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Grayson wished that he had remembered sooner.
It would saved them all pain if he had remembered sooner.
But he hadn’t. His memory of home had been one of the things that had been cut from him along with flesh and bone and soul. It made sense. If he had remembered home he would have fought endlessly to get back to it. Even without the memory, Grayson had known that there was a deep chasm in him where something had been.
He felt that chasm fill on a little as he looked up at the towering building.
Jason looked at it with a weary scowl. “Are we just standing out here or what?”
The fledging fussed in Grayson’s arms. He hushed the little one gently with a soft coo and pressed a kiss to the child’s forehead. Another whispered, missing memory.
“Gray, come on. This was a bad idea,” Jason said. He hooked his fingers around Grayson’s and gave a little tug. “We don’t belong somewhere like… like this. It’s not safe. We need to go before someone calls the cops on us.”
Grayson hushed Jason too and brushed his fingers over Jason’s own calloused ones, careful with his talons.
Jason’s frown just deepened. “Gray—”
Before Jason could protest again, Grayson reached out their classed hands and pressed the call button on the side of the large, wrought iron gate.
A moment later the speaker crackled to life. Grayson winced at the sound. Fledge started crying. Jason backed up a step.
“Wayne Manor. May I ask what is your business here?” The proper, rolling words were like a balm.
Another bit of the chasm filled.
“Ah… Alfred?” Grayson asked and looked towards the security camera. His hood fell back. Fledge cried. Jason gripped his hand tighter.
Grayson watched with golden eyes.
“Oh good heavens, my dear boy,” Alfred whispered.
Talon Dick, tiny Talon Tim, and an all too human Jaybird. Lost but together.
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The Spare
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Summary: When Princess Rosie unexpectedly is thrust into a political tour of the country, a working-class Air Force Captain is assigned to be her pilot. Although the princess is unhappy about the decision, she realizes she’s stepping into unknown territory when the unexpected happens
Intro l Main Masterlist | The Spare Masterlist
By @k-evans-writes and @ourfinest-hour
Word Count: 5,672
The door shut firmly behind the Princess’ Private Secretary, leaving the four highest-ranking members of the Royal Family in the oversized room alone. An uneasy silence lingered past the echo’s reverberation, only adding to Rosalie’s anxiety. She shifted on the plush cushion, running her hand along and smoothing her skirt as she cleared her throat and looked towards her father, asking, “What did you hear from the doctor? Do they know for sure what’s going on?”
The prim-and-proper King was unusually disheveled, wearing a wrinkled dress shirt, bare feet, and unstyled hair. It was always ingrained in the Royal Family from a young age that they were to uphold the image, the one of privilege, beauty, and elegance. She could still remember from a young age the uncomfortable hours on end she’d stand straight at parades, waving and smiling at each cheering member of the public as her feet ached and cried for relief. But as the years went on, the more strict the rules would become. Seeing the vast juxtaposition of the way her father looked now only reminded her how serious this was.
Her brow arched as she took her father’s appearance in more - the heaviness in his expression, the rigidity of his frown, the hunch of his shoulders. “They’re still looking into things further but what they know for sure is that it was a heart attack,” King Joseph began, pausing as his eyes danced over the portraits of their ancestors hanging from the walls around them. Then, Rosie felt a pang of sympathy as the familiar mask slipped over Joseph, as if an outsider or staffer walked into the room - the way the tension and strain left his body in a microsecond as he sat up straight, his frown leaving his face. “They think I’ll be fine but I probably do need some time to recover.”
A soft tut echoed from her mother’s lips - one that barely toed the line of daring to challenge him - before Genevieve gently corrected his words to their children, “No, they told him he had to have time to recover.”
Rosie’s head turned to look at James as he opened his mouth, but then took a beat then let out a breath as he delicately asked, “So what does that look like?”
The tension returned to Joseph’s body and in Rosalie’s stomach as reality set in for everyone. Everyone knew that this was a lot more than just a family worried about their father’s health, it meant so much for them and the country and she couldn’t ignore the sinking feeling in her stomach as he answered, “Probably a month off completely.” The King admitted unhappily to the Prince and Princess. Subconsciously, her posture straightened as his eyes landed on her, and she avoided the desire to avert her eyes under his occasionally-scrutinizing gaze. “Which would mean that I do need you to take over my duties during that time, and Rosalie, I will need you to officially take James’ spot on the tour. I know you were hoping that you wouldn’t have to fill in but I am going to need you.”
“It’s fine, we want to do what we can to help you recover,” she began, pausing as she struggled with how to word her concerns. Navigating a relationship with her father had always been a little bit difficult when they had moments that were more normal and familial and others that were all business. Royal life may have been hailed as glamorous and exciting, but Rosie knew how complicated and burdensome it could be. At times they felt like a real family, loving and caring for one another and having honest conversations but other times, they had to stay restrained, knowing that no matter what, the crown always came first. The truth of the matter was that - at times - her father’s role and actions intimidated her. Rarely did she have the loving paternal figure at her side as a child, more often under the care of the Palace nannies while her parents fulfilled their roles. Her thumbs itched to fiddle nervously but she restrained herself, instead finally asking, “What are we going to do about touring the coast with all the protests going on? Are we cutting that out?”
