#i mean there's just this whole missed opportunity for ***** ***** ******* **** **..... im not even gonna say it akjshdlgfdk

[protectorcraft]

mutual liked the gripe post which reminded me to write it. okay hi im pyxis and im gonna talk about a trope the isat community falls back on a lot in writing that bugs me okay thanks

this is gonna be long and probably annoying so im putting it under a cut. open at ur own risk. heavy spoiler warning thanks.

okay. how do i start this. a thing ive seen in quite a few fics and theories, and its that the islanders are directly- and purposefully- responsible for their own disappearance. usually i see it framed as "the islanders made themselves disappear/attempted to wish away knowledge of wishcraft because it was dangerous" and like. hm! i dont think so.

take this with a grain of salt as ur local cracker but considering the framing of the island's disappearance- abrupt, sudden, disastrous- something everyone was talking about- the disappearance definitely falls more in line with the metaphor of some sort of disaster or, as is a significant theme in the game, colonialism/imperialism and the subjugation of cultures.

this was- 100%- not the islander's faults, and blaming them completely misses the point of the matter.

while people can say wishcraft is dangerous- and really, it is, there's no getting around it- it also seems like it was an important piece of the Island's culture and based off the few islanders we meet, probably used fairly regularly in day to day life. siffrin, for example, literally uses it on the regular without even realizing it. the knowledge of how to do it properly is probably pretty ingrained into the average Islander's brain. to them, it's just a fact of life! i mean, literally all the scriptures we see on wishcraft (and astronomy) ingame are written in the Islander language. they were The Experts on this stuff. (not to mention that this proves the knowledge was in the general public's grasp, even if it required knowledge of their language to learn about)

so it just doesnt make sense that they'd wish something so important to them away like that- sure there was probably discourse amongst them about the dangers of these practices, but they would know enough to know attempt something as risky as, say, wishing away all knowledge of their country or any one big thing. not to mention wishcraft is weird- technically speaking, siffrin's wish probably wouldve had a lot less effect if all the energy of the failed wishes hadnt culminated into their successful one.

and before you bring up how op the kings wish is- remember that a good 75% of the game is exposing all the ways the other characters foil siffrin, including the king. the king, who supposedly made a wish to freeze vaugarde- but did he?

a lot of the king's dialogue, when he isnt gushing about vaugarde and how much he loves it, is about his grief surrounding the loss of his own country. when given the chance, he'll grasp at any opportunity to remember anything about it, even if its putting trust in the hands of a stranger who is literally here to kill him for help. its pretty clear to anyone with a brain that he's not being ingenuine about this.

and, see, siffrin's true wish was masked over by their other wish. its one of the game's big red herrings. yadda yadda yadda how do we know that the king's true wish was really the "preserve" vaugarde, huh?

"where are you going with this we've gotten wildly off track" no we havent! get fucked! i think the kings true wish was the remember his country- and, yknow, there's probably a fair few islanders remaining. probably yearning to grasp even a fragment of their lost culture, hoping and dreaming and wishing for answers. not unlike the king, perhaps? perhaps a culmination of half baked wishes being fueled by one, fully formed wish?

yeah, you get where im going with this.

so perhaps wishcraft isnt quite as strong as we assume it is? that the soul intent of one person isn't necessarily going to give you godlike power in most cases- mind we're not quite grasping the full scope due to loops. Whole Situation. but that's not why we're here.

if the Islanders had enough faith in the rest of the world to provide them with their wishcraft knowledge- then i doubt they wouldve wished themselves or their knowledge away. nobody would do that.

and if the rest of the world did, indeed, have access to that knowledge, then there's a fair chance some other group could be responsible. a group who doesnt even recall their own responsibility because it's been wiped from their memories.

like, idk.... a more on the nose version how colonizer countries bury their own history of misdeeds from the general populace?

idk man. idk. just feels weird to me that so many people seem to have immediately gone towards the Cultural Suicide route for some reason. you have to be willing to acknowledge that the isat universe is definitely not the perfect, pristine world you think it is. and maybe folks just need to be willing to acknowledge the actual brutality the metaphor is alluding to.

after all, an entire island- all of its peoples and cultures- disappeared.

[aannonn]

just watched the new episode,,,, ヾ(•ω•`)o

spoilers!!

(i made so many gifs sgishahwhs my poor pc- xd)

PURPLE1!1 AWSIHAHSWHAW

i smiled like a idiot when i saw them awawaaaa <333333

(im so sure Alan just knew we were gonna go crazy over this frame he jUST KNEW THAT'S WHY HE MADE SUSPENSE /pos /lh)

besties discussing how to prank their other bestie

they are so silly /pos

does that mean that Purple doesn't live with King or is just a house that they can sometimes spend their time in? (Or they both live in there)

HMMMMMM

(also Red whattheheck dONT BREAK PURPLE'S HOUSE'S WINDOW LIKE THAT /lh)

Purple is such a genius that's all i can say /vpos

they are so smuggy sghahws love them ;33

(lil' diagram Green doesn't like this,,,, lol)

":3 hm? huh. HUH. WAIT NO- NONONONOONON STAWP >:((" /lh

this episode made me question so many things,,, ahah,,, i think i know what im gonna add to the third part of this lil' ❛❛ava/avm moments that made me question life❛❛,,, ;>

on another note though

This episode truly showed how wonderfully agile Green is. He simply dodges all the cakes coming at him in such a natural and casual way that it's actually quite fascinating to watch. He even dances! :0 sigshwahsh

He is canonically the most agile of the group and I love how that fact was used in this episode; The entire episode was silly (/pos), but it still didn't miss any opportunity to showcase everyone's abilities and skills, which is something I really loved seeing. <33

Honestly speaking- I think one of the main points in this episode was to showcase Green's agility more??? idkk- Maybe. loll

(lil' edit; I forgot to say this sgshhawhs but like. Mad respect for the animators, honestly. I can't imagine how hard was to animate this whole scene sigshahwhs (so worth it in the end tho! /gen /vpos))

sigshahwsh aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa (/vpos)

this whole episode was so silly (/pos) but also so cool gosh i love this entire series sm

[layanomaly]

Okay- so I feel like im a bit calm (definitely real) after yesterdays finale to properly make a statement about it

And I really want to put a few of these points out there while the tags are still trending and while I still have time cuz now that AAA I finally over I really need to focus on my studies which is gonna be hard…..but yeah it is what it is

And honestly 

Look idc what anyone says anymore

Yes there were some loose ends and a whole lot of questions

And I get that a lot of people were upset…..believe me I was too and still am

But I wanna be a voice of positivity

cuz I feel like whatever plot wholes they left 

Like jac said were there for US to interpret

Or as my delusional ass is telling me maybe theyre setting up for another season???

And yes for those of you whore saying that we shouldn’t be the ones to figure theyre story out YOURE RIGHT, I AGREE WE SHOULDNT

But at the end of the day it still was a marvel show

And Whatever it was 

It was an amazing experience

Yes we had our highs and lows 

And Looking back on Agatha’s story, yes I do feel a mix of admiration and frustration. There was so much potential in exploring her relationship with Rio and the complex layers of her own journey, which felt overshadowed in the end. At times, the focus on Agatha's role as a mother felt like it could have been handled differently and Instead of fully delving into Agatha’s growth, her story was ultimately used to elevate Billy’s arc, leaving her character, her grief, and her love for Rio without the closure they deserved.

That being said 

Again while it's fair to wish for a bit more closure for characters like Agatha, Rio, Jen, and Alice,

I truly do think jac schaeffer is a genius

like for a really long time i used to think that we were reading too deep into scenes and that they arent actually that deep and we’re just being delusional

But watching, reading interviews of her 

Finding out that as a matter of fact it actually IS that deep

And that everything means something and nothing is unintensional

just hearing her talk about the characters she writes is such a fulfilling feeling you have no idea

its the way she understands those characters and portrays their trauma….She really cares for themm 

she does her research and makes sure she understand her characters and the lore

unlike *cough michael waldron cough* 

Who couldnt even be bothered enough to watch a show which was an indefinitely important arc for one of the characters he was assigned to write for a movie 

Its just-

Look all im tryna say is

Shes a master in her craft and no one does it like her 

despite everything she provided us with two of MARVELs best shows up to date and no one can tell me other wise

Cuz While the narrative pivot left parts of Agatha’s story untold, Schaeffer's dedication to character depth shows her commitment to storytelling which you can really see in the way she talks about those characters

again while I wasnt satisfied with the finale its her dedication to understanding these characters, down to the smallest detail means so much to me. 

Cuz it’s not just about the story—she collaborates with her actors to bring out the arcs they envision which makes it even more special

And It’s truly disappointing that Marvel didn’t fully capitalize on the opportunity to explore Agatha’s own arc in its entirety, especially with such a capable writer at the helm. 

