#i myself am a fan of harrison ford

[theageofsims]

Thank you @simohgi for tagging me... this'll probably be the most boring thing anyone reads today, lmao! 👀😂

Last song: "Bitter End" - Young & Sick

Favorite Color: maroon, purple, gray, and orange (these days)

Currently Watching: "1923" and by currently... I stopped somewhere in 2023, which was when I started and I have told myself I 'must' finish the last 4 episodes... and I haven't, but I need to, because it's currently in its second season and *SPOILER* I just left my man Jacob there like bleeding out on the kitchen table 😮😧... He made it to season 2, I know this, but still. 😂 Not a place to leave him!!!! *END SPOILER*

Last movie: Oh that's an easy one... Captain America: Brave New World

Currently Reading: Nothing, really. More so re-reading a fanfiction I'm working on that takes place in the 1950s/1960s so I have to make sure that I am mentioning things that actually existed then and also using words/dialogue in a different kind of way so it doesn't come across "modern"... if that makes sense... probably doesn't, but *shrugs* 🤷🏽‍♀️

Sweet, Spicy, or Savory?: Probably spicy and savory at this point in my life.

Relationship: Single as a Pringle

Current Obsession: Probably what I was obsessed with 10 or even 20 years ago? I'm one of those if I love it once, I love it forever types of people I've come to realize... lmao. I guess I'll just say things like music, The Sims, Harrison Ford acting in... anything really lmao, uh... writing fanfiction/stories, taking screencaps of my favorite characters in movies/tv shows, making gifs to post on tumblr, hanging out in Photoshop, making some Sims CC. Listen, my entire life is filled with my 'constant' instead of 'current' obsessions, I swear.

Last googled: Clement Frost / Father Winter, and other premades that end up in other people's Sims saves/games/story over on Reddit 😂 it's always wild reading those things...

Currently working on: Oh God, a million things. Really trying to figure out a new life routine for health reasons, better stress management... for health reasons, trying to not go insane...from health reasons, lmao 🤪🫠-- but on a lighter note, trying to figure out a way to square away a few (a million, really) things in my legacy save, trying to get to the end of the "Second" installment for The Age of Sims story so I can tie up loose ends (means nothing because I've been 'trying to tie up loose ends' for 3 years lmaoooo oops!!! 😆), and trying to get to writing at least up to 20 chapters of my most current Indiana Jones fan fiction (17 chapters so far...) and wondering if I should go into Photoshop and change the title image I threw together for it back when I was still at chapter 4 (but probably... not... because I like it the way it is, but time will tell!)

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I'm tagging anyone who sees this and would like to participate! No pressure!

[annieqattheperipheral]

Just watched saving sakic with lunch. I hadn't been clamoring to see it and only just sat down to do so bc my sis-in-law and i were watching trailers on prime video last night (why watch anything when you can just scroll thru listings and chitchat shittalk n comment💕) and she actually mocked me for calling myself an avs fan and not having seen it. Well then.

It is pretty interesting to watch sitting in 2024. Would the 2001 and 2022 cups have even happened without their star player turned vp then gm then president? Likely not. Pre-salary cap it would've destroyed colorado sports rep with this happening so soon after the nuggets collapse after losing their own star player (the doc explains this). Other star players (1996 cup winners) might've followed out. 2001 avs would've been in a rebuilding stage with five 1st round draft picks (received by nyr if avs hadn't matched the offer sheet) instead of being playoff contenders.

My biggest upset of the doc (beyond having to watch and listen to a bunch of old men at 1x speed) is not👏 enough👏 natemac👏 Truly upsetting. Every avs 2022 cup winning montage it was mostly EJ?? I mean yes ty ty🙏 we miss our horsegirl bring her home (was this a hint by the editor???) Nice nate shot at the parade, but that was at the end! puh.

One dude that was great to listen to was the mayor of denver (sry no not LOC) at the time this big huge beloved guy mayor webb, first black mayor of denver. Love that he understood what needed to be done but refused to be pushed around by the corporate men clamouring for a new arena and was like bish do the taxpayers even want to invest in you? Prove it.

It's not a spectacularly put together doc, has a very film studies student doc project vibe with stock image/ funny movie/reaction gif inserts. Also the worst thing is that they don't give much details on how much they raised from the revenue streams mentioned, so the resolution comes very fast once they mention where they got the money, and it's like what? i was just getting revved up for the climax and offer sheet deadline countdown, how did the climax just pass me by, i am so unsatisfied.

But that's all done on purpose bc that's not the climax at all!!!!!! Which is pretty neat! but like woof. Not as captivating as they might've hoped.

So am i glad i watched it? Yes

Would i watch again? No but i am inspired to watch the avs cup parade again!!

Should you watch it? Strong avs fan-- yes. Hockey doc lover-- yea why not. Casual hockey/entertainment/pop culture fan-- yea it's actually a cool case study of how entertainment/ pop culture/ business reputation works.

Also i want to know if avs players watched it, did they have a movie night at gabe's??

The big shocking spoiler reveal at the end:

if you're gonna watch it, idk treat yo'self, don't mess it up for yourself

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harrison ford himself saved joe sakic and I'm not even kidding.

Yes the movie air force one was the big mover n shaker, but it wouldn't have even had a chance if it weren't for harrison speaking his mind to the studio head to change the release date which led off the domino effect

[vanhelsingapologist]

I am submitting my formal request for folk music ~opinions~ ❤️

Folk music is another one of those genres that’s hard to pinpoint. It’s basically been merging with country and Americana for years. Further, are people asking for traditional folk? Folk metal? Indie folk? Baroque folk? But it’s all folk! Folk, folk, folk. I’ve written it so many times that it doesn’t look like a word. Anyway, I went contemporary/indie/roots folk for this. Started with more woodsy stuff, too.

• Empty Northern Hemisphere by Gregory Alan Isakov. Gregory Alan Isakov is one of those artists I adore and I think he pretty consistently nails it when it comes to folksy themes and instrumentation. His Weatherman album is pretty fantastic. He’s probably considered indie folk, if I had to put a finger on it.

• My Gal, My Guy by Darlingside. The first song I ever heard by them was called Harrison Ford, which is also pretty good, but there’s just something about this song! Also indie folk.

• Oats In The Water by Ben Howard. He has another great one called In Dreams. His earlier music sort of feels like standing in a dead forest. I can’t really explain it beyond that. His newer stuff is a bit more atmospheric, but it’s good.

• Bavarian Porcelain by Sea Wolf. His song Dear Fellow Traveller got some fandom airtime, but his whole discography is pretty good and soaked with forest imagery. My favorite album is probably White Water, White Bloom, but Cedarsmoke is very kind to me.

• Let This Remain by Alana Henderson. Henderson keeps making her way into my playlists. She sort of reminds me of Enya, sort of reminds me of something reminiscent of the Dresdon Dolls, but it’s just enough that she’s got this incredible unique sound.

• Francis by Haley Heynderickx and Max García Conover. This is another one that I have to physically restrain myself from looping. Their voices blend really well, and I’d also consider it my official endorsement of both their music. Heynderickx’s No Face and Show You A Body kill me and Conover’s collaboration on the everything in winter album is worth a listen.

• Deep Green by Marika Hackman. I feel like we can call Marika Hackman folk. Her voice is haunting, her lyrics stick, and she does really neat stuff instrumentally, and she had the folk sound. Not coffeehouse music, so I had to look to see what she’s categorized as. Alternative, it was. Her new album is less folksy, but We Slept At Last definitely is.

• Darlin Corey by Amythyst Kiah. If you haven’t heard any of her work, go listen as soon as possible. She’s got this deep, beautiful sound and writes about isolation in a way that really resonates. It’s hard to find artists who make folk that sounds a hundred years old, but she nails it every single time.

• Love Me Like You Used To by Lord Huron. Lord Huron is an old favorite, and I do think their Long Lost album is my favorite, despite Strange Trails being so well-known. Nothing makes you wanna awoo the way these guys do.

• Traveling On by The Decemberists. I’m a Decemberists fan first, person second. Sometimes I go about my day and “street side smokers, holy rollers” pops into my head at random. Hopefully, you will share my plight.

• Ofelia by Kiltro. Kiltro plays a mixture of shoegaze and Chilean folk. If that doesn’t sound like the best fucking time ever get AWAY from me. Creatures of Habit bumped all year before I graduated.

• The Weight by Amigo the Devil. Darker folk. I think he’s on a playlist called Murderfolk, which just about sums it up. I might put Amigo the Devil in the same camp as AJJ in terms of sound. Slightly different in lyricism.

• Northern Wind by Liza Anne. Their new stuff isn’t folk, but their old stuff is definitely indie folk. I sometimes describe them as drinking cold water, and I think that definitely sticks with their Two album.

As always, I have no idea what I’m talking about. Hope this is good!

[jbkrasinski]

@huntyfamz ...kind of a random introduction, but I saw you were filming the next installment of Blade Runner and I had to reach out and say how excited I am for that. Huge fan of the saga, I remember watching the original growing up and wishing I was Harrison Ford. Now that I've aged myself considerably, congrats on all of the success! I'm dying to watch Kinds of Kindness, too, so that's two of your filmography on my to-watch list.

