#i miss those two tho god
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rox-of-iu · 2 years ago
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hulloo, i am here once again with cultivate....but not the usual one (~_~;)
so funny thing! i had most of these already done from before, but felt a bit silly so i didnt post them. but then (spoiler) we got Tao Ying in his fresh new look and like.. i had to draw him and post the rest of the gang along with him hksfh. so here, the sillays
🍑Tao Ying
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🐉Qing Mushu
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🦆 The Empress
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🐗The General
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aaand more sillies of the goobers
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aaaaand thats it hdjhdsjfhds so sorry for the long post lmao
characters yoinked from @neonghostcat cultivate
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avacdavra · 2 years ago
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Blessed be the Daughters of Cain
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lazaruspiss · 2 months ago
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my sibling is starting to write fic and it's so. like they've been drawing for forever and never seem insecure about art. but writing is still new to them! so the fic isn't working how they want it to. i got to point at their pile of like, 20 something filled full size sketchbooks and go, look, you've made all this art, practiced all this time to be good. and how many things have you written? 3? you keep going! you keep doing it and it will be countless one day!
#ramble tag#my siblings... i get mushy when it comes to them#truly nothing in life is more important than my babies. who are not babies but beside the point#(THEYLL BE ADULTS SOON. SOB.)#feels so inappropriate to post about them on this blog but as i have said before. they follow my main#i just need to talk about them sometimes or I'll just lie in bed and cry lmao#sibling i started this post talking about is so smart and creative and fucking /organized/ as all hell#honestly both my siblings are scary driven#it would make me cripplingly insecure if i didnt just love them so damn much. if i wasnt so fucking proud of them#i hate that i couldnt be someone more worth looking up to but i am beyond overjoyed to see them grow into their own regardless#these two are possibly up there as the smartest people ive ever met even if theyre still just teenagers#i can't wait to see who they turn into. who they'll grow up be#(always be my babies in addition tho)#i see the world in them#im immeasurably happy to have the siblings i do#really starting to realize that yknow what? im not missing anything by being aro#by not having much (if any) sexual/romantic shit in my life#those two are my pride and joy and make me happier than any of that ever could#anyways this is a secret dont tell them i said that#psa dont talk to me about my siblings i can keep going until i pass out#god took everything that is Good and put into these precious tiny humans and im just lucky enough to be here !!!#ok i need to stop. its 2am hi
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authenticcadence18 · 14 days ago
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🎶I have this thing where I make a new show/album my personality every 3-6 months—🎶
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fragglez · 6 months ago
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every time I watch a war related movie and they play the reveille i get spooked i HATE that melody
#im not hurridly putting on my uniform and running out of a tent at 5 in the morning to go run 2 miles#boy scout camp? more like BOOT CAMP#also i was the troop leader so i had to get everyone else out of the tent and make sure they were presentable#and god forbid it took more than 5 minutes#we were six people in one of those old ass orange tents#its a two people tent !!#i do miss being a boy scout tho it was fun whenever it didnt feel like the military#i used to do scout competitions#got me a mational champion trophy in boy scout (lie we did not win#we totally fucked up the first aid test)#won knot tying tho 💪#ok im just talking now so if you're still reading this won't be short#we had to get a person as high up as possible#and all we got was like 4 long ass tree trunks?? like skinny long round tree things (i hate the english language idk)#and rope#and because i was the shortest i had to hold onto the top of one of the trunks#while the others pulled me like 8 meters into the air#scary as fuck considering i was like 5' back then#won tho 💪💪#i really loved being a scout#we were called boy scouts but it was gender neutral#we hated the girl scouts™ tho#all they did was bake cake and make friendship bracelets while we had to shit in the forest#also they were just really mean like wow#nobody knows how to insult like a girl scout#i loved being troop leader#i liked helping people and being a problem solver and having my troop come to me w problems was SO awesome#until this one time when a girl woke me up in the middle of the night crying#*scene set: like 3am in a tent in the forest*#“😢 i dreamt the scout leader stabbed your eyes out with a cheese cutter 😭😭😭😭” HELLO??? WHAT THE FUCK GOODNIGHT
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greatgoddyke · 5 days ago
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even now i cling tightly to my glass slippers
#undescribed#bonk.png#uninhabited planet survive#mujin wakusei survive#caption is a line sharla says in episode 17 even tho im referencing swan lake with the dress colors#the whole glass slipper thing interests me bc i love fairytale theming n chako says luna's are already broken but like.#luna almost drowns TWICE for her dad's backpack (first time literally happens like two episodes before she gets sick 😭) n after the second#time strands her she admits to herself that deep down she still wants her (long dead) parents praise n that influences her#+ after sharla n howard come back controlled by survive while everyone is suspicious of howard luna's the only one that has a clue something#'s up with sharla but she just like ignores it bc she missed her. i think she's holding on to those shards chako!!#also thats why theres some blood on luna's hands in the third pic bc of glass slipper shards n also shes a bleeding heart 👍#i kind of wish there was a counterpart episode to 38 bc they dont get back in contact with luna until the end of the episode after she was#washed overboard during a storm at sea n to their knowledge there was no land nearby it probably wouldve given less of an impact to when#they think sharla n howard are dead but idc i like it when characters are unsure if they should be grieving or not#ALSO i understand that survive isnt that stupid n wouldnt reveal what hes doing when hes trying to survey luna's powers however#i do think he couldve toyed with emotional stress more rather than just physical danger bc sharla is luna's bestie she was ride or die day 1#for her n survive literallyhas full control oversharla is able to convincing act like her n just having nanomachines in her body upsets luna#so her bestie having them in them is AWFUL n would be distressing even without the knowledge that sharla is just being puppeted#and isnt even conscious related i dont think her n howard would have problems from the possession angle bc they canonically dont remember it#so any emotional troubles would come from the memory gap one second theyre dying n suddenly theyre in the computer room n luna's crucified#anyway love sharla n luna's friendship lots ive been rewatching n they genuinely are ride or die day 1 which is probably related to the#loneliness both experienced (sharla explicitly being excluded n bullied with it only getting to where its notactive by the start of the show#n luna implicitly bc of her being an orphan saying its just her n chako canonically being an independent with no suggestion she has anyone#else n the thing about parental praise) also they both so touchy with eachother ive only rewatched the first ten so far n in like at least#half of them they hug eachother n in almost all theyve clung or reached for the other in some way#like pre rewatch i thought i was exaggerating how quickly they became eachother's favs but i wasnt 😭😭#like theyve known eachother two weeks max at this point i get it these two had no other friends pre episode 1 but oh my god
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arolesbianism · 7 days ago
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Thinking abt Him again (Wendy Carter)
#rat rambles#missing my favoritest carter atm. and also wendy ig#I am sad that wendy skill tree drop isnt by webber's side but at least abby gets to be skill tree bros with Her bestie 😌#I still haven't looked at wendy's skilltree because god I am afraid why has it been taking this long wendy abby what did you two do#I will keep procrastinating tho because even tho my standards aren't technically all that high I still feel like they're too high#wendy has like 4 game mechanics and I ideally would want his skill tree to stay focused more on those things#Ive heard that wendy's skill tree lets him do some stuff as a ghost and thats. neat I guess. but its not what Im looking for.#I Really don't think Wendy needs whole new types of mechanics I just want stuff to make sisterns both good and interesting some stuff for#abby to make her more fun to fight stronger enemies with and some new elixers#and tbh. I dont like the idea of wendy himself doing cool ghost stuff. if anything Id rather he be able to buff other dead players#I just think a vital part of wendy's kit to me is that without abby hes just a less shitty wes#but the problem with that is that it means that for like 90% of the bosses (it Im being generous) you are fighting as a less shitty wes#and could fuck around with the idea of wendy expanding from being an abby specific support unit to a more general support unit#now ofc this would have drawbacks and be hard to implement well but y'know.#I also just dont like the idea of too many non abby ghost perks in general as I think it would just add needless bloat#which tbf is like what half of every skill tree is so idk what I expected#some characters rly do need the extra mechanics due to very nothing burger base kits but I really don't think wendy needs that much#again the tools for giving wendy and abby cool flashy shit or more practical stuff are already present#so yeah idk if Ill like his skill tree much. which is why Ive been avoiding looking at it like the plague ever since it was announced#I try not to be too bitchy abt skill trees even tho I've basically never liked them since most of the time they're inoffensive#but this is my boy so I will be a big baby about his skill tree being mid no matter what they put on it lol#I hope walter and wortox mains are having fun at least they both need the reworks badly#now for walter I dont trust that a skill tree will be what he needs but wortox can work with this I think#just above all else god I hope webber's skilltree is good whenever klei decides to release webber from their basement#poor boy needs the buffs so bad he has been painfully outclassed in every regard for years
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jwicks · 3 months ago
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[[ i honestly, genuinely, want john to move on from helen. not in the sense to forget her or to lose love for her, but to have peace in the idea that she didn't have to be the only one. Not only is it what she would've wanted ( now that I've found my peace, find yours ), but it could do so much good to heal him from the pain of losing her. one of the issues john has in grieving her is that he had to grieve alone. it's why she scheduled for daisy to be delivered to him. because she knew he needed someone to grieve with and to love in her absence; his love for her was so big that having nowhere to put it would ruin him ( and it has, like, look at the events of the films ). to quote doc ock for a moment: if you keep something as complicated as love stored up inside, it could make you sick ]]
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brutal-out-here · 3 months ago
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I miss this void every day <3
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goldentigerfestival · 4 months ago
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Knowing how much Yuri tics with "ma" and "oi" just fills me with life and joy.