The King nodded, his lips pursed as he sprung into what was likely an already prepared response, “Well I think-”
But Genevieve rested her hand on the King’s arm, causing him to cut off as she reminded him, “No, you need to let James decide. He’s the one who’s taking on your duties, remember?”
A huff of air left his lips as he nodded shortly. “You’re right,” he conceded. “James, what do you want to do?”
The eldest was quiet for a long beat, his fingers tapping lightly on the plush arm of the couch. He stared straight ahead as he thought, his eyes landing on one of the portraits as well until his gaze turned to her, asking, “Rosie, do you have thoughts?”
A smirk appeared on her lips as she looked at James, catching the amusement in his eyes at the action. “Cancel the tour and don’t make me go,” she muttered playfully, ignoring the frustrated sigh from both of her parents.
“Very funny,” James chided, lightly elbowing Rosie in the hip as her father stared at her plainly.
But Rosie shook her head, her eyes staring at James. “You know I’m not kidding,” she reminded him. She shrugged her shoulders, her eyes quickly moving over her father before she looked at James again, remembering her earlier conversations with him about their younger sister. “I do terrible on these things anyway, I think Annie should go instead.”
Quickly, the King interrupted the siblings, declaring, “That’s not happening, Anneliese is too young and inexperienced.”
Fighting the urge to roll her eyes, Rosie thought back to how different things had been for Annie as compared to herself and James’ childhoods. While Rosie and James spent much of their adolescence bouncing in and out of boarding schools, then stepping into international tours accompanied by the King and Queen, Annie had it different. She often was left behind at home, seen as “too young” while her siblings juggled their prestigious and elite schooling with the duties of active royals, despite their adolescence. There’d always been this double standard, and while she would do anything to keep Annie as far from the machine of Royal life, she wished she had the same choice for herself.
James simply arched an eyebrow, looking at the King and reminding him, “Aren’t I making the decisions here?”
But Joseph scowled, pointing out, “Well I haven’t heard you make one yet.”
Several beats of silence passed, the tension rising between James, Rosie, and Joseph. Finally, James huffed out a breath, running his hand over his shirt. “….Rosie you have to go,” he murmured, avoiding her eyes.
There was silence for a moment and Rosie could see how pleased James’ decision made their father. But despite that, she could see the struggle in James’ face as he contended with putting his sister or her duty first. “If we cut out the coastline visits though, then it would only be a month,” she began quietly, watching James carefully. “We would avoid the protests, and then I’d be back and dad can do the rest once he’s better. This seems like a great solution.”
Both father and son rolled their eyes at Rosie’s insistence in getting her way. She was steadfast in the fact that for four years now, she’d done more than her fair share of public service - spending more time on airplanes, trains, ships, and in cars than in her own bed. She’d missed so much, she missed her friends, getting to focus her efforts on her charity outreaches, and getting to see Annie grow into the young woman she was now. But despite that, it seemed no one else realized the toll covering for James and Joseph had taken on her.
“More like a great way of you getting out of this,” James retorted, his voice barely louder than the crackle of the fire next to them and the echo of footsteps passing by outside the closed door.
But Rosie’s brows furrowed at James’ words, frustration rising as her opinion continued to be ignored. “When James got back I was supposed to finally get a break,” she reminded them, her voice quiet but firm. And that had been the deal - she had graduated from university, then was thrown into four years of public duty with no downtime to breathe, all so James could serve in the Air Force. Any time she brought up needing a few days to herself, it had always been “Once James is home, you can… you’ll have all the time you need.” It seemed as though that promise was not only empty, but had been forgotten.
But the look in her father’s eyes showed Rosie that he remembered that promise - and yet he was continuing to break his word. “I’m sorry Rosalie,” he began, pausing delicately before adding, “But the positive of me being less visible while I recover is that it gives you the chance to be more involved.”
A scoff escaped Rosie’s lips and she didn’t care to stop it, letting her anger rise a bit. “What have I been doing the last four years, then?” She asked incredulously.
“You’ve been standing in James’ place and in his shadow but this is your chance to be Princess Rosalie, all on her own and be who you are, not fulfilling James’ role,” Joseph tried to reason with her, and she arched a single brow at him. Standing on her own, outside of James’ shadow?! As much as they all liked to pretend it wasn’t the case, she’d always been and always would be in his shadow. The first-born, golden child of Ellington. She’d never hold it against him, but she didn’t think there was a single conversation she’d ever had with anyone, whether other dignitaries, tutors, or acquaintances, where James wasn’t brought up despite his absence. When you’re constantly reminded of being the second-best, the spare, and the insurance when compared to the eldest, who had their own miserable circumstances as well. It was all impossible, and it seemed Rosie stepped on the Palace’s lines much more than anyone had in the past.
Heavy was the head that wore the crown, but the pressure forced upon Rosie seemed to rival it, even on the best days.
