don't remember the title but what i do remember is that it was VERY long.

[obsolescent]

I lovee all are of the dust a lot (I reread it for this and it hit me just as much!!) so I would LOVE to hear what u thought while writing it🥰 especially this part bc AAA

Oh lord Em…. The way I just dropped to my knees reading what I wrote again… Sit down and get comfortable 🛋️

The soul of Ethel Cain reached into the depths of my being and wrenched All Are of The Dust out of me while I was listening to this song of her’s (specifically the second half of the song)

The lines “Please, don't love how I need you / And know that one day, you and I could be okay,” are ones that resonate throughout this.

I was like let me try my hand at writing angst, let me dip my toes in. At first, like you with 505, I had become uninspired with it before I had even wrote anything down. But I sat and dug through my mind, and motivation struck with the Preacher’s Daughter album.

Southern gothic imagery galore, it’s what I had been envisioning for this piece. I was like, this is what I needed! So I thought of this world, where you and Leon had grown up together, the trailer park not too far from the orphanage, inseparable in and outside of school, twin flames who found one another so early in life and refuse to be separated.

This was also meant to be for someone who is trans in some way, hence the part where he suggests moving to a bigger city, that you would find more people like yourself. I did leave it ambiguous though, but that’s the theme that’s interlaced with the story. He knows how hard it was for you growing up, and having been there the whole time and being your favorite listener, he knows you best. He wants you to flourish and knows you’ve been hindered by your childhood.

As a child, he knew there wasn’t much he could do to keep you safe from adults, their words like the worst paper cut to skin. Especially from a so called “loved one” who was supposed to have been someone who rallied behind you, not join the opposing party. Leon intends to make good on his word and keep his promise, if you’ll let him.

He wants to save you from that god forsaken town, leave it all behind and start anew. He never wants you away from his side for long, but he also knows just how scared you are, how terrifying change can be to someone, having to go through it when he lost his parents at such a young age. You, on the other hand, also know that if you agree to leave, finding yourself in a new place, the independence you had gained would vanish. No familiar buildings or signs nor faces, regardless of how rude they could be. You having to depend on someone once more, no matter how much they mean to you, has you digging your nails into your palms enough to draw blood, a scream bubbling up inside.

Leon would never push you into something that you’re not completely behind, so he’ll let you make your decision on your own. He knows you need time to mull it over, let you have your time with your thoughts. Though, he feels unsettled by the feeling that’s stirring in his gut, for the one answer he dreads to hear.

I do have it to where there’s two ways this can end. I won’t go much into detail here for the fact that I have much planned for it, but this really did inspire me to pick this story back up.

Thank you, Em, for wanting to hear my rambling and wanting an analysis on my work, we both share in the brain rot that is Leon Kennedy 🧡🤝🤍

[dr-docktor]

Hey! I’ve been lurking and admiring the Floppy Disk Curt au for a while and my current meager offering is song recommendations related to it (art is on the way. Eventually. I think)

Abington’s Arcade by Teddy Hyde—specifically just because of the chorus, “Memory, see the light, let me feel alive” and. Like. Just the general vibe of trying to go back to the past through technology and lingering in your memories (both on the side of Owen and Curt!! Curt’s trying to piece together his memories and Owen’s too attached to his memories of Curt to delete DC. Wow i love doing analysis of AUs mid-ask)

Pieces by the Mechanisms—okay i feel like this one might be a stretch, but this story tells a Mechs-ified version of Set and Osiris from Egyptian mythology. In this version, Set kills Osiris like usual, but instead of Isis collecting Osiris’s body parts and trying to reanimate him that way, she uploads what’s left of his consciousness. Since it’s a story song, it has a lot of details that don’t fit, but there’s also a lot of particular lines that DO fit. Owen could be read as both Set in the beginning when he kills Curt (“ain’t in my nature to live and let live; I cut him down, cut him up, dead and gone”) and Isis at the end when he downloads DC and keeps him (“I change, but you stay the same”).

Propaganda by Crusher-P is very “DC attempting to find his memories over and over again while being in fear of Chimera finding him out,” but it gets points for also fitting some general SAF themes. I feel like this song could even apply to a sympathetic canon Owen reading. But yeah it’s very DC with his passion project of finding himself (“Keeping to myself almost felt like a disguise,” “I can’t remember how it happened, or why it did; developing an obsession to open closed doors, gave me a compulsive need to find out even more”). It also has a line or two for our lovely tormented Owen after keeping DC (“Why did i pick up the phone? When it was easier, I should’ve stayed oblivious!”)

This was much longer than I meant for it to be (and it’s only three songs! Oh dear!) but here we are :D I love the ideas put forward in the DC AU, it’s like a Rubix cube for my brain

HELLO HI!! OHHH I LOVE THESE SONGS. I am rotating all of these in my head now 24/7

I wish I had something smart to add but I just love this so much. I’m glad you enjoy the au!! :-D

[amethystina]

I was tagged by @a-very-fond-farewell! Thank you so much darling 💜

1. Last song: Shishen Take On the Challenge from The Yin-Yang Master: Dream of Eternity soundtrack (which I paid a small fortune to get my hands on so you bet I've been listening to it almost non-stop ever since. The music is SO FUCKING GOOD OKAY)

2. Favorite color: Purple — which I feel should come as a surprise to no one xD

3. Currently watching: The Killing Vote, because I apparently need more dramas where the Korean public is allowed to vote on whether or not to execute people. Quite enjoying it so far! The characters are a hoot xD And I'm curious to see what they do with the Kwon Seok Joo dude.

I also just started The Guest because I want to watch it before they remove it from Netflix but BOI. That's not one I'll be able to binge, that's for sure. Horror is great but also, well, terrifying x'D

Though, I must say, I might have to take a detour and rewatch the Along With the Gods movies. I've been meaning to do so for ages and seeing Kim Dong Wook in The Guest makes the urge even stronger. Because, let me tell you, I'm SO EAGER to rewatch the movies and observe the characters now that I've seen the twist at the end of the second movie. A twist I figured out before I actually reached the reveal, sure, but I don't think that's a bad thing? Like, for real, guys. The AUDIBLE GASP I let out when I realised what the twist was going to be and then got to sit there and see it slowly dawn on the other characters? BEAUTIFUL. And it CHANGES SO MUCH. Like, I need to rewatch them because so much of what I thought I knew is now a lie! Circumstances have changed! My initial analysis might be wrong! Characters I thought I knew are now completely different! I need to do more research! I NEED TO KNOW.

(This is what happens when your brain works like mine. And one day I might tell you all about why Kang Yo Han is such a fascinating character to me, because, let me tell you, I've rarely seen a character remain so solid in his characterisation even through the kind of reveals we're given in the drama. It's fucking SPECTACULAR)

4. Currently reading: Faust by Johann Wolfgang von Goethe (I do it in bursts because it's not the kind of book I can just binge, okay? x'D), We Have Always Lived In the Castle by Shirley Jackson (I would have finished this LONG ago if it didn't give me so much anxiety (but in a good way?)) and Eld by Mats Strandberg and Sara Bergman Elfgren (though I should probably start over on this one since I was very distracted when I read the first chapter)

5. Last movie: No Regret, because why not dabble in older Korean LGBTQ+ content? It was a ride, that's for sure xD And the next movie will be The World to Come (also one I want to watch before it's removed from Netflix)

6. Sweet/spicy/savory: Either sweet or savoury — it depends on my mood, really.

7. Relationship status: Married! :D

8. Current obsession: I'm not sure if I have one right now? Though I am hoping to get back on track with that diorama thing soon. I've almost collected all the materials I need! I just need fake foliage (preferably red) and I'm going to try and buy that either tomorrow or on Saturday.

