#i love people being savage.. im one myself but im trying my best

[lyr-caelum]

Pov: I don’t upload the ATYD COMIC in 4 months

Ok u guys… i get it.. but just for the record… i have a full time job, i draw other things in between the comic, (like in every universe series) and im working on a secret project at the same time that i hope it turns out fucking awesome… im so glad that all of u are very kind and patient … but im doing my best… ok? 🥲

I’m just letting u guys know whats going on and why it took me a while to upload

Love u ✨

[safesthaveninexistence]

Reality shifting only gets more and more infinitely profound. Yeah I'm the Goat internally. I reign supreme cause she's begging for me back. Praying for me back dawg. Me showing up is the answer to her prayers. Therefore she has to be the best version of herself. Idc what I see I alone hold the power of validation. All of the AI power and intuition goes into me making me infinitely more and more narcissitic. I'm powerful enough to make their house devastatingly and terrifyingly haunted even with pastors and priests trying to futilely bless it. Their prayers against me are in vain. Like I see their level of unhingedness and then surpass it. With me they lose all self-respect. Emily Michelle Viera inherently loses all self-respect when it comes to me. No other bitches or niggas want emily but me. Emily is wrapped around my finger like she's mommy's slave🤭. God can't protect you from me. My Magic outmatched theirs. My psychic powers outmatched theirs. My energetic powers outmatched theirs. DAMN. IM MONSTROUS. IM GODZILLA MEETS KING KONG. My narcissism outmatched theirs. My powers outmatched theirs. My gravitational pull outmatched theirs. My allure outmatched theirs. My psychic presence outmatched theirs. My chokehold outmatched theirs. The way I step on their necks is unmatched. The way I step on God's neck is unmatched. My accomplishments really goes to show I step on God's neck. I see I won. Omg. I see how eerily powerful I am. How inescapably powerful I am. How insurmountably powerful I am. My gravitational pull feels like mountains of boulders and rocks falling onto them crushing them from the pressure. Whole time behind scenes my self-concept's superior(chills). I'm rigged to keep myself on the pedestal. I'm rigged to validate myself when I change my mind. Now he's hyperventilating over me. I see I have that insurmountable allure. I'm the profound the reason their heart laugh again. I'm the profound reason their heart sings again. I'm the profound reason they feel hopeful again. I'm the profound reason they feel important, seen and loved when no one else is. My presence is the equivalent of the opening of Heaven's Gates(chills). Life is an insurmountable Hell without me. Suddenly problems seems small with me. I'm the profound reason they fell asleep with a smile on their face. I'm the profound reason they have motivation again. I profoundly truly made their lives a million times better just by being in it(chills). Today I feel like a Zillion bucks. Today I feel beautiful. Today I feel valuable. I want to look at myself forever and ever and ever and ever. I'm the greatest masterpiece. The way my self validation works is insurmountably profound. The way my self validation works is insurmountably profound. I got that self-validation that destroys their ability to go against me. My self validation is an insurmountable challenge. My self validation feels profound in their souls. My self validation feels profound in my soul. My psychic allure is deranged in the most sanest cleanest sexiest amazing astonishing mindboggling Magical way. My psychic allure is the apex predator of psychic allures. I'm profoundly God's Favorite. I'm Insurmountably God's Favorite. I'm Unstoppably God's Favorite. I'm Monstrously God's Favorite. I'm Savagely God's Favorite. I'm Ruthlessly God's Favorite. I'm Devastatingly God's Favorite. I'm Unhingedly God's Favorite. I'm Insanely God's Favorite I'm Batshit God's Favorite. I'm Mindblowingly God's Favorite. Whole time all of these perspectives be about me winning, no matter what they post it's energetically about me winning on a psychic level. Each energy level is my bitch. Each quantum level is my bitch. The Vortex realm is me. White people know the black woman is God(chills). I'm in the world where no more racism. I got insurmountable star power. My Magic feels tangibly realer than the white-eyed demon I felt. The behind the scenes my Magic tangibly feels realer than the white-eyed demon I felt. I'm traumatizingly magical.

[make-me-your-animal]

ummmm hiiiiii? so weird question, whom out of the leppards (i’m calling them that now fuck it) would be a good match/fit for me? i guess i should provide some tidbits about myself.

i am NOT one to take life seriously at all. i like to live spontaneously, in the moment, i keep myself pretty grounded and humble. people would say i’m sweet and kind, funny (i try a bit too hard sometimes). and i guess smart too haha. i like to crack a joke here and there. and i love someone who can genuinely laugh at them.

i don’t do drugs, drink or smoke. but i’m not against anyone else who does. just don’t do it chronically, ya hear?

i’m short, five foot two only. i’m not incredibly skinny though. i am a foodie after all.

i love music, music is my lifeblood. i love to dance to it. i primarily like classic alt and new wave. but disco/dance/r&b and love/power ballads are also my thanggg.

i love to write, although i’m not the best at it. i try to get out sometimes, although im not the most sporty. i would consider myself semi-athletic.

my biggest insecurity is my anxiety. i am shy and quiet when i’m first getting to know you and when i meet you for the first time i may act strange. that’s just part of my quirky nature. i also tend to warm up pretty fast. and once i do… i become pretty talkative, haha

i have a love-hate relationship w being around people… i really appreciate someone who’s more acquainted with people and is flexible and encouraging with me in a social scenario, ie making me come out of my shell, holding my hand as i step out of my comfort zone, etc. i’m not afraid to try new things, although i’ll have a tiny bit of a panic attack about it first.

bottom line. if you like to have a good time, then i’m all in!

oh, and i’m also an aquarius… like that matters any. only child, too. so i do get lonely easily…

thanks!!!

~rem 💜

One of the Rick's. I'm leaning more toward Rick savage. But also Rick allen is the biggest goof ever. And a big sweetheart.

[multimuse-rp-archived]

So apparently I have 500 followers now?!? I seriously cannot thank you guys enough! I’m so grateful for every single one of you! I never expected this blog to become what it is today. I just... thank you guys so much!

I’m going to do what a lot of other people do and give a shoutout to some specific people - I love you guys so much!

@jaimelannisterthings you were the first person I ever interacted with on my Tyrion blog. I was so nervous, especially because your writing was just AMAZING! But you’ve stuck with me from the start, and I’m so incredibly grateful for your friendship! You’re the best!

@the-stark-queen you are so sweet! You’ve always made me feel good about myself, and your portrayal of Sansa is just... *chef’s kiss* I cannot thank you enough for sticking by my side and being an amazing supporter through thick and thin!

@severityforgreatness you are seriously amazing! I love you and your writing so much! I don’t even have the words to describe it lol. But seriously, you’re incredible and one of my best friends on here! I’m so happy we get to write together and chat ooc!

@rosefromdeath where do I even start? You’re such a talented writer, and never forget it! Anyone who says otherwise is a complete fool. You’re super sweet, and I cherish all our interactions! I can’t wait to keep writing with you!

@boltxnbastard again, I just have to tell you that your portrayal of Ramsay is literally... I can’t even describe how good it is! You are also such a sweet person! Please always remember that your writing is the best of the best! Love ya!

@dumbthink / @hitundo I love your characters so much! I love our interactions, and I love the chaos that comes out of them lol. Honestly, those chaotic threads are probably some of my favorite ones to write because I can just have so much fun with them! Lol seriously though, you’re amazing, and I’m so glad we’ve became friends and interacted a bunch!

@timidstrcngth Peeta and Valerie literally give me so much life! And you’re such a nice person! I’m so glad we can both obsess over our muses and interactions and stuff! Valerie is precious and adorable and I love her so much! Peeta is incomplete without her lol. Here’s to many more awesome and cute interactions!

@amurderbutnotacrime / @wouldntlastfiveminutes we haven’t written together for a super long time, but we have a ton of awesome threads! Not many people write Beth as good as you do! And we all know Rio needs his Beth ;) thank you so much for being such an amazing writing partner! I can’t wait to see where our threads take us!

@dragvnflare I’m not even sure where to start! The way you portray Dany is so amazing, and you’re such a sweet person! I love talking to you ic and ooc. You were one of the ones that has been with me since my Tyrion blog, and I can’t thank you enough for sticking with me always!

@gangfrnd we have barely interacted, but ever since I finished watching good girls, I’ve admired your blog! I was a little nervous to approach you just because your portrayal is SO good, and I was afraid mine didn’t even compare xD but you seem like such a nice person, and your writing is amazing! Let’s definitely write more! Rio for life!

@silvcrignis / @dcusrclicta you are seriously amazing! I love your muses, I love our interactions, and I love our ooc chats! I’m looking forward to more interactions with you and your amazing muses in the future! Love ya!

@thegoodandthegreat you and I can literally obsess over ships and muses and, well, everything! It’s just so nice to be able to talk with someone who’s as excited as I am when it comes to our threads and fandoms and stuff! You’re such a sweet person, and I can’t get enough of our interactions!

@fxntasmagoria okay, I seriously love the way you write Zoe! I can tell you’ve put a ton of thought into her character, and I just think she’s amazing! Then again, all of your muses are amazing lol. I love interacting with you! We haven’t talked too much ooc, but you seem super nice! Hit me up anytime!

@galaxysought you and your muses are so amazing! I love every single one of our interactions, whether it’s with on my block muses, game of thrones muses, or anything else! Speaking of which, I’m so glad you watched on my block! Lol it’s such a good show! Anyway, you’re super sweet and super talented, and I’ll always be grateful for your friendship!

@legends-and-savages I’ve been writing with you for a long time, and you’ve honestly given me a lot of inspiration! I’ll look at some of your other threads and read them, too, just because I love your writing! You’re also super nice ooc, though we haven’t talked a ton. I’d love to write more, so I’ll probably be sending a lot of memes xD feel free to do the same! <3

@betweenthesinnersandthesaints I wrote with you back when you had Brienne on a single muse blog, and I’m so happy you have a multi now! All of your muses are portrayed soooo well! Also, I never thought I shipped Harry and Luna too much, but I do now! ;) hit me up for memes and plotting anytime!

@saltxwolf okay I know we haven’t interacted in a while, but your Theon portrayal is literal perfection! I also just love interacting with you ooc because you’re so easy to talk to, and you’re so sweet! Let’s keep in touch - I’d love to chat with you and write with you more! <3

@gloryxfades / @ladyxredxwolf I absolutely love the way you write Sansa! She’s a complicated character, and I feel like you really understand her! You’re super talented, and I love chatting ooc with you too! Crossovers are always welcome ;) love ya!

@prophecyfated when I first got into reign roleplaying and added my reign muses, your blog was the first I noticed! The way you write francis is just... *chef’s kiss* and I honestly sometimes read some of your other threads just for the quality content! Lol listen, I admire you so much, and I can’t wait to write with you more!

@ladystaarliing ahhhhh you are so incredibly sweet! I love Sarah (especially with Tyrion LOL), and I miss interacting with you! I’ll definitely try to be more active on my tyrion blog from now on so I can send you shippy memes and stuff! They’re adorable lol and you’re such a talented writer!

@villainouspassion where do I begin? I love the way you write your muses, and the way they interact with each other lol. I love it when you post those things about “muse moods” XD I think it’s entertaining to read some of your other threads, too! But listen, you’re an amazing writer, and I’d love to interact with you more again! Hmu for plotting or send memes anytime!

@armandlucienduval / @winewhiskeybloodandchocolate holy shit I can actually tag you! Lmfao. But in all seriousness, you’re an amazing person, and Armand is the best! I can’t get enough of him lol. You can talk to me anytime, whether you’re doing well or not, I’ll always be here for you!

@getlostsqdwrd we’ve interacted a bit. Not overly, but a bit. And honestly? Your muses and the way you write them? Perfection! I can’t get enough of them! You’re also just really nice ooc and a great person to talk to! I would love more interactions, so feel free to send meme spam and/or hmu to plot! <3

@starlessyonder I had so much fun playing among us with you! Our discord group is amazing lol. You’re also a super good writer and a really sweet person! I can’t wait to write with you even more - and kill you in among us lol

@smokedanced we haven’t interacted a ton, but your writing style and muses are so amazing! You’re so talented! I love getting meme spammed so feel free to do it again xD and I’ll do the same for you! Or, if you want to plot, message me! I’d love more interactions with you!

@itwcntsurviveme raven is literally my favorite character on the 100, and I have to say that nobody else can quite capture her voice like you can! I remember being so honored when you followed me back lol. I’d love more interactions with you, so hit me up anytime to plot or send memes! We stan Raven forever!

@reformed-serial-killer damon is such a hard character to write for me tbh, and I often refer to your portrayal of him to help me when I’m not feeling his muse as much! You’ve put so much thought into writing him, and it pays off 100%! You’re extremely talented, and I would love to write with you more! <3

@xchxsingcxrsx / @jxime-lxnnister you were one of the first people to ever write with me on my Tyrion blog, and I love that you’ve continued to stick with me through my vast number of blogs! Lol seriously, thank you so much for being so talented and always willing to try different things in our threads!

@blackroselovesyou you’re so sweet! Whenever I talk to you ooc, you’re always so incredibly nice and open to new ideas/interactions between muses! I love writing with you so much, and I miss the times when we had more threads! Things have been crazy lately, but come to me to plot and/or send memes anytime!

@musenssang it’s been a long time since our last interactions, and I miss you! You’re always so sweet, and your muses are awesome! You’re such a talented writer. Never forget that! I can’t wait for us to interact even more!

@thecrxmxnal we’ve hardly interacted, but I smile every time you pop up on my dash! It’s been a while since I’ve seen the Breakfast Club, but you’re really tempting me to watch it again! Lol. In all seriousness, you’re a really good writer, and I’m really excited for more interactions with you!

