#i mean no wonder even now i can't bring myself to watch anything else when we got not just one full course meal but six??

[mobius-m-mobius]

sometimes i rewatch just the moment of Loki stumbling and tripping all over himself when he tries to approach Don!Mobius father of two at his home just to relive the moment of my jaw slowly dropping to the floor as it unfolded on my screen. truly there have been few moments that took me out with complete startled befuddlement so entirely as that. NOT because it wasn't perfectly in character I just hadn't in a million years expected a Disney/Marvel joint would let us SEE it.

You and me both anon, you and me both 🙏💖

There are some moments in life that really will last forever and what a pleasure it is to say the God of Mischief being canonically down for a single dad from Cleveland is now one of those, lmao. Honestly even to this day it's hard to wrap my mind around Loki's fit check, like there's poor Don literally just off work struggling with some trash and a chaotic household while an actual god lurks around wishing for a mirror in case he's not personally up to standard 😅

And like you said it's all COMPLETELY in character!!! Loki's never had to approach Mobius *needing* to impress before (because Mobius could never not be impressed with him) and because of it everything kind of hits in that moment how desperately he actually does want Mobius/Don to know how much he means and the difference he's made and if the only way that could be communicated is through some of the most obvious flirting any of us have ever witnessed then so be it. Still can't believe a full season of a Disney/Marvel show from start to finish gave the stuff dreams are made of, it's definitely a fluke but I'm running with it and never looking back lol.

[aois-amaterasu-painting]

Aoi Twitter 2022 (+bonus Tsuchinoko tweets):

2021 July 26: "This year, I was able to meet up with Tsuchinoko without any issues, and it seems like Uruha-san's fans are getting more used to it. From now on, I might have to call it the 'shy blue-tongued skink blog,' but that’s so long - I really don’t wanna! #ItHasBeenUpdated"

2021 July 27 Ruki: "It's the blog of our rumored Tsuchinoko lead guitarist. 🦆"

2022 Feb "Th-there's Tsuchinokoーーー! With a photooo! For more details, go to my profile! #UruhaBlogGotUpdated

2022 Mar 26 Uruha: "I’ve started Twitter to commemorate our 20th anniversary. Everyone, please continue to support us. Let's make the tour even more exciting!!"

2022 Mar "Wait, hold on a second. Could this be the Tsuchinoko guy? 🤔"

Uruha QT: "I'm not a Tsuchinoko! LOL"

Reita QT: "Ah, he's on Twitter… You can't call him Tsuchinoko anymore! 🤘🏻"

Uruha QT: "Ah, that's the thing that matters!"

2022 Feb "Right now, I have this overwhelming urge to grow my hair super long. To put it simply, I want to look like Rapunzel."

2022 Mar "I really like Ruki's delicate sense of aesthetics."

2022 May "And just between us, I missed the timing for a song and when I got back to the dressing room, Uruha was grinning and said, 'Nice arrangement 🤩👍'. Before heading to the venue tomorrow, I'm going to stop by the 100-yen shop to buy some joke glasses and party poppers. I’m going to tease him big time when he messes up. Just you wait."

Uruha QT: "I just returned the favor since you always say it to me 🫶."

Aoi QT: ( ˘ω˘🫶 )

2022 May HBD My bro.🧁

2022 May "Fukuoka, I’m back. And thank you. I won’t say anything more today. Once again, happy birthday, Reita ���."

2022 Jun "Nagoya, I’m back! Ruki and Kai also mentioned it, but we’re really feeling like a band more than ever. Sometimes things don’t go perfectly, but being able to turn our ‘want to play’ into ‘getting to play’ is a blessing. I’ve got some unfinished work, so I’ll head back early, but let’s hang out again soon ✊Thank you, Nagoya."

2022 Jun "Good morning 🙌 Let’s have a great day today. I have just one job for you all—cheer me on!!!"

2022 Jun "I couldn’t figure out one of the trending Visual Kei quiz questions. But of course, that makes sense. After all, I am a being that transcends the boundaries of the Visual Kei genre itself 🍷."

2022 Jun "I mean, Seikima-II is releasing a new album, so I won’t be able to sleep until the release day. It brings back memories of being scared by my brother at the beginning of 'House of Wax' when I was in elementary school. I’m so excited 🙌."

2022 Jun HBD URUHA🍰🎉🥸

2022 Jun "Thank you, Sagami-Ono. Live shows are just the best, aren’t they? Looks like I’m going to have some good dreams tonight. Let’s hang out again soon 🙌."

2022 Jun Reita: "Take this as a souvenir for the afterlife. The residents of Shimote"

2022 July "But then again, wanting to peek into someone else’s romance might be human folly, so perhaps it’s better if it stays hidden behind the clouds. Since the universe doesn’t cloud over, I’d like to think that’s better for the two of them. (Serious face)"

2022 July "What exactly is a fan meeting? I've been pondering this for almost 20 years now. The hardest part is whether I can properly convey my gratitude to everyone. I'm not very good at expressing myself. Just thinking about it gives me a stomachache, so I've been wondering for the past two hours if it's finally time to use some of my paid leave. What do you think? 🤔"

2022 Aug "Good morning ☀︎ I watched the 20th ANNIVERSARY -HERESY- video that arrived last night this morning. That day really was the best. I hope you're all looking forward to it 😌 I think it airs on 8/11."

2022 Sep "Ah, I looked amazing again today. I might end up charming everyone without meaning to, so please forgive me."

2022 Sep Reita "But you all have nowhere to go because I won’t take my eyes off you. But starting today, since we’re having rehearsal, I’ll have to look away for a bit 🫣"

Aoi QT: Yes, Fallen in love.

2022 Sep: "After the fan meeting, I’ve been putting all my effort into preparing for this day. I played my guitar with everything I had—my fingertips are torn, my hair is in disarray, and I played with single-minded focus. What you see here is the culmination of my efforts. Thank you, everyone. On the first day of band rehearsal, I’ve completed this 02 tour. The rest is up to you... Have goods dreams... (:3 ｣ ∠) The end."

2022 Sep: "Huh? The 02 tour hasn't started yet? More importantly, I can't get out of my head how Uruha kept smirking and saying, 'Aoi-san has a lot of solos this time, doesn’t he?' If the tour starts like this, my frail heart will surely burst. So, with that, adiós... (|3 ｣ ∠)."

Uruha QT: "No, that’s not it! I was just jealous 🤗"

Aoi QT: "I have more than usual compared to previous times. Uta-ma has as many as usual. So there's no need to be jealous ( 🫶˘ω˘ )"

2022 Sep: "I'm getting closer to achieving the sound I want day by day, but on the other hand, there's the dilemma of having sounds I've prepared but hardly ever use. I'm trying to sound like a musician here, but tweaking presets is risky and a hassle, though if it works out, it’s worth it. It’s frustrating."

2022 Sep: "That aside, the truth is, we're basically Sailor Moon, so we really need to get that thing today. Was it 'Tsukimi has changed and it's delicious'? That's a clever line. Well then, I'm off to the studio🙌."

2022 Sep: "Ugh, that sauce had an unpleasant flavor. And can you stop putting up pictures of me looking like a cross-dressing old guy holding something vulgar?"

2022 Sep: "We had a really good rehearsal today ◎ I've slimmed down a bit, so look forward to it 🫣 P.S. I think our new uniforms are really comfortable. Hmm... 🤔"

2022 Sep: "Sorry for the late hour. Listening to this again now, I recall the emotions I had when I composed those phrases back then, and it makes me feel a bit embarrassed but also proud. 😌 When you type '20 years,' it's just three characters and a brief moment, but it was an irreplaceable time."

2022 Sep: "When I think about it, during those 20 years, we were a part of so many people's youth. In a few decades, let's look back on those days together in a retirement home 🤘 Well, good night."

2022 Oct: "Just between us, one of my acoustic guitars isn't working well, so I'm borrowing Uta-ma's guitar. I plan to return it in better condition than when I borrowed it ┏○)) The Kobe performance will start in about 45 minutes. Please look only at me."

2022 Oct: "Great job in Kobe! I still believe the latest is the best. It might sound self-serving, but when the band is at its best, the results follow. It was that kind of night. Everyone in Kobe, let's hang out again 🙌 Next up, Kagoshima—wait for us! 💪"

2022 Oct: "Hey ✋ From what I remember, the highlights of yesterday were REITA trying to stomp on my Achilles tendon, and the person on the right side of the stage inching closer, making little adjustments, as if they wanted to have their back against mine 😪."

2022 Oct Reita: "Worship us, who have descended upon Kagoshima."

Aoi QT: "So, it's not written in katakana…?"

Reita QT: "Revere us, for we have descended upon Kagoshima…"

2022 Oct: "Kobe and Kagoshima were so much fun, but it seems I was really tired. I slept for about 10 hours like I melted 🫠. I overslept, so I’m heading back with messy hair. Please don’t look at me."

2022 Oct: "U: 'Huh? You don't get it? The answer is peanuts!' A & K: (Writhing in stomach pain and dying peacefully) By the way, 'peanut' is the Japanese name, you know. That’s it from the backstage about 10 minutes before the performance.┏○))"

Uruha QT: "Stop it! ❗️lol I just said that instead of nitpicking, it's better to build up your virtues, which will then contribute to the success of the live show—didn't you just say that yourself? 😫"

Aoi QT: "Just between you and me, you were the one who said that, and I only replied, 'Yeah, that's right.' 😲 To be honest, from the way it's written, it doesn't even sound like something I would say…"

2022 Oct: "Great job, Fenice 🫶 By the third song, the volume pedal—the 'one that controls everything'—went crazy, and I ended up making a face like 'dafuq' It’s probably a curse because I couldn’t find the right pedal before the show and settled for this one instead. 'Punished,' just like the drumsticks. Please accept this as my humble offering."

2022 Oct: "I got a little caught up preparing for tomorrow, but once again, HBD KAI 🍪"

2022 Oct Reita: "I have returned from hell to annihilate the carefree fools."

Aoi QT: "Please accept this offering (┐「ε:)【ヲ】"

2022 Oct "It’s been a while since I decided to grow out my hair like Tatsuro’s long locks. Right now is the hardest period, where styling is the most difficult. But I endured this morning, believing it will get easier once I push through. By the way, I mean Yamashita Tatsuro."

2022 Nov: "The moon is amazing 😲"

2022 Nov "I was planning to grow my hair long enough to braid it and use it as a jump rope, but I'm starting to lose motivation. I'm always shouting in my head, 'So annoying! Ugh, so annoying!'"

2022 Nov Reita: "The day after tomorrow, we’ll be in Koriyama for the first time in a while. Next up is BEAUTIFUL DEFORMITY. Let me post a picture of myself from back then. I wonder which generation REITA this was, since now I’m the 8th generation… I keep dying and reincarnating all the time ☠️"

Aoi QT: "Back then, we were like razors, weren’t we? You were the 'Kami' and I was the 'Sori'."

(*TN. Play on words. "Kami" (カミ) means "god" or "hair," and "Sori" (ソリ) means "razor" or "shaving.")

Reita QT: "Now, both are gods"

2022 Nov: "Thank you, Utsunomiya. Each show is special, and because of that, I didn’t want to ruin it with my own lack of skill. MASS has been that kind of tour for me, but it's entirely because of my own shortcomings. Not writing anything would only make everyone worried, but right now, I can’t find the right words. For now, before the day changes, I just want to say thank you for today. Thank you."

