#i love fhem too much

[3416]

went thru the five stages of grief scrolling down you blog seeing all these mitch and auston posts today

every day lately i'm going through the same stages............. seeing ppl who would be okay with getting rid of one or both of them like these aren't THE leafs franchise players rn... breaking records together......... coming into this league together and having the most fun playing together specifically............. COME ON. these are THE guys and each others guys in every way :(

[laurmaus]

Hellll nooooooo😭😭😭😭😭

[lazyneonrabbitt]

Gallzatto x Reader thoughts…

Lip with a breeding kink! He likes to watch the cum drip out of Reader just to thrust it back into her. Loves both his AND Carmy’s cum mixed inside her. Lip would definitely uses his fingers to push their cum back inside her! All aboard the Gallzatto train ‘cause Reader is riding it to cumcity!

Carmy with a lactation kink! He discovers his kink by accident. He’s noticed Reader’s boobs have gotten bigger, but doesn’t really process the whole reasoning for it. Not until he’s sucking on them (as he usually does when they’re going at it) and the milk’s come in. Carmy just looses it, the game has changed. He loves the taste! Carmy definitely gets a hard on while sucking on Reader’s boobs!

Oh man this ask had me GOING I can't tell you enough how hot these are and how they just make sense??

Lip grew up in a big family and wants that for himself too. Even the idea alone turns him on. Many babies in his own home.

Carm's love for food and your body literally producing your babies' food supply? And it comes from his favorite body part? He has to try it for himself and taste it, straight from the source. He's immediately obsessed.

But now, it's time for:

🔞🔞 FILTH 🔞🔞

"Gonna breed ya real good." Lip would utter the words when he's balls deep inside of you, lips at your neck, biting and licking and just using you for his own pleasure. When he feels you clenching at his words he suddenly gets even cockier than usual. "You wanna be my little breeding bitch, bunny?" He's panting by now, so close he has to take a second to catch his breath. You only whine in response and Lip laughs. "Hear that, Bear? She wants to be bred." He rasps the words right at your ears as his thrusts slow down so he can motion for Carmy to get closer. "You gonna join me in seeing how full she can get?"

They each already went one round with you, Lip currently on his second and you were already stuffed to the brim. With Carmy agreeing Lip's thrusts pick up again and finishing deep inside you, breathing heavily.

"Your turn, Bear." He pulls out slowly and swaps his cock with his fingers to keep as much of their cum inside.

Carmy watched Lip's fingers at your leaking cunt and eagerly crawled over you. His cock sliding against Lip's fingers before you felt fingers be replaced by Carmy's tip pressing between your folds. With a smooth thrust he pushed all the way in, moaning at your delicious squeeze. While Carmy fucked you, Lip kept whispering all these filthy things to you. "Bear's gonna fuck a bunch of cubs into you. Get you all nice and big."

They took turns filling you up untill they were both completely drained. And you were so full it ached.

A cpuple of months later you're showing quite nicely. Rounded belly and your tits had gotten bigger as well. His hands had been on your tits since the beginning of your relationship necause he loved fhem so much, but now with them filling out so prettily he was on you even more. Your breasts ached and you were begging for attention. The hormones had been going crazy for days now and you currently wanted nothing more than to be fucked by your boyfriends. With Lip on a grocery run it was now Carmy's job to satisfy your needs. He fucked you at a slow pace, not wanting to shake you up too bad and kissed the soft flesh of your tits. Hands squeezing at the sides as his mouth trailed kisses and licks all over the sensive mounds. His lips find their way to one of your nipples and flicked his tongue over it while the other is squeezed between his fingers.

He sucked harshly before biting and leaving marks all over the surrounding skin and going back to sucking softly to pull sweet moans from your lips. He continued rutting into squeezing and sucking on your tits until he halted at the taste of a warm liquid running over his tongue. He squeezed your harder as he moaned. The taste overwhelmed him, it was so good he spilled inside of you after only a few more thrusts.

Roght as Lip walked into the apartment. He dropped his bags on the coffee table and stepped into your shared bedroom at the sound of your moans. Lip clears his throat to announce his presence and Carmy let go of yoir nipple with a n audible 'pop'.

"Fuck, Lip. C'mere and taste her."

[distressedoll]

🦉Positivity owl reporting for duty! This was sent by a friend who wants you to smile as much as your posts make them smile. Please list five things that make you unique, four things you are super passionate about and why, OR three of your favorite memories. Feel free to send the owl to those who you feel deserve to smile🦉

ermemrmmm

1. i uhhhh

2. im admit im basic

3. i just mirror whoever is talking to me most of the time

4. i listen to the toilet bowl cleaners! (and u should too)

5. im very special actually i can do anything

1. i REALLT REALLLY love black box recorder’s songs so much, i have their songs on repeat ALLL the time theyre so good

2. I LOVE LOVE LOVEE MY FRIENDS I WILL DEFEND FHEM WITH ALL MY MIGHT EVEN IF THEYRE WRONG

im really not passionate about a lot of things actually i get bored too easily and im in a period of time where im not too interested in too many things o(︶︿︶)o

