#i miss posting random rants

[koolaidoverliving]

candymaker and their mutual toxicity need to be studied and it will in fact be me who studies it. (they aren't a canon couple in my main AU n all of this is hypothetical LMFAO) (they are def friendly-ish tho ^_^)

candy pop is the optimistic foil to jason. while they've both been through hell and back, jason internalised his bitterness. he's resentful and believes he's incapable of change—not that he wants to admit he's flawed in the first place. on the other hand, candy pop seeks out the good in the world. he's patient, even if NT makes it difficult for him to be, and he advocates for change, pushing jason to be a better man.

their bond started from a deal, but eventually sprouted into a genuine friendship. platonic love. jason hadn't experienced that before. at least not to its truest extent. when he looked at candy pop, he didn't see amelia in him at all. so why did he love him if that wasn't the case?

in any universe where they fall in love, both of them will deny their feelings. but this post isn't abt their tortuously long slowburn, so all i have to say is candy pop's the first person jason had SINCERELY loved. candy pop wanted jason to love him because of that serious hard-to-get personality of his. and it was fun and jokes at first, then it turned into something more.

they're codependent—mostly jason, because again he never loved someone as much as he loves candy pop and he can't bear the thought of losing him. jason is also used to getting his way in relationships. he's manipulative even if he doesn't intend to be. (not that it cancels it out.)

jason is possessive. (in past relationships, he was mostly the one who showed "affection" via gifts and flattery. he did this to keep his chosen ones at bay. so him being on the receiving end means he'll become overly attached.) he hates when candy pop is gone for too long. he hates when candy pop hangs out with other people. he hates knowing candy pop has the OPTION to hang out with other people in the first place. he tries so hard to seize control of candy pop's relationships, but it doesn't work.

candy pop isn't stupid. candy pop knows how to see through his tactics after being with him for decades. this leads to confrontations, then disagreements. but because jason genuinely loves candy pop, he starts putting in effort to change. he's confused when he doesn't argue back against candy pop, but instead takes his words into consideration, without devaluing them. jason has to get used to this. another reason why they're so compatible for each other is that candy pop understands how difficult it is for jason to change his ways. both of them are flawed.

they both go through hella separation anxiety because of their abandonment issues. candy pop leaves for hunts, or to check in on NT's children. it drives jason insane and the first time candy pop left for longer than he expected, he ended up rearranging his entire flat. meanwhile the only time jason is gone is when jason is at work. candy pop does have a problem with clinginess (like obviously he's clingy even when they're not dating), but he doesn't TRY to lose his mind over it. he'll be pacing around, fidgeting with his hair, doing anything to keep his hands occupied. when he's not going through mood switches, he's relatively calm about it. which i think makes sense because he was in a loving and healthy relationship with april fools so he has enough knowledge to know how relationships work. but then when he has intense mood switches it gets all like DO NOT LEAVE ME or WHY DO YOU STAY YOU SHOULD JUST LEAVE ME or I SHOULD KILL MYSELF SO YOU CAN FIND SOMEONE BETTER (EXAGGERATING)

but jason would recognise his episodes. candy pop doesn't willingly act like this. jason's there to help him calm down. even if it means sitting next to him in silence, reassuring him that he's there.

you obviously cannot have a relationship between a man with anger issues and a man with mood issues and not have them both lash out at each other at some point IT DEFINITELY FUCKING HAPPENS and when it does it'll be jason who feels bad because he doesn't want to lose candy pop so he "apologises" for it (he never once uses the word sorry) with a gift or something and candy pop accepts. if jason ever uses the word sorry i imagine it'd be like "i'm sorry you took it that way."

if it's ever candy pop apologising (and he does use the word sorry) i'd imagine jason forgives him and then gets an ego boost afterwards... but like later on this dynamic would change the more candy pop asks for clarity and the more jason realises "no way i actually feel terrible for treating the love of my life that way?" YES IDIOT if you LOVE soMEONE YOU WANT TO TREAT THEM WELL.

