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me when me when ffxiv orchestra.. hdfklasdjflskdfjasdflk
#🌙.rambles#[ ffxiv. ]#saved this pic from apollo LMFAO#okok that said though ><#my heart oh my god#like yk that twt account w yeah daily final fantasy music that's the one#i really love orchestra#from the heavens!!!!!!!!!!#i need someone to hold me that#that ost is so majestic n YEAH 😭😭#oh no#oh no flow orchestral arrangement#please please my poor heart the way the instruments just rise n#amanda i love your voice so much pls i'll cry#'sinking deeper and deeper in calm embrace'#THE INSTRUMENTS THE VOICE THE. HOPE. HOPE INCARNATE IT'S LITERALLY HOPE IT'S#'deep dark far away' AGHHHH MY HEART ILYSM#endwalker means so much to me :<< ffxiv as a whole really#flow.. this song is#'hush love close your eyes' FUCK the lyrics the song means so much to me :<<#i remember earlier this year when i was so stressed n struggling w wtvr n i wld just. listen to the song n it'd#warm my heart. comfort me. it brings back a lot of memories n really just comforts me a lot. it comforts me so much#i'm. very different now compared to who i was in the first half of 2022. she was.. a bit naive still i think after being so distant from#reality but. hehe. those blossoming months were so. i think. wait. my words r a mess but those were#really free months for me. i didn't overthink nearly as much as i do now#'but now i know i'm not alone. not the only one for whom the flowers weep' god i really love endwalker so much#i remember earlier this year my status in discord often used to be 🌼. can't really remember exactly why nymore#someday i really hope i can go to a final fantasy orchestra. distant worlds..#it's possible. my aunt has went before. several times i think? i'm not really sure but i do know she travelled just to watch n all#i hope. i really hope someday maybe apollo n i could join her. i know i'll definitely cry ehe that'd really make me so happy
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today in church one of the priests referred to trans people as "those who are growing into the gender they were called to be" and i'm kind of enjoying the idea of like....divinely ordained top surgery
#if god thinks i should get top surgery he needs to venmo me $9000 usd#there was someone in the gay social hour who said she had gotten kicked out of multiple catholic churches (for being trans)#and her therapist recommended this church specifically....#going into affirming churches still makes me a little emotional if i am being fully honest. if you have an affirming religious space#i hope you can hold onto that shit with your life#anyway. charming way to think about it i like it more than the bread and wine one personally#me#edit: to clarify this was at an episcopalian church
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It's about who.
#like hozier said:#if someone asked me at the end I'd tell them “put me back in it”#darling I would do it again if I could hold you for a minute#darling I'd go through it again#I would still be surprised I could find you darling#in any life#hozier wrote francesca for lokius#I have unintentional manifestation skills apparently so I had to put them to use before the finale drops#needed lokius nation to get a kiss no matter what#why was the hardest part about this piece drawing the spaghettification#almost gave up on it because of it#loki#loki series#loki season 2#lokius#lokius fanart#loki fanart#loki mobius#mobius loki#loki laufeyson#my art#digital art#fanart#illustration
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#my art#jujutsu kaisen#jjk#jjk fanart#fushiguro megumi#megumi fushiguro#jujutsu kaisen fanart#jjk megumi#did u rly think i was gonna pass up the opportunity to draw fanart of the phanpara formalwear#sorry i see a chance to draw megumi in a suit and i jump#that being said i did debate saving this to post next month on his bday#but alas i am a slave to the immediate gratification disease#not 2 mention tht this was SO frustrating omg the similarity in tones everywhere made me want 2 hold my breath and try to die#should have picked the white dog smh i dont make things easy on myself ever#the monochrome tho.....OUgh ths th good stuff thank u phanpara i do not play but i respect u fr putting megumi in a full black suit#however.#his lapels in the official art made me want to tear my hair out i got so confused bc like/??? in th art the top folds over the bottom#but in EVERY suit cut style i could find thats not the case?? the bottom folds over the top????????#not 2 mention yuuji and gojo's suits seem to b normal its ONLY megumi tht has this anomaly of a suit#i wanted to cry so i ended up ignoring it but if someone knows smth i dont pls i need answers this has kept me awake#anyway . pupy
