#i need to let this out

[nymphoniah]

i need to get this off of my chest but have yall ever watched pascal’s sub sluts on p*hub becauseeee:33

he’s so fine i need him so badddd??!! i absolutely want an older guy like him to just use me, toss me around, manhandle me… my brain is just ??!! malfunctioning right now and omg… he’s very much my type :3

girliesss, if you want links… let me know teehee x3

[robbie-verse]

my thoughts about steddie are soooo normal in both content and quantity btw c:

[trans-kevin-juice]

vent post because i still feel miserable hours later

i think most of my friends officially hate me

i’ve been constantly venting all day, and there’s no way they aren’t sick of me

i care about them deeply, and if they really do hate me, maybe i deserve it

i can’t ever seem to be happy for more than a day

i always seem to get fucked over and constantly whine about it

and because of this, i feel like my friends are tired me

i fear that they wish i would just shut up and at least pretend to be happy

i wish i could be happy, but i cannot because i genuinely might be depressed or at least totally fucked in terms of mental health

i want to communicate with them, but i’m too scared to

i might just make things worse than they already are

if they were irritaed with me, they would tell me

but, i’m still fucking terrified

i feel so alone

i feel like nobody cares

i wonder if my suicide would be worth it

maybe it is

[kaizsche]

THIS IS NOT FUNNY ANYMORE... THE UNIVERSE IS REALLY OUT HERE DOING EVERYTHING IT CAN TO GET ME TO WRITE SILENT HILL JAKE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!1

Y'ALL CAN'T CONVINCE ME THIS IS SILENT HILL JAKE IMITATING BOB!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! WHO IS READER'S HUSBAND!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!1 IM DYING!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

[coleisunderrated]

Another game people should play and talk about more is Pizza Tower.

[tideofashes]

JKR missed the opportunity to make harry and draco as friends starting 1st year until 4th year and make them have a very very bad fallout when things are already starting to take a darker turn

[wikipedie]

I love you. Still, fuck you. Fuck you and your high horse in which you perceive me as something to be pitied. That you have all the answers and you think you know better. When you couldn't even contain it if I were to tell you that. You'd see the fuck you and you'd say you only have good intentions and if I were to really love you, I wouldn't say fuck you.

[kensatou]

(✿◕‿◕) die (ꈍ ꒳ ꈍ✿)

[shelivesingalaxies]

The most recent realization is that I feel I am a better elder child than most. At least based on how I treat my mom in comparison to how I see or hear about other children's treatment and relation to my present tour company.

I may not have the right to judge. But either I am feeling sad for the mother (because her daughter is holding back favors and provisions, even information from her and she receives too little), or I am feeling frustrated (because a son is leaving it up to me to care after his own freaking mom when really, this is meant to be a trip so why do I have to play elderly sitter)? I don't know. I just want to relax really. I want a trip when the center is ME. I deserve to use my vacation for such trips.

I don't wanna always be in a crowd and have to please people or care after them or make them comfortable. I mean that is fine, sure. But I deserve rest too. And I do not find myself rested, having to cater over other people's needs in MY SO CALLED VACATION.

[pinkdyit]

i live with regrets, but doesn't everyone?

how long will it take for them to go away?

maybe if i were to stop making these choices i no longer would.

...

but it's hard. it's hard to get out of this habit.

[sparkleofstardust]

in light of the recent news that Iranian President Ebrahim Raisi has been found dead after a helicopter crash you might be wondering 'who the hell is this guy and why are so many people celebrating his death??' and i'm here to answer that!

to fully understand what's going on we need to look into Iran's history: when the Iranian revolution in 1979 happened the authoritarian king who was ruling at that time was overthrown, but the ensuing power vacuum lead to the islamic regime seizing power and establishing Iran as an islamic republic

the following years were incredibly cruel to the Iranian people; thousands of people (especially minorities) have been protesting against the strict islamic regime leading to many being jailed, tortured and executed.

and this is where Raisi played a big part: in 1988 he was part of a committee that ordered the execution of thousands of political prisoners who were protesting the islamic regime, earning himself the title of "the butcher of tehran"

do not be fooled by what the state media wants you to believe, the Iranian people are celebrating his death. he was a cruel mass murderer who has destroyed the lives of thousands of people, his death should be used as a time to mourn for all the suffering he has caused, and bring new attention to the political prisoners still being held in Iranian prisions today

because sadly the fight is far from over. many of you have probably heard of the murder of Mahsa Jina Amini back in 2022, causing a new wave of nationwide protests and establishing the "woman, life, freedom" movement. the regime has gotten increasingly cruel in their treatment of the Iranian people, especially women, but the people of Iran are not deterred and keep fighting for a free Iran.

if you want to know how you can help, please keep talking about us. the one thing the regime hates is international attention, and in the past it has been proven that international pressure has stopped the regime from executing various political prisoners. people like Toomaj Salehi are under imminent threat of execution and spreading their names could save their lives. so whether you share social media posts or talk to your family and friends about what is happening in Iran, anything helps 🙏🏼

jin, jiyan, azadi ✌🏼

[hymnoeides]

'Cause I'm stuck with your stories

[hinamie]

I'm always pushing you away from me / but you come back with gravity / and when I call, you come home

[stromblessed]

Mizu, femininity, and fallen sparrows

In my last post about Mizu and Akemi, I feel like I came across as overly critical of Mizu given that Mizu is a woman who - in her own words - has to live as a man in order to go down the path of revenge.