Ruki QT: "Personally, today was a day where I gave it my all, but there are still plenty of times when I feel frustrated like this. It’s proof of how serious we are about each and every live show. But the strength of a band lies in how we each cover those frustrations, come together, and help each other grow. And I believe that every challenge we overcome allows us to grow even more. 🔥"

Aoi QT: "Hey, stop it. I wasn’t expecting this, and now I can’t read because my vision’s all blurry.."

2022 Nov: "To be honest, I was scared today. Even though it's my own fault, it felt like a bit of a hurdle to stand in front of everyone. But it looked like everyone accepted me and had a great time. Thank you. Let’s have fun again! By the way, Reita's chest wasn’t my type."

Reita QT: "How rude to grope it without permission, right? 💕 But you know, it can be surprisingly addictive 😘

[1moreff-creator]

DRDT - Milgram AU: T1 "Voice Reveal" Lines

Hey there! Back at it with this AU. I figured if I'm going to commit to the bit, I might as well commit fully. At the start of every Trial, Milgram gives a sneak peak at some of the lines which will appear in the VDs, combined with "glitchy" lines which relate to their murder. So I'm doing that too! Keep in mind this is not professional in the slightest, so exact wording might change between now and when I actually post the VDs. Especially since it's been a while since I rewatched DRDT so the wording could feel a bit off. Anyways, here we go!

Implied DRDT spoilers and heavy themes. Again not affiliated with either of the series

Btw I'm using crossed out text for aesthetics but there will be a transcript at the bottom if you have trouble reading that.

01- "Levi Fontana, a pleasure"

"Yes, I am a murderer"

"I can't bring myself to pretend to be sorry for what I did"

"I suppose I should watch the other prisoners to learn how normal murderers should handle themselves"

...

I know you didn't want this, but it had to be done

02- "Arturo Giles"

"Ugh. Do I really have to be judged by someone this ugly?"

"I'll have you know, I've never murdered anyone"

[Whispering] "I mean, there is... no, no, that wasn't my fault"

...

How was I meant to know?! Even if she's dead because of what I did, it's not my fault!

03- "My name is David Chiem"

"It seems there's been a mistake. But don't worry! I won't hold it against you"

"Mistakes can be corrected. It's not difficult to change, as long as you're willing to!"

"I try to be as positive as I can, since I know there's a lot of people that don't get the privilege"

...

AGH! CAN YOU DO ANYTHING RIGHT, YOU PIECE OF HUMAN GARBAGE?!

04- "Yo! Whit Young, nice to meet you!

"Are you really sure everyone here is a murderer?"

"That's wack"

"I don't remember doing anything suspicious! Yesterday was normal, the day before that was normal, the day before that... the day before that..."

...

My mom's really amazing! I love her a lot. I would do anything for her

05- "Tch. Ace Markey"

"You wanna fight?! Wait, fuck, you probably have weapons, don't you?! Shit, don't get any closer!"

"You think I'm a murderer?! Horseshit!"

"Get off your fucking high horse!"

...

Fuck, fuck, fuck, fuck, fuck, shit, shit shit shit, FUCK!

06- "Uhm... Nico... Hakobyan"

"I'm- I'm really sorry!"

"You're pretty weird"

"Ah! I'm sorry! Don't get mad at me!"

...

Why should I own up for the mistakes that someone else made?!

07- "J Moreno"

"What do you people really want? Ransom money? There's no way you're doing this just because you want to 'judge our sins' or whatever bullshit you're saying"

"Don't make me laugh. Find evidence I killed anyone, and then we can talk about murder"

"Do you really think you're going to understand everything I've been through, just with a silly little song? How arrogant are you?!"

...

What happened to her was nothing short of a tragedy. Sorry, but I will make no further comment

08- "Mmmm... Rose Lacroix"

"zzzzz"

"Ah, yeah. I killed someone"

"This really isn't that bad. At least I can paint here"

...

I wonder if I can be happy now

09- "H-Hu Jing"

"I know what I did was unforgivable..."

"I really am selfish... I'm scared of receiving the punishment I deserve"

"Please Forgive me!"

...

Wake up! Please! I'm sorry! I'm sorry!

10- "My name is Veronika Grebenshchikova!"

"If you don't mind, can you choose not to Forgive me?"

"Death sounds boring. I'd rather stay alive if you don't mind!"

"To Forgive what I did... it would be denying everything I believe about my life..."

...

[Cackling laughter, which trails off with a wheeze] I really am a monster...

11- "Arei Naegishi!"

"Pfft! God, you're pathetic!"

"Why the hell are we even here? How could anyone be stupid enough to do anything but Forgive me?"

"Are you really that much of an idiot?!"

...

WHO'S THE WEAK ONE NOW, HUH?!

12- "Uhm... Eden Tobisa..."

"Even when things are looking down, we just have to try our best, and trust each other!"

"I... I never wanted anyone to die!"

"Es... why are you doing this?"

...

Wh- What have you done?!

13- "Min Jeung"

"This is ludicrous. How are we meant to expect a fair judgement when your 'justice' is determind by one person's whims and biases?"

"When an institution is non-functional, it is highly illogical to indiscriminately tear it down. Improving the basis already in place is by far the most constructive way to conduct progress"

"There is no country in the world where I would be judged a murderer. To say one single prison has the authority to decide that I am is a flagrant display of vanity"

...

The condition has been met. There is no need for further intervention

14- "Alexander Matthews. Just call me Xander"

"Don't you see how broken this entire system is?! What makes you think you hold a monopoly over morality, huh?! What gives you the right to Forgive or Not Forgive?!"

"When something is rotten, you throw it away. It's the same with this twisted place!"

"...Warden?"

...

Ah... haha... I did it... You all can finally rest

15- "Charles Cuevas"

"I was hoping the Warden would be competent, at least, but clearly I was a fool to think that could ever be the case"

"Are you stupid?!"

"Warden... Es... I have a request"

...

Hgk...- Ack! ... Kch[sharp inhale]

16- "Teruko Tawaki"

"Are you okay?"

"You don't need to know anything about my crimes. I'm unforgivable. That's all you need, right?"

"If you can find a way to do it... Just kill me"

...

... [sigh] Why did I ever get my hopes up?

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And there we go! Hope they weren't too ooc! Keep in mind different backstories could lead to slightly different personalities; this AU is canon-adjacent, not really canon-compliant. Levi's first trial is coming soon! Hope you enjoyed!

Huh? Secret message? Whatever are you talking about?

Here's the transcript of the glitchy lines:

01 - Levi: I know you didn't want this, but it had to be done

02 - Arturo: How was I meant to know?! Even if she's dead because of what I did, it's not my fault!

03 - David: AGH! CAN YOU DO ANYTHING RIGHT, YOU PIECE OF HUMAN GARBAGE?!

04 - Whit: My mom's really amazing! I love her a lot. I would do anything for her

05 - Ace: Fuck, fuck, fuck, fuck, fuck, shit, shit shit shit, FUCK!

06 - Nico: Why should I own up for the mistakes that someone else made?!

(Yes it's just the secret quote on their page sue me it's a cool line)

07 - J: What happened to her was nothing short of a tragedy. Sorry, but I will make no further comment

08 - Rose: I wonder if I can be happy now

09 - Hu: Wake up! Please! I'm sorry! I'm sorry!

10 - Veronika: [Cackling laughter, which trails off with a wheeze] I really am a monster...

11 - Arei: WHO'S THE WEAK ONE NOW, HUH?!

12 - Eden: Wh- What have you done?!

13 - Min: The condition has been met. There is no need for further intervention

14 - Xander: Ah... haha... I did it... You all can finally rest...

15 - Charles: Hgk... Ack! ... Kch[sharp inhale]

16 - Teruko: ... [sigh] Why did I ever get my hopes up?

[the-sprog]

Listen I love DCxDP crossovers as much as the next person, but every time I see people write John Constantine offer as a solution summoning something I cringe internally a little bit. John is all up for self-sacrificing and doing things you shouldn't but he does not fuck with other creatures he knows shit-all about.

On the other end, do you know who does fuck with creatures they know shit all about?? And keep summoning things and making deals with things they shouldn't be summoning or making deals with? And also doing this most of the times with the express intentions of dealing with the dead?

The Winchester Brothers.

Where are my season 15 fix-it fics where Dean does not give up, he does not say "oh well Castiel died after confessing his love for me I guess that's it" or where Sam does not say "well my brother died during a run of the mill vampire Hunt -not even because of the vampires but because of a rusty nail. Let me just abandon him forever after everything we've gone through and finally actually listen to him and get myself a family with my blurry wife and random son"

And instead they do again summon something that is completely separate from everything else they've dealt with before and they actually managed to contact Danny who somehow is the king of the Ghost Zone or whatever fucking shit you want. Maybe you can make the empty nocturne! That would be really fucking cool :O so Danny somehow gets convinced to bring back Castiel or Dean or both.

Ok now I'm actually thinking about it.

You can even make it adult Danny by simply following the Supernatural timeline. Danny gets his powers in 2004, when he's 14, the Winchesters start looking for their dad in 2005, and they're... 20 something. Castiel joins the brigade in 2009 (I thought he showed up in season 5 lmao it's been a while since I've watched it), Chuck starts writing the books- fuck I don't know. 2012? Was it season 7? **Looks it up** fuck nope he starts writing when they start, that's my mistake. I meant when does he show up. And that's together with Castiel. Wow. Give me Danny who is an in universe Supernatural fan. He's the prime target audience! Starts reading after he gets his powers because we'll they're ghost hunters but the ghosts are actually evil. So it's fine. And they're fictional anyway so no big deal.

But then Chuck stops writing (end of season 5) and Danny is extremely disappointed.

He doesn't learn the truth until 2018 (season 13) when Jack wakes up The Shadow and consequently shakes the Infinite Realms. Nocturne has to be somehow connected. Maybe they're not The Shadow themself, but a subordinate? Like Frostbite is the leader while the yetis are his citizens. And The Empty is the realm they live in.

Now Danny is slightly terrified because it means all the things that go bump in the night are real. Which is a scary as fuck thought. And also wonders why they've never had hunters in Amity, or why he and the other ghosts are different from the ones in the books.

But he can't really do anything. To help.

Hunters definitely have checked out the town. There's no way they'd fly under the radar. But either there are already hunters INSIDE Amity And they've staked their claim on the town, no outside hunters allowed. Or there's something wrong w the entire place that makes it so that people don't really realize anything is wrong with it. I til they're inside it. But when outside nothing :/ all normal.

I feel like it wouldn't be Dean who summons him though. As much as I love him, they are aware that pretty much only God could pull out Cas and Jack wasn't going to do it any time soon.

But Dean dying like that? No Sam is not going to let his story end like that. But they've pretty much exhausted all options. What's he gonna do? Make another deal w a demon that's going to ultimately make more of a mess? Who's gonna make a deal w a Winchester anyway?

I don't know how Sam would find a way to contact Danny. The Fentons were the first to make contact with the Zone, so the bunker's unlikely to have any resources. Bobby's gone, so that's a bust. He'd have to find something new. Something no other hunter has interacted with, ever.