i view jason as someone who loves to have control. but as much he loves control, he loves candy pop even more. and he NEEDS candy pop to love him back. he needs to be loved so bad he'll do anything for him. he's so scared of being abandoned. it gets to a point where he's willing to fuck up his life just so that candy pop doesn't leave him—but candy pop would never do anything to hurt jason. candy pop's always telling jason that he's not broken, and that he doesn't need candy pop to fix him. but jason won't come to terms with that. his parents hammered it into his brain that he's broken, and he believes wholeheartedly that candy pop is as broken as him. and that they can fix each other.

(i've had a scene in my head where one day, candy pop breaks down and says "you were right, i am broken" and. deep down, he wants jason to refute that claim. he wants jason to reassure HIM now that he isn't broken. but all jason says is, "it's okay. we can fix each other." and now candy pop's sobbing harder, unsure if he's comforted or horrified. but hey. if they're broken, at least they're broken together!!!)

candy pop has self doubt issues. he often goes through episodes where he believes jason will leave him, because he can't offer more to him. at times, candy pop is avoidant, too, believing jason doesn't love him as anything more than a tool. (NT gave him the ideology that he's really only a sexual object and nothing else.) jason tells him that's not the case, and that candy pop himself is enough. and when jason's going through the same thing—his is more on the "i'm worthless" end—candy pop makes all his strengths apparent.

TLDR: they need to get therapy. i have more to talk about but let's save my ramblings for other posts...... (BTW I THINK THEY'RE GOOD AS A COUPLE OTHERWISE I WOULDN'T SHIP IT.) (CLARIFYING THEY'RE NOT ABUSIVE AND I DON'T SUPPORT ABUSIVE RELATIONSHIPS SORRY!!!)

[meanslackofart]

all of a sudden i miss random uquiz popping up on my feed

[dorothywonderland]

I started doodling greek gods, it's over for me. I have to accept that I'm officially addicted to epic the musical

[oceanwithouthermoon]

maybe its just me but i cant stand when people are like "it just doesn't sit right with me how teruhashi thought about aiura 🥺" like yes... its not supposed to ??? because her thinking badly of other girls and prioritizing male validation over everything is one of her main flaws ??? can we talk about that WITHOUT making it seem like shes not allowed to have a single actual flaw without suddenly becoming an awful person? nobody can handle complex female characters at all and its so fucking annoying

[reinafish]

Guys this AU I literally just created has already infested my brain. I must yap my extremely vague ideas of it.

It’s a horror AU so uh… warning for that kind of stuff? Also another warning for this being the goofiest AU ever (and its still a WIP so a bunch of things could change and I still actually do need to add more- so don’t take any of this as if it’s gonna stay in the AU forever)

Ok so when I normally think about this AU, I think of RPG/Visual Novel-styled games? Or like Undertale? Yk what I mean. I’m taking some inspo off of Mad Father, Mario The Music Box, etc too. So if you see me describing anything like it’s a video game (saying “you as [character]”, etc.) that’s why😭 this most likely won’t be made into an actual game sadly </3

I barely have a plot for it rn, I just know they get teleported to some other dimension thing? and there’s a mansion (obvi) they have to escape ?? But I do know what happens to some characters (Like Amy :D)! I’m thinking of maybe some unexpected ones could team up (because, if you didn’t know, I have a this weird obsession with rare character dynamics and relationships) like Tails and Blaze? Because you barely see them together.

I don’t know all the characters that are gonna be in the AU yet, but I’m thinking of Sonic (WHICH ISN’T DEAD OR EVIL FOR ONCE IN A HORROR AU! LET’S GOOOO!!! He suffers with his friends instead of making them suffer himself), Tails Doll, Amy, Knuckles, Blaze, Silver, Shadow, Rouge, maybe even Cream?

I only have some characters sort of planned, so I’ll be talking abt those.

