#i make terrible life choices

[luthienne]

anyway literally everyone is going through something all the time!!! everyone is wounded!!! everyone is human & no one makes it out of this life unscathed!! maybe try approaching people in good faith instead of always defaulting to the worst possible interpretations of each other

[feralfrey]

i mean yeah if i was a high class english woman in the 1800s(?) constantly putting on a facade in order to fit into societal norms to avoid being ostracized, deemed a ‘madwoman,’ and hidden away/locked up or even worse institutionalized, i would ALSO feign ignorance when a loud-mouthed gossip i have to live with started poking around and questioning the particulars of the relationship i had with the woman scandalously dressed up like a man. it would be second nature to deny any acquaintanceship. also, on a more personal note, as a queer person who used to be closeted because being out would put me in a very dangerous predicament at risk of bodily harm, if someone snidely asked me if that “odd girl” was my “…friend” (the undertone in that friend is very clear, ada is an idiot but she sees things) i would panic and do everything i could to create distance between myself and the “odd” girl in question, both for HER safety and my own. anyways i love annabel lee and i think her character is phenomenal and so well-written, im so excited for s2

[buckyscap]

you know when you experienced something so traumatizing or grieved too hard your brain sort of temporarily locked that memory to protect you from the pain? i think that's what's been happening to me after deadpool 2 bc tell me why every time i rewatch that movie, i always forget how painful these scenes are?

they always leave me sobbing and totally wrecked but with each rewatch i'd just... forget they would eventually happen and i'd eventually get hurt??

[kaelidascope]

You're A Hot Mess Chapter 1 is LIVE

**SHAKES TOXIC BAG OF DOGGY TREATS**

Oh boy here comes that shiny new toxic AU I warned everyone about

MIND THE TAGS FOLKS IT'S WRITTEN OOC ON PURPOSE!

This fic is a fucking dumpster fire, I'm not gonna sugar coat it. If you get mad at mischaracterization, trust me on this one and move along. This is my self indulgent trash AU it's not gonna be accurate or good by any means but I mean hey if you like drama, smut, and cliffhangers then COME GET YOUR RANCID BAD HABIT BEES <33

Also this isn't the only thing I'll be tossing up today so keep an eye out c:

[uselessnbee]

what i wish people would also explore more when it comes to Percy is the other side of his feelings about his mom about family and his childhood but this fandom is too afraid to paint Sally even in the slightest bad light (even if it's not bad just acknowledging her flaws because she's a human being and not perfect) that no one will touch on that subject. like yes Sally is the best mom but she also isn't and that's the thing! She isn't perfect! but she tried her best but her best still got Percy hurt and it isn't her fault at all but that's the tragedy of it. i want Percy's feelings about this explored. how he grew up with a loving mom but an abusive step father. how his step father would humiliate him and call him stupid but then his mom soothed him and told him he's not the things Gabe calls him. how Gabe would hurt him and Sally would be there to make him happy and loved but at the same time she stayed with him. i want Percy's feelings explored about how he knows his mother loves him but her absence still hurt him. she would work so much to have money to raise him she did that for him but at the same time it meant Percy was left alone or with Gabe. Sally gave up so much for him, she sent him away to protect him but at the same time he was sent away from his mom. she's the only parent he has because his father is absent and Gabe is not actually a parental figure at all but she's also often absent in his life too and that must have left him with such mixed feelings because it's not all black and white! Sally's love protected him but also hurt him. Percy loves his mom so so so much but there's also this deep-seated bitterness and hurt and anger he never let himself feel and then the guilt for having those feelings because his mom loves him he knows that and she gave up so much for him and she married a monster that abused her to protect him, he knows that but it doesn't make it hurt any less. the mess his emotions are because he knows his mom suffered for him and did it from her love for him but he still desperately wishes she never married that monster that he wouldn't have to have the childhood he had with him that he wouldn't have to live with the trauma he was left with. this all is exactly what makes their relationship so fascinating and also heartbreaking.

or the idea of Percy having weird mixed feelings after Estelle is born because that's his little sister and he loves her with his whole heart and would do anything for her and wants only the best for her but there's also this little jealous monster deep down that wonders why she gets to have a loving mom and a loving dad and a happy normal life but he never got that. why does she deserve it but not him? why couldn't he have that too? doesn't he deserve that too? he was just a child too so why why why??? and then the guilt of feeling that way too it makes me want to scream. emotions are fucking messy and they can be really ugly and they can make you hate yourself and there's no way Percy's feelings aren't a mess when it comes to this and i want to see it explored so badly!

and with Sally too! her feelings about Percy because she did so much and tried her best but sometimes unfortunately your best isn't good enough and it still got her beloved son hurt and she hates it and feels so guilty but she just has to live with that but she can't help to wish it was different. that their lives would be different. better. normal. she can't help but to wish she didn't have to do the things she's done, didn't have to suffer so much just to protect her child. can't help to wish she didn't have to worry so much, didn't have to be so scared about Percy, didn't have to be terrified that one day he won't come back home to her, that she won't be able to hold her son anymore because he will be gone, she just wishes he didn't have to suffer so much, she just wishes and wishes and wishes

and i just wish people weren't so afraid to explore this because it's so heartwrenching and yes if you want something do it yourself but unfortunately i cannot write nor am i able to handle this topic in a way it deserves so i am left only with rambling about it on here thank you

[sandushengshou]

The Legend of Heroes | Episode 05

[acaciapines]

i’m still not over the end of descendants of olympus chapter nineteen. if you were wondering.