[mintythecup]

I absolutely adore your art, but anyway

Give me your opinion on all your friends

ofc starting with your best friends and.. so on so on

giggles. THANK YOU EHHEHEHEHDJNSMDJF

Okay so

Starting off with irl friend's

J, she's a really really awesome friend to have

She also noticed when i was feeling down and tried her best to make me feel better <3, she's also really pretty and I love being friends with her, she also is super fucking funny and she also gives me sum tea and some things fhat have happened:3

Then my gf(also Mt beat friend) I absolutely fucking love her. She's so pretty and she makes me feel so good about myself and the little things she does just makes me fall for her more, she's so pretty, her smile. Her eyes. Her hair. Her voice, generally craving everything thay I'd die for. She's the best. I swear, everyday she couldn't get any prettier and I love LOVE how she makes me feel. My beautiful girlfriend is someone I couldn't ever get out of my mind even if I tried. She's super funny and usually distracts me in her own weird ways to make me feel happy too

My brother (karl)

Hes a really really good person to be around, we both share ocs and generally he really does get me, inlove being around him and he's funny to talk to

My friend (k) she knows another part of me thay I will NOT share. Lmao, we both have alot of things in common and generally she's really funny to talk to. Also someone who gives me tea and some things that have happened :3

Shes also someone I can go to when I need distractions

I don't really bond with the rest of the friend group fhat well so uhhh, online friends next!

My brother mugsy, he's generally a really fun person to talk to and hell I really fucking love his art, I've adored if since day one and his animating skills too, he's someone that I could go to aswell and he's also good at comforting when I do need it. I wouldn't replace him if i even had the chance.(there will never be a chance.)

And my online pookie lily!

I really love her art aswell, she's funny to talk to and a really sweet person (she's holding me up at gun point as I type this/j) but to be real here.

I love her art and I'm generally jealous on how she's able to do the type of styles she does, we also do agree on alot of things and she knows alot about me aswell, also an understanding person and I can't wait to meet her one day.

Kat! My online parent, i really love on how she makes me feel important and how she's able to take on the role of being one of my online parents, she's really good at comforting when I need it and when she needs space I accept it aswell, someone I've grown to appreciate and love the things she does for us and alot of people

Ira :3

One of my other online parents! I really love her art too, I love all of my friends art tbh. But she's a really kind person and I love being around them and it makes me happy to know rhat they are okay and doing good, especially when we don't talk much as we used to but I love seeing them update and post new art or something, I also appreciate how they are able to make me feel loved and appreciated too

Carla!

Carla is one of my idols and I love their aus and ideas too, I FUCKING FLIPPED OUT WBEN I REALIZED I WAS TALKING TO SOMEONE WHO I IDOLIZED SINCE 2022 AND STILL GROWING❗️but to be real though, she's super kind and I appreciate that i was even noticed in the first place, their ocs are really cute too

CHECK FHEM OUT RN RN

bunnzy!

My other online oarent that just up and adopted me for some damn reason

But their ocs and vackstories are really interesting and I can't helo but feel really appreciated when it comes to tjem and how they make me feel included, especially during our rps

They understand that sometimes I do get overwhelmed with texting alot ofnpeople ay a time and accidentally forget to reply.. I do that alot and I really apologize

But their art is so scrumptious and their ocs are fucking beautiful. I swear.

Mocha! GER ART IS BEAUTIFUL TOO I swear I'm friends with people who's art is something I'd admire and look back at constantly. But she's really kind and funny to talk to and even during our lives we'd be laughing and losing our shit during them. It's funny and I love how her ocs are designed

MC FLURRY❗️❗️(floris)

GREEERJAGHFHAJFJJ how do i explain.

Their lore and art is really damn creative there isn't someone I know who has a SPLINTER. of what their ocs have. But also a really great person, there's alot to put into words I can't even put together myself and it makes me happy go get to know tnem LIKE BRO, I SWEAR THEIR OCS ARE DOWNBAD GERGOUS TOO (did I spell thag right...)

NERF!!!

ONLINE DAD and the only one I have..

Theirbdesigns. Everything. Oh Mt GOD I swear. But also an interesting person to falk to evenr though we don't interact alof

CHECK THEN OUR RNRNRN but real talk. I love everything about em, designs and shi like that

Fun to be around but I don't really say much since we don't interact alot sadly :'l

MONSTWRS OH MY FOD

My idol. my damn IDOL. THEIR ART IS DO DAMN GOOD ISTG BUT THEIR OC ZACKY AHOWS FATHER FIGURE FOR ME DAMN.

BUT lore. Lore A GOOD DAMN PLANNER TOO their multiple aus and ocs are something that is Hella brave to do tbh, lowkey something myself can't even pull off that's so cool, but they are really funny to talk to! AND INTERESTING AUGSJFBKAJFJAJD

Im sorry for the misspells too and I was typing too damn fast god Zdamb.