Again.

Because let's be real. The Winchesters already did that plenty.

Maybe he stumbles upon Amity by accident and sees it as an opportunity, idk.

Sam's kinda more willing to give monsters the benefit of the doubt. They know angels are not all bad, they had werewolf friends, and so on and so forth.

So sure he might start off listening to the Fentons at first, but if he were to interact with Danny (as Phantom ofc) one on one he'd probably see that they're wrong.

Danny would freak out of course. On one hand, fuck man. He's a fan. That's so cool.

On the other, he knows nothing will stop the Winchesters. He's deader than dead if Sam was there to hunt him.

But alas, he'd do anything to help him get his brother (and Cas, as a treat) back. Who's gonna stop him? God? Jack? Idk man I feel like he'd let them have this one lmao. Or still Danny could definitely argue that he's the king of all afterlives, so what he does to his subjects is none of his business (since God (or at least Chuck couldn't) can't interfere w The Empty, only the afterlives he controls. So heaven and hell. Not even purgatory iirc)

[forestenjoyer]

tw leftist meme

this is more of a vent post than anything so be nice and bear with me. i was feeling down earlier so i did some writing to try to get my thoughts straight, and i wrote this.

Every time i feel down, i wonder what it that makes me feel this way. And there are many things. Is it species dysphoria? Sometimes. Is it fear of the future? fear of never living my one life the way i want to? Dread of the increasing amount of people who seemingly hate my kind? Fear for me and the people i love? Climate Anxiety? Loneliness? Yeah, sometimes. But sometimes I can't figure it out, and there is a thought in the back of my mind, and it never goes away. I try to tell myself that some days I'm just not feeling it, and thats true. But sometimes i get upset because i cant really disprove the thought. I'm scared of capitalism, and I'm scared of the way it poisons everything that i love.

When I first heard the thought, i was a social democrat, and it was easy for me to just tell myself that i was being ridiculous. but after time, the thought dawned on me, and everywhere i looked, i saw evidence.

Corporations exist to make a profit. They don't care about us being satisfied unless it's profitable to them. When they get influential enough, people begin to become dependent on them. Once this happens, they can gouge prices for more profit, as they are doing now. What will the government do? Nothing, because more often than not, they have an incentive to support the company. Perhaps the company is a donor, perhaps they are bribed, perhaps the obscene wealth makes them look good by some measurements, or perhaps they themselves are a CEO.

So, right. The government, who is allegedly supposed to take care of us, the people, isn't going to help, as it hasn't. So it's up to us, but say this company provides a vital service and is the only one who does so at any reasonable quality (Google), or has people addicted (Meta, McDonald's), or has so much variety and power that avoiding it is incredibly difficult (Disney, Nestle). If this is the case, which is is, it's very hard to boycott them.and those who advocate for change or participate in attempts to force change are mocked and taunted by bad actors and gullible folk. And by bad actors, I mean people who defend the company because they too own businesses. Landlords, local business owners, and so on. They are middle class twats who have never had to suffer the struggle of a normal person. And yet they LARP as us, calling themselves everyday hardworking folk, but actually own a business or an estate and have never had to confront the fears of tenancy, homelessness, poverty, and so on.

And i despise these people. They pretend to be us, and trivialise our struggle, saying lifes not that hard, and even call us elitists and entitled, and complain about us. And they manipulate and lie like this and act like they suffer while they collect rent from tenants after their third overseas holiday of the year.

And maybe you believe in reform. I did too. But do you ever find yourself asking 'How?' Do you ever grow weary of politicians throwing you and your movement under the bus? Or failing to fulfill their promises? Do you ever catch yourself thinking 'this is hopeless'? What do you do when you hear that, or when others tell you that? A reasonable person would take it in good faith, consider it, and try to find its flaws. And if you really knew that reform was possible, or realistic, you could explain why to yourself. I never could. I would joke around and throw insults because I couldn't argue with it, and everyone else did the same. I thought 'those stupid leftists are so foolish' and said it was ridiculous.

And thats why I caved, After all, if you cant see a way for peaceful protests and voting alone to bring change, and have watched it fail to over and over again, is it not reasonable to turn to the ideas that can give you answers, that being anarchism? The government cannot ignore a riot like it can ignore a peaceful protest. And if the government cannot and will not help us, we will have to help ourselves and each other.

And this is only a small part of it. I hate how it has ruined and weaponised science and strangled art. I hate how it destroys the environment. and i cant stand the way it does so with such self righteousness and entitlement

[thetavolution]

Greeting Dialogues

I did some for Minty, Laura, Ingrid, Bex, Paloma, and Tessa! I saw @vatyrie-avaris do it and now I'm copying.

Minty

Profile

Low Approval:

flatly "Oh. What do you want?"

"Isn't there someone else you could go talk to?"

annoyed "Just spit it out. I have more important things to do than waste time with you."

Neutral Approval:

"Hey, everything okay?

cheerful "What is it you need?"

"I hope everything's okay. Well, as okay as they can be under the circumstances."

High Approval:

happy, excited "Hey, you! If you need anything, don't hesitate to ask."

"I was hoping you'd come by. What can I do for you?"

"If you need anything, just say the word and I'll do what I can."

Romanced:

"Hey, sweetheart, it's so good to see you."

"Gods, I still can't believe how lucky I am. Look at you."

"Is everything alright, my love?"

Laura

Profile

Low Approval:

"Gods, what now?"

"Make it quick."

sarcastic "Oh great, it's the wondrous leader of our little troupe. I'm so glad you've decided to honor me with your presence."

Neutral Approval:

"I'm glad to see you aren't dead yet. I hope it stays that way."

"Everything good?"

"Need me again already?"

High Approval:

"Hello there, friend."

excited "Oh hello! I was just thinking about you."

"Whatever you need, I'm at your disposal."

Romanced:

"What do you need of me, my darling?"

"Hello, lover. Did that sound debonair? I really hope it did. I'm working on sweeping you up off your feet."

heartfelt, distracted by love "You are so beautiful."

Ingrid

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Low Approval:

"Um... I didn't expect you to talk to me. What's on your mind?"

"Hm?"

sighs "Yes, what is it?"

Even if she is in low approval, she struggles to be mean. She just gets distant and doesn't say much.

Neutral Approval:

"Do you need me?"

"Oh, um, hello..."

"How can I help?"

She is very shy with people she doesn't know so she doesn't say much. You will barely notice a difference between neutral and low.

High Approval:

"A little birdie told me you'd want to speak with me. I mean, literally. A little birdie told me. Um... how can I help?"

"Hi! I'm so glad you came over to chat. I hope nothing's happened. Sorry. I mean that I hope nothing else has happened."

"Hello, friend, what brings you my way?"

She's just awkward forever. I'm sorry. She does get more talkative if she likes you.

Romanced:

"Hello, honey. Please, let me know what I can do for you."

"My joy! I really wanted to come talk with you, but I didn't want to bother you."

"My heart's root. I can't believe how lucky I am that you chose me."

Bex

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Low Approval:

"Hey, asshole, you need my help? Screwing up that bad, huh?"

exasperated "The Gods must really hate me if they keep bringing you over here."

"Fucking what?"

It was so hard not to add "dude" to the end of "Fucking what?" for her.

Neutral Approval:

"Hey, what's up?"

"I was wondering when you'd come back around."

"Need my help again?"

High Approval:

playful "Hey, pal, lookin' for some help?"

"You're just in time! I just finished writing a new song I want to play for you. (laughs) Don't worry, I'm just messing around. Could you imagine if I was actually like that?"

"What can I do ya for, buddy?"

Romanced:

"Gods, you're amazing. You're only flaw is being attracted to someone like me."

affectionately "Hey turtle, what is it?"

"Hello, gorgeous."

I don't know why she calls her lover "turtle."

Paloma

Profile

Low Approval:

"Why are you talking to me and not one of your actual friends? Or does everyone dislike you just as much as me?"

"Does annoying me bring you joy?"

exasperated "Can I help you?"

Neutral Approval:

"Sorry, I was just taking time to meditate. What do you need?"

friendly "At your service."

"Looks like you've been surviving the horrors. For now."

High Approval:

"My dear friend, what is it you need?"

"I do enjoy chatting with you."

"Looks like you have something on your mind. Don't be afraid to tell me anything."

Romanced:

"Hello, my love."

after watching Tav, silently "Oh... sorry, I forget myself. It's so easy to do that with you."

"You make me feel like a school girl again. Is there something you wanted?"

Tessa

Profile

Low Approval:

"Look, you don't like me and I don't like you, so let's keep the talking to a minimum."

"You have a really punchable face.... Huh? Sorry, what did you want?"

gives an exasperated sigh "Yeah?"

Neutral Approval:

"How can I help?"

"Need something?"

clearly forgetting Tav's name, but being friendly "Oh hey.... you. How's it going?"

High Approval:

"Just the person I wanted to see! I'm free to chat about anything."

excited "Oh thank the gods you're here, I've been bored out of my mind."

"If you're looking for someone to talk to, I'm all ears, friend."

Romanced:

"Well hello, my love. Did you need something or did you just miss me?"

"I treasure every moment spent with you. I only wish I could make it last forever."

"Hi, honey bunny, can I help you with anything?"

[noahtally-famous]

td 2023 s2 ep1 spoilers below the cut

(okay so I have not finished s1 but I know the general gist of what happens through mutuals posts and just the td tag lmaoo. maybe later I will actually sit down and watch the whole thing, but that time is not now.)

moving onto my thoughts of s2...

AHHHHHHHH idk how else to explain it but I absolutely LOVED the episode, and honestly I have a feeling I'll love this season, simply bc everyone is so great!!

heck even ripper and chase were tolerable, like, there weren't any fart jokes or anything, it was great!