[moonstruckwytch]

okay but i totally thought it was a weasley too in the finally drew this robe post u rbd

it is apparently hux from star wars (which i am also a massive fan of i will admit) but i was legitimately like…. ron???

AND THEN i was like “no ron wouldn’t wear something like that” … chaRLIE????

and then i checked the tags and felt very silly

[shannendoherty-fans]

In Touch, 2nd February 2015

I'm 43 and More Confident Than Ever

Hollywood's original bad girl on her former co-stars, kids and plastic surgery

Shannen Doherty was 19 when she burst onto the scene in the '90s TV phenomenon Beverly Hills, 90210 – and she quickly developed a "wild child" reputation, thanks to her turbulent love life and party girl ways. At 43, however, Shannen has settled down: She's been happily married to photographer Kurt Iswarienko for three years and tours the country with best pal and fellow Charmed alum Holly Marie Combs in the road trip series Off the Map With Shannen & Holly. She's also in the best shape of her life. "I feel amazing," Shannen tells In Touch's Rick Egusquiza. "I think in your 40s there's a confidence. You've done it, you've been there and you know what you want in a calm, peaceful way."

You're 43 and look amazing. How have you managed that?

SD: I was the girl who said, "I don't work out. I eat what I want." Then I turned 40 and my metabolism slowed down. Plus, after my father passed away [in 2010], I got depressed and didn't take care of myself. But now I embrace exercise.

What's your workout routine?

SD: My trainer, Kevan Watson, owns a gym called Box'N Burn. We do boxing and cardio, four times a week. And I'm trying not to eat such bad food. I've definitely become a healthier Shannen.

Now that you're in your 40s, have you considered plastic surgery?

SD: I haven't done anything yet. [Laughs] But I never say never.

In June, you told us you were considering adoption. How's that progressing?

SD: I can't even believe that I put that out there! Doing interviews on red carpets are tricky, man – they put this spotlight on you, you're like a deer in the headlights.

You travel around the U.S. in Off the Map; is itfun road-tripping with Holly, or has ittested your friendship?

SD: Actually, we've traveled a lot together over the years. We have small arguments about going here or there. But we work it out.

Have you also remained pals with some of your 90210 castmates?

SD: Yes, I ended up making some very good friends – Jennie Garth, Ian Ziering, Brian Austin Green.

What about Tori Spelling?

SD: Well, we have the same publicist, but I'm more social with Jennie.

Any regrets from those days?

SD: It was so long ago. I just look back and think, Wow, that was an amazing experience.

Are you open to a 90210 reunion?

SD: Possibly. But doing the new version [it ran from 2008 to 2013], I think I've already given some closure to fans who loved the show.

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ON A LIGHTER NOTE... Shannen answers our silliest questions!

What's your porn star name (childhood dog + childhood street)?

Curious George McVay.

What's your go-to karaole song?

"Sweet Home Alabama" by Lynyrd Skynyrd.

What's your guilty pleasure?

Truffle fries.

What did you have for breakfast this morning?

Coffee.

Who's your biggest celebrity crush?

Martin Scorsese. He's a director more than a celebrity but I love him.

What's one fact about you that would surprise us?

I am very sensitive.

Biggest splurge purchase ever?

My house,and then my house again since I'm redoing it from the studs up.

Which celebrity hasmade you most starstruck?

Harrison Ford.

What was your childhood nickname?

"Sugarplum" – but only my dad could call me that!

[thevibraniumveterans]

YOU’RE INVITED TO HAN AND LEIA’S WEDDING IN STAR WARS: THE PRINCESS AND THE SCOUNDREL – EXCLUSIVE REVEAL

WE HOPE YOU CAN ATTEND WHEN THE NEW BOOK BY BETH REVIS ARRIVES THIS SUMMER.

By Kristin Baver, Feb 14, 2022

We’ve seen the courtship of Princess Leia unfold on screen. Now, a new book cordially invites fans to attend the wedding of Leia Organa and Han Solo.

This Valentine’s Day, StarWars.com is thrilled to reveal Star Wars: The Princess and the Scoundrel, a new novel from author Beth Revis arriving this summer. Set just after the events of Star Wars: Return of the Jedi, the story begins on the forest moon of Endor, where Han proposes in the elation of the rebel victory against the Empire. After a ceremony at the site of the victory celebration at the end of the film, the newlyweds depart for a honeymoon aboard the Halcyon starcruiser, the luxury vessel at the heart of the new Star Wars: Galactic Starcruiser experience at Disney World Resort. In their most desperate hour, with the war still raging but the Empire nearing its last gasp, the couple must outwit the Imperial remnants clinging to power.

StarWars.com recently sat down with Revis to talk about her love for Leia, how her husband helped refine the dialogue for Han Solo, and the power of love amid the chaos of a galaxy at war.

StarWars.com: First things first: congratulations on your new book! You’ve written some amazing Star Wars heroines including Padmé, Ahsoka, and Jyn. What was your reaction to learning you would get to write Leia — and fresh off the rebel victory at Endor no less?

Beth Revis: I have often said that my two favorite Star Wars movies are Return of the Jedi and Rogue One. Getting to write Jyn Erso was a dream come true, and my first journey into writing for Star Wars. But Leia has been my hero for as long as I remember — I grew my hair long to be like her, and I even had a brother named Luke! She was my princess when I was a child, and she became my general when I became an adult. I can only hope that I’ve done her justice in this story.

StarWars.com: How did you approach this story?

Beth Revis: The first thing I did was watch all three of the original movies again (how am I lucky enough that this is my job?!). My initial instinct was to focus on Return of the Jedi since this book picks up right after it, but as I dug into the story, I found myself watching The Empire Strikes Back on repeat. The emotional beats of Han and Leia’s relationship start to spin out in Empire — it’s not just the famous “I know,” line, but it’s the way Leia relates how she doesn’t trust Lando and Han responds with seriousness, the way their trust builds, all the moments that lead up to their confession of love. By the time Return of the Jedi picks up the story, Leia’s been left with that confession long enough to get comfortable with the idea of it. It’s one reason why the relationship between the two works — Leia was always going to be someone who had to think about something like love, and Han was always going to be someone who just followed his gut. The time lapse between those two movies helped them both evolve so that they’re on the same page by the time Han is unfrozen.

I took pages and pages of notes on their dialogue, their mannerisms, the subtle ways they interacted. Carrie Fisher and Harrison Ford are simply brilliant actors, and they gave me a lot to work with! I wanted this to be a story where the past was still present, but they were moving forward into new territory. It’s an emotional journey — the aftermath of war always is, but so is the new foundling steps of love.

StarWars.com: Of course, there’s plenty of time to explore my favorite scruffy-looking nerf herder. What did you find most challenging about writing Han and Leia as individuals and as a couple?

Beth Revis: I tested every single line of banter out loud as I wrote it! Thankfully, I married my own scruffy-looking nerf herder, so I’d corner him while I was writing and we’d go back and forth with the dialogue to make sure it sounded correct. Bickering is Han and Leia’s love language, after all! I can happily blow up ships in space, but finding the right balance between funny and romantic in their dialogue was perhaps the most difficult thing of the whole book.

For Han, I wanted to make sure the emotion was still true behind his bravado. No one has ever accused Han of being in touch with his feelings, but he’s a smart guy with strong instincts, and he knows what he’s doing, whether that’s kissing a girl or shooting a blaster. So he is aware that his relationship with Leia can never truly be uncomplicated, but he still has enough confidence to think that it’s worth the try.

On the flip side, I needed to ensure that Leia’s leap of faith in her personal life rang true. I’ve always seen her as someone who can lead troops better than her own heart, someone who’s compartmentalized herself for her own survival. Unwinding that became crucial, and I found the most helpful resources for those feelings in the comics, particularly the Star Wars comics that bridged The Empire Strikes Back and Return of the Jedi, but also in [Marvel’s comic book series] Shattered Empire.

Han had to learn how to build some walls, and Leia had to learn how to tear some down.

StarWars.com: Hope was an important undercurrent in your book Rebel Rising, which explored Jyn Erso’s life before the main events in Rogue One. What are some of the recurring themes readers can expect in this tale?

Beth Revis: One thing that I love about the new movies is that Leia and Han don’t actually end up in the idyllic perfect family life that we like to think of as a “happily ever after.” Instead, they have to work — for decades — to remain in love, and they consistently choose to make that happen. Even if they’re apart, they’re still in love, not because of fate, but because they choose to be. And that’s stunning. That was what I wanted to show about them as a couple — that they had a choice to make, and they chose each other.

It’s a variation of hope, in a way, which is the founding principle of all things Star Wars. The idea that every day, we have a choice. And we just have to continue to choose love and hope. At any point, we can walk away when things get hard. But choosing not to — that’s what real love is about.

StarWars.com: We’ve already seen Han and Leia cleaned up for the Medal of Yavin ceremony. What can you tell us about their wedding as you’ve envisioned it?

Beth Revis: I don’t want to spoil anything as the wedding is possibly my favorite scene of the whole book, but I will say that when Ewoks are involved, nothing ever goes to plan!