Still, I’m hopeful that future stories will revisit and give the characters like Agatha and Rio the focus they deserve

And i reallyyy hope they sign jac up as a writer for future projects

Cuz ultimately, I think her approach to these characters makes her one of the standout storytellers in Marvel right now, and I’m excited to see what she does next with all the new responses from the fandom 

I hope you guys get what im trying to say

Anyways to conclude my thoughts

Whatever it was

I truly did love this show

And ill really miss coming back home on Thursdays to watch the new episodes drop

[angelmichelangelo]

What are your thoughts on Mutant Mayhem/Tales?

i think now with enough time behind them both, i wouldn't say it's my favourite iteration of the ninja turtles..

that being said! i don't think it's bad! i enjoyed both the movie and the show and think they were both really well made! both seem to have a lot of love and care poured into them and i think that's always a good sign when the creators obviously are just as big fans as the viewers :)

but ultimately there's a lot missing from this verse that makes it hard for me to love it. for the most part i will say that the voice acting choice was/is excellent! getting real teens to voice the boys is so refreshing and fun - those four have a really fun chemistry and it shines through, especially in the movie (i have opinions on mikey's va but i always feel like im being too mean and nitpicky so i'll shelve that thought for now lol)

the show was a lot of fun when i watched it when it first came out but i haven't really found an urge to rewatch it again after that. same with mutant mayhem. i think this is just because to me it lacks a lot that to me, makes up the ninja turtles. yes the chemistry between the four of them is there, but there doesn't feel to be a great deal of individuality, and they kind of all blur into one another. i've always said that tmnt as a whole can sometimes suffer for having four main characters -- usually meaning more than one character often gets sidelined in favour of someone else having their moment (cough, cough donnie and mikey) but here, i guess they kind of decided to do a 180 on that but, it just missed the mark a little for me. they got along great together! but i missed my b-team moments. mikey teasing raph. donnie geeking out with leo. it felt a little empty without those moments to stand out that they're each other's best friends.

and with the show, they kind of repeated themselves a lot. singular centric episodes to highlights each turtles strengths and insecurities!! awesome!! first half of the season done? great, what's next-- oh. second half of the season is.. that.. again.. huh. okay. feels like we just did this but sure. guess they REALLY wanted them to have their character arcs checked off real quick. they could have done something different in that second half but chose to kind of just give us what we already just watched. it wasn't awful but a missed opportunity.

the whole thing as well as it kinda not being part of canon was.. an odd choice. i would have been alright with them just coming out and saying it wasn't canon, but having it in the show with the whole 'leo wrote this for a comic book' kind of ending was confusing to me. not sure what the angle was there, but not sure i loved it in full. even more so when they did it twice to us lol

and the jackie chan thing in tales. i aint gonna lie, chat. that kinda pissed me off a little bit. if they couldn't get jackie chan back for splinter for a mini series, fine. understandable. either take him out of the show entirely or just get a stand in, it would have been fine. but to have him speak rat and THEN have raphael's va dub over him AS raph? im just so confused as to what the point of that was. i guess if maybe the show had already been written with splinter in it and at the last minute he had to pull out, then maaybbbee?? it could be excused?? but again. just get a stand in at this point. listening to raph's bad japanese accent during some moments (especially during the parts where splinter was having more emotional moments) was kind of off putting, and i think i would have rather listened to him speak in rat talk lmao -- that's my only big angry grievance with the show where i will say i hated it lmao

i think as well the thing is, with the mutant mayhem/tales verse, we don't get any filler. filler, my bread and butter!! we see them fighting, and fighting, and kicking ass, and doing tasks and missions and fighting... filler is so integral imo when it's done right, to fleshing out characters a little more. remember them stealing from he bodega in the movie?! more of that, please !! boys being boys !! we know that mikey likes theatre but just through him constantly telling us about it! where's my filler eps that have him sneaking into broadway and causing havoc by someone thinking he's part of the set design!!

i will also say i am not a super big fan of the turtles being exposed to the outside world.... i adore plot lines where they yearn for a normal life, i think that's always interesting in any way (looking at bayverse quietly) but i was shocked at the end of mutant mayhem when they straight up were like. welp! turtles are off to school now! just normal kids!! don't know how i really feel about that since the intimacy of them having just each other and depending on one another is such a big draw as to why i love tmnt in the first place. found family and all that just tugs at my heartstrings and them just being part of the real world feels like that's kind of snuffed out a little bit. but i suppose we'll see how they deal with that in the sequel, since school wasn't at all included in the show. (again, i would have even preferred that over the repeated storyline we got)

with mutant mayhem and tales it felt like it was just about to scratch that itch and then pulled away at the last second. it was so close to being genuinely very near perfect, but for whatever reason fell short on a lot of points that unfortunately for me didn't make it re-watchable in any way, not with urgency at least.

i'll watch the sequel for sure! and whether they make a season two that feels a bit more fleshed out and weighty then i can get behind that. the verse overall, like i said, seems to have a lot of care put into it for sure. there's a lot i really do love about it that made it fun to watch the first time around, but i think that for whatever reason they're holding back on certain aspects, they need to just trust themselves and trust us to enjoy it and go the nine yards instead of hesitating.

i think that's why, from my perspective, it kind of just, faded into the shadows (pun intended) whilst a show like rise that was cancelled still gets a lot of hype and noise. heck, 2003 and 2012 have been done and finished for 15+ years and still probably get more engagement than a tmnt 'verse that's still very much fresh and active. it's telling, and maybe that's just a result of me not following the right people but it does feel like overall it's missing something big to make it better. and i just hope that going forward they find it and don't balk out on giving it their all next time.

i like the game, though. not sure if it's canon to the main storyline but i have fun playing it when i can be bothered lol

i will say this 'verse will gain instant million points to me if they add woody. i will take back every bad point i made about this if he shows up in the sequel. i'll delete my blog buy a hat and then eat it. if they wanna do something crazy like putting them in school then they can add niche idw character woody dirkins and make me happy lmao

[w0rmb]

Guys digital art is hard im back to my roots. Mike looks kinda busted sadly but I swear the sketch under was fire 😓 but so proud of the Will drawing like my BOY LOOKS SO JOLLYYY!! He deserves it. Tbh I only drew these cause my friend was like “you always draw them so tragically” so I drew them happy for once. (Never again I’m back to every other emotion LMAO)

Teensy rant for the 5 people who like reading people’s thoughts about Byler. I love the ship so much and I’m hoping they get something like my standards are SO LOW. Like I feel bad everyone is so certain it’s going to happen atleast on my side of tumblr. But I don’t think it will🙁 I think the duffer brothers will chicken out because of homophobic audiences and such. WHO KNOWS? Maybe I’ll be proved wrong but for right now i’m going with terrible expectations so I can be pleasantly surprised if anything slightly nice happens.

Do I think it would be kinda mean for Will to have not only all the trauma he has but now an unrequited love story with his best friend? Yes I think it would be shitty. I’m not saying it would be a GOOD writers choice or not a hell of a missed opportunity to write something beautiful. It wouldn’t be to me but I’m not a writer I guess? Frankly, in my opinion Mike’s weird ass behavior not to just Will but mostly El/Jane doesn’t make full sense. With his struggle to say I love you. I feel if his actions aren’t backed by some internal struggle like internalized homophobia his actions come off as just rushed and odd. I use the word odd because it doesn’t seem purposeful. If this was some coming of age story where he just has trouble with… commitment? I don’t know! I literally don’t know what the problem would be with him that makes him not be able to say I love you to her for their whole relationship! Audiences shouldn’t be confused on why Mike’s feeling this way and I feel like people who are getting persuaded into Byler being a better ship aren’t fully there because hehe boys kissing. But because it’s a reason for his behavior! I’ve watched video essays on the decline of stranger things and people even if they aren’t shippers agree that Mike’s confession seemed rushed. (The one in season 3 with him saying “I love her and I can’t lose her again!”) It lacked meaningfulness. So it’s either the writers are shit at making a love story. (Even though Jancy and Jopper[?], etc exist which are good love stories.) Or Mike’s confession was misplaced. Hey I’m not gonna meat ride the Duffers, they coulda just missed the mark.

This whole byler thing is just grey enough to where they could swing it either way and they could still the pull the card “erm well you guys were just over speculating!” Alright buddy just pull the trigger while you’re at it.