“I think we all know I can’t be who I am,” she started, her voice quivering in her rising frustration. She ran a hand along her skirt, fingers coming to rest on an errant strand of fabric that her seamstress evidently missed. “Look, I’m not trying to be difficult, we just all know that none of this is me. I was happy to stand in for James while he did what he wanted being in the Air Force but I thought that it was finally my chance to have some space.”
James’ eyes showed the weight on him, the internal struggle between duty and family. He cleared his throat quietly before whispering, “It’s only two more months, Rosie.”
“It just seems like there’s always something else. You think it’ll be the end and then the rug gets pulled out from under you,” Rosie muttered, her fingers lightly twisting the fabric, careful to not pull it from the skirt.
Joseph’s expression seemed heavy, his eyes pointed towards the ground as a hand covered part of his face, deep in thought. “I know it’s not ideal, but we need you to do this,” he decided, eyes coming to meet Rosie’s before he gestured to James. “James is the ultimate authority on it though.”
The Prince nodded, his shoulders squaring resolutely. “We don’t have a choice. Rosie, it has to be you,” he agreed, his voice strained despite his confident demeanor.
Rosie shot a look at the silent Queen, her eyes watching the conversation between her husband and eldest children intently. As she met Rosie’s eyes, the young woman shot her a pleading look, all but begging her to speak up.
Their mother hummed, giving Rosie a tight-lipped smile. “I think there is a security risk though,” she conceded sweetly, and Rosie’s shoulders slouched as she let out a small gasp of relief as her mother - the normally silent, meek woman - spoke up on her behalf.
But James ignored the magnitude of the situation, simply stating, “Then we’ll get more guards and protection.”
Rosie didn’t suppress the eye roll this time, huffing as she did so. She knew she shouldn’t be surprised. It had always been the King and Prince show - it always would be, that was simply the nature of their life. The heirs mattered above all else, and their opinions shaped the lives of every person in the family. But she had continually struggled with the idea of letting it dictate her life, she wanted nothing more than to have some semblance of autonomy, despite knowing it was never in the cards, at least not now.
But it didn’t mean James’ insistence didn’t hurt. She felt he always understood where she was coming from, always looked out for her and Annie. But now, she was really seeing James step into the leadership position for the first time.
“Or I just don’t go, just reminding you all that it’s an option,” she muttered, waving a hand. Her frustration was cresting as the two men ignored not only Rosie’s, but her mother’s points as well - points that in all honesty scared Rosie.
The situation outside of the capital of Ellington was tenuous at best. Tensions had been rising for months now, and while King Joseph’s decision to keep silent may have been smart at first, it had done nothing to turn the tide since. And now to be sent into the lion’s den in all honesty scared Rosie. She was no stranger to security protocols, risks, and threats, but this had much eclipsed any past risks Rosie knew of. Each member of the Royal Family was under a microscope, never deviating from an internal schedule, always accompanied by several security members. And that was just what Rosie knew - she was sure there was more she was not privy to that James and her father were aware of.
A sudden loud crackle of the fire brought her out of her thoughts to find James rising, moving to pour himself a drink from the carafe on the long table nearby. She watched the sharpness of his shoulders, the unfamiliar stressful strain as he moved, causing Rosie to arch a brow at the sight. “I have to be here to step up in dad’s place. Rosie, you’re going to have to get used to this more.” James spoke dismissively.
She couldn’t help but look at James, her brows raising as fast as her anger - reaching levels she never knew James could elicit. “I’m the one who’s been doing this the past four years, remember?” Rosie asked sarcastically, her voice anything but amused.
He avoided her eyes, a hand reaching to run down his face as he attempted a placating, “It’s only two more months…”
She pushed out a breath, ready to respond when a sharp knock sounded at the door. All eyes landed on the oversized double wooden doors as the King’s Secretary waited for any protest before the doors pushed open.
The sudden intrusion didn’t seem to take anyone by surprise, but Rosie’s brows quickly furrowed as the aide stepped aside to reveal Edward Henry - the Communications Secretary for the Royal Family - and quite honestly Rosie’s least favorite person, who was carrying a large stack of papers.
She’d long struggled with the ‘duty’ aspect of her birthright position, the responsibility forced on her by an institution when all she wanted was normalcy. But between a lack of a proper childhood, wanting a normal university experience, being outspoken by nature, and maybe having a few brushes with untrustworthy so-called ‘friends’, she’d landed herself on Edward Henry’s bad side… quite literally for life.
At her father’s warm greeting to Edward after his obligatory bows to each member of the family, Rosie’s frustration grew. She knew she shouldn’t have come - she’d had a bad feeling about this meeting ever since receiving word of it at breakfast. Her suspicions grew when she realized Annie was omitted from the group, removing what would’ve been Rosie’s only true ally from the room and all conversations. But now, to see that the intention was never to plan a tour or shift schedules around to accommodate the King’s sudden change in health…. It was to focus on her.
The Palace and Royal Family both had struggled at times with her, Rosie could admit that herself. She felt as though she could never do things right, never be the person they tried to mold her to be. She was rigid in ways the Institution needed her to be pliable, soft in the ways they needed her to be tough, and sour when they needed her to be sweet.