In all seriousness, though, what makes the wedding scene my favorite is the ring ceremony. The rings become an important symbol throughout the book — I’m being vague on purpose so I don’t spoil anything, but I think it’s true of all societies, whether they be on Earth or in a galaxy far, far away, that ceremonies become a necessary component of culture. We ascribe value to specific moments, and we bring up importance to symbols from those moments, including wedding rings. A wedding is like a bright star in a person’s life — a fixed point of light. And that’s true for Han and Leia as well.

Star Wars: The Princess and the Scoundrel arrives August 16 and is available for pre-order now.

[bonesgadh]

The problem of using original characters as bait for a sequel and why I think that, so far, Yashahime is not doing it right.

When you are planning a sequel I understand the need to use the original characters to get people interested in the new story, especially if the original is very popular and close to a lot of people’s hearts. Inuyasha is very special to me because I have been a fan since I was five years old and it has helped me through many difficult moments in my life, and I know it is special to a lot of people as well. 

 From the moment Yashahime got announced they stated the story would be about the three girls. However, the reason why virtually every single fan I saw on social media were asking themselves: “okay, but where are the originals?” was because of a very simple reason: they wanted you to wonder where they were literally from day one. Moroha’s bio straight-out said she was Inuyasha and Kagome’s daughter but that she didn’t remember them because she had grown up alone. 

I’m gonna use two examples I’m familiar with to try to explain myself: Harry Potter and Star Wars.

Let’s imagine The Cursed Child never existed and that they do a movie sequel to Harry Potter instead. If they don’t show Harry, Ron and Hermione in the trailer, the obvious question among the fans would be: “where are they?” It wouldn’t matter if they already stated that the story will have new protagonists and a new plot, you only care about seeing them again because they are the characters you are familiar with. Also if they hint that their kids grew up alone and that they don’t remember their parents, you would immediately ask yourself what happened to them. It is narrative 1.0.

Even though I hated The Cursed Child, Rowling knew the Harry Potter fandom very well. There’s no doubt whatsoever that Albus and Scorpius were the main characters in Cursed Child, but we still got the golden trio in a supporting role aiding the new protagonists without stealing the spotlight. 

Now, moving on to Star Wars: one of the main reasons why the sequel trilogy crashed and burned was because they failed to give a proper closure to the original characters. Luke was too OOC, Han was in The Force Awakens only because they begged Harrison Ford to appear, and Carrie’s unexpected death got in the way of giving Leia closure. Also fans will never forgive them for not giving us at least one moment of the original three together. My guess is people in charge of the sequels hoped the new characters would be strong enough to carry the story on their own, which kinda failed because their stories weren’t consistent through the trilogy and the shadow of the original trio was too powerful.

If I had to guess, I would say the people in charge of Yashahime made the same mistake. They hoped fans would fall in love with the three girls and that they would be strong enough to carry the sequel to a story as famous as Inuyasha. Don’t get my wrong, I really like the girls, but I don’t love them the same way I loved the Inugang. And I know it is not a competition, but let’s be honest: you can’t help but compare every single detail, from the music to the characters. I don’t know if it’s a script issue, but if every single episode your fans end up asking themselves: “cool, but where is the original group?” you are not doing a good job at writing strong characters than can carry the weight of a sequel on their backs.

Three weeks ago we were fucking baited with that teaser of Miroku because they knew we would go batshit crazy, and they only gave us like two seconds without proper context. That same episode we got a brief mention of Sango and a flashback to an episode of Final Act. Since then, silence. Shippo hasn’t been seen or mentioned at all, and neither have Kin’u and Gyokuto. Now, if there’s nothing wrong with them and it turns out they are just chillin’ by the beach, then why the need of teasing us? They clearly wanted us to go crazy because of all the mystery and that is just mean.

Same goes for Sessrin shippers. I don’t ship that pair by any means; however, even I am annoyed by all the hints and teasing that screams at you that Rin is the mother but the people in charge didn’t have the balls to confirm it from the start. I hate when they tease fans and use us to get high ratings in order to make a reveal that IS SO DAMN OBVIOUS. I mean, SHE IS THE ONE INSIDE THAT DAMN TREE!!!

I kept telling myself “don’t freak out, we are only 2/3/4/5/6/7 episodes in.” Also Yashahime will have 24 episodes and if they are following the classic structure it means we already saw the first third of the story, a.k.a the set-up. BUT this is also a red flag for them. The fans are pissed off and even those of us who were like “guys, chill out. There’s no way they will reveal something important so soon” are getting impatient and mad af. 

In conclusion I like the show and I will continue to watch it, but I sincerely hope the second third of the story improves and they stop rushing shit for the sake of it. Also that they make these girls a bit vulnerable, I’m tired of them being so damn strong (I already ranted about this last week).

[brkfstgrrrls]

@2187s LEFT A NIGHTMARE AFTER THE TONE: 🥝🥝🥝🥝🥝 !!!

@rapturcd - Where to start to describe a friend? Nox is a close online friend whom I’ve had the pleasure of following for the last few years now. We’ve been able to keep up with each other from blog to blog, and continued to do so when she revived this blog right here, a Bioshock oc. I’ll admit that when I saw her move here, I had no clue what the hell Bioshock was other than some video game. I’ve been graced with so many exciting details, passion has been poured into every message and post she makes upon the dash, it instantly made me a fan of this little franchise. Though the Bioshock rpc is small, Nox has found a way to make it her own. Her blog is filled with so much helpful information, and one look at her extremely well thought out, and detailed OC page will tell you all you need to know about this vast universe. With every OC she makes, it’s done with love and care, but something about Nicholas is truly special. Aside from being from one of the most interesting and unique fandoms, Nicholas was crafted with more detail than the gods could give any living being. Nox is also a plot driven writer, I know I am too so if that’s your thing, you’ll be glad to know not only is she a peach but she’s very fun to bounce ideas with! She helped me learn so much about Bioshock, it made plotting feel effortless and an overall thrill. If you don’t follow her, not only are you missing out, but I’ll personally be offended on her behalf.

@segadore - It’s been a few years now, and I have not been able to get Fawn off of my tail, damn you— I’M KIDDING, no but really, Fawn and I have been buddies for the last few years, and I started following her on her Steve Harrington blog. I’ve already gushed in the past about how much I love her Steve, so in the same way she’s so kindly embraced my OCs, I’d like to do the same with hers. Let’s start off with this: Fawn is the one person I see constantly and without a second thought embracing all writers, you could write an oc, canon muse from a different fandom, female oc, doesn’t matter– she will love them like her own. You speak with Fawn ooc, and you’ll feel at home, you’re never a bore nor bother. They’re one of the few people in this RPC I feel so genuinely safe around, and they make me feel like a valued writer even when I’m being ignored by others on the dash, I feel important, and it’s thanks to them. Fawn writes a very amazing muse named Mykah, from what can only be described as a non-existent fandom. I learned about Dead Like Me through her, and I’ve since been completely hooked on this concept and universe. Mykah is a very special, and well-thought out muse. He’s a soul collecting reaper from California, and he’s got so much wit, charm, and attitude, how could you not love the guy? He’s got a tough exterior, but he’s so funny as well, you can tell when you’re reading something Fawn wrote, they have such a unique tone, your eyes will be glued to the screen instantly as soon as you see a reply in your inbox. From the bottom of my heart, I hope we continue to write for years to come. If you want some fresh content you’ve never seen before, and perhaps one of the kindest friends, with the most goddamn creative mindset, please, go look at Fawn’s content. For the love of GOD go look.

@wyntered​ - You know how when your favorite musician or celebrity makes a post on Instagram or twitter, you go “Ah! There’s _____ again, classic ol’ _____, love them.” and you get all giddy in your seat, overwhelmed just by their presence even if it isn’t for you? That’s how I feel everytime I read each and everyone of Chantelle’s posts. I’ll be the first to admit that I don’t get to read all of my rp partners replies to other folks, sometimes I’m too busy, or honestly? I don’t feel like it. But the amount of effort and research they’ve put into this, how could I not? I love reading both her replies to myself and other people, I love reading her meta posts and headcanons, because I know it’ll not only be helpful but just wonderful. It’s also so nice to see how much care she’s put into writing such a complicated man like Bucky Barnes, her portrayal is uniquely her own, and she’s truly made sure to set a realistic example for others. I’ve learned so much, and it’s thanks to her. They’ve also been so gracious in writing with my own Marvel OC, Alice, and never act annoyed or bothered. That’s not something you often find with people who write popular canon muses, but it’s something I’ve been lucky enough to find with Chantelle. Do yourself a favor, buckle up, and get excited. Go and give her a follow, because I just know in my heart she’ll be more than happy to embrace you with open arms. Thanks for giving me the most iconic and kickass friendship for my daughter! It’s probably obvious to y’all by now that I love Chantelle’s work, so you know this message is genuine.

