#chat this song is going to send me SPIRALLING again /pos

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oh ffs im thinking too many thoughts about this song now okay hey chat thoughts time

"Whose Eye Is It Anyway???" by Jhariah Very coded in many ways, the way i like to see it is for my midas villain au, and if you know that you know its split into three different routes and the one this song like . embodies . is the idea of midas losing themself to the decay, it overtaking their mind and drastically changing their personalitly . also i think midas deserves to be angry so i let them be angry.

ok analysis time

My head is overflowing, with these thoughts That if I return the favor you might understand

Their mind is racing with the idea that they want revenge on Reo for what they did, how they treated them when handing over Quixis. They want to return the favour of tearing them from their home and forcing them into that position without explanation

But I know, I know you could never carry the burden You've left with me and I can't give it back So why even try?

they can't give quixis back to Reo, so why bother wasting their energy on thinking about it

I'm reeling from all of the pain I feel it making me insane

the decay seeping in, overtaking them, it goes for their eyes first and in this au i like to view the taking of their eyes as taking their soul, and taking a part of them too. so they can feel the decay eating away at both their eyes and their very soul itself

If it's an eye for an eye then we all go blind If it came to it would you cross that line?

talking to themself . asking themself where the line they're willing to draw is . and are they willing to cross it

With the taste of the blood on your tongue like wine And the weight of your crimes weighing on your mind

the worlds falling, people dying . the rotting part of them feels amusement, a sort of satifaction at the power. like fine wine. but the part of them that still remains is weighed down by their guilt

It's an eye for an eye and we all go blind again

in a way they are blind. blind to their own actions. blind to the fact that staying as quixis is no longer their own choice . blind to the person they used to be . also . eyes . the bleeding eyes . an eye for an eye and no one can see . the idea of midas not being able to see like normal without their eyes. the idea that while they cannot see through their face, connecting to their brain . they can see. they are forced to see, through quixis. they have a sort of all seeing presence to them and they can only see everything all at once .

An arm and a leg, my friend, les yeux d'la tete

"to cost the eyes of the head" a phrase that means something is very expenisve but i really like the literal meaning. you know, eye motifs .

I never give as much as I get

an attempt to convince themself that they are gaining more than they're losing

This path of heart attacks is paved with folks Who only gave their enemies what they had coming

this lyrics is so mmmmm i dont know how to put waht im thinking into words but its so like midas wanting revenge and the other veriosns of them being just as bad and the "heart attacks" bit is just silly cause everyones fucking dying something seomthing

I don't know if it's worth it

D O U B T . i give this au of midas so much doubt, denial and self loathing . and they re so <33 anyways them doubting whether or not everything they're doing is worth whatever they're trying to convince themself theyre getting out of staying as quixis. power, vengeance, entertainment . whatever they can convince themself of at that moment.

[cutting out the repeated lyrics cause .]

Is it a knife or a lie is it in your back

to icarus , about the wack , the glitching about all the sillies . thinking unlocked thoughts in specifics

Is it all I need? Is it all I have? Will it bring me the peace that I need so desperately?

gods theyre struggling so much . they DESPERATELY want to stop being in pain . just for a moment gods all they want is one moment without pain but they dont get that . because they made this choice and they cant even remember why AHHAHHHH IM SO NORMALLLLL

Will I see?

they CAN notably see. notably they have to see everything except themself . except their own actions . except what they're doing . except how theyve LOST THEMSELF

It's an eye for an eye and we all go blind again

they want to make everyone go blind at this point . they dont care . theyve lost the ability to care .

When you seek vengeance you must dig two graves

AHHHHHHHHH THIS LYRIC AKLFNAJWBDFJKABWKJA . OK SO THEY WANT VENGEANCE AGAINST THE POSITION OF QUIXIS ITSELF . THEY THINK ITS UNFAIR AND BULLSHIT AND IN ORDER TO DO ANYTHING ABOUT THE POSITION THEY HAVE TO DIE. WHATERVER THEIR REASONING IS (OR WHAT THEYVE CONVINCED THEMSELF IT IS) THEY END UP FUCKING DEAD .

[last verse is repeated lyrics]