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currently unwell over Danger Days
#i need help this obsession is not normal#i am on the ground shaking convulsing snarling screeching foaming at the mouth#crayon talks#Danger Days#ddttlotfk#mcr#my chemical romance
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just finished malevolent relisten. needless to say the obsession has been rekindled tenfold its previous magnitude
#im so fucking isnane about this podcast#ok notable reactions:#john.. Oh my god. It’s so insane to go back and hear how much he’s changed in the way he talks and reasons and treats arthur#i love you john doe malevolent#fav trans allegory ever!!!!!#definitely relate to him a normal amount (liar voice)#and then. S2. I really need to make that animatic with lonesome dreams#godddd i forgot how painful the ep18 divorce was#and then!!!! the canna mentions helping noel escape!!! completely forgot about that part#s3. oh my god. absolute fav season. soooo many crazy moments.#like coda??? “You want him back.” “I want him safe.” You want him baaack.” “I want him back”#KAYNE I FUCKING HATE THAT RAT BASTARD.NEED TO BASH HIS HEAD IN WITH A ROCK BUT HES A FREAK AND HED ENJOY IT SO I CANT#piece od shit#and then 23/24??????? arthur’s happy cry-laugh???? dead#part 25. “I killed myself. For a voice in my head. Do you know how mad that sounds?” what if IIII killed myself#26. god. Then 27. And 28. Literally my fav season ever#followed closely by s4#ohhhh my god i forgot how hot the butcher is like genuinely#i completely forgot prelude somehow???? giggling kicking my feet twirling my hair the whole time#i need to be this homicidal gay irishman hes so hot oh my god#the 29 divorce. with the movie lmaoo#i need to draw them going on a night out and seeing a movie and getting dinner and drinks and dancing and (gets shot)#gooddddd i remember listening to 31 for the first time and being so fucking confused#PART 33. HIT ME RIGHT IN THE EMOTIONS. OH MY GOD. BELLA SALTZMAN I COULD’VE TREATED YOU SO MUCH BETTER#34….. i can’t speak about 34 without barking and howling like a rabid dog#dog. Is that a butcher refere(gets shot for the third time)#NOELLLLLL MY DARLING WIFE I LOVE HIM SO MUCH#this has just inspired me to keep writing hofth with ella tbh#lowkey don’t even get the obsession with oscar tho i can’t be talking#to each their own or whatever
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hey fictionkin? uh quick question
how did you find out about your kintypes? please boost this around i need answers
#“lets cosplay sammy lawrence” he said#“sure hope this doesn't awaken anything in me”#me 40 seconds before staring at myself in the mirror like oh. oh no.#i thought I just had a normal regular bendy obsession and the obsession with the music in game.#and in general.#um.#otherkin#alterhuman#fictionfolk#fictionkin#batim kin#hi i need help haha#boost#alterhumanity#nonhuman#therian#we aren't gonna think about this too hard until we get some other fictionkin confirmation#what do yall have going on#casposting#batim#sammy lawrence
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"their relationship is romantic" "their relationship is familial" "their relationship is platonic" you're thinking too narrow. their relationship goes beyond labels. the family is inherently queer. their platonic love is romantic. the erotic is familial. each one is the other and the other is them
#.txt#i've gotten to the point of relationship anarchy where i no longer understand the obsession with labeling relationships#there's a post floating around like 'it doesn't matter if you view them as romantic or platonic the point is that they love each other'#and i get the message. however may i propose that distinctions such as that don't even have to matter. consider#bold claim probably. but whatever i didn't have the choice to think about love in a normative way and as a consequence i have thoughts#of course i am thinking about wincest but it applies everywhere. jopzier even#jopson views crozier as a surrogate parent but in an inherently queer way. does that mean he want to fuck his mom? probably not#but the fixation and need for redemption turns the traditionally familial relationship into something far more#do you understand#once you leave the normative behind labels become useless#do sam and dean love each other romantically or platonically or familially? consider: it doesn't matter. there are no words to describe it#their love is queer in the sense that it extends beyond normativity. society holds no sway over them. they are ungovernable#i find it ultimately unhelpful to discuss fiction in normative terms when the characters themselves exist outside of normative society#shows like supernatural and the terror are perfect examples. sam and dean were never normal and franklin crew left normal behind#the arctic doesn't care if you fuck your mom. the impala doesn't care if you kiss your brother#this isn't really about anything i just saw that post the other day and i was like. why doesn't this Hit for me. well this is why#however it IS helpful to discuss fiction set within normative society in relation to normativity. it's relevant!#most stories are not however set within the bounds of normativity. that's kinda the whole point of a lot of fiction#baby i explore relationship anarchy in ways that you couldn't even imagine#<-tldr#i have a tendency to write essays in the notes every time i post something. sorry about that. it feels safer here and i am skittish
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Not to psychoanalyze (Yes, to do that), but given Armand's history, his only preconception of what love is, is to view it through pure desire. Love - and more broadly accurate, his life purpose for like half a millenia - as only he's ever known it, has only been experienced through transactional wish-fulfillment fantasies, of which he was the one typically sought after to complete such an exchange. And so naturally, in his own seeking, he replicates it. Though to some degree he also replicates the fantastical existence of fictional romances to compensate.