#GTF Vesperia Things#GTF Yuri Things#starting to wonder if at this rate I just want to have a separate ''things'' tag for Vesperia and for Yuri...#also fwiw Yuri says ''ma/maa'' 68 times in Rays and ''oi/oi oi'' 54 times unless I /missed/ some#yes i combed the entire script. yes i counted.#yes i may or may not end up combing vesperia's script over it too#it's just rly cute... but most things yuri does are cute... silly little guy... cute silly guy...#except when flynn is in danger then he's just downright terrifying#im still not actually convinced that yuri did NOT have torture in mind when he confronted baldo and nazar#like he was scary when he threatened cumore saying it's about time for you to get off the stage#confronting baldo and nazar tho? yyyyikes! inb4 I make a comparison video between those two scenes#bc I'd argue my silly little guy's scariest moment in Vesp was with Cumore#but scary does not even properly express him threatening Baldo and Nazar#this has nothing to do with his cute little ticcing anymore but listen now i have two missions#edit: i checked the vesperia script at the beginning of the game and already snagged one so now im determined#he said it once before i even realized he'd said it bc the first time i recalled was during the battle tutorial#he says it so much it goes over my head sometimes but that's just honestly adorable and i love#im so used to it i don't even hone in on it or recognize it bc it's so common#EDIT EDIT: NO WHY AM I TEMPTED TO TRANSLATE ALL OF YURI'S LINES I HATE THIS#I LOVE HIM AND HOW HE TALKS SO MUCH AND THAT'S THE CULPRIT BUT LIKE.#you know what okay maybe I will do that. I just gotta. get through this first. bc.#it'd take too long to count these AND tl at the same time right... ... ...right... ...#NAH BRO I'M TLING RAYS I CANT' GET SIDETRACKED... ...well i guess i can. for yuri...#what if i just do both....... what if i just... do both.............#ACTUALLY YOU KNOW WHAT IF I DO TL YURI'S LINES IN VESP#I CAN TL ALL THE MAS AND OIS YES I CAN god help me..........
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astrxealis · 2 years ago
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while bored at school yesterday i started reading hamlet and edgar allan poe poems alongside many other classic literature which i think is really funny
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callsign-rogueone · 2 months ago
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hour thirty-eight
Bodhi Durran x reader (darling!) words: 1.7k 🏷️: set during fourth wing, aftermath of reader's RSC (not described in any detail, just that you're injured from it), dain and love cameo (you'll eventually be getting love's pov of all this!), xaden gets sucker punched (he kinda deserved it tho), feral bodhi and then sweet soft bodhi in the same post, I'm not the happiest with this one but here it is anyway.
Thirty-seven hours. Thirty-seven fucking hours since Bodhi has seen any trace of you. 
You clearly aren’t out with your squad doing land-nav or anything, because they’re still here, enjoying their weekend off. And they have no idea where you are, either. They haven’t seen you since before he did.
He’s retraced your steps a dozen times by now. You’d had dinner, washed up and spent the night in his room, woken up early for a leadership meeting, then vanished off the face of the planet, and everyone is acting like it’s business as usual.
Everyone except Xaden. 
He might be mister unaffected and cool to everyone else, but his cousin can smell that something is off with him — cornering him and Garrick in the hall after dinner. 
“I’ve checked the infirmary, I’ve checked the death rolls, and the rest of her squad has no idea either, but I know you know something. You’ve got that look on your face. So please, tell me,” he begs, his voice wavering.
He watches the two older boys exchange a look, knowing neither of them want to be the one to say it. 
Xaden sighs, evidently having lost the silent battle of eye contact. “I just need you to trust me. She’s going to be fine — she should be back in the morning.”
“Back from where? Where are the fuck is my wife, Xaden?”
He winces. “Part of the second-year course is interrogation training,” he begins carefully.
“You mean she’s being tortured?”
Xaden exhales. “Yes.” He doesn’t bother to dodge the first punch Bodhi throws — letting it hit him right in the jaw. 
It’s Garrick who lunges forward, grabbing the younger man around the waist and pinning his arms to his sides to hold him back from throttling his cousin. Bodhi thrashes in his grip, uselessly trying to get free. “You didn’t think to mention this to any of us? To your own fucking sister? Because she’s missing too, in case you haven’t noticed.”
“Bo,” Garrick says softly, “you need to take a breath. She’s going to be fine. Both of them will.”
Garrick’s words don’t mean anything to him. “Don’t fucking start with me, Gare. You had plenty of opportunities to tell us, too. You could have mentioned it a year ago, when you found out yourself.“
“We didn’t tell you for the same reason that Cuir didn’t tell you, nor did the Lieutenant Colonel,” Xaden says levelly, his arms crossed over his chest. “Everything they do in RSC is supposed to be a surprise that you can’t prepare for. It’s all classified, and those who have completed it are forbidden from telling anyone what happened.”
“Bullshit. When has that ever stopped you before? Since when do you give a singular shit about the rules?”
“Bodhi,” Garrick warns, glancing around the hall, but thankfully nobody is around to have heard them.
“Fuck — off,” he pants, finally cutting loose from the section leader’s grip. “If you tell me to breathe again, I swear—”
“Bodhi,” Garrick repeats, louder, nodding toward the end of the hallway. “Look.”
The younger boy turns, his anger immediately replaced with relief as he sees you. 
Xaden’s shadows rush up to cushion your bruises as Bodhi gathers you into his arms. “Gods,” he breathes into your hair, “I was worried sick — I had no idea where you were. Was Callwell with you?”
“Yeah. She’s in the infirmary, with Dain.”
Bodhi pulls back to look at you, taking stock of your injuries. “Why didn’t you go with them?” he asks gently. There’s no scolding in his tone, just the same soft concern you can see in his eyes.
“I wanted to find you, and make sure you were okay. I didn’t know if they’d taken you too,” you say softly, your voice dry and scratchy. 
Xaden and Garrick both look guilt-stricken. Good, Bodhi decides. They should be.
“We stayed after class to talk to Kaori, and I got that feeling, but I didn’t know what was going to happen, or to who. As soon as we stepped out into the hallway…” you don’t finish the sentence. “They messed up — they weren’t supposed to take me, just her and Dain. But I was walking with them, and I guess they thought we were in the same squad.”
There’s a second of silence. “M’sorry I scared you,” you say softly. 
“Don’t apologize, cridhe. I’m just glad you’re safe now. Let‘s get you to the healers, okay?”
You hum in acknowledgment, fighting to keep your eyes open. It’s going to be a challenge for him to limp you back down the stairs and across the campus in this state, with your energy completely drained and your legs injured as well.
“I can…” Garrick offers, stepping forward.
“I’ve got her,” Bodhi snaps over his shoulder, steadying you with an arm around your waist. “She’s my responsibility, not yours.”
“Don’t be too hard on them,” you murmur, focusing on putting one foot in front of the other. “Knowing it was coming would just have made it worse.”
Oh, gods. Now he knows — now he and Imogen and the rest of your friends are going to be waiting to be whisked away to the dungeons for a weekend of suffering, constantly anticipating an ambush, bags being thrown over their heads and getting dragged down to the dungeon to be beaten. That must be how you feel all the time with your signet, always focused on some looming tragedy or catastrophe. 
You haven’t let it break you thus far, so he won’t either.
Your walk to the infirmary is mostly silent, save for the occasional soft praise from Bodhi, gentle murmurs about how well you’re doing and that you’re almost there.
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Dain’s forehead and nose are bloody, a dried up cut splitting his cheek, but it’s nothing compared to the state of your friend who sits beside him, tears slowly dripping down her face.
“She shielded us,” you explain to Bodhi in a soft voice. “So they took it out on her the worst, and made us watch.”
His heart twists as he realizes exactly how cruel and how realistic this training is, to punish someone for protecting their friends. They’d probably done that with the goal of getting you or Dain to crack, to exchange information for relief from the sight of her being broken bit by bit and the sound of her screaming.
But from the looks of her, the two of you had held fast — not telling them anything.
Dain continues whispering to her, his thumb stroking over her knee as a healer presses a hand against her ribs, inspecting for cracks. They must find one, because she curls in on herself with a soft whimper of pain, squeezing her eyes shut.
Another healer appears, beckoning you forward. She doesn’t protest as Bodhi comes with you, keeping a hand on your back as you walk. “Second year?” she asks, a soft sadness in her voice.
“Yes ma’am,” you say quietly, realizing that at her age, she’s probably bandaged up a thousand cadets after they’d gone through the same thing. 
That means someone else on this campus has beaten a thousand of you half to death.
“You think anything’s broken?”
“No, ma’am. Just some cuts and bruises.”