Also sorry if I missed anyone

Theres so many people to talk about BUT I LOVE YOU GUYS TOO DONT FEEL LEFT OUT PLEASE

[iid-smile]

hii sunny!! it's been a while eh? I saw that it's going to be your birthday soon so this surprise is perfect timing tbh hehe happy new year eve and happy early birthday to you, my beloved mootie!! <33

OHH MYT GOODODOSSSDD?1??1!1?2?2?2?2?2?2?2?2??2?2?3'ldodk WHAT I DONT DESERBE THIS !!!! THIS IS GORGEOUS HELLOOO?????? like im actually stunned.... its got MY NAME AND MY MAN ON IT??? its actually gorgeous 🥺 i actually took off my glasses to take a closer look because omg its beautiful 💗💗💗 THE BEARS AND STARS AND THE COLOURS I LOVE FHEM!!!!! i love EVERYTHING about this omg

thank you so much hanae 💗💗💗🥰🥰💓💓🩷 I LOVE YOU SO MUCH THIS IS LOVELY!!!!! happy new year to you too!! 🥰🥰🥰🥰

[milo-is-rambling]

You ever get drunk and high and read about the trump news while one of your closest friends (one of the two close friends you have) is asleep smiling next to you and you feel like somewhere out there there’s another universe where your father never died and your mother never grew into her own person and you never did x y z thing in x y z order and like idk it’s just very like,,, offputting and healing at the same time to read the news on my own time after seeing one too many posts referencing trump instead of hearing it on Fox News or from my father yelling at the tv about it and like yeah god idk it’s weird grief is weird big feelings watched the last episode of the midnight gospel today (yesterday) and now my brain is like wee ooo wee ooo your dad is dead wee ooo wee ooo it’s June it’s Father’s Day month wee ooo wee ooo your grandfather died yesterday (my fathers dad) weee ooo wee ooo brain on fire weee ooo wee ooo random memories of my first ever therapist have started randomly popping up in my memories and I do not know why they’re there. But they seem relevant. Hmm. also have talked about slash thought about my past relationships much more recently than I ever do and it is technically on par with my cherry tag season vibe to be in my feels about homoerotic friendships from highschool while drunk on brown liquor and root beer (a la root beer float the blackbear song I listened to a LOT in like 2017 maybe. 2018?) but it’s still a bit umm. All encompassing. just overwhelming. On my mind in a very low buzzing type of way. girls when they feel evil for their past actions because they loved too hard every time and then doomed it by wanting what was best for themselves or the other persons mental health at the time and being selfish but like I have to step back and be like oh woah a fourteen or fifteen year old was selfish woooahhh that’s crazyyy!!!! Never heard of That before. A 14/15 year old putting themselves and their own mental health first and then feeling like the worst person on the planet and for sure developing some trauma from the whole situation 🙀🙀🙀 wwahhhhhhh okay maybe that one is a bit more me but im sure im not alone there. Brains are weird. Also kind of Just Now clicking in my brain that I did in fact get weirdly afraid of liking women after I broke up with my first girlfriend and it ended poorly so I fully was like hmm I definitely can’t be a lesbian because I am not Allowed (by myself I guess) to like women bc now I am afraid of fhem (not sexy style) but then recently (ish) I fucked a dude and got traumatized by that (legitimately) (and also just like. Didn’t have fun.) and now I’m like looking back on my life more and going hmmm. Maybe I’m a lesbian and maybe I’ve been afraid to say that for literally years and years and years because of my own past perceptions from hearing my family / the internet talk growing up and maybe I have this realization over and over again and then go wahhh idk tho cause I’m baby I have done nothing been nowhere met no one so I just say whatever I’m queer and it doesn’t fucking matter if I love someone I love them regardless like at the end of the day those are the fuckin facts. Bam mic drop. Idk. It’s only one thirty nine in the morning eek I took an accidental like four hour nap yesterday and then we were drinking and smoking so like I have evergyyyy and I had some sugary stuff so I’m like awake as fuck rn but it’s fine it’s good I’m gonna smoke an indica bowl and pet the dog and fall asleep super comfy like the second I put my head on the pillow I bet

[camvrin]

im out of words for the night i just love you, need youuu

i love you too, SOOOO much. holding out my arms and waitinf for you to fall into fhem

[natashas-stark]

HI HELLO I HAVE MULTIPLE I LOVE FHEM ALL SM

there’s natasha who’s a grumpy avenger who i love so so so so much she’s my babygirl i love her so dearly she’s so pretty too

and then there’s sarah cameron my princess gf i love her sm it’s insane i wanna give her a puppy and some legos while we watch trashy tv

maria omg maria she’s so pookie and so much grumpier than natasha it’s the military in her i swear and i wanna do her nails all prettyyyyyy

hanna marin i would let dress me up and change my style for what she thinks is best like yes ma’am i will do anything you say

pepper my love she’s so soft and so pookie and so gayyyyyyyy i swear she has a male preference but genuinely she’s such a woman lover and she’s SUCH a giver like AKNSKSJDKDJDKDJ

then there’s redacted 1 who’s so mommy. just. mommy. but SO SOFT I NEED HER TO CUDDLE WOTH ME RNNNNNNN ACTUALLY

then there’s redacted 2 who’s so goofy and dorky and sends me teddy bears and jellycats all the time i love her so much

i have more but i figured id keep it to a minimum but i love all of my gfs so much and i love being wuhluhwuh