MKULIA SWEEP???? HELL FREAKING YEAH idc if it's a friendship/alliance, I'm living in my world where they're toxic yuri

Caleb getting some much-needed character development??? I'm SO here for it, and the stuff mentioned during the episode def fits the kinda vibe I have going for him, so that's even better!! (potential caleb & emma friendship??? they can bond over kittens and of caleb being emotionally mature)

also his reactions to the team choosing was gold, I can't wait to see what A-Game he's gonna bring. I'm hoping he doesn't become a version of justin--I just want him to want to be a useful teammate and person for his team/friends/competitors and want to win as well. no overly crazy 'tda justin' villanry pls?? (I mean, I won't be averse to it if it does end up happening, but it'd be cool if things changed up this time around)

CHEMMA BROKE UP THANK FRICKING GOD, our prayers have been answered!! please please PLEASE have them stay broken up

raj & wayne on the same team again!! I was not expecting that tbh, but I'm curious to see where this goes

rajbow is so adorable, like bowie not even letting chris finish before he immediately picks raj first for his team is so 🥹

ngl chase is still a dumbass but now that chemma is out of the way, I mean it affectionately, I can't bring myself to hate any of the characters and that trend isn't going to stop here. that moment when he ran at granny hatchet and bowie was like "I don't believe it, I think he's gonna make it" like that scene was insane

damien is amazing as always, no words need to be said. manifesting a final two involving him

NICHELLE. FUCKING NICHELLE. GOD I CANNOT ARTICULATE HOW MUCH I ADORE HER HERE!! saving the best for last goddammit, I love her so so so so much, omfg the way she slayed the challenge, pls I'm so hyped for her character development this season, I can't wait for the other contestants to eat their words abt her

axel trying to 'be nice' ("i'm a work in progress" yes you are but you're doing amazing) but acting like an ass to ripper is something I live for. "I'm not following you, we're running in the same direction!" LMAOOOO

the fact that priya doesn't hold any resentment toward her parents still irks me, but I still love her character and I'm excited to see what's in store for her

GRANNY HATCHET SLAYED, 'NUFF SAID

I'm still hoping for some axelle content, but I'm more than happy with the mkulia servings we got

I'm lowkey interested in scary girl's change of character. I feel like this wont be the last we see of her--will she be like an amy and swim back to the island to enact revenge? or will she be like ezekiel and live on the island in secret? or will she be a secret third thing? I sure as heck don't know but I can't wait to find out!! her parting words def seem ominous enough to imply something

speaking of, scary girl's change of character and when she talked abt how she became "normal" everyone's reactions were sending me lmaooo

bowie going "you're never right" to chase but is the one to choose chase on his team, like yes dude frrr that frenemy whiplash was wack lmaoo I love it

same with bowie choosing julia, like yes we love to see two manipulative competitive strategists banding together

on a different note, I wonder what will come of bowie and emma's friendship from s1 and how that broke apart. maybe they could rekindle it in s2? hmmm

zee and their suitcase of sodas 😭

"she's an animal" OKAY MK TONE IT DOWN (pls don't, actually pls continue doing it) YOU'RE NOT HELPING MY MKULIA CASE HERE

millie being priya's first pick >>>

"what strategy? you just stop and run, it's not rocket surgery" 😭 I used to dislike ripper, but if he continues on like this, that opinion will def change. it's only been the first episode and I already don't dislike him anymore so-

MORE MKULIA P L E A S E IM HOPING

chris is still 'tdi chris' aka the b e s t chris imo, and I'm here for it!! also chef and chris's dynamic is still spot-on

in conclusion, im so very excited for what this season will bring!! in case you didn't realize, I LOVED the first episode!

[rosemary-morgan]

Connor(RK800) X F.Reader - Safe heaven (Part 4)

(Pictures are not mine! Found on Pinterest/Google - Collage made by myself. OC Steven belongs to me.)  

Many thanks to @fangirl-ramblings 🖤 she has been beta reading for me 🌹 And thanks to all who read this story 🥰

Trigger warning! Y/N is still traumatized!

Read here 👉 Part 1 / Part 2 / Part 3

Connor(RK800) X F.Reader - Safe heaven (Part 4)

Hart Plaza

10 August 2040 - 12:37

Michigan, Detroit

In Connor's mind, the same scene from last night played over and over again. Y/N lying on his body, kissing intimately... It had been beautiful and Connor would have been willing to take another step. But was she ready for it? And what if he would do something wrong? Even accidentally hurt her? He had never done it before. Of course he could exchange all databases about sex and tenderness, but still the android was nervous. He cared a lot about Y/N, and he wanted to make her happy.

"Connor!"

Connor's LED lit up yellow as Hank addressed him for the third time now.

"Oh, sorry Lieutenant..."

Hank frowned as he took a sip from his soft drink.

"What's wrong with you, Connor?"

The android was silent at first, but he felt the need to talk to Hank about his feelings. The two had known each other for two years now and together they had been through a lot. Hank was like a father to Connor. And now here they both sat, in Hank's car, watching and, if necessary, arresting a suspected drug dealer.

"Hank, can I ask you something?"

"Uh huh?"

Hank bit into his sandwich, waiting to hear what Connor might have on his mind.

"It... it's about Y/N."

That's when the old lieutenant's ears perked up and he gulped down the bite before wrapping the sandwich back up in the bread paper.

Hank wasn't stupid. He knew Y/N and Connor had a huge soft spot for each other. But what the two of them were up to in his house, he didn't know.

"I... really like Y/N a lot."

The android sighed as he let himself sink all the way back into the seat and looked outside into the distance.

"Okay. So?"

Hank wondered what was bothering and tormenting the android. Y/N, on the other hand, seemed to be doing better than ever. He knew it was because of Connor, and if Y/N was doing well with the android, then they both had Hank's blessing. But what was Connor racking his brains over?

"Well, last night, we got closer. I... You... Well, Hank..."

"God, Connor, no! What have you been doing on my couch?! I sleep on there most of the time, for God sake!"

"Easy Hank! We haven't done anything!"

"I should hope so!"

Hank grumbled deeply, and sighed another deep "God." As much as he liked the two of them, his couch was not being messed with!

Hank took a big gulp of his drink before looking at Connor, waiting for him to continue talking.

"Connor, come on. What's wrong?"

"I keep thinking about Steven. About what else must have happened that night. I can't stand the thought of that asshole raping her!"

Hank nodded silently as he continued to listen to Connor. He listened to him pour out his whole heart. Hank could understand that this whole story had hurt him and he knew why it had. The lieutenant smiled slightly as it only proved how much Connor liked Y/N.

"Hank, I care a lot for Y/N and I want to be closer to her. But how can I do that if I don't know if..."

♦♦♦♦

"Listen, son. I know it's not an easy situation. Shit, I mean! There's a lot you're feeling all at once!"

Hank could guess how hard it must be for Connor to understand and accept how many feelings were coming at him. That Connor was more unsettled didn't surprise the lieutenant.

"Hank... what else happened that night?"

There had been another interview at the police station, but Connor had not been there. Hank, accordingly, knew more than he did.

"I can't ask her about it! She's starting to get better and I don't want to ruin her mood by bringing up this guy. I just... can't stand to see her tortured!"

"Connor..."

"Lieutenant... please..."

Hank saw that lost look on Connor's face, saw how distraught he was. Hank sighed softly, nodded gently several times.

"Okay. Okay, Connor..."

Maybe Y/N should tell on his own, but he couldn't keep Connor in the dark. The android was so desperate and probably didn't trust himself to approach Y/N about the evening.

"She described everything to me again. And she..."

But he didn't get any further; the suspect was just leaving the building across the street and there was no way Hank was going to lose sight of him, especially since the suspected guy seemed to be in a hurry.

"Shit... We've got to get after him!"

Connor sighed, because the timing couldn't have been shittier. Together with Lieutenant Hank, he left the car. The conversation between Connor and Hank would probably have to wait...

Hank's house

10 August 2040 - 19:14

Michigan, Detroit

Y/N was emptying the dishwasher. She was helping Hank out a bit as long as she got to live with him. In a week, she could then move into her own apartment, which was not far from Hank's place. The thought comforted her, knowing that she would always have a place of refuge if she ever needed anything. Although she was alone more often than not, she felt especially lonely at the moment. She had made great progress with her fears and memories regarding Steven but every now and then, unpleasant memories would come up. As she cleaned up the dishes, she thought of all the times Steven had called her stupid, because she might have burned the food once or, in his opinion, salted it indelibly. Or all the times the kitchen wasn't tidy enough. These many, little things kept coming back to her, hurting her deeply, and Y/N wondered what she had done to deserve such treatment. Why had Steven tortured her like this? After all, he could have left if he had been so unhappy with her. But instead he had chosen to turn her life into a living hell.

The first tears formed in her eyes, obscuring her vision, but she made no sound. She just let the tears run down her face, her cheeks began to glow, until she eventually sobbed out loud. Instantly, she put aside the cup she had been holding and leaned against the counter, burying her face in her hands as she finally burst into tears. Y/N didn't know what was happening to her. But from the looks of it, the pain was still so deep inside her that she wanted to cry. So much had built up inside her.

"Y/N?"

The young woman startled slightly when she heard Hank's voice and when she turned around, she accidentally threw one of the plates on the floor, which then lay in two halves in front of her. Y/N looked at the plate, feeling just as broken and lost at the moment.

"Hey, kiddo. Connor's with... me..."

Hank saw the young woman's face and instantly worried about her. He fell silent, but walked up to her and stopped right in front of her.

"Sorry... I didn't mean to" she whispered, pointing at the broken plate. But Hank just smiled warmly at her and shook his head. What did one broken object matter? Nothing at all.

"It's all right, sweetheart. It's okay..."

Y/N snuggled into the Lieutenant's arms, crying softly as he just held her. Connor watched the whole thing from the living room and suffered with Y/N.

"Hank..."

The young woman sobbed, burying her face deeper against his chest, and he just held her quietly for as long as she wanted. The lieutenant glanced at Hank and the android returned his gaze with a pained expression...

It was still the same night and Y/N came only slowly to rest. It was already one o'clock in the morning, but she was still awake in Connor's arms. It was good to have him around, to feel how much security and love he gave her. At some point her tears had dried up as well, only silence surrounded them both in the arms of the night. Here, in their room, in the soft sheets.

"Nothing was ever right for him. There was always a reason he got violent. Always a reason to yell at me..."

Outside, a heavy summer rain was raging. Now and then you could hear it thundering softly.

"..."

Connor clenched his jaw tightly as he stroked her hair gently, though.

"I was thinking about him. Sometimes... in one moment, these memories come up and I can't turn them off. It's like I'm still seeing everything clearly in front of me," she whispered.

"Y/N..."

"And in those moments I feel helpless, alone and lost..."

Connor squeezed her gently, pressing a kiss to her head, closing his eyes as he did so.

"And that awful night, he tried to.... me..."

The young woman could hardly say it, too hideous was simply the memory of what had happened. She had just seen that knife in front of her, had screamed for him to stop this shit. But his look had been so cold. So empty and cold... as if a demon had looked at her. A soulless being. Yes, that was the correct term.

"Did... he rape you, Y/N?"

Connor needed to know, and he needed to know everything. Hank hadn't told him in the end, because in the end it was Y/N's decision to talk about the details.

"..."

Y/N remained silent for a long time and Connor thought his heart was about to jump out of his chest. Had he gotten too close to her after all? He didn't move, but waited for any reaction from her.

"He... forced himself on me. Tried to take by force what I wouldn't give him. But I didn't let that happen, Connor..."

Hearing her words, relief showed on his face. Connor closed his eyes, processing her words, hugging her tighter again.

"And then he got really angry, hitting me, ripping my clothes, trying to intimidate me. But I wasn't going to take it anymore, Connor. It had to end," she softly stated. "That's when I ran out of the house and called Hank."

Connor remembered the call very well. They had been on the scene within minutes and had found Y/N. Terrified and shaking all over.

"Then I saw him... with the knife in his hand, he had come outside to me. And..."

She broke off the conversation, not wanting to talk about it anymore, not being able to. It was so damn hard for her.

"It's okay. It's okay, Y/N... You go to sleep now..." She had to be very exhausted. "I'll stay with you."

"Thank you, Connor... I'm so glad to have found you. I love you," she whispered as she closed her eyes. Connor had to comprehend her words first, his LED light turned yellow, rotating rapidly, and he blinked a few times before answering her.

"I..." He moistened his lips with his tongue "I love you too, Y/N. Very much..."

You were sleeping so peacefully and I didn't have the heart to wake you. I miss you already and can't wait to hold you in my arms tonight.

The next morning the sun was shining. There was no trace of the thunderstorm that had raged during the night. It was early in the morning when Y/N woke up. She had expected Connor to be lying next to her, but that was not the case. Slowly she opened her eyes and found the side of the bed next to her empty.