If she is ever discovered to be female by the wrong person, she will not only be unable to complete her quest, but there's a good chance that she'll be arrested or killed.

So it makes complete sense for Mizu to distance herself as much as possible from any behavior that she feels like would make someone question her sex.

I felt so indignant toward Mizu on my first couple watchthroughs for this moment. Why couldn't Mizu bribe the woman and her child's way into the city too? If Mizu is presenting as a man, couldn't she claim to be the woman's escort?

However, this moment makes things pretty clear. Mizu knows all too well the plight of women in her society. She knows it so well that she cannot risk ever finding herself back in their position again. She helps in what little way she can - without drawing attention to herself.

Mizu is not a hero and she is not one to make of herself a martyr - she will not set herself on fire to keep others warm. There's room to argue that Mizu shouldn't prioritize her quest over people's lives, but given the collateral damage Mizu can live with in almost every episode of season 1, Mizu is simply not operating under that kind of morality at this point. ("You don't know what I've done to reach you," Mizu tells Fowler.)

And while I still feel like Mizu has an obvious and established blind spot when it comes to Akemi because of their differences in station, such that Mizu's judgment of Akemi and actions in episode 5 are the result of prejudice rather than the result of Mizu's caution, I also want to establish that Mizu is just as caged as Akemi is, despite her technically having more freedom while living as a man.

Mizu can hide her mixed race identity some of the time, and she can hide her sex almost all of the time, but being able to operate outside of her society's strict rules for women does not mean she cannot see their plight.

It does not mean she doesn't hurt for them.

Back to Mizu and collateral damage, remember that sparrow?

While Mizu is breaking into Boss Hamata's manse, she gets startled by a bird and kills it on reflex. She then cradles it in her hands - much more tenderly than we've seen Mizu treat almost anything up to this point in the season:

She then puts it in its nest, with its unhatched eggs. Almost like she's trying to make the death look natural. Or like an accident.

You see where I'm going with this.

When Mizu kills Kinuyo, Mizu lingers in the moment, holding the body tenderly:

And btw a lot of stuff about this show hit me hard, but this remains the biggest gut punch of them all for me, Mizu holding that poor girl's body close, GOD

When Mizu arranges the "scene of the crime," Kinuyo's body is delicate, birdlike. And Mizu is so shaken afterward that she gets sloppy. She's horrified at this kill to the point that she can't bring herself to take another innocent life - the boy who rats her out.

MIZU'S ONE MOMENT OF SOFTNESS AND MERCY, COMING ON THE HEELS OF HER NEEDING TO KILL A GIRL TO SPARE HER THE WORST FATE THAT THIS RIGID SOCIETY HAS TO OFFER WOMEN, AND TO SPARE A BROTHEL FULL OF INNOCENT WOMEN WHO ARE THE CASTOFFS OF SOCIETY, NEARLY RESULTS IN ALL OF THEIR DEATHS

No wonder Mizu is as stoic and cold as she is.

And no wonder Mizu has no patience for Akemi whatsoever right before the terrible reveal and the fight breaks out:

Speaking of Akemi - guess who else is compared to a bird!

The plumage is more colorful, a bit flashier. But a bird is a bird.

And, uh

Yeah.

I like to think that Mizu killing the sparrow is not only foreshadowing for what she must do to Kinuyo, but is also a representation of the choice she makes on Akemi's behalf. She decides to cage the bird because she believes the bird is "better off." Better off caged than... dead.

But because Mizu doesn't know Akemi or her situation, she of course doesn't realize that the bird is fated to die if it is caged and sent back home.

Mizu is clearly not happy, or pleased, or satisfied by allowing Akemi to be dragged back to her father:

But softness and mercy haven't gotten Mizu anywhere good, recently.

There is so much tragedy layered into Mizu's character, and it includes the things she has to witness and the choices she makes - or believes she has to make - involving women, when she herself can skirt around a lot of what her society throws at women. Although, I do believe that it comes at the cost of a part of Mizu's soul.

After all, I'm gonna be haunted for the rest of this show by Mizu's very first prayer in episode 1:

"LET" her die. Because as Ringo points out, she doesn't "know how" to die.

Kind of like another bird in this show:

[ultravioletness]

I’ve been making gay knights (and ladies) collages on my phone at work

(Part two)

[egophiliac]

was this anyone else's first thought, or