“You’re joking me right?” Rosie finally spoke, arching her brow at her father as he warmly shook Edward’s hand, seeing the label ‘ITINERARY’ scribbled across the files he began handing to her father.
The King’s face hardened instantly. “Rosalie, don’t even start,” he warned, holding out his hand for Queen Genevieve to greet Edward.
But Edward was unphased, used to her often brash ways. “Princess, we have your itinerary to go over and I’d like to discuss some different things we’d like you to incorporate in your speeches at each one. Also we have picked out which charities you’ll be endorsing along the tour,” he informed her, handing copies of the folders to her mother and brother before sitting in the empty armchair between the two occupied sofas. His hand moved to hand her a copy, but ceased when the furious expression on her face was noticed.
A bitter chuckle escaped her. “So none of this mattered,” she mused, frowning as she looked at her father pointedly. “No matter what I said or felt or even what James decided didn’t matter because everything was already decided on,”
But the man simply shrugged as he paged through the plans, brows furrowed while he sat down on the sofa again. “We had to make a plan,” he informed her, as if it was that simple.
With a roll of her eyes, Rosie pushed herself off the couch. “Fine, then make your plan. It’s obvious you don’t need me here for any of it,” she informed them, dropping her eyes as she moved towards the shut doors. She could hear the sharp breath her mother took at her outright rudeness towards not only Edward, but James and her father. A scowl crossed Rosie’s lips as her eyes prickled with tears and she focused on the sound of her heels as she raced to the door.
If anyone attempted to say anything or chastise her, she didn’t hear - nor did she care - as the door practically slammed behind her. The guards standing outside the door pointedly avoided her eyes, telling Rosie everything she needed to know about what they heard. She had already turned to leave the wing when that thought made her stop. Her lip was quivering as she met the older guard’s eyes - Albert, she reminded herself, he’d accompanied her to riding lessons as a young girl - and she was surprised when he silently led the other guard to stand across the hall instead without a word, giving her the encouragement she needed.
She stood just beyond the door, giving herself enough space to make an escape if needed, but close enough to be able to hear the conversation inside.
Despite her mother’s objection, they’d clearly moved on from her outburst as she heard her father speaking, his voice carrying easily. “James, there’s a lot riding on that tour. I don’t have to tell you with all the political tension going on and protests, everyone is going to be looking at this tour and how it goes.”
“What your dad is saying is you’re going to need to keep an eye on Rosalie,” her mother said, and Rosie’s brow furrowed. She’d been doing just fine the last few years - handling double duty without anyone batting an eye. Why is she all of the sudden not good enough? But she caught herself as she thought - remembering that the golden boy had been occupied with serving Ellington in the Air Force. They must’ve had to make due with “second-best”, and Rosie’s best was no longer good enough.
But she was surprised when James was the one to speak, defending her and saying, “She’s been in my place the last couple years though and she’s done fine.”
A bitter chuckle escaped Edward and Rosie wanted nothing more than to disappear at that second, admittedly it was all she’d ever wanted. “It depends on the way you look at it,” Edward pointed out.
But James wasn’t going down without a fight, pointing out, “Well the press love her. I mean, there isn’t hardly a week that went by that the people’s princess wasn’t splashed on some headline.”
The scowl returned and the tears threatened to leak from her eyes as Edward finally contributed, his voice like nails on a chalkboard to her as he said, “And that’s the problem. You may love Rosalie’s personality but currently she’s in line to the throne after you and represents the royal family. If she were the youngest it would be different but she has to start taking this seriously and be more neutral.”
She tapped her fingers against her side nervously. Rosie had always known that this was the opinion of her amongst those on the outside of the family, who worked to polish and prime them. They’d attempted to do so to her for years, but they’d always gotten along like oil and water. But to be confronted with this and to overhear this, to know her own parents felt this way, hurt.
However, a small flutter of hope settled in her as James again attempted to defend her, his voice unwavering as he said, “She’s right, she has stepped into my role the past couple years and done well.”
“We just don’t think she fully sees the weight of this because you’re the one who’s next in line to the throne,” Joseph admitted, and Rosie had to do everything she could to keep herself quiet.
Yes, James’ role was unique and seemed miserable in itself. He had no choice in his life, in his future, in anything - even more than Rosie. But to live this life solely being second-place, second-loved, second-everything to someone was a different kind of miserable. You couldn’t compare the two, but neither were ideal, and for anyone to try to frame it that way completely ignored everything both she and Annie had gone through.
The grating returned to Rosie as Edward - the absolute bane of her fucking existence - unnecesarily added, “Ellington has only ever had two Queens both of them knew how to fall in line. Nobody knows what to do with Rosalie and it’s not a great look for the palace.”
“People relate to her though!” James insisted, his voice rising.
“Royals aren’t supposed to be relatable, if they are, what’s the point of having them?” Edward challenged.