This lack of true experience of love without desire or fantasy, making his always unfilled 'objet petit a' - his object of desire - (a partner he desires a particular love from but does not receive to his fulfillment) - the catalyst for believing there is no other form of love to be had. That he can simply love the person, and be altruistic to their personhood, without them filling a role or desire for him, just would never occur. He's egotistical and overly pragmatic towards others by the fault of formative experiences denying him his own personhood. In being groomed into the object of desire, he no longer sees anyone else but as such. It's equal parts lack of self-awareness, meaning he simply has no way to counter-reflect upon himself the way one should behave, and developed coping mechanism, either consciously or unconsciously, taking on the role of those who inflicted upon him their desires to gain a sense of control over it.
In never escaping this cycle of love as desire, he always denies himself his full person, and simultaneously denies the personhood of others.
#tldr: Armand is ten trauma responses in a trench coat#the vampire armand#Armand#character analysis#IWTV#interview with the vampire#lacanian psychoanalysis? In my interview?#I'm NOT an expert by the way this is just for funsies#Also if he does love daniel and yet daniel gives him only the very thing he least desires and yet he still loves him after. That#would be like proof of a love beyond desire.#he might not realize this proof though or perhaps has a great anxiety about it's existence leading to cognitive dissonance#It would be proof as well if for whatever reason despite Daniel having every reason to hate him he does find something to love about him.#I think that kind of confrontation between them could lead towards a confrontation with the possible breaking of this cycle.#beyond daniel as well maintaining normal nonforceful noncommital relationships with others would just help him significantly#and I don’t even bring it up here but Armand falls victim to limerance I feel this involuntary obsessive affection towards someone’s#it’s to such that he values whatever can sustain this obsession more that the object of his obsession themselves#his deep fear of abandonment as only the immortal can bind another immortal to a sense of grounded place to surroundings#something tangibly like constant in a world that always and forever changes#to be abandoned by someone like you would be to be abandoned by the only world you can really know#that is if you need your world to be in relation to others and can’t actually concieve of yourself in it as a full self
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#I need to know if my obsession is normal help#obey me#obey me shall we date#obey me nightbringer#omnb#omswd#obey me polls#justobeymepolls
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Maroon sketchpile, colored too!
#oc#oc maroon#i dunno i may be officially not normal about him lol. but hey its fun to have an OC to be a lil obsessed with!#i need to know more about him!!! aka im prolly gonna keep going back to him. if i wasnt busy i wanted to request asks for him actually#even with a relatively serious character i cannot help drawing him silly here and there#sonic fancharacter#sonic oc#sonic the hedgehog#hogs tag#mmkart
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*trips and falls into ur asks*
what's your current thoughts on the resident best boy hanta sero
i luv this question, and ILOVEHIMILOVEHIMILOVEHIM i have a whole pinterest board dedicated to him man 🤕
he's just so AAAAAAAAGGGGGHHHHHHHHHHHHHH I NEED HIM SO BADDDDKANSDNA HE'S SO PRETTYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYY
mha is fr like my first anime and this man's my first love and out of all my anime crushes he's the only one that's not a blonde too?!?!?! that just proves the love I have for him
#IF HANTA SERO HAS NO LOVERS I'M DEAD IN MY COFFIN SIX FEET UNDER#I'M SO NORMAL ABOUT HIMMMM#I'M OBSESSED#I LOVE HIM#I CAN'T STOP TALKING ABOUT HIM#HANTA MY BELOVED#if i was in mha and was captured by a villain i'd be calling for cellophane non-stop#I NEED MORE MERCH OF HIM#LIKE I'M SO UPSET WITH THE FACT THAT MINETA HAS MORE MERCH THAN HIM?!?!?!?w>!:>w:!>"<#I EAT UP EVERY HEADCANON OF HIM TOO#ESPECIALLY the 2020-ish headcanon where people were saying he's latino or half latino?????#PLEASE#i need help#🖇️frans; [ answers !! ]#🖇️frans; [ moots !! ]#🖇️frans; [ sero brainrot ]#𐙚 kovu my love !!