[lej222]

So I had this thought that Miae is the one who is gonna move to another place , as its highlighted in the beggining of the story that she always lived in the same neighborhood and she desires to go . The conversation between Hwani & her mother in episode 155 also implies that it can happen. The thing is it would be crazy if it ends up being in a plane , its something that we always see in the story , it feels like a sign for her outcome cause we know it doesnt answer her wishes . I don't really have a theory but it would give an emotional impact for the readers ( whenever we reread it would be a reminder of how it will end ) but also for Cheol ( knowing her habit of counting them ). Im kinda into melodrama hehe

Yes, that's actually a theory that came up on Naver as well!!! You are right that it has been brought up multiple times, and about the weird reaction from Cheol's mom when Hwani said she wished Miae would keep being their neighbour. We know that Cheol's family isn't planning to move in the close future so her reaction is suspicious. Also, Miae moving away would be an incredibly ironic writing choice, because the whole series started with Miae being angry about not being able to leave her neighbourhood while everyone else moved away. People always say that timing is everything in life, and maybe she just had bad timing with Cheol but she didn't know, so she kept missing her opportunities until it was too late. Who knows.

You mean that the plane symbolizes that she will move far away? I really like this theory. We know that her habit of counting planes is not related to Cheol because he doesn't know why she keeps doing it. And recently we sometimes see the planes in the red sky, as the sun is seting, or in the stormy weather. But there was a panel where Miae said that planes were flying even in the storm, and Cheol replied that they fly above the clouds. So maybe the meaning is that whatever will happen to her, Miae will be alright because life keeps moving on so she should always look ahead, or something like that :D

[its-no-biggie]

thinking about post-implantation wash again.....

cause like. the rvb writers dropped a lot of balls, but this is the one i find personally the most upsetting. like. a soldier getting irreparably fucked up by an experiment gone wrong is the kind of premise i read fanfiction about (that probably says something about me but im not gonna examine it. moving on). especially since he STAYED with freelancer???? you could take this in so many different directions- his fellow freelancers are worried about him but he pushes through anyway. his fellow freelancers ARENT worried about him and push him harder than he can handle. the director pulls the ai fragments and theres hostility from more than just the one-dimensional "raging bitch" character. the director DOESNT pull the ai fragments, which seriously calls into question the ethics of the whole operation (which i believe is more in line with the pfl that was described in earlier seasons, but thats a story for another time) AND puts potential pressure on wash to get another implantation (oh my GOD. show me THAT version of pfl).

and of couse. how could i possibly forget epsilon. there is something so uniquely tasty about 2 characters who went through something traumatic together and then didnt see each other again until ages later- ESPECIALLY when one of them was the cause, even though they werent directly at fault, and the other was just unlucky enough to be involved. like holy shit????? the TENSION that would cause???? the discomfort being around each other? the guilt? having nowhere to place the blame except the director?? oh my GOD literally any interaction between them couldve had so much FLAVOUR. im not saying they need to be the main focus of the story or anything but we didnt get a single interaction!! not even a crumb!! like. do something with the fact that wash needed to have alpha in his head in season 6 despite refusing to ever have another ai after epsilon. do something with wash needing to SEE and HEAR and TALK TO epsilon again. do something with epsilon remembering fucking exploding in washs head!!!! im not asking for a lot here- asking for a lot would be suggesting a scenario like the one from season 6, except wash needs EPSILON in his head for some reason and gets legitimately triggered by it or cant bring himself to do it. thats the kind of shit i want to see, but i understand that that isnt carolina-centric enough so ill get it from fanfiction as god intended. but cant i ask for at least some awkwardness? maybe an uncomfortable confrontation? irrational hostility? SOMETHING. it doesnt have to be the focus but it should be THERE.

and like. youd think that this is an issue with retconning. and it kind of is, but its more about missed opportunities. like. i dont mind the retcon that freelancer was always its own thing, or that church was always an ai. those things are cool! they take the story in a more interesting direction! yeah it makes things more confusing and id prefer if the retcons werent necessary, but. its not the end of the world. but the thing with wash is. they did a really cool and interesting thing by having an ai COMMIT SUICIDE in his fucking HEAD. and then they went back on it! they very quickly went from "this clearly left a lasting impact on him" to "oh well it was bad, probably worse than hes letting on, but some of it was an act! so he could take em down from the inside!" to "yeah i mean he screamed while it was happening but he was fine when he woke up. no lasting consequences" and then it was never addressed again. and im mad about it!! they didnt even properly retcon it- they just decided that it had no consequences anymore, and it made washs character LESS interesting.

[unlicensedmortician]

welcome to bad movies with j&j, the segment where @ghostcasket and i watch bad movies while alex is gone. this time it’s divergent.

- i’ve never read any of the books or watched any of the movies before. btw

- oh this is gonna be terrible

- OH THIS IS GONNA BE TERRIBLE. THE EXPOSITION.

- they’re color coded,,,,,

- “there’s everyone else and then there’s dauntless who are cool hot sexy cops” jesus

- wow she doesn’t fit in,,, who could have seen this coming

- that is the most Blonde White Girl i’ve ever seen

- THIS IS SO STUPID. THIS IS SOOOO STUPID.

- they can’t look at mirrors for too long,,,,

- and they’re fucking color coded

- there are literally five personality traits and that is a real explicit part of this media

- better lock into one of those personality traits miss white girl protagonist. wonder what it will possibly be

- i can’t believe their social organization system is literally just “so we’re gonna put every teenager on an acid trip and see what happens”

- white girl discovers she has multiple personality traits, is incredibly distressed

- what’s up with how this movie treats homeless people.

- i want to claw my eyeballs out

- wow this dialogue isn’t even stilted at all

- she picked 12yo boys in gym class. obviously

- hey is run boy run by wood kid ruined forever now

- yes girl climb that piece of infrastructure. is this a big moment for you or

- why pick the doing stupid shit option if you don’t wanna do stupid shit i guess

- i shrieked out loud when i saw the love interest. why he fugly

- it’s the pit 👍

- THIS IS SO FUCKING STUPID

- this is fucking crazy

- plot point: she’s too frail and delicate and skinny 🙁

- that tattoo is so stupid and also ugly

- she’s a threat to society because she is so so special and good at everything. i fucking guess

- ok. sure. training montage. i guess.

- he just looks so much older than her that this is unsettling

- so ur saying that u have to be fucking stupid to be a part of the cool hot people class. great.

- i cannot believe it’s real and a key plot point that the biggest threat to their society is people with multiple personality traits

- of course she’s getting on the train anyway. whatever.

- people actually thought this was good??

- imagine if christina and tris had been the main couple. it wouldn’t have solved anything but it would have been cool for me personally

- girl you are about to get so hazed. oh nvm it’s a zip line

- this romance plot makes me want to start killing and im being serious

-OH MY FUCKING GOD. SHES NEURODIVERGENT. AND THEY JUST TOOK THE NEURO OFF OF THAT AND WENT YEAH THATS THE TITLE. IM LOSING IT

- o shit her mother defected. lmao

- that’s not even a little bit how any of this works at all. fear serum? kill me

- this is so fucking stupiddddd

- this is just. crazy insane contrived.

- like what do you MEAN one personality type is leading the whole government. that’s crazy. i’m gonna start hitting people with cars. i’m gonna take up smoking.

- yeah of course this mf shows up to save her. as opposed to literally any cooler option. more points to the incredibly contrived romance plot.

- jesus fucking christ????

- hey i know u just showed me all of your worst fears. can u strip

- oh okay they’re. making out now?

- smart people evil. i guess.

- she’s just tooooo special.

- the only good thing about this movie is the soundtrack thank you hans zimmer

- oh my god one of her worst fears is boning

- hello what the shit is happening. oh my god they fucking shot him. damn this is crazy.

- gasp he’s divergent too who could’ve seen this coming except for literally anyone ever.

- of course they killed her fucking mom

- oh And her dad? equal opportunity parent killing!