WHY ARE WUHLUHWUH SHIFTERS SO RARE?? ISTG IVE MET LIKE THREE AT MOST? anyways if ur a girlkisser girlfailure pls tell me abt ur DR s/o

[shittykotlcheadcanons-closed]

Tam is a furry

[stedesbonnets]

some people were talking about all the characters going to the beach so i had to write about it (cross-posted on twitter):

harrow wears a shirt, short pants, and a cap (all black) because she doesn't like the sun. spends most of her time in the shade reading. when she actually gets up, she goes to talk with gideon and probably tells her some mean joke about how loud she is and how people from the next planet can hear her. she also takes a stroll with palamedes for scientific reasons. neither can get over how the sand and the seafoam feel on their feet

gideon is obviously the star of the show. she wears a sleeveless tank top to show off her arms with something tacky written on it. spends time with everyone. mostly in the sea. wrestles with camilla and coronabeth just because. yells at pal and harrow to stop being nerds and humors jeanne and isaac a bit. drinks and eats, like, everything

camilla gets her well deserved day off. she keeps an eye on pal, but he's fine, he can manage a few minutes without her. reminds everyone to drink water. she loves the sun and the sea. has a breath-holding competition with corona and wins

pal spends most of the time strolling around, looking at seashells, fish, and anything else he can find. is very watchful over his glasses getting wet. like cam, he also likes the fresh air, tho it's a bit too salty for fhem. he wears an opened, long sleeved shirt and shorts to his knees. he laters says they should come back soon

dulcie mostly hangs out in the shade with pro by her side, and she enjoys watching everyone. pal, cam, and gideon all come to chat with her. she wears a beautiful, loose beach dress and she nearly smacks pal after the 4th time he told her to stay hydrated. pro takes her down a ramp that goes into the sea, and he's so happy to see her grinning. bonus: she asks gideon to pick her up and place her down, and they talk while gideon is swimming by her

pro gets his fair share of beers from dulcie, because he deserves it. finds some pretty seashells and stones for mia and their kids. probably writes some poetry about the ocean

the teens are the second chaotic force after gideon. they run around and play in the sand and have water fights with each other. jeanne tries not to cling to gideon and cam too much. they eventually knock out and sleep on the ride home

and my beloveds, abigail and magnus are also grateful for this day off. abigail tells the kids "stay where we can see you" once but it's too late, they already ran off. magnus is the ultimate Dad, he tries to play ping pong with the kids but it doesn't work out. abigail wears a beach robe and they walk around holding hands, just appreciating the scenery and this lovely day. they sit on the sand for a while, and watch the sunset together

[milkybonya]

Hi bby!!! Whats's up? I am once again asking for Wooseok content 🙏🏻🥺 Drunk confessions are always funny and so sincere.. do you think you can do something im with that? :o maybe a college AU ? If you don't feel ok with that you know you can change it as you please, I'll love it anywyas 😩 thanks!! 💛 I hope you had happy holidays💙💙

omg it is my FAVOURITE WOOSEOK ANON !! but not on anon anymore ofc hehe i love this idea! so much! (and happy holidays to you too ♡) i hope you enjoy this even though it's a whole mess~

Drunk Confession

Warnings: party/drunk mentions

Pairing: College!Wooseok x (gender neutral)reader

When Wooseok, your roommate, texted you saying that he was going to a party, you considered going. You considered it because you knew this boy was going to get drunk and cause trouble like he always did... but this time, you didn't go. For once, he should clean up after his own messes.

You still kept your phone close to you in case he called, though, and later that night, your phone screen lit up.

[y/nnnn]jsjsjsjssnksnwoahsoehxuxh

???

weeeeeeee

Wooseok ur drunk

hidrunk im dad

no Wooseok. YOU'RE drunk. and im dad in this case i guess

ur notb dad... ur [y/n]&&@

yes.. im glad u know. why are u texting me when ur at a party?

i feel lonelyyy

ur literally surrounded by people

but none of fhem aee [y/n]

none of them what?

are

[y/n]

you havent caused any trouble, right?

no, [y/n].. are u troublencause i canf seem to stop causing you ehhehe

that... doesnt make sense?

uwu

?

pls pick me up i miss u pls ecome pls

it's late, Wooseok i'm tired :(

ur cute pls dont do :( or my heart go boom

we wouldn't want that to happen..

i'm coming, Wooseok

yaaaay

Without any further consideration, you grabbed your jacket and rushed out the door. Luckily, Wooseok had told you where he was headed, so you were able to find him easily. Also, the loud singing and flashing lights in the middle of a fairly quiet street of houses was a dead giveaway.