9. Last thing you googled? Why my phone kept taking only green photos. And everyone kept telling me I shouldn't have unlocked the bootloader (which I don't think can be done by accident and I sure as hell haven't done it intentionally) so in the end I just restarted it and now it works just fine xD

10. Selfie: I don't really take selfies but here's a cropped version of a drawing WIP of mine.

If you know, you know ;)

(... LOOK, the suspender-pulling had to happen eventually, okay?)

11. Currently working on: Chapter 5 of A New Dawn (Begins With Us) and, after that, it'll be either chapter 37 of Who Holds the Devil or maybe the sequel to Gravitational Pull which I'm STILL struggling to find the time to work on. I'm also working on, like, six different drawings simultaneously. Because why make things easy for myself?

Tagging: Whoever wants to do it! Tell me about yourself! :D

[averageclawcodeenjoyer]

Alright so as far as introductions go, I guess I should probably make one before I get too far into this.

HERES MY ABOUT ME POST!

My name's Leonardo, and you can call me any version of that that you want (Leo, Leon, Leonard, Nardo[my favorite], either way, it's all the same to me.) My pronouns are He/Him. I am an artist, author, animator, and a DEDICATED CLAWCODE ENTHUSIST (Hence the name)

I am also VERY autistic and don't get tone a lot, so tone tags are very important to me, especially when there's joking or sarcasm involved.

Ahem.

I know the Spiderverse Fandom isn't particularly alive (SCREAMING CRYING THROWING UP) but I will try to post often, even if it's just a shitpost here and there. I really want to help feed into the ClawCode brain rot since the content for these two is SEVERELY FUCKING LACKING. So. If you have requests for things, I will probably end up doing them! My asks are always open, and I'd love to hear from anybody. I don't have any friends that love them the way that I do 😔😔

I have not had Tumblr before! Which is a little insane, so I'm new to all of this and learning how everything works. Please forgive me if I don't know the proper etiquette on this app lmao. My friend has been guiding me through all of this and told me to make an About Me post, so that's what I'm doing.

Here are some tags that will frequent my posts!

Yapping Hour - Will either be used for headcanons, or short stories/ideas/other ClawCode related crap. It's just going to be a general tag that will probably go on most of my posts from here on out.

Slur Gallery - Will be of the art I post of them, be it ship art or other :3 because everybody deserves a gallery of slurs to look at. AND JUST LOOK AT THEM!

Earworm - Is the tag I'll use when there's music involved, like songs that remind me of them (and the heavy analysis that goes with it **COMING SOON**), or animatics that I'm working on, or just anything that has to do with a song. Edits, artworks, the whole shebang.

Talkaholic - This will ALSO be used for mini stories/facfics, but more often than the yapping hour. So if you wanna read my writing of them that's what you can find it under.

Offline - will be under posts like these, where it isn't directly related to anything, just random blocks of text or other art that I feel like posting.

Oil And Water - THIS tag will be about the fanfic I am currently (excruciatingly slowly) writing! It doesn't have a happy ending and is meant to be a HEAVY angst story, like hurt/no comfort or very little comfort. I have one chapter out currently but will be working on more soon (and will make a separate post about it! But I will link it here as well. MOTIVATE ME TO WRITE IT /HJ)

Prowler Party - Is what I'll put on ALL of my posts as an extra way to help find me if one so desires d=(^o^)=b

OOC - On the chance that I might make something intentionally out of character, I will put this beneath it. I know a lot of people don't like mischaracterization, or incorrect portrayal of a character, but sometimes it's really fun to write, so I will be including that was well.

I think that's all that I can think of right now (I'm running off of an hour and 40 minutes sleep), but things may change or be edited in the future. But for now, I'll be signing off.

Shipwrecked - THIS WILL BE ABOUT MY SELKIE/SIREN AU BECAUSE IM ACTUALLY NOT OKAY ABOUT IT AND NEED TO SHARE MY INSANITY

HELLO AND THANK YOU TO THE WARM WELCOME I'VE RECIEVED!!

MORE COMIGN SOON

[iguessitsjustme]

Hi Rae!!!

I hope you're doing very well! My question is, what do you think about music in Unknown?? Because honestly every time the stripped down piano version of the opening song pops up I am FEELING THINGS. So I wondered what's your take on that.

Helloooooo

I've been...okay I guess. Work is currently using up all of my brain power which is why I have made multiple bad decisions this week (don't ask) and also why I haven't posted much about Unknown. I come home from work every day, sit on my couch, and stare at my wall while thinking "wow what a day" for the past...month? So most of my thoughts about shows have been "what a cute little show I'm watching." And Unknown needs more thought than what I've been able to give. At least for me. Plus everyone else was already writing such fantastic meta that I was just eating it up like I've been starving.

So while I definitely noticed the music in Unknown, my thoughts have been "hnnnnng good music." Buuuut since you asked I did actually turn my brain on for a bit and try to sort out my thoughts on the music. At least a little bit. This is going to be very bare bones (for now) mostly because I do not currently have the time to go back and rewatch some scenes to do any sort of proper analysis on anything. I'm also going to try to avoid spoilers.

I would be remiss if I didn't at least say how much I love the theme song. Something about me that might surprise some people is that I normally listen to the opening song once and then skip it the rest of the time because I'm eager to get into the show (and tbh most of the time I don't like the theme songs that much) but I never once skipped Unknown's opening. It perfectly encapsulates the whole show. I feel every emotion from the show in the opening itself. I cannot explain further I just love it.

This show's soundtrack is one of my absolute favorites. I always say that the goal of a soundtrack is to help set the tone for the show and this soundtrack blends seamlessly with the other show elements for the biggest emotional payoffs. Not only are all of the songs extremely good, but they are used extremely well.

I think the most brilliant part of the auditory choices in Unknown is actually the use of silence. It is used very well and makes the music choices have that much more punch when watching. Part of the reason the music makes you feel so many things when watching is because it is such a stark contrast to the silence that proceeds it. The silence sets up your emotions for the music to swoop in and basically gut punch you (sometimes. sometimes it's a loving caress. but most of the time in this show it's a gut punch but in the best way).

Soooo I don't really have a take specifically on the piano version of the opening, but those are my general Unknown music thoughts. I will consider doing a whole music analysis if anyone wants one and also work stops stealing my brain.

[puffyducks]

DCRC Week #7

All right you guys buckle the fuck up cause it's time for absolute peak. Yeah that's right I'm talkin PKNA #4: Earthquake bitch!!! Which also happens to be the EXACT VOLUME THEY STOPPED PRINTING IN ENGLISH FOR, come on man we were so close 😭

(Long and image-heavy post heehoo)

Giant money symbol on the floor..... I wonder who this oil rig belongs to

Donald stop doing some kind of ritualistic sacrifice with your little cookie men and drink ur fuckin coffee. Also Unooo hiiii :3c

A tectonic emergency has occurred on the west coast and these two bitches are busy arguing like an old married couple GET IT TOGETHER!!!!