There was a long silence and Rosie found herself stuck between wanting nothing more to leave and forget this all ever happened, just like she had so many times before in her life, and wanting to creep closer as the fear of missing something grew as the silence continued. Her mind was still racing, fighting against itself as she stood frozen with nearly trembling ankles when she heard James’ voice. It was soft, as if the fight had left him as he helplessly asked, “…So what do you suggest I do?”
“Just do what you can to help this tour go well. A lot hinges on this and her,” Joseph encouraged, his voice suddenly softer as well. A slight scowl graced Rosie’s lips at that realization, knowing that James often got a side of their parents that neither she nor Annie ever got. He’d gotten the most time with them - whether because of duty or love, it almost didn’t matter. She saw how much Annie yearned to have the relationship James had with them, and she found herself wishing for it at times too.
Her ear pressed closer to the overly-ornate wooden doors, yearning to hear more, but she wished she hadn’t as Edward explained, “What the Prince said isn’t wrong. The public is for the Princess, but in this tumultuous time, we need her to present more stability. People need to be comforted knowing that the royal family is stable and has the country’s best interest at heart.”
She stared at the floor, brows furrowing and confusion flooding her at those words. Unstable? Her? Sometimes she felt like the only sane person in this equation.
Her confusion was shared as James - his voice strong and firm - pointed out, “I don’t think Rosie can really be categorized as unstable.”
But Edward simply chuckled again, explaining, “Saying things off script in speeches or breaking social norms for royalty is viewed as unstable.”
“We just need her to be a constant unwavering person that people can look up to, especially when it got leaked about my health.” Her father spoke strongly. Rosie felt a pang of sympathy - if this heart attack had never happened, then maybe this wouldn’t be happening. But it all seemed too convenient, the empty promises of privacy and autonomy, the sudden return of James. “We need steadiness. This tour is what can bring it and allow everyone to see Rosie as the one to help bring it.”
“I know she can do it, I just wish she didn’t have to,” James admitted, and Rosie sighed at those simple words, knowing just how much honesty was behind them.
She wasn’t surprised when her father spoke again, his words reeking of lessons a life in the public eye and service had given him. “Our life is a heavy burden at times, but whether good or bad, the crown has fallen on us. That includes Rosalie and we have to make sure we steward it well, and that matters more than any of our personal feelings.”
Tears burned at Rosie’s eyes as the weight of what they were saying sunk in. She wasn’t stupid, she was painfully aware of her image and what people thought of her. Her entire life was dictated by it and what was or wasn’t on the front page of a newspaper. The past four years she had done everything in her power to push down who the real Rosie was, trying to step into James’ shoes to allow him to have the bit of fleeting normalcy they all craved but always seemed to elude them. It had nearly killed her to shove so much of herself down, but she had done it for her duty, her country, and - most of all - for her brother. But now to hear that it wasn’t good enough? It felt like rubbing salt in the open wound on her heart.
She had absolutely no idea what else they could possibly want from her short of ripping away every single part of her personality. And the worst part? It seemed fruitless. No matter what she did, it just always fell short. Her only saving grace that kept some hope alive inside of her was that James was back. He was her only shot at being able to get some of herself back that had been buried little by little.
Once Rosie heard the group stand and pleasantries being exchanged among her parents and Edward, she raced away from the door and down the hall, not wanting to be seen. She wiped furiously at her eyes as she grappled with the onslaught of information, but quickly had to push it from her mind as her assistant called out to her, plastering a smile on her face as Claire began to explain what they needed to do to prepare for the gala honoring the military that evening.
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Rosie had kept the smile glued to her face all evening, determined to be on her best behavior. While she may have chosen the other option in the past - the “fine, I’ll be what you think of me” option - today, she couldn’t. If she did, she knew what was at risk, what was on the line, and she just couldn’t stomach willingly doing it tonight.
She’d made her rounds, thanked as many service members she could find, listened to as many stories as she could stomach, laughed as many times as she could without a hint of humor actually being behind it, and had finally escaped to the side room with Claire to fix the strap of her heels when James slipped into the otherwise-empty room.
She avoided his eyes with everything in her, instead taking a long sip of her champagne to quell her nerves when James came to stand next to her, his voice low despite Claire’s proximity.
“Rosie c’mon, I know you don’t want to do this. I get it. I wish I could give you a break but I don’t have a choice,” he pleaded.
Her shoulders hunched, knowing he was truly stuck. He had to live up to what their father expected - what everyone expected - but it didn’t mean it didn’t hurt to go against her big brother. “I know you don’t, and I don’t mean to make it harder on you. I just suck at all of this, James.” she explained.
“No you don’t. The press is for you, everyone loves you,” he reminded her, his voice soft and sweet. She appreciated the sentiment - but it felt empty to her after what she had overheard merely hours earlier.
“I just was hoping I’d finally have a break,” she admitted with a whisper, not knowing how to put it more simply than that.
James sighed, his frustration at the impossible situation evident. “I’m sorry, Rosie,” he murmured, and there was no doubt in Rosie’s mind that he was honest. “I love you and you know I’m going to do what I can to make it easier.”