- ok well. that movie happened. and made so much money. thank god it’s over. i’d like to be financially compensated

[sapphicflower-ao3]

this is gonna be a RANT; im devastated by your fic "in your dreams, nerd" rn. so a while back in high school i was in marching band and i had a friend who i made to be my co-section leader. we met through marching band, and i'm his senior by two years. we got really close because of band, despite him being a little mean to me sometimes.

anyways, i had been with a different person at tht time right (they were my first love; wasn't really the ideal relationship, was quite toxic actually).

when i was still with that person, i used to have consistent, amazingly realistic dreams about my co-section leader. it would all feel real; i would feel the way his arms would encircle around my waist. i would always wake up feeling conflicted

although i think i was in love with my (now ex) partner, i think i might have been in love with my co-section leader this whole time. this whole time i've literally just pushed the feelings away like ehh he's just a really good friend

but i genuinely cannot forget all of the times we've been the bestest of friends, and incredibly, TERRIBLY tender with each other. one time we sat knee to knee in the stands during an out-of-home competition and we shared a blanket and when i wanted to put vaseline on my face he did it for me; and that was the same competition where i asked for comfort and he knew exactly what to do

the time where the band was at disney and i helped him pick out a shirt; held it to his chest to see if it looked good, and it was just so DOMESTIC. and then because we fell out AT disney our friendship was never the same. but we made up months later and honestly our friendship breakup hurt WAY more than my breakup with my ex partner

the way we used to text all the time, send eachother memes, it wouldn't be the same if he wasn't there; i often wondered if he wondered about my absence too. i miss his friendship very much way more than the idea of even being romantically involved

there are so many other things i could say and i wish i could tell him how i felt but we literally never talk. it's been a really long time since we've had a proper conversation, how exactly do you tell someone you're barely friends with now that you love them?? i considered getting really inebriated to tell him so he can reject me, but idk it feels so stupid and i feel stupid and ugh

it feels like there will never be an opportunity for that kind of thing again tbh

oh that def sounds like a story of the one that got away!!! 🥺 and also sounds like such a devastating and heartbreaking experience, idk how you managed to get through that alive…

but uhhh i really am the worst person to give advice on anything given my lack of experience ;—;

i will say though that sometimes there’s ppl who we wish we could revive back into our lives, but we just can’t go back to the past. sometimes the only option is to forego closure and just move on.

but other times it’s possible to reconnect again. idk which of those categories you guys would fall in, but maybe it wouldn’t hurt to reach out and see how they’re doing? with a relationship so complex and close like that, maybe they even feel similarly abt you

¯\_(ツ)_/¯

[jxcotts]

what's your honest opinion about the love interests? (both mcl and eldarya)

for example, no matter how handsome some of them are, I just can't like them (in fact, most of them are annoying to me)

ugh no yall gonna hate me forever lmao- ANYWAYS🥹

nath & nevra: they are so similar, their story, behavior so its pretty easy to love them both (i mean if they r your type lol), they can do no wrong😎 i cant really express my love for them, but yall know how much they mean to me so WHATEVER, just stan them !

armin: ahh he's such a cutie but also was very thoughtless, he did some bad shit in high school, but idk i just love him so much, best friends brother AND the gamer boyfriend trope are VERY entertaining💋

kentin: yeah well im not that okay w going from good boy to bad boy bc why???? and he was pretty rude to candy, when they were childhood friends and she did nothing wrong to him so i didnt understand it, but when he changed he was such a cutie. alternate life kentin is just ughhh THE CUTEST.

castiel: the good girl x bad boy trope is awesome, but sometimes he's an asshole, especially when he teases nath (high school), hate him for that, but his character development was cool and tbh i really REALLY like him w amber so... i have to say that she would've been the better choice, not candy. DON'T HATE ME. they were just more interesting TO ME. he and candy r lovely as friends tho <3

priya & hyun: they are cute and good friends! priya deserves everything and more <3

rayan: unpopolar opinion: hes ugly. and what the fuck. a teacher? lol.

eric: 😆 you dont want me to talk about this shithead, worst """love interest""" ever. please, you cant even call him as it lmao

lysander: well... ah please dont exile me, but hes a colorless character. the whole person is boring as hell to me.

ezarel: MAN I MISS HIM SM... hes such a silly character, im mad beemoov didnt bring him back in s2 and that nevra never talks abt him when they were like brothers. id love to see him and miiko in ep 20 (im a delulu<3).

leiftan: idk i just love his demonic side and his obsession with erika in s1🤭🤭 he's so supportive, but in s2 his story is so sad lol, he deserves better. he's not even that happy anymore-,, i love the tension between him and nevra lmaoo

valkyon: :) i love him as a friend and he def deserves so much better. i wish they could bring him back:/

uhh... help. ill be short.

the traitors: so... lance in s1 was EVERYTHING. i loved how cute he was with erika once or twice lol, but still, as the enemy its something. i just dont understand why beemoov didnt see the potential in season ONE ; the enemies to lovers trope would have been the greatest. seriously. uhm... no comment for season 2. i hate him as much as i can, lets be honest he looks like an annoying rat (SORRY) and im sorry beemoov, but i will NOT accept the enemies to lovers NOW after he killed his brother. erika had every opportunity to kill him, but ofc beemoov, keep him.

yeah about mathieu, hes as colorless as lysander, but even more.

manifesting an execution for both <3 (still a delulu😘)

if you still like me after all this, i love u:')

[grungiiuvu]

Hi! Previous anon here! I just rechecked ur blog and i saw u replied to me and ajsjdnkdkdn im so honored u wanna know more abt my culture😭😭😭 but before i start rambling i just wanna say im apart of two chinese clans? Cultures? Idk how to say it but i googled it and its called a province so province it is! My mom is fu jian and my dad is fu jian AND ke jia, but since my grandma's(ke jia) influence is so strong and most of my grandpa's(fu jian) relatives are 💀 i actually have an equal share of both cultures. By that i mean like, two different languages, which are thankfully just spoken, not written, and also lots of different food and pronunciations! For example, instead of hongbao, i say angbao.

Okay, so! I think one of the most prominent things i've grown up with is like, nicknames. And one thing i see is so common in tgcf fanfictions is the "A". Like: A-lian, A-qing, A-xin. Which okay, its actually used but its actually very uncommon(at least where i've grown up). Only person that uses it is my family is like, my grandpa and its to ny grandma. My grandma calls him BY NAME its actually crazy. We tend to use more double names? Idk how to say it but for example Mu Qing would be Qing Qing, Shi Qingxuan would be Xuan Xuan yk? My parents only call me by that, but the purpose of the nick names would be to mostly shorten the names becus most ppl have 3 character names. So unfortunately someone like Xie Lian(who has a 2 character name) would be refered to mostly as Xie Lian and not A-Lian or lian lian😭 And! The "A" prefix isn't only used from the last character! Sqx can also be refered to as A-qing as well as A-xuan, as well as A-qingxuan(its complicated)

For family stuff, younger siblings usually never refer to older ones by name. Like sqx would call swd ge ge, wu du ge, du gege but never outright Wudu.

And i also found out u wrote cheap villain??? I owe everything to you its so WELL WRITTEN?? AND THE PLOT?? ITS SO GOOD KIKE KSJDJD BUTTtttt one thing i've actually wondered is like accents. Like in english, ppl who speak mandarin tend to have accents! And ppl in BeiJing have a very prominent one. First time i tried talking to someone in BeiJing i had trouble understanding cus even tho we were speaking the same language it sounded so different! The tcgf donghua actually sounds a lot more similar to tawainese than like native mandarin cus it sounds so clean cut, if ykwim??? Like the pronunciation in the donghua is GOODDD and so SHARP(i may be jealous). BeiJing mandarin tends to sound more round and so I would've liked to see like, mu qing waking up in a whole new reality, starts speaking, and xie lian is like: "huh? What? Mu qing, SLOW DOWN WHAT ARE YOU SAYING!?" I think it would've been funny, in my opinion😭😭 (do i sound fussy again i hope this comes off as light hearted😭)

I MIGHT add more cus theres actually sm more i wanna say but im gonna leave it at here i hope it isn't TOO long😭 ur welcome ti ask me anything u want to know cus I LOVE talking abt my culture!!! Hopefully this isn't too boring for u😭

This wasnt boring at all!!! I love learning about different societies, it really fascinates me!! I'm from England and South Africa, so both my cultures are very modern western (living in the UK doesn't help) so I'm utterly at a loss with Chinese culture aside from deep-diving on the internet and doing my own research lol :')

The nickname thing is very interesting and i didn't know that!! tysm for telling me :D I know I've used it quite a bit in Cheap Villain but i feel I'm too far in to switch it up now TTvTT I don't want to seem like I'm abruptly changing things, and making the story inconsistent!