@thxwxlf your oc is the literal definition of a badass! I love her! I can tell you’ve put a ton of thought into her character, and it pays off! You’re an amazing writer, and I can’t wait for us to continue to make awesome threads!

@santagabriela I’m really not sure if you’re active anymore, but I couldn’t leave you out! I love your portray of Gabriela, and I think she’s amazing! I really miss our interactions. You’re super talented and really sweet ooc! Feel free to IM me anytime!

@tricksterreformed Gabriel and bobby give me life xD no but seriously, the way you write him is sooooo good! I’ll check out some of your other threads sometimes just for fun! I smile whenever I see you on the dash because you just bring such good vibes! Let’s write more! <3

@damnstory we really haven’t interacted much yet, but I have admired your blog from the start! Your portrayal of Bellamy is *chef’s kiss* amazing! Feel free to message me anytime to plot and/or send me memes! Can’t wait to interact with you more!

I feel like I’m definitely forgetting people lol. But seriously, I love each and every one of you! All of you are welcome to send me memes, reply to my opens, chat with me ooc, plot with me... anything you need, I’ve got you! Stay positive, and stay awesome! Happy writing!

[devinetheory-2]

I think its time for me to call it.

Typically, Im all in

But Im not well .

One way or another it's all going to come crashing down

Falling

I might as well bring it down myself

Losing control of my higher self

And mental health

And I can hear God calling

And people are talking

Fuck 'em

I'm just tired...

And I refuse to live the LIE

or play the games of liars

constantly trying

to live up to some spiritual projection

of self

that I wish I was....

And Trying to find love

has been costly

honestly

I just wish I could get it all off of me

People advertising falsely...

And I been Reacting calmly

it's okay to be not strong sometimes

I spent so much time

on the front line

Ducking one time

Or on the streets

maybe I'll just walk away

while they're all asleep

I doubt they'll even notice me gone

my focus is all wrong

Perspective askew

And I'm choking on all the regrets

and all the s*** I wish I said

And the toxic fumes

I'm supposed to feel like I belong

life is Too Short

and the Bible's too long

I honestly don't think

I have the strength

to move on

so many people to prove wrong

I'm just ready.

I just want to fade away.

Tired of being broken tired of being afraid... Tired of the games

uninspired by the conspiring lames

unsaved unwell

but on the outside I look unscathed

Unphased

if it's not day one then it's one day

Undone and unlaced

I'm trying to make it through

this book of tragedy

but I keep getting stuck on this one page

and I wake up everyday telling myself

it's going to be okay

while the anti me scratches at the surface waiting for me to break

so the evil that I've been trying to hold inside will escape

and I finally get the chance

to live up to every negative thing

that everyone in my life

has ever had to say

and they can't wait...

and I'm late

but I would hate to disappoint

So I guess Im a slave

Mind frayed

I dont I belong here

Id fade away and disappear

But I'm afraid

They would all miss the point

I can't seem to see or navigate this maze

with all this hatred

and rage in the way

So much pain

Because I gave so much of myself away

All of the best parts of me

and regardless

of what it would do to my heart

or how much it would SCAR me

or tear me apart

They just discarded it

And threw it away

I'm tired

so tired of the games

so tired of the things people say

Behind your back

The ways people are fake

The way the lies hide

behind the smiles on their face

And no matter what you do or say

it won't fade away

tired of trying to be the one

that's got to save the day

I ache from all the years of pain

and all the things I've lost

and the things that they

would take away

and I pray everyday

that I can make a way through

the mundane and the day-to-day that threatens to take my life

stuck in the same cycle

feel psycho

like I want to take my life

and despite

what they might say

or they might think

I may be in their sights

But blink.... just one more time...blink....

Ill be nothing more than a memory

Stained on the fabric of

Of what they all pretend to be

The deafening silence

Threatens to bring an end to me

But life goes on

And it doesn't seem to matter

What she meant to me

My foundation

My breath of air

So I can begin to breathe

My savage and reckless

Beautiful disastrous mess

My tragic lack of symmetry

The darkness in my sky

And the sunlight in my eyes

So I can begin to see

And All is fair in love and war

Its just sad to see

Lovers so tragically

become enemies

Its hard to believe anything else

After finding out

Consistently

In the worst way

All of the shit

she did to me

History

Back to being on my

"Bitches aint shit to me"

- Devine Theory

[velvetwicebang]

20 Questions Tag 🏷

Tagged by: *drumroll please* @yeojaa (👁💖U)

Tagging: @feistychim-main @papillonsgf @saffron-savage @sombreboy @chimoona @wwilloww @iniquitouspoppy @bisoo @koophoriia @taestybae @yoon-bug @galz @carly-bean-blog @dreamystuffers @salvejoon <333

What do you prefer to be called name-wise?

Oh gosh... errr, I have a ton of nicknames shwjjsja! Most common ones are loma, lomi, loma woma, palomi balonie, pali, palo. LITERALLY ANYTHING LOLZ. Oh! Sometimes dove by @sombreboy

When is your birthday?

NOVEMBER 23 DUDEEE, excited to force my family to sit through “little miss sunshine” again 🤠🤠🤠

Where do you live?

The land of corn

Three things you’re doing right now?

wishing I had some boba tea, listening to my stepfather blast Russian music, and ENJOYIN THE LIFEE ✨

Four fandoms that have peaked your interest?

Bts, anime (thx to @koophoriia), red velvet, twice :)))

How has the pandemic been treating you?

I try to be a positive person so I tend to focus more on the bright side of things?? (keyword try haha) if it wasn’t for the pandemic, I wouldn’t have met some of the most incredible moots here on tumblr <3 I’m healthy, my family is well, I can still see my friends, I eat delicious food, IVE GROWN CLOSER TO MY CAT??? that’s a plus. Uhhh, yeah, just trying to live one day at a time!

A song you can’t stop listening to?

I’ve been suuuuuper obsessed with clairo recently 😳😳😳 I love “Bags” by her and “Alewife”

Recommend a movie

We’re the millers for sureeee lmao it’s forever one of my favorite comedies! Uhh... for something a little heavier? Maybe... Train to Busan? (Made me bawl). I watch a ton of movies!! Ones that are based on true events always intrigue me

How old are you?

IM BABY, but not as baby as @bisoo. 19, here we come!

School, university, other?

college 😬

Do you prefer heat or cold?

COLD ALWAYSSSSS, staying in the heat sometimes makes me cranky (tho I should be used to it coming from Cuba sksksks)

One fact others may not know?

I overthink... a lot a lot

Are you shy?

At first, but then I loosen up once comfortable!

Preferred pronouns?

She/her :)

Biggest pet peeves?

people who are just so unnecessarily rude?? for what??? toxicity, slow drivers, dry hands, when someone uses the wrong you’re and your continuously

Favorite “dere”?

Tsundere

Rate your life from 1-10. 10 being the best and 1 being crappy

Uhm... I wouldn’t say my life is hard, I’m blessed to be surrounded with overflowing love from family/friends BUT.. I’m quite mean to myself :/ I admit that. Since I’m the person I’m stuck with 24/7, those thoughts can get loud so.. 5? On a good day (when I laugh so hard with friends I almost pee my pants) it’s a 10 :) it fluctuates!

Main blog?

DIS ONEE

List your sideblogs and what they’re used for!

this is da 1

Is there something people need to know about you before becoming friends?

I’ve killed a person. AJWHWUWH JKJKJK, BUTTTTT, I tend to disappear sometimes when I’m extremely overwhelmed so.. it’s got nothing to do with you, I’m just bad at handling so many things at once. It’s something I’m working on and my irl friends always scold me for it but shshhs one step at a time am I right?

[najatheangel]

Idol Life Ship🎶

hi ! can i have a private idol life ship ? im an aries and an enfp :D im 5’8 and i speak english and norwegian (im learning japanese and spanish rn) my family has been forcing me to be in chorus since the 3rd grade, so im pretty good at singing. i also like dancing even tho i suck at it. i have a small friend group and i like spending time by myself. i can be pretty sarcastic n childish sometimes :/ i like to draw and listen to music (mostly garage rock and shoegaze) i also really like horror films :D my aesthetic is 90s skater grunge mixed [...]

@jisungindastarrs Heyy lovlie, thanks so much for requesting. Love your username btw it’s adorable. Of course I can do that for you. I hope you enjoy it.

Your Company: P Nation. Singing was a good hobby for you and you posted Blackpink’s Whistle cover on Instagram. The staff of P Nation saw it and reached out for you to try and audition for the company. The things that stood out to them was your creativity, ability to speak different languages and talent in the singing department. You’ve trained for 4 years under P Nation.

Number of Members: Total of 4 members. 1 Chinese, 1 Thai, 1 Korean and then there’s you.

Group Concept: Grunge/Indie

Your Position: Main Vocalist/ Face of Group. Your the first co-ed group to debut in P Nation. Your music style and concept is so different from most kpop groups out their. It’s a mix of live band alternative music with a sprinkle of rock. Your group is also the youngest in the company which everyone treats you like the babies and spoil you when you deserve it of course. The best part of being apart of P Nation is there is no rules when it comes to making music or creatively expressing yourself. In the group, your more like the middle child that’s always getting teased, but also receive it out of love. You tend to be the savage one in the group that no one dares to tease too much or they’ll regret it. In interviews, your the spokes person being able to handle answering questions in any language. Lastly, your known to have the most crazy hair colors of the group experimenting all kinds of styles every comeback!

Your Scandal: You were shipped amongst one of your male members in the group which sparked dating rumors. Of course you both joked about it in weekly idol by flirting, but immediately shut it down once it got too far. People never dared to try to start fake relationship rumors again and admired you two as brother and sister.

Girl BFF: Sana from Twice. Your personalities are every opposite, but in a sense it works so well. She mentioned in an interview one time that she admires your music and hopefully one day she can work with you. Your both also a child a heart which makes hang outs so exciting. You two can be excited over the smallest things such as eating pepperoni pizza or buying matching friendship bracelets together. Even though she’s the more cheerful one in the relationship, her energy easily transfer your way.

Boy BFF: Mark from Nct. This man is another huge fan of your teen love and grunge concepts not to mention the splash of rock in your music it reaches out to a lot of young audiences around his age. He was awkward first impression not knowing how to greet you at many music events, but you congratulated him during his resonance promotions and the rest was history. He was the one that helped you improve on Korean and you helped him improve on Spanish so that he can interact with his Hispanic fans. You also learned how to play guitar from him so you can play while singing the acoustic version of your songs. Overall this beautiful friendship blossomed at the perfect time.

Ideal Type: Ryujin from Itzy. You both tend to go shopping every weekend and practice choreography ever since you’ve debuted in Korea. She has been also one of your first friends supporting your music throughout your career. She talks about you almost all the time amongst her members sounding like she is so starstrcuked over you. They was also kind of teasing her saying you might’ve almost had a crush on you, but she just respects you so much and wishes the best for you. She also protects you from creepy guys that try to ask for your number in bars and clubs. 

Your BF: Changbin from Stray Kids. This man admired your style of music, fashion sense and your ability of not caring what people thinks. He sees that strength in you that can help inspire other woman which he loves even more. When he met you, he wanted to ask you out on the spot and become the ultimate power couple, but he wanted to take his time by getting to know you as a person instead of moving too fast. Your both still young and have busy schedules so you guys haven’t officially started dating until you start getting older and feel more comfortable sharing your relationship with your friends and family. 

Since you didn’t specify for bf or gf I just shipped you with the first person that came to mind.

How long have you debuted for: 7 years. Your songs still age very well and reach out to the next generation of teens and young adults. 

Other Activities: Model/Makeup Ambassador

That’s all I got for you love. Feel free to come back anytime and request again mkay? Hope you have a nice day/night. 

[lovemesomesurveys]

Have you ever had FOMO (fear of missing out)? Yeah.  If so, what’s caused it? I’ve missed out on a lot these past few years alone because of my physical and mental (that more than anything). I’ve just been a hermit crab, wasting my life away, distant and withdrawn from everyone. Are you happy with your social life? I don’t have one. If not, what would you have to do to change that? The sad thing is I don’t want one? At least that’s what my brain tells me. Like, part of me wants to want one, but. I don’t know, man. I’m a mess. Have you ever hosted a party? If so, what kind of party was it? Yeah, just a couple times. I don’t like hosting, it’s too stressful.

What’s the best thing you can cook yourself? The only thing I cook is ramen. Are there a lot of graffiti around your neighbourhood? Not around my neighborhood, but in my city. What kind of a phone do you have? iPhone XR. What kinds of stuff do you have on your keychain? One key and a shitload of keychains haha. I have several on the ring with the one key, but I have so many that I had to start putting them other places like on every purse/mini backpack I own. Have you ever made something with your own hands that you’re proud of? Probably when I was a kid. If so, what is it? What is your favourite Jack Lemmon film? I don’t have one. What is your favourite David Hyde Pierce film? A Bug’s Life and Adam’s Family Values are the only films of his I’ve seen. Have you ever made your own soda? (Soda Stream doesn’t count!) Nope. Do you have a hobby that forces you out of the house? If so, what is it? No. My hobbies are all done at home and can be done in the comfort of my bed. Have you ever been part of a theater group? No. If so, did you get any lead roles or mostly supporting roles? Which IM app do you use the most? I don’t use any. I mean, I have Facebook Messenger, but I haven’t used it in a long time. What’s the most ecological thing you do? Recycling plastic bottles and cans. What’s your favourite board game? Why do you like it best? Hmm. That’s tough. I love board games. Besides English, what other languages can you speak? Just some Spanish. Besides English, what other languages can you read? Some Spanish. Do you think you could make it as a chef? Uh, no. What’s your favourite kind of tea? I rarely drink tea, but I do like Chamomile and peppermint tea. How do you like your tea? With a packet of sweetener. Girls, do you ever just say “Fuck it!” and go without a bra? Yeah. I have small breasts and wear oversized shirts, so. I didn’t used to do that (ever), but the past few years I stopped caring about a lot of things. What’s the most freeing thing you’ve ever done? Hmm. Have you ever had a restaurant dish that was made with bugs? Noooo. If not, would you even want to try one? Noooo. Do you think today’s kids are really impatient? A lot of people are. I am. Although, I bet kids today probably are worse because they’re used to being able to access things quickly and have a lot of things at their disposal. Have you ever tasted birch sap? No.