With your head down, you quietly entered the loud space, trying not to draw attention to yourself. There were people dancing wildly, socializing and doing.. many things that you would have rather not seen.

After asking around for Wooseok, you found him and his long limbs sprawled out on a couch.

"Wooseok! Are you okay?"

"[y/nnnnn]" he slurred, grinning.

Just as you were about to help him up, he fell off the sofa while reaching for your hand. Laughing it off, he brushed himself off and let you help him leave the house.

Out in the cool air of the night, Wooseok stumbled back to your shared dorm with you.

"So, Wooseok, did you have fun?" you asked him, smiling up at the tall boy.

He smiled, pushing up the frames of his glasses which he somehow had not lost.

"No. I told you, someone was missing. [y/n] was missing. And I was sad," he muttered, pointing his finger in the air while pouting.

"Why were you sad?" you asked.

"Because [y/n] wasn't there. They're my best friend, I can't live without them. My heart hurts when they're not near, but also," Wooseok continued, turning to look you in the eye, "I want to hold their hand and hug them.. we hug sometimes but I want to hug them for hours on end and give them a kiss on the cheek and.."

"Are we talking about the same [y/n]?" you asked, unsure how your legs were still moving when your roommate and best friend had just confessed to you.

"Yes.. you're [y/n], I like [y/n] and we're all happy! Woo!" Wooseok cheered, pumping his fist in the air.

"You're drunk.. You're just drunk.."

-

Back home, you tucked Wooseok in despite him whining about how he needs bed time cuddles and him holding onto you for dear life. Drunk Wooseok was affectionate Wooseok, so none if this was new, but butterflies were raging a storm within you.

When he said that he wanted to cuddle you snd hold your hand earlier that night, you tried to remain calm but you were so overwhelmed with emotion. Wooseok. Your goofy, fun but super cute roommate liked you... back. Back since you also liked him but suppressed it to maintain the friendship.

It was complicated.

But he was drunk.

He was just rambling. Perhaps he liked someone else but because he saw you so often, he had mistaken you for his true crush.

When he woke up in the morning and the two of you awkwardly ran into one another in the kitchen, and Wooseok's face turned red as he scratched the back of his neck while pretending to search the fridge for something... you had a feeling that maybe Wooseok wasn't just rambling last night. He was being overly nervous even though you'd seen him get drunk before.

"Wooseok... do you remember everything you said last night?" you slowly asked.

He simply hummed with his head still in the fridge.

"So you remember confessing to me?"

"I'll only remember it if you also like me back," he said, finally closing the fridge and turning to face you. His hair was a mess and his face was puffy but his smirk and the way his white shirt hung from his shoulders made him look so good.

"If you don't like me, then i don't remember a thing," he said, reaching for some cereal.

"No, Wooseok. I like you too.. only if your confession was a sincere one," you say, leaning forward against the kitchen counter.

"It was as sincere as it gets.. do I have permission to hold your hand now?"

[jupiter-reimagined]

im also not complaining about this series having you in a chokehold /lh

ough. augh.... sobbing. hes so in love i cant,,,,

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stares at this entire paragraph....... fucking STARES. i love them. i love them so so so much

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diane: oh yeah i like him a lot :) i hope hes okay :(

diane maybe misses him. she isnt sure. then again, shes a fairly recent addition to the family, and butcher was the one whos she most attached to. but at least shes not scared of anyone (cough cough unlike sammy)

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despite it all he loves his kids.... he loves them and he loves them and he loves them......... im... going to be sick /pos

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on the floor in the club tonite. you cant just drop that and expect me to recover. ohhh my god. fhem. them. them.

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okay i kinda lost it at this one djdbjddbjebdjsej. get his ass mohandas!!!!! hes. absolutely infatuated and obsessed with his family and husband and kids and friends that i too would probably find him insufferable. yeah we get it, youre gay for the man youve been married to for like 13 years now!!! we get it!!!! /lh

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i love the way mohandas talks so much. truly, get his ass. the age difference between them is so obvious, even from just reading their jnteractions and its glorious

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DJDJSBDJSBSHSSSG never change mohandas. never change.

imagine mohandas himself getting married or something and then being the one whos a sentimental softie for his partner/s and kid/s and loving everything there is to love about a person. and then stone just being like "and look whos being soft now" augh i love them i love them i love them !!!!!!!!!!!

Another Step Forward

***Part One, Two, Three, and Four.***

This series will not let me go and it's a great way to keep my writing practice up when I have no motivation to write anything else, so I'm not going to complain.

Here are our boys in yet another fluffy work.

Another time skip, this time a few months (roughly three).

Word Count: 2,304

Vikram sat on the couch in the hotel room, using Mohandas' phone to video call Fariz. He just needed to see one of his lovers' faces and he knew Sylvester was probably busy tending to his garden, if he was sticking to the routine they had for roughly a decade now.