Raw asf introduction panel for Flagstarr

Do you guys think Everett Ducklair paid his taxes

Most logical you say? I'm sure that's not a trait that will come up later-

BRO IS JUST BAILING 😭

Lmfaooo I love framing Angus Fangus for federal crimes get rekt bozo (also really good looking panels hii Flagstarr hiiiii)

Donald being held at gunpoint like a week after the whole nuclear blast thing, he really can't catch a break can he?

Btw I am CHEWING on the colors in these pages. Who knew purple and green gradients could be so menacing?

Looove the background of this page being made up of the X-transformer.... mwah 👌

sorry

(Spam don't read this part) OK listen I know that losing the west coast is bad and all, but also like, do we really need California? I'm just saying like-

PK: "IF WE DON'T STOP THOSE EARTHQUAKE MACHINES IT'S GONNA UNEARTH A SUPERCONTINENT AND MILLIONS OF PEOPLE WILL DIE" Uno: "Uuuuh idk that actually sounds kinda dope haha. Like a new continent sounds sick as fuck. Maybe we should just let the entire western US die idk lol"

THEY'RE GETTING DIVOOOOORCED 💔💔💔

btw guys I'm getting a playlist set up for this issue send me song recs

let go of him PK

I mean WOAH who said that that's crazy. heroes don't kill people umm do the right thing... also we need him for the code I guess that's important too-

I was explaining the plot of this comic to a friend (one who knows literally nothing about the duckverse) and she was like "oh Fairfax's motivations sound exactly like Team Magma from Pokemon Ruby" and like... yeah... I GUESS

It doesn't help that his design lowkey looks like Maxie in ORAS- like if you squint really hard-

I don't have any riveting commentary here I just adore the entire way this page is set up

Raw asf line coming from Donald Fauntleroy Duck

Yeah it really DIDN'T work out. You're telling me he wanted to keep the keys apart and his master plan was to give the second key to the only other person on the plane with him? Just huck it in the ocean or something cmon Fairfax use that big brain of yours-

I said before in my last post but I just love this issue. I'm sure someone better at literary analysis could explain better than me, but the artwork, the COLORS, the story is all just sooo good and I'm putting it all in my MOUTH. I especially love the messaging between doing what's logical and doing what's right, cause at the end of the day morality is a subjective human trait, and who's to say that killing millions of people for the potential benefit of billions isn't a noble thing to do? Also a rare Uno L in this issue but he's LEARNING okay. He's just a little guy he's just a little hyperintelligent sentient building ok.... leaf him alone........

Btw in case you haven't noticed by now this issue also happens to be what the blog description of @duckblr-book-club is based on and no I'm not the one that wrote that. It is true though, the Pangea Project will be real in 24 hours if certain people don't catch up on reading these comics. SEE YOU NEXT WEEK FOR ODIN TIME!!!!!!

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"Summer Of '87" [Chapter 6]

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Chapter 5

Chapter 7

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That night during the show, you stood backstage just watching them all at work. Naturally most of the time you couldn’t take your eyes off of Eddie, but every so often you’d glance over at the others, especially Gareth. The exchange you all had earlier was burned into your brain, and you were dreading the moment they got off stage.

Maybe you shouldn’t say anything; it’s not really any of your business, right? But yet you still felt….you didn’t know, responsible somehow. Not that it would’ve been in any way possible, obviously. So why did you feel the need to take it upon yourself to “fix”it? Obviously the other guys had no problem with Gareth’s….feelings, so it wasn’t like he was unsafe. 

You had just talked yourself into staying out of it when you were knocked from your thoughts by both Jeff and Quentin. The show had ended without you even noticing. 

“Eddie’s gonna be over here any second man,” Jeff nudged Quentin as he nodded back towards where Eddie was gathering his equipment and Gareth was grabbing his gear.

“We know you got the gist earlier, but I-- WE, think--” Q gestured between the two of them. “You should maybe talk to Gar.”

“We’re not the greatest at the whole feelings thing,” Jeff concluded. 

“Yeah the only reason we know anything is because one night Gar decided to go into detail how he wanted to--”

“Express, how attractive Eddie is,” Jeff gave Q a warning look.

“Right,” Q nodded sheepishly, knowing he was oversharing. “But um, anyway we know how hard it must be for him, but we really don’t wanna talk about it,” 

“NOT that we have a problem with it,” Jeff quickly added. 

“Oh yeah, not at all,” Q agreed. “No, we’re just not good with the…feelings stuff. In general,” 

“Could’ve fooled me,” You rolled your eyes. “Are you sure that’s a good idea, though? I mean, I’m not really sure I’m Gareth’s favorite person to talk about anything with, let alone…this,” 

“But he asked you to come because you make Eddie happy, calm,”  Jeff explained.

“In a way he wants to but can’t,” Q added.

“EXACTLY!” You tried not to scream. “Why would he want to talk about…that, with me? The person he wants to--” 

“Hey there,” Eddie suddenly came up behind you and wrapped his arms around your waist. “What are we doing?” 

“I was just um--” you looked at the two of them. “Telling the guys what a great job they did,” 

“Jeff was off in ‘Blood Sacrifice,” Eddie shrugged. 

“Hey!” Jeff cried defensively. “Was not,” 

“Why all the hostility, bros?” Gareth walked up on the conversation. “We kicked ass!” 

“Uh, why don’t you come tell me about how I fucked up that song, Edds?” Jeff was suddenly tugging on Eddie’s shirt. 

“What?” Eddie asked suspiciously as you casually removed his hands from your waist. “What’s happening right now?” 

“Nothing babe,” you assured him as both Jeff and Q started walking with him. 

“Yeah, clearly,” Eddie rolled his eyes but followed his friends, mildly worried about the scheme they were pulling. 

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“Oh no,” Gareth immediately picked up on what you were doing. “Look Y/N, I don’t need your girlie psycho analysis on my ‘feelings’, okay?” 

“Alright,” you said in an offended tone. “Look I’m not trying to overstep or anything, but Jeff and Quentin asked me--”

“Well who asked them?!” Gareth suddenly got defensive. “I don’t need to ‘talk’ anything out, okay? I’ve been doing pretty okay just bottling it in,” 

“Gareth come on,” You crossed your arms. “Did you or did you not ask me to come on this thing to help?”

“To help EDDIE, not ME,” he spat as he started walking away, but you were quick to follow him. 

“Well, too bad.” you said matter of fact. “‘I’m here to help in general,”

“And what exactly do you think you’re going to help, huh?” Gareth stopped and looked at you coldly. “You think if I-- what, ‘confess’ my feelings for Eddie that it’s somehow going to make everything better? That it won’t just make things hella awkward for EVERYONE? You two obviously have something, even if I say something it’s not like we’re going to ever-- be, something,” 

“I-I guess,” you said quietly. 