“I love you too and I don’t want to be difficult, I really don’t,” she explained, turning as Clarie finished and scampered back into the party, leaving the siblings alone with the guards standing by the doors. “I’m just… disappointed I guess and I feel bad because I don’t want to make this worse on dad or you. I just hate doing these tours.”
“I had an idea though,” James began, pausing as Rosie arched a brow at him. He took a deep breath, evidently steeling himself.“What if I asked my friend to be your pilot for the tour? You remember Chris, right? My best friend from the Air Force? He’s standing out there right next to the bar.” He asked, pointing through the glass doorway to Chris.
Rosie sighed, not feeling like any of this was a good idea - especially from James - after this afternoon. There was just too much going on, Rosie feeling like so much had been shaken today. “Can’t Martin do it?” She asked, her voice meek. She knew if she had to go on this tour, if she had to deal with the risks and the tensions associated with it, that comfort would do her good. And Martin - the longtime Palace Security Head, who all but attended all of her birthday parties growing up and was truly like a father to her, would fit the bill.
“I need to pick someone who can also be with you to certain events to be your security and we both know Martin is getting too old for that,” James explained, nudging her with his elbow. “C’mon, would I stick you with someone shitty? Chris is the only person who treated me like a normal guy. You’d get along with him great and I can trust him.”
“I just…” Rosie’s voice started to trail as the feelings inside her were unable to come out of her mouth.
James’ eyebrows arched as he reached out a hand to rest on her arm, softly prodding, “What?”
There was so much Rosie wanted to say, but she knew at this point it didn’t matter. Everything had been decided for her as it had been for so long and she just quietly admitted, “I just wish I didn’t have to do this.”
Although James moved to wrap his arms around her, pulling her into a gentle hug, Rosie felt anything but comforted. For years she had looked forward to James returning from the Air Force, especially with his voluntary choice to stay in the service for two years longer than was customary for royals. She remembered that call, James explaining that being in the Air Force was the first time he had felt normal, been treated normal, and felt like he had a bigger purpose and that he wanted to stay longer. Rosie knew it meant she had to step up to stay in his shoes longer than anticipated but she was willing to do it for him.
But it was finally going to be her turn. She was going to be able to pull back from the spotlight, disappear the way she had wanted to for so long and try to have some semblance of a normal life. All of that had been ripped away from her in what felt like an instant, prolonging and making her presence on the country even bigger which was the absolute opposite of what she wanted, but Rosie knew she didn’t have a choice.
Two months. She could do anything for two months. And then she’d be free.
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Thinking about your post about what it would be like to be Valeria's wife and how do you think Valeria would react if she found out that reader was cheating on her? like, reader was feeling frustrated and not getting the love and support that she needs from valeria, so she looks for validation and that love elsewhere
AHHH. I've been wanting to write a one-shot about cheating for ages but I just haven't gotten around to doing it. Valeria is the one cheating though.
I've been cheated on by two different people, so my opinion on cheaters isn't very high. Wasn't very high to begin with anyway really. It's super fun to explore different perspectives though
Valeria with a Cheating Wife
Valeria would be pissed. First and foremost. Even more so if she has to find out on her own. Valeria doesn't even care that you've been feeling unloved and lonely because she sees this as an ultimate act of betrayal. Let's say finds out by looking through your phone or something. She is pissed, yes, but there is this deep-rooted hurt under it. (Which only makes the anger worse.) Valeria isn't the type to jump from relationship to relationship. She's incredibly distrustful and it takes a while for her to start letting down her walls.
So when she glances at your phone when it pings only to see an odd message, like "Tomorrow sounds good ;)". Or something. Valeria snoops right away. Scrolling through the long history of texts between you and this woman - evident by the nudes traded between the two of you. Her heart sinks as she reads about you complaining about her. Oh, she's always away, she was cold and grumpy today, being with Valeria is so lonely. She kind of just... stared at those texts for a while.
You come into the bedroom from doing whatever. Maybe you were showering or something, doesn't matter. Valeria is silent up until you get into bed with her. She wanted to ask subtly. To catch you in a lie or something but she's at a loss for words. She's so hurt and angry that she asks straight up if you're cheating. Valeria's heart shatters a little bit when you quietly admit you do. That quickly turns into you pouring your heart out about how neglected you feel. You feel like she's fallen out of love with you, even suspected she may have been having an affair herself.
Valeria, naturally, screams at you and kicks you out. Throws you out with your car keys and locks the door. She breaks things and contemplates how she'll kill the woman you were seeing behind her back. The thought of action, of writing this wrong helps her cope better. Then, she cries. It's not violent or dramatic sobbing. Just a few angry tears that are swiftly wiped away.
Valeria would also be embarrassed. She wasn't enough for you so you went to someone else.
Best case scenario is she simply divorces you and wants nothing to do with you but I feel like there's a good chance she'd kill you in a fit of rage. A small part, would feel guilty for having neglecting you but not enough for her to forgive cheating.
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May I request Graves X Reader? I love reading Graves fics
oh lord me too, he doesn't get enough love
Graves Headcannons
One thing to say: Sassy man apocalypse
This man is so cocky and so sassy it isn’t even funny.
