#i need to sleep at normal people hours

[blue-jos10]

social media aus making me think of neil in politics (i know nothing of american politics)

[moeblob]

Moeblob: (tries to establish a fish theme. likes to be called salmon.) FEH: Broccoli alts only, no negotiations.

(this is for you Leo.... I'm sorry........... you don't deserve it)

[oathkeeper-of-tarth]

Also I quit my job of what would in about a month or two have been 10 years, and perhaps now I will get to actually be a human being again.

[popstart]

the moment people stop being comically against courtney is the day i stop making fun of them for being weird and wrong. stop being weird about a fictional character in ways that are hilariously stupid and ill stop calling you hilariously stupid

[orcelito]

Managed to do my little trip fine. Not my best driving, but I didn't wreck and didn't get close to wrecking, so it's fine in the end.

They sent me home with 3 pill packets for Tally, except I opened it up and two of them are EMPTY... so I'm gonna call them in the morning like "hey so uhhh about that". I'm out of town now tho so I'm gonna see if they can transfer it or at least refund it. Bc I spent $17 fucking dollars for these meds and it'd piss me off to spend that much for ONE pill. Gave Tally the one at least and she seems to be doing alright rn. It's just pain meds anyways, not gonna kill her if I don't get more of them, tho it does suck :(

For something tangentially related, I just remembered smth from today. So when doing anything with my cats, I'm used to being called their "mom" or whatever. Like when the vet is being friendly and talking to the cat, they're like "and now you can go home with mom!" Like that kinda thing. And I just let it be bc im stealth about my gender irl and I kinda just don't care to have that convo a million times over thru my life. But today the vet assistant did the same sort of talk to Tally but she called me her "parent" instead of mom. And idk I just think that was a nice little thing.

[iamthepulta]

When I actually schedule a weekend to be free, it's so jarring. I traveled 2k miles this week, ate chip in Milwaukee, slept on an airport bench, made minerals at 480 C, pulled copies of Babylonian tablets, submitted two abstracts, traveled another 4 hours to write a card, declined two overlapping events, and want to fucking die about social communication, and now you're telling me I... can sleep in?

[hotsugarbyglassanimals]

it's probably the sunnier weather that's doing stuff to my brain to make me more optimistic but it's so interesting having a brain that craves a lot of self-fulfillment to the point where I can move past some hang-ups around perfection by going "oh I really wanna do that though" and then I do it well because researching how to do it right is also a rewarding part of the process

[running-in-the-dark]

I've got a psychiatrist appointment tomorrow. mostly to discuss if the new sleep medication is working. it is.. not? I don't know. it sorta makes me stay asleep better but tbh that only really means it's even more impossible to wake up when I need to.

idk at this point I'm getting close to just saying you know what? thank you for trying to help, mr. nice old psychiatrist guy, but let's just give up! who needs sleep anyway (me, like 12-16 hours a day). I'm just not gonna do it anymore! that sounds more doable than ever figuring out how to sleep normally!!

[nobodybetterlookatme]

Here's your reminder to post an update!

Okay I'm finally alive enough and have the time to get into it lmao under the cut just bc it's not particularly exciting and I'm briefly summarizing

So I went to my ranch hand job yesterday bc there was literally nobody else working, was kinda overwhelmed bc there were way more visitors than I was expecting and I was trying to stay the hell away from other people, but I was getting through it. But then I saw the creep ass coworker pull up so I locked myself in the barn before he could see me and sent out a desperate sos to literally all of my other coworkers bc I panicked lmao. So two of the guys from my fire station and my medic partner ended up coming to rescue me, and another one of them called me while I was there alone, so we love to see that. So they all stuck around and helped out until that creepy mfer left, then we all got food and hung out outside, I got made fun of for like ninety minutes straight for being diseased 😔

One of them left once we decided to change locations, we went to some park nearby to loiter, hung out there for a couple hours on the swings bc we're children, another one of the guys left so then it was just me and my partner. I got talked into hanging out in the car with him for a bit bc it was cold as hell outside and I ended up falling asleep?? Like girl help 😭 but when I woke up we went to get drinks and snacks so that was cool. Got my car and went home a while after that tho bc I was tired and dying lmao. Not really anything interesting but it felt like so much and I was being a gross wreck the whole time lmao

[velarisdusk]

i took a break from kinktober writing to crochet a sweater (my first wearable project, im very excited) and i'm listening to the throne of glass audiobook while i do it (IT'S REALLY GOOD IM ANNOYED I DIDNT START ON THE SERIES SOONER??????)