Sonic:

Señor Trauma

He cries has a panic attack and a breakdown (all in separate moments) for the first time in a while lmao

Amy:

Here’s Amy!! We all know and prolly love her!<3 They all have different designs in this btw, so-

Anyways, I know at some point she’s left alone, possibly abandoned (that’s what she assumes anyway) in the garden after choices you make as another character(probably Sonic) (jk cs this isn’t a video game but i did explain this at the start), and since I hc her with AMAZING abandonment issues…❤️

Of course there’s monsters and entities in this, so one of them possibly takes control of Amy? Or tries to, until YOU, AS SILVER, GO TO THE GARDEN AND FIND HER!! There, you’re left with a choice (a bunch of stuff happen prior to this btw, this isn’t at the start of the story):

(Also yes that’s a timer, every second the more red and shaky the screen gets lol. Why?? BC ITS COOL AND STRESSFUL) AND YES. THIS MONSTER/ENTITY/THING IS FLOWER THEMED. AMY ROSE-

Ok uh, if Silver does save her (he has to fight obvi, it isnt that easy), he takes her and they escape to another part of the area? Map? Wtv I call it. And when they can finally take a little break for once, they talk (kind of- Amy’s been quiet (traumatized gal)):

So, uh, yeah. Heavy traumatized now so (also a lot more clingy). ANYWAYS, SILVER AND AMY ARE A DUO IN THIS NOW!!<3

I don’t have much else for her now, so let’s go to Silver ??

Silver:

My proudest drawing of this so far💖

I guess he got transported with the others to this dimension. Yeah- he hurts his foot somehow, not sure how yet. Definitely from an entity tho.

First thing he does it try to find if anyone else is here. So… he does just that. He enters the weird giant ahh mansion infront of him and calls out for anyone. He explores a ton, finding important objects, a weird doll that looks oddly familiar which he decides to just ignore and leave there, and also hurts his foot as yk- He does reunite with Blaze for a moment, though they’re immediately separated by obvi another monster.

He gets thrown back outside the mansion, into the garden. In that garden? Well yk what he finds😭

Blaze:

Fun fact: it was this doodle that started this whole thing !!

Also dont have much for Blaze, but she’s the first I doodled so I’ll be trying to make stuff up abt her in this (maybe on the spot even)

She’s confused why she can’t teleport back to Sol or anywhere else. Or why she can’t escape this mansion-place-thing. Actually they’re all confused abt that but wtv- Using her pyrokinesis, she can light torches and other things so she can see in darker areas. She can also just light her hand up too, but this takes energy from her ^_^

At some point, she reunites with Silver!! Then they’re separated by another monster. He was thrown into the garden, while she was thrown into a dark room.

In that room, she finds a doll. It looks a lot like Tails for some reason…?

She’s weirded out and judging it (I would too)

If she grabs it, she notices how real it feels? Like it actually feels like Tails… which is creepy. SUDDENLY IT TRIES ATTACKING HER (LOL?) BUT—

—before she has time to process anything, Tails pushes her out of the way (she notices his ear is missing) and points his arm cannon to…

….whatever that is.

Am I being cringy? Yes. Do i care? …honestly kinda, yeah- but I’m not gonna let myself do anything abt it

I don’t have much else with her. They fight it and become a silly duo and uhhh yeah-

Cream:

No art yet, but she’s definitely appearing now. Uhh I know she find the doll (btw I’m refusing to call it “Tails Doll” bc THEY’RE NOT THE SAME! I PROLLY SHOULDN’T HAVE CHOSEN TAILS THEN BUT IDC..) at some point and it tricks her into thinking it’s good. So like she drags it around while she explores, trying to find Amy or anyone.

Uh

This is a horror AU someone has to die right—

Idk if I’m killing her off or not but I might??