Bodhi helps you out of your ruined flight jacket, baring your arms, but the healer doesn’t flinch at the sight of your relic, nor the purpling bruises across your chest and shoulders. She’s gentle, silently working on disinfecting and stitching and bandaging with a learned hand. 
You let your head loll against Bodhi’s shoulder, your eyes closing. He presses a soft kiss to your temple, his hand coming up to cradle the back of your neck. 
“You picked a good one,” she remarks, a knowing smile on her face. “He’ll take care of you, like a warrior should.”
You turn your head to look at her. The sentence doesn’t quite make sense in the common language, but in Tyrrish, the words “husband” and “warrior” sound nearly identical.
“Smart girl,” she praises, knowing you’ve figured it out from the look on your face.
“I am in your debt,” Bodhi says softly, not wanting the other healer to hear. “She is my world. Thank you for holding her so gently.” 
She offers you both a soft smile. “May she one day be free.”
Your eyes widen, but you quickly force the rest of your face into a neutral expression. This might be a trap — a way for the school to see if you’ve inherited your parents’ ideology. And any evidence of any of you having thoughts about a second attempt at secession will mean the end of Xaden’s life.
She doesn’t pry or say anything further, just rising from her seat and cleaning up the tools she’d used before crossing the room to help the other healer.
You cast another glance back at your friend. Dain is still with her, letting her rest her head on his shoulder as Nolon works to fix her broken bones. Her eyes are closed, her breathing steady now that the pain has dulled.
“I’ve got her,” he promises quietly, seeing your hesitation. “Get some sleep, if you can.”
You nod in acknowledgement, letting Bodhi guide you back to the rider’s dorms and mindlessly following his lead as he gets some things from his room, then takes you to the showers, helping you out of your bloodied uniform and washing the blood from your skin in near-silence. 
The rest is just muscle memory — brushing your teeth and tugging one of his shirts over your head, padding across the hall to his room and climbing into your side of his bed, tucking yourself under his arm and pulling the blankets over you both. 
He plants another kiss to your forehead, his heart softening at the way you nuzzle your cheek into his shoulder in response — you’re too tired to lift your head up enough to return the kiss, but he knows that the way you’re curled into his side is an ‘I love you’ in itself, an indication that you feel safe with him, to let your guard down in this death trap of a school, to finally relax and sleep after two days of pain and fear.
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fairyhaos · 7 months ago
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seventeen's "loser line" in a relationship
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based off of the "losers when in love"* bullet point in this headcanon! theyre literally SO fuckinfg cute oml i might write full fics for them if i have time ><
*consists of junhui, mingyu, chan.
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pathetic and adorable kind of loser. pathetic really.... is genuinely the best way to describe it. he's so desperately, pathetically in love with you and literally acts like he's still hopelessly pining over you even though you've already started dating. laughs super hard at your jokes and stares at you with sparkles in his eyes and flirts with you at every given opportunity like he isn't already dating you and hasn't already won over your affections ages ago. but hey, he's dedicated, and you can't exactly complain at being showered with all of his attention.
also randomly informs you that he's in love with you at any time of day. you'll be watching a movie in the theatre and he'll tug your sleeve, leaning into your space almost shyly and being like "hey. hey. i just wanted to let you know... im kind of in love with you" before scrunching his shoulders up all shy and leaning quickly away from you again. hes always so adorable, ears turning pink even as he flirts with you into oblivion before tacking on a cute "im in love with you, by the way" at the end. every time he says it, you feel so overwhelmed because god, you're so in love with him too
mingyu
wet puppy kind of loser. i'm talking whining 24/7, pouting dramatically whenever you're not clinging to his side, and snuggling into you whenever possible. it's like dating a large, overgrown puppy that doesn't realise he's as big as he is, if that puppy suddenly found out how to talk and cook and do the laundry and looks up at you with big, shining eyes when you come home and goes "hello!! i made every single one of your favourite foods when you were gone bc i missed you so much. how was your day??" at least twice a week. (you're beginning to worry that mingyu might have some sort of separation anxiety.)
also he Does Not care if the other members tease him for being so in love with you, bc hey, yoon jeonghan's just jealous of your lurrrve anyway. but he will sulk if You tease him about it bc hey :(( you're the love of his life :((( don't be mean to him :((( gives you those big, wet, sad eyes every time you tease him until you finally laugh and give him a big kiss to placate him. tells you he loves you every single hour of the day. the members can tease him all they want, but all that matters to him is that you're aware that he Genuinely loves you to pieces.
chan
devastatingly infatuated kind of loser. he literally just. ADORES you so much in a kinda adorable, kinda incredible way because it surprises you again and again when he does something and you realise he loves you so much. and he does things, a lot, because this man is literally doing everything for you. hangs onto your every word like they hold the secrets to the universe, and remembers everything you tell him like it's his life's mission to become an expert on your likes and dislikes. has definitely zoned out whilst staring at you too many times to count.
i gotta stress how in love this man is tho, like. would 100% change his profession into loving you 24/7 if he could. no one wants to go out drinking when the two of you are together bc when chan gets drunk, he just repeats how in love with you he is over and over again like a broken record. (hoshi made the mistake of joining you two, once. he recounts the incident with a look of mild horror every single gathering the 14 of you have.) he doesn't say ily to your face a lot, but it's mostly bc he just forgets cuz he's been staring at you in an utterly lovesick way for far too long.
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star-girl69 · 6 months ago
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Can’t Help Myself
Caroline (KK) Harvey x Fem!Reader
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synopsis: nights out are supposed to be fun, but when someone mistakes you for being single, caroline can’t help herself.
a/n: GUYS IM BACK!!!!! also i love you alexandra savior… anyways from this ask, i hope you all enjoy!!
Can’t Help Myself - Alexandra Savior
warnings: alcohol obviously, lots of it, swearing, violence, mentions of blood and such, ummm idk i don’t want to give too much away 😣😣 that’s pretty much it tho, tell me if i missed anything!!
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The last time you went to a bar you were sneaking in with a fake ID.
You were 20, so close to that precious age of 21, a freshman in college and itching for that movie like experience you had grown up seeing. After a friend of a friend hooked you up, you got so drunk you swear you started seeing stars, but those might have just been the checkerboard black and white tiles on the bathroom floor.
Memories of that cold tile on your knees hit you every time you thought about going out and, besides- your major didn’t allow for much partying. A fact your friends and girlfriend all detested- but you refused to get behind on classwork just to end up on the bathroom floor again.
But, here you are. Holding onto your girlfriend, Caroline’s hand as she guides you through the crowds of people and towards the bar. You look around warily- is it just you or is there too many people in this building? Are they seriously not breaking some sort of fire code?
Caroline had asked so nicely- and by that, literally got on her knees and begged you- you were all caught up on school and had no homework, she had just won the NCAA championship and was on a high- plus you had a three day weekend.
Really, there wasn’t any excuse you could use.
Maybe, if you really wanted to, you could have said you were too nervous, and Caroline would have stayed home with you immediately at the first sign of you being anything other than happy. But, you knew she wanted to celebrate with her team. And why wouldn’t she? She worked hard for this, scoring 3 goals during the entire Frozen Four tournament.
Caroline suddenly squeezes your hand before pulling you towards her, arm moving around your waist.
“You good, baby?” She asks, looking around the bar for the collection of red jerseys.
“There’s a lot of people,” you say, hesitantly. You don’t want to lie to her, but you don’t want her to take you home. You know she will. Not yet, at least. “I need a drink.”
She laughs and kisses your cheek, and your stomach twists at the sound of her contagious laugh- you find yourself smiling too. “I’ll get you one, then.”
She immediately makes a detour towards the bar, and you press your hip into the counter while she wraps her arm around you, standing next to you so closely you probably look like one person in your matching Harvey jerseys.
“What’d you want?” She asks, her breath tickling the side of your neck. God, it’s loud in here, too.
You stare at her blankly for a second before shrugging. “I dunno, you’re the one who actually drinks.”
She smiles. “Okay, don’t worry your pretty little head about it.”
The bartender asks what she wants, and you block out what she says- kind of wanting to be surprised. Next thing you know, she’s saying thank you and putting some money on the counter, telling the bartender to keep the change before turning to you, two glasses in her hand.
And, suddenly, despite the uneasy feeling in your stomach and the fact that this place is so bright and so loud, she looks into your eyes and it’s suddenly just the two of you.
“Thank you for doing this for me,” she whispers.
“Of course, baby,” you smile. “You deserve to celebrate. Don’t worry about me, okay? I’ll be fine. I want you to have fun.”
She rolls her eyes. “I’m always gonna worry about you, babe.”
“If I really want to leave, I’ll just grab your hand and squeeze two times.”
“You better not lie to me, though. Are you sure you’re still good?”
You kiss her nose. “All good. Let me have some of that drink now?”
She smiles, and you shouldn’t be surprised by the way she completely bypasses your open hands and lifts the drink to your lips herself, watching intently at the way your lips part around the small black straw, then at the way your cheeks slightly hollow.
It’s… disgusting, really. The drink, at least. Having Caroline look at you like this, pupils wide and bottom lip now drawn between her teeth, is absolutely exhilarating. All you’re doing is taking a sip of her drink and she’s acting like you’re doing the sexiest thing in the world right in front of her.