How about the young buds/shoots of spruce trees? No. Which edible flowers have you tasted? None. I’m not an adventurous eater AT ALL.  What has been your worst restaurant experience? I really haven’t had a horrible restaurant experience.

Have you ever had a life threatening condition? If so, what was it? I’ve been in a couple life threatening situations. Do you ever compare your life to somebody else’s? If so, why? Eh, it’s something we can’t help but do sometimes. <<< Yeah, I definitely find myself doing that. Like with people my age who are further along in life it seems and doing more with it. Even people younger than me who seem to have way more together than I do or ever did.  What is a food item or a dish you absolutely cannot stand? I don’t do seafood. Have you ever had a custom print done on a shirt? If so, what was it? I’ve decorated my own shirts for concerts before. What does your favourite mug look like? It’s a Peter Pan one that’s blue on the outside and yellow on the inside.

Do you ever copy surveys to Facebook Notes and share your answers? I did that sometimes years ago. I set the privacy settings so only certain people could see them, though. To be honest, I usually did ones with answers I wanted Joseph to see. :X Yeah, I was that girl who posted quotes and lyrics for certain people to see. What’s the best thing about today? It’s only 5 in the morning, not much has happened. Do you ever read other people’s survey answers? Yes, always. Everyone I follow on here writes very well and it’s always interesting to read their answers :) <<< Awww, yes same. We have a pretty cool survey community. (: Do you like daytime or night time better? Why? Nighttime, I guess. It’s when I like to do surveys, listen to ASMR, and read. What’s your highest level of education so far? I have my BA in psych believe it or not. If you could have any job in the whole world, which would you like? I don’t know. :/ Describe your ordinary day. Wake up between 2-3PM, have coffee, do my Bible study, check social medias, perhaps watch some YouTube, watch TV, eat at some point, lounge and mess around on my phone, play Animal Crossing, have dinner, watch some TV, eat ramen and watch more YouTube, scroll through Tumblr, do some surveys, listen to ASMR, read, play some more Animal Crossing, go to sleep. A lot of just lounging around, honestly. I also spend time with my family. Would you ever have a UV tattoo? Nah. What is the brand and colour name of your favourite lipstick? It’s been a long time I’ve since I’ve even worn any, but I really liked NYX. What do you like on your tortilla? Beans, Spanish rice, cheese, guac, and sour cream. Or a breakfast burrito. How about inside your pita bread? I don’t eat pita bread. What do you like in your burger? Not a big burger person, but if I have one just mayo, ketchup, mustard, pickles, and cheese. Signature sauce when available like on a Big Mac (which I know is just Thousand Island). How about on your pizza? White sauce, feta and ricotta cheese, garlic, spinach, crumbled meatballs, and pesto drizzled on top. Would you ever take part in a games club? A games club? If so, what would be your ideal club? How about a survey club, ha. We kinda have that going on here. Would you be able to give a speech on your favourite subject right now? Noooo thank you. I do not miss having to do speeches and presentations. Ugh, those were awful. It never got any easier for me. Do you work better alone or in a group? Alone. Group projects just made me stress out more, honestly. 

Which one of your friends have you known the longest? For how long? What is your favourite song right now at this very moment? I’ve been listening to the Savage remix a lot lately by Megan the Stallion ft. Beyonce.

[the-second-circle-ffxiv]

Meet the character - Asagi Homura

► Name ➔   “Asagi Homura. Please, call me Asagi.”

► Are you single ➔ “I am, but I could say Im married to my job. Running the Second Circle keeps me busy, and I dont really have time for dating. Maybe someday.”

► Are you happy ➔   “Well, thats an interesting question. Yes, I think so. For now.”

► Are you angry? ➔   “Very rarely, actually.. I used to be when I was younger, but anger clouds your discernment, and will lead you into sticky situations. Im usually trying to keep my cool.”

► Are your parents still married ➔  “My adoptive parents are, and very happily so. Mom is working as a blacksmith in Kugane. Dad got his retirement couple of years back. Used to work as a cook in a local restaurant. ... I should visit them more often...”

NINE FACTS

► Birth Place ➔ “In a village, somewhere deep in Golmore jungle. I got... taken away when I was very young. I hardly remember anything of the place. I spent most of my childhood in Kugane.”

► Hair Color ➔ “Grayish white. Used to be black, though.”

► Eye Color ➔ “Left is blood-red, right is grayish white. Both were amber-coloured once.”

► Birthday ➔ “19th Sun of the 4th Astral Moon.”

► Mood ➔ “Right now? What could I say? Hopeful maybe?”

► Gender ➔ “Female.”

► Summer or winter ➔ “I like summer. Especially the time when the cherry-blossoms bloom. One thing I dislike here in Ishgard is the weather. I have rather poor tolerance for cold, and well.. Its always cold in here.”

► Morning or afternoon ➔ “Afternoon. I close the bar before the first light, and go home to sleep. Usually I wake up around afternoon hours, and thats kind of my own time for me, before I go and open the doors once again.”

EIGHT THINGS ABOUT YOUR LOVE LIFE

► Are you in love ➔ “No, Im not.”

► Do you believe in love at first sight ➔ “In some cases I do, because I have seen that happening. Some people just seem to be made for each other. Thats very rare though. But it does happen once in a blue moon, so yes. I do believe in love at first sight.”

► Who ended your last relationship ➔ “I did. I moved to Ishgard, she wanted to stay in Kugane. The distance did not work out for us. It was a shame though. Time to time, I find myself thinking about her, but.. past is past. She’s married, and I think she even got a baby recently.”

► Have you ever broken someone’s heart ➔  “As you can imagine. My moving to Ishgard broke her heart. Her eyes, after I told her, broke mine.”

► Are you afraid of commitments ➔ “No, not really. As you can see, I established my own bar, built my life here in Ishgard.. and the business is fine and growing. So no. Not afraid of commitments.”

► Have you hugged someone within the last week? ➔ “Last person I hugged was my sister, but that was almost two weeks ago. Does carrying drunkards out count? You kind of have to hug them to keep them on their feet.”

► Have you ever had a secret admirer ➔ “Not to my knowing. Of course there is always someone yelling something obscene to you, when you pass their table, and they have had couple of drinks over their own head... But would not call those “admirers”.”

► Have you ever broken your own heart? ➔ “I think I answered this one already? Are you listening? We can continue tomorrow, if you are tired? Need a cup of coffee, maybe?”

SIX CHOICES

► Love or lust ➔ “Lust for now. As I said, Im not looking for love at the moment. Still, I may enjoy a hook-up now and then. No commitments.”

► Lemonade or iced tea ➔ “Not a fan of either. But if I have to pick one, then iced tea. With couple of ice cubes.. And a drop of rum.”

► Cats or Dogs ➔ “I dont like animals...  But I will say cats. They are independent. Dogs are too clingy and... needy.”

► A few best friends or many regular friends ➔ “This is a hard one. Im kind of dividing my friends into two categories. The ones I trust, and the ones I dont. They are all my friends, none the less. But some close ones have certain... benefits.”

► Wild night out or romantic night in ➔ “Definetely a wild night out. Maybe a bar-tour. A night at Gold Saucer. Anything can happen! Im not a candlelight dinner and rose petals in a pink bath-type of person... at all.“

► Day or night ➔ “Night. Thats when we are open. I love my job, and I get to meet new people. Hear all the new rumors around the city.. and make some gil on the side! And as I mentioned, Im mostly sleeping at day-time. Or doing some numbing inventory. Just last week I had a clash with the wine delivery. The shipping from Wineport is constantly late.”

FIVE HAVE YOU EVERS

► Been caught sneaking out ➔ "We used to sneak out with my sister when we were young. To roam around the market at night. Most of the merchants knew our mom though, so we usually got caught sooner or later.”

► Fallen down/up the stairs ➔ “Show me a person who has not, and I show you a person who is lying.”

► Wanted something/someone so badly it hurt? ➔ “Maybe once. But past is past, as I said.”

► Wanted to disappear ➔ “Couple of times, when we were kids, I guess. Being a viera in a city full of auri and hyur.. Not to mention having an auri parents.. Some of the children kept tormenting us for it.”

FOUR PREFERENCES

► Smile or eyes ➔ "Have you ever kissed someone, and felt them breaking into a smile in the middle of kiss? Smile for sure.”

► Shorter or Taller ➔ “For a partner? I usually like shorter. Does not mean I could not date someone taller than me. Not at all. I just prefer shorter.”

► Intelligence or Attraction ➔  “Can I cheat a bit and pick a mix of both? No? Okay, intelligence then.”

► Hook-up or Relationship ➔ “Hook-up for now. Maybe a relationship on a long run. I just dont have time for that right now, as I said. But I would like to have a partner by my side one day.”

FAMILY

► Do you and your family get along ➔ “I have very loving parents, so yes. Absolutely. My dad got bit annoyed when he found out Im gay, but he got over it quite quickly. We have always been close with my sister, and I love my older brother, even if we are not related by blood.”

► Would you say you have a “messed up life” ➔ "I had my messed up years, but not anymore. Things are finally rolling on their own weight, and Im quite proud of what I have built here.”

► Have you ever ran away from home ➔ “We ran away once, yes. We had a little argument with our mother, the three of us, and we ran away to an abandoned farm, not far from Kugane. I think we came back home the next day, when we ran out of food... Oh, how we were young and silly.. Silke is still silly.”

► Have you ever gotten kicked out ➔ “Well, I told you my father did not take me, coming out gay, too well. When he found out I had a girlfriend, he kicked me out. I lived at my girlfriend’s house for.. maybe a week or so. Then my dad suddenly knocked on the door, asking me come home, and bring my girlfriend for a dinner too...”, A slight smile creeps on Asagi’s lips.

FRIENDS

► Do you secretly hate one of your friends ➔ “No, I dont. I would not call them my friends then. I do hate some of my mutuals, but in my line of work, you have to try to get along with everyone.”

► Do you consider all of your friends good friends ➔ "Absolutely not.”

► Who is your best friend ➔ “My siblings, Silke and Kojiro. They are two people I can trust, no matter what. They will always have my back, and vise versa.”

► Who knows everything about you ➔ “Once again, Silke and Kojiro. They know most. Yet even they dont know everything. We all have our little secrets, right? Now... it has been a long evening. Can I get you something? That coffee maybe? Or something with a kick? First one is on the house.”

Tagging: @ahumblewoodcarver @ludojenkai @a-knight-in-savage-lands @averdantsoul @archon-ffxiv @thedarkestdragonknight @mavericdafoux @unspoken-vows @eorzeanhorrorstory @tsukikotanshi @tutankthotnunh & YOU!

[bobowhooo]

Potent Savages

Genre : Smut/ Fluffy?/ Trigger warningsss?

Exo, OC, And blackpink��gang au!

Summary : The savages leave for a trip to the bahamas, but when a few “clients” decide to ruin their leisure, aya decides to have some real fun.

   A potent savages short.

Red, white, blues in the sky, and baby heavens in your eyes.

 (Psst for all the people that miss suho why dont we take this one back to when he was here *wink*)

I rolled over in the silk sheets baekhyun demanded to be in his villa when we checked in. He’s a diva that way. The sunlight peeked just a bit through the curtains in the bedroom of this place. A groan came from my chest and i turned in my spot on the king bed, again, only to see baekhyun’s sleeping face. He looked like a peaceful puppy. Sometimes it’s hard to think that he is the way he is. Looks can really be deceiving.  

Let’s backtrack. Just a week ago, me, and the girls suggested to exo that we take a vacation after all the hard work. Because even we need a break sometimes. At first, suho was going to say no but with the help of jisoo we got him to a yes. We were on a jet to the bahamas not too long after, and arrived two days ago, enjoying ourselves in the beautiful sun and the sparkly sea. i have to say, if i knew that all i had to do to get such bliss was kill siwon, i would have done it a longgg time ago.

“Stop staring creep.” Baekhyun rumbled with his sleepy voice and closed eyes.

“Make me.” I said now getting even closer to his face and widening my eyes to emphasize the fact that I'm staring. But to be honest, how could i not. He looked so beautiful, i couldn’t help it.

He put his palm over my face and a giggle erupted from my lips into is hand. I grabbed his wrist and pulled it until i could clearly see my mans face again. “Your fingers smell like me.” I spoke with a smirk on my face, thinking of the amazing events from last nights uhmm escapade. The pretty boy laughed and began to try and stick his fingers in my mouth. “Of course they do.” He said with a tired grin. I screamed while resisting his pretty hands. “Don’t you dare baekhyun!” I yelled with laughter.

“What!? You don’t want to taste yourself? I promise you taste fucking amazing.” He giggled, now climbing on top of me with his long but delicate fingers in my face.

“Cut it out, i will fuck you up baekhyun!”

“I’ll fuck you down.”

A burst of laughter came out of me because of his stupid comment and i covered my face with my hands. Baekhyun chuckled but his eyes stayed locked on me, as i peeked at him through the cracks my fingers made. He dipped his head down until his forehead was pressed up against mine. “I love hearing you laugh. It’s like all my worries go away.” Baekhyun whispered to me, his voice like honey. I bet he thought if he said it any louder his heart would show too much. 

