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LukeHemmings: 🌧️
#THIS CAME UP ON MY FYP AND IT WAS ACTUALLY HORRIFIC#5sos#5 seconds of summer#luke hemmings#luke#shakes#boy ep#TikTok#video#kh4f post#just me fully zoned out on my fyp#endlessly scrolling#JUMPSCARE#😭😭😭😭😭😭#i may never recover actually#anyways i guess he's pretty or whatever
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Her soul feels nine grams.
It is easier to let pain be than to fix it. It's in her volume. The soft sobs as she replaced loss water with na-baron's well between his teeth — To the deep howls and gulping breaths on Suk mender fingers — And all the climbs in-between.
She rather go back to swallowing his spit.
But a hand is holding her knee down. Another slides her arm into place above her head. She feels a bedside pinch for cannulae connection. He burns on his drip inside. He can not intercede on correlative birthright. He simply reinstates, firtly, via homogeneous mixing. But it feels a little wrong anyways.
Belarilian doctors would have let her bleed to zero if there wasn't family blood on stock or a brother nearby and willing. Her body wouldn't have taken it.
Another unconscious thought comes in on a feeling of knowing rather a direct planting. Feyd Rautha can give her one certainty — he’ll stay through the gory details. And that��s more than anyone has given her. Even her precious Le Prince s'est tourné vers Ash.
She wants to coil on the fold of her middle just as paper does on a singe. She'd be yanking at the throat if she had it. Her grasp rings as tightly as time in her dwindling mass allows. An answer. Her nails bed the path of his veins. She's crying a little more but you can hardly tell which tear is for what.
Rich elixir; energizing and flooding-in.
Souvenir with prerogative slotting.
Her soul feels ten grams.
Continuing a lily pad for rote;
❛ Tusa. ❜
He's been inside before. Her, himself, everyone, a blooming garden of reds and filleted muscle. Can't tell the different between a white wall or an intestine. He's heard before, too, screams and wails and desperation that coagulates at the surface. Heard, but never Listened.
Each of hers is inhaled and tempered down from trachea to alveoli, a warmth giving when there is only cold left to recall it. Pain is a gift.
Princess blood sticks in the spaces between his pores, where his lips are fullest, his chin, his jaw. He'll kill everyone in this room for daring enough to hesitate before the day crawls to an end.
Wordless as he parts from her to shed from his own fabric-skin, forearm sculpted veinous from the fist he forms. The other hand still a precarious anchor to her neck, where she's stolen the plasma from his eyes.
"Do it."
Hara has already been infected by him. Already swivels on the precipice between Belarilian ocean and Giedi tar. Their precious blood gifts are as foreign to Harko's baronry as a warming sun. He's already given his, time and time again, to ravenous arena sand. If they stutter before intravenous ceremony, he'll have to slit some bellies a little sooner.
Hers a template.
The needle isn't anything worse than keeping her visage implanted in his sight as the Suk direct him with fear lodged behind the tongue.
And yet, Feyd-Rautha is all blackhole smile, an imprint of loving in his pretense, when he whispers to her beneath the hum of panic and urgency,
"Marry me."
#deficd#you're so unhinged for this frrr god#“logical next step” i cant#i may never recover actually#blood tw#* filed under — ( verse ) ( galaxie )#* filed under — ( verse ) ( interactions ) ( galaxie )
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we're still right where we're supposed to be together through ups and the downs, dungeons and ivory towers
@froschkuss has blessed me with this lovely commission of io and estinien, i can't stop looking at it!
#io laithe#io/estinien#estinien varlineau#EVERYTHING TO MEEEEEE#ooooooo the way his eyes open in a little flutter 🥴💗#HER SMILE#and ofc.... hands....#i may never recover#thinking about them agreeing to wander separately for a bit because estinien is feeling restless#but ending up in the same place anyway and just melting into each other on that first night because they missed each other so much!!#i love them too much they might actually give me a heart attack#ffxiv
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HEY SO UMM...DID WE KNOW ABOUT THIS?? BECAUSE I FEEL LIKE THIS IS SOMETHING WE SHOULD KNOW ABOUT
stumbled on an ~8 min clip of a/ubrey p/laza on an australian podcast and she...well...just listen
youtube
the whole thing is good obv but around :50seconds is where it gets really good 👀
#'i'm not feeling so good today' --WELL NOW NEITHER AM I BC I'M FUCKING DEAD???#the guy is so annoying but i don't even care this hits like E V E R Y T H I N G for me with a goddamn hammer!!!#the stuffy voice the multiples the sniffles the hitching and talking through it the fact that she doesn't even try to stifle???#i'm actually just straight up dead from this like i fear i may never recover#(also not that anyone cares but my other main kink is hiccups and she's also done THAT on camera a/ubrey p/laza the woman you are 🥵🔥)#snz kink#snzblr
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Not sure what emotion it was when I saw this image but I felt it. Physically.
