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THE VOICE CALLING FOR BIANCA IN THE LATEST EPISODE WAS CONFIRMED TO BE NICO WE WON ????
#pjo#pjo hoo toa#pjo disney+#nico di angelo#bianca di angelo#pjo tv show#nico my son fr#actually no hes me im him#he was so ??? small ???#his voice …#itty bitty :(#i need to hold him gently in my hands#and then throw him against the wall#HES SO CUTE.#NOBODY TALK TO ME RN
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Tumblr won't let you add images to replies but here's a little stick figure reaction autism creature style drawing of how I imagine the 2019 mugshot lolol
corey cunningham, c. october 31st 2019. artist's rendition.
#corey cunningham#thank you blake 🥰#hell yeah babyyyy !! that's him alright !!#he's soooo#i need to hold him gently in my hands#you just know his 21 going on 12 looks are turned to max in his mugshot#like who couldn't sympathise with that face. i could not have been an unbiased juror i'll tell you that much.
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witness him. witness him. witness him. witness him. witness him
#who is up being abnormal about félix in adrien's diamonds' dance royalty outfit with his own hairstyle#i need to gently hold him in my hands and violently squish him#he genuinely looks identical in transformation and out of it he did not change anything except for the colors#i wonder why his costume has such a high neck does it not feel constricting#witness him. witness him. witness him. witness him. witness him#miraculous ladybug#felix fathom
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having many thoughts about percy (he drives me insane) idk what the kf devs put into this man, but i swear i'm addicted. like the more i learn about him the more obsessed i become,,,i think i'm mentally ill
anyways since i think a lot about him (and my kf mc, may. might actually drop a lore post on her at some point) i will now be sharing some of those thoughts. also have a strong feeling this post is gonna end up pretty long just as a heads up lmfao
also a lot of this is just speculation on my part and me trying my best to analyze the little amount of information we have as of the moment. just as a disclaimer, anyways!
out of the three love interests i genuinely think percy might be the angstiest route for the following reasons (under the cut):
like first off, the devs have mentioned in the past that one of the routes will have a forced breakup to serve the greater narrative (this was mentioned a really long time ago tho so it might've been subject to change, but since we have nothing that proves otherwise i am running with it.) and i do not believe in any way that it could be elio,,,unless the devs decide to throw us a curveball lmao jamie is still an option and he was my first thought when i found out about the breakup route, butttt i doubt it'd be him. so from process of elimination that only leaves percy. he's also the only one out of the lis that has been in relationships before and judging from past asks i'm assumingggg that those past experiences most likely still affect him.
second, every single mention of his family has been vague at best and there's been ZERO mention of his mother. in the asks only his dad has ever been mentioned and also in the studying event if u go off with percy and elio, go to check out the polo club and choose to stay back with percy he'll mention that he moved to the states with his dad. normally people would mention both parents, but percy didn't so it's likely his parents divorced at some point? also i had a whole ass supposedly sound argument here, but it got disproven bc apparently his step-dad also came with them to the states??? like yes it does still prove that his parents r divorced, but it can also imply he has 2 dads. that's so funny i love it. okay moving onto my actual point!!! since percy is a child of divorce it's likely also affected his view of love and romantic relationships. possibly in a skewed way, but who knows so that does add to the angst factor QUITE a bit
finally, percy's avoidant and deferring nature. during the festival event if you split up and then go to check out the festival games you end up running into percy, which is when the game tells you that he tends to defer to what others want and seems to be perkier exploring the games by himself. there's also a few occasions in-game where if the mc tries to ask percy about himself he tends to either A. brush the topic off or B. push the attention onto someone else (usually elio?). so i'd assume that he dislikes talking about himself? which would mean it would take him a good while to open up. which isn't inherently a bad thing, but it can also cause communication issues so. sigh.
is this flimsy evidence? yes! but do i care? no! also i would do a deeper dive into this if i was actually good at analyzing character behaviors,,,and if not for the fact that at the time i'm writing this it's 1am on a school night. there's also so many other things i could have talked about!!! like his name!!! maybe some other day. so like. do with all this information what you will. bc i certainly will!!! i have so many ideas!! many angsty notes!!! be prepared.

