#i love and appreciate you all

[lipglossanon]

You mad-lads have done it 😯

Which I know this is just a floating number cause I lose and gain people everyday lmao

But it’s cause for celebration!! 🎉 so here’s a fun poll to let you guys decide on who we should party with 😉

Winner of said poll will get a follow up to decide on what I should write about lmao

That’s all the ones I can fit so choose wisely 😆 I’ll get started on the next poll as soon as this one ends!!

Big thank you to everyone for your support, follows, likes, reblogs, comments, just everything!! 😘 💜

[david-tennant-in-chairs]

David, get back here! We gotta celebrate 1000 followers!

That's better! 🍿

[alwaysinstyle]

you haven’t posted on ao3 or tumblr in a while? i kinda gathered from stuff that you have health problems lately or something but are you ever going to update again or? sorry not trying to sound rude at all just wondering

Hey, friend.

I do in fact feel bad for the length of time it’s been since I updated on any platform… and slightly worse after receiving this, but I know you had no ill intentions, and your eagerness for updates is very much appreciated. 😭

You are correct in gathering that I haven’t been well, though unfortunately I’m not just feeling under the weather. Without going into too much detail, as of this past May, I’m dealing with the recurrence of a major illness. I don’t always have the physical capacity or wherewithal to write at the moment, so I hope you’ll be patient with me as I continue fighting the good fight.

That being said, I’m trying my very best to update as much as possible. I actually will have an Hourglass chapter to post very soon! During this time of slower updates, reading YOUR wonderful works has breathed so much life into my daily routines. This fandom is such a joy, so I owe many thanks to everyone I interact with here.

I truly hope to be posting something a hell of a lot more fun than this very soon!! 💕

[kangaracha]

just a note to people wanting the queenmaker taglist that I do not live on tumblr and it can take me up to two weeks to go through and update the taglist - asking twice is only making it confusing when I go back through my notes!

If you want to be sure you aren't going to get missed then send a PM that can sit in my empty inbox rather than replying to multiple posts, then you'll get a reply when you're added etc. Otherwise, trust 🙏

[paradiiselcst]

good morning sinners! i'm here-ish today. i'll be splitting my attentions between all three blogs today and editing their sites and stuff.

[baddest-batchers]

I’ve made a taglist form if anyone is interested in joining it!

[anna-pineappel]

When you write for a small fandom and the same people leave kudos on your latest fic:

❤️💕🥰💖✨🥹

[separatist-apologist]

I was just thinking about how I miss you! To specify, not your fic updates so much as your general hilarious and genuine internet presence. Which yes is weird bc we do not know each other or live in the same country. But I hope you’re doing ok. I’m gonna reread one of your fics tonight as a treat to myself, maybe Wonderland? I hope you are crazy excited for Halloween btw!

Ooof I keep writing out my response and then deleting. how much is too much, haha? Probably all of it.

To condense- I am working on a comeback and being more lively. I needed the break, though, and to recalibrate what I enjoy about being here, as well as affirm my circle of friends and just spend more time among them as a reminder that the few deeply awful people who find their way in are in a small minority.

This break has been really wonderful, though, even if I've been less charming on main. I've made new friendships across my usual ships and spent more time among older friendships that I wasn't doing the best job maintaining.

And I freed myself from the obligation of writing nearly 30k words a week, and updating multiple times a week and wow wouldn't you know it, that was stressing me out HAHA. I'm wading back in. I needed to just see nothing ACOTAR related for a while, to block better, and just remove all the discourse from my brain.

Yeah yeah curate your experience but ah. It does work lmao.

I hope you (and everyone) knows how supported I've felt, and how genuinely grateful I am for everyone who has sent nice messages that are currently languishing in my askbox, along with all the silliness I've been staring at, trying to think of something equally silly to say back.

I think I'll be back in full force for the holidays. I signed up for the gift exchange too, and you know ya girl has to outdo last year (somehow)

[vincent-sinclair-deserved-better]

smooching and squishing all my moots rn

[emoticonheart]

i love my mutuals so much like. what did i do to deserve all of you??

[ninebluehearts]

UPDATE ✍️

Hey guys! Sorry I haven't been writing much lately. I've been super sick, and busy, and dealing with a crippling amount of drama on here and in my life in general. Plus, my birthday is next week!! So be on the look out for my sleepover 👀💗

But I'm feeling a LOT better now and things have calmed down a bit, so hopefully I will be able to finish all of your asks soon!! Thank you for being so patient ☺️💗

[yukidragon]

It's been a while since I've gone on a long ramble or posted a writing snippet. I'll just mosey on over to my tumblr and see what sort of asks I've got waiting for me in my inbox and...

Wait.

I...

Wait, wait, hold on, wait... I need a minute here.

Seriously though, I'm amazed and humbled to have reached reached this milestone of 1000 followers.