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"I can make him worse," said Alan Becker about his own in-universe avatar.
#what do you MEAN it wasn't a one and done thing?#what do you mean it went on for A WHOLE YEAR?!??#again. this episode made me physically ill.#I just-#this is something I may ACTUALLY never recover from. this and the rest of the episode#animator vs animation#ava 11 spoilers#ava victim#what the FUCK
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working hard for u pookies
#peony speaks#undertow#actually im sweating because theres a chance i have to add another scene#6 scenes???#SIX SCENES????#MY WRIST MAY NEVER RECOVER#anyway im adding some stuff to my outline and why do so many bots have names#that start with 's'#its uncomfortable to look at all the 's' in one place
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there are a lot of implications to unravel in James not telling Rachel about Sera for so long but the one i think about the most is like. dude you waited until your kid was already at the point of stealing other people's booze for fun to mention that she probably has a genetic predisposition to addiction/alcoholism issues
#not that he's aware she's doing shit like that but Still. and ofc that's not even what he says bc god knows if he even thinks of it that way#idk preferably you tell your kid that drugs&alcohol are family issue Before they hit their teenage reckless experimentation phase#sorry i'm having Blorbothoughts. it's an illness actually. i may never recover#nebular.txt
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What Deacon thinks: what did that mean? did he want me to wear a collar too? why else would he mention my neck? i mean, if he /asked/ me i would wear one but he didn't so would wearing one be weird?
What Ymber meant: It's nice to be near someone who isn't tethered to this world to serve it with a physical reminder for all to see.
#my characters#this just in ! thats why all the deities in the plot have collars and a chain !#its because THATS THEIR DESIGNATED I AM HERE TO HELP THIS WORLD SYMBOL#they cant remove their collars and thats fine by them - its a constant reminder that they exist to serve#deacon really shouldnt get as much crap as he gets in canon for being weird cause the deities are just a different brand of weird#like its not deacons fault that apparently you can say nice neck with no underlying desire#but he cant say hi would you please possess me i want to know what its like to have someone else in my body#like thats really not something you should pin on deacon YET EVERY deity is like wow what a lil weirdo#he also just really wants to please ymber so if ymber asked he would definitely do whatever#on the flip side i need to point out that deacon very specifically doesnt ask ymber for things nor does he pray for things#and it drives ymber up a wall because this is his favorite human who wont ask for anything and he isnt a psychic#he doesnt know what deacon wants or needs and its infuriating cause he exists to serve humanity#and yet this ONE GUY wont let him do things for him#this is very important and i cant believe i mentioned it like a month ago to someone and today#i received gift art of these two and i may never recover#its so perfect and its ymber just looming over deacon telling him that he can pray about anything to him#its also worth pointing out that when i was telling the person about the whole ymber begging for a prayer#its because he realizes that after all this time hes never had a single prayer from deacon - not before nor after the hire#so hes like oh well thats odd hmm#and then begins to talk to deacon like you know people pray to me for lots of things#and deacon looks at him unsure of what this is leading to - did someone offer a weird prayer? ask a weird thing? whatst?#and no - its just ymber saying that people will pray for wealth or an item#or they will express frustration if something is lost or broken despite it not being ymbers fault so deacon just stares#he has no idea what this is going to end on really so he points out 'well you do like to think you break people'#and ymber just ASDFASDFSADF STOP OK NEXT POINT people pray to me to bless relationships with happiness#and thats fascinating so deacon is like wow can you actually do that?#and ymber is so stressed as hes like i mean kinda i can simply amplify the positive emotions in gestures#like if someone gives an item out of love then its blessed#he also admits that he cant mask insincerity or malice so those feelings are not hidden nor amplified#and deacon just is impressed bc that is actually VERY cool
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Looking up at the stars, I know quite well
That, for all they care, I can go to hell,
But on earth indifference is the least
We have to dread from man or beast.
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How should we like it were stars to burn
With a passion for us we could not return?
If equal affection cannot be,
Let the more loving one be me.
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#this fucking show#i may never recover#tender light#cdrama#we need some actual visual artists watching this show#i’m telling you it’s nonstop fodder for beautiful edits#shan shouts into the void
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If someone(ie you) follows me how can I know that it's your main? I just can't.
i know, that’s part of the fun :)
#tbh if you investigate my main you CAN know#you just have to look at all the provided resources on said blog and then it’s glaringly obvious :)#good luck my friends#(but actually don’t try to find it lol I like how small it is)#(this is just silly goofy fun don’t actually try lol)#(although now a member of staff follows it and I may never recover from that RIP)#ask#the hellsite answers#anonymous#hellsite hall of fame curator’s bullshit
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what would you trade the pain for?