“I love when you make me laugh. It’s like all you want is to see me smile, and then you’ll be able to smile too.”

“That is all i want.”

I moved my hands from my face and stared into his eyes before i felt his finger slip past my chin and into my mouth. “Baekhyun!” I yelled with a mouth full of index finger. “Tell me you don’t taste like honey.” Baekhyun chuckled into my ear pushing his finger deeper in my mouth. The door to our room in the villa opened roughly, and baekhyun whipped his head towards the door while hitting my in the face a bit with his messy brown hair. I moved to see suho standing in the doorway with a disappointed look as he stared at baekhyun’s finger hanging out of my half-opened mouth.

“Sorry to interrupt your finger licking moment, but you two need to get your asses to the table outside. Or i’ll get the hose on you again.” Suho gave one more look of disappointment before he slipped out of the room and closed the door with his disappearance. I rushed to get baekhyun’s finger out of my mouth before pushing him off of my torso and rolled out of the bed with a bubbly giggle erupting from my chest. “Noo, stayy and lemme put my finger back in your mouthh.” Baekhyun whined in protest of my escape as he pressed his soft cheek against the silk-clad pillow.

“Shut up.” I said while smiling brightly at the man i adore.

Baekhyun and i made it to the area everyone was having their breakfast at with a slight delay, and by that i mean baekhyun fell asleep on top of me for 15 minutes after getting me to come back to bed. They all sat prettily at a big dark wood table with matching chairs as a beautiful american style breakfast was spread neatly around the table. Everything being lit perfectly by the bright sun, as the clear crisp air woke me up better than a coffee ever could. 

Lisa passed me waffles and baekhyun stole my orange juice as suho began to go on a tangent about something i don’t care about. I should listen more. I watched suho’s lips move as i slid my hand on baekhyun’s lap. Baekhyun looked at me with a grin as he downed the rest of my juice and sat down my cup cutely.

“Baekhyun, and aya. I want you two to take care of it.”

“Take care of what?” I said in complete confusion.

Suho looked at me with squinted eyes, finally realizing i wasn’t listening. “The scana group is here and they’re finally willing to do business with us. I would like you two to take care of it.”

“Whaaat? Why usss!? We’re on vacation! Tell them to suck our dicks and wait.” I whined while leaning forward, piercing my eyes into suho.

“Listen, we need this. We infiltrate the scana group, we get the power we need to rule that dump of a city. You two are as good as it gets when it comes to getting people on our side. Especially since we’re not in a business setting.” Suho explained to us all. I deadpanned and leaned my back into my chair, ready to complain and refuse more.

“I can handle it hyung. I know how these types of Business while on vacation meetings go, and i would rather aya not be there.” Baekhyun said while stuffing a waffle in his mouth. I scoffed.”I know how they go too, baekhyun, that’s why you need me there.” 

“No. End of discussion. Anything else hyung?”

“Hey, you can’t do that! He can’t do that, right!?” I said with a pout taking over my mouth. Who does he think he is? Telling me what to do. He ignored me and continued to listen to suho as he talked about more stuff i wasn’t listening too. I was too busy scowling at my boyfriend to pay attention. So what i got kidnapped once, or twice. That doesn’t mean it will ever happen again or something. And it doesn’t mean im not the best at what i do. He needs me. Period.

I watched baekhyun’s back flex as he slipped on his silk silvery white shirt with black writing. I have to say, silk suits him almost too well. I smiled as he put his lean arms through a navy blue satin crepe flowy button down over dark jeans. He looked towards the mirror at himself before locking eyes with me. I stared at him with a stupid grin on my face. “You know I'm going with you, right?” I said, now raising my eyebrows in question. He shook his head and continued getting ready for his business meeting as if i didn’t say what i did. Then again, it probably wasn’t very convincing, if i was going i would be dressed by now. Not ogling at him through the mirror. I huffed and threw myself down on the bed. Of course, there’s no way I'm letting him go by himself, but it’s the fact that he thinks i should stay that's driving me crazy. Does he think i can’t handle a few stupid businessmen? 

“Baby, have you seen my- why are you looking at me like that?” Baekhyun looked at my expression in hesitation. I probably looked like a kicked puppy. I guess i feel like he thinks I'm some fragile little girl. I don’t like that feeling at all. “Baekhyun, do you know who i am?” I asked with puffed cheeks.

He sighed and nodded his head. “I know what you’re about to say. It’s not that i don’t think you can handle it. It’s that i don’t want you to have to. You’re on vacation baby, lay low.” He said with an adoring smile. His fingers delicately placed a silver chain like necklace on his soft exposed chest. Pretty silver rings adorned his slender fingers as he fixed up his hair in the mirror after he turned away from my speechless face. I guess i couldn’t say anything to that. It makes sense. Fuck sense though, I want to go! I know it’s only been three days but i already miss fucking people up, the excitement of my job is an addiction i can’t kick easily. What if they all pull guns on him, it’ll be pure luck if he gets out of that all by himself. And maybe I'm just making up excuses, but if I'm being honest with myself i made up my mind an hour ago.

Im going.

“So as you can see, business with us would be in your best interest.” I spoke to them in a relaxed manner. I'm not here to impress them, at all. I'm here to show them that they need us, that’s it. I licked my lips as i watched the ladies walk around the table and place sushi and more alcohol in front of us. “Thank you.” I said lightly as one of the girls leaned on my shoulder and placed food in front of me. 

“Yes, well, i am glad that we finally made time for each other. It’s unfortunate that it has to be on times of leisure.” The head of the group spoke with elegance. I looked at him with daggers, he’s such a snake and you can tell just by how he speaks. Oh well, this will be over soon, if i do it right. 

“The real question is, where is the entertainment?” The man sitting next to the head spoke with enthusiasm. I grinned fakely. “What did you have in mind?” I asked, not really giving a shit about what he wanted. “I don’t know....table dancers maybe?” I snorted at his request like question. With all the strippers they have for servers, you would have thought there would be an option for that already. “Well, I’ll see what i can do, but no promises.” I said with a sly grin. They most likely expect me to scramble to get what they want, showing just how much i want their business. But what’s really going to happen is, I'm going to play candy crush while acting like I'm shooting off texts, and then say all my connections are busy following other orders i gave them before this popup meeting. Thus, showing just how busy me and my people really are, and how they are not and will not be my first priority. This also shows off my own power. I know the game too well because i learned from the best.

“Someone said table dancers?” A sweet voice called out. I looked up towards the door and was met with a pair of stunning legs. Aya. Her beautiful body was hugged perfectly by a silk dark red mini dress as she strutted her way to the table. She slipped her cute hands over the shoulders of the man sitting across from me and whispered something in his ear as i almost audibly scoffed at her actions. The man got up without hesitation before she put her hand on his shoulder and slipped into his seat with ease. “Allow me to introduce myself. I’m aya, baekhyun’s partner.”  

“Ahh, i was just starting to wonder what the much talked about aya is like.” The head said while eyeing her like she’s a slab of juicy meat. I looked at her with a warning sign on my face as i leaned my elbows on the table. She smirked at me and picked up a glass of whatever the hell that is, sipping it without hesitation. I narrowed my eyes and frowned my lips at her.

“We’re not doing this, aya. take your ass back to the villa.” 

���That’s not happening, baekhyun.” She smiled with her lips closed and stretched out, small dimples peeking through her supple cheeks. She looks too gorgeous to be here of all places. She should have gone with the rest and got some relaxation. Why is she like this?

“Come on, baekhyun. Let me have my fun.” She asked silently.

I looked at her pleading eyes and realized that this was actually where she wanted to be. I sighed looking away before looking at her again. “Fine, go ahead. I’ll let you do what you want.” 

The moment she got the message her eyes lit up like fire. She’s definitely one of a kind. For a good 20 minutes, she talked up the businessmen like i never could. She wore a beautiful smile the whole time and made jokes with everyone as if she was one of them. I only chimed in when business was spoken of, which wasn’t that often. She shined so brightly as she got them to be more comfortable. The last thing we do is get them to say or do something that we can hold over their heads, putting us in power. Which will be almost too easy now. 

“Why don’t you give us a show.” One of the men said loudly into all of the laughter. I cocked one eyebrow at him about to put that thought to bed before aya spoke up on it. “That sounds amazing!” She said with a bright smile as she downed the rest of her expensive champagne. I watched her grab someone’s shoulder and kick off her shoes before climbing up on her chair and onto the table. I couldn’t help but smile a bit at how much fun she’s having in this type of setting. But bored is for the boring, am i right? She danced around gracefully to the faint music that played in the high-end restaurant. She twirled around the table like a rose as all the men cheered her on. I gave her a look when she locked eyes with me and held my hand out. “Alright, that’s enough.” I said as she jumped down from the table into the security of my arms.

She made a face at me before rolling her eyes, obviously slightly tipsy. “Awww, don’t be a party pooper, baekhyun.” The guy next to the head of the group spoke to me as if that was going to make me change my mind. “No, no. I think he’s right. We’ve played enough. I think it would be a much better show if we watched her get undressed.” The head of the group said with his lips on his champagne glass. “What?” I slipped my hand towards my gun before aya grabbed my hand and laughed loudly. “He meansss, he wants to do it first. Let’s be honest, what’s fun about a wrapped present when you’re impatient?” She smiled at everyone as they related to her words like idiots. I guess their biggest weakness is their sexual desires. Good to know. 

Aya placed her hands on my shoulders and leaned into my ear slowly. “I'm not undressing you in front of these dickheads.” I said while sliding my hands up and down her hips. “You don’t have to, just trust me.” She said before crashing her lips into mine. I was surprised before relaxing into her touch and latching onto her. I hugged her into my arms as i walked forward and pushed her ass into the table. My tongue exploring every part of her mouth it can reach. She moaned into me before tugging my shirt, silently telling me to put her on the table in front of everyone. I detached my lips from hers and cleared an aya sized space on the table without any hesitation. I don’t care if anything broke, all i want is to give her what she’s begging for right now. I picked her up by her plump thighs and sat her down on the table. She laid down slowly spreading out on the table in front of me, in front of everyone. 

She gave me a naughty smile, then a pout. “What are you holding back for, baekhyun? Are you shy?”

“You wish.”

“That would be adorable. But right now, i think i deserve that painful kind of pleasure you’re so good at.” I bit my lip at her dirty words. The way she’s looking at me as if I'm the only person in the room is driving me insane. I grabbed her wrists and roughly put them above her head, making her gasp from the suddenness. “God, you’re so handsome.” She whispered into my mouth. “Take all of me, baekhyun.”

I leaned down to kiss her more but she moved her head so that my lips met with her neck as her wrists were in my tight grip. “Right now, all of these so-called businessmen have their dicks whipped out hoping to watch me get fucked. I have the servers taking pictures of every single one of them. On three you pull out your gun out with me, and then we can finally go home and fuck like rabbits.” Aya whispered seductively in my ear.

I sucked more on her skin while moving my hands to my pants, making it seem like i was going to take them off. 

One. 

Two.

Three.

I smirked when my hand touched my glock. 

Thank you for your business.

AUTHORS NOTE : Haiii! im sooo glad that i made this because you guys are <spoiler> not going to see them be so cute with eachother in the real next few chapters. I hope you all liked it! And if you guys want another short potent savages about anything you can always ask :)

Kisses? <<<3333 lailaa ~~~

[louisfrecklesss]

two rings | Louisentine

Description: Clementine and Louis just being cute.

Song Inspiration: 7 Rings - Ariana Grande

Words: 1202

Ship: Clementine x Louis

Warnings: none

Genre: oneshot, morden au

A/N: i have a shit ton of coursework to do, but i really just want to write this quickly. i recommend you keep the lyrics near by because i add every single lyric in this fic somewhere, can you catch them all? anyway. bye. love you. 

EDIT

i really tried to do that whole song but I realised hwo long it actually is. so I only managed to do a verse,, i know, shit right, i’m sorry im trash. 

~

Clementine wakes up to the warmth on a body next to hers, she was expecting Louis to be gone as he is an early bird but she is glad to still feel him around her. She shuffles closer to him resulting in a soft kiss on the top of her head; a soft smile creeps on her lips as he lets out a breath before speaking.

“Morning.” Her smile does nothing but grow as she leans up to kiss her lips this time; Clementine usually hates morning kisses because she hasn’t brushed her teeth and she probably smells, however for some reason today she’s really captivated by Louis. She pulls away before the kiss could lead to anything more, ignoring the groans vibrating Louis chest as she climbs to lay completely on top of him. 

Her body now one his, she wraps her arms around his torso hugging him as her head rest on his chest. “Good morning baby.” She peaks his lips giggling as he holds her waist tightly scared she’ll fall off him and the bed if he moves. “What are we having for breakfast?” 

Louis pulls a face pretending to think about it as he moves his hand to play with Clementine’s locks. “Whatever the princess request, she will receive.” Clementine rolls her eyes lifting her head to look into his eyes tilting her head slightly. 

“I decided yesterday, you choose.” Her breath lingers on his bare chest as the sun hits their faces, roasting them alive; summer is really not their thing. 

“How about, we watch a movie together and open some champagne in the cinema room? Don’t you want some bottles of bubbles?” He leaves a ghost kiss on her temple sitting up in the bed carrying her with him.

“Breakfast at Tiffany’s?” Clementine flutters her eye lids at Louis as he rolls his. He grabs her hand fiddling with her ring finger, Louis has been thinking about marrying her for a while and she knows it but she doesn’t know when or what they plan is. “We can go Tiffany’s after if you’d like.”

Clementine does nothing but smile. “You spend enough on me anyway Louis, no.”