It’s slightly fruity, and there’s vodka in it, and maybe some soda? It’s disgusting. You don’t know what it is, and you don’t want to know. You continue to force it down, managing to down almost half of the glass before Caroline snaps back into reality, ripping the drink away from you.
“Okay, slow down, please,” she chuckles.
You gag a bit, shaking your head. “That’s disgusting. Ugh, I hated that.”
“I can get you something else?” She asks, frowning. You almost chuckle at how concerned she is. “Or just water?”
“No,” you roll your eyes. “I’m just trying to chug it as fast as I can.” You try to grab the drink from her again, but she holds it back.
“Okay,” she smiles. “You can… do that, I guess. If you really want to, but in a few minutes. Take it easy, yeah, baby?”
“Okay,” you echo, feeling your stomach twist at the way she’s so knowledgeable in this, the way she’s looking out for you-
“Good girl,” she smiles, kissing your cheek before wrapping her arm tightly around your waist again and leading you through the crowd.
She has to know what she does to you.
You look at her out of the corner of your eye- satisfied smirk on her face- oh. She’s trying to kill you.
Fine, you tell yourself. She’s acting all cool as if she wouldn’t be leaving this bar if you squeezed her hand twice. She’ll do whatever you want, you both know that, but if she’s gonna try to rile you up in the middle of the bar by saying that- well, two can play at that game.
She leads you towards the other side of the bar, where you find a huge booth filled with red jerseys, half-full glasses strewn about the table.
Laila’s phone is propped up against one of those glasses, and she stares intensely at the screen in a way you call tell she’s reading comments on live.
“Laila!” KK calls, loosening your grip on you as the floor opens up a bit.
She smiles when she sees the two of you, beckoning you over. She’s sitting at the end of the circular booth, so you let go of KK to give her a quick hug. Wrapping your arms around her neck, pressing your cheek to hers to say hi to the live.
“Hi, guys!” You smile, watching as a flood of comments come in, all of them saying hi, or complimenting you. “Aw, thanks everyone. You’re all so sweet.”
“Guys,” Laila says, “Do you see this right now?”
She plucks at your red jersey.
“She’s a liar. She does not play for the Wisconsin Badgers! And her last name is not Harvey, either!”
KK suddenly appears next to you, pushing her face into frame.
“One day, though.”
user-1 omg they’re so adorable
user-2 Y/N I CANT BELIEVE YOU STOLE MY GF
user-3 tbh she’s beautiful i cant be mad
user-4 y/n harvey has a ring to it tbh…
user-5 NO DONT GET MARRIED KK COME HOME
user-6 @/user-5 KK THE KIDS MISS YOU
“I’ll believe that when I see a ring,” you tease.
“God, nothing ever pleases you.”
“Can you not?” Laila groans, fake gagging.
user-7 aw poor laila third wheeling
Laila scoots over and you sit down next to her, allowing Caroline to press a kiss to your cheek, saying she’ll be back soon.
user-8 y/n fit check pls??
“Y/N do a fit check!” Laila shouts, not quite aware of her volume level. You take another sip of your drink, gagging yet again.
“Okay. I don’t feel like getting up, though. Um, top is from Caroline Harvey’s closet, bottoms are from, like, Old Navy I think. I dunno, they’re just jeans. And then I’ve had these shoes for years, so…”
Laila turns to you, bored look on her face.
“Y/N, you’re not very good at this.”
“Girl, whatever. I tried.”
user-9 y/n ur so real
user-10 i would die for you y/n
user-11 what method of manifestation did you use?
“My method of manifestation? Listened to Bags by Clairo on repeat, of course.”
user-12 Y/N CLARIO STAN CONFIRMED????
user-13 u are my new fav celebrity.
user-14 what are you guys drinking?!?!??!!?
“What are we drinking?” Laila repeats. “Um, I don’t know if we can say this. Take a wild guess, though.”
“I don’t even know what this is,” you laugh, picking up your glass and swirling it around, listening to the ice clink. “Caroline ordered it for me.”
You take a deep breath- moving out of the screen- abandoning the straw and placing your lips right on the rim, downing the rest of the glass.
user-15 GOD THEYRE SO ADORABLE
user-16 i’m still in mourning…
user-17 the day they hard launched a part of me died
user-18 IF Y’ALL DONT SHUT UP YOU NEVER HAD A CHANCE ANYWAYS
user-19 @/user-18 EXACTLY if i see ANYONE bullying my queen y/n i will attack
“Aw, thank you guys,” you coo. “I’m so sorry that I took your girlfriend, really.”
user-20 GOOD
user-21 YOU SHOULD BE.
user-22 pls tell kk to pay child support
“Okay, so, guys, you didn’t hear this from me but unfortunately KK is actually in debt from all of the child support payments, so you might want to find some other income.”
Laila, who had zoned out reading the comments next to you, laughs so hard she has to take herself out of frame.
“No, because KK actually is so broke right now.” She says, coming back into frame, her eyes so wide she looks like a crazy person.
user-23 y/n pls take laila home 😭
user-24 laila ily pls stop drinking
Laila gasps, dropping her jaw in shock.
“I’m literally not even that… D-R-U-N-K!”
“Laila,” you say, biting your lip to keep from laughing. “Maybe it’s time to let the live go.”
“Yeah, I wanna dance. Okay, bye, guys. Sorry for tripping out. I love you all, see you guys soon.”
You blow a few kissy faces at the screen. “Love you guys!”
The live ends and Laila immediately perks up, looking towards the dance floor. “Okay, move!” She says, trying to push you out of the booth. You scramble away, chuckling at how disoriented she is.
“Sure you wanna dance? Your 6’1 self might fall over and kill someone.”
“Shut up, Y/N.”
Dancing does sound nice. You need to let go a bit, and where better to do it then in the middle of a bunch of people so drunk they won’t remember this tomorrow?
Laila grabs your hand, despite the fact she just told you to shut up, and starts to drag you into the crowd of dancing people. The music seems louder, now.
“Y/N!”
Someone grabs your other hand, pulling you and Laila to a stop. KK stands there, concern on her face and her drink back in her hand.
“Where are you going?” She asks.
“To dance,” you roll your eyes. Maybe you’re kind of a lightweight, but you already feel a little tipsy. That might be a placebo effect, though. This place just feels so freeing, with all the pretty lights and the music that you swear is getting louder by the second.
You grab her drink, taking another big sip.
Her eyes widen and Laila groans, tugging on you.
“I wanna danceeee.”
KK looks between you, drunk Laila, and the crowded dance floor.
“Y/N,” she grimaces. You take another sip.
“I wanna dance, KK. Don’t be a… freakin’ party pooper.”
She blinks at you. “Oh, my God, you are such a lightweight.”
“Okay, can you relax? Overprotective? Your precious girlfriend will be fine,” Laila smiles, flexing her bicep.
“See?!” You smile, gesturing animatedly to Laila before taking another sip.
She grabs her drink back from you. “All done with that.”
“Aw,” you pout.
Caroline sighs, looking again at the dance floor like it’s some entity that’s gonna hurt you.
“Baby,” you start, wrapping your free arm around her neck and drawing her in close to you, burying your face into the side of her neck.
“Y/N.”
You kiss her neck, tongue darting out to swipe across her sweet skin. “Please let me dance, Caroline.”
There’s a breathy lilt to your voice you both know she can’t resist. This is how you win every argument, just bury your face in her neck and ask pretty please.
“Shit, Y/N,” she says, her voice strained. “Don’t do that.”
“Do what?” you ask, kissing her neck again.
She puts her free hand on the back of your head, smoothing down your hair for one second, savoring the moment before she pulls you away.
“Can I go dance?” You ask, barely licking your lips- but she sees it.
She sighs and rubs the back of her neck.
You both know she can’t resist you, not right now. Especially not when you’re wearing her last name and you’re kissing her neck.
“Be safe.”
“Bye! Love you!” you shout, tugging on Laila. She drops the hand that was covering her eyes and smiles.
“Thank God that’s over.”
You turn to look back at Caroline, and she’s staring after you like you’re the most precious thing in the world. You’ve never thought that Caroline’s overprotective nature was too much. You’ve never shied away from it. How could you hide away from something that feels so perfect? So good? So right?
Belonging to her is the most fulfilling thing you’ve ever known- you can’t help yourself from loving every crazy part of her.
And, besides, she deserves to spend time with her friends. She deserves to celebrate her win in whatever way she wants. You’re kind of surprised that she didn’t follow you out onto the dance floor, but you’re happy about that. She needs her friends and you need yours.
The music gets so loud you swear your eardrums are about to burst.
It’s the best thing you’ve ever felt.
—-
After dancing with Laila for so long your legs feel like they’re about to fall off, they start playing a slightly slower, more sexual song. Couples quickly form on the dance floor- whether it be actual couples or just random people deciding to dance together.
Laila hits your shoulder, and subtlety points to a man wearing the ugliest neon yellow jacket. Maybe it’s not so bad on its own, but paired with an equally neon orange shirt underneath, he looks kind of like a traffic cone.