#keyframes vn#perseus tozaki#percy tozaki#author ely's shenanigans#if i'm wrong on any of this then PLEASE tell me#also ty to the discord server for correcting me bc i would have 100 percent embarrassed myself on here if they hadn't lmao#anyways!#i think a lot about percy#need to gently hold him in my hands#then squish him
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When nageki found the little king in the light house and pointed out that he was alone 😂😂😂 Moa cant keep getting away with this
#hatoful boyfriend#holiday star#nanaki kazuaki#nageki fujishiro#thinking so so so many thoughts about him.#karamatsu voice… is this… the hedgehogs dilemma..?#sorry im not going to make sense here ive been taking psychic dmg from him all day#clutching my head#i wonder sometimes if outside of the other reasons he has for not liking/ being afraid of nageki#nanaki is just scared cuz nageki seems to understand him so well#and like. hitori also claimed to understand him#so its like. u brothers are all the same get away from me#but nageki is so genuine 🥺 like he truly means it he really does understand the king#i was talking to my friend about this too but the irony in how nanaki hates hitori for manipulating him into killing himself#but then he. also is trying to manipulate all these ppl into basically killing themselves because he is lonely#likeeeeeeeeeeeeee 😂#i need to shut up now but like holds him gently in my cupped hands 🤲#to the blender with him
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god i want. an au where it dosn't work. where it's just arr g'raha who's woken up, and he doesn't have all these memories and all these people keep looking at him like they're mourning someone. the world has changed and time has changed and all the people he knows have changed, but he hasn't changed, he was just sleeping, just sleeping, and the world nearly ended several times and apparently he helped prevent yet another end but he has no memory of this. they want him to join the scions. he does not know these people. (he barely knows the warrior of light, now, but did he ever truly know them in the first place?) his little sister is alive and well. she looks at him like a ghost. she's changed, and she's older than him now. he acts bratty and loud and brash to cover up the fact that he does not know anything it seems, and he is tired but he was sleeping for so long, so how could he be tired?
he doesn't know these people. they seem to know him. he wonders if he'd killed someone, when it was him and not that exarch who woke up. he wonders if it should have been him who was "killed" in that way, if it is him that lives and not that man who had known and become friends with all these figures from legend. he wonders if he'll always be fated to be a historian one step back from everything, because he simply cannot be a hero.
#bound with thread | original posts#letters in verse | talking#g'raha tia#crystal exarch#hello everyone i am being Incredibly Normal about g'raha tia at -checks time- 12:02 am#you ever think about the fact that arr g'raha is basically killed/replaced when the exarch wakes up in 5.3. because i do. a lot#hi i have brainworms over this man he's SO tragic and i need to hold him gently in my hands like how you cradle a small trembling kitten#genuinely happy about his character growth and progression and happy ending and all but arr g'raha was the one who grabbed my focus#and i do miss a lot of that character sometimes yknow? post-shb g'raha isn't the same person as arr g'raha and that's intentional‚ i think‚#because he has gone through so much that we didn't see. so much trauma and pain because of the 8th umbral era and that loss he got hit with#and he's not the same person because he's *had* to change so much to keep himself and his people alive and i'm glad he's getting to#experience life to the fullest in endwalker onwards but just. i miss arr g'raha yknow#honestly the silliest thing about it is i miss his student of baldesion tattoo. was a fun little design element you know.#show us the tattoo again squeenix. give him back his red eyeshadow that he had.#give him his bow back i am begging#this has been: incomprehensible ramblings from simon at 12 at night