#it is possible that i may have gotten teary making this#doctor who#timepetals#fall out boy#my stuff#just. his face in EoT#i am never recovering#sunshine of two lifetimes actually!!!#tenrose#doctor x rose
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i don’t know what’s happened but the way i’ve become so obsessed with victoria neuman in the last 3 days as if i haven’t been watching the boys and gen v since season 1. i may have to write something for her 🤭
#the boys#gen v#victoria neuman#she’s not new to me so idk why my brain has only just decided she’s the hottest woman alive#and i need her in a way that’s so downright sinful i may never actually recover
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KIMI NI TODOKE SEASON 3 IN AUGUST EVERYBODY STAY CALM
#ITS RYUCHIZU TIME BABY#AND MORE SAWAKO + KAZEHAYA BEING AN ACTUAL COUPLE#I MAY NEVER RECOVER#kimi ni todoke
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Arcane s2 spoilers
Powder in episode 7 is so unsettling to me. They neurotypicalized my girl. She’s in regular girl clothes and has a boyfriend and a stable job and is able to think rationally and also work towards her goals and reach her potential…she’s no longer #hashtag relatable. That whole arc had me like “put it back!!!!! I need that girl to be fucking insane!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!”
#sillyposting#and shitposting#as soon as they started the Ekko and Powder love story I’m like come onnnn not my emotional support ‘I’m not like other girls’ girl#JOKINGGGGGG kind of#the narrative framing a Jinx free of any neurodivergence as the ideal self she should strive to achieve makes me cringe#like of course they should frame recovery as a good thing#but there idea of a recovered or ‘normal’ Jinx seems so far divorced from her character that she may have well been#*their#an entirely different character#I don’t know. it feels insidious somehow#I can’t explain the gut feeling well but it gives me vibes of autistic masking and the idea there’s a version of you that is palatable#and good and all you have to do is work endlessly to reach this impossible standard of normality that you will never reach#with the cards you were dealt#it’s just the VIBES I get man#that actually might be the entire point of that section (assuming the writers are competent) but I fear people will walk away from it#thinking omg she could have been so normal without the trauma! and not unpack anything else about it#jinx was right when she said there’s no world where she can be ‘good’ because there’s not!!! not in the uncompromising way society#wants her to be!!!!#the moral of the story is that if the narrative would have had her recover (which I wish it would have)#everyone around her would need to come to terms with the fact that she is traumatized and there is no world where she is not fundamentally#changed by that trauma#but she can still work on becoming a better person in spite of it#even if she can never become that idealized non-traumatized girl that she will never be#does this make ANY sense#I will say. At least Vi kinda tried I guess lol#but the Ekko thing I don’t know it just!!! hm.#something about it…
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Just finished playing Vampire: The Masquerade - Bloodlines,,, consider my brain chemistry ALTERED
#i WILL be drawing art of that#it's so good#genuinely#THE LAST TAXI RIDE ???#bro#THE ENDING SCENE#OH MY GOD#i may never recover#but i will enjoy my suffering#i can finally introduce the Malkavian i played as#not a great first option when they only speak in “solve my riddles three”#but oh my GOD was it fun i actually really enjoyed playing a Malkavian as my first run through#i can't wait to introduce him#he's butt ugly#i love him#jay talk
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so kusakabe and higuruma Megumi and fucking MEI MEI can survive but Mechamaru Nanako Mimiko and Mai had 2 die. Alright.
#JJK spoilers#Everytime I'm like ''i don't actually care that much I shouldn't be so negative'' I remember that Gege treats disabled characters like shit#And also fucking fumbled some of the characters with the MOST POTENTIAL (THE FUCKING NANAKO MIMIKO AND MAKI MAI PARALLELS)#Anyway I'm killing us allllllllll ❤️#Also I feel like the idea of ''strength'' is never really actually. Fully criticized like maybe I'll have clearer thoughts later but it's#Very much ''dont look down on the weak bc they might be strong'' instead of ''dont look down on the weak bc. They're human beings.''#And that just annoys me personally. Like Suguru is Wrong but the narrative doesn't actually Prove Him Wrong y'know. In the story#He's mostly wrong bc he's the antagonist not bc he's created a whole fucked up worldview as a deeply traumatized teen and then#Created a structure that was abusive not only to the ppl he didnt value but also the ppl he did and NEITHER GROUP IS GIVEN SUFFICIENT FOCUS#AAAAAAAAAGHHHH. <- guy who's interested in cults and cult abuse and wants to see fiction that actually reflects#How cult survivors are affected by said abuse and also recover. Can you tell I'm not over Nanako and Mimiko's deaths because they were#REALLY FUCKING INTERESTING CHARACTERS. CAN YOU. CAN YOU. CAN Y#Somehow everything I write Abt JJK ends up being about how I wish I could enter the story and crucify Geto. I hate that motherfucker#(he's was my first favorite character in the series and even tho he's been rightfully usurped he's genuine fascinating both in general and#Also specifically bc his character touches on some of my preexisting interests and also I feel like no one else understands him.#And when I say that I mean no one else wants to beat him to death with bricks and rocks and blunt weapons for the right reasons like I do)
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