I always thought that if I got to this point I'd make a big pretty picture to celebrate or do a raffle or something, but between being unable to draw due to health reasons (don't worry, it's nothing serious), focusing on the Phantom of Sunny Day Jack project, and already owing a story from my poll results... I suppose a bunch of cat gifs and older art of my avatar reflecting how I feel is the best I can do with the spoons I have right now. That and a bit of a ramble.

Thank you, all of you, for following me. Thank you for liking, reblogging, and especially commenting on my work. For as much as I have a tendency to ramble, I find myself lacking the words to convey just how much your positive feedback means to me. It means the world to me that so many of you enjoy what I create so much that you want to keep up to date with what I'm up to, even if it's just reblogging cat memes or silly shitposts.

Thank you, every single one of you. Thank you for sticking around and listening to me. I hope you all continue to enjoy following this silly little writer with her rambling headcanons and stories. I love you all.

[bum-scum]

Kaiba sexy blue eyes white dragon cosplay

OOOOOOO Nice one! Absolutely!

[dindjarism]

HAPPY NEW YEAR!

i hope 2023 treats everyone who reads this well and brings you whatever you want or need. i’ve chosen to believe it is going to be a good one.

thank you to all my mutuals for being a part of my journey this past 2022. i can’t wait to see what 2023 brings us (only good things, please!) and for us to experience it together in one way or another.

sending so much love to everyone (and strength to those who need it now more than ever).

let’s try to be happy this year!

❤️❤️❤️❤️

[nacaharachuya]

Okay.. I've been an observer for a while and currently I'm just stumbling upon your upcoming Houseki no Kuni au so here I come with offerings to your shrine. I've been secretly binging the HNK tag on your blog so please forgive me >_< It's one of my favorite franchises and to hear my favorite author get into it... It's really an honor!

Chuuya, after Dazai's supposed "capture", becomes devasted and demoralized. He goes into a grief period, and so does Ango. But his translates to him stuffing himself inside a library without ever going out, while Chuuya becomes more cynical, reckless, angry, and aggressive. The fact that he is without a partner makes everything worse.

To add to his trauma, occasionally he would get glimpses of Dazai out of the corner of his eye and he, for the life of him, can't tell if it's real or not. He's in the moon, being used for god knows what, but this apparitions feel so real. From a distance, he sees him staring out the sea but he's gone the moment he looks back again. He knows he's hallucinating, probably. He has vivid dreams of Dazai and he swears the touches he feels during them are as authentic as can be but maybe he truly is going insane.

Chuuya keeps a small shard of Tourmaline wrapped in gauze in his room, hidden. Those were the only ones they found the time they woke up from their hibernation along with Oda's pieces. And when Dazai finally reappears, a culmination of grief, anger, relief, and confusion washes over him and... Yeah, he nearly strikes him with his sword. To add to the pain, those alleged "hallucinations" indeed were real and it makes Chuuya feel more toyed with.

YOURE FLATTERING ME TOO MUCH ANON 😭😭♥️♥️♥️ ILY ILY ILY ILY. Thank you so much for your support and thank you for staying with me. I love you to no end. YOUR GIVING ME AN HONOR BABE!!! YOU!! Getting asks like this makes me so happy, so I’m sending you much love.

BUT YES. I know losing a partner sends them of the deep end in hnk, especially with this fabricated backstory I’ve made for them. Chuuya being born one day, and then dazai the very next which i imagine is super rare all together. They would have been together since birth quite literally, so the bond would be deeper than the other gems. Not to mention, they’re freakishly good with each other. Dazai starts out as strategy and Chuuya with battle, but Dazai ends up being really good in battle. I feel as if he would also be able to figure a lot of things about lunarians as well, if you know what I mean. But, they would have been an indomitable team.

So, when Dazai leaves (and I’m talking at least 50-100 years because maybe he does this weird soul searching thing or maybe he’s just so upset he hibernates for too long or something I have to figure out) Chuuya is confused and upset because if dazai was taken he should have been able to protect him. Like you said, he would be completely demoralized. No one wants to be around Chuuya because he feels like he essentially has failed him and himself and the other gems. It’s a mess for everyone. No one can partner with Chuuya, he’s too hard to tell unless someone like Dazai were to be there. He starts working nonstop, he’s not ringing the bell or telling people when lunarians come on his watch he’s just doing it himself.

And then, thru the haze of hallucinations, he’s getting a very dangerous vendetta. He thinks if they capture him, he can murder them all and get Dazai and their brethren back. It’s the least he can do for them, because he’s strong and the strong must protect the weak. The shard of tourmaline he keeps he would talk too as well, and on his birthday, he carries it around with him.

Dazai’s return though? Chuuya wouldn’t believe it. Dazai would come to him first though, and it would be a shit show if you’ve ever seen one.

[jazzajazzjazz]

I just hit 500 followers!

Thank you all so much ♥️