The stuff about the shi siblings is very helpful!! I shall be sure to remember that 🫡🫡

I've only recently started hearing about the accents thing, I'm afraid :')) If i had known when i first started writing Cheap Villain, I definitely would've done something about it lol! it was such a good joke opportunity missed o(TヘTo) Hopefully, I'll find somewhere to put it in, because that'd be very fun :D

I absolutely loved hearing all this!! feel free to send as many as you'd like :D I am aware I really don't know much about other cultures and I'm always happy to learn more anytime :))

Im so glad you enjoy Cheap Villain!! I've been trying my best haha

tysm anon!! :D

[tears-of-boredom]

played the first two episodes of Tell me Why today. damn. still wanna know the context behind why they call her by her first name. and also i kept calling Tyler gay in my mind and i kept reprimanding myself for that because its not a good habit to call literally every dude gay. but also...was i wrong. see if you call every single dude "gay as fuck" you'll be right some of the times at least. world philosophy right there. i have no idea what "world philosophy" means. i just say shit and hope it sounds right most of the times. oh and also i feel bad cuz i dont remember alyson's friend's name, like i somehow mi.....its michael isnt it. yeah theyre name is michael. at least i hope so. anyways so their vibe is so me. like we are on the same wavelenght vibe-wise. except i dont got game like him. man has rizz not gonna lie. smooth mother fucker. i did blush at those dialogues. you know the ones if youve played ep2. my mans got rizz like no other. also he's hot. and has a septum piercing. and i did call him gay as well just out of habit. tbh i really missed the opportunity to call alyson gay. i need to get on that tomorrow when i continue the game. to be honest i think its because i call attractive people gay. i dont know why really, but if i see an attractive person, i will call them gay as fuck. ig because in those moments i myself feel gay? idk. and sorry alyson, ig youre just not my type. girl's real pretty but i like my women with a bit more moustache ya know. and that isnt a way to say that i dont like women. i mean that whole heartedly: i lfind women who have moustaches attractive. mostly just because facial hair looks good on about anyone. clean shaven face aint my thing just in general. which is why im so fucking sad that i cant grow shit on my face. like bro cmon i have testosterone in me. atleast some amount. give me a fucking moustache.

anyways yeah i forgot to say that tyler is hot too. and also one thing is specific: theres one scene where i got this vibe that he wasnt angry at a person because there was a reason to be angry at them, but because, well,, when youve been angry at someone for so long, and people confront you about it, sometimes you just get stuck on like, defending yourself. defending your anger. even if there isnt a reason for it anymore. you dont want to feel like all the time youve been angry at them, you were wrong to be so. and when you get riled up, its hard to calm down and regocnise that forgiving someone in the present, doesnt invalidate the feelings you had of them in the past. and you just get stuck having this tunnel vision where you are angry at this person. doesnt matter why, you just are. because youve always been angry at them.

yeah so, i was probably just reading into that scene a bit too much, but i just related real hard alright. its the one with tyler and alyson talking to brown for the second time. it just fucking hit me. and then there was that later scene with tessa. and,, the vibes were just different. it was much calmer, and no one said anything that would've made him feel the need to be defensive. they had a conversation. and i think, if tyler and brown could manage to let out their steam, and then have a calm conversation, tyler would probably forgive him.

i just. i know that feeling so well. being mad at someone just because, well, you hate them. and you dont even remember why, but wouldnt you be such an asshole if this whole time youve been angry at them for no reason. so you double down. think that whatever it is that made you hate them, it was bad enough to warrant your grudge. and you nitpick all of their actions to find little things that annoy you, or something about their behaviour you didnt like, or maybe you didnt like the tone of voice they used that one time. and when your anger is running out of steam, you remind yourself of all those little things. and its hard to talk to anyone about it, because everytime you do, you find that there isnt really a reason for your feelings. and confronting that is hard, especially if youre doing with the person you are angry at. and the smallest of things they say or do in that calm moment can feel like an attack on your character. belittling you. or maybe they just laugh. and you dont like how lightly they seem to be taking this conversation. they arent taking it seriously. they arent taking you seriously. and you go quiet and add that conversation into the pile of reasons to hate them.

another media post that turned into venting. sorry. and yes that was about my mother, surprise surprise. though ive got testimony from third parties(mys sister), about how my mother sucks, and that evidence will last me for a while. im not even trying to forgive her at this point, im just trying to save myself.

she likes to say that im stubborn and resiliant. when adults ask what kind of person i am. i guess sometimes i feel stubborn in my anger, but that does not last for good things. i have no patience for myself, and no resilience to keep trying. i am pretty stubborn when it comes to proving people wrong. but most of the time im just trying to prove them that im not as good or smart as they think. showing that i dont have "potential for anything, if you set your mind to it". showing that i dont have the strenght to get out of bed. proving that "only a week of school" isnt easy for me.

god okay i dont want a repeat of yesterdays whole ordeal so im forcing myself to cut this now. sorry for the typos, i cant dwell on this longer.

[cinnamon-stixs]

ok yall part 2

-Everyone's shocked and horrified reactions, and then there's

THIS FUCKER

-God I hate how good of a villian he is

-THE FEATHER. FUCK.

-Yes Stolas save you mans!!

-"Stolas get your ass out of my face" 100% the first time Blitz has said that.

-Stolas you over-dramatic thespian, I love you.

-Once again, Vassago my beloved

-I love how Stolas insults blitz the whole time

-This song goes so fucking hard btw

-Very 'subtle' hints from the writers in here that something's up with someone, almost 100% guaranteed to be Andrealphus

-"Fuck is you doing stolas?"

-"Let his name light a flame in the hearts of his race" FUCKING BAR.

-Also, even though he keeps insulting Blitz this whole time, I wanna mention that

A) Blitz does kinda deserve that

B) Stolas is still literally putting his own life on the line

-It's a cool detail how Stolas talks much more down to imps than usual in this song, showing how he's trying to appeal to the classist freaks running it

-This rotating shot is SO COOL

-"I would rather be dead than live life without you by my side" You GAY motherfuckers

-"What are you doing? I DON'T DESERVE THIS!" Oh you tortured soul, you.

-"I realized too late" THIS. This is the EXACT moment where it fully hits Blitz that Stolas was serious. It hits him how much Stolas loves him, and how much he loves Stolas. He's been building up more realizations on this, but this is the moment that cemented it.

-"You're my light, you're my heart." THIS LINE. SIMPLE CHEESY SHIT, RIGHT? NO. BLITZ SHOWED STOLAS THE LIGHT OF WHAT IT'S LIKE TO BE LOVED AND STOLAS SHOWED BLITZ THE COMPASSION TO LOOK WITHIN HIMSELF AND TRY TO BECOME A BETTER PERSON!!

-God PLEASE give us more information on him I NEED IT

-"He is the law" "I rule the endless dark" So yeah, he's taken over for Lucifer. I feel like this combined with how Bee and Ozzie don't say much shows he has a much higher status than the other sins.

-No Luci :(

-He claims to have been here since before Lucifer, but Bee and Ozzie roll their eyes. So that either means

A) He's lying

B) It's not as big of a flex as he's making it out to be

C) ALL the sins were there before Luci.

-Blitz tries to stop him, but Stolas simply turns away. He still looks angry at Blitz.

-I'm actually tweaking out.

-LOONA CALLS HIM DAD IM GONNA KILL MYSELF (I say for the 5th time)

-KILL YOURSELF!!! KILL YOURSELF!!! I HATE YOU. SHE'S LITERALLY DOING THE SEPERATED PARENT TACTIC OF DRIVING THE KID AWAY FROM THE OTHER PARENT.

-What are Stella's motives? we know Andrealphus has smthn bigger going on, but Stella just seems to want to beat Stolas down as much as possible.

-"But you are demon royalty, so your life has actual worth."

-I hate how Octavia is just called 'The heir.' That poor girl omfg

-They hate imps so much that everyone just ignores that Andrealphus is CLEARLY plotting something. Unfortunately accurate.

-Wholesome parent MY ASS

-Mammon a big back just like me fr

-The way Stolas IMMEDIATLY gets shit thrown at him, because now his status is as low as an imp.

-I wonder if Millie and Moxxie are gonna be finding new jobs after this. I hope not :( but in this situation I 100% would.

-Ohhh I can't wait to see where this plotline goes

-They really all JUMPED on the opportunity to shit on demon royalty like they get shit on by them.

-oh boy. He misses his daughter. A LOT.

-Blitz is so gentle with him... aughh..

-God I love you Loona

-Stolas is NOT having a good time

-the FIRST to survive??

-It said people think Stolas 'framed' Blitz. I feel like this partially explains why imps were so immediately nasty to him.

-Hey at least this was all really good for business

-"Thank you for saving my life" "Always"

-I wanna know what Blitz was gonna say before he realized Stolas was asleep

-Oh you lovesick fool

-People in imp city are CELEBRATING

-Last thing I noticed, neither Vivzie nor Brandon had a hand in writing the episode.

I FUCKING LOVED MASTERMIND HADUFHHDUIDF I HAVE TO RAMBLE ABOUT IT!! SPOILERS LOL

also warning this is long as hell

-Andrealphus's house is surrounded by snow, as is his whole theme. It kinda reminds me of the mythology of hell's frozen center.

-I fucking love stella guys. I'm sorry. I hate her so fucking much and I want to shit on her dreams, and that is EXACTLY why I love her character so much. I'm so glad she's getting more development.

-Andrealphus didn't know about the deal, just that Stolas cheated. So Stella REALLY didn't tell him much.