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I did not mean to make my sonas void form this tall canonically 💀 (I'm keeping it though) (hes 9ft tall btw)
My sona is a shapeshifter btw. Hels is very used to seeing it's 'normal' form so the massive 9ft tall one was a bit of a surprise
#art#artists on tumblr#jaloparker art#hermitblr#hermitcraft#hermitcraft fanart#helsknight#oc art#helsknight fanart#love when theres a big guy#and then an even bigger guy#hels has seen others taller than him before though so its not like “wdym people taller than me exist”#its more like “wdym this guy whos usually at like the level of my chest is now well over a foot taller than me”#hels is like 6ft 6 in my brain universe btw#and my sona is usually like 5ft 9#what would you guys do if i made my self incert oc (my sona) hold hands with my helsknight in a not so /p way..#who am i kidding i already made a hels x reader fic..#might draw them holding hands now just out of spite#very fond of my helsknight..#holding him gently#i need to draw him in sweaters and other comfy clothes more it makes him more cuddle-able looking#he doesnt like sweaters too much though cause hes already pretty warm (nether dragon)#he still wears them sometimes! just not often#he also wears shorts with sweaters a lot (me too)#either sweatpants and tanktop/tee shirt or shorts and sweater (or the rare third option shorts and tanktop/tee shirt when its real warm out)#i imagine him just living life too much i think.. specifically living life with my sona.. (definitely not me as my sona or anything 😁😁)#(look my sona is literally just me but i look different)#i am mentally unwell#thats what therapy is for though!
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Maximus stop being the cutest most precious man alive on the earth for two seconds challenge
#challenge instantly failed#like sir#i don’t remember hearing an order issued for all generals to look sweet and cute and handsome and lovely all at once#ARE WE SEEING HIM#LOOK#LOOK AT HIS PRECIOUS FACE#how relaxed and happy he is talking about his beloved home#his wife his son his orchards his fields his horses#tour guide maximus when#look how the light sparkles in his eyes!!!!!#look at the beautiful lines of his face#fourth photo MARRY ME IMMEDIATELY#fifth photo that cheeky smile is taking me out of this world#sixth photo big smile I AM YOURS I AM SO YOURS#i’ve heard of attractive men but this is a whole new level#OH to be the reason his eyes light up and his face breaks out in a smile#oh to be the one he dreams about returning to#his face is so soft and gentle in the warm candlelight#i NEED to hold it gently in my hands#and bestow a tender kiss to his forehead#and see him break into a grin and pull me close in his arms and etc etc etc#I CAN’T STOP LOOKING AT HIM I CAN’T STOP#i want to give him the world’s biggest hug#the kind that would go in the guinness book of world records#then the record for the most passionate kiss is OURS#beloved husband i will spend all eternity longing and yearning for your company your warmth and your heart#I LOVE HIM I ADORE HIM I REVOLVE AROUND HIM LIKE A MOON AROUND A PLANET#gladiator#maximus decimus meridius#russell crowe
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In other news:

#/vpos#ouhhhHHHHHHHHHHGHGHGGGGHHHFHGHDHDJHDJFBFBXHDBDHSGCHDBGDDHHDHDXJSNXHDNHDHSGJFNFNEHSBHRGXJBFSGXBFJDDG#im just#sitting doing nothing driving myself INSANE abt my . husbannbsds......#im supposed to rping rn dammit-#i just need to go bonkers for a moment#hhhGSJSGSKFHENYXHEKDNSMYEUEGEBSKSBKDHWNRHRBCUSBXKSHJEYWJNWNSHDKDBXHSHDUGESHGEUWSNXBXVXJDEBSJSYHWEBDCNHCBCKBDJENSKXSYEJWJWHIESHHFNKWYSOEHEBDU#BSHAJEHEKEEUDYEIBEDKBXKCBDUWHDKEJWKDHRJHSNCDJEIFBSHDNEKDBNEEDSDJHENDBKDCTHEMJSHDJHENDKSHSHCRKNETOSNDHDKDNDFUCKHSHDKSBDSHGDKSMEKDHDKSHSTUPIDJ#UAHAGAGSHSGDJSHJDJDKDJDKFDKDCKDH#IM#S O FUKFINFF UNWEELLLLLLL#IM . BLOWING UP AUAHAHAGHGSJH#I LOVE TH EY#HHHHHHHH#i wanna sit on Sols lap and hug him and lay on him and listen to his inner workings whirr#AND a lso kiss the life outta him and!! kiss down his arms and the palms of all his hands and#ohh i havent even tried kissing his sun pad yet i gotta do that-#hhhhhhhghfh and fuckinbbc. N0vas sona.... mmngngjhnh m o f f#i know we're like the same height but .. smol...... hold and hug#i need to cuddle the creature so bad on GOD theyd be a better cuddle buddy than my dinky little pillows AUHG#hhgshg stuff my face in his flufffffffffhhgghgghhhhggggggggggggg#hhhsgah and you KNOW mal is still bouncing around in my head like a dvd player screen saver OUGH#i have a great need to sit in bed with him laying back and resting on me while i hold him and gently mess with his rays HEL P ME#i need to wake up in the morning and not be able to get out of bed only cuz hes holding on to me and keeping me there for cuddles#i need to sit on my kitchen counter with him in front of me so i can hold his p retty face and pepper him with sleepy morning kisses#o h myg od im so normal about them can you tell#malware my beloved#N0va my beloved#Solaris my beloved#storm loses it
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who up thinking about devoted knight akaashi
#nia writes#< 😲#well#nia thinks#cold metal soaked in blood clanging to the floor as he drops to hold you with what warmth he carries beneath#the one meant to stay a measured meter away hesitating. hovering fingers above the apples of your cheeks#so near you could lean an inch and be held yet he waits for permission anyway#no wavering when it comes to the violence necessary to save you . only in the face of affection he shouldnt have. doesnt think he deserves#i dont even know how much a meter is. thats way too close actually but it hit the beat i needed#i actjally am losing my marbles ive been thinking about this for days#him knowing your schedule inside out. your favourite desserts and stores and pieces of jewelry#but he barely knows the touch of your hand#when he gently holds your hand to help you somewhere and then clenches it afterward and thinks about it for hours#Ok#not that i care. why would i care
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actually cannot get over how infatuated i am with sherlock & co’s portrayal of sherlock
#like he’s so autistic#the tism rizz is working wonders on me#LIKE THE LIGHTBULB CHANGING IN THE PUB SOLD IT FOR ME#ON MY KNEES#RING IN HAND#HES SO CHARMING#i didn’t think he’d be my fav portrayal#but here we are#he is literally the loml#autistic holmes#please#one chance#sherlock holmes#sherlock#sherlock & co#s&co#sherlock & co podcast#AND I STILL HAVENT DRAWN HIM!#i think i need to get a good grasp on him#holding him gently#until i figure out what he looks like#he’s sooo pretty tho hehe
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🐈⬛🩷🎀🐈⬛🩷🎀🐈⬛
#;windy’s edit#gonkillu#gon x killua#gon#killua#hxh#hunter x hunter#KIS PRECIOUS WITTLE FACE AHHHHHHHN#HES SO HAPPY AND CUTE AND PURE#OF COURSE GON CANT HELP BUT LOOK AT HIM 😤😤😤#KIS THE CUTEST LITTLE BEAN BABEY PRINCESS PUMPKIN PIE#CUTE GONKI DATE RAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH#WHERE THEY JUST PET CATS AT A CAT CAFE OR SMTH AHHH#KIS SO CUTE MY HEART UWOOOOOAHHHHHHHHHHHH#EXPLODES#I JUST OMGGGG#KIS SO PRECIOUS#GON SHOULD TAKE HIM ON ALL THE DATES#THEY ARE SO CUTE#KI IS SO AHHHH FRICKIN CUTE#KI WOULD BE SO HAPPY TO HOLD A KITTY I STG#HE DESERVES THE WORLD AND MORE I WILL TEAR IT DOWN FOR HIM#GONS SUNSHINE MY SUNSHINE EVERYONES SUNSHINE#Ki is a little sun beam!!! 🥺 IDC WHAT ANYONE SAYS#HIS SMILE LIGHTS UP ALLL WORLDS#GON IS SMITTEN WITH KI PERIOD#GON JUST GENTLY TAKING KIS SMALL HAND AHH AND LEADING HIM INTO A CAT PLACE AND KI JUST#AHHHH BEING SO HAPPY ALL I NEED#KIS SO CUTE IN HIS LITTLE SKIRT STG AHHH MAGICAL GIRL SHOWS#PROVIDING ME WITH PEAK SCREENSHOTS FOR GK EDITS SINCE 99