like GOD the scene w percy-vera-minnie….one thing I adore about this fic is how even when characters make choices you don’t agree with you understand how they were brought there and can trace their progression from the happier days of sosf to the nightmare hellscape (affectionate) that has been this last part of doo. Percy’s actions make sense!!

there is just something so HEARTBREAKING, right. like, I’ve always loved how vera and evelyn’s stories have played out, where ev at the end of sosf accepts that her time has come and gone vs vera who NEVER had a happy life, not then, not now, but it is only in this future where the fates are waning in power that she can grasp for happiness and make it hers. and so vera getting so much: leo, a true honest friend who genuinely likes her; Minnie, the sister she tried her best by and still failed brought back from the dead. even in part two she was at least on halfway decent terms with most of the kids by the end—her chapter ends with them all singing kareoke! (sidenote: BEST SCENE IN THE ENTIRE FIC i will hear no arguments)

and then to get this all she had to do was leave the past behind. all she had to do was drop evelyn.

i actually love that she did it—thematically dropping evelyn to save leo is just SO GOOD, choosing this future over the girl she loved in past. but of course this serves to put her on percy’s shit list, percy who loses not just Evelyn, but silena, any easy relationships with his siblings (ex drew), and he sees vera, the girl who killed his sister, the girl whose fault this all is, because it can’t be evelyn’s fault, he loves evelyn, he’d do anything for her, and it isn’t a tragedy, because vera could’ve pulled her up, should’ve fallen with her if not, leo be damned…

and Vera’s sister came back from the dead, while Percy’s sister is a monster, a monster whose salvation of divinity was stolen by a vera who will not let this life be taken from her…

and all he has to do to fight is to hurt someone innocent, whose only crime was loving vera…

ITS SO GOOD, IS WHAT IM SAYING. THIS FIC IS SO GOOD. SOSF AND DOO YOU ARE MY EVERYTHING!

[nyan-bynary]

I'm gonna have to wait out a few weeks to be able to complain about jjk's ending bc rn half the ppl are bashing everyone who expected more as ppl who just wanted gojo back

[nyenyel]

Just here to happily announce that I feel less trapped and less useless and less weak and I might actually find a way to get away from my abuser!!

[merakiui]

azul has that single dad on vacation vibe nailed to a T in that new card and i’m going insane. i will be his wifey so he never again has to be a single dad on vacation

He's literally this:

But it's okay because he makes it look so good. orz I will also be his wifey so that when he has his next vacation trip he won't be alone. <3 anything to make dilf Azul happy hehe!!! >:3c

[kirkwallguy]

the mental gymnastics i've done for why mary gives a shit about solas is she's literally just projecting... she's sooo angry at everyone in the inquisition for letting everything happen to her. wanting to kill solas is just kind of the only way she can rationalise / express this.

[mlobsters]

supernatural s1e1 pilot (w. eric kripke) part 1 (part 2)

I can't do this alone. Yes, you can. Yeah. Well, I don't want to.

will he stay or will he go part 6 of ?

[talentforlying]

the fact that the "golden boy" is a canonical figure in hellblazer who simultaneously represents both constantine's twin who was never born (thus becoming a spectre of the death of john's mother, a crime he was judged for without cause that poisoned his entire childhood) and also the expectation of who he would be in his father's eyes that was never met and thus subsequently killed........chewing glass would make me happier than these comics sometimes.

[itspileofgoodthings]

you know what I’ve realized lately? that’s really helped? the axiom: it just doesn’t really make that much of a difference. Or at least it doesn’t when you’re talking about good things and not, like, doing good vs. doing evil. Big choices, little choices, decisions, decisions —it’s not just that they don’t matter in the grand scheme of things—because they do! —but just. It won’t make that big of a difference. Life will continue to be wonderful AND difficult, fascinating AND hopelessly mundane, full of roses AND thorns and all the other cliches whether you walk down one road or another. And you’ll get used to the joys and sick of the sorrows whatever they are, and you’ll be ungrateful and bored and dissatisfied in some measure some of the time and you’ll have to work on all the things you have to work on anyways and just. Yeah! It doesn’t make that big of a difference! Even the biggest things!

[triplexdoublex]

No, Kells woke something up inside of most of his listeners and he makes them happy. He makes them feel seen, that isn't saving them. You can feel that way, you can feel the same way about a fireman or police officer saving you from a tragic moment. But no one can save you from a mental illness, mine isn't saved from him. Mine is still alive and well. But in the sense no he didn't save anyone, he sings or raps and we feel safe or cared about in a moment but what happens when the music is off? You aren't saved. My new artist I love who's lyrics are even deeper than Kells hasn't saved me, he makes me think and feel happy in the moment. It's a hug.

Maybe in the term he has but in the sense and in life no he hasn't.

I don't need any hate from this, but only you can save yourself. Only you can drag your butt to therapy or to the rehab center, only you can work on your mental health. Only you can do these things. He can be there with his music but he can't save you.

Yeah obviously he can’t CURE mental illness but there’s people out there who heard his music and decided not to give up, decided they want to still still be here there’s people who related to his music and it helps them feel less alone and understood, and maybe that little push gave them hope or gave them courage to actually go to therapy because hearing their fave open up about mental illness and therapy makes it seem more doable and nothing to be ashamed of. Sometimes people need that first initial push to help them get them started on the rode to saving themselves and it’s possible that they never would have took those first steps without the initial influence of his music. And to me that still counts! What would have happened if that person never found his music …..

[ferncloud]

hmm i wonder if tumblr user ferncloud likes ferncloud...

/.\ MAYBE...