You laugh, but this new song has changed the vibe, and suddenly you wish your girlfriend was dancing with you.
“I want Caroline,” you say to yourself, spinning around, trying to find where the red jerseys are- quickly getting dizzy. Definitely a little drunk.
“Who would have guessed,” Laila deadpans, and you swat her shoulder while she laughs.
You suddenly feel eyes on you, but Laila is searching the crowd. You look around, suddenly locking eyes with a man dressed in black dress pants and a blue shirt- the top buttons open.
The first thing you notice about him is how startlingly pale he is. You actually kind of get the shivers- he’s deathly skinny, with a goatee he cannot pull off- and he kinda makes you feel uneasy.
Besides for his somewhat startling appearance, he licks his lips as he looks at you like you’re a piece of meat.
“Ugh,” you say, cringing, unable to hide the disgust on your face. You feel kinda bad when his face falls- maybe he’s just drunk like you. Yet, here you are, criticizing his appearance and gagging at him. You shoot him an awkward smile, and his eyes trail up your body- okay. So much for giving him the benefit of the doubt, whatever. “Help,” you whisper to Laila, somewhat jokingly, grabbing her hand.
“Huh?” She asks, grabbing back and looking around.
“Really pale weird guy staring at me like he wants to fuck me.”
“Oh, Jesus Christ, Y/N. That’s fuckin’ disgusting, don’t tell me that.”
“Sorry!” You laugh, watching her eyes widen as she seems to finally spot him.
“Oh, wow… he’s so handsome! When my eyes are closed.”
You laugh and quickly slap your hand over your mouth, turning to her to keep from him seeing you.
“He’s still staring, though,” she frowns. “Okay, this dude is actually so creepy- I’m done dancing, you too?”
You suddenly remember how much you miss Caroline.
“Yeah, all done. Miss my girlfriend.”
“Y’all are so clingy, God… anyways, where did we come from?”
“Um, there, I think.” You start leading her through the crowd, immediately forgetting about the man, thinking only about your beautiful girlfriend and how excited you are to see her again. Forgetting the fact that’s only been about 20 minutes.
Suddenly, a flash of blue appears in front of you and you’re slamming into someone.
“Oh, sorry!” You apologize, steadying yourself by grabbing onto Laila. “You okay?”
You’re met with a pale face and a goatee.
Your eyes widen but you manage to bite your tongue, Laila squeezing your hand so tightly it might snap off.
“All good, pretty girl. You okay?”
“Fine, thanks!” You manage to bite out, Laila’s resolve slowly falling as she starts laughing a bit, and you try desperately to pull her away.
“Hey,” the guy starts, but you pretend not to hear him and tug Laila past him. You can’t bear to look behind yourself, scolding Laila softly as she starts boisterously laughing.
“Oh, my God- you bumped into him!”
“Laila!”
This entire night has felt perfect so far, and it feels kinda picturesque that a super cliche movie thing happened to you. All you can do is laugh about it.
“What’cha laughing about?” Caroline asks, and you suddenly realize you’ve escaped the dance floor and made it back to her.
“KK!” You smile, wrapping your arms around her neck and pressing a short kiss to her lips. She smiles back at you, looking at you in a way that can only be described as adoringly.
“Okay, bye,” Laila says, jokingly covering her eyes as she walks away to talk with some other teammates.
Caroline rolls her eyes at Laila but wraps her arm loosely around your waist, just keeping you close to her. “You’re having fun, baby.”
“So much, this is great. Why don’t I go out more? Why don’t I drink more? Oh, can I have that?”
Caroline stares down at her drink that you’ve already drunk most of-
“C’mon, sweetheart, I’ll get you another one.”
“Okay!” You smile, feeling on top of the world with her arm around you again. She leads you around the outskirts of the dance floor, and you end up back at the bar- leaning against her while she orders.
You’re standing side by side, and she’s dropped the hand around your waist to pull out cash from her wallet. You miss her touch, so you lean your head against her shoulder, adjusting her jersey that’s started slipping down your shoulder.
“Can I buy a drink for the pretty girl and her friend?”
At first, you don’t even realize someone’s talking to you.
You hear about it in the movies, the creepy guys at bars. You hear the horror stories from your friends and family. And you know it’s real, you know it happens- but you never ever think it could happen to you.
Suddenly, there’s that same pale man right next to you, staring into your eyes with such and intensity you wonder if he has a medical condition or if this is some weird attempt at flirting.
“What?”
Its the only thing you can think to blurt out.
Caroline looks up from her wallet, stuffing it back into her pocket and turning to you, hearing your voice but confused as to what you’re talking about.
“Can I buy you a drink?” The guy repeats in a hopeful tone- but the way he carries himself irks you. He’s self-entitled. It’s not quite confidence, but it’s more so this idea that the entire world should bow at his feet. And, unfortunately, that includes you.
“Excuse me?” Caroline asks, quickly wrapping her arm around your shoulder and pulling you even closer. “Thanks, but she doesn’t want anything from you.”
“Really?” He asks, smiling in that same self-entitled way. “C’mon, honey. You’re gorgeous, I’m gorgeous, let me buy you a drink and take you home.”
You feel utterly frozen. Is this actually happening? Are there cameras somewhere?
“Uhhhh…” you say, looking between him and Caroline- the two of them currently engaged in a deadly staring competition.
“Sorry, let me rephrase. My girlfriend doesn’t want anything from you.”
“Caroline,” you mutter, hearing an edge to her voice that’s turning from protective and wary to something a little more… violent. “Let’s just go, babe.”
“Yeah, let’s just go,” she echoes. She turns around with you still under her arm, positioning herself between you and the other guy.
He scoffs as you both turn around- completely offended and shocked at the idea that you don’t want him.
Maybe Caroline glaring at him sets him off. Maybe he just doesn’t know when to quit.
“C’mon, baby- you know you want it. Stop being a little bitch.”
Your mouth parts slightly- and you almost want to laugh- him? Calling you a bitch?
You can feel Caroline’s entire body tense against you.
“Caroline-” you start, knowing her protective nature is going to get to her. You’ve seen it a thousand times on the ice when a girl on the other team gets too close to her goalie, or roughs up another Badger- Caroline fights on the ice.
God, you’ve even confessed to her how sexy you think it is when she suddenly shoulder checks some girl, or slams her stick into someone’s chest.
She whips around, her arm out in front of you, while the arm that was previously around your shoulder whips around and slams into his face.
You let out a yelp at the sheer speed of it all- one second you were walking away, and now Caroline is shaking out her hand as the man doubles over, clutching his jaw.
“You stupid fucking bitch!” He shouts, a crowd quickly forming.
Thankfully, she ignores that comment.
“Listen to me. You don’t touch my girl, you don’t look at her, you don’t think about her- or I swear to God you will not be able to fuckin’ talk.”
She turns back around, her jaw clenched, and you gape at her- mouth opening and closing like a fish, you feel so stupid- but you don’t even know what to say. Do you scold her? Do you kiss her? Because you kinda want to do both right now.
Your mind is literal mush. Not only was that the hottest thing you’ve ever seen in your entire life- but also terrifying. Thankfully, you don’t have to do anything, because Laila and a few other Badgers break through the crowd, grabbing KK and dragging her back towards the exit.
Laila softly taps you, and you tear your eyes away from the fuming man still clutching his cheek- mouth still stupidly dropped open.
“You good?” Laila asks, softly putting her hand on your shoulder.
“Good,” you breathe. “Oh, my God- I can’t believe that just happened.” Laila leads you out of the bar, following behind KK who is getting… forcefully escorted out by her teammates.
The whispers and the staring stops when you exit the bar and into the fresh air. It’s nice out here, still warm but there’s a cool breeze running through. The bar was stuffy and hot, and you didn’t even realize you were holding your breath until the fresh air is right in your face.
“Okay.” Britta Curl, Wisconsin’s captain sighs heavily, rubbing her temples. “What the fuck happened.”
It’s not quite a question.
KK’s teammates let her go, and her jaw is clenched, fists also clenched at her sides. She’s like a tight little ball of anger right now, about to explode.
She’s obviously not going to answer, so Britta turns to you. Her frustration softens a bit, and you’re sure you look a little shaken up- you can’t stop thinking: what if Caroline wasn’t there?
What if he got his hands on you? What if he had stepped closer?
“You okay, Y/N?”
“Yes,” you breathe. All of the team knows you well, and most of them are truly your friends. Despite the fact it’s become a running joke to refer to you as “KK Harvey’s Girlfriend” you know they all do care about you. “I’m fine, thank you.”
“Shit, Y/N,” KK breathes, running her hand through her hair. It’s nothing like earlier tonight when she said those words, when you were kissing your neck.
God, if you could go back to that.
She takes a few deep breaths. “Shit. I’m sorry, Y/N. I… I just couldn’t help myself. I couldn’t let him say that shit. Call you that, fuck.”
You can practically see the memories flash behind her eyes, and she’s getting herself all worked up again.
“Harvey,” Britta cautions, putting her hand on her shoulder. “Take some breaths.”
“Okay, hold on,” Laila starts. “Was that who I think it was? Pale guy from the dance floor?”
“Yeah,” you affirm, and Laila rolls her eyes.