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"Willow is a bad character because she's a mary sue" me when I missed the entire point of the show
#scrolling her tag and going insane#side note there is apparent a toh cr1t tag#I will not look at it for annoying takes to make fun off (affirmations)#at least i won't tonight who knows what the future holds#anyway im obsessed bc they were like#'imagine if willow was just a fan character in fanfics you'd all think she was pretty cringe huh'#NUHUH IM NORMAL UR WATCHING THE CRINGE CULTURE TOWARDS HARMLESS THINGS IS STUPID SHOW#also jesus fucking christ do you honestly think that a disabled coded woman of color being a badass is somehow overdone#like the reason ppl criticized MS's in the first place is bc we rlly do not need another white abled girlypop to be the super magical#chosen one and never be in the wrong ever#disabled ppl and woc don't GET that fantasy#also her powers aren't disproportionate to the universe at all#yes she gained a lot of power in two months but she's spent the past several years repressing her very potent magic to mold herself to#other ppls expectations the whole fucking thing is a metaphor for how disabled ppl who now have accomodations/can live their life on their#own terms do much better much faster than people give them credit for#and once again she's really powerful yes but she was for example nothing compared to Darius#she doesn't take on a coven head (though a battle between her and Terra would have been super interesting) and win and she can take care of#1-2 coven scouts on her own but needs support and help from others#if there are more of them#ALSO EVERYONE ELSE GETS MORE POWERFUL ALSO#why isn't Amity a mary sue for going from only making small abominations and needing a training wand to being like the 3rd strongest#abomination magic user? bc shes white?#their main complaint seemed to be that willow demasculated hunter tho#so like#lmao cope. seethe.
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tori sitting on the stairs is so. the lighting in heartstopper is awesome big fan of the blue/orange. is tori also depressed in the show i still think it would be so fucking funny to offhandedly mention her school burning down
#whisp whispers#charlie is the focus here yeah but if micheal gets introduced it does mean that solitaire is relevant#meaning 'toris school got set on fire bc some guy was that obsessed with her' and 'tori tried to kill herself' is like. possibly canon#and i think it's SO funny that there is a very large chance that all that Happened and just isn't being acknowledged#noooo charlie don't kill yourself ur so awesome&cool haha.... uh. oh hi tori. you can like. die i guess idk. not gonna stop you#like it really is just brushed past entirely in the comics. which is sad but also extremely funny like. conceptually. my older sister#almost killed herself in a state of mania. oh well. she has a boyfriend now though so that's cool!!!#<-well. depression i guess. some mixed of sleep deprivation mania and also just normal depression. she's awesome#i hope the ferris wheel coming out scene gets adapted. please please please please please. please. if that scene gets changed#because isaac came out first i'm going to .do nothing probably. but mann. man. tori spring 'im asexual' scene please. please. please.....#these tags are not relevant to the post anymore really. sorry for heartstopper posting my irl i usually talk abt oseman to hasnt seen it yet#um. circling back to my original point. if her depression is canon how do you think she feels sitting there knowing she can't get help#bc the resources need to go to her brother and she can't draw attention away from him. tori's tumblr makes an appearance also that was#scary. what do you mean tumblr is on tv in the year of our lord 2024. hello? .anyways brought it up because#'anon asked: who's ur best friend? / probably my brother. sad.'#man. she's so awesome. me if i was cool and british and a girl and had a brother and also if my school burnt down
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Oh how i desperately want to see the act 2 silhouette scene in the uk n2n. Ik its like a tiny moment visually but OH MY GOD the way people describe it. And all of its symbolism.
#next to normal#next to normal uk#jack wolfe#PLEASE I NEED TO SEE THISSS#next to normal my beloved#symbolism 🔥🔥🔥🔥#help im obsessed with this show#theatre#musical theatre
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flavio ☹️
#thisis positive im just thinking about him#hes so stupid i need help#Why did i have to get obsessed with that guy i couldve been normal i couldve been a vivian fanatic. or goombella. fuckin DOOPLISS? no.#flarvious.#I do love the other characters dont get me wrong. i love the xnauts alot for example i think about them so much#im just insane about the yellow man#its almost been a full year since this flavio fixation started can you believe it#😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭#i dont jnow what to say that hasnt been said already i always get so repetitive. i like that guy.alot#runs around in my room#not normal. not normal.
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me after taking 25 whole minutes to write out a two-sentence comment under a fic: I dunno maybe it sounds weird and I shouldn’t comment after all….
#“How to sound like a normal human when speaking”#Results inconclusive#fanfic#ao3 comments#will sit there writing out and then deleting all of the things I liked abt the fic until i can’t even remember what I read anymore 😭#IS THIS NORMAL OR DOES THIS ONLY HAPPEN TO ME HELP#I need to tell them everything I liked but I liked the whole thing and I can’t just copy and paste the fic into the comment section can i#“Wow loved this part” followed by the entire fic in quotation marks#yeah i proofread my own comments obsessively to make sure they don’t sound passive-aggressive hbu#sometimes writing a comment on ao3 is harder than writing an entire story#sometimes#writing in itself is a struggle actually why do it do it#“I love writing” (shaking with rage and incurable sorrow)#anyway this is a joke laugh now
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I need to stop falling in love with horrible people.