“Look, I don’t know what Jeff and Q were hoping to accomplish by asking you to ‘help’, but I don’t need it. You being here, doing what i asked, is help enough. Loving someone is putting their needs above your own. Wanting them to be happy and safe, no matter what.” 

“...What’s that supposed to mean?” You asked, feeling like that little spiel was directed at you. 

“It means you better have the best intentions with Eddie, and continue to have them. Because he’s been through a lot more than you could even begin to imagine, and if asking you to come with us ends up making him more miserable than I’ll never forgive you OR myself,” 

“Gareth,” you said softly as you got closer to the other guys. “I swear to you, if nothing else, I would NEVER hurt Eddie. Not intentionally,” 

“What’s THAT supposed to mean?” he said even more agressively.

“I mean-- I don’t know!” you sighed. “I can’t control the future, stuff happens.”

“Right,” he rolled his eyes. “Well--”

“Are you two done hashing it out?” Eddie suddenly interrupted you. “Jeff and Q said that’s what you were doing,”

“Uh-- yeah, yeah I think so,” you nodded nervously as you glanced at Gareth.

“Yeah man, we’re cool.” 

“Good,” he smiled as he pressed his lips to your forehead. “Cuz Gar, Y/N is gonna be around for the foreseeable future,” 

“Oh I figured,” he rolled his eyes as you all walked towards the back of the venue and back to the bus. 

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“Next stop, HOME!!!!” Jeff yelled excitedly as you piled onto the tour bus. 

“Oh God,” you gulped nervously. Things were about to get real, real quick.

“Oh that’s right,” Eddie saw the face you made. “Are you ready for this?” 

“I just…” you sighed as you sat on a couch in the back. “I don’t know how to approach it. Do I let you guys have your reunion and catch up for a while, and then drop in? Should we-- should we do it together?”

“Well,” he took your hands. “Do you WANT to do it together?” 

You didn’t want to admit you wanted Eddie to hold your hand to meet your little brother. After all, you didn’t even know they knew each other a few days ago, and you had planned this for months. You didn’t need him there, but you definitely wanted him to be. 

“It’s whatever you wanna do, Edds.” you played with his rings. “Dustin is really your little brother in every way that matters. Whatever you think is best for the both of you is good enough for me.” 

  “Well, that’s very sweet of you to say,” Eddie smiled as he took your hands. “But he’s ACTUALLY your brother. And yeah, I’d like to have time with him, but I know you don’t want to be there longer than you have to. So--”

“Oh no,” you stopped him. “Please don’t feel rushed, Eddie. I planned to stay in Hawkins all summer with some friends, so there’s no pressure. And it’s really not your job to hold my hand, meeting Dustin was my decision, before even knowing you. So he doesn’t even need to know we know each other. It might make things weirder, to be honest.” 

“You wanna pretend we’re strangers?” he asked in a rather hurt tone. 

“I don’t WANT to,” you shook your head while rubbing the back of his hands with your thumb. “I just--- I want to do what’s best for all of us. And introducing myself as his big sister and his best friends--” you stopped yourself, knowing you both agreed not to go there yet.

“...Friend,” you blushed. 

“Close, friend,” he winked while gripping your hands together. 

“Right,” you bit your lip. “Whatever we are, I don’t want him to feel betrayed or something,” 

“I mean, to be fair we met completely innocently, before I knew you were his sister,” he pointed out. 

“Yeah, I know.” you looked down. “That doesn’t mean he’ll see it any better,” 

“Well, not to toot my own horn,” he chuckled. “But maybe having my seal of approval will help with his opinion of you,”

“Oh lord,” you rolled your eyes with a smile. “I’m sure,” 

“Hey I’m just saying!” he laughed. 

“Well we don’t have to decide anything right this second,” you sighed once more as you looked out the window at the passing cars. 

“True,” He got up and took your hand.

“We should get some rest,” 

“...But JUST rest, mister,” you gave him a look as you let him lead you to the bunks.

“Scout’s honor,” he crossed his heart.

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You both slept until morning, when the bus coming to an abrupt stop woke you both up. 

“I think we’re here,” Eddie yawned. 

“Oh yeah?” You chuckled sleepily. “What was your first clue?” 

“Well, I--” Eddie started to answer, but was cut off by pounding on the windows all around the bus.

“HEYYYYY MUNSON!!!!!!” you could hear a teenage boy’s voice and other kids yelling happily.

“Shit…” Eddie muttered as he went to one window. “It’s your brother,” 

“SHIT!” You screeched accidentally, taken off guard. 

All of Eddie’s friends jumped back from the bus at the sound of your shrill squawking.

“Nice,” he chuckled as he walked towards the front of the bus. 

“Henderson!!” The other band members greeted Dustin and some other boys. You recognized them as the other members of Hellfire. They were all wearing “Corroded Coffin” t-shirts.

“Just stay calm,” Eddie said to you softly as he exited the bus with you.

“Eddie!!!” Dustin didn’t hesitate to jump into his best friend’s arms, hugging him so tightly Eddie had to gasp for breath. 

“Hey there Henderson,” he smiled, then greeted the other boys. There were also seven other members of the welcome wagon, ones you didn’t recognize.

Four of them seemed to be your age, and three Dustin’s ages. You wanted to ask, but stayed quiet until Eddie decided how he was going to introduce you.

“Who’s the girl?” one of the older men asked. You quickly identified him as Steve Harrington, the only one you’d recognize seeing as you lived blocks from each other.

“Wow, thanks Harrington,” you rolled your eyes, forgetting to be discreet. 

His eyes widened at your familarness before it dawned on him. 

“Y/N?” He asked a bit in astonishment. “...How do you know Eddie?” 

“Y/N?” Nancy scrunched her nose. “You mean that girl who would constantly bother you when I came over?”

Okay, so maybe you left out that you had a huge crush on Steve Harrington as a kid, even though he was two years younger than you. How could you not? Although you did know him before he became “The Hair”, and transferred schools. It was no wonder you’d ‘bother’ him when he was home. 

“Did you now?” Eddie gave you an amused look. “Had a thing for ‘the hair’ Harrington?” 

“No!” you turned pink as you denied it, instinctively hugging yourself protectively. 

“You um,” Steve laughed nervously while you swore you saw him turning red himself. “You grew up nice,” 

“HEY,” Eddie raised his voice a bit as he stood protectively in front of you. “You had your chance Harrington,” 

“Eddie!” you hissed. “Down boy,” 

“So Steve’s old neighbor is your girlfriend now? How’d that happen?” One of the younger boys asked. 

“I’m not his--” You started to shut that down, but Eddie spoke over you. 

“She’s just a friend, Lucas,” he assured him. “She needed a ride home from Chicago, that’s all,”

“Kinda protective over a ‘friend’,” one you knew as Mike Wheeler snickered. 

“Well any friend of Eddie’s is a friend of mine,” Dustin grinned, welcoming you with no hesitation. He was so sweet, you just wanted to hug the crap out of him. 

“Well, this was great and all but I think we need a minute to-- settle, y’know?” Eddie suggested.

“Sure, sure.” Dustin nodded.

“Is Y/N going to see her parents or is she shacking up with you?” Steve smirked. 