-I like Andrealphus's peacock theming

-"Now you fucking know!" icon.

-I really like the detail of them using Moxxie and Blitz's mugshots, as well as Millie's wanted poster. It's a really good illustration of how authority figures will do anything they can against minorities, and really pushes the themes of classism and oppression in the show.

-Blitz immediately running to delete his search history, me core.

-He's so scared of going to jail again :(

-"We are going to beat you! But only a little!"

-She's exactly like her fucking dad. She cares SO MUCH deep down, but puts on that 'indifferent asshole' attitude to protect herself.

-"The shredder is jammed!!" D:

-These poor interns

-Blitz, of course, crashes immediately.

-Moxxie uses 'Blitz' instead of 'sir'

-THE MUZZLE. I'M GONNA FUCKING KILL MYSELF.

-I wanna note as they walk in, Satan is acting in place of lucifer, since he's too busy with the Hotel stuff. He claims he was in hell BEFORE Lucifer, but I take that with a good spoonful of salt.

-"Is this about the orphans?" HUH?

-Dude these motherfuckers keep deadnaming Blitz and it pisses me off! Like I get that's the point but still.

-The sloth and envy sins are here!

-I really like Vassago. It seems like he really cares about fair due process in general, but he also seems to have some sort of beef with Andrealphus.

-"Since when is ATTEMPTING a crime illegal am I right?" You stupid bastard.

-"LIES!!" STFU

-I've seen a few people question why Andrealphus would go straight after Blitz instead of Stolas, since he wants him gone so bad, but the answer is simple. Andrealphus KNOWS there's pretty much nothing he can do to demon royalty, especially since Stolas was considered above him on the Goetia food chain. Going after the imp, a member of an already extremely marginalized group, was simply a safer bet.

-I wish Ozzie and Bee spoke up more. It seems ooc, but at the same time we don't know how big the power imbalance is between Satan and the rest of the sins. (Aside Lucifer)

-"A responsible and handsome Goetic demon such as myself-" You should kill yourself, NOW!!

-They never wanted to let him speak up in the first place.

-"Put his kind to shame" BRO HE BAGGED DEMON ROYALTY.

-wtf is up with Satan and his little meditator twink assistant

-YES VASSAGO!! BRING UP THAT HE'S NOT HERE! IT'S ABSOLUTE BULLSHIT THAT STOLAS WASN'T INFORMED AND CLEARLY INDICATES ANDREALPHUS HAS OTHER MOTIVES!! YES HE SHOULD BE SUMMONED!!

-God I love Vassago I hope he's a reoccurring character

-"didn't want him to go through the trauma of facing his aggressor' is such a thinly veiled argument, but no one fucking cares because Blitz is just an imp.

-WHY IS STRIKER HELPING DEMON ROYALTY. Does he hate Blitz that much because he associated with them? Is he getting paid? Was he threatened?

-"If I wanted to kill Stolas, I would've done it myself." Good point, HORRIBLE wording.

-"oh he just fucked himself over."

-I am so sorry your boss is a fucking moron

-PLEASE Bee and Ozzie you can do better than "He probably has a good reason for all of this!"

-Bee throwing dick popsicles at Mammon, I love you girl.

-God I hate this classist piece of shit

-He KNOWS smthn is up.

-The immediate cut to a Mammon joke after our mcs are SENTENCED TO DEATH really shows how little higher class demons care about imps and hellhounds

-We obviously know They're not ACTUALLY gonna kill any of them off, but I was still biting my fuckin nails dawg

-What an EVIL move.

-Fizz and Ozzie's full conversation before this. So, Ozzie most likely had no idea the trial was for Blitz.

-Side note, but I'm kinda surprised Fizz and Ozzie dating wasn't brought up aside from that line from Mammon about Ozzie and Bee 'associating with the lower class'.

-wtf is up with Satan? If this were any other sin, Ozzie would not HESITATE to clock their ass. Just look at s2 ep7!

-"NOT THEM YOUR HIGHNESS!" What if I cried.

-"you're acting kinda ruby" GET OUT OF HERE TWINKIE

-"I suppose I created impkind to be obedient" Motherfucker those are people.

-"Just axe the mouthy one" It's so in-character for Blitz to not assume himself to be the mouthy one

-He still careeeesss augh!! He sounded so distressed

-"We'll pretend to care" So accurate! Ouch!

-"Moxxie, stop. This big red bitch never planned on hearing us out."

-HER FACE. "Just take care of Loona for me" WHAT IF I FUCKING CRIED.

-Fun fact this is the part of the episode where I started bawling like a loser

-"I love you guys" I'M GONNA FUCKING KILL MYSELF. IM GONNA DO IT FUCK

Uhh I have to reblog to continue this bc I hit the image cap halfway through lmfaoo

[maschotch]

i might sound crazy or annoying but i needed to vent with someone 😭 i honestly dislike so much hotch x reader fics… like idk, its always the same situation: “young woman who falls in love with his older boss bc she has daddy issues”, they all begin with the same statement:

“i was in my desk working when my extremely handsome, tall and broad boss told me to go to his office. he is so handsome and i have feelings for him but i’m trying to hide it bc ofc he would never have feelings for me. also he is older and that makes me hornier. anyways, i think he is married to haley but idc i know she is not a problem and if i could i would homewreck their family. and ofc im a good person. then i come up to his office and he looks at me and we have a discussion then we have right there and he divorces Haley and I’m Jack new mom 😍”

Lol well I exaggerated but It goes something like that. Hotch and reader always have the same interaction and same personalities, and if Hotch is different in the fic, he is portrayed as a toxic man… I just dont see it, I dont see Hotch dating 🥲 or being toxic

Yeah I m kinda drunk Idk what Im saying lol

we’re both gonna get in trouble for this akjsdhfglkj but i kinda agree lmao

there’s just something kinda weird ab every fic for every character for every fandom being like this. like at this point… who are you writing about? does it even matter who it’s about if you’re gonna give them all the exact same traits anyway? dark, dominating, looming, authoritative, aggressive, imposing, etc. it’s always the same.

like at this point ive been involved w fandoms long enough to know that this is just how it’s gonna be with those and u just gotta block tags, scroll past, and move on. live and let live akjshdlagkjhs

[dckweed]

ugh you guys ok so ive been in such a pissy mood lately and im still on season two of stranger things and ok so remember when i said i was gonna do a billy hate fuck smut???? well this is it. you're welcome :)

also please feel free to request, i also added billy to the list of Stranger Things characters that can be requested!!

billy still ain't it bc i think he's a total dick but the part where he cried after that interaction with his dad had me feeling bad for him just a teeny bit. and also dacre is just godly for me. but i in no way simp for billy.

warnings: rough sex for sure, maybe some hair pulling, scratching, possible biting, idk if ill make it a nice ending or if ill make it like they definitely hate each other fr but this is your warning for either of those, maybe some bruising bc i feel like this is gonna be really really rough idk if im missing anything else but p much this is probably going to be pure word porn so if you're a MINOR DO NOT READ THIS!

anywhore, i give you:

'FUCK THE HATE AWAY' billy hargrove x female!reader

Look, you hadn't meant to end up in this position, in the middle of your families kitchen, at your breakfast table no less, riding the hell out of Billy fucking Hargrove of all people, but god, you honestly didn't have control of yourself at this point.

How did you even get here? No seriously, how the fuck did you get here? You thought really hard, completely ignoring the pain burning in your thighs from the way you were moving, it really was quite the workout. You thought back to earlier in the day, how Billy who was oddly enough in your home-ec class had ended up being your pairing for a project. You honestly couldnt help the eye roll when his name had been called with your own, he hung out with your brother quite a bit and you knew how he acted. You thought he was an asshole, a bully.

He didn't seem to have a problem with the pairing though, hell, he probably thought that you would do the whole thing for the both of them, which you honestly didn't mind because at least then it would be done right, but you were shocked when he told you to meet him at his car after you finished getting things from your locker. Your brother was at football that day, and you honestly didn't want to wait around for him, so you begrudgingly took the opportunity of the ride home.

"So, what exactly are your expectations?" You ask, getting into the passenger seat, the black leather warm on your thighs. It had been an oddly warm day for the fall, and the sun has been shining down on it all day. You look at him as he gets into the driver's seat.

"What do you mean?" He asks, already an annoyed tone to his voice, you could practically feel the eye roll come on. He threw the car into drive and reversed out of his spot before you even had your seat belt on.

"I mean, are you expecting me to do the work?" You ask, turning to face the front, you were surprised how well he knew the way to your house, he'd only been there a handful of times and it was easy to get lost in the neighborhood. "Because if so, I was already planning on it, you didn't have to drive me home just to tell me."