"Meri Jaan!" Fariz said as soon as he picked up the video call, angling the phone just right so Vikram could see his full face. As usual, he grinned at Vikram, his brown eyes lighting up at the sight. "How are you and Mohandas doing? Are you two alright?"

"We're fine, Fariz. A little homesick though," Vikram replied, his heart hurting to see his boyfriend only through a camera. He memorized every inch of Fariz's face, as if he hadn't been seeing it clearly in his dreams for months now.

"How are the kids doing, my moon? Are they all alright?"

Truthfully, Mohandas wasn't the one who was a little homesick. Vikram was. As the days went by, he just couldn't help but keep missing his family.

He missed Diane scrambling up a tree and giving him a mini heart attack at how high she had gone up the tree. He missed Lakshmi watching with awe in her eyes as he and Ashok took care of the horses, teaching her how to properly clean a horse's hoof. He missed seeing Akhil and Charles talk about technology that Vikram no longer understood since he stopped keeping up with the new advancements when he retired. He missed seeing Laila and Mary, hearing about Mary's new outfits she was designing, and Laila's book that she had started writing.

He even missed waking up in the morning and seeing Samuel had stayed up late despite Vikram's numerous lectures not to.

Fariz smiled, knowing Vikram was missing his family. "They're doing well, meri jaan. Lakshmi and Akhil are missing you," he said.

Right, because most of the other children did not think of Vikram as highly as he thought of them. Laila and Mary were not talking to him, for valid reasons, Charles probably couldn't care less about him, Samuel was scared of him, and Diane...

Diane actually might like him, but maybe not enough to miss him.

"Tell all of them I love them," Vikram murmured, despite it all.

He was never going to stop loving them, no matter their feelings for him. They were family and that was enough for him. It would always be enough for him.

"Of course," Fariz answered. He paused before staring into his boyfriend's eyes. "Are you sure this trip isn't too much for you? You can always come home, you don't have to keep pushing yourself."

Vikram shook his head, looking away from the phone to look outside the window. He couldn't abandon the trip, he just couldn't.

No matter how much he missed his family and wanted to come home.

"I have to see this through, Fariz. I can't... I have to do this."

"No one will judge you for coming home, Vikram."

Vikram turned to look back at the phone, back at his boyfriend. "I will. I will judge myself for not being able to see this through. I will never forgive myself for stopping before I can work through everything."

Fariz let Vikram's words sink in and then he nodded. "Okay, you're staying. Just know that we love you."

"I know."

The conversation didn't last long after that, Vikram saying goodbye to Fariz before hanging up. He set the phone down on the coffee table in front of the couch, sighing as he thought about his decision to stay.

He had worked on his paranoia enough to be comfortable eating in small diners, places with a small amount of staff. He had also worked on holding utensils probably, the small diners not having too many customers where he'd feel embarrassed to be struggling.

He had just gotten the courage to go to a relatively big restaurant, which they were going to do today. He was making progress.

But he still had stuff to get through before he could come home. He still had to deal with the fear he had, the nightmares that plagued him.

Coming home wasn't an option yet.

Vikram didn't know how much time passed by and how long he sat there, staring at nothing, but eventually, it turned dark and Mohandas came home from hanging out with the friends he had in Manhattan. He looked up from the couch as Mohandas entered the hotel room, shocked that he had zoned out for so long.

"You're back," he said, stating the obvious. He stood up, shaking out his numb legs. "What time is it?"

"It's seven-thirty. Almost time for our reservation," Mohandas replied with a smile, not bothering to take off his shoes since they were about to leave. He gestured to the bathroom. "Get ready, I do not want you to miss out on eating at this place because we missed our reservation."

Vikram nodded and took out clothes fit for a restaurant, going to the bathroom to change. He closed the door behind him, taking off his clothes as he asked, "So what type of restaurant is this, again?"

Mohandas hummed, as if remembering what restaurant they were going to. "It's a Greek restaurant. It's really good, I've had it several times before."

Vikram was instantly reminded of the times Ashok ranted and raved about the Greek restaurants in the city back home, and how much Ashok loved Greek food, which was only second to Indian food. He sighed as he put on his pants, missing Ashok.

"Are you okay?" Mohandas asked, hearing that sigh of Vikram's. It didn't take him long for him to know what was wrong, though. "Do you miss Ashok?"

"How do you know Ashok likes Greek food?"

Yeah, Vikram was more shocked that his younger brother knew Ashok loved Greek food than Mohandas knowing he was missing him. He didn't think he talked about his family that much for Mohandas to know about their favorite foods.

"Ashok never shuts up about Greek food. He's told me about the Greek restaurants all of the time."

Well, that explained it.

Vikram picked up his old clothes and opened the bathroom door, throwing the old ones in the hamper in the closet.

"This is the first time I've been away from home since I retired," he admitted before putting on his boots. "For a decade I've been surrounded by my family. It's hard to be away from them."

"We can always go back," Mohandas said, thinking that was the right choice of words.