“Steve!!” The other older girl smacked him. “Ignore him, he’s a dingus.”

“Am not, Robin!” he crossed his arms.

“I am not ‘shacking up’ with ANYONE Harrington,” you crossed your arms. “I’m staying with some friends. And do NOT tell my parents you saw me,” 

“Well that I can do,” Seve sighed.

“His parents disowned him,” Robin said with an amused smile. 

“They did not ‘disown’ me!” Steve said defensively. “They just…cut me off, until I agree to go back to school,” 

“Go back to school?” you couldn’t help but giggle. “DId you drop out?”

“No!” he shook his head angrily. “But you try balancing school and defeating huge spider monsters--”

Suddenly Nancy was elbowing him in the ribs, HARD while the rest of them shot him a glare. 

“I mean, um--” 

“I told her,” Eddie rescued Steve from being the blabbermouth, causing even more glares and gasps from everyone. 

“Told her what, exactly?” Robin asked.

“All of it,” Eddie said plainly.

“EDDIE!” Nancy cried. “Are you nuts?! Why would you--?”

“I knew,” you jumped in before Eddie could say anything else. You were definitely NOT ready for him to disclose your lineage yet. 

“You knew?” a ginger haired girl raised an eyebrow. “How did you know?” 

“I was at the mall July 4th weekend,” you lied. From what Eddie knew and told you, that seemed the most plausible. 

“Y-You were?” the girl asked with a shaky voice. “You saw Billy?” 

“You mean the dickbag lifeguard?” you half laughed, remembering how you actually were home that summer and remembered how all the housewives drooled over him at the pool. He had hit on you a few times but you shut him down quickly. 

“That dickbag was my brother, you--” She made a lunge for you, but Lucas held her back.

“Max!!!” He said as he held her shoulders.

“I’m-- I’m sorry, I didn’t know--” You suddenly became very anxious. Eddie had left that part out, and now you had dug yourself a hole. 

“That’s um, that’s my bad,” Eddie coughed uncomfortably. “Sorry Red, I didn’t realize. I’ve only seen you at the trailer park, without a brother--” 

“We had to move to the trailer park when Bily died,” Max explained sadly. “Billy’s dad left us, and my mom had to get another job, we couldn’t afford the mortgage--” 

She was cut off by her own tears beginning to spill, making you and Eddie both feel awful. 

“Um on that note,” Lucas held her while she cried. “Maybe we should get going,” 

“Yeah, um-- I’m sorry again,” you looked down.

“But hold on, we need to discuss her being ‘brought in’ by Eddie.” Nancy the know it all jumped back in. “Which by the way, he had no authority to do--” 

“Alright Nance, let’s just calm down--” The fourth older boy put his arms around her. “We’ll just deal with it later,” 

“As long as she knows how to keep her mouth shut,” Max now added snidely, wiping her nose.

Welp, this was going way worse than you had hoped. There was no way you’d be telling them your relation to Dustin any time soon. 

“I’m not gonna say anything,” you said rather defensively, causing Eddie now to place his hands on your shoulders. 

“Who would I even say anything to?!” 

“Okay okay,” Dustin stepped in, always the diplomat. “Let’s all take a breather, yeah?”

“Agreed,” Mike nodded as he held the last girl’s hand. “El’s been through enough this year,” 

Well at least you knew everybody’s names now.

“We’ll let you guys unpack and breathe, maybe we can all have dinner later?” Dustin suggested, wanting everyone to get along. 

“Sounds great Dusty Buns,” Eddie chuckled as he ruffled Dustin’s hair. 

The others made begrudging noises of agreement as they all dispersed, leaving you Eddie and Dustin who lagged behind. 

“I’m sorry about them,” Dustin gave you a sympathetic smile. “They’re just a little high strung,” 

“I couldn’t tell,” you smiled in appreciation. “Dustin, I um-- there’s something I want to tell you--”

“Heads up!” Gareth called as he tossed luggage from the carrier under the bus. Luckily during all of the ‘discussion’ they had been distracted unloading things.

“Ooof!” You grunted as your bag hit your torso, causing Eddie to rage.

“Hey! Watch your aim, Gar!” he yelled angrily, rubbing your stomach. 

“You okay?” he asked you gingerly. 

“Yeah, thanks,” you smiled sweetly.

“I get it,” Dustin chimed in, knocking you from your love gaze. “You two are more than friends,”

“No!” you waved your arms while Eddie made a hurt pout. “I mean, not-- not really. Not yet,” 

“Not yet?” Dustin’s eyebrows furrowed. “What’s stopping you?”

“We um--” you bit your lip as you looked nervously at Eddie. 

If there was any time to explain all of this, it would be now before getting back together with the group, right? You really didn’t want to betray Dustin’s trust after all of his kind behavior and welcoming attitude. Surely he could handle this now, right?

“Well, I-- I didn’t come back to Hawkins for the summer, or just the summer,” You fidgeted with your nails as you spoke. 

“And not for Eddie either,” you added quickly. 

“So why did you come back?” Dustin asked quizzically.

“Well, I--” you glanced at Eddie one more time for confidence, and he held your hand in solidarity. 

“I came for you,” you said shakily. “You’re um-- well, I’m your sister,” 

You prayed to God in that moment he wouldn’t flip his shit.

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I was just doing my nightly routine of “sad emo depressed “you can’t fix a broken heart”🖤🥀” music so I can sleep like a new born baby

Me after my “sad emo depressed “you can’t fix a broken heart”🖤🥀” music

And then it occurred to me that these two songs are so insanely Y/N and Megumi coded I feel the need to explain it right now.

I just threw out the love of my dreams - weezer:

This is Y/Ns literal anthem idec. Sure to me when I just listen to the song I typically feel like it’s more about a breakup since it says “I just threw out the love of my dreams” and “want for him to stay” as in hes leaving bc they aren’t tgth anymore but flip it and reverse it and you get a whole new meaning, if you focus on different words. The first line imma focus on is “never before have I felt this way” well we know that for a fact Why Enn(Y/N I’ll do anything but call Y/N Y/N these days‼️)is literally emotionally constipated like she’s unable to work out why they feels the way they do because they’ve never felt that way before about anyone, esp someone they’re meant to hate. And let’s go back a little to the start of the song when it says “I’m so tall can’t get over me I’m so low can’t get under me” and “I must be made of steel” they also really represent Why Enn and again, they’ve been emotionally inept thus far, they’re a stubborn person and they stand their ground, people can’t move them yk? And then the “for I just threw out the love of my dreams” if we take this in a new light, look at it differently, Why Enn knows deep down they like megumi but they refuse to admit this fact and that’s leading to complications in their current relationship which could COULD ultimately wedge a gap between them. Also the “even though my love is a world a way” is kinda megumi coded bc Why Enn be so delusion I think they be living on planet zog Gaddamn🙏😭