At when you first met and got together hes so cocky and kind of arrogant, he puts on a mask to hide how he truly feels because he is terrified of being vulnerable. He definitely feels like he’s not a man if he doesn’t act ‘masculine’. Although that mask does crack after a particularly hard mission
The click of the front door and near silent steps alerted you that your boyfriend was finally home. It had been a couple months since you last saw him and you were giddy to greet him at the door. You halted however, when he didn’t greet you with his usual ferver and snarkiness and instead just looked past you with sunken eyes. He lazily took off his boots and let you lead him to the dining room. After a hearty home-cooked meal and hot shower, you were sure he would snap out of it and go back to his usual snarky self. Lost in your thoughts, you didn’t notice him open the bathroom door. All clean, he trudged over to you and gently laid his head on your lap. You tried to offer to talk about what was on his mind but he always shut that down, so you opted to just sit in silence and play with his damp hair, scratching his scalp and softly holding him. Muffled cries broke the silence, he had finally let down a wall (one of many but we’ll talk about that later) around you.
After that instance he still held a lot of walls but showing vulnerability was a lot more common, he confided in you about his feelings and thoughts, lied less to you about his worries and his job
Quite the joker, he strikes me as a guy to play pranks or tell you shitty jokes just to hear you groan or chuckle a little. It fills him with pride when he can get a reaction out of you and even more so when you tell one right back. This carries into to other things like arguments, flirting or even just interacting. He will purposefully get on your nerves just to get you to fight back, finds it like a fun game and will don a shit-eating grin during the whole ordeal, which only eggs you on further. (Although if he does seriously piss you off and you tell him that he will apologize and get you flowers)
Does invite his friends (ahem the shadows ahem) over to hang out, will tell you *most* of the time
You decided that it would be nice to get some grocery shopping done for both you and your boyfriend, and after a couple hours you arrived at the door, you knew Philip would be home as he said he was going to keep himself busy that day with projects or just lounging about, so imagine your surprise when you go to get your keys to unlock the door and a random man opens it for you and a couple others offer to help you put away your groceries while your boyfriend greets you from the couch.
He loves touching you, I think his personal favorites are: hugging you from the back (especially when you're busy doing something, and will just hold you there and bury his face in your neck for a good 5 minutes), holding hands, and CUDDLING big time. Adores every minute of it even if he acts like it annoys him(which he will) and that you asked for it (you didn’t) and you’re the only one who wants to cuddle (you’re not). It knocks him right out too, you'll be having a conversation and then one minute he's responding to you in soft snores.
Very handy around the house, knows how and will fix pretty much anything that needs to be fixed, Disclaimer: do not call a repairman it will bruise his ego SO bad.
All in all I would rate him a 7/10, a bit annoying but a cutie patootie
#He's like a cat#or one of those wierd white dogs that people love#Graves cod#cod x reader#phillip graves#call of duty modern warfare#graves x reader#Phillip Graves
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went to see six for the second time today and i have SO many things to say about the all you wanna do choreo
#i may or may not have cried just a little bit#it hits so hard fr </3#six the musical#ALSO THE INTERACTIONS BETWEEN THE QUEENS BETWEEN SONGS ARE ACCTULY HILLARIOUS#I TOOK NOTES ON THEM AND WILL SHARE WHEN I HAVE THE ENGERGY TO DECODE MY THEATRE HANDWRITING
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Hi everyone! I just wanted to share a little "Golden Love moment" that happened in real life.
Last night, Italy won the Olympic gold medal in the women's team épée. One of the athletes of the team, Rossella Fiamingo, is the girlfriend of an Italian swimmer, Gregorio Paltrinieri, who had his 800-meter freestyle final at the exact same time she was competing for the gold. He finished in third place, earning his fourth Olympic medal.
(By the way, fun fact: I was mainly inspired by him for my James in Golden Love. Ngl, he's a bit of a hero for me, one of my favourite swimmers ever, gold medallist in Rio 2016. Also: very, VERY good looking, lol)
Neither of them was able to watch the other's competition, but at the end of the day, they posted a photo together on Instagram with their medals.
That's it. I love them ❤
(Also, all this Olympic talking is making me think about Golden Love and maybe a sequel...? Idk, let's see if I can write down something quick!)
#james potter#lily evans#jily#jily fic#just a little bit of patriotism here#i may or may not have cried all my tears when the girls stepped up on the podium#i LOVE the Olympics
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Life was good before the ending of Still Wakes the Deep
#still wakes the deep#not funny#i may have cried#just a little bit though#it was a good game#gonna beef with the devs on twitter now#a bit let down by the ending#but still emotional asf#incredible game story though
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AHHHHH THEY ARRIVED!!
Honestly this comic means so much to me I’m so glad i was able to support its transformation into books form!!
If you havent read the glass scientists you are missing out!