Billy scoffs. "I was already planning on driving you home, I owed your brother a favor." He says, his hands fidgeting for a cigarette. You were already on his damn nerves. God, you irritated him, you and your perfect fucking voice, and your perfect smile and your perfect attitude. He didn't understand how you could be so nice all the time. "And, for the record, I am capable of doing a project like this. How hard could it be?"

You sighed, knowing damn well you were in for a long, long afternoon. You really hoped he was more the stand back and observe type, although to your disappointment, he was completely hands on.

It didn't take long to get home, and you went upstairs to throw your bag in your room and take off your jacket, staying in your skirt and blouse. By the time you had gotten back down to the kitchen he had already shrugged off his leather coat and threw it onto your kitchen table, he was in the middle of rolling his sleeves up when he turned to look at you, long hair trailing down his back.

"So, where's the flour?"

For nearly two hours the two of you worked, nicely enough at first, although it slowly became tense as the pair of you were at your wits end with each other. Your need to be in control, and his carefree attitude weren't mixing well and you were quite frankly ready to beat him over the head with your mom's rolling pin.

You had just pulled your third attempt at your project out of the oven, the edges burnt completely black. It had stayed in for ten minutes too long, Billy having forgotten to turn on the timer. "Dammit, that was the last of the flour and cherries!" You say, completely exasperated and almost in tears. You really wish he had just let you do it.

Billy just looks at it shrugging. "Honestly I don't even know why you're panicking so hard about it, it's not like we don't have the whole weekend to get it done." He says nonchalantly, as if he didn't comprehend that you weren't the type of person who didn't wait the whole weekend to get things done perfectly the first time around.

"The whole weekend? Are you insane? Im not spending the whole weekend working on a pie with you," You say, stomping your foot as you whine.

Billy looked at you, taking in your bratty attitude. He wasn't ashamed to admit, it kind of turned him on a little bit, all though, that also could have just been due to the fantasies he'd been having about how to shut you the fuck up the whole time you'd been working together. God you liked to talk alot.

He just shrugs and you groan.

"I fucking hate you and your stupid procrastinating personality, Hargrove." You grunt out, hands crossed over your chest. He leaned against the counter, red shirt unbuttoned half way, his sleeves rolled up. You weren't one to deny that he was damn good looking, but you still couldn't stand him.

Billy smirks, straightening up. "Likewise, sweetheart." He winks, looking at you as he takes a step closer. He was honestly going to grab his jacket to head out, he figured he'd let you cool off and see you tomorrow. You stepped closer to him, almost as if you were challenging him.

"And just where do you think you're going?" You ask, looking up at him, uncrossing your arms and putting your hands on your hips. "I didn't say we were done yet."

Billy had to admit, the bossy attitude was fucking hot right then, and he was definitely horny after what he'd been thinking about. "Bossy is a hot look on you, sweetheart." He says, stepping just a little bit closer to you. You roll your eyes, not expecting him to grab your chin in his hand, his fingers squeezing your cheek. "That was rather rude, Y/N, don't be a fucking brat."

You couldn't help the immediate turn on, god it had come out of nowhere and you generally wouldnt have let this happen, but fuck you were frustrated enough as it was, you didn't need to be left horny too. "And what are you gonna do about it, hm?" You ask, eyebrow raised at him.

Billy takes that as his invitation and thank fucking god because he wasn't planning on ending the weekend without fucking you at least once, he may have found you annoying as hell but you were definitely the hottest girl in school, and you had never paid him the time of day before now. Without another moments he closed what little bit of space was between the two of you and planted a rough, sloppy kiss on your mouth.

You groan at the sensation, moving your mouth with his almost too eagerly. He takes his hand off of your face, letting it travel down to the top of your blouse with his other one, taking a good grip at the collar and yanking on it. All of the buttons pop off and scatter to the ground, you make a noise of surprise and pull away but he reaches his hand behind you, smacking your ass roughly.

"Shut up." He grunts, letting your hands unbutton his shirt the rest of the way before starting to push you backwards towards the table, undoing his belt the entire way. He could already see how flustered you were and god damn it looked sexy on you.

Your back hits the table, and you shrug your blouse off of your shoulders, your bra straps too, letting it slide down to your torso, leaving you exposed to him.

You hear him suck in a breath his eyes on your chest, you half expect him to start playing with your breasts, it's what most guys you had been with had done, and you made a shocked noise when he used both of his hands to push you to your knees, his cock right in front of you, hard and ready, waiting to use you.

"Suck." He grunts out, taking a fist full of your hair. You do as told, taking him into your mouth eagerly. He throws his head back, a low sigh coming from his parted lips. "Fuck.." You Bob your head, taking him in farther every time, coating him with your saliva. You use your hands, wrapping both around him as you twist and suck, within a few moments he's thrusting his hips gently into your mouth, his hand gripping your hair tightly, fucking your face until you're a drooling, slobbering fucking mess all over him. "Sweetheart, you look so fucking perfect getting your mouth fucked like that, and i could come all the way down your fucking throat but, id rather fuck you first, because where the fuck is the fun if we can't both fuck the hate away?"

He pulls out of your mouth, and you groan. His hand drops your hair and goes to your throat, wrapping around it as he pulls you back to your feet. "On the fucking table," He says, pushing your skirt up your hips and pulling your panties down your legs as you settle onto the table edge, your legs spread nice and wide for him, your arousal shining in the light. "Such a little fucking whore aren't you, who knew that little miss perfect liked to be used like a toy?" He asks, he let his fingers roam up your pussy, hearing your small moan at the contact, fuck it was hotter than he had expected it to be. "Can your pussy take my cock as well as your mouth can? Hm? Can I fuck you good and hard?"

You give a breathless noise, looking up at him, legs already hooked around his fucking waist, eyes trailing down the exposed skin of his muscled torso. He really was as hot as you'd heard. "Fuck me already, Billy." You whine out, not in the mood for games, afraid you'd get caught by your brother or parents, but too turned on to stop him.

You didnt have to wait long, within moments he's pushed himself inside of you, his cock filling every fucking inch of you perfectly, your pussy swallowing him up perfectly. "Fuck.." You heard him groan again, his hips thrusting lightly at first before giving a long, sharp snap of a movement that has you throwing your head back, a string of curses escaping your mouth.

He keeps a steady pace, your table creaking and croaking underneath the weight of the two of you, him leaning over you, planing rough, wet kisses over your mouth to keep from screaming too loudly, he was afraid your neighbors would hear, or your brother if he decided to come home early. You pawed at his skin, your nails digging in and scratching down his chest as he lifted your hips in a way that made you arch back up into him, unable to help your bodies responses to him.

"Fucking hell, sweetheart." He groans out, picking you up completely and moving backwards to the chair behind him. Still bouncing you on his cock as he did. He say, giving your ass a nice two handed squeeze before slapping once, twice, leaving red marks he was sure. "Ride it, baby."

That was how ended up here, riding his cock like it was the last thing you'd ever do. Fuck you hated yourself for it, but god your pussy had never felt better. He leaned his head down, taking one of your tits in his mouth, his tongue rolling around your nipple, sucking on it the supple flesh. He couldn't receiving himself, he had to give it a nice hard bite. he smirked, feeling you shudder against his body, a squeaking noise coming from his mouth as you scratch your nails down his chest again, causing him to moan, slapping your ass roughly once more.

He could tell you were close to coming, he could tell by the look on your face and the way your body was moving against his own. He wasn't too far off either. He reached a hand up to your hair, tangling your hand in the locks as he angled your head against his own, watching your eyes. "Such a good fucking whore riding my cock like a fucking pro," He says, he figured you deserved some praise. "good fucking girl, gonna cum all over it, hm? cum all over my fucking cock like a good little slut..there you go, good girl." He grunts, your hips stuttering and a silent moan escaping your mouth. He wasn't too far behind, and within moments he lifted you off of him, leaning you back just enough that he could come all over your stomach, ruining your skirt as the hot, thick spurts hit it. "Fuck.." He sighs, sitting back in the chair, letting you catch your breath for a moment.

You looked like a goddess to him, you looked perfect with your hair messy, and your face red and flushed, but relaxed and calm looking. You looked at him, unable to stop the giggling that escaped your lips. He looked at you, eyebrow raised.

"I'm sorry." You says, a small smile on your face as you stand up slowly. You figured he wasn't the hanging around type, and you didn't want to keep him from whatever his plans were. "This just totally wasn't how I expected this to go."

Billy chuckles, pulling his jeans up and buckling them. "Glad I could be of service." He says, grabbing his jacket off the table. "I'll be back tomorrow, I'll bring cherries and flour." He says grabbing his keys.