“What a creep.”
“Wait, who?” KK asks, suddenly completely still, staring at Laila in a way that reminds you of a predator about to attack. She’s still got that rage in her veins, and she’s chasing the high, the retribution.
“There was this guy on the dance floor, he was staring at Y/N in this, like, sexual assault-y way, super creepy-”
“A what way?”
Her voice is calm. But you know her, you know her voice- you can hear the pure rage behind it. That deadliness, all of that precision and strength from hockey honed to one target.
“Okay,” Laila says, sticking her palms out in a calming manner. “Not the best choice of words. Deep breaths, KK.”
“No, like what? He was staring at my girlfriend like what?”
“Caroline.”
You walk towards her, placing your hands on her chest.
“Caroline, sweetheart, I love you… but you have to calm down, okay? He was just a fucking weirdo at a bar. And you punched him, remember? He’s not going to talk to another girl, let alone me, for a long time.”
You force her to meet her eyes, and she stares at you for a few seconds- her face slowly starting to soften.
“Sorry,” she mumbles after a moment.
“Why do we even try?” One of her teammates whispers. You resist the urge to smile.
“Why don’t we go home, K?”
She looks over your shoulder at the door to the bar.
“Yeah.”
“Thank God,” Laila mutters. “This was about to become a bloodbath. Everyone say ‘thank you, Y/N.’”
A few of her teammates laugh, and even KK cracks a small smile as they all repeat the sentiment.
Britta turns to KK, glaring at her still somewhat disapprovingly.
“I’m sorry,” KK mutters again.
Britta sighs. “I… probably would have punched him too if I was there. I can’t blame you.”
“Exactly, like? What was I supposed to do? He called my girl a bitch and I was supposed to just walk away? Nah. No way.”
“Overprotective!” Laila chimes in with a sing-song voice, and all of you laugh.
Finally, you all manage to bid your goodbyes, Laila saying she’ll hitch a ride back from someone else- “I don’t want to hear what’s about to go on in that bedroom. Keep the biohazards to a minimum, though.”
Caroline opens the car door for you, moving around to the other side and quickly climbing in. She puts her hand on the inside of your thigh, not starting the car yet, and making no move to.
She hesitates for a moment.
“Did I scare you?” She finally asks, turning to you with such vulnerability etched into her face it fixes any part of your heart that had ever hurt.
You smile softly, because you love this girl and you can’t believe she cares about you this much.
“No, baby.” You put your hand on her face and she leans towards you. “I was scared… because I kept thinking about what would have happened if you weren’t there.”
“I’m never letting you out of my sight at a bar again. Or ever, actually. Would you be down to tattoo Property of Caroline Harvey on your chest?”
“Caroline.”
“I love you.” You smile, the joking scold dying on your tongue. “I love you so much. And I can’t believe you’re all mine.”
You fake gasp. “I cant believe you’re all mine. Caroline Harvey, Olympian, star-athlete, heartthrob of women’s hockey-”
She shuts you up with a kiss. You’re both smiling into it, your thumbs rubbing her check, her hand squeezing your thigh and her other hand coming up to lightly hold the base of your neck.
When you finally have to pull away for that stupid thing called breathing, you grab her hand and squeeze twice. She quirks her brow at you before realization washes over her face.
“Well, when my beautiful girl says it’s time to go, it’s time to go.”
She doesn’t move her hand from your thigh the entire drive. And despite Caroline being a little hot headed and a little overprotective, it’s just her way of showing you she loves you- you can’t think of it any other way.
There’s no one else in the world who would succumb to whatever you want just because you kissed their neck, no one else who you would feel confident completely placing your trust in, no one else who can love you the way she loves you.
And if tonight is any indication- she loves you to the point of violence. Which is kind of alarming, but mostly sweet.
—-
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HEARTBREAK SYNDROME.
episode ten :: MADNESS, BADNESS.
꒰꒰◌‧₊ ⬪˙⋆ pairing ︴lewis hamilton x y/n
꒰꒰◌‧₊ ⬪˙⋆ genre ︴social media au / irl snippets
꒰꒰◌‧₊ ⬪˙⋆ summary ﹔lewis + y/n = combination
꒰꒰◌‧₊ ⬪˙⋆ face claim ﹔ wonyoung jang (28)
꒰꒰◌‧₊ ⬪˙⋆ warnings ﹕ excessive cussing, none.
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☆ IMESSAGE with : LEW <3
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y/n: lew are u awake
lew <3: yeah i’m up
y/n: wait did i wake u up
lew <3: no no dw i couldn’t sleep
lew <3: why are you up tho doll?
lew <3: it’s almost two in the morning
y/n: i couldn’t sleep either <3
y/n: remember the demo lyrics i showed you like three days ago??
lew <3: the one you began writing on the boat?
y/n: yeahhhh that one
lew <3: yeah ofc
y/n: can u help me finish it?
y/n: if you’re not busy ofc
lew <3: never too busy for you doll
lew <3: plus i’m not really doing anything rn
y/n:
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lew <3: you and those memes lmfao
lew <3: how can i help you doll
y/n: oh
y/n: i was actually hoping you’d come over
y/n: i’m just chilling in my home studio
lew <3: studio you said???
lew <3: you don’t even have to ask twice
lew <3: putting on my shoes
y/n: omg oh my god okay omg
y/n: y/n x xnda????
lew <3: whewwwwwww 😮‍💨😮‍💨😮‍💨
lew <3: let me cook alright
y/n: get in there lewis
lew <3: omw !!!
y/n: pls bring roscoe
lew <3: dw i will
lew <3: i said your name once and he immediately woke up
y/n: 😭😭
y/n: i miss him sm
lew <3: on our way doll :)))
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y/n it’s just me and you
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→ username OKAY SO THIS JUST CONFIRMED IT
→ username WORLDS COLLIDING????
→ username IM SOOOOOO NORMAL ABT THIS
username LEWIS AND Y/N IN THE STUDIO????
→ username i personally, am frothing at the mouth.
→ username real
carlossainz55 babysitting duty?
→ y/n third wheeling duty actually
→ lewishamilton i was the third wheel 🙋🏾
→ username OHMYGODOHMYGOD
→ username Y/N X XNDA WHEN
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username OMFGGGGGGG
roscoelovescoco i’s missed yous y/ns 🐾
→ username i once again say, hoe you ain’t slick 🤨
username there’s so much going on i don’t know where to look.
username LEWIS WAS THEREEEEEEE
username BRO IM BOUT TO EXPLODE
y/l/nestate glad you’re in the studio but please get some sleep 🎀
jensonbutton another banger album coming?
→ y/n maybe 🤭
→ username HUHHHHHH
username FATHER JENSON
→ username ANOTHER ALBUM????
→ username MA’AM YOU CANT JUST SAY THAT AND DIP
→ username Y/N COME BACK 🔪
→ username AYEEEEYOOOOOO
→ username SCREAMINGGGG
→ username BWOAHHHHHH
→ username Y/N I SWEARRRRRR
☆ IMESSAGE with : BOARD OF DIRECTORS.
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princess george: so y/n
y/n: jesus christ
princess george: wrong
honey badger: lmfao
y/n: oh this feels like a threat
yukino: it is 🔪🔪🔪
PIERRE GASLYYYY: ^^^
y/n: OH???????
princess george: you and lewis huh 😏
y/n: don’t ever use that emoji ever again omfg
my baby lando: look at her trying to dodge the topic
babygirl alex: no bc literally
chili!: what were you doing in the studio w a boy in the middle of the night young lady 🤨
y/n: papa????
chal eclair: answer the question bae ❤️🔪
wifey lily: yet another man trying to steal my wife i see
angel carmen: no bc has he no self respect? frolicking with a married woman?
girlfriend kika: my wife specifically??
y/n: oh my god 🤭 babe i’m blushing
alabono: bro answer the question
y/n: 🙄🙄🙄🙄
y/n: he helped me with a demo i’m working on
y/n: we wrote a song together is all
yukino: a part of me wants to believe you but the other says you’re hiding shit 🧐
y/n: omfg yuki how dare you
chal eclair: oh so you just hung out?
y/n: yeah man
PIERRE GASLYYYY: “yeah man” right.