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sometimes you gotta lure your overly-studious ravenclaw gf into spending time with you 🥰 📚 ( from 'Every Teardrop is a Waterfall' by Kat_12739 on ao3, GO READ IT!!! the first story is about seb falling sick and still pushing himself/not admitting he's sick until he ends up in the hospital, the second story is about the birth of seb and clora's daughter and seb's reaction to clora almost dying in childbirth, and the third is about dealing with a fussy newborn lewis😭🥹THEY'RE SO GOOD AND SWEET AND SOMEWHAT SAD (not to mention beautifully written) so go check it out!!💖💖 )
#READ SO I CAN YAP TO SOMEONE ABOUT THEM🙏😩💘#the seb sickfic made me realize how much i needed barely functioning and sick seb (but him still trying to be tough)#theres also a part that cracked me up bc at one point seb is so sick he cant even see straight but he just thinks to himself:#eh its fine.... ill just ask ominis how HE functions without vision later🤷 LMFAO#so stubborn...JUST LET CLORA TAKE CARE OF YOU MFER🤺🤺🤺#defs gonna be drawing more from it especially sick seb LMAO but also seb having a tea party with celeste🥹🥹#hogwarts legacy#sebastian sallow#sebastian sallow x oc#sebastian sallow x mc#sebastian x mc#hogwarts legacy fanfiction#sebastian sallow fanfiction#hphl#choccyart#also i was never planning on writing anything about clora giving birth or abt the kids so to be able to read it WAS AMAZING#THERES A PART WHERE SEB IS HOLDING CELESTE AND CRYING AT CLORAS BEDSIDE THAT I NEED TO DRAW😭😭#LIKE SRSLY seb being conflicted and not even wanting to HOLD celeste bc he doesnt know if clora is alive or not... IT WAS SO SAD BUT GOOD#i honestly dont know what seb would do if clora died in childbirth tbh.......i could honestly see him resenting celeste#esp since she looks so much like clora😭😭#LETS JUST NOT THINK ABOUT IT!😃👍#(still thinking about it)#like this line in the fic: “Sebastian hesitated; if this was Clora’s last gift to him he wasn’t sure he wanted it.”#😭😭😭ITS SO GOOD UGHHHHH😭 TY AGAIN FOR WRITING THESE💖IM SO TOUCHEDDD💖💖
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For decades, the blank vision that Iudex Neuvillette wears near his heart has been subject to much discussion in Fontaine. Nobody remembers who it had once belonged to or why the ancient dragon protected it so jealously. It is said that if the Chief Justice would to stare at it for a long while, it would be sure to rain right after. Oh, how beloved that person must've been.
#genshin impact#genshin fanart#neuvillette#visions#wriolette#wriollette#neuvithesley#myart#sorry for the short drabble?#kasndkansd i have emotions over a simple thought i had#the tragedy for someone eternal to fall for someone who's here for only a brief moment eats away at me hhhh#it started with a funny thought of IF neuvillette needs to carry a fake vision for some reason after laughing at the archons for it#and then i remembered how people like kazuha would hold onto their loved one's masterless vision after they died#one thing led to another and now we have some wriolette angst with neuvillette cherishing wrio's masterless vision#after his inevitable passing#and idk if its just the traveller or if its even canon#but i like to think that neuv being a sovereign he would be able to hear the ambition of one's vision and maybe just maybe#he can use wrio's masterless vision to listen to his voice albeit ever so softly
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projecting on luffy again. get bited.
#zolu#luzo#one piece#p.s. i claimed to maximum amount of straw hat badges but im only allowed to display them on my main account 😥 they are with me in spirit#p.p.s. have you ever bit a soft upper arm#i think zoros unflexed muscly upper arms would be the most stimmy thing in the world to chew on#me when i see the pumpkinhead halloween luffy world collectible figure. bite.#or some of the unreleased gear5 figures esp the world collectibles#okay maybe im on a world collectible figure kick i just think they are sooooooooooooooo!!!! (≧∇≦) ( ๑ ˃̵ᴗ˂̵)و ♡#the markup to buy them used is insane tho ;__; so i just love them from afar#honorable mention to the new 20th anniversary action pose luffy with the haki arm and the big big fighting grin#and all babygirl zoros which i what i call zoro wearing any sunglasses but mostly filmz and filmgold sunglasses zoro#and when i see any art of my boys in their cowboy fits!!!!!!!#GGAAAAAH IM SO EXCITED I bought the ao cowboy shimmer print had to get it sent to someone in the states who will then ship it to me ;__;#<3 <3 <3 soon i will hold them. need to get some sort of wall display going for them and my zolu mail#okay okay ive ranted about a million things in the tags now. hope you enjoyed the bited. byeeeee
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about illario working with the venatori, we can't forget that elgar'nan gifted him blood magic, so I do think that he somewhat influenced him and that's why he's so much more vindictive and jealous in comparison to tevinter nights. I don't mean that he's being mind controlled, but it's a bit like cyrian, a god just amplifying those negative emotions in you and promising power and glory can push a person to that edge and to make stupid af decisions.