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Thinking abt HIM again so here's some old doodles I haven't posted + retouched a little bit 🩷💚
Did u guys know I love him... did u guys know he's my absolute everything and the love of my life and and HEUEJFHSKFHSFHD 🥹😭
#PICOOOOOOO THE LOVE OF MY LIFE 💖💕💖💕💕💖#MY BOYFRIEND MY EVERYTHING I LOVE HIM SO MUCHNFNDHJD#I want to smother him with kisses all over and hold him lovingly in my arms#holds his face gently in my hands with so much care and adoration#HEJRNFNFNENEMFNENHHEUUEUEUEUEUEUEUEU#I NEED TO GUSH ABT HIM MORE.... HE'S THE NUMBER ONE#LITERALLY THERE SINCE THE START OF ME SELF SHIPPING (kinda)#STILL. THE NUMBER ONE OF MY HEART ☝️☝️☝️☝️ THE LOML MY BF MY HUBBY MY BELOVED#oughhh I should ramble abt their lore too.... especially with my self insert as well (which is basically still me but cooler)#🎨 art gallery#🎨 doodles#♥️ we're going overdrive!#🌸 romantic; 🍏#self ship#self shipping#self ship community#self shipping community
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So as a fellow sukugo shrine sweeper, I feel like I have to share this with you first:
That's it. It was over. They all watched as Gojo fell to the rubble beneath his feet. Shallow, raspy breaths and the gurgling of blood would only be poetic in a moment such as this.
"You fought well, my sorcerer." Sukuna's words weren't a verbal sneer. He stated it as fact, therefore it was so. He walked to the highest pile of former buildings and sat down. "I will give you a choice, Satoru Gojo. You die here and now, or you can crawl to me. After all, it would be a shame to lose you. You've taught me something that no one else could."
Everything was shaking. It was too much but nothing at all. Gojo could only cling to the voice in front of him, to the eyes of the god before him. Crawl, Sukuna had said. What did he have to lose? The world was fucked either way, and he had caused so much destruction.
The refuge in his audacity had run out.
The refuge ahead was still here. Just a few steps away.
Stumbling was something he didn't think was possible when crawling. He never had to worry about it before.
A clawed hand raked through his blood crusted hair. If he wasn't using the king of curses as a bedrock for his sanity, he might have been startled.
"There we are, Satoru. I'm glad you made the right decision. Come here, and I will tell you what you taught me." He pulled Gojo between his legs and the sorcerer laid his head on the other's leg. He felt Sukuna healing his wounds right under his fingertips, and gasped as it overflowed into his bones.
Not quite healing, but more a brand. A mark of victory, pouring into his cracked cup of a body. He felt Sukuna filling every empty space, not just his mind, but his physical form as well.
He didn't know when his eyes had closed, but Malevolent Shrine was kinda hard to miss.
"Why so quiet all of a sudden?"
"It's not empty anymore. It's quiet." Was it always this dark?
"Your six eyes caused that void. I removed the problem. Made you whole. You were born rare, but also broken. Empty. I suspected that was what was wrong with you, but... you don't have to worry about that now."
"Explains why everything is so fucking dark."
A barking laugh came from above him.
"A small price for me filling your void."
"Careful now, I'm already on my knees." Gojo wise cracked. "But what did I teach you?"
"Love." That's... not what he was expecting. " You and I are very similar. That is the reason why our fight was as fulfilling as it was destructive. We fill and heal the void that makes us restless... but only you can give that to me. Just as I will be the only one for you."