@capnsolo - I found out a few weeks ago that Kayla and I have been mutuals for years, and neither of us knew it. We’ll ignore that for now. I know Kayla as the most fantabulous Han Solo mun on the block, no really, she’s amazing. We found each other again because I writer princess Leia ( over on @/hopescorned ) and well… SCOUNDRESS! Together, we’ve managed to create our own little version of canon to their storyline, and we continue to develop it each time we speak. I’m not very good at articulating my thoughts, but my point is, Kayla is a very skilled, and creative woman. She’s smart, she knows how to use canon as a crutch, but doesn’t rely on it. She let’s her brain do the talking, and she knows how to collaborate well with others, and happens to be very open minded and flexible to other people’s muses. No matter how outlandish the idea might be for a story, Kayla will find a way to work with it. I’ve never seen someone capture Han’s tone so well, each time I read one of her replies, I can truly see and hear Harrison Ford acting each of the stories we create, out in my head. She has a way with her words, and she’s a true talent. Please, even if Star Wars isn’t your think, at least give her work a chance, it’ll be a pleasant surprise.

@nostlgic - Ash & I have been writing together since February, and the day we started speaking, they were one of the kindest souls I’ve been graced with speaking to. A passionate writer, you’ll be pleasured to see that their muse list is rather long, and diverse. Ash is the kind of writer that is always up for the challenge. You have an OC no one is interested? Cool, Ash is now interested in writing with them. You have a crazy rp idea you want to pursue? Ash is the first in line to give it a try. Whenever I write with Ash, I know it’s going to be a new and exciting adventure, each story is different from the next, and with each muse, they shift tones effortlessly; Stephen King would envy them. I made a post probably a month or two ago about how I wanted to write with an Edward Scissorhands, and within approximately 10 seconds, they volunteered to add him to her muse roster, and a mutual friend of ours even went to comment “I was going to tag Ash but it seems she’s already here” and why is that? That’s just the kind of person Ash is, and I truly love it. Go and peep her profile, because I can guarantee there’s at least one muse you’ll want to write with.

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[myevilmouse]

Hi, how long have you been in the SW fandom? How did you get into it?

Thank you so much for this ask anon!  I love asks, even those that reveal that I am a fandom ancient, like this one.

Although I was unable to see Star Wars at the movies in 1977, my entire family was pretty obsessed when it came out.  My brother had all the action figures and comics, and my mother was the world’s biggest Han Solo fan. 

We played with blasters and Kenner playsets and invented all kinds of great adventures for Luke and the gang.  So I was a fan of Star Wars even before I saw the movie!  I had the long-playing storybook record and the picture books, a couple action figures of my own, promotional tie in items from fast food chains, whatever I could get.  

And then…Empire came out and that solidified my love of the franchise and characters.  We went as a family to see Empire in the theatre…which you can read about here.  And then Return of the Jedi was released, which just was the perfect ending to a perfect fairy tale for me.  And I think Luke Skywalker’s legs kickstarted my puberty, too. 

Luke was always my favorite—although my mom claiming Harrison Ford as her own may have influenced the choice, I’m pretty sure I would have picked the Jedi regardless.  I’ve always been a sucker for blond boys in black.

So anyway, Star Wars was a real Thing in my family, growing up.  Going back at least to 1980, for me personally.  When VHS became a thing, we got those movies and it was a Thanksgiving weekend tradition to watch them all.  We were all crazy fans, quoting lines and devouring the EU/Legends books when they started coming out.  I was just saying to some friends today that my mom read Heir To The Empire before I did—she had dibs and then the kids could read.

I stuck with the EU novels for a long time…but lost interest as the adventures got weirder and less focused on my man…but everything Star Wars imparted joy for me.

TL;DR my love of Star Wars has basically been with me my entire life.  In college, I wallpapered my dorm room with printed out copies of the scripts.  Star Wars was my comfort food, something I could turn to when whatever else I was currently obsessing over lost its appeal. 

So to your question re: fandom...I wasn’t really active in “fandom” because fandom as we know it today wasn’t a thing…people were waiting 10 minutes for one picture to load Netscape and reading fic on usenet back in those days.  There weren’t the same outlets as there are now…

Fast forward past the Special Edition rereleases (I disapprove of every single change, for the record), the prequels (yes I was at every single midnight release), the Disney purchase and subsequent annulment of the EU, and then the sequels (only TFA midnight for me that time), although I saw them all in the cinema.  And learned the true meaning of this wonderful gif by @jadedjo

So...

I started to care less about Star Wars when it became clear that the stories that were “my sequels” wouldn’t be “real sequels” for Disney, but what yanked me into fandom as I am now was my friend who was writing Rogue One fanfiction was getting harassed and flamed by people who seemed to think it was their job to police content on AO3.  I hadn’t ever even heard of AO3 but I was pissed.  Fanfic is for fun and everyone should write what they want to write!  I don’t have to like it, but I will defend anyone’s right to write whatever crazy hijinks they want Luke to get up to!  So I decided to check out this website called AO3, defend my buddy, and then I got sucked in.  I looked at everything like...nah, there can’t really be Predator/human porn (there is and some of it is ... not awful), and omg seriously Leia/Chewbacca!??  I read Sherlock and GoT and Labyrinth and all kinds of fic, I read stories by super talented writers and ultimately was convinced to write something myself. 

I had always liked writing, and now I could just indulge.  It became my primary hobby and crowded out all else...  That was back in … 2018.  I got on tumblr in 2019 and I’m still here, hanging out, sharing the Luke smut and Thrawn lust with y’all.

Thank you so much for the ask anon!  I’m happy to be in this fandom with so many wonderful people!!!  I hope I answered that question and sorry I got a little long on ya.  Just remember...

[maine-writes]

May The Von Be With Ye

"Star Wars! Star Wars!" Vonvon chanted excitedly, giddy with anticipation.

Today was a special day for Vonvon and for Star Wars fans everywhere. It was May 4th, and not just any May 4th, but Star Wars Day.

They remember being introduced to Star Wars like it was yesterday, except it was almost a couple decades into the future. They remember their father dusting off the old collector's edition. They remember the blaring anthem of the opening crawl sequence, the thrill of battle against a giant space station, and Han Solo.

Today, they plan to watch all of Star Wars, from the prequels to the sequels. Plus Clone Wars and Rebels. They'll have to resist the temptation of telling Steven and Connie about Boba Fett.

"Who's ready for an excrutiatingly long amount of time absorbing a metric ton of storyline?" Connie asked, equally as excited as Vonvon.

"I am!" Vonvon declared.

"Then, we'll end with Rise of Skywalker." Steven said.

"Despite what people said about it," Vonvon mentioned, "I was okay with it."

"You saw it already?" Connie asked. "How? It's brand new?"

"I...uh..." Vonvon uttered, begining to sweat bullets. "Wiki'd it! That's right! Wikipedia spoilers, cuz I was curious why the early watchers hated it! H-Hey, how'd you guys get into Star Wars?

"My dad introduced it to me." Connie said. "Then I introduced it to Steven."

"There's something about Darth Vader revealing that he's Luke's father that I relate to." Steven added, consciously oblivious to the haunting parallels.

"Do the Gems watch?" Vonvon inquired curiously.

"Amethyst likes Harrison Ford." Steven replied. "Apparently met him once. Pearl used to point out how it's a poor representation of space. And Garnet, she watches, I think?"

"Peridot? Lapis?" Vonvon continued.

"Peridot has a ongoing fanfic." Connie said.

"And a comic." Steven added. "And a Discord."

"Didn't she kick you off it?" Connie asked, knowing the obvious answer.

"All I'm saying is Obi-Wan deserves his own show."

"And Lapis?" the child repeated.

"She seems alright with it." Connie said, patting Steven's head. "But I don't think she's really into it into it."

Then an old memory popped into the child's head. One that has had their curiosity for years.

"Hey Connie." they began, "I heard you've been practicing the lightsaber forms."

"You are?!" starry-eyed Steven asked, surprised by his girlfriend's secret hobby.

"W-who told you?!" Connie said, flustered. "Did Pearl say something?"

"Yeah, Pearl." The child had no real idea when Connie started learning lightsaber combat, just knew that she did. One of the problems of being from the future.

"She's been helping me learn." Connie continued, "If there's one thing she likes about Star Wars, its the lightsaber combat forms. But I'm far from calling myself a Jedi."

Vonvon jumped up and scampered off downstairs. When they returned, they were carrying their duffle bag. From it, they pulled out a few lightsabers and robes.

If there is one sound that always satisfied Vonvon, it was the iconic whir of a lightsaber extending and moving. Donning a plain brown robe, they twirled their yellow lightsaber, extending out their left arm and pointing two fingers, like a horizontal V, at Connie.

"Jedi Master Vonvon, master of Form III: Soresu." said the child.

Connie and Steven picked up a blue and green one, respectively, swinging them around for fun.

"These are awesome!" Connie said. "Where'd you get them?"

"I...uh...brought them from home." Vonvon explained, forgetting that these particular models aren't available for another few years. They desperately hoped that neither of them would notice the copyright date of 2028 etched into the pommel.

Then there was a knock at the door.

"Oh hey, the Lars and the Off Colors are here." Steven said, "Seeing how they've never seen Star Wars, I thought this would be a perfect time. I mean, space Gems, Star Wars."