Vikram made a displeased face, shaking his head. "Why is everyone telling me I can go home if I need to? I know we can always go back home, but I don't want to." He sighed once more, running his fingers through his wavy black hair. "I just wish I'd stop missing them so much."

Mohandas walked over and stood slightly on his toes to wrap an arm around Vikram's shoulders, guiding him to the door of the hotel room. "They're going to be so happy to see you, whether you come home early or come home a better man. I'm so proud of you, you know that? I'm proud to call you my big brother."

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The Greek restaurant was crowded, which was just yet another test for Vikram's paranoia. He took a few deep breaths as they entered the restaurant, reminding himself that they had spent most of the day yesterday outside in crowded places and he had been fine then.

Mohandas glanced back at him, silently asking if he was okay. He looked ready to leave if Vikram was uncomfortable.

Vikram nodded to signal he was okay, determined to do this. He was going to sit down and try a new cuisine. He wasn't going to hide away from living his life anymore.

Mohandas walked over to the host stand, switching to English as he said they had a reservation and gave the host his name. They thankfully didn't have to wait long and they were guided to their table.

Their ordering of their drinks didn't take long once they sat down, the waitress leaving them to think about what they wanted to eat once she had written down their drink orders. Vikram looked at all of the options, seeing too many to choose from. His head was swimming with all of the options, trying to see which ones he would like despite never tasting anything Greek.

He was starting to regret never eating Greek food.

Mohandas laughed, making Vikram stare in his direction. He coughed once he realized his older brother was glaring at him, trying to stop laughing.

"I suggest you get the Mousaka," he told Vikram to make his decision easier. "It's really good and you'll get everything you need from a meal: carbohydrates, protein, vegetables, and dairy."

Vikram thought about it before deciding to go with Mohandas' suggestion. He did like a meal that had four of the important components of a meal.

Mohandas ended up getting the Pikilla and their food came right on time. They ended up talking about their favorite moments from their life before they had met each other, Mohandas not mentioning anything that had to do with their father.

"Oh, here's a funny one!" Mohandas said after finishing a bite of his food. "Once, when I was fifteen, my friends and I snuck into an auditorium to see a horror movie we were too young to watch. And then we got caught because one of my friends screamed so loud that people called security. After all, they thought he was injured, with how loud he had screamed. We were not allowed back into the theater after a few more times of getting caught sneaking into see movies we never paid for."

"You got caught several times?" Vikram asked, shaking his head in disappointment as he ate. He was no longer caring about looking at his food too much to make sure it wasn't tampered with, he knew he was safe.

He thought about what nice memory he had which was his favorite. A smile graced his lips as the perfect one came to mind.

"My favorite is seeing Sylvester walk down the aisle. Oh, he looked so handsome in his—"

"Boo! Pick a better memory. You hopelessly in love is not a good version of Vikram to be around."

"Excuse you, me being in love is the best version of me there is."

Mohandas playfully scoffed. "Please, it's so cringey to watch you fawn over Sylvester or Fariz. Or sometimes both of them," he complained.

Vikram chuckled, wiping the crumbs off the edge of his lips with a napkin. "One day, you'll know what it's like to be, as you've so eloquently put it, "hopelessly in love", There's nothing quite like it."

"Ew. You're sounding so old right now, stop."

They finished eating their dinner and decided not to get dessert. Vikram tried to pay for the food, but Mohandas swatted his hand when he tried to reach for the bill.

"You paid last time," he said, swatting Vikram's hand once more when the older man tried to reach for the bill again. He placed the card inside the check presenter, giving the entire thing to the waitress. "Anyways, you need to save the cash you took out before we came here. I'm the one with a U.S. credit card, so I should be paying."

Vikram grumbled under his breath about how the oldest should be paying, but Mohandas merely grinned at him in response. They both knew Mohandas wasn't going to allow Vikram to pay for things anymore if he had his way.

"There's a park nearby," Vikram said as they exited the restaurant. He glanced up, looking at the stars. "The stars aren't as pretty in the city as they are back home at the ranch, but it's still pretty. Stargaze with me, Mohandas."

Mohandas whined at the suggestion, shaking his head. "No way, it's cold outside," he complained as Vikram crossed the street to where the park was. He was forced to cross the street after his big brother, despite his protesting.

"You're a New Yorker, you should be used to the cold by now. And it's not like it's any warmer back home." Vikram shed off the jacket he had brought with him when they had left the hotel, throwing the jacket on Mohandas instead of helping Mohandas put it on.

"There, you're warmer than you were a second ago. Now stop complaining and enjoy the beauty above you."

Vikram looked up at the sky, smiling at the stars as he usually did. If he tried hard enough, he could imagine he was back home and on the porch with Sylvester. He could imagine Sylvester in his arms as he renamed every star and constellation after his beloved husband.

"Hello, Sylvester," he murmured to the stars. He took in the sight, savoring it before turning to the moon. "Hello, Fariz."

Mohandas stared at Vikram, giving him a weird look. "You named the stars 'Sylvester' and the moon 'Fariz'?" he asked, guffawing at the new information he had received.