A little ramble about how much i love this comic and what it means to me if you are interested:
I started reading this comic in november 2021. I read the original book when i was 13 and proceeded to hyperfixate on it and read lots of other Victorian horror literature, going so far as to later steal my name from a side character from the portrait of Dorian Gray. So when via scrolling on Pinterest i found images of the comic, i was instantly hooked and read it all in one. On the first of January my dad walked out on me and my mum. My self being a very confused and angry teenager spent a lot of the first months of 2022 feeling utterly rejected and a mess, throw in the fact that i was struggling with constant pain from migraines caused by long covid, back issues and crippling dysphoria i was not the most well put together person. I barely made it through the first few months with-ought breaking into tears once a week. Thats where the glass scientists came in:
I loved this comic (still do). It became the highlight of my week and motivated me to get through school and general life because i knew i would have it waiting for me on a Monday afternoon. Im honestly just so thankful to Sadge and for this comics existence it kept me going through a really tough time in my life and im just so so grateful it exists and also really really exited to get my hands on a physical copy!!!
Ramble over: READ THE GLASS SCIENTISTS!!! (Please)
#the glass scientists#tgs jekyll#tgs hyde#tgs henry jekyll#edward hyde#henry jekyll#hiveworks#I would just like to say that my name is not Basil#jekyll and hyde#I may have cried a little bit when they came through my mail#I love this comic so much
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farewell cutie. 💔
#simblr#ts4#ts4 gameplay#tjolc#tjol challenge#f: vickers#vickers: 1#s: adelia#s: sammy#s: fennec#s: roe#s: cutie the dog#q#death tw#pet death tw#literally THE SECOND they came home from the festival this happened#i may have cried a little bit#just a little#listen pet deaths are awful even in the sims#i'm sad now
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so few, so proud, so emotional
hello, clancy
#excuse me while i sob#twenty one pilots#clancy#just finished listening to the album#it was amazing and i may or may not have cried a little bit
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pretty sure i have a kidney infection but i think everything is gonna be okay
#i called the doctors office neither of my beautiful lady doctors who believe me every time i say i have a problem were there and a guy#doctor was the only person to talk to#and he said PUSSY ASS BITCH TAKE AN IBUPROFEN AND SHUT THE FUCK UP#just kidding he gave me some other symptoms to watch out for and said to go to the er if i get those. but that for now i should just keep an#eye on it. anyway i cried a little bit i called my mom and she said that i should be peeing after sex and i said yes mom i'm a grown ass#woman. i called my bf he had a theory that i am making myself anxious about it and making the pain worse. which may have been true but also#i think he's biased bc he gives himself psychosomatic symptoms of everything all the time.#but i'm taking a bath and watching dumb youtube and i actually feel way better so maybe it's true.#anyway i'm already on antibiotics. i'm going to survive the night. if it's not feeling better tomorrow i can call my doctor again!!! bitch!#like calm down jesus....
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JFC TIMING BODY PLEASE-
I really, really should’ve seen that one coming.
Now I hope to heavens I haven’t just jinxed myself for tomorrow, but MAN I’M IN JUST SUCH A GOOD MOOD- I GOT THROUGH MY DANGER DAYS WITH MINIMAL BULLSHIT 👏👏👏 When you got a chronic illness (or illness’s), you gotta take the victories where yah can ( •̀ ω •́ )✧
#i may have cried a little bit today because I was just so relieved#had to suck them back in and zen myself 'cause getting too emotional makes me sick#ain't that ironic#I've had a really nice day though#my sisters and nieces visited and we went and fed the ducks in the park just a short walk from my home#which is tbh is one of the best perks of this house#easy access to duCKS
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Going to commit some atrocious crimes. I thought i was home alone so i was rambling about how much i love cold popcorn, hot showers, homestuck and mcr and then i turn around to walk into the bathroom and my parental unit is standing there looking at me like this.
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Cringe culture really did kill a lot more of the otherkin community than I think some people might think... KFF definitely played a huge role in the downward spiral, but I don't see people also point out how damaging cringe culture was to otherkins specifically. And that even if KFF never came around, there may still be beings who remain silent or quiet about being otherkin for fear of 'cringe'.
#I'm speaking from my personal experience about cringe culture when it was really popular.#It made me unconsciously cover up a lot about myself even when I was actively trying to combat it.#Actually fuck cringe culture not being acknowledge in 'kin spaces. In internet spaces in general people really downplay its effects on the#younger generation at the time (including me).#I was explaining how I think cringe culture really hurt me to my therapist and I started fucking crying. For the first time in front of my#therapist. I've never cried in front of my therapist before that point.#Like I know we say 'cringe culture is dead!' all the time but I am still actively unlearning that shit!!#Having a witty catch-phrase isn't enough because I can still see the knee-jerk cringe culture reaction everywhere online!#Cringe culture may be dead but it was resurrected and now is walking around like a shambling corpse.#Anyways rant/ramble over I was just thinking about this.#I have a headache so sorry if this doesn't make a lot of sense.#The actual daily writing post will be up in a little bit.
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I'm too aplatonic to get friendship but also i think friendship is just what Ally Beardsley and Grant O'Brien have. like that's what it should look like
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Hi, hello, I love the new Doctor so much already
#doctor who#also i may or may not have cried a little bit when he comforted fourteen#just... aaaaaaah#i can tell he's definitely gonna be one of my favorites
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