When he opened the door, the first to greet him was little Padparadscha.

"Wait, Darth Vader is Luke's father!?" She yelled, to the confusion of everyone else present.

"Who's Darth Vader?" one of the Rutiles wondered.

Let me guess," Lars began, "One of you mentioned the big reveal a minute ago?"

"Steven did it." Vonvon confessed.

May the Fourth Be With You!

@artsycooky13

[mswyrr]

re: people coming by my reylo posts with their “critique“ of TROS

First, there’s nothing reasonable about hunting down my popular sexy femdom headcanons post and demanding that the person who made it--who was clearly just trying to have fun, and >2k people found it fun--needs to write a thesis defending her enjoyment of something. That’s entitled bs.

But since we’re here... I’m writing this for any followers who are interested and for all future people who come with the more “polite” boundary crossing bs. So I have a convenient link where, sure, I’ll explain myself (*once* - I am not starting a discussion here).

Literally everything about TROS was badly written. Including the handling of Ben’s redemption (though the actors did a lot to help a trash script and the moment between Harrison Ford and Adam Driver and the kiss are both well done... because there’s little to no TROS original dialogue to ruin things) and the way they chose to write some parts of the Reylo dynamic.

That isn’t the fault of shippers. We’re the first to point this shit out.

Except that it’s used as reason to tell us to fucking kill ourselves and that we deserve to be raped then, well - would *you* want to explain yourself to everyone who came to your properly tagged fun posts just to poke at you in that context?

TROS is unnecessary to canon Reylo: the romance was clear in TLJ to anyone paying attention. It’s a gorgeous movie and well done. By an Oscar nominated writer/director. Rey is clearly tempted to take his hand in the throne room scene. I don’t need TROS to have her explicitly say “I wanted to take your hand.” I knew that already. It just confirms what is *blatantly obvious*.

Rian filmed a deleted scene where Luke outright said she was tempted by Ben’s “pair of pretty eyes.” Rian called the hand touch (which, like the kiss in TROS, REY initiated!!) “the closest thing to sex” you’ll see in Star Wars. Ben is clearly framed as an object of desire--shirtless scene! Pouty lips, tearful vulnerable soft eyes, etc. She stands up for him to Luke and Snoke, tracks him down at great risk and demands he change his life and come with her.

Rey wants Ben in TLJ.

I don’t need TROS to confirm that - I have a basic sense of good writing. And a heroine having an actual temptation she turns down is good writing - as is Ben representing all her suppressed rage at authority figures, which is confirmed in Rian’s (excellent) interviews and commentaries on what he was trying to do with Jungian psychology.

A heroine of equal power in all ways to her antagonist facing challenges and temptations is interesting. The anti narrative where she’s not making any decisions for herself, manipulated the entire movie, and then fleeing from Ben “her abuser” like a Lifetime movie--and claiming the shirtless scene is “abuse” and other utterly disingenuous readings--is bloody insult imposed on TLJ by people who couldn’t stand the fact that Rian went about depicting Rey having a complex range of emotions and desires and a dark side.

It’s OOC and an insult to Rey to depict Ben as some kind of master manipulator and every decision in TLJ as his manipulations. It’s sexist and infantalizing.

Once you erase her suppressed rage at authority figures and her sexual desire for Ben you cut her apart as a character and make your reading of TLJ utterly unsuited to what the writing was actually intending.

Reylo has been canon since TLJ. The fact that antis in the hundreds collectively harassed women talking about the clear, canonical textual indications off the internet doesn’t make their analysis less true.

And since there are people saying the kiss was Rey just being “confused” and saying “thank you” - you can see that even explicit confirmation would never be recognized by some people.

The writing on TROS was crap: I’m doing what fans of practically every single ship ever have done, which is take the parts that work and leave the rest. It’s called transformative fandom. It’s what you DO when media is owned by monopolies and you have no control but enjoy parts of what they’re doing.

This is not new information.

The idea that any shipper should be held responsible for canon--instead of understood to be enjoying it in a transformative way--is nothing but an anti excuse to justify why we should be harassed for the mistakes and shitty writing choices of Disney/Lucasfilm.

Send Disney/Lucasfilm complaints via letter or email. Start a petition. Make (polite) phone calls to them. Do what you’ve gotta do. Don’t come to me as the complaint department and assume women owe you a thesis upon demand justifying in-depth our textual readings... when you’re replying to a freaking f3mdom headcanon fun post. 

[charlotteisnotthechosenone]

Star Wars Ramblings #2 - The Princess Diarist

When the book came out in 2016 it was on my radar but having never seen the Star Wars films I didn’t feel particularly compelled to pick it up then. After absolutely falling in love with the films however, this book shot straight to the top of my TBR. Reading it now, after her death, added such a different, heartbreaking perspective to this book, particularly in the final chapters.

The book is split into three sections. Both the first and last sections were written at the time of the book’s release while the middle section is a series of excerpts from a diary Carrie kept while filming A New Hope. What I particularly loved about this book was that, throughout, it had me forming thoughts/questions/opinions which would vary so greatly from one chapter to the next. It was also written with such beautiful style. It had me laughing out loud at point and tearing up at others - it really did have an emotional grip on me. 

Yes the book does have a heavy focus on the affair between Carrie and her co-star Harrison Ford. I had read reviews online before picking this book up where people weren’t super happy with the way in which this book took this direction however this was naturally a significant event for a her and what 19 year old doesn’t spend time musing about the guy she has a crush on? Before picking up the book I knew absolutely next to nothing about the situation/circumstances surrounding their affair. My brain was constantly at war with itself over how I felt about it. I think I speak for a lot of fans of movies/TV shows when I say that you always wish that there was more for your favourite on-screen couples, other than what the audience are shown, but writing such as this does require you to try and remove that vision from your mind. I think it is the way in which Carrie writes about the affair that caused my opinon to flip and flop so much. Carrie’s writing style is extraordinary. When writing in 2016, the pages are full of such wit and charm and there were passages that did make me very much smile in an odd sort of way. The humour that was laced into the descriptions of their time together played right into the hands of any Star Wars fan with references to ‘cinematic snogs’ and the making of sequels ‘with her future cinematic husband’. There are also brief insights into their interractions on set where she describes ‘ducking down’ her ’bun-encased head’ or ‘grazing a powdered forehead to his smuggler’s jacket’ which are likely to warm the hearts of many who view Han and Leia as their one true pairing. 

The charm with which she writes however in no way detracts from the situation at hand. This book is filled with such brutal truth and honesty and this is particularly evident when reading the diary excerpts in the middle of the book. At times these defintely made for uncomfortable reading. Any way in which your heart might have been lifted slightly in previous sections through her comparisons to Han and Leia are totally shattered here. These passages are both so raw and painful in parts. Knowing the difficulty she faced in trying to escape her own thoughts and mind and knowing that the pages of this diary were the only outpouring for this made you really feel for her. She was a young girl who, through age and inexperience, had gotten in over her head. It is incredibly difficult not to resent Harrison, in this section, for not reciprocating these feelings she had developed for him. If I had read only this section of the book I would have definitely settled upon a very negative view of their affair. 

The unsettling nature of this book however did not end there. What caused a lot of my emotional attachment was the opening few chapters. Here she described a number of uncomfortable situations she had found herself in, within the film industry, prior to the filming of Star Wars. This made me absolutely loathe what I knew would be coming later in the book re the affair. I was honestly livid at the thought of the potential situations that would play out later in the book between herself and Harrison but what I had to stop and tell myself was that we were being offered an insight into her past that he may have potentially not been afforded. I instead decided to try and reserve all judgement on the situation until I had amassed all of the facts. How can you blame someone for being unaware of situations they potentially knew very little about? 

I am unfortunately aware that off-screen affairs were much more prevalent at this time. This is highlighted particularly in an extremely uncomfortable anecdote in which Carrie describes being at a party held for director, George Lucas, in which a number of male members of the film crew attempt to take advantage of her after supplying her with alcohol. They are not however the only ones that appear to have their sights set on her. Aware of the situation, Harrison steps in, only to make his own move on her very soon after in the back of a taxi. It is this move which kickstarted their months long affair. 

Bringing you back into the present however Carrie does an excellent job of putting the entire situation into perspective. It was in the section, entitled ’40 years on’ that put to rest the two waring sides of my brain. Carrie describes their affair as ‘a brief thrilling liaison that I would eventually camly walk away from smiling and sophisticated’. This quote was one that comforted me most to read. Of course, there are few hard feelings between them now but this quote was also incredibly reassuring to know that, yes, this affair happened but it by no means completely destroyed any friendships/relationships that had been built up between the pair. 

This may be controversial but I believe that their affair may have served to enhance their portrayal of their characters on screen. Not only in the physical sense but in the emotional sense too. At the start of the book Harrison is described as being rather quiet and withdrawn towards Carrie until he is involved in ‘saving her’ from the situation at the party. By this later section he is described as being incredibly decent. This memoir isn’t one, I believe of good and bad guys. Although heavily focused on the affair I think it is told in a way that almost makes it feel like a story. It far from feels like it is being told in a way that resembled whispered gossip, trying to inflict blame on one party or another. Carrie certainly doesn’t resent Harrison over what happened and even asks readers to try and feel sorry for him. 