The curse lifted him up onto his lap, and Gojo gently examined his remains of his eyes. Gone.
"When they regenerate, they will be no different than normal eyes, little sorcerer."
"When??"
"I would prefer if my love could see me." Gojo parted his lips to speak, but an insistent press of lips took the words from him.
When they parted, Gojo could only formulate one solid question:
"What would I see, Sukuna?"
The god holding him, his grin unseen, leaned back into his throne.
"That I alone...
...am the exalted one."
Sorry if this is really long or seem ooc, I was vibing to Neoni and things happened. I hope you enjoy though!!
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sorry i just. i need a fucking moment. IAUGHKDGAJFHKJLJASDLAJFKADKASÑ IM SCREAMING
THANK U SO SOSOSOOSOS MUCH FOR SHARING THIS IT'S SO GOOD AND IM NOT OKAY FUCK
#f.ask#jjk#sukugo#i cried. im crying right now.#how do i even.#im in love. im in love with them.#there's sososos many things.#SUKUNA SUKUNA SUKUNA. HE'S SO.#him referring to gojo as 'my sorcerer' and 'little sorcerer' OTL#'The refuge in his audacity had run out. The refuge ahead was still here' FUCK#just. the tenderness!!!! they're equals. they're meant for each other!!!!!!! no one else can give them that which they can give each other.#and the love that runs through them bc of this#felt through sukuna running his hands on gojo's hair. the laugh. the gently picking up satoru. the KISS. OUFGGHDHDGDJGA#'Not quite healing but more a brand. A mark of victory pouring into his cracked cup of a body. He felt Sukuna filling every empty space not#just his mind but his physical form as well.' oh FUCK im insane#'I would prefer if my love could see me.' SCREAMING CRYING#The god holding him his grin unseen leaned back into his throne. 'That I alone......am the exalted one.' FDHDJSHDHDBDHD SCREAAAAAMM#like. yeah. yeah. YEAH.#need to breathe.#and like. not to mention ur writing style is so lovelyyyyyyyyyyyy 💖💖💖💖#OTL im cannot#like aaaaahhhhh this is such an amazing thing to get in ur askbox im so so so 🥰🥰🥰🥰😭😭😭😭💖💖💖💖💖💖💖#like. fuck. fr overjoyed that u shared this with me thank u so MUCH!!!!!!!#i appreciate it a lot a lot. i enjoyed this immensel. it wasn't too long or ooc. ily. giving u a KISS <33333
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sorry but i will be FOREVER confused and annoyed at the way steven universe future was received as a show for its realistic portrayal of mental illness. i already loved steven as a character, and i saw so much of myself in steven, and it pissed me off so much when i saw armchair therapist-type people online calling it "unrealistic", that steven "never showed signs of trauma" (hello??? did we even watch the same show??) and that he was "acting out of character", and that the ending was cringey or unrealistic or bullshit or something
these are such insane criticisms to me because i felt so seen by su:f's portrayal of ptsd, and i've never felt the same way with other shows that portrayed ptsd. ptsd is different for everyone, obviously, but when you go through childhood trauma, sometimes you tend to look at your childhood through rose-colored glasses (literally, in steven's case), and when you gradually grow older and mature, you start realising that no, it wasn't all that rosy actually. even so, steven still displayed symptoms of ptsd even before steven universe future. what his character growth was throughout steven universe was also a child being forced to grow up quickly, to mature so he could handle traumatized space war veterans' emotions and forcing the diamonds to fix the mess they had caused, all at the age of around 12 to 14. all the while blaming himself. literally a line he says in season 2 is that he's used to dealing with life or death situations.
mental illness isn't fucking pretty. steven universe future isn't afraid to tackle the ugliness of it, and i think that's why people took such issue with it. im tired of ppl romanticizing mental illness. sometimes it DOES make you an asshole. eventually, when you spend so long being the nice, happy-go-lucky kid steven was, burying your emotions and pain for the sake of others, you begin to crack. and that's why i felt so seen in steven. because when i was dealing with my own ptsd, i was also a fucking asshole. i wasn't myself. i was angry at everyone and everything, including myself. i didn't want to deal with facing my own pain. i couldn't even watch some of the episodes because they hit too close to home, even for me.