"Connor?"

Presumably he had already left for work. As Y/N slowly sat up, she saw a red rose placed next to her on the empty side of the bed. A soft smile crept onto her lips. Connor had also left a little note...

I love you.

Connor

Y/N took the rose and smelled it. A very delicate fragrance emanated from it and she took great pleasure in Connor's gesture. Her heart beat like crazy when she thought of how they had both confessed their love to each other. It had come easily to her lips and she was incredibly happy to have finally said it.

Next chapter coming soon...

[jupiter---daydreams]

thanks to @agirlandherquill for the tag!!

rules: for every letter of the alphabet, compose a sentence/short paragraph beginning with that letter

(im technically cheating since I'm using sentences from my wip and not making them for this challenge)

A: “And you remember the kind of impression we're going for?” Mr. Fyre speaks up again, looming over my shoulder to speak into my ear.

B: Being in a car–especially now that it's moving–sets off every nerve in my body.

C: Caleb takes it and his eyes start to flick from the photo to me to the photo to me. We’ve done this before and I know that he’s trying to see if I look like either of them. To see if there’s still a connection.

D: Despite those thoughts, feelings, and impending panic attack, I force a smile–not that they can see with my mask on, but you can sort of hear it in my voice–before I reply.

E: Exorcist stands the second that he stops talking. “No thanks. We’ll take whatever you have back to our base–Verse, you’re welcome to join us–and we’ll get out of here.”

F: Finally, he says, “Can the story be about Mom and Dad?”

G: “Glad to be here, sir. I’ve always been a fan,” I say, not a single truthful word present in that sentence.

H: Hopefully that’ll get Mr. Fyre off my back later, but knowing him, he’ll find something else to pick at me for.

I: I lay down on my own bed, too big and too empty, with a muted sob.

J: Judging from the way Exorcist clings to Emote’s side and even Null’s face is pulled into a tight frown, they certainly feel it, too.

K:

“Kid?”

He knows. How does he know!? I’ve only known him for, what, a few hours? Am I that easy to read? Oh god, when Mr. Fyre and Ms. Monsley find out they’re going to kill me.

L: Like he doesn’t understand what training means. Then, I have the strange thought that maybe their version of training is different than Ms. Monsley’s.

M:

My eyebrows shoot up. That was…childish.

A shocked, startled laugh comes out of Null. Apparently, I had said that aloud.

N: Nulls raises his hand, only speaking once Mr. Merced gives him an affirmative nod. “That’s not a lot of time to prepare. Why so sudden?” He asks. It's startling how serious he sounds. All joking, laid backness is gone from his voice. This is Null.

O: Of course. They–a Hero that has good cause to get revenge, a Hero that can sense emotions, and Null, too, I guess–are the ones I’m meant to be working with. Is it even possible for me to have worse luck?

P: Patrick lets the audience laugh for a moment, then he says, “Now, Verse, I can't speak for the audience, but I will when I say we've all been wanting to know one question. What is your powerset?”

Q: Right, the mission. I nod, silently returning to my area. I can practically feel the stares of the others on my back, and a quick glance back confirms it. Exorcist isn’t even trying to hide that she’s staring.

R: Right. The DNA sample that I definitely knew about and am totally not just finding out about right now. By the way, let's give a big round of applause to Ms. Monsley and Mr. Fyre for always keeping me in the loop.

S:

She. Can. Sense. Emotions. 

Get your spiraling under control.

T:

That leaves Exorcist without anything else to say, and she huffs, crossing her arms and turning away.

Emote's eyes flicker to me and I mentally prepare myself for a lecture, but Null lets out a snort of laughter–at my expense, no doubt–and Emote swivels her head to face him instead.

U: “Uh, Emote, Exorcist?” I call out as they start to leave the table we had gathered around. They turn, expectantly. “I was wondering if I could, uh, grab your powers now?”

V: “Verse, I really don't think you respect me. And that bothers me, because I am someone who deserves to be respected. So, watch your tone,” he pauses then and I can't bring myself to look him in the eyes.

W: A thought strikes me suddenly: how would any other child react? Would they throw a tantrum? Would they cry? Would they forgive me like Caleb?

X: For good measure–extra humiliation–she puts the sharp point to my throat. It digs in with a small prick of pain, letting out a bead of blood.

Y: “You’ve been contacted by ASPI. They want you to be involved with a mission. There weren’t many details, just a time and place for a briefing meeting, and a list of the other Heroes you’ll be working with.”

Z: I’ve been threatened by enough scary women to make me ready to back off–explanation be damned– but Emote stops me before I can even start to apologize.

[mlobsters]

supernatural s11e17 red meat (w. robert berens, andrew dabb)

have a vague idea this episode is gonna be difficult to watch, didn't have the emotional fortitude to watch it last night

well, sam getting shot in the cold open sure would do it.

DEAN All right, well, we make a call and we put somebody on it. SAM Yeah, but... [He sighs, closes his laptop and looks at Dean]. We'll get him back. DEAN How? SAM I... I don't know. But we'll figure it out.

i feel like an asshole but i'm like, are we talking about cas? dunno what other dude he'd be distraught over. maybe it's my total lack of emotional connection with the character but i'm just very ???? literally whatever i'm expecting they're feeling about him, i'm always wrong. broken record on that.

s11e17 / s8e23

reminded of that little smile dean gave sam when he was wrapping his hand in the church. and it reminds me of being with my mom when she was dying in the hospital. we're gonna smile and be so positive and softer than we normally would, but also try to keep it light. (i'm not sure i have the emotional fortitude for this tonight either)

not quite sure i'll ever have it to watch sam die like this. this is awful. trying to talk myself into just finishing so i don't end up crying for an extended period of time today and another day.

BILLIE It's cute, though. You pretending you're trying to save Sam for the greater good, when we both know you're doing it for you. You can't lose him.

just saw this line in an edit recently and thought it was attributed to Death, no wonder i didn't remember it.

DEAN I'm asking you... I'm begging you, please. Bring him back. Bring him back and take me instead. BILLIE I'm not here to bargain with you, kid. I'm here to reap you. And the kicker is... Sam's not dead.

here's where i'm never happy with anything. despite the unhinged love and commitment of it all, this all is really veering into emotional torture porn for me. how can we make it the worst. and then a little worse on top of that. except instead of making me irritated, i'm just more sad and want it to be over. maybe this is one i won't be able to appreciate until i have some distance.

DEAN Michelle, this is gonna be very hard. But you will be okay. And, eventually... eventually you'll get back to normal. MICHELLE No, I won't. They said I could leave an hour ago. But... where am I even supposed to go? After everything we survived together... I watched the man I love die. There's no normal after that.

not sure what this pointed zoom into dean making the sad puppy face is about. we know he can't be normal when sam dies, he knows it too?? does he remember that year with lisa and ben? and now he has the threat of not only losing sam, that sam won't be waiting for him in heaven or anywhere else if he does die.

well, fortunately we have the production draft of the script linked in the wiki for this one so actually can get answer

so i mean.. ok. both watched their husbands die is what we're saying

DEAN So, that's it, huh? Two quarts O-neg, and you're good to go.

i thought we were treating abdominal gunshot wounds like the serious emergency they are but i guess not

SAM Hey, so, what did you do? When you thought I was dead? What did you do? DEAN Thought about redecorating your room [Sam chuckles], you know, putting in a Jacuzzi, a nice disco ball... really class up the joint. SAM Right, seriously. DEAN What, I, uh... I knew you weren't dead. SAM Right. DEAN I knew.

so i mean. sam not buying that, clearly. wonder if dean ever tells him

should remember to check for a script next time i have wonderings about what they're trying to convey with their faces (went to check if they had 11x11 because i was curious about that whole pining line, but wiki doesn't have one linked)

tonal shift after the like.. heavy focus on sam (mostly) dying very... graphic in swimming around in the pain and slow death and almost-murder of it all and then we're having dean kill himself (briefly) to try to take sam's place with no consideration of repercussions, to hey dude we saved (and tried to kill sam) is a werewolf and he changed and he's gonna punch through this cop's chest cavity in a pretty silly manner. so no moral quandary killing him either, look at that. weird. anyway, the woman who played michelle was really good in those emotional scenes

i'm wiped out.

[theshotsheardacrossworlds]

For the prompts, I request spicy food, please. ♡

(I'm going to give you two fills for the price of one!)

Agnes Varlineau was a woman who liked spice.

But this is fucking something else!

Her chocolate brown eyes watered just from the smell of Zero's "special" curry. When she tasted it, she thought her mouth was going to burst into flames.

"Milk...please..." She croaked, taking her glasses off and rubbing her eyes.

"Is it not to your liking?" Zero asked.

NO. "Zero, there's a difference between spicy and being so hot you can't bloody taste anything else!" She groaned. Oh dear, I might be burping this up later.

Zero raised an eyebrow. "I see."

"What Agnes means is that a chef can balance a dish to bring out all sorts of flavors and spices." Varshahn said. He then smirked. "Ah, but we must remember that Agnes is from Eorzea." OH NO YOU DON'T!!!!

"With all due respect, Excellency," Vrtra, you fucking little shit. "I am from the part of Eorzea that embraces spice, unlike my husband's homeland." Fucking weirdo unhygienic salt rock nonsense. "I simply believe that flavors should be balanced." AND I AM RIGHT. "You should come to our home and have some of my own version of Butter Hamsa."

Varshahn nodded. "Of course. Zero, have you..." He shook his head and laughed. "She is too busy to answer."

Fine, have that fiery nasty curry all to yourself. I WILL EAT THINGS THAT ARE TASTY AND SPICY!!!

***

Kikimo watched with wide eyes as Aymeric began to sweat profusely. "Hey Aymeric, are you okay?" Nald'thal don't let him spontaneously combust.

He coughed a few times, his sapphire eyes sparkling with tears. "I, erm...I'm fine, darling. Tis a bit spicier than I'm used to."

Kikimo blinked. "That's literally the most mild chicken dish my Mum makes, Bubby."

Her beau removed a handkerchief from his pocket and wiped his brow. Even though he's suffering, he's just so damn handsome. "Ah yes...it's delicious, lest you wonder. I simply...ahem...could use some...refreshment..."

"HEY MA, CAN YOU GET AYMERIC SOME MILK PLEASE? I THINK HE'S BOILING!" Kikimo yelled towards the kitchen. She heard her mother shout, "'Course Kiki!" and grinned. "See, Bubby. All set."

Aymeric chuckled as he put down his handkerchief. "I swear the next time I come visit your parents' home that I'll have a much stronger tolerance, darling." He reached for one of her hands and gave it a squeeze. "I want to be able to enjoy meals dear to you without making a fool of myself." He offered her a lopsided smile that made her heart nearly burst.

As if on queue, three of Kikimo's younger siblings ran to the table and began heckling Aymeric.

"Oi blue man, can't tolerate Ma's food?!"

"You look red!"

"Kiki, why's he crying? Did you make him sad?"

"No, I did not make my Bubby sad!!!! Yes, he can tolerate Ma's food but it's new to him!!!! And yes he's red but he's very handsome regardless, now shoo!!!" She got up and physically dragged the three to the door. "Play outside, and if you're good, then Aymeric will let you climb on him again!" She slammed the door and turned to her see her mother bringing the milk to her clearly suffering boyfriend.