I don’t smoke - Mitski

Again, the meaning of this song is absolutely not this, but idk music is music and I’d be damned if it wasn’t up for interpretation. Anyway this song is the EPITOME of megumi for many reasons, first the most obvious part of the song “if you need to be mean be mean to me” this is megumi coded bc he literally didn’t care WHAT Why Enn did to him so long as they acknowledged him, he also just wanted to help them the best he could. Another part of this song is “being with you makes the flame burn good” again, so megumi, bc as I already mentioned he would do anything at one point so long as they acknowledge him. Another line, tbh all of them show the same thing bc that’s kinda what the song is about “you can lean on my arm as you break my heart” again, being told by the “love of your life” (quotes bc at this point it wasn’t set in stone) to not play a joke on them is pretty painful but he still took it and literally bounced back yk like a king🙏🙏

Okay anyway i think this should be more of a message to me bc instead of putting this much analysis into a song why don’t i do this for my literature revision‼️‼️🤣🤣🤣🙁 sorry for the long ask I needed to get this out into the world (or onto smth just out of my head)

BAE BAE BAE BAE COLLAPSES TO MY KNEES AND HAS A HEART ATTACK OH MY GODDDD UR FUCKING MIND????? THE WAY THESE R SO ACCURATE ??? i adore u . i adore when people psychoanalyze and assign characters or situations songs i’m going to eat ur brain . i was hyped and nodding and agreeing the whole time i was reading this… thank u…

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Roches songs Donny analysis

Big Nuthin

I was on a TV show, that everybody said

Would change the course of my life that night by the time I went to bed

Tinkling glass and candlelight, your look of tenderness

I was full of cozy hope, sweet taste of success

Cozy hope describes Don so well. This verse makes me think about the ways he connects with the outside world as a scientist (I think he calls himself a scientist sometimes? I think he uses engineer more often? at least once he just said tech geek. huh, he refers to himself a lot. Anyway), both as a teen following Stockman's robotics and Finn's cryptid hunt, and later at O'Neil Technologies. Also as a ninja he has lots of opportunities for Big Moments.

Just this fond little daydream about 1) being useful 2) being noticed. accomplishing little tasks like making your car remote controlled to fill the void in the meantime

It was a big nuthin', ooh, big nuthin'

Turned out to be a big nuthin', nuthin'

btw you're a mutant turtle nobody knows you exist and they never will

You don't have to cross the street, when you see me comin'

Too much trouble, when you see me comin'

So the love we think is lost

Things that never happened, stranger

It was a big nuthin', ooh, big nuthin'

Exactly like a big nuthin', nuthin'

mm. unrequited crushes. normal teenage stuff (hurts)

anyway. Coping with one's own insignificance by taking a casual attitude about the insignificance of the entire universe. Also coping with the stress of big pressure moments (Triceratons caught you, your brain is on display, smile you're on camera the UN is watching) by calling it nothing (did I do all that? I always was an over-achiever)

Ooh, late last night we argued, when you weren't there

All of my disappointment screamed into the air

Just about to fall into the deep hole that I dug

Saw myself pretending with a shovel and a shrug

We argued when you weren't there--ohhh yeah that's Don. Listen. I think his total chill and forgiving nature is 100% real. I also think he is a teenager and deals with all kinda of insane situations (grieving Kirby is literally one of the tamer ones that comes to mind) and there is No Way he isn't screaming into his pillow or muttering under his breath about how annoying Leo was being an hour ago while he fiddles with the heating system. The 2003 turtles are especially codependent imo; I see Mikey and Raph doing a lot of the emotional expression for the whole group. What I mean is, when they're all frustrated and scared and Raph needs to get out and "blow off steam," he's kinda doing it for the group. Somebody's gotta scream about how unfair it is. Same thing with Mikey acting way more scared or expressing frustration with having to go on some missions. Anyways my brain is fuzz and I think this is probably a separate post. What was I talking about?

Oh yeah, Don and anger. He doesn't like feeling mad and has a hard time expressing it. I think he'd scream at his computer, maybe even throw his tools sometimes, when the frustration build up too much. Then when someone comes to see what's wrong he's like 'oh haha it was just taking a bit to load' and continue to not mention (insert whatever horrors he has most recently experienced or loudest thing Mikey has most recently done).

It was a big nuthin', big nuthin'

Wasn't it a big nuthin', nuthin'

You don't have to cross the street, when you see me comin'

Too much trouble, when you see me comin'

So the love we think is lost

Things that never happened, stranger

It was a big nuthin', ooh, big nuthin'

Kinda like a big nuthin', nuthin', yeah

It's all fine. It's all good. It was nothing. Splinter was alive after all. Honeycutt ended up being okay. Got the plutonium core out of that bomb, didn't turn out to be the end of the world. It was an alternate dimension. Your brothers are in the other room; that didn't happen here, it was an alternate dimension.

It's nothing.

[obb-z-scene]

RIProducer's "Pyrite Girl" reminds me of Rick!!

TW mental health and suicide discussion

NOT PROOFREAD IF SOMETHING DOESNT MAKE SENSE IM SORRY

Analysis below. I'm working from the end to the beginning because I said so.

This is the end..chorus? Christ I'm in choir I should know this. Anyways, something about this just screams his mental state. Not all of it, but a lot of it. It showcases how he's both a huge ass egoist and extremely self loathing. Him just knowing he's destroying himself and that he's going bonkers, but also fully deluding himself into thinking that he IS God and is untouchable when in reality he will break any moment now. It also ties into the irony of the title Pyrite girl, which is also known as "fools gold" due to being mistaken as gold for its colour. His "shield of gold" is really a fake protector.

Him putting up protective emotional walls so he does not get attatched again. Probably after Diane's death, and possibly also from being betrayed by Prime in their partnership/relationship? I'm unsure where their relation to eachother will actually lead canonically but I've read some interesting theory posts and it's got me convinced a lil bit so I'm adding this.

He oh so badly wants to be understood and comforted but he doesn't have anyone anymore because they all either left or betrayed him. (Let's push Squanchy and BP aside for the sake of convenience I'm tired) and this will soon turn into a need to hide the vulnerable parts of himself away.

Ricks response to Prime's betrayl, "you left me covered in gold" implying that Rick is the reason he is the way he is today. His anger is new but so is his grief, and it hits so very hard. ("don't you try me! Don't take it lightly!" And "I'm broken, yet somehow, still alive.")

"I've been pulverized for the past five thousand five hundred days." References his endless hunt for Prime. It's exhausting and killing him so badly, example "you shattered my mind one thousand times.", but he's counting every single day to torture himself because he can't keep failing his family. This can also be backed by how the AI in his old house taunts him so horribly, and he even fucked with the time in that dimension just so he could suffer and continue to look with a constant agonizing reminder.

This mainly just reminds me of all the enemies and allies he's made but there's also an actual point here. The people in his life that love him want to try and fix him in their own way. People like Birdperson and Morty. Probably even short term partners, not-seen-in-canon-friends, and probably Unity too when it broke things off. It realized it could not fix someone that wants to stay broken. And Rick does need support, he needs his big support system because he's been so lonely for so long. But without him putting the work in himself, not much can be done. I actually read a fanfiction where Unity had used some sort of mind control to make Rick pass out before he killed himself, and I think that was really smart but also sad. It knows it can't jeopardize it's own health to be around him, he is toxic and infectious like the plague. He seeps into every person around him to survive, but it sees the humanity in him.