im also not forgetting that zara line in inner demons where she talks about an envy demon. like. why an envy demon in specific...there's THINGS between zara and illario that were not shown
no literally if you get me talking about illario + envy + the possibility of getting him possessed, you will have me here for fucking ever. a non mage doing blood magic (any magic at all) is really weird and interesting to me and i don’t remember an example of this happening before (feel free to correct me tho lol. i’m discounting possessions and dwarves)
i had started wildly theorising after bloodbath that he had been possessed and he was tapping into the fade using an envy demon. especially like you said, zara mentions it, AND because i swear there’s a codex in the ossuary where it mentions an envy demon whereas spite is obviously determination, right? so i thought it was a breadcrumb trail to a big “illario is being influenced and doesn’t even know” reveal— same as you anon like great minds am i right— but i’m not sure there is actually any evidence of that lol. like maybe if you squint but i do believe it was explained away by “oh yeah, and elgarnan let him do special blood magic”
it does also make sense to me that illario can only control lucanis, due to being part of the same family. a bloodline thing, and it is very poetic to me that their shared family connection in caterina is what allows him to control lucanis, even for a moment lol. spite being the extra magical boost that lucanis needs to block that out ALSO makes sense to me so i’m not too fussed abt these details lol🤔
the envyllario in my heart also gets spectral weapons for himself. lucanis gets wings, illario gets talons, PLUS green-purple are complementary colors so it would have been really fun to see them clash with their spirit/demon-powers. the talon thing is also a kind of reflection of his end-goal desire, how envy demons already have those freaky hands, and it manifests as claws and is a much more aggressive, strength-augmenting manifestation (as opposed to manoeuvrability and speed-augmenting that spite’s wings give lucanis.) anyways that's what the diagram above is supposed to be (this is extremely hot to me)
#have been waiting all day to get out of work to draw what i have not stopped rotating in my head#also drawing is not totally clear yes that is lucanis using one hand to hold back illario trying to claw at him yayyyyyyy#illario dellamorte#lucanis dellamorte#my art#dragon age#veilguard spoilers#sorry. i was going to reply to this yesterday but my friend finished the lucanis questline#we were discussing this for a bit so the reply is a little more in depth and thought out#also both of the remaining dellamorte heirs both being possessed is fun to ME .#forget house dellamorte being cooked we HAVE to make sure they’re burning and smoking and potentially even on fire#i wish we got to make the crows actually confront what a possessed heir would mean#but that is largely overshadowed in the game by caterina’s kidnapping#and also feels underused because nothing of note goes terribly bad#he doesn’t even draw any blood when spite tries to kill illario#truly wish lucanispite would have gone out of control and killed someone. idk who tho#maybe. lol. jacobus come here. i need you to die tragically
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boys cry. real men weep.
#homestuck#hom3stuck#home2t4ck#home24uck#dirk strider#jake english#dirkjake#admin draws#fanart#got the urge at like midnigjt to draw this so i ended up staying up til 2 😜#two for three on drawing jake english just sobbing his eyes out recently. ans youll see the 2nd one tomorrow#jake is just. hes a crybaby to me. the main way i can see him having initiative in a relationship#is needing and seeking out comfort#dirk may think hes not a great person for this but to jake its everything. he soaks up the fact he has someone to hold him#and dirk marvels at the excuse to hold another human being and having someone trust him enough to be an anchor#some extra thoughts. i know i had more when i just drew it so id better start writing tags before shunting posts into drafts
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OH BUGGER
#good omens#can the universe kiss him on the top of the head for me on at least someone should#just drove anyway <33#ik it's season two eve happy season two eve to everybody who reads this!!#i need to HOLD ON TO A PLOTLINE TO KEEP MY THOUGHTS OFF OF IT FOR NEXT FEW HOURS this is so exciting ahsjjajjxj#rocking back and forward making sounds
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all I wanted was to save them... (ID in alt)
#nicholas d wolfwood#trigun#trigun maximum#tw blood#let me know if there's any other tags i need to use!!! not sure if it counts as gore#ruporas art#*vash voice* YOU ARE NOT WRONG/LOST WOLFWOOD!!!!!!#i think very often about ch 49 where wolfwood thought it was fr over for him for that brief moment. he was already bearing with so much#fatigue that it wasn't going to be enough for him to fight back properly.. and ough... augh..... for the first time after bearing that cros#someone saved him. someone saved himmmm AUGHHHH <-- guy who can't be normal about it even though its been 7 months since i read it#but he's suffered alone for so long and continued to do so because it's all he ever knew in those short years#and its devastating. his one and only desire was simple and it was still difficult for him to reach T_T#anyway... i love him... holds him tenderly in my palms
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OKAY YALL IM SEEING LOADS OF NEW WOLVERINE FICS BUT GOD DAMNIT WHERES THE WOLVERINE DEADPOOL EIFFEL TOWER FIC ALREADY 😭😭😭😭
#wolverine#wolverine x reader#deadpool x reader#wolverine x deadpool#Wolverine x Deadpool x reader PLSSSSS#god please someone write this fic I know Wolverine is hot but so is wade in the suit#deadpool#Wolverine x Deadpool fics#Wolverine Deadpool movie#Wolverine x Deadpool x reader#I need a hero#I’m holding out for a hero to write this#pls tag me if you do I’m begging
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canonically, percy isn't aware of the crushes people have on him until it's too obvious to deny — like when annabeth kissed him, or when nico straight up told him. and since percy isn't aware of rachel's crush on him until the beginning of tlo, that means there was a point in time when rachel was actively trying to get with him and he had no idea. and it's not even his fault lol. he just only saw her as his good friend and just thought her advances were her being friendly. i just have to see this in action.