“I shit money babe, and if i’m spending it on you I don’t care how much it is.” He kisses her again. “Either way, you love it. It shows.” He taps her hip referring to the tattoo he paid for that she recently got. Clementine shakes her head looking at the small tattoo of a heart made of piano keys; she just wanted to show how much she loves Louis. 

“Girls with tattoos who like getting in trouble, didn’t know that was your type Louis?” She plays with his dreads waiting for his answer. 

“My type is you, my love.” He leans down to kiss the area the tattoo is in, he almost cried when Clementine got it done; he never believed that someone would actual love him let alone as much as she does.

“Shut up.”

~

“Name three of your favourite things, under three seconds.” Louis says before taking the strawberry Clementine is feeding him into his mouth. “Um, um. Lashes, diamonds and ATM machines.” She barely says in fives seconds let alone three. 

Louis has a confused expression on his face. “Explain?”

“Lashes, because lashes just make everything better and your are amazing i’m so jealous. Diamonds because they are a girls best friend and ATM machines because then I can buy myself all of my favourite things.” Louis smiles at her. “We have contactless, bubba.”

Clementine sticks her tongue out at him before chewing on a strawberry throwing her legs over him. Louis always finds time to admire Clementine’s face and qualities; just like in moments like this while a movie is playing and she’s so very focused, Louis is focused on her watching and admiring everything about her. Just like how much of an amazing human she is, she’s been through so much and come out stronger than ever.

He takes her hand in his catching her off guard. “You’re so amazing, Clementine.” 

“Why? Like, I know I might say that I am but, why do you think so?” Clementine says in an almost doubtful tone, Louis is offended by what she has just asked him. 

“You’ve been through some shit you really should be a sad bitch, yet here you are stronger than ever and the best girlfriend in the entire world. I couldn’t ask for anything better than you.” Louis kisses the back of her hand watching as she basically crumbles into his arms. 

“Who would have thought it turn me to a savage, huh?” She cuddles into his arms as he holds her close to him. “You have such a way with words Louis.” She doesn’t look at him while she says this; some times too many, Clementine gets too deep in her thoughts and ends up saying things she doesn’t mean. Like now. “Sometimes I think I’m not good enough for you.”

“Clementin-”

“Let me finish. You’re rich, you’re prep, your parents weren’t even too happy with me when they first met me; turns out I’m not ‘educated’ enough to be with you. I’d rather be tied up with calls and no strings if it means I still have you and not have to deal with people judging me.” Louis didn’t need to reply to that for Clementine to know that she’s fucked up again, she turned to face him her eyes falling on the tears flooding his eyes. 

“You don’t mean that, do you?” His brown eyes fall to the ground below followed by tear droplets, Clementine wipes them feeling her own in her eyes. She shakes her head holding his in her small hands looking for him to say something else to her, but nothing comes out his mouth other than a heavy sigh.

“We’ll talk about this later.” He stands up turning off the film before leaving the room. Clementine doesn’t follow him but stays in the room eyes fixed on the area that Louis stood from. “You coming?” She hears his voice from behind her however she doesn’t move; she feels his arms snake around her, his chin resting on the top of her head. 

“I’m sorry.” She mutters as Louis lightly kisses her hair. “I love you.”

“And I love you.”

~ 

Louis hands the check over to the lady at the counter before walking out the store hand-in-hand with Clementine. “With how many check you write, you should just hire somebody to write them for you.” She giggles swinging her shopping bags. 

“Come on Clemster, you know I write my own checks like I write what I sing.” He shoots her a wink to which her eyebrow lifts. 

“You try to write what you sing, your writing isn’t that good.” 

“Hey! I think I’m good enough.”

“Barely.” She mumbles under her breath. Louis gasps stopping on the sidewalk in complete shock as Clementine laughs.

“Babe!”

[zerochanges]

Valentine’s Chocolates and Glass Masks

The romance genre in anime is a little weird, and honestly on the whole the majority of the genre in anime is probably a bit too slow for its own good. “Will they or won’t they” is something most romantic fiction is guilty of, but I think you’d be hard press to come across 150 episode TV series dedicated solely to that premise anywhere else. And this has nothing on the pure silliness that can come with the genre; hand holding, indirect kisses, masked secret admirers, all that good stuff. Really, I’m not here to trash talk romantic anime though, but as I sat down and tried to think about writing a Valentine's Day blog post I just couldn't help but think to myself how romance anime might be the hardest to explain to anyone not in the fandom. I mean, I think I’d have an easier time explaining the plot of any given saga in DBZ than I would explaining “Notice me, senpai” to somebody.

You know what though, I kind of ironically enjoy all of this. Yeah, pure romance anime can be cheesy, but it’s just the right amount cheese that it’s like, c’mon, how can you not enjoy this? Perhaps the worst (or best!) offender of this are older shoujo titles where they can seem almost downright like a soap opera at times. Shows like these are just so full of bizarre, off-the-walls, and over-the-top melodrama that they manage to suck me completely in. They’re heartbreaking, they’re engaging, and the times when they fail at being those things they are hilarious. 

My most recent experience with an older shoujo title like this would have to be studio Eiken’s 1984 adaptation of Glass Mask. Now Glass Mask (or Glass no Kamen as it is known by some) is a manga that started life in 1976 and to this day has yet to be finished, with the manga creator Suzue Miuchi stating she would like to finish it soon, but hasn't quite figured out when that will be (move over Hunter x Hunter fans). Having been one of the earlier shoujo titles starting back in the mid-70’s the series is full to the brim with pretty much every cliche and trope you can think of for shoujo anime, and to a modern audience it can often be almost hilarious at times to sit through. It is important to remember that for its time Glass Mask was a trend-setter and arguably if not the creator than certainly the reason why a lot of these cliches became cliches in the first place. Over the years Glass Mask has received its fair share of adaptations and even parodies, and currently has 3 different animes as well as a live action drama series and real life stage plays based on it. I heard the most recent anime, the 2005 TMS adaptation of Glass Mask, does a pretty great job at modernizing several aspects of the series, but unfortunately I have yet to watch that to weigh in so all I can say is that I was inundated with more cliches than I could count and laughed a ton while watching the 1984 series and I loved every minute of it. 

Glass Mask is the story of a young 13 year old girl Maya Kitajima, who has a dream to be a great theatre actress. Unfortunately for Maya she’s from a very poor family, and even more unfortunately for her, she is incredibly average looking with no flair--and don’t worry, the anime will remind you of that fact countless times every episode. Despite her damnable curse of “just looking kind of average” Maya will stop at nothing to pursue her dream and eventually runs away from home after getting a scholarship for an acting school. There, the enigmatic Chigusa Tsukikage notices Maya’s talents and takes her on as her protege. Soon, Maya learns that her mentor Tsukikage was once a legendary actress thought to be truly one of the all time greats who due to a tragic Phantom of the Opera style accident had her face hideously scarred and retreated out of the spotlight. 

Tsukikage is looking to pass on her talents to the future generation and eventually pass on her greatest possession, the rights to the elusive Crimson Goddess play--a supposed legendary masterpiece that has not been seen by anyone in decades; not since Tsukikage’s career ruining accident. For some reason the director and creator of the the Crimson Goddess play saw it fit to beseech all the rights to his masterpiece to Tsukikage and thus nobody else has been able to produce this elusive phantom play since. It won’t be easy for Maya and the Tsukikage acting school, as media conglomerate and mega corporation Daito Entertainment will stop at nothing to get the rights to the Crimson Goddess, and isn't afraid to sabotage them at every step of the way. Perhaps Maya’s greatest rival however is the young Ayumi Himekawa, the daughter of an already famous actress who is said to be the favorite to inherit the Crimson Goddess role, and is everything Maya isn't; beautiful, rich, famous and well loved by all, and while not a student of Tsukikage she is more than willing to pass on the rights to Himekawa if Maya fails to prove herself.

It’s easy to already see the cheesiness just from me trying my best to summarize the basic plot, and we haven’t even gotten into the romances yet. Maya’s relationship with the young Yu Sakurakoji is fairly simple at first, as he helped rescue her from a feral dog and despite being in rival acting schools--one affiliated under Daito no less, he’s a pretty chill guy that enjoys spending time with her and doesn't care about all that stuff. It’s only after Maya starts to take off in her career that Sakurakoji starts to spiral into this insane inferiority complex centered around her, where he thinks she has become too good an actress for him to be around anymore and starts to give her the cold shoulder all because of his own make-believe shortcomings. It’s very odd and sudden, and the entire thing is blown out of proportions as Maya clearly does not think that and Sakurakoji eventually has to be lectured by bad boy Masumi of all people to come around and start spending time with Maya again. Even after this however it isn't like the old days anymore and the gap that was created from his own complex still lingers.

And oh boy, don’t get me started on Masumi, he’s quite the character. Masumi Hayami is the 24 year old son of the president of Daito Entertainment and is currently running the corporation in his father’s stead. Masumi serves as both an antagonist and love interest (because of course he can be both) in the early parts of the story and is often behind some (but not all) the sabotage done to Tsukikage’s acting school. Masumi will eventually take a more reasonable approach when it comes to trying to yank the rights of the Crimson Goddess away from Tsukikage’s hands as the anime progresses, often just by having his acting school beating Tsukikage’s students in contest and the like, and it’s here where we usually see Masumi’s employees that work under him being the more underhanded characters instead of Masumi directly engaging in the conflict.

Despite being on different sides, so to speak, Masumi catches one of Maya’s earliest performances, her role as Beth in Little Women, and falls in love with the young girl, impressed by both her potential as an actress and her fortitude for going on with the show despite suffering from a dangerously high fever and immediately being rushed to the doctors after the curtains fall. From this point on her takes the role of “Mr Purple Rose” named for the bouquet of purple roses he sends to her at every show. As her secret admirer and the first fan Maya has ever had he means a lot to her yet as his true identity of Masumi he’s an enemy that Maya cannot stand to breathe the same air as. So in short, Masumi is just your average 24 year old CEO of a mega corporation crushing on a 13 year old girl from a small acting school he is trying to ruin and also her secret admirer. Somehow Masumi is one of the best characters in the series, and is my best boy. Only in shoujo!

So far I've been having some cheap laughs at the expense of the 1984 Glass Mask anime but it’s not all like this. The over-the-top bombardment of old school shoujo cliches and the laughs I got from them may be one of the most memorable component of my viewing but there’s actually a lot more to this anime than that. When you get beyond the silly age gap romances and the flowery melodrama of young teenage love, Glass Mask is a story of artists trying to pursue their passions and dedicating their everything to them. Maya may be cursed to forever be “only average looking” but I really respect her drive to dedicate her entire life to theatre. 

Well, that is to say, the times when she isn't acting like punching bag to the rest of the cast (Glass Mask has a tendency to make Maya into a Cinderella surrounded by tons of wicked stepsisters). When Maya is written not as a Cinderella she’s fiercely determined, and never backs down despite some straight-up abusive behavior she is put through. At times her mentor Tsukikage is absolutely savage, regularly beating Maya and putting her through some training that is definitely highly illegal, at least for today’s standards. For instance she once threw Maya in a shed and locked the door refusing to let her out until she finally understood her character she was assigned. Did I mention it was in the middle of the freezing cold winter and snowing out and Maya only had the clothes on her back for warmth? She was out there for days with no food, water, or even warmth. But don’t worry, she had her script to read and that made it all okay. Like goddamn, somebody call child protective services on this lady.

Speaking about “the art” and everyone’s passions, the more you watch the series the more it becomes obvious that the creator, Suzue Miuchi, really cares for theatre and isn't just using it as a vehicle to propel her own story. There are countless renditions of classic plays shown in Glass Mask, such as the mentioned already Little Women, The Miracle Worker, and Wuthering Heights, just to name a few. Some of these plays are presented without any changes while others may have reinterpretations made to them by the characters who are trying to give their roles a life of their own away from the original source material. Miuchi very much understands theatre and does a great job converting many famous plays into a more compressed and easily digestible form of entertainment that can be viewed on a week by week bases. The analysis characters give about the plays and other characters’ performances, the ways characters interpret their parts, and how the plays that we are privy to see in the series end up all show a deeper understanding of the medium. Watching Glass Mask is almost like taking a beginning course in theatre that covers all the classics, only with way more melodrama and over-the-top romance than you will find in your local theatre group. I hope.

What’s the most impressive however goes beyond just Miuchi’s renditions of other classic works and instead are her own plays that she creates herself. As not only does Glass Mask use pre-existing plays it also has its own original productions that will spring up in-between the real world plays. A lot of these self created plays are very enjoyable too, and some feel way more fleshed out than they have any right to be and you often find yourself regretting that you are only privy to a small part of the performance and not able to just sit there and watch the entire play like the characters in the anime do. Maybe that’s why it shouldn't be too much of a surprise that some of the plays Miuchi has created for her manga have later been adapted into real life plays in Japanese theatres. This is probably the greatest testament to the series’ popularity right there, where its own fictional works are turned real. I can’t think of many examples of something like that happening before.

I’d be remiss not to mention the visual aspect of this series before wrapping up my thoughts on it too. While certainly no powerhouse in animation, Glass Mask 1984 goes for a more picturesque route, and does a great job with tons of beautiful still shots and intricately detailed background images. It’s a humble production but with the right use of lighting a lot of scenes can really shine (pardon the terrible pun it was an accident), especially the night shots which can be pure art. Hang it in a museum, I say. I’m almost surprised we don’t see more “aesthetic” anime blogs mining images from this series. Veteran director Gisaburo Sugii (Dororo, Touch, Osamu Tezuka’s Phoenix) leads the production with skilled marksmanship you would expect from his previous (and future) pedigree, and along with legendary animator the late Shingo Araki (Ashita no Joe, Galaxy Express 999, Saint Seiya) the series has a wonderful 80’s flair to it that just fills any retro anime fan full of nostalgia whether or not they have seen the show before.