In conclusion, the song can be seen as Ricks fall into...himself. or a fake self, someone he shouldn't have been. You can also just think all of this is bullshit and that's okay too. This song is really good and it's story is both a thinker and easy to place at the same time! I hope I made sense and that my tired almost-4-AM brain didn't make you want to retake kindergarten. Feel free to pm me or comment whether you just wanna tell me how your day was or you want to discuss this more. :)

-Ozzy

[mazzystar24]

If I really like a character they are getting a Taylor swift analysis I hope you all know that

That being said let’s talk about Buck’s Taylor swift songs not in order of relevance (warning it’s long but the brain rot is worth it)

1. You’re on your own kid- I don’t even need to overexplain how the lines apply:

“I wait patiently he’s gonna notice me it’s okay we’re the best of friends” - for the buddie fans🫡

“From sprinkler splashes to fire place ashes I waited ages to see you there”- what more do you want if this doesn’t make it apply to him

“Just to learn that you never cared,you’re on your own kid you always have been” - him about his parents

“I’ll run away”

“I gave my blood, sweat, and tears for this”

“I hosted parties and starved my body, like I'd be saved by a perfect kiss”- hello him trying to convince that being with Abby like “fixed him”

“I looked around in a blood soaked gown and I saw something they can’t take away”

And the whole bridge- if you’re unfamiliar “'Cause there were pages turned with the bridges burned,everything you lose is a step you take so make the friendship bracelets, take the moment and taste it, you’ve got no reason to be afraid”

2.The archer:

“I never grew up it’s getting so old”, I mean cmon this is literally just him in season 1 and the later seasons realising that and trying to change it but still being immature and reckless at times

“screaming who could ever leave me darling but who could stay”, the false bravado of confidence vs his very real insecurities of people always leaving him

“the room is on fire invisible smoke and all of my heroes die alone”, HELLO FIRE REFERENCE AND THE EPISODE WITH THE OLD FIREFIGHTER RED WHO DIED ALONE THEN MADDIE HAD TO TELL HIM THAT WONT BE HIM

“they see right through me, can you see right through me” “I see right through me”, HE LITERALLY SAID HIS PARENTS USED TO LOOK THROUGH HIM

“all the kings horses all the kingsmen couldn’t put me back together again”, his constant getting hurt thing,self destructiveness and recklessness

“who could stay? You could stay”, you can take this for the found family way or the buddie way do with that what you may

3. Mirrorball:

I’m not gonna write out lyrics cos this is just the anthem for people who never got enough attention so now will do anything for attention and that’s enough.

4. Antihero:

“I have this thing where I get older but just never wiser”

“I should not be left to my own devices,they come with prices and vices, I end up in crisis”

“I wake up screaming from dreaming one day I’ll watch as your leaving”

There is more songs but this post is soo long

[totally-correct-shenanigans]

musical ramblings #4

okay look i know i said i was doin' the brains but then shuffle put this on and i was like "oh." so !!

surface pressure ; jessica darrow (encanto)

i'll never shut up about the fact that these barely-20-somethings have what feels like the weight of the world on their shoulders-- or, in the case of clock-la, they might have genuinely had the weight of the world on their shoulders.

i will also never shut up about the cooper legacy and how much weight it puts on their shoulders independent of the whole fighting for their lives thing.

again, in-depth analysis/breakdown under the cut <3 this one's a little on the longer side, i think. and the choruses get typed out every time bc i didn't want to cut around them bc of the "give it to your sister" segments. so yeah.

this is also mostly murray & sly, but theres a fair amount of bentley in there too :3

i feel like this one is a lot of me taking canon and running with it but i am a very fast runner so i think it's okay. but um i hope it's okay if this one's a little more headcanon-y. i've tried to make clear what was My Brain and what was Actual Stuff thus far but i have many emotions about this song and i need to explain their complicated self-image ok. hopefully that's okay

also this might be LESS comprehensible than the last one but probably not less comprehensible than my little reason why. braincell is ping ponging around within me skull

update from midway through, this is very sly 2 focused i think. oops but like not really fdhsjkafhd

"I'm the strong one, I'm not nervous / I'm as tough as the crust of the Earth is"

yeah that's just murray in a nutshell. well post-sly 1 at least. just know that "i'm not nervous" is said in the absolute most nervous way possible, because murray absolutely is.

"I move mountains, I move churches / And I glow 'cause I know what my worth is"

the beginning of this song is very murray lol. he seems to be the one most confident in his strength & skills during 2 & 3, esp. during 2. but he is also the one to reassure bentley that they're equals during 3 which isn't entirely related but it does show that he does indeed know his worth. <3

"I don't ask how hard the work is / Got a rough, indestructible surface / Diamonds and platinum, I find 'em, I flatten 'em / I take what I'm handed, I break what's demanded, but"

more murraycore lol. i think this is pretty self-explanatory

(fun fact: murray has the most health of the cooper brothers, meaning comparatively to, say, bentley, he does in fact have a "rough, indestructible surface" <;3)

"Under the surface / I feel berserk as a tightrope walker in a three-ring circus"

okay now we fall out of the surface level "yeah that makes sense". i gotta say using the word Berserk there ... has me thinking of the Murray Tries To Kill You section w/ the agitators. to be FAIR i'm pretty sure tightrope walkers Don't Do That. but i've also never been to the circus, so.

anyway ! i feel like he's also the like. the Silliest, y'know? the naive one that's usually getting made fun of, i think. and he presents the most, he's not built for subtlety; he's very visible. which is also part of why this line is He. he probably feels like he's a circus act to be watched and laughed at, y'know?

"Under the surface / Was Hercules ever like 'yo, I don't wanna fight Cerberus'?"

note the missing green bc i feel like bentley feels much less Forced into his role. he likes being the smart guy !

now, that's not to say that murray and sly don't like their roles, because of course they do! but being the strong one was, as we see, not murray's first choice. and being the strong one means you do all the heavy lifting, and while murray likes that most of the time... i'm sure there are times where he'd rather have stayed just the getaway driver.

and then there's sly, who loves the whole thief thing and loves his role and wouldn't trade it for the world, but... he got shoved into this whole thing too, y'know? he loves being a thief, but i'm sure he would love it more if it had been his choice, if anybody had asked him before it was suddenly his everything.

"Under the surface / I'm pretty sure I'm worthless, if I can't be of service"

yet another cotton candy line. look i can go SO in-depth about sly and his self-esteem issues esp. during sly 3. there's an interaction during a cold alliance that is pretty much the entire formation for this head of canon ("Sure you won't need my help on the inside?" "I'm afraid this is a problem only technology can solve." "...Right. Well, have fun with your, uh, technology." "Don't wait up- this could go all night!")

and then there's murray, who thinks he's not "of service" and leaves because he doesn't want to hinder the team any more than he thinks he already does (see the sly 2.5 comic.) he doesn't just think he's worthless if he's not doing something, he thinks he's worse than that; if he's not helping, he's a hinderance. hell i'm pretty sure he thinks he's a hinderance even when he IS helping sometimes. (see: him blaming himself for the clock-la incident.)