If she doesn’t die then atleast she’ll be dead inside /silly

Tails:

Also no art yet (other than the one with Blaze I already showed), but basically he was with Sonic when they entered. Bunch of stuff in between happen, they get stuck in a room, Sonic watches the monster-thing literally rip Tails’s ear off and make a fking doll out of it bc it was feeling a lil quirky (well they do get quirky at night /ref), Sonic then believes Tails is dead, meanwhile Tails literally tried escaping and ended up all the way on the other end of this giant goofy mansion—

Uh I don’t have anything else oop.

I HIT THE IMAGE LIMIT FUKKCCKCKKK uhhh there wasn’t much else to add tho sooo? Yeah?? Hope u like it bye. Reminder this is still a WIP and stuff will most likely change— ^_^ (I AM EXTREMELY EMBARASSED ABT THIS IF YOU COULDNT TELL.)

I’ll just add the rest of the images in an rb

[zaachknight]

yooo so I did some photography ages ago and thought they looked kinda like zachs vibe???? like kinda cosy alt edgy thingy idk it's hard to explain them but idk here take them

[screamingfrenchfries]

fuck everything, finnpoe is canon in my Mind and that's good enough for me

[stgosupremacy]

random goh rant ok-

so i only just realised this now but like...not the point. I remember in these project mew scenes, goh is very much less keen to trust these sketchy sort of people, whereas Ash (in the 1st episode case) and Horace (the 2nd episode case) are very trusting of those kinds of people.

ash is definitely more social than goh, ofc, and im assuming horace is as well, and we can kind of see that when goh was younger he did have a hard time trusting people after being unsociable...which could bring out some of his traits in those episodes above.

like, when he meets horace, he defo hesitates for a little bit before accepting his handshake. this whole thing just came out of nowhere, it was such a random observation ;-;

random but this episode lives rent free in my head and i thank anipoke to this day for making goh's backstory how they did <3

[valewritessss]

Any tips to making a cold go away sooner?

[ballsbalb]

my girlfriend made a tiktok thirst trap of me and i’m kind of terrified of how many people commented on it 😭

[chloe-chloo]

every time I hear the without you song from sonic x shadow generations: dark beginnings a little part of me wants to cry and bang my fist against the wall. cause that song really sums up how shadow feels & it's so emotional. it shows that even though he might be moving forward, he still remembers!!!! her death still hurts, and he's still grieving!!!! he wanted to save her and he blames himself for what happened!!!!! give him some closure!!!!!

[sskk-manifesto]

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[meanslackofart]

is it weird that I miss his cats more than him?

[seven-thewanderer]

I’m am saddened.

I updated my tablet, unsuspecting of the consequences

Now my tablet wants me to use ai, they’ve brutally murdered my girlie Siri, and my Passwords have been turned into an app, and doesn’t know how to change passwords correctly and now this account changed passwords

I’m heartbrocken

How could they do this to me

Especially to my girlie Siri she did nothing wrong…

🥺

[stcries]

god don’t you hate it when you decide to look back on an old website you used to be active on, but now the website has gone to shit, but due to the memories you have, you wish there was still hope of returning there?

[silvertws]

The urge to draw some mouthwashing fanart in which Anya beats the shit out of Jimmy because I hate him wholeheartedly and I wish him nothing but suffering.

Videogame characters like him make me wanna scream and shout and let it all out.

I hate when I watch the gameplay, and I put the pieces together so fucking quickly and then I have to keep watching this mother fucker of character being alive.

Thank you devs, you did a great job with that btw. /gen

Normalize giving players the option to fuck up their character if they are a bitch because holy hell Jimmy, you, you deserve to pay.

I could have made this post a while back, but I've been seeing a bit of mouthwashing content going around so, here I am ^^ showing my hatred towards Jimmy.

Curly is not innocent either. But he didn't deserve what happened to him.

Anya deserved better, she was betrayed and used and violated and the only person she had told that to basically shrugged it off and tried to stay "neutral" Curly ily but you physically can't do that. So kindly, fuck you too.

I wish Anya got justice :(

She's best girl and deserves the world :((

Jimmy when I catch you... Jimmy when I get my hands on my graphics tablet...