I do believe that the story of their relationship is a little tragic and we will all be left to wonder if this had happened in a different place, time and under different circumstances would something have come of it? Or maybe would it have not counted ‘all that much’ she writes ‘because of how short I am’. 

[kindredsoulsoftimesofold]

Incoming TROS rant

yes, there will be spoilers as I will be breaking down everything I saw tonight. If I manage to type choking on my tears well after the movie finished.

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FINAL WARNING IF YOU DON’T WANT SPOILERS

Let’s start with a few opening words, this rant will indeed be a long one.

ALL THE LEAKS ARE TRUE. And I mean ALL of them. To a T. As soon as I saw the first half was exactly as I’d read, I was crushed. As I knew what was coming. On that note, i was probably the only person in the theatre who was crying like 15-20 minutes before we were supposed to, I’ll get to that in a bit. I’m saving the WORST for last. Let’s break this shit down.

1. The plot is a mess. An actual mess. I feel like every five minutes I was shaking my head and mumbling ‘what kind of nonsense is this’. The breaking of lore or COMMON SENSE really is substantial. But that is definitely not what I cared about, as I already KNEW this even without the leaks. When you can’t get your two directors to FUCKING WORK TOGETHER TO MAKE A COHESIVE STORYLINE it is bound to grasp for straws and make shit up. IT AIN’T NOTHING NEW.

2. Here’s the kicker. THE DIALOGUE WAS SO BAD, it makes Anakin’s AOTC speech seem like a hymn, or poetry or whatever. They CONSTANTLY say what they’re doing, they’re literally reciting the exposition to each other and it comes off as extremely annoying and makes you feel like a toddler. No hate against toddlers, but I’d rather not be one right now. It feels unnatural, forced and STUPID to the point where I would start WISHING for 3PO to come back on screen because Anthony Daniels somehow managed to snag some actually decent lines for once? I love the man, but the droid usually really annoys the crap outta me. He was literally the highlight of the film. Don’t get me started on the stupidity of all of Lando’s lines, poor Billy. Daisy has to stare angrily most of the time so I don’t really care to recall her lines. Adam, my dear Adam, he tries SO HARD to make do with what he was given but even his lines 90% of the time come off as stupid and out of place. Or the worst type in this movie, EXPOSITIONYY. Don’t get me started on Mark Hamill and Harrison Ford. Boys looked like they didn’t sign up for this shit and were literally force choked to be there. I feel you guys, I feel you. ALSO FOR THE LOVE OF THE FORCE THE TIMES THEY REPEATED WORD FOR WORD LINES FROM OTHER MOVIES I WANTED TO SCREAM. Once is too much, THIS MANY TIMES IT IS A FELONY. And it needs to be punished somehow.

3. Let’s get the positives out of the way because there were FEW. The two scenes I actually REALLY enjoyed watching, for different reasons were:

Ben and Palps meeting. The scene was much longer than the clip and SUPER badass. Sheev’s voice echoes, Ben looks fucking cool and the whole scene is GORGEOUS.

The other is when Ben fights as a Jedi in the end. I’ll get to Ben later BELIEVE ME but without overexplaining, he fights with Anakin’s lightsabre, he’s really speedy and is doing all the Jedi spins and whatnot. I fucking ATE THAT UP. Replay that scene forever please CAUSE I LOVED IT. But I was already crying here so we’ll touch more on that later.

To conclude this segment, the visuals were SUPERB, the sound was AMAZING and (some) of the fights were jaw droppingly cool. But that about concludes the positives!

4. I will comment, as I know a lot of people will care even if I don’t particularily. Finn, Poe, Rose and the merry gang aside from our Jedi are reduced to EH this movie. If you thought you’d never miss Rose boy were you wrong. They introduce new characters and expect you to care about them when they SIDELINED the ones they’d hoped you’d care about BEFORE. And it made me care about NO ONE. Not to mention that, sadly, they are ALWAYS reduced to the boring side plot that really isn’t interested or key to much of ANYTHING. Sure they roused the people and all but would’ve been TOAST if Rey didn’t go all Jesus on the fleet. So at the end of the day, you MAY find some enjoyment with the side characters but their lines were some of the worst, you WILL be force fed new people and you might not really enjoy your previous faves here because even I found myself being completely indifferent this time. (I actually really ENJOYED Finn since TFA. He had a compelling storyline and John Boyega was alright. Couldn’t give two wits about him in this movie. Not a single one. But again, I may not be the perfect person to ask if you really,really like any of these characters.

5. Finally, we have arrived to the main event. THE REYLO.

The backbone of this clusterfuck of a new trilogy. The last Skywalker and Palpatine, coming together instead of apart. The arguably BEST actors (legacies aside) Disney managed to get. Now, I will start this off that I didn’t HATE Rey before this movie. I loved her in TFA, enjoyed her less in TLJ but the novelization fixed that. I was BACK ON BOARD to be her number one stan. In this movie, I couldn’t STAND her. Her lines are basically the director walking you through things, her plotline was obviously made last minute so almost none of it makes sense,  I literally wanted to curl up and DIE from cringing so hard every time someone said ‘you’re a Palpatine’. I thought I was looking at a very expensive rendition of terrible fan fiction. (Not to diss fan fiction in any way, you guys will be my heroes after this catastrophe.) ���Empress Palpatine’, COME THE FUCK ON AND GET OUT WITH THIS SHIT. Bring back crusty old Snoke for crying out loud! Or even HUX! Who got killed off in a second and had three lines of dialogue, not important I guess? Like a great many things I guess, JJ. But, EVEN Palpatine aside, it was great seeing him again and every scene he was in I got chills, who cares that it makes zero sense at this point. Back to reylo.

Ben. Ben Solo Organa Skywalker. The last hope. The final remnant of something I have loved FOREVER. I grew up with Star Wars, like many others just in a different, post prequel era and they are still my favourites. This might sound ridiculous but Star Wars was part of my heart, my happiness. It brought me joy to watch it, read it, fantasize about it and have it in my life when times were dark or miserable. It MEANT something to me, as I am sure many of you will agree. And Ben was part of that. He was part of something that MEANT something to all of us. He was the last line of the characters we all grew up with and loved. The GRANDSON of Anakin, my favourite character of all time. This was their chance to stop the trend that Loki’s death in IW and Daenerys’ death and turn and many others started and STOP killing people who did wrongs. PEOPLE can change, they can grow and they can learn. Hell, to not stray to far from this franchise REY has killed A LOT of people in this movie alone. She DECIMATES the room full of Palpatine’s followers and never blinks an eye. SHE NEARLY KILLS CHEWIE, DOES KILL BEN (for a minute) and SHE DOESN’T NEED TO DIE. Of course she doesn’t but BEN DOESN’T EITHER. After all that YOU JJ, YES YOU, show me that the LAST SKYWALKER has gone through, suffered, alone and frightened. I would’ve ENDED you if you’d suggested killing him off to me, EVER. He was your chance to do a reverse Vader, AS YOU CLAIMED YOU WOULD. To show a character can come back to the light and be worthy of it WITHOUT DYING. You even set it up as such, which is my next and CRUCIAL POINT.

I’ve been a reylo since 2015. Their dynamic has always been fascinating to me and beautiful. I LOVED all the moments in TLJ, LOVED THEM. In this one, every time they force bond (terrible dialogue aside, again) I was happy. I had a hope that she would bring him back from the darkness and he will keep her balanced. WELL, JJ, guess fuck me huh? And anyone with common sense and human decency. JUST WHEN you shove Ben’s turn in my face, you make him talk to Han, you make him strut in to fight alongside Rey in full Ben Solo Jedi mode, hair blown and casually dressed. It was when he runs onto Exegol that I started weeping. Because knowing that he dies as I did, it broke my heart how it was done. You give me the scene where he fights and you give me hope of what his future could’ve been if only you’d listened to reason and done what was supposed to be done. He is chucked into the pit, WHICH MIGHT I ADD WOULD’VE MADE ME MAD IF THAT WAS HIS END BUT WOULD’VE BEEN SOOOO MUCH BETTER THAN WHAT WE GOT, comes back. And now comes the scene that cemented this as the ABSOLUTE WORST insult to me as a fan, possible. Ben is heartbroken that Rey is dead, the moment is sad and he cradles her dead body and hugs her desperately. Which would’ve been a beautiful and GOOD DIFFERENT type of ending. Or rather not having her die at all and being NEAR her death and him saving her and both living happily ever after BUT NO. JJ AFTER THAT has her come back, smile happily when she sees it’s him, her love her hope and the other half of her SOUL literally (the diad or whatever it’s called is so rare that Palpatine was thrilled they’d formed such a bond, basically space soulmates), he has them kiss, then hold each other and smile at each other with genuine feeling of joy and belonging both of them had sought all their life AND THEN YANKS IT FROM UNDER YOU. The scene where Ben falls flat onto his back is quite comical and I couldn’t help but laugh in my misery and sobbing. Rey doesn’t even cry, we don’t even LINGER on his body or mourn him afterwards or even mention it or EVEN SEE her, THE PERSON WHO LITERALLY FOUND HER SOULMATE AND WAS SO HAPPY WHEN SHE KISSED HIM AND WAS LITERALLY SAVED BY HIM, but no guess that doesn’t require a scene, sure, fuck it LIKE EVERYTHING ELSE. The cheery music that plays up until the moment of his fall, YES THE FALL OF SKYWALKER MIND YOU NOT A FUCKING RISE, was an insult to every fan everyhwere, lifelong or recent or otherwise, it was a punch to the gut, a slap in the face and after this happened I no longer paid attention to the movie. I’d been crying for some time leading up to the moment, I knew what was coming and the execution only made it worse and a more desperate cry rather than only sad, I was hoping it wouldn’t happen somehow. I choked back tears until I finally got home and cried. One of the things which MEANT so much to me, was dead. I no longer have any doubts, that this was intentional. Look at Game of thrones, that was this year. It seemed intentional to make series stop, right? Everyone agrees. They wanted to finally bury the Skywalkers so they could make something unrelated? They kill off all the Skywalkers. Well guess what disney? YOU DIDN’T HAVE TO BRING THEM BACK IN THE FIRST PLACE, YOU MONEY HUNGRY PIECE OF SHIT. No one would have minded a new trilogy, with new characters doing NEW things. Why even drag the Skywalkers and the leagies into this if YOU DON’T WANT THEM HERE? All you got was millions of lifelong fans of the old movies who have already felt or are only now beginning to feel BETRAYED. I swear it disney, I don’t want to feel this misery again. You won’t take Star Wars away from me and the joy it brought me. I will without a care in the world dismiss this new trilogy as something completely separate from canon. You’ve killed your own fanbase. You could’ve had us but you LOST us. You dangled something we wanted in front of us for our money and then you ripped it apart.