BUT all this to say, i got the idea to - if this sweater goes well - make a velaris sweater :') with ramiel on it :') it's already a thing i know but ive wanted one since the first time i saw one on tiktok but i dont wanna buy clothes on tiktok bc im worried about wearing anything THAT cheap bc i have sensitive skin, and theyre WAY expensive on etsy, so i will make my own :D

[0509-brainrot]

dying over domestic 0509. like Actually Deceasing.

their jobs Suck and half the time one or both of them are Exhausted as Hell when they get home (but that won't stop Shidou from trying to ensure that mikoto never touches an energy drink Ever Again). They cuddle when they get home. Or just collapse.

They have a plant. Actually they have several. They're everywhere. They just keep buying them.

Shidou: "They mean x and it reminded me of you"

Mikoto: "They were really pretty and it reminded me of you"

Shidou knows all of their flower language meanings and Mikoto names all of them (they're written on popsicle sticks stuck in the soil because there's too many to remember) and is also very guilty of overwatering them sometimes. Or forgetting to water them. (But Shidou usually checks the soil so it's fine)

Mikoto gets Shidou into his hobbies. I think they'd enjoy photography a lot :))) Maybe nature photography especially

Shidou writes notes and reminders for Mikoto just in case he forgets to get/do something (I feel like Mikoto himself is/becomes pretty organized about writing stuff down actually, but just in case)

Physically affectionate Mikoto. Shidou headpats. Enough said. *Backflips into the sun*

I want them to be happyyy uwahh... I wish....

[fragglerockopinions]

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[aewrie]

'once a week or more' well rip

my default state of being when i'm not having a bad day is a little tired & nursing a budding headache. i have a headache right now that i'm ignoring

is this going to be another of those 'there is no such thing as a 'mild' concussion, if you hit your head bad enough to black out it is a concussion' lmao???

i get headaches from fucking everything. weather/air pressure (low and high). low/high blood sugar or too rapid changes there. too bright/dim light (at home i am specific about my lights/curtains at different points of the day/depending on how bright it's outside to avoid these). rapid repetitive/jarring physical motions (just jumping a little can be enough/make it worse). muscle tension. doing stretching/exercise that gets blood really flowing. lack of and/or bad sleep, or too much sleep. getting (strongly) emotional. caffeine (a new exiting one! only started regularly drinking coffee fairly recently. how much caffeine is too much is a fucking mystery though). i should wear glasses (myopia, not too severe) but i avoid it unless i need to see that far that well in part bc the glasses pressing on my temples give me headaches more easily than my eyes being slightly tired does.

i'm probably forgetting a bunch more

but every time i've seen people describe migraines i've thought well mine aren't anywhere near that severe/those specific kinds of headaches so No Way it's that

but. i do have other symptoms on that list? i just never thought it might be related to my headaches bc i'd not seen those mentioned, at least not in a way that i could identify as something i should consider in connection to this, and there's always the huge stress that migraines are always extra super bad to the point that a Real migraine completely disables you for a while. while to me it's. it's annoying, it hurts, if it's particularly bad it can make things more difficult but not impossible/near impossible; just, a general It's Not That Bad, therefore normal and i should just deal with it

[thethingything]

we are now awake way too late because we dissociated for a while after realising yesterday was the anniversary of a specific traumatic event, and then we had to make some phone calls to try and get an appointment because the symptoms we've got are apparently a lot more concerning than we realised and I left the most concerning ones out of the last post because they're kinda gross but like, I'm almost certain it's an ear infection because I don't know what the fuck else it could be, and unfortunately it's also in both fucking ears instead of just one

[sadgirlautumn]

I’ve slept a total of 3 hours in the last 24 hours and I have to wake up at 8am tomorrow

[besnouted]

having to live and exist in one room that includes all of my houseplants truly hindering my circadian rhythm