#percy jackon and the olympians#pjo#pjo text post#pjo headcanon#percy jackson#rachel elizabeth dare#just imagine rachel taking percy to an expensive event and holding his hand#and percy's all:#'oh my friend is probably anxious of big crowds. let me hold her hand because friends help each other in their time of need🥰'#or rachel taking any chance she gets to grab his bicep or touch his shoulder#and he's all:#'rachel is a very affectionate person. it's cool tho. so am i when i'm around people i care about. rachel is such a cool friend🥰'#i desperately need someone to write a fic or sum lol
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#windscream#starblade#humanformers#maccadam#i designed them the way i would want to get with both so dont @ me#dude i cant find my old transformers sketchbook#im so mad because i already had human windscream designs#let me be lazy pleaaaaaaaaaaase#whatever its ok its ok i have 3 designs for human starscream and 1 for human windblade.#hes high maintenance#starscream#windblade#wait so now that ive drawn this can i get another fellow shipper to hold my hand when i reread TAAO for this year? its time for annual read#i cry about it for days. i need emotional support. or at least someone else to cry with me#i like to specifically read until TAAO and then stop#and then i rot in bed daydreaming about post-canon fix-its. where i dont fix shit. theyre both in extreme pain#but right now yknow what i want? i want ss locked up in wbs house. bro has good mental health. gains a little happy weight#and i want wb re-elected again and again and cybertron in the golden again. arts and culture thriving. many institutes for higher education#the titans are chilling and not ruining wbs life. much luck and prosperity to them both#hitting my head against a wall. why cant i have this#ok brb time to read hurt/comfort fanfic of wbss
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To my fellow US Americans: If you are planning on arming yourselves because of the election results and what might be on the horizons, I urge you to be a responsible gun owner.
Take as many classes as you can. Get certified in gun safety, even if it's not required to own a gun in your state. Get a gun safe. A good gun safe. Lock your gun up. Don't leave it armed. Don't wave your guns or gun-owning status around and don't pose with guns like they're toys. I'd say not to make gun buying an impulse purchase, either. You are investing in something that holds great potential risk to yourself and others - treat it like a responsibility.
I'm not here to argue about if Americans ought to exercise the second amendment in the way it currently exists. That's not the point - we have always had the second amendment, and I doubt it's going anywhere. I am more interested in making sure we don't see a surge in accidental, negligent gun ownership.
As a queer person in the US, I can understand the mindset behind people's spiked interest in arming themselves. I'm not arguing against that. As a child of gun owners, I know just how huge a responsibility it is to own a gun, and I hate the general attitude we Americans have about guns. Please don't contribute to that. If you own a gun, it is you inherent responsibility to take care of that gun (which is why I can't own a gun yet - I don't have the resources to pour into proper ownership).
#politics#us politcs#gun ownership#gun responsibility#gun tw#gun mention tw#sorry to lecture people but i hold a deep respect for death and therefore regard guns in the same way#i have few means to realistically arm myself - i don't trust who i live with and i don't have the money to invest in classes/safes/ect#part of me isn't even sorry about treating gun safety like this. i have seen way too many news stories where people didn't take it seriousl#and you know every time it hurts innocent people. it hurts children and bystanders and pets and people who never needed to experience that#be a more responsible gun owner than a cop. don't let yourself somehow be WORSE than a cop. that's a level of shame noone should replicate#i'm really scared that we will see more negligent gun ownership and that impacts all of us. i'm really not looking forward to it#i can't be an armed queer man if someone accidentally shoots me dead because they didn't know their gun was loaded
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