Little shits. They're lucky he's so nice and loves children. Now, back to lunch...and maybe if he's feeling alright we can head to the Sapphire Avenue Exchange for some shopping or ice cream.

[x3kristax3]

Eternal Love -Chapter 6

It's been a few months now since I've seen Jake. My heart hurts less when I do think of him or when Hannah and Lilly mention him by mistake. I guess he's been in contact with them. That thought brings a smile to my face as that means even while on the run he's trying to be their brother. Jessy and I have been having girl nights which are just full of horror movies, junk food, and laughing. But hey, they say laughter is the best medicine, right?

Dan and I ever since that night in the bar have gotten really close and tonight he's over here for some movies and popcorn. He had put on a movie as I was making it. I walk into the living room with the bowl, and I find myself smiling at him. Not the way I used to but I find myself wondering why this man is still single. He loves hard for those he cares about and will do anything to protect them. I've seen this side of him way more than anyone else I feel.

He looks over and catches me smiling "hey boo, don't let that popcorn get cold" he laughs.

I can't help but laugh with him and I throw a piece of popcorn and he catches it and realizes it's still hot. His face makes me laugh harder as I sit down next to him, maybe a little closer than I should but something is drawing me to him.

We enjoy the movie eating popcorn and laughing at the funny scenes. There's a few spots that make me jump and I hear his laugh at me.

The movie ends and we both go to grab the remote to put something on and our hands touch. This is different from other times. I find myself looking into his brown eyes. I never noticed the hint of gold and different browns in them before. I notice he recently cleaned up his beard and his hair is let down which frames his face.

I find myself leaning in towards him but I notice he is too and our lips touch. I feel his soft lips on mine and I feel my body melting. Everything over these past few months with him just makes sense at this moment. How have I never noticed him like this before?

We pull away and I see a look on his face. It's one of uncertainty. "I'm sorry if that went to face. '' His voice feels distant as I'm still thinking about that kiss. 

I shake my head "no we both leaned in Dan. Maybe we should give us a shot?" I ask, biting my lip.

The nerves as she stares at me makes it feel forever but in reality it's only seconds before his lips crash back onto mine this time more demanding and I give in to him as I feel his hand on the back of my neck. 

I reluctantly pull away from the kiss and looking into eyes I see the love in his eyes. They aren't like I'm used to but dang he knows how to make me feel good at least in this moment.

"Maybe we should take it slow and not tell anyone just yet" he states cupping my face.

"Yeah, I agree let's see where this goes before we tell the gang. Even though they are going to figure it out fast." I say with a chuckle.

He chuckles as well at that, "you're so right. They might have figured out something already." He stands up. He leans down and kisses me softly and quickly. "But I should go boo. Work in the morning and don't want to mess this job up" he smiles.

"Goodnight Dan. Drive safe" I say following him to the front door and watch him get in his car.

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It's been a few weeks, Dan and I are keeping things quiet but everyone is starting to figure it out. We're all heading to the Aurora tonight as there is live music. We figured tonight is the night to finally tell everyone officially. Dan had picked me up and are now standing outside the Aurora, we know everyone else is inside already. He grabs my hand and looks me in the eyes and then kisses my forehead. 

I would have never imagined Dan to be like this in a relationship and I love it. He's not afraid to show the world I'm his but there's always a thought in the back of my head of doubt. 

What if Jake comes back and is free? Can I really stay away from him?

I shake my head out to get back to the moment. No, I can't think that way not now. I've done so well moving on from him that I can't let what if's ruin a good thing that is building.

We head inside hand in hand and walk up to the table. Of course my red headed best friend is the first one to notice us holding hands.

"I KNEW IT!" Jessy exclaims hugging Dan and I

"I think we all did at this point" laughs Lilly.

"Oh shush we're happy" I say looking at Dan.

"MC do you have a moment?" Asks Hannah.

"Yeah lets go get a drink, I need one" I say with a smile as I let go of Dan's hand.

Her and I walk up to the bar and I order my drink. "What about Jake?" She asks.

"I've moved on like he told me to Hannah." I sigh as I wait for my drink.

"But what if…." She starts to say

"No, what if Hannah. He's the one who pushed me away. I'm finally healing and happy. Dan isn't a rebound like Phil was. I promise you that. Will your brother always hold a spot in my heart? Hell yes…. I still believe he's my soulmate but obviously it wasn't meant to be." I see my drink show up and I grab it.

Hannah grabs my hand. "I just don't want to see Dan or you hurt. I know what he did was wrong but I will tell you, he asks about you when we talk. It's the first thing he types every single time." She sighs.

I look into her blue eyes, they are just like Jakes. "I can't say down the road I won't forgive him but right now I can't let him or the thought of him back into my life. I'm healing and happy with where things are. I need you and Lilly to accept that him and I might not be the end game like everyone thought." I walk away from Hannah back to the table.

Dan instantly realizes something is wrong and holds me tight not wanting to ask what we talked about. He's protective of me for certain but he won't push me too far when I don't want to talk about something.

We enjoy the night. I do notice Hannah on her phone a little more often texting and it's noone in the group so I know who she is. She's telling him everything I said.

[dream-meister-translations]

GRANDFLAIR - VOICE COLLECTION

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"Have a good day today, okay? I mean as our new guild keeper, of course."

"It's been a long time since you first joined the Moon Wanderers. I guess I kinda take you for granted these days…"

" Where to next?"

"Just don't do anything crazy."

"We don't have enough food in the pantry… Hopefully we can find a place to stock up."

"Run all you want. Just don't fall down."

"It was worth a shot. We'll win next time for sure."

"As a living painter… I'm just trying to do the best I can."

"Hm? Like a mother you say? Haha, well… I guess you're right. I'm the guardian of this team."

"Taking care of these guys is a pain in the ass. If you need any help at all, just ask."

"I think we're gonna work well together. I'm sure we'll see some good results."

"I will be your shield."

"Don't let your guard down."

"How's it going?"

"We won't go down that easily!"

"I can handle this…"

"There's only one way this ends!"

"Here's my drawing, freshly bloomed! It'll never wither."

"Good call."

"I let my guard down…"

" A triump of teamwork!"

"Dammit… I won't let it end this way…"

"Quite a haul, huh?"

"You've got to keep honing your skills."

"To save someone's life…"

"I welcome you as the newest member of my Moon Wandering family. I look forward to working with you in the future."

"I trust you're getting used to life with the Moon Wanderers? I'll be relying on you more from now on."

"I don't know how to say this, but… Even since you came here, I've felt the bond between us growing stronger by the day.”

"I can't help but feel happier knowing my life's work brings you joy."

"To be a living painter is one thing, but to keep someone alive and on the right path… I can't help but think that my dream will come true, so long as you're by my side."

"Just a glance is all it takes to bring someone's heart back to life. I want to paint a picture like that one day."

"Since you came into my home, I've seen more smiles on people's faces than ever before. Myself included, of course."

"I don't want to hurt people anymore. As a living painter, my goal is to heal people and one day… One day, bring someone back to life."

"Layers of shading, creating new colors… Encounters between people and painting seem similar."

"What's up? Are you finished already?"

"The feelings I entrusted to this painting are beginning to open and bloom. Are you watching?"

"Crow, Itsuki, Noah, Rouge, and… Emma… I will protect all of you!"

"I will not forget the time I spent as a mercenary. At the same time, the sins I've committed will never disappear."

"My reason to fight? In the past it was for honor and admiration. Now… it's to protect what matters."

"I will protect you."

"I carry my thoughts in my brush. As for this shield? It's no joke. I will protect you all."

"Now where to go? We've got some time to kill, so let's stretch our wings."

"This is a nice change of pace. Do you feel relaxed, too? Let's work hard again tomorrow."

"A living painting… Is the magical embodiment of someone's drawing."

"Live painting is a very deep world to explore. No matter how far you go, there is no end. That's why it's so interesting."

"You're interested in my live painting? Well, as an artist, I'm honored."

"I was wondering… What do you think of my living painting? I'd appreciate an honest opinion."

"…'You like it'…? It's not beautiful or nice, you just… Like it? Hmm… No one's ever praised me so highly."

"Thank you, Emma. I will keep trying. I hope to get your opinion moving forward."

"Hm? Oh, do I have paint on me? My apologies."

"Yellow cheeks? Oh, it must be a splash of the paint I was using while drawing."

"Whoa! Oh, you startled me… Touching my neck all of a sudden. It's not blood. I'm sorry I worried you."

"Mm? Sorry… Did you get it? Thank you."

"I'm usually the one who cares about how everyone else looks, so I get nervous when someone takes care of me."

"Oh, it's not a bad feeling. You've got a lot of people to take care of, though."

"It's no surprise… Our hands are so different in size. I'll have to handicap myself next time."

"Okay, here we go! Hm? Oh, you're getting better! That's what I'm talking about, Emma…"

"You want to thumb wrestle? Sure. Think you can beat me?"

"One more time? Ha! I'll take you on as much as you want!"

"The more you try… The more I see you improving… Damn!"

"Haha, I got a little carried away there. But it's nice having fun like this every once in a while, huh?"

"Ah~… I've been painting so long my shoulders are killing me. I'm glad you agreed to take a walk with me."

"I got some good inspiration! Stay tuned for my next painting! …Maybe I set expectations too high…"

"Hm? What's wrong with my arms? I know they're big."

"How strong am I? Hmm… I could lift you with one hand. Want to see?"

"Ha, you're so touchy-feely. I hope you like it. Makes it worth all the work I put in."

"But, uhh… I'm sure it's probably okay, but… Don't touch guys this closely, okay?"

"I'm worried. If you do that to me, I might not be able to handle it."

"Being alone with you isn't a bad thing. I don't have anyone else to worry about."

"To tell you the truth… I always wanna be alone with you. To have you all to myself… Embarrassing as that is to say…"

"Yeah, let's walk hand in hand. Y'know, it kinda comes naturally whenever I’m with you."

"What's the matter? Is there something on my face?"

"You don't have to be so careful. The pain is long gone. That's it…"

"Your hands are so gentle, it's soothing when you touch my scars…"

"It's… A strange feeling… Warm… Like a fire's been lit…"

"It… Seems to ease the pain in my heart… I just wish it could stay that way a little while longer…"

"Every now and then I get to thinking… How differently my life could have gone, if only I'd met you sooner…"

"You went to all this trouble for my birthday? Your feelings and this gift will hold me over 'til another year."

"Thank you, but… I can't possibly accept any more today. Another time, perhaps."

"This is…! A beautiful work of art… Thank you, I'll take good care of it."

"Hmm? You're giving this to me? I should do something to thank you."

"Hmm? You're… Giving me this? Uh, well… Thank you…"

"I'm glad you're having fun, but… That's enough for today."

"I have a little something for you. It's a present. I want you to have it."

"…Th-Thank you! It's just the way I like it. I'm so proud of you."

"This means… 'Overcome your weaknesses?' Is that what you're trying to tell me?"

"I'm sorry to see you go, too… But we'll meet again soon, right? I hope…"

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CROW : Gran~? You gotta move faster than that! They only sell a hundred cheesecakes a day! We gotta get there before they sell out! GRANDFLAIR : Oh my… Oh no… It's time like this I realize you're still just a boy, Crow…

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CROW : You watch the front, okay? GRANDFLAIR : Yeah, I'll take care of it.