but the biggest reason i love su:f so much is for its ending. i dont care if there wasn't some big corruption battle with steven's kaiju form, because to me, if they had fought him like they did with the diamonds and the corrupted gems, it would have reinforced his belief that he was a monster. he saw himself on the same level of the diamonds once he had shattered jasper (made only worse when she acknowledged him as 'her diamond'. ouch.) that group hug where they helped him to calm down, when steven broke down, got me, ok.
#steven universe future#steven universe#i'm still in the midst of rewatching SU and i just- girl. ok. some of you really need to rewatch it tbh#the way the episodes were released played some part in people's frustration i think#but that was bc of production issues. CN screwed them over so many times i'd be surprised if they returned to them#anyway. steven universe. i love him. i want to be his friend#holds him gently in my hands
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❛ i’m trying to fix your hair, so hold still. ❜
lounging, reading, relaxing. three simple activities, but ren only excels at one, and only when no one else is around to disrupt him. though, to be fair, calling dan heng a disruption might be a stretch. he isn’t doing anything overtly irritating, not by most people’s standards anyway. but ren has his own rules about what constitutes a bother, and while those rules have loosened slightly in recent times, he still finds himself irked.
apparently, spending quiet time with dan heng isn’t enough. it has to be here, in this shared space, where ren sits cross-legged on the floor in front of a sofa while dan heng carefully tends to his shoulder-length hair with focused, deliberate movements. across the room, sprawled on another couch with an air of absolute ease, is a certain white-haired general. the ornate coffee table between them feels more like a barrier than a connection, and ren’s patience teeters on the edge.
with a flicker of mischief, he lifts his leg and nudges the table with his foot, just enough to make it shift and hopefully startle the lounging figure. to his dismay, the general doesn’t so much as twitch. not a single strand of snowy hair stirs, nor does any reaction follow. ren grits his teeth in silent frustration and returns his attention to the man behind him.
“ nothing about my hair needs fixing. ” a mirror hangs on the opposite wall, casting an unfortunate, yellow-tinted reflection of ren and dan heng’s interaction. the image feels surreal, like a fragment from a dream, a hazy memory, or a glimpse into some alternate universe where nothing bad ever happened to them. perhaps, in that other world, this moment might have been their natural outcome, a life untouched by hardship, where ren isn’t constantly calculating the risks of stepping outside the very house they’re sitting in.
ren’s hand drifts almost absentmindedly to the ends of his own hair, wrapping a lock around his finger. he fiddles with the strands as if reacquainting himself with something familiar yet distant. his gaze doesn’t stray from the mirror’s reflection, his eyes glued to the subtle, precise movements of dan heng’s hands. yet, a weight lingers in the air, a thick, invisible blanket of unease draped heavily over him. it’s a sensation he can’t shake, even now, when everything should feel fine, when they’re supposed to be safe.
with a quiet exhale, ren reaches for the book he had been pretending to read before dan heng took it upon himself to toy with his hair. flipping through the pages with practiced ease, he pauses as if searching for where he last left off. his index finger trails over a random line, then another, plucking out isolated words to focus on, though the meaning of the text barely registers. it’s a half-hearted attempt to busy his mind, a fragile distraction from the unease he can’t quite name.
“ i’m hungry. ” fingers tap against the book in his hand, drumming, steadily. “ finish up already, let’s get some food. you always say you're the better cook. prove it. ”
#ofscalesanddatabanks#mailbox.#holds them gently#holds your hands thank you for coming to my inbox#iirc you said no italics or fancy formatting so i left it as regular small text but i can change it if you need me to#just let me know <3#jy is on the couch too i figured i'd include him in this one as a fun little treat#me when tobias in my inbox: YEAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH#sorry i know youre out and about rn please come home safely and read this soft moment where ren is totally nice and not at all awkward
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