"A flaw or a crack / The straw in the stack / That breaks the camel's back / What breaks the camel's back? It's- / Pressure like a drip, drip, drip that'll never stop, woah / Pressure that'll tip, tip, tip 'til you just go pop, woah"

admittedly this is mostly just vibes. but also they need a nap and a hug. i'm pretty sure that by the end of sly 3 and all the fighting and the tensities and the bigger team that they're all about 3 seconds away from snapping.

"Give it to your sister, your sister's older / Give her all the heavy things we can't shoulder"

yet another gender swap but again for the sake of lyrical clarity i'm not changing the pronouns. just Know that pretty much every she is actually a he. that's a good life motto in general actually /j

this is mostly just bc i am an oldest bentley truther lol. but also i think he does wind up with a lot of "heavy things [they] can't shoulder" because as the planner i think that's just how that goes. he knows his brothers' skillsets! if something needs done that the two of them can't do, it's bentley's job. (see: demolitions, rc, etc.)

"Who am I, if I can't run with the ball / If I fall to... / Pressure like a grip, grip, grip and it won't let go, woah"

okay this was originally combined with the next one but i needed a place to talk about sly and the generational trauma. like sly's entire LIFE is built around being a thief (hence the "who am i if i can't run with the ball"- if sly cooper isn't a master thief, who even is he?) and living up to his family's legacy, hence the pressure. and no matter what he does, he can't escape it (it won't let go, wink wink.)

now because sly 4 simply isn't real this'll probably be the only time i mention it in this breakdown but even when he isn't a thief he still can't escape the Cooper burden, and his whole bloodline is once more put into peril because of something he had nothing to do with.

...i think. i'm only like 1/4 of the way into sly 4 but i'm pretty sure it's the classic steven universe style my parent(s) did something to you but now they're dead so you're determined to take it out on me bc i'm their kid thing.

"Pressure like a tick, tick, tick, 'til it's ready to blow, woah / Give it to your sister, your sister's stronger / See if she can hang on a little longer / Who am I, if I can't carry it all? / If I falter..."

murray honey your self-esteem issues are showing again. this is more of that "if i'm not helping i'm hurting" mentality that he seems to have. and also more Strong One shenanigans !

also the "tick tick tick 'til it's ready to blow" is very the murray very much so has Some Rage Within There. most notable example of this is Opera of Fear when octavio pisses him off by harassing bentley and he beats the shit out of the poor opera lion man.

i'm realizing the way him and sly view themselves are very similar lol. however i think murray finds some peace in training with the guru and is able to fall back from this mindset a bit. but that's not related.

again, more Strong One. he's big and tough and therefore he should be the one handling these things. he's the Strong One and therefore he is handling these things and he is handling them fine, he says, like a liar. he is Not Fine.

"Under the surface / I hide my nerves, and it worsens / I worry something is gonna hurt us / Under the surface / The ship doesn't swerve as it heard how big the iceberg is"

bentley is very Worried in General, as we know. "hide [his] nerves" probably comes into play bc he's their voice of reason, and if the voice of reason is panicking then everything is terrible and they're all gonna die. HOWEVER if he's not panicking then he might accidentally make sly and murray think they're in less danger than they are (leading to them being a little more careless and only worsening his nerves.)

OKAYOKAYOKAY "the ship doesn't swerve as it heard how big the iceberg is" gives me very much so vibes of the one Ro.tTM.NT episode with the poison pizza puffs and the younger three are constantly like "rap.h'll bail us out :]" and rap.h is like "NO."

i think sly and murray do that to bentley a lot, esp. post jailbreak. it doesn't matter what kind of trouble they get into because bentley can bust them out ! which is why the metaphorical ship isn't swerving. it's kind of sweet the amount of trust they have for bentley however bentley would like to humbly request they stop showing him they trust him by throwing themselves into danger!

"Under the surface / I think about my purpose, can I somehow preserve this? / Line up the dominoes, a light wind blows / You try to stop it toppling but on and on it goes"

and the return of the cotton candy self-esteem issues again and still pretty much for the same reason. though i admit this line is mostly murraycore, hence why it's so much more pink than blue <3

murray's 'purpose' is to be the strong one, sly's is to be a thief. again they both think that they're "worthless if [they] can't be of service" but sly is a little different in the fact that his purpose rlly isn't going anywhere.

meanwhile murray after the clock-la incident is pretty sure he has lost his purpose! he thinks he failed at being the Strong One ("can i somehow preserve this?") and that dominoes (wink) into him spiraling over every tiny mistake he makes (as we see during the aforementioned sly 2.5 comic where he blames himself for every little thing) but all that really does is make him clam up and mess up more which. "you try to stop it toppling but on and on it goes," y'know?

"But wait, if I could shake / The crushing weight of expectations / Would that free some room up for joy? / Or simple pleasures"

sly is atlas and the cooper name is his globe, y'know?

"Instead we measure, this growing pressure / Keeps growing, keep going / 'Cause all we know is / Pressure like a drip, drip, drip that'll never stop, woah / Pressure that'll tip, tip, tip 'til you just go pop, woah"

again with the very sly 2 vibe i think. the whole Growing Pressure just reads as them learning about the klaww gang and their spice schemes and neyla and suddenly this isn't just about destroying the clockwerk parts it's about saving paris and i doubt neyla would have stopped with just paris and i'm sure the cooper brothers know that too

these colors are out of order (usually it would be green -> pink -> blue) because i wanted sly to have the "all we know is" ... despite the fact that it really matches all of them. they've never lived any other way, sly especially.

"Give it to your sister, it doesn't hurt and / See if she can handle every family burden / Watch as she buckles and bends, but never breaks / No mistakes, just"

again w the family thing like i said i will never shut up about it. 'cause sly's been dealing with the consequences of his family's (specifically his father's) actions this whole time and he's been succeeding, he destroyed clockwerk, he destroyed clock-la, he defeated dr. m, but he's still floundering under the pressure of living under legends.

even when he's Literally About to Die bc his dad didn't believe in minimum wage he's worried about how he compares to the Coopers before him ("Would he be proud? Or ashamed?") like bb harbor some resentment in there for the hell you've been put through.

"Pressure like a grip, grip, grip and it won't let go, woah / Pressure like a tick, tick, tick 'til it's ready to blow, woah"

debated switching sly and murray's lines for this ending segment but i think this works the best. again with the Rage That Will Explode and also his inescapable hell of being The Strong One.

"Give it to your sister and never wonder / If the same pressure would have pulled you under"

this is both about bentley being the jack of all trades when he needs to be and about him keeping the other two out of trouble. he's certain the other two would be 'pulled under' by the stress of more things to do, and he's certain they would be 'pulled under' and kept under if he wasn't there to bail them out.

"Who am I, if I don't have what it takes?"

guess what .. it's the generational trauma again <3 more about sly and his need to live up to his family line because as the line says who is he if he doesn't have what it takes!

"No cracks, no breaks / No mistakes, no pressure"

bentley's determined to not crack under the pressure because of his brothers, both to keep them out of trouble and to bail them out of the troubles they get into anyway. murray's determined to not break because he's The Strong One, and if he's not, then he's certain he'll be some kind of hinderance. and sly's determined to not make any mistakes so he can earn his cooper name and make his father proud.

this will definitely not wind up causing at least 3 breakdowns. (sarcasm)