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CROW : I knew I could count on you! GRANDFLAIR : I'm on edge whenever you're around.

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ROUGE : Gran, I have a hangover… GRANDFLAIR : I'm begging you to please take this mission seriously for once.

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ROUGE : Hah…Ah…I'm finally sobering up… GRANDFLAIR : If you keep dawdling I'll leave you here, you drunkard.

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ROUGE : Gran~! I'm begging you man! Please lend me the money~! If you don't, I'll starve to death! GRANDFLAIR : You're always broke, Rouge. I'm not lending you any more money.

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GRANDFLAIR : The Moon Wanderers are a reckless bunch. Having someone like you around helps calm me, Himmel. HIMMEL : Is that so…What a strange way of looking at things…

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GRANDFLAIR : Himmel, can you do it? HIMMEL : I wouldn't get your hopes up…

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GRANDFLAIR : Let's get to work! HIMMEL : This scent is… Strong…

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GRANDFLAIR : Thank you for your help, Himmel. HIMMEL : You fight them to no end…

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HIMMEL : Just when you think you've got your foot in the door… GRANDFLAIR : It's not a waste of time, Himmel…

[endlesscrimson89]

FFXIV Write2023, Prompt 8: Shed.

[This time, different of my universes]

22nd October

I always loved cats, I admit. There's just something in their graceful shape that caught my attention. I prefer their independent nature as opposed to dogs. Not that I don't like dogs, mind you, I'm just definitely a cat person. 

Growing up, my brother and I weren't allowed to have pets. I mean, I think if we would want like a fish or a turtle, our parents would be fine with it - but as with many things, we both wanted a cat - and if we couldn't have it, we resigned ourselves to the 'no pets' policy. Only once a week, as long as I can remember, we would bother the staff at the small shelter in our town, later - as we were older - helping in it as volunteers throughout the summers and holiday breaks. 

(Before my life changed so drastically, I started to consider that after finishing high school, I might be tempted to pursue a further education in veterinary].

All of that, honestly, was caused by the fact that our mom is severely allergic to cat fur. Or to the fur in general, I suppose. Thankfully, we didn't inherit that from her (and all things considered, wouldn't that be awkward? xD), but for her sake, before coming home from the shelter, we would change clothes and wash there to not bring any fur on us and spike her allergies. 

Of course, back then, we had no clue that due to the inheritance on our dad's side, we're part Miqo’te... and, ignoring everything else, it's been a tad awkward for our family. 

Because Miqo’te shed... like: a lot. 

The topic came up one day while we were still extremely new to the whole idea of being an Allag. A day or two into our stay at the lair of shapeshifters, when we were chilling with Damon - alongside our respective boyfriends - in one of the guest nooks as the neutral ground, my twin jumped out with a question about their nest to Ares. I didn't even consider it to be in any way weird that ours as well, mostly consisted of furs until, with the usual curiosity, Damon asked his lover about the fact that the furs creating their nest are the exact same shade as our Alpha's ink-black fur. 

Ours, too, mind you, matches Senri’s perfectly, but I assumed that he simply created it - as anything else in our nook. Logical, yes? 

Well, I've been wrong. 

Overall, the whole thing led to us learning something new about what to expect from our new biology! 

It's autumn now, obviously, so we have some time to prepare ourselves - mentally, I guess - for the fact that, as Ares said with a careless shrug, around the time between spring and summer, they - Miqo’te - are shedding fur in fucking handfuls. 

I mean, considering our experience with normal cats, I guess that's not that surprising, right? Or at least, shouldn't be, but while I'm still getting used to the idea of not being exactly human... I admit it sounded a bit surreal. I know cats shed fur in preparation for the hotter temperatures, right? In relative to cats, for my brain, it's perfectly normal... I just have an issue translating that into thinking about myself, that's all. 

As we learned that day, there's actually a whole set of nooks deeper inside the lair dedicated to turning the heaps of fur achieved by that whole process into the pelts later used by the furs' owners for their nests. Senri, with his usual adorable cheer, announced that he couldn’t wait for the next year to add a crimson pelt to our nest... and I admit, my brain balked at the idea. I'm glad we have enough time to get used to it... But yeah, I can't help the fact that it sounds absurd to me. Damon simply nodded like it was something he already suspected, and I wouldn't be surprised if that were the case...

...but that made me wonder, what will we do about our parents? 

I mean, so far, we have been staying in contact with them via phone, calling them every day to reassure them that we're doing fine. We know that Ares designed two Seekers for watching our dad from a safe distance after he - though quite baffled by it, as he admitted - found that their fur aggravated our mom's allergy. For that reason, apparently, while watching them, the guards were taking a 'furless' shape, which I suppose is very considerate from their side. 

And I guess that's what we'll have to do whenever we think about visiting them, right? 

At some level, it amuses me to no end, I admit. You know... my mother is allergic to me now, and somehow, it feels like another day, I suppose. 

My life is weird, only getting weirder as time goes on, and by this point, I guess that's just another thing to get used to. 🙃 

[multiplicity-positivity]

sorry if repost but I genuinely can't remember if I sent an ask before. I'd go off anon but anxiety. //

for context I've been questioning if i'm a system ever since i was 12-13, bodily in my early 20s now, like I always felt i wasn't alone and that there were at least other Me's. I felt their presence but whenever I try to engage communication or make visible notes to log in possible switches theres nothing. i very much experience depersonalized and dissociate and have moments where i "come back" often feeling like i was shoved back in the drivers seat.

i'm always at least semi-concious and the body doesn't feel like mine. but from what i remember i always act like myself or yet masking. Lately i've been coming to terms i have "irls" and have high kins which are Me. Just: Is it possible that irls/dms (delusional mis-identification) to be actually fictives or at the very least close? I only ask this because i feel like an entire different whenever i go into an irl shift. i have pseudomemories, remember people fondly from source, and the memories i make often are tagged with that shift. and as of recent i've been noticing i go in these shifts whenever something triggers me or even when i have to do something like working and general adult things (note caregiver level stuff, just adulting in general from grocery shopping, work related, idk i tag this as the Operator/Manager role)

again idk if irl/id stuff equals to fictives, they're entirely different mental health fields since irl/dm's are a delusional thing rather. but i feel like i AM these people whenever a shfit happens. i'm always at least co-con or partially aware though it feels foggy and dream like.

i do plan to ask all this to a therapist/psych when i get the funds to regularly see one but just wondering if it is possible first if that makes sense.

idk sorry if I sound ridiculous /gen

Hi, you don’t sound ridiculous at all. I’m the host of my system and what you’re going through does sound similar to me.

Before I knew I was a part of a system, I’d often feel like I was floating through life in a haze. I’d watch other headmates go through life thinking it was me, and that I was just dissociating or disconnected from reality and that’s why nothing I did ever felt like it was actually me doing it.

Our system also masked a lot and we still do to this day. This is because a) I have and had a lot of self hate and would lash out at system members who scared me by seeking autonomy, and b) in a society where plurality is not widely known or understood, it was just safer for us. We’re trying to learn how to unmask together but it’s a long process that we’ve only recently embarked on.

I’m not entirely sure what irls mean in reference to the kin community. I do know that many systems have fictives who they believed were just kins before they learned about their plurality. I thought I was fluctuating Meta Knight kin before I learned about my system and met our Meta Knight fictive. I also thought I was Ralsei kin for a while, but they’re actually a headmate here too.

I’d definitely recommend bringing this up to a mental health professional. If you’ve been questioning your plurality for this long, there’s a big chance there’s a reason for it! Even if you don’t experience amnesia between switches, you could still very much be plural. Our system was recently diagnosed with DID and I don’t even have full amnesia between switches. I experience gray outs more than anything else, where I’m semi-present in the moment (able to watch/listen to what my alters are up to) but tend to forget things later.

Sounds to me like you could very well be the host of a system, with poor communication and low amnesia barriers. Or you could be a singlet with lots of kins and other symptoms of different disorders that might look like plurality (though I personally doubt that if you’ve been wondering if you’re part of a system for this long). Ultimately this is something only you can discover for yourself. But a therapist will be a great help and benefit to you on this journey!

Good luck to you. Being the host of a system can be incredibly challenging, and I sincerely wish you the best as you learn more about yourself.

💫 Parker

[nuoyipeach]

Queendom

Kang Seulgi X Lee Taeyong

pt.2 of Psycho (requested)

tags: @gerardeveryway @gomseulgiii @innssanityyy @seulyongggi

"Lee Taeyong! Pick up your damn shoes!"

Taeyong trudged off the couch and towards the entryway, picking up the sneakers he left to air out, and putting them away into the shoe cupboard, before going back to lying down on the couch.

Johnny heard everything over the call, and could only chuckle. "You can't ever say no can you?" he mocked Taeyong, only to be heard by a grumble.

"What's there to defy when she's right?" he heard his friend sigh before going back to their previous conversation.

Seulgi continued her own task, carrying in the bag of art supplies to their spare room. It was supposed to be an office room, but having no use of it, the couple turned it into their free space. And with both of their passion in art, they had completely covered the walls and floor with whatever they felt like drawing or painting at the time. Over a year since their wedding, since they moved into their new house, and the room was already covered in layers of lines and colours.

They didn't care to distribute the walls, their artwork simply clashing over each others. To them, it had a beauty of its own, as if a story behind their relationship.

As Seulgi left the bag of new paint beside the door, her eyes fell on some of her recent work that overlapped her older ones. It was a careless painting she had done when she felt sad couple of nights ago, and the more she looked at it, the more she felt eager.

A colourful silhouette of a baby.

She hasn't told Taeyong anything, not that she was scared, but she simply didn't know how to bring up such a topic. They've been together for four years, married for almost two, so it shouldn't be too early as she thought.

Pursing her lips, she simply closed the door and went back out to see Taeyong was no longer on call, and simply lazed away on the couch. She walked towards him and sat on his lap and laid back on him, his free arm automatically wrapping around her though his eyes didn't leave the phone screen.

Seulgi whined softly. "Young-ah." Taeyong's eyes immediately met hers at the sudden cuteness. Knowing his wife, she was rarely ever like this, the only time was when she would get moody during her periods. But by his calculations, she wasn't at her cycle yet.

She cuddled into him more, flipping so that she laid upside down and rested her ear against his chest, her hand playing with the loose material of his tank top. "Young-ah." she called him again, softer this time.

Taeyong laid his phone on the floor before hugging her to himself, one hand petting her back under her shirt. "Are you feeling OK love?" he asked concerned. "Sick? Tired?" he felt her shake her head as a no. "Then, what's wrong? You're acting way too cute... not that I don't enjoy this, but it's unlike you."

Seulgi chuckled slightly, lifting her head up to face him. "I want something." she sits up on his belly, hands playing with his.

Taeyong was still confused. "Aren't I usually the one who asks for permission before buying something?" he asked lifting an eyebrow. His concern over his wife was just increasing by the minute, even wondering if someone else had taken over her life.

She rolled her eyes in response. "I'm not asking for permission, believe me if I could I would've gotten it myself." That's definitely his wife. "But... What I want requires two people to make, and also I need your agreement because I don't want to do something you might not be ready for..."