He walks past you, giving you a light pat on your still exposed ass, he caught sight of your brothers car through the living room window as he came to the hallway. "He's home." He calls over his shoulder, sending you running up the stairs with a squeak.

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[not-souleaterpost]

This posts brings up a good point, but even though I had some joke thoughts in the notes already, I think I got a brainblast big enough to try to be a contrarian again.

I wont go into the manga here so no worries for anybody who thinks Im just gonna use this as an opportunity to spoil and shit on it lol

Also I may look like I'm white knighting the anime too much even for my standards, so lets start with saying that it is a mostly solid and good criticism of it, because it brings up a problem with a pivotal part of it all, and not just whines about stupid lore inconsitencies or powerups like the crictisms I actually dismiss.

So anyways, I first remembered how ironically peeps that like Maka and Soul as a couple used the fact Soul was so unbothered by getting sliced as a trait that made him both appealing and a good match for Maka - somebody who even outwardly is crass and abrasive but in things that matter to her supports her unconditionally - even if it would totally be expected for him to be bothered by it.

But this lead me to rethink the situation - in a way Soul is supposed to be determined to place his live on the line, he escapes from his old identity by being totally into the role of the "cool" weapon that does the job of the DWMA and more importantly of his Meister without question. And this is shown many times, even with the conflict evolving into Soul feeling useless when alone.

Anyways, maybe my thoughts are to scattered to make clear what I mean - but lets look at it this way - Soul and Maka both are like soldiers putting their lives on the line (yeah yeah, its a whole other topic with the child soldier angel), its a kill or be killed world literally, and they commence the execution of Crona - a weirdo kid that even then clearly is fucked in some way - this leads to the famous near fatal wound - which also Soul choce to get, twisting the dynamic into a self sacrifice thing and even kind of removing Crona from the strong negative emotions they both feel about it - well later because at first Makas whole Modus Oporandi is to kill Crona, even if that already gets twisted from revenge to an inner battle of insecurities.

Anyways, the point Im getting to, that by the time the whole sappy Crona beach scene happens, it already gets implied that nobody is really blaming Crona as some malicious actor (even if one could arguee that its clunky, especially with the death of those thugs at the church and other things, but I guess even the fact that at the boat all the souls were allready killed was a way for the story to try to soften the evil of the actions, even if kinda dishonest to do it that way but idk)

So this is the situation - Maka and Soul and the whole DWMA forgives Crona for being part of a plot to resurect the devil, for all other killings and evil shit, so then maybe the whole "well shit you got nearly killed by being cut up man" thing in a twisted way doesnt really matter to Soul - like holding over some scissor incident over the weird kid who turns out had some unexpected muscle spasm attack and you getting injured while trying to get the scissors from hurting somebody (lol ok maybe one of my worst analogies, but still get what I mean?)

Idk, at the end one can say its unrealistic that Soul even if he has some logical reason to not feel this resentment would still feel unconsious anger and antipathy towards Crona or Maka's increased interest in the psycho kid but eh, dunno in the end its a conceit of the story - even as a kid I thought it was kinda emotioanlly unrealistic that atleast some kids arent scared of Crona or think that the DWMA is crazy for lettting a murderer just walk around, but I think thats įust missing the forrest for the trees of stories - in the end it is a way to show and communicate metaphors, in this case the integration of an outcast by a supportive community - even having therapists would ruin it and turn it into something else and go against the whole point of bonds being what brings us back from the abyss of fear cause nobody aint bonding with some grumpy bored theraphist who is only checking of a list without even understanding how human connections work lol (think this anonymous ask I used to request an image that actually kinda blew up illustrates it best, damn should have been public with it, so much clouth lost...:

Art credit to @slimeel (Hope it had enough reblogs to not go.against etiquette)

((reading this shit gave me a bigger ego boost and feeling of euphoria than a lot of things lol))

Anyway, did I just write everything to go on a tangent to try to claim a post I cant prove I made?

Yeah...Sorry- Nah wait, back to the point.

So yeah, in the end I think it still is a good question, and I think I'll need to rewatch the anime to figure out if Soul really was as sidelined as he really was - or if it was the point - that Soul is a great partner because in the end he trusts his Meister, even if they both may not allways show it.

(Also maybe this is part of Souls real struggle of fearing abandoment once people see him for who he is and why Maka accepts him and opens the box - the fact he supported her even if it lead to being thirdwheeled is prove enough he is a person worthy of unconditional respect, no matter what ugly or lame side he may hide🤷‍♂️)

And also to get really pretentious - maybe it was a flaw of the whole conceit of including the Emine inspired Crona Maka stuff in a story that has the partner theme so ingrained with the Meister Weapon relationship - it just formally causes many situations where charachters feel neglected or even forgotten about because its hard to write somebody bonding with a new person who used to be an enemy while jugglijg the whole aspect of the Maka and Soul relationship - ofcourse more time or maybe a different story could handle it, like maybe making Crona just a weapon and the conflict resolving with Maka dual weilding while making sure that Maka assures Soul that she isnt abandoning him for a new toy and making Soul appreciate Crona and actually forgive the black dress stick figure after actually being saved by Crona directly or Crona doing something only for Soul and not for Maka by proxy ((also one reason Soul could be cool with Crona in the end is because Crona protected Maka by jumping into the attack so if Soul values that the most it kinda comes full circle, yaknowwhatImean?) So yeah idk maybe writting a situation about a friendship not breaking even after adding another part to it would actually be interesting and an aspect of life that isnt often discussed in media. But who knows.

Anyways I think I missed the point again but still guess I should have just saved it all for the iceberg lol.

"now the anime i felt diminished Soul's character in the second half... that's another topic though, haha."

What do you mean, his character was diminished?

Hello! Sorry it took me so long to answer!! Spoilers ahead for anyone who hasn't seen the whole show.

Let me approach this a different way... We know the running joke about Tsubaki, that after the Masamune arc she gets no character development. Her lines are just screaming Black Star's name, and that's about it for her.

That's how it feels for Soul after Crona shows up. Except with him it's just...silent brooding and watching his meister put all her focus onto someone else. The meister/weapon relationship that seems like it's kinda supposed to be the whole point of the show...? We don't get much of that for Soul and Maka anymore until the finale. And then it feels just kinda...forced in at the last moment, since we haven't gotten much of that.

He's not the only one whose arc gets skewed, and a good lot of that is due to the anime ending so abruptly and not getting to tell a fuller story. It needed at least ten more episodes in my opinion, whether it followed the manga or not... It just ended too fast.

But Soul specifically got supplanted by Crona, and it makes no sense to me. To have his relationship with Maka just...set aside entirely. Or rather, the issue is that they tried to pretend it wasn't. They tried to pretend all was well, and then bring it back at the very end as if things have been fine the entire time. But no.....no they haven't been.

For some idk like fifteen episodes or so? The only glimpses of Soul are him brooding, pining, trying to be himself toward Maka, being a good friend and weapon, but Maka only has eyes for Crona. Even at their apartment her only thoughts are for Crona, even telling Soul to leave her alone one time. She puts this wall between them and doesn't even know she's doing it, and Soul... His devotion to her never changes.

And... He never gets resolution with Crona for himself. So Maka just...forgave Crona I guess for almost killing Soul? Remember that huge giant plot point that started back in episode 7? That started the entire black blood thing? We never see or hear them talk about it but I guess Maka just....let it go, after purifying Crona? Which makes NO sense but okay I guess. But what about Soul... So since Maka decided to forget about Crona almost killing him, Soul is supposed to just forget too? Since his meister has decided to obsess over this poor mixed up kid who desperately needs professional help NOT a friendship that's doomed to unhealthiness due to the kid's issues, and Soul's supposed to just...be cool with it?

I was really glad that Kid brought it up that one time at the courts, even if it was just for a moment. At least somebody remembered what Soul went through. But it should have been his meister.

So yeah it's just...messed up. In summary.... Soul gets ignored second half of the show till a last-minute dramatic thing in the finale, but it feels out of place since Maka has ignored him for who knows how many episodes except to tell him to leave her alone. Soul has remained devoted and loyal. Soul's devotion to her has him repeatedly use the black blood for the sake of all of them, risking himself. And Maka just forgot I guess about her "new project" or whatever almost killing her weapon. And Soul just gotta deal with....all of that. Deal with what looks like the slow losing of his meister.

Yeah. That's what I meant by Soul being diminished... Everything about him was just kinda forgotten except what he could do for the rest of them.

Gonna take a left-turn here and compare Maka to her father again... Wonder if this is what Stein felt like watching his weapon go off with someone else, slowly losing him to some new, interesting person for whatever reason...

Yeah Maka, your weapon deserved better from you.

All that said? Oh I still ship it. I can be annoyed as heck with canon and still use it, lol.