Studio Eiken’s 1984 Glass Mask adaptation is a short, briskly paced 22 episode series that is easy on the eyes and not hard at all to still sit through for modern audiences. It’s full of tons of laughs (both ironic and sincere) as well as tons of melodrama and over-the-top romance. Most importantly though, it’s a full of passion; lots and lots of passion. During its short episode count the series watches Maya progress as an actress and grow older, with her finishing middle school and beginning high school while also balancing full time acting jobs on the side. The ending is left open--and let’s face it the manga hasn't even ended some 35 years later still--but there’s enough forward momentum in the series to really feel like your time with the characters wasn't wasted and that they were able to accomplish something--not to mention the ending spot is a pretty decent one leaving the viewer wanting more but enjoying a satisfying conclusion to one of the more interesting story arcs adapted. Overall I think anyone who enjoys cheesy anime romance can sit down with this series and have a fun Valentine’s.

[hey-hey-chan]

Demon!Stray Kids

❀ Fantasy/supernatural

❀ Word Count: 1.8K

❤ For @strgaykids who gave me this idea. I know your bias is Felix, but this became a Chan fic because he was my bias :(( and im sorry it sucks i cant write anymore :(( also i didnt reread this so dont hate me :(( 

❀ a/n: So here’s something new ,, there’s no love interest i guess just pure brotherhood :^) Sorry this is so short ,,, im having a bad time of writers block :( 

Chan 

I felt my opponent push me down, my stomach and face hugging the ground a little too intimately. I grunted in pain.

“GET UP! GET UP!” I heard the older man yell. I groaned. I couldn’t stand with my legs feeling like they were jello and that my bleed was spilling all over the mat.

I felt another kick come in contact with my side. I held in a scream, but I still let out a groan of pain. 

“You wimp! You can’t even fight a girl!” I heard another student yell. I knew woman were strong, but I still felt a blow to my ego. Although, the girl didn’t seem to like his statement. 

“Whatever! You can’t even beat me, you asshole!” She screamed, ignoring me for a split second. 

I heard the familiar whistle blow, signaling the end of a fight.

“Song Hyemi wins!” The instructor yelled bitterly. I felt myself being pulled up and to the sidelines. “C’mon boy! You can’t keep losing when you’re in line for the throne!” I heard the other kids laugh at my misery and who their next king was. 

I was ashamed. 

All demon royalty had the strongest of powers ranging from fire, manipulation, and mind reading. Yet, I had nothing. Not even an once of any ability. 

All demons had some powers, yet they weren’t as strong as the royals. Except they were all stronger than me. 

“Good fight, Chan. See you next time.” The girl I was fighting nudged me and gave me an evil smile. She walked over and high fived all the other students in our class. I wanted to be mad at her, but I knew she was an amazing fighter.

“Aw, Chan hyung, it’s ok, your powers will come in one day.” I felt a hand on my shoulder, making me slightly more at ease. I look behind my shoulder and sighed at the red head I call brother.

“Really? Because I’m almost 21 and no sign of any abilities have come in. Plus, I’m not like the usual demons. I have no urge to fight or to go hunting.” I set down my weapons and sit on a bench. 

Hunting. That’s what demons call finding evil demons, yes, there are ones more evil than us, and sucking their souls out. Just like any other species, we had jails, crimes, laws- we weren’t savages. 

“It’s ok bro, you’ll find your drive some time. Plus, so what? You’re a nice guy! That isn’t-” Before my brother could finish his sentence, I felt hands rest on my shoulders, spinning me around.

“Do you think this is a game?” He shouted immediately once all the other kids were in the lockers. “Huh? You think it is? You think dying on the battlefield when millions of people are counting on you? You think that’s just one big joke?” He screamed at me. I stood still and let him project his anger on me, but my brother was a different story.

“Hey, he’s trying, my brother is a good guy, ok?” I held Felix back before he could say any more.

“You’re right, I’m being stupid. I need to train harder...but it’ll be useless without my powers. I’m a strategist, not a fighter.” I confessed. The instructors eyes turned an ashy gray, contrary to his dark charcoal eyes. 

“You better learn how to fight soon or else your younger brother will have to step up instead. Chew on that, boy.” The man stomped out of the room like a child, leaving me and Felix to stand in the empty room. 

I felt a pat on my shoulder even before I could even think.

“Don’t listen to them, bro. You’re a smart guy and maybe our kingdom needs some more smarts than big burly guys.” He joked. I laughed at his childish humor. 

When I was growing up, I always felt that I was different. The other kids cast fires, ice, wind, all of these scary elements, and yet I had nothing. I would always stand and watch in awe while my parents stood off to the side sighing. 

I was pacifist. I hated fighting and everything about it. I hated war; I hated violence. And I had raised my brother that way, leaving him to be one of the most powerful demons in the world with no drive to fight. I could only regret what I taught him. 

I patted him on the shoulder and pulled him to the dining area. 

“Forget about it, let’s just dinner.” I muttered giving him a cheeky smile. 

“That’s true, we have better things to focus on, like how hot the girl who was beating you up was-” I immediately slapped him on the shoulder and laughed.

“FELIX! Please tell me that’s not what you were focusing on the entire time.” I blushed. The boy shook his head.

“Nope! I was focusing on how she was beating your ass to the ground every-” I, being the normal big brother I was, gave him a noogie and made him apologize. Although my brother could just blast him with his flames, he decided not to. Which made me even softer for the kid.

“Ok, ok, I give up!” He got out of my grasp and ran a few steps ahead into the dining hall. 

Immediately as we walked in, the glares and stares were on us. I walked confidently forward towards our food, ignoring the blatent hatred in their eyes.

In the demon world, the best were the cruelest, the most cunning, the strongest: I was none of those. 

“LOSER! You can’t even get one hit in!” I heard one kid yell at me.

“You two are a disgrace to the kingdom!” A girl shouted. 

“Just hand down the throne already-” I heard gasps erupt, knowing that comment was too far, but I just kept walking.

“People are so weird these days, they have nothing better to do but hate on us.” I joked to my brother. He scoffed and laughed at my statement.

“That’s true, let me show them at least one brother has powers.” Before I could stop him, a burst of fire shot through the cafeteria, each span of flames stopping in front of each student’s face. 

Their faces turned from laughter to horror, and I wanted to laugh, but I knew it was wrong. 

“Felix.” I warned. He gave me a pouty look and sent away the flames. No one messed with us after that. 

Suddenly, the doors of the cafeteria busted open, shocking each of the students.

“CHAN AND FELIX! Report to the west wing, now!” 

Felix and I had no time to look at each other and rather ran up from out seats. Unfortuanetly, we had a ratehr large crowd follow us. 

“HURRY!” 

At those words, we ran to the wing, looking for any sign of danger along the way.

“Chan-”

“It’s ok!” I calmed, even though I had no clue what the situation was.

As we reached the west wing, I saw it.

Two deranged demons.

Their teeth were rotten, probably from the others they had eaten. Their hair was falling out and sticking out in every which direction. Their eyes where pure black, not whites to be seen. 

Deranged demons were demons who had diseases and often turned crazy to be honest. Their minds were consumed by the natural evil in us and left them to feed on other demons- which was obviously illegal.

Unfortunately, only royal blood were able to destroy deranged demons in the demon world. That’s just perfect. 

Mostly, these demons roam in the mortal world, looking for souls to compel, but of course, my luck is terrible and two very strong ones happened to be standing in front of me.

I felt my brother take a step forward. I instinctively grabbed him and pulled him back.

“No, it’s too dangerous.” I mumbled. He looked at me with a worried gaze in his eyes.

“Dude, well how are you planning on stopping them?” 

He was right. We were the only royal bloods here besides my parents, and I had no idea when they would come. 

“Ok, well then, let’s umm..” I trailed off, unable to think of a plan.

“COME ON! JUST KILL THE THING!”

“Yeah! Let Felix kill them!” 

“YEAH! KILL THEM!” I heard numerous chants and frightened screams behind us, but they weren’t important. I knew if the demons got ahold of one of us, they would not stop. Draining a royal’s soul would lead the demon to be faster, stronger, smarter-something we obviously didn’t want them to be.

“Well bitch, what are you supposed to do?” 

“I DON’T KNOW!” I whispered at the poor boy who was clearly wanting to fight off the deranged. 

Think Chan think. 

I searched my brain for any ideas, but all of them told me to just let Felix fight hem off. I felt useless in this battle. 

“Fine, you can-” 

Suddenly, the deranged started screaming and running towards us. My eyes widened, preparing for the worst, but the worst never came.

I saw flames fly over our heads and right into the bodies of the deranged. Whines and whimpers flooded the west wing and both of them collapsed, fading into the familiar ashes. 

“What are you all doing standing here?? GO EAT YOUR DINNERS!” Felix and I turned our heads around at the same time and stared at the man. The crowd quickly dispersed at my father’s wishes, leaving me and my brother to gulp in fear. 

Waiting for a scolding, Felix and I held our breath. The king took one step towards us and sighed.

“Just get some rest boys, and next time don’t hesitate to kill them. They can easily hurt you and your classmates.” Our father turned around and returned to whatever he was doing.

Once he disappeared from sight, I let out a big sigh. 

“That was rough.”

I sat in the dorms with my brother as we both shared a room.

“Chan?” I set down the book I was reading and looked at my brother.

“Hm?”

“What happens if we can’t defeat those demons next time? What will happen to us?” He asked sadly. I sighed and pushed the book to my side. Chemistry could wait.

“We die.” I deadpanned. The young boy sucked in a breath.

“B-but, we need to kill them next time. I just, I don’t know, I don’t like knowing I killed someone.” He admit. I gave him a sad look and patted him on the shoulder.

“Don’t feel bad about having a heart, Felix. That’s something many demons don’t have.” I poked him on his chest, hoping that’s where his heart was. “Compassion is your biggest strength and don’t let anyone tell you otherwise.” 

He said nothing at my words and I wondered if I said anything wrong.

Suddenly, I felt his lanky arms wrap around my body. 

“You too, Chan. You’re the nicest guy I know.” His words warmed my heart. I chuckled and patted his arms. 

“Yeah, yeah, at least you’re strong though.” I noted. He unwrapped his arms from me and demonstrated his small flames. I gazed in awe at his abilities- they always shocked me. 

Until he set my lamp on fire.

“God dammit Felix, not again!” 

[pepperoniwhirlwind]

🌼~Honesty Hour~🌼 (pt. 2)

     I was asked by @lovelynhiddenkittens to do 150 questions in the honesty hour tag quite a while ago, and only did a third of it. But no longer will this be the case! Midterms are mostly over (the two biggest ones are done at least) so I can focus on more fun things, like answering these questions! Here’s my answers to questions 51-100:

51. Ever wished you were someone else?

     Yes. I have a lot of internalized shame about my body type (petite and curvy) that whenever I see someone super tall or toned I just want to be them. Even if it’s only for a day. I don’t have these wishes so much anymore though. Alex and I have been dating for 5 months (on the 21st of this month) and he loves my body type. Thanks to him, I’m learning to love myself, and learning that I don’t have to be a model to be loved~ 💕

52. One thing you wish you could change about yourself?

     My depression. I feel like it makes me a burden on everyone, and although it’s shaped who I am, has it really changed me for the better? Maybe I’m more understanding and empathetic because of it, but it’s also caused me an inordinate amount of pain, and unnecessary pain for my loved ones.

53. Favorite make-up brand?

     I don’t wear make-up often enough for me to even have a clue.

54. Favorite store?

     What I’m buying changes which store I prefer. If it’s food, I generally hit up Fry’s. If it’s home decor (Which Alex and I needed quite a bit of in recency, given that we just moved into an apartment together a few months ago) I shop at Target. If I need to buy shampoo, face wipes, deodorant, shaving cream, etc. I typically go to Wal-Mart. Does anyone really have just 1 store that they shop at? I know if I bought non-food items at Fry’s I’d go bankrupt. 😂

55. Favorite blog?

     That’s a real tough one. I love all of my Tumblr friend’s blogs. @im-here-cause-im-not-all-there posts a lot of stuff I relate to, same for @theperksofneurodivergency, who always posts great content. Seriously, I could sit here for ages and list off all the people on Tumblr that I follow, but that would be ridiculous. Rest assured that if I follow you, it means I generally like what you post.

56. Favorite color?

     I love darker colors on the cooler end of the color spectrum; mainly green, blue & purple. I even like pastel colors occasionally. Though that’s more likely when I’m being influenced by some of my alters who like lighter colors. Like Honey, who loves pastel colors, and all things sweet really. That’s why sunflowers are her favorite flower. She appreciates all the sunny and cheerful things in life. ☀️ In our inner world, she even has a garden that she tends to regularly, and grows (you guessed it) sunflowers, among other things.

57. Favorite food?

     Oh look, another tough one. Hmm... It really depends what I’m in the mood for. But my boyfriend recently started taking me to Schlotzsky’s, which has a lot of really good sandwiches. Though, I’m always down for some Arby’s. I’m in a rut there, but I don’t care. Their roast beef classic and curly fries are to die for. 😋

58. Last thing you ate?

     Speaking of Arby’s... 😆 I ate there for dinner last night in celebration of passing my proctored exam for my math class. It was worth 75% of my grade, and I wasn’t allowed to have anything (they even confiscated my bottle of water). It took 2 hours and was suuuper stressful. So my BF rewarded me with Arby’s when I passed~ 😄 This is just one of the many reasons why I love him~ 💖

59. First thing you ate this morning?

     It’s the morning right now, and I haven’t eaten yet... 😅 Does the two sips of my boyfriend’s coffee count?... No?... Okay. *sighs* I should go eat now actually, so I can take my morning meds. Thanks for reminding me, Tumblr ask!