If you are anything like me, anything like me at all and have loved SW for however long. if it MEANS ANYTHING TO YOU, I beg you not to see this movie or at the very least, pay for it. You WILL feel betrayed, insulted, heartbroken, devastated and miserable, as I am feeling right now. I was supposed to go see this movie another two times but i cannot and will not spend another CENT on a company that chooses to alienate me. Fine, have it your way. I’m done.

This concludes my rant as I am tired and upset. If I missed out on anything and you are interested in anything else, please do DM me or leave a comment :) We’re all in this together now, the reylos the antis the new fans and the old. We’re all in the same heartbreaking boat, I love you all. And I will love Star Wars. The REAL Star Wars forever. I wasn’t even sad the ‘FRANCHISE’ was ending because it wasn’t. It had ended a long, long time ago.

[drnucleus]

I don’t know what to expect from IX. I’m really hoping it is endgame and they don’t just drop the romance angle, but it’s also kind of what I’m expecting? Like I don’t expect follow-through from it, even though I would love it if it happened

Hi Nonnie, 

I totally get it. I understand that completely. Do I think it’s endgame? Yes. 

However am I going into IX with any expectations? NOPE. I’m a fandom granny. No seriously I have lived through so many fandoms that I simply go in with no expectations. That way if what I think might happen if even in some small way happens then I will be super happy and overjoyed and if it doesn’t I am usually able to divorce myself from my disappointment and respect the creator’s vision.

As a writer and someone who was professionally trained to do so, I know that creators have a vision. They have an endgame in mind. And they drop breadcrumbs about it from the beginning and if you’re clever enough to see them you usually can figure out any story. 

This is why I ruin police procedurals for my mom. My dad and I made a game of it watching Law and Order as a kid growing up (and I mean OG Law and Order with Det. Lenny Briscoe). Whomever could figure out who committed the murder first won. We used to keep a running tally. My dad was really good at it, but when I got really into reading and started reading mystery novels and horror novels and other stories that rely heavily on mystery boxes I started getting better at it. We also watched Law and Order because my two actor 2nd cousins have been guest stars as defense lawyers idk how many times but that’s neither here nor there.

And tbh ESB’s twist of Vader as Luke’s father came as such a shock because IDK if even Lucas really knew he was going to do it until he did it. Luckily the story was vague enough in ANH that a throw away line about certain points of view was enough to close what could have been a crippling plot hole. 

My mom is an OG Star wars fan. Mostly bc she loves the pew pew and the lightsaber battles, and secondly because Harrison Ford is a very handsome and talented man (tbh my first crush was Han Solo and second was Indy).

My mom was there when everyone was UP IN ARMS about Leia and Luke kissing. And how that was SOOOOOO going to be endgame. Which originally Lucas had intended that Leia would be a love interest for Luke and that the twin sister would be revealed in 7, 8 and 9 someday. However during writing ROTJ and filming ESB he decided to really hone in on Leia and Han’s chemistry (granted Irving was directing then) but he made the narrative choice to make Leia the sister and Han her love interest. It simultaneously elevated Leia’s narrative importance and made her the leading lady of her own story on equal footing to her equally powerful twin brother instead of just being Luke’s sidekick love interest.

Even when I was a KID and I saw ESB it always kind of made me laugh that Leia’s response to Han goading her about liking him was to smack lips with the only other humanoid male in the room just to prove how NOT smitten she was with Han. (AND if that doesn’t make her simultaneously Padme and Anakin’s child I don’t know what will convince you otherwise).

TPM came out when was was 13 and a half which will be 20 yrs ago next May - HOLY FUCK. And I’ve been an avid reader since I could read so I had gobbled up countless numbers of books by then. I was in the theater with my parents and legit held my hand up over Ian’s eyes and gasped and tugged on my mom’s sleeve. 

“Mom that’s THE EMPEROR” and she was like “No honey he’s just a senator who’s now chancellor of the republic”

And this was still in the age of Dial-up internet and no IMDB. So I did my own digging and found our VHS copies of the OT and looked at the cast listing at the end of the movie. And saw the same name playing the Emperor as the man playing Senator-Chancellor Sheev Palpatine. Now the movies in the OT never actually say the Emperor’s real name. He’s just the shadowy, scary Emperor with lightning bolts shooting out of his hands. So like we knew in TPM that Palpy was going to become the emperor. Now say what you will about the Prequels but Lucas did do a fair bit of narrative arc planning with it than what he threw together with the OT. 

He knew we had to meet Anakin as a boy, see him as a caring and compassionate individual who is uniquely gifted in the Force. And that had circumstances been different he would have probably been the paragon force sensitive and balanced the force. However due to realistic flaws of all characters, good and bad alike, including flaws within Anakin’s character himself he falls prey to the darkside and it’s temptations and then becomes the very thing he feared.

Tbh next to TLJ, ROTS is right up there with ESB as my favorite in the saga. Sure the dialogue is wooden and clunky. Lucas is not a dialogue director. He’s a vision director. He has a scene in his mind, and he wants it played like that. Which is fine. He also came from a school of thought in the 1970s where sci-fi was pure camp and overdramatic. His style never really changed. The OT is so lauded because he didn’t direct all of them. He had other people come in and he had script doctoring and his first wife in the editing room taking his vision and turning it into a cohesive narrative. We seem to forget that Lucas was a young dude right out of film school when he made ANH. He barely knew how to string a narrative together and the early cuts of ANH were terrible and nowhere near what people saw in the theater. Don’t believe me? Google “how star wars was saved in the editing room” it’s a remarkable story about how Lucas’s first wife and principal editor basically made ANH into an actual story instead of a mish mash of ideas that it was before. The prequels had Lucas at the helm for all three. Yes by then he had gotten a hold of narratively what he wanted to convey, but he still didn’t always convey it in the most efficient ways.

But there are moments in the prequels that I’m stunned by their perfection. “This is how liberty dies? With thunderous applause.” as Padme watches in horror as the Republic becomes an empire before her eyes. It’s perfect to convey the horror she feels and her disgust at what the thing she’s fought for so long to just crumble and slip away. 

Or the entirety of the Anakin v. Obi Wan Mustafar battle. Visually STUNNING, and heartbreaking. You can feel how much neither of them want to fight the other but how they both are so entrenched in their now opposite ideologies that they know they have to fight. 

I’ve also been a fan of JJ’s for a long time. 

Sure he loves mystery boxes but he usually makes the answer SO obvious that most people ignore it. 

Like on Lost which I never actually watched save for maybe a few episodes, it’s pretty clear that something metaphysical is going on in that island with the crash. And there are clues dating back to the pilot as to what happened in the finale. 

In TFA we’re introduced to Rey. We’re given a mystery box of who is Rey and why is she important and who is her family. But we’re also given the answer. She’s no one. And that’s why she’s important. She is no one. She doesn’t need to have this huge galactic sized legacy on her shoulders to be important, to be special. SHE IS NO ONE. And that’s why the Force chose her as its vessel. 

Reason why is that she’s narratively the perfect foil for her counterpart Ben Solo/Kylo Ren. He has all that legacy and weight on his shoulders. They’re equals in power in strength, in light and darkness. They are complete equals. And TFA was all about establishing that fact. Now TLJ was all about deepening that initial connection. To get them both to scratch beneath the surface of one another, and get under one another’s skin. In doing so Ben learned that Rey just wants to belong, to be loved and have a place in the galaxy. And Rey, she learned that Ben is just as lonely, but has rejected his birthright because he felt rejected and abandoned by those who should have unconditionally loved and protected him from Snoke (which granted OT Trio tried but they def didn’t have great parenting examples either sooooo).