"God, I hope I never turn into a sentimental softie like you."

Vikram didn't look away from the stars and the moon. "Laugh all you want, I'm happy to be in love."

"Hello, Sylvester." Mohandas mocked.

Vikram looked away from the sky to pick up a stick and he threw it at his younger brother. His twitched into a smile as he saw Mohandas flinch at the hit, seeing his younger brother glaring at him.

Mohandas bent down to pick up the stick. "You've started war, brother."

"Give me your best shot." Vikram challenged.

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Some days, I wish Heartthrob got a better nickname than the one Stone gives Kali in the Red String AU (since Kali can't have "my moon and stars" there because Sylvester is "my star"), but it's okay. Because Stone isn't with Kali in the Ranch AU. So we roll with this.

I chose random Greek dishes because I don't eat Greek that much, I just never liked what I got at the Greek restaurant near me.

Anyways, Stone really said "Haha, I'm actually missing my family so much" after I said this was going to be fluffy. Sigh.

Requests are open!

[oh-shadowlord]

Lemme tell you somethin' about Brick. We snagged him during the fall of New Haven. He never sold out his friends, but his puppy... it was this little brown thing. Once I wrapped my hands around its neck, Brick lost it. You could barely hear the crack of the bone over his sobs. I mean, actual sobbing. Like a baby. It was pretty embarrassing.

For now it's the first and the last big illustration I did with gouache. The idea just clicked when we were doing 3:10 to Kaboom quest with my friend and I was still under impression with Lassenby's text I've mentioned on previous posts and which described the fall of New Haven and it just had to happen. my first sketches also had Brick and Wilhelm on fhem but then I've decided that would be waaaay too hard to finish and even without them I was kinda drained afterwards because this paint dries very fast and you need a lot of concentration and speed to make everything work and I spent nearly a month on this and pretty much more then 10 solid hours in total to finish, but I can tell that I love the result and all the colours but I'm still a bit drained and have no idea which next illustration could be done in gouache (I have started Baroness portraitbut colours and mixing genuinely aren't my strong side and she's currently painful to look at ;n;)

[bamboolan]

Relationship with CANON LAW HEADCANNONS????

i interpreted it as canon law and i honestly think that man is much more scarier than he seems to be or at least how the fandom portrays him to be? i like both laws but you have to be genuinely scary to have a bounty higher than luffy, be called the surgeon of death, be considered one of the worst generation, and even becoming one of the shichibukai...

If Law would actually pursue a relationship with you, you don't have to worry about dying or anything

Will fret about you if you're ever injured

If someone caused your injury, they're not there anymore

If it was you, you're in for a long lecture

Since he loves you, he would entertain you so a lot of fanon Law moments

He would try to make it so you don't see him doing anything particularly too violent

If anyone is rude to you in front of him he will not hold back and even degrade fhem until you pull him away

He's all about giving you privacy but if that privacy means you're not protected by him or someone else he will not follow through

Like in his ship where his entire crew can protect you no matter where in the ship you

Will hold your hand and carry you around whenever and wherever he isn't particularly picky

But that's also the only PDA he's willing to let other people see

You would usually be the one talking

He's really good at listening

[chittapornswife]

i’m abOUT TO SHOWER AND THEN EAT SOME SPAGHETTI AND I AM THINKING OF YOU !!! and how cute and wonderful you are and how you always make my heart beat all out of wack and i’m just so grateful to have someone as sweet and beautiful as you in my life :((( pls i wanna cook all my fave mexican foods for you and veganize some of my faves even tho my nana would be appalled that i’d change her recipes oops but anyway frick school and work who needs that when we hAVE LOOOOOVE 💗💝🌟❤️🌺💘💞🌸💘🎀💘💖🌺💓

IM ABOUT TO SHOWER TOO!!!! I WAS JUST THINKING OF U TOO BECAUSE I TAGGED U IN SOMETHING I LOVE THIS TELEPATHIC CONNECTION THING WE HAVE 😳💗😳 I’d love to eat your fav mexican foods :((( I’ve never had any home-made mexican food and i’d love it so so so much omg and then I could make you punjabi food because the vegetarian punjabi foods I eat are also possibly vegan too!!!! And for your nana, we love her but....... what she doesn’t know won’t hurt her right?😗♥️🙇🏻‍♀️

frick frack SCHOOL ALSO FUCH I FORGOT. I FORGOT TO MENTION THIS I THINK BUT I LOVED UR TAGS FOR THE TEN LOCKSCREENS I WAS SOSOSOSO HAPPY WHEN I SAW FHEM :’) also random but my mom really liked the lockscreens too like sometimes i’ll just randomly show her something and then she tells me her honest opinion about it hahaha & she was like “oh, :o :)” okay anyways, time for us to shower 😠😤♥️🤞🏽 I LOVE U AND ALL WE NEED IS LOVEEEEE LOVE IS ALL WE NEEDDDDD ♥️💫♥️💫♥️💫♥️💫♥️💫♥️