PIERRE GASLYYYY: you liar
PIERRE GASLYYYY: roscoe was still at your house this morning when kika facetimed you so lewis is also probably still there
yukino: SO YOU ARE HIDING SHIT???
y/n: wAIT
babygirl alex: LIARRRRRRRR
angel carmen: HOW COULD YOU
y/n: HOLD AWNNNNNN
honey badger: CAN WE EVEN TRUST YOU MATE
chili!: ^^^^^^^
y/n: OKAY
y/n: LISTEN
my baby lando: 👂🏼👂🏼👂🏼👂🏼👂🏼
y/n: roscoe is at my house bc i’m babysitting him today, lew is busy and i’m keeping an eye on him while in the studio
chal eclair: LEW?????
chal eclair: HE HAS A NICKNAME NOW??
chal eclair: I WAITED TWO YEARS TO GET A NICKNAME AND HE GETS ONE EASILY?
chal eclair: THE BEST I GET OUT OF YOU IS SHAL LEGLEG AND HE GETS A CUTE “LEW”?
chal eclair: no.
chal eclair: tell him to pull up
babygirl alex: relax u can’t hurt a fly even if you wanted
yukino: it’s okay charles i’ll hurt him for you
y/n: neither of you is hurting anyone
my baby lando: i smell a potential father figure
y/n: omg shut up
honey badger: she says as she giggles and kicks her feet
y/n: STOPPP
wifey lily: OH SO YOU ARE GIGGLING KICKING YOUR FEET
yukino: down MISERABLE
y/n: NO IM NOT
princess george: what did he do that has you kicking your feet 🤨
chili!: ^^^^^^
babygirl alex: ^^^^^
yukino: ^^^^^^^
honey badger: ^^^^^
y/n: we didn’t do anything oh my god
alabono: we didn’t ask if YALL did something
alabono: we asked what did HE do
alabono: exposed ur self dummy
wifey lily: i’m so proud of you for clocking that babe
alabono: 😌
my baby lando: WAIT
honey badger: YOU TWOOOO DID SOMETHING
yukino: y/n, spill or i crash into lewis next race
y/n: listen. good fucking god.
y/n: i’m literally powering off my phone after this.
y/n: we kissed in the recording both
my baby lando: HUHHHLDOWIFIW
wifey lily: WHATTTTTDOYOUMEANKISSED
chili!: KISSED??? LIKE MWAH MWAH
alabono: MWAH MWAH IS KILLING MEEEE
PIERRE GASLYYYY: Y/N ANSWER THE PHONE
babygirl alex: THEY KISSEDDDDKDOSK
girlfriend kika: LOOOOOOSING IN MY MIND
honey badger: BITCH COME BACK HERE
angel carmen: MY KNEES ARE WEAK WDYM KISS
princess george: YOU DID WHAT WHERE
chal eclair: HE STILL GOT A NICE ENOUGH NICKNAME BEFORE ME MATE.
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☆ IMESSAGE with : LEW <3
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lew <3: today was as long as a mf
lew <3: i got home and wondered why i couldn’t hear any barking
lew <3: forgot my boy was with u lol
y/n: oh fuck u seem rly rly tired
y/n: it’s okay i’ll drop him off dw
y/n: lol at least one of us got work done
lew <3: was ur day not good?
lew <3: what happened doll
y/n: roscoe is soooo fucking adorable :(
y/n: i literally couldn’t pay attention to anything that wasn’t him
y/n: he’s so so so cute it’s was so distracting 🥹 and the problem was that i had him on my lap the entire morning and when i stopped cuddling him he started whining and crying n i felt like a monster
lew <3: awww
lew <3: ur so cute
lew <3: i feel terrible knowing i can’t take him everywhere with me
y/n: he’s so babie i love him soooo much
lew <3: more than me?
y/n: yes obv 🙄 know ur place
lew <3: lmfaoooo
lew <3: come over already doll
y/n: aw man ur taking roscoe away from me :’(
lew <3: i miss my son
lew <3: and i miss my doll too
y/n: making me blush lew
lew <3: if not me then who will
lew <3: btw ur staying for dinner
lew <3: u don’t have a say in this :)
y/n: yes sir!!
lew <3: oh?
lew <3: sir huh?
y/n: 🫢🤭
lew <3: come over.
y/n: omwwww
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The Gambit (Hotch x Fem!Reader) -- part one
I'm backkk 👀 Reminder that y'all do NOT like each other (for now 🤭)
I did a lot of math to make sure I had my timeline in order but I won't bore y'all with all the numbers. Some basics, tho: we're somewhere in s5/6, Foyet doesn't exist here but Haley and Hotch are divorced and Jack lives with Haley, Reader is in her mid 30s and Hotch is in his mid 40s. That's all for now, happy reading! xxx
Chapter warnings: these two are at each other's throats! and a new case begins ofc
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Your day started out perfectly.
You sorted more of your belongings into boxes for the movers. Everything will be shipped ahead so it arrives shortly after you do at your apartment in Virginia. You’re running ahead of schedule, so you even have time to stop for a good breakfast before heading into the office.
The day felt…too good to be true. And you quickly find out why. 
“The BAU?”
Your superior, Agent Reynolds, sits across from you and raises an eyebrow, assuming incorrectly that you haven’t heard of the branch. “The Behavioral Analy—”
“Yes, I know what the BAU is,” you cut him off, something he’s used to, waving your hand sharply. “Why the BAU?”
“You were requested,” he replies simply with a slight shrug.
“By who?”
“Agent Hotchner, as I’m told.”
That is the last name you ever expected him to say. 
“Hotch?” you echo incredulously. “You’re kidding.”
Reynolds sighs. “I’m really not.” You know deep down Reynolds will miss you, but he’ll also thank god every day that he doesn’t have to put up with your attitude anymore. 
“Huh.” You could laugh. You almost do. “Interesting.”
Your now ex-boss gives you a look, and a sigh. “What now?”
“Oh, nothing,” you shake your head. “Agent Hotchner and I have met before, that’s all.”
+++
Ten and a half years prior to the present day, you worked on a case with Aaron Hotchner. 
Key word: case. One singular case.
You were joined by agents Gideon, Morgan, and, of course, Hotchner. You were the only woman with them at the time, and that already threatened to drive you up a wall. To make matters worse, you and Hotch could not get along to save anyone’s lives. 
The two of you butted heads for two weeks straight, but even that is sugar coating it. He raised his voice at you and you raised your voice right back. Of course, only in private. In the field, you were as professional as can be. But in the tiny conference room that you had to set up for them coming in unannounced? All bets were off.
You’ve never been a particularly angry person, but something about Hotch brought all your anger to the surface.
He was the most arrogant man you had ever come across. He explained things to you that you already knew, and even when you told him you were aware of the topic, he’d continue explaining like he hadn’t heard you, just out of spite.
He underestimated you in ways that had your blood boiling. He wouldn’t send you to interview anyone, despite that being your area of expertise. He had you doing busy work, like a goddamn intern. 
You were your office’s own little BAU. You had read Gideon’s papers, been to profiling lectures. You became a profiler because you knew your city needed one, and by your fifth year in the office, you were one. You knew what you were doing, and Hotch treated you like a newbie. 
He always walked around in a damn suit and tie. Does he not own a t-shirt? Does he know what that is? Would it kill him to breathe once in a while?
Why does he have to look like he constantly has a stick up his ass?
Of course, you aren’t totally innocent. You found his buttons and pushed them since day one. He hated being talked over or shouted at, so those became your favorite things. Especially after he began doing them to you.
Don’t disobey direct orders, he said. You did. And you got the results needed, so he had no choice but to move on.
Don’t come into the interrogation room unless asked for, he said. You did anyway. The unsub needed to feel important, a high priority, and he wasn’t. So, you walked in and told Hotch that the Attorney General of the United States was on the phone. It worked. While Hotch “spoke with the Attorney General,” you got a confession. Hotch had to thank you through gritted teeth.
When the case was solved and the BAU left town, you popped a bottle of fucking champagne. Good riddance you screamed and drank straight from the foaming top.
+++
You mutter under your breath the entire drive to the BAU. Your boxes arrived this morning, but you haven’t had a chance to unpack them, so your apartment is currently a shitshow. 
And now you’re driving to deal with another shitshow. 
You haven’t received any emails or texts from Hotch, which is odd, but you’re sure as hell not questioning it. The less you have to deal with him, the better. He probably shares the same sentiment, which is why he hasn’t contacted you.
From far away, Quantico looks more like a prison than it does a headquarters. You hope it doesn’t feel the same way it looks.
The BAU office is just a short elevator ride up from the parking garage, and you dread every second of it. When the doors open on the BAU floor, you want to scream.
But you’re a professional, not a toddler, so you walk your ass through the glass doors and into the bullpen, your head held high like an adult.
“No. Fucking. Way.”
“Hi Morgan,” you mirror his grin, accepting his hug. “Miss me?”
He’s in the same black t-shirt and black jeans he always wears, his haircut just the same but shorter. And he finally got rid of the “shaving my face every morning” routine. Stubble looks much better on him.
“For ten years,” Morgan reminds you. “What brings you here?”
You shrug cheekily, feigning innocence. “I heard there was an opening.”
His grin, somehow, grows wider and brighter. “Come here!” He tackles you in another hug, this time lifting you up and spinning you. “God is on my side to-day. Where’s Reid?”
“Putting a disastrous amount of sugar in his coffee,” a blonde woman says as she passes, then stops. “Oh, hi. I’m JJ, you must be Agent L/N. I heard you were coming in today.”
You escape from Morgan’s grip to shake JJ’s hand. “That’s me. JJ, you said?”
She nods, shifting her feet to a more comfortable position in her heels. “I’m the BAU liaison, so you’ll see a lot of me. And very little of me. It’s complicated.”
“I hear that,” you chuckle, just glad to see another woman has joined the team.
And to your surprise, another joins the circle, this one with black hair parted down the middle. “Emily Prentiss,” she says, sticking out her hand. “Are we finally getting another woman around here?”
You nod, glad to hear she agrees with your unspoken comment. “Looks like it.”