Now as an adult Ben is bitter, full of resentment and rage because the people he should have been able to count on fucked up royally. And I love that. I resonate with it because of my own experiences as an abuse survivor too. But even more so because it makes Han, Leia and Luke less perfect legends and more human. It makes them real and relatable that they tried to do everything right by their kiddo but ended up fucking him up.  Luke’s betrayal itself was the least shocking part of TLJ tbh. Like does no one remember him going ABSOLUTELY banana balls insane when Vader threatened Leia in ROTJ?

That kind of Skywalker level extra doesn’t just go away with age. 

And yeah Ben needed someone in the fam to be like “so kid, um, lets talk about this.” No one in the OT Trio is good at talking about their feelings. Luke tries to control his by just not dealing with it - the kind of thing you’d expect from a “pray the depression away” type. Leia ignores it and bottles that shit until it comes out as thinly veiled anger. And Han is the most ridiculous of the three with his constant hot and cold routine throughout ESB.

The ST is yes about the failures of the OT trio, the failures of the Jedi and the Sith. But it’s also a story about the force and it’s two chosen vessels. A girl from nowhere and the last scion of the Skywalker line. The fact that their connections in TLJ are coded as sexual awakenings is very indicative of where I think this is all going to go. The Force is basically the Skywalker Patriarch if we’re going on the whole immaculate conception with Shmi. And Ben fell from his path for years now thanks to the other Skywalkers falling from the path and inadvertently pushing him down the rabbit hole with Snoke, manipulating everything like a master of puppets. 

JJ himself even said he was upset that he didn’t get to direct TLJ because he loved Rian’s script so much. 

I have faith we’re going to get a hell of a finish to the 9 film Skywalker saga. With Reylo as endgame or not I think we’re going to get something truly satisfying that links all 9 movies together in a way that will have meta writers writing for years to come about all the parallels and thematic Leitmotifs within the narrative as a whole that encompasses technically 4 generations of Skywalkers (Shmi, Anakin, Luke/Leia, and Ben).

When Ben killed Han in TFA and you get that focused in shot of Adam’s face as the weight of what he just did HITS him and his eyes widen and his lips part, you see the exact moment he shatters his soul realizing that he just seriously fucked up. I leaned over to my best friend that night in the midnight showing and said “do you smell redemption arc?” and I’ve been on that train from day one. 

If he were truly irredeemable he wouldn’t have split his spirit to the bone by killing his father. He wouldn’t have cared to try to convince Rey to be her teacher in the middle of their battle. He wouldn’t care that Rey stares at him like she did that night and call him a monster. A real monster wouldn’t care at being called one. And is so very shook and pained by that moniker with his lower lip quiver and his eyes red rimmed. If he were truly irredeemable he wouldn’t have killed his master just to save the girl, he’d have just usurped power and shrugged her off instead of trying to convince her to stay with him. He wouldn’t have addressed her fear and insecurity of being nothing and no one while shaking his head and saying “but not to me”. If he were truly a monster he would have pulled the damn trigger when his had the bridge of the Raddus in his sights but couldn’t because he felt his mother’s love for him even after everything he’s done.

Has he done terrible things? YES. He definitely has. But he has the equal potential for amazing things as much as he has for the terrible things he’s done. And I for one will be happy to see him begin to even slightly embrace that potential by the end of ep 9. Reylo or no Reylo I’m sure I’m going to be happy with ep 9. There’s no way Adam and so many other brilliant actors would have signed on without at least knowing where this is all gonna go. Adam himself was hesitant to take on the burden of SW but was convinced to do so because of the complexity of Ben’s character. That to me says we’re getting something amazing in ep9. And I can’t wait.

[metalgearkong]

The Princess Diarist - Review

2/18/19

Written by Carrie Fisher, released November 2016

This was one of my first autobiographies I’ve ever read. With the tragic death of Carrie Fisher in December of 2016, I was starving to learn more about her life, and not necessarily just related to Star Wars. Princess Leia is an icon, and it’s not just because of the cinnamon bun hair or metal bikini. Leia was not only a princess who initially had to be rescued from an evil Empire, she immediately showed moxxy and strength by outright defying to Darth Vader to his face, spitting sassy lines to Gran Moff Tarkin, and resisting all forms of torture and mind probing. I admit, as a kid, Leia wasn’t one of my favorite characters, but as I got older, it was blatantly obvious Leia was not your typical damsel in distress, and may be smarter and braver than her male costars. This is all not even taking into account that while being naturally gifted with the force (despite never being trained to harness it) was never tempted by the dark side, and never strayed from her loyalty to the Rebellion or New Republic. I still feel Leia is a slightly underappreciated character, and this is what also drew me to reading the final autobiography she would tragically ever write.

Initial chapters have Carrie reciting significant events happening in the world in 1976. The way she describes the state of the media and the world feel far more epic than I ever imagined, until she said how this was just before Star Wars. It was a punctuation that gave even more weight to the film having it placed in context of what was already happening. She talks about her first film role, a small part in Shampoo playing a young girl who has an affair with an older man. She talks in depth about how the director needed to see her in and out of a bra to decide “what would look better for the movie,” and other old school behind the scenes movie stuff she was involved in. Carrie also elaborates on her relationship with her mother, and what it was like to grow up up in the shadow of one of the biggest movie stars of the era. Carrie vowed to never have a career in show business. Hearing her thoughts about how she went to drama school, but initially regretted dropping out for a casting call during her winter break, for a low budget sci-fi movie. I love hearing about how self conscious she was and how she never had an ego or vanity that people as beautiful as her might think she had. She describes herself as very nervous about the whole process, and it was great to see that contrast against her assertiveness and bravery of Leia.

She also spends a lot of time, in fact I felt it was the bulk of the book, coming out about her relationship with Harrison Ford. At the time she was 19, and he was 35 with a wife and two kids. She thought he was handsome and loved the quiet and inaccessible nature he projected. I found it hilarious that she practically never mentioned Mark Hamill, Peter Mayhew, or any other significant stars of Star Wars, even in the middle of the filming process. I found it so heartwarming and so heartbreaking at the same time about how she felt about Harrison, and how she wanted to keep her feelings secret. She couldn’t confide in anyone at the time about it, and therefore are where her journal entries came from. Surprisingly, despite this book having “diarist” in the name, there was only one chapter reading diary entries from those times. This was fine, as I found Carrie’s actual stories about what it was like being largely the only girl filming a quirky but fun low budget sci-fi adventure picture. “Carrison” as she affectionately refers to her affair with Harrison, spoke to me the most out of anything in the book. Hearing Carrie’s inner thoughts about what she likes and dislikes about men, and how ill-confident she was about the whole thing gave me a lot of hope. Even beautiful girls can very easily hide insecurities behind a smile and a outwardly social personality. I plan on reading quite often to remind me of the insight Carrie gave me about relationships.

Carrie also goes in depth about her life in Hollywood after Star Wars was over. She played other parts, but found a specialty in writing and gravitating toward a more behind the scenes career. What I loved most about these chapters is hearing about how she would do book and autograph signings. At first she wondered if this sort of income was “beneath” her, but also that she wouldn’t be anyone if it wasn’t for Princess Leia. Carrie never made as much money as you might think. She talks about constantly being flattered about how many men told her she was their first crush. I teared up reading paragraphs about her favorite kinds of fans were the little girls dressed up as Leia, holding a tiny little version of her cinematic self, while the infant simply wants to go home and has no idea what’s going on around them. Carrie fully acknowledges her age and how its changed her. Kids would cry at the sight of her saying “I want the real Leia not the old Leia!” Carrie would laugh and say “so do I!” It sounds like she had a terrific attitude about her life and can’t stop appreciating Star Wars for who it turned her into and for how many people it inspired. 

I am in the unique position of living and working at a lodge near Sequoia National Park that Carrier went to as a teenager. I was working a bar shift in the early evening and a woman came up to me, regarding the inside of the lodge with a keen eye. She told me she hadn’t been here in 40 something years and was so impressed with how little it had changed. She said she came here with her friend Carrie, and asked if we still had the KILT program (Kids in Leadership Training). I said “yes!” with enthusiasm as I was a KILT myself here at the lodge when I was a teenager. Months later, a coworker of mine heard a story of seeing Debbie Reynolds dropping off her daughter here. Getting two stories, albeit anecdotal, conformed to me that Carrie Fisher was a member of the same program at the same lodge at a place I had been coming my entire life, been a part of the same teenager program, and still live and work at. I’ve always known it somehow, but it was one of the greatest things to confirm that the Force is strong with Montecito-Sequoia Lodge & Summer Family Camp. I strongly recommend The Princess Diarist to fans of Star Wars or Carrie Fisher. It may not be her only autobiography, but its the final one she released, and works as a terrific mourning process for those affected by her death, but more importantly, inspired by her life.