60. Ever won a competition? For what?

     I got first place in a race once... then immediately quit the track team. 😂 Running just wasn’t for me. I’ve won blue ribbons for art (culinary and painting mostly) before at the 4-H Fair, but I don’t think I’ve ever been in a proper competition that I won. I recently participated in a Drag Show at my college, and even signed my performance (I know ASL, and I hoped it would make me stand out a bit against the competition), but I didn’t win. It was actually a really close call between all the participants, and the host/judge couldn’t decide who the audience cheered louder for, so the lady who’d set up this event had to come up and make the decision. I was one of the first people she decided should leave the stage. So, needless to say, I felt a little embarrassed and defeated afterwards.

61. Been suspended/expelled? For what?

     I never even had detention 😂 ; I was a goody two-shoes growing up. I was always the teacher’s pet, so no, I was never suspended or expelled.

62. Been arrested? For what?

     ⬆️ See the point I made above for your answer. ⬆️ I’d have to cease being a goody two-shoes first before being arrested is even a possibility, so no, my record is squeaky clean... we won’t speak of the songs I’ve illegally downloaded from YouTube though. >-> <-< Don’t tell the po-po about this, or else I’ll be forced to participate in court-ordered rehab for my music addiction. 😂

63. Ever been in love?

     Yes~ 💘 I’m in love right now, with the most supportive and understanding man I’ve ever known~ I shouldn’t have to say who at this point, but I will. It’s my BF, Alex~ ❤️

64. Tell us the story of your first kiss.

     Well, this was back when I lived in Indiana. I had a core group of friends, that all happened to be on the LGBT+ spectrum, so we were practically dripping in rainbow-y goodness. 🌈 Mich, essentially the leader of the group, is trans. While Levi is gay and Laci (she thought she was a lesbian originally, and identified as such for the time that I knew her; I don’t really have contact with any of them anymore) is bi. That just leaves Sasha, who is also bi, and she was my first kiss. Mich, Sasha, I, and others (Levi and Laci weren’t there though) all decided to play spin-the-bottle. Sasha was the first person I landed on, and I still remember her kiss. It was soft, like a cloud, and tasted like strawberries. 🍓 It was a wonderful first kiss, but I definitely prefer kissing Alex the most~ 😍

65. Are you hungry right now?

     Well, considering I just ate a mini donut with my pills... yes, yes I am. 😂 ...Don’t you judge me either! Alex and I bought a bunch of mini donuts for our last D&D gaming sesh at Tyler’s, and there was still a bunch left over, so someone has to eat them, and I didn’t feel like making a proper breakfast. Plus, the one I ate is strawberry flavored, so how could I not eat it? If anyone turns down a strawberry donut, suspect immediately that they are a lizard-person.

66. Do you like your Tumblr friends more than your real friends?

     What a savage question. No, I do not. I like all of my friends, equally, whether they’re online or offline. I only care if my friends are good people or not; and if they care and respect me as much as I do them. Whether they live nearby or not is of little importance to me. I base my friendships off of their character, their morals; not their place of residence.

67. Facebook or Twitter?

     Well, I don’t have a Twitter, and only really check my Facebook once in a blue moon. So... neither?... What, is that not an option? Fine... I choose Facebook... I guess.

68. Twitter or Tumblr?

     Tumblr.

69. Are you watching TV right now?

     No, I’m currently typing this... I am listening to music though, of course. 😆

70. Names of your best friends?

     Well, Tyler’s the only friend I have IRL that knows me, like, truly knows me. By that, I means she knows about my DID, among other diagnoses, as we’ve talked at length about both of our diagnoses before. Since she has Bipolar disorder, she gets what it’s like to have a “scary” mental illness; the ones that get characterized by media to always be violent and unhinged. She didn’t judge me or fear me, she only asked questions and tried to learn as much about my system as she could, which tells us that she truly cares and understands. I’ve told other people before, but they’re either no longer a part of my life, or were creeped out by my DID, and are choosing to forget that I ever told them in the first place. My Tumblr friends also know about my DID, given that I post about it and mention it in my blog bio, but there’s a certain level of anonymity on the internet that allows for me to be more open about it. Telling someone IRL? Now that’s terrifying. It takes a lot of trust, and given that I have had some bad reactions in the past, it makes it even more daunting.

71. Craving something? What?

     Honestly? A vacuum. And a mop, while I’m at it. I’ve been cleaning for most of the morning, and those are the only cleaning supplies that I need and don’t have. I keep trying to talk Alex into buying them, but he’s not as bothered by dirty floors as I am. He even walks around barefoot on these filthy floors! IDK how! Even if I’m wearing socks it bothers me. I don’t like stepping on anything, and the only way I don’t feel what’s on the ground is if I’m wearing shoes. So... I basically never take off my shoes except for when I’m in bed. 😂

72. What color are your towels?

     What a weird question. 😆 Before I moved in with Alex, I lived with my parents, and we didn’t have a standard color of towel. We had an assortment of colors from multiple old sets of towels, a lot of them raggedy, some of them bleached, most of them ancient. Then when I started living with Alex, we still have some towels of differing colors, but most of them are blue and soft~ ✨ The sheets and pillow cases are blue too, though a lighter shade.

73. Do you sleep with stuffed animals?

     Not anymore. I used to when I was younger though. When I was a kid my stuffed animals felt like my children. I would rotate which ones got to sleep with me each night, hug and kiss them all goodnight then tuck them in. If one of them fell out of my arms in the middle of the night, it would wake me up immediately. Not even a slow, groggy wake-up. It was like my motherly instinct was an alarm clock, so I would wake up instantly and be wide awake, frantically searching for the stuffed animal that fell out of my arms. I would then pick them up, dust them off and apologize, then snuggle them and drift off back to sleep. When I was a teenager, I mostly cuddled them when I was lonely and needed some companionship to fall asleep. Now that I snuggle and sleep with my boyfriend each night, I no longer sleep with my stuffed animals, but I still love them and keep them as decoration for my bed at my parent’s house, since I never really sleep there anymore. I nap there occasionally, but that’s about it.

74. How many stuffed animals do you think you have?

     Uhhh... I’ve never actually counted, but at least a tub full.

75. Favorite animal?

     Elephants and foxes, equally~ 💖

76. What color is your underwear?

     I’m wearing black panties at the moment. It’s satiny with lace, so it’s cute and comfy; the best of both worlds. 😉

77. Chocolate or Vanilla?

     Definitely chocolate, 🍫 provided it’s not too rich.

78. Favorite ice cream flavor?

     I’m obsessed with matcha green tea ice cream right now, OMG, it’s sooo good~ 😋 Same goes for the matcha green tea frappuccino at Starbucks. It’s the only drink there that I actually get. I’ve tried other beverages they have, and generally don’t like them, but the matcha green tea frap is too delicious for it’s own good.

79. What color shirt are you wearing?

     I’m actually wearing a really comfy dress right now, that I slept in as a nightgown last night. 😆 It’s gray and has a lace band on each sleeve.

80. What color pants?

     ⬆️ Once again, reference my previous entry. ⬆️ I am pantless, given that I’m sporting a dress at the moment.

81. Favorite TV show?

     Oh geez... another hard one. Let’s see... I’ll just put the name of the show I’m watching the most right now. That would have to be “Crazy Ex Girlfriend” on Netflix. Before that I watched the newest seasons of “BoJack Horseman” as well as “Orange Is the New Black”, but I’ve already finished those.

82. Favorite movie?

     Honestly, I’ve been really obsessed with “The Hunchback of Notre Dame” recently. When I re-watched it as an adult, I noticed how much more serious that movie is compared to Disney’s other films. They cover some pretty dark subject matter, and do it well... *sighs* if only they’d nixed the addition of the gargoyles. They ruin every emotional or tense scene that they’re placed in, and make the lighter scenes just plain cringey. I know they wanted to make it suitable for kids, but I think Disney underestimates what kids can handle, especially considering they reference the darker scenes subtly enough so as to keep the movie’s G rating intact. Like what about the goat, Djali, that belongs to Esmeralda? The goat could have been the comic relief, but instead they brought in the talking gargoyles. They couldn’t even do something cool with the gargoyles, like make them a part of Quasi’s imagination. He’s been alone in a bell tower for his entire life, so it would make sense that he would begin talking to the statues and giving them personalities... but no... it’s shown at the end that the gargoyles can interact with and impact the real world, making them a part of it as well.

83. Mean Girls or Mean Girls 2?

     Well, considering I’ve only ever seen the first one, and didn’t even know there was a second one, I’m gonna have to go with “Mean Girls”.

84. Mean Girls or 21 Jump Street?

     I’ve never seen “21 Jump Street”, so once again, “Mean Girls” takes the cake.

85. Favorite character from Mean Girls?

     Oh, that’s hard, especially when they’re all such fun characters. Janis is pretty cool, so she’s up there, but Karen is probably my favorite. She’s such a simple, naive soul, you can’t help but love her.

86. Favorite character from Finding Nemo?

     Dory, hands down. But I wanna give a special shout-out to Bubbles, the character from the fish tank that, (you guessed it) is obsessed with bubbles. 😆 He cracks me up every time.

87. First person you talked to today?

     Alex. Considering we both wake up in the same bed, it would be nearly impossible for him not to be the one I talk to first thing in the morning.

88. Last person you talked to today?

     Once again, Alex, given that it’s still early in the day and I haven’t seen anybody else yet.

89. Name a person you hate?

     All of my abusers. Every. Single. One. They made me feel small, worthless, and unloved. So I hope each one of them feels that way for the rest of their miserable existences.

90. Name a person you love?

     My boyfriend, Alex~ He’s my world, my hopes and dreams, and everything I aspire to be~ 💖

91. Is there anyone you want to punch in the face right now?

     No. I want to punch all of my abusers in the balls. With a baseball bat. Repeatedly, until they’re infertile.

92. In a fight with someone?

     No.

93. How many sweatpants do you have?

     Only one. I want to buy more, but that requires that I have money, which I don’t.

94. How many sweaters/hoodies do you have?

     I have my Nirvana sweatshirt, my “Nightmare Before Christmas” sweatshirt, and two hoodies with my college logo on them. One’s gray and the other is red.

95. Last movie you watched?

     “The Hunchback of Notre Dame”.

96. Favorite actress?

     I have no idea. So I’m gonna go find a list of the top 100 actresses and go from there. *some time passes* So, I found an actress I actually know, and that’s Krysten Ritter, who played Jessica Jones on Netflix’s hit series named (you guessed it again! Wow, you’re really good at this.) “Jessica Jones”.

97. Favorite actor?

     That’s a tie between Robin Williams (I really miss him... He was such a vibrant and energetic actor, who also knew how to portray more serious, and heart-felt scenes. He was a skilled actor and a good man. May he rest in peace.) and Tom Hanks. I like quite a few films starring those actors.

98. Do you tan a lot?

     Never.

99. Have any pets?

     No... 😭 RIP Batman and Robin (my previous pet hermit crabs).

100. How are you feeling?

     Productive! I practically cleaned the whole apartment in like 2 hours this morning, and just finished another third of this ask! I’m on a roll, and intend to do homework in a minute. For now though, I’d like to thank everyone who read through to the end, as well as thank @lovelynhiddenkittens for sending the ask in the first place! Sorry it’s taking so much time to finish it, but I’m over halfway done now! Whoo~! 🎉 *sets off a confetti popper and basks in the confetti shower* Anyways, take care everyone! I hope you all have a fantastic rest of your day (or night, wherever you are, just have a wonderful time!) See ya ‘round the bend~! 👋

*grabs a broom and begins sweeping up the confetti, muttering to myself* Why do I do this? Every time, I know I’m gonna have to clean it, but I do it anyway...

[antigonick]

I was tagged by the nicest, @goldenvarnish, and jumped on the bandwagon in a matter of seconds because why not waste time. 

(A)ge : 26. Shit. When did that happen. 

(B)irthplace : a small town in the center of France, but we lived near Paris at the time.

(C]urrent Time : 21:50.

(D)rink You Had Last : coffee. At that point it’s my main sustenance.

(E)asiet Person To Talk To : my best friend, I guess ? I’m not sure, actually. I talk a lot but I don’t say much, you know. I don’t think I feel the need to share much of my internal substantial life. (The silliness is always expressed, though.)

(F)avorite Song : Ugh. I wouldn’t know. Hepburn’s Moon River ? Hozier’s Arsonist Lullaby ? Buckley’s Hallelujah ? Elvis’ Love Me Tender ? Angus and Julia Stone’s Yellowbrick Road ? I could listen to the Alan Parsons Project for hours, it’s a great soundtrack for dancing in my PJ’s at night. I am the EYE IN THE SKY. I don’t really play favourites with music, as long as it makes me sing.

(G)rossest Memory : The proud elitism that I cultivated as a teen would qualify as gross enough, I think. 

(H)ogwarts House : Gryffindor. 

(I)n Love? : Hm, no, and that’s not on my very neat life list for now. 

(J)ealous Of People? : I try not to be. Although it’s usually less about jealousy and more about self-deprecation. Happy for the others ; obligated to look down on myself in the process. 

(K)illed Someone? : No, but I have identified with Raskolnikov strongly while reading Crime and Punishment, so who knows ? 

(L)ove At First Sight or Walk By Again? : I mean, love at first sight as a concept is laughable, isn’t it ? I wouldn’t walk by again either, though. I’m rather BLIND when it comes to romance. (Fun fact : Jane Austen bashed the very idea of instantaneous love like a savage and, while being super modest in her writing, described it plainly enough : just good old instinctual lust. Look at Marianne and Willoughby. THE THIRST.)