“Did someone call my name?”
You turn and see the infamous Dr. Reid stirring a mug of sugar with a splash of coffee. He’s wearing a cardigan, per usual, and what looks like the same pair converse from when you first met him five years ago at a lecture the BAU put on. He was brand new back then. His eyebrows furrow when he sees you, and then they go wide.
“Y/N? Hi!” he says excitedly, nearly spilling his drink. “It’s been so long! Wha— What are you doing here?”
You give JJ and Emily a look that only you three truly understand. “Why do none of the men assume I’ll be joining the team?”
Emily laughs. “Believe me, I wish I knew.”
“Wait, seriously?” Reid blurts. “Are you really joining us?”
“Sure am,” you grin. “And once I get out of this meeting with Hotch, you’re telling me when the hell you joined a boyband.”
“Oh, ouch,” Morgan taps Reid’s arm lightly with a grin.
“Uh, you too, Derek,” you punch him, letting him know he isn’t off the hook either. “What’s up with the shirt? Do you not own another color?”
“Damn, momma,” Morgan groans. “You haven’t changed.”
“Neither have you,” you pat his cheek.
“I like you already,” Emily grins.
“Agent L/N,” an unmistakable voice comes from the top of the stairs, effectively ruining the moment. 
He definitely hasn’t changed, you think to yourself as you slowly turn around. 
“Agent Hotchner,” you mimic his tone. “Nice to see you again.”
He grips the railing a little too tightly. And he’s still wearing a damn suit, with a damn tie knotted so tight you wonder if it’s choking him. If it’s not, you want it to be. Maybe he’ll shut up then. 
“I believe our meeting was scheduled for 9am,” he says, earning a sideways glance from the other man standing on the balcony. 
“It still is,” you reply, looking beside his head at the clock on the wall and shit. “I’m late. That’s my fault, sir. I apologize.”
“Yes, it is,” he says. “We need to make this short. Hurry up.” 
He turns and disappears into his office like some imitation of Dracula. You give Derek a helpless look.
“Welcome back,” Reid says, grimacing.
“Thanks, bud,” you reply, knowing he means well. “If any of you hear any screaming, pay no mind, that’s just how we greet each oth—”
“Agent L/N!” Hotch shouts from his doorway.
“Coming!” you shout back, just as loud and just as annoyed. “For fuck’s sake,” you mutter to yourself.
You hop up the stairs two at a time, reaching Hotch’s office in seconds. 
The man that was beside Hotch offers you a smile. “I’m Agent Rossi,” he extends his hand. 
“Agent L/N,” you return the friendly expression, shaking his hand, just glad that he at least seems happy to meet you. “I’ll see you soon, I’m sure.”
Rossi nods slowly, mouthing, “Good luck.”
You like him already. You smirk.
Hotch is standing behind his desk when you walk into his office, anger written all over his face. His arms are crossed over his chest, fingers picking at his nails ever so slightly.
“Close the door.”
“Promise not to shoot me?” you joke, but it doesn’t land. You shut the door and take a seat in front of his desk while he remains standing. “Well?”
Finally, he speaks. “What the hell are you doing here?”
You let out a laugh. “Oh, great.” You sit up because this is just stupid. “Are you kidding me? This is the last division I wanted to work in, but I was transferred here. At your behest, might I add—”
“I can assure you, Agent L/N, I did not request that you join my team,” he says as he sits down, rolling toward his desk and placing his arms over the files littered before him.
“Well then Agent Reynolds is a fucking liar, I guess,” you deadpan. “He’s the one who told me I was assigned to the BAU — because of you.”
“Well it wasn’t me.”
“Glad we got that settled,” you shoot back, wanting instead to add, like I fucking care if it was you or not. “Listen, whether either of us likes it or not, I was assigned here, so I’m here. If you want me to leave, take it up with Agent Reynolds or whoever the fuck really requested me. But I can’t do shit about this, and this is now my job, so I’m not leaving just because you want to have some pissing contest.”
He looks like he’s chewing on fire. “Your job security is not my problem—”
“For God’s sake, call your fucking boss, it won’t make you any less of a man to ask a goddamn question about why you have a new agent in your office.”
Hotch glares at you, but does as you say, picking up his desk phone and pressing a few buttons.
You sit back in your chair, waiting in silence. You turn your head to look through the blinds because Hotch didn’t close them all the way, and you nearly start to laugh. Huddled around one desk, Morgan, JJ, Emily, Reid, and another blonde woman dressed in bright colors and shapes are listening intently to Reid who is no doubt lip reading and translating this entire conversation.
Finally, the line connects and Hotch starts speaking. Almost as quick as the phone call begins, it ends.
“Well?” you ask.
“There was some miscommunication,” Hotch admits, though he does not look happy about it. “Welcome to the Behavioral Analysis Unit.”
You smile sarcastically. “Thank you, Agent Hotchner.”
“You’re dismissed,” he says. “We’ll meet in the conference room in five minutes to discuss the rest of today. Don’t be late.”
“Yes, sir,” you mutter as you escape his office, just glad he didn’t torture you with a handshake.
Emerging from Hotch’s office, you stand against the railing and ask the team where the conference room is.
Morgan points to your left. “Why?”
“He told me we’re meeting there to discuss—”
“That’s on hold now,” JJ says, whirling around the BAU with an armful of files. “We’ve got a case. Missing girl, thirteen years old.” She passes out files in the bullpen, handing one to you as she ascends the stairs.
“Shit,” you mutter. “How long has she been missing?”
“Starting without me?” Hotch asks as he walks out of his office. He takes a file from JJ and says a quiet, “Thanks.”
“Yep, we are,” you say right back, scanning your file. You think you hear Rossi let out a chuckle at your response. “Gone since this morning. Are they certain it wasn’t overnight?”
“The mother dropped Lila off at school this morning at seven, and by nine, she was absent,” JJ explains as everyone fills into the conference room. “They paged her at school over the intercom, but she’s not in any of the classrooms.”
“How are we hearing about this so quickly?” Morgan asks. “I mean, I’m glad, but it’s been…just over an hour. We don’t normally have this much time.”
“Because,” JJ pauses, pointing the remote toward the TV. “This is Lila’s father.”
On the screen, the FBI’s Most Wanted are staring back at you. JJ clicks again, and one face comes forward.
“Who?” Emily says.
“Richard Monroe,” Reid says aloud. “He’s been on the run for almost two years. He’s said to have killed a dozen people, all females, but they suspect there might be more. Every time we’ve come close to catching him, he gets away.”
“And now his daughter is missing,” Rossi adds. “I’m guessing this guy is our unsub.”
“I don’t know,” you stare into Richard’s eyes on the screen. “When was he last seen?”
“You can investigate that when we get there,” Hotch says curtly. “They’re waiting for us and we’ll lose time by flying. Wheels up in ten.”
Everyone files out of the room and Hotch stays back, waiting for you to be the last one in the room.
“Agent L/N,” Hotch gets your attention. “Since you’ve never tackled a case like this before, try your best to follow orders, and watch what the team does. Don’t make any rash decisions and don’t go off on your own.”
None of his comments anger you as much as the first one. “You don’t know that I’ve never encountered something like this.”
“Don’t argue with me when we have a missing girl,” Hotch snaps. “Do I make myself clear?”
“Crystal,” you reply, pushing past him.
“I hope you have a go bag,” he calls after you. “There will be no time for shopping when we’re on the ground.”
“Then I’ll just wear your clothes!” you yell back, knowing it’ll get a rise out of him. You hear Morgan snicker down in the bullpen. 
“Agent L/N,” Hotch says, and when you turn around, you see he’s giving you his famous stare.
You sigh. “My bag is in my car. It’ll take me two minutes to grab it. That’s clearly less than ten. Unless you have anything else to say that might delay me further?”
“Go,” he says, waving you away as he heads into his office to grab his bag. “Now.”
+++
While you’re on the jet, you do some research on Richard Monroe. He’s a grade A piece of shit if you’ve ever seen one.
But he’s not the type to go after his daughter.
“Garcia, can you check and see if Richard tried at all to contact Lila on her cell?” you ask.
“I would, sweets, but I can’t find Lila’s phone. Their house phone, however, has no calls.”
“He wouldn’t call the house phone, not with Lila’s mom watching over her like a hawk,” you murmur. 
Hotch lifts his head. “How do you know that?”
“Know what?”
“That her mother would be overbearing.”
“Her father’s a serial killer on the run, Hotch,” you reply. “Any mother would keep tabs on her daughter’s every breath if she had a father like that. It’s logic.”
“She makes a fair point,” Rossi says.
“It’s unfounded,” Hotch ignores him, still dead set on irritating you. “Until you talk to her mother, don’t jump to any conclusions about her behavior.”
You raise your eyebrows. “Until I do?”
“Yes, you will be talking to her mother when we get on the ground. Morgan will go with you.” He nods to Derek. “Reid, you and JJ get set up at the precinct. Prentiss, Rossi, and I will go to the middle school. We’ll meet back at the precinct to discuss our next steps.”
You share a look with Morgan before sinking back in your chair, glaring at the file instead of Hotch.
It's going to be a long fucking day.
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