She watched as her husband just blinked away in confusion, his eyebrows furrowed as he wondered in deep thought what she was talking about. Until it hit him, and he sat up straight, his face just inches away from hers.

"You want to have a baby?" he asked, although a little too loudly. Seulgi pouted, running her hands up his chest and around his neck before looking at him and nodding. "Wh- I mean, like, why? I mean, why suddenly? Like, now?"

His reaction wasn't exactly what she had hoped for, and it scared Seulgi if he was thinking against her idea. But she stood her ground, as she always does. "Yes, now. I want to start trying, tonight if possible. Why? I don't know, I just really want a baby. A little mini us, you know. It's only been the two of us for so long..."

Taeyong didn't know where to look or how to react, he just kept his eyes down at his hands that held her hips. He peeked up at her, noticing she was waiting for a response still.

"I... this is so sudden." he managed to say, only for her to stare disappointed. "Do you think you're ready for that Seulgi? A baby is a huge responsibility, like, really big. It's not that I'm against it, I'm just worried we're not ready for it and we might realise it too late..."

He watched his wife's face turn gloomy, her eyes looking down, and he felt bad seeing a single tear on her cheek. "Hey." he called her, holding her cheek and pushing her face to look up at him. "Baby don't cry." he pulled her close, hugging her tight in his arms.

Seulgi hid her face in his shoulder, her hands gripping onto his shirt. Taeyong felt bad, kissing in her hair trying to console her. "My love, don't be sad, please. Don't cry."

"I... I'm sorry..." she pulled away, gaze still down. "I can't force you, I'm sorry..."

He cupped her face again, bringing her eyes up to his. "Love, it's not that. I'm just worried it's so sudden. I mean, people usually plan these things for a while before trying you know. You wanna do it right away. I'm not against it, I'm just worried."

Seulgi took his hands off her face and held them tight in hers. "Let's say I get pregnant tonight, we'll have nine months to prepare. If not tonight, then maybe ten months. We have time, and I know for sure I'm ready." the squeezes he felt in his hand made him sure about her sincerity.

Finally, he smiled, taking her hand up and kissing it. "You're right. You always are. And if you think we're ready for a baby, then let's have one." her face was quick to turn as a smile took over, and she threw herself into his arms again, her lips capturing his in a passionate kiss.

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To Seulgi's pleasure, it didn't take long for her to conceive, though they had already started planning everything since that night. As per her request, Taeyong had already started an outline plan for how to turn their guest room into the baby's, plus how they would paint the room themselves just as they did their free room, wanting the baby to grow up seeing a colourful environment.

"No no no!" she instructed watching her husband draw the outline of the baby's room. "The bed should be by the window, so they'll get some light, and the play mat right next to it on the floor. Oh, and we need to get some railings on the window for protection." Taeyong sighed, erasing off and redrawing the lines. Once he did though, he saw it was a better idea.

As always, she was right.

Couple of weeks later Seulgi had a positive test, and cried in happiness as Taeyong spun her around the room in joy. He carried her in his arms even as they sat on their bed, hugging her tight for a long time.

"I'm so happy..." he heard her whisper, her head on his shoulder. "Is this real?"

Taeyong chuckled pulling her out, and cupped her face. "It's real love." he pecked her lips once. "Tomorrow we're going straight to the doctor." he kissed her again. "And once we get a report, we will start following the routine you planned out."

That night as she slept in his arms, Taeyong's eyes drifted off to the wall opposite their bed, where Seulgi had stuck a board with extensive details and schedules of the pregnancy routine he mentioned. He chuckled seeing the small sticky notes she even stuck on in some places where she figured needed additional details. Everything from emergency numbers, list of hospitals and doctors, stores to buy her needs and later the baby's, it was all jotted down to the last line.

He knew for a fact his wife would be no less than a psycho mum, everything of every second being noted down for at least the next year. He looked at her sleeping face, sighing as he hoped it wouldn't cause any problems.

As time went by, he saw he was right. Seulgi was a psycho mum, but to his relief she was a good one. She never took anything to extreme lengths, and always had the patience for other opinions from him, their mothers or the doctor. Other than when her mood swings kicked in, she was uptight about everything following her pregnancy plan, which now had lines crossing out half the board as things were slowly getting done.

"Do you want fruits?" Taeyong asked as Seulgi laid sitting on the couch, already at the stage where getting up was becoming difficult. She turned to him and scowled.

"Bring me mangos, square cuts, and strawberries, halved.

"Yes my queen." Taeyong chuckled, bowing as he left to the kitchen. Seulgi yelled at his antics, which only made him laugh more as he pulled out the fruits from the fridge and began cutting them. And although she didn't ask, he cut the strawberry halves into hearts, and decorated the cut up fruit into her bowl and placing one of the prettier forks with a bear at the end in it before taking it out to his wife.

Seulgi's face beamed at the sight of the pretty fruit bowl. "For you, my love." Taeyong passed it in a fancy manner, and smiled seeing her looking at him lovingly instead this time. She patted the seat next to her after taking it, waited for him to sit comfortably, then leaned back into his chest as she ate.

Taeyong wrapped his arm around his wife, kissing her scalp, while his other took out his phone and scrolled mindlessly. The couple focused on their own thing, Seulgi feeding him a few bites of fruits every couple of minutes. As she finished she set the bowl aside and laid down even more towards her husband's body, arm hugging around his torso.

"Yong-ah..." his attention immediately diverted to his wife, who was still staring at the TV although not focusing on it. He hummed in response before she continued. "I'm confused."

"About what love?"

She turned her head up to look at him, a slight pout on her lips. "I don't know if I want a boy or a girl..."

Taeyong could only smile, a soft laugh leaving him before he set his phone down and suddenly pulled her up onto his lap, his hands hugging tightly around her hips. "Let's not ask." he suggested, to which she made a sound of confusion. "Let's wait until the baby's born."

"But that will set us back on the whole planner!" Seulgi exclaimed and shook her head. Taeyong grabbed her cheeks and kissed her softly to stop her, smiling at her still.

"Not necessarily. What we can do is buy regular baby stuff, and decorate the room our way." he took notice of her expression, brushing her hair behind her ear before she continued. "Besides, I know you've been eyeing all the yellow choices anyways." he raised an eyebrow.

At this Seulgi smiled cheekily. She always forgot how observant her husband was at her actions, always noticing the slightest of her wants. She loved him even more every time he proved to her he was super focused on her, she loved being the sole area of his attention. Giggling, she leaned against his chest, calming her body when feeling his arms hug her tighter.

"I love you." she mumbled softly, feeling content as she felt his chest vibrate, knowing she made him happy.

"And I love you, and everything inside you." he moved one hand to her tummy, that was already starting to show. His eyes shifted towards it, and Seulgi felt it in her heart when seeing his eyes full of love.

Playfully, she raised his head towards her again. "But I'll always be your first, right?" she teased, to which he shook his head.

"I'm not choosing between my child and my wife. If I had to protect you from a bullet, I'd cover both of you together."

Seulgi chuckled, clearly loving his answer as she pulled him in for a kiss.

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It was on an average day, Taeyong was working on his laptop while Seulgi laid in bed behind him checking through her timeline. She was in her last month, and was prepared to feel contractions any time now. The thought of it kept her highly anticipated, every slight kick of the baby making her get excited.

Seulgi was a rare case of pregnant women. Taeyong couldn't even count how many times she seemed upset by anything on one hand (maybe twice?) having seen her smile even after a session of throwing up badly. She seemed so positive about everything, and he figured maybe it had something to do with the little sticky note on her board.

A mother's emotions reflects on the baby

Hearing the bed creak, he turned to see Seulgi had gotten herself up from the bed, one hand on her back and the other on her belly. He quickly got up and went next to her, shaking his head. "I told you to call me when you want to get up, don't do it yourself." he partly scolded her.

Seulgi scowled at him, shaking his hands off. "I want to walk, walking might help induce labour. If I get help in it, it won't put the same pressure on me."

Taeyong stood in awe, not in a good way, and grabbed her hand before she could walk away. "Baby... I don't think you should force it. You can't forcefully give birth, it'll happen when the baby is ready." He tried to look at her, but noticed Seulgi kept her face down. "What's wrong?" he cupped her face trying to get her to look up.

"I'm tired..." Seulgi mumbled softly. "I'm tired of feeling like this... I just want to get the baby out. It hurts my back, my feet, my chest... I've handled it so long, I don't want to give birth mad..."

She broke into sobs, and Taeyong quickly pulled his wife in for a hug. He knew she was bound to break at some point, it took him by surprise that it was at the end of her pregnancy. He slowly moved them and sat on the bed with her on his lap, soothing her as much as he could. He didn't say anything, letting her let go of her emotions first. Once she slowly stopped sobbing, taking short breaths, he finally pulled her out to look at her, one hand still hugging her while the other on her cheek wiling away her tears.

"I'm sorry." he said softly, his expression sad as well. "You're going through so much, and I can't do anything to ease your pain. But I can't understand either if you don't tell me baby." Seulgi looked up at him, wondering what he meant by that. "You've been so happy all this time, and I knew you were just smiling through the hard times because you wanted your whole experience to be good. But holding it in would only hurt you more baby, like now, I'm glad you finally let go, but if I wasn't here and you tried to force contractions you would've been hurt by that."

He pulled her back in for a hug, combing her hair with one hand as he kissed it. "Don't hold in when you're feeling down. It's OK to feel bad sometimes even when you've wanted it this much, as long as you know you'll be happy in the end." He turned to peek at her, smiling a little this time. "And I know you'll be a great mother, you've been preparing for it so well. And don't feel pressured if you can't handle something, I'm always here for you, our baby is both our responsibilities, and I'd gladly drop anything to be here with you every second of their life."

Seulgi sighed, a sense of relief washing over her as she felt safe and calm in her husband's arms. Without a word she simply hugged him again, nuzzling her face into his shoulder as her body relaxed in his hold. Taeyong kissed her head before moving behind a bit and laid down on bed on their sides. They stayed like that for a while, her head resting on his one arm while the other was under her shirt drawing lines on her belly.

"Taeyong..." he heard her call in a mumble, and hummed in response. She looked up with a tired smile. "I love you." she said softly with a hand on his cheek. "More than strawberries and mangos, more than yellow."

Taeyong laughed softly, filled with joy and her sweet words, and moved in to kiss her to which she happily responded. "And I love you more than I love art." he said pulling away for a bit while before going back to kissing again.

Seulgi felt calmer now, even when she did actually go into labour three days later, because she had Taeyong holding her hand throughout everything. He never left her side, even when asked to put on the medical apron in the labour room, he did it quick to get back to her as fast as he could.

Of course a few curses left Seulgi's mouth as she pushed out their baby, but a smile soon took over as she saw the view of her daughter, a pleasant feeling taking over her as she held the baby and already started planning on what dresses to buy the little girl.

Taeyong was just as happy, he became a girl's father, something he often heard to be a scary yet magical experience. And while he heard Seulgi whisper her plans of mother and daughter activities, he smiled at the thought of their home soon to be evident of who took control.

It would be a very colourful queendom for sure.

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request:

hope you liked it anon! tried to suite the plot as much as I could😅 I tried to keep a slight psychoticness left in their dynamic, cuz that was really what made the couple unique lol