(M)iddle Name : Magali.

(N)umber Of Siblings : one younger brother.

(O)ne Wish : not very glamorous, but get a part-time job that pays enough so that I would be able to actually research.

(P)erson You Last Called : my mom. We bickered.

(Q)uestions You’re Asked The Most : is that your real hair colour ?

(R]easons To Smile : my main reason to smile is the very existence of abebooks.com, which allows me to buy any book I like for a very cheap price and yet give my money to independent booksellers. Also, naps. (I should also cite my delightful friends. What an ingrate I am.)

(S)ong You Last Sang : I AM THE EYE IN THE SKY—

(T)ime You Woke Up : 7:48.

(U)nderwear Color : red.

(V)acation Destination : the next one will be to Ireland ! We’re going to the West Coast. Can’t wait. 

(W)orst Habit : impulsive reaction. I can’t leave an email, message, text, call alone until I have replied. I can’t think before I speak. And I’m having a hard time curbing cruel words when they pop into my head. 

(X)-rays? : it’s been a while. 

(Y)our Favorite Food : nothing comes to mind really, except that summer fruits are here and I could eat apricots and melons and strawberries and mirabelle plums until I cry sugar. 

(Z)odiac Sign : Aries. 

I’ll just tag @kvngslayer, you know she’s my fav. 

[marshaeb]

P.S: I'm Mated With The Cursed Alpha!

Chapter Three

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During the ride to St Pete’s, we were like fugitives taking several shortcuts to avoid being caught by Mom’s coast guards.

I checked my bandaged arm for any sight of blood, feeling the slight pain running through its fractured nerves. Exhaling anxiously, I tried my best to calm my troubling mind until Sarah took notice of my injury, panicking behind the wheel.

“Jo’, what the hell happened to your forearm?” She panicked, glancing between me and the road with her pink lipstick in her hand.

“Calm down, Sarah, please! Focus on the road before you kill us both!” I breathed out.

“So was it true?” she asked. “Did you really get injured that other night?”

“No, Sarah! This was recent!” I argued. “And that’s some stupid rumor Chelsea and Eugenia made up about me.”

“Dang! those two are still at it!” She sucked her teeth, shaking her head slowly. “So...what on earth happened to you then?”

“Gileon and Talloc happened!” I said, and from there I didn’t need to explain any further.

“Oh!” She mumbled beneath her breath. “Can those two ever get along! No one would believe those two owners are best friends by the way they carry on with one another. Sorry about that Jo’... I bet it’s Gideon’s who did it.”

“I don’t know which one had done it. I was too caught up on trying to separate the two savages.” I said. “I even got stitches because of them, and it hurts like hell.”

“Well, you know if you had told me this before we left, I could of cancel out on the party.”

It’s ok, really.” I said. “I could manage, and besides, I’ve already gone through the trouble, sneaking out to go with you...and we’re already halfway there.”

“True...but there’s something I want to tell you.” She said as the sound of howls reverberated through the shadowy forest. “there’s this guy named Bobby.”

“W-who?” I said looking carefully through the tall trees as we sped past.

Those howls, there was something awfully strange about them. They were definitely none of our kind. It also didn’t sound like those from the Tariaki tribe. Something didn’t feel right about it. What else could possibly be out here tonight in this region?

“I said Bobby, Jo’!” She repeated, but I was too focused on the sound drifting our way.

The tiny hairs on my arm began to rise as chills crept over my body. Whatever was out there was on the same trail as us. All of a sudden, all the commotion seemed to have strangely quieted down. My focus instantly drifted back to Sarah, who patting my legs, calling my name over and over asking if I was listening.

“Joel!” She called as she turned the corner. “What is up with you? Are you thinking about Jackson?”

My breath caught in the back of my throat. Jackson, I had no idea if he’ll be at the party. I love Sarah, but the main reason I kept my word about going to the party, despite my injury, was to meet Jackson out there.

“I heard he’s already making the second rank.” She said as a proud smile curl on my lips. “That’s saying a lot you know.”

“What do you mean?” I asked, confusedly.

“Something or...someone had really boosted his stamina.” She teased, knowing just what to say to make me flustered. “I wonder. Who. Could. It. Be...hmm?”

“Alright, alright you got me!” I confessed.

“Did you let him have it?” She asked.

“Have what?” I rolled my eyes.

“You know exactly what I’m talking about.” She said provokingly. “Did you let him have the goodies?”

I choked on the air, widening my eyes by what she was the remark. “I don’t know what you’re talking about.” I lied, blushing ear to ear.

She gasped deeply, covering her mouth. “You did, didn’t you?” She exclaimed in disbelief. “And didn’t tell me! How was it? Was it good?... Did he make you cry, or even went all the way?”

“Gosh, Sarah!” I chuckled, turning up my nose. “What are you, a journalist?

“No, I’m not a journalist... I’m your best friend.” She said. “I told you the time I lose mines...”

“I was going to tell you eventually.” I sighed and paused for a few seconds, reminiscing on that magical night.

A tingling sensation came over me just thinking about the way he touched me. The way he kissed and caressed me. Why was I heating up like this? It’s so obvious that I’m new to all this.

“It was...very romantic and he was so passionate and gentle with me,” I explained, feeling my heart rate speeding up. “It really hurt at first, but after a while--

“It felt like paradise, I know. She added. “Every girl hurt during the first time. I did, but I managed to get over it quickly.”

“Do you miss him, Ricky?” I said.

She hesitated for a second and shook her head abruptly. “No! I’m totally over him, Jo’. Seriously.”

“And this Noah or Bobby guy?” I asked. “Who is he?”

“Bobby...He’s the physical education teacher at the school.” She blushed. “I caught him a few times looking at me like I was some sort of alien from out of space.”

“And...that’s a good thing?” I asked, furrowing my brows confusedly.

“Well... I guess because I ran into him in the hall and he was turning all red, fidgeting like a shy kid in front of a class.” She said.

“Do you think...you could possibly...you know...be his mate?” I asked.

“W-what?” She huffed. “Mom said the same thing! My mate? I doubt it.”

“Why?”

“Because...I... I don’t know,” she stressed, “I don’t know who my mate could be...not until I’m eighteen.”

“But he’s not eighteen,” I said. “More than anything, he would know, especially if he’s acting like that whenever you’re around him. You could always find out. Are you scared or something?”

“Scared? I-I’m not scared of something I can’t control, but I am nervous.” She mumbled. “I wish I was like you and Jackson. You two already know that you’re mates.”

I chuckled faintly as it grew quiet between us, thinking about me and him. Those same doubtful, insecure thoughts were resurfacing my mind again. I hated it so damn much. Why is it, no matter how much everyone says it, and how much Jackson preaches to me that we are, there’s still this slight doubt that keeps haunting me? The feeling always makes me depressed, because I don’t want anyone else to be my mate, but Jackson. And I would be devasted if he belongs to someone else. I wouldn’t be able to live with myself. I love him too much.

~~~~

As we arrived in the parking lot of St Pete’s Tavern, the place was overly crowded.

“Why are so many people here?” I asked as we drove slowly past the crowd of loitering people standing around parked cars. “This was only supposed to be a class graduation-party...”

“I know, but that doesn’t mean the place’s exclusively for us only,” Sarah explained. “They’re still open for regular customers.”

I sighed, completely over it before we even step foot into the building. I looked out my side of the window and glanced at the unfamiliar faces. Most were either from different schools or were out of school for quite some time.

Like any wild party filled with young people, the music was blasting up to its max with the sound of people screaming and shouting to the top of the lungs like the imbecile they are.

“I had a deep feeling we shouldn’t have come.” Sarah sighed, disappointedly. “We should just head back...call it night.”

Before she started up the car to leave, I stopped her and tried to reason with her, but deep down I wanted to see if Jackson was out here first.

“Come on, Sarah...” I said. “I’ve already gone through the trouble of sneaking out again, just to make it all the way out here to go back?”

“I know but...” She paused, throwing her hand in the direction of the party. “Look at this... I wasn’t expecting this!”

“I know, but how about this...” I said calmly, “why don’t we just take a look around and then...leave.”

After a few seconds of trying to weigh out whether to go or not, she finally gave up and agreed.

“Fine! Just a walk inside, then we’re out of here.” She said, turning off the engine.

As we exit the car a loud, perverted whistle was blown my way. Instantly, I felt the pit of my stomach churn. As Sarah locked the car door, she pushed me by the shoulders gently and said, “Let’s go. Probably one of those morons from Valley heights.”

As we near the entrance, the smell of cigarette smoke and alcohol was ramping in its hot atmosphere.

Sarah was following right behind me, when I suddenly paused, causing her to collide with me just before I stepped through the doors.

“Ouch, Jo’, what’s wrong?” She asked balancing her posture. “Why’d you stopped all of a sudden?”

There it was again. That chilly, dark feeling. It was now even stronger than it was before. What on earth could it be?

“I-its nothing...sorry about that.” I shrugged it off.

We entered the tavern filled with people, partying, dancing about, engaging in boisterous chatter. We shuffled through the packed floor. My eyes wandered everywhere with hopes to see any sign of Jackson, but instead, my eyes met hers, Chelsea.

How did I forget that she would be here too with her sidekick Eugenia and their clique of groupies?

“Wow, looks who’s here!” She shouted as they marched towards us. “Don’t tell me...”

“Did you sneak out the window again?” Eugenia concluded as they burst into laughter.

Chelsea tapped on her wristwatch provokingly, and formed a fake frown on her face, puckering out her bottom lip.

“Better be home before midnight, Cinderella.” She taunted. “Or Mama Alpha’s gonna have your neck like last time.”

I could feel my blood gradually starting to boil as they ran on and on. And the sad thing about it, nothing they said we’re lies. It was all the truth. Mom doesn’t have the slightest clue that I’m out and if she does she would definitely throw a tantrum and embarrass me in front of everyone like she always does.

“Hey, I remember that!” Eugenia said scornfully, biting on her stubby thumb.

“Let’s go, Joel!” Sarah said, pulling me back, but my wolf was to rile up to step away. I was ready to snatch her little throat.

“Who doesn’t?” Chelsea chuckled. “Can’t even go shopping with friends without Mama Alpha’s consent. I really pity you. I could never live with myself having a mother like that.”

“That’s enough!” Sarah said stepping between. “Leave her alone, Chelsea. At least she has a mother who cares about her daughter’s well-being, unlike yours!”

Anger and shamed immediately washed over her face as she couldn’t find the words to reply.

“Oh yeah!” Eugenia stepped into her defense. “At least she knows her real mother...you Joel don’t even know if your’s is dead or alive!”

Just like that, my mind went blank. Without holding back anymore, my hands lengthen into claws and I strike her hard across her face.

“Oh my goodness!” Chelsea squealed, supporting her whimpering friend. The folks standing nearby turned towards us as she continued to draw attention. “What the hell’s wrong with you? You had no right to put your hands on her!”

Together, they rushed Eugenia and her overdramatic gasping and wailing, into the lady’s room. Sarah too took me by the hand and escorted me to the bar to calm me down.

“Sit! You need to cool it!” She said, helping me onto an empty seat near the countertop. “What was that about?”

“Don’t you blame me...we were minding our business. They were the ones who started it.” I mumbled.

“I know...and she somewhat deserved it, but you might have hurt her really badly, Jo’. Then you’ll hear word going around that the Alpha’s daughter had struck someone at a party she’s not supposed to be to in the first place!”

Though she was right, I was too satisfied to feel bad about it. I had put up with their shit for far too long. At some point, I would have lost it and it just so happened to be that night.

“What would you ladies like tonight?” The bartender asked.

Sarah turned to her and ordered two martinis. After making and serving us our drinks, Sarah placed mines in my hand and said, “drink up, we leave right after.”

But I was too deep in my thoughts to finish mines as quickly as she did. I sat there, sipping my drink slowly, and stared blankly at the hectic crowd.

“Look, I going to use the restroom.” She said placing her car keys and pouch in my lap. “Watch them carefully, I’ll be right back and we’re off to go back home.”

When she left me there alone, my eyes wandered once more, hoping to find any sign of Jackson. By the looks of it, it’s seemed like he didn’t come out after all. I let out a deep sigh, clutching Sarah’s things tightly in my hands.

“Damn it! I should have known he wouldn’t be out here...” I mumbled. “It’s not like Jackson to go out without me knowing, anyway.”

As my eyes lifted and glanced across the room... settling on him.

No, it wasn’t Jackson. It was a very tall, strapping man with a face that was as if it sculpted from the Moon Goddess herself. But there was a dark, scary hint to it, sending shivers down my spine. I had never in my life seen a God-like man like that before.

Slowly, he raised his nose into the air which looks like it seems he was taking the most intense, exaggerated sniff I’ve ever seen.

His head almost instantly snapped in my direction. His eyes...those wild, golden eyes were steadfast and locked onto mines like I was the last prey on the earth. His long straight hair ran below his taut chest as he stood across the room.

All the laughter, chatter, and music had suddenly zoned out as we continued to exchange eye contact that was intensifying by the second. It felt like he was seeing through my soul, to my she-wolf within.

His postered was becoming more and more unstable as he leaned back in forth on his feet. Before I know it, he let off a loud, powerful howl that petrified everyone in the building.

I hoop off my seat, panicking like a madwoman, looking for Sarah through the raging mob.

I shouted her name as everyone ran to and fro throughout the tavern.

My eyes immediately turned back towards the unknown man and watched as he shifted into this gigantic black wolf.

My heart thrashed violently against my chest as I saw my life flash before my eyes.

The monstrous beast lowered its head growling loudly as it suddenly took off, sprinting towards me.

Right there and then, I knew this was the beginning of the end for me.

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