Anyway enjoy Crowe. Quite a lovely little minx.
Whenever i finish this it’ll probably be a long oneshot. Not that i expect anyone to read a Sibbi/OC fic lol
#kuri rambles#i completely obsessed with the Black-Briars and I don’t need help#I need to also work on Blomma/maven bc … you know……#I promise I like normal npcs.. like Farkas…… lol
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To me ideal kidnap situation would Kevin and Neil (in a semi non violent aiming for the ramson scenario). Neil who has actual torture experience and does not shut up vs Kevin who is trying to get a good grade at being kidnapped. The kidnappers will be lucky if the police arrives before Andrew does.
i adore you people i truly do where else am i going to get an ask that starts so earnestly with “to me the ideal kidnap situation is…” SERIOUSLY. i feel like anyone who has motivation to kidnap kevin would probably not have it to kidnap neil just because the way i see it who kevin’s at risk of getting kidnapped by is stalkers or raven cultists (either fans or athletes themselves) who would ultimately not really care much for neil. BUT after neil’s dad kicks the bucket and neil tells the fbi everything he knows i do think neil would be put under an IMMENSE target for being a tattletale, and that would be a genuine concern of the moriyamas because his death would be an investment lost
to me the ideal (and funniest) situation is someone trying to kidnap neil and accidentally taking kevin along without recognizing him. can you imagine? you’re here for some fucked up kid of the butcher who put your entire livelihood as a criminal in danger and you happen to accidentally take a FAMOUS ATHLETE along. you were already wrong thinking no one would notice neil’s disappearance and now you have to deal with kevin day’s face blasted on the news everywhere because he went missing. like it’s seriously ridiculous. i think this kidnapper would probably just kill them and be done with it if i’m honest but since we’re having fun i will say that this person will dream of carcerary life if they ever encounter andrew minyard. kevin and neil get saved by moriyama agents eventually but kevin is never getting out of his house again
#i cant stress this enough being kidnapped has got to be one of kevins biggest fears#because its not just being Taken Away its being Locked Away its being stripped bare of any and all external help its having no one else to#lean on#do you get it.#yes kevin already has been human trafficked once but a second time would really mess him up#i sincerely believe any fics where kevin gets kidnapped need to be followed by 28293 therapy scenes because he’s never living that doen#like he would become so paranoid and so afraid and so genuinely obsessive about never allowing it to happen again#AND NO ONE WOULD HAVE A GOOD TIME HONESTLY#but would i read such a fic? yes. of course#i wanna see neil being like its okay andrew it was normal and no one got hurt Really bad :)#while kevin is like. in the medical sense of shock. making plans in his head to change his entire life#around having this never happening again if he can help it#i want to see kevin agoraphobic and terrified and deeply obsessive. For my funnies#asks#kevin#neil
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Tbh the whole metal sonic having a hedgehog oc thing is honestly so good. Yes. The murder robot also deserves the joy of dressing up as a character she made. Reminds me of those sonic ocs that edgy kids used to make that were basically just like. emoer amy rose or something. And I mean that with the most love in the world cause i was one of them kids. He is kinda just an edgy kid too. They deseve the freedom
She literally is my emoer Amy Rose from when I was like nine she is just also in universe Metal Sonic's emoer Amy Rose. (her outfit is actually very vaguely meant to resemble classic amy's since like, metal cares about like three or four people enough to remember them by name and amy is one of them bc, y’know, sonic cd, she considers amy one of the few living things that was useful to her bc she used her as bait she is in universe literally designed after amy rose bc metal was trying to exploit sonic's heroism for like literally two minutes until they started bantering.)
#In the timeline I have set out Metal Sonic would be around 14-ish mentally at the time so yeah very much an edgy kid#like he's a pretty horrible person who enjoys people's suffering at that point but like. it’s kind of literally all she knows lol#they also kinda can't really Have the same set of morals as anyone else bc they think in a fundamentally different way#like its whole perception of reality is based around it having one specific purpose in life that it can’t change#everything is filtered through hir need to be superior and to destroy sonic#she's not an inherently evil being but she has very warped views on the world and a perspective that’s pretty alien#and very often unpalatable bc it’s defined by violence superiority obsession and obedience#but that doesn’t mean he can’t care for people or do good things it just means he normally approaches them in odd ways#usually through 'helping people makes me better at being the true sonic'#or 'these organic beings are useful and therefore it is logical to help them'#or sometimes just flat out boredom#coming into the world with a singular predefined goal fucks you up mentally basically#can u tell I’ve been thinking about them for like a decade
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